Text_Mining_Demo
Nadia Kennar
2022-11-11
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Install and Load Packages
Lets go ahead and install all the necessary packages.
# Install
install.packages("tm") # for text mining
install.packages("SnowballC") # for text stemming
install.packages("wordcloud") # word-cloud generator
install.packages("RColorBrewer") # color palettes
install.packages("syuzhet") # for sentiment analysis
install.packages("ggplot2") # for plotting graphs
install.packages("dplyr") # for data manipulationn
install.packages("readr") # for reading in files
install.packages("tidytext") #for tokenisation, using dplyr, ggplot2 and other tidy tools
install.packages("stringr") # for extracting matched patterns in strings
install.packages("sparklyr") # tokenizer package
install.packages("hunspell") # spell check tool
install.packages("textstem") # lemitisation
install.packages("udpipe") # POS taggingand now load them in using the library function
# Load
library(tm)## Loading required package: NLPlibrary(SnowballC)
library(wordcloud)## Loading required package: RColorBrewerlibrary(RColorBrewer)
library(syuzhet)
library(ggplot2)##
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## intersect, setdiff, setequal, unionlibrary(readr)
library(tidytext)
library(stringr)
library(sparklyr)##
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## filterlibrary(hunspell)
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## readTaggedlibrary(udpipe)Load in the dataset
We are going to be using the ‘text.csv’ which was created once combining all of the rtf files into one dataset.
foot_mouth_df <- read_csv("code/data/foot_mouth/text.csv")## New names:
## Rows: 87 Columns: 3
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## (2): 0, 1 dbl (1): ...1
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## • `` -> `...1`head(foot_mouth_df)## # A tibble: 6 × 3
## ...1 `0` `1`
## <dbl> <chr> <chr>
## 1 0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nGe…
## 2 1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGender…
## 3 2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nGe…
## 4 3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGender…
## 5 4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGender…
## 6 5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGender…Pre-processing
Obviously, we can access any column, row or cell without using named labels. But it might be easier to give some of the things named labels. This makes more sense with columns - especially if we are going to split the columns into lots of other columns and it will be hard to keep track of what the numbered columns refer to.
# Renaming columns
names(foot_mouth_df)[1] <- "Number"
names(foot_mouth_df)[2] <- "Filename"
names(foot_mouth_df)[3] <- "Everything_else"
head(foot_mouth_df)## # A tibble: 6 × 3
## Number Filename Everything_else
## <dbl> <chr> <chr>
## 1 0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nG…
## 2 1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGende…
## 3 2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nG…
## 4 3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGende…
## 5 4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGende…
## 6 5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGende…This file contains two types of recordings; one from diary entries and one from the interviews.
The diary files seem to start with “Information about diarist” while the interview files start with “date of interview”.
It seems like we can’t split the columns until we split this data frame into 2, one for diary files and one for interview files. How would you go about doing that? Steps to consider might include:
- find the last row of the diary entries and the first row of the interview entries (using access rows and/or access cells)
- save a new “diary” variable that contains all of the columns for all of the diary rows
- save a new “interview” variable that contains all of the columns for all of the interview rows
So lets go ahead and split these file types, as they will be easier to work with
#Splitting Datagrames
diary_file <- foot_mouth_df[1:39,]
group_int_file <- foot_mouth_df[40:87,]
head(diary_file)## # A tibble: 6 × 3
## Number Filename Everything_else
## <dbl> <chr> <chr>
## 1 0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nG…
## 2 1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGende…
## 3 2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nG…
## 4 3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGende…
## 5 4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGende…
## 6 5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGende…Let’s try extracting all of the dates with the format day/month/year from each row in this column. We can then place them ina new column called ‘Dates’.
We access the column labelled ‘everything_else’ in our dataframe, and extract strings that match the RegEx pattern. Don’t worry too much about the RegEx pattern for now, this is just to illustrate how it can be used. Then we assign these values to a new column labelled ‘Dates’ for the individual data frames (that is the ‘diary_file’ and the ‘interview_file’).
#Adding Date Column
# first to the diary file
diary_file$Date <- stringr::str_extract(diary_file$Everything_else, "(\\d{1,2}[/\\.-][ ]?)?(\\d{1,2}[ ]*[/\\.-]|January|February|March|April|May|June|July|August|September|October|November|December|Jan|Feb|Febr|Mar|Apr|Jun|Jul|Aug|Sept|Sep|Oct|Nov|Dec|Jan\\.|Feb\\.|Febr\\.|Mar\\.|Apr\\.|Jun\\.|Jul\\.|Aug\\.|Sept\\.|Sep\\.|Oct\\.|Nov\\.|Dec\\.)[ ]*[']?\\d{2,4}")
head(diary_file)## # A tibble: 6 × 4
## Number Filename Everything_else Date
## <dbl> <chr> <chr> <chr>
## 1 0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1… Febr…
## 2 1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\… 6.30
## 3 2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1… Marc…
## 4 3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\… Marc…
## 5 4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\… Febr…
## 6 5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\… Marc… # then to the group/interview files
group_int_file$Date <- stringr::str_extract(group_int_file$Everything_else, "(\\d{1,2}[/\\.-][ ]?)?(\\d{1,2}[ ]*[/\\.-]|January|February|March|April|May|June|July|August|September|October|November|December|Jan|Feb|Febr|Mar|Apr|Jun|Jul|Aug|Sept|Sep|Oct|Nov|Dec|Jan\\.|Feb\\.|Febr\\.|Mar\\.|Apr\\.|Jun\\.|Jul\\.|Aug\\.|Sept\\.|Sep\\.|Oct\\.|Nov\\.|Dec\\.)[ ]*[']?\\d{2,4}")
head(group_int_file)## # A tibble: 6 × 4
## Number Filename Everything_else Date
## <dbl> <chr> <chr> <chr>
## 1 39 5407diary55.rtf "\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 196… 1.30
## 2 40 5407fg01.rtf "\nGroups Discussion with Members of Farmers Fa… 17/1…
## 3 41 5407fg02.rtf "Groups Discussion with Members of Small Busines… 23/0…
## 4 42 5407fg03.rtf "\n\nGroups Discussion with Members of Agricult… 31/0…
## 5 43 5407fg04.rtf "\nNO AUDIO RECORDING\n\nGroups Discussion with … 13/0…
## 6 44 5407fg05.rtf "\n\nGroups Discussion with Community Group of P… 21/0…I’m going to then join append these files using the rbind() function under the base package.
# Append files
new_foot_mouth <- rbind(diary_file, group_int_file)
head(new_foot_mouth)## # A tibble: 6 × 4
## Number Filename Everything_else Date
## <dbl> <chr> <chr> <chr>
## 1 0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1… Febr…
## 2 1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\… 6.30
## 3 2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1… Marc…
## 4 3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\… Marc…
## 5 4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\… Febr…
## 6 5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\… Marc…Another interesting piece of information to have, is the gender of the interview participant. Let’s extract this information again by using RegEx…
# Adding Gender Column and remove colon
new_foot_mouth$Gender <- str_extract(new_foot_mouth$Everything_else, "M|F")
head(new_foot_mouth)## # A tibble: 6 × 5
## Number Filename Everything_else Date Gender
## <dbl> <chr> <chr> <chr> <chr>
## 1 0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of b… Febr… M
## 2 1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth… 6.30 F
## 3 2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of b… Marc… F
## 4 3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth… Marc… M
## 5 4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth… Febr… F
## 6 5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate of birth… Marc… MNow will also look at getting the Occupations!
#Adding Occupation Column
new_foot_mouth$Occupation <-as.integer(sub(".*?Group.*?(\\d+).*", "\\1", new_foot_mouth$Everything_else))
head(new_foot_mouth)## # A tibble: 6 × 6
## Number Filename Everything_else Date Gender Occup…¹
## <dbl> <chr> <chr> <chr> <chr> <int>
## 1 0 5407diary02.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nD… Febr… M 6
## 2 1 5407diary03.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate … 6.30 F 6
## 3 2 5407diary07.rtf "\n\nInformation about diarist\nD… Marc… F 6
## 4 3 5407diary08.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate … Marc… M 6
## 5 4 5407diary09.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate … Febr… F 5
## 6 5 5407diary10.rtf "Information about diarist\nDate … Marc… M 5
## # … with abbreviated variable name ¹OccupationProcessing
Processing steps
- Tokenisation, (or splitting text into various kinds of ‘short things’ that can be statistically analysed).
- Standardising the next (including converting uppercase to lower, correcting spelling, find-and-replace operations to remove abbreviations, etc.).
- Removing irrelevancies (anything from punctuation to stopwords like ‘the’ or ‘to’ that are unhelpful for many kinds of analysis).
- Consolidating (including stemming and lemmatisation that strip words back to their ‘root’).
- Basic NLP (that put some of the small things back together into logically useful medium things, like multi-word noun or verb phrases and proper names).
In practice, most text-mining work will require that any given corpus undergo multiple steps, but the exact steps and the exact order of steps depends on the desired analysis to be done. Thus, some of the examples that follow will use the raw text corpus as an input to the process while others use a processed corpus as an input.
As a side note, it is good practice to create new variables whenever you manipulate an existing variable rather than write over the original. This means that you keep the original and can go back to it anytime you need to if you want to try a different manipulation or correct an error. You will see how this works as we progress through the processing steps.
Since I am using this first type of processing to look for potential points for analysis, I will just stick to: word-tokenisation, basic standardisation and stemming
Tokenisation
Our first step is to cut our ‘one big thing’ into tokens, or ‘lots of little things’.
Whether you have one big file or many smaller ones, most text-mining work will also want to divide the corpus into what are known as ‘tokens’. These ‘tokens’ are the unit of analysis, which might be chapters, sections, paragraphs, sentences, words, or something else.
Since we have one file already loaded as a corpus, we can skip the right to tokenising that text into sentences and words. Both options are functions available through the tidtext package that we imported earlier. These are both useful tokens in their own way, so we will see how to produce both kinds.
We start by dividing our corpus into words, splitting the string into substrings whenever ‘word_tokenize’ detects a word.
Let’s try that. But this time, let’s just have a look at the first 100 things it finds instead of the entire text. Run/Shift+Enter.
#Since this method takes basically adding columns every time we do a new step, I will do processing on original foot_mouth_df
# Then I will append anything usefuul onto the modified 'new_foot_mouth' DataFrame.
# 1) Words
token_list <- foot_mouth_df %>% tidytext::unnest_tokens(output = tokenised_words,
token = "words",
input = Everything_else)
token_list## # A tibble: 1,190,012 × 3
## Number Filename tokenised_words
## <dbl> <chr> <chr>
## 1 0 5407diary02.rtf information
## 2 0 5407diary02.rtf about
## 3 0 5407diary02.rtf diarist
## 4 0 5407diary02.rtf date
## 5 0 5407diary02.rtf of
## 6 0 5407diary02.rtf birth
## 7 0 5407diary02.rtf 1975
## 8 0 5407diary02.rtf gender
## 9 0 5407diary02.rtf m
## 10 0 5407diary02.rtf occupation
## # … with 1,190,002 more rowsfoot_mouth_token <- token_list %>%
aggregate(tokenised_words ~ Filename, FUN = function(token_list) sprintf("[%s]", toString(token_list)))
head(foot_mouth_token)## Filename
## 1 5407diary02.rtf
## 2 5407diary03.rtf
## 3 5407diary07.rtf
## 4 5407diary08.rtf
## 5 5407diary09.rtf
## 6 5407diary10.rtf
## tokenised_words
## 1 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1975, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, thursday, meeting, n, lakes, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, usual, chat, and, defra, comments, the, meeting, research, panel, gp, 6, at, the, north, lakes, was, interesting, it, surprises, me, sometimes, how, people, myself, included, never, seem, to, tire, of, the, same, stories, and, complaints, over, how, the, crisis, was, handled, some, of, the, episodes, recounted, must, have, been, told, dozens, of, times, over, the, last, year, but, whoever, says, it, always, seems, just, as, keen, to, say, it, again, perhaps, a, reflection, of, how, deeply, people, feel, about, the, events, of, the, last, year, having, said, that, most, of, the, resentments, and, rants, that, i, hear, on, daily, farm, visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
## 2 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
## 3 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, to, gather, them, a, time, to, embrace, and, a, time, to, refrain, a, time, to, search, and, a, time, to, give, up, a, time, to, keep, and, a, time, to, throw, away, a, time, to, tear, and, a, time, to, mend, a, time, to, be, silent, and, a, time, to, speak, a, time, to, love, and, a, time, to, hate, a, time, for, war, and, a, time, for, peace]
## 5 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1981, gender, f, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
## 6 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1937, gender, m, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, 1, monday, 11th, march, 2002, whilst, watching, the, local, tv, news, at, 6, p.m, there, was, a, news, item, that, caused, us, to, reflect, back, on, the, events, a, year, ago, a, young, lady, had, just, left, a, court, where, she, had, been, found, guilty, of, assaulting, a, police, officer, and, also, being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can't, see, what, difference, it, made, if, people, want, to, come, cumbria, they, will, come, irrespective, of, whether, the, pm, comes, or, not, diary, 20, after, a, lot, of, protests, it, looks, as, though, it, the, 20, day, restriction, on, cattle, movement, will, be, lifted, perhaps, this, will, now, mean, that, they, could, be, cattle, and, sheep, entries, at, local, agricultural, shows, some, shows, are, going, ahead, with, very, limited, entries, of, livestock, and, some, with, no, animal, entries, at, all, these, shows, have, always, been, very, popular, with, my, family, for, over, 20, years, also, living, with, in, a, farming, community, makes, us, feel, part, of, the, annual, agricultural, scene, diary, 21, i’ve, written, before, regarding, agricultural, shows, and, the, pride, in, which, local, people, take, in, these, shows, although, a, lot, of, shows, have, gone, ahead, this, season, they, have, had, a, reduced, animal, showing, or, in, some, cases, no, animals, at, all, today, i’ve, heard, that, one, show, has, been, cancelled, altogether, this, particular, show, is, one, of, the, most, popular, in, the, area, maybe, because, of, lack, of, entries, or, the, organisers, just, wanted, to, cancel, because, of, the, 3, week, restriction, on, animal, movement, i, don’t, know, perhaps, it, would, be, better, to, cancel, them, than, have, a, depleted, show, diary, 22, spent, a, few, hours, in, the, fells, today, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, wander, the, familiar, paths, and, let, our, dog, run, free, it, was, a, good, boost, to, our, moral, and, perhaps, the, dog’s, too, we, all, missed, being, able, to, do, this, last, year, diary, 23, last, bank, holiday, before, xmas, and, the, last, before, the, schools, go, back, at, the, golf, course, where, i, help, out, part, time, during, the, summer, we, had, lots, of, customers, a, lot, of, them, commented, on, how, enjoyable, it, was, to, be, on, holiday, in, this, area, this, year, compared, to, the, restrictions, that, were, in, place, last, year, maybe, the, holiday, establishments, are, getting, back, to, normal, there, are, no, restrictions, put, on, them, like, there, is, in, place, now, with, farmers, and, agriculture, diary, 26, sorting, through, the, mail, left, whilst, away, on, holiday, and, i, came, across, a, notice, sent, by, the, village, committee, notifying, a, harvest, thanksgiving, festival, to, be, held, next, month, in, the, village, hall, as, we, have, no, church, in, the, village, it, is, being, held, in, some, farm, buildings, in, the, centre, of, the, village, this, will, be, a, splendid, event, the, farm, did, not, have, fmd, but, couldn’t, take, animals, from, one, field, to, another, and, couldn’t, market, them, when, we, consider, the, gloom, that, settled, on, this, farm, and, community, it, is, very, welcome, to, have, this, unique, event, here, in, the, heart, of, the, village, and, the, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, at, the, centre, of, events, a, lovely, gesture, and, i, hope, it, will, be, well, supported, there, will, be, a, distribution, of, harvest, gifts, afterwards, what, a, change, from, a, year, ago, diary, 27, with, the, aid, of, binoculars, i, have, been, able, to, have, a, closer, look, at, the, burial, site, from, a, westerly, direction, there, are, vents, in, the, shape, of, small, towers, to, extract, gas, from, the, site, there, are, pipes, connecting, these, vents, a, lot, of, work, is, still, going, on, there, however, all, this, takes, place, in, the, western, side, which, is, the, opposite, side, to, where, my, village, is, situated, from, our, side, there, is, nothing, to, suggest, the, amount, of, work, going, on, because, of, this, fmd, is, pushed, further, into, the, backs, of, villager’s, minds, it, is, something, in, the, past, it, has, happened, so, what, people, like, myself, who, talk, to, farmers, and, agriculturalists, do, not, easily, forget, these, events, personally, i, am, still, concerned, about, the, burial, site, when, inquiries, are, made, about, it, all, we, can, do, is, accept, what, we, are, told, it, does, not, look, as, though, every, precaution, is, being, taken, to, alleviate, an, odours, or, contamination, diary, 28, i, had, to, see, the, village, farmer, on, another, matter, and, was, asked, inside, for, coffee, and, a, chat, he, was, able, to, tell, me, of, the, full, implications, of, the, 20, day, rule, he, accepts, that, this, is, a, precaution, to, prevent, another, outbreak, of, fmd, but, there, is, a, lot, of, work, involved, he, told, me, of, an, isolation, area, that, he, has, created, and, also, the, fencing, arrangements, where, his, land, adjoins, the, neighbours, land, i, would, say, that, 95, of, the, public, don’t, know, about, this, even, if, they, have, heard, of, the, 20, day, rule, for, him, he, owns, the, largest, farm, in, the, area, it, is, bad, enough, having, to, do, all, the, physical, work, as, regards, fencing, etc, but, for, anyone, such, as, a, small, holder, it, must, be, a, nightmare, if, he, has, to, bring, animals, back, from, market, that, haven’t, been, sold, friday, my, wife, and, i, played, a, round, of, golf, at, aspatria, this, course, was, badly, restricted, when, fmd, hit, this, area, we, were, reminded, that, there, are, restrictions, on, adjoining, land, there, were, notices, asking, people, who, hit, balls, onto, farm, land, not, to, cross, the, fence, to, retrieve, them, because, of, fmd, precautions, this, was, news, to, us, it, does, make, sense, though, the, farmer, wouldn’t, know, where, players, had, been, walking, prior, to, playing, golf, diary, 29, attended, the, harvest, festival, held, in, the, village, farm, a, large, cattle, shed, had, been, cleaned, and, decorated, for, this, event, chairs, had, been, brought, in, fruit, and, vegetables, were, on, display, for, auctioning, at, the, end, the, place, was, packed, a, lot, of, money, was, raised, and, it, was, a, very, happy, event, well, supported, and, a, big, boost, for, the, farm, and, the, village, i, don’t, think, that, the, general, public, care, much, about, fmd, now, that, is, has, been, a, year, since, the, last, case, was, confirmed, in, cumbria, the, public, may, be, reminded, if, they, read, the, local, newspapers, intently, for, instance, there, was, a, letter, to, the, editor, published, recently, which, referred, to, the, results, of, the, cumbria, inquiry, into, fmd, it, may, have, been, a, farmer, who, wrote, it, i, don’t, know, but, the, writer, certainly, went, to, town, in, the, scathing, comments, on, the, handling, of, fmd, even, caustic, remarks, regarding, the, efforts, since, fmd, of, defra, and, mrs, beckett, i, certainly, wouldn’t, like, to, cross, the, writer, i, also, think, the, farming, community, must, be, holding, it’s, breath, in, case, the, present, restrictions, such, as, they, are, prove, to, be, worthless, then, we, will, all, suffer, again, week, 30, what, a, difference, a, year, makes, despite, some, restrictions, on, public, access, to, agricultural, fields, in, some, areas, of, the, county, it, doesn’t, apply, here, although, most, locals, confine, themselves, to, footpaths, and, bridleways, other, people, seem, to, think, that, all, fields, are, recreation, areas, they, walk, and, run, across, some, of, the, fields, in, close, proximity, to, the, village, regardless, of, the, presence, of, stock, they, exercise, dogs, and, treat, it, as, a, some, kind, of, park, one, farmer, is, well, know, for, being, aggressive, he, used, last, year’s, fmd, outbreak, to, run, people, off, his, land, i, met, a, local, councillor, who, expressed, concerns, regarding, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, to, the, south, of, the, village, on, the, current, open, cast, mining, site, the, two, waste, disposal, sites, to, the, west, and, north, west, of, the, village, have, become, big, issues, in, the, last, 18, months, due, to, the, burial, of, animals, and, the, disposal, of, pyre, ash, and, leachates, it, seems, as, though, we, are, going, to, get, over, this, ghastly, fmd, outbreak, only, to, have, this, scenario, thrust, upon, us, week, 31, met, a, small, holder, who, keeps, sheep, near, to, this, village, he, was, very, scathing, over, the, report, that, the, government, and, defra, don’t, want, to, talk, up, an, offer, from, the, local, authorities, here, to, implement, findings, and, recommendations, from, their, local, inquiry, over, fmd, why, what, has, this, government, who, didn’t, perform, very, well, during, the, outbreak, got, to, hide, and, why, shirk, away, from, the, findings, instead, of, facing, up, to, the, failings, that, we, all, know, about, it, also, seems, that, they, don’t, want, to, make, any, safeguards, and, recommendations, to, avoid, a, further, outbreak, as, a, non, agriculturalist, it, doesn’t, surprise, me, in, the, least, after, all, government, has, failed, other, industries, in, the, country, for, as, long, as, i, can, remember, week, 32, i, am, convinced, that, authorities, in, the, area, must, think, that, the, way, animals, were, buried, here, and, pyre, ash, and, leachate, were, disposed, of, at, another, site, nearby, was, all, done, as, very, successfully, and, that, the, two, sites, handled, everything, professionally, therefore, the, sites, would, be, more, than, capable, of, handling, ash, from, an, incinerator, to, me, this, is, the, legacy, of, fmd, i, am, most, annoyed, over, this, together, with, a, lot, more, of, the, villagers, this, village, no, longer, has, a, representative, on, the, parish, council, both, have, resigned, for, whatever, reason, and, no, one, will, step, forward, to, take, it, one, i, have, said, that, i, would, take, a, set, on, the, parish, council, to, represent, the, village, and, fight, for, our, rights, and, future, quality, of, life, due, to, this, i, have, uncovered, a, pile, of, claims, and, counter, claims, it, seems, that, both, parish, and, district, counsellors, know, what, is, going, on, regarding, the, incinerator, and, that, developers, have, made, concessions, to, some, councillors, also, there, are, claims, that, the, developers, have, offered, money, to, local, landowners, and, farmers, so, that, roads, can, be, put, in, all, these, accusations, have, been, strongly, denied, at, the, same, time, it, is, rumoured, that, some, farmers, have, been, offered, local, fields, nearby, because, of, what, i, have, discovered, in, my, own, investigations, it, would, seem, that, a, lot, of, friendships, gained, over, 20, years, could, come, to, an, end, i, am, fearful, of, what, i, have, uncovered, there, are, also, claims, that, councillors, are, only, in, it, for, what, there, can, get, out, and, are, not, to, be, trusted, i, don’t, want, that, said, of, me, also, by, the, time, all, this, is, sorted, out, i, will, be, 70, 75, i, certainly, don’t, want, to, be, fighting, peoples, battles, at, that, age, however, i, will, support, any, effort, to, stop, the, proposed, development, week, 33, once, again, the, large, farm, in, the, centre, of, the, village, was, the, venue, for, the, annual, guy, fawkes, bonfire, and, fireworks, organisers, had, been, round, the, village, asking, for, donations, to, provide, fireworks, a, tractor, and, trailer, toured, the, areas, picking, up, things, for, the, bonfire, drinks, and, food, were, served, in, a, barn, after, the, fireworks, this, is, another, occasion, when, villagers, and, the, farming, community, come, together, it, is, perhaps, the, only, time, that, the, general, public, of, the, village, think, about, fmd, and, last, years, events, if, only, briefly, the, farmer, remarked, that, is, the, third, time, this, year, that, there, has, been, a, public, function, on, his, farm, the, first, was, the, jubilee, party, in, june, then, on, october, 6th, the, harvest, festival, service, these, events, keep, farming, in, the, public, eye, week, 34, i, haven’t, written, before, about, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, nearby, to, burn, the, counties, waste, if, as, we, all, suspect, the, incinerator, is, built, then, the, odours, plus, the, disposal, of, ash, to, the, fmd, waste, site, is, a, legacy, of, fmd, particularly, regarding, the, nearby, burial, and, disposal, site, week, 35, this, is, week, 35, of, this, project, and, for, most, of, the, 35, weeks, i, have, written, that, i, am, not, confident, of, the, future, there, are, numerous, reasons, for, this, mainly, the, situation, in, the, middle, east, today, i, travelled, to, keswick, to, do, some, xmas, shopping, i, was, given, a, lift, there, by, a, neighbour, who, is, in, his, 30s, he, was, very, upset, about, the, terrorist, situation, not, only, was, he, concerned, about, the, terror, threat, to, the, london, underground, but, the, threat, closer, to, home, as, regards, a, plane, crashing, into, the, nearby, sellafield, complex, we, don’t, know, the, effect, that, this, constant, bad, news, has, on, people, people, who, have, already, got, serious, worries, e.g, families, housing, finance, etc, must, feel, really, depressed, about, it, all, week, 36, near, to, the, next, village, is, a, long, established, farm, of, many, acres, recently, the, farm’s, stock, of, animals, and, machinery, was, sold, off, the, owner, who, had, farmed, for, sixty, years, was, leaving, to, live, with, one, of, his, brothers, he, said, that, he, wouldn’t, know, how, he, would, feel, when, he, left, the, farm, for, the, last, time, this, weekend, the, farmhouse, hasn’t, been, sold, yet, and, now, stands, empty, it’s, a, strange, place, now, where, everything, was, hustle, and, bustle, they, even, had, a, b, b, business, there, is, now, derelict, and, bare, it’s, a, sad, reflection, on, the, agricultural, business, in, the, wake, of, fmd, this, farm, isn’t, the, only, one, in, the, area, that, has, sold, up, some, farm, houses, remain, as, dwellings, but, this, particular, one, which, we, saw, nearly, every, day, is, just, an, other, sad, reminder, of, the, way, farming, has, declined, in, this, rural, area, week, 39, tuesday, boarded, the, train, at, penrith, to, journey, to, crewe, to, see, our, daughter, during, the, journey, i, got, into, conversation, with, a, fellow, passenger, he, noticed, i, had, got, on, the, train, at, penrith, and, perhaps, thought, i, was, connected, with, the, agricultural, industry, the, conversation, drifted, into, the, previous, years, fmd, outbreak, it, is, rather, strange, that, i, live, in, a, very, rural, area, and, fmd, is, rarely, mentioned, now, however, this, fellow, passenger, although, not, from, an, agricultural, background, gave, his, views, on, the, handling, of, the, situation, it, was, no, different, from, the, views, expressed, by, locals, at, the, time, of, the, crisis, it, just, goes, to, show, that, fmd, is, very, much, in, peoples, minds, even, if, they, were, not, connected, to, agriculture, in, any, way, week, 40, friday, now, that, the, mep, have, published, their, critical, report, on, the, fmd, crisis, it, is, interesting, to, read, an, article, published, in, our, local, weekly, paper, from, a, reader, article, entitled, foot, and, mouth, report, included, i, don’t, have, the, knowledge, or, the, data, to, support, this, readers, comments, however, i, have, heard, plenty, of, stories, from, mainly, unreliable, sources, to, confirm, what, he, says, it, makes, interesting, reading, i, think, week, 41, tuesday, no, wonder, my, confidence, in, the, future, has, taken, a, big, plunge, over, the, last, few, months, the, situation, in, iraq, doesn’t, get, any, better, mr, tony, blair’s, message, to, the, armed, forces, of, the, uk, bear, this, out, being, an, ex, serviceman, i, know, what, the, situation, holds, for, our, troops, but, are, we, right, to, follow, the, usa, in, a, war, against, iraq, no, doubt, saddam, hussein, does, pose, a, threat, but, so, does, india, and, pakistan, to, each, other, each, of, these, two, relatively, poor, countries, has, threatened, each, other, as, regards, their, nuclear, arsenals, now, the, loose, cannon, in, the, form, of, north, korea, is, positioning, itself, as, regards, its, position, in, the, nuclear, arms, league, personally, i, think, that, north, korea, poses, a, more, dangerous, threat, than, iraq, it, is, not, a, very, happy, new, year, for, a, lot, of, people, perhaps, it, will, all, be, settled, diplomatically, i, wonder, week, 42, nothing, of, any, importance, to, write, about, due, to, refurbishment, at, home, week, 43, monday, one, of, the, items, on, the, agenda, for, this, months, meeting, of, distington, parish, council, is, a, report, on, the, wood, felling, and, the, implications, of, this, as, i, have, written, in, the, diary, before, there, are, strong, rumours, of, the, proposed, plan, to, fell, woods, build, a, new, road, through, the, felled, site, and, bring, coal, from, the, nearby, opencast, site, to, link, up, with, an, existing, road, then, to, transport, the, coal, to, a, storage, area, on, workington, dock, then, when, the, coal, is, worked, out, to, build, an, incinerator, on, the, coal, site, ash, from, this, development, would, then, be, transported, on, the, new, road, to, be, disposed, of, on, the, waste, disposal, site, that, was, used, for, fmd, pyre, ash, and, leachate, thursday, read, a, report, of, the, aforesaid, meeting, the, owners, have, declared, that, our, worries, are, groundless, in, fact, they, say, that, they, plan, to, eventually, open, the, woodland, to, the, public, the, owners, of, the, woodland, are, the, same, operators, of, the, opencast, coal, site, footpaths, will, be, created, if, a, grant, can, be, obtained, a, wooden, wheeled, ancient, water, mill, will, be, restored, after, the, closed, meeting, the, operations, director, of, the, site, said, that, there, has, been, a, misunderstanding, what, we, are, doing, will, benefit, local, people, he, said, that, a, management, project, for, the, wood, is, being, followed, involving, felling, dead, trees, and, fresh, planting, he, added, the, felling, and, replanting, will, be, done, this, year, after, which, it, will, take, time, to, become, established, we’re, talking, of, a, ten, year, programme, but, it, should, have, long, term, benefits, i, think, our, pr, at, the, start, of, this, wasn’t, very, good, and, in, the, future, we, will, let, the, council, know, of, our, plans, the, council, agreed, to, keep, a, watch, on, the, work, here, in, g, this, statement, differs, greatly, from, what, some, of, us, have, been, told, by, our, village, based, county, councillor, there, has, never, been, any, suggestion, that, the, felled, woods, would, become, a, land, fill, site, but, would, be, felled, to, provide, the, new, road, there, was, nothing, mentioned, at, the, meeting, regarding, the, proposed, incinerator, being, built, the, county, council, that, this, has, ever, been, planned, however, our, representative, is, adamant, that, this, is, not, so, week, 44, tuesday, for, the, first, time, my, property, has, finally, overcome, a, situation, that, was, affected, by, fmd, in, july, 2000, the, electricity, supplier, notified, me, to, say, that, the, trees, in, my, garden, had, grown, so, tall, that, the, topmost, branches, were, in, close, contact, with, an, eleven, thousand, volt, overhead, power, line, and, that, they, should, be, felled, or, severely, pruned, after, some, further, negotiations, it, was, decided, to, prune, to, some, height, that, i, wasn’t, happy, with, although, the, treetops, were, not, actually, touching, the, wires, it, was, considered, a, risk, in, the, forthcoming, months, however, as, time, passed, i, couldn’t, wait, for, the, foresters, to, arrive, so, i, pruned, the, trees, myself, in, january, 2001, the, electric, supplier, suggested, that, the, trees, should, be, pruned, further, a, date, was, agreed, but, the, foresters, didn’t, arrive, time, dragged, on, and, the, trees, grew, back, to, their, original, height, again, the, electric, supplier, suggested, they, be, pruned, or, felled, a, new, date, was, agreed, upon, however, the, foresters, couldn’t, do, the, job, because, the, isolator, switch, was, on, farmland, and, they, couldn’t, get, access, to, it, because, of, fmd, restrictions, and, so, it, dragged, on, despite, visits, by, foresters, and, electric, supplier, reps, the, trees, got, bigger, and, i, was, forbidden, to, touch, them, neighbours, could, hear, crackling, noises, coming, from, the, wires, and, it, became, very, worrying, people, suggested, that, i, should, do, something, about, it, i, took, the, matter, up, directly, with, the, supplier, and, the, foresters, i, was, promised, dates, only, for, them, to, be, cancelled, in, december, 2002, a, date, of, 21st, january, 2003, was, given, this, time, they, came, and, we, agreed, that, two, trees, be, felled, and, another, pruned, after, 30, months, it, finally, happened, thursday, met, a, small, holder, who, has, his, land, on, the, edge, of, this, village, who, told, me, that, the, 20, day, rule, of, animal, restriction, of, animal, movement, was, being, lifted, and, replaced, by, a, 6, day, restriction, this, was, good, news, for, him, and, any, other, farmer, later, that, day, i, met, another, farmer, who, didn’t, know, that, the, restriction, was, being, lifted, you, would, have, thought, that, i, had, told, him, he’d, won, the, lottery, good, news, all, round, for, the, people, friday, listening, to, the, local, radio, today, and, was, surprised, to, hear, a, report, that, the, citizens, advice, bureau, in, a, small, lakeland, town, had, been, receiving, clients, who, were, still, experiencing, hardship, due, to, fmd, it, is, now, 18, months, since, the, last, outbreak, and, the, effects, according, to, the, person, being, interviewed, were, still, being, felt, not, just, by, farmers, and, agriculturists, but, by, guest, houses, hotels, tradesmen, and, in, particular, some, self, employed, debt, seems, to, be, the, biggest, problem, it, seems, as, though, some, people, had, weathered, the, hardships, of, fmd, initially, only, to, find, that, their, plans, had, come, adrift, somehow, afterwards, quite, disturbing, to, hear, that, the, situation, is, still, with, us, in, this, county, to, some, degree, week, 45, these, diaries, were, instituted, to, deal, with, the, after, effects, of, fmd, although, there, were, no, cases, of, fmd, in, this, village, everyone, knew, about, it, particularly, as, nearly, everyone, who, went, to, work, from, here, would, pass, the, main, farm, in, the, village, centre, or, some, of, the, farms, on, the, outskirts, of, the, village, now, that, fmd, is, over, most, people, who, live, here, don’t, seem, to, think, about, it, anymore, the, only, people, affected, are, the, farmers, naturally, this, is, a, strange, village, in, lots, of, ways, only, the, farmer, and, his, immediate, family, are, connected, with, agriculture, the, rest, are, professional, people, or, people, who, work, at, nearby, sellafield, industries, in, workington, and, whitehaven, or, are, retired, there, is, no, church, no, village, pub, no, village, shop, no, village, community, centre, or, meeting, place, only, tradesmen, that, call, are, the, milkman, and, the, solid, fuel, merchant, we, are, left, to, get, on, with, life, in, our, own, way, the, parish, of, distington, to, which, we, belong, have, all, the, facilities, associated, with, a, larger, community, such, as, a, church, pub, and, community, centre, all, of, which, are, two, miles, away, consequently, the, parish, council, meets, there, once, a, month, and, discusses, all, the, problems, of, the, area, including, ours, however, our, representative, on, the, council, has, resigned, and, no, one, has, come, forward, to, represent, us, anything, that, has, been, discussed, at, the, parish, council, is, reported, in, he, local, newspaper, village, pubs, are, a, good, venue, to, discuss, local, issues, and, to, exchange, views, and, mainly, to, gossip, village, tittle, tattle, as, i, call, it, as, we, have, no, pub, the, gossip, is, rife, from, one, source, or, another, with, bits, added, on, or, left, out, as, is, the, choice, of, the, person, concerned, quite, a, lot, of, people, one, meets, are, experts, in, their, own, particular, choice, of, subject, whether, it, is, politics, finance, or, mrs, jones, current, boy, friend, it, is, a, fault, to, take, on, board, all, that, is, gossiped, about, when, one, meets, a, fellow, villager, in, the, country, lanes, whilst, out, walking, the, dog, week, 46, illness, to, a, family, member, week, 47, continued, illness, week, 48, over, the, past, few, weeks, there, has, been, a, lot, of, tree, felling, in, the, nearby, woods, this, has, led, to, a, lot, of, disturbance, to, the, villagers, because, of, the, use, of, large, vehicles, needed, to, remove, the, felled, timber, and, also, the, foresters, vehicles, churning, up, the, grass, verges, and, the, ditches, a, lot, of, concern, was, raised, about, the, necessity, of, all, the, tree, felling, these, concerns, were, raised, in, the, press, and, also, in, the, parish, council, i, have, written, about, these, in, diaries, in, the, last, few, weeks, it, was, reported, in, mid, january, that, all, the, felled, woods, would, be, replanted, this, year, with, footpaths, created, for, the, enjoyment, of, the, local, population, now, all, timber, operations, have, ceased, large, areas, of, woodland, have, been, left, partly, felled, and, a, lot, of, felled, timber, is, left, lying, about, foresters, vehicles, have, gone, and, nothing, is, happening, despite, assurances, from, the, developers, it, looks, as, though, something, drastic, has, happened, village, tittle, tattle, says, that, the, foresters, have, not, been, paid, for, their, work, so, far, and, that, the, developers, have, run, out, of, money, if, this, is, so, what, is, going, to, happen, now, when, felling, started, late, last, year, i, contacted, two, environmental, agencies, regarding, the, threat, to, the, red, squirrels, badgers, and, buzzards, that, occupy, these, woods, i, was, told, that, it, was, only, a, partial, felling, and, they, the, environmental, agencies, were, satisfied, that, any, disturbances, would, be, slight, i, think, that, they, were, told, this, by, the, developers, and, accepted, what, they, were, told, without, a, site, visit, the, developers, have, been, known, to, mislead, groups, in, the, past, including, landowners, farmers, councils, and, individuals, i, personally, am, not, happy, about, this, situation, i, have, always, took, a, keen, interest, in, wildlife, and, feel, that, we, have, been, let, down, by, the, lies, of, developers, and, the, lack, of, serious, interest, from, wildlife, agencies, some, of, which, are, an, offshoot, of, central, government, i, for, one, will, keep, a, close, look, on, the, situation, with, or, without, other, villagers, and, in, particular, local, councillors, week, 49, by, chance, i, met, three, small, holders, all, at, the, same, time, they, were, discussing, farming, by, the, roadside, all, of, them, were, pleased, that, the, 20, day, ruling, was, coming, to, an, end, and, that, their, lives, were, more, or, less, coming, back, to, normal, they, also, expressed, the, opinion, that, the, 20, day, rule, and, the, 6, day, rule, were, only, in, force, to, protect, their, interests, however, they, were, unanimous, in, their, condemnation, over, the, importing, of, foreign, meat, and, meat, products, into, this, country, they, feel, that, foreign, meat, is, not, subjected, to, enough, checks, before, entry, into, the, united, kingdom, week, 51, met, a, farmer, today, who, told, me, that, he’d, seen, a, report, based, on, findings, by, the, eu, and, defra, it, stated, all, the, things, that, everyone, who, is, an, agriculturalist, and, those, who, take, an, interest, in, the, countryside, had, been, saying, about, what, was, wrong, with, the, handlers, of, the, fmd, outbreak, it, just, proves, that, it, doesn’t, take, an, academic, genius, to, know, what, should, have, been, done, at, the, time, everyone, can, be, wiser, after, the, event, but, statements, by, the, nfu, and, individuals, at, the, onset, were, not, heeded, for, example, the, movement, of, animals, should, have, been, halted, sooner, and, the, army, should, have, been, brought, in, much, sooner, now, the, question, of, vaccination, rumbles, on, should, we, or, shouldn’t, we, vaccinate, there, is, a, fear, of, the, outbreak, again, particularly, when, the, findings, of, the, 1960, outbreak, were, not, implemented, since, the, sadness, of, fmd, there, has, been, quite, a, few, instances, of, socialising, at, the, farm, such, as, harvest, festival, jubilee, party, and, almost, any, excuse, for, a, shindig, good, to, see, farmers, enjoying, themselves, week, 52, met, out, local, farmer, who, told, me, that, there, is, to, be, new, legislation, to, dispose, of, fallen, stock, no, longer, can, a, farmer, bury, fallen, stock, on, his, land, but, must, now, provide, an, incinerator, to, dispose, of, dead, animals, this, must, be, a, costly, business, could, dead, animals, not, be, taken, to, a, central, point, and, burned, week, 54, one, thing, about, fmd, was, the, effect, that, it, had, on, the, poaching, fraternity, living, in, a, rural, area, we, expect, this, to, happen, nobody, seems, to, mind, that, a, few, rabbits, and, pheasants, go, missing, what, is, really, alarming, is, the, use, of, dogs, and, high, powered, rifles, to, poach, deer, fmd, put, a, stop, to, all, this, now, a, neighbour, has, told, me, of, poachers, near, to, the, village, using, rifles, and, shooting, deer, the, only, people, benefiting, from, this, are, the, poachers, and, hoteliers, who, receive, these, dead, beasts, and, no, questions, asked, also, the, danger, of, villagers, being, hit, by, stray, rifle, shots, causes, alarm, to, others, week, 55, i, think, that, there, is, a, lot, of, jumping, on, the, band, wagon, now, that, fmd, has, cleared, up, for, instance, i, listened, to, an, interview, on, the, local, radio, station, given, by, a, hotelier, things, weren’t, going, well, in, his, establishment, having, got, over, fmd, and, its, implications, visitors, were, slowly, returning, to, the, area, but, not, in, sufficient, numbers, to, cause, great, joy]Creating a word frequency
The tidytext package provides a dataset called stop_words (what else) that contains a list of all the determiners and conjunctions, adverbs and adjectives that we can eliminate from a text, so we can analyse it properly.
# We will create a function that will store all the operations to be able to plot the word frequency
word_frequency <- function(x, top = 10){
x %>%
# We need a word count
count(Word, sort = TRUE) %>%
# We want to create a factor from the word column with the levels showing the most frequent words as top level
# This is just for aestethic reasons, however, it helps make the point
mutate(Word = factor(Word, levels = rev(unique(Word)))) %>%
# We use the "top" variable defined in the function so we can decide how many words we want to use
top_n(top) %>%
# This will be useful later if we want to use a grouping variable and will do nothing if we don't
ungroup() %>%
# The graph itself
ggplot(mapping = aes(x = Word, y = n)) +
geom_col(show.legend = FALSE) +
coord_flip() +
labs(x = NULL)
}
reviews_tidy <- foot_mouth_df %>%
tidytext::unnest_tokens("Word", "Everything_else") %>%
dplyr::anti_join(tidytext::stop_words, by = c("Word" = "word")) %>%
mutate(Word = stringr::str_replace(Word, "'s", ""))
# Now you can plot
reviews_tidy %>%
word_frequency(15) ## Selecting by n
Once this is complete you can then apend the new dataframe that contains the tokenisaion words to our ‘foot_mout_df’
foot_mouth_df <- merge(foot_mouth_df, foot_mouth_token)
head(foot_mouth_df)## Filename Number
## 1 5407diary02.rtf 0
## 2 5407diary03.rtf 1
## 3 5407diary07.rtf 2
## 4 5407diary08.rtf 3
## 5 5407diary09.rtf 4
## 6 5407diary10.rtf 5
## Everything_else
## 1 \n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\nDiary 1 \nThursday Meeting @ N Lakes\nFriday TB testing on restocking farm. Usual chat and DEFRA comments\nThe meeting (research panel gp 6) at the North Lakes was interesting. It surprises me sometimes how people (myself included) never seem to tire of the same stories and complaints over how the crisis was handled. Some of the episodes recounted must have been told dozens of times over the last year but whoever says it always seems just as keen to say it again – Perhaps a reflection of how deeply people feel about the events of the last year. Having said that, most of the resentments and rants that I hear on daily farm visits are focused fairly and squarely at DEFRA and not FMD virus. Farmers seem far more upset at the constriction put on them by DEFRA than they do by the loss of stock now, although I know and saw how utterly devastated most were when they were actually diagnosed with the virus and in the week or two following.\nMy work in the practice is becoming less and less FMD orientated as time goes on. Licensing and restocking visits are drawing to a close and we are starting to return to “normal” vet work. My life has been more settled since the end of FMD. Although there was never a real threat of redundancy there was a great deal of uncertainty as to what form work would take during the outbreak - it was never clear whether I would be based at the practice or working as a DEFRA vet from month to month. Now that it is finished (I hope) the practice and my work can get back to a routine and at least knowing where I’ll be based each day, even if not which calls are going to come in.\nWith regard to FMD the biggest influence it has at the moment and over the last week is acting as a listener to farmers who still talk about it (and DEFRA) a great deal.\n\nDiary 2 \nMon Shap restocking, having to justify visit\nWed Melmerby\n I went to see a farmer this week to do the first inspection of his sentinel animals that he is restocking his farm. In common with many farmers he was unwavering in his conviction that his animals had been deliberately infected and that Tony Blair or DEFRA were the ultimate culprits. The belief is that they want to put farmers out of business. This particular farmer made the very valid point that DEFRA & co had underestimated the resilience of the farming community. I think that this has been very striking. Considering the strain that they have been under (in some cases worse for those who didn’t get FMD than for those who did) it has been remarkable how little the majority of our clients have changed. Admittedly we see most of them on a professional basis regarding their animals’ health and not their own, but on the whole they seem to have been very forward thinking about the outbreak. Many have taken it as a chance to increase the size of herds and to eliminate many other diseases as well as FMD.\nWork in the practice has been fairly steady. As week the number of FMD calls is decreasing. One of the problems with doing restocking, licensing and TB calls is that we are on the farm at DEFRA’s instruction. Normally it is the farmer who calls us out and this can cause friction. Anything related to DEFRA will put hackles up 9 times out of 10. It definitely causes stress at times but puts my diplomacy skills into good practice! It sometimes feels as though some farmers just need an outlet and I fit the bill. After agreeing with everything they say and sympathising, it usually smoothes out and ends with a cup of tea, but it does feel as though we have to justify what we are doing much more than prior to February 2001.\n\nDiary 3\nThis week was the anniversary of the week I went to my first IP and associated slaughter, pyre building etc. At several times during the week I found myself thinking “this time last year I was…” Although obviously not pleasant memories the thoughts did not particularly affect me in a bad way or distract me from work, it just took me back to that time when I had time to think. I went to see a sick horse near Carlisle, which is where the IP was, and it was interesting to drive past the farm and see animals in the buildings again. Hopefully the farmer concerned is getting back on track again.\nWith respect to daily routine, work is getting very busy. Lambing time is starting to really get going with the inevitable increase in calls. Although it can be hectic at times it’s better to be kept busy rather than having it too quiet. It’s also good to actually be doing lambings and other sheep work as it’s two years since we did any apart from euthanasing sheep last year.\nOn Monday I went to do a re stocking check on a farm. The farmer is convinced he was given FMD deliberately and on arrival I was given his weekly tirade regarding DEFRA, Tony Blair, how I must have made thousands of pounds out of it etc etc. After sometime of not rising to the bait he calmed down and half an hour later was sweetness and light. Perhaps he just needs someone to let pressure out to. Only one session like that a week isn’t too bad considering how many farm visits we do!\n\nDiary 4\nMonday brought another dressing down from the farmer I mentioned last week. It was shorter and less passionate this time - perhaps he’s mellowing a bit.\nI drove up to Junction 40 one day with the sun out. It reminded me of a similar day a year ago when I could count 15 smoke plumes from pyres on the same bit of road. As I said last week anniversary memories like this aren’t especially difficult for me, they’re just there. In a lot of ways it’s quite satisfying thinking about what was happening a year ago and how well things have progressed since then. Most of our farmers have re stocked, work is returning to normal. Even things like being able to drive onto farms again rather than having to leave the car at the farm entrance makes a big difference.\nWork continues to be very busy with the typical seasonal calls to sheep and cattle. We have a couple of vet students doing work experience with us which had to stop last March as we couldn’t take extras onto farms with us. Another sign of the continuing return to normality. Some days it seems as if we have returned to how we were a year ago. The most obvious legacy is perhaps the thorough and extensive clothing disinfection between each farm - a good habit which is very hard to break!\n\nDiary 5\nI had to work on Easter Monday morning, which was fairly uneventful. As for the last few weeks there were the usual seasonal calls to sheep and cattle, but nothing too stressful.\nOn Tuesday I did the final blood sampling on the last farm that we have that is still at the sentinel stage of re stocking. The farmers seemed fairly mellow today and spared me the usual lecture/attempt at argument. Perhaps it’s because the end of his restriction is in sight. The test went very smoothly, and I didn’t hear from him until the end of the week, when I (he?) was upset (probably justifiably) that his results still weren’t back. As processing the bloods is not our responsibility all I could do was sympathise and plead ignorance!\nThe rest of the week was fairly routine work-wise. Friday was taken up doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test on a re stocked farm. They all have to be done within 3 mths of re stocking. Although it was a big job it was a well run farm with plenty of help, so we got finished within the day and with as few delays as could be expected.\nNow that the evenings are lighter it’s meant that on nights off duty I’ve been able to get out more. It’s made a very welcome change to be able to bike/walk on the fells again this year after all the restrictions of 2001. Long may it and the weather continue!\n\nDiary 6\nFinally finished the last a restocking jobs on Monday.\nThe farmer was getting very frustrated (probably justifiably so) at the length of time it was taking - the bank holidays etc last week meant to that the labs were closed so that blood samples took longer to process. I got the results at 4. 45 Monday evening and in an attempt to create some goodwill agreed to go to the farm to do a final check that evening. On arrival of the usual tirade about DEFRA and vet's came my way which was slightly hard to take. He then said that he didn't blame me personally which was nice of him. I think (hope) he realises that we can only try to get things going faster and ultimately it’s out off our hands. At least it's good to have all the restocking work finished. It feels as though the first stage is over in getting back to where we were. Another sign of returning to usual is the continuing pace of work. Nights on call are again a time for working rather than the call free nights of summer 2001. This week has brought early-morning lambing most days. The rest of the time we’re is as busy as it's been for a year. The day book is full each day and we all seem to be driving around the county more or less keeping up with the jobs! (which is a good thing!) I had the weekend off and was going to go to Edinburgh to see some friends, but in the end stayed in Penrith for some R&R!\n\nDiary 7\nI had a half-day on Monday and went to Riggindale at the head of Haweswater with a friend who had come to stay for a night or two. The plan was to see the golden eagles nesting that up to unfortunately they were off on a day trip to another part of the Lake District. But the weather was good and it made a very pleasant change from work.\nThe practice is still going flat out with seasonal work. The daily flow of lambing and lambing related sheep problems shows no sign of ebbing. There are also increasing numbers of cattle problems probably related to coming towards the spring turn-out of cattle that have been inside for 6-7 months. The fact that most of them are in new surroundings is almost certainly adding to the problems. On the whole of farmers are fairly pragmatic about the difficulties they are having. Most accept that they were bound to have problems with the restocking and on the whole are pleased just to have stock on again. Some are very keen to be as efficient as possible whereas others will more readily go along with the old farming mantra that "where there's a livestock there's a dead stock" (Not quite what the veterinary profession wants to encourage!)\nI was on call at the weekend and had one of the busier few days I can remember. Again it was mostly seasonal farm work, which although it was time-consuming is often quite rewarding. I'm still surprised by the number of sheep we are getting called to - perhaps it's because farmers have spent a lot of money on them to restock with and now feel they’re financially worth calling us for.\n\nDiary 8\nMade a couple of visits to one of our farmers who restocked over the winter this week. He's having a few problems with cows getting ill and generally not settling in very well. He's one of the most amenable farmers on our books and never seems to try to blame anyone for his troubles. At times it's very frustrating not to be able to do more for people like him. I'd like to be able to give every one of his cows a magic injection and say that it'll get better but unfortunately that's not how it works!\nWe've had a lot of colt castrations to do this week, which is normal for this time of year. It puts more pressure on us in terms of work as we usually take two vets to each castration. Considering how busy it is relations in the practice are generally very good. It has been stressful at times but on the whole this has been stress related to volume of jobs to do rather than people. It has also been a very different (and preferable) type of stress than this time of the last year. At least a lot of work makes us all feel fairly stable rather than the terrible uncertainty of last year. We’ve also taken on an extra vet this spring which would have been unthinkable last year.\nIn the middle of the week I did a farm visit with one of the vets from the local Veterinary Lab to discuss disease control on a re-stocked farm. Most of the work into disease surveillance on a farm was DEFRA funded which went down well with the farmer. She at least felt as though she was getting something back after fighting with DEFRA for the last few months. It was also encouraging to see someone taking a very positive approach to disease control in the future.\nMy cousin and some of his friends came down from Glasgow for the weekend to go into the Lake District. The weather was good on the whole and several people noted how good it was to have the paths open again.\n\nDiary 9\n Started the week doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test at a restocked farm. There has been a big backlog to clear after testing was stopped during FMD last year so we have to catch up with those farms that didn’t get the disease but are due a test as well as testing the restocking farms. We’re all very keen to keep Cumbria as a TB free zone, but with all the different stock coming in it’s going to be tricky. Monday’s test was long but okay on the whole. The set-up was good and the farming family were very pleasant which makes a huge difference to how the day goes! All was clear when I went to read the test on Thursday - a relief for all concerned.\nOverall work seems to be quietening down a bit this week compared to the last few. We are now just busy rather than always feeling as if were one job behind all the time. On Wednesday and Thursday one of our clients brought in half-a-dozen Shetland ponies to castrate .It makes a change to have a "large animal" that is small enough to be easily physically restrained by one person. The continuing good weather made doing an afternoon's work with the ponies in the practice’s field a very pleasant way to spend a few hours (I can't help feeling that no rain in April means we'll get loads later in the summer!)\nI was on a second call at the weekend. Saturday was very busy with small animal jobs which I mainly left to a colleague while I tried to clear up the farm and equine jobs. Calm was pretty much restored by late afternoon, after which I wasn't called until early Sunday morning. Another of our re-stocked clients is having considerable trouble with some of his new animals and is becoming increasingly frustrated about it. We all try to help with the medical side of it (animals) but inevitably also get to hear a lot of his other worries too. Hopefully things will look up soon and he'll be able to ride it out OK.\n\nDiary 10\nHad a day off on Bank Holiday Monday - always the good way to start the week. I went up to Peebles in Scotland with some friends to go mountain biking. It was surprisingly empty for a weekend and the weather was good, and I didn't fall off - all in all, a good day out!\nTuesday was work as usual. I had to do a small TB test on a restocking farm. It shouldn't have been a long job but the facilities weren't great, so it didn’t go as slickly as it might have done. We all managed to get through in one piece so it could have been worse.\nOne of my colleagues went on maternity this week. She is part time but does all small animal work. Now that she's off for the next few months it means that an extra vet is needed each morning to stay in and do small animal operations. While it's probably not my favourite sort of work it does make a change from being out on farms every morning. It's also good to get a bit more experience at small procedures.\nAs well as doing smaller animals this week has brought several interesting equine cases. I had to hospitalise a horse for a few days for fairly intensive treatment which fortunately appears to have made a good recovery. There have also been a couple of horse operations at the practice this week. They’re generally quite interesting apart from the stress involved with having half a ton of horse asleep on the operating table!\nI had the weekend off and went to Edinburgh for a small reunion with friends I was at college with. Although we do talk about other things conversation inevitably came round to work. The effect of FMD and its consequences are still very much in people's minds. Friends all asked how it was last year and whether farms have restocked yet etc etc. It ‘s stuff which I seem to have said hundreds of times over the last few months, but people never seem to tire of asking it, and, to an extent, I don't seem to get bored of answering it. \n\nDiary 11\nThe week started with a big TB test at a restocking dairy farm. There were very good facilities and it subsequently went very smoothly and quickly despite the number of cows involved. The farmer seems to be quite positive about the new start and has been spared a lot of the problems that other people have experienced while restocking in terms of disease in the animals. Everything was clear when I read the test later in the week\nOn Wednesday afternoon I had a bit of a change as I went castrate two ponies belonging to my mother. She had bought two totally wild Fell ponies last autumn. They now a bit tamer, but not completely used to being handled yet. I went with one of our nurses and the senior partner, and it all went pretty much to plan. \nWork is still busy. There's one client in particular who is giving us a lot to do. He restocked a few months ago and is obviously having trouble lambing his sheep. It got a bit trying when I had to get up to his third lambing of one night, but that's what we are there for I suppose! He's a nice man and always seems pleased to see us, which helps.\nI had the weekend off again and went to Glasgow to be best man at my cousin's wedding. Apart from the weather it went very well (I think) with no unsolvable problems! \n\nDiary 12\nStarted the week with a long visit for dairy fertility work to one of our big dairy farmers. It's one of the farmers who has been having problems after restocking and a visit that another vet usually does, so I felt a bit under pressure. It's the type of work, which is very routine but has the potential to go quite badly wrong. On the whole it went fairly well with no major problems. I get on pretty well with the farmer which always helps as it makes the time go by quicker.\nSmall animal work is still quite busy. I had two days inside this week doing small animals operations. There wasn't anything particularly different or unusual, but it still helps to do more of it.\nOne of our farmers who managed to miss FMD is very busy with his calving schedule at the moment. He’s tending to have very big calves, and subsequently we’re doing a lot of Caesareans there. This week has brought at least half-a-dozen, of which two were in the middle of the night - there have been a few vets are looking sleep deprived recently! I had the weekend off and went so see a couple of friends in Edinburgh. We spent one day cycling in Peebles and then proceeded to nothing strenuous for the next!\n\nDiary 13\nThe week started with a big session dehorning cattle. It’s not exactly technical work and is fairly hard work – at least it gets me fit! We would normally do them at a younger age but quite a few have been missed as we didn’t get out onto farms for such routine work last year.\nOn the whole most people are fairly well caught up now that they’ve re-stocked/been having routine work done for the last 8 months or so, but there are still a few lagging behind.\nI had a call from a farmer who was one of our most consistently and vehemently anti-DEFRA people last year. I ended up doing a Caesarean and had quite a long chat with him. Conversation ended up coming round to the events of last year and he aired his resentments again. It was the first time in several weeks that I had heard this kind of talk, whereas a few months ago it would have been a daily occurrence. It wasn’t particularly aimed at me or the practice in particular but just frustration with the system as a whole.\nI went for a walk up Blencathra one evening during the week, but the highlight of the week has to be the start of the World Cup. I’ve been on duty this w/e but managed to see all but the last two minutes of this morning’s rather disappointing draw with Sweden. Most farmers are keen to watch the matches too, so lets hope not too many calls come in at the wrong time!\n\nDiary 14\nI had the bank holiday on Monday off, which was welcome, after a weekend on call. I went for a walk in the lakes with a colleague. Considering it was a bank holiday it wasn't too crowded. Had to work on Bank Holiday Tuesday though. It wasn't especially busy until the evening when I had to do a Caesarean on a cow and then go and see a badly cut horse. Both seem to be doing OK.\nThe rest of the week was worked as usual. Nothing particularly out of the ordinary happened with fairly routine calls. Perhaps it was because everyone was preoccupied with events in Japan and Korea? Or maybe that is just me. I was booked in for an 11 am call on Friday, but managed to persuade the farmer concerned that 9.30 would be more appropriate, said that I, (or should that be we?) could watch the second England game. We managed to get finished in time and it was well worth it. The 1-0 win over Argentina put everyone in a good mood for the rest of the day and the weekend.\nI was on first call over the weekend. Saturday morning was very busy and we didn’t get all the calls done until early afternoon. After that it was one of the quietest weekends I’ve had. They were a couple of things to do on Saturday afternoon - evening, but Sunday had no calls until after lunch - almost unheard of. I had to check my phone was switched on! Long may it last!\n\nDiary 15\nI’ve done two days in the practice doing small animals this week, more than usual. The weather has not been the best so it's no bad thing. I managed to go out on rounds on Wednesday though, so I managed to catch the third England match. Second round here we come!\nI spent most of Friday morning operating on two cows at one of our farms. They both had a condition where part of the gut displaces in the abdomen, and is best repositioned surgically. The farmer observed that it was probably linked to FMD last year. Because of FMD he had to use more silage to keep his cows inside last summer. This meant he had less stored over the winter and so had none available to feed this spring/summer. The lack of silage now is almost certainly implicated in the problems his cows had. It's very unusual to have two occurring on one farm at same time. Seeing as he missed getting FMD last year though, he thought it was a price worth paying! It was actually quite a pleasant way to spend a morning - he's from Kirkby Stephen, where I went to school, and I didn't have any other jobs waiting, so it was quite a relaxed few hours. (the surgery went OK too!)\nI had a half-day on Friday and drove to valley just beyond Alston to meet one of my old flat mates from Edinburgh for his stag weekend. We stayed in an old barn in middle of nowhere, so it wasn't exactly a conventional stag party, but very enjoyable all the same. We walked to the nearest pub on Saturday to see England's exciting next instalment 3 - 0. Thank you very much. \nAfter that it's been a leisurely day and drive back to Penrith. And I’ve got another night to get my head back to normal for work tomorrow. \n\nDiary 16 \nThis week has been quite small animal orientated again. I've done two mornings in the surgery and more consulting than usual.\nI'm not meant to be on duty for nights this week but I've had a couple to cover for people who've been on holiday. Fortunately both nights were fairly quiet. I'm sure the favour will be returned sometime! During the day work has been fairly steady. We’re not quite as busy as last week, but there's enough to keep us going.\nThe practice like most of the country, tried to stop briefly while England were losing to Brazil. It's a bit disappointing - hopefully farmers and the rest of our clients won’t be too depressed about it all. It was good while it lasted!\nAt the weekend I went down to a place near Worcester for the wedding of the friend whose stag weekend it was the last week there were a lot of people from Edinburgh there why haven't seen for several years and it was great to catch up. The weather was very kind and stayed dry.\n\nDiary 18\nOn Monday I went to do a big tuberculosis and brucellosis test at of one our big dairy farms that had restocked few months ago. They’ve got several hundred cows and it took a lot longer than anticipated - I had to go back on Tuesday to finish the job off. They’re a friendly family so it wasn't really too much of a chore. There has been a more obvious change in them since FMD than for most of our clients who had the disease. They seem much quieter and less concerned about farming and life's problems in general now. Perhaps they think if they can get through 2001 then there’s nothing worth getting stressed about in comparison! \nWednesday was spent doing small animal work - made a change as on Thursday I went back to read the cows results for the TB test (all negative).\nOn Thursday night I drove down to stay with a college friend near Birmingham for the start of a long weekend. On Friday I carried on south to another friend in north Devon. She's working (another vet) in an area that was also severely affected by FMD. Cumbria was so badly hit that is sometimes easy to forget that other places had a bad time too. Thankfully work in Devon is more or less back to normal again.\nI spent the rest of the weekend in South Devon where my dad had his 60th birthday. We were lucky with the weather and had fine (ish) conditions to have a barbecue on the beach. I was off today (Monday) as well, and spent the day driving north. Too far to go for a weekend!\n\nDiary 19\nIt's been a short working week seeing as I had Monday off. I’ve also started a month back on the out of the hours of rota this week (it works a month on, a month off system) so nights and weekends have been, and will be, a bit busier.\nWork has generally been a bit quieter recently. This is fairly typical for the time of year, mainly because animals are outside and farmers are busy making hay and silage (rain permitting). We've had two vets off this week so although there have been fewer jobs in we are not left twiddling our thumbs. There has been the usual flow of a routine farm work along with horses and small animals, but nothing too taxing on the whole.\n I had a night on Thursday and went up St Sunday crag in the Lake District, with a couple of friends from Brampton. It was further than I remembered it being - we didn't get down until it was almost dark. But apart from being unseasonably cold (surprise, surprise) it was a fine night.\nIt was duty this weekend. I was on first call on Friday night and had it very easy (no calls) until 12:45pm when another vet and I had to operate on a dog until three am. I checked it again at 5.30 and then had to go to calving at 6.45. Just as that was finished I was called to a badly cut horse, then some lame cows, and then to the bacon roll shop for breakfast!\nI was only on second call for the rest of the weekend and was fairly quiet. This meant I could get on with various mundane things like painting my house, tidying the garden etc etc - ideal tasks for when I can't do anything else because I'm on call. And the dog did well! So it makes the night with no sleep worthwhile\n\nDiary 20\nHave had another short week - had Monday off as I was coming back from a long weekend away. Work this week has been fairly steady. Farmers are often busy trying to get silage/hay in at the moment so routine of vet work takes a back seat. Having said that we have been kept at least as busy as we would expect with routine fertility visits and the occasional sick cow etc. There been a few of the restocking farms that have had some fairly unusual diseases that didn't obviously fall into the ones we usually recognise or deal with. As a lot of them have bought stock in from abroad we have to at least keep in mind the possibility of new problems been brought in. \nWe've worked quite closely with the local DEFRA-run Veterinary Investigation Centre on a few of these cases but thankfully none have turned out to be anything to be unduly worried about.\nI was on duty this weekend but have fortunately been reasonably quiet. The only thing out the ordinary was a horse that had torn its leg up quite badly on some wire, but with a bit of time and bandaging it should do okay.\n\nDiary 21\n2 vets have been off this week so it's been a bit busier for the rest of us. Again as with last week it's been a mixture of routine and the standard A&E type work. There have been a few tuberculin tests going on, still trying to clear the backlog from last year. It's getting there slowly but a lot of it will have to wait until the autumn/winter when the cows are in and the farmers have more time available. Our new vet who started in April has seemed to settle in very well. He had a bit of a bad day earlier in the week when a calving did go quite as planned. It's very easy to do, especially when you feel under pressure as is bound to happen when you start a new job. It reminded me of some of the problems I had a few years ago! The farm where it happened is quite an understanding type so it won't create any real problems.\nHockey training is starting again which seems a bit premature as the season is still months away. At least it'll encourage me to do a bit more exercise to get fit for matches. The weather has meant I haven't been out into the hills as often as I would have liked but hopefully there's still time for it to brighten up a bit!\nHad the weekend off - so a couple of friends from college he now living York came to stay. We went up to the borders for the day on Saturday, near to where I used to work - it doesn't seem to have changed much (I still think I'm better off down here despite last year!) \n\nDiary 22\nWe had a bit of a rush on this week, as sometimes seems to happen. It can be quiet for couple of weeks and then it suddenly it's crazy. It may be that a lot of farms have now largely got their crops in and are trying to catch up, or perhaps it's just the way things go. Several farms have had ongoing problems this week with visits being required several days running. There have also been a large number of horse calls. This is probably fairly common for this time of year as they tend to get ridden in the (supposedly) better weather. We tend to go further afield for horses - on Tuesday I went to Kirkby Lonsdale area in morning and had to go north of Carlisle in the afternoon the miles get racked up or fairly quickly and I get to learn where the\nvarious blind spots for phone and radio reception are!\nI was on duty again on the weekend which meant that I was also on for Monday, Wednesday and Friday nights. They weren't too bad apart from Friday when I have to go and see a couple of horses. Being on duty for three week nights tends to limit what I can do apart from work, but I managed to meet up with some friends working in Brampton one night and go for a walk in the lakes on Thursday. The weekend was fairly quiet, but I was only on second call so I found time to do some decorating in the room in my house which is the current project. (I lead such a thrilling life! ?!)\n\nDiary 23\nThe calm after the storm! After the frantic levels of work we saw last week it has again been a bit more civilised this week. We've had time to have coffee and lunch breaks and actually talk to colleagues from time to time. I wouldn't want have every week is quiet as this, but occasionally it's very welcome. It's quite relaxing to be able to go on a call knowing that there is not another one waiting. It also means that if the afternoons are quiet one of us can usually have a half day. I got the nod on Wednesday and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks. They’ve got a smallholding down there with various creatures which usually have some ailment or other. It's a bit of a busman's holiday going there but it is nice having them close - I tend see them every week or two. On Wednesday I vaccinated a couple of horses and trimmed a few sheep’s feet. They went through the joys of 48 hourly surveillance inspections last year but somehow managed to come through unscathed - their parish was one of the only ones in the Kirkby Stephen area to do so.\nOther weekend I went up to Glasgow to see a cousin who was having a leaving party. I didn't know many people there but it was good to go and do something completely removed from the usual. One of the people I did know came and stayed in Penrith on Sunday night. It was a stunning day - we went the lakes which were at their best.\n\nDiary 24\nThis week was the first of four for me being off the rota, which (should) mean no nights and no weekends on call - can't be bad!\nOn Monday had a small TB test to do. It was with a very pleasant farmer and the cows behaved themselves so it wasn't a bad way to spend a morning. He's imported a small herd from Holland and seems very pleased with them so far. It takes a bit time for the F & M farmers to get used to their new stock as most of them knew their old ones so well. But on the whole people seemed fairly content with their new ones.\nI did small animal ops on Tuesday and Wednesday as one of the vets who usually do it was on holiday. We've got a new nurse starting this week so it was a case of showing her the ropes, but she seems to be doing very well.\nOne my best school friends got married on Friday. Very typically, after a fairly quiet week it suddenly got busy on Friday afternoon. I managed to get the wedding but had to miss the afternoon reception in order to go and see a horse in Appleby. That's life.\nI was one of the duty vets at Lowther show on Saturday. I hadn't done it before and had a very good time. It was generally fine weather and there were some truly stunning teams of horses in the driving event. Lots of competitors commented on how good it was to have the show up and running again after last year's cancellations. The event passed without any major incident for vet-wise, so it was a pretty calm day for me really\n\nDiary 25\nThe week's been fairly steady. I seem to have been doing more horses than anything else - I didn't go and see a cow until Friday. Several of them were ongoing cases such as leg wounds that have needed daily dressing changes and the rest a selection of vaccinations, lameness and those that aren't "quite right". I quite enjoy the horse side of the job so doing a bit more than usual has been a welcome change.\nI had planned to get to work on my house this month in my free evenings, but it doesn't really seem to have worked like that. When I know I've got a lot of free time nights tend to get booked up seeing people from home or near by who I’ve temporarily lost touch with. Also seeing as summer seems to have found us I've been trying to get into the lakes as much as possible – the house can wait till winter!\nThis weekend I’ve been down to Wales to see a group of college friends. We stayed in a cottage owned by one of the group's parents and played a few rounds of golf. I played very badly, lost a lot of balls, and became very frustrated with it all. I think it comes down to lack of talent. Still, it was good to catch up with some people I haven't seen since graduation. And I'm sure the golf will be better next year. \n\nDiary 26\nI've done (more) small animal work than anything else this week. There had been no disasters all fairly routine stuff. One of the small animal vets has been away so I had to cover a bit. I didn't actually get out onto a farm until Friday morning. It gets a bit claustrophobic inside after a while so it was good to get out. \nI was on call at the weekend and also had a college friend to stay. It was very quiet most of the time until Sunday evening. I had swapped duty to be off on the night from 6:00pm. - at 5.45 four calls all came in at once at all four corners of the practice, so I didn't actually get finished until nearly 8pm . That’s the way it goes sometimes I suppose.\nI had another half day earlier in the week as it was fairly quiet. I took my bike out into the northern lakes for a few hours to blow away the cobwebs from being inside at work\n\nDiary 27\nI had a barbecue/party this weekend for people from work and a lot of friends from college. There were a lot of people I thought I'd always keep in touch with the but as time went on I never did, so I arranged a weekend a long way in advance for us all to meet up again. About 28 people came, most of whom I haven't seen for least a year or two. Nobody seems to have changed much and it was great to see them all again. The garden and house have both taken a bit of a pounding but I think most of the mess is fairly superficial!\nI went for a walk near Howtown today to clear my head after the barbecue last night. It was a very good day weather-wise which meant that a lot of people had had the same idea as us.\nIt's been a variable week at work - some days been very quiet, others flat out. I've had an ongoing case of a young horse that had been caught up in wire on Monday evening. It was well beyond the stage where it could have been stitched when I saw it, so it'll have to heal slowly by filling the wound in. I'm sure it'll be fine, but it's going to take a long time.\nWe’re starting to get a lot of inquiries about the new rules DEFRA are bringing in to allow farmers to bring animals on to their farms in isolation facilities. It should make things less restrictive for the farmer. We are going to have to do a lot of inspections. It's not since restocking checks last winter that we’ve really had to do this sort of thing, but the checks probably won't be as exhaustive as those we had to do last year\n\nDiary 28\nHad a fairly quiet week really. This been a fairly standard mix of sick cows, a couple of lame horses and the continuation of the young horse that wrecked its leg last week (which is going okay). So it's been fairly laid-back on the whole, with time for a coffee break after most calls!\nWe have done the first of the inspections for the new on-farm isolation facilities for sheep. On the whole farmer compliance has been very good. There have been a few whinges about why they have to do it, and I can see why as it must be frustrating to suddenly be told how to run stock movements that they've always done a different way. Most can see why DEFRA are insisting on it though as it's all aimed at reducing the risk of having another situation like we did last year.\nI was off again this weekend, one of my old flat mates and his wife came to stay. They live in London so came north for a weekend of clean-living and fresh-air! We went for walks around Cat Bells and High Street on Saturday and Sunday, ate drank and were generally fairly unstressed. Hope it was what they were looking for!\n\nDiary 29\nI've had a short week in terms of work at the practice this week as I've been to Glasgow for an Equine Conference from Thursday to Saturday. Further education is not compulsory and there is no formal structure for it (which is quite controversial in some people's eyes), but the Royal College of vets do encourage us to keep up-to-date. There is a quota we’re asked to fulfil each year and these three days will help me keep on track. There were several different courses on each day, with one lecture theatre for practitioner based subjects that we could expect to see on a day-to-day basis, and another called "advanced clinical sessions" on subjects and cases so obscure that you'd be lucky to hear of one, let alone see one, more than once or twice. (I didn't go to many of those lectures!).\nAs well as being useful in terms of picking up new information it was also a good chance to catch up with old friends from college. Lots of people I hadn't seen for a year or two were there and it was good to see them.\nThe first three days of the week were okay. I went out on Tuesday morning to trim some lame cows feet and ended up accidentally trimming some skin from the farmers thumb with my hoof knife. All a bit embarrassing and felt very bad but he didn't seem that fazed by it and he's not the type to bear a grudge. (perhaps I shouldn’t try to keep my knife so sharp )\nAnother of the week's more interesting events was an Irish Wolfhound that needed surgery to correct a twisted and distended stomach. It's fairly common in this type of dog and is a real emergency. Another vet and I operated on him on Tuesday afternoon. It took a couple of hours but (so far) is seems to have been worth it as he's done very well and apparently went home on Friday.\n\nDiary 30\nI spent most of Monday afternoon/evening irradiating myself by taking dozens of X-rays of a horse’s legs. It was being sold for a lot of money and the insurance company wanted to check all its joints were OK before insuring it. It took a lot longer than anticipated as it was difficult to get it positioned absolutely right for each view but we got there in the end. We have to be quite careful about exposure to X-rays but my X-ray badge hasn't shown a high reading yet!\n2 vets have been off this week (one on his honeymoon and one has been away doing AI on sheep) its often a bit quieter now but we seem to have been kept going. I did a big routine fertility visit to one of our dairy farms on Wednesday. One of the main things we do on these visits is manual pregnancy diagnosis. It's not too bad with dairy calves cows as if they're not in calf they would normally get another chance to do so, but with some beef farms or a dairy cow that is persistently not conceiving , it sometimes more economic to get rid of the cow of rather than persisting. So there's a big incentive for us to get it right, or at least not to say a cow isn't in calf when she is (luckily they were all quite straightforward this week)\nThis was my last before going away to the USA for a fortnight. I fly to New York tomorrow to meet up with an old flatmate of mine who's a journalist out there. I'm crossing the Atlantic to see him and he's given me directions to his flat rather than meeting me at the airport because I'm arriving when Premiership football is on TV. Charming.\n\nDiary 31\nTwo weeks in the States. Can't be bad. I flew into New York where I stayed with a friend who's working in Manhattan. I did a lot of the usual tourist things - Empire State Building, boat trip around the island, Central Park etc. For its size it's a very relaxed place in a lot of ways - it feels very safe and although there is loads going on you never seem to get hassled.\nWe flew to New Orleans for a week, supposedly for some sun in the Deep South, but landed just as a tropical storm hit the mainland. Everything was closed for two days (as bad as UK when it snows). Once the weather cleared it was fine and we again went about being tourists - paddle boat up the Mississippi River, out on a boat in the Louisiana swamps to look at alligators, and a bit of New Orleans nightlife.\nI had a few more days in New York before flying home. \n\nDiary 32\n First week back after America. Had a good trip, but the week has been rather marred by the death of one of the hockey team (and a year-mate of mine at school) in a tractor accident when he was hit by a wagon on the A 66 on Thursday. I saw him on Wednesday night at hockey training. He was very stiff having done the Great North Run with his wife the weekend before. I didn't know him very well at school but have got to over the last few years via hockey and he really was a tremendously good person and will be much missed by lots of people in and around Kirkby Stephen. The weekend's match was postponed as no one could have thought about playing - it all seems very trivial when this sort of thing happens. I couldn't have played anyway as I'm on duty this weekend, but fortunately it's been fairly quiet so far - a calving and 2 Caesareans, but it's getting into calving season so it's about par for the course.\nThe first half of the week was OK. I was even given a half-day on Tuesday - a day and a half after returning from holiday. I went for a walk at the bottom end of Derwent Water, and then tried to sleep off some jet lag.\n\nDiary 33\nI went to Matthew's funeral on Tuesday. How popular he was was reflected in the number of people there. We arrived 25 minutes before it was due to start and still had to stand, and had to move up as more people tried to fit into the chapel. It almost seemed as if all of Kirkby had come to a standstill. It went on quite a long time so I had the afternoon off and went to see my parents (who live near Kirkby) afterwards.\nWe cancelled hockey training on Wednesday as it seemed too soon to go on as usual, but decided play our Scheduled match on Saturday. Both our team and the opposition had two minute silence before the match. We ended up drawing 0 - 0, but it was a very good close game (we normally lose to this team), and played in a competitive but fair spirit. Just what was needed for our first match back. I'm actually on duty again this weekend but one my colleagues covered for me for a few hours so I could go to play.\nThe cases at work have been fairly steady this week. I'm going to enrol for a further qualification in Equine practice in the next week or two. I'm doing a reasonable amount of horse work at the moment, but will try to do a bit more over the next few months/years. It should motivate me to read up on cases more and find slightly more constructive ways to spend evenings on call!\n\nDiary 34\nTB testing! Our biggest beef herd had its post restocking test this week. About 600 cattle were to be done. There’s no way it could be done in one go so we did it over 3 instead (originally planned for two, but ran out of daylight). It all went smoothly on the whole (or at least as well as could be expected), and everything has been cleared as negative. I found out from DEFRA a few weeks ago that there have actually been quite a few TB cases in the county since restocking. As we'd been clear for years previously to FMD this is obviously a bit of a worry. We haven't had any cases in our practice but if we can't stamp out these new cases as they are found it’s only a matter of time before it spreads further afield. The more we get in the county also means there will have to be more testing. At the moment it's begrudgingly accepted by the farmers, but if we have to do more I can see them having a sense of humour failure over it. Ultimately it's in their interest for us to check that their herd is free, but it is a big time commitment and they don't get paid for it.\nWhile I spent two days testing the rest of the week had a bit more variety. I saw few horses, mainly lameness, but also one or two with other ailments. I have to write a casebook for the Equine certificate I'm doing I’m on the lookout for suitable cases during my rounds.\nI had the weekend off - played hockey in Manchester and then went to Worcester to see some college friends. I had to drive back via Ely (!) as the trains are cancelled due to the winds, which meant a friend was stranded. Not a very direct route to Cumbria. \n\nDiary 35\nThe week started on Monday morning with another TB test on a restocking farm. It's not a big farm and was one of the late ones to get FMD. It's run by a very nice but quite intense family. The son has taken re-stocking very seriously and has obviously thought of it very much as an opportunity to start from scratch and try to eliminate some of their previous herd problems. I have consequently spent quite a bit of time advising him over the various vaccines available and their relative pros and cons. Thankfully things seem to be paying off so far with few problems in herd. One of the things that I noticed during the test was that they made one or two jokes about last year (sorry - forgotten exactly what they said). I thought the fact that they were able to now talk about FMD like that had to be a good sign, as I think it would have been highly unlikely a year ago. \nOn Wednesday afternoon I went up to Wigton to vet a horse for a potential buyer. There were several minor things wrong with it but overall it seemed OK. It's always a responsibility vetting horses as someone is either trying to buy it or not on the basis of what I find. In this case it took quite a lot of convincing the buyer that the imperfections were not that serious. (Hopefully they won’t subsequently turn out to be a problem!)\nI've started doing more horse cases recently and on Tuesday sent off my application form to be accepted to do further exams in horse practice. I have to wait until next year to find out whether I've been accepted, and won't sit them until 2005. I was off this weekend and played hockey in Manchester. Unfortunately we didn't win. Maybe next week. Saturday evening I went down to Kendal to see an old flatmate who lives there.\n\nDiary 36\nOn Tuesday I went to see a horse near Carlisle. It had developed a swelling on its lower jaw that was fairly painful to touch. They were a few possibilities but the most likely was that it had at tooth root abscess. I put it on to antibiotics, but seeing as it had obviously been going on for a while, thought it was worth taking some X-rays. There was obvious destruction of the tooth visible on the X-ray, which probably means it needs removing. This is a fairly major undertaking on a horse and as it was a valuable creature still in training I thought it best to send to Edinburgh vet school to have it done. Hopefully I'll be able to go and see it done in a day or two's time.\nOne of the aspects (drawbacks? (not really!)) of being a vet his that one is often asked about animal ailments out of work. (I’m sure it happens a lot in other jobs too.) My mother is very adept at this not that I really mind. Her elderly terrier that we grew up with has started having one or two problems recently. I suggested a few possibilities but thought it best if she went to the local vets to have her looked at. The problem was she was so bad tempered (the terrier) that they couldn’t safely blood sample her, so she had a day out to Penrith so that I could try to take blood from her. I managed to more-or-less intact, and fortunately her results seemed more or less in order (or at least better than her temper).\nThe general work in the practice has been fairly steady this week. A few farmers seem to be having quite a few cows calving at the moment which is a bit unseasonal, but I suppose a reasonable number tend to calve all-year-round. We haven't really got into calf pneumonia season yet but it can't be long before they start to keep us busy. It will soon take over from lungworm as the main bovine respiratory problem.\nThe weekend was off again brought a victory in a hockey match. The start of a winning streak perhaps? I went up to Edinburgh after the match to see a few friends and for the start of a week off. Wahey!\n\nDiary 37\nIt's a week off - can't be bad. I didn't do what I had planned due to an unforeseen change in circumstances, but still good. As I was in Edinburgh last weekend I decided to stay up for few days. This was partly to see friends and also because I had referred the horse with a bad tooth that I mentioned last week. (voluntary work experience during time off - dedication or very rash?). I spent Tuesday at the vet School in Edinburgh with one of my old tutors. The case I had sent up was successfully treated (so far) by removing the offending tooth. It was very interesting to see how he did it as he used a different technique to the one we’ve used in the practice. I spent the rest of the day there with him seeing other cases. It felt a bit odd being there not as a student. I came home on Tuesday evening and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks on Wednesday morning. I spent most of the rest of the week either at their house or mine doing things like stocking up on firewood for the winter, sorting my house out and making a start on stripping the wallpaper in my hallway. I normally go away when I take time off but it was actually very nice to do things at home for change. It made for quite a relaxing week on the whole!\n\n\nDiary 38\nBack to work. It was good to have a week off last week, but one of the best things about where I work and what I do is that I never seem to feel reluctant to go back to work. I think that must mean I enjoy it on the whole!\nOn Tuesday I went back to see the horse that had had its tooth removed last week. It's doing very well and is back in training. It was eating very well as soon as the tooth came out - it's amazing how animals often seem to deal with pain so stoically. I'll check it again next week and, all things being well, that should be it.\nOn Tuesday afternoon I happened to see another slightly unusual case in a horse. It had developed a lump on the outside of its cheek which on closer inspection turned out to be a large mass (man?) inside its mouth. It's probably going to have to be removed and should come in next week for it to be done.\nThe rest of the week was the usual mix of more routine cases. Have been on to more farms this week than I have done for a while. We recently took on a new dairy farm near Appleby and I went to see a cow there for the first time. On a first visit you always hope for something straightforward so that it's easy to make a good first impression. On this occasion the cow was very sick and wasn't really giving me many clues as to why. All I could do was treat it for the symptoms it was showing. I saw it twice on Friday and again on Saturday and by evening it was on the mend. I never did reach a conclusive diagnosis but I think the farmer was satisfied by the fact that it had got better in spite of not knowing quite what was wrong!\nI was on duty Friday night (very quiet) and on Saturday. Apart from the cow I mentioned it was fairly easy going. Today I went down to Kirkby Stephen to see some old friends staying with my parents.\n(two weeks with no TB testing!! (it'll change next week!)).\n\n\nDiary 39\nIt's been a fairly uneventful week at work. There don't seem to have been any particularly on-going or notable cases. In some ways it's not a bad thing as it makes for a fairly stress-free time. It's not that you can really switch off but it does mean that when there are a few fairly straightforward cases to see it's possible to spend more time chatting to the farmer/owner without having to work too hard finding what's wrong with the patient.\nThis week's most interesting case was a horse with amazingly extensive arthritis in its hind legs considering its age. It's not a terminal condition but it does have implications as to what it will be possible to use it for in future. In situations like that it can be quite difficult to give the client the right outlook. They often expect a quick cure, especially in a young horse and to tell them that a problem has been present for months, if not years, and will never completely go away can come as a bit of shock. The owner in this case was very sensible and seemed to taking what was said very well.\nThe other good thing about this week is that I'm having a very good run with my duties - I've been on for two nights on first call and the phone hasn't gone once - very unusual and very welcome! (this must be tempting fate...)\nI've had the weekend off - there was a hockey match on Saturday when we lost to the league leaders but avoided humiliation. The rest of the two days was spent trying to progress with decorating the hallway before friends come to stay over Christmas and New Year. Am I not too young to be spending weekends off decorating??! \n\nDiary 40\nI had a good test of my diplomacy skills this week with an irate farmer. I had spent four hours doing a TB test on a very cold day when it should have taken about one-and-a-half hours. In my rush to get defrosted in my car afterwards I forgot to shut the gate in the field where I had parked. On my return to the surgery I was greeted by the news that he had rung wanting my head on a stick and forbidding me from ever setting foot on his farm again as all his tups had gone walkabout through the gate I'd left open. On advice from the partners at the practice who knew him better I gave him a day to calm down and then wrote a very grovelling letter! I was allowed to go back at the end of the week to read the test results (which fortunately was all clear). I think he's forgiven me.\nOne of the more common cow operations we do is to correct a displaced stomach. In the two and a half years I've been at the practice we’ve always done it using one particular technique. There are circumstances where another method is indicated and having not seen them for 2½ years, there were 2 this week. They both went well (so far). Another two years before the next?\nI took my last day off for 2002 on Thursday and again spent it decorating. On Thursday night we had our Practice Christmas meal. The two vets on duty managed not to get called out and on the whole I think people weren't too hung over on Friday. Last year there was a bit of a debate as to whether we should have a Christmas night out as most farmers were either just starting to restock or still cleaning out. This year it was much more straightforward.\nOn Friday night it was the annual night at Hesket Newmarket organised by the local DEFRA lab for any local vets that want a meal and beers. It's a good chance to catch up with other vets from neighbouring practices in (very) informal atmosphere.\n\nDiary 41\nI've had a couple of vet students staying with me this week who I knew when I was in my final year at Edinburgh. They're doing work experience with us for a week or so. It's made a pleasant change to have some company for a while. I have also acquired two stray kittens in the last week - the usual vet procedure of eventually finding an unwanted patient that you can't resist taking yourself. They are settling in ok and we’ve only had to have one or two little discussions about the benefits of using a litter tray rather than the carpet.\nThe week at work has been reasonably busy - a good thing this week as there have been three students and it's a bit dull for them if there is nothing going on. We had a horse in for most of the week with a severe respiratory infection. It’s needed fairly intensive care but seems to be on the mend now. I may use it as a case to write up as part of the exam I'm hoping to do in a few years. It'll have to be a New Year's resolution to get on with the writing up part of it.\nApart from a horse it's been the usual sort of mix - a few routine fertility visits to dairy farms, a few sick cows and horses etc. There been some TB tests this week but I've managed to miss them all - must be saving some for me next year.\nI had a lot of people from work here on Friday night for pre-Christmas mulled wine and mince pies. I'm not quite sure the kittens knew what was happening but I think the rest of us enjoyed it!\nI've had the weekend off and went down to see a friend in Birmingham who qualified last summer. This was her second weekend on call so I went to give moral support. Being on call isn't stressful anymore but I remember for the first few times it's difficult not to be aware of the phone all the time and hoping it doesn't ring. There weren't many calls and those that did come in she didn't need me for - suited me well.\n\nDiary 42\nThe week of Christmas and my first job of the week was to replace a particularly contaminated uterine prolapse in a cow. It finally went back in after an hour or so of fairly fruitless efforts. Very festive. This week and next we had fewer vets than usual working each day as we all have a few days off for Christmas/New year so it‘s sometimes a bit busy during the day. It's generally worth it for the extra time off.\nI was off on Monday night and went to Kirkby-Stephen to see school friends back for the holiday. Although we don't see each other very often any more people don't really seem to change very much. A good friend whose parents farm had F and M have sold up and are going into B&B instead. I think it was a hard decision but now they seen to be quite relieved to be out of it.\nI was on duty on Christmas Eve and fortunately didn't have to go out - I just had three phone calls between 7 and 9 p m. from people saying their dog or cat had been off food for periods varying from three weeks to 10 days. Christmas Eve seemed an odd time to notice this.\nI went home to Kirkby Stephen for Christmas and Boxing Day and didn't really do very much. I had a look at a couple of Mum’s sheep but other than that it was just a case of being lazy and enjoying seasonal food and drink.\nI was on duty this weekend, which turned out, be fairly busy. One of the students who came to stay last week came back to do some on-call work which turned out to be very useful. A couple of cows to operate on (as Caesar and a displaced stomach) where two pairs of hands are better than one and quite a few small animals to see to.\n\nDiary 43\nI've had most of this week off for New Year (Tuesday to Friday) which is pretty good going seen as I was off for Christmas as well. Monday was fairly quiet with just a few farm calls to do and some small animals. Rather worryingly we've heard that a local deer farm (not one of our customers) has gone down with TB, apparently with quite a few deer in the herd having it. This means that we'll have to do TB check tests on any of our farms that neighbour the affected premises.\nOver New Year my cousin, her husband and their five (!) children (young) came to stay. It wasn't too hectic on the whole, with just the occasional loss of humour. A couple of friends from work came round to join us for New Year itself.\nI've had to work this weekend (part of the deal for getting four days off midweek) but it's not really been that busy. I've only been on second call and have only had to do 2 calls so far - an easy return to work after New Year excesses!\n\nDiary 44\nBack to normal quota of vets at work again this week, which is good as it seems to have been very busy. Most of it has been the usual sort of things for the time of year - cows starting to get lame after having been inside for a few months and metabolic problems, probably related to the poor silage last year's summer rain created. Quite a few farmers have a large amount of 2001 silage left as it wasn't used over winter 2001/2002 as they hadn't restocked. On the whole it's kept very well and in many cases is better than the crop they made last summer.\nThe fall-out from the deer herd TB has arrived. Two neighbouring farms to test this week. The first one has come back negative to the relief of all concerned. I did the second one on Friday and will read it tomorrow (Monday). The farmers there are all very concerned about it which is understandable but hopefully groundless. There are lots of questions being asked along the lines of "what if….” some of which I can answer and some not. It does remind me a bit of February 2001 when FMD broke out and there were all sorts of queries about the disease, its progression etc that none of (us?) really knew about. It didn't take long for us to know the answers to most of them.\nI've had this weekend off - a hockey fixture list has started again after the Christmas break. A return to winning ways - hopefully to continue…\n\nDiary 45\nThe week had a bad start - the TB test I did last Friday produced two reactors and two inconclusive (borderline) reactors this means that the farm isn't allowed to move at any bovines on or off the farm except directly to slaughter under licence. The reactors are taken away for post-mortem examination and the inconclusive reactors are isolated for 60 days until the rest of the herd is re-tested. The farmer was very keen to get the inconclusive animals removed as well (quite understandably in my opinion) so that they couldn't pose a threat to the rest of his herd. Apparently DEFRA aren't allowed to do this, I think largely due to financial reasons. While fully appreciating the need to protect taxpayers' money, considering how much was spent in 2001 I think this a potentially flawed argument. Perhaps the rules need to be changed? But then again I'm not an epidemiologist and perhaps they don't actually pose a threat.\nThe farmer seemed very depressed by it all. I think a lot of it is the feeling of having the stigma of being a farm under DEFRA restrictions again. He was also very aware of the threat he was to his neighbours and was desperately keen to minimise it. It's actually quite small while the cows are still indoors but I think people are still very much thinking of how serious it was for neighbours if someone got FMD. TB is a very different type of organism and it’s a question of getting people to understand this (which isn't to say it's not a very serious problem).\nOn the same day another farm in the area (not ours) was confirmed with TB so it's definitely progressing in Cumbria - depressing. All we can do is follow DEFRA instructions on testing and try to keep on top of it.\nOne of my colleagues tore a knee ligament last week while skiing. He normally does mostly large animal calls. Seeing as he's now confined to the practice doing small animals I've taken over couple of the farms he does routine fertility visits for. It makes a change to spend time on farms I don't visit often (although I hear the small animal nurses are quite keen for Matt to get back to doing them!) \n\nDiary 46\nOne of our dairy farmers has had a big outbreak of pneumonia in his calves this week - I've been to the farm at least once every day this week. The tests we've done are usually pretty sensitive but have failed to reveal any of the usual causes. Treatment seems to have been working in some cases but not in others. He hasn't lost any (i e none dead) but the loss in body weight is very obvious. It's all been a bit frustrating really. He's a very pleasant guy and hasn't said anything but when treatments repeatedly fail to get expected (and predicted) results I can't help feeling that he must be getting a bit sceptical about it. Or perhaps I'm just being paranoid! By the end of the week the majority seem to be on the mend but seeing as we haven't tracked down the causative agent it's hard to know what vaccination to recommend next year. There are some more tests that will come back in two weeks which may be more revealing.\nIn midweek I did one of the fairly common operations to correct a twisted stomach in a cow. Surprisingly it was the first time this dairy farmer had had one done and he took some convincing that it was a good idea. Having persuaded someone to pay for a procedure I always feel under a bit more pressure than usual. Fortunately it went pretty well and the cow is, so far, doing well.\nI was on second call this weekend, which turned out to be pretty quiet. I think we must be in a lull before lambing really kicks in - let's enjoy it while it lasts!\n\nDiary 47\nAfter not doing any testing last week it was my turn again this week. It wasn't a big one (only about 30 cows) but it was a bit more risky than usual as it was a herd of Beef Longhorns. And they do have long horns! Whilst trying to manoeuvre them into a crush to inject their necks with tuberculin we always had to be ready to take evasive action if they made a sudden turn. I don't think they ever tried to use their horns aggressively but they were so big that they become dangerous weapons when they were just moving normally. As it turned out no one received any injuries and, very importantly, the test was negative.\nThis week also brought my first lambing of the year. Other people have done a few but this was my first. We have a couple of farms who lamb early for the early lamb sales - it seems very hard work at this time of year - but the early prices do seem to make it worthwhile. Give it another week or two and a sure they’ll start to become more frequent.\nI took Friday off as I had to get to London for 4 pm. to get on the Eurostar to go skiing. Typically the one day of the year that the country ground to halt was Thursday night/Friday. We managed to make it to Waterloo station only to find the station in chaos as all Eurostars had been cancelled due to snow in France (at least it's not just Britain that can’t cope with it!) after being assured that none would run for 24 hours they suddenly told us to board, only 1½ hours late - very pleasant surprise. We ended up arriving in Val d'Isere on time, with loads of snow and blue skies. I tried to spare a thought for whoever was on call at weekend. I managed it (just).\n\nDiary 48\nAfter the weather almost prevented us from reaching Val d’Isere it was very clear for the first few days but then the snow returned for three days. We couldn't do much during that time but it did mean that there were fantastic conditions for the last few days. We had a group of 29 and completely filled one large chalet. There were, for once, no major skiing injuries within the group and I think a good time was had by all. \n\nDiary 49\nBack to work this week. I’m never reluctant to go back after a week off and sometimes, dare I say it, even look forward to it - must be a good sign?\nApparently last week was OK at work with no major dramas. We still haven't found any more TB cases but the screening continues all the time. One of the rules for re-stocking herds compared to herds that missed FMD is that all bovines over 42 days old have to be tested rather than just the adults. Last year when there weren't many calves around this didn't make much difference, but now most farms have at least a year's worth of calves in place it doubles the size of most tests. Often calves won't fit in crushes and are very wild so it can get quite exciting. It seems a necessary policy though - one of the reactors I found a few weeks ago was a six-month old stirk.\nI've had a fairly quiet week. I've had a couple of nights on duty which were both quiet. There's a horse near Carlisle that I think I've mentioned before with a recurrent tooth problem. We thought we'd finally sorted that but this week she developed a problem with one of the tendons on her foreleg. It's a bit disappointing for her owner as she only bought the horse recently in order to compete to a very high standard and she seems to () permanently off training with one ailment or another. I don't think it's too serious so hopefully in another week or two she'll be back to work.\nI've been off this weekend - came second in the weekend’s hockey match. A real case of defeat been snatched from the jaws of victory. I went for a walk around the Great Gable/Scafell area on Sunday afternoon - it was amazing how much snow and ice was still left over from winter weather a week or so ago. Maybe I needn't have bothered going abroad.\n\nDiary 50\nI found another positive TB case on Friday. I did the test on Tuesday on a very large beef herd on a restocking farm. Including calves they must have been just over 400 cattle to do. There was one reactor on Friday and two inconclusives. There is a possibility that it is a false positive - the farm has been having big problems with something called at Johne’s disease which is caused by a similar type of bacterium to the one that causes TB. There is a small possibility of a cow carrying Johne’s disease cross-reacting with the TB test injection. I actually blood sampled all the adult cows on Tuesday to screen the herd for Johne’s in order to try to start eradicating it from herd. It'll be interesting to see whether the positive test cow will be positive for Johne’s. Ultimately it doesn't really make much difference in the short term - the farm’s been placed under restrictions and the affected cow has been taken off for post mortem. One of my colleagues found another positive reactor on a different farm on Friday as well - that's three farms in the practice now and around 50 - 60 within Cumbria. The big worry now this is that the longer it stays around the more likely (inevitable?) it is disease will get into wildlife reservoirs - deer, and perhaps badgers depending on whether you believe that badgers are an influence or not. Time will tell, but I'm sure it's going to keep us busy for several years if not a lot more.\nI did a test on Monday as well on a small farm that I've never been to before - at least testing is one way of getting on to small farms who don't often need us. This one was all clear.\nThe remainder of the week was spent doing more usual work. Lambing’s still not quite got into full swing although we are seeing a slow increase in the number of sheep been brought to the surgery.\n\nDiary 51\nNo TB testing for me this week and no more positive cases in the practice. The first case that I found back in January was confirmed as carrying TB this week though. Although it's bad news for the farmer it is quite reassuring to know that the tests and methods we use do detect carrier animals reasonably accurately.\nThis week has been fairly busy without ever getting too hectic. I operated on a cow on Tuesday which for a number of reasons didn't go quite as smoothly as it might have done. It subsequently didn't do as well post-operatively as we would normally expect. The coming week should see an improvement (I hope). We can never give cast iron guarantees about the outcome of surgery but it is quite rare for this Op to fail, so fingers crossed for Monday. I had to see a horse with colic earlier in the week which on my first visit to I was very suspicious that it was going to require surgery to correct. The owner wasn't prepared for that happen though so it was a question of trying to manage it medically or euthanizing it. It wasn't in undue pain so we gave it a go medically, and much to my (pleasant) surprise over the next few hours and visits he did very well. (just goes to show we are not all-knowing!!!) It would have been interesting to know whether it was a surgical condition which somehow righted itself or whether it was a medical case all along which simply appeared as something more serious. I had to work for an hour or so on Saturday morning doing small animal consultations and then had the rest of the weekend off. We came second in a hockey match again and then I went up to Edinburgh to catch up with some college friends who haven't seen for a while.\n\nDiary 52\nThis week has really seen the start of the lambing season. The sheep every day or every other day that we've been seeing for the last month or so has turned into one every few hours during the day (and during the night in some cases). It’s encouraging that farmers are still bringing them in/calling us out as many feel that sheep aren't worth paying vet fees for. This obviously creates a welfare problem in many situations as inappropriate and inadequate treatment is sometimes provided by the farmer. Having said that I can see why some take the attitude of not spending money on them as prices are often so low.\nThe other aspect of lambing time is that nights get very busy - on Monday I had a ewe caesarean at 2am, then a horse that had just foaled at 3.15.\nI had an hour or so in bed and then a sick cow at 6.20. Although it can be a bit tiring, on the whole cases we see out of hours are not the run-of-the-mill routine things so it does at least make it interesting (which isn't always the first thing on my mind when the phone rings at 3am!)\nUnfortunately the cow I operated on last week failed to improve and I had to re operate on Monday. This is far from ideal as it carries a much higher risk of infection than first-time operation. Somewhat to my surprise it seems to be doing very well now. Cows seem to be amazingly resilient if I'd had abdominal surgery twice in a mucky cow byre I'm sure I wouldn't cope as well.\nI did the same Op on a different farm later in the week which went much better. I’d be getting worried about my technique if two in a row went wrong.\nI've worked Saturday morning again supposedly just for an hour but it turned into about two-and-a-half as things kept coming in. I went up to Edinburgh again after hockey (came second again) to see someone who's left his job to go around the world for six months.\n\nDiary 54\nThe beginning of the week saw a visit to a horse, which had a chronic episode of laminitis (a hoof condition). In this horse's case it had become very severe and really beyond the point where treatment is feasible. Euthanasia was the best option for the horse as it was in a lot of pain. Unfortunately the owner was very reluctant for this and wanted to carry on with treatment. This sort of situation does crop up from time to time and is difficult for all concerned. In the end I told the owners what I thought the chances of recovery were and let them make their decision, which was to continue treatment. Hopefully I'll be proved wrong and the horse will recover, but I can't really see it happening. I saw another case later in the week which ended up going to Liverpool University for surgery. It was a small pony that had managed to cut itself very severely on barbed-wire (horses always find something to injure themselves on). There was a risk that it had penetrated a joint so I sent it to Liverpool to be flushed. As far as I know it's doing very well so far.\nThe rest of the workload this week has been the usual stuff for the time of year. Loads of lambing, a few TB tests (negative!) - generally kept busy.\nOn Friday I went to Edinburgh for a few days course on Equine neurology. I knew most of the speakers (and some delegates) from when I was a student there - it was good to see people again (and I learnt a few things about horses brains and nerves!)\nSaturday was our last hockey match of the season - a draw. We didn't win the league by any stretch of the imagination (but we weren't last either!)\n\nDiary 55\nAnother manic spring week goes by. I've been on duty this weekend and the two of us on call have done as many calls in the last two days has eight vets would expect to do in two week days in the summer. We haven't been bored!\nI didn't leave the practice building until lunchtime on Saturday as there was a constant flow of small animals to see to and a few sheep brought in with lambing problems. I eventually left at 1.30 p m. to go to operate on a cow with a twisted stomach that was meant to be done at 11 am. The Op went a OK but it was then straight back to the surgery to do a caesarean on a whelping bitch with the help of a student who is seeing practice with us. Between then and 9 pm. It was a variety of sick cows, sheep to lamb and a calf with lead poisoning at the far end of Ullswater (would have been a very nice drive out if it hadn't been for the rush!). To top things off I had a cow caesarean at 9 pm. It was very useful having a student to help all day - I think it was a bit of an eye opener for her!\nSunday morning gave me to more Caesareans (sheep this time - variety is the spice of life), a cat who had very mysteriously lost a leg overnight (perhaps caught in a trap?) but was in incredibly good health otherwise - it's amazing what animals can withstand - and a good supply of other calls to keep me out of mischief. It has actually been quite enjoyable despite being so hectic, and (I think) most of the cases have been quite successful which always helps.\nThe rest of the week seems a distant memory but on the whole it was more of the same, but at a slower pace! I did another small TB test which was negative. Anyway a night off tonight - I need a pint!!\n\nDiary 56\nMonday morning was the 60 day re-test for the first herd that I found TB in. It was a sunny day and on the whole the test went very smoothly. The farmer's buildings are getting very overcrowded though, as he is under a movement restriction due to the TB. First day started well as all the animals were giving negative readings, but then came the dreaded reaction to the injections we gave on the first day. There were four reactors in total; three of which were borderline and the other was very very obvious. The frustrating thing is that the obvious one was a borderline reactor last time but DEFRA refused to take it as it isn't in their policy to take inconclusive reactors found on a routine test. This means that an animal that is actually infected his left on premises to potentially infect other animals. The farmer had tried to point this out two months ago to no avail. He is now vindicated in his view, not that that is much consolation for the fact that his restrictions are to be continued and he may well (probably will in fact) now have more carriers which won't be found until the next Test in 60 days' time. The reason for not initially taking inconclusive reactors is to save money by not paying for the animals to be slaughtered that aren't actually infected. In cases like this it seems to be a real false economy and doesn't win DEFRA \nfriends in the farming community.\nTuesday and Wednesday this week were mainly horse jobs. A horse with a recurrent tooth problem that I've mentioned before came in for more X-rays and finally seems to be doing OK. Its competing in Germany in a week or two so I do hope it stays OK! This weekend I went for a walk in the lakes with one of my old flatmates from Edinburgh. The weather held and was amazingly hot for the time of year - almost got sunburnt.\n\nDiary 57\nI've had a final year student from Edinburgh staying with me this week while she's seeing practice with us. Final exams are looming and I think the stress levels are rising. It's very easy to think of all the things you don't know but I think we've more or less managed to convince her that she does know enough not to be a liability when she qualifies!\nShe saw an interesting incident on a call we did early in the week. I'd gone to replace a uterine prolapse in a cow, which went okay, but the farmer then asked me to falsely certify a cow. We can give certificates to cows over 30 months of age under the BSE scheme, for which farmers are compensated. This cow had to be put down, but wasn't 30 months for another four days. He was understandably "quite upset" about this and let me know! It’s this sort of thing that is a nightmare for anyone but especially someone just starting - you want to please the farmer and make a good impression, but you also have responsibility to not abuse your ability to use your signature. In the end I explained why he couldn't have a certificate and he did calm down. I'm sure Vicky will have similar situations before too long - diplomatic, as well as clinical, skills develop very quickly once in practice!\nAnother interesting case came in on Thursday - a year old foal needed emergency surgery on a hernia. As luck would have it it was our first relatively quiet morning for a few weeks so we had enough vets on hand to do the surgery and anaesthetic. The Op went well and the horse has gone home this weekend.\nI've been on second call this weekend and things have been busy but not unmanageable. I did 2 Belgian Blue Caesareans in the space of six hours on one farm yesterday but since then it's just been a reasonable stream of calls rather than the madness of two weekends ago.\n\nDiary 58\nFollowing my going up on a course on neurology a few weeks ago a case came up this week. It's not often that we see neurological cases so it's quite a coincidence. I think it must have some kind of tumour in its brain causing it to show the various signs it has. Unfortunately the only way to firmly diagnose this is by post mortem, which is how most neurological cases end up and, alas, I fear this one will too.\nI went to do a fertility check at one of our dairy farms on Tuesday. The vet he normally has was away and he looked a bit put out when I turned up. I think (hope) I managed not to abort any of his cows and he seemed very cheery by the time I left. I suppose it's understandable that farmers tend to want continuity with which vet comes. Work continues to be very busy. An indication in the increase in daily workload is that we've had to introduce a specific messages book at work as there's no longer room to write people messages in the day book as it so full with appointments. They used to be a few days in the year when both pages of the day book were full (the first day of FMD in Penrith had one call) but this week 4 days have been full. It's got to be a good sign really and as I think I've said before, it does stop us all from getting bored!\nI've had three days off over Easter (Friday - Sunday) and two friends and their two mad dogs have been to stay (my cats were not impressed). On Good Friday we went up Plaice Fell. I accidentally brought us down a much more direct route than I intended so we had to while away some time in the garden of the Patterdale Hotel. Life's hard! Yesterday we left the bank holiday crowds in the lakes and went for a walk in the Eden Valley - didn't see a soul. It's amazing the difference a few miles can make. I suppose it hasn't got the hills and isn't as famous, but the scenery is still pretty impressive. But let's not tell anyone and then it might stay quiet on bank holidays….\n\nDiary 59\nI was on duty on Easter Monday but it wasn't too hectic - in fact it was almost unbelievably quiet. There were three of us on duty bracing ourselves for the usual spring onslaught and we only had about two calls each to do all morning. Weird how it sometimes turns out like that. Lambing is definitely quietening down now. The 5-10 lambings coming in each day is turning into 2-3. It's mostly fell sheep lambing now which tend to be easier to lamb so few are in need our/farmer’s assistance.\nIt's starting to get into the horse castration season. We've had the odd one or two over the last few weeks but have had about five this week one of my colleagues, who is next up from me in terms of experience, and I have started doing them together whereas a few years ago after it would always have been at least one of the partners and one of us. We must be improving!\nTB testing seems to have calmed down a bit too. As a practice we’re pretty much up to date with it and as farmers start to turn their cows out they'll become more reluctant to do it. With the way it’s spreading in the county though we have to try to keep up-to-date with it or it really is going to get out of hand.\nI've had this weekend off. It was my sister's birthday yesterday so I went to meet her and my folks for lunch. We sat outside and enjoyed the April sun - very nice it was too. Farmers are all wanting rain (you don't hear that often in April) but the sun suits me fine. What are the odds on it bucketing down in June during silage time??!\n\nDiary 60\nOne of our big dairy farms had had a big outbreak of IBR this week, one of the main respiratory viruses. On the whole it doesn’t cause death and is normally containable. On this occasion however it seems to have been a virulent strain and has caused a number of deaths and a great deal of lost production in terms of lost milk and calves not thriving. Towards the end of the week I went and shot three cows which were terminally affected. Seeing three dead and bleeding cows in the yard obviously reminded the farmer (and me) of when he had the whole herd shot in the same place for FMD, and he had then moved out of sight very quickly. I think the worst of the outbreak is over now and all the cows have been vaccinated.\nThere's only one vet more junior/qualified for less time than me in the practice who started a year or so ago. This week we went to do a colt castrate together - one surgeon, one as anaesthetist - for the first time. We've both done a lot with other vets but this was the first time we've been let loose as a pair. Everything went very smoothly so it looks as though our boss's confidence/Trust wasn't totally misplaced. On Friday morning I had a big dehorning session for one of our beef farmers. It's fairly non-cerebral type work but is OK for a change every now and then. And the farmer is a pretty amenable sort of guy (more than could be said for the weather) so it was a fairly laid-back morning's work. I had the afternoon off and drove up to Edinburgh where there was a bit of a reunion for recent graduates from the vet college. There were a lot of people haven't seen for a long time and it was interesting to compare notes on what we were all up to.\n\nDiary 61\nAfter last weekend in Edinburgh I had to come back to work on bank Holiday Monday. It was fairly manageable on the whole. There were three of us on duty in the morning when the work was steady without ever getting too hectic. I was on first call after 1pm when the surgery closed and it remained fairly quiet until the evening when there was a sudden run of calls, but they came in one after the other rather than building up too much.\nOn Tuesday I did the 60 day re-test of the second herd of cattle that I had previously found a reactor in. It’s a big herd and it took all day to get it done. They’ve been a bit unfortunate and brought in several other diseases apart from the suspected TB, when they re-stocked. One of these, an enteric condition called Johnes disease, is a chronic wasting problem and is notoriously difficult to eradicate. It’ll take years of blood-testing and careful record-keeping to get rid of it.\nIt’s frustrating for them as all the planning for the post-FMD period has been disrupted. The TB test showed up no reactors this time but 3 cows were inconclusive results and will have to be re-tested. This is almost certainly as a result of the cows carrying antibodies to avian TB which causes no signs of disease in cows but disrupts the bovine TB test. It’s a good example of why we badly need a more specific method for testing for TB. It’s being worked on at the moment and hopefully we’ll get one one day.\nThe senior partner at work is supervising another vet who is doing the same equine qualification that I’m enrolled for. On Wednesday he came to spend a day with Neil to do some equine anaesthetics. They were mainly castrates so I operated while Neil went through the anaesthetics with his student. It was very useful to hear it all in detail again – it’s all too easy to get into the habit of knowing which drugs work at what dosages and not actually really thinking about why they work or why they’re better than other drugs we could use. A useful day but it has made me realise I’ve got a lot to do over the next few years!\n\nDiary 62\nThings are still remaining very busy at work, lambing has pretty much finished now but the work doesn't seem to be easing. The partners have decided we need another vet to help things along - a final-year student from Edinburgh came for an interview this week and it looks as though he'll get the job. It will mean that the rota will improve and hopefully will not be quite as hectic when he starts.\nFollowing the fantastically dry spring it's now too wet for the farmers and they are tearing their hair out about how the first cut of silage is going to be gathered in dry. Hopefully we'll get a dry spell again soon to ease their worries.\nI found a potential case to write up for my Equine casebook this week. It's a mare that managed to get caught up in wire and tear a big hole in the shin of her lower leg. It's too big a defect to stitch so it'll have to heal with a lot of bandaging and perhaps some skin grafts. It always amazes me how horses managed to give themselves the most horrendous injuries been fields where there really doesn't seem to be any opportunity for it. Clumsiness perhaps? Maybe they just enjoy pain (I doubt it).\nWe're doing quite a bit of scanning of mares for pregnancy at the moment. It's another thing that I've been doing more of this year than in the past. It's a bit daunting at times but as with a lot of things it's really a case of practising it as much as possible. By the end of the stud season it’ll hopefully be fairly straightforward.\nI drove down to Oxford on Friday evening after work to see my sister/cousins/ friends who live down there. It seemed a longish drive but it was well worth it to catch up with them all. One of the things about working weekends is that it makes weekends off that much more appreciated\n\nDiary 63\nAfter a very pleasant weekend off I had a truly delightful first job on Monday morning. A cow had been losing weight for the last month also - the reason I found was that it had a very dead calf inside which I then spent the first hour of the week pulling out bone by bone. It was a fairly revolting job but wasn't actually something that I especially resented doing. Must mean I'm happy in my work. Or perhaps just a bit weird?\nI had another fairly grim job later in the week when I was called out at 4 a m. to a foaling. The foal was stuck half out and was dead by the time I got there. I eventually managed to get the foal out and initially the mare seemed OK but deteriorated over the next 48 hours and eventually had to be euthanased. That’s just the way it goes sometimes.\nA more successful case came later in the week when I saw a foal that was acutely lame. It looked at first as though it might have an infected elbow but after taking samples of the joint fluid and some X-rays it looked as though it was actually a traumatic injury. It stayed it in the hospital for four days during which time it seemed to improve quite a bit. It's a thoroughbred from a good racing line - hopefully with a rest it’ll make a full recovery and win the Grand National in 2008.\nI had the whole of the Bank Holiday weekend off. Six college friends came to stay for a weekend of Cumbrian fresh-air. After a pretty gloomy forecast the weather turned out very well and we all went for a Lake District walk each day and had a pretty relaxed time. Except for my cats - four dogs also came to stay, which didn't impress the cats who spent the whole time hiding in my room.\n\nDiary 64\nThis week started with a TB test for a small re-stocking herd. He had bought some cattle from a farm that subsequently tested positive for TB. One of the cattle from that farm had then tested positive on his farm so this week's test was a 60 day re-test. It was an all-clear this time which was obviously a relief for them. Seeing as there was a positive on the farm last time they probably have to have another test in 60 days from now before restrictions are lifted. This farm isn't very big so being under TB restrictions is awkward but not as crippling as it is the larger farms. There is no room for relaxing the rules at the moment though. The recent news from Ireland that says they think they've proved a link with badgers makes it even more important to get it out of Cumbria before it gets into wildlife (although it may well already be too late).\nIn between the two testing days this week I seemed to do a lot of horse cases. On Wednesday I spent most of the day touring around Cumbria seeing horses in Wigton, Cockermouth and Bassenthwaite. It was a sunny day and was a very pleasant way to spend the day - great scenery to look at, outside when not driving and cases going the way I was hoping - not a bad way to work!\nI've been on call this weekend and it's been very quiet (so far). Yesterday was steady with a reasonable number of calls but none stacking up. I've done 2 cattle Caesareans on the same farm this weekend - one yesterday morning which seemed like a huge calf until the one I did this morning which was truly a freak. It was the biggest calf I or the farmer had seen and is the result of selecting for extreme confirmation in beef breeds. It does pose serious welfare issues for the cows as they cannot give birth naturally and have to have fairly major abdominal surgery instead. We’ll never persuade farmers of this though as the consumer wants cheaper food and cheaper beef is made through bigger beef calves. It does seem tough on the cows though. Or am I being too cynical?\n\nDiary 65\nI thought it was interesting to see how much people still are willing to talk about some of 2001 at the meeting on Wednesday night. While a lot of the conversation was routed around the subjects you had come up with over the last 18 months, it often came back to talk of events and individual experiences during the outbreak itself. These stories must have been told on dozens of occasions but people still want to tell them if the right time/opportunity comes up (myself included).\nThere were so many themes that you have all come up with on the "electronic tags" sheet that it seems impossible to comment on them all. Some of them seem very relevant to me, others not so much. Trust is a category that comes up under a couple of headings. One of the headings it is under is "knowledge". I think this has been one of the most significant changes since FMD as far as the farmer/vet relationship is concerned. DEFRA has gone from being eyed with some suspicion to overt distrust and resentment. On a whole we don't get too much flack as veterinary GPs but when we have to do DEFRA allocated jobs, such as TB testing, there is sometimes a general feeling of it being another task to try to wear them down being sent by the authorities. Another regulation that has caused huge resentment is the whole animal movement licensing system. It is much easier now and causes fewer problems but a year or so ago it was the source of much stress. We had to try to act as intermediary between farmers and DEFRA and keep both sides happy. The damage done to the farmer/DEFRA Trust will take a long time (if ever) to start to repair. Hopefully, by trying to be more "on their side" than DEFRA seem to be, the trust they have in us has been preserved.\nIt's been a quietish week at work - maybe because there's been a bit of silaging going on so the farmers haven't got time for routine work. It's about time we were a bit quieter. The summer lull hasn't materialised at all yet this year. In fact we’re taking on another vet to ease the workload (did I mention this last week??). In the meantime it's nice to have time to draw breath and enjoy the sun for a day or two!\n\nDiary 66\nThis week seems to have gone by a pretty quickly. Maybe it's because I'm on holiday next week and the thought of it is spurring me on! I fly to Split tomorrow for a week of sailing on the Croatian coast with a college friend and some relatives. It'll be a change from Cumbria!\nOne of our big dairy farmers was away in Thailand this week. The farm was left to be run by his usual workers and his brother and mother. Despite this he felt he had to take his mobile phone with him, and he was rung twice during the week to be asked what should be done with a couple of sick cows. I suppose this either demonstrates extreme dedication or an inability to forget about work. Or both. But then again it also shows how committed a lot of farmers are and that it's not just a job to them. As farms get bigger the concept of all the cows being individually known to the farmer or being his "friends" becomes increasingly unrealistic, but in the majority of cases they’re not just milk making machines and are cared for pretty well. It's not hard to see why it was so hard for people to lose their herds.\nAfter being a bit quieter at work last week it suddenly seems to have become very hectic at work again this week. There haven't been any particularly time-consuming jobs, just lots of sick cows, horse calls and the usual mix of animal ailments. It's better to be busy than quiet though. I think I need a holiday (and I'll keep my phone switched off).\n\nDiary 67\nA week off work to go sailing in Croatia - Easy life. After meeting up with the boat and the rest of the group in Starigrad we sailed to Vis into a fairly direct head wind so it took quite a bit of tacking and was a bit of a rough ride. I also very stupidly underdid the sunscreen and managed to burn my back. Very careless, but it got less uncomfortable as the week went on. We spent two nights in Vis harbour as the others who had already been sailing for a week wanted a rest. It used to be a military island and there were definite signs of this around although it is obviously developing a now rapidly-growing tourist trade. After Vis it was off to Hvar, where we anchored in a small inlet a few miles from the town. After a night there we went to Hvar town for a look around - the castle on the hill was very impressive and the town still feels as though it is relatively unspoilt at the moment.\nThe last couple of days were spent making our way slowly back to Split. We actually spent the last two days in Split as there was a strong northerly wind brewing up which would have been a bit rough to be out in. My uncle who was the skipper on board has been to Croatia for the last three years - he said it was very noticeably more busy this year. It seems a shame to spoil it with more tourist facilities, but we all contributed to them being built by going there. Hopefully it won't be too dramatically changed.\n\nDiary 68\nThis week started at 9am Monday with a TB test at one of the most "basic" (run-down?) farms we go to. It was the first time I'd been there in three and a half years of working here - so they don't make huge use of our veterinary services. One of their bullocks was 7½ years old! When I casually asked about what plans they had for it seeing as he had missed the 30 months cut-off time for human consumption I was told it was just kept as a friend for the bull! The test was very slow as the cattle handling facilities were not the best on the planet. They were very pleasant people to talk to and it soon became apparent that they had very little time for DEFRA (nothing unusual there). The son was one of the people who had had his firearms confiscated after making threats at the start of FM D. They still felt resentful about the way the police became involved and the way they were ultimately given no choice as to who came on to their farm to check their stock. Fortunately all the cattle were negative for TB so there was no need to further add to their distrust of DEFRA by putting them under more restriction.\nThe rest of the week has been fairly steady. There's been enough going on to keep us busy without ever being frantic. The horse I saw last week with a neurological problem has become a bit worse so has gone to Edinburgh vet school to see one of the neurologists up there (he seemed fairly confused by it as well, which I have to say I found quite reassuring!)\nThe weekend was a bit on the strenuous side - a cousin who is a keen cyclist persuaded me it was a good idea to do a big Cumbrian/Yorkshire bike ride. We went from Penrith to Alston to Barnard Castle, to Tan Hill (refreshments) to Kirkby-Stephen to Penrith on Saturday. And then recovered on Sunday. It seemed like a good idea at the time but I am really feeling it now!\n\nDiary 69\nLooking back at some of the quotes in the "Recovery" section of the notes from a meeting it's noticeable how easy it is to forget (or at least not have in one's mind) how much it affected a lot people. It's almost hard to remember how much I was affected by it - I know that there were some very unpleasant tasks such as supervising slaughters, and day-to-day work was often very frustrating when we felt people overseeing our work from offices didn't really know what it was like in the field, but I feel now that on the whole once work was finished life pretty much went on. Maybe this isn't actually a true reflection of how it was and it's just that some of the detailed memories are fading - often things don't seem as bad as they actually were when you look back on them. I know plenty of clients, colleagues and friends whose lives were completely overtaken by FMD so perhaps mine was more than I remember, but I also feel that most of the people who I remember as being heavily affected are now more-or-less completely over it. \nOne of the farms I went to this week lost a son in a road accident about two months after getting FMD. I think the farmer was ready to give up everything after that. Apparently he left the cleaning up of his farm and took no interest in anything. Time obviously helped him - he's been back milking again for that (sic) last year and a half. There are still changes though - he seems very much quieter and more laid back now. If a cow isn't in calf or things don't go quite right he doesn't seem to get stressed now, as he once would have done. Work has been a bit quieter this week, which we would expect at this time of year. One of our farms has put some pedigree Belgian blue embryos into some Limousin cross heifers and they're starting to calve now - they all need Caesar's as the calves are almost as big as the heifers that produce them. The only thing to be said for it is that we can do them at a sensible time of day rather than at two in the morning as we know when they’re due.\n\nDiary 70\nOne of the five categories you raised at the meetings last month was trauma and one of the subsections on the chart was "sounds/smells/visions". Sights are probably the most frequent reminder of FMD now - there are certain bits of road that have memories, for example driving north on the M6 just south of Penrith it was possible to count smoke plumes from about 20 pyres at one stage. On fine days it always reminds me of it when I drive that stretch. One farm has the remains of a pyre that was started to be built but never finished. Even things like driving across two lines of tar across a road which once held down a disinfectant mat. People who didn't live here at the time wouldn't even notice them but it seems quite significant to the rest of us. It doesn't really bother me, but just is a reminder of what went on. At other times it seems odd how quickly things have gone back to normal. - even something as simple as a road with mud or animal muck on it. In 2001 that would have stuck out like a sore thumb and would have warranted urgent action. Now I'm used to driving a dirty car (I do clean it sometimes) and having some roads caked in dirt. It's difficult to imagine how the farmers kept them clean two years ago. (But they did). \nObviously there are other reminders (people never tire of talking about it), but it's the day-to-day visions and places that are most regular.\nWork has been a bit quieter this week. I did it a Caesar on a cow which had a truly ridiculously enormous calf. We need to move away from breeding continental beef breeds and go back to nice compact Jersey's or Aberdeen Anguses! I also saw an unusual neurological case in a horse. It's very uncoordinated and has poor balance. It's the kind of case where brain/spinal scan would be useful, but those facilities aren't really available for horses! It will be interesting to see how it goes over the next few days. \n\nDiary 71\nThe last diary! The 18 months seem to have gone by quickly. Things seem so much back to how they were that it's odd to think back to what was going on when we first started writing them. I think we were pretty much in the swing of doing restocking checks and doing endless blood sampling of sheep. The last restocking checks I did were only 16 months ago - it seems far longer. Although I say things are back to how they were I'm sure there are actually a lot of differences, it's just that I don't notice them because I'm used to how things are now. The practice has become a lot busier. By October we’ll be up to nine full-time and two part-time vets. Pre FMD we were seven full-time and two part-time. Some of the increase is Equine and small animal, but most of it is in farm practice. Part of this is directly linked to FMD (eg more TB testing due to re-stocking tests, and re-stocking having brought TB into the county). Other factors aren't so obvious but are unquestionably FMD related - most restocked farmers went back with more stock than they originally had, so overall there is greater density of stock around. More animals means more sick animals which means more calls for the vet. It's a shame in some ways to see the small traditional farms being forced out, but it's hard to see how they can manage as margins get smaller and larger neighbours get more stock and more land. FMD was a way out for several of the smaller farms - all have been bought up by neighbours with none being sold as single units. \nAs I've said in recent weeks, this time of year is usually quiet - it has become a bit less frantic recently but the traditional summer lull hasn't materialised. \nI've been a vet for four years. The last three have been just about as interesting and challenging as they could have been - both professionally and socially from the point of view of living in Penrith. Obviously FMD had devastating effects on thousands of people, many of whom are my friends. On the whole I see very few residual scars - it is still talked about, but less and less as time goes on. More than one farmer has actually said that they think in hindsight it was a very good thing for them. I'm not sure I could ever say that as it brought too much stress and sadness for too many people, but if it had happened, I think (very much with the benefit of hindsight) I’m glad that I had the chance to be involved with it from the start and through the recovery.\n\n
## 2 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nDiary 1\nMonday was the usual long hard grind. I accept that I have to put in 10 – 12 hours and I don’t mind doing the work because it’s not physically or mentally taxing but I do hate not having a lunch break, just that little bit of selfish time to site, have a cigarette, take the dogs down the river, see the horses…whatever. I do resent that fact that W (one of the bosses) almost always gets a lunch hour. B (the other boss) has gone up tremendously in my opinion for the way that he gets on with the work. He starts early, finishes late, hates DERFA paperwork and rarely complains. It is definitely grinding them down because they work like that at least 4 days a week. It has been a huge advantage this last year being part-time at work. My days off obviously aren’t my own as they used to be, but I do get away from the phone and the demands of clients. Some of our clients are very selfish and I hadn’t noticed before. They seem to think they are the only ones that have hassles with DEFRA. I remember saying to one (complaining about problems with licensing) that he was lucky to have problems with only one licence. The first day that movement licenses came out we applied for 26 and received the explanatory notes from DEFRA on how to complete the paperwork 4 days later.\nAnyway managed to do three final visits and complete most of the paperwork before 9pm. Kirkby Stephen was buzzing today – the auction reopened for a cattle sale. The main street was full of shiny farmers with fish and chips and the back lane was full of shiny (some new) Land Rovers and trailers (trailers mostly new).\nIn fact MC told me that as soon as he heard his bloods had come back clear (restocking) he washed and changed and went to the mart. He said it was the first time he had felt clean since the day they were infected – he felt ok to go among other farmers. He surprised me because he is so easy going – he takes all in his stride. But he still says FMD is not as terrible as testicular cancer – and he’s right.\nAD was one of the other final visits – he doesn’t give a bugger about anything. Happy to become a flower power farmer – he doesn’t care much about his sheep as individuals, they are just numbers. Just as well because in the batch he bought from Wales the sheep have more legs than teeth – I can’t see them lasting long. Pissed off because I missed Bryan Adams concert in Newcastle – couldn’t finish in time to join the bus. The rest of the lassies had a brilliant time, and at least Tracey benefited from my ticket.\nHad to go back in to work the next day to finish my DEFRA reports and fax them off. Went to playgroup to talk about pets. Took my dog (lurcher) and [child’s] rabbit (dodgy combination). Very few of the kids seemed to have pets of their own. A lot of them referred to Granddad’s dogs or Uncles cat. When I left college the pet population was increasing, what’s going to happen in the next 15 years?\n[Sister] phoned, worried about her horse, he has haematuria. I’m worried that he has a tumour. I feel very far away and helpless when things like this happen even though she only lives in Yorkshire. I’m sure I could help her whatever the outcome if we lived closer. In fact I think I miss my family more now than I ever have. I don’t know if it’s my age, or the thought that M is over 60, or that I didn’t see them much at all last year, or just because I have [son] now and can understand how mothers/families feel. I miss [sisters] but I still don’t phone them much – I always think they’ll be busy. I can talk to Mam three or four times a week for half an hour at a time without thinking twice. She must get fed up hearing me go on and on about work etc, but she loves hearing all about every tiny detail of [son’s] antics and achievements.\nWill broached the subject of a partnership again. I don’t know what to think. It’s the obvious thing to do and a few years ago I would have taken his hand off for even 10 or 20%. I’m just not as excited about it as I should be. And what would change? Will I be better off? Will I be a better vet? Or will I spend too much time of figures and paperwork. Will I become ‘more commercially aware’? Do I want to change? Can I be bothered with the extra hassle? They are ok, they have a career and a wife, I’m trying to do both (sometimes badly).\n\nDiary 2\nMonday’s are shite! It starts off busy and gets worse – why can’t we do time management a bit better. It did look as if we might finish around 6.30 at one stage in the afternoon. Then I was called out to a calf. I didn’t really need a visit at 6pm at night. W said, ‘never mind, you’ll be picking [son] up anyway (the childminder lives on the next door farm) - he hasn’t got a clue! If I picked [son] up he would be at Ange’s for about 8 hours – I feel guilty enough that he’s away for about 8 hours. [Partner] always picks him up about 5.30 and has to cope (which he does well) until I get home. But it’s hard work for both of us after a full day at work, and [partner] is usually knackered and ready for peace and quiet when he gets home – not a tired hungry wee lad.\nAnyway, I ended up having a farm tour that night. [farmer] was so proud of his new pedigree Belgian Blues and his new shed. He’s been lucky to get most of his commercial stock from his father so he has an idea of their past history. He’s a nice lad and he was producing some stunning beef calves before he was taken out, at least he’s young enough to get going again. He hasn’t said much about loosing his stock so I haven’t asked. I had a chat to his aunt one day and she was very upset, and that upsets me. I hate when people get emotional like that, I start filling up myself. \nI got back to find a sheep caesarean still to do. Waste of time. Premature lambs all born alive (3) and all dead before I finished stitching the uterus. And to put the tin hat on the day my assistant was the mother who prattled about nothing much all the way through the op. She does my head in, she is a century away from me in her outlook but I still come away feeling that I am the one who has got it all wrong. Maybe I should have dinner on the table and shirts ironed etc. I don’t want to be like her though and I can’t even sympathise with her even though they lost all their sheep. I’m sure she must have taken it badly but I don’t think she would ever let her feelings show in public – something about the way she spoke suggested that she was forcing herself to put a brave face and look forward – probably for her own son’s sake.\nWatched ‘Rural Lives’ again on Tuesday. CR came over well I though. I couldn’t help but snigger when the slaughter team were discussing one of our clients – she made the kids carry away the dead piglets after they’d been slaughtered – them team thought that was terrible but I knew the kids – they all help on the farm, they know that their pigs go to kill, the family even started their own little slaughter house and cutting plant before FMD. I don’t think those kids would be horrified. Sad maybe. We all felt sad over the last year, sad for the healthy animals culled, more sad for the people caught up in the mess. One disease where the cure is worse! Mostly though I get angry when I hear or talk about FMD. I get angry because DEFRA let us all down, the politicians got too closely involved, nothing happened fast enough. We didn’t seem to be able to do anything. We knew very little and struggled to get reliable information. I still get wound up thinking about it all. We were marginalised by DEFRA. I felt as if it was us and the farmers versus DERFA – not all three groups versus FMD. The rumours that abounded just magnified the feelings. We talked at length about FMD, DEFRA, etc. within the practice and with our clients but I could still talk about it all day even now. So many things are unresolved. I have lost faith in DEFRA, especially since they changed their name, no A for agriculture now; and I’m glad I have been ignorant of politics for so long – there have been few shining lights in the government. I’m heartily sick of authority interfering and regulating stuff that’s going along quite nicely. Let them interfere with stuff that’s doing harm – bad farmers need a shake up, sheep dealers need to think more about animal welfare but the way things are going the good guys that toe the line will end up following all the rules and regulations set up to sort out the bad guys – and will they bother?\n\nDiary 3\nPossibly the best bit of the week was Sunday when I eventually (after 13 months) got back on my horse. Only 15 minutes but it was nerve wracking. I thought she might just throw me off, and I was so tense (actually we both were) I felt as if I had forgotten how to ride. I stayed in the field thinking it would be safer but the other two horses were flying about to annoy us. I’m so frustrated that I haven’t been able to get her fit for the start of the endurance season. There’s no way we’d be able to go to the first ride at Ullswater, and there’s only one other in Cumbria this year (due to FMD). Who would have thought that we would still be curtailed by FMD more than a year on? \n(The young horse) was very interested in saddle and bridle so I put them on him and he was ok. At first he was frightened to move at all but then he realised it was ok. On Monday I had a strange request to go and hold an old pony for the knacker to shoot. The owner’s just didn’t want to be around. It was a lovely morning so I led her out for a bite of grass before he arrived. She could barely manage to breathe and swallow at the same time. I can’t believe how the tumours have taken hold of her since the turn of the year. Mr A couldn’t tell his wife the diagnosis initially because she hadn’t got over losing the few pedigree sheep they had. It’s taking some people a long time to get over the loss. I think it’s easier to get over losing an animal if you have more than one – it helps to keep you focussed on the living rather than the dead – and farmers haven’t been able to get restarted when they were ready to because of all the C & D requirements. Anyway, the knacker man told some good tales. There’s been some nutters about shooting animals, some even had their guns taken off them. Poor lad was given a day’s notice at the knackey and was part of a slaughter team after that so he was only paid his normal wage which the boss collected at the DEFRA rate for them all, it was good talking to him probably because I don’t really know him. I didn’t feel that I would upset him because he wasn’t like a client who had lost animals. Sometimes it’s hard to know what to say if people get upset; sometimes it’s enough to listen.\nOne of the most awkward situations I found myself in was talking to a farmer who lost no stock but he was so depressed he started crying. The cows I had gone to see ‘should have gone last year, then we wouldn’t have had these problems’. He also has been unable to sell sheep so the farm was completely overstocked, overgrazed and had little silage left.\nI couldn’t understand why he was still overstocking when he could have sold sheep and cattle for restocking or for slaughter quite easily in the last few months. Maybe he just couldn’t face the hassle of getting licences, or maybe he’s just too far down to think straight. I usually mention that sort of thing to B and W because I think it’s important that everyone in the practice knows what’s happening, not just with out patients but also with our clients.\n\nDiary 4\nI had the honour of completing the FINAL final visit today, and it was one of my neighbours in Soulby. No more surveillance visits!! Poor Lol couldn’t find his DEFRA paperwork, and while he was looking through his files he found copies of his valuation report with all his old cows on – I think it brought it all back. He’s trying hard to move on, I could understand him being bitter since his whole (very good) milking herd was taken as a DC. I think he may have survived because the infection was half a mile away from his cows but the IP land joined. I watched them load all his cows into coal wagons on s Saturday afternoon. In fact it was midnight when the last de-tox wagon left. How can they be clean if I can’t even get my wellies clean in the dark?\nHow he’s worrying about his new cows coming from Holland. He thinks it’s a long way for them to travel but he can’t wait for them to arrive – unlike his wife who thinks that all this restocking is going too fast. I felt apprehensive too about a fortnight ago, but the feeling is subsiding. The day to day normality of work is returning. Sheep are permitted to visit the surgery for treatment so we have had a much more normal March than we’d had last year, even though there are still thousands of sheep missing from the practice.\nFarmers are still bringing in lambs. The value of stock is obviously not their prime concern – ‘where there’s life there’s hope’. We wouldn’t see ewes or lambs at all if the cost of treatment versus the animal’s value was weighed. I was worried that we would have a flare up around lambing time. There’s a chance that some of the fell sheep were exposed to FMD – and there’s a risk of virus recrudescence at times of stress, so I was thinking that if we made it through lambing then we’d definitely be ok. The weather has cheered me up this week. Everybody smiles more when it’s sunny. Its tempting to think my days at home are holidays when the weathers so nice!!\n\nDiary 5\nI forgot about April Fools Day for the first time ever. We were so busy at work, and it was more of a Bank Holiday than anything else. I do resent working Bank Holidays – but Monday is my day to be on call. B did offer to do some of the day but he had a caesarean on a cow, a lambing at 1.30 am and another call at 6 am so he’d be knackered enough – and they pay me for a day’s work so its only fair that I give a days work.\nWhen the phone rang early Tuesday and I felt as if I’d only been in bed 2 hours I was regretting not passing on the night duty – a Belgian Blue calving – CAESARIAN mentally checked my kit in the car while driving to KS. Definitely caesarean. They shouldn’t breed from these cows until they’re more mature. We’re getting loads of bother with the new stock – never mind its proper veterinary work. Anyway the heifer was a right bag. Started off lying down so I doped her but she got up after we got the calf out and then tried to lye down on the wound – peritonitis to follow no doubt. I warned the farmer and we were all very calm about it – maybe none of us were really awake!! So that made [partner] late for work as he was left ‘holding the baby’ and I was well late setting off to see my sister [sister]. [sister] didn’t mind and [partner]’s bosses said it was ok but I still felt guilty.\nHad a great time at [sister’s] – did a bit of touristy stuff and found a really nice book for mam’s birthday, by Mrs Herdie who used to holiday near home. Mam has a watercolour by her but this book is all wildflowers. [Other sister] phoned to say [horse] is worse. I think [sister] and I both wanted to go to Yorkshire when we heard how upset she was. [Sisters] are so close (being twins) but I can understand what [sister]’s going through with a horse on death’s door. She didn’t want us to go (she said) so we drank too much red wine instead and watched the start of Papillon (good film). I was too knackered though; my stamina gives out a lot sooner under the influence of alcohol.\nMam’s birthday was a queer day. It’s rare that I get the chance to spend time with any of my siblings at home and we had a lovely day apart from the fact that we were all waiting to hear what was going to happen with [sister]. She phoned to say he’d been put down, bladder tumour. I think it must be pretty rare. She still said we shouldn’t go down. [sister] could have easily gone (and Mam) because Lynxes on school hols (jammy teacher!). I stayed on till quite late because both my brother and stepfather wanted to see [son] – he was so excited to see them, sometimes he just makes us all laugh.\nI had a depressing start to the day back at work – just over a month ago I amputated a dog’s leg. The leg was fractured over 6 months ago, appeared to heal and then suddenly worsen. We suspected a bone infection but she didn’t respond to treatment so I x-rayed her again and it looked like a bone tumour. She did well after the operation until last week when she developed a hard knobbly swelling near her shoulder and her lungs were infiltrated. I felt so sad for her and the family. She was a lovely placid and very brave dog and it is just so unfair. I don’t want to give up on these cases and I feel that euthanasia is a poor treatment in this case, I so wanted her to have a couple more years. I never would have put her or the family through a ghastly op like amputation if I had known that she would get so little benefit. The farmer’s son (who worked the dog until she retired) was conspicuous by his absence – he’s rebuilding the milking parlour ready to restock so his sister did the honours and came to help me.\nHad to switch to party mode – [son’s] 2nd birthday. The sandpit was a roaring success, as was the trike and cake from Grandma and Granddad. We had a super relaxing day (mostly outdoors). This weather makes life a lot easier, I couldn’t have coped with all those little boys inside!\nEscaped to the horses at Asby to take water. It’s so peaceful up there. I’ve really missed being able to go up there this last year – there’s still yellow tape on my gate and I don’t even have livestock! I wonder who they (DEFRA) thought the field belongs to? Should get out riding this next week with a bit of luck and a bit of spare time. I think I’ll have to shelve the plans to show the Arabs, I haven’t got started soon enough.\n\nDiary 6\nOur new vet started this week. Bright, young, enthusiastic and full of new ideas. I feel very out of touch. I didn’t go on any CPD courses last year, for most of the year I felt as if we were unclean, and I was so tired with working such long days it seemed too much hard work to organise extra childcare etc. to allow me to go away for more than a day. I feel out of touch generally though and a lot of it has to do with working part-time.\nBig day on Wednesday, [son’s] 1st morning at Biggins Nursery. I think my new hobby is worrying!! Am I doing the right thing setting off on new (extra and expensive) childcare arrangements? I think I feel guilty because it’s for my benefit, not for extra work. It’s now going to cost me an extra £7.50 to ride my horse on a Wednesday! But I am starting to break [horse] in as well and I can’t handle a 4 year old horse with a 2 year old boy around. Anyway the nursery seemed a big hit and I had my first ride out on Ashby fell. I actually went over the track to the Dowly tree instead of on the road. She (the horse) was quite anxious leading the other two, and a bit excited to be out in the open space of the fell – so was I. There seems to be just one lot of fell sheep on there – they must be H’s I think. Nobody else has started to heft sheep up there yet. The ‘dowly tree’ will be looking sad and lonely for a bit longer.\nI have missed being up on that fell so much. Margaret Little asking if we’re going to the village hall quiz on Friday – probably not because we’re going out for a meal for [partner]’s birthday. Felt guilty about not supporting village activities and started justifying myself to her. I hate it though when people use FMD to make you feel bad. She kept saying how few ‘does’ there were last year, how nice it is for all the village to get together etc. – all true but I can’t get babysitters and nights off to do everything and [partner] is way more important than the village quiz. He put up with such a lot of shite last year and never complained – far too tolerant!\nWe had a lovely meal on the Friday night. [son] slept out at T’s for the first time in ages but I couldn’t have a lie in because of the judge’s course for the Arab Horse Society. I really enjoyed it – it was arranged for last year but had to be postponed due to FMD – it was worth waiting for and I couldn’t have gone last year even if it had been on. Went to see [sister] and [sister’s boyfriend] on Sunday. Seemed to spend all day being fed (she’s like Mam!). [Son] took a real shine to [sister’s boyfriend] which entertained us all. She seems to be coping ok with [horse]’s demise. Martin has cleaned up one of his shoes and mounted it with a plaque – he’s very thoughtful.\n\nDiary 7\nI have decided that I am happy on dry days when I can ride or work my horses, [son] and I can get outside to play and then he’s happier and people who come into work are more smiley on good days too. [son] and I went to a birthday party this week. He had a brilliant time but I felt very out of place. Everybody else was immaculately dressed and made up while [son] and I had to rush back from having a bonfire to burn all the old hay in Musgrave field to quickly wash and change. I’d rather have carried on tidying up the field, it’s still a real mess and at least I have the grass seed now. It had better grow, the price it was!!\nI was really pleased with [horse] on Wednesday. He’s coming on quite nicely with his lunging now, he seems to be quite amenable. Dental appointment on Friday – I hope my dentist never retires – I don’t think they make dentists that are more interested in people and their teeth than money any more. I always have a good chat to him so we carried on our discussion about my working conditions, comparing them to his sons etc. (he’s a vet too). He was quite surprised when I told him about the partnership talks. Last time I had a good heart to heart it was after the threatened redundancy. It’s no wonder I feel confused about the future at times. Nearly 2 years ago when I was on maternity leave they thought they might have to make me redundant. Now they want to release a bit of capital and take things easier they want me to buy in!! This time last year I didn’t know if [partner] or I would have a job!! Now I have to decide to commit myself to at least 20 more years as a vet.\nWent out with girls from work to a 40th. Didn’t really want to go but of course we had a great time once we got there. I think I have got out of the habit of evenings out. Still can’t get used to the freedom the mobile phone gives us, and spend all the time checking that there’s enough signal/battery etc. Had a hell of a hangover – too much draught coke. Hell it’s worse than cider!\n\nDiary 8\nThe shit is hitting the fan. We’re having problems with some imported Dutch heifers. We were waiting for this, especially on this particular farm. The management’s not the best and the father takes more advice from his feed merchant than us vets. There is obviously a viral infection going through the heifers and Farmer B presumed they were already vaccinated (no documentation). They are also showing signs of gastro-intestinal upset which could be management. Oh hell why did he buy 80 first calvers. Nobody would willingly put themselves under that stress. [New vet) is interested but B and W are obviously trying to keep their distance. They’ve been embroiled in herd problems on this farm before.\nI am now obviously the senior vet in charge of this problem and I’m not even at work every day. It’s too much for [new vet] to cope with and the farmer will get pissed off soon and I bet it’s us that catch the flak!\nCheered myself up with 1½ hours of R & R with the horses on Wednesday. Lovely day. Rode down onto the common but it was hard work as the other two horses were shouting for daisy all the time I was out on her. [horse] decided that he would be bobbly when I worked him but I’m getting confident that I know how his mind works.\nWe had a bit of a stand-off but I made sure it didn’t turn into a battle and he did as he was asked in the end, so we finished on a good note. I think it will be quite satisfying bringing him on myself – even though its going to take months at this rate. Some people work on young horses twice a day, he’s lucky if he gets trained twice a week.\nWork is really settling down now. The lambing time rush has passed and we’re catching up on our TB testing for DEFRA. It’s a bit more taxing having to do such young animals in the restocked herds but most people are fairly well organised. We’re not going to get some of the herds done before turn out I wonder if DEFRA have any recommendations for catching wild Limousin heifers in the middle of a field – probably not they don’t think that far ahead.\n\nDiary 9\nI hate Mondays again. Had supper at 11.45 pm. There was a problem with my mobile when I was on call (I hate mobiles as well) and I went to calve a cow one and a half-hours after the first call came in. I was so mad – firstly because we don’t make our clients wait that long for an emergency to become a disaster and second because Ws wife has no idea about passing jobs on – she should have got another vet to go since I was obviously busy but she just passed the message on to [new vet] to let her sort it out – and W’s wife gets paid for doing the phones! Anyway all’s well – live cow and a tremendous bull calf, and one of the easiest caesareans I have done in ages. \nB and W seem to forget that it is their business (and reputation) at stake. Ultimately the buck stops with them. Both of them seem to have had enough of business management and hassle to last a lifetime. Last year has done a lot of damage to a lot of people. I know I am a lot less tolerant than I used to be.\nThis week started badly and improved. Farrier came and trimmed all 3 horses, bollocked me because they hadn’t been seen for over a year (I did tidy them a bit myself though). Had a lovely afternoon at Rheged with Mam. We started going when FMD was on because it was sort of neutral, non-agricultural ground. We sat and chatted while [son] played in the soft play centre – everybody happy. Unfortunately I went down with the worst dose of food poisoning I had ever had, I was up all night. Went into work late – I wouldn’t have gone at all except I had a 2nd TB to test to do on a restocked farm and couldn’t bear to start the whole thing again. I recovered as the afternoon went on and even managed to dehorn 10 cows. The thought of B sending fragile, young [new vet] to help spurred me on a bit. I was knackered when I finished. Took me another 2 days to recover. [horse] doing well, bridle and saddle on now, looking grown up. I’m quite proud of him. He was so chilled out today I tried long reining him – that confused him but he was very sensible.\nNorleen and I didn’t go to the 1st date at the Rochdale show, I still didn’t feel right and [partner] was going to fit the new fuel pump to my car – but then he started to feel ill too. What a waste of a Saturday off. Made it to the show on Sunday – pretty good ridden classes, and all the senior in hand classes. We were laughing because we’re so out of practice. There are two years worth of young stock that we’ve never seen due to babies in 2000 and FMD in 2001 – we felt really out of touch. There are a few imported stallions and mares that we haven’t seen before too. We had a brilliant day.\n\nDiary 10\nWhat’s worse than working on call on Mondays – yes working Bank Holidays! We hoped to shut at 12 – ha ha! I got home for lunch at 2pm. B kindly took the phones for a couple of hours in the afternoon (not long enough to go anywhere) and I was back out working by tea time.\nMy car failed its MOT because the back brake callipers were all gunged up – the mechanic says it’s disinfectant that does it – bloody DEFRA, I bet there’s no chance of compensation for that. It wouldn’t be so bad if it was a practice car but now that I’m part-time I have to paddle my own canoe. All the local garage owners warned us last year that these things would happen – what could we do? We felt obliged to drive into all the ‘voluntary’ disinfectant sites – it doesn’t look good if the local vets aren’t disinfecting. My beautiful old Audi, God knows what other horrors are lurking where the FAM has spilled in my boot etc. Hell it makes me mad. All the destruction, physical and mental and we had so little to say in any of it.\nWell, my car spent the rest of the week in the garage so I used borrowed wheels. Went to do a wee talk at Stainsmore pre-school in [partner]s transit van – very professional. The children didn’t care; they just wanted to meet my dog! [son] missed a birthday party on the Saturday because I was still at work – more guilt, not that he knows he missed it. Lovely day on Sunday with my horse – went for a three hour ride over in County Durham. We trailed round arable fields and nice lanes – all very different from here. [other horse] was an absolute saint and did very well to have no shoes on. She really did us proud.\n\nDiary 11\nGot my car back – that cheered me up. Bad news about the imported heifers, two more have died. At least the PM exams and sampling are free because it’s a restocked herd. Farmer getting angry now (at Dutch farmers) but taking it out on [new vet]. Very unfair, she’s spent hours checking over his cattle and taking samples.\nDidn’t get my usual R & R on Wed – absolutely piddling down. Started sorting out a few jobs that I have been avoiding, the sort I used to do on wet Sundays – now will become wet Wednesday jobs!! Called in at work for coffee and ended up with a call for the afternoon. Very interesting job too – went to sedate two horses for the dentist – it was absolutely fascinating. \n[son] has another 2nd cousin this week – the family is really sprouting. Had a tough calving Thursday night – torsion of the uterus. I can do these now, I used to absolutely dread them. Unfortunately she’d been on too long and the calf was born dead, heifer fine though. I hate going to that farm, the farmer is a right old perverted slime ball and I’ll’ dance on his grave. Started with a real head cold - –h crap.\nWent to see Mam and Stewart, [son] on top form. It’s brilliant seeing him interact with my family. He has really strengthened the bonds in our family. [son] fevered at night, starting with the same cold I presume – no sleep for me. [partner] never seems to hear all the commotion. Still felt ill on Saturday – [sister] and [sister]s birthday. At least I remembered to post their cards in plenty of time this year. \nWent shopping for wallpaper on Sunday to cheer me up. [partner] went off ‘pest controlling’ with his dogs. They went up through Tubby’s wood. They found nothing but at least the dogs had a good ratch. He says he only now feels ok about walking across fields. I didn’t even realise that he still felt that he couldn’t go round all his old haunts – we must talk more!\n\nDiary 19\nTB test cancelled on Monday and Thursday this week because the farmer can’t cope with the extra hassle. He’s a bit of a woman at the best of times but he’s been even worse since FMD. W was very understanding he seems to have the farmers measure. B didn’t seem that understanding.\nVery upset on Wednesday afternoon. I had to put down my own terrier after he took off and chased the neighbour’s sheep – for the second time. I can’t understand why he went so strange; he used to be fine with stock. I had a miserable afternoon waiting for [partner] to come home to bury him. I’d had such a good morning with the horses too. Dizzy and [horse] were both going well, I felt better once [partner] came home. He said I’d done the right thing but I felt as though I’d failed somehow because it should never have happened in the first place. Maybe it’s because he had nothing to do last year, no interesting walks, no rabbiting etc, I don’t know. \n\nDiary 20\nBrilliant time Tues/Wed. Went to my sisters with Mam and [son], it’s much easier to keep in touch with my family post-FMD. I hardly went anywhere last year. We went shopping to Edinburgh, mam’s looking for an outfit for my brother’s wedding, unsuccessfully so far! I’ve just realised that I haven’t seen [brother and wife?] on their farm since FMD broke out. We must go soon, it’s a brilliant place for recharging batteries and they are the best bit of my step family. We didn’t go to the Cumberland show with the horses. I haven’t got back into the swing of things yet. I think it was a bit of a washout without the farming side, and it rained. I offered to be the biosecurity officer for our local show so that they could get things up and running properly. They had money and trophies donated last year for new cattle classes and there would be real interest in fat cattle classes and young handler classes now. DEFRA (the bastards) managed to put the committee off.\n\nDiary 21\nSprayed weeds in field – only depressing day this week, it’s never going to recover properly. The Landlord arrived when we’d just finished the first half and said he’d decided to reseed it in August!! After much discussion I persuaded him it would be a waste of time and money to put horses back on a newly seeded field over winter. Now I’m worried about what happens in spring. Will we be terminated or just moved to another field? I wish I’d moved the horses at the usual time (1st April) then we wouldn’t have been caught up among IPs and DCs. Something will sort out, it always does.\n\nDairy 22\nExcellent week. Off to Malvern with friends for the National Arabian Horse Show. [son] went off to Grannies for the holiday!! I had a marvellous time for three days watching the most beautiful horses and came back absolutely shattered.\n\nDiary 23\nFew probs at work with new assistant. She’s a bit ‘whiney’[?], she’s always bending the ear of the nearest receptionist and they are sick. B has offered her a 12 month contract – but whether or not she’ll accept it is another matter. From what I can gather she’s going to end up with better working conditions than me. W’s not too happy about it all but neither of them are willing to grasp the nettle. They’ve both backed off since last year, they can’t wait to get off home and I can’t step in since they’ve changed their minds about my partnership, and I’m only part-time. Good weekend, Lowther on Saturday – didn’t see many of the usual faces. The only thing that spoiled it was the mud – we brought more than our fair share home with [son] and the pushchair – no biosecurity pressure washer anywhere!\n\nDiary 24\n (the Assistant) on holiday for 2 weeks, things seem more like old times. The cages aren’t full of animals on drips, I’m working extra days and enjoying it – it’s tiring but good. Highlight of the week on Thursday: Brough Show, there weren’t many farmers there but loads of horses and ponies instead of sheep. Much talk of DEFRA regulations, none complimentary. It just wasn’t the same without the sheep, it felt flat. I wonder what the gimmer lamb sales will be like?\n\nDiary 25\nKnackered – don’t think I could cope with full time work any more!! [new vet] still on holiday. Felt guilty about [son] being farmed out all week. I managed to work myself up about our charity horse show on Saturday. I tried to hand over the organisation to three other folk and still ended up sorting out all the insurance and rosettes, and they changed the date so I had less time to organise, and it wasn’t advertised. \nIt was the worst show we’ve ever had. It takes as much time to organise it for the few as it does for the many! I felt so disappointed. I thought we would have a real good turnout this time after having to cancel last year. Oh well there’s always next year! I’ll need to make sure they don’t change the date again and at least I might be able to take the horses next time. Decided to cheer myself up by taking [other horse] over to school her round the jumps on the Sunday but I couldn’t catch her (she must have known) so that just put the tin hat on the weekend.\n\nDiary 26\nTwo trotting meetings this week. I landed both of them and both nights on call. Another Bank Holiday with no time off and I had to take [son] to both because [partner] was grouse-beating. Both meetings were quite relaxed but there was one nasty crash at Appleby. Had a really nice day out at Chatsworth Game Fair with Helen and Neil. It’s the first time we’ve managed to visit them and it took hours to get there. We were invited last year but the advert said they didn’t want any Cumbrians – social outcasts, as if we didn’t feel like the armpit of British Agriculture as it was. I really enjoyed our day out, I felt as if we’d had a weekend away not just a day. We’ll have to think of some more trips, it’s too easy just to stay at home – we always have plenty to do.\n\nDairy 27\nIt’s started again – DEFRA have found a new way to cock up our lives. They have now complicated life with exemptions from the 20 day standstill including new stuff about isolation units. The farmers have all been notified by post. Some haven’t read it, some have read it and don’t understand it. Farmers have to isolate new stock bought via auctions etc from any contact with other stock by 50 m outside, or they can go on standstill but their neighbours can move stock from the next door field without a problem – it’s mad. I don’t understand where they are coming from. Well I do sort of but as usual it’s badly thought out, and we have to sell this idea to the farmers. How will it be policed? Will it matter? Would it stop another massive outbreak? It doesn’t take much to wind everyone up again. It’s not helped at work by B defending the DEFRA line and W dissing it. What will the clients think?\n\nDiary 28\nCrap week. Puncture on Thursday during lunch hour. Struggled to get locking nuts off – felt feckless. God I have so little patience these days. And I missed BEVA congress – couldn’t sort out childminding etc., and the best days were Friday and Saturday – there was no way I could go. I was really disappointed – nothing to do with FMD though. I don’t feel as if I get much encouragement from work, they are ok about paying for CPD courses but they don’t seem to make it easy to swap weekends etc. They’re not bothered themselves so I suppose they don’t understand all the different things you get from CPD.\n\nDiary 29\nWorked extra so [new vet] could go to sheep meeting at Malvern. Pissed off!! It is not easy to do this job with a husband and a family to consider and I suppose the timing stinks since I missed my equine course last week. The week improved considerably by Thursday – we went to Guilford for an Arab horse convention – nothing to do with work but very enjoyable. I’ve been waiting more than 10 years for this. I hope I live long enough to go to the next one!! We talked to some men on the train (unheard of in Surrey apparently) about Cumbria, farming, FMD and foxhunting. Once we reassured them that Newcastle was not in Cumbria we had an interesting crack!\nI hardly ever meet anyone that is not connected with farming and the countryside they really have no idea what it’s like – I don’t know anything about IT either which is what their job is! I end up feeling so frustrated that agriculture and therefore large animal practice is in such a precarious position, it seems to me to be such a basic fundamental part of life compared to computers and yet the emphasis is not on basic stuff anymore. Surely we need things like agriculture and basic manufacturing to underpin everything else. No wonder nobody was bothered about us suffering anxiety, fear, confusion last year when we were in the throes of FMD and the Penrith Spur was certainly under-reported. They wouldn’t have had so many marches in London pre-FMD.\n\nDiary 30\nQuite week. Still tired from last week – loads of photos to develop again – it was great, saw horses I’d never seen before and got 2 great videos of long dead horses that appear in my horses pedigrees. [son] was a bit off with me when I picked him up Monday – a bit unsettled with being away I suppose. Oh this job just interferes with a social life missed another wedding this week – on call again.\n\nDiary 31\nTook a horse to Penrith vets for an X-ray. They have a super new hospital just out of town. Seems really well set up. They have a really good attitude to work and clients. I think we need a shake up at work. Maybe [new vet]’s way of working isn’t too bad. Neil said they were ½ million in the red at the height of FMD – they must have been so worried. None of us knew what we’d be left with. We’ve definitely got a lot of routine work because we’ve lost such a lot of dairy farms. It’s never going to be the same again and I’m not good at accepting change.\n\nDiary 32\nSad week. One of our farmer’s sons was killed in an RTA on the A66. He had only been married two years and was a real canny lad. It shocked everyone and has certainly made me take stock. They have restocked with fancy cattle from down south, and these cattle may have contacted cattle with a variant virus from the USA so they were doing a whole herd test. You could blame this on FMD – if they hadn’t lost their cattle, they wouldn’t have restocked and they wouldn’t be testing the cattle or it wouldn’t have happened if they’d stopped for an extra cup of tea. A client brought me a copy of the Cumbria Enquiry. That didn’t half stir up some old feelings. All the things I was so angry about last year were summed up in one phrase I read: ‘slack organisation’. The poor woman who brought the report has spent over £1000 treating her dog after it suffered chemical burns from FMD disinfectant on a road map – it now reacts to phenolic compounds including sheep dip and fresh tar. They’re moving to Scotland – I hope the dog has a better life there.\n\nDiary 33\nFunny old week. Everyone still shell-shocked about [farmer’s son]’s death – no explanation as to how the lorry crashed into his tractor yet. You begin to wonder how any family can cope with that sort of trauma. B and W went to the (huge) funeral. They said his parents were amazing – they do have a strong faith but I can’t see that being enough. I went to the graveyard the next day to see the flowers and ended up in tears – it was the messages on the cards especially the ones from his parents and brother and sister, I felt so sad for them all. Went for a wee walk with Tracey, she knows him quite well and we talked a lot, trying to make sense of it all. Then blow me on the Thursday, his father and brother were part of a syndicate at the tup sales that paid over £100,000 for a Swaledale tup – I couldn’t believe they’d even gone to the auction never mind doing something like that, it doesn’t seem right to me. The others could have bought the tup for them, I think that’s awfully strange. I had another upset farmer’s wife this week. I went to see a downer cow; she’d got stuck in the cubicles. We had to carry her to a straw box using the loader tractor and the wife got really upset seeing the cow swinging on the front of the tractor. I felt a bit guilty really because I didn’t think. I just didn’t connect the FMD slaughter with an injured cow, but then I didn’t see all that they saw when their herd went down.\n\nDiary 34\nGreat week. My brother’s wedding, [son] was a page boy in a kilt and he was quite well behaved apart from the second lot of photos – he was well tired and hungry by then! I love being home with my brother and sisters (and their partners) and it’s great the way they all have so much time for [son]. We always laugh so much at the ‘clan gatherings’ I’m sure it’s very therapeutic! The amount of alcohol consumed by all at the wedding is definitely not therapeutic.\nWe set off on our holiday (maybe our first family holiday) the day after, in the rain but it turned out ok later. Such a lot of good stuff in one week.\n\nDiary 35\nHad a lovely day, it all worked out well. We may try four or five days away next year now that we’ve got started again. It’s years since we had a proper holiday, I usually miss all the animals when I’m away but not this time – I think [son] has more than filled that gap. Had bad news on Wednesday, [partner]’s van failed its MOT – no transport, no money for a new motor. Mild panic, slight depression then the gradual return to my ‘it will all work out somehow’ attitude. And it did. [partner]’s Mum and Dad helped us out and I had to relinquish my little ‘buy a new trailer’ fund.\nHad a disaster on Sunday morning, caesarean on an uncooperative cow. She got up halfway through the op and pushed her rumen out onto the (very dirty) floor, and she started to haemorrhage. She died four hours later. They ended up with an exceptional bull calf but a dead pedigree Belgian Blue cow. I hate when things die on restocked farms. I think they were quite philosophical about it but I went over and over the whole thing in my head. B just said ‘if they’re going to die it’s best they die soon – less time to worry and everyone gets over it quicker too’ I think he may be right. He’s definitely easier to talk to these days – he’s like a different person now that Jan’s left.\n\nDiary 36\nBusy week. Testing a restocked herd Monday/Thursday which had travelled all of 5 miles to their new home – a bit of a waste of time but it was a nice day to be out. Really good turnout at the village bonfire. It’s a new tradition, started in 2001 and it was the first village get-together after FMD. At the end of the week I headed South to Cheshire and the Salisbury plain with my friend Ann and her horse to compete in the marathon. What an awful journey we had. The rain poured, the traffic crawled. I’m glad I don’t have to use the M6 on a daily basis. I really enjoyed my weekend away but we had to pull the horse out at the half-way point. She was so hyped that we couldn’t get her heart rate down, so she wasn’t allowed to continue. I felt really disappointed. I was sure that she had a good chance, well she would have if they had a vet check halfway through.\n\nDiary 37\nA bit of an anticlimax this week after all the build-up to the marathon. It would have been so different if she’d completed the course. We had a better journey North except for a puncture – not handy when you have a horse trailer on. I drove most of the way back to Ann’s. Saw all her horses and then drove home, another 2 hours. Oh I was so pleased to get home. It was a good experience though, I don’t think either of us would trail a horse all the way to Salisbury plain for a two hour race again!! There were FMD cases near Ann in Cheshire that didn’t seem to catch hold like they did in Cumbria. Maybe its because there are bigger farms and more arable land.\nI went to see her in July 2001 and she pointed out various fields that had been cleared of stock – half of them didn’t even have gates on, there was no disinfectant or precautions visible and it was really starting to wipe out our practice at home. It was unbelievable. We were sitting in Cumbria thinking that agriculture was doomed, and everything in Cheshire was carrying on as normal. It was a rude awakening for me.\n\nDiary 38\nMore TB testing – all day job testing stock that wouldn’t normally be tested but they’re restocked. They have come from Cheshire though so that does increase the risk. Had a shocking migraine all day Wednesday, went to bed as soon as I’d dropped [son] off at Biggins and didn’t wake up until 5pm – 2 hours after I should have collected him – and I still felt awful. It was terrible driving in the dark and I had to stop three times on the way home. I went back to bed until 9pm and then was fine. I haven’t had a migraine for ages. I was back on top form the next day though. We did the TB readings on 172 cattle before lunch – cooking with gas!\n\nDiary 39\nFed up with all this testing – and we may be doing this for the next 4-5 months. Sick of [new vet] moaning at work, I don’t know what it would take to make her happy. I think this week has nearly all been a waste of time. I haven’t made best use of my free time and I haven’t been on top of my job at work.\n\nDiary 40\nI was dreading this week because there were so many things to do. I think I avoid adding extra to my schedule but this week I had 3 days away and a night out to cope with. I really don’t like the thought of shopping but managed to do some Christmas present locating on Friday. Spent Wednesday with B (which was better than I expected) on a National Scrapie Plan training day (which was worse than I expected). Bloody DEFRA, they don’t have to do or say much to raise my hackles. Here we are selecting for a resistant genotype and they are spending all their time injecting BSE into sheep’s brains to ‘challenge’ them – how would that ever happen naturally?\nNearly missed my night out because of work, It was 10 pm before I got there, but at least I didn’t miss the dancing. It turned into a really good night. Nearly everyone from work was there, and J the ex-receptionist, we always have a good laugh. Ended up working most of the morning – don’t know if W was hung over or just idle, but he’ll have to pay me for the hours. I don’t work extra out of the goodness of my heart now I have all my own overheads to fund. [new vet]’s the star for avoiding extra or dirty work – then it usually falls to me. She says she wants more large animal work and then does her best to avoid it.\n\nDiary 41\nTired this week. [son] came back from Mavis’s full of cold, improved a bit and then woke up screaming on Tuesday night. It was a very long night and [partner] wasn’t even here t enjoy/share it as he’d left to fly to Tampa at 5am that morning. God, I don’t fancy being a single mum.\nHe soon started to improve after 24hrs on antibiotics – ear and chest infection – I’ve never seen him in such pain. Of course, he was nearly better by the time [partner] got back. I really struggled on my own and had to take a day off on Thursday but still had to go and do a second TB test otherwise I would have had to start all over again – we didn’t have time to test them twice. And it’s a restocked herd so we had to do them all. It’s really hard trying to do the best for everyone.\n\nDiary 42\nPretty good week until the weekend. Had a good night out for Tracey’s birthday, and I was really chuffed she invited [son] too. He was well behaved too nut unfortunately now thinks he can go to ‘the pub’ so we have to go out to meetings to avoid a tantrum. I don’t really think I have suffered many after effects from FMD except a lower anger threshold and a loss of faith in ‘the powers that be’. I’m much more worried about some of our client’s mental health. I know there are several who have suffered severe depression and they are not all farmers that were culled out. The sleepless nights were back with a vengeance – [son] started with chickenpox at the weekend and nobody had any sleep.\n\nDiary 43\nAbsolutely shattered, somebody else’s chickenpox is nearly as bad as your own. I don’t think I have had a full nights sleep for over a fortnight. I still had a lovely time at Christmas though. I was sure that [partner] and [son] would be pleased with their presents. [son] suddenly brightened dup on Christmas Eve on the way to Mam’s and never broke stride after that. He was son top form. I was so tired that I fell asleep on Saturday evening and missed the village Hall Christmas Party – the highlight of the village social calendar.\n\nDiary 44\nThe threat of TB rears its ugly head; maybe TB is the new FMD. Went to do a private TB test for a farmer who has restocked and passed his restocking checks. Unfortunately he bought 3 heifers in November and the original farm has since gone down with TB.\nHe isolated the heifers as soon as he heard and waited for DEFRA – they didn’t come so we did. I hoped for the best and expected the worst. One of the heifers reacted – I didn’t know what to do or say. The farmer’s wife was really upset, she wished they hadn’t gone back into farming. B the boss has phoned DEFRA that morning regarding these heifers only to be told that youngstock don’t pose much of a risk. They don’t seem to have much idea at all, and don’t have a clue about getting on with the job. They’ve had three weeks to track down the calves out of the cows that were reactors. They seem to let us down just when we need them most! Oh they make me boil and we are going to have to cope with the aftermath again.\n\nDiary 45\nFelt a bit flat and tired this week. The test I had this week was hard work, trying to catch cows in cubicles is not fun. We were all covered in muck at the end of it and the second day was worse because he had about 14 to rectal after the test.\nWednesday, my day of respite was taken up looking after Tracey in bed with cold – she’s really down still and I can’t seem to do anything to make her feel better. I know she’ll come out of it eventually but it’s hard not being able to help.\nI just didn’t feel as if I had any time to myself this week, and I really missed out. If I start working Wednesdays I’m going to miss it every week. I’ll have to have another plan! It’s a bit better at the weekend, but I think we all need some better weather and I miss doing stuff with the horses.\n\nDiary 46\nOh I’m mad again with DEFRA. I had to go back to the herd with the reactor and test every single bovine on the place, except the two remaining heifers from the infected herd. I don’t understand why they can’t just take out those heifers too. The poor farmer and his wife will be on tender hooks until the end of March at the earliest. If they hadn’t asked for a private test goodness knows when DEFRA would have got there. While I was testing DEFRA phoned the farmers wife to confirm that the slaughtered heifer had visible lesions – so that puts paid to the theory that youngstock weren’t a danger. Hope this news makes them get a finger out. Had a lovely day with Mam and [son] on Tuesday – we sat and talked for over an hour in the car park, everything tested clear at the check test – so far so good.\nBad day on Thursday. The behaviour course I was enrolled on has been cancelled - no explanation just a cheque returned to the practice with a wee note. I was so disappointed, even though it was going to be a lot of extra work over the next 10 months and extra hassle and extra childminding I think I could have coped. Then at lunchtime I bent my car door after stopping to help somebody stuck on an icy patch – I haven’t got all the bits sorted that were knackered by FMD disinfecting yet and there’s more repairs, and I have to pay for it myself now that I don’t have a practice car – I was well fed up!\n\nDairy 47\nBusy week. TB Testing again. Started working odd Wednesdays this week, so spent all day Wednesday up the back end of suckler cows (very dangerous) taking bloods for brucellosis and then blood sampling Swaledales for scrapie testing.\nWe have so many tests still to do – but not many dreadfully out of date, and I think we’ve done quite a lot of the restocking tests but its all quite mind numbing stuff – not much clinical acumen required for getting blood out of cows – just quick reactions to dodge shit and flying feet. Very late finished Monday by the time I had all my paperwork done. A, a college friend landed Tuesday en-route to Leeds for a herd health meeting – 6 hours driving for a meeting. We talked a bit about FMD – she worked as a TVI towards the end of the outbreak. They have a lot more trouble with TB up in Aberdeenshire – once it gets into a herd they struggle to get rid of it again. I hope it doesn’t get to be a huge problem round here. Collected a fair few bruises on Thursday – pregnant heifers to dehorn – they should have been done in 2001 but of course the routine work was put off. I don’t know what the excuse was leaving them al through 2002 but they were massive. Anyway, it saved me going to the gym on Wednesday night!\n\nDiary 48\nI have just handed in the latest batch of diaries, and started a new ‘session’. I have been thinking that F&M doesn’t really affect me much anymore. Our work has changed because of the restocking that has taken place since with all the new disease problems that have been bought in as ‘additional extras’ and the extra TB testing etc. but mentally I am not aware of even thinking about the events of 2001 that often. I still feel upset if someone tells me about their own particular experiences which are often heart rending but probably no more than if they were discussing another devastating disease problem. I still have little tolerance for the workings of DEFRA even though they are providing us with lots of ‘bread and butter’ work.\n\nDiary 51\nI’m sick of doing caesareans on cows – who encouraged all the bloody beef farmers to restock with Belgian Blues? I’m not sure that we should be continuing to allow animals to breed that can’t reproduce naturally. It doesn’t seem right that we should almost expect a caesarean the day that a new cow is put in calf. We used to have occasional troubles before, and not all caesareans are on Belgian Blues but now we do at least one caesarean every week, (B did two in one day) and they are bloody hard work!!\n\nDiary 52\nI always think of the 23rd Feb as being the day that I realised we might be in the shit in 2001. It wouldn’t have passed unnoticed round here – several people mentioned the date in the following week – yet it wasn’t until the 4th April that F&M came into our practice. Loads of our farmers lost a lot of seep early on though because they were wintering away on dairy farms further down the Eden valley. This used to just involve the hoggs but now they are encouraged to leave the fells almost empty and are paid to remove even pregnant ewes to lower ground. It seems ludicrous that, on certain farms, the fell sheep only spend summertime on the fells. The rest of the time they are in-bye land for tupping or lambing, and then are wintered in sheep sheds or on dairy farms, sometimes quite far away from ‘home’. I did get quite upset when I read the stories in the book. This time I think I had more empathy for the ‘tourism’ businesses affected. They must have been so frustrated, and probably ended up much worse off that the affected farmers. In our area the farmers who ‘survived’ are the ones (in general) who are struggling for survival now, and their farms have had no capital investment at all. In fact some of the survivors are still very bitter about the whole episode. Its so sad what this has done to some people. \n\nDiary 55\nCheck TB test at Campbells, went well finished in good time. Running into trouble because the other cows taken in for winter are calving and they have no room. However, they have found someone to take and slaughter all the big bullocks – they are going to be moved, under licence, direct to a slaughter house so at least they will have some income (the first this year!). Everything tested clear including the 2 heifers brought in from the farm that had the reactor so they are feeling a little bit more confident.\n\nDiary 56\nBloody DEFRA cocked up again with C’s test – had to go back to test 11 baby calves (how cruel?). Had to go back to H’s as well to test one inconclusive reactor. All of them were OK\n\nDiary 60\nI think the lambing time rush is settling down again – of course there aren’t quite as many fell sheep about as usual – and probably won’t be again if the payments are de-coupled – numbers won’t be as profitable as acres.\n
## 3 \n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 4th March 02\n\nMonday 4th March\nWe decided we now need more staff, a new vet and a part time receptionist, this could take us back up to our previous staffing level pre FM, bar a vet. But this was probably going to be all the recruitments we would make this year. It’s a good sign As Things begin to get back to normal!! Work is increasing quite a lot now most of our farmers have restocked, although a lot of them and us are still concerned about the future.\nTuesday 5th March\nA difficult day today with licences, two of our farmers needed Sole Occupancy Authentitys (SOA) and there were queries with their land, unless some of their fields could be redefined, they were worried their stock would suffer. During the FM these worries have shown how much they care about their stock and find it very frustrating when they don’t understand why we can’t move them, even to the point of anger and tears. By the end of the day, thankfully they were resolved, with compromise on both sides and a lot of phone calls.\nWednesday 6th March\nI decided to sort out all the paperwork and guidelines we had received from DEFRA over the past twelve months – it was quite a pile!! It was interesting looking back and very sad, it makes you realise just how deep the feelings went and although it sounds silly it’s surprising how quickly those feelings can return over the smallest things. Anyway having done that, it did feel good to box them up and put them away. We got taken out for lunch with our Ptizer rep and it was nice just to talk about usual! Things, drug competition, how much we were going to sell.\nThursday 7th March\nVery busy day, everyone has been flat out all day started at 7am this morning got finished sort of by 7.30pm, very tired. Hope we get a new vet soon! We also had a suspect BSE case today. Informed DEFRA. More problems with SOA, but we got them started, one bit of good news, I managed to get a new receptionist for 2 days a week so I just need one for the other 3.\n\n\nFriday 8th March\nQuite a good day no major hassles today, and still getting busier. Had a staff meeting to arrange an open day for National Pet week in May, and sorted out a few other bits and bobs. Had a good chat with the staff who have all been very busy this week and decided that it is much better to this time last year, when we were all very depressed, emotionally drained, laying off staff, uncertain of the future. At least now we are doing what we are meant to do.\nSaturday 9th March\nWent shopping first thing with K, had a good time, even though I’m not a good shopper. We went to the Farmers’ Market, I saw Heather who works at the Auction and she said it had been quite emotional having sales again and the hustle and bustle, but they were all happy to see people they hadn’t seen for sometime. Met my Mum in the afternoon in the Snow at Killington Lake, it was good and the driving was interesting.\nSunday 10th March\nMothers Day – [husband] and [daughter] were out for the day, so I had a lovely peaceful day doing not a lot. [daughter] got me a funny card and a little hedgehog model for my collection. In the evening I collected a vet student from London who is staying with us for 3 weeks. So we will have to behave. She seems nice and settled into our mad house easily. Mr W called in to let us know his cows had arrived safely. \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th March 02\n\nMonday 11th march\nWhat a busy day. But a total change to this time last year, it was the day our first client was confirmed with f&m. I helped [another vet] do a caesarean on a cow, that was fun, they are farmers that have moved farm and restocked – very positive. One of our new receptionists started but I didn’t get much chance to see her due to the Caesar. Barbara looked after her well and she seemed to enjoy it. There were lots of calls in just like the old days but we really need another vet, the adverts in on Thursday so fingers crossed. \nTuesday\nAnother busy day and another Caesar, the calf was dead unfortunately. The cow with query BSE was taken away for tests, which was sad. My highlight of my day was the farm across from us turned some of his cows out again. I call it my kitchen window view, normally I can see sheep in the fields at the back and the cows across the road, the sheep came back a couple of months ago and the cows but I haven’t actually been able to see them, so it was very special. Never really stopped today and we did Dog training classes at night, so I collected [daughter] from her YFC meeting and got fish and chips and we all went to bed. Our poor vet student who is staying with us is exhausted, she’s been able to see and do so much.\nWednesday\nToday was a little more controlled and went more according to plan, but was still a long day as we had a dog in about 6.30pm that had eaten a ball and hadn’t passed it, so we had to operate to remove it, anyway finished at 9.00pm, had tea and went to bed. [daughter] heard she had got 2 weeks work experience at Norbrook pharmaceutical so very pleased about that.\n\n\n\nThursday\nHad the morning off, the last few days had been rather hectic. A girl who had done work experience with us a couple of years ago called round, out of the blue, she was still keen to train as a Vet Nurse and wanted to write to the Practices in the area and needed advice, anyway I told her about our vacancy here and well the long and the short is she starts on the 2nd April – Receptionist staff now sorted, just need a vet, I wish it was as easy.\nFriday\n[husband] was reading a TT test at a farm and found a reactor. Pre f+m Cumbria was TB free but with all the new stock coming into the area it is inevitable that this will not be the case, there have already been two other cases in the county. I dropped off the isolation notice to the farmer and as they are, he seemed okay and still very positive. I have always admired them for their courage and stamina, as he said they love farming and you have to expect things like this. Managed to spend the afternoon with one of our new receptionists, she is doing really well and settling in time she will grasp it all in no time.\nSaturday\nRan [daughter] and her friend into town and sorted out the garage – that was an achievement. The dog that swallowed the ball wasn’t eating so I went to get it something tasty, it’s going home later so it should be a lot happier. [daughter]’s still in town so I took (vet student) to see Hadrian’s wall, she’s from America so was very keen to see it, she really enjoyed it and so did I. I hadn’t been for a couple of years. Just had a nice quiet evening in.\nSunday\nMy sister and her daughter came for the day. My niece is two and a half years so need I say more, we were busy playing all day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 18th March 02\n\nMonday 18th March\nIt's looking fairly quiet at work this week but you never know. Mr W (farmer) came in he was letting us know his restocking plans and was one of the farmers querying his compensation ( I never liked that as they were compulsory purchased and have not received any compensation as such although some got better money than others, so maybe it was all taken into account). Anyway he missed the query deadline by two hours so DEFRA are refusing to look at his case as he does appear to have lost out as his brother with the same breeding of cows and related went down on the same down, got an average £300 more per cow. Anyway we tried to look to the future and he was looking forward to getting stock back. We had another TB reactor today in some French cattle. Me and our receptionist were chatting and decided things were really getting back to normal, although with the added paperwork. [daughter] was very upset when she came home from school as she had been getting bullied by a girl in her year…., so we chatted about that and I wrote to her teacher to see if she could find out more.\nTuesday\n[daughter] went to school fairly happy. I just told her to hand her letter in and try and avoid the girl. I was going milk recording tonight which I really enjoy it's great to be among the animals and talk to the farmers. We only have one farmer milk recording fully at present, there were 12. The farm I went to is a big dairy herd and is now \nlooking to expanding so that was good news. Bad news is that means I'll have to get up earlier in the mornings for the recording - never mind!! [daughter] had got on okay at school and the teacher was really good with her, so she's feeling happier. She is a good kid and although hormonal at times she does put up with a lot. During the FMD. We were unable to really go anywhere or do anything although we did try to keep her routine, we worked longer hours and were more stressed, but she never complained and helped a lot. Went dog training after milk recording so it was a long day.\nWednesday\nEarly morning start today. 5am to go milk recording but I always get a lovely breakfast. We also got invited to a party at the farm in May so that's something to look forward to and its fancy dress so that will be fun, we have to dress up as children's characters.\nWe then attended a careers' convention at the Sands Centre until 7 pm, so another very long day, very tired. We saw a lot of children who were interested in pursuing veterinary work which is always encouraging. I enjoy doing the careers days, it's interesting to see the next workforce, they seem to grow up so fast\nThursday\nMy claim to fame today was seeing the Princess Royal; I passed her at a junction and thought I was seeing things. I bored everyone with that story! We had a lovely staff lunch meeting, we all helped cook and sat and chatted about the future, we had no replies from the advert for a vet so we decided to try another Veterinary magazine so fingers crossed. In the afternoon I managed to get very well caught up on my paperwork which is a rarity as I normally end up going somewhere or sorting something out, so I was very pleased especially as the year end is approaching.\nFriday\nDiscussed a few ideas with our Nurse regarding the small animal side and the possibility of getting some new equipment. I shall have to do some adding up. [husband] was at a Vet meeting locally for all the vets in the area on Thursday night and there were 3 other practices looking for vets and had been doing for some time without any luck at all, this is worrying as our case loads increase again it puts a strain on the vets, so fingers crossed our advert is in tomorrow. In the afternoon I called to see one of our evening receptionist who is on maternity leave at present. It was good to see her and her new addition so I was filling her in on the news and gossip - hopefully she will be back to work the second week in April although the birth was a caesarean so I have told her to see how she is feeling, so we will discuss it again soon as this is her fourth child but she copes really well and is looking really healthy.\nSaturday\nIt snowed, I went to meet my Mum at Killington as we were having her dog while she went on holiday and nearly got stuck in the snow. During foot and mouth [daughter] had counted the stock in the field between Carlisle and Penrith on the M6, anyway I did it again today - last year we counted 2 - this year we counted 12 - big difference.\nSunday\nWent for a walk around a local wood for the first time in over a year it was amazing how overgrown it had become, the paths were still visible but in places only just. Met up with a friend's daughter to finalise arrangements for her father's surprise meal out next Friday for his 50th birthday\n\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th March 02\n\nMonday 25th March\nAnother very busy day today. Still no answer to the advert for a new vet. [husband] spoke to another vet in the area and they had, had the same response - nothing. It is good to be busy again. Our new receptionist is doing well and learning fast, so that's taking the pressure off me and [other receptioinist]. Completed the claim form for Business Link grant which helped a lot and enabled us to do things and advertise when we wouldn't have been able to.\nTuesday\nStarting to prepare for the end of our financial year. I always dread this but it has to be done. It will be nice to end another chapter, the Practice suffered badly last year and it was very worrying. We lost 3 vets and two lay staff. But everyone is feeling the same. I have spoken to a few farmers today and the opinion is - well it is a lot better than this time last year. It has been interesting to see how the effect of having new stock does throw them; we are getting called out a lot more which is good for us. We are doing a lot more lambings and lambing is set to go on until may/June time this year. We are very busy testing at the moment but it gives us the opportunity to see the new animals and discuss plans with the farmers. The relationship which was built during the f+m is now definitely benefiting, a lot have said how helpful it was and feel a lot closer - the family not business relationship is good.\nWednesday\nI had a day off today which was good. I managed to catch up on a few things which I just hadn't had time to do with being so busy. I got a lot organised for the holiday at the week-end which we are all looking forward to, but we can't all get away together, mainly due to no new vet and our financial year but at least we will all get a bit of a break.\n[daughter] got her report today and has done very well, we are so proud of her so fingers crossed for her GCSEs.\nThursday\nI spoke to Mrs W today who has been very much in action since they got f+m and even got in touch with politician etc. to help give farmers that voice. She mentioned the Public Inquiry and like a lot of people feels that maybe rather than having a finger pointing blaming session and we all have our ideas on that, she felt that maybe trying to prevent it happening again would be a better idea. I personally have begun to realize recently just how much and how deep the feelings run, I think I am more emotional now than when we were in the thick of it.\nFriday\nSpent all day knuckling down to the end of year - but got a lot done. [husband], [daughter] and (vet student) went out for the day. It is [husband]'s first real day off since October. And it did him good. We all went out in the evening to celebrate a friend's birthday - it was really good.\nSaturday\nHoliday again today - [husband], [daughter], my sister and her daughter have gone away today to the cottage near Newton Stewart we have rented for a week. The weather is great so they should have a lovely time, this could be our only holiday this year. [husband]'s back on Monday, then I go on Wednesday - confusing isn't it. Never mind at least we will all get away for a few days.\nSunday\nEnd of year day. Stocktaking, counting. Sunny outside - boring but never mind it's done. Our vet student went home today. She had really enjoyed herself and we had enjoyed having her, she bought us all some lovely gifts. It will be nice to be on our own again but I will still miss her.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 1st April 02\n\nMonday 1st April\nI had a lovely day - my day. [husband] and [daughter] still away - played in the garden. Went for a walk, read some of my book - lovely! [husband] came back at tea-time so we went out for a meal - perfect.\nTuesday\nWent to help [another vet] (vet) TT test at one of our farms. He had restocked and was very positive about the future, it was a lovely day and great to be amongst cows again.\nWednesday - Sunday\nHOLS!! Great I didn't realise just how much I needed it, the weather was great, warm, sunny very relaxing. All charged up again. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 8th April 02\n\nMonday 8th April\nBack to work today. I had quite a lot of catching up to do and couldn't really get into it, never mind it will all still be there tomorrow. Hope we can get away again this year even for a few days.\nTuesday\nQueen Mum's funeral today. It was very quiet. We gave the girls time off to watch the funeral, it was a nice funeral if you can have one and they commented on the poem which was read about being thankful for the life and not being sorry - I must get it. Our nurse suggested about giving it to clients when they have their pets put to sleep, nice idea.\nWednesday\nBack into it now, I had 2 very difficult SOA to complete. Farmers are slowly getting the idea but find all the paperwork hard, but it's a good chance for them to call in for a chat and coffee. I so seem to spend an awful lot of time doing that now but it's always good to see how they are coping.\nThursday\nThe large animal work has been rapidly increasing and it has been putting extra pressure on all the staff, we do really need another vet but another advert and still no response at all, but they all work very hard and we do manage to get through the work. We chatted to the staff and tried to reassure them about the future but how can you when if we can't get another vet, we simply can't provide the service our clients need. It is very worrying and we are not sure of the solution or the future. I think after that paragraph I need a 'we can do it', kick!!\nFriday\nOur new receptionists are settling in well and I did some work with them today which was good, they are both very enthusiastic. A few years ago a (I?) taught NVQ in Animal Care so one of our receptionists is keen to do this so I organised some work for her to do - enjoyed that. Castrated a colt in the afternoon sad I know but I enjoyed that!!\n\nSaturday\nWent shopping with [daughter] in the morning to buy her some new clothes, we had a good time. Then started the sewing for the YFC field day, we had to make shorts and T shirt for a sport event, well I haven't really done sewing from a pattern for years, so let's just say it was fun!!\nSunday\nWent to Newcastle for the day via some fields we had to check for a client's SOA. Had a lovely time and saw the blinking or winking - I'm not sure which one it is, it was nice to have a day all together.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 15th April 02\n\nMonday 15th April\nVery busy again, I did 175 miles today just dropping things off for farmers and vets and trips to the lab. I also found a new supplier of Paper Towels which will save us a lot of money - see so easy pleased!! It was very tiring but I do like being out and about and I even managed two cups of coffee on farms. Before FMD I felt that the relationship between vets and farmers was changing but our relationship during FMD did change for the better, I feel good about that but not the way it happened. Me and [daughter] had a girls night in as [husband] was away, that was fun.\nTuesday 16th April\n[husband] away at BCVA he is new on the committee and seems to be enjoying it, there is only him and another vet in Scotland from the North invited onto the committee, so they are putting together some suggestions to put to the government re FMD. Poor [another vet] was very busy again. We need a vet !!!\nWednesday 17th April\nI went to see an elderly client of ours this morning who has an old dog. She is going into hospital and won't go as she is worried about the dog. I offered to have Kelly the dog while she was in hospital and told her if I found out she cancelled it I would be cross. I enjoy talking to her, for her 87 years she is very fit and funny.\nAt lunchtime we all attacked the Bayer Rep for free goodies for our open day, he was very co-operative and got away without a scratch! We didn't have an open day last year so it should be fun - back into a routine.\nThursday 18th April\nI bottomed my paperwork this morning, no interference, no phone calls, no SOA, very productive!! Me and [husband] went to see the finical advisor at the bank in the afternoon, it was good but we can't retire this year - never mind - he gave us some good ideas, so fingers crossed we might just be able to retire one day!!\nFriday 19th April\nVery busy - we need a vet repetitive isn't it. We were looking back in the visit book to this time last year - this year we had 21 calls which is a practise record last year we had 1!!. There is a lot of general "well this time last year" in some ways it all seems very unbelievable but in other ways it still very sad and emotional. I think more emotional now than when it was actually happening, when you see farmer’s eyes filling up talking about it. I used to worry about upsetting them, but I feel it is good to talk and it also helps me, I don't know if that’s right but it seems to work.\n\nSaturday 20th and Sunday 21st April\nHuge sewing for YFC field day. I also found out today that there is also baking and flower arranging - oh joy! \n\nWeek beginning Monday 22nd April 02\n\nMonday 22nd April\nGood day today - I've been to see my new girls (the cows over the road from us). It was the one we could see from the practice it was an awful day, they had lasted until June. Anyway it was good to see the new girls and I think I amused the farmer, we had a great time I've never enjoyed helping TT test more - on a high!\nTuesday 23rd April\nDriving around today I've been trying to listen to what the Euro inquiry people have been up to - not a lot from what I hear. I was talking to an old farmer in the afternoon and he wasn't impressed either and we agreed that it was all very well having these inquires, but were they going to help. I suppose only time will tell but I still feel that unless something is done about the cause then the chances are it will happen again, and to what extent and what has been learnt, and what will be different next time because the one thing that must be prevented is the effects on people, nobody really got that. I always remember the Samaritans advert; nobody seemed to care - probably no paperwork! Can you tell I've had a particularly bad day with the SOA, and the good news is they want to keep them permanently! Great. \nWednesday 24th April\nI went to see Mrs B again today and she had heard from the hospital again, she was going in next Tuesday so I arranged at collect K on Monday afternoon. I'm pleased she's having her op, I have also been in touch with one of her daughters in Devon, so hopefully everything should go well now.\nGood news we have heard of a vet at DEFRA who is looking for a job. [husband] phoned her and she is coming on Saturday afternoon so fingers crossed.\nThursday 25th April\nMy cows got the TT reading this morning and they are all okay. We have heard of a farm in Welton who had to have some killed as they had 7 reactors and they will need tested, there has been quite a few reactors in the country after restocking but with all the new stock coming into the county from all over the Country it was bound to happen.\nFriday 26th April \nSorted out the Open Day next Saturday got everything sorted, what we need, who's getting it etc. Me and [receptionist] went to Smuts fancy dress and decided budget wouldn't go to costumes, so we got some face paint and masks, Me and [daughter] and her friend and Mum went to see Westlife ant Newcastle, it was great fun.\nSaturday 27th April\nShopping, washing and sewing, I know how to show myself a good time. We all went to [another vet]'s at night for a BBQ it was great fun, cold but fun. We have been so lucky with [another vet] she is so nice and enthusiastic. We interviewed a vet today from DEFRA but she is a little uncertain what she wants to do, but she seems nice, and we told her what we needed so fingers crossed.\nSunday 28th April\n\tFinished my sewing.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th April\n\nMonday\nThe Inquiry begins, for what good it will do. I find I have very mixed feelings, part of me thinks what's the point and another is expecting something but quite what I don't yet. Someone to blame, a solution, an ability to turn back the clock, a lesson to learn or an end. The last I know won't happen for a while and the repercussion will probably be felt for a few years yet.\nTuesday 30th April\nSorry ill in bed today with the cold from hell.\nWednesday 1st May\nMuch better today and we heard from the Vet we interviewed on Saturday and she has accepted our offer and can start on the 27th May - Yippee - holidays and easing of the pressure on [husband] and [another vet].\nI am still finding the saying "well this time last year". Mrs R phoned and mentioned the saying as it was a year ago today that their cattle were killed but she was phoning with good news - they had their first calf born, healthy and well and she wanted to tell us - lovely.\n Thursday 2nd May\nIts official SOA are here to stay - oh joy - so we contacted all our farmers who had not yet got one who we thought might need one. So lots of chatting and catching up - so quite nice.\nOpen day is on Saturday and there still seems to be an awful lot to organise but we have been busy all day and things are looking better and slightly more organised. I haven't seen or heard much of this enquiry, but when you do hear some I think we really went through that - weird.\nFriday 3rd May\nOpen Day panic, that’s all I've done today, but it is all coming together and it will be fine - hopefully. We have had quite a good response about people coming and people checking when it is and what's happening. So fingers crossed. Must go and bake my buns!!\nSaturday 4th May\nOpen Day\nIt went really well, we started at 2 p.m. and there was a steady stream of people all-enjoying themselves - hopefully. It stayed fine the whole time thankfully; I even got my face painted by [another vet] our vet. We managed to raise £96.71 for the 'Pat Dogs' and £27.35 for National Pet week. Not too bad for 2 hours. The staff came round for tea later which was nice and we had a jolly time.\nSunday 5th May\nGardened all day till I dropped, loved it. I grew quite fond of the garden last year as it was another little escape. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 6th May\nMonday 6th May\nBank Holiday - We had a lovely family day out which have been very rare, so it was surprising that we all got on - nearly. It still feels strange being able to go to places, not only as a family but also the fact that for so long we didn't really go anywhere.\n\n\nTuesday 7th May\nVery busy. I have been doing my hollering - as [receptionist] calls it! - what I have actually been doing is dropping off drugs and chatting. I call it customer relations. I still feel funny going onto farms, I have been to the gate for months, just momentarily I feel - can I - its hard to explain - it still feels normal to drop things in the bucket or bin rather than driving onto the farm. But its good and the coffee with proper milk is brill.\nWednesday 8th May\nMr G has got some cows, he was one we thought wouldn't restock as although both his sons are on the farm neither are interested in cows. One has horses and the other has everything else from turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants etc a real menagerie. Daddy G is 66 and couldn't decide weather to get more cows or not. It was a bit of Dad says yes - sons say no. Anyway Dad won. To begin with I was on the sons side, but when he came in beaming and laughing and full of joy how could you disagree with him? Before they got FMD he had called into the practise and was having a coffee and was very upset, his friend had phoned him that morning to say he had FMD. Mr G just broke down and sobbed, it was one of my worst experiences. I found it so hard not to join him, but to be strong and console him, for him of the old gentlemen showed the depth of feeling and despair that was around. I have a lump now remembering it. Anyway in comparison if getting a few cows to milk can make such a big difference and be so happy - so what.\nThursday 9th May\nWent to a meeting in Preston with CL a vet from Brampton on the 'Marsh Report' which is regarding Vets the privilege to dispense drugs. Anyway firstly we got lost, very lost and then on arriving at the meeting eventually - it was all doom, gloom and depressing. Just when you thought things were getting on tract - bam - more changes, more paperwork. We will have to wait and see just how it effects us, but effect us it will.\nFriday 10th May\nI had a half-day off today and did fun things like washing, shopping and sorting bits and pieces - but I couldn't be a housewife all the time. I ended up leaving the cooking and washing and took the dog out instead, much more fun! \nSaturday 11th May\nTook [daughter] out to the Young Farmers Field Day - it was brill - I was only going to stay an hour, anyway I stayed all day. Everyone was there some I hadn't seen for ages. I had only spoke to them and some new faces. It was great to see them all together. I do feel farmers and their families are very special people, they have a wonderful sense of fun, they are very solid, they are very close - mind when you talk to them you find they are all related. They are also very proud of what they do. Its sad the public do not see them this way, gone are the days when the farmer was the hero who worked all hours to feed the nation. Well it was a wonderful day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 13th May\n\nMonday\nVery busy - Milk recorded this afternoon. It was good fun, they are preparing for their party on Saturday night it is a fancy dress party, me and [husband] are going but I can't say what as yet!! J mentioned that a friend of theirs was still not speaking to them because J never lost his cows, and yet J said he had tries to explain how hard it was for them waiting. His friend had accepted the invite to the party so here’s hopefully to friendship. It show's how feelings can so easily run away and be blown into something very silly, we are all on the same side after all. I see a lot of changes in a lot of people either bitterness, resentment, jealousy and emotionally drained in the whole situation. \nTuesday 14th May\nEarly morning milk recording. Got my outfit sorted for the fancy dress party on Saturday. Me and [friend?] went to try it on, it was good fun. \nWednesday 15th May\nI have done tons of backwards and forwarding today so I've been hearing about the Inquiry a bit today. I have decided I am going to the one in Carlisle out of interest and curiosity. I still feel what is it all for - so I may find out at the meeting. I am still waiting for the day FMD is not mentioned or I have some dealing regarding it. \nThursday 16th May\nI spoke to a young couple who farm and they were enquiring about the changes in buying drugs - it caught me off guard as we knew it would happen but not when. I arranged to meet with them and chat to see what they wanted and I think I will go from there. People are farming in different ways than they used to pre FMD, weather it is a result of FMD or not I don't know but there are going to be a lot of changes heading our way.\nFriday 17th May\nAccountant day today - what a joy, no he is brilliant. He has helped so much over the years and last year he was brilliant. He did have one consolation - we wouldn't have to pay too much tax! This year anyway!\nSpoke to a rep in the afternoon, we have had all the usual offers that we get every year but this year they look good as if we buy more this year than last year we can get more off - that should be easy.\nSaturday 18th May\nParty night - I am Cruella Deville and [husband] is Bob the Builder. It was great seeing people we hadn't seen for ages if and when you could recognise them. It was a really good do. We met a client of ours and she is very anti everything re FMD, I feel she is really suffering and very bitter. She was little Bo Peep who had lost her sheep and didn't know where to find them but Mr Blair can, she preached all night to anyone she could. I feel sorry for her as people were avoiding her. Sad.\nSunday 19th May\nRecovered!\n\nWeek beginning Monday 20th May 02\n\nMonday\nA new cattle fertility programme has now become available to Vets and farmers. Two of the people who work came along to see us and discuss the advantages . We already had a few farmers keen in having the program installed. We discussed the program later with a few farmers and they were very keen recognising that they are going to need a program like this that can help them keep a tighter control on their herds fertility and health, which would enable them to remain in business. As most of them are realising, they are now running a company not a family concern. So it’s quite exciting another step forward hopefully.\nTuesday 21st May\nVery busy today everyone stretched, it will make life so much easier when our new vet, Anne, starts next week. I got caught up on my paperwork and also managed to catch up on some others bits that needed done. Even got all the SOA - DEFRA paperwork sorted - miracle.\nWednesday 22nd May\nWent to see two of our farmers today to discuss the Interherd Cattle Health and Fertility computer program. It was good to chat a listen to their plans, hopes and dreams and their concerns. A lot of farmers are still very unsure of the future and quite honestly are keeping their options open. Definitely gave me some pause for thought and a few concerns.\nThursday 23rd May\nQuiet day today. Mr W one of our farmers came today and we had a chat, he was also worried about the future. I hope some good positive news comes soon.\nFriday 24th May\n[friend] is having a few weeks off as our new vet is starting on Monday. [she] came to us 6 months 10 years ago and she has helped us out ever since, and so during FMD she offered to help. It was great to have her and she worked all hours as there was only her and [husband] for 5 months. So she is having some well deserved time off and will come back part time when we need her. I'll miss her but she says she's a lot of housework to catch up on!\nSaturday 25th and Sunday 26th May\nMy sister and niece came to stay for the weekend. We had a nice time just pottering here and there. \n\nWeek beginning Monday 27h May\n\nMonday\nNew vet started. She was very nervous but very keen. She had spent 10 months working for DEFRA and was relieved to be finished with it. She had mainly been involved with re-stocking. Anyway she managed very well and hopefully will settle well. \nTuesday 28th May\nWe booked a holiday today, our 1st holiday for about 2.5 years. So we are all very excited. We are going on a barge near Chester so hopefully the weather will be good. It will be nice to go away together especially after last year. I think we all need it. You do get used to staying at home but with all the trouble and upset last year, it will be nice. Can't wait.\nWednesday 29th May\nHad a lovely day. Ended up doing lots of visiting around the farms dropping drugs off and seeing another farm regarding the Interherd program. I went to a large dairy farm and they are a young couple who are keen and enthusiastic about their future so it was very positive and encouraging. It does give you a lift and helps put things back on track.\nThursday 30th May\nWe had a farmers coffee morning - not planned, they appeared at once so it was quite nice. Its quite interesting when you hear them together, there were two elderly and one younger one, and their opinions, hopes, thoughts and experiences were very different. \n\n\nFriday 31st May\nAnother mega paperwork day - exciting! Played in the garden this afternoon and walked the dog. \nSaturday 1st and Sunday 2nd June\nHad a weekend off together, we went visiting and walking. Very nice.\n\nWeek beginning 3rd June\n\nMonday\n[My sister and her daughter] came to visit. We went into Carlisle but nothing very exciting. The weather was very disappointing for all the organised events. We went to a couple and got wet. [daughter] and [niece] got some Jubilee mugs at one of them.\nWednesday\nI ended up helping (our new Vet and new Nurse) to operate so that was good. I don’t get much chance to help in the op room these days so I enjoyed it thoroughly. [New vet] is doing very well, she’s only been qualified 3 years and up to now has not done much small animal so I was worried she would not like it, but she seems to be enjoying it thoroughly and has settled in really well. It seems like she has been here for ages.\nThursday\nWe had our first work experience from a school for 2 years. She was very interested in the FMD and said they had done a bit on it at school so I went through a few of the details and we discussed the human side which she hadn’t really been discussed at school. To finish I had 4 SOA to do as well – such joy.\nFriday\nI foolishly decided to decorate the surgery and op room. You know when you think you have a good idea then realise you have bitten off more than you can chew – well by Sunday night I was dead – I got it all done and it did look better as nothing had been done last year but boy was I tired.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th June\n\nMonday\nOur new Interherd disc arrived so I went and installed it on two farms, they were very keen to get started so it's quite exciting. They both have young sons who are keen to farm also so that helps. Sometimes I fee if we can just get through this and then other times I feel what's the point - but down the middle of the road we have to try and make it work and fight to make it work. \nTuesday 11th June\nQuite busy today - but [daughter] had her brace taken off today so we had two visits to the hospital. She looks different without her brace now.\nWednesday 12th June\nHad a day off today - peaceful.\nThursday 13th June\nNMR came to see us to discuss how they can work with us, the Interherd and the farmer. It was interesting and competitively priced. So that is now another service we can offer to our farmers which can only help long term. I went to see another farmer to enter the Interherd; there is a lot of interest. We are trying to maintain a close contact with our farmers to enable us to meet their needs as things progress. In the near future there are going to be a lot of changes regarding the dispensing of drugs which could alter the way we work, this should be finalised by January 2003, but until then we are not sure just how they will affect us.\nFriday 14th, Saturday 15th and Sunday 16th June\n[husband] birthday so I have organised a surprise weekend away for him. We had a wonderful time and thankfully the weather was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th June\n\nMonday\nVery quiet almost like last year but thankfully not for the same reason, they are all busy silaging. Normality is returning. But they are still finding it difficult with new herds not really knowing their new cows yet or how they react. One farmer said it was like a new car, ‘you have to drive it a good few miles before you are at ease and the seat is comfy!!’ Well that’s one way of putting it.\nTuesday\nI went to see Mr J to discuss our new Interherd Program – a computer program that they can keep records of all their herds records and we can do analysis on them. It’s quite exciting and interesting and shows farming is heading to the computer age and the farmers are learning another new skill – not sure they are all comfy with. After I had shown Mr J the program and how to use it, he was keen but said that for now he would maybe go and cut down a few thistles!!!\nWeds/Thursday\nVery quiet – did some catching up on paperwork, then went for a walk and played outside in the garden.\nFriday\nQuery FMD in pigs. The effect it had was very strange, part was horror, worry and another strange one was of expecting it. Although you did get on with everything and it’s all sorting out and normality is returning it’s as if you are waiting for it to appear again. I went back to watching the news listening to the radio, waiting, fingers crossed. SAD DAY.\nSat/Sun\nQuiet weekend. [husband] was working. No results on the pigs yet. The bush telegraph is working again. We have had quite a number of worried farmers on the phone but no results as yet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th June\n\nMonday\nBreakthrough no FMD talk at all today. I suddenly realised in the evening. All is getting back to normal and everyone is coming to terms with the paperwork. Farming does what it always has recently fallen from one disaster to another but they are very proud of their trade but do now feel let down by both the government and the public who for whatever reason don’t seem to have the same respect for farmers as they used to but this just may be due to how we all are and work these days.\nTuesday\nPigs given the all clear – everyone breathes a sigh of relief – It has a very chilling effect but again shows we are still clear of the disease – for now!!\nWeds\nOver the last few days we have had 6 dairy herds with very strange mastitis. [husband] has been out to visit them with a vet from VLA Penrith but they as yet have not established a cause. Samples show nothing and usual treatments don’t work. So it is a case of new herds, new problems.\nThursday\nDAY OFF and FRIDAY\nSat/Sun\nHad my niece, we had a lovely time but very exhausting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 1st July\n\nMonday\nWe have invested the new Interherd computer programme. Mon-Thurs this week I have been out and about visiting farmers loading and explaining the new programme. Some of which I haven't been too far over a year, it's good to see them and chat FMD of course is always still at the top of the list followed by the milk price and all the regulations. It's so amazing and sorrowful to see how deep the emotions run. The stories and feelings they have are still very strong - but all are very emotional. They are very resilient but do still have these deep feelings - you wonder how the effects will come out, but it will take time.\nFriday\nI did a SOA for the first time in ages. I had to look back as to how to fill it in. They are going to review these shortly so watch this space. All the regulations are up for review in about November so we will see what they come up with.\nSunday\nWe have a vet student Alison for two weeks staying with us. She came to Northumberland during FMD so was interested to know what had happened and where everything was at. The more you go through it the easier it becomes. She had been involved in the culling and had found it very hard; she did it for 1 month and was glad to leave. \n\n\nWeek beginning 8th July\n\nMonday/Tuesday\nI went milk recording, the farm I go to did not get FMD and they were saying how hard it had been for them and to some extent they did have as hard a time as people with FMD, just in different ways they had to do the checking for longer. The farmer said he used to dread going into the sheds in a morning as he dreaded what he might find. Also washing the milk takers, not being able to visit friends and family. All the regulations re moving stock, just the not knowing they said it put quite a strain on them all. One of the ways they coped was they built a tennis court and played a lot of other games and as a family this brought them closer.\nWeds\nInterherd Day - We held a meeting today to invite all the farmers interested in using the programme, the people who wrote the programme came along to talk to the farmers. It was very good and the farmers seemed to enjoy themselves. They have all found they are needing this sort of programme as with the new herds, they are unsure of how their fertilities are.\nThurs/Fri\nVisited Mr W and Mr J re Interherd - got a proper cup of coffee and proper milk, that's what I missed about last year and one of the reasons I go to visit them.\nSat/Sun\nVery busy small animal operated and nursed all week-end. I was shattered - poor me!!\n\n\nWeek beginning 15th July\n\nMonday\nVisited [farmer] re Interherd programme, they are very positive about the future and have a son who is very keen. I can see a difference in their attitude over the past few months, when I first started going they were unsure they had done the right thing and had seriously debated getting any stock back, if they could cope with the changes and the regulations and paperwork, but as [he] said 'he just loves farming' not that he doesn't know anything else he just loves farming. And now they have progressed and working together within the family they have a good system and appear to be enjoying themselves. The farm has been in the family for generations so financially they can manage. I hope they make it, they are lovely people and a real inspiration.\nThe report on FMD and the recommendations is to be published soon, but from what we have heard so far it doesn't say anything we didn't already know and the recommendations are a little sketchy to say the least, they need a good sensible positive protocol for any future outbreak and at present if it all flared up again tomorrow, it would be the same mess. What have we learnt - hopefully time will tell.\nTuesday\n Sad news today, one of our clients who didn't get FMD has decided to give up. He is on a tenanted farm. The owners are not keen on any expansion or even repairing old buildings, to remain competitive, he sees he needs more cows but can't build any more sheds. So in his words he has decided that there is maybe 'more to life’, he is in his mid forties, so he is going to sell up and try something new. Very brave but sad. \nI think this will not be the first of our clients to do this. Everyone asks about the future and at the moment nothing and nobody is certain. Can the smaller farmers keep up? Will the bigger ones get bigger? What new regulations and paperwork will be brought in? Only time will tell.\nWeds\n[husband] has been away at the Br Cattle Vet Ass (BCVA) Committee meeting. He has been on the committee for about 18 months now. He enjoys it and it is another feather in his cap. Anyway he gave a talk on the problems post FMD and on the problems farmers were and had experienced. He also gave a talk on some of the mastitis cases that had appeared in new herds. We have had some very strange mastitis cases this year. Anyway there was a competition for the best talk and [husband] won. I was very proud of him. None of the other vets there had ever seen anything like it, but some had found more bad mastitis in cows this year so whether it’s the change of area weather or housing, we shall see.\nThursday\nI had a visiting day today - good fun. I went t see the farmers who have the Interherd so I had lots of coffee with 'proper milk' yummy. It's also interesting to hear all the different stories and feelings, hopes and worries. There are so many. Most are ready for the challenge ahead but unfortunately some aren't. Nobody knows how or when things will change but over the next couple of years they will, some good, some not so good.\nByee I'm off on my hols now. Yippee!!\n\n\n\nHOLIDAY Week beginning 22nd July\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th July\n\nTuesday\nBack to work, the staff have coped really well, no falling out, no problems. It's the first time in nearly two years we have left them so it was a bit worrying, but they are a great bunch, we are very lucky. I feel so relaxed and it was great fun seeing through all my paperwork - NOT. I had a bit of a lazy day but good.\nWeds\nPoor Mr G is having a terrible time with DEFRA. When we did his restocking TT test he had a reactor, so the cow was slaughtered but no lesions were found. The herd had to be tested again 60 days later and another reactor was found and slaughtered. Anyway he was due another test in 60 days and this was arranged for 9.00am. 9.00am came and went and at 10.00am he phoned to see what was happening. They had forgotten, they could come out at 1pm. No good, the last two times they had tested it had taken 6 hours to test the cows and they still needed milked which would mean a very late finish. Mr graves explained this and was told not to complain he had bought the cows into the country with TB and he would have to do it when they said. They know how to get people on their side don't they. Anyway a heated discussion had pursued and eventually sense was seen. The test was rearranged for another day at 9.00am so fingers crossed.\nThursday \nWe got money through today from the FMD recovery fund, it has been very useful and enabled us to do things we wouldn't normally be able to do. We had our vans sign written, we got a laptop computer which had been great for the interherd programme, we got pens and pads to give out, [husband] was able to hold meetings with our farmers pre stocking to advise them what to look for etc. So it has been extremely useful. It was nice to be given the money, some people say it would have been spent elsewhere but it helped us immensely and we feel we have spent it wisely. \nFri\nHad a paperwork catch up day today, it has been quiet recently due to holidays and harvesting but thankfully not like last year. We looked back again and today last year we had no calls and today we had four, so although quiet not that bad.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 5th August\n\nMonday\nVery quiet\nTuesday\nVery quiet\nWeds\nVery quiet\nThursday \n[daughter] got her first job\nFri\nTook [daughter] to my sisters for the week-end\nSat\nQuiet week-end\nSun\nGardening – Going on holiday again next week YIPPEE!!\n\nSorry it’s been very quiet this week as mentioned before this is usual as everyone is on holiday and the farmers are harvesting. I have caught up and have been enjoying a few days just poddling, going out with [daughter]. Shopping – food, it’s nice to have some catch up time.\nOn Thursday [daughter] got a job – her first proper job well nearly – at the Travel inn at the bottom of our road, she is so excited and already planning what she is going to spend her hard earned cash on.\nOn Friday I took [daughter] to my sisters in Lancashire for the week-end. I came back on Friday night and we decided to meet up at [husband]’s Mum and Dad’s caravan near Whitby on Monday for a week so another holiday. I don’t know you have one and then another, anyway it should be good fun. \n\n HOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 12thth August \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 19thth August \n\nMonday\nVisited Mr A today to load Interherd onto his computer. He has definitely decided to sell up – he is hoping by early next year. This has all been very sudden but his son is no longer interested and as Mr A said ‘who can blame him’. With all the new regulations and paperwork a lot are finding it hard.\nTuesday \nWe had an Environment Agency visit this morning to check how and where we dispose of our waste in practice. Thankfully we are doing everything properly but this visit took two and a half hours and lots of form filling in. It is they that check these things but the extent in questionable!!\nMr G called in the afternoon – he is having problems with his cows, they keep going off colour. We have so many new herds that started of doing well, happy and settling in fine then about 3-4 months after they arrived they start being ill, have mastitis, off colour, not eating, not milking properly – a wide variety. It’s very strange; the vets don’t really know what’s happening, we have a few on regular blood sampling trying to find any changes.\nWeds\nMe and [husband] went to the accountant to see just how bad financially we really had done last year – and oh what a surprise it was bad. In fact we nearly qualified for children’s Tax relief. The main thing is we survived in a fashion!! Hopefully it will be better next year!!\nThursday \nI visited two farmers today on the Interherd. They are finding it brilliant, they have both recently had Farm Assurance visits and Interherd had helped them enormously and helped them reach the standards. They both appreciate how much easier it is for them and less paperwork – heaven. It’s so good to find something to help them.\nFri\nI have been phoning our main Drug Company’s Reps inviting them to our Open Evening – all very keen. I think they just enjoy the crack.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 26th August \n\nVery quiet this week on both large and small animal, it must be the last holiday rush before going back to school. We managed to do some catching up and decided a four day week would be nice!!\nI did quite a bit of playing on Interherd so that when I visited farmers about it I knew what they want to see and where to find it! Most of them are interested in the medicines book as this keeps excellent stock records from when the drug/product is born, where it has gone and batch numbers and expiry dates. These are all the information they need to produce when they get inspected and doing it manually can be very time consuming.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd September\n\nMonday 2nd September\nIRS 9.30, Garst Milk Rec\nTuesday\nGarst Milk Rec, Dog Course\nWeds\n[daughter] back to school, Exporting is back\nThursday\n Exporting\nFri\nChange date of open evening – GB way – now 15/10/02, Exporting\nSat\nOff [sister and niece].\nSun\nOff\nMonday\nEvery 2 years we are checked by our Radiographer Advisor to ensure everything is well and we are doing everything right. They check the X-ray machine, our records and our monitoring records – we passed. In the afternoon I went milk recording, it was very warm and very flyie, but good fun. They are thinking of getting a new parlour, twice as big as Mr G feels in the future milk will have to be produced by quantity not quality, but it is difficult and expensive decision to make for him – we shall see.\nTue\nEarly morning milk recording this morning but I got a lovely breakfast with proper milk. I got to check the large animal when I got back. We also started our new puppy-training course in the evening, that went very well, it is a more 1 to 1 basis, our Nurse runs it. I go along and help with moral support – it was good fun but I had a very long day and went to bed when I got back.\nWeds\n[daughter] went back to school today, I’ll miss her following me round helping out and her ‘Mum can you take me……’.\nWe may have some exporting of sheep on Friday, there is a pedigree Texel sheep sale at H & H Borderway. It is the first exporting we have done in about 20 months. As you can guess the paper work has tripled, there has been numerous phone calls to ad from DEFRA trying to make sense of it. But I must say people up here are not good at clarifying what they have written – now there’s a surprise!!\nThursday\n I have spent the whole day either reading new expert regulations or running backwards and forwards for new paperwork, what we have to complete and what they should bring. Well it could be fun.\nFriday\nWell full really isn’t the word I would use, we needed more paperwork, they needed more paperwork, it took most of the day and we only had 3 sheep to send. Draining. The one good thing was seeing everyone at the Auction, some new faces and some have gone.\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th September\n\nMonday\nT's 7th birthday. We have another vet student studying at the moment for 2 weeks. We have had five this year so far and another before Christmas but she won't stay in the house as she is from Carlisle. It is nice to have them and it makes us behave but I won't have as many next year. They have all been interested in the FMD and some had a chance to help out which was an eye opener for them. I spoke to [student] about it all, how it affected everyone, what happened and what didn't!! Now talking about - almost a year from the last case - I don't find it as hard and I think I can hide how emotional it was, but at the time I wasn't. I was more angry. I feel now FMD or the aftermath has sadly become everyday life, I don't rush for news on it or yearn information, I think because directly or indirectly we live with it everyday, it all has really become part of our lives. It is very difficult to put into words or explain.\nI also went to visit one of my Interherd farmers in Lancaster; they are very pleased with it and are coping well. Mrs M was crushed by the pet cow a month ago and was very lucky. She had two broken legs, cuts and bruises; needless to say the cow has gone to greener pastures. They are very resilient and are planning for the future and it is nice to be a part of their planning. I also get proper milky coffee!!! See so easy pleased.\nMilk recorded tonight at Mr G's so early morning tomorrow. I'm still trying to persuade them into Interherd so finger crossed.\nTuesday \nEarly morning milk recording failed on the Interherd due to a cow breaking a leg - I have never actually experienced it happening before. I generally hear farmers needing a slaughter cert. Or a cow put down to see it and the family's reaction - I was humbled I think is the word. It was an accident that can happen but the look on their faces was such deep sorrow - the father even places his head in his hands. At breakfast we all talked about it, she was only a heifer getting ready to be served for the let time, she was a difficult birth, they had all helped, well bred and she was jet black with a huge white spot on her side so no prizes for guessing the name. But as the farmer said you can't look after them, feed them, care for them, day in, day out without caring about them or why would you do it.\nIn the afternoon I attended a course on management. Employment law, customer service at Barnard Castle, it went on till 9 pm with dinner after so I decided to stay over - very spoilt. Good course, excellent food, lovely hotel.\nWednesday\nCame back from my course leisurely and stopped at Penrith for a bit of shopping - very pleasant. I'm not a good shopper but it was nice. I had to get back for 11 am as \nwe were having a new credit card machine fitted. He duly arrived - well what an obnoxious man, he was moaning because we had a switchboard, he had to dial 9, this was wrong, that was wrong and then was he not going to get offered a coffee, to which he was told 'not without the special word', he was a bit aghast and said please. I swear if I had not just come from a course explaining customer service, I would have murdered him!! God bless courses and of course credit card machine men!!!\nIn the afternoon I was visited by the RSPCA advertising company, did we want an advert in their leaflet? Anyway it was £640 for quarter of a page for 2 years so I said we couldn't afford it, it suddenly dropped to £410, I was a little suspect so I got [receptionist] to quietly check if the company were connected to the RSPCA. Anyway while I was waiting I said it was still a little bit more than we could afford what with FMD - see it is useful and true - he then said he could do it for £210, by which time [she] had confirmed they were with the RSPCA, so I said yes thank you - Bargain or Rip Off!!\nThursday\nI tried to get my head round isolation units and tried to explain to a farmer about them. I think we got there eventually. When [husband] got back I got him to explain in simple English and it all made a lot more sense. They will be handy for people selling and buying stock, but have as always the guidelines must have been written by someone who has never seen a farm or fields!!\nFriday\nCaught up on paperwork and trolleyed about. Busy doing not a lot - I think the term is. Anyway it was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 16th September\n\nThis week has been appraisal week for the staff. We didn't do any last year so I thought we had better get back into the swing of things.\nI quite enjoy the appraisals - it's a great opportunity to have a real good sort out, get new ideas and try and recognise any potential problems.\nWe started doing appraisals at bout 4 years ago and to start off with everyone was petrified and worried, but it was nice to see them actually excited and enjoyed it.\nIt is quite time consuming but very worthwhile so not much out and about this week\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd September\n\nMonday\nAnother suspect case. The main difference about this was as with other ones, I felt cold, sick, scared, this one was better. I felt it was not going to be positive, whether it's a case of there have been a few now - not positive and this is just another one or confident that it no way could be positive. I definitely wasn't as worried. I don't know if that is being blasé (can't spell) - sorry. But definitely different.\nTuesday\nJust nicely busy today, just enough to keep everyone busy. [husband] and (other vet) are away this week so that just leaves [new vet] and [other vet]. So it was a little worrying if it got busy. It was the last of our dog training courses tonight; they all passed their tests well, and were very pleased with the progress they had made. It was the first 4 week course we had run and feedback was very positive. Our head nurse had put in an awful lot of work fir it so I was very pleased for her as well. The next one is planned for November.\nWeds\nExperts are going to start again at H&H tomorrow and Friday. It will be the first ones we have done for about 18 months. Surprisingly the paperwork for our side has not changed much but the Irish paperwork is horrendous. Anyway after several phone calls to DERFA and DARD and various farmers who are wishing to sell at the sale I think we have it sorted. We will see tomorrow.\nThursday and Friday\nI've put these into one as that is how it felt. After being so confident that we had everything in place to be able to export the sheep first thing Thursday morning DARD (like Irish DEFRA) changed the regulations and paperwork - such joy. As you can imagine this sent everyone in a state of frenzy and another buzby full of phone calls. We didn't have the paperwork sorted when people had bought sheep and were wanting to leave, now some tempers are reaching fever pitch. Well we did manage to export them away on Thursday night - 3 hours late so they had to book different ferries. All done and dusted by Friday. We were busy congratulating ourselves on achieving the impossible and how we all had worked hard to accomplish it and now had several more names on our Christmas card list - yes you guessed we had a phone call from well let me say one not happy chappy. After having no sleep, catching a late ferry waiting for the paperwork to arrive at Larne port, all the sheep were impounded. DARD had added one more form to their list of requirements and had forgotten to send them through or mention them - hours of phone calls and faxing. Later I am very pleased to say that the sheep were released and free to go.\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\n\nMonday 7th October\nI made some trial arrangements for our Open Evening next Tuesday, all’s ready now. They are a good night out and we all enjoy it. We haven’t had one for a few years so it should be good.\nTuesday\nFor a while now we’ve been wondering if the Practice should invest in a house for an Assistant. We have had a response to the advert for our new vet, so we thought we would go house hunting – anyway it wasn’t as much fun as I first thought, to start with obviously they are quite a price and it really isn’t that easy so we looked at one cardboard box for £70,000 and apparently it went for 82K – frightening. Well we can keep on looking. We have a vet coming for an interview on Saturday so fingers crossed.\nI’m off tomorrow and away at BVNA Congress over the weekend so I’m looking forward to that.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\n\nMonday 14th October\nWe had a really good time at the BVNA (British Veterinary Nurse Assistant) Congress, we did loads of lectures a learned a few new things, got loads of freebies from the trade stands and ordered a new vaporiser for the anaesthetic machine which uses less Isoflo/Oxygen. We also had a good Halloween Ball!! Stayed up too late. We got back on Sunday evening after 3 days of Congress and I was just settling down and filling in [husband] and [daughter] on what we had done when [another vet] came in wanting a hand with a caesarean on a dog, ah well nothing like getting back into it!!\nToday anyway feeling very tired we had to start getting ready for Open evening tomorrow night for the farmers. So there was a lot of sorting out and tidying up to do as we open the house up as well. We haven’t had one for a couple of years so it was quite exciting. I really enjoy them, it’s great to have the farmers round, it’s mainly a nosh and natter night, but this year some of the drug companies paid for it, they have their stands in various parts of the house and surgery and normally everyone has a good time.\nTuesday\nOpen Evening Day – very busy. Tidying up and moving things around. Everyone helped, it’s good the staff are so excited about it as well, they have all mucked in and as usual did us proud. The evening itself was brilliant it was so nice to see them all enjoying themselves and there is nothing farmers like better than a good natter, food and beer. Quite a few said they had missed the Open Evening last year due to FMD. As far as PR goes, definitely worth it.\nWednesday\nJust clearing up and sorting out. All the staff said they had had good feedback. So well done to everyone.\nThursday\nBack to it now, Got new Interherd update so I spent quite a lot of the day seeing what new buttons it had, it’s very clever. Interherd is sold by NMR now and they are helping us sell it to the farmers whose life and paperwork hope to make easier. The man in charge at NMR is coming to see us next week to explain how the milk recording side all ties in between NMR and Interherd.\nFriday\nToday was one of those when you rush round all day but you feel unsure of what you have actually done. Very busy on both large and small side. It’s very tiring but I do prefer it when we’re busy.\n\nWeek Beginning 21st October\n\nMonday 21st October\nMonday to Wednesday – off\nThursday\nHad a meeting with ID from NMR re Interherd. They are going to give us cheap milk recording prices to help promote NMR and Interherd, they have also released a version of Interherd for farmers and we were given the first one in the country to trial and see what they thought. It was very encouraging as NMR in the past years have gained themselves a slightly unpopular feel especially in Cumbria but they now seem to see this and are trying very hard and are committed to improving it. They did a survey and now with area, herd size etc. the majority of dairy herds are in Cumbria even post FMD. So fingers crossed.\nFriday\nA good day today. [husband] was away at a BCVA Council meeting (Br. Cattle Vets Ass) and normally it goes mad, don’t know why. Anyway it didn’t today, everyone was busy but not madly. The large animal side is very up and down at present, but it is now TT and Blood testing season. There are quite a lot of restocked herds to do as they are having to be done every year as opposed to 4 yearly. We also have to test everything. It is very time consuming and if they have a TT test then it is a two day job. So for both the farmer and us, it is two days of the week when you can’t do anything else.\n\n\nWeek Beginning 28th October\n\nMonday 28th October\nWe have been asked by Newton Rigg College if we would be interested in teaching the animal care courses at the college so me and Vicky went along. It was quite interesting and we thought if we could do it together it would work, so we said we would think about it and let them know.\nWent milk recording in the afternoon. I do enjoy playing and the crack.\nTuesday\nMilk recorded again and discussed Interherd with them so we are going to use them as the pilot for the NMR/Interherd job, so that will be interesting. Regarding the Newton Rigg offer we won’t be able to do it as our part time Nurse is leaving us. She has been offered a place at Dalston Vets. She will be able to train as a Vet Nurse there as we don’t do that in our Practice, so that will leave us short staffed. It is sad but everything happens for a reason so we are now Vet and nurse hunting so more advertising and interviewing.\nWeds\nWe are sponsoring a class at the Northern Expo Holstein/Friesian shows. We have a stand and a good natter. I took some photos of a few cows and some freebies. It was a good night, Barbara came with me and she presented the prize for our class. The standard of cattle was amazing and it was a really good show.\nThursday\nOut of the photos I took for the Northern Expo I decided to make a photo album. So I went round a few other farms photographing, it was good fun and nice to see that we do have some very good stock\nFriday\nGot a phone call today from my sister, she has sold her house in Lancaster and is moving up near us so that’s very exciting. Otherwise a quiet day today. \n\n\nWeek beginning 4th November\n\nMonday 4th November\nI went to show Mr J the new Interherd farmers version. He was very interested and thought it would save a lot of paperwork and time, they all say that the paperwork since FMD has increased immensely along with the regulations.\nTuesday\nWe have decided to have a TV in the waiting room, to advertise products, services staff etc. The man from Channel 6 came and took information so it should arrive next week, so it will be interesting to see how it works.\nWeds\nWe went to the bank today to see the financial advisor as this is a free service and very useful. We have decided to buy a house for my sister to live in when she moves up and it will be an investment as well. A bit of security just in case, as last year we discovered just how quick things can change, we went for just over 3 months with not a lot of money coming in and still wages to pay. So we are now house hunting. \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th November\n\nMonday 11th November\nOne of our vets has recently started her DBR (Dip in Bovine Reproduction) course at Liverpool. As part of her studies she is looking at the cows' milk quality pre and post calving to see if any effects are relevant to their overall performance and milk production and health.\nSo we collect milk samples from certain cows twice a week over the period of lactation and she is going to test them so watch this space - we have been very lucky with [another vet], her enthusiasm is boundless and she has become a very important member of our team.\nI have persuaded Mr J of B farm to milk record with us so that's more early morning jaunts! The Interherd and NMR trial is nearly ready so hopefully by middle of December everything should be set up and running - hopefully!\nTuesday\n[two farmers] are milk reading today so I had a nice little trolly about. I treated myself to some of Mr R's ice cream, very nice, well you have to support them, their new shop on the farm is doing very well.\nI loaded my first farmer version Interherd onto Mr W's computer, he is very impressed and very keen and thankfully it all worked well.\nWednesday\nWe have 'computer bugs' not good. So I have spent most of the day on the phone talking to the debugging man.\nThursday\nStill got bugs, we've had to run a bug fixer disc through all seven computers, it takes ages, pee'd off, fed up going back to pen and paper.\nFriday\nI must have sounded fed up as the lovely little man came to fix all the computers, he had to use 3 different discs due to all the different bugs.\nHad a meeting to discuss the NMR milk recording and we have quite a lot of farmers' interested mainly because we have got a good price for NMR so fingers crossed.\nThe bugs are fixed - yipeee.\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November\n\nMonday 18th November\nDue to our junior Nurse leaving, I have been interviewing all week, we have had a lot of enquiries. I decided to invite any possibles to come and play for the morning to see what they thought and how they got on with the staff.\nThere is one that has potential and sounds very nice but she can't make it until next Monday.\nThere was one that wrote a really good letter, but when she came in, well she was sweet, but not really suitable.\nOn Friday [nurse] left, we had a little party. I hope she copes okay. She bought me a lovely cow ornament to say 'thank you', it was lovely.\n\n\nWeek beginning 25th November\n\nMonday 25th November\nEllen came for her interview, very good. She is keen, had experience, happy with the hours so she is coming back tomorrow afternoon for a play.\nWe all went out for our vet who is leaving on Friday to be a chalet maid in a French ski resort till April, it will be very sad to see her leave. Unfortunately still no joy on the new vet front, but we are going to leave it till the New Year and try then. [other vet] is going to cover but unfortunately it means [husband]'s on duty more, it's a bit reminiscent of FMD, but we'll manage.\nTuesday/Wednesday\nFeeling very sorry for myself, got a bad cold, I got sent to my room because everyone was fed up of me sneezing all over them, honestly I was only 'shanning'.\nThursday\nMuch better today. I sorted a whole load of Interherd data out and had a good play with it.\nHeard about Nestle's cancelling contracts next year from one of our farmers. He felt a little unsure quite how it would affect them and that they were being dealt another kick in the teeth. It's quite amazing how many I have heard questioning why they went back into farming. We are feeling the effects, we didn't seem to be called out as often or they don't want the cows treated as its extra expense. At the end of FMD they said over the next couple of years there would be changes in the way farmers and how many farmers worked. It's frightening to see it actually starting to happen and seeing the effects on our business. Everyone agrees the whole industry has changed for the worst and is not the same and there is no pleasure now.\nAfter all that a total contrast, me and [daughter] went Christmas shopping and had a lovely time, we met [husband] after surgery and went for a pizza - lovely night.\nFriday\nEveryone's talking about Nestle's now and quite a few are angry. Some aren't surprised and others just seem to resign themselves to it.\nWe had a lunch party for [leaving vet] today, it was good. We gave her pressies. Although she has only been here a few months she will be greatly missed by everyone, you never know, she may come back one day.\nGood news I offered Ellen the nurse's job and she's accepted, I think she will do very well.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd December\n\nMonday 2nd December\nSpent all morning trolling around the countryside collecting [another vet]'s milk samples for her DBR, it was a lovely morning. Chatted to a few farmers. A lot were still talking about Nestles.\nTuesday\nHad a meeting to clarify the start of the NMR milk recording, gave her all the information she needed to set up the herds. It's great to be able to offer the farmers a good cheaper deal.\nStaff Xmas party. It was good; everyone seemed to have a good time.\nWednesday\nDay off shopping - what joy.\nThursday\nHad an Interherd disaster today. I couldn't get it load what normally takes 15 minutes instead took 2 and a half hours. Anyway we succeeded eventually. They have just bought some in calf heifers so he was keen to keep up to date records and information. We only have one more farmer to restock now and then that's everyone, it will probably work out at about 15% drop in work etc. While waiting for Interherd to load, they were telling me that they had been approached asking them if they wanted to appeal against the amount of money they had received for the cattle, they said they wouldn't as they felt they had already been overpaid, not all farmers are money grabbers apparently.\nFriday\n[daughter] starts her mock exams now for the next fortnight. I have been waiting for the moods to start but as yet all is quiet, long may it last. She is very calm about it and has actually been revising quite hard, she has the ability. All she has to do is concentrate.\nWork wise I've done not a lot, it's one of the perks!!! I've wandered around just playing doing nice jobs, quite a change. \n\n\nWeek beginning 9th December\n\nMonday 9th December\n[daughter]’s 16th birthday, scary, even worse she can learn to drive next year, never mind enjoy the safety! We went out for lunch and did some shopping – it was good. I don’t normally like shopping but we both enjoyed it.\nCame back to mayhem – a client (small animal) had been in complaining about his bill and had caused a stink – anyway I phoned him and once we had gone through everything he seemed happy. Hopefully he had either misunderstood or hadn’t had things explained to him – although difficult it is, better people say something rather than stewing over it and making it into something it’s not. The small animal does seem to have more problems that way than the large animal. I suppose the large animal is also a business but it doesn’t stop them caring. I don’t think they could do what they do and work the hours they work if they didn’t care – sometimes they get a hard press, but I think it’s the few that get the publicity unfortunately. I like it when farmers phone to say they have a sick cow and we ask what it’s doing and quite often the reply is she’s just not herself – need you say anymore.\nTuesday \nI’m going out to play milk recording with a new person via Interherd, he is one of our clients. He is quite a character, old fashioned and yet in his thirties. It was good he is very passionate about farming and its survival. He has a lot of ideas he wants to try with different cows, he has just bought some Jerseys – hence he wants to record to see if there are benefits. We milked 60 cows in 2 hours. At my other farm we milk 190 in that time – it’s good to see both ways.\nWeds\nEarly morning milk recording – good fun a lot more relaxed than my other farm. Went to hairdressers straight after smelling of cows with pooh!! In my hair. It’s a good job I know her well and she didn’t complain too much!! The rest of the day was quite pleasant, a bit of paperwork and a skive (sorry can’t spell) to the lab.\nThursday/Friday\nWow, I think we had our Christmas rush, they should all be shopping it has been very busy. I do prefer it although a sit down now and then would be good. Me and (Nurse) had a good time on Friday afternoon. I helped her bath and groom a dog; it was so naughty – nicely. We were both sweating buckets and soaked to the skin by the end, but we had a good laugh.\n\nWeek beginning 16th December\n\nMonday 16th December\nWith [daughter]’s mock exams she has needed runs to and from school at various times so ‘Mum’s taxi’ has been on overtime. She has been very calm about it – so we shall see.\nThursday was eventful as I now have an expectant Nurse and Vet – watch where you sit. Unfortunately there is a worry for both of them. Our nurse/Evening receptionist is worried she may be losing hers and has had several tests and is obviously worried. She is going in for a scan on Tuesday so fingers crossed (Vet) is also pregnant – they have been trying for a while but has something with a long name wrong with her which causes her to miscarriage so she is pleased/worried/excited/scared and only 4 weeks so no lambing for her. She is quite happy continuing with all other work for now. I hope everything is ok with them both. It can be difficult working with animals and being pregnant but as long as they are careful, they should be ok.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd December\n\nMonday 23rd December\nSo much for getting quiet for Christmas, we have had our busiest time for a few years which is good. We are going to try advertising in the New year for a new Vet especially now [another vet] is expecting, it will all depend how she does, we may even need two. As even when [another vet] is on duty now, [husband] has to be on standby in case of any lambings, we have a couple of farmers starting anytime. \nMilk recording tonight as well but we now do it with NMR (well not literally) so I only need record once so not too bad and worked in will with Xmas round the corner and no mince pies made yet.\nTuesday\n[nurse] phoned, they are being positive at the moment, her hormone levels have increased and she has not bled anymore, it doesn’t stop them worrying though.\nSurgery was busy but we did finish by 1.30pm. My sister and [niece] arrived all set – off we go.\nChristmas was ace – very relaxing. Good fun, loads of pressies, didn’t have time to eat, too busy playing and it was so warm.\nFriday\nBack to work – a very busy day – lots of calls and surgery appointments, even some operations. (Receptionist) was off so I was in charge, I enjoyed it, finding out what everyone got for Christmas.\n\n\nWeek beginning 30th December\n\nMonday 30th December\nBusy day, only me and [receptionist] in, thought it would be quiet – wrong. Never mind, we coped.\nTuesday\n[nurse] has lost her baby or is losing it, they can’t see anything on the scan just an empty sac so she is going for a – don’t know what they call it but you can take some tablets that clear everything away. She is obviously so upset, what do you say. She’s going to drop her other two off while she goes in – it is so sad.\nThursday 2nd January\nEverybody’s back again full crew, no-one knowing what day it is. I could get used to the split weeks but at the moment I need it stuck to my head. Quite busy as well which is good. Trying to arrange TT test but farmers are never keen on them, you have to threaten them with Defra coming to do it – that works!!!\nFriday\nWent blood sampling sheep for scrapie with [husband] all day. It was a beautiful day, very cold but we had fun, only we were stood next to a stream – women torture – cold air and running water, I had to nip back to the van for various things!! By the time we finished I was frozen.\nThe test was part of the National Scrapie Plan which is to sample sheep for scrapie so if or when they find BSE in sheep, these ones will, or should be okay as there is a plan to slaughter the national herd if BSE is found, but as the farmer said they have already had human G. pigs for years as the Indians eat sheep brains and before the removal of bone meal and very dubious scabby sheep and they have not had a problem. So we will wait and see.\n\n\nWeek beginning 6th January 2003\n\nMon 6th January 2003\nOur new nurse started today. She managed very well and didn’t seem too confused when she went home. She has worked in kennels before, she is very keen – fingers crossed.\n[another vet] is doing her DBR and for part of this she has to do a study, she has decided to look at progesterone and other levels in cows post calving for 6 weeks to see what happens. So we collect a sample from each new calved cow and split it into 3 smaller pots and freeze awaiting testing in Holland. Very exciting but quite boring, the results should be interesting though – hopefully.\nTuesday\nYou forget all the explaining you have to do when somebody new starts, so me and [nurse] have written a step by step guide to C, well sort of. It’s all the little things. We haven’t had a new nurse for a while, so hopefully the book can be used for other new people. It took a bit of doing but we were pleased with it in the end.\nI spoke to Mr G re having Interherd at the farm. All I have to do now is get round to see him – he is very hard to pin down, but we’ll try.\nWeds\n[new nurse] liked her new book. She is doing very well and it’s nice for us too. I always find it quite refreshing when someone is genuinely enthusiastic. With us all being close and having their own areas it’s good to show someone else but can be scary when you see just how much they all do.\nThursday\nMilk pot day again today, the good thing is going to pick up the samples as you get a natter. So Monday and Thursday, the samples are collected, split and frozen – it’s quite time consuming and I’ve just realised I didn’t ask [another vet] how long she was doing it for!!\nFriday\nWe have decided to try and get the Accounts up to date to see how things are going – bar not being able to find a vet. So it’s one of those jobs you always mean to keep on top of but never quite manage because it’s not much fun. Interruptions, queries and assistance were very welcome, but I got a good start.\n\n\nWeek beginning 13th January\n\nMonday 13th Jan\nA has started working with us again, just two days a week. This will help a lot and help take the pressure off for surgery times etc. I got to spend the day helping with TT testing – it was good fun and it stayed fine. It was a good day.\nTuesday\nI had a milk recording day today – 3 in total. We have started using NMR now so it was all new paperwork etc. This is going to be cheaper for the farmers and works with the Interherd programme. Anyway it all went well and everybody’s samples got away.\nWeds\nMilk recorded again at one of the three farms first thing. Everytime I go he has a new plan as to how to make some money. This month it is he is going to produce a new breed of cow – a jersey X MRI so we will see how that goes.\nThursday and Friday\nJust catching up on paperwork, me and [nurse] did some training with the new nurse. She is settling in really well and very keen.\n\n\nWeek beginning 20th January\n\nMonday 20th January – Weds\nDecorated our bedroom. It looks brill, it was in desperate need of it. I like decorating, it’s good and messy. \nThursday\nI went on my Brucellosis testing training course at the VLC. It was good fun. This means that after I have now tested 150 cattle I get a licence which will enable me to blood test – this in turn will hopefully free up a vet. It will also give DEFRA a bank of blood tester for any future outbreak – crafty. They used to charge about £800 for this course, miraculously it’s now free – clever.\nFriday\nWe have had a reply to our advert – hoorah! Well actually two, they are both foreign, one is in Germany and the other S. Africa, so we are waiting for their CVs – fingers crossed.\nDEFRA have now changed the 20 day standstill to 6 days – the general opinion seemed to be – so – it would be interesting to actually find out if and how well all the regulations are actually working, not well I feel would be the answer.\n\n\nWeek beginning 27th January\n\nMon – Weds\nVery busy. I seem to have spent a lot of it in my car, dropping off, tooing and froing, which was nice but I do lose touch with the happenings at the surgery and on Tuesday, things had obviously got fraught, so I sorted those out and smoothed the creases, we are very lucky to have such dedicated staff. Due to vet shortage and [another vet]’s pregnancy it does add extra pressure to everyone. None of the incidents were very serious and easily sorted.\nThursday\nI went with my sister to take [niece] to the hospital as since she was born, she has had a lump on the side of her head above her eye so they Xrayed it. That was fun persuading her to lie still. I stayed overnight and came back Friday.\n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd February\n\nMonday 3rd Feb\nI did my first blood sample on a live cow today as it was an abortion enquiry and due to [another vet]’s pregnancy she is not doing them ad I need the practice. It was good fun and I hit the 2nd time so I was very pleased. Only another 145 to go before I get my licence.\nTuesday\nI completed the accounts today to go to the accountants, it was great fun. I hope they come up with good news but the future is worrying – a backlash from the farmers not being confident.\nWeds\nI can’t remember if I told you [vet] was expecting. Anyway she went for her first scan today and so far so good. It is very worrying as she has a problem where she produces duff eggs and miscarriages. She wants to carry on as normal as possible for now, but no sheep or abortions etc. I hop it works this time as this is her 4th attempt.\nThursday and Friday\nVery nice, everything worked well, no mad rushes, time to catch up. We discussed reducing some of the farm drugs as they are able to buy the over the internet with a prescription. All the laws and rules will more than likely be changing at the beginning of March due to a report done for the Govt regarding drugs and animal use. It will make a difference to how we operate as if they remove the vet surgeon’s right\nto prescribe drugs i.e. vets can only write prescriptions and not dispense drugs – it could alter things completely. One way or another if farmers require the service, they are going to have to pay for it, up to now it has always been that a reasonable mark up is put on the drugs (this is normally 50%) and this will keep professional fees down. If vets are not getting the money made on drugs and therefore has to put his fees up, although the farmer may be buying his drugs cheaper via the internet, will he actually save that much – I wonder.\nSo anyway we have been getting more and more pressure from a number of our farmers to compete with the internet prices. So we have selected a few products and it they pay at the time they can get about 20% off the price. So watch this space and we will see what happens.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th February\n\nMonday 10th Feb\nThe week\nTo sum up a blur, with both sad and very funny memories. To start, [receptionist] was on holiday and it always seems to happen as soon as someone is off, we get very, very busy. When everyone is in it ticks along nicely mostly/ I do enjoy it when it’s busy but we worked 3, 13 hour days – not food but everyone worked really hard, they are excellent staff.\nOn a sad note [vet] went for her 11 week scan on Tuesday and the baby had died, she was distraught. She has a condition that causes this and this was her 4th miscarriage. It’s so sad, I called to see her and she just hugged me and cried, what do you say. She had to have some tablets to clear away the placenta etc. She was gutted as this is the longest she had ever been pregnant and she thought she’s cracked it. It’s just so sad.\nMy funny tale for the week on a completely different note, but helped immensely, was (other vet) on Thursday. We were all very, very busy and a farmer called in, I was very behind, they still had ops to do and this farmer settled herself down for a big chat – normally if I say I have a lot on she departs, but no not today it was obviously my turn. (vet) came over from the op room and I know it was naughty but I wrote on a card ‘Can I have some help’ – i.e. to free myself. Well instead of reading the note quietly – oh no – she read it out at the top of her voice and added, “what do you need help for?” After I had crawled out of the hole that had opened up in the earth to swallow me I pointed to the message book to try and hide my predicament while she said again loudly, “so what do you want help for?”. Well I gave up and decided to just fall into the hole, got rid of [vet] back to the op room and continued alone with my predicament. After the farmer had gone who thankfully seemed oblivious to what had happened, I went in search of [vet] to kill her. Anyway it cheered us all up they do say laughter is the best medicine but I can think of better ways. \n\n\nWeek beginning 17th February\n\nMonday 17th Feb\n[vet who lost baby] came back to work, she is very upset and weepy, everyone has been lovely with her. Hopefully it is just time and TLC. We are very busy again and have had an enquiry from a farmer who is thinking of changing vets, which is really good news, that is three new farmers in total now if only we had enough vets. Four practices around Carlisle have advertised recently and none of the positions have been filled – it’s quite worrying.\nTuesday\nI took [vet who lost baby] home again today, she is not well and in a lot of pain, so she’s gone back to bed. I hope she’s feeling better soon. Usual day otherwise.\nWeds\n[vet] is a lot better today apparently they think it may be the cocodamol she was taking. She was a lot happier, a little drained, but ok.\nMr W came in today; his cows are arriving on Friday hopefully. This will be our last farm to restock; he has had a lot of alterations done to the farm and a new parlour, so it’s quite exciting.\nThursday\nWe did some sheep exports for slaughter from Longtown today, the first of that sort of thing since FMD. It was of course a bit of a faf as they now have to be retagged and checked so it takes a little longer. In the afternoon I had a meeting with SR from University of reading. She is planning to do research regarding the Interherd programme and she had picked 3 Vet Practices to see how the programme helps the vets and the farmers work better together and the improvements it makes to the farmers’ record keeping. So she is going to meet 3 of our farmers who use Interherd and interview them and give them free training so that should please them.\nFri\nDay off, me and [daughter] went to Newcastle shopping – I’m not a good shopper but I did behave and we had a good day. Mr W’s cows arrived all fit and healthy so that is us complete now – ass we were if not better.\nSad news though, we heard one of our farmers dropped down dead suddenly. It was very sad, as we had seen him in the morning and he was his normal self so it was quite a shock. His family must be devastated, mind, if there’s a good way to go that’s it.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th February\n\nMonday 24th Feb\n[another vet] a lot better today almost back to her normal cheery self, she is a lot more positive. We took the bull by the horns so to speak and reduced the prices of some drugs. We will have to wait until the 10th March before we find out what the government is going to do regarding the selling of drugs, but the farmers are very pleased.\nTuesday\nI got another phone call from Mr C and he said he would like to change vets to us, so good news. [husband] spoke to his old vet and explained why etc. It is very difficult and I think that in the future there may be more changing of vets, where as in the past, it never happened, but even farmers appreciate competition now, it again is worrying.\nMilk recorded at Mr G tonight, it’s always good crack as they say.\nWeds\nMilk recorded early morning and then showed them the Interherd programme. They are going to try it I think.\nIn the afternoon I went with [other vet] to vet a horse for purchase, it can be tricky sometimes and two pairs of eyes are better than one. As it turned out the horse was lame so we couldn’t vet it so we will have to go back another day.\nThursday\nNormal day. Did some more sheep exports in the afternoon, they have a very efficient system at Longtown so it makes it a lot easier.\nFri\nI went to [farmer]’s funeral this morning, it was very sad. I don’t like funerals, well I don’t suppose anyone does but it stayed fine and he had a good send off.\nIn the afternoon I got an opportunity to do some more blood sampling just 15 so it was good. It’s getting used to handling everything and forgetting you’re at the end that shits and kicks. No broken limbs and I got blood. \n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd March\n\nMon 3rd March\nI went to help a TT Test in the morning – just taking numbers. We now have 4 farms on restrictions due to TB reactors but up to now on the cows taken for further tests, no lesions have been fund. We now get to do the repeat 60 day test on the farms now as DEFRA can’t keep up – sounds familiar!!\nWe saw the accountant in the afternoon. We had sent 9 months of accounts to him as we need to see how the practice was now doing. Anyway it was not as bad as we thought but the income is down but is slowly growing. The main problem is farmers won’t call out for sick cows now, they will leave it longer or try to treat them themselves, mainly due to them watching their spending.\nMr W had a problem with his Interherd, he needed to run his extensification figures and they didn’t add up. So I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out why. I think I know why it was how he set it up initially so it may need his entry dates changed.\nTues\nWent TT Testing again this morning – it was a lovely morning. I spent the rest of the day sorting Mr W’s problem out and it worked, he was chuffed. The good is, I think, I now understand extensifications.\nWeds\nCaught up on some paperwork in the morning. I helped [new nurse] with a dog grooming in the afternoon which was fun. She is doing really well and seems to be enjoying it. We both ended up soaked thanks to the dog but it looked loads better when it went home.\nGood news – we get a new vet from South Africa starting 1.4.03. He worked over here during FMD and met someone and their relationship has lasted hence he wants a job in Carlisle. So bingo here comes a holiday.\nThursday/Friday\nVery busy in the Practice – everyone kept going. We have a great team and they really come into their own when it’s busy. I love the way everyone pulls together. They are very dedicated.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th March\n\nMonday\nQuiet day for a Monday but the weather has been nice so they are all out playing. But we had quite a few lambings to do. That’s one thing that has changed since FMD. Prior to FMD we hardly used to do any lambings for farmers but since, we now do far more. Last year we put it down to them having new stock but it seems to be the same this year.\nTuesday\nToday is milk recording day. I have 3 recordings today. They all need boxes and paperwork. I don’t have to help at any of the milkings though which is good as they are quite a way from each other. But a nice day for a drive.\nWeds/Thurs/Fri\nThe end of our weeks seem to be busier than the beginnings at the moment. It has been non stop. One disadvantage when it is so busy is you don’t have the time to chat as often. I took some drugs to a farm, our last one to restock as he was having alterations done. It was amazing to see the transformations he had made to the farm – all geared to one person being able to do more alone with more cows – interesting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th March\n\nMon/Tuesday\nI went with [another vet] to Mr C’s for his TT and blood test. [another vet] did the TT and I did the blood as part of my lay Blood Tester’s Licence. I needed to do 150 which I managed. It was good fun and the weather was great. We had to spread it over 2 days due to the amount of cattle. It was really good practice for me and I think I’ve cracked it now. There are talks about giving TT testing to Lay people but quite how and when is anyone’s guess.\nWeds\nMore blood testing today. I’ve really cracked it now, only I’ve discovered muscles in my arms I didn’t know I had!! I enjoy the blood testing. Sad isn’t it.\nThursday\nI had a morning with Alco waste management, sorting out all the clinical waste regulations and they need more detail of what actually goes in our waste. We always provided a free service to farmers for disposing of sharps and old drug and empty drugs etc. but we are going to have to start charging now. It is now £100 dearer a month than it was.\nFri\nMe and [husband] spent the morning looking at fees, income etc. and seeing where we can increase fees to help cover if we lose the right to dispense drugs to farmers – which we still haven’t heard about – to continue as we are we will have to make the difference up – it’s just how.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th March \n\nMonday\nDoing the paperwork for a TT Test it was a beautiful day. I do enjoy doing this especially when the weather’s good and they are very nice farmers. I also get to spend the day with [husband] which makes a change – although we work together we don’t often get to see much of each other.\nTuesday\nBusy day – spent most of it making sure everything got done and helping out.\nWeds\nI went to the careers convention at the Sands Centre, it was very busy and we had a lot of interest but a long day.\nBefore going someone phoned to say there was a collie dog running around on the roundabout. So me and [new nurse] went to see if we could catch it, well it didn’t want caught but I was really worried it got onto the motorway. So we phoned the police and the dog warden who incidentally couldn’t come until 9am as he didn’t start ‘til then, so I had to politely!!! Explain that he would have to be. The police dog handler wasn’t much help but at least he stopped the traffic – bless him. The dog warden did appear 5 minutes later and it was only 8.30 am. So we managed to get the dog off the roundabout and catch it. Everyone safe thankfully.\nThurs/Fri\nBusy days –new vet [from South Africa] phoned so he’s coming to see us on Monday to pick up his vehicle and meet everyone he sounds pleasant so we will see. My joke at the moment when people ask where we found him is that we got him off the internet!! It is a little worrying not having met him first but it should work. Watch this space.\n\nWeek beginning 31st March \n\nMonday\nWe have had L staying for two weeks. She’s a vet student from London and stayed with us about this tine last year. It was interesting to go over the changes from a year ago. Last time she was here people were restocking and there was an element of wariness.\nSo it was interesting to fill her in on how things are now. One thing she mentioned was noticing the stock in the fields was nice as there were only a few still last year. Talking over things is still hard sometimes although it seems a long time ago the feelings and emotions are still deep. Certain parts can still hit a raw nerve. There seems to be a mere anger at the moment generally. People and farmers are wanting to know why they still have restrictions, what is going to happen about shows and sales etc and will normality ever return. Unfortunately I think not, not in the way they want it to.\nTuesday\nOur new vet started today. We got on very well, it has taken us so long to find a vet and if the work and testing carries on increasing we are going to need another one.\nWednesday\nVery busy day – [husband]’s gone to talk at a BCVA conference and AGM. So poor [new vet] has been thrown in at the deep end. It has been very busy but he seems to be coping well. The clients were very impressed so far, so long may it last. It is good to have new staff with new ideas, I quite enjoy it. And he is definitely a BIG hit with the female clients – it really does make you embarrassed to be female, when they go into the consulting room you count to 4 and then comes the girlie giggle – quite funny!\nThursday\nSad day today – my sister had been confirmed as having cervical cancer. No more on that for now.\nFriday\nHad another Interherd sale today. One thing FMD has forced on farmers is the need for efficient records and Interherd is brilliant at that, it’s so clever. One of our farmers who has had it for a while and has 120 milking cows now does all his daily records in 5 – 10 minutes – can’t be bad.\n\nWeek beginning 7th April \n\nMonday\nBusy day – [new vet] is settling in really well and coping fine. If we carry on at this rate we will need another vet. A lot of it depends on how much more testing we are going to get and what happens with Commission report into dispensing drugs.\nTuesday\nSR came today from Uni. of Reading who own the Interherd Program. We went round some of the farmers that used it and helped sort out any queries. It was a good day, I learnt a lot and the farmers found it useful too. She said she would come again later in the year, so I think we might try and organise for them all to come to the practise for a chat.\nWednesday\nDid some Interherd training with one of the farmers wives, we said just an hour as she wasn’t fully computer literate. Anyway 4 hours later, she had well and truly got the hang of it, she was very keen and I really enjoyed it. \nThursday/Friday\nThey blur into one, as it has been so busy. Everyone has been flat out. We are going to start the vet advertising again, and another nurse/receptionist.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th April \n\nMonday\nGot caught up today, sorted out all the queries. Quite pleased with my self.\nTuesday\nWent to a local Nursery to talk about vets, to 3 year olds. I was quite dreading it – but thankfully it was great, they were really good. I took some dressing up clothes and x-ray instruments and teddy bears and they operated and had a really good time. One of them asked me if all the cows and sheep were better and did they still have funny feet and mouths!\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st April \n\nTuesday/Wednesday\nQuite busy days and a lot to catch up on. We all went away with [sister and niece] this weekend to [husband]’s Mum and Dads caravan. We had a great time.\n[sister]’s biopsy \nOff rest of week\n\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th April \n\nMonday\nThree farmers milk recording today and tomorrow so busy dropping pets and paperwork off. Advertised for a vet today. Fingers crossed.\n\n\nOff for two weeks helping [sister] to Move\n\nInterviewed a Nurse/Receptionist she is perfect and experienced, she wrote a letter in as her husbands job had brought them to the area, so she starts 12th May – I wish it was as easy finding a vet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 12th May\n\nMonday\nOur new girlie started today, she is very keen and capable, she has done really well even with the computer system that she was dreading.\nTuesday\nBusy day also 2x milk recordings so a bit of hollering about. I was thinking it is about a year we have had now of normal work!! Everyone new appears to be getting on with it as the saying goes, everyone bears a scar and has a story to tell and realise it is not the same, but how could it be. \nWeds – Fri\nQuite busy but capable at work. [daughter] got the job for the training in her M. Apprentice course so she is over the moon. It’s all a new learning curve, you suddenly realise she is growing up, getting a job and leaving school.\nUnfortunately this morning [daughter] has decided she doesn’t want to leave full time education yet and is worried about the job. She is wanting to do a business course at a college so all change again. We have had bid discussions and are going to go down to Connexions next week.\nSat\nYF (Young Farmers) field day today. I love these days it is amazing the effort and enjoyment that makes it such a good day. There is also such a high standard in all the classes. I admire the enthusiasm of the young farmers and just hope they can survive somehow.\n\nWeek beginning 19th May\n\nMonday \nWe have found the course [daughter] wants to do at College thanks to Connexions. The bad news is it is not done locally, she could do a local course but it would be wasted time to some extent. \nBig discussions most of the week. We have found they do the course in Blackburn and Preston, my sister and Mum live down there and are more than happy for her to move in, I just don’t know if I am ready to let her go, but I’ll have to be a big girl about it.\nWe have sent application forms off so will have to wait and see now and try and get used to it.\nWeds\nReally good evening at Penrith re the discussion it was so good to talk to the other diarists and realise and be able to relate so closely to what they said. It was poignant to see what other people had written and interesting to see what you had done so far with the data collected, it would be brilliant to hand to any future study or enquiry as it is proof surely not all these people could be wrong!!! And to have so many diarists start and finish is amazing. I’m sure it can be used for so many different topics – AMAZING. I am personally very proud to have been a part of it, and although sometimes I have wondered if what I was writing was any use. I can see now how it comes together. Than you all for the opportunity, shame not in better circumstances, it has helped me more than I originally realised but thinking back it was all unbelievable and not something I would like to repeat. I am ever the optimist or so I’m told and do believe or hope things and farming can recover not fully but enough to be able to show other people what a wonderful life it is, hard but special.\n\nWeek beginning 26th May\n\nNever stopped on Tuesday after bank Holiday so busy. [new vet] is settling in now, but his girlfriend can’t find a job so that’s a bit worrying, he may leave sooner than expected – oh no not advertising again. The rest of the week was uneventful really ticked along nicely. We met up with some friends on Wednesday evening who holiday in the Lakes each year so it was nice to see them again, we had a good evening. We were also out on Thursday night with a drug rep, very nice meal and they have offered to pay for [husband] Bri. Catt. Vet. Ass meeting in Amsterdam in October so that was very nice. Business link have also offered to help us get a Consultant in to see if they have any ideas for improving, maybe they can find vets too!! All in all quite an exciting week.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd June\n \nThe exams have started, everyone warns to beware but [daughter] is very laid back about it all, too much I feel. But as long as she does her best. I went to the accountants to look at the books for the end of year so far not quite finished yet and thankfully we won’t be needing income support this year!! It is so much better more regulation but nothing we can’t cope with – honest!\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th June\n\n[daughter] had an interview at Blackburn College, it wasn’t a very nice place, but then I’m not going. Preston is on the 25th so she will decide after that.\n[niece] had her C.T. Scan for her head that was eventful and Lisa and her naughty jelly babies zapped, all went well but she was a bit sore after.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd June\n\nMonday\nWent TT testing with [another vet] today it was a retest due to them having a reactor.\nIt was a good day, they are nice people. There is a father and 2 sons. During FMD I had a phone call one night and this was just someone crying on the end of it. I didn’t know what to say and I wasn’t sure who it was, but I just spoke about mainly silly things I can’t really remember what but didn’t get much of a response just yes and no’s and I thought I recognised the voice as being the father we were with today – anyway during lunch which we had at the farm we were chatting and of course got into FMD and he thanked me it took aback but he said he had appreciated me waffling on. It was the night of the day his cows had been shot and he had phoned to let us know but he said he just broke down and couldn’t say anything – anyway he laughed because he said he was going to hang up, but he couldn’t get word in edgeways because I was wittering but he said he did feel a bit better after. So we had a good heart to heart.\nTuesday\nCaught up on my paperwork and sorted some bits and pieces out.\nWeds\nTook [daughter] to Preston College for an interview it was good and seems a nice place. I can’t believe she will be leaving home at the end of August – very scary I’m really going to have to be a big girl about it!!\nThursday\nWe went to visit Business link to discuss some more things and [they are] hopefully going to help us pay a firm of Consultants to help us out to see how we can improve and move the Practice on, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWent milk recording first thing so that was good fun. After recording I had to collect one of our elderly clients and her dog that was coming for an operation, the lady is 92 and her and the dog are very close so she wanted to stay with her until she was sedated. So she was pleased she could come with her. The girls all laugh at me because I have quite a few little old ladies who we visit and keep a check on their pets. \n\n\nWeek beginning 30th June\n\nNot a lot of excitement at all this week, we have been kept going and I caught up on paperwork. We are going to my sister’s this week end to start sorting her spare bedroom for [daughter].\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th July\n\nMon\nSpent the morning explaining to our newest girlie about Interherd and how to work it, this will enable her to help me on the data entry side, we also had a little trip out around some of the farms that record with us to give her an idea of where they are.\nTuesday\nWent exporting sheep today, they all had to be retagged, it was quite warm, not much fun, I’ll maybe get [new girl] to do exporting!!\nWeds\n2 milk recordings today so quite busy with bottles and sheets and things and they are both in the opposite direction to each other. Never mind it was a nice day for driving about.\nThursday\nWe have got a new vet to replace [vet from SA]. She seems very lovely. She is going to start on 4.08.03. We used an agency and it has proved worthwhile, we worked out that rather than paying for endless adverts we would give it a go and it seems to have worked, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWe went car hunting today as if we all go out at the week end it becomes a bit crushed and sometimes we end up taking two vehicles. So we have really splashed out rightly or wrongly and bought a new CRV truck, it’s very posh, so we get that on 21.07.03.\n\nWeek beginning 14th July\n\nMonday\n[Person] from the Interherd office came up to see us and we visited a few of our farmers that are on Interherd. Between them and NMR they have really tried with providing quality and cost effective equipment that is helpful to the farmers. You can now use Interherd in some milking parlours which is really useful.\nTues \nWe went to see a horse with a cough and after treating the pony we were chatting and they have converted a small barn into a camping hostel, their farm is along Hadrian’s Wall and since having foot and mouth and doing the barn up, they have nearly covered their costs. They still have a few stock but not as many. Mr I was saying how his father used to milk about 25 cows and be able to make a good living from that, it’s amazing the difference.\nWeds\nWe got a new payroll package today so I spent most of my day trying to understand it. I was very bog eyed by the end, but I think I understand it and it seems to work well and should be a lot easier and quicker.\nThursday\nBusy day. There were lots of ops and farm calls, a couple of farmers have been asking about prescriptions as soon they will be able to get their drugs from anywhere, a lot have said they appreciate they have to pay for the service one way or another and are happy to carry on as they have been doing. We will lose money to some extent, but how much remains to be seen and we will have to cope.\nFriday\nOff – went to see Westlife with [daughter]. \n
## 4 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\nSaturday 9th March 2002\nAn old African proverb states, "The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The next best time is now."\nI should have started this diary over a year ago to keep track of changes in the unrolling of the FMD epidemic and my feelings towards it. Today is probably a good day to start the diary as I was about to sit down after a really bad week to write some comments for the lessons learned inquiry and thought I should check the web site for an update. I found out to my considerable annoyance that the inquiry was coming to Cumbria to meet with DEFRA and hold the open meeting on Tuesday night, and if you wanted a ticket to attend, then you had to apply by a week ago. The overall impression is that the govt do not want to learn lessons. I was looking after kids as [wife] was on counselling course and I was on call Sat morn. The vets were busy so I ended up taking [children] into vets with me they watched videos in the waiting room while I sorted out and consulted. \nComing down with cold after spending Friday TB testing on restocking farm. But at least I managed to avoid getting kicked and crushed. The farm hand who is one of the hard lads of Wigton refused to get in with the fat bulls to test them after getting floored by a kick. “If the f.** ministry want them F tested they can f coming and etc etc” I am putting in a letter to say why they were not tested to see response.\nDidn’t get finished on farm till 5.45 pm having started with a caesarean at 5:30am.Must be an easier way to make a living. The farming economy is bizarre at the moment . He has silage in heaps all over the farm, so instead of feeding straw which is incredibly expensive @£70 ton he is feeding the better quality silage and the calves are all too big. There are 30 to calve, so a few nights work there….\nWhere ever I go on farms the stories that farmers are wanting to get off their chest about the MAFF incompetence and inconsistency is bewildering. There is a lot of anger out there.\nI went to do the restocking sentinel visit for MG, L Fm. He is usually the most laid back of guys but he told them he was bringing his cattle on and he would see them in court. Why are we doing sentinel visits to a farm that had FMD 11 months ago? The virus only lives a month.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday \nKids had all got presents and cards for Mum, they brought them all in with a breakfast tray very cute, but pear juice all over the carpet. Tim and I spent Sat night baking a chocolate cake for her, which meant I hadn’t got lunch. Never mind.\nChurch was PS speaking on Characters walking with God, and talking about Abraham setting off with out knowing where he is going, maybe I should follow suit, with large animal vetting being reduced to TB testing and caesareans. The evening service was really lively with HP from Austria, about turning every hour over to God, now that is what I should do. \nG & R called around Sun afternoon, he is pessimistic about fertiliser sales. There is that much land and grass around, and the govt grants for extensification. New regulations on nitrates is giving him a headache though as he points out it is not fertiliser that cause the problems, as they are used by grass but by phosphates and slurry/organics . Lough Neigh has real problems with algal blooms and they are blaming fertiliser but so has Bassenthwaite, but there is not any fertiliser spread on the fells so is it really agriculture?\nMonday\nRead test and was very glad it was clear, as the Farm of origin of one of batches has gone down with TB..More testing after lunch. Organic farm ! They have just had their first pay check, 23p per litre, they were promised 36p when they started to convert 2 years ago. Who would be in agriculture?\nDesperately behind in admin with vets and home, but at least the clinical work pays!\nTuesday\nCaught up on a lot of admin as back to 6 vets for day. 2 cows aborting on restocking farm, more disease. Rota still for 5vets Yuk!!\nThe evening open meeting poorly attendee due to poor publicity. I am only local practitioner. I phoned around no one had been invited or had seen advance publicity and we all feel that they are not interested and that they will not listen.\nSome moving testimony and the bullying culture came through, and the frustration and anger that comes from dealing with a faceless bureaucracy distant in London.\n11 million animals, 2000 farms in Cumbria, businesses wrecked, lives wrecked, a crisis turned into a disaster by bureaucratic incompetence and political considerations.\nI am pleased I went I feel that it is like a sense of closure, the funeral so to speak, the end and I spoke with [wife] when I got back. I feel I can lay the past down and look to the future.\nWeds\nDay Off K&A for lunch and sort out finances etc, (And write diary!!)\nEveryone is saying about this time last year and glad that FMD is finished.\nWent to see Grease the school production, it was very well done, brought back memories of 6th Form\nThurs\n300 pages of A4 waiting for me in my in tray courtesy of DEFRA. Are they mindless or what. Rang to speak to AH, but only got hold of N and told her it was out of order! I should get my blood pressure measured as some one says DEFRA. Stupid idiots.\nSo much for closure, I feel very frustrated. \nIf this is the future of farm practice, Anal glands here we come! Who said a vets life ain’t glamorous)\n\nManaged to calm down and get the next 2 weeks of testing organised. It is a good job that we are organising it as trying to get folk on the phone is n’t easy. Workload picking up and managed to persuade GG to advertise even if only at TVI HQ. (All of the local practices who have advertised have had very few if any responses, we are busy but with DEFRA work).\nSpent time singing Grease songs much to nurses amusement.!! \n Did restocking visit at Lynedraw, they gave me a look around. It is amazingly clean, because even after pressure washing the spiders usually make a come back. But the buildings are sterile, and no cobwebs or insect life, which usually abounds even in empty buildings, weird. There will be a lot of flies next year.\nNews that PI has headship of Nelson Thom and so we can expect the discipline to improve again.\nFriday\nCurry and Quiz at the boys school. Very cosmopolitan for Cumbria. It was good fun and the kids enjoyed it. But we were useless on the photos for which you definitely need a TV. Spent time chatting to local GP who which was interesting. They have a place for their son at Nelson Thom but he isn’t keen!! \n\n\nSaturday 16th March\nWorking this W/e, and on call Friday night so had an early start with a caser on ewe. A LAMBING!! Hurray, things are getting back to normal. Even if it is a Dutch beltex… The farmer is really fed up and wants AH to be sacked as he threatened to kill all his recently imported Dutch sheep, as the paper work was not right. They had come and blood sampled them and then sent the results to his brother who is still under Form A, and then refused him permission to move any of the sheep off because he shouldn’t have any, because he was on Form A, and what were the Blood results for. DEFRA would be a joke if it wasn’t so serious. Oh and after my complaint about them deluging us with paper, yes you guessed it they sent another 7 x 20 sheets of A4. Idiots!!\nAW is in a tiz and so had to get help in Sat morning which was a shame but hey ho. She is not coping with the post FMD, constant changing of the goal posts.\nWent to Susan & Ian’s for another curry and had a really good time, and have decided to phase out house group which was coming. Hopefully Low moor will set up a 3rd house group for Wigton. Hebron is going to change to new Outlook groups.\nSun\nNever managed to get to church as calls all day, beautiful day though. The weather has really picked up. Must get garden sorted and seeds planted. A came out on call this evening. It is one good point that this job does allow the kids to join with me. \nShe is really growing up. She wanted to go to cinema but as [wife] was late and weather good she came back here and they walked the dog and wound up the boys.\nMon\n Early morning call to see a farmer who is a scrap metal dealer who hates authority. He therefore didn’t want anyone on his land during FMD, and refused access to Maff, and me while I was working there. He caused real problems and had his gun removed by police. He was handled badly and is a rogue. The more colourful rumour was that the real reason for not allowing anyone on was the amount of smuggled cigarettes was too great to hide. He also runs a fishery/ shellfish enterprise that is on the beach at odd times!!??. He was found guilty and fined £350 for his trouble but never paid because he went bust, as everything is in his wife and kids names!! This is all unsubstantiated rumour but quite amusing. When push comes to shove the ministry could do nothing with out the cooperation of the Farmers!\nThe vet students have arrived, and I feel a bit guilty about not having them to stay but I feel I still need space at the moment so they are making do with the Royal Oak.\nPrayer Quad with the lads, which was good. I still has not got stuff for magazine, and spent time praying. \nTues \nThe dates important cos its my Birthday, 39 today. The kids all brought presents in and had breakfast in Bed it was really nice. The number of ordinary calls to ill animals is increasing rapidly. Went to 2 new restocking farms today. I think one a day is probably enough. They were both full of stories about the ministry and wanted to unload to some one who understood. The first was particularly upsetting in that I was admiring his new parlour and set up that he has put in while waiting the 4 months. He was then talking about all the animals getting slaughtered and his wife was fighting back tears. She is also very unsure about whether they are doing the right thing by investing in the new parlour. She is very unsure about the future and as they are both reaching 50 is it the right thing to be doing? Unfortunately I think she is right, but I couldn’t say that and made reassuring noises as they have spent the money and it is too late now. The future for dairy is not good. The price is going to continue to be at world prices which with the current exchange rate is uneconomic in the UK. The second farm was sheep with drop, and they were grazing over the burial site as they had planted carrots and turnips on the surrounding field. I couldn’t listen to another set of woes, as I was still upset from the first lot so kept conversation light and on sheep.\nWeds\nI never realised that FMD is like any other grief there are anniversaries to get through, and fears and barriers to be put to rest. I was on a farm to give certificates to 2 heifers sold in calf. They were all saying it was a year to the day that FMD hit the village. The AI fellow was there as well, and he was talking about what he had been doing. He was saying that he thinks it will be years before everybody returns to normal. He is revisiting farms where he was helping with the slaughter for the AI, and was saying he had to take a deep breath every time he returns to one of these farms. \nThere was a partners meeting at lunchtime. As usual AW turned up late, but finally decided to advertise to see whether there are Vets out there who will come to work in FMD country. It is a bit frustrating as I foresaw that we would be busy, and we could have nabbed D before Longtown, but GG ever cautious. We went completely around in circles trying different options, but as with everything else the only prediction we can make is that we know that we don’t know. So much depends on govt. decisions on supply of pharmaceuticals to farms, and on the future of the SVS. (State Vet Service) for who we usually do 15% of our farm work for and currently do 50% for.\nThursday.\nTomorrow I will get a lunch break. This is my resolution. Have not managed to stop for lunch this week yet as farm calls keep coming in and partners meeting. Today was Geckos bums and goose bums.(Rectal prolapses). Variety is the spice of life. Also had much laughter over watching Norman in the bath. JG’s tortoise which has come out of hibernation early and is anorexic. Much clunking, and bumping.\n2 lambings and cow caesaer, after hours. So busy On call. It was also the last house group so it was end of an era. We have been having them in our house for the past 6 years, with different folk and have had god speak to us and to others through it. But it is time to move on.\nFriday \nStarted with another caeaser and early morning start and didn’t get my lunch break! Time to reconsider things again.\nHad folk for dinner, which had been arranged a long time ago, it seemed like a good idea at time and was enjoyable but after a 14-hour day yesterday and a 10-hour one today: I was not feeling life and soul of the party. One couple are still trying to decide the future of their farm. They are thought out progressive family farm, and yet they are not convinced about what to do. He finds it difficult to because there are three generations to consider. His father would go out and buy stock tomorrow, and his son wants to come home to work, but they feel he should broaden his options. Very difficult.\nHe was also saying that he ha d helped a neighbour who flagged him down as he was going past. He wanted help to move a cow that was down. The last time he touched a cow it was when his own were slaughtered. It knocked him off his stride for the rest of the day. \nHad a good time as when I looked at time was 1 O’ Clock\n\n\nSat 23rd March \n[wife] went on her counselling course for day, which left me a bit on edge this morning, as I was On call Sat am and looking after 4 kids. But they managed with out me. Back sore and stiff as I’ve missed the gym, but will go back on Tues. Still managed to get a bit done in garden, it was a great spring day and made me feel like summer was coming. Went to Beckfoot to beach in the afternoon with kids, evening went to bed early as shattered.\nSun 24th\nBack stiffer after gardening and went to church. Davidsons have moved into Thursby so will be good to have them around and at school.\nWatched Northbank beat Stanwix U12’s 6 –0 , the boys played well and passed the ball around a lot. [son] played well too.\nMust work less w/e’s and watch the boys play more.\nMon 25th\nLooking forward to finishing on Friday as another large test today, started at 8:30am and finished at 6pm but at least it meant I was out the office and did not have to face any of the usual hassle factors. It was good to see as the place is always well run and organised. A real family farm with three generations working together, but Granddad at 75 still very much calling the shots. The craic was good at lunch as their sister is friendly with my wife so I got custard with my rhubarb tart! My wife doesn’t like custard so I never get, as I cannot be bothered to make it for one as the kids never have it and so are very conservative. They were asking my view of the future too as they have sold bullocks privately ie not through the auction as they are on 21 day stand still and the price is poorer than selling via the auction. DEFRA will not allow any trade through an auction if the farms are on standstill. Why? If they are dead in24hrs there is minimal risk and they are putting everyone’s backs up. \n\nTues 26th \nWent for my first visit to another restocked farm and during the 4 month waiting as well as visit New Zealand he has made a sandstone plaque 3ft by 4 ft and carved on the date they went down with FMD and the number of cattle. It is almost a head stone type memorial. \nThe cow had digestive problems a right displaced abomasums ( RDA). Probably due to the transit and change in diet.\nWeds 27th\nSmall animal day and trying to get everything organised for going away. Finalised advert in Vet Record for new assistant. Lots of adverts but no applicants. All the local practices are advertising and there are no takers. I hope it is because there is a shortage and not from lack of confidence in the area. DEFRA haven’t paid us for a lot of visits and that needs sorted. They have no record of the visits i e they have lost the claim forms in the mountain of paper work. They will only pay on the originals (As if there are duplicates they will probably pay on those as well being that well organised). They are really slipping back into their old ways of paper chasing. The frustration without and within is palpable. I should just quit as I will be a civil servant once removed unless things change. The secretary’s are both on FMD funded computer courses, so digging out the paper work will have to wait.\nThurs 28th \nDemob happy just the test to read and I am off, for 10 days…….\nThe test was clear but very busy as a locum came for a look around to see if he would do SA for several days a week. Any help I think will be a help!!!\nGood Friday\nMissed out on Church as one of the boys through a complete wobbler. He is not very well just tired at end of term. I hope.\nThen went walking with family and [friends]. I must learn to shoot [him] down when he says it is a little scramble what he means is its too dangerous for kids. But it was fun and we enjoyed it. The weather was glorious and the fells were crowded! Tourism is back. Went up over sharp edge to Blencathra, kids as well.\n\n\nHOLIDAY\n\n\nSat 6th April\nCame back on the late boat from Belfast and arrived in to Wigton late. The grandparents were sad to see us go, but I think they had also found us all quite tiring. The kids have enjoyed playing squash so that is something I would like to continue.\nSun 7th April\nBeautiful frosty morning and went to church where the speaker arrived, much to S’s relief just as he was announcing the last song before the sermon! I think he was wondering what he would say instead of the prepared sermon.!!\nWent to [son]’s foot ball cup match, this is 10 year olds we are talking about, and the referee was making several bad decisions including a dubious penalty against his team Northbank. The crowd (well about 30 of us which for his team is a big crowd) was getting a bit restless. Robbie was sprinting down the wing in front of his Dad, (and me) when he was sent flying by one of their team. His Dad then shouted “Ref if you gave a penalty for them for nothing you could at least give us a foul for that!” At which point the ref blew his whistle and came across and thumped him. The whole thing was about to descend in to a brawl as I and another parent were trying to restore calm by telling everyone to walk away, which they did, followed by the Northbank kids, game abandoned!\nSo we await the FA’s report.\nSo with that and the Carlisle manager being sacked and the Knighton’s trading insults with the prospective buyer for Carlisle the future of football in Carlisle is not looking good.\nMon 8th\nLast day off for sorting out VCF magazine and getting up to date with paper work etc, did Carrock Fell where we did not see another walker. It was sunny and cold but beautiful. At night went to Crusaders area meeting where they are trying to get some one to arrange area events for kids and to support the group structure. There is no one who has the time and no funding to appoint a post to do it, so went around in circles too a large degree, but meeting decided to try and raise the funding. \nTues 9th\nFeel like I should have handed in Notice after today it was awful going back. The response to the advert for a new vet now stands at 2 students who have yet to qualify! I had Harry giving me grief over the fact that DEFRA promised him that we would test his cattle prior to turn out, i e end of March but haven’t told us, very helpful. His allocation has not even come through!! They are useless. I was at one farm that has half restocked because the parlour is not yet restored, the heifers are calving and he is milking into a dump bucket and throwing the milk away. He can’t get more stock in because he is waiting testing for brucellosis as his heifers were on the same farm as the French heifer that went down. He wanted to bring them direct to his own farm they would not let him bring the heifers to his own farm because the paper work was not through, and they not would allow multiple drop offs. IDIOTS. \nSo with high levels of frustration and complete overload, it has not been a good start back. Tomorrow I must see what is hiding in my “in tray”. As I never had a chance to look today\n.Weds 10th\nQuieter day and managed to catch up with paper work and have had a lot of next week mapped out so feel more in control.\nNight work seems to be easing with fewer lambings. \nStudents seem to be enjoying their time with us even though there is too little time to actually teach them, but it is a luxury to have time to go through cases with them as we take them on a voluntary basis and at the moment lunch is a higher priority than their education!! I’m a selfish brat.\nThurs 11th \nSpoke too soon, chaotic again, managing workload with so much fire brigade work is not so easy. (Fire Brigade work is the emergency work that needs seen urgently, ie today if not now!)\n[son] isn’t so well again he tired easily again today, so must make an appointment for him, but very vague signs.\nFri 12th\nHalf day finish, Yo. I could really get into a 3 and a half day week!\nThe down side is it is because my wife is going away for the w/e, so I have to be finished by 3:15 for kids. As I want to have the people carrier I also have to muck out my car. It is not as bad since FMD. Another positive contribution that FMD has made to my life. I actually feel morally obliged to keep my car from being a biohazard. OK I still needed a wheelie bin to through all the post it notes and bits of cardboard and the excessive packaging that surrounds any medical product that seems to find its way on to the back seat of my car. I always remember reading a Sunday paper article about what cars different people drove, and what they had lying around in the back seat, and what this showed about their personality. I’m sure that they would have had a field day with my car!! You use to be able to tell farm vets cars from a mile off but they have all gone clean and shiny.\n\n\nSat 13th April\nA week end off and the thought of a Saturday morning lie in…..\nUnfortunately there is a football tournament in Carlisle today! 9am start so up as usual and get into town. But managed to get to Staples, which I have been trying to do since my Birthday, to spend my birthday money… the difference between men and boys is the size of their toys! As my wife frequently reminds me. \nSo I am the proud owner of a digital camera. \nThe question is when will I find time to set it up? \nTook back all the library books and made the mistake of checking with the librarian who says we also have a talking book and another junior fiction. Well I thought it would have been lucky to get them all. If they ever bring in fines for kids we are sunk. How does my wife keep track of them all?\nCame home and enjoyed the good weather, and fortunately the team bottomed out so didn’t get into the next round. V asked as she dropped [other son] off from the football, where has [wife] gone? As [other son] has said she was away at Gruerly, where is that. She is away for a girlie w/e.!!\nSo we had time for a “family” cycle ride out from Kirkbride to the coast. It was beautiful, and we had a really good time. Came back via Wigton for supplies as we are in desperate need of a Tesco shop. \nSunday 14th\nHad an easy day and cooked with A for tomorrow as my wife is doing supply next week. Its ages since I have cooked, even made scones. Church was a video sermon which was OK but different. Saw P he ‘s back from NZ so will have to arrange to catch up. He was incredibly jet lagged, it must be Sunday cos everyones in church!! 36 hrs travelling. [wife] arrived back from her week end away at Capernwray, having had a week end that sounded as if they had all gone back to their teenage years with midnight feasts and playing tricks on each other. She was quite tired and pleased to have an early night.\nMon 15th \nThe diary has unfortunately died at this point and it is 3 weeks later and I am going back and filling in the details as I remember them. It is probably the bits that are really important, but as there is too much going on the diary has remained on my to do list!! Together with my tax return and a small mountain of paperwork!!\nThe reasons are varied but one of them is that my youngest lost his temper with the computer and slammed down the mouse. This broke the left-right bar so the pointer would only go up and down!! Now the practice manager who learnt his computing in the dark ages of DOSS, assures me you do not need a mouse to operate a computer. But as I have enough problems trying to get the stupid machine to do what I want it to with a mouse, forget trying shortcut keys and arrows.\n\nSo a new mouse was bought which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work. Blank screens, consult hand book, try inserting disk, try exploring disk, try windows disk, consult practice manager, who as you may have gathered is my IT guru. He says you may need to install a driver if it doesn’t work it will be on the disk. I don’t have a mouse to use to try to find and install a driver, he assures me again you don’t need a mouse. I understand why my youngest son lost his temper with the stupid machine. Being the mature adult that I can some times be I walk away to cool off, but don’t feel like trying again for 24 hours with a new mouse which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work.\nPlugged it in, it said “looking for driver”, “installing Driver” and it worked. Why?\nWhy not first time?\nTuesday\nThursday\nRiding Lights\nWent to see Riding Lights who are a Christian theatre group who were performing at the senior school at night. They were extremely funny and hard-hitting and very pointed all at the same time. It was a magazine of sketches on all sorts of different things. Modern interpretations of parables, and bible stories. Sketches asking questions about society and how we view things. Very difficult to put into words but thought provoking on lots of levels. \n\n\nSat 20th April to Weds 24th April lost in the mists of time…\nThursday 25th\n Starting the diary again after having missed 10 days with too much going on.\nThe spring work is chaotic with a lot of problems. We are trying to run the practice on 5 vets plus a part time locum instead of 7 full time at this time of year. I had said we should have advertised and tried to get some one at Xmas, but the view was that falling milk price would mean less work, but the DEFRA tasting is more than making up for those who haven’t restocked, and those who have gone out of dairy which brings us the most work.\nBut saying I told you so, does not help, so I’ll just keep my big mouth shut.\n As the practice manager says, the good old days when we new what the Rota was going to be and we were not just making up it up as we went along. We have had over a year of crisis management now. The end must be nigh!! \nAs this is a health survey, apart from feeling pressure of work, I am have also managed to catch ringworm on my leg. A fungal infection from cows and it is itchy and sore and not responding to my treatment. I will have to get GP’s opinion\nFriday 26th April\nRemind me next time, not to try to interview during busy periods. It is very embarrassing to turn up late to the interview!! We had a chaotic day but managed to interview her. She is frighteningly well prepared and had lists of questions. I hope we didn’t put her off by being so disorganised!! I think the Sandale view will be more influential! As part of the interview we always take them up to Sandale viewpoint to show them the practice, spread out panoramically beneath them. Well, it sold me the job!!\nAfter finally getting finished I was exhausted but had people to dinner so had to stay awake and be sociable.\n\n\nSat 27th April\nHad folk to dinner last night, which after working flat out was probably not such a clever idea. Didn’t fall asleep but this morning I feel like death warmed up and we have another interview this morning. I don’t think I can make a good impression so it is a good job that I am looking to employ rather than be employed. The candidate is from a Kirby Stephen farmers daughter, and so is at an immediate advantage. She seems fine so we will offer her the job, the question is should we offer them both a job? Went to bed feeling ill and with a migraine and slept all afternoon and then in bed for 9pm. Sad or what!\nSun 28th\nFeel a lot better for the sleep and church was AF speaking. He is always entertaining. His opening slide was “ Knighton In “. For those of you who do not keep up with the footie in Carlisle, Michael Knighton is the hated owner of Carlisle United who is trying to get the club relegated, so he can build houses on the land. He is destroying the club, and it is NOT popular…\nAnyway the second slide was ..here for grace and forgiveness. He went on to say that church should be where the failures should feel loved and welcome, as we all need God’s love and forgiveness.\nHe was really good, both entertaining and making real points.\nSpent time in the garden and playing footie with the boys.\nMon 29th\nMonday morning and that sinking feeling not helped by my wife’s teaching 3 days this week, and a trustees meeting for Borderline, which means additional pressure. After running around all morning and working out the amount of holiday we are all owed the conclusion is that we will employ them both. I am owed 46 days holiday, so if I can take 2 months off, that plus the sabbatical I am owed means I could take 5 months off.. I wish it were happening. The 5 vets are owed over 200 days between us, which will be almost a vet for a year!! As this is a health diary, I should mention my visit to the doctor, after a half an hour wait past my appointment time, fizzing knowing that I would have to make the time up later in my evening, I finally saw the Doc who agreed with my diagnosis, and agreed with my treatment. Only an occupational hazard of farm work. Ring worm!! He did take scrapings but that is all\nTuesday\nTesting next door, why do we always end up working in a pen under the railway in a middle of a stream? Why they cannot build a pen on dry land away from the trains I don’t know. I suppose they have always done it that way. But the first you know of a train is the thunder as it goes over your head which startles the cows who jump, sending a muddy slurry flying everywhere.\nWilliam is still not wearing a helmet for the Quad bike as he drives around, despite his fathers protests. Their neighbour the other way is brain damaged after coming off his..\nWeds 1st of May\nMayday, the radio is predicting riots in Paris, against or for Le Pen, anti globalists in London. But I feel a real peace with the turning of the month. It is funny how a different month can make you feel so different. April is always the worst month at work with a lot of routine work dehorning and testing, and a lot of lambings and calvings, and emergencies. Even though the beginning of May is just the same I always feel we have passed the peak, and we can cruise into summer. The fact that both have accepted the jobs, and that we will have more cover helps!! Though they will not start until summer.\nThursday 2nd May\nIn spite of all yesterdays predictions there wasn’t any trouble!!! In Paris or London, only cyclists causing traffic jams!! What is about the media that they have to report the bad news not the good news. I haven’t seen anything beyond the Cumberland News on the farms restocking.\n Stopped at Beckfoot on my rounds and sat in the sunshine on the beach for 10 mins and thought, this is the life!! Though in talking to one of the neighbours, one of the farmers is having real problems getting motivated. He had milking Ayrshires, really quiet cows who you could do anything with. Their idea of getting excited was turn out time and moving into a fast amble to the spring pastures. He has bought in really wild suckler limousin X’s. If you look at them the wrong way, they put their tails in the air and take off. I was there dehorning and we lost one which jumped over a gate. Another put its tail in the air and took off only stopping when it came to the block wall at the end of the yard. Unfortunately it didn’t stop fast enough and crashed headlong into it. It now has a definite tilt to it. The wall isn’t too hot either!! I think if I had to look after the likes of them, I wouldn’t be too keen to get out of bed either.\nFriday 3rd May\nSpoke too early about things easing off.. 2 bad calvings, a caesarean, and testing, plus the usual ill animals. But got finished for 5:45, and took my wife out for dinner at the Cockatoo in Cockermouth. Very pleasant, but while she wanted to go on to socialise at 10pm I wanted home to bed. \n\n\nSat 4th May\nOff Yippee!!\nTook the kids to Nichol End and went canoeing on the Lake got absolutely frozen but was really good fun!! It rained in spite of all the good weather forecasts, but with our style of canoeing we are always soaked anyway.\nHad a picnic on one of the islands, and had fun.\nCame back and slept for the afternoon, should have taken the boys to see the FA Cup but they were happy playing around.\nWatched Ghandi on DVD at night it is a very moving film, and the ambiguities and politics came through, to a muted extent which was interesting. It often makes me wonder about how much of Govt policy is personality driven. Again the inability of individuals to fight the “system” came through. The front page of the Times this morning was on a toddler who had died from post op haemorrhage following the use of disposable instruments in a tonsillectomy. Large amounts of money have been spent on disposable instruments that are always inferior to good quality surgical kit: Several people have died because of their use:\nBecause no-one wanted to take the very small theoretical risk, that they may transfer nvCJD. The approach to risk management and prioritisation within government, and the civil service is very poor. But to be fait to them the press is not helpful. I would like to see Prescott stand up and say that he wants more deaths on the railways, but he never will. If less money was spent on safety on the railways, more trains at more convenient times were run at lower costs, then there would be fewer deaths on the roads. But as no-one holds politicians responsible for deaths on the roads, it ain’t gonna happen. \nSun 5th May\nChurch was DN who is brilliant at getting the kids involved. [son]’s face lit up when we were walking in to church to see him walking down Botchergate with guitar in hand. \nHe had a skin that had been cast from a snake, and based his songs with the kids, and his talks with them on being a new creation. Cor 5 vs. 17 Getting rid of the old self, and hence the snake skin. \nHe is brilliant on the guitar and a real performer. Wasted as a tax inspector!!\nMon 6th May\nMaybe getting the kids soaked and frozen on Sat was not a good idea as they are all coming down with colds now! Tim is very chesty and was up in the night hot and wheezy. Any infection always goes for his chest. So Helvellyn will have to wait for another day. So concreted posts and pressure washed the yard. The boys loved “Helping”. Then demanded I play football as payment! AG was here as his Dad was dropping off the caravan after being away for the w/e. P called up from Manchester en route for Thailand. She is handing in her notice and going. \nBooked summer holiday in France, and now have to work out what we are doing on the way there and back.\nTues 7th May \nWent testing but I really do have the kids bug and feel hot and feverish.\nWent to bed for rest of day\nWeds 8th\nDidn’t feel like getting out of bed but went to work. First was a deer RTA. I was supposed to meet a police car there, but no police, either car or policeman! I am glad it wasn’t too controversial or important! So I have taken all details and hope that that is the end of it.\nThis afternoon was spent chasing stirks around a field and Abbeytown. We dehorned them, they should have been done this time last year, but were n’t because of FMD. They’re now 2 yr old which means they were really too big to go around upsetting. Two went through the dyke one way, the other went through the other side into some one’s garden and on to the Abbeytown road! So it was a bit of a rodeo. It ended up charging M who hurt his shoulder trying to escape! He was not happy as this morning he got his letter asking him to cut back is milk production. He had jokingly asked what was I doing this winter as all the farmers will have given up by Christmas.\nThe long term out look is not good, but at least we will have 2 new graduates in training to cope with the upturn when (If?) it comes. \nThurs 9th\nDay Off\nUnfortunately spent the morning shopping in Carlisle, which meant wandering around shops, and trying to find clothes. I needed A, my daughter as my dress sense leaves a lot to be desired, and she keeps me right. Met GB another Carlisle Vet which was good I haven’t seen him for a bit. Had lunch out which was nice though. Also got all the bits for the tennis net, so will be able to get it up. The annoying bit was I got a parking ticket, which sent my blood pressure up. Now I know I often park with out paying and in the wrong places, that is just living dangerously. But as we were in Carlisle and had decided to go out for lunch, and for some reason I was in [wife]’s car, as usual there was no change in the car, (well as usual there was no money at all.) I only had myself to blame I know she never has change in the car. I only had enough for 2 hours in my pocket. Which to be honest is in my opinion quite long enough in Carlisle shops. So on the way to lunch out, I made a special trip back to the car park, armed with coins ready to pay the city council the extortionate fee so I could spend more money in Carlisle City shops. The first machine refused my coins, I even tried a 2nd machine that also refused to accept my hard earned cash. So I left a note saying the machine was not working in the windscreen. And yes you guessed it, I came back to find a traffic warden giving me a ticket, who justified his action by saying there w ere 4 machines from which I could have bought a ticket. GRRRRHHH!!! \nFri 10th\nFinish of another week with more TB testing. A lot of cows from Netherlands, MRIs (Meuse, Rhine, Issel.) very good beefy looking dairy cows. Dual purpose. Why we have to test them I don’t know but we have to keep Page St happy. They were all tested prior to export from Holland, and they want them tested again. The farmer is very Bio security conscious, and has his land all in a single block now bounded by roads, or arable cultivation. All the other cattle he insisted were tested and he had the results prior to purchase! In spite of all his good sense he is still going on about the missing vials from Porton Down, and other paranoid conspiracy theories on the spread of FMD.\nBut a part from cold/flu, feel as though things are getting back on track. We can look to the next 12 months with confidence. Thereafter depends on whether the WTO wins over the EU to get rid of subsidies, or whether maintaining the food supply within the EU is seen as important. The one thing the FMD has taught me is that you never know what will be coming next.\nI do feel guilty about saying there should be more train crashes after seeing the crash in the news today at Potters Bar.\n\n\nSat 11th May\nWorking the w/e again. \nSaw another calf with CCN, caused by a deficiency of B1. Usually rare but seems to be much more prevalent this year. ? due to old grass on pastures. Don’t know. \nHad a greyhound client in, bringing in a greyhound on behalf of some one else, who has been chased from the practice for non payment, so had a stressful half hour negotiating with an irate idiot. But he paid his old bill, and stumped up front for the new one. And seemed placated, treating the animals is easy.\nSpent the afternoon in the garden and fixing up the tennis nat. We were given an old second hand net so I have fixed up on the concrete and it was good fun playing with the kids. The concrete is not level and has lots of loose stones so the bounce is a bit erratic!!\nWent to a 50th Birthday party, for which I was teased at work, but I maintain we are friends with the children in their 20’s!! It was a good craic and the food was brilliant. There was one of the partners from a lawyers from Carlisle there complaining that he could only have an hourly rate of charging out at £185. Consequently he couldn’t attract good lawyers to his firm because the city firms were offering far greater salaries and were charging out their juniors at £200. I couldn’t admit that our hourly rate is only £45 and that I think that £45/hour is a lot of money. Should have been a 9 to 5 lawyer.\n\n\n\nSunday \nWent to church NL, but was still half asleep from my late night, spent all afternoon and evening out on calls, was OK till the midnight call when I decided that being a lawyer was probably a much better idea.\nMonday 13th\nHalf asleep after the w/e so took a little while to get going. Having kept this week a bit quieter, as there should have been a lot of last minute dehorning and castrating, it hasn’t come in so we really are quieter. So did some office work but trying to work out why the two computer systems we have do not have the same balances on their accounts with a tired sore head is not worthwhile. But it was preferable to sorting Rotas. So I when came home I sat and read TinTin much to my wife’s disgust. \nI also looked at my cash flow predictions, which were totally out of line. I usually take a pessimistic view so as err on the side of caution but they are totally out. Fortunately the right way!! The partners think it is a waste of time and effort to try to predict how much of the bills the farmers are going to pay in any month, some pay every month, but most pay every now and again, either when they have time, or money, or when the accountant or vat man needs the books. I suppose they are right who cares so long as they do pay.\nAlso finally caught up with GP as ringworm still not getting better, so finally on antifungals. If the farmers couldn’t get hold of a vet pretty quickly to discuss what’s going on, they would give us earache.\nTuesday 14th\nHalfway through May and time to get the rest of the planting done in the garden. Beautiful weather and feels like summer is here.\nGG had a visit from trading standards over the bulls for which he had given a certificate of Fitness to travel.\nThere is now no slaughterhouse within an hour’s drive of here for cattle. Ulverston is the nearest. If an animal is not fit to be transported alive for some reason e.g. because it is lame or blind etc then it has to be shot on the farm and the carcase transported to the slaughterhouse. However under the new meat hygiene regulations of 2-3 years ago the carcase has to arrive within an hour of being shot. Which was fine while Black Brow was operating the slaughterhouse, but since it has closed, there are no options for any animals to be shot on the farm. (Unless you put it in your own freezer for your own consumption.) Thus whereas if there were borderline cases before, they were shot on the farm, and the carcases transported. Now the pressure is to get them transported alive. Or the farmer loses the value of the animal £500-£600, and has to pay £75 to get them shot and disposed of. The sooner either Carlisle slaughterhouse or Black Brow slaughterhouse get working again, the better.\nWeds 15th\nDay off\nSpent the morning catching up on paper work, feel better for it but never my favourite job. But all the bits and pieces are in place for my tax return. Just waiting for the final few pieces of paper. Wrote a caustic letter to Council about the parking ticket, but sent them a cheque as not worth the fight.\nWent to Up Front Art Gallery for lunch. Some one had made a set of peat rings with a golden bowl at the centre and wanted hundreds of pounds for their “Art” creation. If you don’t ask you don’t get.\nSpent afternoon running the kids as [wife] was taking A in town for hair cut and girl time.\nLast football match for Northbank and [son], lost!!\nThursday 16th\nThe long lunch is back!!! There wasn’t much happening Vet wise but still a lambing today as the season has dragged on. One restocking farmer was in today with a ewe to be lambed, of the 200 sheep he is supposed to be fattening for market, 20 have lambed. The guy he bought them from is adamant they were never near a tup, someone needs to tell him about the birds and the bees!.\nThere was also a good, if slightly apocryphal story from DEFRA licensing, when they needed a licence to move a bull. The licensing department asked,\n“Is this bull going to be used for breeding purposes?” Yes is the farmers reply.\n“Will this animal be coming in to contact with any other animals?” …….. \nFriday 17th\nAnother TB test, another restocking farm, more stories. The best one was the fact that their cattle had lain for a week in the pasture field after being shot. They decided to plough it out for barley in the back end having spent the summer pressure washing the farm buildings to a gleaming state of sterility. \nWhere the animals had lain, there was still obvious contamination with blood etc when they ploughed it. But having failed the buildings on specks of dirt, DEFRA were just not interested in contaminated blood stained earth. They had also phoned the day before I arrived to send some one out to arrange TB testing. The chaos in there continues.\n\n\nSat 18th May\nI am to be best man! A friend was around last night with news about getting married. We have a wedding every month for the next 4 months. Must be something in the water at the moment!!\nUnfortunately it meant it was a really late night celebrating and I am working the w/e again. So getting up for Saturday morning surgery was a bit grim.\nI survived and so did most of the animals, the worrying thing is I am sure that Drs are just the same. Spent the afternoon playing football and tennis with the kids in the yard, and mowing the grass. The farmers are all now silaging and the roads are full of tractors flying around at all times of night and day.\nSat evening went with [wife] to hear SA speak at KD’s. It was good to see him and Clare again. We visited them in Bombay,at the height of FMD and it always puts things back into perspective. He runs a mission hospital in Thane an outskirt of Bombay. They have it self-funding by charging the rich, for luxury (!) service a long way behind the NHS, and providing a basic service FoC for the average Indian. He is now talking about trying to raise funding for building an AIDS hospice to provide pain relief and dignity to those who are dieing of AIDS. Because of the stigma and cost, and risk of cross infection of both HIV and TB a lot of AIDs patients are just thrown out of their homes, and HIV +ve babies are abandoned. As he says there is an epidemic sweeping Bombay that will leave a lot of orphans and cause secondary epidemics because of immuno suppression, and it is not really being addressed.\nVery thought provoking, and makes the £millions wasted on FMD look very sick in a global perspective.\nSun\nMissed church in the morning as was seeing to cats and dogs in the surgery and dripping calf in the large animal bay. Spent most of afternoon on visits. All work and no play is making me a grumpy boy. 2 w/es in a row is not good.\nMon\nAW is in worse mood than me and at least I have worked w/e! She is winding every one up with her attitude. It is sthg that will have to be addressed but will have to be a partnership decision. \n[wife] was interviewing FC tonight at Christian Viewpoint in Carlisle, and came back full of it. She is good with people and interviewing. \nShe was also challenged by what F was saying about the importance of treating people as loved and valued by God. In some ways very similar to S, about valuing AIDs patients. We are all valued by God.\nTuesday\nMissed gym for 3rd week, I am going to be getting really unfit. I was on duty and had spent time talking with folk at work, valuing them!! But it was nice as A came out with me and she always likes being on call with me, but I never seem to know what’s going on in her mind. Still waters run deep.\nWeds\nDad phoned and has decided not to come on the w/e away this w/e. It is a family reunion, but it looks like it will be just our family and P’s. But the kids love meeting up with the cousins. Even A, who will no doubt complain that there should be some girl cousins. She is the only girl on both [wife]’s side of the family and mine. It is a bit worrying in that he is losing confidence in doing anything outside his normal routine. It is at times like this you realise London is not really very close. The other problem is working so many w/es doesn’t give much time for the travelling up and down to see him. \nThursday\nG was away on a course yesterday and came back full of doom and gloom. For along time we have relied on the drug sales as a substantial part of the business. There have been various government reports that have queried our monopoly, and there is a move to insist that we provide prescriptions for all the drugs, and then allow the farmers or pet owners to buy the drugs from whatever source they want: Internet, pharmacy or us. It means however that the Professional fees will inevitably have to rise to compensate. Which means it will be uneconomic for the farmers to use us. So they will not, in the present economic climate, which means no job. Carlisle, Brampton, and Dalston vets are all starting to write prescriptions which means that we are going to have to follow suit.\nThe farmer who rents my field was silaging tonight. I got back from house group, to find a tractor follow me in to start rowing up. As they had been at it all day I decided to take the gates off their hinges as it is a narrow gap, and at that time of night, a clunk against the pillar is OK, but I don’t want to have to replace my wooden gates!! They had just started to pick it up when I went to bed at 11pm, so no idea what time they finished. \nFriday\nG is off ill, help, it looked as though I might miss out on the w/e away. As he is working the w/e. But the fact it would have meant 3 w/e’s in a row and 6 nights in a row, managed to help persuade one of the assistants to step in thankfully. So I finished at lunch time and slept to catch up from the On call until the kids came home from school and set off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 25th May\nDovedale in the Derbyshire Peak District\nDefinitely should have more w/es away and not working. We had a great time with the cousins. Stayed at a farmhouse B&B, it use to be a working farm but is too high up, and to small to sustain the dairy, so they went out of that 3 yrs ago. Beef and sheep was not making any money so they have concentrated on Tourism and grass let the fields. His neighbours are now renting the land and farming it. \nBeautiful walk along the valley and had tea out. Relaxed and slept like a log.\nSunday\nGreat British Summer; makes you wonder why any one would want to go abroad!! Wet and cold so went to water world and watched the kids, big and little go flying around the flumes.\nIt was good to catch up with my brother and family. The boys would play footie all day long, and be happy.\nMonday\nOff to catch my breath and tidy up flat for tenants arriving Thursday, spent day trying to reduce the weeds in garden and went swimming at night. The boys still wanted to play footie. Where do they get their energy? If I could bottle it I would make a fortune.\nTuesday\nIt felt like hard work going back to work, after time off I always seem to be tired and head achy. It seems to be hard work to get going again, aI just don’t feel like doing anything, including writing this diary. But the good news is that we have a new booted bantie. Bertie the cockerel and he is now ensconced in his run. We are hoping to get him some young ladies in the not too distant future. He is cute and A is over the moon about him.\nWeds \nGetting going again. Spent time talking with my wife who as always puts things back in to line. Communication!!\nWent to do some pregnancy diagnosis early this morning and the farmer was complaining about the cost of his vet bill and is wanting to learn how to check cows to see if they are in calf prior to drying off. The whole economics of dairy practice with milk at 13p per litre is beginning to hit home to them. Cannot be nice starting up again, to realise that you cannot make money at doing it. One of the other vets is in really bad form this week and is causing a lot of friction and we will have to deal with it as the staff are up in arms. At least I am off tomorrow prior to working jubilee w/e. My mother in law arrived which the kids love complete with her special treats for them snowballs.\nWent out for dinner with mother in law, but too tired to enjoy it due to early morning caesarean. \nThursday\nOff \nSpent morning getting flat ready as we have new tenants moving in and clearing up while the “girls” went shopping. Dry weather but intermittent heavy showers. Tackled the long grass at front but the grass got too wet and clogged mower. \nPicked up kids and did the fatherly bit, went to bed early as head achy and washed out and caught up on zzzz’s\nFriday\nStart of the Jubilee w/e and on duty for the next 5 days until 5pm Weds evening. Work busy with bits and pieces, and farmers complaining that it is too wet to silage. One of the vets had issued a PETS export certificate for a cat to come back into UK but had put it down for 2 years not one. It is only valid for 2 years in dogs but 1 year in cats. Typical Friday afternoon problem to sort out, The Help line is closed for training and MAFF offices are closed for the BH w/e. I don’t think there is a way around it either. But will not be able to sort it out till Weds day and they are due on Ferry on Tuesday Oops.\nAlso a bitch’s owner came in to ask if we were open Tues as she is due on that date and will probably need a caesaer.\nJohnboy called in the evening wanting me to go to the “loyal” supporters meeting at Carlisle united as a spy. I’m on call so couldn’t oblige thank goodness.\n\n\nSat 1st June\nOffice staff were asking why is there only 2 vets on the whole w/e and I am beginning to feel the same, should have split it up and had more staff on, but at least the others will get a break and come back refreshed. But I feel like I am looking down the barrel of a gun.\nHorrendous calving on a heifer that was in calf by mistake, to its father. It was supposed to have gone back to its breeder but the buyer was still tied up under the twenty-day rule. The calf had died, and was gassed up. Ended up by caesaering in spite of rotten calf. 2 hours hard work and the heifer will at best be very ill for several days.\nSun 2nd June\nA day of football. Went to church and made a quick exit to watch the football, as with everyone else was quite disappointed. At Hebron at night DM had the goals, and the reactions to them on the big screen, which he linked to Romans 12 “ therefore I urge you to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, this is your act of spiritual worship.” Talking about worship to God being everything we do including how we react to how the English football team perform. Very clever and memorable way of expounding the bible.\nWent straight on to [son]’s football presentations which was quite fun. There is a real football sub culture with the amateur football clubs in Carlisle all vying for the top spot. The old pals network and animosities seem to be very prevalent\nMon 3rd June\nBusy night and early start. 2 x prolapses? Why always at a BH??\nThe second one was a wild limousin heifer it charged me and sent me flying. The only injury was a sore fist where I thumped it in the eye to try and deflect it, as I was trying to get it away. Gave me a fright. It was a ¾ heifer that was bred because he couldn’t sell it store last year because of restrictions.\nChatted to farmer who started getting up at 4:30 am during FMD, because he couldn’t sleep. He is still doing it now!! He still has not got any sheep in because he can’t face it. He lost his sheep to the cull but kept his cattle. I had started by admiring the view. He said yeah it would be great apart from the damn windmills. He has a brilliant viewing looking out over the Solway, and the Great Orton site and the windmills remind him and everyone else that their flocks are in a big pit. He says he can still see them going and feels guilty. I didn’t have the heart to tell him that of the 10,000 blood samples taken at Gt Orton only 2 were positive. A very big mistake that has caused big hurt in this area, and no one has admitted responsibility, and no one ever will.\nTues 4th June\nWatched some of the jubilee stuff on TV in between calls. Amazing sight to see the Mall full of people more than ever before. Yet Rupert Murdoch and his press would have us believe that the monarchy is finished.\nWe managed to cope with just the two of us on call so may be I was right. Also made a start on byre.\nRemind me next time we have a dinner party on a BH not to be working it. As my poor wife had 4 kids and a dinner to prepare!! I was called out to a cow Caesar at 3:30 and then had another call after that. Fortunately I had taken Tim so there was one less to fight. But got back to be told that I had to have a bath before I could help because I smelt… Evening was really good fun and hilariously funny, so even I kept going to the wrong side of midnight which after an early start was pretty good going. I will have to get Phil to do his Senator homes skit at the wedding. \nWeds 5th June\nDid not feel like getting up this am at all, and felt even less like going into work. Managed to extricate us from any problems with the cat with out its passport, there is no give in the DEFRA system, which is to be expected. Richard had a suspect FMD calf on Tuesday, no wonder he was a bit jittery when I spoke to him later on. Even though you know that it probably isn’t going to be a case and that the farmer is panicking, it still sets the butterflies flying. It was BVD. Spent over an hour and a half this morning on the phone sorting out what the AW calls “the rubbish”. Queries and being helpful and friendly, and sorting out licensing and drugs, and repeat prescriptions. One was a woman complaining about the neighbouring practice, which required a bit of tact !!!\nI think the Drs must have been as busy as us, the tally for the celebrations are 1 off ill with flu and bad back, one wrist sprained from scooter racing at a street party after all the kids had gone to bed.(!!) And one who spent the w/e visiting her boyfriend in hospital. She had said that he needed to go in on Friday but the doctors had put him off, as it was the w/e. He was worse on Sunday but had waited till after the football before ringing. Priorities, priorities\nThursday\nWent to house group which was really good and spent time praying for the group, church, area and for world situation. [friends] are trying to work out what to do in India. They are teaching at a boarding school in the south of India and have both their own family, and also the school kids to think about. The consensus is that the foreign office advice is aimed more at the Indian and Pakistani govts than the UK Nationals. Ian is supposed to be visiting and has a flight booked so is still going at the moment. I really cant believe that they would escalate the situation, but it will be tit for tat and then going to the brink as neither will want to break face. The ramifications of Sept 11th still keep reverberating around the world, as the balance of power alters. Makes FMD look like a picnic. At least we have stable govt that says it abides by the laws.\nFriday\nThe secretary asked this morning what did I want, meaning tea or coffee and I replied as I had prayed “wisdom.” But with 2 sugars.\nWe had a difficult partners meeting that lunch time. Poor timing and priorities again as England was playing!! I had assumed they would lose! But the meeting went well and the issues were discussed amicably enough and frankly enough so we all know where we are at, and issues were addressed.\nBut as James says not only about asking for wisdom but also putting it into action.\nAt night leant on the fence and talked to the neighbour as the thistles I was supposed to be cutting down carried on growing, but it was a nice evening. He works for STL, the Christian book distributors, he was saying how the fire that they had just after he arrived at the time seemed a disaster and caused chaos. But it made them make decisions that had to be made rather than continuing with the status quo, and in hind sight was a very good thing. I wonder when we look back whether the changes and opportunities of FMD will make us appreciate the decisions we have all had to make. \nIt made me think of the woman who came in today saying she was one of the “..lucky ones who didn’t get FMD”. Very much tongue in cheek as they are much worse off than those who did. She gave up her job as they couldn’t sell the calves as they were born and so some one had to look after them, so she went back home to work on the farm. Her job of course has been filled in the mean time, and she would have made a lot more money for less hassle if she had stayed.\n\n\nSat 8th June\nFinished the long period of work and On call on Sat morning and it came down with heavy showers as we had hoped to climb Helvellyn today. It eased some what at night which was just as well as we were going to a BBQ. It was put on by a S African vet from DEFRA who is now working in Longtown. The last time I drove through to Charlie and Ruth’s who were hosting the BBQ, was when the pyres were all burning. It gave me a funny feeling driving back up there. \nThe food was good and the craic was good, so we had a good time. The kids would have kept going but they were beginning to get high!! The midges once you get north of the border are definitely worse. We all had lumps all over in the morning.\nSun 9th\nSB spoke at church on Jesus healing the blind man at Pool of Siloam. He was very easy to follow.\n[friends] called in and stayed for tea. [he] as usual blunt and controversial as ever!! He always has a good insight, and dresses it up in taking things to extremes, he is also very funny with it so had a good meal.\n[son] is as high as a kite as he is going camping with the school this week so he has all his kit ready to go and would not settle to go to sleep and kept the other boys awake.\nMon 10th\nPouring down in time for the school camp at Borrowdale. Never mind they’ll enjoy it any way. 3 farms have had silage pits burst because the grass has been put in too wet. If silage is made when the grass is too wet it flows very slowly and cannot support its own weight. So it bursts the side walls and will flow out of the heap that it has been put in. If there is plenty of effluent coming off it will usually escape from the normal collecting systems and if it gets into the becks, it is worse than slurry. Hunters stream was black with effluent and the environment agency were out testing the water quality so they will be for the high jump. The contractors are so far behind, and the grass is getting so long and bulky that it doesn’t dry out as quickly. So there may well be a few more, but at least the farmers will have had warning so it will be their own fault.\nThe school kids are back for their work experience week. It must be hard for them to follow what is going on. But they seem to enjoy them selves. The worksheets definitely help to give some structure and a feel for what is going on.\nCrusaders meeting at night pretty disappointing response so not a lot we can do.\nTues 11th \n June workload has set in and I’m just cruising, and managed to get to the gym while on first so feel full of energy. Why do you feel full of energy after expending some? Spent half an hour on net trying to get holiday organised but finding places for 6 is not as easy. The weather is better for [son] camping and should be better until the w/e. Means we will hopefully be quiet at work as they all go out into the fields. \nWeds 12th\nNo calls over night. First time since finishing with Defra not had a call at night. Summer is truly here. There was a call just on half time at 8.15 which I did during the break so got to see the second half and England drew 0-0, but are through t o the next round. Caught up on paper work and have sorted a lot of things so they are in place for the 2 new vets.\nThurs 13th\nMeeting with Bank Manager for executive lunch.. sandwiches from Bells.\nHe asked how was the “new normality” . Which seems an excellent phrase. He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably true of the inquiries into FMD. Unless you know the questions you will not get the right answers.\nWent Abseiling up at Sandale with the house group from church and had a BBQ. It would have been nicer if the wind hadn’t howled. I had gone prepared for British summer weather but it was still pretty nippy. It was great fun.\nFri\nRead another test that had IR s for TB. (Inconclusive) that will have to be retested in 60 days. While I was writing up the paper work the farmer’s wife was saying that the kids were all off school and nursery with Hand foot and mouth. She had taken the youngest who was ill with the middle kid to the doctor. The doctor had said what it was and the middle kid burst into tears as he thought they were going to take her baby brother outside and shoot him!! It is funny but also very sad.\nThe same farmer was really fed up as the cows were all supposed to be TB tested prior to arriving on the farm. He had also let them out into a long 5 acre field with the water troughs at the far end of the field. Half the cows had not found the trough, and so were very thirsty by the time they came back at milking time. The idea that you just go and replace the cows just like that is not quite the case.\n\n\nSat 15th June\nSaturday morning spent it Gardening. The strawberries are coming and even though the gooseberries aren’t quite ripe picked some to start the harvest, and the one strawberry that was reddish!\nThen went to visit [friend] (and the wide screen TV) for THE football match. No one expected any more English progress but the lads surprised me and played a stormer. So the game against Brazil will become THE match.\nThe practice BBQ in watery June sunshine was good fun but the ground was too wet to play silly games or even footie. The food was excellent. AW was notable by her absence. Hey ho. BBQ is in need of a revamp, maybe abseiling though I don’t think I can see either R or AW going for it. Showed S around flat and met her parents. Remind me to be wise with my kids!!\nSun \nFelt tired and ill and washed out after slowing down and switching off after a busy day yesterday, and all week. Watched the Ireland match which was very close. Spent rest of day sleeping or just chilling out.\nMon \nWent testing at K and T’d. They are really nice lads but not too hot on the academic front but good fun. They were in good form and hoping to get the low down on the new vets… Yes they are young, free and single as far as I know! I pity their chances.. Spent a lazy day in the sun at a gentle pace, so quite enjoyed myself. Caught up with the paperwork at night and feel mellow.\nTuesday\nToo many O’s. One call was cancelled but the other one still wanted the call. So some one went to the wrong O and I had to make a mad dash and pour oil on the waters to explain why we are so late. Oops. So more Testing and a Quiet day. [wife] also had her quiet day. There was supposed to be a group of them going for a retreat day, but the speaker had cancelled so she did it herself with R and it went very well. She was exhausted after giving out all day. Met up with lads at night. Didn’t get to gym again as I had to go and calve a schistasoma. Yuk.\nWeds\nTried again to work out what we are going to do with Summer holidays, no doubt we will get organised eventually. Came home early for lunch and had forgotten that it was coffee morning here so felt out of place amongst so many women! Skipped off early and went for a cycle to make up for missing gym. Did first part with A and Annie and then zipped around for a bit which was good. \nThursday\nK and T had an I/R again. I need a new supply of little green forms. To put this in context. Prior to this year in 16 years in practice I have had 4 I/R’s, I am doing that this week!! So another farm under restrictions.\nFriday\nBad Hair day!! England lost !! Och well never mind such is life. Richard Drummond’s report that the SVS was unprepared, (yeah we had all been saying it, but I did not realise that the SVS had been saying it 2 years ago) has been picked up by the Audit Office. There is a Report case of FMD in a pig from Leicester Mkt. And I had another I/R. And met with JM a temporary Vet with Carlisle SVS on why we had not done the tests allocated. Mostly cos they aren’t to do!! He also was very cynical about the changes in DEFRA, and the management ethos, has not changed. \n\tHe brought a message back from them that the test we had sent back because the guy is an old recluse that is impossible to deal with, we had to do as they did not have the resources. What!!??? They are responsible for ensuring that they are done, and sorting out the recalcitrant. \nHad the afternoon off and ran round after the kids while [wife] did reports.\nNext week must be better…\n\n\nSat 22nd June\nWedding day for D and S. Yippee.\nD and his best man and usher plus 3 others arrived last night, and it was really nice to have young people around again. I have forgotten how much I enjoy young people. I must be getting too old and cynical. C looked after our boys and A went into town. It was really nice S could not stop smiling and it is Wigton carnival day so there were two pipe bands as well. Which could be heard drifting over the vows. was in his kilt, I should have got mine on for the occasion. The reception was at Tullie house, which is a really nice relaxed venue. We were seated opposite [friends] so it was really nice catching up with them. B&D are just back from another wedding in Vancouver and really impressed with BC. |They are out doors fanatics so the skiing mountains and whistler really is their thing.\nBarnes who was looking after the kids at night is going out there for his gap year to work in a book shop. Should be really great for him.\nThere was a celeidh in the evening but I only lasted for 3 dances. I was absolutely exhausted. I didn’t realise how tired I was. \nSunday\nFortunately it was a family service ie doesn’t start until 11;00!\nIt was lead by the young adults group. So was really fresh and good. They also don’t take themselves too seriously but do take Jesus seriously and it was good.\nMonday\nMissed swimming again, cos work was really busy.\nCrusaders meeting at night at Rydal very good. Met up with some of the leaders I haven’t met before. Folk who work with young people are always good fun and have a wicked sense of humour. Do you need one to do youth work or does youth work give you one?\nTuesday\nDiary did not get filled in from here on as on Weds Morning I reached into back of the car and my back went. I tore muscles in it a long time ago and it often niggles but as long as I keep doing the exercises for stretching and building up the muscles it is OK but I have missed doing the swimming? Relevant?\nAny way saw stars and in agony so flat on my back and stretching every 2 hrs and sore.\n\n\nSaturday 29th June\nMy back is slowly improving I can move around and type!!\nI can do the stretching OK but stiff and achy, rather than spasm.\nWork must have been bad for the two left as it was going to be short staffed with out me dropping out. Nothing I can do about it. The new vet called around to look at the flat before moving in a month’s time. She came with her mother. Their farm was culled out with FMD late on and they had just got the herd to where they wanted the breeding. Her mum was talking about it was going through a grieving period, and how some days it was yes carry on and get going again, and other days it was why bother? It is just all too much hassle. It will take a long time for the memories in the farming community to fader, and with the acknowledgement that it was much better to get the disease and get it over with, the cooperation of farmers will be even less. They are the 17th generation on the farm!! The whole concept of bio security needs to be looked at and farmer education on how the disease is spread. The self-imposed isolation of not sending kids to school etc is just stupid but to go against the flow is very difficult. That as well as the DEFRA imposed ridiculous rules. They were not allowed to leave the house for 3 months. They just view this as a punishment imposed because they refused to let the hefted flock be culled. (They were right not to.) \nThe old tenants have moved out of the cottage. Eddie and Ruth seemed to really enjoy it as a summer holiday while at work!! A change is as good as a rest so they say. \nI have looked at jobs again but nothing appeals. There is a job which I wouldn’t mind doing as a consultancy but doubt anything will come. Will have to wait and continue to see what happens.\nWent out for a meal to Giannis at night as my Dad is up. For the w/e. \nSunday\nP spoke at Family Focus at church and was very encouraging he is always a revelation as he takes things as they are, not as they should be!\nWatched Brazil beat Germany to win the world cup. Wet weather and kids out of sorts and back still sore. Yuk..\nMonday\nDrove for the first time and dropped my Dad off in Carlisle but it was pretty sore by the time I got back. Dad was in good form and he has enjoyed his time up here but he is getting older, and with being in London we are going to have to visit on a more regular basis. Went into work and did some paper work and answered phone and felt better for doing sthg, as pretty bored, but couldn’t sit still or really get going either. Came home and lay down again.\nD came around at night called in absolutely hyper. He and A going to split up which is not so good even if it is not that un expected. The thing that has brought to a head is the fact A is seeing some one else, who is also married, not a good situation.\nLads came around at night, which was good fun, and we had a good time.\nTuesday\nI am now the father of a teenager. A’s b’day so it was good to see her opening her presents this morning. Back is easing a lot so did small animal today and I am moving freely but still doing the exercises. A’s birthday is also always a time for reflection as she was born a year to the day after we arrived in Cumbria. So we have been here 14 years, a long time. The future is also looking a bit uncertain work wise with more farmers complaining about the prices of their milk and animals. Hence they don’t want to pay their bills. \nWeds to Saturday\nAs usual the diary gets missed when the crisis hits, so I am writing this on the following Tuesday and bringing the diary entries up to date. \nWeds morning I was driving through Wigton having done my first farm call since doing my back when there were lots of flashing lights and an ambulance and an unmarked police car with all its lights on going through Wigton. They stopped at the lay by in Wigton high St. The traffic was slow but I did not see anything. Later on I was coming back in to Wigton from another call and the By pass was closed. The office was full of news that the by pass had been closed because of a stabbing and that a Welshman and a Wigton woman had been taken to hospital and a Wigton man had been arrested for attempted murder. I got a sinking feeling as D had been around on Monday saying about Ali having a boy friend. I said to [wife] but she said surely not. I got back after work and a friend arrived and unfortunately it was D. The story emerged over the next few days how he had forced his wife at knife point to take him to where she was meeting the boyfriend and there he attacked him. The sort of story you only here about in the papers and crime programmes. So we have had the police taking statements and trying to come to terms with it. He is usually a mild almost submissive personality and he had flipped but really weird. \nThey have 3 girls who are now going to be really mixed up. Having a father who attempts to kill their mother is not nice.\nSo I missed the leaving party for the locum who has been working for us for the past few months which by all accounts was very good. \n\n\nSaturday 6th July\nStill in shell shock over D and A, I still cannot believe what has happened. Went in Saturday morning and sorted my car and got testing list up to date. There is a lot in the Veterinary press about the future of the LVI system and the future of Farm animal practice. The future is not looking good. The short term is fine, if anything we will have a huge amount of work and we can live off the FMD capital that the farmers have. But once that begins to run out, they and we will be in serious difficulties. The economics are against the farm animal practice.\nWent out for a brilliant meal and had a really good evening at C’s. Her husband is a Detective Sgt and had been called out because there was yet another serious incident. This time at a night club in Cockermouth. There is a 22 year old in Newcastle hospital with head injuries. So felt sorry for C as she cooked and hostessed with out her better half.\nSunday\nChurch was good with SG on the character of God. He was quite funny with his illustrations, of fatherly things from his life. Espy as his son is quite a character. Met up with DC who was a DEFRA vet from SA, he was in good form and has another locum set up for when he finishes at Longtown. \nMonday\nBack into full swing again, but not much happening. Read the test and felt a lot happier as I didn’t have to leave the dreaded piece of green paper as everything passed. Of the farms I went on though it was interesting to note that the farmers are all having problems with their backs again. While they were pressure washing and not amongst stock they were fine but going back to pushing animals around the bad backs are back! The topic is probably raised because of the fact I have been off with a bad back. Du. called in as he is replacing D on the railway until they can get something sorted on a more permanent basis. He stayed for 2 years next door while doing his railtrack training. The people at work cannot believe that Dave has done sthg like this as he usually if anything a submissive guy. \nDu. had just got the keys to his new house in Manchester where he is based now, and was not very happy to be posted back up to Cumbria. He hasn’t even managed to move in!\nTuesday.\nWork very quiet and long lunches. Good for getting other things done but pretty boring. Looked at Rota and checked websites. Reports to be published on 18th July. Spent time sorting out rotas and booking up and reorganising my kit.\nWeds\nDay off. Went into Carlisle and was bounced by my wife in to getting my hair cut in what I assume is an expensive hairdressers. She was getting hers done and dragged me in and it was a fait accompli. At least I assume it is expensive, as she won’t tell me how much it is and she let me go off to Tesco’s and said she would pay for both!! \nWandered around book shop in Carlisle and met [wife]’s mum off the bus. \nThe vet student from USA arrived for a couple of days. Jamie who is not as I assumed male but female! It is amazing how you make assumptions when you read e-mails and take messages. She is in UK for 12 wks and [friend] has given her our address as his wife is about to have twins so he thought it better not to have more people than really necessary in his house. There are a few babies at the moment, got a photo of E this morning and [friend] called around to say [other friends] had had a baby but he couldn’t remember whether it was a boy or a girl!! (Learnt later it is a boy)\nThursday\nNot a lot for J to see. Called in to see [friend’s] new kittens, Posh & Becks. Both have cat flu. He is busy painting house and tidying up for the wedding. Never seen his yard as tidy. Must tell Abbi to get a move on and maybe he will finish off some of the building work as well!! Did 2 calvings in the afternoon and finally read through the Audit office report which I downloaded ages ago, they were pretty accurate, apart from Nick Brown insisting it was all going splendidly well!! There really must be a better working relationship between the ministry SVS vets and the vets in general practice. And so much better communication. The other point that is never made is that all farms should have a mass disposal plan as part of their IACS return in order to keep FMD on peoples minds, as it is already disappearing as a part of history. And history will repeat itself because nobody listens. And most of the anguish and delays were in the disposal systems. \nFriday\nDropped J off in Wigton to catch the train. It is always strange with having students, because they stay in our house they are very much part of our lives and then they drop out of our lives. Another former student who is just back from SA called in and it was good to catch up with her. She was on her way back to Edinburgh for her 5-year reunion. He has been qualified 5 years and I thought it was 2 or three … \nOne of the vets was off ill so it meant a bit of a run around today, as 2 others were on holiday. but it was good to be busy and get some adrenalin pumping.\n\n\nSaturday 13th July\nWorking Saturday Morning.\nOn days like this I think it is great to be a small animal vet, the Consults were all straight forward and I could chat to the owners with out having to stop and think what to do about the animals. That and 2 owners were really appreciative of what I was doing so felt good. I think that is one of the things about working for DEFRA no one appreciated what you were doing. OK some appreciated the concern and effort, and the way you did it but no one really thought what you were doing was good. Like putting pets down. It is for the best but no one likes it.\nBeautiful day today too, the sun shining and picking strawberries and having a Bar B Q was really very pleasant. My brother always says the best thing about NZ where he lives is that he can plan to have a Barb in 2 wks time, whereas here, you have to go with the flow.\nSun 14th\nFirst call so wandered around seeing ill cows. Several lots of drugs to put out as a lot for the restocking farms have yet to get their medicine cabinets back up to strength. Had a collie hit by a tractor and its eye had been knocked out of its socket. Urgh!! Eyes give me the creeps.\nMon 15th\nOperating day as we are doing the anaesthetic monitoring so plenty of ops booked in. Health and safety requires us to check for operator exposure to anaesthetic gases. As our new system has a scavenging system and is light years ahead of the one we use to have, it is a waste of time, but we have to have the checks done. But I wonder how many other practices actually do?\nWe have never been checked up upon. \nA police man arrived at the front desk while I was on the phone. The head nurse disappeared as soon as she saw the marked Police car, which struck me as very suspicious. After he had booked an appointment for his dog and he had left. I was curious to know where she had disappeared to. She had gone to check that the medicines cabinet, where we keep the gun, and dangerous drugs, was in fact locked. As while we are operating we keep it open so as to have easy access to the emergency drugs. The Gun licences insist that it is kept locked at all times and immediate access to a police officer coming to check it must be allowed. And we never been checked up upon yet.!! Farmers are all busy with field work and are not wanting to even think about any routine work so it could be a quiet week.\nTuesday 16th\nBeautiful weather and raspberries coming along nicely.\n[wife]’s Mum is busy making jam and mile high pies. Yum Yum\nPartners meeting at lunchtime, why do they always make me so depressed!? \nThe subjects were more of the same how do we cope with the changes in the drug sales prices and how do we compete with Irish drugs being brought in illegally. We got a little further forward and will hopefully be able to make a decision on it by the deadline in September. We need to look at new ways of bringing in revenue streams but I don’t think there is a willing ness to look at the radical so I will have to keep working away at it. \nWeds 17th\nMet up with the lads last night to pray but the craic was good, and did more chat and joking than praying! T’was good. I is apparently having a good time at the CS Lewis convention, but has yet to open the Book stall\n(He sells books and specialises in Antiquarian and first editions of C.S. Lewis). The one thing about the internet is that it frees up communication and searching for the really obscure. Sorry I)\nThe weather broke today and the rain came and with it all the calls as the farmers got all the routine stuff done. Which was good for the last of the school kids which have plagued us for the past few weeks. Vet students next but at least they can chat away with out me having to make all the effort.\nThurs 18th\nWent o a farm today which restocked in Feb after doing its 4 months waiting and has yet to have a TB test, asked him whether I should chase it up but he like everyone else should be leaving it to October and housing. MAFF efficiency rules. We also tested 44 imported heifers that were supposed to be blood sampled within 7 days of calving but they have been missed. I have no confidence in either of the reports to actually achieve anything. Part of me feels I should try to contact the media and try to get them to push the agenda along. But I don’t feel it would achieve much apart from sticking my head above the parapet, which would not do much. I have asked for copies but none have arrived yet.\nFri 19th\nDemob happy, I’m on holiday from 5:30pm so it will be good to catch up on all the things I should have done but not done. The garden is a mess but we are getting on top of it slowly. In some ways I am glad to be off when the LLI is reporting as at least I will not get wound up.\nSo this is me signing off for the week, next diary will be on Sat week.\n\n\nHOLIDAY - Week beginning Saturday 20th July\n\n\nSaturday 27th July\nHaving had a week off, I am feeling a lot happier about life in general. We have been to a few of the nights at the Keswick Convention. It is an amazing set up with over 12,000 people coming together over 3 weeks in Keswick and meeting up for Bible teaching and to worship God. There is a big tent that is set up on the back of the convention centre. By the time we arrive, it is always full, and we were not late. On the Friday evening there were people standing outside. The kids went to a Youth event on of all things Ezekiel, not exactly an easy choice of Bible book to convey to 19-14 yr olds. But they really enjoyed the wacky games and the way they mixed teaching and songs and games/activities. They seemed to be mostly uni students who seemed to get as much fun out of it as the kids. My brother and family were up and the cousins love getting together and even A joined in the football and tennis. Even though her hand to eye co-ordination is not the best.\nShe has taken up running every day so I have been out with her, but my back is still not right and I can feel it at the slightest provocation. Must go swimming again. My brother also asked [wife] what DIY needed doing as he is a real enthusiast. Give me gardening any time. So we made a door for one of the sheds which I have been putting off for the past 6 years. As once I start there are another 5 to do. He is also a sailing fan so hired a sail boat and went sailing which was great fun. The kids had a canoe and we raced up and down the lake. And the kids swapped around and went to explore islands it was really good. The weather helped it was scorching.\nWe also went to a wedding of one of our close friends’ son. I decided I am going to start teaching my kids the etiquette of weddings, as the groom could have done a better job.\nIt isn’t really his fault as he is young and has not thought things out.\nSun\nWent to the All age service at the tent at Keswick. There were too many kids even for me, but the mix of action songs and asking kids things and an action talk meant that those leading it kept the kids involved. It was good to see. Spent the afternoon on the lake it was really nice day.\nMon\nYep it was a real Monday morning with my in tray over flowing. 2 Rota’s to sort and 2 weeks of testing to try to arrange. The only goodish news was that the ministry have finally decided to put the restocking farms on Annual testing which means at least we know where we stand and can plan. It will mean a lot of work for us. The bad news was that the OFT investigation have sent us a horrific questionnaire which needs filled in and one of my partners has had a go and not got very far unfortunately, and it needs to be in by tomorrow. Forget it.!!\nThe 2 new vets have started and so we are settling them in and they are picking up the ropes quite quickly, which is ace.\nOn call at night, out twice for bad calvings….that’s the end of my holiday f\nfeeling good. \nTuesday\nSore back from calvings and early mornings. Had forgotten I had arranged for some one to be with me all day today. In a moment of weakness I had acquiesced to being put up for sale in a promise auction to raise money for African Children’s Choir. So this was the promise being redeemed. A morning with the vet….So I put on my best charming manner, all Mr PR-Man. And took her on a tour of the practice and on call and explained everything I was doing so it was a good thing we were not busy.\nSpent the afternoon consulting and supervising new vets and showing them the ropes.\n Weds\nWe were suppose to be going walking up Helvellyn but the torrential rain put us off. So went into Carlisle and did bits and pieces, and I took kids to see Stuart Little 2, which is definitely one for the kids. And jobbed around at home, but the kids like it when we just potter around.\nThursday \nFelt really stiff and sore and decided again I must go swimming more often, I just cannot seem to get there, that’s all. Must make time. I’m working this w/e and I am then off for 10 days. Finishing with F’s wedding. [friends?] are up with their kids and it is really good to see them. We don’t see them that often but they are the sort of friends who you pick up on as soon as you meet them even if you haven’t seen them for ages. M has left full time teaching as he couldn’t cope with the pressure of all the paper work and hassle. He is teaching supply and doing other things as well. He is so creative and he has made a model of our house just while he was sitting chatting with us. \nFriday\nCame home at lunchtime to see the kitchen table covered in drawings and paintings. M had decided to have a painting day so all the kids were doing drawings and paintings. He has done a watercolour of our house. It is brilliant. \n\n\nHOLIDAY for two weeks\nThis is more a reflection of what I have been doing and thinking over the summer as I have not been writing up the diary but I want to put down some of the things that I think are important.\n[edited – disclosive]\n\n\n\nSat 24th Aug \nAnother Bank Holiday w/e to be worked but at least I am backing up our new young assistant. We work a system where the new vets have a senior vet on call at the same time for the first few months so as to give them a hands on support and mentoring. While this sounds very good and practical it is surprisingly uncommon. When I started I was on my own from almost day one. I started in August after getting married, and in the second week of September, my boss headed off to Oman to do horse work out there. The other large animal vet was off on long term sick and he could only get a small animal locum. When I look back now that he left me in charge of the farm practice for 2 weeks after only being a month qualified, I shudder, but at the time I just got on with it. \nSun 25th \nCalvings coming thick and fast. The good warm weather has made the grass spring and the cows are putting on too much weight and having problems.\nJ was at a football tournament at Pirelli’s which I missed, but he came back really tired having played his socks off. Did another PTS (Put to sleep) dog visit with [assistant vet]. It is never the easiest of consults, and she did really well. She is finding her feet. I find it hard helping people make euthanasia decisions over dogs, so I feel quite strongly anti euthanasia when it comes to people.\nMon 28th \nBeautiful day too nice to work. The morning was busy but the afternoon was quiet so I spent it lying in the sun dozing. Had BBQ at night at J’s and chatted to a few folk who I know but not to speak to so was interesting. Spoke to one of our farmers daughters who told me her Dad had just had his first calf since FMD and so he was really happy. He had 2 holdings which were run as one. He managed to keep his heifers which were on the second holding. Probably because they were the last ones in the area, and these were the ones that were now calving. He still blames the pyre from a neighbour for spreading the virus to his farm.\nTuesday 27th\nThe problem with having a day off is that you have problems stored up for when you come back. Today was really hectic…finished at 6-30 after having come back from the Belgian blue inspections to help out at surgery. The inspections were fun, but it gave me the creeps being in the mart and inspecting mouths as it brought back bad memories. The mart is ridiculously clean, and the last time I inspected mouths was for FMD, after shooting a herd that was a dangerous contact. I was trying to persuade London not to take out the other neighbour as well. We got finished at 2am, and went in for a cup of tea and to recover, and the mother greeted me with the news that D had been next door and was starting to shoot them!!\nThe other really annoying thing is that the basic hygiene is not being enforced and yet other rules are. The rules are made in London by desk bound DEFRA officials who don’t have to implement them. The mart uses mini dumper trucks to clean out the pens after they have been sold. The same trucks are then used to put out straw and sawdust in the freshly cleansed and disinfected yards. They are covered in muck, and are a bio hazard!! \nM the owner of the animals we were inspecting put on her usual tantrum display to try and intimidate the secretary and inspectors, which as I was expecting it I found quite amusing, but I don’t think she or they did!! \nHad another BBQ tonight with kids. [son] cooked and loved it so I have found a new BBQer!! Kids in brilliant form as they are enjoying being around and A has been baking.\nWeds 28th\nAnother TB reactor, and the corresponding paper work and licensing!!\nHad a weird oddball case in surgery and spent ages trying to take a history of what was going on. The dog is not that unwell in itself, but has an intermittent history of different things. I look forward to seeing what it turns out to be, or whether it resolves itself with time. Vetting is always varied.\nJ was at [friend’s] party, after having a football school with Blackburn rovers this morning so he was passed himself.\nArranged to visit [prisoner in prison] on my next day off. And went through a multitude of meaningless options to end up with a guy who sounded like he came straight off “Porridge”. It is amazing how intimidating trying to find your way around a bureaucracy can be. I am not sure I want to go but….\nThurs 29th \nFrom feast to famine not much work during the day at least. Al had 3 caesareans last night and was running out of steam by 5 O’clock this afternoon!!\nMeanwhile I did small animals and tried to organise my trip to London to visit my Dad. Found web sites for Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, London Eye and Madam Tussards. So should be able to book in advance if tickets are left for the half term week.\n[other children] are staying so the house is full of excited kids…\nFriday 30th\nBusy day sorting out the invitations to our Open Day, 1st Oct. It is just a chance to get the farmers together. We promised one to celebrate the end of FMD. It is amazing going through the list off the computer how many farms are not restocked. The list hasn’t been updated since pre FMD as we don’t really know how many will restock so we have been waiting for the end of FMD to redo it. So there were a few deaths, sales and ‘moved away’, to take off the list.\nTime moves on.\n\n\nSat 31st August\nLast w/e of the summer holidays. We had a BBQ at lunch time for Borderline, and then I promised to take the boys camping at Bowscale Tarn .It was beautiful but really cold. The weather was OK Sat but Sunday was glorious. The boys wakened at first light. So we climbed up on to the tops while the sun was still rising and it was one of those magical moments. Wonderful.\nThe boys were so excited and full of energy and so happy to be with their Dad and enjoying life. A time to treasure.\nSun \nAfter coming down off the tops from Bowscale Tarn went to visit [friends]. [He] is a vet in Longtown and has just set up his own Small animal practice in the north of Carlisle. The twins who are now 4 weeks old were wonderful. There is always sthg very special about wee babies. A was in her element with two to mother.\nMon\nGood weather continuing and so we are still quiet. The vet student has arrived. Went blood-sampling sheep for Maedi visna to a farmer who imports and sells sheep as a bit of a dealer. Between him and his Dad, and his Granddad they have 4 holding numbers, which is making a mockery of the licensing system. He knows a lot of the breeders and dealers, and the Yorkshire DEFRA is even worse than this one and so the whole licensing system is allegedly being ignored there.\nEveryone in the office was trying to work out where we are going to go for the Xmas party as it is now September.\n\nTuesday\nIt is [friend’s?] last day at work tomorrow before the wedding so the girls spent most of the afternoon printing out posters and things to decorate his car before he goes tomorrow evening. The farmers are phoning in to book Tb tests for Nov and Dec as they know that we will be busy, which makes life a lot easier for me. We have sent out notes with the invitations to the open day and that has had a good response so we will start to get busy testing next week.\nWeds\nDay off. Spent the morning fixing the shower drainage, which had suffered from one too many footballs being kicked against it. The problem was the broken part was also a metric to imperial converter.( One end was 40mm and the other was 43mm) Which once I discovered that was what I needed meant a trip to Carlisle as nowhere in Wigton had it. So it got codged up with plenty of silicone!! \nThe afternoon was spent going to visit [prisoner]. He is the friend who stabbed his wife’s boyfriend in Wigton, and so he is currently residing at Her Majesty’s Pleasure in Durham Prison. It was a very disheartening experience. As with any organisation, it takes time to work out where to go and what you need to get through the hoops. I went from one part of the prison to another and backwards and forwards. The staff where very friendly and helpful, but they are all at fixed stations and so you are sent from one area to another. The security, although expected and natural, still comes as a bit of a shock. Photographed in, and issued with a barcode to get you in and out. And you put all your belongings in a locker before you are allowed in. Of course I did not realise that you only need the ID (Passport) to get your bar code so I kept it to show at the entrance. Where all I needed was the bar code. So they sent me back to put it in the locker. \n[prisoner] was Ok, but he is still finding it hard to think about a future that does not include his wife. Even though the divorce papers are filed, and he has done some pretty nasty things to her and the boyfriend. He is pleading guilty and is expecting to go down for a good few years. \nThe whole visitors area was charged with emotion, with people coming to see brothers, husbands, lovers. There were lots of girls with young children coming to see their Dads. I felt very sad for them and for the kids who are growing up with out a Dad, or the stigma of a Dad in jail. \n[His] kids have written but he is realistic. His wife is very anti him, and they are unlikely to keep up with him in the long term, as she at best, is not going to be supportive, at worst is going to try to dissuade them.\nHe was quite upset about that. He is also not able to sort out his things, or see his house before it is sold. He did a lot of building work etc on it and has an emotional attachment to it. But there is no real closure. He had emotional problems before all this. He is likely to have even more on his release. His car on which there is still a car loan has been removed from the pound but he doesn’t know where it is.\nDrove back over A66 very thoughtful and thankful for my family and freedom. Until the phone went to remind me I was On Call and had I forgotten. Fortunately there were no calls as it takes quite a while to get from Barnard Castle to Wigton. Oops!!\nThursday\nDid my first isolation pens inspection, which is a complete non-sense. The field has to be 50 m from any other livestock. Which in London probably sounds fine. Or in Scotland where there are plenty of woods and other crops, but here in Cumbria where the main crop is grass and all the fields are grazed at this time of year, then it is not so easy. The forms are horrendous, and the boxes to be filled in are greyed out to make it easy for you to know which boxes are to be filled in. This obviously looks really good on a computer screen in London, but on a photocopy, writing in black ink, makes the whole thing illegible. But that’s their problem!!! When does common sense come in.\nFriday 6th September\n[colleague’s] Wedding.\nOne of the vets at the practice was married today at the parish church in Wigton. The wedding was “some do..” He and his family in kilts. There were over 200 at the wedding and reception. At the Grennhill hotel where [bride’s] uncle is a director. The theme was an English rode and Scottish thistle. The flowers were all red roses in arrangements with thistles. They were beautiful. As was the bride, he quickly adds. There was a ceilidh afterwards and a fireworks display. Several of the neighbouring farmers complained to me the next day.\nDanced and talked the night away till after 2 am. Getting up the next day was a bit of a pain for morning surgery, urgh…\n\n\nSat 7th September\nWhy is it whenever you could do with a quiet day because of one reason or another it is always busiest. Managed to keep going most of the day with calvings and ill animals. Still recovering from the late night at wedding.\nDay was a bit of a wash out really.\nSunday.\nMilk fever at 7 am to finish me off so missed church but went to hear SC at Wigton in evening. He is head of Oasis trust and is very much a radical, but believes in putting faith into action and was very challenging. Isiah 58.. True fasting that God wants to spend your self on behalf of the poor in spirit. \n[wife] went to hear the new Bishop of Carlisle who was speaking at Hebron. He is reaching out to all the local churches and seems to see outside the traditional denominational boundaries, which is really encouraging.\nMonday\nHad a crusaders meeting in Rydal. Crusaders is a youth group organisation and I am on the area planning group. We have had money given in a legacy to support some one full time to train leaders, to organise area events and w/e away and other joint activities, which should be good. It meant a rush and a long day so I am still feeling knackered from the w/e.\nTuesday\nI was almost speechless today. The great era of decentralisation has hit DEFRA, I wish… I rang them up because we still have not had confirmation for the appointments of our 2 new vets to enable them to do DEFRA work. What used to happen was that they went to a training session and chat with the DVM in Carlisle and the appointments arrived 2 days later. Guess what all the paper work has to be sent to Page St in London now, and they have not got it back yet.\nWeds 11 09 02\nIt is funny how some anniversaries effect you and others do not. I had just started back in to the practice when the hijackers crashed into the pentagon and the twin towers. I was feeling at my most bruised and battered having had a major confrontation at DEFRA, and had to work through the psychological problems of being threatened and sidelined, and yet wanting to keep my integrity by not reacting and blowing people out of the water. \nThe 9 11 bombers made me realise how fragile peace is, and how fragile people are and the importance of not losing sight of the important things in life and trying to keep things in perspective. People are more important, friends and family… and if I can’t fight the civil service mentality that is their problem not mine. I remember seeing one of the teacher’s husbands walking in to the kids’ school when I went to pick them up. Looking slumped and dejected and learning that their only son was in New York and they could not reach him. 2 days later they heard he had visited the Twin towers the day before and had taken photos from the top. He was supposed be going back into the towers that morning but he had got up late and by the time he and his friends set off the towers had been hit. The impact of the number of people, who have either been in or visited the towers from all over the world, does make it a potent symbol with worldwide resonance. My sister worked in them for a while several years ago.\nThe anniversary brought a lot back up to the surface that I thought was past, but was merely hidden.\nThursday \nFirst on last night and 2nd on tonight so started early and finished late and running out of steam.\nFriday\nOne of the farmer’s wives came in today for some wormers for her chickens that have gape worm. She paid last months bill in cash as well as for the wormers. £8.76 inc VAT. She is working away from the farm 2 days a week, her husband is full time at a job he got after they went down with FMD.I asked how her father in law who is 65 was doing. He is lost and the farm is too quit, its not right its too quiet. They still have no animals back and are grass letting. Its funny she said, whoosh and your life takes a complete change, you never know what’s going to happen next.\n\n\nSat 14th September\nWorked am and then had rest of w/e off hooray.\nSunday\nMonday\n[son]’s footie\nTuesday\nPartnership meeting at lunchtime so had a sore head by the end of the day but a lot of good decisions made. So feel as though we a re moving forward.\nWeds\nOff as working the w/e so caught up on paperwork and stuff at home and then went into Carlisle to go shopping. For lots of bits and pieces. And a new bathroom.\nThursday\nDVM called in to update us. Waste of time and I had forgotten what an annoying man he is a real career civil servant bureaucrat who has forgotten what real life is about. If he ever knew.\nHad one of the vets around for tea as I was backing her up. Spent the evening playing take two and had fun.\nFriday\n---a very bad day at the office dear oh dear oh dear.\nThe day was great to start with headed down to Iselgate to see a lame bull to give it a certificate. They are still suffering from both the financial and emotional scars of FMD. Mind you they were always odd. She was talking about the isolation that was hard to break out of, and get back in to doing things again. They were also hoping to retire when they were 50 but BSE hit, so they decided to keep on and had no income from Jan to October last year. Mind you they would only usually be selling stores any way.\nThe day was taking a turn for the worse when after sorting out umpteen decisions for the practice manager on organisational issues he said “ wasn’t it easy when you were just being a vet???” \nFatal mistake as the next dog to be seen was an odd ball. It had woken up that morning after being perfectly ok up til then. It had growled at tis owner and he had decided to leave it for a while. After an hour or so he went to get it up out of its bed and it flew at him and as he put it meant it. So he rang up and brought it to the vets. This change of behaviour meant he had put it in a kennel and left it. So when I went in to examine it growled and flapped its ears at me and bit at the bars. Some dogs in pain or fear will growl or let you know that it is not happy, but this one meant it. We had a go at trying to get it examined by using the dog catcher and muzzles, but it mean it.\nLeft it to settle down over lunch but it was worse. Finally got it sedated, it had a temp of 104. Injected mm, and so was a case of encephalitis with rage. So after 3 vets all looking at it and umming and erring we decided to get a MAFF vet to have a look just to check that it wasn’t rabies. I had forgotten that none of them are clinical or able to handle animals but it was a bit of a joke. But as there was no history with it, of contact with abroad it has been left alive for the time being.\nBut the stress of both handling the dam thing and the worry of is it rabid and the consequences was some what tiring so I am washed out tonight.\nTomorrow is another day.\n\nWeek 27- Sat 28th September\n\nSaturday.\nDo tell me there is light at the end of the tunnel because at the moment I definitely feel there isn’t. So I have taken time off next week to catch up on all the things that need sorted at home. We are supposed to be putting in a new bathroom and we need to get the stuff ordered so the guy can fit it. You never know it may include doing a few diaries!!\nSunday\nMy wife is on a counselling course this w/e so I ma on the run around with the kids. Yesterday was spent watching the boys plat football and run here and there with friends. [son] had 2 friends to come and camp last night so he is a little on the tired side. The weather is warm and sunny a real Indian summer the autumn raspberries that are usually delicious but quite sparse are huge and plentiful.\nWell I definitely have a teen-age daughter as for the first time I had a phone call late in the evening from Carlisle asking her to be picked up, as her lift home had not worked out. Fortunately it was from the church youth group, but it is the sign of things to come.\nThe youth group took the church service tonight so it was really good. Looking at Our World. The pressures on young people and how they respond as Christians and applying their faith to their own situations. Very challenging.\nMonday\nWe have an Open night tomorrow night and it doesn’t seem very organised yet. Not my pigeon. I have made a resolution not to get worked u about things that are not my responsibility and just leave them be.\nThe 2 new vets are beginning to really pull their weight, which is great, and [colleague] is back from his honeymoon. Brown and jet lagged. They spent time at the beach and on safari so had a great time. [nurse] has headed off to the far blue yonder. She is one of our nurses and has gone to NZ for a month so it will be strange with out her. [other] nurse is just back from states and [another] vet is about to go to the Caribbean for 2 weeks. So I am getting itchy feet. Time to travel. At least I should be of to India in the new year.\nTuesday\nYear end Oct 1st, so stock taking which for me includes mucking out my car. I thought it was quite normal to take the wheelie bin to the car and just hoy the contents in until my neighbour saw one of the rare occasions when it happens and burst out laughing. He found it quite amusing. I was a bit taken a back at the time but we always assume what we do is normal!\nThe open day was OK but [wife] was out so had to juggle things a bit. I was On call so late finished, and had to fetch [son] from football as his practice had been shifted to Tuesdays with the dark nights. So I owe [friend] a bottle of wine for turning up half an hour late to pick him up. The boiler man arrived at 7pm to fix the boiler which was blowing fuses. He needs a lesson on time management. \nHad several interesting conversations on FMD. The most amusing one was about Tony Blair arranging his bust up with unions on the anniversary of the FMD out break finishing so as to keep it out the news. \nThe same farmer said about the govts response the countryside alliance March. The fact that they have reduced the sparsity factor in the allocation of central funds to local authorities. This means that those with a lower population density and therefore a higher perceived cost of providing services are going to have this downgraded. Or in this farmer’s opinion take money from the countryside to the town. Don’t march or this govt will kick you where it hurts in a very subtle way.\nThe other one was probably more relevant in that in a group discussion, admittedly fuelled by an intake of free alcohol. Several were saying that this year was harder to cope with than last as there was no crisis or adrenalin to keep them going. And that the toll from last year was beginning to tell on them and their nerves. Two were still under court threats from Trading Standards /DEFRA for not complying with regulations. Both will in my opinions not result in anything but they are pretty pissed off to put it mildly.\nThere is also a real antagonism to doing the testing for ministry and we are in the cross fire as Defra vets decide what is to be done and yet we are the ones trying to arrange and get the testing done. While they do not have to pay us, they do have to spend a fair chunk of time organising and actually getting the job done. We are having a real problem with organising the testing on one of the common grazings. There are 14 farmers with animals on it. Biosecurity is a joke when your animals are on common grazing with 14 others. And trying to get 2 farmers to agree on a date and a method of doing it. They all have different ideas, and most do not want so and so there co he ‘ll just wind the cattle up, and we’ll never catch them.!!!\nWeds\nDay off So caught up on garden and sleep.\nThursday\nI really enjoyed the crack today there was just that right amount of work and banter to have a good day. Laughter and fun is infectious..\nFriday\nOut for a meal at night which was great but 8:30 start tomorrow Sat am is not going to be good…\n\n\nOCTOBER – A young colleague’s brother was killed in an accident and as M writes retrospectively (see below), there followed a very difficult month in which he was unable to keep a diary.\n\n\nSaturday 5th October\nIt is in the smallest of things that suddenly life changes very suddenly and we then look back and see how we were and are not now. I had a phone call at ten to five from one of the young vet’s father. [Father] was asking to speak to George or I. That in itself was strange the receptionist came and found me, with a quizzical look, saying he did not want to speak to [young vet]. When I answered the phone he said that they had bad news in that her brother had been killed in a traffic accident, so I had to tell her the bad news and then sort out the consequences. Once she had got over the initial shock, [wife] drove her to her parents’ home in [her] car.\nThe other partners are away so we are short staffed and [young vet] will obviously not be back for a while.\nIt is at times like this that I am always grateful that I can go back to God and trust in him. Even though I do not understand anything, I know that I can trust God. \n\nJan 2003 (Writing retrospectively about October 2002)\nThere is a month of Diaries missing from the death of [vet’s] brother onwards. I always meant to go back and fill in the days that I missed but never made the time or the effort. I found the time very difficult. So how her parents and sister-in-law coped I do not know. The funeral was at Kirby and I am pleased that I went. It was very sad to see some one in the prime of their life with so much to offer, cut down in such a random way. It was a very Cumbrian farming gathering. The red faced craggy farmers, and yet there was a friend of the family who sang at the wedding who was a black American gospel singer. The global village or world wide family of the church, take your pick.\nThe death of some one young always makes you consider your own mortality and makes you think about what you are doing. Will you on your death bed wish that you had made different choices??\nThe next month was busy and stressful, and probably a time which would have been useful for the study to have thoughts and reactions to my life when under stress, but I suppose to a certain extent when we are close to something we go on automatic pilot and do the urgent leaving the things on the periphery. \nHe was killed while driving a tractor back from where they had been testing cattle for American BVD. They had bought in pedigree world class dairy cattle. This included a sibling to an embryo which had had the American BVD. So the ministry were keen to make sure that it was not established within the UK. Hence the reason for the blood sampling. I know you cannot look at history and say what if… But if the cattle had not been culled, there would have been no blood sampling to do and no reason to be on the road that day at that time. Linkage is not the way to go. He may have had to go to feed stock or he could have been in an accident in another way. But the ripples of actions continue to reverberate around. \nAt least in my head.\n\nSaturday 12th October (Again M is writing retrospectively here of his first thoughts after diagnosing his first FMD case)\nThese weeks were not completed because of my stress levels!\nI have wanted to transcribe my first thoughts on FMD that were written in a hotel in Newcastle at 2am after diagnosing my first case.\n\nTo My Wife.\n\nDear [wife]\nI don’t know why I am writing this, as I hope to see you tomorrow but I suppose I need to record what I feel, for you, and for me besides, sleep eludes me.\n\nToday was a beautiful day of winter sunshine, warm sunshine that speaks of the spring that is to come, on frosted snow that is clear and white and pure. A great day to be walking up in the hills on a Sunday afternoon, enjoying God’s wonderful creation.\nBut this is a fallen world. The only walkers are me, the ministry man, in disposable boiler suit and waterproof jacket and trousers, and a farmer with a heavy heart. We go into each field checking and inspecting all the pregnant ewes, herding them into a corner to catch and examine them.\nFeet OK, Mouth OK, a smile.\nThe only clue to the sadness on this man’s heart is the slight acrid smell, which wafts, now and then on the wind. The smell of his neighbours future burning on another ministry man’s pyre.\n\nIt’s 2 o’clock in the morning, and why am I writing this? \nBecause I cannot sleep. \nThe ministry man who then examined the cows. Blisters in its mouth, blisters on its tongue, Temp 105F.\n“I am sorry” I say, “It is.”\n“They’ll all go” he manages to say fighting back tears.\n“ If the lab confirms it, yes.” I reply. As a farm vet of 15 years experience I am not allowed to say it is Foot and mouth disease only that I suspect it. An anonymous telephone answerer in London makes stupid comments and stupid questions. \nI take my samples from the cow. I grab its tongue to pull it out to take a sample of the skin from the tongue. The cow’s tongue comes off in my hand. I try not to be sick and place the sample in the bottle.\n\nWe go into the farmhouse.\nHe is in tears.\nShe is in tears.\nI feel like crying.\n\n“ I wouldn’t do your job for all the b… tea in china.” she says.\n\nI am a volunteer, a TVI, all big depts have their jargon, and I don’t speak it yet a temporary veterinary inspector. I only started 3 days ago. A “clean” vet who had not been in contact with the foot and mouth disease.\nA volunteer from general practice, seconded to be used as a pawn in the battle against FMD. A man from the ministry.\n\nAs I leave a “dirty” vet, having double disinfected with my samples and a heavy heart, I take off the disposable boiler suit, and put on my shoes.\n\nI am me again. Not the man from the ministry.\n“Hey lad, nobody would know you from anyone else like that. Says the farmer.\n\nHe has seen me as I am. I see him as he is.\n\nLiving with his mother since his father died, so as to be on hand to run the farm. His wife and her mother in law trying to share a house and a kitchen while they convert a barn into a house.\nThe builder was told to stay away a week ago in case he brought disease onto the farm. Tomorrow he will be told to stay away as there will be no income for at least 6 months.\n\nWhile I filled in forms I had never seen before, with initials and jargon I’ve never heard. She phoned her sister to pick up the prescription for anti depressants. The doctor said she should go on them while the stress and worry of foot and mouth was about. Well it’s here.\nHe hasn’t eaten and will not sleep tonight.\nShe is anxious and will not get any rest.\nAnd the man from the ministry.?\nWell its 2am and I am writing this far from home a volunteer, a TVI, a pawn in a bigger game.\nBut after 5 days of being “dirty” and I can rejoin life. Back to normal, Back to my home, to my job, and my future.\nMy farming couple. 5 days of shooting and burning, of disinfectants and diggers.\nSix months of quarantine and a future in farming, maybe. Or maybe not.\n\nThe stories abound: Of three generations waiting for the men from the ministry. But grandfather will not see the farm restocked. The stress was too much for his already dodgy heart.\nThe countryside is under siege, and pawns are being lost, to win a greater gain?\nAnd why are we having to work these long hours and sacrifice these pawns??\nBecause some one was so arrogant, so stupid and so lazy that he couldn’t be bothered to heat the swill he fed to his pigs. He couldn’t keep to the rules that were made so this would not happen.\n\nIt is not intensive vs. extensive, organic vs. agribusiness, it is sheep vs. goats.\nAnd they will be sorted.\n\n\nSaturday 2nd November \nThe start of writing diaries again after a break of a few weeks, I am hoping to go back and fill in as time permits so this is today and forward looking.\nWorking the w/e with [young vet] and AW sat am. She had a calving this morning at 4am and so is a little on the tired side so hope it is quiet for rest of the w/e.\nDid surgery and then spent the afternoon trying to fix the out sidelights. The front went 18monhts ago, which shows how well I am keeping up with the maintaince on this house!! But the back one went recently and that is a real pain as you cant see your way to the car at night so I am more concerned about getting it fixed. The old lights are just rusted up and you can no longer replace the bulbs so up the ladder to re wire new lights I went. Unfortunately I was on call, and yes I suppose I was trying to do too much, but if you don’t try you don’t succeed. So I downed tools went off to calve a cow, and then came back to find a neighbour plus her 4 children in our kitchen. So I stopped had a cup of tea and then headed back up the ladder. Now [wife] maintains I should have noticed that there were lights on at this point. I would like to point out that I should also notice when she has moved furniture, had her hair cut or even spring cleaned the house. As I am often berated for my lack of noticing these sorts of things, yes I should have noticed but I didn’t. I was focussed on what I was trying to do, as usual. So up the ladder I went, to connect up the light, not knowing that [wife] had switched the electrics back on. And yes when I was at the top of the ladder, I grabbed the wires, and then spent what seemed an awfully long time trying to let them go and stay on the ladder as the electric current was shocking me. So the light did not get fixed as I was not going back up the ladder as I was now in shock. !!\nHo hum\nSun\nFinished the light while every one was out, and then picked up A from a sleep over and went to Church in Wigton. PM was speaking on the parable of the 10 bridesmaids, which was good, as I had never understood it as it is obviously related to a cultural thing that happened at weddings in Jesus’ day. The point being that the wise ones who were waiting for the return of the bridegroom had the oil in their lamps, and the concept that this was the holy spirit that meant they could meet with the bridegroom, i e Christ. I am not sure that the idea is entirely right since there is that big leap oil=holy spirit, but it was interesting. I still think it was a cultural thing that was obvious to his original listeners and we just don’t have a clue.\nAli and Andy called around in the evening it was really good to see him again. He used to be a vet here who left several years ago and it looks that at long last he is going to look to settle down. He was quite depressing about LA vet practice though. He is now 100% small animal so he is biased. They are actively looking at taking TB testing from the vets in his area, and the vets are dropping the farm practice as being uneconomic!! So much for the govt wanting more farm vets around. At least this is a low cost area so at least we are not competing with small animal practices able to offer large wages to assistant vets.\nHe is looking to set up his own or buy a practice to settle into. They are obviously looking to get married so that will be another wedding to go to. We have been invited to LB’s who is finally marrying P. They have been following each other around the world for the last 2 years, from disaster to disaster, as they are both in humanitarian relief work. She was a vet student here too .\nMon\nMonday, Monday. Tell me why I don’t like Mondays.\n[young vet] is exhausted and everything is catching up with her so she is going to take the end of the week off. The joiner finally arrived to put in the windows and had real problems writhing the old ones out and so has taken half the sand stone with them so they will have to be reconcreted which is a builders job ie he is not going to do it. The bathroom is still in pieces. “8” days it was supposed to take and we are now in the third week.\nWork was bedlam. So I was queuing the ops up this morning. I hate operating all morning as it is very draining as I have to concentrate on what I am doing. While the office staff keep coming with more and more queries. Urgh!!!\nGot another stupid letter from the planners quibbling about listed building consent that I am trying to get for the windows that are being fitted as I speak. I started the ball rolling in August. No wonder the country is going to the dogs!\nTuesday\nCalmed down a bit having filled in the Visa forms for our holiday to India. The great legacy of the British, the bureaucracy is alive and well. Why do they want to know my mothers place of birth and Maiden name for a 2 week holiday? Civil servants! \nMissed the gym cos surgery went on and on. I went to a farm and was asked a lot of questions about TB as they had had a reactor. The ministry had been out testing but hadn’t bothered to tell us. Mushroom farmers..\n[son] is in the process of planning next years football team!!\nWeds\nWent to a farm today and he is complaining that he cannot get his cows in his restocked herd back in calf. It seems to be an ongoing problem. A lot of those who have restocked with whole herds are having reduced fertility in their herds. It would be an interesting study to see the figures compared to non restocked herds.\nThursday. \nCounting the days until I am off. Work continues to be too hectic. [vet] who lost her brother, is off and it makes the whole pack of cards of having enough vets to cover fall down!!\nI think too I am just very tired from being too busy for too long. When planning staffing levels, it is usual to be cautious rather than to have too many vets around not making any money. We thought we were stretching it by employing the 2 new grads instead of the one.\nIt is also just being under pressure all the time with out a few days to cruise it.\nWent out to Chris Swifts for the VCF (Veterinary Christian Fellowship) which was really good as usual. F was telling us about the thanksgiving service that they had just held at Barnard Castle. She has also just got engaged. So it may curb her wanderings. She is an explorer and mountaineer. She is just back from Antarctica, and is currently doing some research and a PhD at Durham. Barnard Castle practice seems well organised and also flexible in that she is only working 3 days a week to spend 2 days at Durham on the PhD.\nIt was really good speaking to [friends] about [vet’s] brother as Paul was with them at the accident as he was taking the bloods.\nSo spent quite a while praying for them and for other things.\nFriday\nBad day. Had a phone call from the planners saying they were not going to allow double-glazing, and that they want the glazing bars to be 10mm not 20mm. Why????? There are no 10mm glazing bars on the spot.\nThe ministry,(London) have decided that they are not going to train lay TB testers and that all the work is going to go out to LVI’s. (Us). So we are now looking at a lot of work again. Carlisle DEFRA in conjunction with London, have decided that they are going to want all the restocked herds tested annually with every animal tested not just the adult breeding stock. So from looking at dropping 1-2 vets 10 days ago, we are now going to be looking at employing extra staff if we can get hold of them. How are we supposed to be planning for the future if it is so dependent on the whim of DEFRA officials.\n\n\nSaturday 9th November\nWent to the School PTA Pub Quiz last night at the Rugby Club. It was good fun, but I was struggling both to stay awake and to dredge up the Infotainment trivia of the previous year. It is funny how the questions chosen reflected the people who were asking them. What had stuck in their memory or that they had chosen. Nick and Jane were across from Newcastle. I stayed with them for a few nights when working for DEFRA across there when I could not face the faceless loneliness of the hotel. \nConsequently was completely zonked Sat morning. Just went around the house being grumpy. \nWent to watch [son] play football, they thrashed Yewdale in the county cup.\nIt was good to be out in the fresh air and came back to sleep for a while before heading out to Roy and Christiana’s en famille. We had to pick up Fraser from Wigton. This is their son who has just started seeing a girl in Wigton. He is 14 and so was amusingly embarrassed.\nWe were talking about leaving the kids; at what age do you leave them on their own and to look after the younger ones. Christiana told us about when she left all three boys for an hour and a half, and the older two had got so fed up with youngest being annoying they hung him by his joggers from the post at the bottom of the stairs. The middle one said in all seriousness, that it was his fault that he had torn his trousers, if he hadn’t tried to escape the trousers would have been fine!! Even now he considers that the wrongdoing was the ripping of the trousers not the fact that they had hung him up!!\nSun\nWent to Church in morning and fittingly for remembrance Sunday it was on repentance and Gods love. Daniels prayer in Daniel 9 was very fitting some how. \nLunch and more football and crashed in to bed exhausted.\nMon \nTim is away for the first time on his own with the school on an outward-bound week south of Keswick. He was so excited about going. I think [wife] was a little put off that he was not thinking about missing home. Hey ho, but that is a sign of secure roots I suppose.\nMet up with A’s Maths teacher to discuss her Maths. There has been a lot of to and froing between the teachers but not much communication with home. So we went to see what they were saying, and have left it as the status quo, which is what it should be.\nFirst call today was a farmer who is just out of hospital having had his appendix removed for appendicitis. He had seen this cow and said why haven’t you had the vet to it. He is a good stocksman, and with him being out of action they had a relief milker in, who hadn’t noticed. It had a twisted uterus and was trying to calve, if I had seen it on Friday I could have sorted it out but because it was now to late I had to send it off. It is sad but the agricultural industry is losing a lot of experience and a lot of stocksmanship and handling and general expertise. It is not sthg that can be replaced. \nWe are seeing more twisted wombs because of the transport and fighting amongst restocked herds. The sad thing is that he said to me. We should never have restocked; we should have taken the money and let it all go. It is just too much hassle with the paper work and training cows. \nThey have just housed the cattle and so they are all fighting to come in to the parlour to get milked, and just making life difficult.\nThere is a real disillusionment around at the moment. But there are also those who are gearing up to milk more and more cows to stay still 300 +\nTuesday\nThe great European market combined with DEFRA’s inflexibility is causing a few problems. The Dutch heifers that have been imported to replace some of the FMD losses have a unique identifier number which is on their ear tag so everyone knows who they are. So far so good. They also have NL on them rather than UK, which means we know they are from Holland. The problem is they have a small check digit on them at the end. This means Dutch computers can recognise if the ear tag is a valid one or has been misread. The UK tags have a check digit at the front of the number. Very useful to help rule out misreadings or transcribing of the ear tags. \nHowever the DEFRA computer doesn’t recognise the numbers so we are being asked to retest heifers, because they still have an outstanding record of the ear tag numbers as untested because the extra digit has or had not been entered on the UK system!!!\nThe number of out standing tests is dropping but we will not be able to keep up with this level of testing, more allocations have arrived today. Managed to get all the bits sorted so I could leave at 5:30 for my few days off. The only out standing thing is the stuff for the accountant end of year. It was supposed to be in by 18th of Oct but hey ho!\nWeds \nI have taken a few days off to try and paint the windows and new bathroom we are having put in. The planners phoned to query again about the windows and I told them they were already in so it went down like a lead balloon and they are coming to tell me off. They also started querying the other windows from 95!\nThe problem with having a few days off is that I get very head achey and feel washed out and ill. Once the adrenalin stops I seem to crash.\nThursday\n Met up with Charlie from Longtown vets for lunch, which was great. His practice in Carlisle that he has started is going well. It is on the main road out to Scotland and looks really good and he is getting lots of custom just by being there.\nHe is looking for a part time vet. To start mornings.\nFriday\nRepainted the bathroom walls after discovering I had used 2 different shades of green. One was Ming grey, the other ming blue. I just opened them one after the other, and thought the difference was because the one had dried and the other was still wet. Ooops.\nThe plumber is having problems with the electrics and getting the lights to work. So it was all fused out. I am just glad we have a shower as well or we would all be getting rather smelly by now.!!\nWent to watch “Changing lanes” at cinema. A rather thoughtful if slow and unbelievable set up. But nice escapism for an hour or two\n\n\nSaturday November 16th\nWorking Again.\nBut feel better for having had a few days off even if the bathroom isn’t finished. Getting to be a bit of a saga. Oh well never mind. \nSat morning surgery was busy and then several farm calls afterwards.\nFor the amount of stock around and the cost effectiveness of veterinary time we are doing an incredible amount of clinical work.\nDan (The sheep AI vet who locums for us on occasions) phoned up wanting Alison’s phone number. She was of course out, it being Sat night. His technician is ill and he has 250 Swales to AI tomorrow. Hope he finds some one. All the sheep AI and embryo technicians are very busy as people try to build up their pedigree herds and flocks by breeding for top quality.\nSun\nAm busy with calls and then painted doors in bathroom while [son] painted the window. Very messy but he enjoyed it! It will give him confidence to try again. It is patience and practice. \nWent to church in the evening. Rob Whitaker the principal of Capernwray Bible College was preaching. He is so animated and relevant. He was talking on feeding the 5000. And Jesus compassion and just the circumstances Jesus was in at the time. How he used the disciples and then applying it to us, and to the church in general. Espy compassion.\nVery challenging. Went on to meet up with lads and spent time praying. Phil is pretty down about not having a job. It effects his self worth/ didn’t help that Fraser had a brand new Merc sitting out side his house. \nMon\nHit the maelstrom running with an in tray flowing out, and still nothing together for year-end to accountant. So pushed practice manager and then started operating and haunting him every 20 mins in between ops and keeping him on task. The problem is that there are so many other things going on at the moment that the non urgent keep disappearing in to tomorrow. The new drugs discount system is working and generating a lot of interest and then hopefully will cut down on the black market. With any luck the increased turn over will make up for margin. Usual problem solving and smoothing over and 2nd opinions to sort out. The 20-day rule is not stopping one of our local cattle dealers, from buying and selling. He says the paperwork to run 5 holding numbers is horrendous……\nKen and Anne called around and it was really good to see them. They have a lime spreading business and have been really busy over FMD. Both with lime for land that is going to be used for barley and crops(Rather than grass) and with a lot of stone for building work and new pathways and for lonnings. Whereas farmers were happy to move cattle via roads they are trying to reduce the movements along roads and are putting in tracks for the cows.\nTuesday\nMore tracings to check for TB, (These are cattle bought from a farm where TB has since been confirmed) and the paperwork to go with them. Ear tags don’t correlate so going to be a problem.\nRota nightmare at the moment as everyone is organising their skiing trips, so we are going to have 1-2 vets off all of Jan and most of Feb. \nTook first box load of paperwork to the Accountant. He is an old fashioned up the back stairs, not a computer in sight, type of fella. He is a wily old fox, much more than he looks, as he manages to keep the taxman happy and off our backs, which is probably the most important. \nThe financial year doesn’t look too bad, but doesn’t allow for the number of days of holiday carried over. If we had to give the holiday pay/ or pay a vet to cover for those days it would make them look a lot less rosy.\nGot back in time for gym and then Tuesday kid chauffer work.\nThen fell into bed and slept.\nWeds\nThe phone stopped at 4:00pm and didn’t ring again until 9:30 this morning. Weird. The work has just stopped like a tap being turned off. So got the rest of testing sorted. ; Sorted out the rest of the stuff for the accountant. Tidied the office, wrote up my book, and even thought about mucking my car out. Only got as far as thinking about it as coffee break arrived. Didn’t earn much but felt a lot better for it. \nSkipped off early and gave the bathroom doors second coat.\nThursday 21st November (Pay Day)\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\n\nFriday\nHad a horrendous night with ill calves with pneumonia in the evening. A calving at 1 am in Silloth. Then a dog trying to die at 5am, so was I ever pleased that it was my half day. Slept and played squash with L & J in the afternoon.\nThe dog belonged to an old lady who had no children and it was her husbands dog who had died 4 years previously. She was going to be on her own if it dies. So she was very tearful and upset. The dog is not looking good as it is 16yr poodle type thing. She is isolated booth because she doesn’t drive and lives out at the coast. And because she and her husband retired to here, and neither have any family around. I felt for her.\nMade me appreciate my family so much more.\n\n\nSaturday 23rd November\n[wife] is away on a course today so for my w/e off I am running the kids and doing the cooking. \nI dropped of [other son] to squash, did some errands in Wigton and then watched the squash coaching. They are very patient and encouraging. The total contrast was shown at [son]’s football. They are a very good team, but I really do not like the attitude of most of the coaches and teams in the Carlisle teams. I was late to arrive and they were already 4-0 up. And this was the second half. It was only when I walked around to where the coach was, did he think about giving [son], and the other 2 subs a game. We have had it out with him before that he should give all the kids a chance to play, or else they find it crushing. [son] was really fed up with the situation, but he does love playing and is quite loyal. The coach always justifies that he has to play his best team, which he doesn’t, he plays his favourites/friends sons. But the point is irrelevant, if you are winning by that margin, then you can afford to have weaker players on the field. They went on to win 10- 0!!We will have to get a Thursby team organised for next year.\nWent on to Longtown poultry sale very interesting lots of rare birds and waterfowl. Will have to go and buy next year and get some different types for A to breed up.\nSun\nDan spoke on walking on water, in his own inimitable style. He is so refreshing and practical and honest. Made it a call to prayer as well. \nDidn’t do much in morning as [wife] was on course but finally managed to\nFinish bathroom. Hoorah!!!\nMon\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\nTuesday\n Went to do routine fertility at a farm today and it was quite depressing in that a neighbour of theirs who has started up again has had a really bad time. The problems of restocking on top of bad hips. He was all gung ho to get restocked and although he had a sore leg he didn’t go to the doctors while he had the chance when he had no stock as it was only a little sore. But as soon as he got stock back and started to do a lot of physical work they were very sore. So he went to the Dr’s and has 2 hips which need replaced but as he is only 40 they don’t want to do it yet and it would mean no physical work for a long period. \nOn top of that he has mastitis problems caused by taking his plant to pieces by DEFRA. He has lost 8 cows and heifers through calving/illness or injury.\nSo after less than a year he looks set to give up disillusioned and a lot poorer.\nThe workload for us is easing as most cattle are now housed and a lot of the housing work is sorted. I always feel it is a run down to Christmas now with all the preparations and celebrations and kids (and adult) parties.!!!\nI was at another farm today who had meningitis a year ago, and has still not really recovered properly. He is still finding it hard to get going. He lost all his animals and all his work during FMD, and the additional strain has meant he has lost a lot of interest in the farming side. He can’t be bothered with all the hassle and paper work of farming sheep and cattle and so is growing a lot of veg which he and his wife have always enjoyed growing. They just retail at the farm gate. It doesn’t make much money but as he says it just keeps things turning over and he and his wife have time for each other and no hassle. Life is more important than making a living. Very profound. I am going to go part time, I wish\nWednesday\nThere seem to be a lot of problems (Still) on restocking farms. They are all having problems with getting the cows back in calf. Two farms today complained that even though they were more than pleased with the compensation at the time, the costs of restocking are much, much more. It would be interesting to do a survey on the number of breeding animals bought in and those who have been lost either through illness or by failure to get in calf. \nThe old diseases are still causing the most problems. Lung worm, a disease I thought was well under control, and well understood has caused huge problems. IBR or cow flu has caused so many problems that we can no longer get the vaccine, as all the stocks have been used.\nIt was interesting today that one of the farms that is about to start milking having finally restocked ordered vaccine for Lepto, IBR, and BVD almost as a matter of course.\nBut fertility is causing the most worries.\nThursday\nFeel a lot better after an early night, apart from running to and from Carlisle after my daughter. Youth group last night, and evening shopping tonight.\n\n[son] is still trying to organise an U14 Thursby team for next year, all he needs is a coach. The problem is that it is a big commitment. I wish I could do it but I work too many w/e’s.\nSpent time day dreaming about what to do with the byre in our yard. It is an old knackered building that needs bulldozing, but [wife]’s Dad thinks we should just look after it and convert it into sthg. But what? \nI still think that there is an opening for “Herriot holidays” taking people for a day at the vets and then a day at the mart and so on.. Diversification is the name of the game.\nFriday\nHad an interesting day what with one thing and another. No lunch but hey who’s complaining. One of the nurses at work has a chicken shed with her husband and another farmer partner. The fans and alarms all failed and so the air was not circulating. The farmer was devastated. It was a horrendous sight. A carpet of dead chickens. There were 23,000 in the shed and we worked out there were roughly 2-3000 left alive. 20.000 dead. It brought back memories of FMD. Also the logistics of disposing of 20 tonnes of dead chicken. I hope the insurance covers it. Out for dinner at Christiana’s. Had a vet friend call around at teatime. He is a meat hygiene practice covering several different meat plants. They have several vets covering all the different plants. He has been asked to got to Harrogate to discuss how the different proposed regulations can be implemented. A marked improvement on the usual dumping of unworkable ideas from DEFRA HQ.\n\n\nSaturday.30th Nov\nTook a while to get going after being out for dinner last night though it was very pleasant. Spent day doing odds and ends. Went to watch [son] play footie, and bought an Orchid from the orchid farm. The kids were making cards for Mum and wrapping presents so it was fun.. James came down with his kids so there were 7 running riot which is really a bit too many after a late night.\nSun 1st\nChurch in the morning and Johnboy called around to see what time the prayer meeting finished as he had arranged a surprise party for [wife]’s 40th. So had loads of folks in Sunday night which was great. They had all crept in to the big kitchen and decorated it while we were in the front room. A and [son] had been going back and forth so [wife] never noticed. So it was special. The kids were as high as kites.\nMon 2nd\n[wife] is forty and there’s a photo in the news and star to prove it. The kids brought breakfast in bed, and opened presents. Poor [other son] after 3 late nights did not want to go to school I hope they are all right for Gran. [wife]’s Mum and [sister?] arrived. “Nannies from Ireland” to the rescue. They are going to look after the kids while we are away for a few days. We have had a bit o banter about them looking after the kids. [sister] found an advert for “nannies from Ireland” which is an au pair service and sent of for the info which she forwarded to us. She is a character. So they have been asking about working conditions and PAY!! I have been requesting Police checks and giving as good as I get.. The winds are pretty strong so they have had a bad journey. The super ferry was cancelled so they have had to come by boat which takes much longer. A baked a cake and managed to get 40 candles on it!! \nBoth [wife] and I are looking forward to getting away. As usual work was really busy and lots of loose ends to tie up prior to leaving but finished for 3 days HoORRAAAHHH!\nTues 3rd\nSpent the day travelling up to Loch Lomond, stopped off at Braeside and at Gretna and bought some clothes and mooched around. Cameron House is beautiful with wonderful views and you can just walk down to the lake. There is a pool so went for a swim before dinner. Very civilised.\nWe had just finished dinner when the waitress arrived with a cake with 4 candles and sang a rather wobbly happy Birthday. [sister?] had been very keen that we left the phone number of Cameron house, even though she had our mobile numbers. Now we know why!! Very pleasant surprise but we will never eat any cake let alone a whole one!!\nWhile we were strolling around after dinner came across the picture that one of our friends had used to decorate the kitchen with on Sunday. He had come across it somewhere in a book, and it looks vaguely like [wife] so he had put it up with Lady [wife] underneath! And here was the original or at least a print of the same picture. Weird.\nWeds\nAfter a very lazy start, a swim before breakfast, (Full Scottish!) . We walked up eastern edge of Loch in sunshine and showers. We were only caught out in one shower. There was a rainbow down to the Loch edge. A beautiful winter walk. I have decided I am going to walk the West Highland Way, with the boys. Had some fruit for lunch as cooked breakfast on top of dinner last night means I don’t really need to eat for a week!! Another swim, thought about the gym but I am on holiday and felt wonderfully relaxed, and then dinner.\nThursday\nAnother lazy start and swim before breakfast, a walk along the Loch, and the back to Glasgow to the Burrell Collection. We just wandered around the paintings. I can sit and look at the impressionists and keep seeing something new. They are very beautiful. Came back home in time for tea, though did not eat anything as too much food. Made up a ditty for the Nannies.\n\nNannies from Ireland came to stay\nSo [respondent] and [wife] could go away\nOff the children went to school \nWhile [respondent] and [wife] swam in the pool\nThe Nannies were left with all the dust,\nCleaning dirt for their daily crust\nTheir experienced gleaned over all the years\nCould not stop all [other son]’s tears\n“ Off to school you must go\nSaid a stern faced Nanny Lo\nThe nannies go to TK Max\nForgetting all about the cats\nSomething is sick on the mat\nThe nannies really don’t like that\n“A M” L begs\n“Go and fetch all the eggs”\nOn animals they’re not too\nWhat did the contract really mean keen?\nThey will not give another day\nUntil something is done about their pay!\nSo back to Ireland with this tale\nThey do go via Cummersdale.\nAs their pay all disappears\nThey decide on new careers\nLois thinks of a racing car\nRuth just of going far.\nSo our thanks to them are due\nthe Nannies from Ireland crew\nIts now their turn to go and play\nTill they’re called another day. [edited to remove names in verse]\n\nFriday.\nBad hair Day.\nHaving come back all relaxed and cheerful I was relaxed until I missed my lunch.\nAfter working all day, plenty of hassle from one thing and another, I was then On Call at night, and it was very busy. \nLoch Lomond and Cameron House seem a long, long time ago\nI am extremely fed up. \nI do not want to calve another cow out side OFFICE HOURS ever again.\n\n\nSaturday.7th December\nWorked this morning after a bad night “On call” and felt like death warmed up.\nDid surgery and then sorted stuff out, and did some calls got finished at 1pm and went back to bed.\nWent to Xmas party at White Heather which was good fun but I was just too knackered to enjoy it. \nSunday \nWorking a few calls and plenty of pneumonia drugs for calves. There is a lot of pneumonia about with the East wind blowing, it is a wee bitty cruel wind but at least it is dry. Not weather to be working out side. It also seems to be getting dark really early. I need some sun on my back 4 weeks to go till India.\nHad a migraine or flu at night and went to bed, and started throwing up.\nI cannot burn the candle at one end even at the moment.\nMon\nOff work ill. But a new vet student starting and R is off as well Xmas shopping so thrown in at deep end.\nTuesday\nWent back in and did my bit. Working at night but night work easing off Thank goodness. Plenty of high cell count investigations to try and sort out.\nWeds\nTook kids swimming after work with the vet student it was good to do some exercise and chill out. Went to Staples prior to going to the pool where as usual there was no one on the desk for print cartridges. So I went and found one of the girls chatting on the till to get me what I was looking for as I couldn’t find an “HP58”. What I hadn’t noticed was some one else just standing at the other end of the long counter who was then very upset and aggressive that I had jumped the queue. He is obviously having a worse week than me. As he could have gone and got some one from the tills as easily as I did, but didn’t. So why he got so upset I don’t know. “Now’t as queer as folk”\n[other son] was very upset tonight when we got back from swimming because he had shaved one side of his head. [wife] had cut the others hair but his was still short and didn’t need it. He WANTED it done so in the shower took things into his own hands and shaved off his side burn, but only on one side!\nHe did not like getting laughed at either.\nThursday\nChristiana came to the rescue over the hair ([other son]’s) and has managed to make it look not too bad. But it was funny!!\nOn Call at night but as most nights seem double booked at the moment went to kids performance. They are doing Alice in Wonderland. Very good, they can really sing and perform. The teachers do get a lot out of them. Tim was the knave of hearts(Character actor) and [other son] was a frog footman grebbit, grebbit. It was good fun, only had a phone call to put a client at ease about her cat so managed to wing it.\nFriday\nOut at [friends] tonight. Kids younger 2 at performance older 2 are at xmas meal so a bit of a juggling act to get everyone at right place at right time!! Missed out on the Cumberland Vet Club social which was a shame but can only be in one place at a time\n \n\nSaturday 14th December\nHad a good meal out, except only started talking about the publicity for [..] as I was wanting to go and fall asleep some where. I cannot take late nights. It is just I am feeling too tired all the time. I think that the adrenalin has run out and I just feel stale. Hope Xmas sorts it out. Spent morning working. Did surgery and then sorted out queries with GG for the Accountant.\nSpent the afternoon writing cards and trying to put together lists of folk we should send too. A disaster, got as far as M before running out of cards and initiative.\nWent around to S’s for nibbles as a house warming. She is some caterer! Her mother does it as a job so she has helped so great food, could have done with some non-vets to dilute down the vetiness!!!\nSunday\nGot up and took kids to church\n[wife] is doing a thing on Borderline at night so she has to prepare that.\nPlayed football and caught up with a few bits and pieces and did some gardening.\nChatted to a vet from Chippenham who was complaining about the TB situation there. They have one beef farm where when they first discovered TB the farm took a week to test, as there were 600 head. There are only 200 left so it only takes a day. The farmer has been unable to but in store cattle to feed, and has lost over 100 to DEFRA. It has been 2 monthly testing for almost 2 years now and he still has not had a clear test.\nShe was down too, just from too much On Call.\nMonday\nGot up feeling exhausted, but even though not very busy couldn’t get going. \nThe dairy farms are all feeling very nervous over the Nestle pull out. “ farmers said to me that they were pleased that their sons are not going to be going into farming. Both teenagers, one A’s year and one a year older. Both looking to work in IT. It used to be a point of sadness that the next generation is not following on, but there seems to be a general air of resignation that farming is not going to be a good career.\nSad really.\nTuesday 17th December\nSpent the day sorting out the remaining bits and pieces for the Accountant.\nWe met with him at night, which as usual was the sorting out of this and that. The finding of the relevant pieces of paper and then what the unaccounted cheques were for!!\nWe are still making money but only thanks to DEFRA. So three cheers for Mrs Beckett, cynic.\nIt made it a very long day and Lois is off for the week so we are short staffed again but last tests are today as we will not be able to get bloods to the labs because of the Christmas post. \nI do like this time of year where you hear from friends who you have not seen for ages, and think the same as you did last year, I will have to catch up with them soon. Hey ho.\nWeds 18th \nThere is a lot of pneumonia about and the farmers are all buying vast quantities of drugs to treat whole batches of calves and stirks. The is the usual mix but far more than normal. I don’t know whether to be pleased that the practice is doing well, and invoicing a lot, or sad that there is so much disease around, and we will have a horrendous drugs bill.!! A dilemma I don’t think I should explore.\nThurs 19th \nFri 20th\nKids went to ice rink in Carlisle with [wife]. They have set up an out door rink which the city council are sponsoring to attract people in to the centre. I don’t think that they really need to, as the place seems crowded enough as it is!! [son] bashed his head quite badly and [other son] fell over and hurt his knee. Tim fell loads of times and just ended up wet and happy!! Their different characters are coming out.\n\n\n Saturday.21st December\nThe beginning of the Christmas Rota!\nI feel as though we are in the run up to Christmas now. I have also made the mistake of not buying all my presents before now and went into Carlisle to go shopping. It was quite nice in some ways to see the Ice rink and mingle in the crowds…but an hour and a half was plenty!\nThe kids have decided that they are going to ask for money to take to India this year from the Aunts and Uncles and so there will be fewer presents to open. As Christmas seems to be getting more and more manic, and commercialised I think that it is a very good idea. Well done A and [son]\nSunday 22nd\nCarols by candlelight\nIt was magical, the church was packed out and so I ended up standing at the back. Which in some ways was quite nice as you look down the aisles to the stage and there are rows of candles and fairy lights down the sides. PM lead it and there were different age groups taking part. He spoke on being a Christmas tree and how we end up all convoluted by our own wrong choices, and how we can have lots of fairy lights and a star on top, and have an image on the outside that looks wonderful. But what are we like inside all those things we surround ourselves with. God knows, and he cares, and he loves us enough to send a gift to help us. His son, Immanuel, God with us, who will take away the sin of the world. I was really quite moved by it all. This is the real Christmas.\nMon 23rd\nBUMP!! Reality bites back.\n It is difficult to focus on the important things of life, and keep a perspective on life, if it keeps getting interrupted by Monday Mornings! \nBut that is where Jesus should be, in the smelly cattle shed, and in the market place, and making a difference. I will have to think that one out while I have time in India. \nThe urgent as usual is pushing out the important\nManaged to go swimming at Foxes. The first exercise I have had for ages, must get back into it. Maybe wait for the new year resolutions, as exercise, wet weather and working over Christmas don’t really go together.\nTues 24th\nChristmas eve. Working but quiet apart from last minute panics as people think that their ill dogs and cats will not make it over Christmas with out seeing the vet.\nCalled in to Pow Heads for the turkey, they really do have a good butchery and poultry business going now. Good to see. Direct selling by farmers or Cooperatives is the only way forward to break the stranglehold of the supermarkets.\n[wife] is panicking about not having enough food so I am dispatched to buy more bread and milk. I think about protesting that if there were 5000, we still would not need a miracle but decide this is one of those occasions when it is better to just spend another 2 quid for the peace.\n[wife]’s parents arrive an hour later from Belfast, bringing 2 loaves of bread and 5 different types of Irish bread, and 6 pints of milk, and another 3 boxes of food. I wonder about making a joke about feeding the 5000 plus inflation but decide that discretion is the better part of valour and just put them in the freezer.!!\nWeds 25th\nKids started at 5:45 am and were unceremoniously sent back to bed.\nBut they were allowed to bring their stockings in at half past seven. I was on 2nd call so while they all went off to church I spent an hour in the surgery seeing dogs. One had meningitis and was very near death’s door and the owner was not that worried. The other is just unwell and could have waited but the problem is you never know. Got back and made Christmas dinner. So wasn’t all work. Though I do feel amongst all the commercialism and turkey dinners, the true significance of Immanuel, God who is with us, is lost. \nThursday 26th \nOn first call and lots of pneumonia drugs to put out and kept busy. Afternoon/ evening we had folk around. Lots of different ages and backgrounds so was a real mix and good fun.\nFriday 27th \nSurgery reopened and was really busy, I am pleased that we had put plenty of staff on the rota. It is always a difficult balance to make. Trying to work out if there will be enough staff to cover the work. No one wants to work over Xmas/New year. But if there are not enough then it makes it really awful for those that are working. But if you have people sitting around they resent that too. But it’s nice to know I get it right sometimes. Doing a rota always strikes me as a no win situation, as it is always a compromise between the two extremes.\n\n\nSaturday 28th December\nOn call Friday night and then I finished at lunchtime. [wife] wanted me to go on church walk but I was knackered and we are all going out tonight for dinner, so I went to bed for a few hours sleep. ( Much to my wife’s displeasure.) Having been On call for the whole period, as soon as I stop, I crash out, as the adrenalin fades and I realise how tired I am. But only Mon am to work then prepare for India, and hitting the beach!\nIt does take its toll on family life being on call, especially over the Christmas period. The folk we are going to dinner with, he is a policeman and they have similar frictions.\nSun 29th \nThe service at church tonight was memorable. The last evening of the year they have people talking about what God has been doing in their lives. So it is usually people who are not eloquent, not used to speaking up front but who speak in a very real way about what Jesus has been working in their lives over the past year. DP who is 14 who has had bone cancer gave a very moving account about how he had nearly died. How so often we compare our selves with those who have more than us, whether in health or other things. We should compare ourselves with those who have less. We should appreciate our lives, and thank God for who and what we are. He has had his ups and downs, but we are to follow God’s guiding and his path for us. Our lives are in God’s hands. We are to pray and to trust in him for our future. This is a young lad who has seen 4 of the friends he has made in hospital die. It makes the trivia we fill our lives with back in perspective.\nMon 30th\nLast half day and lots of last minute things to sort out before I finish for New Year and the 2 weeks in India. The cash flow has gone to pot because of the large amount of pneumonia drugs we have sold and tax/ vat going out in end of Jan. So needed to make sure someone keeps an eye on it while I am away and makes sure that it all falls into place. The problem with going away is that no one keeps up with all the admin type work that I do, so my In tray will be overflowing by the time I get back…. \nTues 31st \nThe Young people are partying at our house so we left them to it, rather than cramp their style. So we had a very pleasant evening at some farming friends. We rang up and called in on spec. They have 5 boys so we knew they wouldn’t want to get baby sitters for New Year’s Eve. Whereas we had about 40!! They have stopped dairying, but are now worried about how the new ruling will affect them. At the moment they lease their quota which provides a fair amount of income. The new German ruling will be applicable across the whole EEC that non producers cannot hold, and therefore lease quota. This means they will have to either sell it, in a flooded market or go back to dairy farming. Unless Mr P can work a way around the new system. \nThey are also taking advice and looking at all sorts of diversification schemes, some seem quite a good idea, others I think are non starters.\nThey already have invested some of the FMD money into setting up a student house in Carlisle. The way house prices are going around here it is probably a very good investment. Not really the way forward for farming though. \nThe only depressing feature of the evening was I asked what they thought the future of Cattle vets was, the answer was ”none”.\nWell that’s a good start to 2003.\nWe got home to find the party in full swing and we left them to it and went to bed.\n1st Jan 2003.\nGot up some what late after staying up for the New Years Eve. The young people had cleared up after the party and we were amazed at how well they had done. They had set off the dish washer and all we had to do was empty it. I was impressed. The only reminder they had been there was when we drew the curtains there were several glasses which had been missed, as they were on the window sill, and bizarrely an odd sock. The sock game my daughter assures me was very funny, but what I want to know is who went home with only one sock on!!!\nStarted thinking about India, a good job my wife is organised as we set off tomorrow.\n2nd Jan Thursday\nTravelled down to see my brother and family it was really good to see them again. Played RISK which was a bit of a Christmas tradition when we were kids. It was funny to be playing with him and both sets of kids, as I felt like a kid again. It was really nice though. B won, he managed to wipe people out and amass their RISK cards. He risked everything and it went to the last throw of the dice, so it was quite exciting.\nFriday 3rd Jan\n Travelled down to my Dads to have tea and drop off some stuff before heading for the airport. I am pleased we have had a few days off before flying as it is a night flight and I hate travelling when I am already exhausted.\nThe weather was the usual British winter of rain and wind. A friend of mine is convinced that this is due to global warming, more energy in the system means more rain and wind!! In which case Cumbria is not going to be the place to live as it is already wet and windy enough!!\n\n\nThe next 2 weeks recall X’s family holiday to India:\n\n\nSat 4th January 2003\nI am sitting in the Nilgiri hills, in southern India in shorts and T shirt enjoying the coolness of the high altitude. It is almost twice the height of Ben Nevis. On BBC world last night it showed a reporter in London with an umbrella trying to keep off the large wet snowflakes!!\nWe are visiting friends who teach at a Christian School here.\nThe contrasts of India always seem so great. The poverty and the opulence side by side.\nThe beggars and the road repairers at the side of the road in make shift tents of plastic sheeting. And huts of bamboo leaves. Then the huge opulent houses, wooden floored and air conditioned with their own generators and the 4* hotels with marbled floors and artificial streams and waterfalls.\nWe came on a cheap charter flight as it was cheaper to come to Trivandrum on a flight and a package with hotel B&B, than to just buy the flights. The emphasis though should be on cheap. It is the first time I have ever had to pay for drinks on the plane! The air stewardesses seemed to be there for a good time rather than to look after the passengers. Can't complain though as it was cheap!\n\nThe only worry was the re routing. We were originally supposed to be going via United Arab emirates but the refuelling was transferred to Bahrein. As we flew in we were warned it was a military as well as civilian airport so no photography was allowed. The build up of US forces in the gulf must be pretty major as even here there were large numbers of US air force planes, and massive sinister looking helicopters. It is difficult to believe that they are aiming to keep the peace by preparing for war.\nThe papers here are also full of sabre rattling between Pakistan and India, with daily reports of skirmishes in Kashmir. There is also exchanges of political rhetoric between the two states. How much is actually for real and how much is sabre rattling no one knows.\nThe weekly Telegraph is also reporting that Iraq has shot down a reconnaissance drone. The same sort that blew up one of the El Quaedi leaders in Yemen. The US is obviously trying " Regime change" by several methods. The US response was to blow up several command and control facilities. The war hasn't officially started yet but the skirmishes are going on. The cost the previous year for the RAF to patrol the no fly zone was $22 UK million , the last quarter was 10 times that. So there is money being spent.\nThe priorities of Govts is often difficult to work out. The Indian govt doesn't have enough money at the local level to organise a proper refuse collection system. Yet has money to develop hi tech weaponry!\nThe attitudes to rubbish here is very different. When we were at the beach, the actual beach is combed by litter pickers, but the areas in between are terrible. There are 2 smart 4* hotels and the govt buildings where the tourism training takes place. The grounds are immaculate and the flowers and area beautiful but once out side the grounds it is a cross between a rubbish dump and a building site with piles of rubbish and sand and rubble.\nWe went for a snorkelling trip around the coast to a fishing harbour where the sea was calm and there were plenty of rocks for the fish to hide in, and swim in and out of.\nThe boats were a few bits of wood tied together with string. Seriously.\nThere were two central planks and two edge planks and then an aft piece of wood to hold the aft part together which was reinforced by cord. The wood is so light that it floats with our weight fairly easily. The oars were split bamboo with no grips, so it made for interesting rowing or is it paddling? They are more like large Canadian canoes than boats. \nVery Hawaii five O. \nThe planks were roughly shaped but as we rode the waves the water fountained up through the holes in the bottom. H asked what wood they were made of but didn't understand the answer, must be a type of balsa.\n We set off from under the light house, there was another group going at the same time. I think they must have agreed to pay top whack, whereas you\nsoon learn to try to bargain about the price of everything here. They had two helpers in the boat to paddle whereas we were the economy class with two paddles but only one guide in our two boats!! We took turns in helping to paddle, whether we made much difference to the progression of the boat I don 't know; but it was fun. It was a bit worrying that we were heading for the least scenic part of the coast.(The other way is beautiful sandy beaches for miles) \n\nThere is a wave powered generator at the edge of the harbour, a few rusty wrecks and bits of broken concrete. But when we arrived the snorkelling was brilliant. It was like swimming in a tropical fish tank. My favourite were small electric blue fish which darted away as soon as you came near. There were big black and yellow striped tiger fish. There were 2 sorts one with vertical stripes and one with horizontal. Not at all timid.\nThe angel fish with their long dangling barbs were shy and would only appear when you kept still. There were some very large spiky sea anemones as big as a football. Loads of crabs and shoals of fish which swim hither and thither.\nSome were quite bizarre. There were some that looked like sea horses that had been straightened out. You almost could see a jockey getting a saddle ready to put on them for the Saltwater Derby. The huge variety and colours were just outstanding.\nWe spent a few hours and then got thoroughly sun burnt on the way back. The boys had been full of beans on the way there but were exhausted in the heat on the way back.\nWe spent today making and flying kites on top of a hill at Pykara. The kids(or was it the Dad's ?) made kites and then we tried to fly them. H's won. His design was copied from an original no stick design and managed to fly almost successfully. My traditional kite shaped one flew once but its aerodynamics weren't quite right. [son]'s yellow square was successful. None however matched the Ikea bought one. We played cricket and Frisbee as the water buffalos wandered passed in the typical Indian way of having no real boundaries between one thing and another. Called in at the Vedera's which was very pleasant. The garden was stunning as usual. I love driving through the tea plantations with acres of terraced tea plants and through the forest to get there.\n The hotel is an up market Indian rather than a western. Which is great for us. The décor lacks a little in taste and design. Concrete floors and that rather quaint unfinished look. Spotlessly clean, and the thing about India is they love having kids around and spend ages talking with them and love having them around. Going out for meals in UK with children is always a bit stressful, as low blood sugars combined with the general attitude of people to children does not make it a pleasant experience. Whereas even the hours wait for the food here is not stressful as the kids wander off, play games read books etc. [son] and [other son?] have befriended a man at the Blue Moon gift shop. He has spent hours playing chess and talking to them. [son] won a little elephant off him by beating him at chess. [son] decided he would buy Josh the chess set, and kept bargaining the price down. He eventually paid\n350 rupees for it. $4.60.\nThe beach is idyllic, with palm trees and warm rolling sea. The only problem is having to get the kids out of the sun during the red hot period between 12 and 2 . We do keep slapping on the sun tan lotion. I missed the widows peaks where my hair is receding and have sun burnt red patches either side of my head. The boys have variable tanning, depending on where the sun block was washed off first!\n\nDear [friends]\nJust a quick note to say that we are enjoying ourselves so much that we don't want to come home......But we would miss all our friends!!\nWe had a great time at the beach, you know the palm trees, the warm rolling sea, the sandy beaches and unlike Silloth 30 degrees warmth. In fact some days it was to hot, and we had to drag the boys out of the sea or else they would have been really sun burnt.\nWe are just back from 3 days at Avalanche, which is a bit of an unfortunate name for a mountain out door centre, but as there isn't any snow I don't think the Indians appreciate the irony.\nIt is up in the Mountains, a jungle area where there is very little apart from a few tea plantations, reservoirs and hydroelectric plants, and jungle and the wood men who harvest the wood every 10 years.\nWe left a bus and walked in to the centre, while a truck took the bags, food and the lazy ones. It is incredibly beautiful with high hills and lakes, but there is a drought at the moment so the reservoirs are all very low. And everywhere is incredibly dry and dusty. Thick red dust, which gets in to everything. The facilities were basic. The water ran from a stream to a tank to the taps!! No electric, showers but fortunately as always in India there was a little man, or in fact 3 who cooked for us all.\nA is taking after [wife], their main concern was not meeting any rats!\nWe abseiled down a waterfall, walked and swam in another...well [son] and [other son] swam. I am afraid it was too cold for me. I will wait until we go back down to the beach. We all went kayaking, and sat around the campfire at night.\n\n\nSaturday.18th January 2003\nThe end of our Indian holiday and escape from Cumbrian weather!\n[wife] saw the rep yesterday and the bus was arranged for 12:30 for a flight at 5:30. This tour company is something else. So we are going to catch a taxi at about 3pm so we are not hanging around the airport for ages. Having 4 children and going through the bureaucracy of an Indian airport is bad enough with out the additional hassle of waiting around for 3 hours with out reason. The annoying part is that so much of it is pointless. In that they put your bags through the security x ray in the main hall and then give you your bags back so that if you wanted to add stuff to your bag you could!!?? You have to go to 1 desk to check in, another to get your seat, another to exit Indian immigration and customs, and then identify your bags to get them put on the plane…\nWorse than DEFRA!! \nSo we spent a last morning swimming on the beach and then said good bye to the Cs and Gs. [wife] had to buy her material fro the study! \nWe were all quite sad coming away. I think we could have all stayed and enjoyed living in India but back to Porridge…\nSun 19th\nArrived at Dads at 3am UK time after clearing customs. Flight was not too crowded thank goodness as the space allocated for my legs is not enough!!\nThey had as before messed up their allocation of vegetarian meals. With the height of European ignorance and stupidity they offered a Hindu family by us a beef meal. The stewardesses should have known better, but I just cringed with inward embarrassment at their thoughtlessness. \nLeft in T shirts and shorts, arrived cold in jeans and fleeces. The air conditioning I don’t think was working properly and every one was coughing and dry mouthed as we arrived in Gatwick.\nDrove back up to Cumbria and back to the house. It was a strange sensation to be back, we had done so much and seemed changed, and yet everything here was still the same and yet not really. In some ways it is like after the FMD epidemic, before and after, everything is the same but nothing is the same. Part of you is trying to find where you fit in the new reality, part of you wants the safety of the old ways. Slightly dislocated from your surroundings, but the physical surroundings are the same, but I suppose you have changed, and the old certainties, that were not certain but seemed it, have made way for new changeable ways that are not certain and you know that they are not certain.\nMon 20th\nI have taken the day off to recover. The kids were all up really early because of the jet lag, and so had no qualms about sending them to school. \nI spent the day unpacking and sorting out with [wife]. \nThe pile of post was huge but seemed a lot more manageable by the time I had thrown out al the junk mail. Why do I need another 2 credit cards any way. Transferred money for tax bills and downloaded the emails. There were only 50!! So ploughed my way through them. When you are away for any length of time it makes you realise how much work is required to keep a household going with all the bills and stuff.. \nTues 21st\nBack to work and to face my in tray. Still feeling a little jet lagged and seeing an overflowing In Tray as you arrive is a daunting feeling. Did some of it and then went out On Call. It was good to be back on farm, and seeing folk again. It always amazes me how everyone around here knows everything. So they were all asking about India and had we had a good time. So it was nice to feel part of the community. As a friend of mine once commented “There is only one thing worse than being talked about, that is not being talked about.”\nThere is still that funny feeling of having been away, and having changed but nothing here is any different and yet thinking that it should be. Though why it should be I don’t know.\nWeds 22nd \nGeorge wanted a partners meeting at lunch time, so we met up and had the usual decision making process. To be honest the jet lag was still really kicking in so I was asleep on my feet. It doesn’t usually effect me for this long but both [wife] and I are shattered by 8pm. The kids are OK and going to bed after us. The sign of things to come.\nThe whole PETS travel scheme is causing problems. It has been presented as a passport for pets, but all it really does is allow re-entry to the UK from certain countries as long as you meet the conditions. We have had a few problems and we do very few. So what it must be like for those on the south coast I dread to think. The problems are 2 main ones. 1.That there is a 6 month period before you can come back into the UK after the paper work is completed. You can go before the 6 months, so people who spend the summer on a caravan site, will take their dog abroad, but cannot come back before the 6 month date. There is also a problem where the forms have to be renewed. It has to be done according to the manufactures directions, which vary from country to country. As in France it is a govt regulation that dogs are vaccinated annually so the vaccine manufactures stick to that. In the UK dogs have to be done every 2 years, cats annually. So you cannot have your documentation renewed in France unless you vaccinate annually. Whereas in the UK you can renew it with vaccinating every 2 years.\nThe other problem is that the paperwork is so complex that according to DEFRA’s figures there is a 18% failure rate. I.e. 1 in 6 don’t make it back in. There is also a problem in that there has been at least one dog imported into Cumbria with out any paperwork as the owners thought all they needed was a rabies vaccination. We are dealing with it on a weekly basis and are confused so the poor punters don’t stand a chance.\nThursday 23rd\nThere is a real problem with cow fertility in the restocking farms at the moment. I went to 1 farm where of the 10 cows I checked only one was in calf. Which is a little sad. No baby calves, no milk production and more losses for the FMD farmers. The compensation is looking very small. The only ones who benefited are those who took the money and got out.\nIt is difficult trying to work out why these cows are having so much of a problem. As usual I suspect there is no simple answer. The blood tests and analyses do not help much. The cows have been under a lot of stress. The movement into new regimes and cattle systems where they have to learn where to go, where the water troughs are, where the milking parlour is. They have had to sort out the pecking order of the cows, which espy in the larger units is probably quite stressful. Where you add animals to a herd there are lead cows who know the set up and cows are very much follow my leader in their behaviour patterns. Where there is a complete cull and restocking there are no lead cows so no leader for the cows to follow.\nThere has also been a lot of illness in the herds which again will reduce fertility. The other problem is the poor quality silage because of the bad weather. The other factor that keeps coming up in conversation is what effect the topping of grass has on silage/grazing quality which would have been an interesting study that will never be done now.\nStress is a generality of a word but I can’t think of a better more specific way of expressing the problems. The “stress” of all the changes has caused fertility problems. The difficulty is in finding where do you go from here. I think a lot will end up culling fairly large numbers 15-20% because of fertility.\nFriday 24th \nOne of the DEFRA TV’s called in on her way back from a test(TB) to let us know that there was still an IR causing problems. She also said that it looked like there was going to be a complete herd cull for TB in the east of the county. The farmer had restocked from three sources. All were down to do as tracings as well as to be done under the restocking TB testing. They found 32 reactors with lesions so they will probably cull the whole herd. It is so depressing. To think what the farmer must be thinking and whether he can face getting back into farming again after this further disaster does not bear thinking about.\n\n**\nSaturday 25th January 2003\nLinda B’s wedding!!!\nTravelled down to Derby for wedding. It was really nice to see them finally tie the knot as they have been talking about it for so long. They have followed each other around several continents so at least that will have seen each other in different situations. [she] first came as a student and has worked for us as a locum. She spent 2 years at All Nations Bible College in London, where she met [him]. So a lot of their friends from All Nations were there. [they] have been doing agricultural relief work in the worlds hot spots. From Kosovo to Indonesia, from Haiti to Bolivia. They are currently in Bolivia working with church groups. [she] has been setting up Tb testing programme as there is a problem of human TB, which has been blamed on the cattle. But they have completed the testing and it is not the cattle. It seems to be nearly all human to human spread so that at least they can make a start on eradicating TB in humans by treating the in contacts.\nThey went away from the church in a horse drawn carriage which was nice to see. Spent quite a lot of time catching up with vets and their friends who we have not seen for ages.\nSun 26th\nWe were staying with friends from Carlisle who moved down to Derbyshire when he started to teach. We went to their church which is a “house church” and is a little different to put it mildly. They meet in a school, and it is very informal with a drumming band and a desire not to be restricted by convention or liturgy! So it was a mixture of readings and worship songs. They do seem to be reaching out to their local community as there were people from all walks of life there.\nMon 27th \nBack to work and not feeling very good had 2 weeks in India and no stomach bugs but a w/e in Derby and I have a very runny tummy. Came home from work early and went to bed.\nTues 28th\nOff work Ill in bed, being male this involves dying noisily in a corner. Some sympathy I get from my wife!!! \nWeds 29th\nNot feeling good but dragged myself back in as I have had that much time off recently and I feel that I have to turn in. But I am off tomorrow so I can recover then, the only drawback is that I will be working the w/e. The sheep seem to have decided to start lambing or maybe decided not as we seem to be seeing a few if you get what I mean\nThursday\nHad a good day off and spent time sleeping and doing household things. Even though I hate DIY it was good to get some jobs sorted.\nCalled in at vets to pick up stuff for court tomorrow.\nFriday\nThe more I experience the legal proceedings the more I feel that they are a waste of time. What is important is how good your lawyer is. The case was all about whether or not this guy had starved his greyhounds or not. He had, but as he was on legal aid he thought it might be better to try to keep his other dogs. And have fewer judgements against him. He obviously knew his way around the legal system.\n\n\nSaturday 1st Feb 2003\nReflections on Court case\nIt is one of those really annoying things that you can never replay what has happened.\nThe case yesterday really churned me up with having to make huge moral decisions more or less on the spur of the moment. \nThe complicating factors were that C who was acting on the defence was acting outside the RCVS guidelines. Now I could have pointed out this to the RSPCA lawyer, but as C has already been struck off once the matter could well have turned very badly for him. Even though it is his decision to get involved and a poor one. Then I think that it is not for me to land him in the muck, I could have done so both on the fact he should not have been speaking and also that I could have pointed out that his record is tainted. Why he was being an expert witness in the first place for some one who is not even their client beadsmen (? Beats me)\n. I had reservations about doing the legal work for the RSPCA, and at least we do quite a lot of work for the local inspector.\nSo I decided not to trash C as a witness as I thought that it was not my place to do so, and secondly the repercussions for local vet good will would not stand me in good stead. But I have my doubts as to whether I did the correct thing. There is no right and wrong. The dilemmas are there because you to choose which horn you want to get impaled on.\nSun+\nLambing seems to have started with a vengeance spent most of the morning at the surgery, with land rovers and trailers turning up one after another. With sheep lambing or having peri-natal problems. I do like working out of the surgery at the w/e, as there is far less driving and working is so much easier and you don’t have to keep getting changed in and out of protective clothes.\nSo got two vets work done by just keeping on asking for them to come to the surgery. The farmers don’t mind either as they generally have to put them in a pick up to bring them back to the farm from the field so it is as easy to drive on to the vets rather than hang around waiting for them.\nMon\n Went TT testing at P’s [farm]. I used his son a fair bit during FMD as they went out early on and he always has done a fair amount of contracting on the various farms. He also has a very happy go lucky style in contrast to his Dad who is a bit of a worrier. I quite enjoyed the banter and we could just work away as there is no pressure too get finished, as the numbers are not great. \n Tues\n Went to O’s where they are again having problems getting the cows in calf. The levels of infertility in the restocking herds are horrendous. The sad thing is we seem to be achieving very little in actually improving it. In spite of a lot of investigations and spending money on vaccine and on supplements.\nThe average loss must be 5% at least. It would be interesting to compare the culling rates of the restocking farms. And find out what the restocking losses actually are.\nWeds\nTook the new vet student with me today and let her do the first lambing. At R’s. They like everyone else says they are getting a lot of lambs. These were dead and all tangled up and aborting so they could not get them out. They had quads last night.\nThursday\nWent to S and stitched a teat. This is now a fairly easy operation with the advent of using open crushes and decent epidural anaesthesia. Local is always fairly iffy as many a dentists patient will testify to. It is very satisfying to fix something like that.\nFriday\nSpent the morning doing certs. These are OTM22 certificates which were brought in by MAFF to compensate the farmer for cows that would have been sold for human consumption before the OTM scheme banned them from human consumption. If an animal is not fit to travel then it can be shot on the farm, but to get the compensation they need a vet’s cert to say that it is fit for human consumption, so it can be burnt on the scheme. If it is not fit then they have to pay to have it taken away. So there is a lot of pressure to sign them.\nThe scheme is supposed to be coming to an end this summer but as yet no markets exist for the casualty animals that are fir for human consumption. The whole knackery/ injured animals/ burying of animals scheme is up for grabs and the govt needs to get some sort of scheme up and running. But the govt thinks, maybe rightly that it is an industry problem to get rid of its own waste and it is not up to the taxpayer to get farmers waste problems sorted. Leave it up to the industry/ market to sort it.\nThere is also a suggestion that as TB is not an important zoonosis in the UK anymore then it is a production problem and it should go the same way as sheep scab and be taken off the notifiable disease list and individual farms have to ensure they meet whatever standard that the buyers want to specify. Which is what is happening to a small extent in the dairy industry with buyers specifying farms must meet certain criteria. \n\n\nSaturday 8th Feb 2003\n[wife] is on her course for the w/e so I was doing the run around to squash and football for [sons].\nMon 10th\nB is now renting all the land @ Bush Ghyll head. He has taken it over as a grass letting. Another of the small farms is disappearing. The reality is it has only ever been a small holding but they use to milk 20 odd cows which meant it got the status of a farm on our computer system. The Uncle who use to run it when first arrived was a real character. He was always telling you about when farmers made money after the war. A dozen eggs was 10 shilling. None of your 50ps 10 whole shillings. You could take a girl to the cinema and the Lyons Café and still have change from a pound. Even his free range hens eggs would not buy a cinema ticket for one these days. He should of taken her as he ended up as a bachelor with his nephew taking over the farm.\nTuesday 11th\nThe partners meeting today was trying to address the fact that the mark up on fees is going to be eroded. One of the things that Barnard Castle are doing is putting on their bills, but as yet not charging for things like “Telephone advice” and “Out of hours”. So we are going to be doing the same to try to get across the point that we are providing an all round service that needs to be paid for. But I still think at the end of the day the economics will win. If you cannot provide a service at a profit, you cannot provide a service. So where does that leave us??\nWeds\nHarrison’s are having problems with fertility. Who isn’t? The blood results are showing low levels of copper but I am not convinced that is what it is.\nThey will have to supplement the feed by adding more copper to the feed. The problem with all these investigations is that we are looking for a simple answer when the actual problem is multi factorial. The cows may be short in copper but they are not that low that it is really effecting them. I often wonder with humans if you blood sampled them for lots of different minerals would we find that a percentage of the population is actually below normal for some or several minerals? Maybe our omnivorous diet and the fact we are not producing huge amounts of milk probably does come in to it. We do have a much more varied diet. Most cows are now on complete rations here in the UK so that if the Nutritionist gets it slightly wrong then you will find that the cows will be short. I suppose the other thing that we do always forget is that they are usually working off either a single or 3-4 samples of silage so that there will be a spread of what is actually in the silage and the samples may or may not reflect it.\nThursday\nOn call tonight, and busy which was OK. R was up helping at\nWH house. One of his suckler calves had managed to prolapse its rectum. But it is as wild as thunder so we were all very careful about handling it. I had to dope it any way to operate. But when we put it back it was jumping up the walls which is always a wee bit disconcerting. Limousin stirks could be used for the grand national. D’s brother is not very well at all now. He has cancer and went in for emergency surgery the day I shot all the cows. I had a big row with senior staff at Page St. He had been admitted to the hospital at 2am and was to undergo emergency surgery. That afternoon. I did not want it put on the web site as they were announcing them on Radio Cumbria. I did not want him to be going down for the surgery or just coming out of it and to find out from the radio that I was shooting all his cows. I asked them to put an embargo on it. Of course the vets tried not to let it go out but it did and I was really angry. I wrote some strongly worded letters and never even got a reply. I should have followed it up and held some one to account but I am afraid it all got lost in the passing of time.\nAt least R is a lot better; he had meningitis around the time of FMD. He has had bad heads and depression ever since so, it was good that he is back on farms and has started fencing again.\nFri 14th Valentines\n It is [friend]’s Birthday so we all went around to her house for dinner which was really nice and ended playing darts with the kids. I was pleased to get some darts in the board, as it is a long long time since I have played.\n\n\nSaturday 15th February 2003 \n[son’s] birthday. My little baby son is now 8 years old. It is hard to believe where the time has gone and all the water that has passed under the bridge. \nWent around to [friend’s] at night and sat and eat and put the world to rights. It is good every now and again to wind down and just enjoy talking with out having to think as we know them so well you can just come out with stuff.\nSunday\nMon 17th\nSpent the day TB testing at DL where they have had a NVL. (No visible lesions Reactor) taken. [colleague] did the first test and we are not doing the fat stock on farms that have restocked as they will be going for slaughter fairly soon. So it is deemed pointless and really it is. So spent the day putting big bullocks through the crush and it is a dangerous work for the men who go in amongst them because they are very rarely handled and so don’t take to it very well.\nTuesday\nHad an interesting lambing today. And a consequence of FMD that you forget about. There is an inherited genetic condition of Suffolk’s called Dandy-walker syndrome causing hydrocephalus in the lambs. So both the ewe and tup must carry the gene to produce the deformed lambs with heads too large to get through the mothers pelvis. So it means doing a caesarean on a ewe that can only be used to breed fat lambs from. It has to be put to another breed next year. This years lambs are dead/ going to die. So the economics are useless. Some breeders just shoot them at this point. But he had called us to try to lamb it or caesaer it. As she was a big ewe I eventually managed to lamb it. \nHe was saying though that it takes time to work out whether the stock you have bought will produce the breeding stock that you want. You have to try the different combinations that you have to work out which lines work well together. He reckons on about 4-8 years before he will be back to breeding decent Suffolk sheep in spite of buying in good stock. There is more to breeding than meets the eye.\nWednesday\nRB had a stirk with MCF. Malignant Catarhal Fever. It is a viral disease which is quite often fatal that they catch from sheep. But they have really blue grey eyes from the change in the fluid in the eye and the severe iritis. It must be incredibly painful for them. \nThursday\nDixons TT2 is now clear so they have to have them all tested again in 42 days to clear the farm of restrictions. Un fortunately the vet from the ministry said it would be from the day the cow is taken not today so the whole thing is getting a bit complicated and JD is getting wound up. Understandably so.\nFriday\nTried to sort out some of the Tracings that we are supposed to be doing. There are a lot coming through but the quality of the info is very poor. Tracings are where the farm has sold animals and then subsequently gone down with TB or other notifiable disease. The DEFRA paper chase is so bad that ear tag nos are wrong or a farmer has bought several from the same source and only 1-2 are on the paper work from DEFRA. The thing seems to be falling apart a bit. \nWent and did a single animal up at the mill. He usually buys in stores and fattens them. But As the store trade has gone through the roof he has sold a lot of them on to let some one else fatten or if heifers breed from them. The DEFRA files have him as a fattening unit/ finisher so that they hadn’t bothered to do tracings to him as they would be going for slaughter. But of course he had sold one on that had gone down with TB so they wanted to know what was happening with these now.\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd February 2003\nSaturday\nSunday\nMonday\nTuesday\nHad a funny sensation to day. I suppose it was almost a flash back in some ways. I went to a farm who has fancy pedigree sheep. He has rented land and wanted them added to his holding for the MV Scheme so he needs a Vet Inspection to say that the fields are double fenced so that the sheep do not come in contact to any others. This inspection of fields is pretty meaningless as they know what needs to be done and so they are always up to scratch. The last time I was doing it was for FMD. \nWednesday\nThursday\nFriday\nPacked and got the last few things sorted for the VCF w/e. Got the posters printed and the display boards together, and set off down the motorway to pick up [friend] and spent most of the day travelling it was good talking to him. He retired from practice just before FMD and then spent the first part of his retirement working for DEFRA on the FMD. First at Preston and then at Settle. It seems they were better organised at Preston and he was quite positive about the local teams. I sometimes wonder if I am sill too close to it all and to emotional to take a clear-headed look at what it was really like. It was good to see [friends] at night and get set up for the w/e.\n\n\nSat 1st March (+ Sun) 2003\n\nVCF w/e\nIt is difficult for me to sum up the w/e as I was so much in it and part of it. \nSo I have copied the report from one of the students who wrote a bit for the VCF Magazine.\nVCF Triennial Conference - 28th Feb-2nd March 2003\n \nOn a sunny weekend at the beginning of March, over 70 vets, vet students and families bravely took time out of their busy schedules and gathered expectantly at The Hayes conference centre in Derbyshire for the 2003 VCF conference. We were a mixed bunch, ranging in age from 2 months to 70 (well, nearly), from many different places, denominations and walks of veterinary life, but we all had a common goal in mind: to unite in our desire to love and serve the Lord Jesus Christ in the vocation to which He has called us and to encourage one another to be "salt and light" in the veterinary world.\n Our distinguished speaker for the weekend was Dr. L, a consultant psychiatrist and Christian who drew from his own experience to bring us some thoughtful insights on the subject of "God at Work". He emphasised the fact that although work is a godly activity and that we should view whatever we do "as if working for the Lord" (Colossians 3:18) it must not be forgotten that a balance must be achieved between work, church, family life etc. There was also an opportunity to discuss how we would respond as Christians to a variety of ethical decisions that commonly present themselves in veterinary practice.\n As well as the main talks there was the opportunity to join a variety of seminars on relevant practical subjects. BT, a vet and long-serving missionary in Thailand with OMF, led a most interesting seminar on the joys and challenges of both veterinary and evangelistic work in a different culture. Students and new graduates were well provided for in seminars on "practicing reality" - living out one's faith in the university or veterinary practice environment. M C bravely stepped in at short notice to lead a seminar on business ethics, and vcf secretary generated some thought-provoking discussion on a very relevant subject for many - singleness. \n It was not all work and no play, however, and we were much obliged to the Scottish students for organising the Saturday night ceilidh. Much fun was had by all.\nSo, we all parted company on Sunday feeling refreshed and well-fed both physically and spiritually. How encouraging to be reminded that you are not the only Christian vet out there, and that there are many others who grapple with the same issues you face. The weekend was a time of friendships rekindled and hopefully new ones made, a time of strengthening and a reminder of what is ultimately the most important thing in our busy lives.\n\n\nLeading the seminar on business ethics, or rather winging it was very stressful but very good. Which was very interesting and very challenging. The questions about is it right to make a profit were espy good to work through, but it was incredibly draining. By Sun night I was exhausted drove back to [friend’s] for the night. He live about 20 mins off motorway and it was coming through one of the wee villages I was flashed by a camera and so will have a fine and a speeding ticket to sort out.\nMon\nHad a really nice lie in and then went for a walk with [friend] around from his house across the fields. It was beautiful. Then set off for Preston to visit the friend who is in prison. The road was closed on the way to the M6 so took me ages to find my way to the M6 and then after coming off at Preston to find the way to the prisons. The whole afternoon was very depressing. There is something very intimidating about having to be “processed” for the visit under security cameras and by very polite but uncaring prison officers. The being searched and going past sniffer dogs, and having to give my finger prints which are now on the police computers. [prisoner] was OK but fairly depressed about the outlook. Even now he is worried about how he is going to cope when he comes out. The prison regime is very oppressive, and after being there for an hour and a half I was glad to be going. It is also a bizarre situation where you have to sit there and talk for that length of time. There is also a lot of stuff that he wants to know about the kids. And you just can’t help him. Most of what we know is hearsay and not first and so difficult to sum up. Espy as some of it is not good. They are not coping with the whole situation, and it is basically his fault, or his and their mothers, so he is already feeling guilty enough with out giving him more angst to cope with. But I was very glad to be coming out again into the fresh air.\nSpent the evening at A’s parents evening challenging senior management and giving them a hard time. So quite a day.\nTuesday\nAs usual the disasters after a w/e away continue the new bathroom was totally flooded from a leaking pipe. I felt like wringing his neck. He is the plumber. The water was flowing back through the old kitchen and made a real mess. Managed to get hold of him after leaving more and more urgent phone messages at all his answer phones. He has a mobile, a telephone at his flat where he hardly ever is, and at his girlfriends. So the water was off most of the day until he found the leak and managed to fix it. Again he had to smash tiles and cut holes in the wall to fix it and the place looked a mess. But boy o boy am I fed up with that stupid bathroom. \nWent into work to find no one had done the stuff I had left to be done, and work was really busy. The speeding ticket had landed already, why are other govt depts not as efficient?. So spent the whole day until 6pm running around like a headless chicken and then decided that stuff it: I was going to the gym for the circuits class.\nWeds\nThe disasters continued, with the washing machine giving up the ghost. Which in a house with 3 boys and a vet is a pretty serious problem.\nI also had an argument with one of the other partners saying that if we did not get another vet we would have a rebellion or people going off sick through stress. Me being one of them and I have only been back 2 days. Still haven’t managed to read all of the stuff in my in tray yet let alone deal with it.\nThursday\nFinally convinced [senior colleague?] we needed some help as the Ministry got hold of him and asked if we could do a tracings herd test urgently on one of farms that has not restocked. (The cattle belong to some one else). He then looked at the book and decided we could not. ! Idiot I told him weeks ago, last September I think that this would happen. So spent the day sorting out DC to come. In between vetting. He is not an LVI so have had to pull some wool, and sweet talk them into training him in the baffling ways of DEFRA. But that meant I still have yet to reach the bottom of my in tray. May be there is gold buried at the bottom. \nI think this is one of those days when you look back were probably quite decisive, but accidental days. \nThis was the first time I really thought that I was about to be killed. I could see it happening and there was nothing I could have done differently to prevent it.\nI went on a calving after work about 8pm.\nMet up with the farmers and One went to get water. While the other and I walked into the box to where the cow was. The cow gave me a funny look and I backed off, to behind a pillar in the pen. “ Oh its OK it’s a quiet cow, she’s had 8 calves.” He said. Next time I will listen to my instincts.\nSo we went forward to where she was. Without warning, or snorting or given it a second thought she charged, caught me under the ribs with her head and threw me to the ground. Before I could react she butted me again in the head, snorted kicked me, and then backed off as the farmer started kicking and hitting her. She then came again, bashed me into the corner on my back and kept coming. As her head flew at me I grabbed her nose and swung myself around on her nose. Kicked her with both feet taking all my weight on the one hand while shouting for help from the other guys. One came back with a pitchfork. As I was on the ground I kicked her again. As they came with the fork and let go and scrambled away around the box she still came after me, but I got to the gate past the two brothers who thumped her again and then backed off and slammed the gate shut. I lay in a heap on a bale for 10 minutes breathing heavily, while they asked did I need an ambulance or Doctor. I finally came to enough to splash water on my face and think that there must be an easier way to make a living!! It took all 4 brothers armed with sticks to get her into a crush where I then managed to calve 1 dead twin breach and 1 live twin (just). In her defence the cow had been calving for a while was in pain and had probably just got herself really wound up. But she almost killed me. I then sat having strong tea for quarter of an hour before summoning up the courage to drive home. With hind sight, I should have taken up there offer of a) Getting some one else out to calve the cow. But the girl on 2nd was 5ft nothing and petite, and didn’t think dumping it on her was very fair. The adrenaline was still flowing so I just kept on. b) I should however have let one of them drive me home or probably to casualty. But I felt they would not do anything at the hospital except keep an eye on me. So I just went home to my own bed and asked my wife to wake me up every two hours.\nFriday\nIll with head spinning. Every time I sit down to try and do something my head just goes around. And I feel really tired and jet lagged.\nI think I prefer India to being beaten up by cows. Time for a new job.\nSlept all afternoon, but had friends for dinner it had been arrange months ago so [wife] didn’t cancel, and I kept going but drifted in and out a wee bit!\n\n\nSaturday 8th March\nHad a lie in to 9 o clock Yo!!! Still feeling pretty sore but at least my head is one piece I think!! Showed flat to prospective tenants.\n It is very rare that we don’t have to get up for sthg when we are at home either for work or for Football/squash or something similar. There is another squash competition but they are both later starts for our boys, which is great.\nTook [son] to football and [wife] phoned up to say that the Cs were going to watch the Lord of the rings did I want to go. So went to watch it and swapped younger kids with [wife] taking [son] and their youngsters and I went with the Cs. There are times when mobile phones are really useful to get things arranged. \nThe film was really good but boy was I stiff after sitting down for that length of time. My knee was giving me real gyp.\nSpent evening at Daubes but I faded so [wife] drove home and went to bed.\nSunday 9th\nWent to church in morning and picked up car. [friends] came to lunch which was really good to see them. But as A points out pointedly, they do have 5 boys. So there were 8 kids flying around but I did enjoy seeing them. They are still trying to sort out their diversification plans and hope to have several strings to their bows as well as farming. There is a teachers position at Nelson Thom so that is probably the most reliable form of income for [friend].\nMon 10th\nWent to work but every time I bend over or move to fast my head spins, so just did small animals. I think cats and dogs are a much better idea. But a lot of sympathy from folk at work. Mr H had been in and obviously given a fairly graphic description of what had happened.\nThat and my face is not the most becoming at the moment.\nTues 11th \nBack to work on the farms. I was at Rs for a fertility visit. Even though I know his cows and I am happy with them I did feel very nervous about going any where near them. I have lost a lot of confidence which although I expected it I am still a bit wound up about it.\nThe rest of day was OK, apart from several people whingeing about the current paper work requirements for selling cattle. Mind you when you see what they need to sell a few bullocks or a geld cow, it is probably easier to be an asylum seeker.\nSpent evening at Surgery showing D the ropes. He is the locum who is going to be working with us for the next few weeks. He is going to the ministry at Newcastle tomorrow to do his LVI training. At least that means he can do some of the TB testing and at least give us a break from that. It is these sort of things, managing staff, showing people the ropes, giving them back up and debriefing them that latkes huge amounts of time and energy and yet is never seen as “work” or relevant by a lot of people(The rest of the partnership) and yet in any small business it is the people that make all the difference and if they feel appreciated and supported, and can debrief and be reassured then it makes such a difference to them. And happy staff can deal with situations and people a lot better and easier than stressed ones!!\nWeds 12th\nNext year I am NOT going it is definitely some one else’s turn.\nI speak of the annual training (????) day for senior LVIs. It just drives me up the wall. The morning was spent fairly usefully talking about contingency planning for the next FMD or exotic disease epidemic. The Page St planners seemed fairly well clued in and taking on board a lot of the ideas and problems that had been seen in 2001.\nThe afternoon was then totally depressing.\nTB is now endemic in the south of the county, there was a deer herd that had animals dying and so took them to the VIC lab at Penrith to find out why they had these animals losing weight and dying. They had TB. The ministry had known that there had been reactors all around that area but had never picked up on the fact these deer were here and should have been tested.\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vety Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme surely means that “trace-ability” was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole thing is a useless sham.\nWell the answer is that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo it is not getting done so TB is spreading.\nIDIOTS\n\nThe best systems, the best tools, the best ideas, the best businesses have to work through people.\nSo next year some one else can go and listen to the plans in the sky.\nThis was the meeting where we had an excellent talk on FMD in Feb 2000. Just a pity they did not listen to their own experts.\nThere was also a talk on the new Scrapie scheme where the guy speaking knew less than his audience??? Why???\nI have to go back to the speaker at the VCF w/e who said that when he came out of Medical school he Had spent 6 years being taught to be rational and scientific, where disease was discussed logically and a rational conclusion was sought. He came with the same idea to the National Health Service and struggled. He said”.. we live in a fallen world with fallen institutions, and we have to accept that at times they do not make sense, and that it is not in our power or capabilities to change them. Where we can we change them where we cannot we work within them” \nThursday 13th\nDay off prior to working w/e. \nWent up high Pike with [friend]. Snowed lightly on tops but beautiful, but a wee bit chilly. \nSpent the afternoon getting the stuff sorted for VCF magazine and answering e-mails and putting the details from the w/e in to some sort of order. I was trying also to put some responses down for yesterday but feeling to angry to risk putting it down on paper. I just hope the govt is more in touch with the armed forces on the frontline in Kuwait, than the distant arm of govt in State Vet Service in Cumbria.\nFriday 14th\nAnother day, another test, another dollar.\nSpent morning supervising the locum and trying to get on top of my in tray. The stuff for partners meeting next week to try and get some decisions. And a w/e on call looms when I feel even though I have not been in work or worked too many w/e’s tired and jaded. Being beaten up by the cow probably doesn’t help.\n\n\nSaturday 15th March\n Working the w/e on first for the first time in a long time as I have been keeping the amount I am working back. I am was way ahead in the amount worked so it brings the numbers in line. \nI also need a break as feeling v. tired and fed up. And with not much prospect of rejuvenation. \nThe morning was fairly busy but we all finished by 12 so not that bad. It was funny as Julie who ahs been a receptionist since pre FMD said that she thought it was really busy, but compared to the good old days of 8 years ago, you thought it was a good Sat am if you finished by 2!! So it is surprising how things change and you get use to them.\nThe weather is beautiful with clear skies and frosty spring mornings and dry! The good weather always makes you feel better any way.\nSpent afternoon doing bits and pieces in garden and jobbing around.\nSunday 16th\nBusy in morning but it shows how useful the new building is OK I know its 4 years old but things have never been normal and I still see it as new. There were 2 lambings and a sheep to see and drugs to put out, and because I was at the surgery they just kept on coming down to the surgery to the large animal bay so I did a lot of “work” with no driving and it makes such a difference. What would have taken 3-4 hours was finished in an hour and a half!!\nMissed church and did the same at night with more lambings the sheep are back.\nThe afternoon was spent sorting out after boys.\nThey went down to the pond and because it is all churned up they got their wellies stuck in the mud. So they were cold and wet and covered!! I had to use planks to walk out to them so I did not sink in. I made the mistake of fetching the planks and the spades back before sorting the boys so they had trailed mud all around the house!!!\nGrrrrr….\nBut I should have taken photos.\nIn the midst of this the new vet student Rachael turned up so I could not give full vent to my annoyance!!\nMon 17th\nChaos at work with loads of emergencies and testing so we were all glad of students and D working. More I/R’s found TB testing so it looks like it will continue.\nStill haven’t found time to put pen to paper or type writer to send a letter to Contingency planning group at DEFRA. But hopefully will get on top of it soon.\nTues 18th\nSome days I should have stayed in bed. A bad hair day!! \nStarted off badly with arriving at fertility visit as farmer was emerging from breakfast having been late as his wife was milk recording and he had to calve a cow. So had to sort cows before checking to see in calf. A very rotten lambing. Rotten as in lambs were disintegrating so stank and then more calls. Left for lunch at 12:45 to get half way and the called me back for another lambing. There were 1:30 calls to do and then surgery. Worked at night and I was fed up of being On call stopping me doing stuff so went to gym and was bleeped out to speak to folk 4 times. By now really wound up so went to house group and sat down, chatted and phone went. Sorted that and then a cow caesarean. This was followed by 2 more and 3 hours sleep.\nMust be an easier way to make a living.\nWeds 19th\nFeeling my age, no sleep on the night before you 40th birthday does not do you any good. Missed seeing kids in morning as I was out at caesar. 3 during night On Call.\nThe girls at work had got hold of loads of photos (From my wife) so they were all around the practice. Well I was a cute teenager!!!\nWorked through to lunch as morning was busy and partners meeting.\nThen did a 1:30 AND WENT HOME FOR SLEEP.\nOpened presents with kids at 4 o’clock and went out to D’s for meal at night was good.\nThurs 20th\nReally quiet as no TB testing and lots of vets. Did more lambings and caught up on business side of organisation. Doing rota and organising work.\nReflected on partners meeting and tried to work out whether I am out of sync with the rest of the world and right or out of sync and wrong. Time will tell.\nIraq war started as predicted but seems to have been an opportunistic target i e Saddam himself rather than all out assault. Weird but that is politics. I must ask the history teachers about what caused the failure of the League of Nations, and whether this is going to be similar for UN.\nFri 21st\nDespite being on back up went out for a meal. It was the coffee morning’s xmas bash that is traditionally now held in new year as there is too much else on during Xmas period. Spent quite a while talking to MS about League of Nations and the UN. He is fairly sceptical about the power and influence of UN. Which in his view is more often than not used as a fig leaf for US or USSR ambitions, and is not really the “International Community”. He was interesting to talk to about the history of Iraq.\nPlayed pictionary boys vs. girls which was fun.\n\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd March 2003\n Worked am which was very busy. As it was my 10th day I was feeling a bit drained. Either that or cos of out for meal last night. I will let you decide!! \nThe beautiful weather is continuing, and we went for a lovely walk up above Fellside. The kids loved playing in the streams and the sunshine, which for March is amazing.\nCame back to find that there was a house full of folk to celebrate my 40th birthday which was really nice. Though it was a good thing that the weather was good so the kids could play out side as there were lots of them. Chatted to P, who is always full of energy and enthusiasm. He is a whirlwind of ideas and concepts and philosophy. One of the few people who I can sit and listen to, for hours and hours. He is intelligent and articulate (In 7 languages), and yet always ready to listen to anyone and hear what they have to say, even if it is poorly thought out. And very practical in his approach, and very un materialistic. He is quite happy to give books and ideas to anyone who will read and learn from them.\nSunday 23rd\nThis weather is amazing I still cannot get over it with the Sun blazing down we went to watch [son] play football against Silloth. They won 2-0 . But it was a tight match but very good to watch. Much better than Carlisle, as one spectators put it. Went on to Beckfoot for a picnic, in March??!! The beach was deserted and yet it was warm enough for T shirts and shorts for the boys. |I lay in the sun and slept and counted my many blessings. Came home and planted seeds, lettuce, courgette and sweet pea. Must plant leeks and pumpkins if I get a a chance this week and buy onion sets.\n[wife] spent a while after church talking to B about Low Moor. Difficult.\nMon 24th\nSent my letter to Richard Drummond, who was the RVO at Harrogate and is now head of service delivery. It is always a bit of a conscious effort to take up the cudgels.. against bureaucracy. Especially one like the SVS that has in its culture a tendency to attack those who criticise it. I hope that tomorrow will be quiet as I wish to write another letter to the contingency planning dept. I also want to look at the updated contingency plans and make comments on it. But doing all this does not pay the bills and at the moment when work is so busy I feel it is actually more important to spend time with the kids. So I will sign off and go and watch the “Great Escape” which they bought me for my birthday.\nCopy Of letter to Richard Drummond who wrote the Drummond Report before FMD saying that if there was an outbreak they would not be able to cope!!\n\n21st March, 2003\n\nMr R D Drummond\n[address removed]\n\nDear Richard,\n\nI am writing to express my concern with the current situation with TB.\n\nWe last met at the LVI meeting in Cumbria where we had an excellent talk on Foot and Mouth Disease and about how there was an increased risk becoming apparent. This was in Feb 2000.\n\nAt the meeting this year as well as talks on Contingency planning there was a lot of discussion on the emergence of TB on Cumbrian farms.\n\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vet Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult and time consuming to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme involved in moving cattle is a huge burden on farmers. "Trace-ability" was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole paper exercise is a useless sham.\n\nThe answer was given that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo tracings are not getting done in some divisions. \nSo TB is spreading.\n\nWhether this comes under your remit as Head of Service Delivery I do not know. \nBut I would be grateful if you could forward it to the relevant department or to the minister so that a single enquiry to the cattle movements service at Workington will ensure a comprehensive list of movements on and off a holding since the previous test. \n\nIf we cannot trace from herds with tuberculosis reactors, the ability to track FMD is obviously a non starter.\n\nThank-you in advance for your help with this.\n\nI hope in 3 years time we will not be contemplating what we should have learnt from an LVI meeting in Hadrian House.\n\nYours Sincerely\nB.V.M.&S. M.R.C.V.S.\n\nTues 25th\n[wife]’s cousin from Vancouver arrived and it was really nice to see her again. The Canadians are always so up beat and down to earth. They have a refreshingly positive can do mentality. She and her daughter have been with a school choir singing in parts of Europe and doing the European tour. They are whistle stopping the lakes tomorrow. It was good to catch up with them. [young vet who lost brother?] was with them. My favourite mother in law. She brought me a set of kitchen knives for my birthday present . They are incredibly sharp so I don’t think that letting the kids loose with them will be a good idea. But at least we can pitch some of the old ones, which needed sharpening every time you used them.\n[vet] arrived back from skiing very sun burnt from the sunshine and wind. She has had a really good time though.\nWeds 26th\n A and left as I arrived in to go to YP’s. It was funny to see them very much the young ladies going out. They live at opposite ends of the world and yet the fashion is the same. Little hand bags and scarves as belts!! Globalisation is not just effecting agriculture. They had spent time in Keswick and around the lakes today making use of the gorgeous summer weather. In March?? It really is warm. Hope we are in for a scorcher of a summer holidays.\nThursday 27th\nSpent the quietist night On Call for a long, long time. Nothing !!!\nWhy is it as soon as you employ a locum as an extra pair of hands the work disappears. Still it will given everyone a chance to have a breather. Said good bye to the Canadians and Mother in law. We are heading over to Ireland to see the Irish side of the family at Easter so we will see [vet friend?] again soon. But it was funny saying goodbye all the same. Don’t know why!\nWas doing a herd health plan today for a farm that has 50 dairy cows. He said he did not really know why he is doing it as he is going to give up and go and milk for some one else as it is not viable to make it pay on that sort of small scale.\nFriday 28th\nHaven’t got the workload right at all. I think the sunshine has sent the farmers into the fields to work and the lambs and calves are all arriving un aided in to the sunshine. It is amazing how the good weather makes you feel so much better. So I have booked in extra testing for next week. \nThe only slightly sad thing was talking to one of the farmers who had just started lambing. I was taking out rotten lambs that were aborting 2 weeks earlier. It is his first season actually lambing as he only bought in fat sheep last year. He said that it was at this stage 2 years ago that they came and took all his sheep. He should not have let them do it. It was wrong and he had not put up a fight. He had just gone along with it. He was fairly melancholic about it. I tried to point out that every one had done it, and it had seemed to be best thing to do at the time. I did not think that pointing out I had not been convinced and argued against it, and that only 2 out of 10,000 blood samples of live sheep slaughtered had been exposed to the virus would have helped. They were my granddads flock, he said. Now we have all these problems he says. Looking at the dead lambs I have just pulled out: lying in a heap in the corner of the trailer. You never forget something like that lad he says never.\nThere are a lot of anniversaries to go through and all the farmers are saying the fun has gone out of it. \n\n\nSaturday 29th March\n The beautiful weather is carrying on and [wife] and I had a child free, vet student free afternoon. The sun was out and we went down for a walk along this side of Bassenthwaite Lake. There were lots of daffodils out and a light breeze off the lake. It was beautiful, cool sunny day for walking and very pleasant. We really enjoyed it.\n [son] and A are on the Young Peoples church w/e at Edinburgh and will arrive back exhausted from lack of sleep. The Js had the boys for the afternoon so it was good. Met up with [friends] in the evening and spent the evening putting agriculture to rights. He sells/ manages sales of fertiliser for Norsk Hydro.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday was a bit of a disaster with out A to organise the boys and I hadn’t had time to get them organised. Church was R & J on the beatitudes.\nThen met up with Cs and went up Bow Scale Fell. [son’s friend] and [son] complained the whole way. They were in really bad form and I was fed up with them. \nMonday\nThe work has dried up completely which for this time of year is unheard of. We have employed a locum to try and get the testing done and no work for every one to do. Embarrassingly got it wrong. Usually at this time of year there is no testing and the vets are running around like idiots. Not very good news for us . So wrote letters to [the] head of contingency planning at Page St. To amuse you I have copied it here:\n<<\n\n\n\n\n[name]\nDEFRA\nRm 803A\n1A Page St\nLondon\nSW1P 4PQ\n\nDear [name]\n\nI am writing to thank-you for travelling north to Carlisle to come to speak to the recent LVI meeting at Hadrian House, Carlisle.\n\nI have also been reading the DEFRA contingency plan and a lot of lessons do seem to have been learnt. I appreciate this years deadline has been passed to place it before parliament, but it is a “living” document! \nMy apologies but better late than never!!!\n\n I would like to make a few comments as one of the early TVI volunteers at Carlisle, and as a partner of one of the practices at the eye of the storm.\n\n1. The whole issue of valuation of animals taken as a compulsory purchase by the state for the benefit of the farming community to eradicate disease, has not been addressed. One of the initial problems slowing the slaughter of infected animals was the valuation. My own view then and now is that a simple standard valuation must be applied. It must be high enough to be an incentive to reporting of disease, but too low to make the possibility of disease seem financially attractive. The price for compulsory purchase may be set higher for dangerous contacts or less for affected animals. If there is a simple standard value, then the diagnosing vet counts the number of bovines and shoots them. The farmer knows in advance what compensation is going to be paid, and individual animals of high merit could be insured for whatever sum the farmer is willing to pay premiums for. This may be an unpopular nettle but it needs to be grasped, even though I am sure my clients would disapprove of it.\n\tThe current tuberculosis problems are again high lighting the problems in this area. There should be a standard procedure and valuation for all notifiable diseases, and the values based on the last mid market rate. There are apocryphal stories that the valuers are still running the system for their clients the farmers, not DEFRA.\n\n2. The second issue that has not been addressed is the tracings system.\nWith the advent of the British Cattle Movement Services, I was under the impression that “traceability” was a central part of government policy. It was with some incredulity that in response to questioning at the LVI meeting we were told that BCMS cannot give a list of movements on or off a holding. So tracings for TB are still being done by a DEFRA vet trawling through a farmers movement book. Why? If the political will was there, at the touch of a bottom the data base should be able to generate a list of animals moved in the past 6 months, which markets they have been through, and which holdings they have been through. If this cannot be done for TB, you can forget trying to do it for FMD or other fast contagious disease.\nThere is still a confusion over the database which should be based on holding numbers. Several farmers have multiple holding numbers, several have a single holding number and multiple sites. High genetic merit animals may have several owners, a single holding may have stock from several different farms. The rules for CPH numbers need to be re-evaluated centrally. If a data base is to be of use it must be actively managed and updated. That can only be done at a local level.\n\n3. Disposal\nI know that this has been looked at, but farm sizes are continuing to grow at an ever more rapid rate. The average size of dairy farms in this area has grown by 20 cows since FMD. This means there will be a bigger disposal problem as individual farms will have more and more stock.\n\n4.” The local office should have stores to equip 20 TVIs at 24hours notice.”\nWe touched on this point at the meeting was the need for sudden recruitment of TVI or other veterinary staff. While the SVS can second small numbers of vets for short term availability, there was a reluctance by some DVMs to second staff who may yet be required in their own areas. Local LVIs can provide veterinary cover but the whole structure of large animal practice is in flux, and it may or may not be possible to provide veterinary inspections on an allocated, on a temporary or part time basis. The pay and conditions for such assistance need addressed and agreed. The other part of this is orientation/ training at the local levels. This by the end of the outbreak at Carlisle, was quite impressive. However has that information been put together centrally? Should there be a central trainer who trains designated trainers for each SVS office/DECC?\nSimilarly with lay blood samplers/ vaccinators. Again local practices could provide nominated nurses/ lay staff for training. During the out break here AI personnel were used very effectively for blood sampling and other procedures. Is this again something for the local plan? But if the cost for training AI staff in blood sampling was met centrally it would encourage a register of trained personnel to be maintained locally.\n The Cumbria County Council Inquiry recommends the use of its emergency centre as a hub for multi agency response to any disease out break. Should there be some joined up government so that each county council as part of its contingency plan provides for an admin back up for any emergency, civil disaster, terrorist incident?? And do the local plans make use of this??\n\nMy main concern, however, is that when I asked at that meeting had the two way communications between Page St and Carlisle been sorted out…..it was met by nervous laughter.\n\nI would like to emphasise that Page St did not know what was going on in the field during FMD outbreak. There was a communication barrier between the vets in the field and Carlisle management, and a huge gulf between Carlisle and Page Street. \n\nI would plead that this is addressed as the culture identified by Iain Anderson still seems to prevail. I quote “a culture predisposed to decision making by committee with an associated fear of personal risk taking. Such a climate does not encourage creative initiative. It inhibits adaptive behaviour, and organisational learning which over time lowers the quality of the decisions taken. It seems to me that a reappraisal of prevailing attitudes and behaviours within the Department would be beneficial.” *\n\nIt may be outside your remit but the Northumberland report with its flow charts and recommendations, actually lists lessons to be learned in Dec 1969. The one about the SVS who fared so poorly in FMD 2001 states… “We have considered the recruitment problem of the State Veterinary Service…the reasons maybe the low initial salary or in part the to the nature of the duties within the Service…..We consider it important for future development that the Ministry of Agriculture should attract a greater number of good young graduates willing to make a career in the service.”#\n\nAt the end of any plan are the people who are going to implement it. They need well managed, well led and given the resources to carry out the task. They need to have confidence in both the political and civil service leadership. There will need to be a risk management of tasks for financial reasons, resource reasons and for the wider rural economy. This requires flexible decision makers who are prepared to take risks and stick their head above the collective parapet.\n\n\nI hope that this provides a few more thoughts for you to work on.\n\nYours Sincerely\n\n\nRefs:\n*FMD 2001 Lessons Learned Enquiry. Forward By Chairman Iain Anderson P7.\n#Northumberland Report presented to Parliament Dec 69. Part 2 Section 47.\n>>>\nShe spoke at the last LVI meeting and as usual the plans sound good but where reality hits is in the delivery/.\n\nTuesday \nDid some small animal work and more testing. Tues evening always seems a rush.\nWent to gym and then on to N’s for the New Frontiers church meeting which was excellent. \nWeds\nManaged some fertility work in the morning and spent the rest of the day bringing the practice database up to date. It has been let go since foot and mouth as it tell us how much stock each farm has. The numbers have been all over the place as people have been restocking and changing the direction their businesses are going. Some moving out, some moving up in numbers and some going from dairy to Beef or sheep.\nThe most interesting thing was the fact that a lot of farms that had restocked with adult animals have dropped by 5-10 cows since they restocked as older cows are lost, or ill cows go, but there are not the young stock replacements coming through to replace them.\nThe actual figures for dairy farms restocking are: Not yet entered in the computer. I was hoping to have them but will get them.\nThursday\nDid some small animals and some OTM22 but it still incredibly quiet. Consequently I have booked in a lot more work for the next few weeks. So I hope I don’t get it wrong the other way. Set up Anne a vet student for her project, on comparing fertility pre and post FMD. \nFinished off updating the database figures so they will hopefully get entered over next few days and we can do some comparisons.\nMarch figures look Ok but the long term out look is not so good. The govt is doing a committee looking at Farm animal vet practice. The Lakeland BVA have asked for comments.\n\nEFRACOM Inquiry into vets and veterinary services\n(EFRACOM is a DEFRA committee)\nTerms of reference are to "...look at the provision of farm veterinary\nservices in England and Wales. In particular it will look at\n1.\twhat impact current levels of farm income are having on the usage of\nveterinary services, and in turn what effect any reduction in the usage of\nsuch services is having on the number of practices dealing with large\nanimals;\n2.\twhat effect any reduction in the usage of veterinary services and a\nshortage of large animal vets is having on health and welfare standards and\non the effectiveness of surveillance for animal diseases;\n3.\twhether the requirements placed on farmers by Government including those\nin the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy are realisable in such\ncircumstances; and\n4.\twhat is the impact on the work of the State Veterinary Service."\ncomments by 12 April please\n\nThe day ended with the reading of a TB test on a farm that was hoping to become clear after going down when it first restocked 18months ago. 1 reactor and 1 I/R on normal interpretation. They will probably take both on severe interpretation.\nThe government always looks as though problems are dealt with in isolation. \nThe DEFRA vet who looks after our practice is not dealing with this case as his daughter is married to her brother. The farming community is very incestuous.\nFriday\nWork desperately quiet so I organised more testing to do. I hope I haven’t over booked the work. DEFRA vets at Carlisle are still learning the ropes when it come s to TB as it has been so rare in this part of the world. So a few of the allocations have been wrong. So I am having to go back and do extra animals so that set can be signed off.\nThe school held a curry evening tonight which for a Cumbrian village school is very cosmopolitan. There is an extended family of three Pakistani families and they cooked. <Though for the children there was also a bangers and chips option> It was quite a nice time, though [wife] was on her next level counselling course so I ended up just with kids but it was good to spend time with them. I have enjoyed not working many w/e’s recently; it kind of gives you your life back; that and not doing much at work.\n\n\nSaturday 5th April 2003\n[wife] was at her level 2 course counselling so I had the kids for the w/e. Took [son] to squash. Went into town for some bits and pieces. And then I chatted to I while we waited for T and [son] to finish.\nThen took all the kids into town. We are having a Mothers Day tomorrow to make up for the fact L & A were away for the w/e last week. The kids have bought presents and made cards which was nice. \nThe Cs and [friend] came for lunch and then spent a very muddy afternoon by the pond playing and building dens and generally making a mess and having fun. [son] even decided showers were in order when he came back. That shows you how dirty they were as he is Mr Allergic to water.\nI made a fondue for tea with apple juice as the kids don’t like the kick of the wine. It was a great success and did taste rather good even if I do say so myself!!\nSunday\n I went to church on my own as [wife] was heading out again after an early lunch. The talk was on God’s leading which is always relevant. The kids were great fun on the way back and full of craic. They had a return trip to the Cs as they were too late to find a sky TV for THE match. Carlisle lost as usual, but it is not every week they lose at the millennium stadium!!\nI picked the kids up from the Cs and put all their bikes on the back of the car. Went to say good bye to Cs. In the meantime three of their boys were hiding in the boot of the car so they let me drive out with them before the giggles and laughter gave the game away. So it caused much merriment all round. \nMet up with the lads Sunday night, felt really sorry for one guy who is having real problems getting access to his 7 year old as his ex wife is putting a lot of –ve input into the wee one. He can go down the legal route but will be expensive and probably counter productive. As she is not wanting to negotiate or look at what is best for the wee girl it seems a real mess.\nMonday\nIn spite of 4 tests the work is not there….\nI spent the day testing though. \nIt is really quite amusing as I know the guy’s sister quite well and I always make sure I tell her how much the good lunch is appreciated. So there builds up a rivalry between them as to who can provide the vet with the best food. I am afraid I consciously flame the rivalry, in spite of it not doing my waistline any good. Trying to concentrate after a three course lunch on a boring job is not easy. You just have to think about coffee time!! And more cakes and tray bakes. All of them distinctly unhealthy with the aim of feeding out door manual labour.\nTuesday\nHad a bad night as my hand was caught in the crush yesterday by a stirk throwing its head and it bent the finger back. It seemed OK but is now throbbing like mad. Plenty of aspirin and corticosteroids.\nDid some ferty and then saw another LDA. The cows seem to be having a real problem with the feed this spring as we have seen 3-4 times the normal number. Went running with A as my finger meant I could not go to gym to work machines.\nWeds\nThe speed cameras have arrived on the top road, and unfortunately I was going too fast by the time I saw it. So I will probably have another 3 points on my licence. They have been building pads on the side of the road all along the A595 as it has a really bad record for car accidents. The numbers killed continues to go up. The speed cameras are in a van, which can move around and hence trap the speeders. It is called Casualty Reduction Unit… a bit of a pointed message even if you did slow down for them!!\nWork is slow again today with no TB testing on mid week days.\nIt is my brother’s birthday in NZ and he sent a letter to say he is going to be a Dad again so the trip to come across at Xmas is off. He is wanting us to all go there. Hm maybe.\nThursday\nI has had 2 reactors and 4 I/rs today so the future is not looking good for him as it looks like there will be TB there. He has had real problems since the herd restocked with lung worm< energy problems in the silage and atrocious fertility.\nHe is going to have to go and buy another 30 odd replacements at £800 to replace those that he has lost through ill health and fertility. Makes the compensation payments seem pretty small. That’s £24K he has lost out on already and his own heifers are only coming up to be served. \nWork is busy and I wonder if the spring rush is coming. \nI was supposed to be at the school parents evening but got called out. Which was pretty irritating. I hate the fact that you are just so unreliable when you are on call.\nFriday\nAnother TB testing day so busy.\nAll together not a good day. The competition report is out and is fairly damning as expected so the pressure on drug margins is going to continue and the old fashioned way of providing a complete service will be going out the window. We will have to charge for the out of hours and On Call, the telephone advice and try to make it pay. But the whole economics of going out to see a single ill animal will be gone, the clinical skills of veterinarians will be gone. All academic as the cost for diagnosing a single animal in the new era will be too much. So the diagnosis will all be done by post mortem of herd problems. But if you have large herds the man power will not be there to look after the individual ill animal.\nSad depressing day but I am off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 12th April 2003\nWoke up early and got up even though it is my day for a lie in. I think I am particularly wound up. It all ways takes me at least one day to wind down from work. So I am tired and yet not feeling able to rest. Took [son] to football and [other son?] to buy anew bike. He was so excited. It is his birthday coming up and he has out grown his old one so it will be good for him. The kids spend ages flying around the yard on bikes and up and down the field when the grass is short. They have a real ball here it is a great place to grow up, as they have so much freedom to play and play and play.\nMy finger that was caught TB testing started throbbing again this afternoon, so as it had improved and then got worse I decided I had to get it X rayed so I spent the afternoon in casualty, waiting to get x rayed and then waiting for another hour before being told it was not broken. A five minute consultation that took me almost 2 hours.\n[friends] were up for the w/e. [more friends] are at Capernwray Bible college for an Easter Youth thing so they came on up . So it was good to catch up. \nSunday\nCooked lunch for everyone and then went to communion. It was dire and reminded me why I don’t usually bother.\nSpent the afternoon putting onions in and tidying in the garden. It is incredibly dry and warm. Amazing really. The 6 kids spent the whole afternoon messing around at the pond and were disgusting with mud everywhere and trailed all up the yard, and wellies abandoned everywhere.\nChurch was DM speaking and then the YPs came back to ours afterwards. Mind you I think I had had enough kids for the time being but I was ok. \nMonday\nBad haircut day. As there is only one day we can test this week I booked in fair amount, which would have been tight but AW was off ill so we were too tight, so a few ops have been put off until tomorrow. D has a S African vet friend visiting, so with him and the vet student the house is still full. I however am knackered and not feeling sociable. Had a horrendous calving. It is not often I cannot calve a cow but I am afraid after an hour, I gave up and caesared it. The calf was dead, and rotten so whether she will do I don’t know. I did not want to caesarean but that is life. It was either that or the farmer pay £60 to get some one to take it away after I euthed it. \nTuesday\nWe are in the period of anniversaries. It is 2 years since the Ls went down. I was at a farm which did not get FMD, and his uncles did. He was saying what a sad day it was. So his uncles must be feeling it more. The beautiful spring weather with the grass growing in spite of the frosts definitely puts a bounce in to your step. On days like this I think that it is an excellent life. Wandering around the countryside and enjoying the scenery, the farms, the animals and the farmers. Beats working in a factory any way.\nWent to the gym and felt a lot better for it. Exercise is a great way of getting a buzz. But you have to be not too tired to a) get there and b) enjoy it.\nI have gone often because I feel I should and just felt like a steam roller had run over me, and its taken a day or two to recover. Balance in all things!!!\nWeds\nThe Commission report came out today.\nDifficult to believe that they will be able to implement it. \nBut having lived through the FMD. ….There were quite a few things I thought that they would not be able to implement but they did.\nWe will have to :<if the Minister decides. And since it is DTI not DEFRA I think that the implementation may be effective.>\nProvide prescriptions free of charge\nProvide our clients with a list of pharmacies, agricultural suppliers and other vets, and web sites that will meet those prescriptions.\nThe cost of the most commonly prescribed medicines in the previous quarter.\nThe cross subsidy of professional fees by pharmaceuticals will not be allowed. And how will the pharmacist make his money??\n\nThe other comment which did irk me some what was that the provision of 24 hour cover does not seem that onerous……I do not often swear but really.\nVery depressed.\nBut [daughter] came on a caesaer with me as I was On call tonight. It is really nice working from home and being able to take them with me. It is a very healthy thing to do. She is growing up and is very much the young lady. The farmers wife is the dental receptionist and of course said hello A. She was thrown as of course being out of context she could not figure how the farmers wife knew who she was!!\nThursday\nGood Friday\nIt is [son’s] B’day today and the day started out great for him. I was on duty and he arrived in our bedroom at 7am with the other 2 boys to start on the birthday celebrations. Our family tradition is that they have breakfast in bed in our bed. Don’t know why but that is what happens. The others all brought cards and presents in. The phone went and it was a lambing, so Tim decided he would come and see the lambs being born. So he was thrilled!!\nWe opened the presents later on. Which included a new boiler suit which really thrilled him. It is amazing what kids think of as their best present!!\nI never really like working Good Friday. I always think one year I will be off and go to one of the contemplative services. Hebron being low church never really does anything like that which is a real shame. Easter is when I think the cathedrals, old country churches, and the church architecture can really be helpful in stopping and praying and helping to consider what Jesus did on the cross.\nFinished work and went up to the [friends]. They were both home and it was really good to see them. Played rounders and had a barbeque which was really nice.\nJames was in really good form as he was enjoying being back away from London where he has just started work as a high flying lawyer. He is not enjoying London very much. He is a hills and countryside lad. His girlfriend was also there so was quite a good craic. I didn’t really want to come home but was so knackered that it was probably just as well the kids were with us and it was not a too late a night.\n\n\nSaturday 19th April 2004 \nSpent most of the day either catching up on sleep or on the day to day things that seem to have been put to one side for a while. There was also the preparations for the service tomorrow we are taking the Easter Sunday morning service which is one of those night mare services where everyone comes. The age range is from 0 to 100 and everyone has different expectations. I should explain that the normal Sunday services are very different. There is the “Family focus “ which is lively and very informal aimed at those with young children, who go to Sunday school. There is then teaching for parents/adults. There is always a lot of noise, children running around, babies crying and shakers and children’s songs. The Communion service that follows is very traditional. Silence and solemnity rules. All the older generation go, and it is a very different service! So we are going to be combining the two. Oil and water? A lot of prayer has gone in to this one!\nSunday\n[wife] got up at 6 am to go to the sunrise service at the crematorium. \nShe said she needed some input before the Easter service we are leading. It is a service organised by St James, parish church but all the Carlisle churches are asked to take part. Christiana had asked to go, so [wife] went with her and it was really good.\nChrist is risen, he is risen indeed.\nThe sermon was by the Archdeacon from the cathedral who said that being a good Anglican he wanted some liturgy through his sermon. So every time he said are you dead the congregation had to reply, No alive in Christ.!! At which point he would sound a hooter!!\nThe service at Hebron went very well…\nOh ye of little faith. I should pray more and worry less.\n\nI have included our outline below and I have put in additional comments\nIn blue.\nEaster Sunday Service\n\nWelcome to Hebron Evangelical church this Easter Sunday morning when we are celebrating Jesus is alive. Our opening hymn is our declaration that Jesus is alive he has risen from the dead.\n\nOpening Hymn: We believe in God the Father\nWelcome; Intro me and welcome team. \nThis morning the service is in a different order from usual. We are going to remember what Jesus has done for us on the cross and Bruce Beattie, one of our elders is going to help explain what the bread and wine mean to us as some of the children may not have been here for a communion service before .\n\nThen after taking communion we are going to celebrate Jesus’ resurrection … with reading, singing and sharing. The resurrection is the central part to our faith. Who knows what that long word “resurrection” means?? \n\nThe answers from the kids were quite amusing but we got there in the end!!\nAt the end of the service there will be the offering, an opportunity to give our money as well as ourselves to the living God.\n\nIf during the service the young children get fed up there is a place at the back where they can do some making things…It isn’t easy to sit still when you are little or be quiet! So please don’t worry about the little ones being a distraction. I often wonder what it was like when Jesus fed the 5000plus crowd. Do you think the children all sat neat and quiet in rows. I don’t think so!! \nWe are pleased to see them and hear them. This is a time of family worship from the youngest to the oldest. \n\nReading: Psalm 67 \nI had this up on a power point and we read it together.\nMay God be gracious to us and bless us and make His face shine upon us, that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nMay the nations be glad and sing for joy, for You rule the people justly and guide the nations of the earth.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nThen the land will yield its harvest, and God, our God, will bless us. \nGod will bless us, and all the ends of the earth will fear Him.\nPsalm 67\n\n\nPrayer M\nAs we sing this next hymn it would be good if the children came to sit at the front so that B can see you all when he talks to you.\n\n\nHymn: When I survey the wondrous cross.\n\nCommunion: B \n\nB gave an excellent talk about remembering. He included a diary and a kitchen timer which he set to go of at the carefully timed point in his little bit. He then used Smarties to go through the Easter story and the different colours. I wish I had it written down.\nWe then had communion and he had smarties for the kids so that they could remember about the Easter story while the adults took communion and remembered Christ’s death and resurrection. Forgiveness is a wonderful thing.\nWe have just been remembering what Jesus did for us on the cross. He died for us…what incredible love. But thankfully the gospel doesn’t end there . [son], A and Cerise are going to read on.\n\nReading: [?] and Luke 24 vs. 1-12\n\nThey did a brilliant dramatic reading.\n\nAn empty tomb. Lets sing ”God’s not dead .He is alive”.(sing it twice and use the instruments at the front to make a joyful noise)\n\nWe want you to have a little taste of what it was like to be around that day and so let’s listen in to Mary Magdalene chatting on the phone to …well you listen and see who she is talking to.\n[wife] did a sketch about Mary talking on the phone to Marta having met the risen Jesus!! She was very good. Really gave the facts to a contemporary feel\n\nHymn : Led like a lamb to the slaughter…\nin the second verse would children come to help. \nWe have verses to give out to the big people and I’d like you to help give them out making sure all the big people get one . For the children who may not be able to read yet we have some coloured stones to remind you of a huge stone that was rolled away when Jesus rose from the dead. You can keep it in your pocket or somewhere special to remind you that Jesus is alive and He wants to be with you where ever you go.\n\nA had made up tiny scrolls with verses about the resurrection which the kids all gave out. It kept the wee ones busy and also gave everyone a verse to think about.\n\nIsn’t it wonderful to know that we are singing “he’s alive, he has risen” and all over the world the church is singing the same message. In Revelation we get a little glimpse into what it will be like in heaven with a new song being sung to Jesus Christ. Close your eyes and listen to what it says:\n\nRev 5 vs. 9-11 \n\nWe have the privilege in Hebron of having a few representatives of different language, people and nation here this morning. Let us listen to them.\n“Christ is Risen” in different languages and prayer.\n\nWe then had one family say it in Arabic, another in German. There is a Philippino girl who said it in her language and some one else in Spanish. It was magical.\n\nIntroduce \nLord we lift your name on high\nSung at Mizpah orphanage with children some of whom had just heard the name Jesus for the first time at Christmas. See picture.\nWe need helpers to do the actions to this song…\n\n\n\nWe are thankful that Jesus is alive and so He speaks ,guides , comforts and forgives us for all the sin , the mess we make. It is not only the Mary’s and the Peters and the Thomases that have met with the risen Lord…we each have a story to tell of walking with the risen Lord. As you listen to some people here sharing a bit of their story I wonder what you would have to share…take the opportunity to day to share what God is teaching you, where he is changing you…don’t hide behind the weather or holidays…share your journey to encourage real fellowship.\n: \nEnd in prayer over top.\n\n\n\nSong and offering. This is your opportunity to offer yourself afresh to the risen Lord.\nAn old song but a powerful one. To make this song personal to you choose the verse where you will stand as a sign of your offering to the Lord. Band will play it through twice as collection taken up and then we sing it.\nIf you want to sit until last verse when we sing take my love then we will all stand for last verse.\n\nTake my life \n\nThis song has lots of parts about asking God to take and use different parts of our lives. Songs/ intellect/strength/money etc. And by asking people to stand at the point they wanted it really meant they stopped and offered part of them selves back to God in response to the resurrection.\n\nFinish with Thine be the glory.\n\n The service went really well people came and said how well it had gone.\n\n[wife] spent afternoon packing and feeling washed out!! Giving out is tiring but the satisfaction is huge.\n\nMon\nUp early to catch the boat to N Ireland. The boat was not too busy which was good. Spent the boat ride filling in my thoughts on the future of Large Animal practice for the EFRACOM enquiry\nBought Lord of rings part 2 The Two Towers as I am wanting to re read it having seen the movie. So that is my holiday reading sorted out.\nHad a chance when we got there to sit down with [wife]’s parents and talk through our future, which was good as Campbell usually disappears out but a sit is a Bank holiday he didn’t. They were fairly up beat about it which was good so I was pleased.\nSpent the evening with C and the cousins which was really good. Had a barbecue and chilled out. C was not really surprised at the news as agriculture in NI is going through a bad time as well, it is behind the UK and there are a lot of small uneconomic family farms and so a lot of consolidation is going on and farmers selling up.\nTuesday\nSpent the morning playing Squash with the boys which w as great fun. Spent the afternoon in the garden trying to tidy it up.\nWent out for dinner with our bridesmaid who has also just handed in her notice/ or rather accepted a redundancy package. It must be catching. It was great to see her and also to be out in Belfast which is such a cosmopolitan city these days with different languages, cultures and nationalities all mixing in the downtown area. A big change.\nWeds\nWent to the new exhibition centre in the docks at Belfast. It has a multiplex and a science exhibition as well as shops and restaurants and so on.\nIt was amazing the kids could have spent all day playing on the exhibits and it was very well done so that you came away having learnt quite a lot.\n[wife] now believes I cannot do colours as I am easily confused by them. There was one exhibit where words in one coloured spelt the name of another colour i.e. the word was spelt y-e-l-l-o-w but it was red in colour. You then had to read the words or say the colours and I just could not do it, my brain ended up really confused.!!\nBought flowers and stuff for the Garden, and did the boxes for Gran\n Went out to dinner at RP she is a widow who is [wife]’s parents age but is so much fun. She loves giving dinner parties and having folk of all ages around. She gave me some useful addresses. There are lots of plans for [wife]’s parents Golden Wedding.\nThursday \nThe day of the big Photo shoot. [wife]’s brother’s father in law is a photographer and while we were all together [wife] mum wanted a photo of all the family together. So we spent an hour and a half getting positioned and photographed. 7 kids and 7 adults and a very pernickety photographer. \nTravel back on the boat was OK but came back to find that everything had fused and that the phone was not working . So fixed the fuses which are all trips thank goodness and got the electrics going.\nThe phone could not fix, but did not worry.\nWhile we were away there had been a lightning strike on to the phone line up the road and it had fried all the cables.\nOne of the neighbours had been in her kitchen and the phone had exploded and jumped off the wall. It has left scorch marks down the wall. I am just glad that there was no one on the phone at the time.\nThe other unfortunate thing is that the computer was attached and is dead as a dodo.\nFriday\nBack to maelstrom\nI was really relaxed going back in to work and it lasted for may be half an hour. No one had picked up on any of my admin things while I had been away. In spite of asking people to do so.\nThis meant I had to start and get things organised for Testing, the Rota \nand Nestles. As well as to try and do some work. My in tray is a mess but never mind.\n I also had to complete the report for EFRACOM, as the closing date is today, I hope not by 5pm!! The report was actually finished by 10:15 and was e-mailed off. I would like to have polished it a bit more but the schedule today was not conducive.\nDuring the evening when I was supposed to be writing it I had a casaers and a foal trying to die at [farm]. They are not having much luck as they have had horrendous problems with restocking. They are also under TB2.\n\nI enclose a copy of the report to EFRACOM\n\n\n\n\nThe Right Hon. Michael Jack, MP\nEnvironment, Food and Rural Affairs\nChairman of the Sub Committee ”Vets and Veterinary Services”\n\nA Submission \n\nSummary\nThis is a timely review of farm veterinary services. I would submit that the current trends in veterinary practice are likely to accelerate rapidly in response both to present levels of farm income and imminent changes in veterinary practice.\n\nIn this submission I have briefly covered the following areas:\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed.\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services.\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\nThe impact on the SVS.\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\n\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed \n\nThe income for rural farm veterinary practice that provides the majority of veterinary services to the agricultural industry has traditionally come from 5 major areas. \nClinical services.(Examining and diagnosing individual animals, calvings, lambings individual surgery, routine fertility, dehorning and castrating. Traditional “On Farm” Professional Fee work)\nLVI income from DEFRA/MAFF in the eradication of Notifiable Disease: Tuberculosis, Brucellosis, Anthrax, etc. Many practices also were involved with Meat Hygiene and inspections at abattoirs.\n The dispensing of pharmaceuticals.\nThe provision of veterinary advice on farm management and welfare.\nThe majority of veterinary partnerships are mixed practices: a consideration must be given to the fact that small animal work makes up a variable proportion of the work and income to veterinary practice.\n\nIt is my opinion that clinical farm animal practice, the examining and diagnosing of individual animals is already uneconomic for both the veterinary surgeon and the farmer. It is only happening because of the cross subsidy of the professional fees by other income, and because of the good will of most farmers to give animals a chance.\nAs the harsh economics are coming home to vets and farmers this is rapidly becoming; with James Herriot, a part of rural history.\n\n\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services\n\nWhat are the current trends within agriculture and veterinary practice and what effects will that have?\n\nBoth in agriculture and farm veterinary practice there are trends that can be identified, how fast, how far these trends will go is difficult to predict, but my own experience is that change when it comes, change is often slow at starting but then dramatic in its speed. The effect of decoupling and other EU decisions on agriculture are unknown but the current trends are likely to continue.\nIn agriculture farm size has to continue to grow. As farms make less and less per animal, they have to spread costs over larger and larger numbers. The individual value of each animal continues to drop in real terms, efficiency and mechanisation continues to increase. Chicken farms are now routinely 100,000 animals plus. Since foot and mouth disease the average dairy herd size has increased from 90 to 114 an increase of 20% which talking to many dairy farmers is only going to increase as more herds are going to be 300+ animals. These increases are usually with out an increase in labour on the farms. This means the care of individual animals is likely to be less important, but the care of the overall heath of the herd much more. \n\nIn veterinary practice the major changes are likely to be from the Competition Inquiry in to the cost of pharmaceuticals. The subsidy of professional fees by sales of pharmaceuticals has been an increasing trend since the late 60’s. Then professional fees were subsidised by the large-scale eradication schemes by MAFF who paid very good fees to get the vets on the farm and help eradicate the Notifiable Diseases. \nThe competition inquiry is recommending that pharmaceuticals be dispensed by pharmacies as well and that prescriptions be provided free of charge. Which private organisation is going to provide a service free of charge has yet to be ascertained, but the current level of income derived from pharmaceuticals is not going to be sustained. This inevitably means that the cross subsidy will disappear and farmers will have to pay the full cost of veterinary clinical service, and it will not be economic to do so.\n\nAt the same time the costs of providing veterinary services continues to rise.\nThe cost of veterinary time is continuing to rise. Students are now graduating with debts of £15-20K because of the loss of grants and payment of tuition fees. This means there will need to be a further raise of £2-3K per annum to pay veterinary assistants to match the status quo. Farm animal practice already pays assistants less than companion animal practices despite offering a less favourable “On Call” rota.\n In the short term following FMD many practice principals worked additional On Call to make the rota acceptable to attract assistant vets. Where this is viable in the short term, in the long term it is not acceptable. As partners profit becomes commensurate to the salaries they have to pay to veterinary assistants they will be aiming to increase charges for clinical work or look to other avenues for decreasing costs/increasing turnover.\n\n Providing an out of hours emergency cover is not economically practical for vets. (except in the big cities where practices join together to provide an emergency clinic.) Currently there is an RCVS obligation to provide 24hour cover, but the RCVS is not involved in the commercial pricing of services. \nAs the value of individual animals continues to drop in real terms then the cost of treating individual animals becomes less and less viable. Where there is no cross subsidy for out of hours work it will become untenable.\n\nAs many mixed practices have a dwindling farm animal side that is less financially attractive, many will decide to concentrate on the companion animal side of the business.\n\n\nIn a lot of mixed practices, it is a senior partner who will do the largest amount of the farm work. This means the younger vets will not have the case load to become experienced and confident in farm work. There is a cohort of practitioners in this situation heading towards retirement in the near future, will the practice continue to be involved with farm work?\n As fewer practices become involved with farm veterinary services, the cost of travel to the more distant farms has to rise beyond the already accelerated rate.\n\nAll this means that farm veterinary practices will lose income from clinical services and from pharmaceutical sales. They will have to move more towards the pig/ poultry model of providing veterinary advice and charging for it. \n\nVets have already moved out of nutritional advice leaving this field to nutritional experts. The reason for this is that most nutritional advice is provided “free” to the farmer by the firms who then put that cost into the feeds that are sold to the farmers. This cross subsidy of fees by sales is apparently acceptable where the subsidy of veterinary fees by pharmaceuticals is not.\nThis model is beginning to appear in other areas. Whereas vets provided most mastitis control, the dairies who buy the milk are now providing “free” or subsidised advice to farms on cell counts and high bacterial counts. (Including bacteriology with a variable back up and quality of advice)\nNMR and other recording agencies are already offering fertility information on their recording products, and it is a short step to actually providing the fertility work.\n \n\nI believe that these factors will contribute to a dramatic decrease in farm animal clinicians in the next 5 years.\n\n\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\n\nAs the number of clinical veterinarians reduces then there will be much less on farm surveillance. \nThis means that outbreaks of novel or unusual diseases is much less likely to be noticed or recorded at an early stage.\n The routine care for the animals will be done by stockmen under veterinary guidance. \nThe guidance will probably be by quarterly or 6 monthly or annual visits and by herd health plans.\n Individual animals are much more likely to be treated ad hoc by the stockmen, rather than by veterinary surgeons. The quality of this treatment in some cases may be adequate but in most will be poor. The significance of symptoms or illness may not be appreciated. Diagnosis and treatment seen as a high cost and used as a last resort. Any outbreak of disease will be well developed and losses occurring before veterinary advice is sought. \n\nAs herd sizes increase and labour decreases, then the attention to individual animals must reduce, with a drop in welfare standards. \nIll animals are likely to be culled quicker, as limited manpower becomes more important. The use of vets as additional expert man power for calvings/ lambings will be seen as too expensive.\n\nThe demands of the system must mean that high heath status is important, with routine vaccination and herd health policies being put in place. \nDEFRA seems to set high regard to laboratory diagnosis results as a form of surveillance. Most of the common problems are diagnosed/treated with out the resort to laboratory aids. Fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, PGE, are rarely referred to the lab except where treatment is not working. Most samples are taken/referred by vets in practice. Fewer vets would mean fewer samples.\nThe lack of veterinary advice to ill pigs and ill sheep on farms at Heddon-on–the-Wall shows how the lack of a clinical veterinary service can lead to in the terms of delay and spread of disease.\n The local knowledge of the current LVI system is an invaluable asset that is in danger of being thrown away. The idea that a farm is a box which can be assigned a number in Page Street and dealt with as a single entity is a problem that has still not been resolved. The complexity of many of the local farming links through trade, working together, machinery, shared grazing, fell rights, and family ties cannot be reduced to a computer screen on DCS. \n\n\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\n\nIn my opinion they are not. I was hoping to cover this more fully but lack of time has prevented me.\n\nThe impact on the SVS.\n \nThe impact on the SVS is likely to be slow to be realised.\nThe SVS is not known for its ability to meet challenges or streamline its systems.\nAs the number of vets involved in farm work decreases it will have to provide more of its own resources to tackle tasks currently done by LVIs. \nThe more flexible private practice takes up the challenge of getting backlogs in testing done and can respond to new challenges for example the licensing brought in during FMD. Private practice can fit the work around other duties. Whereas if it is going to be done by the SVS it will be more expensive to take on vets to do these tasks alone. \nThe SVS was notoriously unreliable in its work allocation during FMD, the record being sending 5 vets to the same farm on the same day has yet to be beaten!\n Though I hope it would be a lot better in normal circumstances, there are still problems with the allocation system that can only be put right by local knowledge.\n\n In areas where there are few farm animals there may well not be LVIs willing to carry out the routine testing for Notifiable Disease. Who is going to provide veterinary cover for these? Both for clinical caseload and for the LVI work. \n\n There will not be vets available to second to DEFRA for the next FMD or exotic disease outbreak. The contingency plan confidently states that resources for 20 TVIs are to be kept at each centre in case of an outbreak of Notifiable Disease, with out addressing where these will come from. There will not be 20 TVI’s available at short notice. During March 2001 the majority of vets at the Carlisle DECC were LVI’s.\n\n\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\nThe picture I have painted is what in my opinion will happen if the government allows the situation to develop. I would hope that there would be some “joined up government” when decisions are to be made in response to the Competition Inquiry Report. \n\nThere are a mixture of outcomes that are possible:\nThe numbers of vets in farm animal practice will reduce. This can be minimised by maintaining the cross subsidy of professional fees for providing clinical services, either directly by DEFRA work in surveillance or other Notifiable Disease work and/or from pharmaceutical sales. (The option of increasing fees is not possible.)\nVeterinary services will be provided by other means. E.g. Vets working for feed firms/ Dairies/ manufactures/retailers to ensure a welfare/surveillance standard.; Consultancy firms providing fertility/mastitis/specialised advice.\nDEFRA/ Local Authority will have to provide vets for notifiable disease testing/surveillance tasks.\nDeveloping the French model of farm cooperatives employing vets for their own farms.\nThe pig/poultry model of regular advisory visits, but minimal involvement in the day to day running or with individual animals.\n\nOnly the first of these provides for the continuation of the successful LVI structure. The other outcomes mean a loss of clinical veterinary services.\nThe loss of clinical services means a drop in welfare standards and the loss of on farm surveillance.\n\n\nFarm veterinary services are in a transitional time facing economic challenges, changes in agriculture, increased regulation and increased competition for the pharmaceutical and services they provide. There will be increased competition between practices as they try to meet the higher expectations of new veterinary graduates starting their careers, and providing a cost effective service to the rural community.\n\nBVM&S MRCVS\n\n\nBrief C-V\nCurrently a partner in one of the largest farm veterinary practices in Cumbria having spent 17 years in mixed rural practice. \nSpent 6 months on secondment to MAFF at the Carlisle DECC during FMD.\n\n\n Sat 26th April 2003\nHaving worked last night and done 2 caesaers and a calving on call, on top of a long week I was completely washed out. Did Sat am surgery and a call then went home to bed . Knackered and fed up and deciding I did not want to spend my life like this.\nSunday\nA busy day On call but at least the calls did not stack up just kept coming in ones and twos so the stress levels were not to bad. But boyzo am I tired.\nMon\nThis is the beginning of D’s last week. He has worked out really well and I hope that he will be able to work here at the back end to help with the testing. He is easy going and has a good S African protestant work ethic, always happy to oblige and is good to work with. He is a good laugh too always teasing and playing silly jokes and has a great sense of humour.\nSpent most of the day on Catch up after the week end. Did some calls, and sorted car and drugs out and cleaned my kit. The slippage of cleanliness since FMD is very noticeable especially at the w/e’s. (But don’t tell DEFRA!!!)\nWent swimming at Foxes. Well to be honest sat in the Jacuzzi and talked. And then swam 2 lengths. I was too tired to do much really.\n I must start getting some proper exercise again or my back will suffer.\nTues \nI am really annoyed at Defra. I rang and asked what would be needed to put our vets on to Panel L which is what is needed to do the exports for Nestle and “Panel L, can just be added on as it is a simple export thing so it would take half an hour to do it.” This was last Friday by now it is we have to go for training by SVS. It should only take half an hour to through the forms….” Why can their yes not be yes, and their no be no???”\nSo we have to spend an afternoon going to Carlisle to got through meaningless forms, so that we can fill in meaning less forms so that Nestle can get th milk through customs. I am beginning to see why people just smuggle things rather than get involved in all this stupid bureaucracy.\nWeds\nWent on the Factory visit to Nestles today to have a look around so that we know the plant and can give them certification for the milk powder for export. The whole thing is ludicrous as dried milk powder is a sterile product. It has to be or else it goes off very quickly so why we have to certify that it has been pasteurised I don not know. But hey its money.\nThe size and quantity and the huge amount of machinery and very small number of people required to maintain and operate the plant was awesome.\nWe went to the distribution warehouse where there was just row upon row of pallets, 3-7 high full of dried milk or cappuccino drinks. Weird to think mast of the instant cappuccino is made in Dalston.\n Thursday\nWent for Panel L Training. It was as pointless as I thought it would be.\nTook the opportunity to go through with DEFRA admin staff some of the queries and problems. At the moment we do a lot of stuff for DEFRA telling them who has stock and who does not have stock to ensure their database is relatively up to date. But it is a headache as they are working off computer screens. Hence Mrs F R of A Farm does not correlate at all with Mr E R of the same address. The computer is not into relationships. So that they are married and live together and own stock on the same piece of ground does not really get off the ground. \nThis evening was the final Partners meeting where I handed in my notice.\nThe reasons for handing in my notice are complex, most decisions probably are.\nThere are lots of factors some trivial to the outsider but important to me, others may be important to others and similarly not to me. \nSeveral people have asked is it a reaction to FMD. The last casualty. In some ways it is. For all the horrendous experiences, for all the long hours and difficult ethical and to whom am I responsible dilemmas. It taught me a lot about myself. To see fear in the eyes of senior management when challenged, to be able to organise a protest meeting of thirty vets with Jim Scudamore, to do the TV interviews, o see the effect of feeding information to journalists. To be able to break through by fast talking and relying on my wits. To organise completely new systems and manage projects that had never been done before, to build teams from international backgrounds in the face of opposition from the hierarchy, to be constantly caught on a tight rope between the different groupings. I learnt that I have huge abilities, and to go back to normality is difficult. \nThe future of farm animal practice is also very unpredictable. There are a lot of farms who are yet to restock, the cross subsidy of fees by drug sales is going to end, and more and more work will be on behalf or paid for by DEFRA. They are at the whims of the politicians and the treasury. They are also not the easiest client to deal with.\nThere is also the problem of being second in command and dealing with the frustrations of the partnership. We are not united in the way we work, or where we see the practice going. This means my schemes for diversification, for improving income streams, and managing the bad debt, will either not happen or will become part of my workload which is already over stretched.\nAdd in to this cock tail the fact my wife is starting to work, and I have been given a really bad scare by being tackled by a cow. \nThe question is do I want to do this job for the next 20 years the answer has to be no.\nSo the only answer is to hand in my resignation and start to look for something new.\nAs I have a 6 month notice period ending on an accounting date I have to jump before I have another job sorted out.\nEven so the decision was very hard and I was really choked up when I left them to discuss the future. I could not go home as the kids would want to know what was going on so I went to Js. He already knew. I will tell the kids on Friday the practice manager on Monday and work on Tuesday.\nI have said very little of my thoughts in the diary as I have learnt there are somethings better left unwritten until the time for the information to be public. Whatever issues are to do with confidentiality, if you don’t think something can be talked about, then do not write it down, as you never know who is going to read it.\nA though got her self in to a stew as I rang [wife] to say I was going to Js, she then said she would come out. She left a bit too hurriedly for A who then got it into her head that we had gone away on holiday with out telling them!!\nFriday\nThe whole day was “Unreal”. I knew I was going but no one else does.\nTold the Kids at tea time and I was shocked by how upset they were. It has come as a shock to them. Tim especially loves coming out and about around the farms with me. There is also no what I am going to, so it is just uncertainty.\nOn 2nd call\n\n\nSat 3rd May 2003\nWork then wash out. I was on second last night and had 2 Caesars and a calving…What??? The second Caesar was at 4am so I felt dreadful all day. [young vet] had started operating and got stuck so I went to the rescue. The cow had horrendous adhesions, so nothing could be moved around, we spent an hour and a half trying to pull the calf out and then stitching up the uterus in the cow. I felt I needed diving gear on as I had both arms in to their full length with [vet] beside me trying to stitch by feel. My arms were exhausted by the end of it. I was like death warmed up all day. But feel I have definitely made the right decision.!!!\nSunday\nAfter a good Nights sleep feeling better. My mother always use to say that the world looks very different after a good nights sleep and a cooked breakfast. I DO NOT need a cooked breakfast. My stress levels have been that high that I have been eating far too much. I am going to go on a diet. The usual promise to myself. My weight is going up fast so I will have to cut down and start to exercise a lot more.\nWent to see the practice manager to tell him that I have handed in my notice. I have decided to see him on his own so that he has a chance to process it before work on Tuesday. He is overweight and stressed and that type to have a heart attack so treat him gently. He is also a good friend, so I should give him some warning. So I spent an hour chatting it through and talking which is a good a way as any of spending a Sunday afternoon.\nMon Bank holiday\n Another bank holiday working. But at least it is fairly quiet. So spent most of the day working in the garden. The kids were away in the morning doing various things and then met up for lunch with [friends] which was really nice. They had been down to visit family in the lake district. They had hired a couple of cottages for the w/e and all met up. [they] are really amazing people. They are both doctors and I went out to visit them in Thailand which was brilliant fun. He was working with leprosy and AIDS cases. They have come home and are sharing a GP’s job between them. [she] is also doing a diploma in diabetes. They are also doing deputation work to raise money for the work of OMF in Thailand and Asia. They have 4 kids, and it was really nice to see them all again. The kids are similar ages. I really felt for them because they have gone from home schooling to schools in Edinburgh in the big city. So they have the double culture shock of coming to the UK, and being schooled in a complete different way. They are also very bright kids and having had individual attention from a very focussed mother they are miles ahead of the rest of their classes. Yet they do not have the social skills to adapt to the rough and tumble of life in a city comprehensive. Mobile phones are not a must have item in rural Thailand!!\nGood to see them all.\nTuesday\nToday I announced the fact I was leaving to those at work. I had thought about how I should do it, and what I was to say. It is quite difficult both from an emotional point of view and from the fact that I think that the business in the longer term, will have problems. This has both a direct relevance for the lay staff and their jobs. Though there will still be a similar number needed as their workload is likely to remain the same. And also for the vets. Two of whom may or may not be approached to buy into the business. There will also in the longer term be a smaller number of vets needed but this will probably be managed by natural wastage.\nI spoke first to the senior assistants and then lay staff. It was hard as I have been there for as long as many of them 15 years. Which is a long time. I think also there is an attitude that the ups and downs seem to be past for them. There was a lot of upheaval over the move from B V up to S park, FMD is over, and things are suppose to be getting back on to an even keel. And I throw a spanner in the works.\nWeds\nSpent the evening Phoning friends and relatives to let them know that I had handed in my notice and sending off for job details on two jobs and applying for another. I am not sure what I am looking for so at the moment I am just sending off for anything that seems interesting and waiting and seeing. It seems an unreal situation in so many ways. \nI also had to phone the bank manager both to arrange our annual visit, and to tell him that I was leaving. Again getting the balance between moving on and being positive, with out pointing out the dangers in the future of large animal practice was a difficult balance. After the initial shock, all power to him as a salesman/banker he then asked whether I would be needing any banking requirements!! So at least if I do start up an independent vet/small business consultancy I will have a bank account to run it from.\nThursday\nA quit day as no testing so tackled some of the Back log in admin.\nSpent a lot of time setting up the systems and know how folder for Nestle. We have taken over the work for doing the LVI work for the Nestle factory at Dalston as they have fallen out with the previous practice. When we took it on I assumed it would be the odd bit of work but in fact it is a huge amount of work.\nSo it is going to take some sorting out. I also feel a bit off, as I have handed in my notice and yet I am setting all this up and I ma not going to benefit from it at all.\nI suppose it comes back to wanting to do what is right and that we should serve God and not man. It is always a useful measuring stick to use to work out motivations and what should be done in a situation. Who am I trying to do this for?.me?..the practice?..the client? or am I doing what Jesus would do.??\nFriday\nAnother bad hair day. Had real problems trying to fit the extra work into the day and so got a bit frayed around the edges. Fortunately next week will probably be the last thank goodness. The practice that used to do the nestle work was on the phone to me and not very friendly.\nHey ho.\nWent out for a meal with [friends] which was great. They are the church youth leaders and are really switched on but I think need more support and help. Hopefully once the 1st of October hits I will be able to get more involved.\nWent to the Royal Oak at Welton which just has-been re done and is serving food on a proper basis as well as having a pub part. More like a restaurant.\n[wife] ‘s food was excellent. Mine was Ok. I had an Indian trio of samosa, and 2 bharji to start with. I am afraid I have been spoilt by real Indian food so I should not have bothered going for it in a Cumbrian pub!!\n\n\nSaturday May 10th Saturday May 10th\nA day off after too many days working and too much stress.\nIt was really nice just to be around home doing the garden and not really worrying what else is going on in the world. I needed some space and I am pleased to have got it at long last. It is amazing how much better the world looks after a good nights sleep and a some time off.\nIn the afternoon the C boys came around and we took them to see new chicks. S was there and I did not want to go down the route of explaining why I had made the decision I had to leave so chickened out of telling her.. I suppose I am happy with it and I just want to forget about for the w/e.\nSo we arrived with 7 boys which is quite brave. Fortunately we could not stay long as we had to be back to go out to Gianni’s with D. He took us out and it was really good fun. The kids were all in good form.\nCame back and watched the first part of a DVD on John Grisham’s book “The Client”.\nHe is an excellent writer and although film can never develop the characters the same as a book. So the film was good but only OK.\nSunday 11th\nChurch was good this morning and it was good to be there and spent ages chatting to folk . But came back to lunch with a couple who stayed too long!! There are some people I find really draining, and she is one. It is awful but I get really wound up and just want them to go after about 30 minutes. They came for lunch and did not leave until after tea so I was almost going spare…\nMonday 12th\nI find the silence around the fact I am going a bit unnerving. It is a bit elephant and coffee table really. A lot of the farmers I suppose don’t yet know or if they do how to respond. \nToday’s frustrations are all with things not working. BT have sent me a bill for £115 for fixing the line that was struck by lightening. I was put through three depts before I gave up. I may try just not paying and see if they can register the fact the bill is being disputed.\nThe other frustration is the car doors have gone again in [wife]’s car which is incredibly frustrating. They have been fixed and fixed and fixed. Although it is under warranty I am getting to the stage that I feel we are being fobbed off.\nTues 13th\nI went to hear MG from the LICC (London Institute of Contemporary Christianity) speak at the Living Word. This is a series that happens every spring and is organised by a group of ministers and folk from Carlisle.\nHe is a very interesting speaker. He is an ex Ad man and his whole message is to get the “church” to look out side of it self. He thinks that Christianity in the west has become a “leisure time ” activity and is not impacting the rest of peoples lives. There is a concept of the sacred secular divide. The church does not get involved in secular things, work, culture, the arts, sport, and in some ways philosophy too. Whereas there should be no divide. Christ is either Lord of all, or not at all.\nHe also is a very amusing speaker. He was talking about how technology is usually neutral, but how it is used has very far reaching effects, on family, work and society. He used the microwave as an example. With a very amusing story about how he managed to save the sleep of the whole of North London by using the new fangled microwave to heat his daughter’s midnight bottle. Thereby saving the chancellor huge sums in lost revenue…with typical Jewish hyperbole.\nHe then moved on to his kids now teenagers, not coming in for the meal he has prepared but reheating it in the microwave, and how that led to a lack of communication, and again hyperbole to his angst about not understanding the younger generation. \nAs this is a diary about FMD how do I relate this to my experience of FMD??\nOn the simple level the culture within DEFRA needs to change.\nServant hood whether by Civil servants or politicians has been forgotten.\nTruth will out. Spin will fall.\nComputers should be a tool of all and master of none.\nOrganisations need to have a human face for people to relate to. Whether it is the Brigadier or the CVO.\nPeople are individuals created by God and have feelings and are not numbers or statistics.\nThe Post modernist human secularism where truth is relative. Where Brown can announce that everything is under control, can mislead Parliament and people and it is acceptable. I actually strongly feel that the current Presidential style of where no one can make a decision with out refer to their boss is a poor model.\nPain, disaster, illness and trouble are part of the human condition. \nPart of the fall. \nOf evil in the world.\nEnough philosophy its time for bed.\n\n\nMonday 17th May\nThis was the big Golden wedding Anniversary Day.\nIt was [wife]’s parents Golden wedding and her brothers and family all came to stay for the w/e. The celebration meal was at Lyzzick Hall in Keswick. The big surprise for [wife]’s Mum was that her bridesmaid and husband were coming over from Canada. J picked them up from the airport and took them to a B&B.\nOther friends were also coming as a surprise. \nRP started the surprises by coming in dressed as a waitress. She came in and offered [wife]’s Mum a drink and she was really overcome. The other surprises of bridesmaid and Canadians was really nice to see. \nThe younger parts of the clan went off to the climbing wall while the older part went for a look at the lake in the rain.\nIt was a really nice day ended by a firework display thanks to C. As he grew up in Belfast during the troubles and fireworks were banned he has a real passion for them now as a big kid!\nSunday\nWent to church with everyone, a very mixed group but they coped!\nP spoke in the morning meeting he was very good. He is a publisher and was talking about the church in China as he has just helped to publish a book about some of the Christian house church.\nIt makes the materialistic church in the west look very weak and un spiritual.\nIn the evening MM spoke on the Christian at work which was very good and very funny. He was a bed sales man when he was a student and he was very funny about how he made shy engaged couples lie down and try the beds. This really tickled [other son] (Age 8) much to his Gran’s tut-tutting!!!\nThe point he was making in between the jokes, was that he had been told that he was to say that the bed s would all be delivered in 3-4 weeks, when in fact it could be up to 6 weeks but the shop keeper thought this would put people off. This meant that MM ended up in bother with couples arriving back from their honey moon to no bed! So he decided to listen to God’s way and tell the truth, which he said like most biblical teaching is obvious once it is explained, and tell people the truth not what they want to hear.\nMon\nWent and read the TB test for the tenant farmer. There was 1 I/R. The reaction of the farmer took me back fairly badly and I was quite shocked at the sheer vehemence of his reaction, fortunately it was mostly at DEFRA . He went out early on to the disease and he therefore got much lower compensation than a lot of the later ones. He had some cattle wintering at his farm for some one else who went out later on with FMD at his home holding. The difference in the valuations for the same type of cattle was horrendous.\nHe also has buildings that he owns on a small parcel of land. The buildings were old and knackered but usable. (A lot of string and gates.) DEFRA pulled them to pieces during FMD and then offered him peanuts o reinstate them, which meant he could not get them back into a usable state. So he is not a happy bunny.\nSpent the afternoon castrating horses which is not my favourite job. If a stirk kicks you, it hurts. If a horse kicks you, it usually means a trip in an ambulance. You are therefore very tense and ready to move in awkward positions.\nCanadians and [wife]’s parents headed off for a trip around the borders in our people carrier. They are coming back to swap over cars at the end of the week. [wife] has the tank to run around in for the week.\nTuesday\nMy back is twinging from the castrating and a calving yesterday and is really sore. So did paperwork while sitting like a ramrod until I gave up and came back to lie down. Did the back exercises hourly but it just got stiffer and sorer.\nWeds\nSpent morning reading in bed and doing back exercises but cannot get it moving.\nWent to see the accountant in the afternoon to sort out the practicalities of going freelance, and finishing at the vets.\nThursday\nBack is a lot better and starting to move much more freely. The first negative comment on me leaving today came from a farmer who has decided that the only way to make money is to go for 300 cows. He has therefore planned all this, designed new parlours, been to look at other large herds, thought it all through. Unfortunately his costings are on buying in dairy cows at £6-700 per head and just recently they have gone to over a thousand which means he is out by £60K, oops. But he said that he thought I was deserting them. In a way I suppose I am.\nBack in to being On Call with a vengeance. A calving, a caesar, a prolapsed uterus, hey ho.\nFriday\nInteresting statistic on the radio, whether it is right or wrong I do not know. In the EU the average beef cow is subsidised to the tune of $2 per week, the average African earns less than that. \nThe Canadians and [wife] s parents arrived back from their trip around the borders. The good news is they baby sat (or teenage and child minded) while we went out to the Lemon lounge, the bad news is they are to feed and look after over the W/e. My brother and family arrive tomorrow, so it will be a bit crowded.\nIt was really nice to be out on our own with relative peace around us. The noise from an office party does not impinge as it is nothing to do with us.\n\n\nSaturday 31st May 2003\nA gardening day. \nWe decided that we would have to get the place sorted out so spent most of the day in the sunshine pulling weeds and sorting out the garden. It was a beautiful day. My back was pretty sore by the end of the day but we got it nearly all sorted which was good.\nThe boys cut the lawn and A sat on it and read her book.\nAnother BBQ by the end of the day, A made the salads, while the boys cooked so it was a family meal.\n[wife] and the older two headed for Tesco’s while I cleared the debris away.\nSunday June 1st\nThe sun is still flaming but the seeds and seedlings are looking a bit sad and whithered in spite of the watering. \nI have really enjoyed the week off but there has been very little on FMD.\nMet up with [friends] at church, home visiting parents.\n In the evening caught up with the As. He is an Indian gastro enterologist who worked at Carlisle. They now work in Bombay so it was good to see them.\nThey are hoping to set up an AIDS hospice. There are currently over a million people who are HIV +ve in Bombay.\nMonday\nBack to work and quite busy so it looks as if the June quiet period is not going to materialise. With folk on holiday it makes it seem busier any way.\nIt took me until 4pm to get to my in tray which after a week was overflowing as usual.\nTuesday\nThis is more like June. Long lunch and spent the morning trying to get the accountancy package up to date.\nSent off another speculative e mail job application. A friend from church who is now studying physio therapy at Glasgow came and insisted [wife] & I went out for a walk together which was really nice. He is a really nice young guy.\nWent to beach at Beckfoot where we were the only ones walking the beach. There was one serious kiter. I have not seen such a serious kite for a long time. It was fairly windy and he had it anchored behind him so as not to be taking off with it!!\nWeds\nSpent the morning doing fertilities and then spent time sorting out issues with George. There was so little work it is boring for the assistants. The June quiet patch ahs arrived. The bills did not go due to a computer upgrade cocking the system up. The systems are now so complex they are beyond any reasonable way of keeping tabs, you have to trust the experts who you don’t!!\nThursday\nDay off spent it writing out a business proposal to try and get work via a consultancy firm. Then tried fixing the extractor fan and failed. \nThursby football club is going really well with some more lads coming along. The standard is variable but good fun.\nFriday\nTB testing again at Fs. They had just heard about me leaving and were full of questions. The night was really busy. On first call and had lots going on. [wife] was at a retreat, thinking through the future and reporting on the last year. So I was trying to juggle kids as well.\n\n\nSaturday 7th June 2003\nLast night was terrible with a dog to see in the middle of the night and put down. It was only a young dog but it had leukaemia and was not responding to treatment. It had colic probably from the mesenteric Lymph nodes and was rolling around in pain. Not nice for them or me.\nSat am was busy too. Went to one of the organic farms to see an ill cow post calving. He was saying that there are three farmers, all none FMD giving up milking. One is another organic dairy farm. He was promised a premium of 10p per litre and his costings were based on 28p per litre. He is getting a premium of less than 0.5p per litre which takes it to 16p. The figures do not add up so he is giving up. The other 2 are small farms who cannot make it work. 40-50 cows.\nSlept in the afternoon and went to a party in the evening. Bizarrely as we were walking in the people whose dog I put to sleep last night walked in as well!! \nThey live next door and had been invited as well.\nWeird.\nSpent time chatting but came to 10 and I was dead on my feet.\nSunday 8th\nThe On call changes from 2nd (Back up) to 1st at 8:30 am. The phone started at 8:35…. Urghhh. I am finding it very hard to have any enthusiasm knowing that I ma leaving in a few months.\nOne of the farms I was on has given up dairy and were hoping to retire FMD year but lost money because of all the restrictions. So they are now hoping to finish this back end, may be. They were hoping to keep the Milk quota and lease it out as a pension but because of the new rules they will have to sell it and the price is low, as there are a lot of non producers who are in the same boat. It was at its height worth £1 per litre, a lot was bought and sold in the 40-60p per litre, it is now around the 10p mark. Funny world agriculture.\nMonday 9th \nCalving at 5am followed by other calls so an early start. Busy day at work \nWent to a meeting for the new Crusaders support worker. It is supposed to be county wide but is going to be based around Kendal, as that is where the legacy that is providing a lot of the money is based so it is less relevant tot this end of Cumbria. So I have backed out of the organisation committee, as most of the meetings will be at Rydal. Too far for me. We were there tonight, so did not get back until 11:30 which after a w/e on call is too late for this bunny.\nTuesday 10th\nSpent 45 mins on the phone trying to work out what I am going to be doing in Oct with a guy from Pfizer. I then had to spend the rest of the evening sorting out the emails I needed to send to him.\nWeds 11th\nSpent the morning having nursery visits where the local infants schools come around the vets and I give my wee guided tour. It is quite fun and the little things that we do they really love; Blowing up the anaesthetic bag; The X ray quiz and listening to dog’s hearts.\nI always take some of [son]’s chickens in, as well, as most kids are not use to having Birds or handling them. [son] has spent so many hours carrying them around they are fairly tame and used to being picked up.\nI don’t know that effort pays back in commercial terms but it is fun.\nFootball training in the evening with 20 lads which was brilliant.\nThursday 12th\nOn call and exhausted after the excitement of the week. The phone went at 7pm from the answering service to say that a women had rung and asked for the pass word for the alarm. This of course meant nothing to those answering the phone. I however put 2 + 2 together to work out that the alarm at the practice and gone off and that the police would be on their way. Why does this always happen when you are in the bath. So I jumped out the bath and rushed down to find out what was going on. There was a police man there who was waiting for me to lead the way in! We found a very scared dog sitting in the prep room, having escaped from its kennel.!!!\nIt then took an hour to get the alarms reset.\nLife is a rich tapestry.\nFriday 13th\nWent to lawyers today to meet up to go through the dissolution of the partnership. Bit sad in a way, but another nail bashed in to my leaving coffin!\nFinished work and spent evening playing football and doing some coaching, which was good fun. [son] was off school today. He was full of cold and just exhausted. He just needed time out really. He goes at everything at 110%.\n\n\nSaturday 14th June 2003\nWorking am. Why is it even if you have a few quiet days in the week by the time the w/e comes it is busy again?? \nReally warm so sunshine and gardening. A had decided she was going to do a changing rooms on the double room in the cottage, so she and a friend worked away all day at it. I was very impressed by the time we had finished our barbeque in the evening it was all back to ship shape and was finished. She is some pup.\nSunday \nWent down to Whitehaven to see the tall ships in the harbour. There was only one there which was disappointing but it was good to look around. There was a fair buzz about the place and heaving with people as the weather was great. There was a display of Jet Ski’s which was fun to watch so the boys are now on at me to try and have a go.\nThe red arrows were brilliant. They have a tremendous display and the coloured streams they leave behind in the sky always amaze me. It is almost like they are writing in the sky.\nMonday\nFinally decided the Duck eggs were not going to hatch so broke them open to see if they were fertile. 1 exploded it was so rotten. Urghh!! Only one had a half formed egg in it. So I think the eggs were the problem not the incubation.\nTuesday\nTesting some more I/R’s for TB. Though the history is wrong, so I hope that they will clear. A new vet student turned up in the afternoon. She is staying with us until the w/e. Then with [colleague]. The vets is going to have to find new accommodation for students. Went to the Training evening for the soccer coaching. It was a form filling exercise and orientation so it was boring. But I am on the course which is good. At least I well have the piece of paper at the end of it.\nWeds\nFootie training at night. Only the hard core turned up, so looks like we will have a good group of 14-15 which means we will not have to choose and disappoint. Went for a run afterwards as feeling in need of exercise as not much large animal work at the moment means I am sitting around on the computer for a lot of the day which is sad. Must get fit is a constant resolution.\nSpent the evening up at Sandal watching the sun go down away from the phone and chaos at home.\nThursday. \nI was at work when I had a phone call from some one who had apparently run over [son] at school. Never an easy phone call to take, espy as she did not know what had happened. Fortunately he was OK. He had been walking backwards and had stepped into the path of a car which had caught his heel. The damage was slight but it had upset him. \nThe school exit is appalling and needs sorted as busses, cars and bikes all share the same area as the kids walking. Inevitably kids are jostling and messing around so it is an accident waiting to happen.\nFriday\nHalf day as [wife] is starting her next w/e counselling course \nCould not really get going as a calving early this am, and a call late last night.\nSo having run on adrenalin for all the week I collapse in to a heap and find it hard to get going and get motivated. Spent the afternoon getting organised for the visitors arriving as [friends] are coming and [friend] who was our bridesmaid is coming across for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 21st June 2003\n Pay day. I don’t really know why it always sticks in my mind but at the moment with the 1st of October looming and the fact that the 21st will not be a pay day it is becoming a bit scary!!\nSpent morning on run around and house jobs, ferrying to and from squash.\nWent to town in pm with A & [son] having left off the younger ones at Cottinghams and spent a pleasant half hour in Ottakars. Even they were running low on THE book. The latest Harry Potter which I had meant to order via internet but had not quite got around to.\nThe statistic is that she is expected to sell 6 every second over the w/e. She makes £1 per book which means £360 per minute, £21,600 per hour (not a bad hourly rate!) or just over a million quid for the w/e. As every other person on the tills was buying a copy, I can well believe it.\nSun 22nd \nChurch in the morning was joint communion and was lead by the Denton Holm house group. The church meets up in small groups mid week to pray and study bible, and the Denton Holme grp lead the service, it means you get a refreshingly different type of service with different people taking part and leading. It was good. Followed by a picnic in the park which was OK but I just wanted to fall asleep in the sunshine. I am suffering from stopping syndrome. I can keep going on the adrenalin but when I stop, thump, I fall asleep and can not get going.\nPicked up Liz from church in the evening. Having left youngest two at home as [wife] was late back from her course. Thank goodness for mobile phones, or rather at least they manage to make a complex life possible. Really I should have let her pick up [friend] and missed church and upset A by telling her she couldn’t go. But it all worked out in the end.\nMon 23rd\n[friend] arrived at some terrible hour, she finally left Bristol after 8pm after meaning to leave at lunchtime. So as [wife] and I were exhausted we did not get up to welcome her! \nWork is really quiet with very little happening.\n[son] is in a strop cos we will not let him go sailing after cricket after school as he will be exhausted. He takes after us, if there is a possibility, we try to achieve it. Our own fault really, but it is weird how you see your own faults coming through in your children.\nTues 24th\nSpent the day talking to people on the phone trying to get funding for the research project, have a few leads and ideas to get together, so should be interesting to see if it comes together.\nWeds 25th\nStarted at 4am with a caesarean which was really nice as that time in the morning is beautiful. It is just a shame that the rest of the day is a bit of a wash out because of it. Went at night to the FA training course which was class room based on a warm sunny evening and I was struggling to stay with it. I have also decided that I need to get fit as the practical day is going to be very long for my unfit legs.\nThursday\nThe electrician arrived to sort out the electrics in the bathroom, which are still not right. The lights keep fusing and the fan will not work. I had a look at the wiring which is a mess and decided I could not follow it, and after my last experience I decided I would just pay him to keep him in a job.\nI had a very enjoyable day off, played [son] at squash and lost. Now not only is he better than me at football but squash a swell. All down hill from here on in.\nWent to church in the evening as RW was speaking. It was interesting to hear him, though was more a chat than a biblical exposition.\nFriday.\nThe email from the verse of the day seems to sum up a years worth of diaries\nWhen times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider:\nGod has made the one as well as the other. \nTherefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.\n\nEcclesiastes 7:14, New International Version\n\nThe future is uncertain, I will leave my job in a few months time for a new start. The pressures of FMD seem to be distant in the warm summer weather and in the quiet workload making me feel rested and relaxed.\nThe challenges both for agriculture, the veterinary practice and for policymakers are still very large. \nThere is now a threat of bio terrorism to add to the food scares and the threat of exotic disease. \nLife carries on, we may not learn from all our mistakes, and government depts are a blunt, slow awkward machine, but the cows will still need to be milked and we will still need food on our table. If in ’68 you told some one that we had not had an outbreak of FMD for 35 years, they would have said “well done”. If you had said 2 men were milking 300 cows on a Cumbrian farm, and getting 7000 litres per cow he would never have believed you. \n\nThere is a time for everything,\nAnd a season for every activity under the heaven.\n\nA time to be born and a time to die\nA time to plant and a time to uproot\nA time to kill and a time to heal\nA time to tear down and a time to build\nA time to weep and a time to laugh\nA time to mourn and a time to dance\nA time to scatter stones and a time to gather them\nA time to embrace and a time to refrain\nA time to search and a time to give up\nA time to keep and a time to throw away\nA time to tear and a time to mend\n A time to be silent and a time to speak\nA time to love and a time to hate\nA time for war and a time for peace.\n
## 5 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 5\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\nPaper diary has lots of newspaper cuttings and other related material.\n\nWeek beginning 25th February 2002\nAfter the snow, which fell at the weekend, melted combined with the additional rainfall, many of the fields surrounding the village, as well as the roads, were flooded. Usually this wouldn't concern you much, however, with the burial site being so close and the number of underground streams in the area, it does become worrying. There isn't any guarantee that groundwater in the surrounding area won't become effected and to what extent. There seem to be a number of aspects to me concerning this issue which remain unclear. For example, what exactly can be carried in water and how might this effect people in the area? ; What is being tested for in the surrounding streams? what exactly is classed as a danger?; and if problems did arise, how would they be monitored and resolved. All these issues do tend to make you anxious.\nIn particular on Monday, when I was out walking my dog I noticed a couple of drains which I passed looked as if they were blocked and there was a lot of water around. It just makes you wonder how much has come possibly from the burial site and if it is actually safe.\nMy worries on Monday about the groundwater were even more emphasised by the statement I heard on the Border News on Tuesday, by the Environment Agency. This statement was concerning the future safety of the groundwater in the area around the burial site. The Agency could give no guarantee that the groundwater would not become affected in the future. Since then I have heard no further news about the issue. There may be more information on news reports I missed. In my opinion not enough information is given to the public about these issues. Results of testing by the Environment Agency are meant to be available to the public, however, I have never heard much about the details. I think more effort should be made to inform, in particular, resident near burial sites as these issues are bound to be important to them.\nAfter hearing the news, I did become more worried but at the end of the day there is little we can really do ourselves. You find yourself having to trust people or agencies you know little about and just hoping everything will be alright.\nOn Tuesday, also noticed a horrible smell outside, so did my fiancé, but again you can't be sure exactly where this is coming from or what is causing it?\n\nOn Thursday, with news of possible Foot and Mouth case further south near Leeds, I became very worried that this whole thing was going to start all over again! My worries were about the farmers and people involved and how they would be affected; if other cases could be identified and in particular, affecting my own life, if animals would have to be slaughtered again in the future, where would they be disposed of? Would existing burial sites be reopened as opposed to finding suitable sites for new burial sites. It would seem easier to reopen burial sites but what would this mean for the future and to what extent would the health risks be increased?\nI was very relieved to hear the testing of the foot and mouth cases came back negative. I was relieved for the people involved, and also residents near burial sites. However, this did raise questions in my mind of how this sort of situation would be handled in the future and what consequences it might have? \n\nWeek 2 – 4th March\nOn Monday passed driving test and now fiancé and myself are insured on a small car. This opens up so many opportunities and we have a huge sense of freedom. Last summer we had planned to go on a camping holiday with our dog [dog]. We had al our equipment prepared but were unable to go due to the foot and mouth outbreak. Neither of us imagined how long and widespread the outbreak would be And Thought at first it would be over in a few weeks. Now a year later we are able to replan our holiday. This is exciting as we have waited so long. It is unbelievable to think how long it has taken for restrictions on the countryside to return to as normal as can be possible, due to the circumstances. For the actual people directly involved in the foot and mouth crisis this must have seemed like far longer!\nOn Tuesday I had a lovely surprise when I noticed the lambs in a field near my house when out walking my dog. It was lovely to see and for a few minutes things almost seemed normal again. Even though the burial site is only about a mile away, it is hidden from view from the village, you never forget though as soon as you spot the windmills and remember the repeated pictures featured in the news.\nSeeing the lambs really did lift my spirits and the future after foot and mouth didn’t seem as bad as thought the week before.\nI can’t recall the exact days but they were towards the beginning of the week. On two particular occasions my fiance and I noticed a terrible smell outside. We aren’t sure exactly what the smell was, just that it was very unpleasant!\nThe only other incident which I can recall which stands out in my mind this past week is a conversation I had with my fiancé’s Granddad. We were talking about how bad last year’s Foot and Mouth outbreak had been and he recalled the outbreak of 1967. He commented on how he thought that outbreak had been far better controlled. It was better as the animals were killed and buried on the actual farms in lime. There was no transporting dead or live animals like last year. He also commented on the fact that there were no pyres then and that he hadn’t thought it a good idea last year. Overall he thought that last year’s outbreak could have been dealt with better and that action was taken far too late to prevent the disease spreading.\n\nWeek 3 – 11th March\nOne new thing I have noticed this week is the amount of birds there are flying around, especially black crows. I think it is because I have been driving and every time I drive past the fields at the south end of the village, there are large amounts of crows hustled together. Can never remember it being quite like that last summer. It makes you wonder why so many are drawn to just those fields. As I drive past in the next few weeks I will see if it is still the same.\nOn about occasions this week fiancé and I have noticed a slight smell outside again. Not as foul smelling but still noticeable.\nOn Tuesday, saw new series featured on ITV called Rural Lives. I think this is a good idea as the issue of foot and mouth is still very painful to a lot of people and is not over yet. The effects are still happening however, on the news and in other media, it isn’t often mentioned and doesn’t get the attention it deserves.\nHopefully through programmes like this people will get a better understanding of the issues involved and what different people went through.\nIf an outbreak ever happened again, all the people involved would hopefully have a better idea of how to handle the actual crisis and a better idea of people’s needs for example, the farmers. These are long term effects which can’t be ignored.\nMy Mum came out for a couple of nights. She loves coming out to see us as she lives in Carlisle it is a total change of scenery. She thought it was great and enjoyed taking my dog on long walks which she was unable to do for a long time.. We went to see the lambs in the lovely weather – shows we are able to start enjoying the countryside again, especially coming up to Spring and Summer.\nWe were even able to go to Dalston with my dog and wander about. We have been so used to having to stick t the roads just in the local area. It was lovely, a nice change!\nIt does tend to make you more confident about the coming year and we are looking forward to the Summer!\n\nWeek 4 – 18th March \nThis past week started of with a day out at Bowness. I went with my fiancé and took our dog, [dog]. It was lovely to let her off the lead to run, she really enjoys it and got absolutely filthy. Travelling in the car is becoming easier for [dog] and she goes crazy when you arrive. We have only had [dog] just over 2 years and for the past year we couldn’t let her off the lead to run anywhere. We are tiring t train her again, she listens to a certain extent, but we have to keep an eye on her cheeky side. I remember wondering when the foot and mouth started how we were going to exercise [dog], as walking her on the roads used to be more difficult due to the large vehicles travelling up and down and also the fact [dog] isn’t the best on the lead. She used to be really energetic and a bit of a handful, however now she has got used to a more relaxed life and at times I think she quite likes it. It did us all good to have some exercise and fresh air and it was lovely to have a change of scenery. \nApart from on Monday, I haven’t really been anywhere else (apart from shopping) and have been busy doing my A-level work. Therefore I haven’t really noticed anything different this week and haven’t thought about foot and mouth as much.\nMy overall view this week has been quite confident and there has been no real significant happenings to change my view. Quite a good week overall!\n\n\n\nWeek 5 – 25th March\nFirstly I received the Newsletter sent out to the Standing panel. It was a relief to finally get some information regarding the burial site. It was good to have an explanation on how things work on the site in terms that we can understand. It is a relief to know that everything so far is still safe, however, it is evident that there is much more work and monitoring to be carried out in the future. Even though it is still not possible to do anything ourselves, our minds are at least put at rest by knowing something. It surprises me how long it has taken for information like this to be made accessible to the public. I think this newsletter is a very good step forward as information is reaching the public and participants are also given the opportunity to ask questions and put other ideas forward.\nOn Wednesday, My Mum came out again to see us. Once again, we took a walk to go see the lambs in the field near us. It was enjoyable and we had lovely weather! It makes you realise how much you take for granted around you without thinking twice! My Mum has made me realise this even more by seeing how much she enjoys such a simple thing and how special she thinks it is! Sometimes I think when you are surrounded by the country and nature all the time you forget how lucky you are! My Mum and Gran would both love to live somewhere like here!\nThe biggest surprise this week was when I received the parish magazine for the month and found in it the “Watchtree News”. This is the first time I have ever seen anything like this from the parish council. I think it is a very good idea as the information will be accessible to everyone in the appropriate parishes. Even though it is long overdue it is very worthwhile and I think, will be very informative. It covers a wide range of issues, the majority of which I knew very little about and wouldn’t have known for the future for example, the maintenance going to be carried out between the A595 Orton Grange junction and the site entrance. At least we now have knowledge of this before it is going to be carried out as it will affect other members of our family who live on the Orton Grange junction, who would otherwise have had no idea. Some of the information was surprising, for example the number of tankers that leave the site everyday which I didn’t expect to be so high and which could rise.\nImportant issues are also now being tackled such as the bad state of the local roads. The affected people are also being encouraged to report these things themselves to the appropriate people.\nI think this has been a significant development and will be very useful in the aftermath of foot and mouth. Communication between the appropriate authorities and the public is essential! \n\n\nWeek 6 1st April\nUnfortunately it has been all go this week! One bit of work after another! I haven't had time to focus on very much else this past week. Despite this fact, I have still had quite a positive week. It is better studying out here as there are few distractions and everything is lovely and peaceful - a drastic difference from last year. At that time it was difficult to concentrate on anything for too long! Far too many distractions!\nMy fiancé however has been up to the burial site and nearby on Sunday. He went for a drive with a friend and wondered what it looked like up there. We have only ever seen it on television reports, but never been up there ourselves.\nIn a future diary when he has time, he will write a few words on what he thought! \n\n\n\nWeek 7 8th April\nOnce again this week has been full of work! I haven't had much time to do anything apart from work. ON Thursday I had a break and my Mom came out for a BBQ. For the first time this year, we have put out our patio tables and chairs as the weather was staying pleasant. We sat out for a while in the evening and had our BBQ. It was a lovely break for my Mom as there is peace and quiet out here as opposed to in town. We all really enjoyed it!\nMy Mom and [fiance] both commented how lovely it was to sit outside in the nice weather, without a nasty smell about. Over the past couple of weeks I haven't noticed things smelling so bad as on a few occasions recently. There has also been a decrease in the amount of birds, in particular crows which have been in the fields to the south of where we are near the crossroads. On the couple of occasions during the week when I have been past the fields there have only been a couple of birds flying around as opposed to a whole field full of crows at one time.\nIt was also lovely to hear the sheep, especially as the evening became darker. In the background, you could hear the sheep, just in the field next to us and also the lambs a few fields away. It was something which we still aren't quite used to, but which we appreciate so much more now!!\n\n\nWeek 8 15th April\nI was feeling quite confident this week until Friday when watch the news. I saw the report on new Bovine TB cases which are worrying. Even though it is said it wouldn’t be as serious as foot and mouth it is still worrying as it has the potential to destroy many more lives and bankrupt more farmers who have probably just got over foot and mouth! The worry must be especially bad for the farmers, as it is bad enough for the general public especially after seeing the damage caused by foot and mouth in such a short space of time. It would be absolutely terrible if this summer was anything like last summer. How long would it take for everything to get back to normal then?\nEven though foot and mouth is evidently far different to Bovine TB hopefully things will have been learned from last year which will prevent this from becoming a disaster too!\nApart from that other aspects of the foot and mouth, smell etc, haven’t been as bad this past week. I haven’t noticed any particular occasions when the smell has been particularly bad or noticeable. In addition, on the occasions when I have driven past the fields near the crossroads there have been hardly any crows near there, which is a huge improvement! There were a number of seagulls in one field but nowhere near the amount of crows there were before.\nThere has also been a decrease in the amount of tankers going by recently, that I have noticed. At first I didn’t take much notice of it but then [fiancé]’s Grandad mentioned that he had hardly seen any. He seems to notice them move more than we do as he lives on the Orton Grange junction with Wigton road and they all have to go past there!\nWith all these things happening the presence of the burial site nearby seems less obvious!\n\n\nWeek 9 – 22nd April\nThe last week has been quite a pleasant week, probably because I have eventually finished my coursework and have been able to have a bit of peace and quiet! I think this combined with periods of lovely weather have made me feel quite good.\nOn Tuesday, when I travelled to town and back I went past the fields near the crossroads to the south of the village which in the past have been full of crows or seagulls. As I have noticed on other odd occasions over the past week, they appear to be empty now. I’ll keep an eye on how this changes over the summer if it does.\nOn Friday, I noticed that there were a number of cattle and calves in the field just opposite our house. I can stand and watch them from my back patio doors which is lovely. With the reintroduction of the sheep and cattle in the area, it is like everything is coming together finally after the foot and mouth, and life is returning to normal in some sense. The cattle seem to be the last part needed for everything to seem to be running properly and the animals finally moving about at last. \nI think this fact combine with their being no significant incidents of nasty smells or the rumbling of the tankers going by, has made things seem better.\nWhen talking to [fiance]’s Grandad, he mentioned again that there still haven’t been as many tankers going past his house at Orton Grange as there have been. This past week there have been hardly any reminders of the burial site and the past foot and mouth problems. Living in the country has seemed quite normal after what seems a long time!\n\nWeek 10 29th April\nAll in all this week has been a good week overall! With regard to the foot and mouth everything seems to have quietened down and there are hardly any visible reminders of the burial site and foot and mouth around the village. As I mentioned last week, there still haven’t been any noticeable occasions of smells, possibly from the burial site; the tankers have hardly been noticeable around the village and the fields near the crossroads have still been fairly empty of birds, in particular crows.\nThis was explained and backed up in the Watchtree Newsletter in the parish magazines which I received this week. It was good to read and very informative – worth reading. I still think it is a good idea and is being done well as it discusses issues happening now and also keeps you informed about action in the future. The newsletter mentioned the reduction in the amount of tankers which I have noticed. It also mentions that there might be a slight smell from the burial sited during work but so far I haven’t noticed anything. Once again it has been lovely seeing both the sheep and the cows in the surrounding fields especially at the moment when they are with their young.\nOn Saturday on the way down to [fiance]’s Grandad there were road works near the Baldwinholme bend in the road. This part was in a bad condition and is now much better! I think the damage was caused by the trucks etc used during foot and mouth. However I’m not sure!\n\nWeek 11 6th May\nThis week has been my 21st Birthday! I’m growing up! I had a lovely day on Thursday and as a surprise I was taken t the Lake District for the day. It was lovely and I really enjoyed it! Firstly we stopped off at Bassenthwaite lake for a bit, fed the ducks and had a picnic. Then off to Dodd Wood for a coffee and to see the Ospreys. It was great to see them and I think we were quite lucky. Then we had a pleasant walk around Myre House.\nI was reminded of how lucky we are in Cumbria to have such lovely places and I am glad that we are now able to go to these places again. Now we’ve got a car we are going to take better advantage of Cumbria and what it has to offer. Once again I realised how much we take what we have for granted.\nOverall this has been a good week and reminders of foot and mouth and the burial site have been minimal. There have been no smells I have noticed, and hardly any signs of wagons. It is still lovely to see the sheep and cattle around the village!\n\nWeek 12 – 13th May\nOn Wednesday I met my Mum in town and got the Cumberland News off her. I was reading about the County Council Inquiry at Kendal. I think it is good how the different people involved in the inquiry are all being honest about what happened. That is the only way anything will be improved in the future if anything of a similar nature should happen again. I really hope it doesn’t. From reading the articles written and what people have said, it is clear what a wide range of people the foot and mouth crisis affected and also how badly. When you read of other people who have had family who have been so low it has driven them to suicide you do seem to feel a bit guilty as when we complain, it hasn’t affected us is such a drastic way. It brings the seriousness and the extent of the crisis to people’s attention. Despite the terrible things which took place during the crisis hopefully some good will come out of it for the present and the future.\nOn Thursday [fiance] went to the doctor’s and was talking to a farmer in the waiting room. As soon as [fiance] mentioned he lived in Great Orton, the farmer asked straight away what it was like to live here so near to the burial site and how he couldn’t imagine what it would have been like. It too has been such a long time since anyone has said anything like that to either one of us. At the time of the foot and mouth crisis people used to ask questions and what it was like to live so near. It is strange when farmers in particular, feel sympathy towards you for living near the burial site, when on the other hand it is the farmers I feel sympathy for.\nBefore the foot and mouth crisis a fair number of people even from Carlisle didn’t know where Great Orton was’ but now many do and realise how close to Carlisle it actually is! \n\n\n\nWeek 13 - 20th May\nI haven't really done anything very exciting this past week, unfortunately, I've been revising again and preparing for a presentation for my A-level which I have to do next week. My presentation was on 'turrets and watchtowers' which I found a bit confusing at first from the books I've been using so dragged [fiance] (to drive) and [dog] out past Brampton to Hadrian's Wall. There I found a watchtower and a turret - everything became much clearer! On the way back we spotted a sign for a camping barn on Hadrian's Wall (Banks East). We were both very interested so sent away for the brochure. At this point we decided to reconsider our holiday plans, and realised we didn't need to go far afield, like Amsterdam (our 1st choice); then Scotland (2nd choice). We hadn't realised actually how many places there were so nearby which were ideal. We came to the conclusion a holiday in Cumbria would be the best choice as 1. We could take [dog] with us; 2 we could go by car and 3 it would be a bit cheaper. As [fiance] mentioned, it would also be good after everything to put the money we were spending back into Cumbria.\nWe were hoping to go next week as it is half term the week after and my exams after that! Hopefully we will get something organised!\nOn Thursday we got the Orton newsletter. [fiance] and I were both quite disappointed when we read that land around this area are being sold for the building of houses. It is good in a way as people are moving forward after F&M but we wish it wasn't in a residential sense. It is just a pity so much of the farming will be lost (6 houses at Baldwinholme, 4 in Great Orton). Even though I haven't been brought up with a farming background from what I have seen it would be a pity for us to lose this part of our countryside.\n\n\nWeek 14 - 27th May\nOn Monday saw CB and was pleased to hear the F&M standing panel project was going well as I think it’s worthwhile and as much as possible should be learned for the future.\nOn Tuesday I attended the meeting for the foot and mouth disease inquiry at Great Orton village hall at 7pm. I was glad I attended the meeting as people could voice their opinions and try to get information about issues, both about the present and the future. My general view of the meeting and how it went was that the general feeling of the villagers etc. was that they were losing interest and nothing was still being done. There were many empty seats, I estimated a total number of 50-60 people. There was a whole new panel of faces, even though this was a new inquiry so there were new people on the panel but between the meetings there is no feel of continuity as no-one is sure of what has been said before and there are never the answers promised from one meeting to another. It seems as if this is a way of avoiding answers and getting out of situations.\nThere were new aspects which were brought up which had not yet been disclosed (never at any meeting I have attended) such as the fact the burial was planned and used for the burial of uninfected animals, which is not what we were led to believe with al the engineering on site – again this is lack of communication and no-one is sure of the facts. DEFRA also are only guaranteeing funding for this site for the next 5 years and it is worrying who’s burden this will become after then.?\nA variety of other issues were discussed – health, roads, handling of outbreak, vaccination etc.\nAfter the meeting I was glad I had been, however I felt rather angry by the way in which the questions are handled. The answers are often vague, have no supporting evidence or are dismissed with “I’ll have to get back to you on that” or, “I can’t comment”.\nIn my opinion many of the farmers, villagers etc just want this whole thing brought to an end. Ideally the remaining trenches filled in, a nature reserve created and maintained. There were no guarantees of the site not being used again or funding after the next five years. Will this ever be achieved?\nOn Saturday morning [fiance] and I decided to go away for a short break to somewhere near and where we could take [dog]. It was a spontaneous decision for the Jubilee and because it was half term, I was not at college. We ended up going to a caravan site with [dog] for 4 nights! I will update about my holiday in the next diary!\n\nClipping from News and Star here – story about Great Orton public meeting and villagers’ request not to have site used again in the event of future emergencies. \n\n\nHOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 3rd June\n\n\nWeek 15 10th June\nI am writing this a couple of days early just to tell you about our holiday! It was lovely! In the end we hadn't yet received the brochure on the camping barns so on Saturday we decided we would like to go away as son as possible and would like something for the Jubilee weekend. After finding a caravan at Caldbeck, not far away, relatively quiet, we went. By 5 pm on Saturday, [fiance] [dog] and I were there! It was a lovely caravan site; lovely caravan and even a TV for the World Cup!\nThe caravan site was surrounded by common land sheep - lovely and quiet and a lot of places to keep [dog] occupied. We were so surprised at how quiet the campsite was over the Jubilee weekend but thought most of the people actually lived there. It would be lovely in the future to have a small caravan there to go away to!\nThe surrounding places we went to were really busy for example Keswick, Bassenthwaite etc.\nI was quite surprised but thought it was great to see Cumbria lively again! What a contrast to what I would have imagined these places to be like a year ago! Especially for the Jubilee, everyone seemed to make such an effort - it was lovely to see!\nWe all had a lovely time, so relaxing! OI don't think [dog] has ever walked so far!\nWe were surprised that somewhere so close was exactly what we wanted! We were also happy we could put our money back into Cumbria. We would definitely go back!\nI feel so much more confident about the future especially in Cumbria after this week. If you didn't know about last year F&M outbreak in some cases it would be hard to tell! I really think Cumbria seems as if it could recover from this, hopefully.\n\nOn Saturday and Sunday - ill in bed.\n\n\nWeek 16 17th June\nWith the combination of not feeling very well at the beginning of the week; the car not running overt the week-end; and [dog] being in season, I haven't really been able to go anywhere this week. It has been quite frustrating but I have had work to do anyway. I still feel quite confident about the future this week after being on holiday. This is better than a couple of weeks ago after the FMD Inquiry meeting when I felt quite unsure at time of what was going to happen at Gt Orton.\nI had the F&M Panel newsletter and 'Watchtree Newsletter' (with Parish Magazine). I think both of these are good as you are able to gain information consistently about F&M in Cumbria, and in particular the burial site. This information would be difficult to come by otherwise. In particular I enjoyed reading about children at Milburn School with their memories of the F&M outbreak and the effort they have made.\n\n\nResearcher had spoken with respondent about possibility of monthly diary and she decided to start straight away - so although middle of month, here follows monthly write up. She continued to record her diary in this way. At times she offers short daily entries, drawing 4 weeks together within an overall reflective piece. These daily entries are also recorded . \n\n\nWeek 20 15th July \n(Writing up after 4 weeks)\nI am looking forward to attending the social evening in Dalston. I am a bit nervous as am not used to doing these sorts of things but think it will be a good experience. I was also pleased when I got the F&M panel newsletter and saw the article I made notes for. I have never done anything like this before and was quite pleased about the whole thing! \nOn the Saturday of week one, [fiance] and I went down to [fiance]'s Grandad's and noticed there were more signs up for land being for sale. Again we both think this is quite sad as the area will inevitable be changing in the near future. We wonder how much of the land will be reused for farming or sold for new houses. Taking into consideration the signs we have seen up in the past, quite a bit of land is going to change.\nOver the past weeks I have also received the 'Watchtree' newsletter with our parish magazine. I still think this is a good idea and worthwhile as you are updated every so often. This will also reach everyone in the village, so easily accessible.\nOver a period of a few days in week 2 of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed a strange smell outside. We could smell it here but not at [fiance]'s Grandad's which is only 2 miles away. It smelt just like a burning smell, so I am not sure whether it had anything to do with the burial site or anything being done up there. I just thought I would mention it anyway!\nLast Wednesday I rang up the Archaeological Support group in Carlisle of which I have been a member for the past year and a half. I had never been sent anything to do with it for along time and wondered why. It turns out that last year as soon as F&M hit Cumbria, everything was cancelled and stopped. This I knew at the time and there was nothing else that could have happened. The thing I didn't realise was that things have been so badly affected that nothing has been arranged as yet, even so many months after F&M broke out. Once again this is another example of how things have been affected still so many months after. There is also uncertainty about the future of this archaeology group as nothing has been decided yet and it will depend on how things go. This is a pity and I hope things pick up in the future!\nOn the first week of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed that we were coughing a bit more, especially at night and early in the morning. Since then [fiance] has got better and is not coughing as much but now I have got a sore throat and a cold. I don't think this is anything to do with the burial site or anything, but we were not sure about the coughing and I thought I would mention it.\n\n\n12th August - Writing up after 4 weeks\nI do not feel quite as nervous now as I did about the evening at Dalston Village hall. It was a bit intimidating at first as I was going on the same night as frontline workers and health professionals. I felt a bit out of my depth when I wondered what sort of stories they would be telling, compared to what I had seen. These people would have had to deal with the situation first hand and must have seen some terrible things. After a couple of weeks I grew used to the idea and didn't feel as bad, it would turn out to be a good experience. As it turns out the evening is now on the 21st August and everyone is going together, things will be a bit more relaxed for me, I think. I hope I will be able to make it!\nThe one major event that has made me think over the past couple of week is [fiance]'s Auntie Jean who has moved house from Orton Grange (2 miles away from us) into the middle of town. It made me think that i definitely wouldn't like to move back into the middle of Carlisle after living here. Even though it hasn't been the most pleasant at times here with F&M last year and the building of the burial site, I would still miss everything about it. Once again I am reminded how lucky I am to be surrounded by fields, cows, sheep and a horse in the overlooking field. It is also usually quiet and peaceful - I can imagine quite different to the middle of Carlisle. I think Jean will miss it quite a lot!\nJust over a week ago, [fiance] and I were busy getting our garden ready for the Village in Bloom. It was good to see everyone making an effort to everything looking nice. Everything felt a bit more normal this year, whereas last year I think the Village in Bloom was the last thing on most people's minds! It made me feel more confident about the future! Perhaps everything or most things may return to normal eventually!\n\nWeek 24 12th August \nNothing extremely significant concerning F&M has happened this week.\nI have noticed, though, now when working at village pub – Wellington – even though I only do 1 day, it has really become quite busy. I think business has improved after they tried more advertising. I can remember back to during the Foot and Mouth outbreak – it was very quiet, most people stayed away and the atmosphere in the pub was very depressing. Now, over a year later things do seem to be picking up again and perhaps returning more to normal. It is god to see!\n\n\nMonday 19th August\nAll in all it has been a quiet week, I haven’t really been out very much and not feeling well really. I was a bit disappointed not being able to attend the social evening o Wednesday as my Mom was unable to get time off work or change her shift.\n\n26th August \nFirst of all we were noticing problems with our goldfish – when we first got them about two and a half years ago we had very few problems with them. Over the past few months they have been getting ill. We have tried all sorts (different chemicals) and still they have all died except one. Omar, [fiance]’s cousin, who breeds fish came and had a look and was baffled! The only explanation is that the chemicals have been changed or increased, for example the chlorine which there appears to be a lot more of. We obviously aren’t totally sure what the problem is but thought we should mention it anyway.\nThis week I also noticed the banner opposite the village shop in the village. I have enclosed an article about this banner which appeared in the Cumberland News this week. I think this sums up the mood I have noticed at the village meetings. Nothing has yet been done to help the villagers etc, so what difference have the promises made?\nThis is the main reason why I feel less confident about the future this week regarding foot and mouth as these things are still dragging on.\n\n\nMonday 2nd September\nDuring the first week of these diaries nothing really significant happened regarding foot and mouth. I did comment, however, that when working at the pub on Sundays, how busy the pub was and how business had seemed to improve a lot from what I had seen during the foot and mouth crisis. The atmosphere then had been depressing. This made me feel more confident about the future regarding foot and mouth as another aspect of the foot and mouth had seemed to return back to normal.\nThis mood however did change during the third week of these diaries when I felt less confident about the future. It all began when our goldfish started dying apart from oner. We still are not sure exactly what caused it and are not sure whether or not it was because of the water here or something we did. There just seems to be that little bit of doubt in my mind as you don’t feel totally sure about what is happening in this area still, and therefore, I don’t think, really trust the organisations dealing with these issues. The other thing that seemed to sum up some of my feelings was the banner which appeared opposite the village shop last week . I think this shows the desperation and lengths some of the people in the village have to go through in order to get noticed and heard. It seems ridiculous that the same basic issues brought up in the earlier meetings have still not been dealt with. It does make you lose the trust you had in the organisations involved (article enclosed).\nThis past week has been a little better, however, not that good. I did receive the Watchtree Newsletter, in the Parish magazine, which is still good to receive as it updates you on a number of different aspects of the burial site.\nI also heard about the article in the newspaper regarding this inquiry from Cathy as well as my Mom who has saved it for me but as yet I have not read it. I will comment on this in my next diary. \n\n\n9-15 September\nMonday\nGot free News & Star last week and found article on F&M diaries – not too bothered that it has been printed myself.\nTuesday\nSaw Cathy – said about articles – not too bothered myself but can see why otherwise involved would be as things are not represented in the right way and are misleading. Good point though is that it may catch people’s attention – and get the point across that people are still suffering. Got article from Cumberland news – Mum.\nSaturday\nFound article in Cumberland News regarding Village in Bloom – won a trophy for our special efforts in village in aftermath of F&M crisis (Mark Andrews trophy).\n\n\n16-22 September\nMonday\n[fiance] and I noticed a burning smell when we came back home in the evening. Not sure what it is from – reminds us of F&M crisis.\nWednesday\nRoad works in village – didn’t affect us too much.\nThursday\nRoad works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s – annoying at times – has taken such a long time to do – reminds us of F&M crisis. [fiance] and I noticed a burning smell again – not sure where from.\nFriday\nGood that Watchtree Newsletter told us of these road works as wouldn’t have known.\nSaturday\nThese aspects aren’t too bad on their own but the atmosphere reminds you of the F&M crisis last year.\n\n\n23-29 September\nMonday\nRead the Diarist and also had a look at the Inquiry Report I was sent after attending the village meeting.\nTuesday\nHave not had time to read very much of it but I will get round to it and then comment on it.\nFriday\nParish magazine and Watchtree Newsletter – still good to be updated on what is going on – 1. Roads and 2. Visiting the site.\n\n\n30-6th October\nMonday\nRang up to book table at the Autumn Fayre being done in village hall – people pleased that people in village getting involved!\nTuesday\nWater has been quite bad especially on Tuesday – full of chlorine – had to leave for a while for everything to evaporate. Makes you quite concerned about whether or not it is safe to drink!\n\n\n6th October - Writing after 4 weeks \nDuring week I read the articles regarding those F&M diaries which appeared in the Cumberland News and the News and Star (they are enclosed). After reading these and speaking to C, I myself wasn’t too bothered or offended by what was written but could easily have seen why other people would have been specially if they are finding things really difficult. I think there is a good side to these articles as well though as they will have grabbed people’s attention and highlighted the fact that there are still problems regarding F&M this long after the crisis. Even though the articles were misleading they have also done some good! When reading the Cumberland News I also found a mention of Great Orton regarding the Village in Bloom. It turns out we were awarded the Mark Andrews trophy for special efforts during the aftermath of F&M. It would have been nice to win a better award but at least we were recognised for something! I was quite please!\n\nWeek 2 was probably the worst week I have had during the past month regarding F&M as the whole week just seemed to remind me of what it was like during the crisis!\nFirstly there were road works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s (only 2 miles away). I understand these had to be carried out but it made it difficult and inconvenient to get to [fiance]’s Grandad’s as you didn’t know which roads were gong to be closed when! Now that the work has been done everyone that I have spoken to about it think they will cause more trouble than before as when you pull out of the lay bys it is dangerous as the grass and verge have not been smoothed out. I think they are alright if you already know the roads but I wouldn’t be as confident if I hadn’t driven on them before!\nThe other aspect which made the road works seem worse were two instances when [fiance] and I both noticed a burning smell (Monday and Thursday). We were not sure where this came from but it still reminded us of the crisis.\n\nOn week 3 I received a copy of the F&M Inquiry and glad I went to a meting in the village – sometimes it feels good to be involved even though in such a small way!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ newsletter and ‘Watchtree’ newsletter which I am still glad I receive. Without the Watchtree Newsletter I don’t think I would have been informed of the road works being carried out! I am also glad the site is progressing and that people are now being given the opportunity to visit the site if they wish.\n\nOn week 4 there was only one major problem with our water. On Tuesday the water was that full of chlorine that we had to leave it for all the chlorine in it to evaporate, or boil it, even to give [dog] a drink! This is the second time this has happened and it does concern you as firstly why is this being done and secondly is the water safe to drink? We are not sure who to contact about this as last time we contacted United Utilities who said it was just routine and nothing to worry about! \n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\nNot much this week regarding FMD – think I have been too busy thinking about other things.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\nMonday\nRelaxing a bit today as going to be a busy day tomorrow and away on Wednesday.\nTuesday\n[fiance]’s exam – turned out to be quiet here today which was good for [fiance]’s exam as he did it at home – would have been difficult last year with pressure of F&M.\nWeds\nAway on holiday! It was a bit of a drive to what we are used to but we made it! Lovely views on way down and Hawkshead a lovely place!\nThursday\nThis holiday very well suited for [dog] as plenty of places to walk, a quiet campsite and shops and pubs which are suited for dogs – things she is not quite used to!\nFriday\nLovely to be away for a break away from Great Orton on the one hand but then you remember how nice it is where we are and how luck we are on the other hand.\nSunday\nHad a very good week and confident about the future.\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st October\nMonday\nHaving quiet week as just got back. Quite tired but coping ok – nice to be back in a way!\nWeds\nGot Watchtree Newsletters in Parish magazine. Also article out of News and Star (I think) – about renaming of site and farm that used to be there!\nThursday\nWatchtree Newsletter – interested in the Open Day – think it’s a good idea and will be very interesting (especially geology and fossil remains found on site). I think would be beneficial as even though we live in the village and have been to the meetings – still have little idea of how the site looks now and will in the future!\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th October\nWeds\nWent to meet Mom in town. The roads into town were terrible. Mud on road everywhere and really busy with trucks etc. Must be where they are doing new building – hope it doesn’t get like this all the time as so much land round here seems to have been sold for new construction!\n Sat\nMom has got her own stall this week-end at the Craft Fair in the Village hall. 1st time she has done this – saw it in Parish newsletter.\n\n\n2nd November – Writing after 4 weeks\nThis past month has been one of the busiest I have had for a long time! Firstly there was [fiance]’s final exam – which was quite stressful for him at times, revising and everything! It reminded me of how difficult it had been when we were doing our first exams a year and a half before, during F&M crisis. Studying had been very difficult then due to constant interruptions and distractions – constant sound of trucks; smells; noise; tension! I’m so glad it wasn’t this bad this year as these things can be stressful enough!\nShortly after [fiance]’s exam, [fiance], my Mom and I went for a short break to Hawkshead. It was great! We all enjoyed it and [dog] especially! Everything was suited for [dog] – we took her shopping (there are benches and water bowls outside every shop!); we went for a bar meal and sat outside with her! And on our last night even too her with us and went for a pint. Apart from these things we also took her on plenty of walks! Being there made you realise how lovely Cumbria is and how people who don’t live here are attracted to it! It is a pity how Cumbria suffered during F&M crisis as it is such a lovely place! I do hope that due to the large amount of attractions in Cumbria that things will hopefully be back to normal as can be expected! I was quite surprised at how busy things were for that time of year – it seems things must be improving which makes you confident! I enjoyed my break but you realise maybe Great Orton isn’t such a bad place to come back to!\nDuring the past month I have also received the Watchtree Newsletter. I’m quite interested in the Open Day later on this month – I think it will be very interesting. I’m really interested in the geology, history of the site and also fossils found there during this work. I don’t know much about how the site looks or how it will be in the future. It is amazing that you can live so near but still have no idea of what it is like! All I can seem to remember are the pictures that were shown on the news months ago – it seems difficult to imagine it any different!\nThis past week has been very busy as my Mom is having a stall for the first time at the Craft fair in the village hall! I have been helping her a little bit and helped her on the stall (I just sat with her really!). She decided to have a go as she likes crafts and is always making things! It was nice to be involved in the village and the money from the hiring of the stalls went to the church which is good! It was very quiet on Saturday though and apparently that was the worst it’s been for a few years! I wonder if this is an effect of the F&M, however the weather and other factors may have contributed!\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 11th November\nTuesday\n[fiance] – Doctors\nWednesday\nMe Dentist and in town with Mam. Missed the Exhibition at the Village Hall, disappointed but got an article from the Cumberland News (this is included). I haven’t spoke with anyone that went – no-one has mentioned anything to me. Disappointed I missed it and also because this is probably one of the only opportunities we will get to know anything.\n[fiance] and I both agree it is still like a big secret – no-one really allowed in and out. It doesn’t feel like local people are benefiting at all! Is it anything to do with us really?\nFriday\nChildren in Need at the pub yesterday – nice to see people taking part again – big difference to during Foot and Mouth. We just made a donation, it was a bit busy for us. £1045 raised!\nSunday\nWork at pub – still very busy the pub – at least it seems to have recovered after F&M, but from what I have heard they did suffer badly, along with the other businesses here!\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November \t\nTuesday\nShould have been playing darts at Port Carlisle. Had a break for a week – the thing that is worrying about playing darts away is the travelling – some of the country roads round here are terrible! Is this because of the wagons? – especially near Wiggonby!\nThe road at [fiance]’s Granddad just gets worse! It’s just mud and less grass! Terrible! Is it because of damage done by wagons and a combination of all the flooding in the area now?\nSaturday\n[fiance] and I talking about how the area has changed! We remembered back to 4 years ago when we used to go to the airfield/burial site for some peace. Even though only rubble then, really enjoyed it there. We could take the dog, had first driving lesson off [fiance] - not again! Had some fun and really miss it at times. Nowhere round here anymore to get peace! Can’t even enjoy the nature reserve – very frustrating! \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th November\nMonday\nKeep realising when doing diaries that haven’t had a chance to look at Cumbria Foot and Mouth disease inquiry report – will have to make time for it soon!\nSaturday\nWhen I was at pub – talking about new fence on park for children. General mood is, not very pleased as it doesn’t fit into a country village setting and nothing else done!\nSunday\nCan’t believe it is the beginning of December! Everything is passing too quick. Inevitable! \n\n31st November – Writing up after 4 weeks\nThe past 4 weeks have been very busy compared to what I am used to and at the same time have been quite frustrating in a few ways! The issues which have bothered [fiance] and I most are mainly to do with the onset of winter, which of course is inevitable but this year they seem to be worse than we can previously remember since living here in winter!\n\nThe biggest issue is the state of the roads in the village and round about, it is terrible! With the amount of rain we have had there are puddles everywhere and everything is turning to mud! The worst thing is that it is very difficult to walk or take [dog] anywhere which is frustrating. You either get absolutely filthy or when walking down the roads you have to get soaked on the sides of the roads to avoid cars and going down the lonning isn’t really an option as it is really muddy and there has been dumping. We understand most of this will be due to the weather but we are sure some of it on the roads is due to all the traffic there has been, especially at [fiance]’s Granddad's. Outside the front of his gate and garden, the grass has gradually been stripped away and has now turned to mud. In all the ears he has lived there (50 years) he has never seen it as bad!\nThe roads aren’t like this just nearby, I have noticed other roads round about are also in a bad state when I have travelled away to other nearby village pubs when playing darts.\nI was disappointed when I missed the exhibition, at the Village hall, about the Watchtree Reserve as I had to go up town, etc. I have not spoken to anyone I know that attended the exhibition, but wish there were more opportunities to learn more about it. I did find a newspaper article (enclosed) about the Watchtree. It is quite annoying that this won’t be open to the public. It is understandable why this isn't possible but then on the other hand it is not benefiting anyone really who lives nearby.\n[fiance] and I still remember back to when the airfield was still there and it was a lovely place to go walking and to relax by getting away from everything. It used to be lovely and quiet and was also so nearby. We do actually quite miss it sometimes as there is nowhere else like that round here now.\nEven though there have been quite a few negative issues this past month, it has also been encouraging when I have been working at the pub. It has been very busy when I have been there showing that it must be recovering from the effect of the Foot and Mouth crisis. It was also encouraging when there was a night held for Children in Need when they raised approx. £1045. It is good to see people involved and happy again! One thing which I did notice was that the general mood about the improvements made to the park was not very good. People were not impressed that the new fence does not look like it belongs to the country at all and that that is all that has changed. I have not had time but will go and have a look for myself!\n\n\n December 2002 – Writing up after 4 weeks\nAverage – I haven’t felt too bad over Christmas – a little tired but since I have got a bit of a cold and sore throat – not surprising at this time of year!\nAverage – I think it has been all right, haven’t been able to walk very far near village due to weather and roads – but this isn’t surprising at this time of year!\nThese past 4 weeks have been rather hectic with Christmas and everything but I have still had quite a bit to write in my diaries concerning foot and mouth.\nI received the Parish magazine for December in which there was a thank you to all involved in the Craft Fayre and there was £1 008 raised for St Giles church. It was good to be able to contribute to something in the village (well it was my Mum really, but I helped!). It is good to see these sorts of things happening here – it’s good for the village after everything!\nI also received the Watchtree Newsletter in the Parish magazine . It is still good to receive this as it updates you on everything and also had information regarding the exhibition at the village hall, which I missed.. I am glad it was a success and people attended, especially the school children who were taken!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ which is good to read. It is interesting to see what other panel members are up to – and is surprising what things can lead to! For example the diarist and the Samson tractor!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also collected a couple of articles from the Cumberland News. The first one, ‘Lie returns to Watchtree’ actually made me feel better that we were going to get something positive out of this whole experience – but the only problem is that at some moments in time this won’t be enough for some people involved as it does not change what happened and won’t make up for what has been lost! I think it just depends on how you are feeling at the time when reading the articles. The other article , ‘Village in running for top country award’, was also quite pleasing as at least we, as a village, are being remembered and recognised for what we went through. It is surprising that now so long after the actual Foot and Mouth crisis that we are finally being recognised and so many things are now being written in the paper!\nOver the Christmas period I have only really had one thing to complain about and that is the state of the roads! After the rain, the roads have been terrible to drive on with the flooding and the road sides turning into mud! Everything is filthy! I know this is expected in winter, out in the country but since I have been here it has never been so bad, especially at [fiance]’s Grandad’s!\nOne improvement is the signs which have been put up at the passing places between here and [fiance]’s Grandad. [fiance] and I both think these are much, much better and a lot safer! We have also spotted a couple of signs from ‘Watchtree’, which have been up now for a while, but are still surprising to see!\nNow it is time to start everything again the New Year and hopefully this will be a better year for Great Orton than the past couple has been! I am glad it is going to be quiet here now for when I start my studying, as opposed to the foot and mouth when studying was very, very difficult!\n\n\nMonday 27th January – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThis week I found an article in the Daily mail which I thought was relevant. It is called ‘Boom and Doom’ and is about house prices all over England. For 2002, prices in North Yorkshire rose by 66% but in Allerdale they only rose by 8%. It did not mention why this was but some of it must be the result of the Foot and Mouth crisis and the effect on the area since then. This made me think about the effect on Great Orton and how difficult it would probably be to sell houses here, and if people would really want to move here. There are two sides however, as if more property was built in Great Orton and the surrounding area, things would probably change and Great Orton might lose some of its farming background. I definitely wouldn't want it to change too much, despite the burial site, I like it just the way it is! \nThe great thing about this week is the weather, for once! We have been able to go down the lonning with [dog] without getting filthy as it is frosty! It has been great!\n\nI can’t believe how quickly 2003 is passing! It is February already! This past month has been totally hectic with appointments; arrangement; birthdays and the Open University! It makes you realise that whatever happens, time goes on! I think this must have been very difficult for people directly involved in the Foot and Mouth crisis, as life would have had to carry on despite whatever was going on in their own lives. I think as time has gone on I have got more used to the idea of ‘Watchtree’ and accept it more now!\nI received the ‘Watchtree News’ during the previous week. It is good to hear that the restoration and creation of the site is finally complete. Overall, I don’t think it has taken as long as I thought it would for the nature reserve to be established, especially when you compare it to how long it has taken for the children’s playground to be improved! Nearly two years after the Foot and Mouth crisis! However it is better late than never!\nI am pleased at how the nature reserve sounds, with al the different species of animal which had been included or seen, especially the ‘merlin’, the smallest bird of prey, which was sited. [fiance] and I both find these things very interesting! It is good that this is happening so close to us! Last year we travelled to see the Osprey viewpoint, it was great!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also found a few more articles. Two of these are regarding the ’20 day standstill’. With not been directly involved in the farming side of the foot and mouth crisis, I am not totally sure about all these sorts of rules, etc, but think it is good that at least things are trying to be improved for the future in case this may happen again and also as a result of learning from past events. There was also an article showing ‘Watchtree’ as a finalist for the ‘Environmental Project Award’.\nI definitely think that ‘Watchtree’ deserves to be considered for this award as so much has happened here and at least some good is going to come out of it! It would be nice to get this sort of award in recognition of the hard work of the people involved!\nI think this year will hopefully be a better one for Cumbria, and people may have confidence. Even though the Foot and Mouth crisis was a tragedy, I think Cumbria and the people in it are able to recover from it as people from the newspaper articles, seem more optimistic and this rubs off on you! I think this year will be a better one and feel more confident about the future at this point! \n\n\nMonday 24th February – Writing up after 4 weeks \nSo far these past four weeks I have not receive a ‘Watchtree newsletter’ but there was a small mention in the parish magazine about he playground. Work is underway and it is hoped to be finished by the summer. It seems to be taking a long time to get the playground sorted but at least it will be good for the kids in the summer holidays. It is better late than never!\nThere is only one thing that has bothered us over these past weeks, our fish. Whenever we change the water, the fish seem to be ill and now we have had to add more and more chemicals to reduce the amount of chlorine that seems to be in the water. We did originally start off with 13 fish and now only have 2 left. It does make you worry about the state of our water and why more chemicals are possibly being added. The fact that the burial site is so near, does make you worry if that is anything to do with it.\n\nOver the past four weeks I have been very confident about the future regarding foot and mouth. With the sun shining again and the animals about – it seems as if nothing bad has happened here. But you know that for some people involved in the crisis, the future will never be that easy or simple and I do feel sympathy for them. For me, it seems possible to be able to move on now after the crisis and it has been good to see the sheep and cows about, and [fiance] has even seen a couple of birds of prey! We are not sure what they were, but think one might have been a Merlin, which was mentioned in a previous ‘Watchtree Newsletter’ as being seen on site. The article called ‘Record tourism figures for county’ was encouraging and shows that Cumbria may be starting to recover after the Foot and Mouth crisis.\nI also found another article called ‘Fears over bovine TB time bomb’. I think this is worrying and should definitely be taken seriously, as it would be devastating to farmers and everyone in the county!\nIn the past fortnight it has also been my Mam’s birthday. She was really looking forward to spending some time out here and we went to Bowness for the afternoon with [dog]. Once again, you realise how lovely it is out here and how much it should be appreciated.\nOverall in my opinion the situation in Cumbria over the past year has definitely improved and will hopefully continue to do so!\n\n\n24th March – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThese past four weeks have been rather strange and worrying! First of all, there was the death of Simon Harris, a man from the village, who you would regularly see walking dogs and looking at the horses. Despite what most of the papers have said about him, to me he was always polite and possibly just a bit shy. I have enclosed an article about him that was in the paper shortly after his death. The headline is not very nice but the article does include some of the best comments about Simon. I was quite shocked by the whole thing and think it could definitely have been handled better by the papers. The people in the village could also have been a bit more respectful, I do not think it was their place to comment in the way that they did.\nSecondly the whole issue of war with Iraq is a worrying subject. Neither [fiance] or I agree with what is being done and how it is being carried out! It is a particularly worrying time for [fiance]’s Aunty, as her husband lives in Kuwait, with the rest of his family. She came to England, where she is originally from with her two children during the last Gulf war. She knows all too well what the danger are and what is involved!\nIt is a very worrying subject where you feel totally helpless and at the same time cannot get away from it! However, life still carries on, as harsh as it may be! I thought of this when looking at the past diaries I have written and how many have accumulated! It is strange how quickly time goes by and how people are just expected to cope and carry on. I thought, in particular, of the people worst affected by the foot and mouth crisis; how helpless they must have felt, and how they coped! Life can be a funny thing!\nLooking back, I think this project has been very worth while and think it is great that they will be archived for the future. Writing these diaries seems to have become part of my routine now, and I think it will definitely be strange when I no longer have to write them!\n\nI have found quite a few newspaper articles over the past four weeks. “Donella rebuilds the Cumberland Show” was encouraging about the future of Cumbria after the foot and mouth crisis, however there are still worrying issues arising, such as in the articles of ‘MP calls for vaccination to keep F&M under control”; and, “From Uruguay with a threat”, which highlight issues of important to the farming industry.\nI have also been very busy over the past few weeks, as my second assignment was due for my university work, which was quite hectic! I have had a break for the past couple of days as I have not been very well, a bad cough, sore throat and stomach and a stuffy nose! I haven’t done too badly over the winter months with illnesses, so I can’t really complain! Lastly our water hasn’t been of the best quality lately! On occasions it is white and fizzes, not the most appetizing!! \n\n\n21st April Writing up after 4 weeks\nThese past 4 weeks have just seem to fly by! Quite a few good things have happened and even though I am feeling quite tired, I have had a good month!\nFirstly [fiance], [dog] and I have finally go t a small space of our own! We have got an allotment about 8 miles away and it is surrounded by horses and fields. It belongs to a man who lives there and owns all the land roundabout, but unfortunately he is no longer well enough to work the land, so has let us have it! It will need a lot of work but will be good for us! So far we have got potatoes, raspberries and rhubarb growing! [dog] even helps to dig! Even though we live in the country, on our own block it is not always that easy to get any peace!\nWe have also had the opportunity to join the ‘Cumbria Wildlife Trust’. A leaflet came through our door and we thought it would be brilliant as we would be kept up-to-date with all the latest goings on in Cumbria; learn a lot more about the wildlife and also possibly get the chance to do some voluntary work! [fiance] and I are really interested and think it is great. We get sent though a certain number of magazines every year and every month we send a small donation so we feel like we are helping a little bit as well! The article which I found in one of the magazines id enclosed on the next page!\nThe other thing which has made my month is knowing that we are going to Hawkshead again! My Mam, [fiance], [dog] and I are going for a short break, just 3 nights for my birthday! We have got it all booked and are really looking forward to it! It was great last time especially for [dog]! I just hope she doesn’t get stuck under the bed in the caravan this time, as she is a bit bigger now than she was then!\nThis past week I have also been in touch with my Dad in South Africa as it was his birthday. It turns out that he may be passing through Carlisle for a couple of days at the end of next week. It would be lovely to see him again and I think he will love Great Orton and our allotment. I think he has always liked the thought of living in the country and would love to retire to somewhere nice and quiet! Things will also have improved and we have grown up a bit since he was last here, about 3 years ago! It should be good! It is funny that after living in South Africa for so long, he is still drawn to the lifestyle in Cumbria!\nLastly, I have made a note of the final meeting for the foot and mouth diaries and hope to be there! I bet it passes really quickly now and will be over before I know it! How strange! \n\n28th April – 4th May \nMonday\nGot 3 articles from Cumberland news, April 25th 2003 “Breeders hit out discrimination”, “FMD burial site celebrates new life” and my favourite “its a dog’s life for Rosie the lamb”\nTuesday\nSaw C\nFriday\nNoticed the park is coming on a bit better for the children. It was mentioned in the Orton Parish – awarded £25, 000 to reference, drain, level and re-seed. New play equipment will follow.\nSaturday\nSome of the children were allowed to attend meetings to discuss it. Good to involve children & about time too! At least children will be able to play football.\n\n\n5th – 11th May\nTuesday\nWorking really hard, have to get assignment posted off tomorrow night before we go away on Thursday. Hectic!\nWednesday\nService held at Watchtree – unable to go but think it was a very good idea. Newspaper article enclosed was written before the service.\nThursday\nAway to Hawskhead! Exciting!\nFriday\nMy birthday! Had a lovely day – went shopping in the morning, to forest in the afternoon and for a meal at night. Lovely!\nSunday\nBack from holiday already! It was lovely! Everyone was so friendly or perhaps we just noticed it more there.\n\n\n12th – 18th May\nTuesday\n[fiance] at doctors – not very well, he has got a viral infection as well as fluid behind his ears. Told to just take it easy!\nWednesday\nI have been sent info to chose courses for Open University that I would like to do next year and in the future. Am going to take the “Environmental Studies” route, hopefully leading to “Diploma in Environment and Development” and possibly further to BA/BSc in Environmental Studies. I did like archaeology but think what I am doing is a lot more relevant to the future, Foot and Mouth and Watchtree made me realise that.\nFriday\nGot Watchtree newsletter this week, I will enclose it this time as it covers quite a few areas and has a bit of information. There is information about the service held, awards that have been won and also new wildlife which are now present on the site – Lapwings, Oystercatchers and Ringed Plovers. \n\n\n19th – 25th May 2003\nTuesday\nDad has come to visit for a couple of days from South Africa. Nice surprise, enjoyed seeing him. Dad asking about FMD crisis (he saw it on TV over there) and how close it was. I think he was quite shocked!\nThursday\nI was surprised that even though South Africa is so different he would still like to live somewhere in this country. Makes you think again how lucky you are and what you take for granted!\nSaturday\nArticle from Cumberland News – May 23 – “Reward for post – foot and mouth achievements”.\n\n\n25th May – Writing up after 4 weeks\nEvery time I come to write these diaries I look back over the past four weeks and notice they are becoming more and more busy, the past couple of weeks have been no exception! It is already nearly half way through the year, I can’t believe it!\n\tOver the past 4 weeks, I have been on holiday, turned 22 and my dad had popped over from South Africa for a few days! Hectic but good! Firstly, Hawkshead was lovely again! I wouldn’t say anything different – it was great! We all had a lovely time and I had a really good birthday! When you are at home in Great Orton you forget how much is really out there in Cumbria to do and see! We definitely think we should take advantage of it more often.\n\tShortly after we arrived back from Hawkshead, my dad popped up to Carlisle for a couple of days. It was a lovely surprise and it was good to see him! He absolutely loves it where we are and thinks we are very lucky – even though South Africa is so different, he still thinks it is lovely out here, looking out onto fields. This did make me realise how lucky we are, despite what happened due to foot and mouth. Inevitably, sometimes we do take it for granted! My dad remembered watching about the foot and mouth crisis in South Africa but did not realise exactly how close it was! I think he was quite shocked!\n\tFoot and mouth has definitely made me more aware of my surroundings and how everything works. I have definitely noticed this when I have been doing my studying for Open University. I am now at the point where I can chose my courses next year and therefore which path I am going to take. I have decided to take courses leading to a Diploma in Environment and Development and if everything goes to plan for an Environmental Studies degree. I am really enjoying what I am doing at the minute, and think it is definitely useful and relevant for the future. I did enjoy studying Archaeology but think the environment and related issues are more important at the present and in the future.\n\tOn the 7th May there was a memorial service at Watchtree to mark a two year anniversary from when the last animal was buried at the site. I think this was a good idea and it is appropriate to remember the animals that were killed. I was unable to attend the service but have managed to get a newspaper article about it and it was also mentioned in the Watchtree Newsletter. I have included this newsletter in with these diaries at it contains quite a bit of information on a few different aspects, I think it is good about the wildlife which is emerging on the site.\n\tThe park or play area for children is also coming on fairly well, at last! It has finally been reseeded as well as levelled, it looks better! I have also included 4 newspaper articles from the Cumberland news, with my favourite being “Rosie the lamb”. I have put this article in as I thought it was lovely.\n\n\n22nd June 2004 – Writing up after 4 weeks \nHow strange it seems that all this is coming to an end, and really how quickly time has passed. In my situation, I would say that time has healed a few aspects of the foot and mouth crisis and things don’t seem so bad 18 months on!\nI enjoyed the foot and mouth evening and learnt a lot from it about other people’s views and experiences. I enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would and thought that the main themes found during the research were ones which I would have agreed with! One thing which was said which has made me think was the comment that these diaries would be our type of memorial. I had never once thought of this research in that sort of way, but the more I think about it, the more I agree and like the idea! It definitely has been worthwhile being able to contribute to something especially if it may be able to help in some way in the future!\nWhen compared to the article that I found in the Cumberland News about a man’s memorial to the animals that he lost during foot and mouth I definitely think ours is more fitting and will probably do some good! I understand everyone has the right to express their views in their own way but to me this was too loud and too inappropriate! However each to their own and at the end of the day at least people are trying to remember in a good way as opposed to ‘sweeping it under the carpet’!\nThe week of the foot and mouth evening we were without a car and noticed how much we relied on it and took it for granted, especially out here as there is a very limited bus service! Everything is sorted out now and we are back to normal with a newer little car! Thank you very much C for the lift there and back!\nIn general the past few months just seem to have flown by and in particular the past couple of weeks! I don’t seem to have time to fit everything in, and am trying to get my assignments done on time! It turns out to be quite a bit more difficult than I thought! It is hard work but will definitely be worth it in th end – over the past 6 months even I have learnt so much!\nThe next special occasion which is coming up is [fiance]’s birthday 21st July! We are thinking of going back to Hawkshead again for a few days! We really like it there and I’m sure will return again and again! It just shows you that you don’t need to leave Cumbria to have a good holiday!\nWell, here we are at the end! It just makes me wonder what life will be like in 18 months from now! Will things be any different? They probably will be in some ways and hopefully will be for the best!\n\n\n20th July – Writing up after 4 weeks\nIt does seem very strange to be sitting down to write my last lot of diaries. It feels good to have completed something as worthwhile as this! As well as it hopefully doing some good in the future concerning foot and mouth crisis or any other similar situation, I also find it has helped me to become a bit more confident and aware of things around me. I remember back to when I attended my first meeting and how nervous I was! I think I can handle things like that a bit better now!\nWe have just got back from holiday! We had a lovely time and did so much! We went walking with [dog] to many places and they are all free! It just shows you what a good holiday you can have in Cumbria on a cheap budget! You don’t need much else! The only disappointing thing is that some of the places [fiance] and I had been to in the past are now closed as they have been sold. This has not yet happened to Talkin Tarn and I definitely think it should be given to the Cumbria Wildlife Trust as people would still have access to it.\n[fiance] and I both agree that the countryside is recovering and it is great to be able to wander about again.\nI have collected a few more articles from the Cumberland News related to Foot and Mouth. It is good to see breeders doing well again and people getting back into the swing of things!\nI would just like to thank everyone involved for involving me in this project and I wish them all the best in the future!\n
## 6 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 5\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\nWeek 1\nMonday 11th March 2002\nWhilst watching the local TV news at 6 p.m. there was a news item that caused us to reflect back on the events a year ago. A young lady had just left a court where she had been found guilty of assaulting a Police Officer and also being in change of an offensive weapon -–a knife. The judge had acquitted her of the offences, he showed leniency towards her. Last year during the FMD crisis she had returned to her home to find that her pet goat had been killed by slaughterers because the animal was within the 3 km radius. She had gone berserk over this and threatened the Police Officer and others with the knife. She had to be forcibly restrained, she was very distraught over this killing.\nEven after she had appeared in court and had been acquitted of all charges she showed great emotion not only being freed but also quite upset over the loss of the goat. Perhaps her actions didn’t happen to a lot of other people who had similar things happen to them. However, the loss of a lot of pet animals and in some cases, needless slaughter of many farm animals still creates unhappy memories of 2001.\n\n\nWeek 2\nTuesday\nWhilst walking the dog I met a farmer from the edge of the village who has friends and stock in close proximity to the 2 land fill sites.\nHe is still very concerned about materials on these sites. The nearest site contained hundreds of carcasses. This has been completed and capped. He is concerned about leachate from this site and feels that it doesn’t matter how much clay and soil were used to contain this site, the effects of heavy rain is bound to find a way down and also to drain it. He doesn’t want to plough these fields, nor can he sell stock that have grazed the same fields.\nThere is pyre ash being tipped on the other site. Again, what happens to the rainwater that runs off this site? Also there are concerns about the large flocks of seagulls that visit both sites daily.\nAnother concern is what is happening to the open-cast coal site that is situated almost due south of Gilgarran Village. The farmer I talked to today is concerned about this huge site. No coal has been moved from this site for months. There are concerns that this site is going to be filled with waste. Will it be from FMD sites? We, as a village, are very concerned about rumours of land fill on a huge scale. \nFriday\nNoticed that there was work being carried out on the top of the burial site. No villagers have commented on this, despite large yellow diggers operating.\nSunday\nWork continuing on the burial site. Cannot make out what kind of work is being done there\n\n\nWeek 3\nMonday\nWork is still going on at the burial site. I still don’t know what is going on, but the diggers involved are the same as when animals were being buried there. When animals were being buried there last year, the smell coming from that site was terrible to say the least! It was not coming from the dead animals as most observers thought, but from decomposing waste material that had already been buried on the site prior to FMD.\nWhen excavators dug into the soil to make trenches for the dead animals, they dug into this decomposing matter, hence the terrible smell. Despite the work that is going on there today, no comments from villagers are forthcoming. It seems to me that now that FMD has gone, the general public are not interested any more, unless they read something in the local papers written by some enterprising reporter!\n\n\nWeek 4\nTuesday\nWork is still going on in the former burial site. Villagers don’t seem to be bothered. FMD is gone, so nobody is interested any more.\nWednesday\nWhilst trying to gain comments from villagers over the effects of FMD, one or two comments from some individuals show concern about the outbreak last year, but don’t seem too concerned over any after effects, if any!\nTwo interesting comments suggest that (1) the outbreak was started deliberately by ‘this country’ in collusion with the agriculturists of the E.E.C so as to concentrate meat production in Europe and leave the UK to concentrate on arable farming; (2) The outbreak was started by a terrorist attack. The Government would not declare this because it would cause widespread panic.\nThursday 23:25 hours\nHuge fire at the site where pyre ash is being tipped. 250,000 used tyres caught fire. Arson is suspected. Fire fighters tried to contain the blaze, but couldn’t use large amounts of water in case water courses became contaminated.\nFriday 05:00\nFire still blazing at the pyre ash site. Later in the morning the fire was showing signs of dying down, apparently it was left to burn itself out. Much heavy smoke pollution was evident, drifting south west for about nine miles.\nReading the local evening paper about the blaze, there was also a report that villagers from Disington (1¾ miles from Gilgarran) were complaining of the foul smell from both waste sites. Parish councillors are very concerned about this. Does it coincide with work currently being carried out on the burial site?\nThe smell from these sites plus the fact that animals were buried on one site and pyre ash plus the huge fire from the other site all happening this week is causing concern in this area. But once this ‘hue and cry’ dies down, people will soon forget about it all.\n\n\nWeek 5\nMonday through to Friday, observed work on top of the burial site. Don’t know if any work is still going on on the northern and western sides. \nFriday\nLocal weekly paper carried the report on the recent large fire that occurred on the Alco site last week when 250,000 tyres caught fire somehow. It was intersting to read that the fire brigade did not use any water to extinguish the blaze in case pollution occurred in water courses. The fire was left to burn itself out.\nSaturday\nBurial site – it looks like there is new soil being tipped on top for some reason. No reported comments froim the Parish Council over this, despite very vociferous objections by them over the use of this and the Alco site in the past. \nSunday\nTalked to our local County Councillor (who lives in this village). He feels very strongly that these two sites are dangerous. He thinks that both sites are a health hazard risk due to obnoxious odours and in particular, the large fire that occurred last week which produced a lot of polluted smoke for a distance of six miles. Some people reckoned that the smell of burning tyres could be smelt here in Gilgarran. There have been numerous fires on these sites over the last few years. These fires give rise to compaliant by people like us, but more so from the nearer village of Distington (1¾ miles west of here). The councillor suggests that there could be more incidents of cancer cases in this area in coming years along with respiratory troubles as well as some cases of bronchitis related problems. He himself has recently suddenly started sinusitis, which he hasn’t had before. All in all, he wasn’t happy about the situation on both sites. We don’t know what is being tipped there, all we can do as a community is accept what we are being told by the site owners. As previously stated, animal carcasses were being tipped and buried for about three days before we were told officially that this was so.\nIncidentally, the site where animals are buried is owned by Cumbria County Council. This seems to be totally against the advice of County Council officials who look after the environment and the health of the population. As I’ve written before, there are going to be bigger concerns if the opencast coal site to the south of the village becomes a landfill site for refuse from parts of the county fifty miles away. At the moment there are no suggestions that anything from the FMD outbreak will be dumped there. Having said that, however, we as villagers didn’t know of carcasses being buried or pyre ash being tipped until after it had happened. We await the outcome of this coal site with some trepidation, after all, no coal has come from this site for some months. It has all the indication of becoming a land fill site.\n\n\nWeek 6\nMonday to Wednesday, if work is still ongoing at the burial site it is not visible from our side of the site. I still don’t know what is going on there. It may all be innocent and an improvement to the environment, after all, this is what the site owners have to do.\nThursday\nA delegation of MEPs visit the north of the county. They have come to assess the situation for themselves and to report back to the European Parliament. No doubt they will also report back to their own constituents in their own countries. The delegation visit the auction mart at Longtown where the disease was first noticed in this country and also visited the big burial site at Great Orton where it was estimated that half a million carcasses were buried. Good coverage by the local press, radio and T.V. gave anyone interested the views of the delegation.\nThursday – Saturday\nThe MEP delegation agreed that the FMD situation had been disastrous (we all know that!). Comments from some tourist and agriculture observers ranged from a ‘waste of time’ to ‘at least some politicians have bothered to visit us, our own couldn’t do that’ Personally, I think that some good came out of this, particularly when it was reported that the Dutch had used vaccination techniques when they had a small outbreak.\nMany people think that the British Government should have had a public inquiry into the outbreak. What have they to hide? Cumbria is holding its own inquiry – quite rightly so, other organisations such as Lancaster University are holding research into the outbreak. Why not the Government? Eventually we will know why, perhaps not in my lifetime though. The minister and MAFF have a lot to answer for.\n\n\nWeek 7\nThought it would be of interest to include copies of the newsletter that the local authorities issued to every household in the area regarding the disposal of carcasses and effluent. It will be of note that there was a fire last year on the Alco site, also involving tyres. Very similar to last years only not as big. A report on local T.V. today stated that the recent visit of MEPs to the area considered that vaccination should have been used at the outset and be should seriously considered should a future outbreak occur. Heard of reports of an outbreak of T.B. in cattle in other parts of the country. This was reported to be more serious than FMD should a major outbreak occur. This would lead to the question of disposal should the need arise. As I’ve already reported in previous entries, the use of the opencast coal site to the south-east of here is causing concern in some quarters. Although the site didn’t feature in the FMD crisis, there is a feeling that it is being earmarked for use in the future should the need arise or even the rumour of an incinerator is planned for there. The general feeling here and in the surrounding area is that we have had enough dumping of carcasses, effluent, toxic chemicals etc. It could be that the authorities have seen that the sites concerned have handled those substances before, that an extension of disposal sites in this area would be effective.\n\n\nWeek 8\nNothing of any significance to report this week.\n\n\nWeek 9\nNow that Cumbria’s FMD inquiry has started, a lot of people I have met this week recall the happenings of a year ago. Even more interesting is the coverage in the local press and T.V. Plenty of publicity by the media shows how little the Government an MAFF in particular let the farming and tourism industries of the county down. There has been plenty of distressing stories by farmers not only of infected animals being slaughtered but also the slaughtering of healthy animals in the 3 km circle of an outbreak. One particularly distressing point of evidence was when a farmer described to the panel the birth of a calf five days after it’s mother had been shot! We at the time of the outbreak were hearing these stories on a daily basis and still MAFF and Mr. Brown kept telling us that the outbreak was ‘under control’. All I can say at this point is may heaven help us when it all happens again.\n\n\nWeek 10\nWork is still going on at the burial site. It looks like new soil is being dumped on top of the actual site and ‘dozed’ to level it of and to smooth it out on the side. All we can do is accept that the management of the site are making it better for all concerned and that they are as concerned as we are. The much publicised Cumbrian FMD inquiry team visited the land fill site. They met local councillors who expressed their concern over this site and the Alco site. No other report was forthcoming from the team. The inquiry team finish their evidence gathering this week. One very important statement was made that the Minister of the Environment should make a statement over this outbreak and should even make a visit to these sites county-wide. There has been total silence from Mrs Beckett’s department over this request. The same silence is observed from any government source for that matter. Everyone asks the same questions, what have they got to hide? Why aren’t they interested? What plans are being made? And what lessons have been learned from last years outbreak? A lot of farms are restocking and in this neighbourhood, farm work is going on as before, or so it looks. As time goes on though, there seems to be a smouldering anger that no-one in authority is as concerned as well are.\n\n\nWeek 11\nWork is still on going at the burial site. No comments heard from any of the villagers or neighbours this week.\n\n\nDiary 12\nMonday, from my own observation work is still ongoing at the burial site. More heavy plant has been moved on to the top of the giant amount and it looks as though more topsoil is being laid over the Mount. Perhaps to improve the site, but water may still permeate into and through the site. We can only believe the operators that this is a right thing to do.\nFriday, talked to 2 it villagers about the after-effects of FMD. One said oh it's all over now and forgotten about it doesn't bother me one bit. The other said it all in the past we just have to forget about it. It seems that life is returning to normal in all aspects of village life, people don't think about last year unless the diarist mentions that. \n\nSunday, a bad day or weather wise. This prolonged rain may halt work on the burial site. Most people are reluctant to talk about F M D now, even if it was one of the worst economic and social disasters to hit this country and this County in particular. Now that it is over, people's memories begin to fade. However, some of us are not happy at having these two disposal sites within a 1000 metres of this village. FMD may be over but these burial sites are here for a long time yet.\n\n\nDiary 13\nObserved in work on burial site. More heavy machinery and plant moved in and large quantities of soil are being laid down and smoothed out.\n\n\nDiary 14\nTalked to some religious today about the after-effects of FMD. Without exception, they are not interested! It's all over with an idle one to be reminded about it are the general comments. Nobody seems bothered that there are hundreds of animals buried a 1000 yards from his village or the fact that there is leachate and pyre ash buried in another site. Looking at the burial site and the work that is going on there, it does look as though the management there are doing everything to make the site safe.\n\n\nDiary 15\nI met a smallholder today to whom I have talked to in the past about the effects and after-effects of FMD. He still not happy about the burial site despite the landscaping and smoothing off of the large quantities of topsoil, only time will tell he says. He does not have any stock near to the site but he has sheep on the farmer's land. Since FMD finished though his stock movements are still restricted by new legislation that has come in since the area was declared free. For instance, or if he takes a sheep to auction, he asked to have nine pieces of paper for this transaction. If the price is not right and he has to take the she back to his land he was put them back in the same field that they came from and it cannot move them to three weeks. He then has to obtain a licence to do this. He does think that the authorities are not going to be as strict shortly. This is just one of the precautions that have come in to try and combat any recurrence of FMD.\n\n\nDiary 16\nI met the smallholder who rents land a from the farmer in the village. His income from the sheep that he a breeds has been nil, like many more people in similar circumstances. Fortunately for him had he has an income from another source. The subject of compensation came up during our conversation. I personally do not have any comment to make about this item as it maybe just a rumour, apparently he got it bee in his bonnet about compensation paid out to people who were not in the agricultural business. What seemed to upset him was that he had heard that some of fish and chip shop owner in the Lake District had been paid £170 per month compensation for the loss of trade. He didn't mind too much that hoteliers and guest house owners had claimed compensation, but wondered where else would this kind of money go when he himself had been paid nothing. This is the first time I've heard this one!\n\n\nDiary 17\nAttended the Cumberland Show at every to be park Carlisle. We, as a family used to attend this annual show regularly, both as spectators and competitors. We have never seen the show like the one put on this year, when will things really get back to normal? Many of us think that agriculture is back to pre-FMD. Cattle and sheep on grazing in the fields, lambing has reached new heights in produce on some farms. Calves are being born, silage and haymaking is progressing when the weather permits. But there are still restrictions on animal movements. Hence, no sheep cattle or pigs at this year's show only horses, poultry, dogs and rabbits. Not many pieces of agricultural machinery onshore either. Plenty of Chartered Accountants tents, craft tents, Horse feeds and tack, displays in the main arena and bands. Not an agricultural show as we knew it. It seems to be the same at other shows, Ennerdale show is one of our local shows. This year there isn't going to be any horses or sheep. Generally there are no cattle shown at the show, but without sheep (hill farmers dominate the show) the there isn't going to be much on show at all. It was always a good show for equestrian events at many levels. This show was always a must for our family. I don't think that we will be going this year.\n\n\nDiary 18\nFrom the golf course and golf driving range I can look out on to the western side of the burial site. I have written in previous weeks about the work there has been going on at this site. Viewing the site are from our village side, would hardly know what that there ever was a burial site. Hundreds of tons of topsoil had been laid and smoothed out to make more-or-less like a landscaped feature. It looks really good. From the western side though, things are little different. Work is still going on there, large amounts of soil have been tipped and levelled off. There are still Portakabins there and heavy plant can still be seen moving about. No doubt the western side well look as good as the eastern side before long.\n\n\nDiary 19\nIt is announced that the Prime Minister and his wife and son of his family at a visit to Cumbria. The PM arrives in West Cumbria, all kinds of reports are written in the local and national press about what he is going to do or not do or what he should be doing. After all, he is on holiday. The PM did meet some farmers' leaders, the press as usual stirred things up or as to where he should be meeting. Tourism officials say that the trip was fantastic for tourism in the county. Or person they I can't see what difference it made. If people want to come Cumbria, they will come irrespective of whether the PM comes or not.\n\n\nDiary 20\nAfter a lot of protests it looks as though it the 20 day restriction on cattle Movement will be lifted. Perhaps this will now mean that they could be cattle and sheep entries at local agricultural shows. Some shows are going ahead with very limited entries of livestock and some with no animal entries at all. These shows have always been very popular with my family for over 20 years. Also, living with in a farming community makes us feel part of the annual agricultural scene.\n\n\nDiary 21\nI’ve written before regarding agricultural shows and the pride in which local people take in these shows. Although a lot of shows have gone ahead this season, they have had a reduced animal showing or in some cases no animals at all. Today I’ve heard that one show has been cancelled altogether. This particular show is one of the most popular in the area. Maybe because of lack of entries or the organisers just wanted to cancel because of the 3 week restriction on animal movement. I don’t know. Perhaps it would be better to cancel them than have a depleted show.\n\n\nDiary 22\nSpent a few hours in the fells today. It was good to be able to wander the familiar paths and let our dog run free. It was a good boost to our moral and perhaps the dog’s too! We all missed being able to do this last year.\n\n\nDiary 23\nLast Bank Holiday before Xmas and the last before the schools go back. At the golf course where I help out part-time during the summer we had lots of customers. A lot of them commented on how enjoyable it was to be on holiday in this area this year, compared to the restrictions that were in place last year. Maybe the holiday establishments are getting back to normal. There are no restrictions put on them like there is in place now with farmers and agriculture.\n\n\nDiary 26\nSorting through the mail left whilst away on holiday and I came across a notice sent by the village committee notifying a Harvest Thanksgiving festival to be held next month in the village hall. As we have no church in the village, it is being held in some farm buildings in the centre of the village. This will be a splendid event. The farm did not have FMD but couldn’t take animals from one field to another and couldn’t market them. When we consider the gloom that settled on this farm and community, it is very welcome to have this unique event here in the heart of the village and the farmer and his wife will be at the centre of events. A lovely gesture and I hope it will be well supported. There will be a distribution of harvest gifts afterwards, what a change from a year ago!\n\n\nDiary 27\nWith the aid of binoculars I have been able to have a closer look at the burial site from a westerly direction. There are vents in the shape of small towers to extract gas from the site. There are pipes connecting these vents. A lot of work is still going on there. However, all this takes place in the Western side which is the opposite side to where my village is situated. From our side there is nothing to suggest the amount of work going on. Because of this, FMD is pushed further into the backs of villager’s minds. It is something in the past. It has happened, so what? People like myself who talk to farmers and agriculturalists do not easily forget these events. Personally I am still concerned about the burial site. When inquiries are made about it, all we can do is accept what we are told. It does not look as though every precaution is being taken to alleviate an odours or contamination. \n\n\nDiary 28\nI had to see the village farmer on another matter and was asked inside for coffee and a chat. He was able to tell me of the full implications of the ’20 day rule’. He accepts that this is a precaution to prevent another outbreak of FMD, but there is a lot of work involved. He told me of an isolation area that he has created and also the fencing arrangements where his land adjoins the neighbours land. I would say that 95% of the public don’t know about this even if they have heard of the 20 day rule. For him (he owns the largest farm in the area) it is bad enough having to do all the physical work as regards fencing, etc. But for anyone such as a small holder, it must be a nightmare if he has to bring animals back from market that haven’t been sold. \nFriday, my wife and I played a round of golf at Aspatria. This course was badly restricted when FMD hit this area. We were reminded that there are restrictions on adjoining land. There were notices asking people who hit balls onto farm land not to cross the fence to retrieve them because of FMD precautions. This was news to us. It does make sense though. The farmer wouldn’t know where players had been walking prior to playing golf. \n\n\nDiary 29\nAttended the Harvest Festival held in the village farm, a large cattle shed had been cleaned and decorated for this event, chairs had been brought in, fruit and vegetables were on display for auctioning at the end. The place was packed! A lot of money was raised and it was a very happy event, well supported and a big boost for the farm and the village.\nI don’t think that the general public care much about FMD now that is has been a year since the last case was confirmed in Cumbria. The public may be reminded if they read the local newspapers intently, for instance, there was a letter to the editor published recently which referred to the results of the Cumbria Inquiry into FMD. It may have been a farmer who wrote it, I don’t know, but the writer certainly went to town in the scathing comments on the handling of FMD. Even caustic remarks regarding the efforts since FMD of DEFRA and Mrs Beckett. I certainly wouldn’t like to cross the writer, I also think the farming community must be holding it’s breath in case the present restrictions such as they are, prove to be worthless. Then we will all suffer, again!\n\n\nWeek 30\nWhat a difference a year makes! Despite some restrictions on public access to agricultural fields in some areas of the county, it doesn’t apply here. Although most locals confine themselves to footpaths and bridleways, other people seem to think that all fields are recreation areas. They walk and run across some of the fields in close proximity to the village. Regardless of the presence of stock they exercise dogs and treat it as a some kind of park. One farmer is well know for being aggressive, he used last year’s FMD outbreak to run people off his land.\nI met a local councillor who expressed concerns regarding the proposed building of an incinerator to the south of the village on the current open cast mining site. The two waste disposal sites to the west and north-west of the village have become big issues in the last 18 months due to the burial of animals and the disposal of pyre ash and leachates. It seems as though we are going to get over this ghastly FMD outbreak only to have this scenario thrust upon us.\n\n\nWeek 31\nMet a small-holder who keeps sheep near to this village. He was very scathing over the report that the Government and DEFRA don’t want to talk up an offer from the Local Authorities here to implement findings and recommendations from their local inquiry over FMD. Why? What has this Government, who didn’t perform very well during the outbreak, got to hide and why shirk away from the findings instead of facing up to the failings that we all know about. It also seems that they don’t want to make any safeguards and recommendations to avoid a further outbreak. As a non-agriculturalist, it doesn’t surprise me in the least. After all, Government has failed other industries in the country for as long as I can remember.\n\n\nWeek 32\nI am convinced that authorities in the area must think that the way animals were buried here and pyre ash and leachate were disposed of at another site nearby was all done as very successfully and that the two sites handled everything professionally. Therefore the sites would be more than capable of handling ash from an incinerator. To me, this is the legacy of FMD. I am most annoyed over this, together with a lot more of the villagers. This village no longer has a representative on the parish council, both have resigned for whatever reason and no-one will step forward to take it one. I have said that I would take a set on the parish council to represent the village and fight for our rights and future quality of life. Due to this, I have uncovered a pile of claims and counter-claims. It seems that both parish and district counsellors know what is going on (regarding the incinerator) and that developers have made ‘concessions’ to some councillors. Also there are claims that the developers have offered money to local landowners and farmers so that roads can be put in. All these accusations have been strongly denied. At the same time it is rumoured that some farmers have been offered local fields nearby. Because of what I have discovered in my own investigations, it would seem that a lot of friendships gained over 20 years could come to an end, I am fearful of what I have uncovered. There are also claims that ‘councillors are only in it for what there can get out and are not to be trusted.’ I don’t want that said of me. Also by the time all this is sorted out, I will be 70-75, I certainly don’t want to be fighting peoples battles at that age. However, I will support any effort to stop the proposed development. \n\n\nWeek 33\nOnce again the large farm in the centre of the village was the venue for the annual Guy Fawkes bonfire and fireworks. Organisers had been round the village asking for donations to provide fireworks. A tractor and trailer toured the areas picking up things for the bonfire. Drinks and food were served in a barn after the fireworks. This is another occasion when villagers and the farming community come together. It is perhaps the only time that the general public of the village think about FMD and last years events, if only briefly. The farmer remarked that is the third time this year that there has been a public function on his farm. The first was the jubilee party in June, then on October 6th the Harvest Festival service. These events keep farming in the public eye.\n\n\nWeek 34\nI haven’t written before about the proposed building of an incinerator nearby to burn the counties waste. If , as we all suspect, the incinerator is built, then the odours plus the disposal of ash (to the FMD waste site) is a legacy of FMD, particularly regarding the nearby burial and disposal site.\n\n\nWeek 35\nThis is week 35 of this project and for most of the 35 weeks I have written that I am not confident of the future. There are numerous reasons for this. Mainly the situation in the Middle East. Today I travelled to Keswick to do some Xmas shopping. I was given a lift there by a neighbour who is in his 30s. He was very upset about the terrorist situation, not only was he concerned about the terror threat to the London Underground, but the threat closer to home as regards a plane crashing into the nearby Sellafield complex. We don’t know the effect that this constant bad news has on people. People who have already got serious worries, e.g., families, housing, finance, etc must feel really depressed about it all.\n\n\nWeek 36\nNear to the next village is a long established farm of many acres. Recently the farm’s stock of animals and machinery was sold off. The owner, who had farmed for sixty years was leaving to live with one of his brothers. He said that he wouldn’t know how he would feel when he left the farm for the last time this weekend. The farmhouse hasn’t been sold yet and now stands empty. It’s a strange place now, where everything was hustle and bustle (they even had a B & B business there) is now derelict and bare. It’s a sad reflection on the agricultural business in the wake of FMD. This farm isn’t the only one in the area that has sold up. Some farm houses remain as dwellings, but this particular one which we saw nearly every day is just an other sad reminder of the way farming has declined in this rural area.\n\n\nWeek 39\nTuesday. Boarded the train at Penrith to journey to Crewe to see our daughter. During the journey I got into conversation with a fellow passenger. He noticed I had got on the train at Penrith and perhaps thought I was connected with the agricultural industry. The conversation drifted into the previous years FMD outbreak. It is rather strange, that I live in a very rural area, and , FMD is rarely mentioned now. However, this fellow passenger (although not from an agricultural background) gave his views on the handling of the situation. It was no different from the views expressed by locals at the time of the crisis. It just goes to show that FMD is very much in peoples minds even if they were not connected to agriculture in any way.\n\n\nWeek 40\nFriday. Now that the MEP have published their critical report on the FMD crisis, it is interesting to read an article published in our local weekly paper, from a reader … (Article entitled ‘Foot and Mouth Report’ included). \nI don’t have the knowledge or the data to support this readers comments. However, I have heard plenty of stories from mainly unreliable sources, to confirm what he says. It makes interesting reading I think.\n\n\nWeek 41\nTuesday. No wonder my confidence in the future has taken a big plunge over the last few months. The situation in Iraq doesn’t get any better. Mr Tony Blair’s message to the Armed Forces of the UK bear this out. Being an ex-serviceman, I know what the situation holds for our troops. But, are we right to follow the USA in a war against Iraq? No doubt Saddam Hussein does pose a threat but so does India and Pakistan to each other. Each of these two relatively poor countries has threatened each other as regards their nuclear arsenals. Now, the loose cannon in the form of North Korea is positioning itself as regards its position in the nuclear arms league. Personally, I think that North Korea poses a more dangerous threat than Iraq. It is not a very happy New Year for a lot of people. Perhaps it will all be settled diplomatically. I wonder.\n\n\nWeek 42\nNothing of any importance to write about due to refurbishment at home.\n\n\nWeek 43\nMonday. One of the items on the agenda for this months meeting of Distington Parish Council is a report on the wood-felling and the implications of this. As I have written in the diary before, there are strong rumours of the proposed plan to fell woods, build a new road through the felled site and bring coal from the nearby opencast site to link up with an existing road, then, to transport the coal to a storage area on Workington Dock. Then, when the coal is worked out, to build an incinerator on the coal site. Ash from this development would then be transported on the ‘new’ road to be disposed of on the waste disposal site that was used for FMD pyre ash and leachate.\nThursday. Read a report of the aforesaid meeting. The owners have declared that our worries are groundless. In fact, they say that they plan to eventually open the woodland to the public (the owners of the woodland are the same operators of the opencast coal site). Footpaths will be created if a grant can be obtained. A wooden wheeled ancient water mill will be restored. After the closed meeting the operations director of the site said that ‘There has been a misunderstanding. What we are doing will benefit local people’. He said that a management project for the wood is being followed involving felling dead trees and fresh planting. He added: “The felling and replanting will be done this year after which it will take time to become established. We’re talking of a ten year programme but it should have long-term benefits. I think our PR at the start of this wasn’t very good and in the future we will let the council know of our plans”. The council agreed to keep a watch on the work here in G.\nThis statement differs greatly from what some of us have been told by our village-based County Councillor. There has never been any suggestion that the felled woods would become a land fill site, but would be felled to provide the new road. There was nothing mentioned at the meeting regarding the proposed incinerator being built. The County Council … that this has ever been planned. However, our representative is adamant that this is not so.\n\n\nWeek 44\nTuesday. For the first time, my property has finally overcome a situation that was affected by FMD. \nIn July 2000, the electricity supplier notified me to say that the trees in my garden had grown so tall that the topmost branches were in close contact with an eleven thousand volt overhead power line and that they should be felled or severely pruned. After some further negotiations it was decided to prune to some height that I wasn’t happy with. Although the treetops were not actually touching the wires, it was considered a risk in the forthcoming months. However, as time passed I couldn’t wait for the foresters to arrive, so I pruned the trees myself.\nIn January 2001, the electric supplier suggested that the trees should be pruned further. A date was agreed but the foresters didn’t arrive. Time dragged on and the trees grew back to their original height. Again, the electric supplier suggested they be pruned or felled. A new date was agreed upon. However, the foresters couldn’t do the job because the isolator switch was on farmland and they couldn’t get access to it because of FMD restrictions. And so it dragged on! Despite visits by foresters and electric supplier reps. the trees got bigger and I was forbidden to touch them. Neighbours could hear crackling noises coming from the wires and it became very worrying. People suggested that I should ‘do something about it’. I took the matter up directly with the supplier and the foresters. I was promised dates only for them to be cancelled. In December 2002, a date of 21st January 2003 was given. This time, they came and we agreed that two trees be felled and another pruned. After 30 months it finally happened. \nThursday. Met a small holder who has his land on the edge of this village, who told me that the 20 day rule of animal restriction of animal movement was being lifted and replaced by a 6 day restriction. This was good news for him and any other farmer. Later that day I met another farmer who didn’t know that the restriction was being lifted. You would have thought that I had told him he’d won the lottery! Good news all round for the people.\nFriday. Listening to the local radio today and was surprised to hear a report that the Citizens Advice Bureau in a small Lakeland town had been receiving clients who were still experiencing hardship due to FMD. It is now 18 months since the last outbreak and the effects (according to the person being interviewed) were still being felt. Not just by farmers and agriculturists, but by guest houses, hotels, tradesmen and in particular, some self employed. Debt seems to be the biggest problem. It seems as though some people had weathered the hardships of FMD initially only to find that their plans had come adrift somehow afterwards. Quite disturbing to hear that the situation is still with us in this county to some degree. \n\n\nWeek 45\nThese diaries were instituted to deal with the after effects of FMD. Although there were no cases of FMD in this village, everyone knew about it, particularly as nearly everyone who went to work from here would pass the main farm in the village centre, or, some of the farms on the outskirts of the village.\nNow that FMD is over, most people who live here don’t seem to think about it anymore. The only people affected are the farmers, naturally.\nThis is a strange village in lots of ways. Only the farmer and his immediate family are connected with agriculture. The rest are professional people or people who work at nearby Sellafield, industries in Workington and Whitehaven, or are retired. There is no church, no village pub, no village shop, no village community centre or meeting place. Only tradesmen that call are the milkman and the solid fuel merchant. We are left to ‘get on with life’ in our own way. The parish of Distington to which we belong have all the facilities associated with a larger community, such as a church, pub and community centre. All of which are two miles away. Consequently, the Parish Council meets there once a month and discusses all the problems of the area including ours. However, our representative on the council has resigned and no-one has come forward to represent us. Anything that has been discussed at the Parish Council is reported in he local newspaper. \nVillage pubs are a good venue to discuss local issues and to exchange views and, mainly, to gossip. Village ‘tittle tattle’ as I call it! As we have no pub, the gossip is rife from one source or another with bits added on or left out as is the choice of the person concerned. Quite a lot of people one meets are ‘experts’ in their own particular choice of subject whether it is politics, finance or Mrs Jones current boy friend. It is a fault to take on board all that is gossiped about when one meets a fellow villager in the country lanes whilst out walking the dog.\n\n \nWeek 46\nIllness to a family member.\n\n\nWeek 47\nContinued illness.\n\n\nWeek 48\nOver the past few weeks there has been a lot of tree felling in the nearby woods. This has led to a lot of disturbance to the villagers because of the use of large vehicles needed to remove the felled timber and also the foresters vehicles churning up the grass verges and the ditches.\nA lot of concern was raised about the necessity of all the tree felling. These concerns were raised in the press and also in the parish council. (I have written about these in diaries in the last few weeks).\nIt was reported in mid-January that all the felled woods would be replanted this year, with footpaths created for the enjoyment of the local population. Now, all timber operations have ceased. Large areas of woodland have been left partly felled and a lot of felled timber is left lying about. Foresters vehicles have gone and nothing is happening. Despite assurances from the developers, it looks as though something drastic has happened. Village ‘tittle tattle’ says that the foresters have not been paid for their work so far and that the developers have run out of money. If this is so, what is going to happen now?\nWhen felling started late last year, I contacted two environmental agencies regarding the threat to the red squirrels, badgers and buzzards that occupy these woods. I was told that it was only a partial felling and they (the environmental agencies) were satisfied that any disturbances would be slight. I think that they were told this by the developers, and accepted what they were told without a site visit. The developers have been known to mislead groups in the past, including landowners, farmers, councils and individuals.\nI, personally am not happy about this situation. I have always took a keen interest in wildlife and feel that we have been let down by the lies of developers and the lack of serious interest from wildlife agencies, some of which are an offshoot of central Government. I for one will keep a close look on the situation with or without other villagers and in particular, local councillors.\n\n\nWeek 49\nBy chance I met three small holders all at the same time. They were discussing farming by the roadside. All of them were pleased that the 20-day ruling was coming to an end and that their lives were more or less coming back to normal. They also expressed the opinion that the 20-day rule and the 6-day rule were only in force to protect their interests. However, they were unanimous in their condemnation over the importing of foreign meat and meat products into this country. They feel that foreign meat is not subjected to enough checks before entry into the United Kingdom.\n\n\nWeek 51\nMet a farmer today who told me that he’d seen a report based on findings by the EU and DEFRA. It stated all the things that everyone who is an agriculturalist and those who take an interest in the countryside had been saying about what was wrong with the handlers of the FMD outbreak. It just proves that it doesn’t take an academic genius to know what should have been done at the time. Everyone can be wiser after the event, but statements by the NFU and individuals at the onset were not heeded. For example, the movement of animals should have been halted sooner and the Army should have been brought in much sooner. Now, the question of vaccination rumbles on. Should we or shouldn’t we vaccinate? There is a fear of the outbreak again, particularly when the findings of the 1960 outbreak were not implemented. \nSince the sadness of FMD, there has been quite a few instances of socialising at the farm, such as harvest festival, jubilee party and almost any excuse for a ‘shindig’, good to see farmers enjoying themselves.\n\nWeek 52\nMet out local farmer who told me that there is to be new legislation to dispose of fallen stock. No longer can a farmer bury fallen stock on his land, but must now provide an incinerator to dispose of dead animals. This must be a costly business, could dead animals not be taken to a central point and burned?\n\n\nWeek 54\nOne thing about FMD was the effect that it had on the poaching fraternity. Living in a rural area, we expect this to happen. Nobody seems to mind that a few rabbits and pheasants go missing. What is really alarming is the use of dogs and high-powered rifles to poach deer. FMD put a stop to all this. Now a neighbour has told me of poachers near to the village using rifles and shooting deer. The only people benefiting from this are the poachers and hoteliers who receive these dead beasts and no questions asked. Also the danger of villagers being hit by stray rifle shots causes alarm to others.\n\n\nWeek 55\nI think that there is a lot of jumping on the band wagon now that FMD has cleared up. For instance, I listened to an interview on the local radio station given by a hotelier. Things weren’t going well in his establishment. Having got over FMD and its implications, visitors were slowly returning to the area, but not in sufficient numbers to cause great joy. \n
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## 1 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1975, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, thursday, meeting, n, lakes, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, usual, chat, and, defra, comments, the, meeting, research, panel, gp, 6, at, the, north, lakes, was, interesting, it, surprises, me, sometimes, how, people, myself, included, never, seem, to, tire, of, the, same, stories, and, complaints, over, how, the, crisis, was, handled, some, of, the, episodes, recounted, must, have, been, told, dozens, of, times, over, the, last, year, but, whoever, says, it, always, seems, just, as, keen, to, say, it, again, perhaps, a, reflection, of, how, deeply, people, feel, about, the, events, of, the, last, year, having, said, that, most, of, the, resentments, and, rants, that, i, hear, on, daily, farm, visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
## 2 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
## 3 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, to, gather, them, a, time, to, embrace, and, a, time, to, refrain, a, time, to, search, and, a, time, to, give, up, a, time, to, keep, and, a, time, to, throw, away, a, time, to, tear, and, a, time, to, mend, a, time, to, be, silent, and, a, time, to, speak, a, time, to, love, and, a, time, to, hate, a, time, for, war, and, a, time, for, peace]
## 5 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1981, gender, f, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
## 6 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1937, gender, m, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, 1, monday, 11th, march, 2002, whilst, watching, the, local, tv, news, at, 6, p.m, there, was, a, news, item, that, caused, us, to, reflect, back, on, the, events, a, year, ago, a, young, lady, had, just, left, a, court, where, she, had, been, found, guilty, of, assaulting, a, police, officer, and, also, being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can't, see, what, difference, it, made, if, people, want, to, come, cumbria, they, will, come, irrespective, of, whether, the, pm, comes, or, not, diary, 20, after, a, lot, of, protests, it, looks, as, though, it, the, 20, day, restriction, on, cattle, movement, will, be, lifted, perhaps, this, will, now, mean, that, they, could, be, cattle, and, sheep, entries, at, local, agricultural, shows, some, shows, are, going, ahead, with, very, limited, entries, of, livestock, and, some, with, no, animal, entries, at, all, these, shows, have, always, been, very, popular, with, my, family, for, over, 20, years, also, living, with, in, a, farming, community, makes, us, feel, part, of, the, annual, agricultural, scene, diary, 21, i’ve, written, before, regarding, agricultural, shows, and, the, pride, in, which, local, people, take, in, these, shows, although, a, lot, of, shows, have, gone, ahead, this, season, they, have, had, a, reduced, animal, showing, or, in, some, cases, no, animals, at, all, today, i’ve, heard, that, one, show, has, been, cancelled, altogether, this, particular, show, is, one, of, the, most, popular, in, the, area, maybe, because, of, lack, of, entries, or, the, organisers, just, wanted, to, cancel, because, of, the, 3, week, restriction, on, animal, movement, i, don’t, know, perhaps, it, would, be, better, to, cancel, them, than, have, a, depleted, show, diary, 22, spent, a, few, hours, in, the, fells, today, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, wander, the, familiar, paths, and, let, our, dog, run, free, it, was, a, good, boost, to, our, moral, and, perhaps, the, dog’s, too, we, all, missed, being, able, to, do, this, last, year, diary, 23, last, bank, holiday, before, xmas, and, the, last, before, the, schools, go, back, at, the, golf, course, where, i, help, out, part, time, during, the, summer, we, had, lots, of, customers, a, lot, of, them, commented, on, how, enjoyable, it, was, to, be, on, holiday, in, this, area, this, year, compared, to, the, restrictions, that, were, in, place, last, year, maybe, the, holiday, establishments, are, getting, back, to, normal, there, are, no, restrictions, put, on, them, like, there, is, in, place, now, with, farmers, and, agriculture, diary, 26, sorting, through, the, mail, left, whilst, away, on, holiday, and, i, came, across, a, notice, sent, by, the, village, committee, notifying, a, harvest, thanksgiving, festival, to, be, held, next, month, in, the, village, hall, as, we, have, no, church, in, the, village, it, is, being, held, in, some, farm, buildings, in, the, centre, of, the, village, this, will, be, a, splendid, event, the, farm, did, not, have, fmd, but, couldn’t, take, animals, from, one, field, to, another, and, couldn’t, market, them, when, we, consider, the, gloom, that, settled, on, this, farm, and, community, it, is, very, welcome, to, have, this, unique, event, here, in, the, heart, of, the, village, and, the, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, at, the, centre, of, events, a, lovely, gesture, and, i, hope, it, will, be, well, supported, there, will, be, a, distribution, of, harvest, gifts, afterwards, what, a, change, from, a, year, ago, diary, 27, with, the, aid, of, binoculars, i, have, been, able, to, have, a, closer, look, at, the, burial, site, from, a, westerly, direction, there, are, vents, in, the, shape, of, small, towers, to, extract, gas, from, the, site, there, are, pipes, connecting, these, vents, a, lot, of, work, is, still, going, on, there, however, all, this, takes, place, in, the, western, side, which, is, the, opposite, side, to, where, my, village, is, situated, from, our, side, there, is, nothing, to, suggest, the, amount, of, work, going, on, because, of, this, fmd, is, pushed, further, into, the, backs, of, villager’s, minds, it, is, something, in, the, past, it, has, happened, so, what, people, like, myself, who, talk, to, farmers, and, agriculturalists, do, not, easily, forget, these, events, personally, i, am, still, concerned, about, the, burial, site, when, inquiries, are, made, about, it, all, we, can, do, is, accept, what, we, are, told, it, does, not, look, as, though, every, precaution, is, being, taken, to, alleviate, an, odours, or, contamination, diary, 28, i, had, to, see, the, village, farmer, on, another, matter, and, was, asked, inside, for, coffee, and, a, chat, he, was, able, to, tell, me, of, the, full, implications, of, the, 20, day, rule, he, accepts, that, this, is, a, precaution, to, prevent, another, outbreak, of, fmd, but, there, is, a, lot, of, work, involved, he, told, me, of, an, isolation, area, that, he, has, created, and, also, the, fencing, arrangements, where, his, land, adjoins, the, neighbours, land, i, would, say, that, 95, of, the, public, don’t, know, about, this, even, if, they, have, heard, of, the, 20, day, rule, for, him, he, owns, the, largest, farm, in, the, area, it, is, bad, enough, having, to, do, all, the, physical, work, as, regards, fencing, etc, but, for, anyone, such, as, a, small, holder, it, must, be, a, nightmare, if, he, has, to, bring, animals, back, from, market, that, haven’t, been, sold, friday, my, wife, and, i, played, a, round, of, golf, at, aspatria, this, course, was, badly, restricted, when, fmd, hit, this, area, we, were, reminded, that, there, are, restrictions, on, adjoining, land, there, were, notices, asking, people, who, hit, balls, onto, farm, land, not, to, cross, the, fence, to, retrieve, them, because, of, fmd, precautions, this, was, news, to, us, it, does, make, sense, though, the, farmer, wouldn’t, know, where, players, had, been, walking, prior, to, playing, golf, diary, 29, attended, the, harvest, festival, held, in, the, village, farm, a, large, cattle, shed, had, been, cleaned, and, decorated, for, this, event, chairs, had, been, brought, in, fruit, and, vegetables, were, on, display, for, auctioning, at, the, end, the, place, was, packed, a, lot, of, money, was, raised, and, it, was, a, very, happy, event, well, supported, and, a, big, boost, for, the, farm, and, the, village, i, don’t, think, that, the, general, public, care, much, about, fmd, now, that, is, has, been, a, year, since, the, last, case, was, confirmed, in, cumbria, the, public, may, be, reminded, if, they, read, the, local, newspapers, intently, for, instance, there, was, a, letter, to, the, editor, published, recently, which, referred, to, the, results, of, the, cumbria, inquiry, into, fmd, it, may, have, been, a, farmer, who, wrote, it, i, don’t, know, but, the, writer, certainly, went, to, town, in, the, scathing, comments, on, the, handling, of, fmd, even, caustic, remarks, regarding, the, efforts, since, fmd, of, defra, and, mrs, beckett, i, certainly, wouldn’t, like, to, cross, the, writer, i, also, think, the, farming, community, must, be, holding, it’s, breath, in, case, the, present, restrictions, such, as, they, are, prove, to, be, worthless, then, we, will, all, suffer, again, week, 30, what, a, difference, a, year, makes, despite, some, restrictions, on, public, access, to, agricultural, fields, in, some, areas, of, the, county, it, doesn’t, apply, here, although, most, locals, confine, themselves, to, footpaths, and, bridleways, other, people, seem, to, think, that, all, fields, are, recreation, areas, they, walk, and, run, across, some, of, the, fields, in, close, proximity, to, the, village, regardless, of, the, presence, of, stock, they, exercise, dogs, and, treat, it, as, a, some, kind, of, park, one, farmer, is, well, know, for, being, aggressive, he, used, last, year’s, fmd, outbreak, to, run, people, off, his, land, i, met, a, local, councillor, who, expressed, concerns, regarding, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, to, the, south, of, the, village, on, the, current, open, cast, mining, site, the, two, waste, disposal, sites, to, the, west, and, north, west, of, the, village, have, become, big, issues, in, the, last, 18, months, due, to, the, burial, of, animals, and, the, disposal, of, pyre, ash, and, leachates, it, seems, as, though, we, are, going, to, get, over, this, ghastly, fmd, outbreak, only, to, have, this, scenario, thrust, upon, us, week, 31, met, a, small, holder, who, keeps, sheep, near, to, this, village, he, was, very, scathing, over, the, report, that, the, government, and, defra, don’t, want, to, talk, up, an, offer, from, the, local, authorities, here, to, implement, findings, and, recommendations, from, their, local, inquiry, over, fmd, why, what, has, this, government, who, didn’t, perform, very, well, during, the, outbreak, got, to, hide, and, why, shirk, away, from, the, findings, instead, of, facing, up, to, the, failings, that, we, all, know, about, it, also, seems, that, they, don’t, want, to, make, any, safeguards, and, recommendations, to, avoid, a, further, outbreak, as, a, non, agriculturalist, it, doesn’t, surprise, me, in, the, least, after, all, government, has, failed, other, industries, in, the, country, for, as, long, as, i, can, remember, week, 32, i, am, convinced, that, authorities, in, the, area, must, think, that, the, way, animals, were, buried, here, and, pyre, ash, and, leachate, were, disposed, of, at, another, site, nearby, was, all, done, as, very, successfully, and, that, the, two, sites, handled, everything, professionally, therefore, the, sites, would, be, more, than, capable, of, handling, ash, from, an, incinerator, to, me, this, is, the, legacy, of, fmd, i, am, most, annoyed, over, this, together, with, a, lot, more, of, the, villagers, this, village, no, longer, has, a, representative, on, the, parish, council, both, have, resigned, for, whatever, reason, and, no, one, will, step, forward, to, take, it, one, i, have, said, that, i, would, take, a, set, on, the, parish, council, to, represent, the, village, and, fight, for, our, rights, and, future, quality, of, life, due, to, this, i, have, uncovered, a, pile, of, claims, and, counter, claims, it, seems, that, both, parish, and, district, counsellors, know, what, is, going, on, regarding, the, incinerator, and, that, developers, have, made, concessions, to, some, councillors, also, there, are, claims, that, the, developers, have, offered, money, to, local, landowners, and, farmers, so, that, roads, can, be, put, in, all, these, accusations, have, been, strongly, denied, at, the, same, time, it, is, rumoured, that, some, farmers, have, been, offered, local, fields, nearby, because, of, what, i, have, discovered, in, my, own, investigations, it, would, seem, that, a, lot, of, friendships, gained, over, 20, years, could, come, to, an, end, i, am, fearful, of, what, i, have, uncovered, there, are, also, claims, that, councillors, are, only, in, it, for, what, there, can, get, out, and, are, not, to, be, trusted, i, don’t, want, that, said, of, me, also, by, the, time, all, this, is, sorted, out, i, will, be, 70, 75, i, certainly, don’t, want, to, be, fighting, peoples, battles, at, that, age, however, i, will, support, any, effort, to, stop, the, proposed, development, week, 33, once, again, the, large, farm, in, the, centre, of, the, village, was, the, venue, for, the, annual, guy, fawkes, bonfire, and, fireworks, organisers, had, been, round, the, village, asking, for, donations, to, provide, fireworks, a, tractor, and, trailer, toured, the, areas, picking, up, things, for, the, bonfire, drinks, and, food, were, served, in, a, barn, after, the, fireworks, this, is, another, occasion, when, villagers, and, the, farming, community, come, together, it, is, perhaps, the, only, time, that, the, general, public, of, the, village, think, about, fmd, and, last, years, events, if, only, briefly, the, farmer, remarked, that, is, the, third, time, this, year, that, there, has, been, a, public, function, on, his, farm, the, first, was, the, jubilee, party, in, june, then, on, october, 6th, the, harvest, festival, service, these, events, keep, farming, in, the, public, eye, week, 34, i, haven’t, written, before, about, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, nearby, to, burn, the, counties, waste, if, as, we, all, suspect, the, incinerator, is, built, then, the, odours, plus, the, disposal, of, ash, to, the, fmd, waste, site, is, a, legacy, of, fmd, particularly, regarding, the, nearby, burial, and, disposal, site, week, 35, this, is, week, 35, of, this, project, and, for, most, of, the, 35, weeks, i, have, written, that, i, am, not, confident, of, the, future, there, are, numerous, reasons, for, this, mainly, the, situation, in, the, middle, east, today, i, travelled, to, keswick, to, do, some, xmas, shopping, i, was, given, a, lift, there, by, a, neighbour, who, is, in, his, 30s, he, was, very, upset, about, the, terrorist, situation, not, only, was, he, concerned, about, the, terror, threat, to, the, london, underground, but, the, threat, closer, to, home, as, regards, a, plane, crashing, into, the, nearby, sellafield, complex, we, don’t, know, the, effect, that, this, constant, bad, news, has, on, people, people, who, have, already, got, serious, worries, e.g, families, housing, finance, etc, must, feel, really, depressed, about, it, all, week, 36, near, to, the, next, village, is, a, long, established, farm, of, many, acres, recently, the, farm’s, stock, of, animals, and, machinery, was, sold, off, the, owner, who, had, farmed, for, sixty, years, was, leaving, to, live, with, one, of, his, brothers, he, said, that, he, wouldn’t, know, how, he, would, feel, when, he, left, the, farm, for, the, last, time, this, weekend, the, farmhouse, hasn’t, been, sold, yet, and, now, stands, empty, it’s, a, strange, place, now, where, everything, was, hustle, and, bustle, they, even, had, a, b, b, business, there, is, now, derelict, and, bare, it’s, a, sad, reflection, on, the, agricultural, business, in, the, wake, of, fmd, this, farm, isn’t, the, only, one, in, the, area, that, has, sold, up, some, farm, houses, remain, as, dwellings, but, this, particular, one, which, we, saw, nearly, every, day, is, just, an, other, sad, reminder, of, the, way, farming, has, declined, in, this, rural, area, week, 39, tuesday, boarded, the, train, at, penrith, to, journey, to, crewe, to, see, our, daughter, during, the, journey, i, got, into, conversation, with, a, fellow, passenger, he, noticed, i, had, got, on, the, train, at, penrith, and, perhaps, thought, i, was, connected, with, the, agricultural, industry, the, conversation, drifted, into, the, previous, years, fmd, outbreak, it, is, rather, strange, that, i, live, in, a, very, rural, area, and, fmd, is, rarely, mentioned, now, however, this, fellow, passenger, although, not, from, an, agricultural, background, gave, his, views, on, the, handling, of, the, situation, it, was, no, different, from, the, views, expressed, by, locals, at, the, time, of, the, crisis, it, just, goes, to, show, that, fmd, is, very, much, in, peoples, minds, even, if, they, were, not, connected, to, agriculture, in, any, way, week, 40, friday, now, that, the, mep, have, published, their, critical, report, on, the, fmd, crisis, it, is, interesting, to, read, an, article, published, in, our, local, weekly, paper, from, a, reader, article, entitled, foot, and, mouth, report, included, i, don’t, have, the, knowledge, or, the, data, to, support, this, readers, comments, however, i, have, heard, plenty, of, stories, from, mainly, unreliable, sources, to, confirm, what, he, says, it, makes, interesting, reading, i, think, week, 41, tuesday, no, wonder, my, confidence, in, the, future, has, taken, a, big, plunge, over, the, last, few, months, the, situation, in, iraq, doesn’t, get, any, better, mr, tony, blair’s, message, to, the, armed, forces, of, the, uk, bear, this, out, being, an, ex, serviceman, i, know, what, the, situation, holds, for, our, troops, but, are, we, right, to, follow, the, usa, in, a, war, against, iraq, no, doubt, saddam, hussein, does, pose, a, threat, but, so, does, india, and, pakistan, to, each, other, each, of, these, two, relatively, poor, countries, has, threatened, each, other, as, regards, their, nuclear, arsenals, now, the, loose, cannon, in, the, form, of, north, korea, is, positioning, itself, as, regards, its, position, in, the, nuclear, arms, league, personally, i, think, that, north, korea, poses, a, more, dangerous, threat, than, iraq, it, is, not, a, very, happy, new, year, for, a, lot, of, people, perhaps, it, will, all, be, settled, diplomatically, i, wonder, week, 42, nothing, of, any, importance, to, write, about, due, to, refurbishment, at, home, week, 43, monday, one, of, the, items, on, the, agenda, for, this, months, meeting, of, distington, parish, council, is, a, report, on, the, wood, felling, and, the, implications, of, this, as, i, have, written, in, the, diary, before, there, are, strong, rumours, of, the, proposed, plan, to, fell, woods, build, a, new, road, through, the, felled, site, and, bring, coal, from, the, nearby, opencast, site, to, link, up, with, an, existing, road, then, to, transport, the, coal, to, a, storage, area, on, workington, dock, then, when, the, coal, is, worked, out, to, build, an, incinerator, on, the, coal, site, ash, from, this, development, would, then, be, transported, on, the, new, road, to, be, disposed, of, on, the, waste, disposal, site, that, was, used, for, fmd, pyre, ash, and, leachate, thursday, read, a, report, of, the, aforesaid, meeting, the, owners, have, declared, that, our, worries, are, groundless, in, fact, they, say, that, they, plan, to, eventually, open, the, woodland, to, the, public, the, owners, of, the, woodland, are, the, same, operators, of, the, opencast, coal, site, footpaths, will, be, created, if, a, grant, can, be, obtained, a, wooden, wheeled, ancient, water, mill, will, be, restored, after, the, closed, meeting, the, operations, director, of, the, site, said, that, there, has, been, a, misunderstanding, what, we, are, doing, will, benefit, local, people, he, said, that, a, management, project, for, the, wood, is, being, followed, involving, felling, dead, trees, and, fresh, planting, he, added, the, felling, and, replanting, will, be, done, this, year, after, which, it, will, take, time, to, become, established, we’re, talking, of, a, ten, year, programme, but, it, should, have, long, term, benefits, i, think, our, pr, at, the, start, of, this, wasn’t, very, good, and, in, the, future, we, will, let, the, council, know, of, our, plans, the, council, agreed, to, keep, a, watch, on, the, work, here, in, g, this, statement, differs, greatly, from, what, some, of, us, have, been, told, by, our, village, based, county, councillor, there, has, never, been, any, suggestion, that, the, felled, woods, would, become, a, land, fill, site, but, would, be, felled, to, provide, the, new, road, there, was, nothing, mentioned, at, the, meeting, regarding, the, proposed, incinerator, being, built, the, county, council, that, this, has, ever, been, planned, however, our, representative, is, adamant, that, this, is, not, so, week, 44, tuesday, for, the, first, time, my, property, has, finally, overcome, a, situation, that, was, affected, by, fmd, in, july, 2000, the, electricity, supplier, notified, me, to, say, that, the, trees, in, my, garden, had, grown, so, tall, that, the, topmost, branches, were, in, close, contact, with, an, eleven, thousand, volt, overhead, power, line, and, that, they, should, be, felled, or, severely, pruned, after, some, further, negotiations, it, was, decided, to, prune, to, some, height, that, i, wasn’t, happy, with, although, the, treetops, were, not, actually, touching, the, wires, it, was, considered, a, risk, in, the, forthcoming, months, however, as, time, passed, i, couldn’t, wait, for, the, foresters, to, arrive, so, i, pruned, the, trees, myself, in, january, 2001, the, electric, supplier, suggested, that, the, trees, should, be, pruned, further, a, date, was, agreed, but, the, foresters, didn’t, arrive, time, dragged, on, and, the, trees, grew, back, to, their, original, height, again, the, electric, supplier, suggested, they, be, pruned, or, felled, a, new, date, was, agreed, upon, however, the, foresters, couldn’t, do, the, job, because, the, isolator, switch, was, on, farmland, and, they, couldn’t, get, access, to, it, because, of, fmd, restrictions, and, so, it, dragged, on, despite, visits, by, foresters, and, electric, supplier, reps, the, trees, got, bigger, and, i, was, forbidden, to, touch, them, neighbours, could, hear, crackling, noises, coming, from, the, wires, and, it, became, very, worrying, people, suggested, that, i, should, do, something, about, it, i, took, the, matter, up, directly, with, the, supplier, and, the, foresters, i, was, promised, dates, only, for, them, to, be, cancelled, in, december, 2002, a, date, of, 21st, january, 2003, was, given, this, time, they, came, and, we, agreed, that, two, trees, be, felled, and, another, pruned, after, 30, months, it, finally, happened, thursday, met, a, small, holder, who, has, his, land, on, the, edge, of, this, village, who, told, me, that, the, 20, day, rule, of, animal, restriction, of, animal, movement, was, being, lifted, and, replaced, by, a, 6, day, restriction, this, was, good, news, for, him, and, any, other, farmer, later, that, day, i, met, another, farmer, who, didn’t, know, that, the, restriction, was, being, lifted, you, would, have, thought, that, i, had, told, him, he’d, won, the, lottery, good, news, all, round, for, the, people, friday, listening, to, the, local, radio, today, and, was, surprised, to, hear, a, report, that, the, citizens, advice, bureau, in, a, small, lakeland, town, had, been, receiving, clients, who, were, still, experiencing, hardship, due, to, fmd, it, is, now, 18, months, since, the, last, outbreak, and, the, effects, according, to, the, person, being, interviewed, were, still, being, felt, not, just, by, farmers, and, agriculturists, but, by, guest, houses, hotels, tradesmen, and, in, particular, some, self, employed, debt, seems, to, be, the, biggest, problem, it, seems, as, though, some, people, had, weathered, the, hardships, of, fmd, initially, only, to, find, that, their, plans, had, come, adrift, somehow, afterwards, quite, disturbing, to, hear, that, the, situation, is, still, with, us, in, this, county, to, some, degree, week, 45, these, diaries, were, instituted, to, deal, with, the, after, effects, of, fmd, although, there, were, no, cases, of, fmd, in, this, village, everyone, knew, about, it, particularly, as, nearly, everyone, who, went, to, work, from, here, would, pass, the, main, farm, in, the, village, centre, or, some, of, the, farms, on, the, outskirts, of, the, village, now, that, fmd, is, over, most, people, who, live, here, don’t, seem, to, think, about, it, anymore, the, only, people, affected, are, the, farmers, naturally, this, is, a, strange, village, in, lots, of, ways, only, the, farmer, and, his, immediate, family, are, connected, with, agriculture, the, rest, are, professional, people, or, people, who, work, at, nearby, sellafield, industries, in, workington, and, whitehaven, or, are, retired, there, is, no, church, no, village, pub, no, village, shop, no, village, community, centre, or, meeting, place, only, tradesmen, that, call, are, the, milkman, and, the, solid, fuel, merchant, we, are, left, to, get, on, with, life, in, our, own, way, the, parish, of, distington, to, which, we, belong, have, all, the, facilities, associated, with, a, larger, community, such, as, a, church, pub, and, community, centre, all, of, which, are, two, miles, away, consequently, the, parish, council, meets, there, once, a, month, and, discusses, all, the, problems, of, the, area, including, ours, however, our, representative, on, the, council, has, resigned, and, no, one, has, come, forward, to, represent, us, anything, that, has, been, discussed, at, the, parish, council, is, reported, in, he, local, newspaper, village, pubs, are, a, good, venue, to, discuss, local, issues, and, to, exchange, views, and, mainly, to, gossip, village, tittle, tattle, as, i, call, it, as, we, have, no, pub, the, gossip, is, rife, from, one, source, or, another, with, bits, added, on, or, left, out, as, is, the, choice, of, the, person, concerned, quite, a, lot, of, people, one, meets, are, experts, in, their, own, particular, choice, of, subject, whether, it, is, politics, finance, or, mrs, jones, current, boy, friend, it, is, a, fault, to, take, on, board, all, that, is, gossiped, about, when, one, meets, a, fellow, villager, in, the, country, lanes, whilst, out, walking, the, dog, week, 46, illness, to, a, family, member, week, 47, continued, illness, week, 48, over, the, past, few, weeks, there, has, been, a, lot, of, tree, felling, in, the, nearby, woods, this, has, led, to, a, lot, of, disturbance, to, the, villagers, because, of, the, use, of, large, vehicles, needed, to, remove, the, felled, timber, and, also, the, foresters, vehicles, churning, up, the, grass, verges, and, the, ditches, a, lot, of, concern, was, raised, about, the, necessity, of, all, the, tree, felling, these, concerns, were, raised, in, the, press, and, also, in, the, parish, council, i, have, written, about, these, in, diaries, in, the, last, few, weeks, it, was, reported, in, mid, january, that, all, the, felled, woods, would, be, replanted, this, year, with, footpaths, created, for, the, enjoyment, of, the, local, population, now, all, timber, operations, have, ceased, large, areas, of, woodland, have, been, left, partly, felled, and, a, lot, of, felled, timber, is, left, lying, about, foresters, vehicles, have, gone, and, nothing, is, happening, despite, assurances, from, the, developers, it, looks, as, though, something, drastic, has, happened, village, tittle, tattle, says, that, the, foresters, have, not, been, paid, for, their, work, so, far, and, that, the, developers, have, run, out, of, money, if, this, is, so, what, is, going, to, happen, now, when, felling, started, late, last, year, i, contacted, two, environmental, agencies, regarding, the, threat, to, the, red, squirrels, badgers, and, buzzards, that, occupy, these, woods, i, was, told, that, it, was, only, a, partial, felling, and, they, the, environmental, agencies, were, satisfied, that, any, disturbances, would, be, slight, i, think, that, they, were, told, this, by, the, developers, and, accepted, what, they, were, told, without, a, site, visit, the, developers, have, been, known, to, mislead, groups, in, the, past, including, landowners, farmers, councils, and, individuals, i, personally, am, not, happy, about, this, situation, i, have, always, took, a, keen, interest, in, wildlife, and, feel, that, we, have, been, let, down, by, the, lies, of, developers, and, the, lack, of, serious, interest, from, wildlife, agencies, some, of, which, are, an, offshoot, of, central, government, i, for, one, will, keep, a, close, look, on, the, situation, with, or, without, other, villagers, and, in, particular, local, councillors, week, 49, by, chance, i, met, three, small, holders, all, at, the, same, time, they, were, discussing, farming, by, the, roadside, all, of, them, were, pleased, that, the, 20, day, ruling, was, coming, to, an, end, and, that, their, lives, were, more, or, less, coming, back, to, normal, they, also, expressed, the, opinion, that, the, 20, day, rule, and, the, 6, day, rule, were, only, in, force, to, protect, their, interests, however, they, were, unanimous, in, their, condemnation, over, the, importing, of, foreign, meat, and, meat, products, into, this, country, they, feel, that, foreign, meat, is, not, subjected, to, enough, checks, before, entry, into, the, united, kingdom, week, 51, met, a, farmer, today, who, told, me, that, he’d, seen, a, report, based, on, findings, by, the, eu, and, defra, it, stated, all, the, things, that, everyone, who, is, an, agriculturalist, and, those, who, take, an, interest, in, the, countryside, had, been, saying, about, what, was, wrong, with, the, handlers, of, the, fmd, outbreak, it, just, proves, that, it, doesn’t, take, an, academic, genius, to, know, what, should, have, been, done, at, the, time, everyone, can, be, wiser, after, the, event, but, statements, by, the, nfu, and, individuals, at, the, onset, were, not, heeded, for, example, the, movement, of, animals, should, have, been, halted, sooner, and, the, army, should, have, been, brought, in, much, sooner, now, the, question, of, vaccination, rumbles, on, should, we, or, shouldn’t, we, vaccinate, there, is, a, fear, of, the, outbreak, again, particularly, when, the, findings, of, the, 1960, outbreak, were, not, implemented, since, the, sadness, of, fmd, there, has, been, quite, a, few, instances, of, socialising, at, the, farm, such, as, harvest, festival, jubilee, party, and, almost, any, excuse, for, a, shindig, good, to, see, farmers, enjoying, themselves, week, 52, met, out, local, farmer, who, told, me, that, there, is, to, be, new, legislation, to, dispose, of, fallen, stock, no, longer, can, a, farmer, bury, fallen, stock, on, his, land, but, must, now, provide, an, incinerator, to, dispose, of, dead, animals, this, must, be, a, costly, business, could, dead, animals, not, be, taken, to, a, central, point, and, burned, week, 54, one, thing, about, fmd, was, the, effect, that, it, had, on, the, poaching, fraternity, living, in, a, rural, area, we, expect, this, to, happen, nobody, seems, to, mind, that, a, few, rabbits, and, pheasants, go, missing, what, is, really, alarming, is, the, use, of, dogs, and, high, powered, rifles, to, poach, deer, fmd, put, a, stop, to, all, this, now, a, neighbour, has, told, me, of, poachers, near, to, the, village, using, rifles, and, shooting, deer, the, only, people, benefiting, from, this, are, the, poachers, and, hoteliers, who, receive, these, dead, beasts, and, no, questions, asked, also, the, danger, of, villagers, being, hit, by, stray, rifle, shots, causes, alarm, to, others, week, 55, i, think, that, there, is, a, lot, of, jumping, on, the, band, wagon, now, that, fmd, has, cleared, up, for, instance, i, listened, to, an, interview, on, the, local, radio, station, given, by, a, hotelier, things, weren’t, going, well, in, his, establishment, having, got, over, fmd, and, its, implications, visitors, were, slowly, returning, to, the, area, but, not, in, sufficient, numbers, to, cause, great, joy]Standardising
If we want to focus on the ‘bag of words’ approach, we don’t really care about uppercase or lowercase distinctions. For example, we want ‘Privacy’ to count as the same word as ‘privacy’, rather than as two different words.
We can remove all uppercase letters with the function ‘tolower’ under the base package
However, you may have noticed that the above tokenisation code has already returned our text as lowercase, so we do not need to do anything more. But if you’re curious, the code to do so is listed here!
foot_mouth_df$lower_case <-
tolower(foot_mouth_df$tokenised_words)Spell check
We can use the hunspell_check and hunspell_suggest functions from the hunspell package to test individual words
#foot_mouth_df$spell_checked <-
#hunspell(foot_mouth_df$Everything_else)Remove irrevalancies
In this section we will identify how to remove;
- punctuation
- empty spaces
- stop words
Removing Punctuation
Punctuation is not always very useful for understanding text, especially if you look at words as tokens because lots of the punctuation ends up being tokenised on its own.
We could use RegEx to replace all punctuation with nothing, and that is a valid approach.
# Removing Punction
foot_mouth_df$no_punct <-
str_replace_all(foot_mouth_df$tokenised_words, "[[:punct:]]", "")
head(foot_mouth_df$punct)## NULLIf you were interested in removing non-alphanumeric characters, the reg ex exprresion is as follows “[^[:alnum:]]”, ““
#Remove Non-Alphanumeric characters
#foot_mouth_df$no_alpha_num <-
#str_replace_all(foot_mouth_df$Everything_else, "[^[:alnum:]]", "")Removing empty spaces
Did you notice that removing the punctuation has left list items that are empty strings. Between ‘corpus’ and ‘it’, for example, is an item shown as ’’. This is an empty string item that was a full stop before we removed the punctuation.
We can again use the str_replace_all function from the stringry package to replace all intances of empty spaces
foot_mouth_df$no_spaces <-
str_replace_all(foot_mouth_df$no_punct, " ", repl ="")
head(foot_mouth_df)## Filename Number
## 1 5407diary02.rtf 0
## 2 5407diary03.rtf 1
## 3 5407diary07.rtf 2
## 4 5407diary08.rtf 3
## 5 5407diary09.rtf 4
## 6 5407diary10.rtf 5
## Everything_else
## 1 \n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1975\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\nDiary 1 \nThursday Meeting @ N Lakes\nFriday TB testing on restocking farm. Usual chat and DEFRA comments\nThe meeting (research panel gp 6) at the North Lakes was interesting. It surprises me sometimes how people (myself included) never seem to tire of the same stories and complaints over how the crisis was handled. Some of the episodes recounted must have been told dozens of times over the last year but whoever says it always seems just as keen to say it again – Perhaps a reflection of how deeply people feel about the events of the last year. Having said that, most of the resentments and rants that I hear on daily farm visits are focused fairly and squarely at DEFRA and not FMD virus. Farmers seem far more upset at the constriction put on them by DEFRA than they do by the loss of stock now, although I know and saw how utterly devastated most were when they were actually diagnosed with the virus and in the week or two following.\nMy work in the practice is becoming less and less FMD orientated as time goes on. Licensing and restocking visits are drawing to a close and we are starting to return to “normal” vet work. My life has been more settled since the end of FMD. Although there was never a real threat of redundancy there was a great deal of uncertainty as to what form work would take during the outbreak - it was never clear whether I would be based at the practice or working as a DEFRA vet from month to month. Now that it is finished (I hope) the practice and my work can get back to a routine and at least knowing where I’ll be based each day, even if not which calls are going to come in.\nWith regard to FMD the biggest influence it has at the moment and over the last week is acting as a listener to farmers who still talk about it (and DEFRA) a great deal.\n\nDiary 2 \nMon Shap restocking, having to justify visit\nWed Melmerby\n I went to see a farmer this week to do the first inspection of his sentinel animals that he is restocking his farm. In common with many farmers he was unwavering in his conviction that his animals had been deliberately infected and that Tony Blair or DEFRA were the ultimate culprits. The belief is that they want to put farmers out of business. This particular farmer made the very valid point that DEFRA & co had underestimated the resilience of the farming community. I think that this has been very striking. Considering the strain that they have been under (in some cases worse for those who didn’t get FMD than for those who did) it has been remarkable how little the majority of our clients have changed. Admittedly we see most of them on a professional basis regarding their animals’ health and not their own, but on the whole they seem to have been very forward thinking about the outbreak. Many have taken it as a chance to increase the size of herds and to eliminate many other diseases as well as FMD.\nWork in the practice has been fairly steady. As week the number of FMD calls is decreasing. One of the problems with doing restocking, licensing and TB calls is that we are on the farm at DEFRA’s instruction. Normally it is the farmer who calls us out and this can cause friction. Anything related to DEFRA will put hackles up 9 times out of 10. It definitely causes stress at times but puts my diplomacy skills into good practice! It sometimes feels as though some farmers just need an outlet and I fit the bill. After agreeing with everything they say and sympathising, it usually smoothes out and ends with a cup of tea, but it does feel as though we have to justify what we are doing much more than prior to February 2001.\n\nDiary 3\nThis week was the anniversary of the week I went to my first IP and associated slaughter, pyre building etc. At several times during the week I found myself thinking “this time last year I was…” Although obviously not pleasant memories the thoughts did not particularly affect me in a bad way or distract me from work, it just took me back to that time when I had time to think. I went to see a sick horse near Carlisle, which is where the IP was, and it was interesting to drive past the farm and see animals in the buildings again. Hopefully the farmer concerned is getting back on track again.\nWith respect to daily routine, work is getting very busy. Lambing time is starting to really get going with the inevitable increase in calls. Although it can be hectic at times it’s better to be kept busy rather than having it too quiet. It’s also good to actually be doing lambings and other sheep work as it’s two years since we did any apart from euthanasing sheep last year.\nOn Monday I went to do a re stocking check on a farm. The farmer is convinced he was given FMD deliberately and on arrival I was given his weekly tirade regarding DEFRA, Tony Blair, how I must have made thousands of pounds out of it etc etc. After sometime of not rising to the bait he calmed down and half an hour later was sweetness and light. Perhaps he just needs someone to let pressure out to. Only one session like that a week isn’t too bad considering how many farm visits we do!\n\nDiary 4\nMonday brought another dressing down from the farmer I mentioned last week. It was shorter and less passionate this time - perhaps he’s mellowing a bit.\nI drove up to Junction 40 one day with the sun out. It reminded me of a similar day a year ago when I could count 15 smoke plumes from pyres on the same bit of road. As I said last week anniversary memories like this aren’t especially difficult for me, they’re just there. In a lot of ways it’s quite satisfying thinking about what was happening a year ago and how well things have progressed since then. Most of our farmers have re stocked, work is returning to normal. Even things like being able to drive onto farms again rather than having to leave the car at the farm entrance makes a big difference.\nWork continues to be very busy with the typical seasonal calls to sheep and cattle. We have a couple of vet students doing work experience with us which had to stop last March as we couldn’t take extras onto farms with us. Another sign of the continuing return to normality. Some days it seems as if we have returned to how we were a year ago. The most obvious legacy is perhaps the thorough and extensive clothing disinfection between each farm - a good habit which is very hard to break!\n\nDiary 5\nI had to work on Easter Monday morning, which was fairly uneventful. As for the last few weeks there were the usual seasonal calls to sheep and cattle, but nothing too stressful.\nOn Tuesday I did the final blood sampling on the last farm that we have that is still at the sentinel stage of re stocking. The farmers seemed fairly mellow today and spared me the usual lecture/attempt at argument. Perhaps it’s because the end of his restriction is in sight. The test went very smoothly, and I didn’t hear from him until the end of the week, when I (he?) was upset (probably justifiably) that his results still weren’t back. As processing the bloods is not our responsibility all I could do was sympathise and plead ignorance!\nThe rest of the week was fairly routine work-wise. Friday was taken up doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test on a re stocked farm. They all have to be done within 3 mths of re stocking. Although it was a big job it was a well run farm with plenty of help, so we got finished within the day and with as few delays as could be expected.\nNow that the evenings are lighter it’s meant that on nights off duty I’ve been able to get out more. It’s made a very welcome change to be able to bike/walk on the fells again this year after all the restrictions of 2001. Long may it and the weather continue!\n\nDiary 6\nFinally finished the last a restocking jobs on Monday.\nThe farmer was getting very frustrated (probably justifiably so) at the length of time it was taking - the bank holidays etc last week meant to that the labs were closed so that blood samples took longer to process. I got the results at 4. 45 Monday evening and in an attempt to create some goodwill agreed to go to the farm to do a final check that evening. On arrival of the usual tirade about DEFRA and vet's came my way which was slightly hard to take. He then said that he didn't blame me personally which was nice of him. I think (hope) he realises that we can only try to get things going faster and ultimately it’s out off our hands. At least it's good to have all the restocking work finished. It feels as though the first stage is over in getting back to where we were. Another sign of returning to usual is the continuing pace of work. Nights on call are again a time for working rather than the call free nights of summer 2001. This week has brought early-morning lambing most days. The rest of the time we’re is as busy as it's been for a year. The day book is full each day and we all seem to be driving around the county more or less keeping up with the jobs! (which is a good thing!) I had the weekend off and was going to go to Edinburgh to see some friends, but in the end stayed in Penrith for some R&R!\n\nDiary 7\nI had a half-day on Monday and went to Riggindale at the head of Haweswater with a friend who had come to stay for a night or two. The plan was to see the golden eagles nesting that up to unfortunately they were off on a day trip to another part of the Lake District. But the weather was good and it made a very pleasant change from work.\nThe practice is still going flat out with seasonal work. The daily flow of lambing and lambing related sheep problems shows no sign of ebbing. There are also increasing numbers of cattle problems probably related to coming towards the spring turn-out of cattle that have been inside for 6-7 months. The fact that most of them are in new surroundings is almost certainly adding to the problems. On the whole of farmers are fairly pragmatic about the difficulties they are having. Most accept that they were bound to have problems with the restocking and on the whole are pleased just to have stock on again. Some are very keen to be as efficient as possible whereas others will more readily go along with the old farming mantra that "where there's a livestock there's a dead stock" (Not quite what the veterinary profession wants to encourage!)\nI was on call at the weekend and had one of the busier few days I can remember. Again it was mostly seasonal farm work, which although it was time-consuming is often quite rewarding. I'm still surprised by the number of sheep we are getting called to - perhaps it's because farmers have spent a lot of money on them to restock with and now feel they’re financially worth calling us for.\n\nDiary 8\nMade a couple of visits to one of our farmers who restocked over the winter this week. He's having a few problems with cows getting ill and generally not settling in very well. He's one of the most amenable farmers on our books and never seems to try to blame anyone for his troubles. At times it's very frustrating not to be able to do more for people like him. I'd like to be able to give every one of his cows a magic injection and say that it'll get better but unfortunately that's not how it works!\nWe've had a lot of colt castrations to do this week, which is normal for this time of year. It puts more pressure on us in terms of work as we usually take two vets to each castration. Considering how busy it is relations in the practice are generally very good. It has been stressful at times but on the whole this has been stress related to volume of jobs to do rather than people. It has also been a very different (and preferable) type of stress than this time of the last year. At least a lot of work makes us all feel fairly stable rather than the terrible uncertainty of last year. We’ve also taken on an extra vet this spring which would have been unthinkable last year.\nIn the middle of the week I did a farm visit with one of the vets from the local Veterinary Lab to discuss disease control on a re-stocked farm. Most of the work into disease surveillance on a farm was DEFRA funded which went down well with the farmer. She at least felt as though she was getting something back after fighting with DEFRA for the last few months. It was also encouraging to see someone taking a very positive approach to disease control in the future.\nMy cousin and some of his friends came down from Glasgow for the weekend to go into the Lake District. The weather was good on the whole and several people noted how good it was to have the paths open again.\n\nDiary 9\n Started the week doing a big tuberculin and brucellosis test at a restocked farm. There has been a big backlog to clear after testing was stopped during FMD last year so we have to catch up with those farms that didn’t get the disease but are due a test as well as testing the restocking farms. We’re all very keen to keep Cumbria as a TB free zone, but with all the different stock coming in it’s going to be tricky. Monday’s test was long but okay on the whole. The set-up was good and the farming family were very pleasant which makes a huge difference to how the day goes! All was clear when I went to read the test on Thursday - a relief for all concerned.\nOverall work seems to be quietening down a bit this week compared to the last few. We are now just busy rather than always feeling as if were one job behind all the time. On Wednesday and Thursday one of our clients brought in half-a-dozen Shetland ponies to castrate .It makes a change to have a "large animal" that is small enough to be easily physically restrained by one person. The continuing good weather made doing an afternoon's work with the ponies in the practice’s field a very pleasant way to spend a few hours (I can't help feeling that no rain in April means we'll get loads later in the summer!)\nI was on a second call at the weekend. Saturday was very busy with small animal jobs which I mainly left to a colleague while I tried to clear up the farm and equine jobs. Calm was pretty much restored by late afternoon, after which I wasn't called until early Sunday morning. Another of our re-stocked clients is having considerable trouble with some of his new animals and is becoming increasingly frustrated about it. We all try to help with the medical side of it (animals) but inevitably also get to hear a lot of his other worries too. Hopefully things will look up soon and he'll be able to ride it out OK.\n\nDiary 10\nHad a day off on Bank Holiday Monday - always the good way to start the week. I went up to Peebles in Scotland with some friends to go mountain biking. It was surprisingly empty for a weekend and the weather was good, and I didn't fall off - all in all, a good day out!\nTuesday was work as usual. I had to do a small TB test on a restocking farm. It shouldn't have been a long job but the facilities weren't great, so it didn’t go as slickly as it might have done. We all managed to get through in one piece so it could have been worse.\nOne of my colleagues went on maternity this week. She is part time but does all small animal work. Now that she's off for the next few months it means that an extra vet is needed each morning to stay in and do small animal operations. While it's probably not my favourite sort of work it does make a change from being out on farms every morning. It's also good to get a bit more experience at small procedures.\nAs well as doing smaller animals this week has brought several interesting equine cases. I had to hospitalise a horse for a few days for fairly intensive treatment which fortunately appears to have made a good recovery. There have also been a couple of horse operations at the practice this week. They’re generally quite interesting apart from the stress involved with having half a ton of horse asleep on the operating table!\nI had the weekend off and went to Edinburgh for a small reunion with friends I was at college with. Although we do talk about other things conversation inevitably came round to work. The effect of FMD and its consequences are still very much in people's minds. Friends all asked how it was last year and whether farms have restocked yet etc etc. It ‘s stuff which I seem to have said hundreds of times over the last few months, but people never seem to tire of asking it, and, to an extent, I don't seem to get bored of answering it. \n\nDiary 11\nThe week started with a big TB test at a restocking dairy farm. There were very good facilities and it subsequently went very smoothly and quickly despite the number of cows involved. The farmer seems to be quite positive about the new start and has been spared a lot of the problems that other people have experienced while restocking in terms of disease in the animals. Everything was clear when I read the test later in the week\nOn Wednesday afternoon I had a bit of a change as I went castrate two ponies belonging to my mother. She had bought two totally wild Fell ponies last autumn. They now a bit tamer, but not completely used to being handled yet. I went with one of our nurses and the senior partner, and it all went pretty much to plan. \nWork is still busy. There's one client in particular who is giving us a lot to do. He restocked a few months ago and is obviously having trouble lambing his sheep. It got a bit trying when I had to get up to his third lambing of one night, but that's what we are there for I suppose! He's a nice man and always seems pleased to see us, which helps.\nI had the weekend off again and went to Glasgow to be best man at my cousin's wedding. Apart from the weather it went very well (I think) with no unsolvable problems! \n\nDiary 12\nStarted the week with a long visit for dairy fertility work to one of our big dairy farmers. It's one of the farmers who has been having problems after restocking and a visit that another vet usually does, so I felt a bit under pressure. It's the type of work, which is very routine but has the potential to go quite badly wrong. On the whole it went fairly well with no major problems. I get on pretty well with the farmer which always helps as it makes the time go by quicker.\nSmall animal work is still quite busy. I had two days inside this week doing small animals operations. There wasn't anything particularly different or unusual, but it still helps to do more of it.\nOne of our farmers who managed to miss FMD is very busy with his calving schedule at the moment. He’s tending to have very big calves, and subsequently we’re doing a lot of Caesareans there. This week has brought at least half-a-dozen, of which two were in the middle of the night - there have been a few vets are looking sleep deprived recently! I had the weekend off and went so see a couple of friends in Edinburgh. We spent one day cycling in Peebles and then proceeded to nothing strenuous for the next!\n\nDiary 13\nThe week started with a big session dehorning cattle. It’s not exactly technical work and is fairly hard work – at least it gets me fit! We would normally do them at a younger age but quite a few have been missed as we didn’t get out onto farms for such routine work last year.\nOn the whole most people are fairly well caught up now that they’ve re-stocked/been having routine work done for the last 8 months or so, but there are still a few lagging behind.\nI had a call from a farmer who was one of our most consistently and vehemently anti-DEFRA people last year. I ended up doing a Caesarean and had quite a long chat with him. Conversation ended up coming round to the events of last year and he aired his resentments again. It was the first time in several weeks that I had heard this kind of talk, whereas a few months ago it would have been a daily occurrence. It wasn’t particularly aimed at me or the practice in particular but just frustration with the system as a whole.\nI went for a walk up Blencathra one evening during the week, but the highlight of the week has to be the start of the World Cup. I’ve been on duty this w/e but managed to see all but the last two minutes of this morning’s rather disappointing draw with Sweden. Most farmers are keen to watch the matches too, so lets hope not too many calls come in at the wrong time!\n\nDiary 14\nI had the bank holiday on Monday off, which was welcome, after a weekend on call. I went for a walk in the lakes with a colleague. Considering it was a bank holiday it wasn't too crowded. Had to work on Bank Holiday Tuesday though. It wasn't especially busy until the evening when I had to do a Caesarean on a cow and then go and see a badly cut horse. Both seem to be doing OK.\nThe rest of the week was worked as usual. Nothing particularly out of the ordinary happened with fairly routine calls. Perhaps it was because everyone was preoccupied with events in Japan and Korea? Or maybe that is just me. I was booked in for an 11 am call on Friday, but managed to persuade the farmer concerned that 9.30 would be more appropriate, said that I, (or should that be we?) could watch the second England game. We managed to get finished in time and it was well worth it. The 1-0 win over Argentina put everyone in a good mood for the rest of the day and the weekend.\nI was on first call over the weekend. Saturday morning was very busy and we didn’t get all the calls done until early afternoon. After that it was one of the quietest weekends I’ve had. They were a couple of things to do on Saturday afternoon - evening, but Sunday had no calls until after lunch - almost unheard of. I had to check my phone was switched on! Long may it last!\n\nDiary 15\nI’ve done two days in the practice doing small animals this week, more than usual. The weather has not been the best so it's no bad thing. I managed to go out on rounds on Wednesday though, so I managed to catch the third England match. Second round here we come!\nI spent most of Friday morning operating on two cows at one of our farms. They both had a condition where part of the gut displaces in the abdomen, and is best repositioned surgically. The farmer observed that it was probably linked to FMD last year. Because of FMD he had to use more silage to keep his cows inside last summer. This meant he had less stored over the winter and so had none available to feed this spring/summer. The lack of silage now is almost certainly implicated in the problems his cows had. It's very unusual to have two occurring on one farm at same time. Seeing as he missed getting FMD last year though, he thought it was a price worth paying! It was actually quite a pleasant way to spend a morning - he's from Kirkby Stephen, where I went to school, and I didn't have any other jobs waiting, so it was quite a relaxed few hours. (the surgery went OK too!)\nI had a half-day on Friday and drove to valley just beyond Alston to meet one of my old flat mates from Edinburgh for his stag weekend. We stayed in an old barn in middle of nowhere, so it wasn't exactly a conventional stag party, but very enjoyable all the same. We walked to the nearest pub on Saturday to see England's exciting next instalment 3 - 0. Thank you very much. \nAfter that it's been a leisurely day and drive back to Penrith. And I’ve got another night to get my head back to normal for work tomorrow. \n\nDiary 16 \nThis week has been quite small animal orientated again. I've done two mornings in the surgery and more consulting than usual.\nI'm not meant to be on duty for nights this week but I've had a couple to cover for people who've been on holiday. Fortunately both nights were fairly quiet. I'm sure the favour will be returned sometime! During the day work has been fairly steady. We’re not quite as busy as last week, but there's enough to keep us going.\nThe practice like most of the country, tried to stop briefly while England were losing to Brazil. It's a bit disappointing - hopefully farmers and the rest of our clients won’t be too depressed about it all. It was good while it lasted!\nAt the weekend I went down to a place near Worcester for the wedding of the friend whose stag weekend it was the last week there were a lot of people from Edinburgh there why haven't seen for several years and it was great to catch up. The weather was very kind and stayed dry.\n\nDiary 18\nOn Monday I went to do a big tuberculosis and brucellosis test at of one our big dairy farms that had restocked few months ago. They’ve got several hundred cows and it took a lot longer than anticipated - I had to go back on Tuesday to finish the job off. They’re a friendly family so it wasn't really too much of a chore. There has been a more obvious change in them since FMD than for most of our clients who had the disease. They seem much quieter and less concerned about farming and life's problems in general now. Perhaps they think if they can get through 2001 then there’s nothing worth getting stressed about in comparison! \nWednesday was spent doing small animal work - made a change as on Thursday I went back to read the cows results for the TB test (all negative).\nOn Thursday night I drove down to stay with a college friend near Birmingham for the start of a long weekend. On Friday I carried on south to another friend in north Devon. She's working (another vet) in an area that was also severely affected by FMD. Cumbria was so badly hit that is sometimes easy to forget that other places had a bad time too. Thankfully work in Devon is more or less back to normal again.\nI spent the rest of the weekend in South Devon where my dad had his 60th birthday. We were lucky with the weather and had fine (ish) conditions to have a barbecue on the beach. I was off today (Monday) as well, and spent the day driving north. Too far to go for a weekend!\n\nDiary 19\nIt's been a short working week seeing as I had Monday off. I’ve also started a month back on the out of the hours of rota this week (it works a month on, a month off system) so nights and weekends have been, and will be, a bit busier.\nWork has generally been a bit quieter recently. This is fairly typical for the time of year, mainly because animals are outside and farmers are busy making hay and silage (rain permitting). We've had two vets off this week so although there have been fewer jobs in we are not left twiddling our thumbs. There has been the usual flow of a routine farm work along with horses and small animals, but nothing too taxing on the whole.\n I had a night on Thursday and went up St Sunday crag in the Lake District, with a couple of friends from Brampton. It was further than I remembered it being - we didn't get down until it was almost dark. But apart from being unseasonably cold (surprise, surprise) it was a fine night.\nIt was duty this weekend. I was on first call on Friday night and had it very easy (no calls) until 12:45pm when another vet and I had to operate on a dog until three am. I checked it again at 5.30 and then had to go to calving at 6.45. Just as that was finished I was called to a badly cut horse, then some lame cows, and then to the bacon roll shop for breakfast!\nI was only on second call for the rest of the weekend and was fairly quiet. This meant I could get on with various mundane things like painting my house, tidying the garden etc etc - ideal tasks for when I can't do anything else because I'm on call. And the dog did well! So it makes the night with no sleep worthwhile\n\nDiary 20\nHave had another short week - had Monday off as I was coming back from a long weekend away. Work this week has been fairly steady. Farmers are often busy trying to get silage/hay in at the moment so routine of vet work takes a back seat. Having said that we have been kept at least as busy as we would expect with routine fertility visits and the occasional sick cow etc. There been a few of the restocking farms that have had some fairly unusual diseases that didn't obviously fall into the ones we usually recognise or deal with. As a lot of them have bought stock in from abroad we have to at least keep in mind the possibility of new problems been brought in. \nWe've worked quite closely with the local DEFRA-run Veterinary Investigation Centre on a few of these cases but thankfully none have turned out to be anything to be unduly worried about.\nI was on duty this weekend but have fortunately been reasonably quiet. The only thing out the ordinary was a horse that had torn its leg up quite badly on some wire, but with a bit of time and bandaging it should do okay.\n\nDiary 21\n2 vets have been off this week so it's been a bit busier for the rest of us. Again as with last week it's been a mixture of routine and the standard A&E type work. There have been a few tuberculin tests going on, still trying to clear the backlog from last year. It's getting there slowly but a lot of it will have to wait until the autumn/winter when the cows are in and the farmers have more time available. Our new vet who started in April has seemed to settle in very well. He had a bit of a bad day earlier in the week when a calving did go quite as planned. It's very easy to do, especially when you feel under pressure as is bound to happen when you start a new job. It reminded me of some of the problems I had a few years ago! The farm where it happened is quite an understanding type so it won't create any real problems.\nHockey training is starting again which seems a bit premature as the season is still months away. At least it'll encourage me to do a bit more exercise to get fit for matches. The weather has meant I haven't been out into the hills as often as I would have liked but hopefully there's still time for it to brighten up a bit!\nHad the weekend off - so a couple of friends from college he now living York came to stay. We went up to the borders for the day on Saturday, near to where I used to work - it doesn't seem to have changed much (I still think I'm better off down here despite last year!) \n\nDiary 22\nWe had a bit of a rush on this week, as sometimes seems to happen. It can be quiet for couple of weeks and then it suddenly it's crazy. It may be that a lot of farms have now largely got their crops in and are trying to catch up, or perhaps it's just the way things go. Several farms have had ongoing problems this week with visits being required several days running. There have also been a large number of horse calls. This is probably fairly common for this time of year as they tend to get ridden in the (supposedly) better weather. We tend to go further afield for horses - on Tuesday I went to Kirkby Lonsdale area in morning and had to go north of Carlisle in the afternoon the miles get racked up or fairly quickly and I get to learn where the\nvarious blind spots for phone and radio reception are!\nI was on duty again on the weekend which meant that I was also on for Monday, Wednesday and Friday nights. They weren't too bad apart from Friday when I have to go and see a couple of horses. Being on duty for three week nights tends to limit what I can do apart from work, but I managed to meet up with some friends working in Brampton one night and go for a walk in the lakes on Thursday. The weekend was fairly quiet, but I was only on second call so I found time to do some decorating in the room in my house which is the current project. (I lead such a thrilling life! ?!)\n\nDiary 23\nThe calm after the storm! After the frantic levels of work we saw last week it has again been a bit more civilised this week. We've had time to have coffee and lunch breaks and actually talk to colleagues from time to time. I wouldn't want have every week is quiet as this, but occasionally it's very welcome. It's quite relaxing to be able to go on a call knowing that there is not another one waiting. It also means that if the afternoons are quiet one of us can usually have a half day. I got the nod on Wednesday and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks. They’ve got a smallholding down there with various creatures which usually have some ailment or other. It's a bit of a busman's holiday going there but it is nice having them close - I tend see them every week or two. On Wednesday I vaccinated a couple of horses and trimmed a few sheep’s feet. They went through the joys of 48 hourly surveillance inspections last year but somehow managed to come through unscathed - their parish was one of the only ones in the Kirkby Stephen area to do so.\nOther weekend I went up to Glasgow to see a cousin who was having a leaving party. I didn't know many people there but it was good to go and do something completely removed from the usual. One of the people I did know came and stayed in Penrith on Sunday night. It was a stunning day - we went the lakes which were at their best.\n\nDiary 24\nThis week was the first of four for me being off the rota, which (should) mean no nights and no weekends on call - can't be bad!\nOn Monday had a small TB test to do. It was with a very pleasant farmer and the cows behaved themselves so it wasn't a bad way to spend a morning. He's imported a small herd from Holland and seems very pleased with them so far. It takes a bit time for the F & M farmers to get used to their new stock as most of them knew their old ones so well. But on the whole people seemed fairly content with their new ones.\nI did small animal ops on Tuesday and Wednesday as one of the vets who usually do it was on holiday. We've got a new nurse starting this week so it was a case of showing her the ropes, but she seems to be doing very well.\nOne my best school friends got married on Friday. Very typically, after a fairly quiet week it suddenly got busy on Friday afternoon. I managed to get the wedding but had to miss the afternoon reception in order to go and see a horse in Appleby. That's life.\nI was one of the duty vets at Lowther show on Saturday. I hadn't done it before and had a very good time. It was generally fine weather and there were some truly stunning teams of horses in the driving event. Lots of competitors commented on how good it was to have the show up and running again after last year's cancellations. The event passed without any major incident for vet-wise, so it was a pretty calm day for me really\n\nDiary 25\nThe week's been fairly steady. I seem to have been doing more horses than anything else - I didn't go and see a cow until Friday. Several of them were ongoing cases such as leg wounds that have needed daily dressing changes and the rest a selection of vaccinations, lameness and those that aren't "quite right". I quite enjoy the horse side of the job so doing a bit more than usual has been a welcome change.\nI had planned to get to work on my house this month in my free evenings, but it doesn't really seem to have worked like that. When I know I've got a lot of free time nights tend to get booked up seeing people from home or near by who I’ve temporarily lost touch with. Also seeing as summer seems to have found us I've been trying to get into the lakes as much as possible – the house can wait till winter!\nThis weekend I’ve been down to Wales to see a group of college friends. We stayed in a cottage owned by one of the group's parents and played a few rounds of golf. I played very badly, lost a lot of balls, and became very frustrated with it all. I think it comes down to lack of talent. Still, it was good to catch up with some people I haven't seen since graduation. And I'm sure the golf will be better next year. \n\nDiary 26\nI've done (more) small animal work than anything else this week. There had been no disasters all fairly routine stuff. One of the small animal vets has been away so I had to cover a bit. I didn't actually get out onto a farm until Friday morning. It gets a bit claustrophobic inside after a while so it was good to get out. \nI was on call at the weekend and also had a college friend to stay. It was very quiet most of the time until Sunday evening. I had swapped duty to be off on the night from 6:00pm. - at 5.45 four calls all came in at once at all four corners of the practice, so I didn't actually get finished until nearly 8pm . That’s the way it goes sometimes I suppose.\nI had another half day earlier in the week as it was fairly quiet. I took my bike out into the northern lakes for a few hours to blow away the cobwebs from being inside at work\n\nDiary 27\nI had a barbecue/party this weekend for people from work and a lot of friends from college. There were a lot of people I thought I'd always keep in touch with the but as time went on I never did, so I arranged a weekend a long way in advance for us all to meet up again. About 28 people came, most of whom I haven't seen for least a year or two. Nobody seems to have changed much and it was great to see them all again. The garden and house have both taken a bit of a pounding but I think most of the mess is fairly superficial!\nI went for a walk near Howtown today to clear my head after the barbecue last night. It was a very good day weather-wise which meant that a lot of people had had the same idea as us.\nIt's been a variable week at work - some days been very quiet, others flat out. I've had an ongoing case of a young horse that had been caught up in wire on Monday evening. It was well beyond the stage where it could have been stitched when I saw it, so it'll have to heal slowly by filling the wound in. I'm sure it'll be fine, but it's going to take a long time.\nWe’re starting to get a lot of inquiries about the new rules DEFRA are bringing in to allow farmers to bring animals on to their farms in isolation facilities. It should make things less restrictive for the farmer. We are going to have to do a lot of inspections. It's not since restocking checks last winter that we’ve really had to do this sort of thing, but the checks probably won't be as exhaustive as those we had to do last year\n\nDiary 28\nHad a fairly quiet week really. This been a fairly standard mix of sick cows, a couple of lame horses and the continuation of the young horse that wrecked its leg last week (which is going okay). So it's been fairly laid-back on the whole, with time for a coffee break after most calls!\nWe have done the first of the inspections for the new on-farm isolation facilities for sheep. On the whole farmer compliance has been very good. There have been a few whinges about why they have to do it, and I can see why as it must be frustrating to suddenly be told how to run stock movements that they've always done a different way. Most can see why DEFRA are insisting on it though as it's all aimed at reducing the risk of having another situation like we did last year.\nI was off again this weekend, one of my old flat mates and his wife came to stay. They live in London so came north for a weekend of clean-living and fresh-air! We went for walks around Cat Bells and High Street on Saturday and Sunday, ate drank and were generally fairly unstressed. Hope it was what they were looking for!\n\nDiary 29\nI've had a short week in terms of work at the practice this week as I've been to Glasgow for an Equine Conference from Thursday to Saturday. Further education is not compulsory and there is no formal structure for it (which is quite controversial in some people's eyes), but the Royal College of vets do encourage us to keep up-to-date. There is a quota we’re asked to fulfil each year and these three days will help me keep on track. There were several different courses on each day, with one lecture theatre for practitioner based subjects that we could expect to see on a day-to-day basis, and another called "advanced clinical sessions" on subjects and cases so obscure that you'd be lucky to hear of one, let alone see one, more than once or twice. (I didn't go to many of those lectures!).\nAs well as being useful in terms of picking up new information it was also a good chance to catch up with old friends from college. Lots of people I hadn't seen for a year or two were there and it was good to see them.\nThe first three days of the week were okay. I went out on Tuesday morning to trim some lame cows feet and ended up accidentally trimming some skin from the farmers thumb with my hoof knife. All a bit embarrassing and felt very bad but he didn't seem that fazed by it and he's not the type to bear a grudge. (perhaps I shouldn’t try to keep my knife so sharp )\nAnother of the week's more interesting events was an Irish Wolfhound that needed surgery to correct a twisted and distended stomach. It's fairly common in this type of dog and is a real emergency. Another vet and I operated on him on Tuesday afternoon. It took a couple of hours but (so far) is seems to have been worth it as he's done very well and apparently went home on Friday.\n\nDiary 30\nI spent most of Monday afternoon/evening irradiating myself by taking dozens of X-rays of a horse’s legs. It was being sold for a lot of money and the insurance company wanted to check all its joints were OK before insuring it. It took a lot longer than anticipated as it was difficult to get it positioned absolutely right for each view but we got there in the end. We have to be quite careful about exposure to X-rays but my X-ray badge hasn't shown a high reading yet!\n2 vets have been off this week (one on his honeymoon and one has been away doing AI on sheep) its often a bit quieter now but we seem to have been kept going. I did a big routine fertility visit to one of our dairy farms on Wednesday. One of the main things we do on these visits is manual pregnancy diagnosis. It's not too bad with dairy calves cows as if they're not in calf they would normally get another chance to do so, but with some beef farms or a dairy cow that is persistently not conceiving , it sometimes more economic to get rid of the cow of rather than persisting. So there's a big incentive for us to get it right, or at least not to say a cow isn't in calf when she is (luckily they were all quite straightforward this week)\nThis was my last before going away to the USA for a fortnight. I fly to New York tomorrow to meet up with an old flatmate of mine who's a journalist out there. I'm crossing the Atlantic to see him and he's given me directions to his flat rather than meeting me at the airport because I'm arriving when Premiership football is on TV. Charming.\n\nDiary 31\nTwo weeks in the States. Can't be bad. I flew into New York where I stayed with a friend who's working in Manhattan. I did a lot of the usual tourist things - Empire State Building, boat trip around the island, Central Park etc. For its size it's a very relaxed place in a lot of ways - it feels very safe and although there is loads going on you never seem to get hassled.\nWe flew to New Orleans for a week, supposedly for some sun in the Deep South, but landed just as a tropical storm hit the mainland. Everything was closed for two days (as bad as UK when it snows). Once the weather cleared it was fine and we again went about being tourists - paddle boat up the Mississippi River, out on a boat in the Louisiana swamps to look at alligators, and a bit of New Orleans nightlife.\nI had a few more days in New York before flying home. \n\nDiary 32\n First week back after America. Had a good trip, but the week has been rather marred by the death of one of the hockey team (and a year-mate of mine at school) in a tractor accident when he was hit by a wagon on the A 66 on Thursday. I saw him on Wednesday night at hockey training. He was very stiff having done the Great North Run with his wife the weekend before. I didn't know him very well at school but have got to over the last few years via hockey and he really was a tremendously good person and will be much missed by lots of people in and around Kirkby Stephen. The weekend's match was postponed as no one could have thought about playing - it all seems very trivial when this sort of thing happens. I couldn't have played anyway as I'm on duty this weekend, but fortunately it's been fairly quiet so far - a calving and 2 Caesareans, but it's getting into calving season so it's about par for the course.\nThe first half of the week was OK. I was even given a half-day on Tuesday - a day and a half after returning from holiday. I went for a walk at the bottom end of Derwent Water, and then tried to sleep off some jet lag.\n\nDiary 33\nI went to Matthew's funeral on Tuesday. How popular he was was reflected in the number of people there. We arrived 25 minutes before it was due to start and still had to stand, and had to move up as more people tried to fit into the chapel. It almost seemed as if all of Kirkby had come to a standstill. It went on quite a long time so I had the afternoon off and went to see my parents (who live near Kirkby) afterwards.\nWe cancelled hockey training on Wednesday as it seemed too soon to go on as usual, but decided play our Scheduled match on Saturday. Both our team and the opposition had two minute silence before the match. We ended up drawing 0 - 0, but it was a very good close game (we normally lose to this team), and played in a competitive but fair spirit. Just what was needed for our first match back. I'm actually on duty again this weekend but one my colleagues covered for me for a few hours so I could go to play.\nThe cases at work have been fairly steady this week. I'm going to enrol for a further qualification in Equine practice in the next week or two. I'm doing a reasonable amount of horse work at the moment, but will try to do a bit more over the next few months/years. It should motivate me to read up on cases more and find slightly more constructive ways to spend evenings on call!\n\nDiary 34\nTB testing! Our biggest beef herd had its post restocking test this week. About 600 cattle were to be done. There’s no way it could be done in one go so we did it over 3 instead (originally planned for two, but ran out of daylight). It all went smoothly on the whole (or at least as well as could be expected), and everything has been cleared as negative. I found out from DEFRA a few weeks ago that there have actually been quite a few TB cases in the county since restocking. As we'd been clear for years previously to FMD this is obviously a bit of a worry. We haven't had any cases in our practice but if we can't stamp out these new cases as they are found it’s only a matter of time before it spreads further afield. The more we get in the county also means there will have to be more testing. At the moment it's begrudgingly accepted by the farmers, but if we have to do more I can see them having a sense of humour failure over it. Ultimately it's in their interest for us to check that their herd is free, but it is a big time commitment and they don't get paid for it.\nWhile I spent two days testing the rest of the week had a bit more variety. I saw few horses, mainly lameness, but also one or two with other ailments. I have to write a casebook for the Equine certificate I'm doing I’m on the lookout for suitable cases during my rounds.\nI had the weekend off - played hockey in Manchester and then went to Worcester to see some college friends. I had to drive back via Ely (!) as the trains are cancelled due to the winds, which meant a friend was stranded. Not a very direct route to Cumbria. \n\nDiary 35\nThe week started on Monday morning with another TB test on a restocking farm. It's not a big farm and was one of the late ones to get FMD. It's run by a very nice but quite intense family. The son has taken re-stocking very seriously and has obviously thought of it very much as an opportunity to start from scratch and try to eliminate some of their previous herd problems. I have consequently spent quite a bit of time advising him over the various vaccines available and their relative pros and cons. Thankfully things seem to be paying off so far with few problems in herd. One of the things that I noticed during the test was that they made one or two jokes about last year (sorry - forgotten exactly what they said). I thought the fact that they were able to now talk about FMD like that had to be a good sign, as I think it would have been highly unlikely a year ago. \nOn Wednesday afternoon I went up to Wigton to vet a horse for a potential buyer. There were several minor things wrong with it but overall it seemed OK. It's always a responsibility vetting horses as someone is either trying to buy it or not on the basis of what I find. In this case it took quite a lot of convincing the buyer that the imperfections were not that serious. (Hopefully they won’t subsequently turn out to be a problem!)\nI've started doing more horse cases recently and on Tuesday sent off my application form to be accepted to do further exams in horse practice. I have to wait until next year to find out whether I've been accepted, and won't sit them until 2005. I was off this weekend and played hockey in Manchester. Unfortunately we didn't win. Maybe next week. Saturday evening I went down to Kendal to see an old flatmate who lives there.\n\nDiary 36\nOn Tuesday I went to see a horse near Carlisle. It had developed a swelling on its lower jaw that was fairly painful to touch. They were a few possibilities but the most likely was that it had at tooth root abscess. I put it on to antibiotics, but seeing as it had obviously been going on for a while, thought it was worth taking some X-rays. There was obvious destruction of the tooth visible on the X-ray, which probably means it needs removing. This is a fairly major undertaking on a horse and as it was a valuable creature still in training I thought it best to send to Edinburgh vet school to have it done. Hopefully I'll be able to go and see it done in a day or two's time.\nOne of the aspects (drawbacks? (not really!)) of being a vet his that one is often asked about animal ailments out of work. (I’m sure it happens a lot in other jobs too.) My mother is very adept at this not that I really mind. Her elderly terrier that we grew up with has started having one or two problems recently. I suggested a few possibilities but thought it best if she went to the local vets to have her looked at. The problem was she was so bad tempered (the terrier) that they couldn’t safely blood sample her, so she had a day out to Penrith so that I could try to take blood from her. I managed to more-or-less intact, and fortunately her results seemed more or less in order (or at least better than her temper).\nThe general work in the practice has been fairly steady this week. A few farmers seem to be having quite a few cows calving at the moment which is a bit unseasonal, but I suppose a reasonable number tend to calve all-year-round. We haven't really got into calf pneumonia season yet but it can't be long before they start to keep us busy. It will soon take over from lungworm as the main bovine respiratory problem.\nThe weekend was off again brought a victory in a hockey match. The start of a winning streak perhaps? I went up to Edinburgh after the match to see a few friends and for the start of a week off. Wahey!\n\nDiary 37\nIt's a week off - can't be bad. I didn't do what I had planned due to an unforeseen change in circumstances, but still good. As I was in Edinburgh last weekend I decided to stay up for few days. This was partly to see friends and also because I had referred the horse with a bad tooth that I mentioned last week. (voluntary work experience during time off - dedication or very rash?). I spent Tuesday at the vet School in Edinburgh with one of my old tutors. The case I had sent up was successfully treated (so far) by removing the offending tooth. It was very interesting to see how he did it as he used a different technique to the one we’ve used in the practice. I spent the rest of the day there with him seeing other cases. It felt a bit odd being there not as a student. I came home on Tuesday evening and went down to Kirkby Stephen to see my folks on Wednesday morning. I spent most of the rest of the week either at their house or mine doing things like stocking up on firewood for the winter, sorting my house out and making a start on stripping the wallpaper in my hallway. I normally go away when I take time off but it was actually very nice to do things at home for change. It made for quite a relaxing week on the whole!\n\n\nDiary 38\nBack to work. It was good to have a week off last week, but one of the best things about where I work and what I do is that I never seem to feel reluctant to go back to work. I think that must mean I enjoy it on the whole!\nOn Tuesday I went back to see the horse that had had its tooth removed last week. It's doing very well and is back in training. It was eating very well as soon as the tooth came out - it's amazing how animals often seem to deal with pain so stoically. I'll check it again next week and, all things being well, that should be it.\nOn Tuesday afternoon I happened to see another slightly unusual case in a horse. It had developed a lump on the outside of its cheek which on closer inspection turned out to be a large mass (man?) inside its mouth. It's probably going to have to be removed and should come in next week for it to be done.\nThe rest of the week was the usual mix of more routine cases. Have been on to more farms this week than I have done for a while. We recently took on a new dairy farm near Appleby and I went to see a cow there for the first time. On a first visit you always hope for something straightforward so that it's easy to make a good first impression. On this occasion the cow was very sick and wasn't really giving me many clues as to why. All I could do was treat it for the symptoms it was showing. I saw it twice on Friday and again on Saturday and by evening it was on the mend. I never did reach a conclusive diagnosis but I think the farmer was satisfied by the fact that it had got better in spite of not knowing quite what was wrong!\nI was on duty Friday night (very quiet) and on Saturday. Apart from the cow I mentioned it was fairly easy going. Today I went down to Kirkby Stephen to see some old friends staying with my parents.\n(two weeks with no TB testing!! (it'll change next week!)).\n\n\nDiary 39\nIt's been a fairly uneventful week at work. There don't seem to have been any particularly on-going or notable cases. In some ways it's not a bad thing as it makes for a fairly stress-free time. It's not that you can really switch off but it does mean that when there are a few fairly straightforward cases to see it's possible to spend more time chatting to the farmer/owner without having to work too hard finding what's wrong with the patient.\nThis week's most interesting case was a horse with amazingly extensive arthritis in its hind legs considering its age. It's not a terminal condition but it does have implications as to what it will be possible to use it for in future. In situations like that it can be quite difficult to give the client the right outlook. They often expect a quick cure, especially in a young horse and to tell them that a problem has been present for months, if not years, and will never completely go away can come as a bit of shock. The owner in this case was very sensible and seemed to taking what was said very well.\nThe other good thing about this week is that I'm having a very good run with my duties - I've been on for two nights on first call and the phone hasn't gone once - very unusual and very welcome! (this must be tempting fate...)\nI've had the weekend off - there was a hockey match on Saturday when we lost to the league leaders but avoided humiliation. The rest of the two days was spent trying to progress with decorating the hallway before friends come to stay over Christmas and New Year. Am I not too young to be spending weekends off decorating??! \n\nDiary 40\nI had a good test of my diplomacy skills this week with an irate farmer. I had spent four hours doing a TB test on a very cold day when it should have taken about one-and-a-half hours. In my rush to get defrosted in my car afterwards I forgot to shut the gate in the field where I had parked. On my return to the surgery I was greeted by the news that he had rung wanting my head on a stick and forbidding me from ever setting foot on his farm again as all his tups had gone walkabout through the gate I'd left open. On advice from the partners at the practice who knew him better I gave him a day to calm down and then wrote a very grovelling letter! I was allowed to go back at the end of the week to read the test results (which fortunately was all clear). I think he's forgiven me.\nOne of the more common cow operations we do is to correct a displaced stomach. In the two and a half years I've been at the practice we’ve always done it using one particular technique. There are circumstances where another method is indicated and having not seen them for 2½ years, there were 2 this week. They both went well (so far). Another two years before the next?\nI took my last day off for 2002 on Thursday and again spent it decorating. On Thursday night we had our Practice Christmas meal. The two vets on duty managed not to get called out and on the whole I think people weren't too hung over on Friday. Last year there was a bit of a debate as to whether we should have a Christmas night out as most farmers were either just starting to restock or still cleaning out. This year it was much more straightforward.\nOn Friday night it was the annual night at Hesket Newmarket organised by the local DEFRA lab for any local vets that want a meal and beers. It's a good chance to catch up with other vets from neighbouring practices in (very) informal atmosphere.\n\nDiary 41\nI've had a couple of vet students staying with me this week who I knew when I was in my final year at Edinburgh. They're doing work experience with us for a week or so. It's made a pleasant change to have some company for a while. I have also acquired two stray kittens in the last week - the usual vet procedure of eventually finding an unwanted patient that you can't resist taking yourself. They are settling in ok and we’ve only had to have one or two little discussions about the benefits of using a litter tray rather than the carpet.\nThe week at work has been reasonably busy - a good thing this week as there have been three students and it's a bit dull for them if there is nothing going on. We had a horse in for most of the week with a severe respiratory infection. It’s needed fairly intensive care but seems to be on the mend now. I may use it as a case to write up as part of the exam I'm hoping to do in a few years. It'll have to be a New Year's resolution to get on with the writing up part of it.\nApart from a horse it's been the usual sort of mix - a few routine fertility visits to dairy farms, a few sick cows and horses etc. There been some TB tests this week but I've managed to miss them all - must be saving some for me next year.\nI had a lot of people from work here on Friday night for pre-Christmas mulled wine and mince pies. I'm not quite sure the kittens knew what was happening but I think the rest of us enjoyed it!\nI've had the weekend off and went down to see a friend in Birmingham who qualified last summer. This was her second weekend on call so I went to give moral support. Being on call isn't stressful anymore but I remember for the first few times it's difficult not to be aware of the phone all the time and hoping it doesn't ring. There weren't many calls and those that did come in she didn't need me for - suited me well.\n\nDiary 42\nThe week of Christmas and my first job of the week was to replace a particularly contaminated uterine prolapse in a cow. It finally went back in after an hour or so of fairly fruitless efforts. Very festive. This week and next we had fewer vets than usual working each day as we all have a few days off for Christmas/New year so it‘s sometimes a bit busy during the day. It's generally worth it for the extra time off.\nI was off on Monday night and went to Kirkby-Stephen to see school friends back for the holiday. Although we don't see each other very often any more people don't really seem to change very much. A good friend whose parents farm had F and M have sold up and are going into B&B instead. I think it was a hard decision but now they seen to be quite relieved to be out of it.\nI was on duty on Christmas Eve and fortunately didn't have to go out - I just had three phone calls between 7 and 9 p m. from people saying their dog or cat had been off food for periods varying from three weeks to 10 days. Christmas Eve seemed an odd time to notice this.\nI went home to Kirkby Stephen for Christmas and Boxing Day and didn't really do very much. I had a look at a couple of Mum’s sheep but other than that it was just a case of being lazy and enjoying seasonal food and drink.\nI was on duty this weekend, which turned out, be fairly busy. One of the students who came to stay last week came back to do some on-call work which turned out to be very useful. A couple of cows to operate on (as Caesar and a displaced stomach) where two pairs of hands are better than one and quite a few small animals to see to.\n\nDiary 43\nI've had most of this week off for New Year (Tuesday to Friday) which is pretty good going seen as I was off for Christmas as well. Monday was fairly quiet with just a few farm calls to do and some small animals. Rather worryingly we've heard that a local deer farm (not one of our customers) has gone down with TB, apparently with quite a few deer in the herd having it. This means that we'll have to do TB check tests on any of our farms that neighbour the affected premises.\nOver New Year my cousin, her husband and their five (!) children (young) came to stay. It wasn't too hectic on the whole, with just the occasional loss of humour. A couple of friends from work came round to join us for New Year itself.\nI've had to work this weekend (part of the deal for getting four days off midweek) but it's not really been that busy. I've only been on second call and have only had to do 2 calls so far - an easy return to work after New Year excesses!\n\nDiary 44\nBack to normal quota of vets at work again this week, which is good as it seems to have been very busy. Most of it has been the usual sort of things for the time of year - cows starting to get lame after having been inside for a few months and metabolic problems, probably related to the poor silage last year's summer rain created. Quite a few farmers have a large amount of 2001 silage left as it wasn't used over winter 2001/2002 as they hadn't restocked. On the whole it's kept very well and in many cases is better than the crop they made last summer.\nThe fall-out from the deer herd TB has arrived. Two neighbouring farms to test this week. The first one has come back negative to the relief of all concerned. I did the second one on Friday and will read it tomorrow (Monday). The farmers there are all very concerned about it which is understandable but hopefully groundless. There are lots of questions being asked along the lines of "what if….” some of which I can answer and some not. It does remind me a bit of February 2001 when FMD broke out and there were all sorts of queries about the disease, its progression etc that none of (us?) really knew about. It didn't take long for us to know the answers to most of them.\nI've had this weekend off - a hockey fixture list has started again after the Christmas break. A return to winning ways - hopefully to continue…\n\nDiary 45\nThe week had a bad start - the TB test I did last Friday produced two reactors and two inconclusive (borderline) reactors this means that the farm isn't allowed to move at any bovines on or off the farm except directly to slaughter under licence. The reactors are taken away for post-mortem examination and the inconclusive reactors are isolated for 60 days until the rest of the herd is re-tested. The farmer was very keen to get the inconclusive animals removed as well (quite understandably in my opinion) so that they couldn't pose a threat to the rest of his herd. Apparently DEFRA aren't allowed to do this, I think largely due to financial reasons. While fully appreciating the need to protect taxpayers' money, considering how much was spent in 2001 I think this a potentially flawed argument. Perhaps the rules need to be changed? But then again I'm not an epidemiologist and perhaps they don't actually pose a threat.\nThe farmer seemed very depressed by it all. I think a lot of it is the feeling of having the stigma of being a farm under DEFRA restrictions again. He was also very aware of the threat he was to his neighbours and was desperately keen to minimise it. It's actually quite small while the cows are still indoors but I think people are still very much thinking of how serious it was for neighbours if someone got FMD. TB is a very different type of organism and it’s a question of getting people to understand this (which isn't to say it's not a very serious problem).\nOn the same day another farm in the area (not ours) was confirmed with TB so it's definitely progressing in Cumbria - depressing. All we can do is follow DEFRA instructions on testing and try to keep on top of it.\nOne of my colleagues tore a knee ligament last week while skiing. He normally does mostly large animal calls. Seeing as he's now confined to the practice doing small animals I've taken over couple of the farms he does routine fertility visits for. It makes a change to spend time on farms I don't visit often (although I hear the small animal nurses are quite keen for Matt to get back to doing them!) \n\nDiary 46\nOne of our dairy farmers has had a big outbreak of pneumonia in his calves this week - I've been to the farm at least once every day this week. The tests we've done are usually pretty sensitive but have failed to reveal any of the usual causes. Treatment seems to have been working in some cases but not in others. He hasn't lost any (i e none dead) but the loss in body weight is very obvious. It's all been a bit frustrating really. He's a very pleasant guy and hasn't said anything but when treatments repeatedly fail to get expected (and predicted) results I can't help feeling that he must be getting a bit sceptical about it. Or perhaps I'm just being paranoid! By the end of the week the majority seem to be on the mend but seeing as we haven't tracked down the causative agent it's hard to know what vaccination to recommend next year. There are some more tests that will come back in two weeks which may be more revealing.\nIn midweek I did one of the fairly common operations to correct a twisted stomach in a cow. Surprisingly it was the first time this dairy farmer had had one done and he took some convincing that it was a good idea. Having persuaded someone to pay for a procedure I always feel under a bit more pressure than usual. Fortunately it went pretty well and the cow is, so far, doing well.\nI was on second call this weekend, which turned out to be pretty quiet. I think we must be in a lull before lambing really kicks in - let's enjoy it while it lasts!\n\nDiary 47\nAfter not doing any testing last week it was my turn again this week. It wasn't a big one (only about 30 cows) but it was a bit more risky than usual as it was a herd of Beef Longhorns. And they do have long horns! Whilst trying to manoeuvre them into a crush to inject their necks with tuberculin we always had to be ready to take evasive action if they made a sudden turn. I don't think they ever tried to use their horns aggressively but they were so big that they become dangerous weapons when they were just moving normally. As it turned out no one received any injuries and, very importantly, the test was negative.\nThis week also brought my first lambing of the year. Other people have done a few but this was my first. We have a couple of farms who lamb early for the early lamb sales - it seems very hard work at this time of year - but the early prices do seem to make it worthwhile. Give it another week or two and a sure they’ll start to become more frequent.\nI took Friday off as I had to get to London for 4 pm. to get on the Eurostar to go skiing. Typically the one day of the year that the country ground to halt was Thursday night/Friday. We managed to make it to Waterloo station only to find the station in chaos as all Eurostars had been cancelled due to snow in France (at least it's not just Britain that can’t cope with it!) after being assured that none would run for 24 hours they suddenly told us to board, only 1½ hours late - very pleasant surprise. We ended up arriving in Val d'Isere on time, with loads of snow and blue skies. I tried to spare a thought for whoever was on call at weekend. I managed it (just).\n\nDiary 48\nAfter the weather almost prevented us from reaching Val d’Isere it was very clear for the first few days but then the snow returned for three days. We couldn't do much during that time but it did mean that there were fantastic conditions for the last few days. We had a group of 29 and completely filled one large chalet. There were, for once, no major skiing injuries within the group and I think a good time was had by all. \n\nDiary 49\nBack to work this week. I’m never reluctant to go back after a week off and sometimes, dare I say it, even look forward to it - must be a good sign?\nApparently last week was OK at work with no major dramas. We still haven't found any more TB cases but the screening continues all the time. One of the rules for re-stocking herds compared to herds that missed FMD is that all bovines over 42 days old have to be tested rather than just the adults. Last year when there weren't many calves around this didn't make much difference, but now most farms have at least a year's worth of calves in place it doubles the size of most tests. Often calves won't fit in crushes and are very wild so it can get quite exciting. It seems a necessary policy though - one of the reactors I found a few weeks ago was a six-month old stirk.\nI've had a fairly quiet week. I've had a couple of nights on duty which were both quiet. There's a horse near Carlisle that I think I've mentioned before with a recurrent tooth problem. We thought we'd finally sorted that but this week she developed a problem with one of the tendons on her foreleg. It's a bit disappointing for her owner as she only bought the horse recently in order to compete to a very high standard and she seems to () permanently off training with one ailment or another. I don't think it's too serious so hopefully in another week or two she'll be back to work.\nI've been off this weekend - came second in the weekend’s hockey match. A real case of defeat been snatched from the jaws of victory. I went for a walk around the Great Gable/Scafell area on Sunday afternoon - it was amazing how much snow and ice was still left over from winter weather a week or so ago. Maybe I needn't have bothered going abroad.\n\nDiary 50\nI found another positive TB case on Friday. I did the test on Tuesday on a very large beef herd on a restocking farm. Including calves they must have been just over 400 cattle to do. There was one reactor on Friday and two inconclusives. There is a possibility that it is a false positive - the farm has been having big problems with something called at Johne’s disease which is caused by a similar type of bacterium to the one that causes TB. There is a small possibility of a cow carrying Johne’s disease cross-reacting with the TB test injection. I actually blood sampled all the adult cows on Tuesday to screen the herd for Johne’s in order to try to start eradicating it from herd. It'll be interesting to see whether the positive test cow will be positive for Johne’s. Ultimately it doesn't really make much difference in the short term - the farm’s been placed under restrictions and the affected cow has been taken off for post mortem. One of my colleagues found another positive reactor on a different farm on Friday as well - that's three farms in the practice now and around 50 - 60 within Cumbria. The big worry now this is that the longer it stays around the more likely (inevitable?) it is disease will get into wildlife reservoirs - deer, and perhaps badgers depending on whether you believe that badgers are an influence or not. Time will tell, but I'm sure it's going to keep us busy for several years if not a lot more.\nI did a test on Monday as well on a small farm that I've never been to before - at least testing is one way of getting on to small farms who don't often need us. This one was all clear.\nThe remainder of the week was spent doing more usual work. Lambing’s still not quite got into full swing although we are seeing a slow increase in the number of sheep been brought to the surgery.\n\nDiary 51\nNo TB testing for me this week and no more positive cases in the practice. The first case that I found back in January was confirmed as carrying TB this week though. Although it's bad news for the farmer it is quite reassuring to know that the tests and methods we use do detect carrier animals reasonably accurately.\nThis week has been fairly busy without ever getting too hectic. I operated on a cow on Tuesday which for a number of reasons didn't go quite as smoothly as it might have done. It subsequently didn't do as well post-operatively as we would normally expect. The coming week should see an improvement (I hope). We can never give cast iron guarantees about the outcome of surgery but it is quite rare for this Op to fail, so fingers crossed for Monday. I had to see a horse with colic earlier in the week which on my first visit to I was very suspicious that it was going to require surgery to correct. The owner wasn't prepared for that happen though so it was a question of trying to manage it medically or euthanizing it. It wasn't in undue pain so we gave it a go medically, and much to my (pleasant) surprise over the next few hours and visits he did very well. (just goes to show we are not all-knowing!!!) It would have been interesting to know whether it was a surgical condition which somehow righted itself or whether it was a medical case all along which simply appeared as something more serious. I had to work for an hour or so on Saturday morning doing small animal consultations and then had the rest of the weekend off. We came second in a hockey match again and then I went up to Edinburgh to catch up with some college friends who haven't seen for a while.\n\nDiary 52\nThis week has really seen the start of the lambing season. The sheep every day or every other day that we've been seeing for the last month or so has turned into one every few hours during the day (and during the night in some cases). It’s encouraging that farmers are still bringing them in/calling us out as many feel that sheep aren't worth paying vet fees for. This obviously creates a welfare problem in many situations as inappropriate and inadequate treatment is sometimes provided by the farmer. Having said that I can see why some take the attitude of not spending money on them as prices are often so low.\nThe other aspect of lambing time is that nights get very busy - on Monday I had a ewe caesarean at 2am, then a horse that had just foaled at 3.15.\nI had an hour or so in bed and then a sick cow at 6.20. Although it can be a bit tiring, on the whole cases we see out of hours are not the run-of-the-mill routine things so it does at least make it interesting (which isn't always the first thing on my mind when the phone rings at 3am!)\nUnfortunately the cow I operated on last week failed to improve and I had to re operate on Monday. This is far from ideal as it carries a much higher risk of infection than first-time operation. Somewhat to my surprise it seems to be doing very well now. Cows seem to be amazingly resilient if I'd had abdominal surgery twice in a mucky cow byre I'm sure I wouldn't cope as well.\nI did the same Op on a different farm later in the week which went much better. I’d be getting worried about my technique if two in a row went wrong.\nI've worked Saturday morning again supposedly just for an hour but it turned into about two-and-a-half as things kept coming in. I went up to Edinburgh again after hockey (came second again) to see someone who's left his job to go around the world for six months.\n\nDiary 54\nThe beginning of the week saw a visit to a horse, which had a chronic episode of laminitis (a hoof condition). In this horse's case it had become very severe and really beyond the point where treatment is feasible. Euthanasia was the best option for the horse as it was in a lot of pain. Unfortunately the owner was very reluctant for this and wanted to carry on with treatment. This sort of situation does crop up from time to time and is difficult for all concerned. In the end I told the owners what I thought the chances of recovery were and let them make their decision, which was to continue treatment. Hopefully I'll be proved wrong and the horse will recover, but I can't really see it happening. I saw another case later in the week which ended up going to Liverpool University for surgery. It was a small pony that had managed to cut itself very severely on barbed-wire (horses always find something to injure themselves on). There was a risk that it had penetrated a joint so I sent it to Liverpool to be flushed. As far as I know it's doing very well so far.\nThe rest of the workload this week has been the usual stuff for the time of year. Loads of lambing, a few TB tests (negative!) - generally kept busy.\nOn Friday I went to Edinburgh for a few days course on Equine neurology. I knew most of the speakers (and some delegates) from when I was a student there - it was good to see people again (and I learnt a few things about horses brains and nerves!)\nSaturday was our last hockey match of the season - a draw. We didn't win the league by any stretch of the imagination (but we weren't last either!)\n\nDiary 55\nAnother manic spring week goes by. I've been on duty this weekend and the two of us on call have done as many calls in the last two days has eight vets would expect to do in two week days in the summer. We haven't been bored!\nI didn't leave the practice building until lunchtime on Saturday as there was a constant flow of small animals to see to and a few sheep brought in with lambing problems. I eventually left at 1.30 p m. to go to operate on a cow with a twisted stomach that was meant to be done at 11 am. The Op went a OK but it was then straight back to the surgery to do a caesarean on a whelping bitch with the help of a student who is seeing practice with us. Between then and 9 pm. It was a variety of sick cows, sheep to lamb and a calf with lead poisoning at the far end of Ullswater (would have been a very nice drive out if it hadn't been for the rush!). To top things off I had a cow caesarean at 9 pm. It was very useful having a student to help all day - I think it was a bit of an eye opener for her!\nSunday morning gave me to more Caesareans (sheep this time - variety is the spice of life), a cat who had very mysteriously lost a leg overnight (perhaps caught in a trap?) but was in incredibly good health otherwise - it's amazing what animals can withstand - and a good supply of other calls to keep me out of mischief. It has actually been quite enjoyable despite being so hectic, and (I think) most of the cases have been quite successful which always helps.\nThe rest of the week seems a distant memory but on the whole it was more of the same, but at a slower pace! I did another small TB test which was negative. Anyway a night off tonight - I need a pint!!\n\nDiary 56\nMonday morning was the 60 day re-test for the first herd that I found TB in. It was a sunny day and on the whole the test went very smoothly. The farmer's buildings are getting very overcrowded though, as he is under a movement restriction due to the TB. First day started well as all the animals were giving negative readings, but then came the dreaded reaction to the injections we gave on the first day. There were four reactors in total; three of which were borderline and the other was very very obvious. The frustrating thing is that the obvious one was a borderline reactor last time but DEFRA refused to take it as it isn't in their policy to take inconclusive reactors found on a routine test. This means that an animal that is actually infected his left on premises to potentially infect other animals. The farmer had tried to point this out two months ago to no avail. He is now vindicated in his view, not that that is much consolation for the fact that his restrictions are to be continued and he may well (probably will in fact) now have more carriers which won't be found until the next Test in 60 days' time. The reason for not initially taking inconclusive reactors is to save money by not paying for the animals to be slaughtered that aren't actually infected. In cases like this it seems to be a real false economy and doesn't win DEFRA \nfriends in the farming community.\nTuesday and Wednesday this week were mainly horse jobs. A horse with a recurrent tooth problem that I've mentioned before came in for more X-rays and finally seems to be doing OK. Its competing in Germany in a week or two so I do hope it stays OK! This weekend I went for a walk in the lakes with one of my old flatmates from Edinburgh. The weather held and was amazingly hot for the time of year - almost got sunburnt.\n\nDiary 57\nI've had a final year student from Edinburgh staying with me this week while she's seeing practice with us. Final exams are looming and I think the stress levels are rising. It's very easy to think of all the things you don't know but I think we've more or less managed to convince her that she does know enough not to be a liability when she qualifies!\nShe saw an interesting incident on a call we did early in the week. I'd gone to replace a uterine prolapse in a cow, which went okay, but the farmer then asked me to falsely certify a cow. We can give certificates to cows over 30 months of age under the BSE scheme, for which farmers are compensated. This cow had to be put down, but wasn't 30 months for another four days. He was understandably "quite upset" about this and let me know! It’s this sort of thing that is a nightmare for anyone but especially someone just starting - you want to please the farmer and make a good impression, but you also have responsibility to not abuse your ability to use your signature. In the end I explained why he couldn't have a certificate and he did calm down. I'm sure Vicky will have similar situations before too long - diplomatic, as well as clinical, skills develop very quickly once in practice!\nAnother interesting case came in on Thursday - a year old foal needed emergency surgery on a hernia. As luck would have it it was our first relatively quiet morning for a few weeks so we had enough vets on hand to do the surgery and anaesthetic. The Op went well and the horse has gone home this weekend.\nI've been on second call this weekend and things have been busy but not unmanageable. I did 2 Belgian Blue Caesareans in the space of six hours on one farm yesterday but since then it's just been a reasonable stream of calls rather than the madness of two weekends ago.\n\nDiary 58\nFollowing my going up on a course on neurology a few weeks ago a case came up this week. It's not often that we see neurological cases so it's quite a coincidence. I think it must have some kind of tumour in its brain causing it to show the various signs it has. Unfortunately the only way to firmly diagnose this is by post mortem, which is how most neurological cases end up and, alas, I fear this one will too.\nI went to do a fertility check at one of our dairy farms on Tuesday. The vet he normally has was away and he looked a bit put out when I turned up. I think (hope) I managed not to abort any of his cows and he seemed very cheery by the time I left. I suppose it's understandable that farmers tend to want continuity with which vet comes. Work continues to be very busy. An indication in the increase in daily workload is that we've had to introduce a specific messages book at work as there's no longer room to write people messages in the day book as it so full with appointments. They used to be a few days in the year when both pages of the day book were full (the first day of FMD in Penrith had one call) but this week 4 days have been full. It's got to be a good sign really and as I think I've said before, it does stop us all from getting bored!\nI've had three days off over Easter (Friday - Sunday) and two friends and their two mad dogs have been to stay (my cats were not impressed). On Good Friday we went up Plaice Fell. I accidentally brought us down a much more direct route than I intended so we had to while away some time in the garden of the Patterdale Hotel. Life's hard! Yesterday we left the bank holiday crowds in the lakes and went for a walk in the Eden Valley - didn't see a soul. It's amazing the difference a few miles can make. I suppose it hasn't got the hills and isn't as famous, but the scenery is still pretty impressive. But let's not tell anyone and then it might stay quiet on bank holidays….\n\nDiary 59\nI was on duty on Easter Monday but it wasn't too hectic - in fact it was almost unbelievably quiet. There were three of us on duty bracing ourselves for the usual spring onslaught and we only had about two calls each to do all morning. Weird how it sometimes turns out like that. Lambing is definitely quietening down now. The 5-10 lambings coming in each day is turning into 2-3. It's mostly fell sheep lambing now which tend to be easier to lamb so few are in need our/farmer’s assistance.\nIt's starting to get into the horse castration season. We've had the odd one or two over the last few weeks but have had about five this week one of my colleagues, who is next up from me in terms of experience, and I have started doing them together whereas a few years ago after it would always have been at least one of the partners and one of us. We must be improving!\nTB testing seems to have calmed down a bit too. As a practice we’re pretty much up to date with it and as farmers start to turn their cows out they'll become more reluctant to do it. With the way it’s spreading in the county though we have to try to keep up-to-date with it or it really is going to get out of hand.\nI've had this weekend off. It was my sister's birthday yesterday so I went to meet her and my folks for lunch. We sat outside and enjoyed the April sun - very nice it was too. Farmers are all wanting rain (you don't hear that often in April) but the sun suits me fine. What are the odds on it bucketing down in June during silage time??!\n\nDiary 60\nOne of our big dairy farms had had a big outbreak of IBR this week, one of the main respiratory viruses. On the whole it doesn’t cause death and is normally containable. On this occasion however it seems to have been a virulent strain and has caused a number of deaths and a great deal of lost production in terms of lost milk and calves not thriving. Towards the end of the week I went and shot three cows which were terminally affected. Seeing three dead and bleeding cows in the yard obviously reminded the farmer (and me) of when he had the whole herd shot in the same place for FMD, and he had then moved out of sight very quickly. I think the worst of the outbreak is over now and all the cows have been vaccinated.\nThere's only one vet more junior/qualified for less time than me in the practice who started a year or so ago. This week we went to do a colt castrate together - one surgeon, one as anaesthetist - for the first time. We've both done a lot with other vets but this was the first time we've been let loose as a pair. Everything went very smoothly so it looks as though our boss's confidence/Trust wasn't totally misplaced. On Friday morning I had a big dehorning session for one of our beef farmers. It's fairly non-cerebral type work but is OK for a change every now and then. And the farmer is a pretty amenable sort of guy (more than could be said for the weather) so it was a fairly laid-back morning's work. I had the afternoon off and drove up to Edinburgh where there was a bit of a reunion for recent graduates from the vet college. There were a lot of people haven't seen for a long time and it was interesting to compare notes on what we were all up to.\n\nDiary 61\nAfter last weekend in Edinburgh I had to come back to work on bank Holiday Monday. It was fairly manageable on the whole. There were three of us on duty in the morning when the work was steady without ever getting too hectic. I was on first call after 1pm when the surgery closed and it remained fairly quiet until the evening when there was a sudden run of calls, but they came in one after the other rather than building up too much.\nOn Tuesday I did the 60 day re-test of the second herd of cattle that I had previously found a reactor in. It’s a big herd and it took all day to get it done. They’ve been a bit unfortunate and brought in several other diseases apart from the suspected TB, when they re-stocked. One of these, an enteric condition called Johnes disease, is a chronic wasting problem and is notoriously difficult to eradicate. It’ll take years of blood-testing and careful record-keeping to get rid of it.\nIt’s frustrating for them as all the planning for the post-FMD period has been disrupted. The TB test showed up no reactors this time but 3 cows were inconclusive results and will have to be re-tested. This is almost certainly as a result of the cows carrying antibodies to avian TB which causes no signs of disease in cows but disrupts the bovine TB test. It’s a good example of why we badly need a more specific method for testing for TB. It’s being worked on at the moment and hopefully we’ll get one one day.\nThe senior partner at work is supervising another vet who is doing the same equine qualification that I’m enrolled for. On Wednesday he came to spend a day with Neil to do some equine anaesthetics. They were mainly castrates so I operated while Neil went through the anaesthetics with his student. It was very useful to hear it all in detail again – it’s all too easy to get into the habit of knowing which drugs work at what dosages and not actually really thinking about why they work or why they’re better than other drugs we could use. A useful day but it has made me realise I’ve got a lot to do over the next few years!\n\nDiary 62\nThings are still remaining very busy at work, lambing has pretty much finished now but the work doesn't seem to be easing. The partners have decided we need another vet to help things along - a final-year student from Edinburgh came for an interview this week and it looks as though he'll get the job. It will mean that the rota will improve and hopefully will not be quite as hectic when he starts.\nFollowing the fantastically dry spring it's now too wet for the farmers and they are tearing their hair out about how the first cut of silage is going to be gathered in dry. Hopefully we'll get a dry spell again soon to ease their worries.\nI found a potential case to write up for my Equine casebook this week. It's a mare that managed to get caught up in wire and tear a big hole in the shin of her lower leg. It's too big a defect to stitch so it'll have to heal with a lot of bandaging and perhaps some skin grafts. It always amazes me how horses managed to give themselves the most horrendous injuries been fields where there really doesn't seem to be any opportunity for it. Clumsiness perhaps? Maybe they just enjoy pain (I doubt it).\nWe're doing quite a bit of scanning of mares for pregnancy at the moment. It's another thing that I've been doing more of this year than in the past. It's a bit daunting at times but as with a lot of things it's really a case of practising it as much as possible. By the end of the stud season it’ll hopefully be fairly straightforward.\nI drove down to Oxford on Friday evening after work to see my sister/cousins/ friends who live down there. It seemed a longish drive but it was well worth it to catch up with them all. One of the things about working weekends is that it makes weekends off that much more appreciated\n\nDiary 63\nAfter a very pleasant weekend off I had a truly delightful first job on Monday morning. A cow had been losing weight for the last month also - the reason I found was that it had a very dead calf inside which I then spent the first hour of the week pulling out bone by bone. It was a fairly revolting job but wasn't actually something that I especially resented doing. Must mean I'm happy in my work. Or perhaps just a bit weird?\nI had another fairly grim job later in the week when I was called out at 4 a m. to a foaling. The foal was stuck half out and was dead by the time I got there. I eventually managed to get the foal out and initially the mare seemed OK but deteriorated over the next 48 hours and eventually had to be euthanased. That’s just the way it goes sometimes.\nA more successful case came later in the week when I saw a foal that was acutely lame. It looked at first as though it might have an infected elbow but after taking samples of the joint fluid and some X-rays it looked as though it was actually a traumatic injury. It stayed it in the hospital for four days during which time it seemed to improve quite a bit. It's a thoroughbred from a good racing line - hopefully with a rest it’ll make a full recovery and win the Grand National in 2008.\nI had the whole of the Bank Holiday weekend off. Six college friends came to stay for a weekend of Cumbrian fresh-air. After a pretty gloomy forecast the weather turned out very well and we all went for a Lake District walk each day and had a pretty relaxed time. Except for my cats - four dogs also came to stay, which didn't impress the cats who spent the whole time hiding in my room.\n\nDiary 64\nThis week started with a TB test for a small re-stocking herd. He had bought some cattle from a farm that subsequently tested positive for TB. One of the cattle from that farm had then tested positive on his farm so this week's test was a 60 day re-test. It was an all-clear this time which was obviously a relief for them. Seeing as there was a positive on the farm last time they probably have to have another test in 60 days from now before restrictions are lifted. This farm isn't very big so being under TB restrictions is awkward but not as crippling as it is the larger farms. There is no room for relaxing the rules at the moment though. The recent news from Ireland that says they think they've proved a link with badgers makes it even more important to get it out of Cumbria before it gets into wildlife (although it may well already be too late).\nIn between the two testing days this week I seemed to do a lot of horse cases. On Wednesday I spent most of the day touring around Cumbria seeing horses in Wigton, Cockermouth and Bassenthwaite. It was a sunny day and was a very pleasant way to spend the day - great scenery to look at, outside when not driving and cases going the way I was hoping - not a bad way to work!\nI've been on call this weekend and it's been very quiet (so far). Yesterday was steady with a reasonable number of calls but none stacking up. I've done 2 cattle Caesareans on the same farm this weekend - one yesterday morning which seemed like a huge calf until the one I did this morning which was truly a freak. It was the biggest calf I or the farmer had seen and is the result of selecting for extreme confirmation in beef breeds. It does pose serious welfare issues for the cows as they cannot give birth naturally and have to have fairly major abdominal surgery instead. We’ll never persuade farmers of this though as the consumer wants cheaper food and cheaper beef is made through bigger beef calves. It does seem tough on the cows though. Or am I being too cynical?\n\nDiary 65\nI thought it was interesting to see how much people still are willing to talk about some of 2001 at the meeting on Wednesday night. While a lot of the conversation was routed around the subjects you had come up with over the last 18 months, it often came back to talk of events and individual experiences during the outbreak itself. These stories must have been told on dozens of occasions but people still want to tell them if the right time/opportunity comes up (myself included).\nThere were so many themes that you have all come up with on the "electronic tags" sheet that it seems impossible to comment on them all. Some of them seem very relevant to me, others not so much. Trust is a category that comes up under a couple of headings. One of the headings it is under is "knowledge". I think this has been one of the most significant changes since FMD as far as the farmer/vet relationship is concerned. DEFRA has gone from being eyed with some suspicion to overt distrust and resentment. On a whole we don't get too much flack as veterinary GPs but when we have to do DEFRA allocated jobs, such as TB testing, there is sometimes a general feeling of it being another task to try to wear them down being sent by the authorities. Another regulation that has caused huge resentment is the whole animal movement licensing system. It is much easier now and causes fewer problems but a year or so ago it was the source of much stress. We had to try to act as intermediary between farmers and DEFRA and keep both sides happy. The damage done to the farmer/DEFRA Trust will take a long time (if ever) to start to repair. Hopefully, by trying to be more "on their side" than DEFRA seem to be, the trust they have in us has been preserved.\nIt's been a quietish week at work - maybe because there's been a bit of silaging going on so the farmers haven't got time for routine work. It's about time we were a bit quieter. The summer lull hasn't materialised at all yet this year. In fact we’re taking on another vet to ease the workload (did I mention this last week??). In the meantime it's nice to have time to draw breath and enjoy the sun for a day or two!\n\nDiary 66\nThis week seems to have gone by a pretty quickly. Maybe it's because I'm on holiday next week and the thought of it is spurring me on! I fly to Split tomorrow for a week of sailing on the Croatian coast with a college friend and some relatives. It'll be a change from Cumbria!\nOne of our big dairy farmers was away in Thailand this week. The farm was left to be run by his usual workers and his brother and mother. Despite this he felt he had to take his mobile phone with him, and he was rung twice during the week to be asked what should be done with a couple of sick cows. I suppose this either demonstrates extreme dedication or an inability to forget about work. Or both. But then again it also shows how committed a lot of farmers are and that it's not just a job to them. As farms get bigger the concept of all the cows being individually known to the farmer or being his "friends" becomes increasingly unrealistic, but in the majority of cases they’re not just milk making machines and are cared for pretty well. It's not hard to see why it was so hard for people to lose their herds.\nAfter being a bit quieter at work last week it suddenly seems to have become very hectic at work again this week. There haven't been any particularly time-consuming jobs, just lots of sick cows, horse calls and the usual mix of animal ailments. It's better to be busy than quiet though. I think I need a holiday (and I'll keep my phone switched off).\n\nDiary 67\nA week off work to go sailing in Croatia - Easy life. After meeting up with the boat and the rest of the group in Starigrad we sailed to Vis into a fairly direct head wind so it took quite a bit of tacking and was a bit of a rough ride. I also very stupidly underdid the sunscreen and managed to burn my back. Very careless, but it got less uncomfortable as the week went on. We spent two nights in Vis harbour as the others who had already been sailing for a week wanted a rest. It used to be a military island and there were definite signs of this around although it is obviously developing a now rapidly-growing tourist trade. After Vis it was off to Hvar, where we anchored in a small inlet a few miles from the town. After a night there we went to Hvar town for a look around - the castle on the hill was very impressive and the town still feels as though it is relatively unspoilt at the moment.\nThe last couple of days were spent making our way slowly back to Split. We actually spent the last two days in Split as there was a strong northerly wind brewing up which would have been a bit rough to be out in. My uncle who was the skipper on board has been to Croatia for the last three years - he said it was very noticeably more busy this year. It seems a shame to spoil it with more tourist facilities, but we all contributed to them being built by going there. Hopefully it won't be too dramatically changed.\n\nDiary 68\nThis week started at 9am Monday with a TB test at one of the most "basic" (run-down?) farms we go to. It was the first time I'd been there in three and a half years of working here - so they don't make huge use of our veterinary services. One of their bullocks was 7½ years old! When I casually asked about what plans they had for it seeing as he had missed the 30 months cut-off time for human consumption I was told it was just kept as a friend for the bull! The test was very slow as the cattle handling facilities were not the best on the planet. They were very pleasant people to talk to and it soon became apparent that they had very little time for DEFRA (nothing unusual there). The son was one of the people who had had his firearms confiscated after making threats at the start of FM D. They still felt resentful about the way the police became involved and the way they were ultimately given no choice as to who came on to their farm to check their stock. Fortunately all the cattle were negative for TB so there was no need to further add to their distrust of DEFRA by putting them under more restriction.\nThe rest of the week has been fairly steady. There's been enough going on to keep us busy without ever being frantic. The horse I saw last week with a neurological problem has become a bit worse so has gone to Edinburgh vet school to see one of the neurologists up there (he seemed fairly confused by it as well, which I have to say I found quite reassuring!)\nThe weekend was a bit on the strenuous side - a cousin who is a keen cyclist persuaded me it was a good idea to do a big Cumbrian/Yorkshire bike ride. We went from Penrith to Alston to Barnard Castle, to Tan Hill (refreshments) to Kirkby-Stephen to Penrith on Saturday. And then recovered on Sunday. It seemed like a good idea at the time but I am really feeling it now!\n\nDiary 69\nLooking back at some of the quotes in the "Recovery" section of the notes from a meeting it's noticeable how easy it is to forget (or at least not have in one's mind) how much it affected a lot people. It's almost hard to remember how much I was affected by it - I know that there were some very unpleasant tasks such as supervising slaughters, and day-to-day work was often very frustrating when we felt people overseeing our work from offices didn't really know what it was like in the field, but I feel now that on the whole once work was finished life pretty much went on. Maybe this isn't actually a true reflection of how it was and it's just that some of the detailed memories are fading - often things don't seem as bad as they actually were when you look back on them. I know plenty of clients, colleagues and friends whose lives were completely overtaken by FMD so perhaps mine was more than I remember, but I also feel that most of the people who I remember as being heavily affected are now more-or-less completely over it. \nOne of the farms I went to this week lost a son in a road accident about two months after getting FMD. I think the farmer was ready to give up everything after that. Apparently he left the cleaning up of his farm and took no interest in anything. Time obviously helped him - he's been back milking again for that (sic) last year and a half. There are still changes though - he seems very much quieter and more laid back now. If a cow isn't in calf or things don't go quite right he doesn't seem to get stressed now, as he once would have done. Work has been a bit quieter this week, which we would expect at this time of year. One of our farms has put some pedigree Belgian blue embryos into some Limousin cross heifers and they're starting to calve now - they all need Caesar's as the calves are almost as big as the heifers that produce them. The only thing to be said for it is that we can do them at a sensible time of day rather than at two in the morning as we know when they’re due.\n\nDiary 70\nOne of the five categories you raised at the meetings last month was trauma and one of the subsections on the chart was "sounds/smells/visions". Sights are probably the most frequent reminder of FMD now - there are certain bits of road that have memories, for example driving north on the M6 just south of Penrith it was possible to count smoke plumes from about 20 pyres at one stage. On fine days it always reminds me of it when I drive that stretch. One farm has the remains of a pyre that was started to be built but never finished. Even things like driving across two lines of tar across a road which once held down a disinfectant mat. People who didn't live here at the time wouldn't even notice them but it seems quite significant to the rest of us. It doesn't really bother me, but just is a reminder of what went on. At other times it seems odd how quickly things have gone back to normal. - even something as simple as a road with mud or animal muck on it. In 2001 that would have stuck out like a sore thumb and would have warranted urgent action. Now I'm used to driving a dirty car (I do clean it sometimes) and having some roads caked in dirt. It's difficult to imagine how the farmers kept them clean two years ago. (But they did). \nObviously there are other reminders (people never tire of talking about it), but it's the day-to-day visions and places that are most regular.\nWork has been a bit quieter this week. I did it a Caesar on a cow which had a truly ridiculously enormous calf. We need to move away from breeding continental beef breeds and go back to nice compact Jersey's or Aberdeen Anguses! I also saw an unusual neurological case in a horse. It's very uncoordinated and has poor balance. It's the kind of case where brain/spinal scan would be useful, but those facilities aren't really available for horses! It will be interesting to see how it goes over the next few days. \n\nDiary 71\nThe last diary! The 18 months seem to have gone by quickly. Things seem so much back to how they were that it's odd to think back to what was going on when we first started writing them. I think we were pretty much in the swing of doing restocking checks and doing endless blood sampling of sheep. The last restocking checks I did were only 16 months ago - it seems far longer. Although I say things are back to how they were I'm sure there are actually a lot of differences, it's just that I don't notice them because I'm used to how things are now. The practice has become a lot busier. By October we’ll be up to nine full-time and two part-time vets. Pre FMD we were seven full-time and two part-time. Some of the increase is Equine and small animal, but most of it is in farm practice. Part of this is directly linked to FMD (eg more TB testing due to re-stocking tests, and re-stocking having brought TB into the county). Other factors aren't so obvious but are unquestionably FMD related - most restocked farmers went back with more stock than they originally had, so overall there is greater density of stock around. More animals means more sick animals which means more calls for the vet. It's a shame in some ways to see the small traditional farms being forced out, but it's hard to see how they can manage as margins get smaller and larger neighbours get more stock and more land. FMD was a way out for several of the smaller farms - all have been bought up by neighbours with none being sold as single units. \nAs I've said in recent weeks, this time of year is usually quiet - it has become a bit less frantic recently but the traditional summer lull hasn't materialised. \nI've been a vet for four years. The last three have been just about as interesting and challenging as they could have been - both professionally and socially from the point of view of living in Penrith. Obviously FMD had devastating effects on thousands of people, many of whom are my friends. On the whole I see very few residual scars - it is still talked about, but less and less as time goes on. More than one farmer has actually said that they think in hindsight it was a very good thing for them. I'm not sure I could ever say that as it brought too much stress and sadness for too many people, but if it had happened, I think (very much with the benefit of hindsight) I’m glad that I had the chance to be involved with it from the start and through the recovery.\n\n
## 2 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1966\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nDiary 1\nMonday was the usual long hard grind. I accept that I have to put in 10 – 12 hours and I don’t mind doing the work because it’s not physically or mentally taxing but I do hate not having a lunch break, just that little bit of selfish time to site, have a cigarette, take the dogs down the river, see the horses…whatever. I do resent that fact that W (one of the bosses) almost always gets a lunch hour. B (the other boss) has gone up tremendously in my opinion for the way that he gets on with the work. He starts early, finishes late, hates DERFA paperwork and rarely complains. It is definitely grinding them down because they work like that at least 4 days a week. It has been a huge advantage this last year being part-time at work. My days off obviously aren’t my own as they used to be, but I do get away from the phone and the demands of clients. Some of our clients are very selfish and I hadn’t noticed before. They seem to think they are the only ones that have hassles with DEFRA. I remember saying to one (complaining about problems with licensing) that he was lucky to have problems with only one licence. The first day that movement licenses came out we applied for 26 and received the explanatory notes from DEFRA on how to complete the paperwork 4 days later.\nAnyway managed to do three final visits and complete most of the paperwork before 9pm. Kirkby Stephen was buzzing today – the auction reopened for a cattle sale. The main street was full of shiny farmers with fish and chips and the back lane was full of shiny (some new) Land Rovers and trailers (trailers mostly new).\nIn fact MC told me that as soon as he heard his bloods had come back clear (restocking) he washed and changed and went to the mart. He said it was the first time he had felt clean since the day they were infected – he felt ok to go among other farmers. He surprised me because he is so easy going – he takes all in his stride. But he still says FMD is not as terrible as testicular cancer – and he’s right.\nAD was one of the other final visits – he doesn’t give a bugger about anything. Happy to become a flower power farmer – he doesn’t care much about his sheep as individuals, they are just numbers. Just as well because in the batch he bought from Wales the sheep have more legs than teeth – I can’t see them lasting long. Pissed off because I missed Bryan Adams concert in Newcastle – couldn’t finish in time to join the bus. The rest of the lassies had a brilliant time, and at least Tracey benefited from my ticket.\nHad to go back in to work the next day to finish my DEFRA reports and fax them off. Went to playgroup to talk about pets. Took my dog (lurcher) and [child’s] rabbit (dodgy combination). Very few of the kids seemed to have pets of their own. A lot of them referred to Granddad’s dogs or Uncles cat. When I left college the pet population was increasing, what’s going to happen in the next 15 years?\n[Sister] phoned, worried about her horse, he has haematuria. I’m worried that he has a tumour. I feel very far away and helpless when things like this happen even though she only lives in Yorkshire. I’m sure I could help her whatever the outcome if we lived closer. In fact I think I miss my family more now than I ever have. I don’t know if it’s my age, or the thought that M is over 60, or that I didn’t see them much at all last year, or just because I have [son] now and can understand how mothers/families feel. I miss [sisters] but I still don’t phone them much – I always think they’ll be busy. I can talk to Mam three or four times a week for half an hour at a time without thinking twice. She must get fed up hearing me go on and on about work etc, but she loves hearing all about every tiny detail of [son’s] antics and achievements.\nWill broached the subject of a partnership again. I don’t know what to think. It’s the obvious thing to do and a few years ago I would have taken his hand off for even 10 or 20%. I’m just not as excited about it as I should be. And what would change? Will I be better off? Will I be a better vet? Or will I spend too much time of figures and paperwork. Will I become ‘more commercially aware’? Do I want to change? Can I be bothered with the extra hassle? They are ok, they have a career and a wife, I’m trying to do both (sometimes badly).\n\nDiary 2\nMonday’s are shite! It starts off busy and gets worse – why can’t we do time management a bit better. It did look as if we might finish around 6.30 at one stage in the afternoon. Then I was called out to a calf. I didn’t really need a visit at 6pm at night. W said, ‘never mind, you’ll be picking [son] up anyway (the childminder lives on the next door farm) - he hasn’t got a clue! If I picked [son] up he would be at Ange’s for about 8 hours – I feel guilty enough that he’s away for about 8 hours. [Partner] always picks him up about 5.30 and has to cope (which he does well) until I get home. But it’s hard work for both of us after a full day at work, and [partner] is usually knackered and ready for peace and quiet when he gets home – not a tired hungry wee lad.\nAnyway, I ended up having a farm tour that night. [farmer] was so proud of his new pedigree Belgian Blues and his new shed. He’s been lucky to get most of his commercial stock from his father so he has an idea of their past history. He’s a nice lad and he was producing some stunning beef calves before he was taken out, at least he’s young enough to get going again. He hasn’t said much about loosing his stock so I haven’t asked. I had a chat to his aunt one day and she was very upset, and that upsets me. I hate when people get emotional like that, I start filling up myself. \nI got back to find a sheep caesarean still to do. Waste of time. Premature lambs all born alive (3) and all dead before I finished stitching the uterus. And to put the tin hat on the day my assistant was the mother who prattled about nothing much all the way through the op. She does my head in, she is a century away from me in her outlook but I still come away feeling that I am the one who has got it all wrong. Maybe I should have dinner on the table and shirts ironed etc. I don’t want to be like her though and I can’t even sympathise with her even though they lost all their sheep. I’m sure she must have taken it badly but I don’t think she would ever let her feelings show in public – something about the way she spoke suggested that she was forcing herself to put a brave face and look forward – probably for her own son’s sake.\nWatched ‘Rural Lives’ again on Tuesday. CR came over well I though. I couldn’t help but snigger when the slaughter team were discussing one of our clients – she made the kids carry away the dead piglets after they’d been slaughtered – them team thought that was terrible but I knew the kids – they all help on the farm, they know that their pigs go to kill, the family even started their own little slaughter house and cutting plant before FMD. I don’t think those kids would be horrified. Sad maybe. We all felt sad over the last year, sad for the healthy animals culled, more sad for the people caught up in the mess. One disease where the cure is worse! Mostly though I get angry when I hear or talk about FMD. I get angry because DEFRA let us all down, the politicians got too closely involved, nothing happened fast enough. We didn’t seem to be able to do anything. We knew very little and struggled to get reliable information. I still get wound up thinking about it all. We were marginalised by DEFRA. I felt as if it was us and the farmers versus DERFA – not all three groups versus FMD. The rumours that abounded just magnified the feelings. We talked at length about FMD, DEFRA, etc. within the practice and with our clients but I could still talk about it all day even now. So many things are unresolved. I have lost faith in DEFRA, especially since they changed their name, no A for agriculture now; and I’m glad I have been ignorant of politics for so long – there have been few shining lights in the government. I’m heartily sick of authority interfering and regulating stuff that’s going along quite nicely. Let them interfere with stuff that’s doing harm – bad farmers need a shake up, sheep dealers need to think more about animal welfare but the way things are going the good guys that toe the line will end up following all the rules and regulations set up to sort out the bad guys – and will they bother?\n\nDiary 3\nPossibly the best bit of the week was Sunday when I eventually (after 13 months) got back on my horse. Only 15 minutes but it was nerve wracking. I thought she might just throw me off, and I was so tense (actually we both were) I felt as if I had forgotten how to ride. I stayed in the field thinking it would be safer but the other two horses were flying about to annoy us. I’m so frustrated that I haven’t been able to get her fit for the start of the endurance season. There’s no way we’d be able to go to the first ride at Ullswater, and there’s only one other in Cumbria this year (due to FMD). Who would have thought that we would still be curtailed by FMD more than a year on? \n(The young horse) was very interested in saddle and bridle so I put them on him and he was ok. At first he was frightened to move at all but then he realised it was ok. On Monday I had a strange request to go and hold an old pony for the knacker to shoot. The owner’s just didn’t want to be around. It was a lovely morning so I led her out for a bite of grass before he arrived. She could barely manage to breathe and swallow at the same time. I can’t believe how the tumours have taken hold of her since the turn of the year. Mr A couldn’t tell his wife the diagnosis initially because she hadn’t got over losing the few pedigree sheep they had. It’s taking some people a long time to get over the loss. I think it’s easier to get over losing an animal if you have more than one – it helps to keep you focussed on the living rather than the dead – and farmers haven’t been able to get restarted when they were ready to because of all the C & D requirements. Anyway, the knacker man told some good tales. There’s been some nutters about shooting animals, some even had their guns taken off them. Poor lad was given a day’s notice at the knackey and was part of a slaughter team after that so he was only paid his normal wage which the boss collected at the DEFRA rate for them all, it was good talking to him probably because I don’t really know him. I didn’t feel that I would upset him because he wasn’t like a client who had lost animals. Sometimes it’s hard to know what to say if people get upset; sometimes it’s enough to listen.\nOne of the most awkward situations I found myself in was talking to a farmer who lost no stock but he was so depressed he started crying. The cows I had gone to see ‘should have gone last year, then we wouldn’t have had these problems’. He also has been unable to sell sheep so the farm was completely overstocked, overgrazed and had little silage left.\nI couldn’t understand why he was still overstocking when he could have sold sheep and cattle for restocking or for slaughter quite easily in the last few months. Maybe he just couldn’t face the hassle of getting licences, or maybe he’s just too far down to think straight. I usually mention that sort of thing to B and W because I think it’s important that everyone in the practice knows what’s happening, not just with out patients but also with our clients.\n\nDiary 4\nI had the honour of completing the FINAL final visit today, and it was one of my neighbours in Soulby. No more surveillance visits!! Poor Lol couldn’t find his DEFRA paperwork, and while he was looking through his files he found copies of his valuation report with all his old cows on – I think it brought it all back. He’s trying hard to move on, I could understand him being bitter since his whole (very good) milking herd was taken as a DC. I think he may have survived because the infection was half a mile away from his cows but the IP land joined. I watched them load all his cows into coal wagons on s Saturday afternoon. In fact it was midnight when the last de-tox wagon left. How can they be clean if I can’t even get my wellies clean in the dark?\nHow he’s worrying about his new cows coming from Holland. He thinks it’s a long way for them to travel but he can’t wait for them to arrive – unlike his wife who thinks that all this restocking is going too fast. I felt apprehensive too about a fortnight ago, but the feeling is subsiding. The day to day normality of work is returning. Sheep are permitted to visit the surgery for treatment so we have had a much more normal March than we’d had last year, even though there are still thousands of sheep missing from the practice.\nFarmers are still bringing in lambs. The value of stock is obviously not their prime concern – ‘where there’s life there’s hope’. We wouldn’t see ewes or lambs at all if the cost of treatment versus the animal’s value was weighed. I was worried that we would have a flare up around lambing time. There’s a chance that some of the fell sheep were exposed to FMD – and there’s a risk of virus recrudescence at times of stress, so I was thinking that if we made it through lambing then we’d definitely be ok. The weather has cheered me up this week. Everybody smiles more when it’s sunny. Its tempting to think my days at home are holidays when the weathers so nice!!\n\nDiary 5\nI forgot about April Fools Day for the first time ever. We were so busy at work, and it was more of a Bank Holiday than anything else. I do resent working Bank Holidays – but Monday is my day to be on call. B did offer to do some of the day but he had a caesarean on a cow, a lambing at 1.30 am and another call at 6 am so he’d be knackered enough – and they pay me for a day’s work so its only fair that I give a days work.\nWhen the phone rang early Tuesday and I felt as if I’d only been in bed 2 hours I was regretting not passing on the night duty – a Belgian Blue calving – CAESARIAN mentally checked my kit in the car while driving to KS. Definitely caesarean. They shouldn’t breed from these cows until they’re more mature. We’re getting loads of bother with the new stock – never mind its proper veterinary work. Anyway the heifer was a right bag. Started off lying down so I doped her but she got up after we got the calf out and then tried to lye down on the wound – peritonitis to follow no doubt. I warned the farmer and we were all very calm about it – maybe none of us were really awake!! So that made [partner] late for work as he was left ‘holding the baby’ and I was well late setting off to see my sister [sister]. [sister] didn’t mind and [partner]’s bosses said it was ok but I still felt guilty.\nHad a great time at [sister’s] – did a bit of touristy stuff and found a really nice book for mam’s birthday, by Mrs Herdie who used to holiday near home. Mam has a watercolour by her but this book is all wildflowers. [Other sister] phoned to say [horse] is worse. I think [sister] and I both wanted to go to Yorkshire when we heard how upset she was. [Sisters] are so close (being twins) but I can understand what [sister]’s going through with a horse on death’s door. She didn’t want us to go (she said) so we drank too much red wine instead and watched the start of Papillon (good film). I was too knackered though; my stamina gives out a lot sooner under the influence of alcohol.\nMam’s birthday was a queer day. It’s rare that I get the chance to spend time with any of my siblings at home and we had a lovely day apart from the fact that we were all waiting to hear what was going to happen with [sister]. She phoned to say he’d been put down, bladder tumour. I think it must be pretty rare. She still said we shouldn’t go down. [sister] could have easily gone (and Mam) because Lynxes on school hols (jammy teacher!). I stayed on till quite late because both my brother and stepfather wanted to see [son] – he was so excited to see them, sometimes he just makes us all laugh.\nI had a depressing start to the day back at work – just over a month ago I amputated a dog’s leg. The leg was fractured over 6 months ago, appeared to heal and then suddenly worsen. We suspected a bone infection but she didn’t respond to treatment so I x-rayed her again and it looked like a bone tumour. She did well after the operation until last week when she developed a hard knobbly swelling near her shoulder and her lungs were infiltrated. I felt so sad for her and the family. She was a lovely placid and very brave dog and it is just so unfair. I don’t want to give up on these cases and I feel that euthanasia is a poor treatment in this case, I so wanted her to have a couple more years. I never would have put her or the family through a ghastly op like amputation if I had known that she would get so little benefit. The farmer’s son (who worked the dog until she retired) was conspicuous by his absence – he’s rebuilding the milking parlour ready to restock so his sister did the honours and came to help me.\nHad to switch to party mode – [son’s] 2nd birthday. The sandpit was a roaring success, as was the trike and cake from Grandma and Granddad. We had a super relaxing day (mostly outdoors). This weather makes life a lot easier, I couldn’t have coped with all those little boys inside!\nEscaped to the horses at Asby to take water. It’s so peaceful up there. I’ve really missed being able to go up there this last year – there’s still yellow tape on my gate and I don’t even have livestock! I wonder who they (DEFRA) thought the field belongs to? Should get out riding this next week with a bit of luck and a bit of spare time. I think I’ll have to shelve the plans to show the Arabs, I haven’t got started soon enough.\n\nDiary 6\nOur new vet started this week. Bright, young, enthusiastic and full of new ideas. I feel very out of touch. I didn’t go on any CPD courses last year, for most of the year I felt as if we were unclean, and I was so tired with working such long days it seemed too much hard work to organise extra childcare etc. to allow me to go away for more than a day. I feel out of touch generally though and a lot of it has to do with working part-time.\nBig day on Wednesday, [son’s] 1st morning at Biggins Nursery. I think my new hobby is worrying!! Am I doing the right thing setting off on new (extra and expensive) childcare arrangements? I think I feel guilty because it’s for my benefit, not for extra work. It’s now going to cost me an extra £7.50 to ride my horse on a Wednesday! But I am starting to break [horse] in as well and I can’t handle a 4 year old horse with a 2 year old boy around. Anyway the nursery seemed a big hit and I had my first ride out on Ashby fell. I actually went over the track to the Dowly tree instead of on the road. She (the horse) was quite anxious leading the other two, and a bit excited to be out in the open space of the fell – so was I. There seems to be just one lot of fell sheep on there – they must be H’s I think. Nobody else has started to heft sheep up there yet. The ‘dowly tree’ will be looking sad and lonely for a bit longer.\nI have missed being up on that fell so much. Margaret Little asking if we’re going to the village hall quiz on Friday – probably not because we’re going out for a meal for [partner]’s birthday. Felt guilty about not supporting village activities and started justifying myself to her. I hate it though when people use FMD to make you feel bad. She kept saying how few ‘does’ there were last year, how nice it is for all the village to get together etc. – all true but I can’t get babysitters and nights off to do everything and [partner] is way more important than the village quiz. He put up with such a lot of shite last year and never complained – far too tolerant!\nWe had a lovely meal on the Friday night. [son] slept out at T’s for the first time in ages but I couldn’t have a lie in because of the judge’s course for the Arab Horse Society. I really enjoyed it – it was arranged for last year but had to be postponed due to FMD – it was worth waiting for and I couldn’t have gone last year even if it had been on. Went to see [sister] and [sister’s boyfriend] on Sunday. Seemed to spend all day being fed (she’s like Mam!). [Son] took a real shine to [sister’s boyfriend] which entertained us all. She seems to be coping ok with [horse]’s demise. Martin has cleaned up one of his shoes and mounted it with a plaque – he’s very thoughtful.\n\nDiary 7\nI have decided that I am happy on dry days when I can ride or work my horses, [son] and I can get outside to play and then he’s happier and people who come into work are more smiley on good days too. [son] and I went to a birthday party this week. He had a brilliant time but I felt very out of place. Everybody else was immaculately dressed and made up while [son] and I had to rush back from having a bonfire to burn all the old hay in Musgrave field to quickly wash and change. I’d rather have carried on tidying up the field, it’s still a real mess and at least I have the grass seed now. It had better grow, the price it was!!\nI was really pleased with [horse] on Wednesday. He’s coming on quite nicely with his lunging now, he seems to be quite amenable. Dental appointment on Friday – I hope my dentist never retires – I don’t think they make dentists that are more interested in people and their teeth than money any more. I always have a good chat to him so we carried on our discussion about my working conditions, comparing them to his sons etc. (he’s a vet too). He was quite surprised when I told him about the partnership talks. Last time I had a good heart to heart it was after the threatened redundancy. It’s no wonder I feel confused about the future at times. Nearly 2 years ago when I was on maternity leave they thought they might have to make me redundant. Now they want to release a bit of capital and take things easier they want me to buy in!! This time last year I didn’t know if [partner] or I would have a job!! Now I have to decide to commit myself to at least 20 more years as a vet.\nWent out with girls from work to a 40th. Didn’t really want to go but of course we had a great time once we got there. I think I have got out of the habit of evenings out. Still can’t get used to the freedom the mobile phone gives us, and spend all the time checking that there’s enough signal/battery etc. Had a hell of a hangover – too much draught coke. Hell it’s worse than cider!\n\nDiary 8\nThe shit is hitting the fan. We’re having problems with some imported Dutch heifers. We were waiting for this, especially on this particular farm. The management’s not the best and the father takes more advice from his feed merchant than us vets. There is obviously a viral infection going through the heifers and Farmer B presumed they were already vaccinated (no documentation). They are also showing signs of gastro-intestinal upset which could be management. Oh hell why did he buy 80 first calvers. Nobody would willingly put themselves under that stress. [New vet) is interested but B and W are obviously trying to keep their distance. They’ve been embroiled in herd problems on this farm before.\nI am now obviously the senior vet in charge of this problem and I’m not even at work every day. It’s too much for [new vet] to cope with and the farmer will get pissed off soon and I bet it’s us that catch the flak!\nCheered myself up with 1½ hours of R & R with the horses on Wednesday. Lovely day. Rode down onto the common but it was hard work as the other two horses were shouting for daisy all the time I was out on her. [horse] decided that he would be bobbly when I worked him but I’m getting confident that I know how his mind works.\nWe had a bit of a stand-off but I made sure it didn’t turn into a battle and he did as he was asked in the end, so we finished on a good note. I think it will be quite satisfying bringing him on myself – even though its going to take months at this rate. Some people work on young horses twice a day, he’s lucky if he gets trained twice a week.\nWork is really settling down now. The lambing time rush has passed and we’re catching up on our TB testing for DEFRA. It’s a bit more taxing having to do such young animals in the restocked herds but most people are fairly well organised. We’re not going to get some of the herds done before turn out I wonder if DEFRA have any recommendations for catching wild Limousin heifers in the middle of a field – probably not they don’t think that far ahead.\n\nDiary 9\nI hate Mondays again. Had supper at 11.45 pm. There was a problem with my mobile when I was on call (I hate mobiles as well) and I went to calve a cow one and a half-hours after the first call came in. I was so mad – firstly because we don’t make our clients wait that long for an emergency to become a disaster and second because Ws wife has no idea about passing jobs on – she should have got another vet to go since I was obviously busy but she just passed the message on to [new vet] to let her sort it out – and W’s wife gets paid for doing the phones! Anyway all’s well – live cow and a tremendous bull calf, and one of the easiest caesareans I have done in ages. \nB and W seem to forget that it is their business (and reputation) at stake. Ultimately the buck stops with them. Both of them seem to have had enough of business management and hassle to last a lifetime. Last year has done a lot of damage to a lot of people. I know I am a lot less tolerant than I used to be.\nThis week started badly and improved. Farrier came and trimmed all 3 horses, bollocked me because they hadn’t been seen for over a year (I did tidy them a bit myself though). Had a lovely afternoon at Rheged with Mam. We started going when FMD was on because it was sort of neutral, non-agricultural ground. We sat and chatted while [son] played in the soft play centre – everybody happy. Unfortunately I went down with the worst dose of food poisoning I had ever had, I was up all night. Went into work late – I wouldn’t have gone at all except I had a 2nd TB to test to do on a restocked farm and couldn’t bear to start the whole thing again. I recovered as the afternoon went on and even managed to dehorn 10 cows. The thought of B sending fragile, young [new vet] to help spurred me on a bit. I was knackered when I finished. Took me another 2 days to recover. [horse] doing well, bridle and saddle on now, looking grown up. I’m quite proud of him. He was so chilled out today I tried long reining him – that confused him but he was very sensible.\nNorleen and I didn’t go to the 1st date at the Rochdale show, I still didn’t feel right and [partner] was going to fit the new fuel pump to my car – but then he started to feel ill too. What a waste of a Saturday off. Made it to the show on Sunday – pretty good ridden classes, and all the senior in hand classes. We were laughing because we’re so out of practice. There are two years worth of young stock that we’ve never seen due to babies in 2000 and FMD in 2001 – we felt really out of touch. There are a few imported stallions and mares that we haven’t seen before too. We had a brilliant day.\n\nDiary 10\nWhat’s worse than working on call on Mondays – yes working Bank Holidays! We hoped to shut at 12 – ha ha! I got home for lunch at 2pm. B kindly took the phones for a couple of hours in the afternoon (not long enough to go anywhere) and I was back out working by tea time.\nMy car failed its MOT because the back brake callipers were all gunged up – the mechanic says it’s disinfectant that does it – bloody DEFRA, I bet there’s no chance of compensation for that. It wouldn’t be so bad if it was a practice car but now that I’m part-time I have to paddle my own canoe. All the local garage owners warned us last year that these things would happen – what could we do? We felt obliged to drive into all the ‘voluntary’ disinfectant sites – it doesn’t look good if the local vets aren’t disinfecting. My beautiful old Audi, God knows what other horrors are lurking where the FAM has spilled in my boot etc. Hell it makes me mad. All the destruction, physical and mental and we had so little to say in any of it.\nWell, my car spent the rest of the week in the garage so I used borrowed wheels. Went to do a wee talk at Stainsmore pre-school in [partner]s transit van – very professional. The children didn’t care; they just wanted to meet my dog! [son] missed a birthday party on the Saturday because I was still at work – more guilt, not that he knows he missed it. Lovely day on Sunday with my horse – went for a three hour ride over in County Durham. We trailed round arable fields and nice lanes – all very different from here. [other horse] was an absolute saint and did very well to have no shoes on. She really did us proud.\n\nDiary 11\nGot my car back – that cheered me up. Bad news about the imported heifers, two more have died. At least the PM exams and sampling are free because it’s a restocked herd. Farmer getting angry now (at Dutch farmers) but taking it out on [new vet]. Very unfair, she’s spent hours checking over his cattle and taking samples.\nDidn’t get my usual R & R on Wed – absolutely piddling down. Started sorting out a few jobs that I have been avoiding, the sort I used to do on wet Sundays – now will become wet Wednesday jobs!! Called in at work for coffee and ended up with a call for the afternoon. Very interesting job too – went to sedate two horses for the dentist – it was absolutely fascinating. \n[son] has another 2nd cousin this week – the family is really sprouting. Had a tough calving Thursday night – torsion of the uterus. I can do these now, I used to absolutely dread them. Unfortunately she’d been on too long and the calf was born dead, heifer fine though. I hate going to that farm, the farmer is a right old perverted slime ball and I’ll’ dance on his grave. Started with a real head cold - –h crap.\nWent to see Mam and Stewart, [son] on top form. It’s brilliant seeing him interact with my family. He has really strengthened the bonds in our family. [son] fevered at night, starting with the same cold I presume – no sleep for me. [partner] never seems to hear all the commotion. Still felt ill on Saturday – [sister] and [sister]s birthday. At least I remembered to post their cards in plenty of time this year. \nWent shopping for wallpaper on Sunday to cheer me up. [partner] went off ‘pest controlling’ with his dogs. They went up through Tubby’s wood. They found nothing but at least the dogs had a good ratch. He says he only now feels ok about walking across fields. I didn’t even realise that he still felt that he couldn’t go round all his old haunts – we must talk more!\n\nDiary 19\nTB test cancelled on Monday and Thursday this week because the farmer can’t cope with the extra hassle. He’s a bit of a woman at the best of times but he’s been even worse since FMD. W was very understanding he seems to have the farmers measure. B didn’t seem that understanding.\nVery upset on Wednesday afternoon. I had to put down my own terrier after he took off and chased the neighbour’s sheep – for the second time. I can’t understand why he went so strange; he used to be fine with stock. I had a miserable afternoon waiting for [partner] to come home to bury him. I’d had such a good morning with the horses too. Dizzy and [horse] were both going well, I felt better once [partner] came home. He said I’d done the right thing but I felt as though I’d failed somehow because it should never have happened in the first place. Maybe it’s because he had nothing to do last year, no interesting walks, no rabbiting etc, I don’t know. \n\nDiary 20\nBrilliant time Tues/Wed. Went to my sisters with Mam and [son], it’s much easier to keep in touch with my family post-FMD. I hardly went anywhere last year. We went shopping to Edinburgh, mam’s looking for an outfit for my brother’s wedding, unsuccessfully so far! I’ve just realised that I haven’t seen [brother and wife?] on their farm since FMD broke out. We must go soon, it’s a brilliant place for recharging batteries and they are the best bit of my step family. We didn’t go to the Cumberland show with the horses. I haven’t got back into the swing of things yet. I think it was a bit of a washout without the farming side, and it rained. I offered to be the biosecurity officer for our local show so that they could get things up and running properly. They had money and trophies donated last year for new cattle classes and there would be real interest in fat cattle classes and young handler classes now. DEFRA (the bastards) managed to put the committee off.\n\nDiary 21\nSprayed weeds in field – only depressing day this week, it’s never going to recover properly. The Landlord arrived when we’d just finished the first half and said he’d decided to reseed it in August!! After much discussion I persuaded him it would be a waste of time and money to put horses back on a newly seeded field over winter. Now I’m worried about what happens in spring. Will we be terminated or just moved to another field? I wish I’d moved the horses at the usual time (1st April) then we wouldn’t have been caught up among IPs and DCs. Something will sort out, it always does.\n\nDairy 22\nExcellent week. Off to Malvern with friends for the National Arabian Horse Show. [son] went off to Grannies for the holiday!! I had a marvellous time for three days watching the most beautiful horses and came back absolutely shattered.\n\nDiary 23\nFew probs at work with new assistant. She’s a bit ‘whiney’[?], she’s always bending the ear of the nearest receptionist and they are sick. B has offered her a 12 month contract – but whether or not she’ll accept it is another matter. From what I can gather she’s going to end up with better working conditions than me. W’s not too happy about it all but neither of them are willing to grasp the nettle. They’ve both backed off since last year, they can’t wait to get off home and I can’t step in since they’ve changed their minds about my partnership, and I’m only part-time. Good weekend, Lowther on Saturday – didn’t see many of the usual faces. The only thing that spoiled it was the mud – we brought more than our fair share home with [son] and the pushchair – no biosecurity pressure washer anywhere!\n\nDiary 24\n (the Assistant) on holiday for 2 weeks, things seem more like old times. The cages aren’t full of animals on drips, I’m working extra days and enjoying it – it’s tiring but good. Highlight of the week on Thursday: Brough Show, there weren’t many farmers there but loads of horses and ponies instead of sheep. Much talk of DEFRA regulations, none complimentary. It just wasn’t the same without the sheep, it felt flat. I wonder what the gimmer lamb sales will be like?\n\nDiary 25\nKnackered – don’t think I could cope with full time work any more!! [new vet] still on holiday. Felt guilty about [son] being farmed out all week. I managed to work myself up about our charity horse show on Saturday. I tried to hand over the organisation to three other folk and still ended up sorting out all the insurance and rosettes, and they changed the date so I had less time to organise, and it wasn’t advertised. \nIt was the worst show we’ve ever had. It takes as much time to organise it for the few as it does for the many! I felt so disappointed. I thought we would have a real good turnout this time after having to cancel last year. Oh well there’s always next year! I’ll need to make sure they don’t change the date again and at least I might be able to take the horses next time. Decided to cheer myself up by taking [other horse] over to school her round the jumps on the Sunday but I couldn’t catch her (she must have known) so that just put the tin hat on the weekend.\n\nDiary 26\nTwo trotting meetings this week. I landed both of them and both nights on call. Another Bank Holiday with no time off and I had to take [son] to both because [partner] was grouse-beating. Both meetings were quite relaxed but there was one nasty crash at Appleby. Had a really nice day out at Chatsworth Game Fair with Helen and Neil. It’s the first time we’ve managed to visit them and it took hours to get there. We were invited last year but the advert said they didn’t want any Cumbrians – social outcasts, as if we didn’t feel like the armpit of British Agriculture as it was. I really enjoyed our day out, I felt as if we’d had a weekend away not just a day. We’ll have to think of some more trips, it’s too easy just to stay at home – we always have plenty to do.\n\nDairy 27\nIt’s started again – DEFRA have found a new way to cock up our lives. They have now complicated life with exemptions from the 20 day standstill including new stuff about isolation units. The farmers have all been notified by post. Some haven’t read it, some have read it and don’t understand it. Farmers have to isolate new stock bought via auctions etc from any contact with other stock by 50 m outside, or they can go on standstill but their neighbours can move stock from the next door field without a problem – it’s mad. I don’t understand where they are coming from. Well I do sort of but as usual it’s badly thought out, and we have to sell this idea to the farmers. How will it be policed? Will it matter? Would it stop another massive outbreak? It doesn’t take much to wind everyone up again. It’s not helped at work by B defending the DEFRA line and W dissing it. What will the clients think?\n\nDiary 28\nCrap week. Puncture on Thursday during lunch hour. Struggled to get locking nuts off – felt feckless. God I have so little patience these days. And I missed BEVA congress – couldn’t sort out childminding etc., and the best days were Friday and Saturday – there was no way I could go. I was really disappointed – nothing to do with FMD though. I don’t feel as if I get much encouragement from work, they are ok about paying for CPD courses but they don’t seem to make it easy to swap weekends etc. They’re not bothered themselves so I suppose they don’t understand all the different things you get from CPD.\n\nDiary 29\nWorked extra so [new vet] could go to sheep meeting at Malvern. Pissed off!! It is not easy to do this job with a husband and a family to consider and I suppose the timing stinks since I missed my equine course last week. The week improved considerably by Thursday – we went to Guilford for an Arab horse convention – nothing to do with work but very enjoyable. I’ve been waiting more than 10 years for this. I hope I live long enough to go to the next one!! We talked to some men on the train (unheard of in Surrey apparently) about Cumbria, farming, FMD and foxhunting. Once we reassured them that Newcastle was not in Cumbria we had an interesting crack!\nI hardly ever meet anyone that is not connected with farming and the countryside they really have no idea what it’s like – I don’t know anything about IT either which is what their job is! I end up feeling so frustrated that agriculture and therefore large animal practice is in such a precarious position, it seems to me to be such a basic fundamental part of life compared to computers and yet the emphasis is not on basic stuff anymore. Surely we need things like agriculture and basic manufacturing to underpin everything else. No wonder nobody was bothered about us suffering anxiety, fear, confusion last year when we were in the throes of FMD and the Penrith Spur was certainly under-reported. They wouldn’t have had so many marches in London pre-FMD.\n\nDiary 30\nQuite week. Still tired from last week – loads of photos to develop again – it was great, saw horses I’d never seen before and got 2 great videos of long dead horses that appear in my horses pedigrees. [son] was a bit off with me when I picked him up Monday – a bit unsettled with being away I suppose. Oh this job just interferes with a social life missed another wedding this week – on call again.\n\nDiary 31\nTook a horse to Penrith vets for an X-ray. They have a super new hospital just out of town. Seems really well set up. They have a really good attitude to work and clients. I think we need a shake up at work. Maybe [new vet]’s way of working isn’t too bad. Neil said they were ½ million in the red at the height of FMD – they must have been so worried. None of us knew what we’d be left with. We’ve definitely got a lot of routine work because we’ve lost such a lot of dairy farms. It’s never going to be the same again and I’m not good at accepting change.\n\nDiary 32\nSad week. One of our farmer’s sons was killed in an RTA on the A66. He had only been married two years and was a real canny lad. It shocked everyone and has certainly made me take stock. They have restocked with fancy cattle from down south, and these cattle may have contacted cattle with a variant virus from the USA so they were doing a whole herd test. You could blame this on FMD – if they hadn’t lost their cattle, they wouldn’t have restocked and they wouldn’t be testing the cattle or it wouldn’t have happened if they’d stopped for an extra cup of tea. A client brought me a copy of the Cumbria Enquiry. That didn’t half stir up some old feelings. All the things I was so angry about last year were summed up in one phrase I read: ‘slack organisation’. The poor woman who brought the report has spent over £1000 treating her dog after it suffered chemical burns from FMD disinfectant on a road map – it now reacts to phenolic compounds including sheep dip and fresh tar. They’re moving to Scotland – I hope the dog has a better life there.\n\nDiary 33\nFunny old week. Everyone still shell-shocked about [farmer’s son]’s death – no explanation as to how the lorry crashed into his tractor yet. You begin to wonder how any family can cope with that sort of trauma. B and W went to the (huge) funeral. They said his parents were amazing – they do have a strong faith but I can’t see that being enough. I went to the graveyard the next day to see the flowers and ended up in tears – it was the messages on the cards especially the ones from his parents and brother and sister, I felt so sad for them all. Went for a wee walk with Tracey, she knows him quite well and we talked a lot, trying to make sense of it all. Then blow me on the Thursday, his father and brother were part of a syndicate at the tup sales that paid over £100,000 for a Swaledale tup – I couldn’t believe they’d even gone to the auction never mind doing something like that, it doesn’t seem right to me. The others could have bought the tup for them, I think that’s awfully strange. I had another upset farmer’s wife this week. I went to see a downer cow; she’d got stuck in the cubicles. We had to carry her to a straw box using the loader tractor and the wife got really upset seeing the cow swinging on the front of the tractor. I felt a bit guilty really because I didn’t think. I just didn’t connect the FMD slaughter with an injured cow, but then I didn’t see all that they saw when their herd went down.\n\nDiary 34\nGreat week. My brother’s wedding, [son] was a page boy in a kilt and he was quite well behaved apart from the second lot of photos – he was well tired and hungry by then! I love being home with my brother and sisters (and their partners) and it’s great the way they all have so much time for [son]. We always laugh so much at the ‘clan gatherings’ I’m sure it’s very therapeutic! The amount of alcohol consumed by all at the wedding is definitely not therapeutic.\nWe set off on our holiday (maybe our first family holiday) the day after, in the rain but it turned out ok later. Such a lot of good stuff in one week.\n\nDiary 35\nHad a lovely day, it all worked out well. We may try four or five days away next year now that we’ve got started again. It’s years since we had a proper holiday, I usually miss all the animals when I’m away but not this time – I think [son] has more than filled that gap. Had bad news on Wednesday, [partner]’s van failed its MOT – no transport, no money for a new motor. Mild panic, slight depression then the gradual return to my ‘it will all work out somehow’ attitude. And it did. [partner]’s Mum and Dad helped us out and I had to relinquish my little ‘buy a new trailer’ fund.\nHad a disaster on Sunday morning, caesarean on an uncooperative cow. She got up halfway through the op and pushed her rumen out onto the (very dirty) floor, and she started to haemorrhage. She died four hours later. They ended up with an exceptional bull calf but a dead pedigree Belgian Blue cow. I hate when things die on restocked farms. I think they were quite philosophical about it but I went over and over the whole thing in my head. B just said ‘if they’re going to die it’s best they die soon – less time to worry and everyone gets over it quicker too’ I think he may be right. He’s definitely easier to talk to these days – he’s like a different person now that Jan’s left.\n\nDiary 36\nBusy week. Testing a restocked herd Monday/Thursday which had travelled all of 5 miles to their new home – a bit of a waste of time but it was a nice day to be out. Really good turnout at the village bonfire. It’s a new tradition, started in 2001 and it was the first village get-together after FMD. At the end of the week I headed South to Cheshire and the Salisbury plain with my friend Ann and her horse to compete in the marathon. What an awful journey we had. The rain poured, the traffic crawled. I’m glad I don’t have to use the M6 on a daily basis. I really enjoyed my weekend away but we had to pull the horse out at the half-way point. She was so hyped that we couldn’t get her heart rate down, so she wasn’t allowed to continue. I felt really disappointed. I was sure that she had a good chance, well she would have if they had a vet check halfway through.\n\nDiary 37\nA bit of an anticlimax this week after all the build-up to the marathon. It would have been so different if she’d completed the course. We had a better journey North except for a puncture – not handy when you have a horse trailer on. I drove most of the way back to Ann’s. Saw all her horses and then drove home, another 2 hours. Oh I was so pleased to get home. It was a good experience though, I don’t think either of us would trail a horse all the way to Salisbury plain for a two hour race again!! There were FMD cases near Ann in Cheshire that didn’t seem to catch hold like they did in Cumbria. Maybe its because there are bigger farms and more arable land.\nI went to see her in July 2001 and she pointed out various fields that had been cleared of stock – half of them didn’t even have gates on, there was no disinfectant or precautions visible and it was really starting to wipe out our practice at home. It was unbelievable. We were sitting in Cumbria thinking that agriculture was doomed, and everything in Cheshire was carrying on as normal. It was a rude awakening for me.\n\nDiary 38\nMore TB testing – all day job testing stock that wouldn’t normally be tested but they’re restocked. They have come from Cheshire though so that does increase the risk. Had a shocking migraine all day Wednesday, went to bed as soon as I’d dropped [son] off at Biggins and didn’t wake up until 5pm – 2 hours after I should have collected him – and I still felt awful. It was terrible driving in the dark and I had to stop three times on the way home. I went back to bed until 9pm and then was fine. I haven’t had a migraine for ages. I was back on top form the next day though. We did the TB readings on 172 cattle before lunch – cooking with gas!\n\nDiary 39\nFed up with all this testing – and we may be doing this for the next 4-5 months. Sick of [new vet] moaning at work, I don’t know what it would take to make her happy. I think this week has nearly all been a waste of time. I haven’t made best use of my free time and I haven’t been on top of my job at work.\n\nDiary 40\nI was dreading this week because there were so many things to do. I think I avoid adding extra to my schedule but this week I had 3 days away and a night out to cope with. I really don’t like the thought of shopping but managed to do some Christmas present locating on Friday. Spent Wednesday with B (which was better than I expected) on a National Scrapie Plan training day (which was worse than I expected). Bloody DEFRA, they don’t have to do or say much to raise my hackles. Here we are selecting for a resistant genotype and they are spending all their time injecting BSE into sheep’s brains to ‘challenge’ them – how would that ever happen naturally?\nNearly missed my night out because of work, It was 10 pm before I got there, but at least I didn’t miss the dancing. It turned into a really good night. Nearly everyone from work was there, and J the ex-receptionist, we always have a good laugh. Ended up working most of the morning – don’t know if W was hung over or just idle, but he’ll have to pay me for the hours. I don’t work extra out of the goodness of my heart now I have all my own overheads to fund. [new vet]’s the star for avoiding extra or dirty work – then it usually falls to me. She says she wants more large animal work and then does her best to avoid it.\n\nDiary 41\nTired this week. [son] came back from Mavis’s full of cold, improved a bit and then woke up screaming on Tuesday night. It was a very long night and [partner] wasn’t even here t enjoy/share it as he’d left to fly to Tampa at 5am that morning. God, I don’t fancy being a single mum.\nHe soon started to improve after 24hrs on antibiotics – ear and chest infection – I’ve never seen him in such pain. Of course, he was nearly better by the time [partner] got back. I really struggled on my own and had to take a day off on Thursday but still had to go and do a second TB test otherwise I would have had to start all over again – we didn’t have time to test them twice. And it’s a restocked herd so we had to do them all. It’s really hard trying to do the best for everyone.\n\nDiary 42\nPretty good week until the weekend. Had a good night out for Tracey’s birthday, and I was really chuffed she invited [son] too. He was well behaved too nut unfortunately now thinks he can go to ‘the pub’ so we have to go out to meetings to avoid a tantrum. I don’t really think I have suffered many after effects from FMD except a lower anger threshold and a loss of faith in ‘the powers that be’. I’m much more worried about some of our client’s mental health. I know there are several who have suffered severe depression and they are not all farmers that were culled out. The sleepless nights were back with a vengeance – [son] started with chickenpox at the weekend and nobody had any sleep.\n\nDiary 43\nAbsolutely shattered, somebody else’s chickenpox is nearly as bad as your own. I don’t think I have had a full nights sleep for over a fortnight. I still had a lovely time at Christmas though. I was sure that [partner] and [son] would be pleased with their presents. [son] suddenly brightened dup on Christmas Eve on the way to Mam’s and never broke stride after that. He was son top form. I was so tired that I fell asleep on Saturday evening and missed the village Hall Christmas Party – the highlight of the village social calendar.\n\nDiary 44\nThe threat of TB rears its ugly head; maybe TB is the new FMD. Went to do a private TB test for a farmer who has restocked and passed his restocking checks. Unfortunately he bought 3 heifers in November and the original farm has since gone down with TB.\nHe isolated the heifers as soon as he heard and waited for DEFRA – they didn’t come so we did. I hoped for the best and expected the worst. One of the heifers reacted – I didn’t know what to do or say. The farmer’s wife was really upset, she wished they hadn’t gone back into farming. B the boss has phoned DEFRA that morning regarding these heifers only to be told that youngstock don’t pose much of a risk. They don’t seem to have much idea at all, and don’t have a clue about getting on with the job. They’ve had three weeks to track down the calves out of the cows that were reactors. They seem to let us down just when we need them most! Oh they make me boil and we are going to have to cope with the aftermath again.\n\nDiary 45\nFelt a bit flat and tired this week. The test I had this week was hard work, trying to catch cows in cubicles is not fun. We were all covered in muck at the end of it and the second day was worse because he had about 14 to rectal after the test.\nWednesday, my day of respite was taken up looking after Tracey in bed with cold – she’s really down still and I can’t seem to do anything to make her feel better. I know she’ll come out of it eventually but it’s hard not being able to help.\nI just didn’t feel as if I had any time to myself this week, and I really missed out. If I start working Wednesdays I’m going to miss it every week. I’ll have to have another plan! It’s a bit better at the weekend, but I think we all need some better weather and I miss doing stuff with the horses.\n\nDiary 46\nOh I’m mad again with DEFRA. I had to go back to the herd with the reactor and test every single bovine on the place, except the two remaining heifers from the infected herd. I don’t understand why they can’t just take out those heifers too. The poor farmer and his wife will be on tender hooks until the end of March at the earliest. If they hadn’t asked for a private test goodness knows when DEFRA would have got there. While I was testing DEFRA phoned the farmers wife to confirm that the slaughtered heifer had visible lesions – so that puts paid to the theory that youngstock weren’t a danger. Hope this news makes them get a finger out. Had a lovely day with Mam and [son] on Tuesday – we sat and talked for over an hour in the car park, everything tested clear at the check test – so far so good.\nBad day on Thursday. The behaviour course I was enrolled on has been cancelled - no explanation just a cheque returned to the practice with a wee note. I was so disappointed, even though it was going to be a lot of extra work over the next 10 months and extra hassle and extra childminding I think I could have coped. Then at lunchtime I bent my car door after stopping to help somebody stuck on an icy patch – I haven’t got all the bits sorted that were knackered by FMD disinfecting yet and there’s more repairs, and I have to pay for it myself now that I don’t have a practice car – I was well fed up!\n\nDairy 47\nBusy week. TB Testing again. Started working odd Wednesdays this week, so spent all day Wednesday up the back end of suckler cows (very dangerous) taking bloods for brucellosis and then blood sampling Swaledales for scrapie testing.\nWe have so many tests still to do – but not many dreadfully out of date, and I think we’ve done quite a lot of the restocking tests but its all quite mind numbing stuff – not much clinical acumen required for getting blood out of cows – just quick reactions to dodge shit and flying feet. Very late finished Monday by the time I had all my paperwork done. A, a college friend landed Tuesday en-route to Leeds for a herd health meeting – 6 hours driving for a meeting. We talked a bit about FMD – she worked as a TVI towards the end of the outbreak. They have a lot more trouble with TB up in Aberdeenshire – once it gets into a herd they struggle to get rid of it again. I hope it doesn’t get to be a huge problem round here. Collected a fair few bruises on Thursday – pregnant heifers to dehorn – they should have been done in 2001 but of course the routine work was put off. I don’t know what the excuse was leaving them al through 2002 but they were massive. Anyway, it saved me going to the gym on Wednesday night!\n\nDiary 48\nI have just handed in the latest batch of diaries, and started a new ‘session’. I have been thinking that F&M doesn’t really affect me much anymore. Our work has changed because of the restocking that has taken place since with all the new disease problems that have been bought in as ‘additional extras’ and the extra TB testing etc. but mentally I am not aware of even thinking about the events of 2001 that often. I still feel upset if someone tells me about their own particular experiences which are often heart rending but probably no more than if they were discussing another devastating disease problem. I still have little tolerance for the workings of DEFRA even though they are providing us with lots of ‘bread and butter’ work.\n\nDiary 51\nI’m sick of doing caesareans on cows – who encouraged all the bloody beef farmers to restock with Belgian Blues? I’m not sure that we should be continuing to allow animals to breed that can’t reproduce naturally. It doesn’t seem right that we should almost expect a caesarean the day that a new cow is put in calf. We used to have occasional troubles before, and not all caesareans are on Belgian Blues but now we do at least one caesarean every week, (B did two in one day) and they are bloody hard work!!\n\nDiary 52\nI always think of the 23rd Feb as being the day that I realised we might be in the shit in 2001. It wouldn’t have passed unnoticed round here – several people mentioned the date in the following week – yet it wasn’t until the 4th April that F&M came into our practice. Loads of our farmers lost a lot of seep early on though because they were wintering away on dairy farms further down the Eden valley. This used to just involve the hoggs but now they are encouraged to leave the fells almost empty and are paid to remove even pregnant ewes to lower ground. It seems ludicrous that, on certain farms, the fell sheep only spend summertime on the fells. The rest of the time they are in-bye land for tupping or lambing, and then are wintered in sheep sheds or on dairy farms, sometimes quite far away from ‘home’. I did get quite upset when I read the stories in the book. This time I think I had more empathy for the ‘tourism’ businesses affected. They must have been so frustrated, and probably ended up much worse off that the affected farmers. In our area the farmers who ‘survived’ are the ones (in general) who are struggling for survival now, and their farms have had no capital investment at all. In fact some of the survivors are still very bitter about the whole episode. Its so sad what this has done to some people. \n\nDiary 55\nCheck TB test at Campbells, went well finished in good time. Running into trouble because the other cows taken in for winter are calving and they have no room. However, they have found someone to take and slaughter all the big bullocks – they are going to be moved, under licence, direct to a slaughter house so at least they will have some income (the first this year!). Everything tested clear including the 2 heifers brought in from the farm that had the reactor so they are feeling a little bit more confident.\n\nDiary 56\nBloody DEFRA cocked up again with C’s test – had to go back to test 11 baby calves (how cruel?). Had to go back to H’s as well to test one inconclusive reactor. All of them were OK\n\nDiary 60\nI think the lambing time rush is settling down again – of course there aren’t quite as many fell sheep about as usual – and probably won’t be again if the payments are de-coupled – numbers won’t be as profitable as acres.\n
## 3 \n\nInformation about diarist\nDate of birth: 1964\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 4th March 02\n\nMonday 4th March\nWe decided we now need more staff, a new vet and a part time receptionist, this could take us back up to our previous staffing level pre FM, bar a vet. But this was probably going to be all the recruitments we would make this year. It’s a good sign As Things begin to get back to normal!! Work is increasing quite a lot now most of our farmers have restocked, although a lot of them and us are still concerned about the future.\nTuesday 5th March\nA difficult day today with licences, two of our farmers needed Sole Occupancy Authentitys (SOA) and there were queries with their land, unless some of their fields could be redefined, they were worried their stock would suffer. During the FM these worries have shown how much they care about their stock and find it very frustrating when they don’t understand why we can’t move them, even to the point of anger and tears. By the end of the day, thankfully they were resolved, with compromise on both sides and a lot of phone calls.\nWednesday 6th March\nI decided to sort out all the paperwork and guidelines we had received from DEFRA over the past twelve months – it was quite a pile!! It was interesting looking back and very sad, it makes you realise just how deep the feelings went and although it sounds silly it’s surprising how quickly those feelings can return over the smallest things. Anyway having done that, it did feel good to box them up and put them away. We got taken out for lunch with our Ptizer rep and it was nice just to talk about usual! Things, drug competition, how much we were going to sell.\nThursday 7th March\nVery busy day, everyone has been flat out all day started at 7am this morning got finished sort of by 7.30pm, very tired. Hope we get a new vet soon! We also had a suspect BSE case today. Informed DEFRA. More problems with SOA, but we got them started, one bit of good news, I managed to get a new receptionist for 2 days a week so I just need one for the other 3.\n\n\nFriday 8th March\nQuite a good day no major hassles today, and still getting busier. Had a staff meeting to arrange an open day for National Pet week in May, and sorted out a few other bits and bobs. Had a good chat with the staff who have all been very busy this week and decided that it is much better to this time last year, when we were all very depressed, emotionally drained, laying off staff, uncertain of the future. At least now we are doing what we are meant to do.\nSaturday 9th March\nWent shopping first thing with K, had a good time, even though I’m not a good shopper. We went to the Farmers’ Market, I saw Heather who works at the Auction and she said it had been quite emotional having sales again and the hustle and bustle, but they were all happy to see people they hadn’t seen for sometime. Met my Mum in the afternoon in the Snow at Killington Lake, it was good and the driving was interesting.\nSunday 10th March\nMothers Day – [husband] and [daughter] were out for the day, so I had a lovely peaceful day doing not a lot. [daughter] got me a funny card and a little hedgehog model for my collection. In the evening I collected a vet student from London who is staying with us for 3 weeks. So we will have to behave. She seems nice and settled into our mad house easily. Mr W called in to let us know his cows had arrived safely. \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th March 02\n\nMonday 11th march\nWhat a busy day. But a total change to this time last year, it was the day our first client was confirmed with f&m. I helped [another vet] do a caesarean on a cow, that was fun, they are farmers that have moved farm and restocked – very positive. One of our new receptionists started but I didn’t get much chance to see her due to the Caesar. Barbara looked after her well and she seemed to enjoy it. There were lots of calls in just like the old days but we really need another vet, the adverts in on Thursday so fingers crossed. \nTuesday\nAnother busy day and another Caesar, the calf was dead unfortunately. The cow with query BSE was taken away for tests, which was sad. My highlight of my day was the farm across from us turned some of his cows out again. I call it my kitchen window view, normally I can see sheep in the fields at the back and the cows across the road, the sheep came back a couple of months ago and the cows but I haven’t actually been able to see them, so it was very special. Never really stopped today and we did Dog training classes at night, so I collected [daughter] from her YFC meeting and got fish and chips and we all went to bed. Our poor vet student who is staying with us is exhausted, she’s been able to see and do so much.\nWednesday\nToday was a little more controlled and went more according to plan, but was still a long day as we had a dog in about 6.30pm that had eaten a ball and hadn’t passed it, so we had to operate to remove it, anyway finished at 9.00pm, had tea and went to bed. [daughter] heard she had got 2 weeks work experience at Norbrook pharmaceutical so very pleased about that.\n\n\n\nThursday\nHad the morning off, the last few days had been rather hectic. A girl who had done work experience with us a couple of years ago called round, out of the blue, she was still keen to train as a Vet Nurse and wanted to write to the Practices in the area and needed advice, anyway I told her about our vacancy here and well the long and the short is she starts on the 2nd April – Receptionist staff now sorted, just need a vet, I wish it was as easy.\nFriday\n[husband] was reading a TT test at a farm and found a reactor. Pre f+m Cumbria was TB free but with all the new stock coming into the area it is inevitable that this will not be the case, there have already been two other cases in the county. I dropped off the isolation notice to the farmer and as they are, he seemed okay and still very positive. I have always admired them for their courage and stamina, as he said they love farming and you have to expect things like this. Managed to spend the afternoon with one of our new receptionists, she is doing really well and settling in time she will grasp it all in no time.\nSaturday\nRan [daughter] and her friend into town and sorted out the garage – that was an achievement. The dog that swallowed the ball wasn’t eating so I went to get it something tasty, it’s going home later so it should be a lot happier. [daughter]’s still in town so I took (vet student) to see Hadrian’s wall, she’s from America so was very keen to see it, she really enjoyed it and so did I. I hadn’t been for a couple of years. Just had a nice quiet evening in.\nSunday\nMy sister and her daughter came for the day. My niece is two and a half years so need I say more, we were busy playing all day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 18th March 02\n\nMonday 18th March\nIt's looking fairly quiet at work this week but you never know. Mr W (farmer) came in he was letting us know his restocking plans and was one of the farmers querying his compensation ( I never liked that as they were compulsory purchased and have not received any compensation as such although some got better money than others, so maybe it was all taken into account). Anyway he missed the query deadline by two hours so DEFRA are refusing to look at his case as he does appear to have lost out as his brother with the same breeding of cows and related went down on the same down, got an average £300 more per cow. Anyway we tried to look to the future and he was looking forward to getting stock back. We had another TB reactor today in some French cattle. Me and our receptionist were chatting and decided things were really getting back to normal, although with the added paperwork. [daughter] was very upset when she came home from school as she had been getting bullied by a girl in her year…., so we chatted about that and I wrote to her teacher to see if she could find out more.\nTuesday\n[daughter] went to school fairly happy. I just told her to hand her letter in and try and avoid the girl. I was going milk recording tonight which I really enjoy it's great to be among the animals and talk to the farmers. We only have one farmer milk recording fully at present, there were 12. The farm I went to is a big dairy herd and is now \nlooking to expanding so that was good news. Bad news is that means I'll have to get up earlier in the mornings for the recording - never mind!! [daughter] had got on okay at school and the teacher was really good with her, so she's feeling happier. She is a good kid and although hormonal at times she does put up with a lot. During the FMD. We were unable to really go anywhere or do anything although we did try to keep her routine, we worked longer hours and were more stressed, but she never complained and helped a lot. Went dog training after milk recording so it was a long day.\nWednesday\nEarly morning start today. 5am to go milk recording but I always get a lovely breakfast. We also got invited to a party at the farm in May so that's something to look forward to and its fancy dress so that will be fun, we have to dress up as children's characters.\nWe then attended a careers' convention at the Sands Centre until 7 pm, so another very long day, very tired. We saw a lot of children who were interested in pursuing veterinary work which is always encouraging. I enjoy doing the careers days, it's interesting to see the next workforce, they seem to grow up so fast\nThursday\nMy claim to fame today was seeing the Princess Royal; I passed her at a junction and thought I was seeing things. I bored everyone with that story! We had a lovely staff lunch meeting, we all helped cook and sat and chatted about the future, we had no replies from the advert for a vet so we decided to try another Veterinary magazine so fingers crossed. In the afternoon I managed to get very well caught up on my paperwork which is a rarity as I normally end up going somewhere or sorting something out, so I was very pleased especially as the year end is approaching.\nFriday\nDiscussed a few ideas with our Nurse regarding the small animal side and the possibility of getting some new equipment. I shall have to do some adding up. [husband] was at a Vet meeting locally for all the vets in the area on Thursday night and there were 3 other practices looking for vets and had been doing for some time without any luck at all, this is worrying as our case loads increase again it puts a strain on the vets, so fingers crossed our advert is in tomorrow. In the afternoon I called to see one of our evening receptionist who is on maternity leave at present. It was good to see her and her new addition so I was filling her in on the news and gossip - hopefully she will be back to work the second week in April although the birth was a caesarean so I have told her to see how she is feeling, so we will discuss it again soon as this is her fourth child but she copes really well and is looking really healthy.\nSaturday\nIt snowed, I went to meet my Mum at Killington as we were having her dog while she went on holiday and nearly got stuck in the snow. During foot and mouth [daughter] had counted the stock in the field between Carlisle and Penrith on the M6, anyway I did it again today - last year we counted 2 - this year we counted 12 - big difference.\nSunday\nWent for a walk around a local wood for the first time in over a year it was amazing how overgrown it had become, the paths were still visible but in places only just. Met up with a friend's daughter to finalise arrangements for her father's surprise meal out next Friday for his 50th birthday\n\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th March 02\n\nMonday 25th March\nAnother very busy day today. Still no answer to the advert for a new vet. [husband] spoke to another vet in the area and they had, had the same response - nothing. It is good to be busy again. Our new receptionist is doing well and learning fast, so that's taking the pressure off me and [other receptioinist]. Completed the claim form for Business Link grant which helped a lot and enabled us to do things and advertise when we wouldn't have been able to.\nTuesday\nStarting to prepare for the end of our financial year. I always dread this but it has to be done. It will be nice to end another chapter, the Practice suffered badly last year and it was very worrying. We lost 3 vets and two lay staff. But everyone is feeling the same. I have spoken to a few farmers today and the opinion is - well it is a lot better than this time last year. It has been interesting to see how the effect of having new stock does throw them; we are getting called out a lot more which is good for us. We are doing a lot more lambings and lambing is set to go on until may/June time this year. We are very busy testing at the moment but it gives us the opportunity to see the new animals and discuss plans with the farmers. The relationship which was built during the f+m is now definitely benefiting, a lot have said how helpful it was and feel a lot closer - the family not business relationship is good.\nWednesday\nI had a day off today which was good. I managed to catch up on a few things which I just hadn't had time to do with being so busy. I got a lot organised for the holiday at the week-end which we are all looking forward to, but we can't all get away together, mainly due to no new vet and our financial year but at least we will all get a bit of a break.\n[daughter] got her report today and has done very well, we are so proud of her so fingers crossed for her GCSEs.\nThursday\nI spoke to Mrs W today who has been very much in action since they got f+m and even got in touch with politician etc. to help give farmers that voice. She mentioned the Public Inquiry and like a lot of people feels that maybe rather than having a finger pointing blaming session and we all have our ideas on that, she felt that maybe trying to prevent it happening again would be a better idea. I personally have begun to realize recently just how much and how deep the feelings run, I think I am more emotional now than when we were in the thick of it.\nFriday\nSpent all day knuckling down to the end of year - but got a lot done. [husband], [daughter] and (vet student) went out for the day. It is [husband]'s first real day off since October. And it did him good. We all went out in the evening to celebrate a friend's birthday - it was really good.\nSaturday\nHoliday again today - [husband], [daughter], my sister and her daughter have gone away today to the cottage near Newton Stewart we have rented for a week. The weather is great so they should have a lovely time, this could be our only holiday this year. [husband]'s back on Monday, then I go on Wednesday - confusing isn't it. Never mind at least we will all get away for a few days.\nSunday\nEnd of year day. Stocktaking, counting. Sunny outside - boring but never mind it's done. Our vet student went home today. She had really enjoyed herself and we had enjoyed having her, she bought us all some lovely gifts. It will be nice to be on our own again but I will still miss her.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 1st April 02\n\nMonday 1st April\nI had a lovely day - my day. [husband] and [daughter] still away - played in the garden. Went for a walk, read some of my book - lovely! [husband] came back at tea-time so we went out for a meal - perfect.\nTuesday\nWent to help [another vet] (vet) TT test at one of our farms. He had restocked and was very positive about the future, it was a lovely day and great to be amongst cows again.\nWednesday - Sunday\nHOLS!! Great I didn't realise just how much I needed it, the weather was great, warm, sunny very relaxing. All charged up again. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 8th April 02\n\nMonday 8th April\nBack to work today. I had quite a lot of catching up to do and couldn't really get into it, never mind it will all still be there tomorrow. Hope we can get away again this year even for a few days.\nTuesday\nQueen Mum's funeral today. It was very quiet. We gave the girls time off to watch the funeral, it was a nice funeral if you can have one and they commented on the poem which was read about being thankful for the life and not being sorry - I must get it. Our nurse suggested about giving it to clients when they have their pets put to sleep, nice idea.\nWednesday\nBack into it now, I had 2 very difficult SOA to complete. Farmers are slowly getting the idea but find all the paperwork hard, but it's a good chance for them to call in for a chat and coffee. I so seem to spend an awful lot of time doing that now but it's always good to see how they are coping.\nThursday\nThe large animal work has been rapidly increasing and it has been putting extra pressure on all the staff, we do really need another vet but another advert and still no response at all, but they all work very hard and we do manage to get through the work. We chatted to the staff and tried to reassure them about the future but how can you when if we can't get another vet, we simply can't provide the service our clients need. It is very worrying and we are not sure of the solution or the future. I think after that paragraph I need a 'we can do it', kick!!\nFriday\nOur new receptionists are settling in well and I did some work with them today which was good, they are both very enthusiastic. A few years ago a (I?) taught NVQ in Animal Care so one of our receptionists is keen to do this so I organised some work for her to do - enjoyed that. Castrated a colt in the afternoon sad I know but I enjoyed that!!\n\nSaturday\nWent shopping with [daughter] in the morning to buy her some new clothes, we had a good time. Then started the sewing for the YFC field day, we had to make shorts and T shirt for a sport event, well I haven't really done sewing from a pattern for years, so let's just say it was fun!!\nSunday\nWent to Newcastle for the day via some fields we had to check for a client's SOA. Had a lovely time and saw the blinking or winking - I'm not sure which one it is, it was nice to have a day all together.\n\nWeek beginning Monday 15th April 02\n\nMonday 15th April\nVery busy again, I did 175 miles today just dropping things off for farmers and vets and trips to the lab. I also found a new supplier of Paper Towels which will save us a lot of money - see so easy pleased!! It was very tiring but I do like being out and about and I even managed two cups of coffee on farms. Before FMD I felt that the relationship between vets and farmers was changing but our relationship during FMD did change for the better, I feel good about that but not the way it happened. Me and [daughter] had a girls night in as [husband] was away, that was fun.\nTuesday 16th April\n[husband] away at BCVA he is new on the committee and seems to be enjoying it, there is only him and another vet in Scotland from the North invited onto the committee, so they are putting together some suggestions to put to the government re FMD. Poor [another vet] was very busy again. We need a vet !!!\nWednesday 17th April\nI went to see an elderly client of ours this morning who has an old dog. She is going into hospital and won't go as she is worried about the dog. I offered to have Kelly the dog while she was in hospital and told her if I found out she cancelled it I would be cross. I enjoy talking to her, for her 87 years she is very fit and funny.\nAt lunchtime we all attacked the Bayer Rep for free goodies for our open day, he was very co-operative and got away without a scratch! We didn't have an open day last year so it should be fun - back into a routine.\nThursday 18th April\nI bottomed my paperwork this morning, no interference, no phone calls, no SOA, very productive!! Me and [husband] went to see the finical advisor at the bank in the afternoon, it was good but we can't retire this year - never mind - he gave us some good ideas, so fingers crossed we might just be able to retire one day!!\nFriday 19th April\nVery busy - we need a vet repetitive isn't it. We were looking back in the visit book to this time last year - this year we had 21 calls which is a practise record last year we had 1!!. There is a lot of general "well this time last year" in some ways it all seems very unbelievable but in other ways it still very sad and emotional. I think more emotional now than when it was actually happening, when you see farmer’s eyes filling up talking about it. I used to worry about upsetting them, but I feel it is good to talk and it also helps me, I don't know if that’s right but it seems to work.\n\nSaturday 20th and Sunday 21st April\nHuge sewing for YFC field day. I also found out today that there is also baking and flower arranging - oh joy! \n\nWeek beginning Monday 22nd April 02\n\nMonday 22nd April\nGood day today - I've been to see my new girls (the cows over the road from us). It was the one we could see from the practice it was an awful day, they had lasted until June. Anyway it was good to see the new girls and I think I amused the farmer, we had a great time I've never enjoyed helping TT test more - on a high!\nTuesday 23rd April\nDriving around today I've been trying to listen to what the Euro inquiry people have been up to - not a lot from what I hear. I was talking to an old farmer in the afternoon and he wasn't impressed either and we agreed that it was all very well having these inquires, but were they going to help. I suppose only time will tell but I still feel that unless something is done about the cause then the chances are it will happen again, and to what extent and what has been learnt, and what will be different next time because the one thing that must be prevented is the effects on people, nobody really got that. I always remember the Samaritans advert; nobody seemed to care - probably no paperwork! Can you tell I've had a particularly bad day with the SOA, and the good news is they want to keep them permanently! Great. \nWednesday 24th April\nI went to see Mrs B again today and she had heard from the hospital again, she was going in next Tuesday so I arranged at collect K on Monday afternoon. I'm pleased she's having her op, I have also been in touch with one of her daughters in Devon, so hopefully everything should go well now.\nGood news we have heard of a vet at DEFRA who is looking for a job. [husband] phoned her and she is coming on Saturday afternoon so fingers crossed.\nThursday 25th April\nMy cows got the TT reading this morning and they are all okay. We have heard of a farm in Welton who had to have some killed as they had 7 reactors and they will need tested, there has been quite a few reactors in the country after restocking but with all the new stock coming into the county from all over the Country it was bound to happen.\nFriday 26th April \nSorted out the Open Day next Saturday got everything sorted, what we need, who's getting it etc. Me and [receptionist] went to Smuts fancy dress and decided budget wouldn't go to costumes, so we got some face paint and masks, Me and [daughter] and her friend and Mum went to see Westlife ant Newcastle, it was great fun.\nSaturday 27th April\nShopping, washing and sewing, I know how to show myself a good time. We all went to [another vet]'s at night for a BBQ it was great fun, cold but fun. We have been so lucky with [another vet] she is so nice and enthusiastic. We interviewed a vet today from DEFRA but she is a little uncertain what she wants to do, but she seems nice, and we told her what we needed so fingers crossed.\nSunday 28th April\n\tFinished my sewing.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th April\n\nMonday\nThe Inquiry begins, for what good it will do. I find I have very mixed feelings, part of me thinks what's the point and another is expecting something but quite what I don't yet. Someone to blame, a solution, an ability to turn back the clock, a lesson to learn or an end. The last I know won't happen for a while and the repercussion will probably be felt for a few years yet.\nTuesday 30th April\nSorry ill in bed today with the cold from hell.\nWednesday 1st May\nMuch better today and we heard from the Vet we interviewed on Saturday and she has accepted our offer and can start on the 27th May - Yippee - holidays and easing of the pressure on [husband] and [another vet].\nI am still finding the saying "well this time last year". Mrs R phoned and mentioned the saying as it was a year ago today that their cattle were killed but she was phoning with good news - they had their first calf born, healthy and well and she wanted to tell us - lovely.\n Thursday 2nd May\nIts official SOA are here to stay - oh joy - so we contacted all our farmers who had not yet got one who we thought might need one. So lots of chatting and catching up - so quite nice.\nOpen day is on Saturday and there still seems to be an awful lot to organise but we have been busy all day and things are looking better and slightly more organised. I haven't seen or heard much of this enquiry, but when you do hear some I think we really went through that - weird.\nFriday 3rd May\nOpen Day panic, that’s all I've done today, but it is all coming together and it will be fine - hopefully. We have had quite a good response about people coming and people checking when it is and what's happening. So fingers crossed. Must go and bake my buns!!\nSaturday 4th May\nOpen Day\nIt went really well, we started at 2 p.m. and there was a steady stream of people all-enjoying themselves - hopefully. It stayed fine the whole time thankfully; I even got my face painted by [another vet] our vet. We managed to raise £96.71 for the 'Pat Dogs' and £27.35 for National Pet week. Not too bad for 2 hours. The staff came round for tea later which was nice and we had a jolly time.\nSunday 5th May\nGardened all day till I dropped, loved it. I grew quite fond of the garden last year as it was another little escape. \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 6th May\nMonday 6th May\nBank Holiday - We had a lovely family day out which have been very rare, so it was surprising that we all got on - nearly. It still feels strange being able to go to places, not only as a family but also the fact that for so long we didn't really go anywhere.\n\n\nTuesday 7th May\nVery busy. I have been doing my hollering - as [receptionist] calls it! - what I have actually been doing is dropping off drugs and chatting. I call it customer relations. I still feel funny going onto farms, I have been to the gate for months, just momentarily I feel - can I - its hard to explain - it still feels normal to drop things in the bucket or bin rather than driving onto the farm. But its good and the coffee with proper milk is brill.\nWednesday 8th May\nMr G has got some cows, he was one we thought wouldn't restock as although both his sons are on the farm neither are interested in cows. One has horses and the other has everything else from turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants etc a real menagerie. Daddy G is 66 and couldn't decide weather to get more cows or not. It was a bit of Dad says yes - sons say no. Anyway Dad won. To begin with I was on the sons side, but when he came in beaming and laughing and full of joy how could you disagree with him? Before they got FMD he had called into the practise and was having a coffee and was very upset, his friend had phoned him that morning to say he had FMD. Mr G just broke down and sobbed, it was one of my worst experiences. I found it so hard not to join him, but to be strong and console him, for him of the old gentlemen showed the depth of feeling and despair that was around. I have a lump now remembering it. Anyway in comparison if getting a few cows to milk can make such a big difference and be so happy - so what.\nThursday 9th May\nWent to a meeting in Preston with CL a vet from Brampton on the 'Marsh Report' which is regarding Vets the privilege to dispense drugs. Anyway firstly we got lost, very lost and then on arriving at the meeting eventually - it was all doom, gloom and depressing. Just when you thought things were getting on tract - bam - more changes, more paperwork. We will have to wait and see just how it effects us, but effect us it will.\nFriday 10th May\nI had a half-day off today and did fun things like washing, shopping and sorting bits and pieces - but I couldn't be a housewife all the time. I ended up leaving the cooking and washing and took the dog out instead, much more fun! \nSaturday 11th May\nTook [daughter] out to the Young Farmers Field Day - it was brill - I was only going to stay an hour, anyway I stayed all day. Everyone was there some I hadn't seen for ages. I had only spoke to them and some new faces. It was great to see them all together. I do feel farmers and their families are very special people, they have a wonderful sense of fun, they are very solid, they are very close - mind when you talk to them you find they are all related. They are also very proud of what they do. Its sad the public do not see them this way, gone are the days when the farmer was the hero who worked all hours to feed the nation. Well it was a wonderful day.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 13th May\n\nMonday\nVery busy - Milk recorded this afternoon. It was good fun, they are preparing for their party on Saturday night it is a fancy dress party, me and [husband] are going but I can't say what as yet!! J mentioned that a friend of theirs was still not speaking to them because J never lost his cows, and yet J said he had tries to explain how hard it was for them waiting. His friend had accepted the invite to the party so here’s hopefully to friendship. It show's how feelings can so easily run away and be blown into something very silly, we are all on the same side after all. I see a lot of changes in a lot of people either bitterness, resentment, jealousy and emotionally drained in the whole situation. \nTuesday 14th May\nEarly morning milk recording. Got my outfit sorted for the fancy dress party on Saturday. Me and [friend?] went to try it on, it was good fun. \nWednesday 15th May\nI have done tons of backwards and forwarding today so I've been hearing about the Inquiry a bit today. I have decided I am going to the one in Carlisle out of interest and curiosity. I still feel what is it all for - so I may find out at the meeting. I am still waiting for the day FMD is not mentioned or I have some dealing regarding it. \nThursday 16th May\nI spoke to a young couple who farm and they were enquiring about the changes in buying drugs - it caught me off guard as we knew it would happen but not when. I arranged to meet with them and chat to see what they wanted and I think I will go from there. People are farming in different ways than they used to pre FMD, weather it is a result of FMD or not I don't know but there are going to be a lot of changes heading our way.\nFriday 17th May\nAccountant day today - what a joy, no he is brilliant. He has helped so much over the years and last year he was brilliant. He did have one consolation - we wouldn't have to pay too much tax! This year anyway!\nSpoke to a rep in the afternoon, we have had all the usual offers that we get every year but this year they look good as if we buy more this year than last year we can get more off - that should be easy.\nSaturday 18th May\nParty night - I am Cruella Deville and [husband] is Bob the Builder. It was great seeing people we hadn't seen for ages if and when you could recognise them. It was a really good do. We met a client of ours and she is very anti everything re FMD, I feel she is really suffering and very bitter. She was little Bo Peep who had lost her sheep and didn't know where to find them but Mr Blair can, she preached all night to anyone she could. I feel sorry for her as people were avoiding her. Sad.\nSunday 19th May\nRecovered!\n\nWeek beginning Monday 20th May 02\n\nMonday\nA new cattle fertility programme has now become available to Vets and farmers. Two of the people who work came along to see us and discuss the advantages . We already had a few farmers keen in having the program installed. We discussed the program later with a few farmers and they were very keen recognising that they are going to need a program like this that can help them keep a tighter control on their herds fertility and health, which would enable them to remain in business. As most of them are realising, they are now running a company not a family concern. So it’s quite exciting another step forward hopefully.\nTuesday 21st May\nVery busy today everyone stretched, it will make life so much easier when our new vet, Anne, starts next week. I got caught up on my paperwork and also managed to catch up on some others bits that needed done. Even got all the SOA - DEFRA paperwork sorted - miracle.\nWednesday 22nd May\nWent to see two of our farmers today to discuss the Interherd Cattle Health and Fertility computer program. It was good to chat a listen to their plans, hopes and dreams and their concerns. A lot of farmers are still very unsure of the future and quite honestly are keeping their options open. Definitely gave me some pause for thought and a few concerns.\nThursday 23rd May\nQuiet day today. Mr W one of our farmers came today and we had a chat, he was also worried about the future. I hope some good positive news comes soon.\nFriday 24th May\n[friend] is having a few weeks off as our new vet is starting on Monday. [she] came to us 6 months 10 years ago and she has helped us out ever since, and so during FMD she offered to help. It was great to have her and she worked all hours as there was only her and [husband] for 5 months. So she is having some well deserved time off and will come back part time when we need her. I'll miss her but she says she's a lot of housework to catch up on!\nSaturday 25th and Sunday 26th May\nMy sister and niece came to stay for the weekend. We had a nice time just pottering here and there. \n\nWeek beginning Monday 27h May\n\nMonday\nNew vet started. She was very nervous but very keen. She had spent 10 months working for DEFRA and was relieved to be finished with it. She had mainly been involved with re-stocking. Anyway she managed very well and hopefully will settle well. \nTuesday 28th May\nWe booked a holiday today, our 1st holiday for about 2.5 years. So we are all very excited. We are going on a barge near Chester so hopefully the weather will be good. It will be nice to go away together especially after last year. I think we all need it. You do get used to staying at home but with all the trouble and upset last year, it will be nice. Can't wait.\nWednesday 29th May\nHad a lovely day. Ended up doing lots of visiting around the farms dropping drugs off and seeing another farm regarding the Interherd program. I went to a large dairy farm and they are a young couple who are keen and enthusiastic about their future so it was very positive and encouraging. It does give you a lift and helps put things back on track.\nThursday 30th May\nWe had a farmers coffee morning - not planned, they appeared at once so it was quite nice. Its quite interesting when you hear them together, there were two elderly and one younger one, and their opinions, hopes, thoughts and experiences were very different. \n\n\nFriday 31st May\nAnother mega paperwork day - exciting! Played in the garden this afternoon and walked the dog. \nSaturday 1st and Sunday 2nd June\nHad a weekend off together, we went visiting and walking. Very nice.\n\nWeek beginning 3rd June\n\nMonday\n[My sister and her daughter] came to visit. We went into Carlisle but nothing very exciting. The weather was very disappointing for all the organised events. We went to a couple and got wet. [daughter] and [niece] got some Jubilee mugs at one of them.\nWednesday\nI ended up helping (our new Vet and new Nurse) to operate so that was good. I don’t get much chance to help in the op room these days so I enjoyed it thoroughly. [New vet] is doing very well, she’s only been qualified 3 years and up to now has not done much small animal so I was worried she would not like it, but she seems to be enjoying it thoroughly and has settled in really well. It seems like she has been here for ages.\nThursday\nWe had our first work experience from a school for 2 years. She was very interested in the FMD and said they had done a bit on it at school so I went through a few of the details and we discussed the human side which she hadn’t really been discussed at school. To finish I had 4 SOA to do as well – such joy.\nFriday\nI foolishly decided to decorate the surgery and op room. You know when you think you have a good idea then realise you have bitten off more than you can chew – well by Sunday night I was dead – I got it all done and it did look better as nothing had been done last year but boy was I tired.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th June\n\nMonday\nOur new Interherd disc arrived so I went and installed it on two farms, they were very keen to get started so it's quite exciting. They both have young sons who are keen to farm also so that helps. Sometimes I fee if we can just get through this and then other times I feel what's the point - but down the middle of the road we have to try and make it work and fight to make it work. \nTuesday 11th June\nQuite busy today - but [daughter] had her brace taken off today so we had two visits to the hospital. She looks different without her brace now.\nWednesday 12th June\nHad a day off today - peaceful.\nThursday 13th June\nNMR came to see us to discuss how they can work with us, the Interherd and the farmer. It was interesting and competitively priced. So that is now another service we can offer to our farmers which can only help long term. I went to see another farmer to enter the Interherd; there is a lot of interest. We are trying to maintain a close contact with our farmers to enable us to meet their needs as things progress. In the near future there are going to be a lot of changes regarding the dispensing of drugs which could alter the way we work, this should be finalised by January 2003, but until then we are not sure just how they will affect us.\nFriday 14th, Saturday 15th and Sunday 16th June\n[husband] birthday so I have organised a surprise weekend away for him. We had a wonderful time and thankfully the weather was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th June\n\nMonday\nVery quiet almost like last year but thankfully not for the same reason, they are all busy silaging. Normality is returning. But they are still finding it difficult with new herds not really knowing their new cows yet or how they react. One farmer said it was like a new car, ‘you have to drive it a good few miles before you are at ease and the seat is comfy!!’ Well that’s one way of putting it.\nTuesday\nI went to see Mr J to discuss our new Interherd Program – a computer program that they can keep records of all their herds records and we can do analysis on them. It’s quite exciting and interesting and shows farming is heading to the computer age and the farmers are learning another new skill – not sure they are all comfy with. After I had shown Mr J the program and how to use it, he was keen but said that for now he would maybe go and cut down a few thistles!!!\nWeds/Thursday\nVery quiet – did some catching up on paperwork, then went for a walk and played outside in the garden.\nFriday\nQuery FMD in pigs. The effect it had was very strange, part was horror, worry and another strange one was of expecting it. Although you did get on with everything and it’s all sorting out and normality is returning it’s as if you are waiting for it to appear again. I went back to watching the news listening to the radio, waiting, fingers crossed. SAD DAY.\nSat/Sun\nQuiet weekend. [husband] was working. No results on the pigs yet. The bush telegraph is working again. We have had quite a number of worried farmers on the phone but no results as yet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th June\n\nMonday\nBreakthrough no FMD talk at all today. I suddenly realised in the evening. All is getting back to normal and everyone is coming to terms with the paperwork. Farming does what it always has recently fallen from one disaster to another but they are very proud of their trade but do now feel let down by both the government and the public who for whatever reason don’t seem to have the same respect for farmers as they used to but this just may be due to how we all are and work these days.\nTuesday\nPigs given the all clear – everyone breathes a sigh of relief – It has a very chilling effect but again shows we are still clear of the disease – for now!!\nWeds\nOver the last few days we have had 6 dairy herds with very strange mastitis. [husband] has been out to visit them with a vet from VLA Penrith but they as yet have not established a cause. Samples show nothing and usual treatments don’t work. So it is a case of new herds, new problems.\nThursday\nDAY OFF and FRIDAY\nSat/Sun\nHad my niece, we had a lovely time but very exhausting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 1st July\n\nMonday\nWe have invested the new Interherd computer programme. Mon-Thurs this week I have been out and about visiting farmers loading and explaining the new programme. Some of which I haven't been too far over a year, it's good to see them and chat FMD of course is always still at the top of the list followed by the milk price and all the regulations. It's so amazing and sorrowful to see how deep the emotions run. The stories and feelings they have are still very strong - but all are very emotional. They are very resilient but do still have these deep feelings - you wonder how the effects will come out, but it will take time.\nFriday\nI did a SOA for the first time in ages. I had to look back as to how to fill it in. They are going to review these shortly so watch this space. All the regulations are up for review in about November so we will see what they come up with.\nSunday\nWe have a vet student Alison for two weeks staying with us. She came to Northumberland during FMD so was interested to know what had happened and where everything was at. The more you go through it the easier it becomes. She had been involved in the culling and had found it very hard; she did it for 1 month and was glad to leave. \n\n\nWeek beginning 8th July\n\nMonday/Tuesday\nI went milk recording, the farm I go to did not get FMD and they were saying how hard it had been for them and to some extent they did have as hard a time as people with FMD, just in different ways they had to do the checking for longer. The farmer said he used to dread going into the sheds in a morning as he dreaded what he might find. Also washing the milk takers, not being able to visit friends and family. All the regulations re moving stock, just the not knowing they said it put quite a strain on them all. One of the ways they coped was they built a tennis court and played a lot of other games and as a family this brought them closer.\nWeds\nInterherd Day - We held a meeting today to invite all the farmers interested in using the programme, the people who wrote the programme came along to talk to the farmers. It was very good and the farmers seemed to enjoy themselves. They have all found they are needing this sort of programme as with the new herds, they are unsure of how their fertilities are.\nThurs/Fri\nVisited Mr W and Mr J re Interherd - got a proper cup of coffee and proper milk, that's what I missed about last year and one of the reasons I go to visit them.\nSat/Sun\nVery busy small animal operated and nursed all week-end. I was shattered - poor me!!\n\n\nWeek beginning 15th July\n\nMonday\nVisited [farmer] re Interherd programme, they are very positive about the future and have a son who is very keen. I can see a difference in their attitude over the past few months, when I first started going they were unsure they had done the right thing and had seriously debated getting any stock back, if they could cope with the changes and the regulations and paperwork, but as [he] said 'he just loves farming' not that he doesn't know anything else he just loves farming. And now they have progressed and working together within the family they have a good system and appear to be enjoying themselves. The farm has been in the family for generations so financially they can manage. I hope they make it, they are lovely people and a real inspiration.\nThe report on FMD and the recommendations is to be published soon, but from what we have heard so far it doesn't say anything we didn't already know and the recommendations are a little sketchy to say the least, they need a good sensible positive protocol for any future outbreak and at present if it all flared up again tomorrow, it would be the same mess. What have we learnt - hopefully time will tell.\nTuesday\n Sad news today, one of our clients who didn't get FMD has decided to give up. He is on a tenanted farm. The owners are not keen on any expansion or even repairing old buildings, to remain competitive, he sees he needs more cows but can't build any more sheds. So in his words he has decided that there is maybe 'more to life’, he is in his mid forties, so he is going to sell up and try something new. Very brave but sad. \nI think this will not be the first of our clients to do this. Everyone asks about the future and at the moment nothing and nobody is certain. Can the smaller farmers keep up? Will the bigger ones get bigger? What new regulations and paperwork will be brought in? Only time will tell.\nWeds\n[husband] has been away at the Br Cattle Vet Ass (BCVA) Committee meeting. He has been on the committee for about 18 months now. He enjoys it and it is another feather in his cap. Anyway he gave a talk on the problems post FMD and on the problems farmers were and had experienced. He also gave a talk on some of the mastitis cases that had appeared in new herds. We have had some very strange mastitis cases this year. Anyway there was a competition for the best talk and [husband] won. I was very proud of him. None of the other vets there had ever seen anything like it, but some had found more bad mastitis in cows this year so whether it’s the change of area weather or housing, we shall see.\nThursday\nI had a visiting day today - good fun. I went t see the farmers who have the Interherd so I had lots of coffee with 'proper milk' yummy. It's also interesting to hear all the different stories and feelings, hopes and worries. There are so many. Most are ready for the challenge ahead but unfortunately some aren't. Nobody knows how or when things will change but over the next couple of years they will, some good, some not so good.\nByee I'm off on my hols now. Yippee!!\n\n\n\nHOLIDAY Week beginning 22nd July\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 29th July\n\nTuesday\nBack to work, the staff have coped really well, no falling out, no problems. It's the first time in nearly two years we have left them so it was a bit worrying, but they are a great bunch, we are very lucky. I feel so relaxed and it was great fun seeing through all my paperwork - NOT. I had a bit of a lazy day but good.\nWeds\nPoor Mr G is having a terrible time with DEFRA. When we did his restocking TT test he had a reactor, so the cow was slaughtered but no lesions were found. The herd had to be tested again 60 days later and another reactor was found and slaughtered. Anyway he was due another test in 60 days and this was arranged for 9.00am. 9.00am came and went and at 10.00am he phoned to see what was happening. They had forgotten, they could come out at 1pm. No good, the last two times they had tested it had taken 6 hours to test the cows and they still needed milked which would mean a very late finish. Mr graves explained this and was told not to complain he had bought the cows into the country with TB and he would have to do it when they said. They know how to get people on their side don't they. Anyway a heated discussion had pursued and eventually sense was seen. The test was rearranged for another day at 9.00am so fingers crossed.\nThursday \nWe got money through today from the FMD recovery fund, it has been very useful and enabled us to do things we wouldn't normally be able to do. We had our vans sign written, we got a laptop computer which had been great for the interherd programme, we got pens and pads to give out, [husband] was able to hold meetings with our farmers pre stocking to advise them what to look for etc. So it has been extremely useful. It was nice to be given the money, some people say it would have been spent elsewhere but it helped us immensely and we feel we have spent it wisely. \nFri\nHad a paperwork catch up day today, it has been quiet recently due to holidays and harvesting but thankfully not like last year. We looked back again and today last year we had no calls and today we had four, so although quiet not that bad.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 5th August\n\nMonday\nVery quiet\nTuesday\nVery quiet\nWeds\nVery quiet\nThursday \n[daughter] got her first job\nFri\nTook [daughter] to my sisters for the week-end\nSat\nQuiet week-end\nSun\nGardening – Going on holiday again next week YIPPEE!!\n\nSorry it’s been very quiet this week as mentioned before this is usual as everyone is on holiday and the farmers are harvesting. I have caught up and have been enjoying a few days just poddling, going out with [daughter]. Shopping – food, it’s nice to have some catch up time.\nOn Thursday [daughter] got a job – her first proper job well nearly – at the Travel inn at the bottom of our road, she is so excited and already planning what she is going to spend her hard earned cash on.\nOn Friday I took [daughter] to my sisters in Lancashire for the week-end. I came back on Friday night and we decided to meet up at [husband]’s Mum and Dad’s caravan near Whitby on Monday for a week so another holiday. I don’t know you have one and then another, anyway it should be good fun. \n\n HOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 12thth August \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 19thth August \n\nMonday\nVisited Mr A today to load Interherd onto his computer. He has definitely decided to sell up – he is hoping by early next year. This has all been very sudden but his son is no longer interested and as Mr A said ‘who can blame him’. With all the new regulations and paperwork a lot are finding it hard.\nTuesday \nWe had an Environment Agency visit this morning to check how and where we dispose of our waste in practice. Thankfully we are doing everything properly but this visit took two and a half hours and lots of form filling in. It is they that check these things but the extent in questionable!!\nMr G called in the afternoon – he is having problems with his cows, they keep going off colour. We have so many new herds that started of doing well, happy and settling in fine then about 3-4 months after they arrived they start being ill, have mastitis, off colour, not eating, not milking properly – a wide variety. It’s very strange; the vets don’t really know what’s happening, we have a few on regular blood sampling trying to find any changes.\nWeds\nMe and [husband] went to the accountant to see just how bad financially we really had done last year – and oh what a surprise it was bad. In fact we nearly qualified for children’s Tax relief. The main thing is we survived in a fashion!! Hopefully it will be better next year!!\nThursday \nI visited two farmers today on the Interherd. They are finding it brilliant, they have both recently had Farm Assurance visits and Interherd had helped them enormously and helped them reach the standards. They both appreciate how much easier it is for them and less paperwork – heaven. It’s so good to find something to help them.\nFri\nI have been phoning our main Drug Company’s Reps inviting them to our Open Evening – all very keen. I think they just enjoy the crack.\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 26th August \n\nVery quiet this week on both large and small animal, it must be the last holiday rush before going back to school. We managed to do some catching up and decided a four day week would be nice!!\nI did quite a bit of playing on Interherd so that when I visited farmers about it I knew what they want to see and where to find it! Most of them are interested in the medicines book as this keeps excellent stock records from when the drug/product is born, where it has gone and batch numbers and expiry dates. These are all the information they need to produce when they get inspected and doing it manually can be very time consuming.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd September\n\nMonday 2nd September\nIRS 9.30, Garst Milk Rec\nTuesday\nGarst Milk Rec, Dog Course\nWeds\n[daughter] back to school, Exporting is back\nThursday\n Exporting\nFri\nChange date of open evening – GB way – now 15/10/02, Exporting\nSat\nOff [sister and niece].\nSun\nOff\nMonday\nEvery 2 years we are checked by our Radiographer Advisor to ensure everything is well and we are doing everything right. They check the X-ray machine, our records and our monitoring records – we passed. In the afternoon I went milk recording, it was very warm and very flyie, but good fun. They are thinking of getting a new parlour, twice as big as Mr G feels in the future milk will have to be produced by quantity not quality, but it is difficult and expensive decision to make for him – we shall see.\nTue\nEarly morning milk recording this morning but I got a lovely breakfast with proper milk. I got to check the large animal when I got back. We also started our new puppy-training course in the evening, that went very well, it is a more 1 to 1 basis, our Nurse runs it. I go along and help with moral support – it was good fun but I had a very long day and went to bed when I got back.\nWeds\n[daughter] went back to school today, I’ll miss her following me round helping out and her ‘Mum can you take me……’.\nWe may have some exporting of sheep on Friday, there is a pedigree Texel sheep sale at H & H Borderway. It is the first exporting we have done in about 20 months. As you can guess the paper work has tripled, there has been numerous phone calls to ad from DEFRA trying to make sense of it. But I must say people up here are not good at clarifying what they have written – now there’s a surprise!!\nThursday\n I have spent the whole day either reading new expert regulations or running backwards and forwards for new paperwork, what we have to complete and what they should bring. Well it could be fun.\nFriday\nWell full really isn’t the word I would use, we needed more paperwork, they needed more paperwork, it took most of the day and we only had 3 sheep to send. Draining. The one good thing was seeing everyone at the Auction, some new faces and some have gone.\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th September\n\nMonday\nT's 7th birthday. We have another vet student studying at the moment for 2 weeks. We have had five this year so far and another before Christmas but she won't stay in the house as she is from Carlisle. It is nice to have them and it makes us behave but I won't have as many next year. They have all been interested in the FMD and some had a chance to help out which was an eye opener for them. I spoke to [student] about it all, how it affected everyone, what happened and what didn't!! Now talking about - almost a year from the last case - I don't find it as hard and I think I can hide how emotional it was, but at the time I wasn't. I was more angry. I feel now FMD or the aftermath has sadly become everyday life, I don't rush for news on it or yearn information, I think because directly or indirectly we live with it everyday, it all has really become part of our lives. It is very difficult to put into words or explain.\nI also went to visit one of my Interherd farmers in Lancaster; they are very pleased with it and are coping well. Mrs M was crushed by the pet cow a month ago and was very lucky. She had two broken legs, cuts and bruises; needless to say the cow has gone to greener pastures. They are very resilient and are planning for the future and it is nice to be a part of their planning. I also get proper milky coffee!!! See so easy pleased.\nMilk recorded tonight at Mr G's so early morning tomorrow. I'm still trying to persuade them into Interherd so finger crossed.\nTuesday \nEarly morning milk recording failed on the Interherd due to a cow breaking a leg - I have never actually experienced it happening before. I generally hear farmers needing a slaughter cert. Or a cow put down to see it and the family's reaction - I was humbled I think is the word. It was an accident that can happen but the look on their faces was such deep sorrow - the father even places his head in his hands. At breakfast we all talked about it, she was only a heifer getting ready to be served for the let time, she was a difficult birth, they had all helped, well bred and she was jet black with a huge white spot on her side so no prizes for guessing the name. But as the farmer said you can't look after them, feed them, care for them, day in, day out without caring about them or why would you do it.\nIn the afternoon I attended a course on management. Employment law, customer service at Barnard Castle, it went on till 9 pm with dinner after so I decided to stay over - very spoilt. Good course, excellent food, lovely hotel.\nWednesday\nCame back from my course leisurely and stopped at Penrith for a bit of shopping - very pleasant. I'm not a good shopper but it was nice. I had to get back for 11 am as \nwe were having a new credit card machine fitted. He duly arrived - well what an obnoxious man, he was moaning because we had a switchboard, he had to dial 9, this was wrong, that was wrong and then was he not going to get offered a coffee, to which he was told 'not without the special word', he was a bit aghast and said please. I swear if I had not just come from a course explaining customer service, I would have murdered him!! God bless courses and of course credit card machine men!!!\nIn the afternoon I was visited by the RSPCA advertising company, did we want an advert in their leaflet? Anyway it was £640 for quarter of a page for 2 years so I said we couldn't afford it, it suddenly dropped to £410, I was a little suspect so I got [receptionist] to quietly check if the company were connected to the RSPCA. Anyway while I was waiting I said it was still a little bit more than we could afford what with FMD - see it is useful and true - he then said he could do it for £210, by which time [she] had confirmed they were with the RSPCA, so I said yes thank you - Bargain or Rip Off!!\nThursday\nI tried to get my head round isolation units and tried to explain to a farmer about them. I think we got there eventually. When [husband] got back I got him to explain in simple English and it all made a lot more sense. They will be handy for people selling and buying stock, but have as always the guidelines must have been written by someone who has never seen a farm or fields!!\nFriday\nCaught up on paperwork and trolleyed about. Busy doing not a lot - I think the term is. Anyway it was good.\n\n\nWeek beginning 16th September\n\nThis week has been appraisal week for the staff. We didn't do any last year so I thought we had better get back into the swing of things.\nI quite enjoy the appraisals - it's a great opportunity to have a real good sort out, get new ideas and try and recognise any potential problems.\nWe started doing appraisals at bout 4 years ago and to start off with everyone was petrified and worried, but it was nice to see them actually excited and enjoyed it.\nIt is quite time consuming but very worthwhile so not much out and about this week\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd September\n\nMonday\nAnother suspect case. The main difference about this was as with other ones, I felt cold, sick, scared, this one was better. I felt it was not going to be positive, whether it's a case of there have been a few now - not positive and this is just another one or confident that it no way could be positive. I definitely wasn't as worried. I don't know if that is being blasé (can't spell) - sorry. But definitely different.\nTuesday\nJust nicely busy today, just enough to keep everyone busy. [husband] and (other vet) are away this week so that just leaves [new vet] and [other vet]. So it was a little worrying if it got busy. It was the last of our dog training courses tonight; they all passed their tests well, and were very pleased with the progress they had made. It was the first 4 week course we had run and feedback was very positive. Our head nurse had put in an awful lot of work fir it so I was very pleased for her as well. The next one is planned for November.\nWeds\nExperts are going to start again at H&H tomorrow and Friday. It will be the first ones we have done for about 18 months. Surprisingly the paperwork for our side has not changed much but the Irish paperwork is horrendous. Anyway after several phone calls to DERFA and DARD and various farmers who are wishing to sell at the sale I think we have it sorted. We will see tomorrow.\nThursday and Friday\nI've put these into one as that is how it felt. After being so confident that we had everything in place to be able to export the sheep first thing Thursday morning DARD (like Irish DEFRA) changed the regulations and paperwork - such joy. As you can imagine this sent everyone in a state of frenzy and another buzby full of phone calls. We didn't have the paperwork sorted when people had bought sheep and were wanting to leave, now some tempers are reaching fever pitch. Well we did manage to export them away on Thursday night - 3 hours late so they had to book different ferries. All done and dusted by Friday. We were busy congratulating ourselves on achieving the impossible and how we all had worked hard to accomplish it and now had several more names on our Christmas card list - yes you guessed we had a phone call from well let me say one not happy chappy. After having no sleep, catching a late ferry waiting for the paperwork to arrive at Larne port, all the sheep were impounded. DARD had added one more form to their list of requirements and had forgotten to send them through or mention them - hours of phone calls and faxing. Later I am very pleased to say that the sheep were released and free to go.\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\n\nMonday 7th October\nI made some trial arrangements for our Open Evening next Tuesday, all’s ready now. They are a good night out and we all enjoy it. We haven’t had one for a few years so it should be good.\nTuesday\nFor a while now we’ve been wondering if the Practice should invest in a house for an Assistant. We have had a response to the advert for our new vet, so we thought we would go house hunting – anyway it wasn’t as much fun as I first thought, to start with obviously they are quite a price and it really isn’t that easy so we looked at one cardboard box for £70,000 and apparently it went for 82K – frightening. Well we can keep on looking. We have a vet coming for an interview on Saturday so fingers crossed.\nI’m off tomorrow and away at BVNA Congress over the weekend so I’m looking forward to that.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\n\nMonday 14th October\nWe had a really good time at the BVNA (British Veterinary Nurse Assistant) Congress, we did loads of lectures a learned a few new things, got loads of freebies from the trade stands and ordered a new vaporiser for the anaesthetic machine which uses less Isoflo/Oxygen. We also had a good Halloween Ball!! Stayed up too late. We got back on Sunday evening after 3 days of Congress and I was just settling down and filling in [husband] and [daughter] on what we had done when [another vet] came in wanting a hand with a caesarean on a dog, ah well nothing like getting back into it!!\nToday anyway feeling very tired we had to start getting ready for Open evening tomorrow night for the farmers. So there was a lot of sorting out and tidying up to do as we open the house up as well. We haven’t had one for a couple of years so it was quite exciting. I really enjoy them, it’s great to have the farmers round, it’s mainly a nosh and natter night, but this year some of the drug companies paid for it, they have their stands in various parts of the house and surgery and normally everyone has a good time.\nTuesday\nOpen Evening Day – very busy. Tidying up and moving things around. Everyone helped, it’s good the staff are so excited about it as well, they have all mucked in and as usual did us proud. The evening itself was brilliant it was so nice to see them all enjoying themselves and there is nothing farmers like better than a good natter, food and beer. Quite a few said they had missed the Open Evening last year due to FMD. As far as PR goes, definitely worth it.\nWednesday\nJust clearing up and sorting out. All the staff said they had had good feedback. So well done to everyone.\nThursday\nBack to it now, Got new Interherd update so I spent quite a lot of the day seeing what new buttons it had, it’s very clever. Interherd is sold by NMR now and they are helping us sell it to the farmers whose life and paperwork hope to make easier. The man in charge at NMR is coming to see us next week to explain how the milk recording side all ties in between NMR and Interherd.\nFriday\nToday was one of those when you rush round all day but you feel unsure of what you have actually done. Very busy on both large and small side. It’s very tiring but I do prefer it when we’re busy.\n\nWeek Beginning 21st October\n\nMonday 21st October\nMonday to Wednesday – off\nThursday\nHad a meeting with ID from NMR re Interherd. They are going to give us cheap milk recording prices to help promote NMR and Interherd, they have also released a version of Interherd for farmers and we were given the first one in the country to trial and see what they thought. It was very encouraging as NMR in the past years have gained themselves a slightly unpopular feel especially in Cumbria but they now seem to see this and are trying very hard and are committed to improving it. They did a survey and now with area, herd size etc. the majority of dairy herds are in Cumbria even post FMD. So fingers crossed.\nFriday\nA good day today. [husband] was away at a BCVA Council meeting (Br. Cattle Vets Ass) and normally it goes mad, don’t know why. Anyway it didn’t today, everyone was busy but not madly. The large animal side is very up and down at present, but it is now TT and Blood testing season. There are quite a lot of restocked herds to do as they are having to be done every year as opposed to 4 yearly. We also have to test everything. It is very time consuming and if they have a TT test then it is a two day job. So for both the farmer and us, it is two days of the week when you can’t do anything else.\n\n\nWeek Beginning 28th October\n\nMonday 28th October\nWe have been asked by Newton Rigg College if we would be interested in teaching the animal care courses at the college so me and Vicky went along. It was quite interesting and we thought if we could do it together it would work, so we said we would think about it and let them know.\nWent milk recording in the afternoon. I do enjoy playing and the crack.\nTuesday\nMilk recorded again and discussed Interherd with them so we are going to use them as the pilot for the NMR/Interherd job, so that will be interesting. Regarding the Newton Rigg offer we won’t be able to do it as our part time Nurse is leaving us. She has been offered a place at Dalston Vets. She will be able to train as a Vet Nurse there as we don’t do that in our Practice, so that will leave us short staffed. It is sad but everything happens for a reason so we are now Vet and nurse hunting so more advertising and interviewing.\nWeds\nWe are sponsoring a class at the Northern Expo Holstein/Friesian shows. We have a stand and a good natter. I took some photos of a few cows and some freebies. It was a good night, Barbara came with me and she presented the prize for our class. The standard of cattle was amazing and it was a really good show.\nThursday\nOut of the photos I took for the Northern Expo I decided to make a photo album. So I went round a few other farms photographing, it was good fun and nice to see that we do have some very good stock\nFriday\nGot a phone call today from my sister, she has sold her house in Lancaster and is moving up near us so that’s very exciting. Otherwise a quiet day today. \n\n\nWeek beginning 4th November\n\nMonday 4th November\nI went to show Mr J the new Interherd farmers version. He was very interested and thought it would save a lot of paperwork and time, they all say that the paperwork since FMD has increased immensely along with the regulations.\nTuesday\nWe have decided to have a TV in the waiting room, to advertise products, services staff etc. The man from Channel 6 came and took information so it should arrive next week, so it will be interesting to see how it works.\nWeds\nWe went to the bank today to see the financial advisor as this is a free service and very useful. We have decided to buy a house for my sister to live in when she moves up and it will be an investment as well. A bit of security just in case, as last year we discovered just how quick things can change, we went for just over 3 months with not a lot of money coming in and still wages to pay. So we are now house hunting. \n\n\nWeek beginning 11th November\n\nMonday 11th November\nOne of our vets has recently started her DBR (Dip in Bovine Reproduction) course at Liverpool. As part of her studies she is looking at the cows' milk quality pre and post calving to see if any effects are relevant to their overall performance and milk production and health.\nSo we collect milk samples from certain cows twice a week over the period of lactation and she is going to test them so watch this space - we have been very lucky with [another vet], her enthusiasm is boundless and she has become a very important member of our team.\nI have persuaded Mr J of B farm to milk record with us so that's more early morning jaunts! The Interherd and NMR trial is nearly ready so hopefully by middle of December everything should be set up and running - hopefully!\nTuesday\n[two farmers] are milk reading today so I had a nice little trolly about. I treated myself to some of Mr R's ice cream, very nice, well you have to support them, their new shop on the farm is doing very well.\nI loaded my first farmer version Interherd onto Mr W's computer, he is very impressed and very keen and thankfully it all worked well.\nWednesday\nWe have 'computer bugs' not good. So I have spent most of the day on the phone talking to the debugging man.\nThursday\nStill got bugs, we've had to run a bug fixer disc through all seven computers, it takes ages, pee'd off, fed up going back to pen and paper.\nFriday\nI must have sounded fed up as the lovely little man came to fix all the computers, he had to use 3 different discs due to all the different bugs.\nHad a meeting to discuss the NMR milk recording and we have quite a lot of farmers' interested mainly because we have got a good price for NMR so fingers crossed.\nThe bugs are fixed - yipeee.\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November\n\nMonday 18th November\nDue to our junior Nurse leaving, I have been interviewing all week, we have had a lot of enquiries. I decided to invite any possibles to come and play for the morning to see what they thought and how they got on with the staff.\nThere is one that has potential and sounds very nice but she can't make it until next Monday.\nThere was one that wrote a really good letter, but when she came in, well she was sweet, but not really suitable.\nOn Friday [nurse] left, we had a little party. I hope she copes okay. She bought me a lovely cow ornament to say 'thank you', it was lovely.\n\n\nWeek beginning 25th November\n\nMonday 25th November\nEllen came for her interview, very good. She is keen, had experience, happy with the hours so she is coming back tomorrow afternoon for a play.\nWe all went out for our vet who is leaving on Friday to be a chalet maid in a French ski resort till April, it will be very sad to see her leave. Unfortunately still no joy on the new vet front, but we are going to leave it till the New Year and try then. [other vet] is going to cover but unfortunately it means [husband]'s on duty more, it's a bit reminiscent of FMD, but we'll manage.\nTuesday/Wednesday\nFeeling very sorry for myself, got a bad cold, I got sent to my room because everyone was fed up of me sneezing all over them, honestly I was only 'shanning'.\nThursday\nMuch better today. I sorted a whole load of Interherd data out and had a good play with it.\nHeard about Nestle's cancelling contracts next year from one of our farmers. He felt a little unsure quite how it would affect them and that they were being dealt another kick in the teeth. It's quite amazing how many I have heard questioning why they went back into farming. We are feeling the effects, we didn't seem to be called out as often or they don't want the cows treated as its extra expense. At the end of FMD they said over the next couple of years there would be changes in the way farmers and how many farmers worked. It's frightening to see it actually starting to happen and seeing the effects on our business. Everyone agrees the whole industry has changed for the worst and is not the same and there is no pleasure now.\nAfter all that a total contrast, me and [daughter] went Christmas shopping and had a lovely time, we met [husband] after surgery and went for a pizza - lovely night.\nFriday\nEveryone's talking about Nestle's now and quite a few are angry. Some aren't surprised and others just seem to resign themselves to it.\nWe had a lunch party for [leaving vet] today, it was good. We gave her pressies. Although she has only been here a few months she will be greatly missed by everyone, you never know, she may come back one day.\nGood news I offered Ellen the nurse's job and she's accepted, I think she will do very well.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd December\n\nMonday 2nd December\nSpent all morning trolling around the countryside collecting [another vet]'s milk samples for her DBR, it was a lovely morning. Chatted to a few farmers. A lot were still talking about Nestles.\nTuesday\nHad a meeting to clarify the start of the NMR milk recording, gave her all the information she needed to set up the herds. It's great to be able to offer the farmers a good cheaper deal.\nStaff Xmas party. It was good; everyone seemed to have a good time.\nWednesday\nDay off shopping - what joy.\nThursday\nHad an Interherd disaster today. I couldn't get it load what normally takes 15 minutes instead took 2 and a half hours. Anyway we succeeded eventually. They have just bought some in calf heifers so he was keen to keep up to date records and information. We only have one more farmer to restock now and then that's everyone, it will probably work out at about 15% drop in work etc. While waiting for Interherd to load, they were telling me that they had been approached asking them if they wanted to appeal against the amount of money they had received for the cattle, they said they wouldn't as they felt they had already been overpaid, not all farmers are money grabbers apparently.\nFriday\n[daughter] starts her mock exams now for the next fortnight. I have been waiting for the moods to start but as yet all is quiet, long may it last. She is very calm about it and has actually been revising quite hard, she has the ability. All she has to do is concentrate.\nWork wise I've done not a lot, it's one of the perks!!! I've wandered around just playing doing nice jobs, quite a change. \n\n\nWeek beginning 9th December\n\nMonday 9th December\n[daughter]’s 16th birthday, scary, even worse she can learn to drive next year, never mind enjoy the safety! We went out for lunch and did some shopping – it was good. I don’t normally like shopping but we both enjoyed it.\nCame back to mayhem – a client (small animal) had been in complaining about his bill and had caused a stink – anyway I phoned him and once we had gone through everything he seemed happy. Hopefully he had either misunderstood or hadn’t had things explained to him – although difficult it is, better people say something rather than stewing over it and making it into something it’s not. The small animal does seem to have more problems that way than the large animal. I suppose the large animal is also a business but it doesn’t stop them caring. I don’t think they could do what they do and work the hours they work if they didn’t care – sometimes they get a hard press, but I think it’s the few that get the publicity unfortunately. I like it when farmers phone to say they have a sick cow and we ask what it’s doing and quite often the reply is she’s just not herself – need you say anymore.\nTuesday \nI’m going out to play milk recording with a new person via Interherd, he is one of our clients. He is quite a character, old fashioned and yet in his thirties. It was good he is very passionate about farming and its survival. He has a lot of ideas he wants to try with different cows, he has just bought some Jerseys – hence he wants to record to see if there are benefits. We milked 60 cows in 2 hours. At my other farm we milk 190 in that time – it’s good to see both ways.\nWeds\nEarly morning milk recording – good fun a lot more relaxed than my other farm. Went to hairdressers straight after smelling of cows with pooh!! In my hair. It’s a good job I know her well and she didn’t complain too much!! The rest of the day was quite pleasant, a bit of paperwork and a skive (sorry can’t spell) to the lab.\nThursday/Friday\nWow, I think we had our Christmas rush, they should all be shopping it has been very busy. I do prefer it although a sit down now and then would be good. Me and (Nurse) had a good time on Friday afternoon. I helped her bath and groom a dog; it was so naughty – nicely. We were both sweating buckets and soaked to the skin by the end, but we had a good laugh.\n\nWeek beginning 16th December\n\nMonday 16th December\nWith [daughter]’s mock exams she has needed runs to and from school at various times so ‘Mum’s taxi’ has been on overtime. She has been very calm about it – so we shall see.\nThursday was eventful as I now have an expectant Nurse and Vet – watch where you sit. Unfortunately there is a worry for both of them. Our nurse/Evening receptionist is worried she may be losing hers and has had several tests and is obviously worried. She is going in for a scan on Tuesday so fingers crossed (Vet) is also pregnant – they have been trying for a while but has something with a long name wrong with her which causes her to miscarriage so she is pleased/worried/excited/scared and only 4 weeks so no lambing for her. She is quite happy continuing with all other work for now. I hope everything is ok with them both. It can be difficult working with animals and being pregnant but as long as they are careful, they should be ok.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd December\n\nMonday 23rd December\nSo much for getting quiet for Christmas, we have had our busiest time for a few years which is good. We are going to try advertising in the New year for a new Vet especially now [another vet] is expecting, it will all depend how she does, we may even need two. As even when [another vet] is on duty now, [husband] has to be on standby in case of any lambings, we have a couple of farmers starting anytime. \nMilk recording tonight as well but we now do it with NMR (well not literally) so I only need record once so not too bad and worked in will with Xmas round the corner and no mince pies made yet.\nTuesday\n[nurse] phoned, they are being positive at the moment, her hormone levels have increased and she has not bled anymore, it doesn’t stop them worrying though.\nSurgery was busy but we did finish by 1.30pm. My sister and [niece] arrived all set – off we go.\nChristmas was ace – very relaxing. Good fun, loads of pressies, didn’t have time to eat, too busy playing and it was so warm.\nFriday\nBack to work – a very busy day – lots of calls and surgery appointments, even some operations. (Receptionist) was off so I was in charge, I enjoyed it, finding out what everyone got for Christmas.\n\n\nWeek beginning 30th December\n\nMonday 30th December\nBusy day, only me and [receptionist] in, thought it would be quiet – wrong. Never mind, we coped.\nTuesday\n[nurse] has lost her baby or is losing it, they can’t see anything on the scan just an empty sac so she is going for a – don’t know what they call it but you can take some tablets that clear everything away. She is obviously so upset, what do you say. She’s going to drop her other two off while she goes in – it is so sad.\nThursday 2nd January\nEverybody’s back again full crew, no-one knowing what day it is. I could get used to the split weeks but at the moment I need it stuck to my head. Quite busy as well which is good. Trying to arrange TT test but farmers are never keen on them, you have to threaten them with Defra coming to do it – that works!!!\nFriday\nWent blood sampling sheep for scrapie with [husband] all day. It was a beautiful day, very cold but we had fun, only we were stood next to a stream – women torture – cold air and running water, I had to nip back to the van for various things!! By the time we finished I was frozen.\nThe test was part of the National Scrapie Plan which is to sample sheep for scrapie so if or when they find BSE in sheep, these ones will, or should be okay as there is a plan to slaughter the national herd if BSE is found, but as the farmer said they have already had human G. pigs for years as the Indians eat sheep brains and before the removal of bone meal and very dubious scabby sheep and they have not had a problem. So we will wait and see.\n\n\nWeek beginning 6th January 2003\n\nMon 6th January 2003\nOur new nurse started today. She managed very well and didn’t seem too confused when she went home. She has worked in kennels before, she is very keen – fingers crossed.\n[another vet] is doing her DBR and for part of this she has to do a study, she has decided to look at progesterone and other levels in cows post calving for 6 weeks to see what happens. So we collect a sample from each new calved cow and split it into 3 smaller pots and freeze awaiting testing in Holland. Very exciting but quite boring, the results should be interesting though – hopefully.\nTuesday\nYou forget all the explaining you have to do when somebody new starts, so me and [nurse] have written a step by step guide to C, well sort of. It’s all the little things. We haven’t had a new nurse for a while, so hopefully the book can be used for other new people. It took a bit of doing but we were pleased with it in the end.\nI spoke to Mr G re having Interherd at the farm. All I have to do now is get round to see him – he is very hard to pin down, but we’ll try.\nWeds\n[new nurse] liked her new book. She is doing very well and it’s nice for us too. I always find it quite refreshing when someone is genuinely enthusiastic. With us all being close and having their own areas it’s good to show someone else but can be scary when you see just how much they all do.\nThursday\nMilk pot day again today, the good thing is going to pick up the samples as you get a natter. So Monday and Thursday, the samples are collected, split and frozen – it’s quite time consuming and I’ve just realised I didn’t ask [another vet] how long she was doing it for!!\nFriday\nWe have decided to try and get the Accounts up to date to see how things are going – bar not being able to find a vet. So it’s one of those jobs you always mean to keep on top of but never quite manage because it’s not much fun. Interruptions, queries and assistance were very welcome, but I got a good start.\n\n\nWeek beginning 13th January\n\nMonday 13th Jan\nA has started working with us again, just two days a week. This will help a lot and help take the pressure off for surgery times etc. I got to spend the day helping with TT testing – it was good fun and it stayed fine. It was a good day.\nTuesday\nI had a milk recording day today – 3 in total. We have started using NMR now so it was all new paperwork etc. This is going to be cheaper for the farmers and works with the Interherd programme. Anyway it all went well and everybody’s samples got away.\nWeds\nMilk recorded again at one of the three farms first thing. Everytime I go he has a new plan as to how to make some money. This month it is he is going to produce a new breed of cow – a jersey X MRI so we will see how that goes.\nThursday and Friday\nJust catching up on paperwork, me and [nurse] did some training with the new nurse. She is settling in really well and very keen.\n\n\nWeek beginning 20th January\n\nMonday 20th January – Weds\nDecorated our bedroom. It looks brill, it was in desperate need of it. I like decorating, it’s good and messy. \nThursday\nI went on my Brucellosis testing training course at the VLC. It was good fun. This means that after I have now tested 150 cattle I get a licence which will enable me to blood test – this in turn will hopefully free up a vet. It will also give DEFRA a bank of blood tester for any future outbreak – crafty. They used to charge about £800 for this course, miraculously it’s now free – clever.\nFriday\nWe have had a reply to our advert – hoorah! Well actually two, they are both foreign, one is in Germany and the other S. Africa, so we are waiting for their CVs – fingers crossed.\nDEFRA have now changed the 20 day standstill to 6 days – the general opinion seemed to be – so – it would be interesting to actually find out if and how well all the regulations are actually working, not well I feel would be the answer.\n\n\nWeek beginning 27th January\n\nMon – Weds\nVery busy. I seem to have spent a lot of it in my car, dropping off, tooing and froing, which was nice but I do lose touch with the happenings at the surgery and on Tuesday, things had obviously got fraught, so I sorted those out and smoothed the creases, we are very lucky to have such dedicated staff. Due to vet shortage and [another vet]’s pregnancy it does add extra pressure to everyone. None of the incidents were very serious and easily sorted.\nThursday\nI went with my sister to take [niece] to the hospital as since she was born, she has had a lump on the side of her head above her eye so they Xrayed it. That was fun persuading her to lie still. I stayed overnight and came back Friday.\n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd February\n\nMonday 3rd Feb\nI did my first blood sample on a live cow today as it was an abortion enquiry and due to [another vet]’s pregnancy she is not doing them ad I need the practice. It was good fun and I hit the 2nd time so I was very pleased. Only another 145 to go before I get my licence.\nTuesday\nI completed the accounts today to go to the accountants, it was great fun. I hope they come up with good news but the future is worrying – a backlash from the farmers not being confident.\nWeds\nI can’t remember if I told you [vet] was expecting. Anyway she went for her first scan today and so far so good. It is very worrying as she has a problem where she produces duff eggs and miscarriages. She wants to carry on as normal as possible for now, but no sheep or abortions etc. I hop it works this time as this is her 4th attempt.\nThursday and Friday\nVery nice, everything worked well, no mad rushes, time to catch up. We discussed reducing some of the farm drugs as they are able to buy the over the internet with a prescription. All the laws and rules will more than likely be changing at the beginning of March due to a report done for the Govt regarding drugs and animal use. It will make a difference to how we operate as if they remove the vet surgeon’s right\nto prescribe drugs i.e. vets can only write prescriptions and not dispense drugs – it could alter things completely. One way or another if farmers require the service, they are going to have to pay for it, up to now it has always been that a reasonable mark up is put on the drugs (this is normally 50%) and this will keep professional fees down. If vets are not getting the money made on drugs and therefore has to put his fees up, although the farmer may be buying his drugs cheaper via the internet, will he actually save that much – I wonder.\nSo anyway we have been getting more and more pressure from a number of our farmers to compete with the internet prices. So we have selected a few products and it they pay at the time they can get about 20% off the price. So watch this space and we will see what happens.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th February\n\nMonday 10th Feb\nThe week\nTo sum up a blur, with both sad and very funny memories. To start, [receptionist] was on holiday and it always seems to happen as soon as someone is off, we get very, very busy. When everyone is in it ticks along nicely mostly/ I do enjoy it when it’s busy but we worked 3, 13 hour days – not food but everyone worked really hard, they are excellent staff.\nOn a sad note [vet] went for her 11 week scan on Tuesday and the baby had died, she was distraught. She has a condition that causes this and this was her 4th miscarriage. It’s so sad, I called to see her and she just hugged me and cried, what do you say. She had to have some tablets to clear away the placenta etc. She was gutted as this is the longest she had ever been pregnant and she thought she’s cracked it. It’s just so sad.\nMy funny tale for the week on a completely different note, but helped immensely, was (other vet) on Thursday. We were all very, very busy and a farmer called in, I was very behind, they still had ops to do and this farmer settled herself down for a big chat – normally if I say I have a lot on she departs, but no not today it was obviously my turn. (vet) came over from the op room and I know it was naughty but I wrote on a card ‘Can I have some help’ – i.e. to free myself. Well instead of reading the note quietly – oh no – she read it out at the top of her voice and added, “what do you need help for?” After I had crawled out of the hole that had opened up in the earth to swallow me I pointed to the message book to try and hide my predicament while she said again loudly, “so what do you want help for?”. Well I gave up and decided to just fall into the hole, got rid of [vet] back to the op room and continued alone with my predicament. After the farmer had gone who thankfully seemed oblivious to what had happened, I went in search of [vet] to kill her. Anyway it cheered us all up they do say laughter is the best medicine but I can think of better ways. \n\n\nWeek beginning 17th February\n\nMonday 17th Feb\n[vet who lost baby] came back to work, she is very upset and weepy, everyone has been lovely with her. Hopefully it is just time and TLC. We are very busy again and have had an enquiry from a farmer who is thinking of changing vets, which is really good news, that is three new farmers in total now if only we had enough vets. Four practices around Carlisle have advertised recently and none of the positions have been filled – it’s quite worrying.\nTuesday\nI took [vet who lost baby] home again today, she is not well and in a lot of pain, so she’s gone back to bed. I hope she’s feeling better soon. Usual day otherwise.\nWeds\n[vet] is a lot better today apparently they think it may be the cocodamol she was taking. She was a lot happier, a little drained, but ok.\nMr W came in today; his cows are arriving on Friday hopefully. This will be our last farm to restock; he has had a lot of alterations done to the farm and a new parlour, so it’s quite exciting.\nThursday\nWe did some sheep exports for slaughter from Longtown today, the first of that sort of thing since FMD. It was of course a bit of a faf as they now have to be retagged and checked so it takes a little longer. In the afternoon I had a meeting with SR from University of reading. She is planning to do research regarding the Interherd programme and she had picked 3 Vet Practices to see how the programme helps the vets and the farmers work better together and the improvements it makes to the farmers’ record keeping. So she is going to meet 3 of our farmers who use Interherd and interview them and give them free training so that should please them.\nFri\nDay off, me and [daughter] went to Newcastle shopping – I’m not a good shopper but I did behave and we had a good day. Mr W’s cows arrived all fit and healthy so that is us complete now – ass we were if not better.\nSad news though, we heard one of our farmers dropped down dead suddenly. It was very sad, as we had seen him in the morning and he was his normal self so it was quite a shock. His family must be devastated, mind, if there’s a good way to go that’s it.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th February\n\nMonday 24th Feb\n[another vet] a lot better today almost back to her normal cheery self, she is a lot more positive. We took the bull by the horns so to speak and reduced the prices of some drugs. We will have to wait until the 10th March before we find out what the government is going to do regarding the selling of drugs, but the farmers are very pleased.\nTuesday\nI got another phone call from Mr C and he said he would like to change vets to us, so good news. [husband] spoke to his old vet and explained why etc. It is very difficult and I think that in the future there may be more changing of vets, where as in the past, it never happened, but even farmers appreciate competition now, it again is worrying.\nMilk recorded at Mr G tonight, it’s always good crack as they say.\nWeds\nMilk recorded early morning and then showed them the Interherd programme. They are going to try it I think.\nIn the afternoon I went with [other vet] to vet a horse for purchase, it can be tricky sometimes and two pairs of eyes are better than one. As it turned out the horse was lame so we couldn’t vet it so we will have to go back another day.\nThursday\nNormal day. Did some more sheep exports in the afternoon, they have a very efficient system at Longtown so it makes it a lot easier.\nFri\nI went to [farmer]’s funeral this morning, it was very sad. I don’t like funerals, well I don’t suppose anyone does but it stayed fine and he had a good send off.\nIn the afternoon I got an opportunity to do some more blood sampling just 15 so it was good. It’s getting used to handling everything and forgetting you’re at the end that shits and kicks. No broken limbs and I got blood. \n\n\nWeek beginning 3rd March\n\nMon 3rd March\nI went to help a TT Test in the morning – just taking numbers. We now have 4 farms on restrictions due to TB reactors but up to now on the cows taken for further tests, no lesions have been fund. We now get to do the repeat 60 day test on the farms now as DEFRA can’t keep up – sounds familiar!!\nWe saw the accountant in the afternoon. We had sent 9 months of accounts to him as we need to see how the practice was now doing. Anyway it was not as bad as we thought but the income is down but is slowly growing. The main problem is farmers won’t call out for sick cows now, they will leave it longer or try to treat them themselves, mainly due to them watching their spending.\nMr W had a problem with his Interherd, he needed to run his extensification figures and they didn’t add up. So I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out why. I think I know why it was how he set it up initially so it may need his entry dates changed.\nTues\nWent TT Testing again this morning – it was a lovely morning. I spent the rest of the day sorting Mr W’s problem out and it worked, he was chuffed. The good is, I think, I now understand extensifications.\nWeds\nCaught up on some paperwork in the morning. I helped [new nurse] with a dog grooming in the afternoon which was fun. She is doing really well and seems to be enjoying it. We both ended up soaked thanks to the dog but it looked loads better when it went home.\nGood news – we get a new vet from South Africa starting 1.4.03. He worked over here during FMD and met someone and their relationship has lasted hence he wants a job in Carlisle. So bingo here comes a holiday.\nThursday/Friday\nVery busy in the Practice – everyone kept going. We have a great team and they really come into their own when it’s busy. I love the way everyone pulls together. They are very dedicated.\n\n\nWeek beginning 10th March\n\nMonday\nQuiet day for a Monday but the weather has been nice so they are all out playing. But we had quite a few lambings to do. That’s one thing that has changed since FMD. Prior to FMD we hardly used to do any lambings for farmers but since, we now do far more. Last year we put it down to them having new stock but it seems to be the same this year.\nTuesday\nToday is milk recording day. I have 3 recordings today. They all need boxes and paperwork. I don’t have to help at any of the milkings though which is good as they are quite a way from each other. But a nice day for a drive.\nWeds/Thurs/Fri\nThe end of our weeks seem to be busier than the beginnings at the moment. It has been non stop. One disadvantage when it is so busy is you don’t have the time to chat as often. I took some drugs to a farm, our last one to restock as he was having alterations done. It was amazing to see the transformations he had made to the farm – all geared to one person being able to do more alone with more cows – interesting.\n\n\nWeek beginning 17th March\n\nMon/Tuesday\nI went with [another vet] to Mr C’s for his TT and blood test. [another vet] did the TT and I did the blood as part of my lay Blood Tester’s Licence. I needed to do 150 which I managed. It was good fun and the weather was great. We had to spread it over 2 days due to the amount of cattle. It was really good practice for me and I think I’ve cracked it now. There are talks about giving TT testing to Lay people but quite how and when is anyone’s guess.\nWeds\nMore blood testing today. I’ve really cracked it now, only I’ve discovered muscles in my arms I didn’t know I had!! I enjoy the blood testing. Sad isn’t it.\nThursday\nI had a morning with Alco waste management, sorting out all the clinical waste regulations and they need more detail of what actually goes in our waste. We always provided a free service to farmers for disposing of sharps and old drug and empty drugs etc. but we are going to have to start charging now. It is now £100 dearer a month than it was.\nFri\nMe and [husband] spent the morning looking at fees, income etc. and seeing where we can increase fees to help cover if we lose the right to dispense drugs to farmers – which we still haven’t heard about – to continue as we are we will have to make the difference up – it’s just how.\n\n\nWeek beginning 24th March \n\nMonday\nDoing the paperwork for a TT Test it was a beautiful day. I do enjoy doing this especially when the weather’s good and they are very nice farmers. I also get to spend the day with [husband] which makes a change – although we work together we don’t often get to see much of each other.\nTuesday\nBusy day – spent most of it making sure everything got done and helping out.\nWeds\nI went to the careers convention at the Sands Centre, it was very busy and we had a lot of interest but a long day.\nBefore going someone phoned to say there was a collie dog running around on the roundabout. So me and [new nurse] went to see if we could catch it, well it didn’t want caught but I was really worried it got onto the motorway. So we phoned the police and the dog warden who incidentally couldn’t come until 9am as he didn’t start ‘til then, so I had to politely!!! Explain that he would have to be. The police dog handler wasn’t much help but at least he stopped the traffic – bless him. The dog warden did appear 5 minutes later and it was only 8.30 am. So we managed to get the dog off the roundabout and catch it. Everyone safe thankfully.\nThurs/Fri\nBusy days –new vet [from South Africa] phoned so he’s coming to see us on Monday to pick up his vehicle and meet everyone he sounds pleasant so we will see. My joke at the moment when people ask where we found him is that we got him off the internet!! It is a little worrying not having met him first but it should work. Watch this space.\n\nWeek beginning 31st March \n\nMonday\nWe have had L staying for two weeks. She’s a vet student from London and stayed with us about this tine last year. It was interesting to go over the changes from a year ago. Last time she was here people were restocking and there was an element of wariness.\nSo it was interesting to fill her in on how things are now. One thing she mentioned was noticing the stock in the fields was nice as there were only a few still last year. Talking over things is still hard sometimes although it seems a long time ago the feelings and emotions are still deep. Certain parts can still hit a raw nerve. There seems to be a mere anger at the moment generally. People and farmers are wanting to know why they still have restrictions, what is going to happen about shows and sales etc and will normality ever return. Unfortunately I think not, not in the way they want it to.\nTuesday\nOur new vet started today. We got on very well, it has taken us so long to find a vet and if the work and testing carries on increasing we are going to need another one.\nWednesday\nVery busy day – [husband]’s gone to talk at a BCVA conference and AGM. So poor [new vet] has been thrown in at the deep end. It has been very busy but he seems to be coping well. The clients were very impressed so far, so long may it last. It is good to have new staff with new ideas, I quite enjoy it. And he is definitely a BIG hit with the female clients – it really does make you embarrassed to be female, when they go into the consulting room you count to 4 and then comes the girlie giggle – quite funny!\nThursday\nSad day today – my sister had been confirmed as having cervical cancer. No more on that for now.\nFriday\nHad another Interherd sale today. One thing FMD has forced on farmers is the need for efficient records and Interherd is brilliant at that, it’s so clever. One of our farmers who has had it for a while and has 120 milking cows now does all his daily records in 5 – 10 minutes – can’t be bad.\n\nWeek beginning 7th April \n\nMonday\nBusy day – [new vet] is settling in really well and coping fine. If we carry on at this rate we will need another vet. A lot of it depends on how much more testing we are going to get and what happens with Commission report into dispensing drugs.\nTuesday\nSR came today from Uni. of Reading who own the Interherd Program. We went round some of the farmers that used it and helped sort out any queries. It was a good day, I learnt a lot and the farmers found it useful too. She said she would come again later in the year, so I think we might try and organise for them all to come to the practise for a chat.\nWednesday\nDid some Interherd training with one of the farmers wives, we said just an hour as she wasn’t fully computer literate. Anyway 4 hours later, she had well and truly got the hang of it, she was very keen and I really enjoyed it. \nThursday/Friday\nThey blur into one, as it has been so busy. Everyone has been flat out. We are going to start the vet advertising again, and another nurse/receptionist.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th April \n\nMonday\nGot caught up today, sorted out all the queries. Quite pleased with my self.\nTuesday\nWent to a local Nursery to talk about vets, to 3 year olds. I was quite dreading it – but thankfully it was great, they were really good. I took some dressing up clothes and x-ray instruments and teddy bears and they operated and had a really good time. One of them asked me if all the cows and sheep were better and did they still have funny feet and mouths!\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st April \n\nTuesday/Wednesday\nQuite busy days and a lot to catch up on. We all went away with [sister and niece] this weekend to [husband]’s Mum and Dads caravan. We had a great time.\n[sister]’s biopsy \nOff rest of week\n\n\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th April \n\nMonday\nThree farmers milk recording today and tomorrow so busy dropping pets and paperwork off. Advertised for a vet today. Fingers crossed.\n\n\nOff for two weeks helping [sister] to Move\n\nInterviewed a Nurse/Receptionist she is perfect and experienced, she wrote a letter in as her husbands job had brought them to the area, so she starts 12th May – I wish it was as easy finding a vet.\n\n\nWeek beginning 12th May\n\nMonday\nOur new girlie started today, she is very keen and capable, she has done really well even with the computer system that she was dreading.\nTuesday\nBusy day also 2x milk recordings so a bit of hollering about. I was thinking it is about a year we have had now of normal work!! Everyone new appears to be getting on with it as the saying goes, everyone bears a scar and has a story to tell and realise it is not the same, but how could it be. \nWeds – Fri\nQuite busy but capable at work. [daughter] got the job for the training in her M. Apprentice course so she is over the moon. It’s all a new learning curve, you suddenly realise she is growing up, getting a job and leaving school.\nUnfortunately this morning [daughter] has decided she doesn’t want to leave full time education yet and is worried about the job. She is wanting to do a business course at a college so all change again. We have had bid discussions and are going to go down to Connexions next week.\nSat\nYF (Young Farmers) field day today. I love these days it is amazing the effort and enjoyment that makes it such a good day. There is also such a high standard in all the classes. I admire the enthusiasm of the young farmers and just hope they can survive somehow.\n\nWeek beginning 19th May\n\nMonday \nWe have found the course [daughter] wants to do at College thanks to Connexions. The bad news is it is not done locally, she could do a local course but it would be wasted time to some extent. \nBig discussions most of the week. We have found they do the course in Blackburn and Preston, my sister and Mum live down there and are more than happy for her to move in, I just don’t know if I am ready to let her go, but I’ll have to be a big girl about it.\nWe have sent application forms off so will have to wait and see now and try and get used to it.\nWeds\nReally good evening at Penrith re the discussion it was so good to talk to the other diarists and realise and be able to relate so closely to what they said. It was poignant to see what other people had written and interesting to see what you had done so far with the data collected, it would be brilliant to hand to any future study or enquiry as it is proof surely not all these people could be wrong!!! And to have so many diarists start and finish is amazing. I’m sure it can be used for so many different topics – AMAZING. I am personally very proud to have been a part of it, and although sometimes I have wondered if what I was writing was any use. I can see now how it comes together. Than you all for the opportunity, shame not in better circumstances, it has helped me more than I originally realised but thinking back it was all unbelievable and not something I would like to repeat. I am ever the optimist or so I’m told and do believe or hope things and farming can recover not fully but enough to be able to show other people what a wonderful life it is, hard but special.\n\nWeek beginning 26th May\n\nNever stopped on Tuesday after bank Holiday so busy. [new vet] is settling in now, but his girlfriend can’t find a job so that’s a bit worrying, he may leave sooner than expected – oh no not advertising again. The rest of the week was uneventful really ticked along nicely. We met up with some friends on Wednesday evening who holiday in the Lakes each year so it was nice to see them again, we had a good evening. We were also out on Thursday night with a drug rep, very nice meal and they have offered to pay for [husband] Bri. Catt. Vet. Ass meeting in Amsterdam in October so that was very nice. Business link have also offered to help us get a Consultant in to see if they have any ideas for improving, maybe they can find vets too!! All in all quite an exciting week.\n\n\nWeek beginning 2nd June\n \nThe exams have started, everyone warns to beware but [daughter] is very laid back about it all, too much I feel. But as long as she does her best. I went to the accountants to look at the books for the end of year so far not quite finished yet and thankfully we won’t be needing income support this year!! It is so much better more regulation but nothing we can’t cope with – honest!\n\n\nWeek beginning 9th June\n\n[daughter] had an interview at Blackburn College, it wasn’t a very nice place, but then I’m not going. Preston is on the 25th so she will decide after that.\n[niece] had her C.T. Scan for her head that was eventful and Lisa and her naughty jelly babies zapped, all went well but she was a bit sore after.\n\n\nWeek beginning 23rd June\n\nMonday\nWent TT testing with [another vet] today it was a retest due to them having a reactor.\nIt was a good day, they are nice people. There is a father and 2 sons. During FMD I had a phone call one night and this was just someone crying on the end of it. I didn’t know what to say and I wasn’t sure who it was, but I just spoke about mainly silly things I can’t really remember what but didn’t get much of a response just yes and no’s and I thought I recognised the voice as being the father we were with today – anyway during lunch which we had at the farm we were chatting and of course got into FMD and he thanked me it took aback but he said he had appreciated me waffling on. It was the night of the day his cows had been shot and he had phoned to let us know but he said he just broke down and couldn’t say anything – anyway he laughed because he said he was going to hang up, but he couldn’t get word in edgeways because I was wittering but he said he did feel a bit better after. So we had a good heart to heart.\nTuesday\nCaught up on my paperwork and sorted some bits and pieces out.\nWeds\nTook [daughter] to Preston College for an interview it was good and seems a nice place. I can’t believe she will be leaving home at the end of August – very scary I’m really going to have to be a big girl about it!!\nThursday\nWe went to visit Business link to discuss some more things and [they are] hopefully going to help us pay a firm of Consultants to help us out to see how we can improve and move the Practice on, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWent milk recording first thing so that was good fun. After recording I had to collect one of our elderly clients and her dog that was coming for an operation, the lady is 92 and her and the dog are very close so she wanted to stay with her until she was sedated. So she was pleased she could come with her. The girls all laugh at me because I have quite a few little old ladies who we visit and keep a check on their pets. \n\n\nWeek beginning 30th June\n\nNot a lot of excitement at all this week, we have been kept going and I caught up on paperwork. We are going to my sister’s this week end to start sorting her spare bedroom for [daughter].\n\n\nWeek beginning 7th July\n\nMon\nSpent the morning explaining to our newest girlie about Interherd and how to work it, this will enable her to help me on the data entry side, we also had a little trip out around some of the farms that record with us to give her an idea of where they are.\nTuesday\nWent exporting sheep today, they all had to be retagged, it was quite warm, not much fun, I’ll maybe get [new girl] to do exporting!!\nWeds\n2 milk recordings today so quite busy with bottles and sheets and things and they are both in the opposite direction to each other. Never mind it was a nice day for driving about.\nThursday\nWe have got a new vet to replace [vet from SA]. She seems very lovely. She is going to start on 4.08.03. We used an agency and it has proved worthwhile, we worked out that rather than paying for endless adverts we would give it a go and it seems to have worked, so that’s exciting.\nFri\nWe went car hunting today as if we all go out at the week end it becomes a bit crushed and sometimes we end up taking two vehicles. So we have really splashed out rightly or wrongly and bought a new CRV truck, it’s very posh, so we get that on 21.07.03.\n\nWeek beginning 14th July\n\nMonday\n[Person] from the Interherd office came up to see us and we visited a few of our farmers that are on Interherd. Between them and NMR they have really tried with providing quality and cost effective equipment that is helpful to the farmers. You can now use Interherd in some milking parlours which is really useful.\nTues \nWe went to see a horse with a cough and after treating the pony we were chatting and they have converted a small barn into a camping hostel, their farm is along Hadrian’s Wall and since having foot and mouth and doing the barn up, they have nearly covered their costs. They still have a few stock but not as many. Mr I was saying how his father used to milk about 25 cows and be able to make a good living from that, it’s amazing the difference.\nWeds\nWe got a new payroll package today so I spent most of my day trying to understand it. I was very bog eyed by the end, but I think I understand it and it seems to work well and should be a lot easier and quicker.\nThursday\nBusy day. There were lots of ops and farm calls, a couple of farmers have been asking about prescriptions as soon they will be able to get their drugs from anywhere, a lot have said they appreciate they have to pay for the service one way or another and are happy to carry on as they have been doing. We will lose money to some extent, but how much remains to be seen and we will have to cope.\nFriday\nOff – went to see Westlife with [daughter]. \n
## 4 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1963\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 6\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\n\nSaturday 9th March 2002\nAn old African proverb states, "The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The next best time is now."\nI should have started this diary over a year ago to keep track of changes in the unrolling of the FMD epidemic and my feelings towards it. Today is probably a good day to start the diary as I was about to sit down after a really bad week to write some comments for the lessons learned inquiry and thought I should check the web site for an update. I found out to my considerable annoyance that the inquiry was coming to Cumbria to meet with DEFRA and hold the open meeting on Tuesday night, and if you wanted a ticket to attend, then you had to apply by a week ago. The overall impression is that the govt do not want to learn lessons. I was looking after kids as [wife] was on counselling course and I was on call Sat morn. The vets were busy so I ended up taking [children] into vets with me they watched videos in the waiting room while I sorted out and consulted. \nComing down with cold after spending Friday TB testing on restocking farm. But at least I managed to avoid getting kicked and crushed. The farm hand who is one of the hard lads of Wigton refused to get in with the fat bulls to test them after getting floored by a kick. “If the f.** ministry want them F tested they can f coming and etc etc” I am putting in a letter to say why they were not tested to see response.\nDidn’t get finished on farm till 5.45 pm having started with a caesarean at 5:30am.Must be an easier way to make a living. The farming economy is bizarre at the moment . He has silage in heaps all over the farm, so instead of feeding straw which is incredibly expensive @£70 ton he is feeding the better quality silage and the calves are all too big. There are 30 to calve, so a few nights work there….\nWhere ever I go on farms the stories that farmers are wanting to get off their chest about the MAFF incompetence and inconsistency is bewildering. There is a lot of anger out there.\nI went to do the restocking sentinel visit for MG, L Fm. He is usually the most laid back of guys but he told them he was bringing his cattle on and he would see them in court. Why are we doing sentinel visits to a farm that had FMD 11 months ago? The virus only lives a month.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday \nKids had all got presents and cards for Mum, they brought them all in with a breakfast tray very cute, but pear juice all over the carpet. Tim and I spent Sat night baking a chocolate cake for her, which meant I hadn’t got lunch. Never mind.\nChurch was PS speaking on Characters walking with God, and talking about Abraham setting off with out knowing where he is going, maybe I should follow suit, with large animal vetting being reduced to TB testing and caesareans. The evening service was really lively with HP from Austria, about turning every hour over to God, now that is what I should do. \nG & R called around Sun afternoon, he is pessimistic about fertiliser sales. There is that much land and grass around, and the govt grants for extensification. New regulations on nitrates is giving him a headache though as he points out it is not fertiliser that cause the problems, as they are used by grass but by phosphates and slurry/organics . Lough Neigh has real problems with algal blooms and they are blaming fertiliser but so has Bassenthwaite, but there is not any fertiliser spread on the fells so is it really agriculture?\nMonday\nRead test and was very glad it was clear, as the Farm of origin of one of batches has gone down with TB..More testing after lunch. Organic farm ! They have just had their first pay check, 23p per litre, they were promised 36p when they started to convert 2 years ago. Who would be in agriculture?\nDesperately behind in admin with vets and home, but at least the clinical work pays!\nTuesday\nCaught up on a lot of admin as back to 6 vets for day. 2 cows aborting on restocking farm, more disease. Rota still for 5vets Yuk!!\nThe evening open meeting poorly attendee due to poor publicity. I am only local practitioner. I phoned around no one had been invited or had seen advance publicity and we all feel that they are not interested and that they will not listen.\nSome moving testimony and the bullying culture came through, and the frustration and anger that comes from dealing with a faceless bureaucracy distant in London.\n11 million animals, 2000 farms in Cumbria, businesses wrecked, lives wrecked, a crisis turned into a disaster by bureaucratic incompetence and political considerations.\nI am pleased I went I feel that it is like a sense of closure, the funeral so to speak, the end and I spoke with [wife] when I got back. I feel I can lay the past down and look to the future.\nWeds\nDay Off K&A for lunch and sort out finances etc, (And write diary!!)\nEveryone is saying about this time last year and glad that FMD is finished.\nWent to see Grease the school production, it was very well done, brought back memories of 6th Form\nThurs\n300 pages of A4 waiting for me in my in tray courtesy of DEFRA. Are they mindless or what. Rang to speak to AH, but only got hold of N and told her it was out of order! I should get my blood pressure measured as some one says DEFRA. Stupid idiots.\nSo much for closure, I feel very frustrated. \nIf this is the future of farm practice, Anal glands here we come! Who said a vets life ain’t glamorous)\n\nManaged to calm down and get the next 2 weeks of testing organised. It is a good job that we are organising it as trying to get folk on the phone is n’t easy. Workload picking up and managed to persuade GG to advertise even if only at TVI HQ. (All of the local practices who have advertised have had very few if any responses, we are busy but with DEFRA work).\nSpent time singing Grease songs much to nurses amusement.!! \n Did restocking visit at Lynedraw, they gave me a look around. It is amazingly clean, because even after pressure washing the spiders usually make a come back. But the buildings are sterile, and no cobwebs or insect life, which usually abounds even in empty buildings, weird. There will be a lot of flies next year.\nNews that PI has headship of Nelson Thom and so we can expect the discipline to improve again.\nFriday\nCurry and Quiz at the boys school. Very cosmopolitan for Cumbria. It was good fun and the kids enjoyed it. But we were useless on the photos for which you definitely need a TV. Spent time chatting to local GP who which was interesting. They have a place for their son at Nelson Thom but he isn’t keen!! \n\n\nSaturday 16th March\nWorking this W/e, and on call Friday night so had an early start with a caser on ewe. A LAMBING!! Hurray, things are getting back to normal. Even if it is a Dutch beltex… The farmer is really fed up and wants AH to be sacked as he threatened to kill all his recently imported Dutch sheep, as the paper work was not right. They had come and blood sampled them and then sent the results to his brother who is still under Form A, and then refused him permission to move any of the sheep off because he shouldn’t have any, because he was on Form A, and what were the Blood results for. DEFRA would be a joke if it wasn’t so serious. Oh and after my complaint about them deluging us with paper, yes you guessed it they sent another 7 x 20 sheets of A4. Idiots!!\nAW is in a tiz and so had to get help in Sat morning which was a shame but hey ho. She is not coping with the post FMD, constant changing of the goal posts.\nWent to Susan & Ian’s for another curry and had a really good time, and have decided to phase out house group which was coming. Hopefully Low moor will set up a 3rd house group for Wigton. Hebron is going to change to new Outlook groups.\nSun\nNever managed to get to church as calls all day, beautiful day though. The weather has really picked up. Must get garden sorted and seeds planted. A came out on call this evening. It is one good point that this job does allow the kids to join with me. \nShe is really growing up. She wanted to go to cinema but as [wife] was late and weather good she came back here and they walked the dog and wound up the boys.\nMon\n Early morning call to see a farmer who is a scrap metal dealer who hates authority. He therefore didn’t want anyone on his land during FMD, and refused access to Maff, and me while I was working there. He caused real problems and had his gun removed by police. He was handled badly and is a rogue. The more colourful rumour was that the real reason for not allowing anyone on was the amount of smuggled cigarettes was too great to hide. He also runs a fishery/ shellfish enterprise that is on the beach at odd times!!??. He was found guilty and fined £350 for his trouble but never paid because he went bust, as everything is in his wife and kids names!! This is all unsubstantiated rumour but quite amusing. When push comes to shove the ministry could do nothing with out the cooperation of the Farmers!\nThe vet students have arrived, and I feel a bit guilty about not having them to stay but I feel I still need space at the moment so they are making do with the Royal Oak.\nPrayer Quad with the lads, which was good. I still has not got stuff for magazine, and spent time praying. \nTues \nThe dates important cos its my Birthday, 39 today. The kids all brought presents in and had breakfast in Bed it was really nice. The number of ordinary calls to ill animals is increasing rapidly. Went to 2 new restocking farms today. I think one a day is probably enough. They were both full of stories about the ministry and wanted to unload to some one who understood. The first was particularly upsetting in that I was admiring his new parlour and set up that he has put in while waiting the 4 months. He was then talking about all the animals getting slaughtered and his wife was fighting back tears. She is also very unsure about whether they are doing the right thing by investing in the new parlour. She is very unsure about the future and as they are both reaching 50 is it the right thing to be doing? Unfortunately I think she is right, but I couldn’t say that and made reassuring noises as they have spent the money and it is too late now. The future for dairy is not good. The price is going to continue to be at world prices which with the current exchange rate is uneconomic in the UK. The second farm was sheep with drop, and they were grazing over the burial site as they had planted carrots and turnips on the surrounding field. I couldn’t listen to another set of woes, as I was still upset from the first lot so kept conversation light and on sheep.\nWeds\nI never realised that FMD is like any other grief there are anniversaries to get through, and fears and barriers to be put to rest. I was on a farm to give certificates to 2 heifers sold in calf. They were all saying it was a year to the day that FMD hit the village. The AI fellow was there as well, and he was talking about what he had been doing. He was saying that he thinks it will be years before everybody returns to normal. He is revisiting farms where he was helping with the slaughter for the AI, and was saying he had to take a deep breath every time he returns to one of these farms. \nThere was a partners meeting at lunchtime. As usual AW turned up late, but finally decided to advertise to see whether there are Vets out there who will come to work in FMD country. It is a bit frustrating as I foresaw that we would be busy, and we could have nabbed D before Longtown, but GG ever cautious. We went completely around in circles trying different options, but as with everything else the only prediction we can make is that we know that we don’t know. So much depends on govt. decisions on supply of pharmaceuticals to farms, and on the future of the SVS. (State Vet Service) for who we usually do 15% of our farm work for and currently do 50% for.\nThursday.\nTomorrow I will get a lunch break. This is my resolution. Have not managed to stop for lunch this week yet as farm calls keep coming in and partners meeting. Today was Geckos bums and goose bums.(Rectal prolapses). Variety is the spice of life. Also had much laughter over watching Norman in the bath. JG’s tortoise which has come out of hibernation early and is anorexic. Much clunking, and bumping.\n2 lambings and cow caesaer, after hours. So busy On call. It was also the last house group so it was end of an era. We have been having them in our house for the past 6 years, with different folk and have had god speak to us and to others through it. But it is time to move on.\nFriday \nStarted with another caeaser and early morning start and didn’t get my lunch break! Time to reconsider things again.\nHad folk for dinner, which had been arranged a long time ago, it seemed like a good idea at time and was enjoyable but after a 14-hour day yesterday and a 10-hour one today: I was not feeling life and soul of the party. One couple are still trying to decide the future of their farm. They are thought out progressive family farm, and yet they are not convinced about what to do. He finds it difficult to because there are three generations to consider. His father would go out and buy stock tomorrow, and his son wants to come home to work, but they feel he should broaden his options. Very difficult.\nHe was also saying that he ha d helped a neighbour who flagged him down as he was going past. He wanted help to move a cow that was down. The last time he touched a cow it was when his own were slaughtered. It knocked him off his stride for the rest of the day. \nHad a good time as when I looked at time was 1 O’ Clock\n\n\nSat 23rd March \n[wife] went on her counselling course for day, which left me a bit on edge this morning, as I was On call Sat am and looking after 4 kids. But they managed with out me. Back sore and stiff as I’ve missed the gym, but will go back on Tues. Still managed to get a bit done in garden, it was a great spring day and made me feel like summer was coming. Went to Beckfoot to beach in the afternoon with kids, evening went to bed early as shattered.\nSun 24th\nBack stiffer after gardening and went to church. Davidsons have moved into Thursby so will be good to have them around and at school.\nWatched Northbank beat Stanwix U12’s 6 –0 , the boys played well and passed the ball around a lot. [son] played well too.\nMust work less w/e’s and watch the boys play more.\nMon 25th\nLooking forward to finishing on Friday as another large test today, started at 8:30am and finished at 6pm but at least it meant I was out the office and did not have to face any of the usual hassle factors. It was good to see as the place is always well run and organised. A real family farm with three generations working together, but Granddad at 75 still very much calling the shots. The craic was good at lunch as their sister is friendly with my wife so I got custard with my rhubarb tart! My wife doesn’t like custard so I never get, as I cannot be bothered to make it for one as the kids never have it and so are very conservative. They were asking my view of the future too as they have sold bullocks privately ie not through the auction as they are on 21 day stand still and the price is poorer than selling via the auction. DEFRA will not allow any trade through an auction if the farms are on standstill. Why? If they are dead in24hrs there is minimal risk and they are putting everyone’s backs up. \n\nTues 26th \nWent for my first visit to another restocked farm and during the 4 month waiting as well as visit New Zealand he has made a sandstone plaque 3ft by 4 ft and carved on the date they went down with FMD and the number of cattle. It is almost a head stone type memorial. \nThe cow had digestive problems a right displaced abomasums ( RDA). Probably due to the transit and change in diet.\nWeds 27th\nSmall animal day and trying to get everything organised for going away. Finalised advert in Vet Record for new assistant. Lots of adverts but no applicants. All the local practices are advertising and there are no takers. I hope it is because there is a shortage and not from lack of confidence in the area. DEFRA haven’t paid us for a lot of visits and that needs sorted. They have no record of the visits i e they have lost the claim forms in the mountain of paper work. They will only pay on the originals (As if there are duplicates they will probably pay on those as well being that well organised). They are really slipping back into their old ways of paper chasing. The frustration without and within is palpable. I should just quit as I will be a civil servant once removed unless things change. The secretary’s are both on FMD funded computer courses, so digging out the paper work will have to wait.\nThurs 28th \nDemob happy just the test to read and I am off, for 10 days…….\nThe test was clear but very busy as a locum came for a look around to see if he would do SA for several days a week. Any help I think will be a help!!!\nGood Friday\nMissed out on Church as one of the boys through a complete wobbler. He is not very well just tired at end of term. I hope.\nThen went walking with family and [friends]. I must learn to shoot [him] down when he says it is a little scramble what he means is its too dangerous for kids. But it was fun and we enjoyed it. The weather was glorious and the fells were crowded! Tourism is back. Went up over sharp edge to Blencathra, kids as well.\n\n\nHOLIDAY\n\n\nSat 6th April\nCame back on the late boat from Belfast and arrived in to Wigton late. The grandparents were sad to see us go, but I think they had also found us all quite tiring. The kids have enjoyed playing squash so that is something I would like to continue.\nSun 7th April\nBeautiful frosty morning and went to church where the speaker arrived, much to S’s relief just as he was announcing the last song before the sermon! I think he was wondering what he would say instead of the prepared sermon.!!\nWent to [son]’s foot ball cup match, this is 10 year olds we are talking about, and the referee was making several bad decisions including a dubious penalty against his team Northbank. The crowd (well about 30 of us which for his team is a big crowd) was getting a bit restless. Robbie was sprinting down the wing in front of his Dad, (and me) when he was sent flying by one of their team. His Dad then shouted “Ref if you gave a penalty for them for nothing you could at least give us a foul for that!” At which point the ref blew his whistle and came across and thumped him. The whole thing was about to descend in to a brawl as I and another parent were trying to restore calm by telling everyone to walk away, which they did, followed by the Northbank kids, game abandoned!\nSo we await the FA’s report.\nSo with that and the Carlisle manager being sacked and the Knighton’s trading insults with the prospective buyer for Carlisle the future of football in Carlisle is not looking good.\nMon 8th\nLast day off for sorting out VCF magazine and getting up to date with paper work etc, did Carrock Fell where we did not see another walker. It was sunny and cold but beautiful. At night went to Crusaders area meeting where they are trying to get some one to arrange area events for kids and to support the group structure. There is no one who has the time and no funding to appoint a post to do it, so went around in circles too a large degree, but meeting decided to try and raise the funding. \nTues 9th\nFeel like I should have handed in Notice after today it was awful going back. The response to the advert for a new vet now stands at 2 students who have yet to qualify! I had Harry giving me grief over the fact that DEFRA promised him that we would test his cattle prior to turn out, i e end of March but haven’t told us, very helpful. His allocation has not even come through!! They are useless. I was at one farm that has half restocked because the parlour is not yet restored, the heifers are calving and he is milking into a dump bucket and throwing the milk away. He can’t get more stock in because he is waiting testing for brucellosis as his heifers were on the same farm as the French heifer that went down. He wanted to bring them direct to his own farm they would not let him bring the heifers to his own farm because the paper work was not through, and they not would allow multiple drop offs. IDIOTS. \nSo with high levels of frustration and complete overload, it has not been a good start back. Tomorrow I must see what is hiding in my “in tray”. As I never had a chance to look today\n.Weds 10th\nQuieter day and managed to catch up with paper work and have had a lot of next week mapped out so feel more in control.\nNight work seems to be easing with fewer lambings. \nStudents seem to be enjoying their time with us even though there is too little time to actually teach them, but it is a luxury to have time to go through cases with them as we take them on a voluntary basis and at the moment lunch is a higher priority than their education!! I’m a selfish brat.\nThurs 11th \nSpoke too soon, chaotic again, managing workload with so much fire brigade work is not so easy. (Fire Brigade work is the emergency work that needs seen urgently, ie today if not now!)\n[son] isn’t so well again he tired easily again today, so must make an appointment for him, but very vague signs.\nFri 12th\nHalf day finish, Yo. I could really get into a 3 and a half day week!\nThe down side is it is because my wife is going away for the w/e, so I have to be finished by 3:15 for kids. As I want to have the people carrier I also have to muck out my car. It is not as bad since FMD. Another positive contribution that FMD has made to my life. I actually feel morally obliged to keep my car from being a biohazard. OK I still needed a wheelie bin to through all the post it notes and bits of cardboard and the excessive packaging that surrounds any medical product that seems to find its way on to the back seat of my car. I always remember reading a Sunday paper article about what cars different people drove, and what they had lying around in the back seat, and what this showed about their personality. I’m sure that they would have had a field day with my car!! You use to be able to tell farm vets cars from a mile off but they have all gone clean and shiny.\n\n\nSat 13th April\nA week end off and the thought of a Saturday morning lie in…..\nUnfortunately there is a football tournament in Carlisle today! 9am start so up as usual and get into town. But managed to get to Staples, which I have been trying to do since my Birthday, to spend my birthday money… the difference between men and boys is the size of their toys! As my wife frequently reminds me. \nSo I am the proud owner of a digital camera. \nThe question is when will I find time to set it up? \nTook back all the library books and made the mistake of checking with the librarian who says we also have a talking book and another junior fiction. Well I thought it would have been lucky to get them all. If they ever bring in fines for kids we are sunk. How does my wife keep track of them all?\nCame home and enjoyed the good weather, and fortunately the team bottomed out so didn’t get into the next round. V asked as she dropped [other son] off from the football, where has [wife] gone? As [other son] has said she was away at Gruerly, where is that. She is away for a girlie w/e.!!\nSo we had time for a “family” cycle ride out from Kirkbride to the coast. It was beautiful, and we had a really good time. Came back via Wigton for supplies as we are in desperate need of a Tesco shop. \nSunday 14th\nHad an easy day and cooked with A for tomorrow as my wife is doing supply next week. Its ages since I have cooked, even made scones. Church was a video sermon which was OK but different. Saw P he ‘s back from NZ so will have to arrange to catch up. He was incredibly jet lagged, it must be Sunday cos everyones in church!! 36 hrs travelling. [wife] arrived back from her week end away at Capernwray, having had a week end that sounded as if they had all gone back to their teenage years with midnight feasts and playing tricks on each other. She was quite tired and pleased to have an early night.\nMon 15th \nThe diary has unfortunately died at this point and it is 3 weeks later and I am going back and filling in the details as I remember them. It is probably the bits that are really important, but as there is too much going on the diary has remained on my to do list!! Together with my tax return and a small mountain of paperwork!!\nThe reasons are varied but one of them is that my youngest lost his temper with the computer and slammed down the mouse. This broke the left-right bar so the pointer would only go up and down!! Now the practice manager who learnt his computing in the dark ages of DOSS, assures me you do not need a mouse to operate a computer. But as I have enough problems trying to get the stupid machine to do what I want it to with a mouse, forget trying shortcut keys and arrows.\n\nSo a new mouse was bought which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work. Blank screens, consult hand book, try inserting disk, try exploring disk, try windows disk, consult practice manager, who as you may have gathered is my IT guru. He says you may need to install a driver if it doesn’t work it will be on the disk. I don’t have a mouse to use to try to find and install a driver, he assures me again you don’t need a mouse. I understand why my youngest son lost his temper with the stupid machine. Being the mature adult that I can some times be I walk away to cool off, but don’t feel like trying again for 24 hours with a new mouse which the man assured my wife you just had to plug in, and hey presto it would find a driver and work.\nPlugged it in, it said “looking for driver”, “installing Driver” and it worked. Why?\nWhy not first time?\nTuesday\nThursday\nRiding Lights\nWent to see Riding Lights who are a Christian theatre group who were performing at the senior school at night. They were extremely funny and hard-hitting and very pointed all at the same time. It was a magazine of sketches on all sorts of different things. Modern interpretations of parables, and bible stories. Sketches asking questions about society and how we view things. Very difficult to put into words but thought provoking on lots of levels. \n\n\nSat 20th April to Weds 24th April lost in the mists of time…\nThursday 25th\n Starting the diary again after having missed 10 days with too much going on.\nThe spring work is chaotic with a lot of problems. We are trying to run the practice on 5 vets plus a part time locum instead of 7 full time at this time of year. I had said we should have advertised and tried to get some one at Xmas, but the view was that falling milk price would mean less work, but the DEFRA tasting is more than making up for those who haven’t restocked, and those who have gone out of dairy which brings us the most work.\nBut saying I told you so, does not help, so I’ll just keep my big mouth shut.\n As the practice manager says, the good old days when we new what the Rota was going to be and we were not just making up it up as we went along. We have had over a year of crisis management now. The end must be nigh!! \nAs this is a health survey, apart from feeling pressure of work, I am have also managed to catch ringworm on my leg. A fungal infection from cows and it is itchy and sore and not responding to my treatment. I will have to get GP’s opinion\nFriday 26th April\nRemind me next time, not to try to interview during busy periods. It is very embarrassing to turn up late to the interview!! We had a chaotic day but managed to interview her. She is frighteningly well prepared and had lists of questions. I hope we didn’t put her off by being so disorganised!! I think the Sandale view will be more influential! As part of the interview we always take them up to Sandale viewpoint to show them the practice, spread out panoramically beneath them. Well, it sold me the job!!\nAfter finally getting finished I was exhausted but had people to dinner so had to stay awake and be sociable.\n\n\nSat 27th April\nHad folk to dinner last night, which after working flat out was probably not such a clever idea. Didn’t fall asleep but this morning I feel like death warmed up and we have another interview this morning. I don’t think I can make a good impression so it is a good job that I am looking to employ rather than be employed. The candidate is from a Kirby Stephen farmers daughter, and so is at an immediate advantage. She seems fine so we will offer her the job, the question is should we offer them both a job? Went to bed feeling ill and with a migraine and slept all afternoon and then in bed for 9pm. Sad or what!\nSun 28th\nFeel a lot better for the sleep and church was AF speaking. He is always entertaining. His opening slide was “ Knighton In “. For those of you who do not keep up with the footie in Carlisle, Michael Knighton is the hated owner of Carlisle United who is trying to get the club relegated, so he can build houses on the land. He is destroying the club, and it is NOT popular…\nAnyway the second slide was ..here for grace and forgiveness. He went on to say that church should be where the failures should feel loved and welcome, as we all need God’s love and forgiveness.\nHe was really good, both entertaining and making real points.\nSpent time in the garden and playing footie with the boys.\nMon 29th\nMonday morning and that sinking feeling not helped by my wife’s teaching 3 days this week, and a trustees meeting for Borderline, which means additional pressure. After running around all morning and working out the amount of holiday we are all owed the conclusion is that we will employ them both. I am owed 46 days holiday, so if I can take 2 months off, that plus the sabbatical I am owed means I could take 5 months off.. I wish it were happening. The 5 vets are owed over 200 days between us, which will be almost a vet for a year!! As this is a health diary, I should mention my visit to the doctor, after a half an hour wait past my appointment time, fizzing knowing that I would have to make the time up later in my evening, I finally saw the Doc who agreed with my diagnosis, and agreed with my treatment. Only an occupational hazard of farm work. Ring worm!! He did take scrapings but that is all\nTuesday\nTesting next door, why do we always end up working in a pen under the railway in a middle of a stream? Why they cannot build a pen on dry land away from the trains I don’t know. I suppose they have always done it that way. But the first you know of a train is the thunder as it goes over your head which startles the cows who jump, sending a muddy slurry flying everywhere.\nWilliam is still not wearing a helmet for the Quad bike as he drives around, despite his fathers protests. Their neighbour the other way is brain damaged after coming off his..\nWeds 1st of May\nMayday, the radio is predicting riots in Paris, against or for Le Pen, anti globalists in London. But I feel a real peace with the turning of the month. It is funny how a different month can make you feel so different. April is always the worst month at work with a lot of routine work dehorning and testing, and a lot of lambings and calvings, and emergencies. Even though the beginning of May is just the same I always feel we have passed the peak, and we can cruise into summer. The fact that both have accepted the jobs, and that we will have more cover helps!! Though they will not start until summer.\nThursday 2nd May\nIn spite of all yesterdays predictions there wasn’t any trouble!!! In Paris or London, only cyclists causing traffic jams!! What is about the media that they have to report the bad news not the good news. I haven’t seen anything beyond the Cumberland News on the farms restocking.\n Stopped at Beckfoot on my rounds and sat in the sunshine on the beach for 10 mins and thought, this is the life!! Though in talking to one of the neighbours, one of the farmers is having real problems getting motivated. He had milking Ayrshires, really quiet cows who you could do anything with. Their idea of getting excited was turn out time and moving into a fast amble to the spring pastures. He has bought in really wild suckler limousin X’s. If you look at them the wrong way, they put their tails in the air and take off. I was there dehorning and we lost one which jumped over a gate. Another put its tail in the air and took off only stopping when it came to the block wall at the end of the yard. Unfortunately it didn’t stop fast enough and crashed headlong into it. It now has a definite tilt to it. The wall isn’t too hot either!! I think if I had to look after the likes of them, I wouldn’t be too keen to get out of bed either.\nFriday 3rd May\nSpoke too early about things easing off.. 2 bad calvings, a caesarean, and testing, plus the usual ill animals. But got finished for 5:45, and took my wife out for dinner at the Cockatoo in Cockermouth. Very pleasant, but while she wanted to go on to socialise at 10pm I wanted home to bed. \n\n\nSat 4th May\nOff Yippee!!\nTook the kids to Nichol End and went canoeing on the Lake got absolutely frozen but was really good fun!! It rained in spite of all the good weather forecasts, but with our style of canoeing we are always soaked anyway.\nHad a picnic on one of the islands, and had fun.\nCame back and slept for the afternoon, should have taken the boys to see the FA Cup but they were happy playing around.\nWatched Ghandi on DVD at night it is a very moving film, and the ambiguities and politics came through, to a muted extent which was interesting. It often makes me wonder about how much of Govt policy is personality driven. Again the inability of individuals to fight the “system” came through. The front page of the Times this morning was on a toddler who had died from post op haemorrhage following the use of disposable instruments in a tonsillectomy. Large amounts of money have been spent on disposable instruments that are always inferior to good quality surgical kit: Several people have died because of their use:\nBecause no-one wanted to take the very small theoretical risk, that they may transfer nvCJD. The approach to risk management and prioritisation within government, and the civil service is very poor. But to be fait to them the press is not helpful. I would like to see Prescott stand up and say that he wants more deaths on the railways, but he never will. If less money was spent on safety on the railways, more trains at more convenient times were run at lower costs, then there would be fewer deaths on the roads. But as no-one holds politicians responsible for deaths on the roads, it ain’t gonna happen. \nSun 5th May\nChurch was DN who is brilliant at getting the kids involved. [son]’s face lit up when we were walking in to church to see him walking down Botchergate with guitar in hand. \nHe had a skin that had been cast from a snake, and based his songs with the kids, and his talks with them on being a new creation. Cor 5 vs. 17 Getting rid of the old self, and hence the snake skin. \nHe is brilliant on the guitar and a real performer. Wasted as a tax inspector!!\nMon 6th May\nMaybe getting the kids soaked and frozen on Sat was not a good idea as they are all coming down with colds now! Tim is very chesty and was up in the night hot and wheezy. Any infection always goes for his chest. So Helvellyn will have to wait for another day. So concreted posts and pressure washed the yard. The boys loved “Helping”. Then demanded I play football as payment! AG was here as his Dad was dropping off the caravan after being away for the w/e. P called up from Manchester en route for Thailand. She is handing in her notice and going. \nBooked summer holiday in France, and now have to work out what we are doing on the way there and back.\nTues 7th May \nWent testing but I really do have the kids bug and feel hot and feverish.\nWent to bed for rest of day\nWeds 8th\nDidn’t feel like getting out of bed but went to work. First was a deer RTA. I was supposed to meet a police car there, but no police, either car or policeman! I am glad it wasn’t too controversial or important! So I have taken all details and hope that that is the end of it.\nThis afternoon was spent chasing stirks around a field and Abbeytown. We dehorned them, they should have been done this time last year, but were n’t because of FMD. They’re now 2 yr old which means they were really too big to go around upsetting. Two went through the dyke one way, the other went through the other side into some one’s garden and on to the Abbeytown road! So it was a bit of a rodeo. It ended up charging M who hurt his shoulder trying to escape! He was not happy as this morning he got his letter asking him to cut back is milk production. He had jokingly asked what was I doing this winter as all the farmers will have given up by Christmas.\nThe long term out look is not good, but at least we will have 2 new graduates in training to cope with the upturn when (If?) it comes. \nThurs 9th\nDay Off\nUnfortunately spent the morning shopping in Carlisle, which meant wandering around shops, and trying to find clothes. I needed A, my daughter as my dress sense leaves a lot to be desired, and she keeps me right. Met GB another Carlisle Vet which was good I haven’t seen him for a bit. Had lunch out which was nice though. Also got all the bits for the tennis net, so will be able to get it up. The annoying bit was I got a parking ticket, which sent my blood pressure up. Now I know I often park with out paying and in the wrong places, that is just living dangerously. But as we were in Carlisle and had decided to go out for lunch, and for some reason I was in [wife]’s car, as usual there was no change in the car, (well as usual there was no money at all.) I only had myself to blame I know she never has change in the car. I only had enough for 2 hours in my pocket. Which to be honest is in my opinion quite long enough in Carlisle shops. So on the way to lunch out, I made a special trip back to the car park, armed with coins ready to pay the city council the extortionate fee so I could spend more money in Carlisle City shops. The first machine refused my coins, I even tried a 2nd machine that also refused to accept my hard earned cash. So I left a note saying the machine was not working in the windscreen. And yes you guessed it, I came back to find a traffic warden giving me a ticket, who justified his action by saying there w ere 4 machines from which I could have bought a ticket. GRRRRHHH!!! \nFri 10th\nFinish of another week with more TB testing. A lot of cows from Netherlands, MRIs (Meuse, Rhine, Issel.) very good beefy looking dairy cows. Dual purpose. Why we have to test them I don’t know but we have to keep Page St happy. They were all tested prior to export from Holland, and they want them tested again. The farmer is very Bio security conscious, and has his land all in a single block now bounded by roads, or arable cultivation. All the other cattle he insisted were tested and he had the results prior to purchase! In spite of all his good sense he is still going on about the missing vials from Porton Down, and other paranoid conspiracy theories on the spread of FMD.\nBut a part from cold/flu, feel as though things are getting back on track. We can look to the next 12 months with confidence. Thereafter depends on whether the WTO wins over the EU to get rid of subsidies, or whether maintaining the food supply within the EU is seen as important. The one thing the FMD has taught me is that you never know what will be coming next.\nI do feel guilty about saying there should be more train crashes after seeing the crash in the news today at Potters Bar.\n\n\nSat 11th May\nWorking the w/e again. \nSaw another calf with CCN, caused by a deficiency of B1. Usually rare but seems to be much more prevalent this year. ? due to old grass on pastures. Don’t know. \nHad a greyhound client in, bringing in a greyhound on behalf of some one else, who has been chased from the practice for non payment, so had a stressful half hour negotiating with an irate idiot. But he paid his old bill, and stumped up front for the new one. And seemed placated, treating the animals is easy.\nSpent the afternoon in the garden and fixing up the tennis nat. We were given an old second hand net so I have fixed up on the concrete and it was good fun playing with the kids. The concrete is not level and has lots of loose stones so the bounce is a bit erratic!!\nWent to a 50th Birthday party, for which I was teased at work, but I maintain we are friends with the children in their 20’s!! It was a good craic and the food was brilliant. There was one of the partners from a lawyers from Carlisle there complaining that he could only have an hourly rate of charging out at £185. Consequently he couldn’t attract good lawyers to his firm because the city firms were offering far greater salaries and were charging out their juniors at £200. I couldn’t admit that our hourly rate is only £45 and that I think that £45/hour is a lot of money. Should have been a 9 to 5 lawyer.\n\n\n\nSunday \nWent to church NL, but was still half asleep from my late night, spent all afternoon and evening out on calls, was OK till the midnight call when I decided that being a lawyer was probably a much better idea.\nMonday 13th\nHalf asleep after the w/e so took a little while to get going. Having kept this week a bit quieter, as there should have been a lot of last minute dehorning and castrating, it hasn’t come in so we really are quieter. So did some office work but trying to work out why the two computer systems we have do not have the same balances on their accounts with a tired sore head is not worthwhile. But it was preferable to sorting Rotas. So I when came home I sat and read TinTin much to my wife’s disgust. \nI also looked at my cash flow predictions, which were totally out of line. I usually take a pessimistic view so as err on the side of caution but they are totally out. Fortunately the right way!! The partners think it is a waste of time and effort to try to predict how much of the bills the farmers are going to pay in any month, some pay every month, but most pay every now and again, either when they have time, or money, or when the accountant or vat man needs the books. I suppose they are right who cares so long as they do pay.\nAlso finally caught up with GP as ringworm still not getting better, so finally on antifungals. If the farmers couldn’t get hold of a vet pretty quickly to discuss what’s going on, they would give us earache.\nTuesday 14th\nHalfway through May and time to get the rest of the planting done in the garden. Beautiful weather and feels like summer is here.\nGG had a visit from trading standards over the bulls for which he had given a certificate of Fitness to travel.\nThere is now no slaughterhouse within an hour’s drive of here for cattle. Ulverston is the nearest. If an animal is not fit to be transported alive for some reason e.g. because it is lame or blind etc then it has to be shot on the farm and the carcase transported to the slaughterhouse. However under the new meat hygiene regulations of 2-3 years ago the carcase has to arrive within an hour of being shot. Which was fine while Black Brow was operating the slaughterhouse, but since it has closed, there are no options for any animals to be shot on the farm. (Unless you put it in your own freezer for your own consumption.) Thus whereas if there were borderline cases before, they were shot on the farm, and the carcases transported. Now the pressure is to get them transported alive. Or the farmer loses the value of the animal £500-£600, and has to pay £75 to get them shot and disposed of. The sooner either Carlisle slaughterhouse or Black Brow slaughterhouse get working again, the better.\nWeds 15th\nDay off\nSpent the morning catching up on paper work, feel better for it but never my favourite job. But all the bits and pieces are in place for my tax return. Just waiting for the final few pieces of paper. Wrote a caustic letter to Council about the parking ticket, but sent them a cheque as not worth the fight.\nWent to Up Front Art Gallery for lunch. Some one had made a set of peat rings with a golden bowl at the centre and wanted hundreds of pounds for their “Art” creation. If you don’t ask you don’t get.\nSpent afternoon running the kids as [wife] was taking A in town for hair cut and girl time.\nLast football match for Northbank and [son], lost!!\nThursday 16th\nThe long lunch is back!!! There wasn’t much happening Vet wise but still a lambing today as the season has dragged on. One restocking farmer was in today with a ewe to be lambed, of the 200 sheep he is supposed to be fattening for market, 20 have lambed. The guy he bought them from is adamant they were never near a tup, someone needs to tell him about the birds and the bees!.\nThere was also a good, if slightly apocryphal story from DEFRA licensing, when they needed a licence to move a bull. The licensing department asked,\n“Is this bull going to be used for breeding purposes?” Yes is the farmers reply.\n“Will this animal be coming in to contact with any other animals?” …….. \nFriday 17th\nAnother TB test, another restocking farm, more stories. The best one was the fact that their cattle had lain for a week in the pasture field after being shot. They decided to plough it out for barley in the back end having spent the summer pressure washing the farm buildings to a gleaming state of sterility. \nWhere the animals had lain, there was still obvious contamination with blood etc when they ploughed it. But having failed the buildings on specks of dirt, DEFRA were just not interested in contaminated blood stained earth. They had also phoned the day before I arrived to send some one out to arrange TB testing. The chaos in there continues.\n\n\nSat 18th May\nI am to be best man! A friend was around last night with news about getting married. We have a wedding every month for the next 4 months. Must be something in the water at the moment!!\nUnfortunately it meant it was a really late night celebrating and I am working the w/e again. So getting up for Saturday morning surgery was a bit grim.\nI survived and so did most of the animals, the worrying thing is I am sure that Drs are just the same. Spent the afternoon playing football and tennis with the kids in the yard, and mowing the grass. The farmers are all now silaging and the roads are full of tractors flying around at all times of night and day.\nSat evening went with [wife] to hear SA speak at KD’s. It was good to see him and Clare again. We visited them in Bombay,at the height of FMD and it always puts things back into perspective. He runs a mission hospital in Thane an outskirt of Bombay. They have it self-funding by charging the rich, for luxury (!) service a long way behind the NHS, and providing a basic service FoC for the average Indian. He is now talking about trying to raise funding for building an AIDS hospice to provide pain relief and dignity to those who are dieing of AIDS. Because of the stigma and cost, and risk of cross infection of both HIV and TB a lot of AIDs patients are just thrown out of their homes, and HIV +ve babies are abandoned. As he says there is an epidemic sweeping Bombay that will leave a lot of orphans and cause secondary epidemics because of immuno suppression, and it is not really being addressed.\nVery thought provoking, and makes the £millions wasted on FMD look very sick in a global perspective.\nSun\nMissed church in the morning as was seeing to cats and dogs in the surgery and dripping calf in the large animal bay. Spent most of afternoon on visits. All work and no play is making me a grumpy boy. 2 w/es in a row is not good.\nMon\nAW is in worse mood than me and at least I have worked w/e! She is winding every one up with her attitude. It is sthg that will have to be addressed but will have to be a partnership decision. \n[wife] was interviewing FC tonight at Christian Viewpoint in Carlisle, and came back full of it. She is good with people and interviewing. \nShe was also challenged by what F was saying about the importance of treating people as loved and valued by God. In some ways very similar to S, about valuing AIDs patients. We are all valued by God.\nTuesday\nMissed gym for 3rd week, I am going to be getting really unfit. I was on duty and had spent time talking with folk at work, valuing them!! But it was nice as A came out with me and she always likes being on call with me, but I never seem to know what’s going on in her mind. Still waters run deep.\nWeds\nDad phoned and has decided not to come on the w/e away this w/e. It is a family reunion, but it looks like it will be just our family and P’s. But the kids love meeting up with the cousins. Even A, who will no doubt complain that there should be some girl cousins. She is the only girl on both [wife]’s side of the family and mine. It is a bit worrying in that he is losing confidence in doing anything outside his normal routine. It is at times like this you realise London is not really very close. The other problem is working so many w/es doesn’t give much time for the travelling up and down to see him. \nThursday\nG was away on a course yesterday and came back full of doom and gloom. For along time we have relied on the drug sales as a substantial part of the business. There have been various government reports that have queried our monopoly, and there is a move to insist that we provide prescriptions for all the drugs, and then allow the farmers or pet owners to buy the drugs from whatever source they want: Internet, pharmacy or us. It means however that the Professional fees will inevitably have to rise to compensate. Which means it will be uneconomic for the farmers to use us. So they will not, in the present economic climate, which means no job. Carlisle, Brampton, and Dalston vets are all starting to write prescriptions which means that we are going to have to follow suit.\nThe farmer who rents my field was silaging tonight. I got back from house group, to find a tractor follow me in to start rowing up. As they had been at it all day I decided to take the gates off their hinges as it is a narrow gap, and at that time of night, a clunk against the pillar is OK, but I don’t want to have to replace my wooden gates!! They had just started to pick it up when I went to bed at 11pm, so no idea what time they finished. \nFriday\nG is off ill, help, it looked as though I might miss out on the w/e away. As he is working the w/e. But the fact it would have meant 3 w/e’s in a row and 6 nights in a row, managed to help persuade one of the assistants to step in thankfully. So I finished at lunch time and slept to catch up from the On call until the kids came home from school and set off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 25th May\nDovedale in the Derbyshire Peak District\nDefinitely should have more w/es away and not working. We had a great time with the cousins. Stayed at a farmhouse B&B, it use to be a working farm but is too high up, and to small to sustain the dairy, so they went out of that 3 yrs ago. Beef and sheep was not making any money so they have concentrated on Tourism and grass let the fields. His neighbours are now renting the land and farming it. \nBeautiful walk along the valley and had tea out. Relaxed and slept like a log.\nSunday\nGreat British Summer; makes you wonder why any one would want to go abroad!! Wet and cold so went to water world and watched the kids, big and little go flying around the flumes.\nIt was good to catch up with my brother and family. The boys would play footie all day long, and be happy.\nMonday\nOff to catch my breath and tidy up flat for tenants arriving Thursday, spent day trying to reduce the weeds in garden and went swimming at night. The boys still wanted to play footie. Where do they get their energy? If I could bottle it I would make a fortune.\nTuesday\nIt felt like hard work going back to work, after time off I always seem to be tired and head achy. It seems to be hard work to get going again, aI just don’t feel like doing anything, including writing this diary. But the good news is that we have a new booted bantie. Bertie the cockerel and he is now ensconced in his run. We are hoping to get him some young ladies in the not too distant future. He is cute and A is over the moon about him.\nWeds \nGetting going again. Spent time talking with my wife who as always puts things back in to line. Communication!!\nWent to do some pregnancy diagnosis early this morning and the farmer was complaining about the cost of his vet bill and is wanting to learn how to check cows to see if they are in calf prior to drying off. The whole economics of dairy practice with milk at 13p per litre is beginning to hit home to them. Cannot be nice starting up again, to realise that you cannot make money at doing it. One of the other vets is in really bad form this week and is causing a lot of friction and we will have to deal with it as the staff are up in arms. At least I am off tomorrow prior to working jubilee w/e. My mother in law arrived which the kids love complete with her special treats for them snowballs.\nWent out for dinner with mother in law, but too tired to enjoy it due to early morning caesarean. \nThursday\nOff \nSpent morning getting flat ready as we have new tenants moving in and clearing up while the “girls” went shopping. Dry weather but intermittent heavy showers. Tackled the long grass at front but the grass got too wet and clogged mower. \nPicked up kids and did the fatherly bit, went to bed early as head achy and washed out and caught up on zzzz’s\nFriday\nStart of the Jubilee w/e and on duty for the next 5 days until 5pm Weds evening. Work busy with bits and pieces, and farmers complaining that it is too wet to silage. One of the vets had issued a PETS export certificate for a cat to come back into UK but had put it down for 2 years not one. It is only valid for 2 years in dogs but 1 year in cats. Typical Friday afternoon problem to sort out, The Help line is closed for training and MAFF offices are closed for the BH w/e. I don’t think there is a way around it either. But will not be able to sort it out till Weds day and they are due on Ferry on Tuesday Oops.\nAlso a bitch’s owner came in to ask if we were open Tues as she is due on that date and will probably need a caesaer.\nJohnboy called in the evening wanting me to go to the “loyal” supporters meeting at Carlisle united as a spy. I’m on call so couldn’t oblige thank goodness.\n\n\nSat 1st June\nOffice staff were asking why is there only 2 vets on the whole w/e and I am beginning to feel the same, should have split it up and had more staff on, but at least the others will get a break and come back refreshed. But I feel like I am looking down the barrel of a gun.\nHorrendous calving on a heifer that was in calf by mistake, to its father. It was supposed to have gone back to its breeder but the buyer was still tied up under the twenty-day rule. The calf had died, and was gassed up. Ended up by caesaering in spite of rotten calf. 2 hours hard work and the heifer will at best be very ill for several days.\nSun 2nd June\nA day of football. Went to church and made a quick exit to watch the football, as with everyone else was quite disappointed. At Hebron at night DM had the goals, and the reactions to them on the big screen, which he linked to Romans 12 “ therefore I urge you to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, this is your act of spiritual worship.” Talking about worship to God being everything we do including how we react to how the English football team perform. Very clever and memorable way of expounding the bible.\nWent straight on to [son]’s football presentations which was quite fun. There is a real football sub culture with the amateur football clubs in Carlisle all vying for the top spot. The old pals network and animosities seem to be very prevalent\nMon 3rd June\nBusy night and early start. 2 x prolapses? Why always at a BH??\nThe second one was a wild limousin heifer it charged me and sent me flying. The only injury was a sore fist where I thumped it in the eye to try and deflect it, as I was trying to get it away. Gave me a fright. It was a ¾ heifer that was bred because he couldn’t sell it store last year because of restrictions.\nChatted to farmer who started getting up at 4:30 am during FMD, because he couldn’t sleep. He is still doing it now!! He still has not got any sheep in because he can’t face it. He lost his sheep to the cull but kept his cattle. I had started by admiring the view. He said yeah it would be great apart from the damn windmills. He has a brilliant viewing looking out over the Solway, and the Great Orton site and the windmills remind him and everyone else that their flocks are in a big pit. He says he can still see them going and feels guilty. I didn’t have the heart to tell him that of the 10,000 blood samples taken at Gt Orton only 2 were positive. A very big mistake that has caused big hurt in this area, and no one has admitted responsibility, and no one ever will.\nTues 4th June\nWatched some of the jubilee stuff on TV in between calls. Amazing sight to see the Mall full of people more than ever before. Yet Rupert Murdoch and his press would have us believe that the monarchy is finished.\nWe managed to cope with just the two of us on call so may be I was right. Also made a start on byre.\nRemind me next time we have a dinner party on a BH not to be working it. As my poor wife had 4 kids and a dinner to prepare!! I was called out to a cow Caesar at 3:30 and then had another call after that. Fortunately I had taken Tim so there was one less to fight. But got back to be told that I had to have a bath before I could help because I smelt… Evening was really good fun and hilariously funny, so even I kept going to the wrong side of midnight which after an early start was pretty good going. I will have to get Phil to do his Senator homes skit at the wedding. \nWeds 5th June\nDid not feel like getting up this am at all, and felt even less like going into work. Managed to extricate us from any problems with the cat with out its passport, there is no give in the DEFRA system, which is to be expected. Richard had a suspect FMD calf on Tuesday, no wonder he was a bit jittery when I spoke to him later on. Even though you know that it probably isn’t going to be a case and that the farmer is panicking, it still sets the butterflies flying. It was BVD. Spent over an hour and a half this morning on the phone sorting out what the AW calls “the rubbish”. Queries and being helpful and friendly, and sorting out licensing and drugs, and repeat prescriptions. One was a woman complaining about the neighbouring practice, which required a bit of tact !!!\nI think the Drs must have been as busy as us, the tally for the celebrations are 1 off ill with flu and bad back, one wrist sprained from scooter racing at a street party after all the kids had gone to bed.(!!) And one who spent the w/e visiting her boyfriend in hospital. She had said that he needed to go in on Friday but the doctors had put him off, as it was the w/e. He was worse on Sunday but had waited till after the football before ringing. Priorities, priorities\nThursday\nWent to house group which was really good and spent time praying for the group, church, area and for world situation. [friends] are trying to work out what to do in India. They are teaching at a boarding school in the south of India and have both their own family, and also the school kids to think about. The consensus is that the foreign office advice is aimed more at the Indian and Pakistani govts than the UK Nationals. Ian is supposed to be visiting and has a flight booked so is still going at the moment. I really cant believe that they would escalate the situation, but it will be tit for tat and then going to the brink as neither will want to break face. The ramifications of Sept 11th still keep reverberating around the world, as the balance of power alters. Makes FMD look like a picnic. At least we have stable govt that says it abides by the laws.\nFriday\nThe secretary asked this morning what did I want, meaning tea or coffee and I replied as I had prayed “wisdom.” But with 2 sugars.\nWe had a difficult partners meeting that lunch time. Poor timing and priorities again as England was playing!! I had assumed they would lose! But the meeting went well and the issues were discussed amicably enough and frankly enough so we all know where we are at, and issues were addressed.\nBut as James says not only about asking for wisdom but also putting it into action.\nAt night leant on the fence and talked to the neighbour as the thistles I was supposed to be cutting down carried on growing, but it was a nice evening. He works for STL, the Christian book distributors, he was saying how the fire that they had just after he arrived at the time seemed a disaster and caused chaos. But it made them make decisions that had to be made rather than continuing with the status quo, and in hind sight was a very good thing. I wonder when we look back whether the changes and opportunities of FMD will make us appreciate the decisions we have all had to make. \nIt made me think of the woman who came in today saying she was one of the “..lucky ones who didn’t get FMD”. Very much tongue in cheek as they are much worse off than those who did. She gave up her job as they couldn’t sell the calves as they were born and so some one had to look after them, so she went back home to work on the farm. Her job of course has been filled in the mean time, and she would have made a lot more money for less hassle if she had stayed.\n\n\nSat 8th June\nFinished the long period of work and On call on Sat morning and it came down with heavy showers as we had hoped to climb Helvellyn today. It eased some what at night which was just as well as we were going to a BBQ. It was put on by a S African vet from DEFRA who is now working in Longtown. The last time I drove through to Charlie and Ruth’s who were hosting the BBQ, was when the pyres were all burning. It gave me a funny feeling driving back up there. \nThe food was good and the craic was good, so we had a good time. The kids would have kept going but they were beginning to get high!! The midges once you get north of the border are definitely worse. We all had lumps all over in the morning.\nSun 9th\nSB spoke at church on Jesus healing the blind man at Pool of Siloam. He was very easy to follow.\n[friends] called in and stayed for tea. [he] as usual blunt and controversial as ever!! He always has a good insight, and dresses it up in taking things to extremes, he is also very funny with it so had a good meal.\n[son] is as high as a kite as he is going camping with the school this week so he has all his kit ready to go and would not settle to go to sleep and kept the other boys awake.\nMon 10th\nPouring down in time for the school camp at Borrowdale. Never mind they’ll enjoy it any way. 3 farms have had silage pits burst because the grass has been put in too wet. If silage is made when the grass is too wet it flows very slowly and cannot support its own weight. So it bursts the side walls and will flow out of the heap that it has been put in. If there is plenty of effluent coming off it will usually escape from the normal collecting systems and if it gets into the becks, it is worse than slurry. Hunters stream was black with effluent and the environment agency were out testing the water quality so they will be for the high jump. The contractors are so far behind, and the grass is getting so long and bulky that it doesn’t dry out as quickly. So there may well be a few more, but at least the farmers will have had warning so it will be their own fault.\nThe school kids are back for their work experience week. It must be hard for them to follow what is going on. But they seem to enjoy them selves. The worksheets definitely help to give some structure and a feel for what is going on.\nCrusaders meeting at night pretty disappointing response so not a lot we can do.\nTues 11th \n June workload has set in and I’m just cruising, and managed to get to the gym while on first so feel full of energy. Why do you feel full of energy after expending some? Spent half an hour on net trying to get holiday organised but finding places for 6 is not as easy. The weather is better for [son] camping and should be better until the w/e. Means we will hopefully be quiet at work as they all go out into the fields. \nWeds 12th\nNo calls over night. First time since finishing with Defra not had a call at night. Summer is truly here. There was a call just on half time at 8.15 which I did during the break so got to see the second half and England drew 0-0, but are through t o the next round. Caught up on paper work and have sorted a lot of things so they are in place for the 2 new vets.\nThurs 13th\nMeeting with Bank Manager for executive lunch.. sandwiches from Bells.\nHe asked how was the “new normality” . Which seems an excellent phrase. He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably He seemed happy enough but it is always interesting to see how an outsider views the information given!! The problem is usually knowing the questions to ask. I think that is probably true of the inquiries into FMD. Unless you know the questions you will not get the right answers.\nWent Abseiling up at Sandale with the house group from church and had a BBQ. It would have been nicer if the wind hadn’t howled. I had gone prepared for British summer weather but it was still pretty nippy. It was great fun.\nFri\nRead another test that had IR s for TB. (Inconclusive) that will have to be retested in 60 days. While I was writing up the paper work the farmer’s wife was saying that the kids were all off school and nursery with Hand foot and mouth. She had taken the youngest who was ill with the middle kid to the doctor. The doctor had said what it was and the middle kid burst into tears as he thought they were going to take her baby brother outside and shoot him!! It is funny but also very sad.\nThe same farmer was really fed up as the cows were all supposed to be TB tested prior to arriving on the farm. He had also let them out into a long 5 acre field with the water troughs at the far end of the field. Half the cows had not found the trough, and so were very thirsty by the time they came back at milking time. The idea that you just go and replace the cows just like that is not quite the case.\n\n\nSat 15th June\nSaturday morning spent it Gardening. The strawberries are coming and even though the gooseberries aren’t quite ripe picked some to start the harvest, and the one strawberry that was reddish!\nThen went to visit [friend] (and the wide screen TV) for THE football match. No one expected any more English progress but the lads surprised me and played a stormer. So the game against Brazil will become THE match.\nThe practice BBQ in watery June sunshine was good fun but the ground was too wet to play silly games or even footie. The food was excellent. AW was notable by her absence. Hey ho. BBQ is in need of a revamp, maybe abseiling though I don’t think I can see either R or AW going for it. Showed S around flat and met her parents. Remind me to be wise with my kids!!\nSun \nFelt tired and ill and washed out after slowing down and switching off after a busy day yesterday, and all week. Watched the Ireland match which was very close. Spent rest of day sleeping or just chilling out.\nMon \nWent testing at K and T’d. They are really nice lads but not too hot on the academic front but good fun. They were in good form and hoping to get the low down on the new vets… Yes they are young, free and single as far as I know! I pity their chances.. Spent a lazy day in the sun at a gentle pace, so quite enjoyed myself. Caught up with the paperwork at night and feel mellow.\nTuesday\nToo many O’s. One call was cancelled but the other one still wanted the call. So some one went to the wrong O and I had to make a mad dash and pour oil on the waters to explain why we are so late. Oops. So more Testing and a Quiet day. [wife] also had her quiet day. There was supposed to be a group of them going for a retreat day, but the speaker had cancelled so she did it herself with R and it went very well. She was exhausted after giving out all day. Met up with lads at night. Didn’t get to gym again as I had to go and calve a schistasoma. Yuk.\nWeds\nTried again to work out what we are going to do with Summer holidays, no doubt we will get organised eventually. Came home early for lunch and had forgotten that it was coffee morning here so felt out of place amongst so many women! Skipped off early and went for a cycle to make up for missing gym. Did first part with A and Annie and then zipped around for a bit which was good. \nThursday\nK and T had an I/R again. I need a new supply of little green forms. To put this in context. Prior to this year in 16 years in practice I have had 4 I/R’s, I am doing that this week!! So another farm under restrictions.\nFriday\nBad Hair day!! England lost !! Och well never mind such is life. Richard Drummond’s report that the SVS was unprepared, (yeah we had all been saying it, but I did not realise that the SVS had been saying it 2 years ago) has been picked up by the Audit Office. There is a Report case of FMD in a pig from Leicester Mkt. And I had another I/R. And met with JM a temporary Vet with Carlisle SVS on why we had not done the tests allocated. Mostly cos they aren’t to do!! He also was very cynical about the changes in DEFRA, and the management ethos, has not changed. \n\tHe brought a message back from them that the test we had sent back because the guy is an old recluse that is impossible to deal with, we had to do as they did not have the resources. What!!??? They are responsible for ensuring that they are done, and sorting out the recalcitrant. \nHad the afternoon off and ran round after the kids while [wife] did reports.\nNext week must be better…\n\n\nSat 22nd June\nWedding day for D and S. Yippee.\nD and his best man and usher plus 3 others arrived last night, and it was really nice to have young people around again. I have forgotten how much I enjoy young people. I must be getting too old and cynical. C looked after our boys and A went into town. It was really nice S could not stop smiling and it is Wigton carnival day so there were two pipe bands as well. Which could be heard drifting over the vows. was in his kilt, I should have got mine on for the occasion. The reception was at Tullie house, which is a really nice relaxed venue. We were seated opposite [friends] so it was really nice catching up with them. B&D are just back from another wedding in Vancouver and really impressed with BC. |They are out doors fanatics so the skiing mountains and whistler really is their thing.\nBarnes who was looking after the kids at night is going out there for his gap year to work in a book shop. Should be really great for him.\nThere was a celeidh in the evening but I only lasted for 3 dances. I was absolutely exhausted. I didn’t realise how tired I was. \nSunday\nFortunately it was a family service ie doesn’t start until 11;00!\nIt was lead by the young adults group. So was really fresh and good. They also don’t take themselves too seriously but do take Jesus seriously and it was good.\nMonday\nMissed swimming again, cos work was really busy.\nCrusaders meeting at night at Rydal very good. Met up with some of the leaders I haven’t met before. Folk who work with young people are always good fun and have a wicked sense of humour. Do you need one to do youth work or does youth work give you one?\nTuesday\nDiary did not get filled in from here on as on Weds Morning I reached into back of the car and my back went. I tore muscles in it a long time ago and it often niggles but as long as I keep doing the exercises for stretching and building up the muscles it is OK but I have missed doing the swimming? Relevant?\nAny way saw stars and in agony so flat on my back and stretching every 2 hrs and sore.\n\n\nSaturday 29th June\nMy back is slowly improving I can move around and type!!\nI can do the stretching OK but stiff and achy, rather than spasm.\nWork must have been bad for the two left as it was going to be short staffed with out me dropping out. Nothing I can do about it. The new vet called around to look at the flat before moving in a month’s time. She came with her mother. Their farm was culled out with FMD late on and they had just got the herd to where they wanted the breeding. Her mum was talking about it was going through a grieving period, and how some days it was yes carry on and get going again, and other days it was why bother? It is just all too much hassle. It will take a long time for the memories in the farming community to fader, and with the acknowledgement that it was much better to get the disease and get it over with, the cooperation of farmers will be even less. They are the 17th generation on the farm!! The whole concept of bio security needs to be looked at and farmer education on how the disease is spread. The self-imposed isolation of not sending kids to school etc is just stupid but to go against the flow is very difficult. That as well as the DEFRA imposed ridiculous rules. They were not allowed to leave the house for 3 months. They just view this as a punishment imposed because they refused to let the hefted flock be culled. (They were right not to.) \nThe old tenants have moved out of the cottage. Eddie and Ruth seemed to really enjoy it as a summer holiday while at work!! A change is as good as a rest so they say. \nI have looked at jobs again but nothing appeals. There is a job which I wouldn’t mind doing as a consultancy but doubt anything will come. Will have to wait and continue to see what happens.\nWent out for a meal to Giannis at night as my Dad is up. For the w/e. \nSunday\nP spoke at Family Focus at church and was very encouraging he is always a revelation as he takes things as they are, not as they should be!\nWatched Brazil beat Germany to win the world cup. Wet weather and kids out of sorts and back still sore. Yuk..\nMonday\nDrove for the first time and dropped my Dad off in Carlisle but it was pretty sore by the time I got back. Dad was in good form and he has enjoyed his time up here but he is getting older, and with being in London we are going to have to visit on a more regular basis. Went into work and did some paper work and answered phone and felt better for doing sthg, as pretty bored, but couldn’t sit still or really get going either. Came home and lay down again.\nD came around at night called in absolutely hyper. He and A going to split up which is not so good even if it is not that un expected. The thing that has brought to a head is the fact A is seeing some one else, who is also married, not a good situation.\nLads came around at night, which was good fun, and we had a good time.\nTuesday\nI am now the father of a teenager. A’s b’day so it was good to see her opening her presents this morning. Back is easing a lot so did small animal today and I am moving freely but still doing the exercises. A’s birthday is also always a time for reflection as she was born a year to the day after we arrived in Cumbria. So we have been here 14 years, a long time. The future is also looking a bit uncertain work wise with more farmers complaining about the prices of their milk and animals. Hence they don’t want to pay their bills. \nWeds to Saturday\nAs usual the diary gets missed when the crisis hits, so I am writing this on the following Tuesday and bringing the diary entries up to date. \nWeds morning I was driving through Wigton having done my first farm call since doing my back when there were lots of flashing lights and an ambulance and an unmarked police car with all its lights on going through Wigton. They stopped at the lay by in Wigton high St. The traffic was slow but I did not see anything. Later on I was coming back in to Wigton from another call and the By pass was closed. The office was full of news that the by pass had been closed because of a stabbing and that a Welshman and a Wigton woman had been taken to hospital and a Wigton man had been arrested for attempted murder. I got a sinking feeling as D had been around on Monday saying about Ali having a boy friend. I said to [wife] but she said surely not. I got back after work and a friend arrived and unfortunately it was D. The story emerged over the next few days how he had forced his wife at knife point to take him to where she was meeting the boyfriend and there he attacked him. The sort of story you only here about in the papers and crime programmes. So we have had the police taking statements and trying to come to terms with it. He is usually a mild almost submissive personality and he had flipped but really weird. \nThey have 3 girls who are now going to be really mixed up. Having a father who attempts to kill their mother is not nice.\nSo I missed the leaving party for the locum who has been working for us for the past few months which by all accounts was very good. \n\n\nSaturday 6th July\nStill in shell shock over D and A, I still cannot believe what has happened. Went in Saturday morning and sorted my car and got testing list up to date. There is a lot in the Veterinary press about the future of the LVI system and the future of Farm animal practice. The future is not looking good. The short term is fine, if anything we will have a huge amount of work and we can live off the FMD capital that the farmers have. But once that begins to run out, they and we will be in serious difficulties. The economics are against the farm animal practice.\nWent out for a brilliant meal and had a really good evening at C’s. Her husband is a Detective Sgt and had been called out because there was yet another serious incident. This time at a night club in Cockermouth. There is a 22 year old in Newcastle hospital with head injuries. So felt sorry for C as she cooked and hostessed with out her better half.\nSunday\nChurch was good with SG on the character of God. He was quite funny with his illustrations, of fatherly things from his life. Espy as his son is quite a character. Met up with DC who was a DEFRA vet from SA, he was in good form and has another locum set up for when he finishes at Longtown. \nMonday\nBack into full swing again, but not much happening. Read the test and felt a lot happier as I didn’t have to leave the dreaded piece of green paper as everything passed. Of the farms I went on though it was interesting to note that the farmers are all having problems with their backs again. While they were pressure washing and not amongst stock they were fine but going back to pushing animals around the bad backs are back! The topic is probably raised because of the fact I have been off with a bad back. Du. called in as he is replacing D on the railway until they can get something sorted on a more permanent basis. He stayed for 2 years next door while doing his railtrack training. The people at work cannot believe that Dave has done sthg like this as he usually if anything a submissive guy. \nDu. had just got the keys to his new house in Manchester where he is based now, and was not very happy to be posted back up to Cumbria. He hasn’t even managed to move in!\nTuesday.\nWork very quiet and long lunches. Good for getting other things done but pretty boring. Looked at Rota and checked websites. Reports to be published on 18th July. Spent time sorting out rotas and booking up and reorganising my kit.\nWeds\nDay off. Went into Carlisle and was bounced by my wife in to getting my hair cut in what I assume is an expensive hairdressers. She was getting hers done and dragged me in and it was a fait accompli. At least I assume it is expensive, as she won’t tell me how much it is and she let me go off to Tesco’s and said she would pay for both!! \nWandered around book shop in Carlisle and met [wife]’s mum off the bus. \nThe vet student from USA arrived for a couple of days. Jamie who is not as I assumed male but female! It is amazing how you make assumptions when you read e-mails and take messages. She is in UK for 12 wks and [friend] has given her our address as his wife is about to have twins so he thought it better not to have more people than really necessary in his house. There are a few babies at the moment, got a photo of E this morning and [friend] called around to say [other friends] had had a baby but he couldn’t remember whether it was a boy or a girl!! (Learnt later it is a boy)\nThursday\nNot a lot for J to see. Called in to see [friend’s] new kittens, Posh & Becks. Both have cat flu. He is busy painting house and tidying up for the wedding. Never seen his yard as tidy. Must tell Abbi to get a move on and maybe he will finish off some of the building work as well!! Did 2 calvings in the afternoon and finally read through the Audit office report which I downloaded ages ago, they were pretty accurate, apart from Nick Brown insisting it was all going splendidly well!! There really must be a better working relationship between the ministry SVS vets and the vets in general practice. And so much better communication. The other point that is never made is that all farms should have a mass disposal plan as part of their IACS return in order to keep FMD on peoples minds, as it is already disappearing as a part of history. And history will repeat itself because nobody listens. And most of the anguish and delays were in the disposal systems. \nFriday\nDropped J off in Wigton to catch the train. It is always strange with having students, because they stay in our house they are very much part of our lives and then they drop out of our lives. Another former student who is just back from SA called in and it was good to catch up with her. She was on her way back to Edinburgh for her 5-year reunion. He has been qualified 5 years and I thought it was 2 or three … \nOne of the vets was off ill so it meant a bit of a run around today, as 2 others were on holiday. but it was good to be busy and get some adrenalin pumping.\n\n\nSaturday 13th July\nWorking Saturday Morning.\nOn days like this I think it is great to be a small animal vet, the Consults were all straight forward and I could chat to the owners with out having to stop and think what to do about the animals. That and 2 owners were really appreciative of what I was doing so felt good. I think that is one of the things about working for DEFRA no one appreciated what you were doing. OK some appreciated the concern and effort, and the way you did it but no one really thought what you were doing was good. Like putting pets down. It is for the best but no one likes it.\nBeautiful day today too, the sun shining and picking strawberries and having a Bar B Q was really very pleasant. My brother always says the best thing about NZ where he lives is that he can plan to have a Barb in 2 wks time, whereas here, you have to go with the flow.\nSun 14th\nFirst call so wandered around seeing ill cows. Several lots of drugs to put out as a lot for the restocking farms have yet to get their medicine cabinets back up to strength. Had a collie hit by a tractor and its eye had been knocked out of its socket. Urgh!! Eyes give me the creeps.\nMon 15th\nOperating day as we are doing the anaesthetic monitoring so plenty of ops booked in. Health and safety requires us to check for operator exposure to anaesthetic gases. As our new system has a scavenging system and is light years ahead of the one we use to have, it is a waste of time, but we have to have the checks done. But I wonder how many other practices actually do?\nWe have never been checked up upon. \nA police man arrived at the front desk while I was on the phone. The head nurse disappeared as soon as she saw the marked Police car, which struck me as very suspicious. After he had booked an appointment for his dog and he had left. I was curious to know where she had disappeared to. She had gone to check that the medicines cabinet, where we keep the gun, and dangerous drugs, was in fact locked. As while we are operating we keep it open so as to have easy access to the emergency drugs. The Gun licences insist that it is kept locked at all times and immediate access to a police officer coming to check it must be allowed. And we never been checked up upon yet.!! Farmers are all busy with field work and are not wanting to even think about any routine work so it could be a quiet week.\nTuesday 16th\nBeautiful weather and raspberries coming along nicely.\n[wife]’s Mum is busy making jam and mile high pies. Yum Yum\nPartners meeting at lunchtime, why do they always make me so depressed!? \nThe subjects were more of the same how do we cope with the changes in the drug sales prices and how do we compete with Irish drugs being brought in illegally. We got a little further forward and will hopefully be able to make a decision on it by the deadline in September. We need to look at new ways of bringing in revenue streams but I don’t think there is a willing ness to look at the radical so I will have to keep working away at it. \nWeds 17th\nMet up with the lads last night to pray but the craic was good, and did more chat and joking than praying! T’was good. I is apparently having a good time at the CS Lewis convention, but has yet to open the Book stall\n(He sells books and specialises in Antiquarian and first editions of C.S. Lewis). The one thing about the internet is that it frees up communication and searching for the really obscure. Sorry I)\nThe weather broke today and the rain came and with it all the calls as the farmers got all the routine stuff done. Which was good for the last of the school kids which have plagued us for the past few weeks. Vet students next but at least they can chat away with out me having to make all the effort.\nThurs 18th\nWent o a farm today which restocked in Feb after doing its 4 months waiting and has yet to have a TB test, asked him whether I should chase it up but he like everyone else should be leaving it to October and housing. MAFF efficiency rules. We also tested 44 imported heifers that were supposed to be blood sampled within 7 days of calving but they have been missed. I have no confidence in either of the reports to actually achieve anything. Part of me feels I should try to contact the media and try to get them to push the agenda along. But I don’t feel it would achieve much apart from sticking my head above the parapet, which would not do much. I have asked for copies but none have arrived yet.\nFri 19th\nDemob happy, I’m on holiday from 5:30pm so it will be good to catch up on all the things I should have done but not done. The garden is a mess but we are getting on top of it slowly. In some ways I am glad to be off when the LLI is reporting as at least I will not get wound up.\nSo this is me signing off for the week, next diary will be on Sat week.\n\n\nHOLIDAY - Week beginning Saturday 20th July\n\n\nSaturday 27th July\nHaving had a week off, I am feeling a lot happier about life in general. We have been to a few of the nights at the Keswick Convention. It is an amazing set up with over 12,000 people coming together over 3 weeks in Keswick and meeting up for Bible teaching and to worship God. There is a big tent that is set up on the back of the convention centre. By the time we arrive, it is always full, and we were not late. On the Friday evening there were people standing outside. The kids went to a Youth event on of all things Ezekiel, not exactly an easy choice of Bible book to convey to 19-14 yr olds. But they really enjoyed the wacky games and the way they mixed teaching and songs and games/activities. They seemed to be mostly uni students who seemed to get as much fun out of it as the kids. My brother and family were up and the cousins love getting together and even A joined in the football and tennis. Even though her hand to eye co-ordination is not the best.\nShe has taken up running every day so I have been out with her, but my back is still not right and I can feel it at the slightest provocation. Must go swimming again. My brother also asked [wife] what DIY needed doing as he is a real enthusiast. Give me gardening any time. So we made a door for one of the sheds which I have been putting off for the past 6 years. As once I start there are another 5 to do. He is also a sailing fan so hired a sail boat and went sailing which was great fun. The kids had a canoe and we raced up and down the lake. And the kids swapped around and went to explore islands it was really good. The weather helped it was scorching.\nWe also went to a wedding of one of our close friends’ son. I decided I am going to start teaching my kids the etiquette of weddings, as the groom could have done a better job.\nIt isn’t really his fault as he is young and has not thought things out.\nSun\nWent to the All age service at the tent at Keswick. There were too many kids even for me, but the mix of action songs and asking kids things and an action talk meant that those leading it kept the kids involved. It was good to see. Spent the afternoon on the lake it was really nice day.\nMon\nYep it was a real Monday morning with my in tray over flowing. 2 Rota’s to sort and 2 weeks of testing to try to arrange. The only goodish news was that the ministry have finally decided to put the restocking farms on Annual testing which means at least we know where we stand and can plan. It will mean a lot of work for us. The bad news was that the OFT investigation have sent us a horrific questionnaire which needs filled in and one of my partners has had a go and not got very far unfortunately, and it needs to be in by tomorrow. Forget it.!!\nThe 2 new vets have started and so we are settling them in and they are picking up the ropes quite quickly, which is ace.\nOn call at night, out twice for bad calvings….that’s the end of my holiday f\nfeeling good. \nTuesday\nSore back from calvings and early mornings. Had forgotten I had arranged for some one to be with me all day today. In a moment of weakness I had acquiesced to being put up for sale in a promise auction to raise money for African Children’s Choir. So this was the promise being redeemed. A morning with the vet….So I put on my best charming manner, all Mr PR-Man. And took her on a tour of the practice and on call and explained everything I was doing so it was a good thing we were not busy.\nSpent the afternoon consulting and supervising new vets and showing them the ropes.\n Weds\nWe were suppose to be going walking up Helvellyn but the torrential rain put us off. So went into Carlisle and did bits and pieces, and I took kids to see Stuart Little 2, which is definitely one for the kids. And jobbed around at home, but the kids like it when we just potter around.\nThursday \nFelt really stiff and sore and decided again I must go swimming more often, I just cannot seem to get there, that’s all. Must make time. I’m working this w/e and I am then off for 10 days. Finishing with F’s wedding. [friends?] are up with their kids and it is really good to see them. We don’t see them that often but they are the sort of friends who you pick up on as soon as you meet them even if you haven’t seen them for ages. M has left full time teaching as he couldn’t cope with the pressure of all the paper work and hassle. He is teaching supply and doing other things as well. He is so creative and he has made a model of our house just while he was sitting chatting with us. \nFriday\nCame home at lunchtime to see the kitchen table covered in drawings and paintings. M had decided to have a painting day so all the kids were doing drawings and paintings. He has done a watercolour of our house. It is brilliant. \n\n\nHOLIDAY for two weeks\nThis is more a reflection of what I have been doing and thinking over the summer as I have not been writing up the diary but I want to put down some of the things that I think are important.\n[edited – disclosive]\n\n\n\nSat 24th Aug \nAnother Bank Holiday w/e to be worked but at least I am backing up our new young assistant. We work a system where the new vets have a senior vet on call at the same time for the first few months so as to give them a hands on support and mentoring. While this sounds very good and practical it is surprisingly uncommon. When I started I was on my own from almost day one. I started in August after getting married, and in the second week of September, my boss headed off to Oman to do horse work out there. The other large animal vet was off on long term sick and he could only get a small animal locum. When I look back now that he left me in charge of the farm practice for 2 weeks after only being a month qualified, I shudder, but at the time I just got on with it. \nSun 25th \nCalvings coming thick and fast. The good warm weather has made the grass spring and the cows are putting on too much weight and having problems.\nJ was at a football tournament at Pirelli’s which I missed, but he came back really tired having played his socks off. Did another PTS (Put to sleep) dog visit with [assistant vet]. It is never the easiest of consults, and she did really well. She is finding her feet. I find it hard helping people make euthanasia decisions over dogs, so I feel quite strongly anti euthanasia when it comes to people.\nMon 28th \nBeautiful day too nice to work. The morning was busy but the afternoon was quiet so I spent it lying in the sun dozing. Had BBQ at night at J’s and chatted to a few folk who I know but not to speak to so was interesting. Spoke to one of our farmers daughters who told me her Dad had just had his first calf since FMD and so he was really happy. He had 2 holdings which were run as one. He managed to keep his heifers which were on the second holding. Probably because they were the last ones in the area, and these were the ones that were now calving. He still blames the pyre from a neighbour for spreading the virus to his farm.\nTuesday 27th\nThe problem with having a day off is that you have problems stored up for when you come back. Today was really hectic…finished at 6-30 after having come back from the Belgian blue inspections to help out at surgery. The inspections were fun, but it gave me the creeps being in the mart and inspecting mouths as it brought back bad memories. The mart is ridiculously clean, and the last time I inspected mouths was for FMD, after shooting a herd that was a dangerous contact. I was trying to persuade London not to take out the other neighbour as well. We got finished at 2am, and went in for a cup of tea and to recover, and the mother greeted me with the news that D had been next door and was starting to shoot them!!\nThe other really annoying thing is that the basic hygiene is not being enforced and yet other rules are. The rules are made in London by desk bound DEFRA officials who don’t have to implement them. The mart uses mini dumper trucks to clean out the pens after they have been sold. The same trucks are then used to put out straw and sawdust in the freshly cleansed and disinfected yards. They are covered in muck, and are a bio hazard!! \nM the owner of the animals we were inspecting put on her usual tantrum display to try and intimidate the secretary and inspectors, which as I was expecting it I found quite amusing, but I don’t think she or they did!! \nHad another BBQ tonight with kids. [son] cooked and loved it so I have found a new BBQer!! Kids in brilliant form as they are enjoying being around and A has been baking.\nWeds 28th\nAnother TB reactor, and the corresponding paper work and licensing!!\nHad a weird oddball case in surgery and spent ages trying to take a history of what was going on. The dog is not that unwell in itself, but has an intermittent history of different things. I look forward to seeing what it turns out to be, or whether it resolves itself with time. Vetting is always varied.\nJ was at [friend’s] party, after having a football school with Blackburn rovers this morning so he was passed himself.\nArranged to visit [prisoner in prison] on my next day off. And went through a multitude of meaningless options to end up with a guy who sounded like he came straight off “Porridge”. It is amazing how intimidating trying to find your way around a bureaucracy can be. I am not sure I want to go but….\nThurs 29th \nFrom feast to famine not much work during the day at least. Al had 3 caesareans last night and was running out of steam by 5 O’clock this afternoon!!\nMeanwhile I did small animals and tried to organise my trip to London to visit my Dad. Found web sites for Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, London Eye and Madam Tussards. So should be able to book in advance if tickets are left for the half term week.\n[other children] are staying so the house is full of excited kids…\nFriday 30th\nBusy day sorting out the invitations to our Open Day, 1st Oct. It is just a chance to get the farmers together. We promised one to celebrate the end of FMD. It is amazing going through the list off the computer how many farms are not restocked. The list hasn’t been updated since pre FMD as we don’t really know how many will restock so we have been waiting for the end of FMD to redo it. So there were a few deaths, sales and ‘moved away’, to take off the list.\nTime moves on.\n\n\nSat 31st August\nLast w/e of the summer holidays. We had a BBQ at lunch time for Borderline, and then I promised to take the boys camping at Bowscale Tarn .It was beautiful but really cold. The weather was OK Sat but Sunday was glorious. The boys wakened at first light. So we climbed up on to the tops while the sun was still rising and it was one of those magical moments. Wonderful.\nThe boys were so excited and full of energy and so happy to be with their Dad and enjoying life. A time to treasure.\nSun \nAfter coming down off the tops from Bowscale Tarn went to visit [friends]. [He] is a vet in Longtown and has just set up his own Small animal practice in the north of Carlisle. The twins who are now 4 weeks old were wonderful. There is always sthg very special about wee babies. A was in her element with two to mother.\nMon\nGood weather continuing and so we are still quiet. The vet student has arrived. Went blood-sampling sheep for Maedi visna to a farmer who imports and sells sheep as a bit of a dealer. Between him and his Dad, and his Granddad they have 4 holding numbers, which is making a mockery of the licensing system. He knows a lot of the breeders and dealers, and the Yorkshire DEFRA is even worse than this one and so the whole licensing system is allegedly being ignored there.\nEveryone in the office was trying to work out where we are going to go for the Xmas party as it is now September.\n\nTuesday\nIt is [friend’s?] last day at work tomorrow before the wedding so the girls spent most of the afternoon printing out posters and things to decorate his car before he goes tomorrow evening. The farmers are phoning in to book Tb tests for Nov and Dec as they know that we will be busy, which makes life a lot easier for me. We have sent out notes with the invitations to the open day and that has had a good response so we will start to get busy testing next week.\nWeds\nDay off. Spent the morning fixing the shower drainage, which had suffered from one too many footballs being kicked against it. The problem was the broken part was also a metric to imperial converter.( One end was 40mm and the other was 43mm) Which once I discovered that was what I needed meant a trip to Carlisle as nowhere in Wigton had it. So it got codged up with plenty of silicone!! \nThe afternoon was spent going to visit [prisoner]. He is the friend who stabbed his wife’s boyfriend in Wigton, and so he is currently residing at Her Majesty’s Pleasure in Durham Prison. It was a very disheartening experience. As with any organisation, it takes time to work out where to go and what you need to get through the hoops. I went from one part of the prison to another and backwards and forwards. The staff where very friendly and helpful, but they are all at fixed stations and so you are sent from one area to another. The security, although expected and natural, still comes as a bit of a shock. Photographed in, and issued with a barcode to get you in and out. And you put all your belongings in a locker before you are allowed in. Of course I did not realise that you only need the ID (Passport) to get your bar code so I kept it to show at the entrance. Where all I needed was the bar code. So they sent me back to put it in the locker. \n[prisoner] was Ok, but he is still finding it hard to think about a future that does not include his wife. Even though the divorce papers are filed, and he has done some pretty nasty things to her and the boyfriend. He is pleading guilty and is expecting to go down for a good few years. \nThe whole visitors area was charged with emotion, with people coming to see brothers, husbands, lovers. There were lots of girls with young children coming to see their Dads. I felt very sad for them and for the kids who are growing up with out a Dad, or the stigma of a Dad in jail. \n[His] kids have written but he is realistic. His wife is very anti him, and they are unlikely to keep up with him in the long term, as she at best, is not going to be supportive, at worst is going to try to dissuade them.\nHe was quite upset about that. He is also not able to sort out his things, or see his house before it is sold. He did a lot of building work etc on it and has an emotional attachment to it. But there is no real closure. He had emotional problems before all this. He is likely to have even more on his release. His car on which there is still a car loan has been removed from the pound but he doesn’t know where it is.\nDrove back over A66 very thoughtful and thankful for my family and freedom. Until the phone went to remind me I was On Call and had I forgotten. Fortunately there were no calls as it takes quite a while to get from Barnard Castle to Wigton. Oops!!\nThursday\nDid my first isolation pens inspection, which is a complete non-sense. The field has to be 50 m from any other livestock. Which in London probably sounds fine. Or in Scotland where there are plenty of woods and other crops, but here in Cumbria where the main crop is grass and all the fields are grazed at this time of year, then it is not so easy. The forms are horrendous, and the boxes to be filled in are greyed out to make it easy for you to know which boxes are to be filled in. This obviously looks really good on a computer screen in London, but on a photocopy, writing in black ink, makes the whole thing illegible. But that’s their problem!!! When does common sense come in.\nFriday 6th September\n[colleague’s] Wedding.\nOne of the vets at the practice was married today at the parish church in Wigton. The wedding was “some do..” He and his family in kilts. There were over 200 at the wedding and reception. At the Grennhill hotel where [bride’s] uncle is a director. The theme was an English rode and Scottish thistle. The flowers were all red roses in arrangements with thistles. They were beautiful. As was the bride, he quickly adds. There was a ceilidh afterwards and a fireworks display. Several of the neighbouring farmers complained to me the next day.\nDanced and talked the night away till after 2 am. Getting up the next day was a bit of a pain for morning surgery, urgh…\n\n\nSat 7th September\nWhy is it whenever you could do with a quiet day because of one reason or another it is always busiest. Managed to keep going most of the day with calvings and ill animals. Still recovering from the late night at wedding.\nDay was a bit of a wash out really.\nSunday.\nMilk fever at 7 am to finish me off so missed church but went to hear SC at Wigton in evening. He is head of Oasis trust and is very much a radical, but believes in putting faith into action and was very challenging. Isiah 58.. True fasting that God wants to spend your self on behalf of the poor in spirit. \n[wife] went to hear the new Bishop of Carlisle who was speaking at Hebron. He is reaching out to all the local churches and seems to see outside the traditional denominational boundaries, which is really encouraging.\nMonday\nHad a crusaders meeting in Rydal. Crusaders is a youth group organisation and I am on the area planning group. We have had money given in a legacy to support some one full time to train leaders, to organise area events and w/e away and other joint activities, which should be good. It meant a rush and a long day so I am still feeling knackered from the w/e.\nTuesday\nI was almost speechless today. The great era of decentralisation has hit DEFRA, I wish… I rang them up because we still have not had confirmation for the appointments of our 2 new vets to enable them to do DEFRA work. What used to happen was that they went to a training session and chat with the DVM in Carlisle and the appointments arrived 2 days later. Guess what all the paper work has to be sent to Page St in London now, and they have not got it back yet.\nWeds 11 09 02\nIt is funny how some anniversaries effect you and others do not. I had just started back in to the practice when the hijackers crashed into the pentagon and the twin towers. I was feeling at my most bruised and battered having had a major confrontation at DEFRA, and had to work through the psychological problems of being threatened and sidelined, and yet wanting to keep my integrity by not reacting and blowing people out of the water. \nThe 9 11 bombers made me realise how fragile peace is, and how fragile people are and the importance of not losing sight of the important things in life and trying to keep things in perspective. People are more important, friends and family… and if I can’t fight the civil service mentality that is their problem not mine. I remember seeing one of the teacher’s husbands walking in to the kids’ school when I went to pick them up. Looking slumped and dejected and learning that their only son was in New York and they could not reach him. 2 days later they heard he had visited the Twin towers the day before and had taken photos from the top. He was supposed be going back into the towers that morning but he had got up late and by the time he and his friends set off the towers had been hit. The impact of the number of people, who have either been in or visited the towers from all over the world, does make it a potent symbol with worldwide resonance. My sister worked in them for a while several years ago.\nThe anniversary brought a lot back up to the surface that I thought was past, but was merely hidden.\nThursday \nFirst on last night and 2nd on tonight so started early and finished late and running out of steam.\nFriday\nOne of the farmer’s wives came in today for some wormers for her chickens that have gape worm. She paid last months bill in cash as well as for the wormers. £8.76 inc VAT. She is working away from the farm 2 days a week, her husband is full time at a job he got after they went down with FMD.I asked how her father in law who is 65 was doing. He is lost and the farm is too quit, its not right its too quiet. They still have no animals back and are grass letting. Its funny she said, whoosh and your life takes a complete change, you never know what’s going to happen next.\n\n\nSat 14th September\nWorked am and then had rest of w/e off hooray.\nSunday\nMonday\n[son]’s footie\nTuesday\nPartnership meeting at lunchtime so had a sore head by the end of the day but a lot of good decisions made. So feel as though we a re moving forward.\nWeds\nOff as working the w/e so caught up on paperwork and stuff at home and then went into Carlisle to go shopping. For lots of bits and pieces. And a new bathroom.\nThursday\nDVM called in to update us. Waste of time and I had forgotten what an annoying man he is a real career civil servant bureaucrat who has forgotten what real life is about. If he ever knew.\nHad one of the vets around for tea as I was backing her up. Spent the evening playing take two and had fun.\nFriday\n---a very bad day at the office dear oh dear oh dear.\nThe day was great to start with headed down to Iselgate to see a lame bull to give it a certificate. They are still suffering from both the financial and emotional scars of FMD. Mind you they were always odd. She was talking about the isolation that was hard to break out of, and get back in to doing things again. They were also hoping to retire when they were 50 but BSE hit, so they decided to keep on and had no income from Jan to October last year. Mind you they would only usually be selling stores any way.\nThe day was taking a turn for the worse when after sorting out umpteen decisions for the practice manager on organisational issues he said “ wasn’t it easy when you were just being a vet???” \nFatal mistake as the next dog to be seen was an odd ball. It had woken up that morning after being perfectly ok up til then. It had growled at tis owner and he had decided to leave it for a while. After an hour or so he went to get it up out of its bed and it flew at him and as he put it meant it. So he rang up and brought it to the vets. This change of behaviour meant he had put it in a kennel and left it. So when I went in to examine it growled and flapped its ears at me and bit at the bars. Some dogs in pain or fear will growl or let you know that it is not happy, but this one meant it. We had a go at trying to get it examined by using the dog catcher and muzzles, but it mean it.\nLeft it to settle down over lunch but it was worse. Finally got it sedated, it had a temp of 104. Injected mm, and so was a case of encephalitis with rage. So after 3 vets all looking at it and umming and erring we decided to get a MAFF vet to have a look just to check that it wasn’t rabies. I had forgotten that none of them are clinical or able to handle animals but it was a bit of a joke. But as there was no history with it, of contact with abroad it has been left alive for the time being.\nBut the stress of both handling the dam thing and the worry of is it rabid and the consequences was some what tiring so I am washed out tonight.\nTomorrow is another day.\n\nWeek 27- Sat 28th September\n\nSaturday.\nDo tell me there is light at the end of the tunnel because at the moment I definitely feel there isn’t. So I have taken time off next week to catch up on all the things that need sorted at home. We are supposed to be putting in a new bathroom and we need to get the stuff ordered so the guy can fit it. You never know it may include doing a few diaries!!\nSunday\nMy wife is on a counselling course this w/e so I ma on the run around with the kids. Yesterday was spent watching the boys plat football and run here and there with friends. [son] had 2 friends to come and camp last night so he is a little on the tired side. The weather is warm and sunny a real Indian summer the autumn raspberries that are usually delicious but quite sparse are huge and plentiful.\nWell I definitely have a teen-age daughter as for the first time I had a phone call late in the evening from Carlisle asking her to be picked up, as her lift home had not worked out. Fortunately it was from the church youth group, but it is the sign of things to come.\nThe youth group took the church service tonight so it was really good. Looking at Our World. The pressures on young people and how they respond as Christians and applying their faith to their own situations. Very challenging.\nMonday\nWe have an Open night tomorrow night and it doesn’t seem very organised yet. Not my pigeon. I have made a resolution not to get worked u about things that are not my responsibility and just leave them be.\nThe 2 new vets are beginning to really pull their weight, which is great, and [colleague] is back from his honeymoon. Brown and jet lagged. They spent time at the beach and on safari so had a great time. [nurse] has headed off to the far blue yonder. She is one of our nurses and has gone to NZ for a month so it will be strange with out her. [other] nurse is just back from states and [another] vet is about to go to the Caribbean for 2 weeks. So I am getting itchy feet. Time to travel. At least I should be of to India in the new year.\nTuesday\nYear end Oct 1st, so stock taking which for me includes mucking out my car. I thought it was quite normal to take the wheelie bin to the car and just hoy the contents in until my neighbour saw one of the rare occasions when it happens and burst out laughing. He found it quite amusing. I was a bit taken a back at the time but we always assume what we do is normal!\nThe open day was OK but [wife] was out so had to juggle things a bit. I was On call so late finished, and had to fetch [son] from football as his practice had been shifted to Tuesdays with the dark nights. So I owe [friend] a bottle of wine for turning up half an hour late to pick him up. The boiler man arrived at 7pm to fix the boiler which was blowing fuses. He needs a lesson on time management. \nHad several interesting conversations on FMD. The most amusing one was about Tony Blair arranging his bust up with unions on the anniversary of the FMD out break finishing so as to keep it out the news. \nThe same farmer said about the govts response the countryside alliance March. The fact that they have reduced the sparsity factor in the allocation of central funds to local authorities. This means that those with a lower population density and therefore a higher perceived cost of providing services are going to have this downgraded. Or in this farmer’s opinion take money from the countryside to the town. Don’t march or this govt will kick you where it hurts in a very subtle way.\nThe other one was probably more relevant in that in a group discussion, admittedly fuelled by an intake of free alcohol. Several were saying that this year was harder to cope with than last as there was no crisis or adrenalin to keep them going. And that the toll from last year was beginning to tell on them and their nerves. Two were still under court threats from Trading Standards /DEFRA for not complying with regulations. Both will in my opinions not result in anything but they are pretty pissed off to put it mildly.\nThere is also a real antagonism to doing the testing for ministry and we are in the cross fire as Defra vets decide what is to be done and yet we are the ones trying to arrange and get the testing done. While they do not have to pay us, they do have to spend a fair chunk of time organising and actually getting the job done. We are having a real problem with organising the testing on one of the common grazings. There are 14 farmers with animals on it. Biosecurity is a joke when your animals are on common grazing with 14 others. And trying to get 2 farmers to agree on a date and a method of doing it. They all have different ideas, and most do not want so and so there co he ‘ll just wind the cattle up, and we’ll never catch them.!!!\nWeds\nDay off So caught up on garden and sleep.\nThursday\nI really enjoyed the crack today there was just that right amount of work and banter to have a good day. Laughter and fun is infectious..\nFriday\nOut for a meal at night which was great but 8:30 start tomorrow Sat am is not going to be good…\n\n\nOCTOBER – A young colleague’s brother was killed in an accident and as M writes retrospectively (see below), there followed a very difficult month in which he was unable to keep a diary.\n\n\nSaturday 5th October\nIt is in the smallest of things that suddenly life changes very suddenly and we then look back and see how we were and are not now. I had a phone call at ten to five from one of the young vet’s father. [Father] was asking to speak to George or I. That in itself was strange the receptionist came and found me, with a quizzical look, saying he did not want to speak to [young vet]. When I answered the phone he said that they had bad news in that her brother had been killed in a traffic accident, so I had to tell her the bad news and then sort out the consequences. Once she had got over the initial shock, [wife] drove her to her parents’ home in [her] car.\nThe other partners are away so we are short staffed and [young vet] will obviously not be back for a while.\nIt is at times like this that I am always grateful that I can go back to God and trust in him. Even though I do not understand anything, I know that I can trust God. \n\nJan 2003 (Writing retrospectively about October 2002)\nThere is a month of Diaries missing from the death of [vet’s] brother onwards. I always meant to go back and fill in the days that I missed but never made the time or the effort. I found the time very difficult. So how her parents and sister-in-law coped I do not know. The funeral was at Kirby and I am pleased that I went. It was very sad to see some one in the prime of their life with so much to offer, cut down in such a random way. It was a very Cumbrian farming gathering. The red faced craggy farmers, and yet there was a friend of the family who sang at the wedding who was a black American gospel singer. The global village or world wide family of the church, take your pick.\nThe death of some one young always makes you consider your own mortality and makes you think about what you are doing. Will you on your death bed wish that you had made different choices??\nThe next month was busy and stressful, and probably a time which would have been useful for the study to have thoughts and reactions to my life when under stress, but I suppose to a certain extent when we are close to something we go on automatic pilot and do the urgent leaving the things on the periphery. \nHe was killed while driving a tractor back from where they had been testing cattle for American BVD. They had bought in pedigree world class dairy cattle. This included a sibling to an embryo which had had the American BVD. So the ministry were keen to make sure that it was not established within the UK. Hence the reason for the blood sampling. I know you cannot look at history and say what if… But if the cattle had not been culled, there would have been no blood sampling to do and no reason to be on the road that day at that time. Linkage is not the way to go. He may have had to go to feed stock or he could have been in an accident in another way. But the ripples of actions continue to reverberate around. \nAt least in my head.\n\nSaturday 12th October (Again M is writing retrospectively here of his first thoughts after diagnosing his first FMD case)\nThese weeks were not completed because of my stress levels!\nI have wanted to transcribe my first thoughts on FMD that were written in a hotel in Newcastle at 2am after diagnosing my first case.\n\nTo My Wife.\n\nDear [wife]\nI don’t know why I am writing this, as I hope to see you tomorrow but I suppose I need to record what I feel, for you, and for me besides, sleep eludes me.\n\nToday was a beautiful day of winter sunshine, warm sunshine that speaks of the spring that is to come, on frosted snow that is clear and white and pure. A great day to be walking up in the hills on a Sunday afternoon, enjoying God’s wonderful creation.\nBut this is a fallen world. The only walkers are me, the ministry man, in disposable boiler suit and waterproof jacket and trousers, and a farmer with a heavy heart. We go into each field checking and inspecting all the pregnant ewes, herding them into a corner to catch and examine them.\nFeet OK, Mouth OK, a smile.\nThe only clue to the sadness on this man’s heart is the slight acrid smell, which wafts, now and then on the wind. The smell of his neighbours future burning on another ministry man’s pyre.\n\nIt’s 2 o’clock in the morning, and why am I writing this? \nBecause I cannot sleep. \nThe ministry man who then examined the cows. Blisters in its mouth, blisters on its tongue, Temp 105F.\n“I am sorry” I say, “It is.”\n“They’ll all go” he manages to say fighting back tears.\n“ If the lab confirms it, yes.” I reply. As a farm vet of 15 years experience I am not allowed to say it is Foot and mouth disease only that I suspect it. An anonymous telephone answerer in London makes stupid comments and stupid questions. \nI take my samples from the cow. I grab its tongue to pull it out to take a sample of the skin from the tongue. The cow’s tongue comes off in my hand. I try not to be sick and place the sample in the bottle.\n\nWe go into the farmhouse.\nHe is in tears.\nShe is in tears.\nI feel like crying.\n\n“ I wouldn’t do your job for all the b… tea in china.” she says.\n\nI am a volunteer, a TVI, all big depts have their jargon, and I don’t speak it yet a temporary veterinary inspector. I only started 3 days ago. A “clean” vet who had not been in contact with the foot and mouth disease.\nA volunteer from general practice, seconded to be used as a pawn in the battle against FMD. A man from the ministry.\n\nAs I leave a “dirty” vet, having double disinfected with my samples and a heavy heart, I take off the disposable boiler suit, and put on my shoes.\n\nI am me again. Not the man from the ministry.\n“Hey lad, nobody would know you from anyone else like that. Says the farmer.\n\nHe has seen me as I am. I see him as he is.\n\nLiving with his mother since his father died, so as to be on hand to run the farm. His wife and her mother in law trying to share a house and a kitchen while they convert a barn into a house.\nThe builder was told to stay away a week ago in case he brought disease onto the farm. Tomorrow he will be told to stay away as there will be no income for at least 6 months.\n\nWhile I filled in forms I had never seen before, with initials and jargon I’ve never heard. She phoned her sister to pick up the prescription for anti depressants. The doctor said she should go on them while the stress and worry of foot and mouth was about. Well it’s here.\nHe hasn’t eaten and will not sleep tonight.\nShe is anxious and will not get any rest.\nAnd the man from the ministry.?\nWell its 2am and I am writing this far from home a volunteer, a TVI, a pawn in a bigger game.\nBut after 5 days of being “dirty” and I can rejoin life. Back to normal, Back to my home, to my job, and my future.\nMy farming couple. 5 days of shooting and burning, of disinfectants and diggers.\nSix months of quarantine and a future in farming, maybe. Or maybe not.\n\nThe stories abound: Of three generations waiting for the men from the ministry. But grandfather will not see the farm restocked. The stress was too much for his already dodgy heart.\nThe countryside is under siege, and pawns are being lost, to win a greater gain?\nAnd why are we having to work these long hours and sacrifice these pawns??\nBecause some one was so arrogant, so stupid and so lazy that he couldn’t be bothered to heat the swill he fed to his pigs. He couldn’t keep to the rules that were made so this would not happen.\n\nIt is not intensive vs. extensive, organic vs. agribusiness, it is sheep vs. goats.\nAnd they will be sorted.\n\n\nSaturday 2nd November \nThe start of writing diaries again after a break of a few weeks, I am hoping to go back and fill in as time permits so this is today and forward looking.\nWorking the w/e with [young vet] and AW sat am. She had a calving this morning at 4am and so is a little on the tired side so hope it is quiet for rest of the w/e.\nDid surgery and then spent the afternoon trying to fix the out sidelights. The front went 18monhts ago, which shows how well I am keeping up with the maintaince on this house!! But the back one went recently and that is a real pain as you cant see your way to the car at night so I am more concerned about getting it fixed. The old lights are just rusted up and you can no longer replace the bulbs so up the ladder to re wire new lights I went. Unfortunately I was on call, and yes I suppose I was trying to do too much, but if you don’t try you don’t succeed. So I downed tools went off to calve a cow, and then came back to find a neighbour plus her 4 children in our kitchen. So I stopped had a cup of tea and then headed back up the ladder. Now [wife] maintains I should have noticed that there were lights on at this point. I would like to point out that I should also notice when she has moved furniture, had her hair cut or even spring cleaned the house. As I am often berated for my lack of noticing these sorts of things, yes I should have noticed but I didn’t. I was focussed on what I was trying to do, as usual. So up the ladder I went, to connect up the light, not knowing that [wife] had switched the electrics back on. And yes when I was at the top of the ladder, I grabbed the wires, and then spent what seemed an awfully long time trying to let them go and stay on the ladder as the electric current was shocking me. So the light did not get fixed as I was not going back up the ladder as I was now in shock. !!\nHo hum\nSun\nFinished the light while every one was out, and then picked up A from a sleep over and went to Church in Wigton. PM was speaking on the parable of the 10 bridesmaids, which was good, as I had never understood it as it is obviously related to a cultural thing that happened at weddings in Jesus’ day. The point being that the wise ones who were waiting for the return of the bridegroom had the oil in their lamps, and the concept that this was the holy spirit that meant they could meet with the bridegroom, i e Christ. I am not sure that the idea is entirely right since there is that big leap oil=holy spirit, but it was interesting. I still think it was a cultural thing that was obvious to his original listeners and we just don’t have a clue.\nAli and Andy called around in the evening it was really good to see him again. He used to be a vet here who left several years ago and it looks that at long last he is going to look to settle down. He was quite depressing about LA vet practice though. He is now 100% small animal so he is biased. They are actively looking at taking TB testing from the vets in his area, and the vets are dropping the farm practice as being uneconomic!! So much for the govt wanting more farm vets around. At least this is a low cost area so at least we are not competing with small animal practices able to offer large wages to assistant vets.\nHe is looking to set up his own or buy a practice to settle into. They are obviously looking to get married so that will be another wedding to go to. We have been invited to LB’s who is finally marrying P. They have been following each other around the world for the last 2 years, from disaster to disaster, as they are both in humanitarian relief work. She was a vet student here too .\nMon\nMonday, Monday. Tell me why I don’t like Mondays.\n[young vet] is exhausted and everything is catching up with her so she is going to take the end of the week off. The joiner finally arrived to put in the windows and had real problems writhing the old ones out and so has taken half the sand stone with them so they will have to be reconcreted which is a builders job ie he is not going to do it. The bathroom is still in pieces. “8” days it was supposed to take and we are now in the third week.\nWork was bedlam. So I was queuing the ops up this morning. I hate operating all morning as it is very draining as I have to concentrate on what I am doing. While the office staff keep coming with more and more queries. Urgh!!!\nGot another stupid letter from the planners quibbling about listed building consent that I am trying to get for the windows that are being fitted as I speak. I started the ball rolling in August. No wonder the country is going to the dogs!\nTuesday\nCalmed down a bit having filled in the Visa forms for our holiday to India. The great legacy of the British, the bureaucracy is alive and well. Why do they want to know my mothers place of birth and Maiden name for a 2 week holiday? Civil servants! \nMissed the gym cos surgery went on and on. I went to a farm and was asked a lot of questions about TB as they had had a reactor. The ministry had been out testing but hadn’t bothered to tell us. Mushroom farmers..\n[son] is in the process of planning next years football team!!\nWeds\nWent to a farm today and he is complaining that he cannot get his cows in his restocked herd back in calf. It seems to be an ongoing problem. A lot of those who have restocked with whole herds are having reduced fertility in their herds. It would be an interesting study to see the figures compared to non restocked herds.\nThursday. \nCounting the days until I am off. Work continues to be too hectic. [vet] who lost her brother, is off and it makes the whole pack of cards of having enough vets to cover fall down!!\nI think too I am just very tired from being too busy for too long. When planning staffing levels, it is usual to be cautious rather than to have too many vets around not making any money. We thought we were stretching it by employing the 2 new grads instead of the one.\nIt is also just being under pressure all the time with out a few days to cruise it.\nWent out to Chris Swifts for the VCF (Veterinary Christian Fellowship) which was really good as usual. F was telling us about the thanksgiving service that they had just held at Barnard Castle. She has also just got engaged. So it may curb her wanderings. She is an explorer and mountaineer. She is just back from Antarctica, and is currently doing some research and a PhD at Durham. Barnard Castle practice seems well organised and also flexible in that she is only working 3 days a week to spend 2 days at Durham on the PhD.\nIt was really good speaking to [friends] about [vet’s] brother as Paul was with them at the accident as he was taking the bloods.\nSo spent quite a while praying for them and for other things.\nFriday\nBad day. Had a phone call from the planners saying they were not going to allow double-glazing, and that they want the glazing bars to be 10mm not 20mm. Why????? There are no 10mm glazing bars on the spot.\nThe ministry,(London) have decided that they are not going to train lay TB testers and that all the work is going to go out to LVI’s. (Us). So we are now looking at a lot of work again. Carlisle DEFRA in conjunction with London, have decided that they are going to want all the restocked herds tested annually with every animal tested not just the adult breeding stock. So from looking at dropping 1-2 vets 10 days ago, we are now going to be looking at employing extra staff if we can get hold of them. How are we supposed to be planning for the future if it is so dependent on the whim of DEFRA officials.\n\n\nSaturday 9th November\nWent to the School PTA Pub Quiz last night at the Rugby Club. It was good fun, but I was struggling both to stay awake and to dredge up the Infotainment trivia of the previous year. It is funny how the questions chosen reflected the people who were asking them. What had stuck in their memory or that they had chosen. Nick and Jane were across from Newcastle. I stayed with them for a few nights when working for DEFRA across there when I could not face the faceless loneliness of the hotel. \nConsequently was completely zonked Sat morning. Just went around the house being grumpy. \nWent to watch [son] play football, they thrashed Yewdale in the county cup.\nIt was good to be out in the fresh air and came back to sleep for a while before heading out to Roy and Christiana’s en famille. We had to pick up Fraser from Wigton. This is their son who has just started seeing a girl in Wigton. He is 14 and so was amusingly embarrassed.\nWe were talking about leaving the kids; at what age do you leave them on their own and to look after the younger ones. Christiana told us about when she left all three boys for an hour and a half, and the older two had got so fed up with youngest being annoying they hung him by his joggers from the post at the bottom of the stairs. The middle one said in all seriousness, that it was his fault that he had torn his trousers, if he hadn’t tried to escape the trousers would have been fine!! Even now he considers that the wrongdoing was the ripping of the trousers not the fact that they had hung him up!!\nSun\nWent to Church in morning and fittingly for remembrance Sunday it was on repentance and Gods love. Daniels prayer in Daniel 9 was very fitting some how. \nLunch and more football and crashed in to bed exhausted.\nMon \nTim is away for the first time on his own with the school on an outward-bound week south of Keswick. He was so excited about going. I think [wife] was a little put off that he was not thinking about missing home. Hey ho, but that is a sign of secure roots I suppose.\nMet up with A’s Maths teacher to discuss her Maths. There has been a lot of to and froing between the teachers but not much communication with home. So we went to see what they were saying, and have left it as the status quo, which is what it should be.\nFirst call today was a farmer who is just out of hospital having had his appendix removed for appendicitis. He had seen this cow and said why haven’t you had the vet to it. He is a good stocksman, and with him being out of action they had a relief milker in, who hadn’t noticed. It had a twisted uterus and was trying to calve, if I had seen it on Friday I could have sorted it out but because it was now to late I had to send it off. It is sad but the agricultural industry is losing a lot of experience and a lot of stocksmanship and handling and general expertise. It is not sthg that can be replaced. \nWe are seeing more twisted wombs because of the transport and fighting amongst restocked herds. The sad thing is that he said to me. We should never have restocked; we should have taken the money and let it all go. It is just too much hassle with the paper work and training cows. \nThey have just housed the cattle and so they are all fighting to come in to the parlour to get milked, and just making life difficult.\nThere is a real disillusionment around at the moment. But there are also those who are gearing up to milk more and more cows to stay still 300 +\nTuesday\nThe great European market combined with DEFRA’s inflexibility is causing a few problems. The Dutch heifers that have been imported to replace some of the FMD losses have a unique identifier number which is on their ear tag so everyone knows who they are. So far so good. They also have NL on them rather than UK, which means we know they are from Holland. The problem is they have a small check digit on them at the end. This means Dutch computers can recognise if the ear tag is a valid one or has been misread. The UK tags have a check digit at the front of the number. Very useful to help rule out misreadings or transcribing of the ear tags. \nHowever the DEFRA computer doesn’t recognise the numbers so we are being asked to retest heifers, because they still have an outstanding record of the ear tag numbers as untested because the extra digit has or had not been entered on the UK system!!!\nThe number of out standing tests is dropping but we will not be able to keep up with this level of testing, more allocations have arrived today. Managed to get all the bits sorted so I could leave at 5:30 for my few days off. The only out standing thing is the stuff for the accountant end of year. It was supposed to be in by 18th of Oct but hey ho!\nWeds \nI have taken a few days off to try and paint the windows and new bathroom we are having put in. The planners phoned to query again about the windows and I told them they were already in so it went down like a lead balloon and they are coming to tell me off. They also started querying the other windows from 95!\nThe problem with having a few days off is that I get very head achey and feel washed out and ill. Once the adrenalin stops I seem to crash.\nThursday\n Met up with Charlie from Longtown vets for lunch, which was great. His practice in Carlisle that he has started is going well. It is on the main road out to Scotland and looks really good and he is getting lots of custom just by being there.\nHe is looking for a part time vet. To start mornings.\nFriday\nRepainted the bathroom walls after discovering I had used 2 different shades of green. One was Ming grey, the other ming blue. I just opened them one after the other, and thought the difference was because the one had dried and the other was still wet. Ooops.\nThe plumber is having problems with the electrics and getting the lights to work. So it was all fused out. I am just glad we have a shower as well or we would all be getting rather smelly by now.!!\nWent to watch “Changing lanes” at cinema. A rather thoughtful if slow and unbelievable set up. But nice escapism for an hour or two\n\n\nSaturday November 16th\nWorking Again.\nBut feel better for having had a few days off even if the bathroom isn’t finished. Getting to be a bit of a saga. Oh well never mind. \nSat morning surgery was busy and then several farm calls afterwards.\nFor the amount of stock around and the cost effectiveness of veterinary time we are doing an incredible amount of clinical work.\nDan (The sheep AI vet who locums for us on occasions) phoned up wanting Alison’s phone number. She was of course out, it being Sat night. His technician is ill and he has 250 Swales to AI tomorrow. Hope he finds some one. All the sheep AI and embryo technicians are very busy as people try to build up their pedigree herds and flocks by breeding for top quality.\nSun\nAm busy with calls and then painted doors in bathroom while [son] painted the window. Very messy but he enjoyed it! It will give him confidence to try again. It is patience and practice. \nWent to church in the evening. Rob Whitaker the principal of Capernwray Bible College was preaching. He is so animated and relevant. He was talking on feeding the 5000. And Jesus compassion and just the circumstances Jesus was in at the time. How he used the disciples and then applying it to us, and to the church in general. Espy compassion.\nVery challenging. Went on to meet up with lads and spent time praying. Phil is pretty down about not having a job. It effects his self worth/ didn’t help that Fraser had a brand new Merc sitting out side his house. \nMon\nHit the maelstrom running with an in tray flowing out, and still nothing together for year-end to accountant. So pushed practice manager and then started operating and haunting him every 20 mins in between ops and keeping him on task. The problem is that there are so many other things going on at the moment that the non urgent keep disappearing in to tomorrow. The new drugs discount system is working and generating a lot of interest and then hopefully will cut down on the black market. With any luck the increased turn over will make up for margin. Usual problem solving and smoothing over and 2nd opinions to sort out. The 20-day rule is not stopping one of our local cattle dealers, from buying and selling. He says the paperwork to run 5 holding numbers is horrendous……\nKen and Anne called around and it was really good to see them. They have a lime spreading business and have been really busy over FMD. Both with lime for land that is going to be used for barley and crops(Rather than grass) and with a lot of stone for building work and new pathways and for lonnings. Whereas farmers were happy to move cattle via roads they are trying to reduce the movements along roads and are putting in tracks for the cows.\nTuesday\nMore tracings to check for TB, (These are cattle bought from a farm where TB has since been confirmed) and the paperwork to go with them. Ear tags don’t correlate so going to be a problem.\nRota nightmare at the moment as everyone is organising their skiing trips, so we are going to have 1-2 vets off all of Jan and most of Feb. \nTook first box load of paperwork to the Accountant. He is an old fashioned up the back stairs, not a computer in sight, type of fella. He is a wily old fox, much more than he looks, as he manages to keep the taxman happy and off our backs, which is probably the most important. \nThe financial year doesn’t look too bad, but doesn’t allow for the number of days of holiday carried over. If we had to give the holiday pay/ or pay a vet to cover for those days it would make them look a lot less rosy.\nGot back in time for gym and then Tuesday kid chauffer work.\nThen fell into bed and slept.\nWeds\nThe phone stopped at 4:00pm and didn’t ring again until 9:30 this morning. Weird. The work has just stopped like a tap being turned off. So got the rest of testing sorted. ; Sorted out the rest of the stuff for the accountant. Tidied the office, wrote up my book, and even thought about mucking my car out. Only got as far as thinking about it as coffee break arrived. Didn’t earn much but felt a lot better for it. \nSkipped off early and gave the bathroom doors second coat.\nThursday 21st November (Pay Day)\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\n\nFriday\nHad a horrendous night with ill calves with pneumonia in the evening. A calving at 1 am in Silloth. Then a dog trying to die at 5am, so was I ever pleased that it was my half day. Slept and played squash with L & J in the afternoon.\nThe dog belonged to an old lady who had no children and it was her husbands dog who had died 4 years previously. She was going to be on her own if it dies. So she was very tearful and upset. The dog is not looking good as it is 16yr poodle type thing. She is isolated booth because she doesn’t drive and lives out at the coast. And because she and her husband retired to here, and neither have any family around. I felt for her.\nMade me appreciate my family so much more.\n\n\nSaturday 23rd November\n[wife] is away on a course today so for my w/e off I am running the kids and doing the cooking. \nI dropped of [other son] to squash, did some errands in Wigton and then watched the squash coaching. They are very patient and encouraging. The total contrast was shown at [son]’s football. They are a very good team, but I really do not like the attitude of most of the coaches and teams in the Carlisle teams. I was late to arrive and they were already 4-0 up. And this was the second half. It was only when I walked around to where the coach was, did he think about giving [son], and the other 2 subs a game. We have had it out with him before that he should give all the kids a chance to play, or else they find it crushing. [son] was really fed up with the situation, but he does love playing and is quite loyal. The coach always justifies that he has to play his best team, which he doesn’t, he plays his favourites/friends sons. But the point is irrelevant, if you are winning by that margin, then you can afford to have weaker players on the field. They went on to win 10- 0!!We will have to get a Thursby team organised for next year.\nWent on to Longtown poultry sale very interesting lots of rare birds and waterfowl. Will have to go and buy next year and get some different types for A to breed up.\nSun\nDan spoke on walking on water, in his own inimitable style. He is so refreshing and practical and honest. Made it a call to prayer as well. \nDidn’t do much in morning as [wife] was on course but finally managed to\nFinish bathroom. Hoorah!!!\nMon\nDecided that if DEFRA was a business it would be bust by now. We are on a rollercoaster trying to look at the future with them. They only make up in a normal year about 20% of our farm fee income but that has been much higher over the past few years. \nThe Chief DEFRA Vet has been flying kites as they say in politics. To see what the reaction is, or has been doing as he has been told by Whitehall (!).\nI don’t know what the ins and outs of it are but the gist has been. \nThey are going to employ their own vets to do the testing as this would be much more efficient and cost effective. When it was pointed out this wasn’t going to be the case we went to…\nThey would employ non-vets to do it. As this would be much cheaper. \nThere would then not be any farm animal vets in large areas of the country, as it would reduce the fee income even further. Where the farm side of vet businesses is marginal it would just be given up. It would mean our business in a high stock area would probably drop 2 vets.\nSo London finally decided that the status quo would probably be best. At the same time Carlisle in consultation with Page St decided that as there is so much TB being found in the restocked farms, that all the restocked farms should be tested on an annual basis. And that all animals, not just breeding stock should be tested. This means about a 25% increase in work load for the next 2 winters. So instead of dropping a vet we should look to be taking one on! But we cannot believe what is going to happen next as how can we plan when such drastic changes are proposed in the space of a month…..\nTuesday\n Went to do routine fertility at a farm today and it was quite depressing in that a neighbour of theirs who has started up again has had a really bad time. The problems of restocking on top of bad hips. He was all gung ho to get restocked and although he had a sore leg he didn’t go to the doctors while he had the chance when he had no stock as it was only a little sore. But as soon as he got stock back and started to do a lot of physical work they were very sore. So he went to the Dr’s and has 2 hips which need replaced but as he is only 40 they don’t want to do it yet and it would mean no physical work for a long period. \nOn top of that he has mastitis problems caused by taking his plant to pieces by DEFRA. He has lost 8 cows and heifers through calving/illness or injury.\nSo after less than a year he looks set to give up disillusioned and a lot poorer.\nThe workload for us is easing as most cattle are now housed and a lot of the housing work is sorted. I always feel it is a run down to Christmas now with all the preparations and celebrations and kids (and adult) parties.!!!\nI was at another farm today who had meningitis a year ago, and has still not really recovered properly. He is still finding it hard to get going. He lost all his animals and all his work during FMD, and the additional strain has meant he has lost a lot of interest in the farming side. He can’t be bothered with all the hassle and paper work of farming sheep and cattle and so is growing a lot of veg which he and his wife have always enjoyed growing. They just retail at the farm gate. It doesn’t make much money but as he says it just keeps things turning over and he and his wife have time for each other and no hassle. Life is more important than making a living. Very profound. I am going to go part time, I wish\nWednesday\nThere seem to be a lot of problems (Still) on restocking farms. They are all having problems with getting the cows back in calf. Two farms today complained that even though they were more than pleased with the compensation at the time, the costs of restocking are much, much more. It would be interesting to do a survey on the number of breeding animals bought in and those who have been lost either through illness or by failure to get in calf. \nThe old diseases are still causing the most problems. Lung worm, a disease I thought was well under control, and well understood has caused huge problems. IBR or cow flu has caused so many problems that we can no longer get the vaccine, as all the stocks have been used.\nIt was interesting today that one of the farms that is about to start milking having finally restocked ordered vaccine for Lepto, IBR, and BVD almost as a matter of course.\nBut fertility is causing the most worries.\nThursday\nFeel a lot better after an early night, apart from running to and from Carlisle after my daughter. Youth group last night, and evening shopping tonight.\n\n[son] is still trying to organise an U14 Thursby team for next year, all he needs is a coach. The problem is that it is a big commitment. I wish I could do it but I work too many w/e’s.\nSpent time day dreaming about what to do with the byre in our yard. It is an old knackered building that needs bulldozing, but [wife]’s Dad thinks we should just look after it and convert it into sthg. But what? \nI still think that there is an opening for “Herriot holidays” taking people for a day at the vets and then a day at the mart and so on.. Diversification is the name of the game.\nFriday\nHad an interesting day what with one thing and another. No lunch but hey who’s complaining. One of the nurses at work has a chicken shed with her husband and another farmer partner. The fans and alarms all failed and so the air was not circulating. The farmer was devastated. It was a horrendous sight. A carpet of dead chickens. There were 23,000 in the shed and we worked out there were roughly 2-3000 left alive. 20.000 dead. It brought back memories of FMD. Also the logistics of disposing of 20 tonnes of dead chicken. I hope the insurance covers it. Out for dinner at Christiana’s. Had a vet friend call around at teatime. He is a meat hygiene practice covering several different meat plants. They have several vets covering all the different plants. He has been asked to got to Harrogate to discuss how the different proposed regulations can be implemented. A marked improvement on the usual dumping of unworkable ideas from DEFRA HQ.\n\n\nSaturday.30th Nov\nTook a while to get going after being out for dinner last night though it was very pleasant. Spent day doing odds and ends. Went to watch [son] play footie, and bought an Orchid from the orchid farm. The kids were making cards for Mum and wrapping presents so it was fun.. James came down with his kids so there were 7 running riot which is really a bit too many after a late night.\nSun 1st\nChurch in the morning and Johnboy called around to see what time the prayer meeting finished as he had arranged a surprise party for [wife]’s 40th. So had loads of folks in Sunday night which was great. They had all crept in to the big kitchen and decorated it while we were in the front room. A and [son] had been going back and forth so [wife] never noticed. So it was special. The kids were as high as kites.\nMon 2nd\n[wife] is forty and there’s a photo in the news and star to prove it. The kids brought breakfast in bed, and opened presents. Poor [other son] after 3 late nights did not want to go to school I hope they are all right for Gran. [wife]’s Mum and [sister?] arrived. “Nannies from Ireland” to the rescue. They are going to look after the kids while we are away for a few days. We have had a bit o banter about them looking after the kids. [sister] found an advert for “nannies from Ireland” which is an au pair service and sent of for the info which she forwarded to us. She is a character. So they have been asking about working conditions and PAY!! I have been requesting Police checks and giving as good as I get.. The winds are pretty strong so they have had a bad journey. The super ferry was cancelled so they have had to come by boat which takes much longer. A baked a cake and managed to get 40 candles on it!! \nBoth [wife] and I are looking forward to getting away. As usual work was really busy and lots of loose ends to tie up prior to leaving but finished for 3 days HoORRAAAHHH!\nTues 3rd\nSpent the day travelling up to Loch Lomond, stopped off at Braeside and at Gretna and bought some clothes and mooched around. Cameron House is beautiful with wonderful views and you can just walk down to the lake. There is a pool so went for a swim before dinner. Very civilised.\nWe had just finished dinner when the waitress arrived with a cake with 4 candles and sang a rather wobbly happy Birthday. [sister?] had been very keen that we left the phone number of Cameron house, even though she had our mobile numbers. Now we know why!! Very pleasant surprise but we will never eat any cake let alone a whole one!!\nWhile we were strolling around after dinner came across the picture that one of our friends had used to decorate the kitchen with on Sunday. He had come across it somewhere in a book, and it looks vaguely like [wife] so he had put it up with Lady [wife] underneath! And here was the original or at least a print of the same picture. Weird.\nWeds\nAfter a very lazy start, a swim before breakfast, (Full Scottish!) . We walked up eastern edge of Loch in sunshine and showers. We were only caught out in one shower. There was a rainbow down to the Loch edge. A beautiful winter walk. I have decided I am going to walk the West Highland Way, with the boys. Had some fruit for lunch as cooked breakfast on top of dinner last night means I don’t really need to eat for a week!! Another swim, thought about the gym but I am on holiday and felt wonderfully relaxed, and then dinner.\nThursday\nAnother lazy start and swim before breakfast, a walk along the Loch, and the back to Glasgow to the Burrell Collection. We just wandered around the paintings. I can sit and look at the impressionists and keep seeing something new. They are very beautiful. Came back home in time for tea, though did not eat anything as too much food. Made up a ditty for the Nannies.\n\nNannies from Ireland came to stay\nSo [respondent] and [wife] could go away\nOff the children went to school \nWhile [respondent] and [wife] swam in the pool\nThe Nannies were left with all the dust,\nCleaning dirt for their daily crust\nTheir experienced gleaned over all the years\nCould not stop all [other son]’s tears\n“ Off to school you must go\nSaid a stern faced Nanny Lo\nThe nannies go to TK Max\nForgetting all about the cats\nSomething is sick on the mat\nThe nannies really don’t like that\n“A M” L begs\n“Go and fetch all the eggs”\nOn animals they’re not too\nWhat did the contract really mean keen?\nThey will not give another day\nUntil something is done about their pay!\nSo back to Ireland with this tale\nThey do go via Cummersdale.\nAs their pay all disappears\nThey decide on new careers\nLois thinks of a racing car\nRuth just of going far.\nSo our thanks to them are due\nthe Nannies from Ireland crew\nIts now their turn to go and play\nTill they’re called another day. [edited to remove names in verse]\n\nFriday.\nBad hair Day.\nHaving come back all relaxed and cheerful I was relaxed until I missed my lunch.\nAfter working all day, plenty of hassle from one thing and another, I was then On Call at night, and it was very busy. \nLoch Lomond and Cameron House seem a long, long time ago\nI am extremely fed up. \nI do not want to calve another cow out side OFFICE HOURS ever again.\n\n\nSaturday.7th December\nWorked this morning after a bad night “On call” and felt like death warmed up.\nDid surgery and then sorted stuff out, and did some calls got finished at 1pm and went back to bed.\nWent to Xmas party at White Heather which was good fun but I was just too knackered to enjoy it. \nSunday \nWorking a few calls and plenty of pneumonia drugs for calves. There is a lot of pneumonia about with the East wind blowing, it is a wee bitty cruel wind but at least it is dry. Not weather to be working out side. It also seems to be getting dark really early. I need some sun on my back 4 weeks to go till India.\nHad a migraine or flu at night and went to bed, and started throwing up.\nI cannot burn the candle at one end even at the moment.\nMon\nOff work ill. But a new vet student starting and R is off as well Xmas shopping so thrown in at deep end.\nTuesday\nWent back in and did my bit. Working at night but night work easing off Thank goodness. Plenty of high cell count investigations to try and sort out.\nWeds\nTook kids swimming after work with the vet student it was good to do some exercise and chill out. Went to Staples prior to going to the pool where as usual there was no one on the desk for print cartridges. So I went and found one of the girls chatting on the till to get me what I was looking for as I couldn’t find an “HP58”. What I hadn’t noticed was some one else just standing at the other end of the long counter who was then very upset and aggressive that I had jumped the queue. He is obviously having a worse week than me. As he could have gone and got some one from the tills as easily as I did, but didn’t. So why he got so upset I don’t know. “Now’t as queer as folk”\n[other son] was very upset tonight when we got back from swimming because he had shaved one side of his head. [wife] had cut the others hair but his was still short and didn’t need it. He WANTED it done so in the shower took things into his own hands and shaved off his side burn, but only on one side!\nHe did not like getting laughed at either.\nThursday\nChristiana came to the rescue over the hair ([other son]’s) and has managed to make it look not too bad. But it was funny!!\nOn Call at night but as most nights seem double booked at the moment went to kids performance. They are doing Alice in Wonderland. Very good, they can really sing and perform. The teachers do get a lot out of them. Tim was the knave of hearts(Character actor) and [other son] was a frog footman grebbit, grebbit. It was good fun, only had a phone call to put a client at ease about her cat so managed to wing it.\nFriday\nOut at [friends] tonight. Kids younger 2 at performance older 2 are at xmas meal so a bit of a juggling act to get everyone at right place at right time!! Missed out on the Cumberland Vet Club social which was a shame but can only be in one place at a time\n \n\nSaturday 14th December\nHad a good meal out, except only started talking about the publicity for [..] as I was wanting to go and fall asleep some where. I cannot take late nights. It is just I am feeling too tired all the time. I think that the adrenalin has run out and I just feel stale. Hope Xmas sorts it out. Spent morning working. Did surgery and then sorted out queries with GG for the Accountant.\nSpent the afternoon writing cards and trying to put together lists of folk we should send too. A disaster, got as far as M before running out of cards and initiative.\nWent around to S’s for nibbles as a house warming. She is some caterer! Her mother does it as a job so she has helped so great food, could have done with some non-vets to dilute down the vetiness!!!\nSunday\nGot up and took kids to church\n[wife] is doing a thing on Borderline at night so she has to prepare that.\nPlayed football and caught up with a few bits and pieces and did some gardening.\nChatted to a vet from Chippenham who was complaining about the TB situation there. They have one beef farm where when they first discovered TB the farm took a week to test, as there were 600 head. There are only 200 left so it only takes a day. The farmer has been unable to but in store cattle to feed, and has lost over 100 to DEFRA. It has been 2 monthly testing for almost 2 years now and he still has not had a clear test.\nShe was down too, just from too much On Call.\nMonday\nGot up feeling exhausted, but even though not very busy couldn’t get going. \nThe dairy farms are all feeling very nervous over the Nestle pull out. “ farmers said to me that they were pleased that their sons are not going to be going into farming. Both teenagers, one A’s year and one a year older. Both looking to work in IT. It used to be a point of sadness that the next generation is not following on, but there seems to be a general air of resignation that farming is not going to be a good career.\nSad really.\nTuesday 17th December\nSpent the day sorting out the remaining bits and pieces for the Accountant.\nWe met with him at night, which as usual was the sorting out of this and that. The finding of the relevant pieces of paper and then what the unaccounted cheques were for!!\nWe are still making money but only thanks to DEFRA. So three cheers for Mrs Beckett, cynic.\nIt made it a very long day and Lois is off for the week so we are short staffed again but last tests are today as we will not be able to get bloods to the labs because of the Christmas post. \nI do like this time of year where you hear from friends who you have not seen for ages, and think the same as you did last year, I will have to catch up with them soon. Hey ho.\nWeds 18th \nThere is a lot of pneumonia about and the farmers are all buying vast quantities of drugs to treat whole batches of calves and stirks. The is the usual mix but far more than normal. I don’t know whether to be pleased that the practice is doing well, and invoicing a lot, or sad that there is so much disease around, and we will have a horrendous drugs bill.!! A dilemma I don’t think I should explore.\nThurs 19th \nFri 20th\nKids went to ice rink in Carlisle with [wife]. They have set up an out door rink which the city council are sponsoring to attract people in to the centre. I don’t think that they really need to, as the place seems crowded enough as it is!! [son] bashed his head quite badly and [other son] fell over and hurt his knee. Tim fell loads of times and just ended up wet and happy!! Their different characters are coming out.\n\n\n Saturday.21st December\nThe beginning of the Christmas Rota!\nI feel as though we are in the run up to Christmas now. I have also made the mistake of not buying all my presents before now and went into Carlisle to go shopping. It was quite nice in some ways to see the Ice rink and mingle in the crowds…but an hour and a half was plenty!\nThe kids have decided that they are going to ask for money to take to India this year from the Aunts and Uncles and so there will be fewer presents to open. As Christmas seems to be getting more and more manic, and commercialised I think that it is a very good idea. Well done A and [son]\nSunday 22nd\nCarols by candlelight\nIt was magical, the church was packed out and so I ended up standing at the back. Which in some ways was quite nice as you look down the aisles to the stage and there are rows of candles and fairy lights down the sides. PM lead it and there were different age groups taking part. He spoke on being a Christmas tree and how we end up all convoluted by our own wrong choices, and how we can have lots of fairy lights and a star on top, and have an image on the outside that looks wonderful. But what are we like inside all those things we surround ourselves with. God knows, and he cares, and he loves us enough to send a gift to help us. His son, Immanuel, God with us, who will take away the sin of the world. I was really quite moved by it all. This is the real Christmas.\nMon 23rd\nBUMP!! Reality bites back.\n It is difficult to focus on the important things of life, and keep a perspective on life, if it keeps getting interrupted by Monday Mornings! \nBut that is where Jesus should be, in the smelly cattle shed, and in the market place, and making a difference. I will have to think that one out while I have time in India. \nThe urgent as usual is pushing out the important\nManaged to go swimming at Foxes. The first exercise I have had for ages, must get back into it. Maybe wait for the new year resolutions, as exercise, wet weather and working over Christmas don’t really go together.\nTues 24th\nChristmas eve. Working but quiet apart from last minute panics as people think that their ill dogs and cats will not make it over Christmas with out seeing the vet.\nCalled in to Pow Heads for the turkey, they really do have a good butchery and poultry business going now. Good to see. Direct selling by farmers or Cooperatives is the only way forward to break the stranglehold of the supermarkets.\n[wife] is panicking about not having enough food so I am dispatched to buy more bread and milk. I think about protesting that if there were 5000, we still would not need a miracle but decide this is one of those occasions when it is better to just spend another 2 quid for the peace.\n[wife]’s parents arrive an hour later from Belfast, bringing 2 loaves of bread and 5 different types of Irish bread, and 6 pints of milk, and another 3 boxes of food. I wonder about making a joke about feeding the 5000 plus inflation but decide that discretion is the better part of valour and just put them in the freezer.!!\nWeds 25th\nKids started at 5:45 am and were unceremoniously sent back to bed.\nBut they were allowed to bring their stockings in at half past seven. I was on 2nd call so while they all went off to church I spent an hour in the surgery seeing dogs. One had meningitis and was very near death’s door and the owner was not that worried. The other is just unwell and could have waited but the problem is you never know. Got back and made Christmas dinner. So wasn’t all work. Though I do feel amongst all the commercialism and turkey dinners, the true significance of Immanuel, God who is with us, is lost. \nThursday 26th \nOn first call and lots of pneumonia drugs to put out and kept busy. Afternoon/ evening we had folk around. Lots of different ages and backgrounds so was a real mix and good fun.\nFriday 27th \nSurgery reopened and was really busy, I am pleased that we had put plenty of staff on the rota. It is always a difficult balance to make. Trying to work out if there will be enough staff to cover the work. No one wants to work over Xmas/New year. But if there are not enough then it makes it really awful for those that are working. But if you have people sitting around they resent that too. But it’s nice to know I get it right sometimes. Doing a rota always strikes me as a no win situation, as it is always a compromise between the two extremes.\n\n\nSaturday 28th December\nOn call Friday night and then I finished at lunchtime. [wife] wanted me to go on church walk but I was knackered and we are all going out tonight for dinner, so I went to bed for a few hours sleep. ( Much to my wife’s displeasure.) Having been On call for the whole period, as soon as I stop, I crash out, as the adrenalin fades and I realise how tired I am. But only Mon am to work then prepare for India, and hitting the beach!\nIt does take its toll on family life being on call, especially over the Christmas period. The folk we are going to dinner with, he is a policeman and they have similar frictions.\nSun 29th \nThe service at church tonight was memorable. The last evening of the year they have people talking about what God has been doing in their lives. So it is usually people who are not eloquent, not used to speaking up front but who speak in a very real way about what Jesus has been working in their lives over the past year. DP who is 14 who has had bone cancer gave a very moving account about how he had nearly died. How so often we compare our selves with those who have more than us, whether in health or other things. We should compare ourselves with those who have less. We should appreciate our lives, and thank God for who and what we are. He has had his ups and downs, but we are to follow God’s guiding and his path for us. Our lives are in God’s hands. We are to pray and to trust in him for our future. This is a young lad who has seen 4 of the friends he has made in hospital die. It makes the trivia we fill our lives with back in perspective.\nMon 30th\nLast half day and lots of last minute things to sort out before I finish for New Year and the 2 weeks in India. The cash flow has gone to pot because of the large amount of pneumonia drugs we have sold and tax/ vat going out in end of Jan. So needed to make sure someone keeps an eye on it while I am away and makes sure that it all falls into place. The problem with going away is that no one keeps up with all the admin type work that I do, so my In tray will be overflowing by the time I get back…. \nTues 31st \nThe Young people are partying at our house so we left them to it, rather than cramp their style. So we had a very pleasant evening at some farming friends. We rang up and called in on spec. They have 5 boys so we knew they wouldn’t want to get baby sitters for New Year’s Eve. Whereas we had about 40!! They have stopped dairying, but are now worried about how the new ruling will affect them. At the moment they lease their quota which provides a fair amount of income. The new German ruling will be applicable across the whole EEC that non producers cannot hold, and therefore lease quota. This means they will have to either sell it, in a flooded market or go back to dairy farming. Unless Mr P can work a way around the new system. \nThey are also taking advice and looking at all sorts of diversification schemes, some seem quite a good idea, others I think are non starters.\nThey already have invested some of the FMD money into setting up a student house in Carlisle. The way house prices are going around here it is probably a very good investment. Not really the way forward for farming though. \nThe only depressing feature of the evening was I asked what they thought the future of Cattle vets was, the answer was ”none”.\nWell that’s a good start to 2003.\nWe got home to find the party in full swing and we left them to it and went to bed.\n1st Jan 2003.\nGot up some what late after staying up for the New Years Eve. The young people had cleared up after the party and we were amazed at how well they had done. They had set off the dish washer and all we had to do was empty it. I was impressed. The only reminder they had been there was when we drew the curtains there were several glasses which had been missed, as they were on the window sill, and bizarrely an odd sock. The sock game my daughter assures me was very funny, but what I want to know is who went home with only one sock on!!!\nStarted thinking about India, a good job my wife is organised as we set off tomorrow.\n2nd Jan Thursday\nTravelled down to see my brother and family it was really good to see them again. Played RISK which was a bit of a Christmas tradition when we were kids. It was funny to be playing with him and both sets of kids, as I felt like a kid again. It was really nice though. B won, he managed to wipe people out and amass their RISK cards. He risked everything and it went to the last throw of the dice, so it was quite exciting.\nFriday 3rd Jan\n Travelled down to my Dads to have tea and drop off some stuff before heading for the airport. I am pleased we have had a few days off before flying as it is a night flight and I hate travelling when I am already exhausted.\nThe weather was the usual British winter of rain and wind. A friend of mine is convinced that this is due to global warming, more energy in the system means more rain and wind!! In which case Cumbria is not going to be the place to live as it is already wet and windy enough!!\n\n\nThe next 2 weeks recall X’s family holiday to India:\n\n\nSat 4th January 2003\nI am sitting in the Nilgiri hills, in southern India in shorts and T shirt enjoying the coolness of the high altitude. It is almost twice the height of Ben Nevis. On BBC world last night it showed a reporter in London with an umbrella trying to keep off the large wet snowflakes!!\nWe are visiting friends who teach at a Christian School here.\nThe contrasts of India always seem so great. The poverty and the opulence side by side.\nThe beggars and the road repairers at the side of the road in make shift tents of plastic sheeting. And huts of bamboo leaves. Then the huge opulent houses, wooden floored and air conditioned with their own generators and the 4* hotels with marbled floors and artificial streams and waterfalls.\nWe came on a cheap charter flight as it was cheaper to come to Trivandrum on a flight and a package with hotel B&B, than to just buy the flights. The emphasis though should be on cheap. It is the first time I have ever had to pay for drinks on the plane! The air stewardesses seemed to be there for a good time rather than to look after the passengers. Can't complain though as it was cheap!\n\nThe only worry was the re routing. We were originally supposed to be going via United Arab emirates but the refuelling was transferred to Bahrein. As we flew in we were warned it was a military as well as civilian airport so no photography was allowed. The build up of US forces in the gulf must be pretty major as even here there were large numbers of US air force planes, and massive sinister looking helicopters. It is difficult to believe that they are aiming to keep the peace by preparing for war.\nThe papers here are also full of sabre rattling between Pakistan and India, with daily reports of skirmishes in Kashmir. There is also exchanges of political rhetoric between the two states. How much is actually for real and how much is sabre rattling no one knows.\nThe weekly Telegraph is also reporting that Iraq has shot down a reconnaissance drone. The same sort that blew up one of the El Quaedi leaders in Yemen. The US is obviously trying " Regime change" by several methods. The US response was to blow up several command and control facilities. The war hasn't officially started yet but the skirmishes are going on. The cost the previous year for the RAF to patrol the no fly zone was $22 UK million , the last quarter was 10 times that. So there is money being spent.\nThe priorities of Govts is often difficult to work out. The Indian govt doesn't have enough money at the local level to organise a proper refuse collection system. Yet has money to develop hi tech weaponry!\nThe attitudes to rubbish here is very different. When we were at the beach, the actual beach is combed by litter pickers, but the areas in between are terrible. There are 2 smart 4* hotels and the govt buildings where the tourism training takes place. The grounds are immaculate and the flowers and area beautiful but once out side the grounds it is a cross between a rubbish dump and a building site with piles of rubbish and sand and rubble.\nWe went for a snorkelling trip around the coast to a fishing harbour where the sea was calm and there were plenty of rocks for the fish to hide in, and swim in and out of.\nThe boats were a few bits of wood tied together with string. Seriously.\nThere were two central planks and two edge planks and then an aft piece of wood to hold the aft part together which was reinforced by cord. The wood is so light that it floats with our weight fairly easily. The oars were split bamboo with no grips, so it made for interesting rowing or is it paddling? They are more like large Canadian canoes than boats. \nVery Hawaii five O. \nThe planks were roughly shaped but as we rode the waves the water fountained up through the holes in the bottom. H asked what wood they were made of but didn't understand the answer, must be a type of balsa.\n We set off from under the light house, there was another group going at the same time. I think they must have agreed to pay top whack, whereas you\nsoon learn to try to bargain about the price of everything here. They had two helpers in the boat to paddle whereas we were the economy class with two paddles but only one guide in our two boats!! We took turns in helping to paddle, whether we made much difference to the progression of the boat I don 't know; but it was fun. It was a bit worrying that we were heading for the least scenic part of the coast.(The other way is beautiful sandy beaches for miles) \n\nThere is a wave powered generator at the edge of the harbour, a few rusty wrecks and bits of broken concrete. But when we arrived the snorkelling was brilliant. It was like swimming in a tropical fish tank. My favourite were small electric blue fish which darted away as soon as you came near. There were big black and yellow striped tiger fish. There were 2 sorts one with vertical stripes and one with horizontal. Not at all timid.\nThe angel fish with their long dangling barbs were shy and would only appear when you kept still. There were some very large spiky sea anemones as big as a football. Loads of crabs and shoals of fish which swim hither and thither.\nSome were quite bizarre. There were some that looked like sea horses that had been straightened out. You almost could see a jockey getting a saddle ready to put on them for the Saltwater Derby. The huge variety and colours were just outstanding.\nWe spent a few hours and then got thoroughly sun burnt on the way back. The boys had been full of beans on the way there but were exhausted in the heat on the way back.\nWe spent today making and flying kites on top of a hill at Pykara. The kids(or was it the Dad's ?) made kites and then we tried to fly them. H's won. His design was copied from an original no stick design and managed to fly almost successfully. My traditional kite shaped one flew once but its aerodynamics weren't quite right. [son]'s yellow square was successful. None however matched the Ikea bought one. We played cricket and Frisbee as the water buffalos wandered passed in the typical Indian way of having no real boundaries between one thing and another. Called in at the Vedera's which was very pleasant. The garden was stunning as usual. I love driving through the tea plantations with acres of terraced tea plants and through the forest to get there.\n The hotel is an up market Indian rather than a western. Which is great for us. The décor lacks a little in taste and design. Concrete floors and that rather quaint unfinished look. Spotlessly clean, and the thing about India is they love having kids around and spend ages talking with them and love having them around. Going out for meals in UK with children is always a bit stressful, as low blood sugars combined with the general attitude of people to children does not make it a pleasant experience. Whereas even the hours wait for the food here is not stressful as the kids wander off, play games read books etc. [son] and [other son?] have befriended a man at the Blue Moon gift shop. He has spent hours playing chess and talking to them. [son] won a little elephant off him by beating him at chess. [son] decided he would buy Josh the chess set, and kept bargaining the price down. He eventually paid\n350 rupees for it. $4.60.\nThe beach is idyllic, with palm trees and warm rolling sea. The only problem is having to get the kids out of the sun during the red hot period between 12 and 2 . We do keep slapping on the sun tan lotion. I missed the widows peaks where my hair is receding and have sun burnt red patches either side of my head. The boys have variable tanning, depending on where the sun block was washed off first!\n\nDear [friends]\nJust a quick note to say that we are enjoying ourselves so much that we don't want to come home......But we would miss all our friends!!\nWe had a great time at the beach, you know the palm trees, the warm rolling sea, the sandy beaches and unlike Silloth 30 degrees warmth. In fact some days it was to hot, and we had to drag the boys out of the sea or else they would have been really sun burnt.\nWe are just back from 3 days at Avalanche, which is a bit of an unfortunate name for a mountain out door centre, but as there isn't any snow I don't think the Indians appreciate the irony.\nIt is up in the Mountains, a jungle area where there is very little apart from a few tea plantations, reservoirs and hydroelectric plants, and jungle and the wood men who harvest the wood every 10 years.\nWe left a bus and walked in to the centre, while a truck took the bags, food and the lazy ones. It is incredibly beautiful with high hills and lakes, but there is a drought at the moment so the reservoirs are all very low. And everywhere is incredibly dry and dusty. Thick red dust, which gets in to everything. The facilities were basic. The water ran from a stream to a tank to the taps!! No electric, showers but fortunately as always in India there was a little man, or in fact 3 who cooked for us all.\nA is taking after [wife], their main concern was not meeting any rats!\nWe abseiled down a waterfall, walked and swam in another...well [son] and [other son] swam. I am afraid it was too cold for me. I will wait until we go back down to the beach. We all went kayaking, and sat around the campfire at night.\n\n\nSaturday.18th January 2003\nThe end of our Indian holiday and escape from Cumbrian weather!\n[wife] saw the rep yesterday and the bus was arranged for 12:30 for a flight at 5:30. This tour company is something else. So we are going to catch a taxi at about 3pm so we are not hanging around the airport for ages. Having 4 children and going through the bureaucracy of an Indian airport is bad enough with out the additional hassle of waiting around for 3 hours with out reason. The annoying part is that so much of it is pointless. In that they put your bags through the security x ray in the main hall and then give you your bags back so that if you wanted to add stuff to your bag you could!!?? You have to go to 1 desk to check in, another to get your seat, another to exit Indian immigration and customs, and then identify your bags to get them put on the plane…\nWorse than DEFRA!! \nSo we spent a last morning swimming on the beach and then said good bye to the Cs and Gs. [wife] had to buy her material fro the study! \nWe were all quite sad coming away. I think we could have all stayed and enjoyed living in India but back to Porridge…\nSun 19th\nArrived at Dads at 3am UK time after clearing customs. Flight was not too crowded thank goodness as the space allocated for my legs is not enough!!\nThey had as before messed up their allocation of vegetarian meals. With the height of European ignorance and stupidity they offered a Hindu family by us a beef meal. The stewardesses should have known better, but I just cringed with inward embarrassment at their thoughtlessness. \nLeft in T shirts and shorts, arrived cold in jeans and fleeces. The air conditioning I don’t think was working properly and every one was coughing and dry mouthed as we arrived in Gatwick.\nDrove back up to Cumbria and back to the house. It was a strange sensation to be back, we had done so much and seemed changed, and yet everything here was still the same and yet not really. In some ways it is like after the FMD epidemic, before and after, everything is the same but nothing is the same. Part of you is trying to find where you fit in the new reality, part of you wants the safety of the old ways. Slightly dislocated from your surroundings, but the physical surroundings are the same, but I suppose you have changed, and the old certainties, that were not certain but seemed it, have made way for new changeable ways that are not certain and you know that they are not certain.\nMon 20th\nI have taken the day off to recover. The kids were all up really early because of the jet lag, and so had no qualms about sending them to school. \nI spent the day unpacking and sorting out with [wife]. \nThe pile of post was huge but seemed a lot more manageable by the time I had thrown out al the junk mail. Why do I need another 2 credit cards any way. Transferred money for tax bills and downloaded the emails. There were only 50!! So ploughed my way through them. When you are away for any length of time it makes you realise how much work is required to keep a household going with all the bills and stuff.. \nTues 21st\nBack to work and to face my in tray. Still feeling a little jet lagged and seeing an overflowing In Tray as you arrive is a daunting feeling. Did some of it and then went out On Call. It was good to be back on farm, and seeing folk again. It always amazes me how everyone around here knows everything. So they were all asking about India and had we had a good time. So it was nice to feel part of the community. As a friend of mine once commented “There is only one thing worse than being talked about, that is not being talked about.”\nThere is still that funny feeling of having been away, and having changed but nothing here is any different and yet thinking that it should be. Though why it should be I don’t know.\nWeds 22nd \nGeorge wanted a partners meeting at lunch time, so we met up and had the usual decision making process. To be honest the jet lag was still really kicking in so I was asleep on my feet. It doesn’t usually effect me for this long but both [wife] and I are shattered by 8pm. The kids are OK and going to bed after us. The sign of things to come.\nThe whole PETS travel scheme is causing problems. It has been presented as a passport for pets, but all it really does is allow re-entry to the UK from certain countries as long as you meet the conditions. We have had a few problems and we do very few. So what it must be like for those on the south coast I dread to think. The problems are 2 main ones. 1.That there is a 6 month period before you can come back into the UK after the paper work is completed. You can go before the 6 months, so people who spend the summer on a caravan site, will take their dog abroad, but cannot come back before the 6 month date. There is also a problem where the forms have to be renewed. It has to be done according to the manufactures directions, which vary from country to country. As in France it is a govt regulation that dogs are vaccinated annually so the vaccine manufactures stick to that. In the UK dogs have to be done every 2 years, cats annually. So you cannot have your documentation renewed in France unless you vaccinate annually. Whereas in the UK you can renew it with vaccinating every 2 years.\nThe other problem is that the paperwork is so complex that according to DEFRA’s figures there is a 18% failure rate. I.e. 1 in 6 don’t make it back in. There is also a problem in that there has been at least one dog imported into Cumbria with out any paperwork as the owners thought all they needed was a rabies vaccination. We are dealing with it on a weekly basis and are confused so the poor punters don’t stand a chance.\nThursday 23rd\nThere is a real problem with cow fertility in the restocking farms at the moment. I went to 1 farm where of the 10 cows I checked only one was in calf. Which is a little sad. No baby calves, no milk production and more losses for the FMD farmers. The compensation is looking very small. The only ones who benefited are those who took the money and got out.\nIt is difficult trying to work out why these cows are having so much of a problem. As usual I suspect there is no simple answer. The blood tests and analyses do not help much. The cows have been under a lot of stress. The movement into new regimes and cattle systems where they have to learn where to go, where the water troughs are, where the milking parlour is. They have had to sort out the pecking order of the cows, which espy in the larger units is probably quite stressful. Where you add animals to a herd there are lead cows who know the set up and cows are very much follow my leader in their behaviour patterns. Where there is a complete cull and restocking there are no lead cows so no leader for the cows to follow.\nThere has also been a lot of illness in the herds which again will reduce fertility. The other problem is the poor quality silage because of the bad weather. The other factor that keeps coming up in conversation is what effect the topping of grass has on silage/grazing quality which would have been an interesting study that will never be done now.\nStress is a generality of a word but I can’t think of a better more specific way of expressing the problems. The “stress” of all the changes has caused fertility problems. The difficulty is in finding where do you go from here. I think a lot will end up culling fairly large numbers 15-20% because of fertility.\nFriday 24th \nOne of the DEFRA TV’s called in on her way back from a test(TB) to let us know that there was still an IR causing problems. She also said that it looked like there was going to be a complete herd cull for TB in the east of the county. The farmer had restocked from three sources. All were down to do as tracings as well as to be done under the restocking TB testing. They found 32 reactors with lesions so they will probably cull the whole herd. It is so depressing. To think what the farmer must be thinking and whether he can face getting back into farming again after this further disaster does not bear thinking about.\n\n**\nSaturday 25th January 2003\nLinda B’s wedding!!!\nTravelled down to Derby for wedding. It was really nice to see them finally tie the knot as they have been talking about it for so long. They have followed each other around several continents so at least that will have seen each other in different situations. [she] first came as a student and has worked for us as a locum. She spent 2 years at All Nations Bible College in London, where she met [him]. So a lot of their friends from All Nations were there. [they] have been doing agricultural relief work in the worlds hot spots. From Kosovo to Indonesia, from Haiti to Bolivia. They are currently in Bolivia working with church groups. [she] has been setting up Tb testing programme as there is a problem of human TB, which has been blamed on the cattle. But they have completed the testing and it is not the cattle. It seems to be nearly all human to human spread so that at least they can make a start on eradicating TB in humans by treating the in contacts.\nThey went away from the church in a horse drawn carriage which was nice to see. Spent quite a lot of time catching up with vets and their friends who we have not seen for ages.\nSun 26th\nWe were staying with friends from Carlisle who moved down to Derbyshire when he started to teach. We went to their church which is a “house church” and is a little different to put it mildly. They meet in a school, and it is very informal with a drumming band and a desire not to be restricted by convention or liturgy! So it was a mixture of readings and worship songs. They do seem to be reaching out to their local community as there were people from all walks of life there.\nMon 27th \nBack to work and not feeling very good had 2 weeks in India and no stomach bugs but a w/e in Derby and I have a very runny tummy. Came home from work early and went to bed.\nTues 28th\nOff work Ill in bed, being male this involves dying noisily in a corner. Some sympathy I get from my wife!!! \nWeds 29th\nNot feeling good but dragged myself back in as I have had that much time off recently and I feel that I have to turn in. But I am off tomorrow so I can recover then, the only drawback is that I will be working the w/e. The sheep seem to have decided to start lambing or maybe decided not as we seem to be seeing a few if you get what I mean\nThursday\nHad a good day off and spent time sleeping and doing household things. Even though I hate DIY it was good to get some jobs sorted.\nCalled in at vets to pick up stuff for court tomorrow.\nFriday\nThe more I experience the legal proceedings the more I feel that they are a waste of time. What is important is how good your lawyer is. The case was all about whether or not this guy had starved his greyhounds or not. He had, but as he was on legal aid he thought it might be better to try to keep his other dogs. And have fewer judgements against him. He obviously knew his way around the legal system.\n\n\nSaturday 1st Feb 2003\nReflections on Court case\nIt is one of those really annoying things that you can never replay what has happened.\nThe case yesterday really churned me up with having to make huge moral decisions more or less on the spur of the moment. \nThe complicating factors were that C who was acting on the defence was acting outside the RCVS guidelines. Now I could have pointed out this to the RSPCA lawyer, but as C has already been struck off once the matter could well have turned very badly for him. Even though it is his decision to get involved and a poor one. Then I think that it is not for me to land him in the muck, I could have done so both on the fact he should not have been speaking and also that I could have pointed out that his record is tainted. Why he was being an expert witness in the first place for some one who is not even their client beadsmen (? Beats me)\n. I had reservations about doing the legal work for the RSPCA, and at least we do quite a lot of work for the local inspector.\nSo I decided not to trash C as a witness as I thought that it was not my place to do so, and secondly the repercussions for local vet good will would not stand me in good stead. But I have my doubts as to whether I did the correct thing. There is no right and wrong. The dilemmas are there because you to choose which horn you want to get impaled on.\nSun+\nLambing seems to have started with a vengeance spent most of the morning at the surgery, with land rovers and trailers turning up one after another. With sheep lambing or having peri-natal problems. I do like working out of the surgery at the w/e, as there is far less driving and working is so much easier and you don’t have to keep getting changed in and out of protective clothes.\nSo got two vets work done by just keeping on asking for them to come to the surgery. The farmers don’t mind either as they generally have to put them in a pick up to bring them back to the farm from the field so it is as easy to drive on to the vets rather than hang around waiting for them.\nMon\n Went TT testing at P’s [farm]. I used his son a fair bit during FMD as they went out early on and he always has done a fair amount of contracting on the various farms. He also has a very happy go lucky style in contrast to his Dad who is a bit of a worrier. I quite enjoyed the banter and we could just work away as there is no pressure too get finished, as the numbers are not great. \n Tues\n Went to O’s where they are again having problems getting the cows in calf. The levels of infertility in the restocking herds are horrendous. The sad thing is we seem to be achieving very little in actually improving it. In spite of a lot of investigations and spending money on vaccine and on supplements.\nThe average loss must be 5% at least. It would be interesting to compare the culling rates of the restocking farms. And find out what the restocking losses actually are.\nWeds\nTook the new vet student with me today and let her do the first lambing. At R’s. They like everyone else says they are getting a lot of lambs. These were dead and all tangled up and aborting so they could not get them out. They had quads last night.\nThursday\nWent to S and stitched a teat. This is now a fairly easy operation with the advent of using open crushes and decent epidural anaesthesia. Local is always fairly iffy as many a dentists patient will testify to. It is very satisfying to fix something like that.\nFriday\nSpent the morning doing certs. These are OTM22 certificates which were brought in by MAFF to compensate the farmer for cows that would have been sold for human consumption before the OTM scheme banned them from human consumption. If an animal is not fit to travel then it can be shot on the farm, but to get the compensation they need a vet’s cert to say that it is fit for human consumption, so it can be burnt on the scheme. If it is not fit then they have to pay to have it taken away. So there is a lot of pressure to sign them.\nThe scheme is supposed to be coming to an end this summer but as yet no markets exist for the casualty animals that are fir for human consumption. The whole knackery/ injured animals/ burying of animals scheme is up for grabs and the govt needs to get some sort of scheme up and running. But the govt thinks, maybe rightly that it is an industry problem to get rid of its own waste and it is not up to the taxpayer to get farmers waste problems sorted. Leave it up to the industry/ market to sort it.\nThere is also a suggestion that as TB is not an important zoonosis in the UK anymore then it is a production problem and it should go the same way as sheep scab and be taken off the notifiable disease list and individual farms have to ensure they meet whatever standard that the buyers want to specify. Which is what is happening to a small extent in the dairy industry with buyers specifying farms must meet certain criteria. \n\n\nSaturday 8th Feb 2003\n[wife] is on her course for the w/e so I was doing the run around to squash and football for [sons].\nMon 10th\nB is now renting all the land @ Bush Ghyll head. He has taken it over as a grass letting. Another of the small farms is disappearing. The reality is it has only ever been a small holding but they use to milk 20 odd cows which meant it got the status of a farm on our computer system. The Uncle who use to run it when first arrived was a real character. He was always telling you about when farmers made money after the war. A dozen eggs was 10 shilling. None of your 50ps 10 whole shillings. You could take a girl to the cinema and the Lyons Café and still have change from a pound. Even his free range hens eggs would not buy a cinema ticket for one these days. He should of taken her as he ended up as a bachelor with his nephew taking over the farm.\nTuesday 11th\nThe partners meeting today was trying to address the fact that the mark up on fees is going to be eroded. One of the things that Barnard Castle are doing is putting on their bills, but as yet not charging for things like “Telephone advice” and “Out of hours”. So we are going to be doing the same to try to get across the point that we are providing an all round service that needs to be paid for. But I still think at the end of the day the economics will win. If you cannot provide a service at a profit, you cannot provide a service. So where does that leave us??\nWeds\nHarrison’s are having problems with fertility. Who isn’t? The blood results are showing low levels of copper but I am not convinced that is what it is.\nThey will have to supplement the feed by adding more copper to the feed. The problem with all these investigations is that we are looking for a simple answer when the actual problem is multi factorial. The cows may be short in copper but they are not that low that it is really effecting them. I often wonder with humans if you blood sampled them for lots of different minerals would we find that a percentage of the population is actually below normal for some or several minerals? Maybe our omnivorous diet and the fact we are not producing huge amounts of milk probably does come in to it. We do have a much more varied diet. Most cows are now on complete rations here in the UK so that if the Nutritionist gets it slightly wrong then you will find that the cows will be short. I suppose the other thing that we do always forget is that they are usually working off either a single or 3-4 samples of silage so that there will be a spread of what is actually in the silage and the samples may or may not reflect it.\nThursday\nOn call tonight, and busy which was OK. R was up helping at\nWH house. One of his suckler calves had managed to prolapse its rectum. But it is as wild as thunder so we were all very careful about handling it. I had to dope it any way to operate. But when we put it back it was jumping up the walls which is always a wee bit disconcerting. Limousin stirks could be used for the grand national. D’s brother is not very well at all now. He has cancer and went in for emergency surgery the day I shot all the cows. I had a big row with senior staff at Page St. He had been admitted to the hospital at 2am and was to undergo emergency surgery. That afternoon. I did not want it put on the web site as they were announcing them on Radio Cumbria. I did not want him to be going down for the surgery or just coming out of it and to find out from the radio that I was shooting all his cows. I asked them to put an embargo on it. Of course the vets tried not to let it go out but it did and I was really angry. I wrote some strongly worded letters and never even got a reply. I should have followed it up and held some one to account but I am afraid it all got lost in the passing of time.\nAt least R is a lot better; he had meningitis around the time of FMD. He has had bad heads and depression ever since so, it was good that he is back on farms and has started fencing again.\nFri 14th Valentines\n It is [friend]’s Birthday so we all went around to her house for dinner which was really nice and ended playing darts with the kids. I was pleased to get some darts in the board, as it is a long long time since I have played.\n\n\nSaturday 15th February 2003 \n[son’s] birthday. My little baby son is now 8 years old. It is hard to believe where the time has gone and all the water that has passed under the bridge. \nWent around to [friend’s] at night and sat and eat and put the world to rights. It is good every now and again to wind down and just enjoy talking with out having to think as we know them so well you can just come out with stuff.\nSunday\nMon 17th\nSpent the day TB testing at DL where they have had a NVL. (No visible lesions Reactor) taken. [colleague] did the first test and we are not doing the fat stock on farms that have restocked as they will be going for slaughter fairly soon. So it is deemed pointless and really it is. So spent the day putting big bullocks through the crush and it is a dangerous work for the men who go in amongst them because they are very rarely handled and so don’t take to it very well.\nTuesday\nHad an interesting lambing today. And a consequence of FMD that you forget about. There is an inherited genetic condition of Suffolk’s called Dandy-walker syndrome causing hydrocephalus in the lambs. So both the ewe and tup must carry the gene to produce the deformed lambs with heads too large to get through the mothers pelvis. So it means doing a caesarean on a ewe that can only be used to breed fat lambs from. It has to be put to another breed next year. This years lambs are dead/ going to die. So the economics are useless. Some breeders just shoot them at this point. But he had called us to try to lamb it or caesaer it. As she was a big ewe I eventually managed to lamb it. \nHe was saying though that it takes time to work out whether the stock you have bought will produce the breeding stock that you want. You have to try the different combinations that you have to work out which lines work well together. He reckons on about 4-8 years before he will be back to breeding decent Suffolk sheep in spite of buying in good stock. There is more to breeding than meets the eye.\nWednesday\nRB had a stirk with MCF. Malignant Catarhal Fever. It is a viral disease which is quite often fatal that they catch from sheep. But they have really blue grey eyes from the change in the fluid in the eye and the severe iritis. It must be incredibly painful for them. \nThursday\nDixons TT2 is now clear so they have to have them all tested again in 42 days to clear the farm of restrictions. Un fortunately the vet from the ministry said it would be from the day the cow is taken not today so the whole thing is getting a bit complicated and JD is getting wound up. Understandably so.\nFriday\nTried to sort out some of the Tracings that we are supposed to be doing. There are a lot coming through but the quality of the info is very poor. Tracings are where the farm has sold animals and then subsequently gone down with TB or other notifiable disease. The DEFRA paper chase is so bad that ear tag nos are wrong or a farmer has bought several from the same source and only 1-2 are on the paper work from DEFRA. The thing seems to be falling apart a bit. \nWent and did a single animal up at the mill. He usually buys in stores and fattens them. But As the store trade has gone through the roof he has sold a lot of them on to let some one else fatten or if heifers breed from them. The DEFRA files have him as a fattening unit/ finisher so that they hadn’t bothered to do tracings to him as they would be going for slaughter. But of course he had sold one on that had gone down with TB so they wanted to know what was happening with these now.\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd February 2003\nSaturday\nSunday\nMonday\nTuesday\nHad a funny sensation to day. I suppose it was almost a flash back in some ways. I went to a farm who has fancy pedigree sheep. He has rented land and wanted them added to his holding for the MV Scheme so he needs a Vet Inspection to say that the fields are double fenced so that the sheep do not come in contact to any others. This inspection of fields is pretty meaningless as they know what needs to be done and so they are always up to scratch. The last time I was doing it was for FMD. \nWednesday\nThursday\nFriday\nPacked and got the last few things sorted for the VCF w/e. Got the posters printed and the display boards together, and set off down the motorway to pick up [friend] and spent most of the day travelling it was good talking to him. He retired from practice just before FMD and then spent the first part of his retirement working for DEFRA on the FMD. First at Preston and then at Settle. It seems they were better organised at Preston and he was quite positive about the local teams. I sometimes wonder if I am sill too close to it all and to emotional to take a clear-headed look at what it was really like. It was good to see [friends] at night and get set up for the w/e.\n\n\nSat 1st March (+ Sun) 2003\n\nVCF w/e\nIt is difficult for me to sum up the w/e as I was so much in it and part of it. \nSo I have copied the report from one of the students who wrote a bit for the VCF Magazine.\nVCF Triennial Conference - 28th Feb-2nd March 2003\n \nOn a sunny weekend at the beginning of March, over 70 vets, vet students and families bravely took time out of their busy schedules and gathered expectantly at The Hayes conference centre in Derbyshire for the 2003 VCF conference. We were a mixed bunch, ranging in age from 2 months to 70 (well, nearly), from many different places, denominations and walks of veterinary life, but we all had a common goal in mind: to unite in our desire to love and serve the Lord Jesus Christ in the vocation to which He has called us and to encourage one another to be "salt and light" in the veterinary world.\n Our distinguished speaker for the weekend was Dr. L, a consultant psychiatrist and Christian who drew from his own experience to bring us some thoughtful insights on the subject of "God at Work". He emphasised the fact that although work is a godly activity and that we should view whatever we do "as if working for the Lord" (Colossians 3:18) it must not be forgotten that a balance must be achieved between work, church, family life etc. There was also an opportunity to discuss how we would respond as Christians to a variety of ethical decisions that commonly present themselves in veterinary practice.\n As well as the main talks there was the opportunity to join a variety of seminars on relevant practical subjects. BT, a vet and long-serving missionary in Thailand with OMF, led a most interesting seminar on the joys and challenges of both veterinary and evangelistic work in a different culture. Students and new graduates were well provided for in seminars on "practicing reality" - living out one's faith in the university or veterinary practice environment. M C bravely stepped in at short notice to lead a seminar on business ethics, and vcf secretary generated some thought-provoking discussion on a very relevant subject for many - singleness. \n It was not all work and no play, however, and we were much obliged to the Scottish students for organising the Saturday night ceilidh. Much fun was had by all.\nSo, we all parted company on Sunday feeling refreshed and well-fed both physically and spiritually. How encouraging to be reminded that you are not the only Christian vet out there, and that there are many others who grapple with the same issues you face. The weekend was a time of friendships rekindled and hopefully new ones made, a time of strengthening and a reminder of what is ultimately the most important thing in our busy lives.\n\n\nLeading the seminar on business ethics, or rather winging it was very stressful but very good. Which was very interesting and very challenging. The questions about is it right to make a profit were espy good to work through, but it was incredibly draining. By Sun night I was exhausted drove back to [friend’s] for the night. He live about 20 mins off motorway and it was coming through one of the wee villages I was flashed by a camera and so will have a fine and a speeding ticket to sort out.\nMon\nHad a really nice lie in and then went for a walk with [friend] around from his house across the fields. It was beautiful. Then set off for Preston to visit the friend who is in prison. The road was closed on the way to the M6 so took me ages to find my way to the M6 and then after coming off at Preston to find the way to the prisons. The whole afternoon was very depressing. There is something very intimidating about having to be “processed” for the visit under security cameras and by very polite but uncaring prison officers. The being searched and going past sniffer dogs, and having to give my finger prints which are now on the police computers. [prisoner] was OK but fairly depressed about the outlook. Even now he is worried about how he is going to cope when he comes out. The prison regime is very oppressive, and after being there for an hour and a half I was glad to be going. It is also a bizarre situation where you have to sit there and talk for that length of time. There is also a lot of stuff that he wants to know about the kids. And you just can’t help him. Most of what we know is hearsay and not first and so difficult to sum up. Espy as some of it is not good. They are not coping with the whole situation, and it is basically his fault, or his and their mothers, so he is already feeling guilty enough with out giving him more angst to cope with. But I was very glad to be coming out again into the fresh air.\nSpent the evening at A’s parents evening challenging senior management and giving them a hard time. So quite a day.\nTuesday\nAs usual the disasters after a w/e away continue the new bathroom was totally flooded from a leaking pipe. I felt like wringing his neck. He is the plumber. The water was flowing back through the old kitchen and made a real mess. Managed to get hold of him after leaving more and more urgent phone messages at all his answer phones. He has a mobile, a telephone at his flat where he hardly ever is, and at his girlfriends. So the water was off most of the day until he found the leak and managed to fix it. Again he had to smash tiles and cut holes in the wall to fix it and the place looked a mess. But boy o boy am I fed up with that stupid bathroom. \nWent into work to find no one had done the stuff I had left to be done, and work was really busy. The speeding ticket had landed already, why are other govt depts not as efficient?. So spent the whole day until 6pm running around like a headless chicken and then decided that stuff it: I was going to the gym for the circuits class.\nWeds\nThe disasters continued, with the washing machine giving up the ghost. Which in a house with 3 boys and a vet is a pretty serious problem.\nI also had an argument with one of the other partners saying that if we did not get another vet we would have a rebellion or people going off sick through stress. Me being one of them and I have only been back 2 days. Still haven’t managed to read all of the stuff in my in tray yet let alone deal with it.\nThursday\nFinally convinced [senior colleague?] we needed some help as the Ministry got hold of him and asked if we could do a tracings herd test urgently on one of farms that has not restocked. (The cattle belong to some one else). He then looked at the book and decided we could not. ! Idiot I told him weeks ago, last September I think that this would happen. So spent the day sorting out DC to come. In between vetting. He is not an LVI so have had to pull some wool, and sweet talk them into training him in the baffling ways of DEFRA. But that meant I still have yet to reach the bottom of my in tray. May be there is gold buried at the bottom. \nI think this is one of those days when you look back were probably quite decisive, but accidental days. \nThis was the first time I really thought that I was about to be killed. I could see it happening and there was nothing I could have done differently to prevent it.\nI went on a calving after work about 8pm.\nMet up with the farmers and One went to get water. While the other and I walked into the box to where the cow was. The cow gave me a funny look and I backed off, to behind a pillar in the pen. “ Oh its OK it’s a quiet cow, she’s had 8 calves.” He said. Next time I will listen to my instincts.\nSo we went forward to where she was. Without warning, or snorting or given it a second thought she charged, caught me under the ribs with her head and threw me to the ground. Before I could react she butted me again in the head, snorted kicked me, and then backed off as the farmer started kicking and hitting her. She then came again, bashed me into the corner on my back and kept coming. As her head flew at me I grabbed her nose and swung myself around on her nose. Kicked her with both feet taking all my weight on the one hand while shouting for help from the other guys. One came back with a pitchfork. As I was on the ground I kicked her again. As they came with the fork and let go and scrambled away around the box she still came after me, but I got to the gate past the two brothers who thumped her again and then backed off and slammed the gate shut. I lay in a heap on a bale for 10 minutes breathing heavily, while they asked did I need an ambulance or Doctor. I finally came to enough to splash water on my face and think that there must be an easier way to make a living!! It took all 4 brothers armed with sticks to get her into a crush where I then managed to calve 1 dead twin breach and 1 live twin (just). In her defence the cow had been calving for a while was in pain and had probably just got herself really wound up. But she almost killed me. I then sat having strong tea for quarter of an hour before summoning up the courage to drive home. With hind sight, I should have taken up there offer of a) Getting some one else out to calve the cow. But the girl on 2nd was 5ft nothing and petite, and didn’t think dumping it on her was very fair. The adrenaline was still flowing so I just kept on. b) I should however have let one of them drive me home or probably to casualty. But I felt they would not do anything at the hospital except keep an eye on me. So I just went home to my own bed and asked my wife to wake me up every two hours.\nFriday\nIll with head spinning. Every time I sit down to try and do something my head just goes around. And I feel really tired and jet lagged.\nI think I prefer India to being beaten up by cows. Time for a new job.\nSlept all afternoon, but had friends for dinner it had been arrange months ago so [wife] didn’t cancel, and I kept going but drifted in and out a wee bit!\n\n\nSaturday 8th March\nHad a lie in to 9 o clock Yo!!! Still feeling pretty sore but at least my head is one piece I think!! Showed flat to prospective tenants.\n It is very rare that we don’t have to get up for sthg when we are at home either for work or for Football/squash or something similar. There is another squash competition but they are both later starts for our boys, which is great.\nTook [son] to football and [wife] phoned up to say that the Cs were going to watch the Lord of the rings did I want to go. So went to watch it and swapped younger kids with [wife] taking [son] and their youngsters and I went with the Cs. There are times when mobile phones are really useful to get things arranged. \nThe film was really good but boy was I stiff after sitting down for that length of time. My knee was giving me real gyp.\nSpent evening at Daubes but I faded so [wife] drove home and went to bed.\nSunday 9th\nWent to church in morning and picked up car. [friends] came to lunch which was really good to see them. But as A points out pointedly, they do have 5 boys. So there were 8 kids flying around but I did enjoy seeing them. They are still trying to sort out their diversification plans and hope to have several strings to their bows as well as farming. There is a teachers position at Nelson Thom so that is probably the most reliable form of income for [friend].\nMon 10th\nWent to work but every time I bend over or move to fast my head spins, so just did small animals. I think cats and dogs are a much better idea. But a lot of sympathy from folk at work. Mr H had been in and obviously given a fairly graphic description of what had happened.\nThat and my face is not the most becoming at the moment.\nTues 11th \nBack to work on the farms. I was at Rs for a fertility visit. Even though I know his cows and I am happy with them I did feel very nervous about going any where near them. I have lost a lot of confidence which although I expected it I am still a bit wound up about it.\nThe rest of day was OK, apart from several people whingeing about the current paper work requirements for selling cattle. Mind you when you see what they need to sell a few bullocks or a geld cow, it is probably easier to be an asylum seeker.\nSpent evening at Surgery showing D the ropes. He is the locum who is going to be working with us for the next few weeks. He is going to the ministry at Newcastle tomorrow to do his LVI training. At least that means he can do some of the TB testing and at least give us a break from that. It is these sort of things, managing staff, showing people the ropes, giving them back up and debriefing them that latkes huge amounts of time and energy and yet is never seen as “work” or relevant by a lot of people(The rest of the partnership) and yet in any small business it is the people that make all the difference and if they feel appreciated and supported, and can debrief and be reassured then it makes such a difference to them. And happy staff can deal with situations and people a lot better and easier than stressed ones!!\nWeds 12th\nNext year I am NOT going it is definitely some one else’s turn.\nI speak of the annual training (????) day for senior LVIs. It just drives me up the wall. The morning was spent fairly usefully talking about contingency planning for the next FMD or exotic disease epidemic. The Page St planners seemed fairly well clued in and taking on board a lot of the ideas and problems that had been seen in 2001.\nThe afternoon was then totally depressing.\nTB is now endemic in the south of the county, there was a deer herd that had animals dying and so took them to the VIC lab at Penrith to find out why they had these animals losing weight and dying. They had TB. The ministry had known that there had been reactors all around that area but had never picked up on the fact these deer were here and should have been tested.\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vety Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme surely means that “trace-ability” was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole thing is a useless sham.\nWell the answer is that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo it is not getting done so TB is spreading.\nIDIOTS\n\nThe best systems, the best tools, the best ideas, the best businesses have to work through people.\nSo next year some one else can go and listen to the plans in the sky.\nThis was the meeting where we had an excellent talk on FMD in Feb 2000. Just a pity they did not listen to their own experts.\nThere was also a talk on the new Scrapie scheme where the guy speaking knew less than his audience??? Why???\nI have to go back to the speaker at the VCF w/e who said that when he came out of Medical school he Had spent 6 years being taught to be rational and scientific, where disease was discussed logically and a rational conclusion was sought. He came with the same idea to the National Health Service and struggled. He said”.. we live in a fallen world with fallen institutions, and we have to accept that at times they do not make sense, and that it is not in our power or capabilities to change them. Where we can we change them where we cannot we work within them” \nThursday 13th\nDay off prior to working w/e. \nWent up high Pike with [friend]. Snowed lightly on tops but beautiful, but a wee bit chilly. \nSpent the afternoon getting the stuff sorted for VCF magazine and answering e-mails and putting the details from the w/e in to some sort of order. I was trying also to put some responses down for yesterday but feeling to angry to risk putting it down on paper. I just hope the govt is more in touch with the armed forces on the frontline in Kuwait, than the distant arm of govt in State Vet Service in Cumbria.\nFriday 14th\nAnother day, another test, another dollar.\nSpent morning supervising the locum and trying to get on top of my in tray. The stuff for partners meeting next week to try and get some decisions. And a w/e on call looms when I feel even though I have not been in work or worked too many w/e’s tired and jaded. Being beaten up by the cow probably doesn’t help.\n\n\nSaturday 15th March\n Working the w/e on first for the first time in a long time as I have been keeping the amount I am working back. I am was way ahead in the amount worked so it brings the numbers in line. \nI also need a break as feeling v. tired and fed up. And with not much prospect of rejuvenation. \nThe morning was fairly busy but we all finished by 12 so not that bad. It was funny as Julie who ahs been a receptionist since pre FMD said that she thought it was really busy, but compared to the good old days of 8 years ago, you thought it was a good Sat am if you finished by 2!! So it is surprising how things change and you get use to them.\nThe weather is beautiful with clear skies and frosty spring mornings and dry! The good weather always makes you feel better any way.\nSpent afternoon doing bits and pieces in garden and jobbing around.\nSunday 16th\nBusy in morning but it shows how useful the new building is OK I know its 4 years old but things have never been normal and I still see it as new. There were 2 lambings and a sheep to see and drugs to put out, and because I was at the surgery they just kept on coming down to the surgery to the large animal bay so I did a lot of “work” with no driving and it makes such a difference. What would have taken 3-4 hours was finished in an hour and a half!!\nMissed church and did the same at night with more lambings the sheep are back.\nThe afternoon was spent sorting out after boys.\nThey went down to the pond and because it is all churned up they got their wellies stuck in the mud. So they were cold and wet and covered!! I had to use planks to walk out to them so I did not sink in. I made the mistake of fetching the planks and the spades back before sorting the boys so they had trailed mud all around the house!!!\nGrrrrr….\nBut I should have taken photos.\nIn the midst of this the new vet student Rachael turned up so I could not give full vent to my annoyance!!\nMon 17th\nChaos at work with loads of emergencies and testing so we were all glad of students and D working. More I/R’s found TB testing so it looks like it will continue.\nStill haven’t found time to put pen to paper or type writer to send a letter to Contingency planning group at DEFRA. But hopefully will get on top of it soon.\nTues 18th\nSome days I should have stayed in bed. A bad hair day!! \nStarted off badly with arriving at fertility visit as farmer was emerging from breakfast having been late as his wife was milk recording and he had to calve a cow. So had to sort cows before checking to see in calf. A very rotten lambing. Rotten as in lambs were disintegrating so stank and then more calls. Left for lunch at 12:45 to get half way and the called me back for another lambing. There were 1:30 calls to do and then surgery. Worked at night and I was fed up of being On call stopping me doing stuff so went to gym and was bleeped out to speak to folk 4 times. By now really wound up so went to house group and sat down, chatted and phone went. Sorted that and then a cow caesarean. This was followed by 2 more and 3 hours sleep.\nMust be an easier way to make a living.\nWeds 19th\nFeeling my age, no sleep on the night before you 40th birthday does not do you any good. Missed seeing kids in morning as I was out at caesar. 3 during night On Call.\nThe girls at work had got hold of loads of photos (From my wife) so they were all around the practice. Well I was a cute teenager!!!\nWorked through to lunch as morning was busy and partners meeting.\nThen did a 1:30 AND WENT HOME FOR SLEEP.\nOpened presents with kids at 4 o’clock and went out to D’s for meal at night was good.\nThurs 20th\nReally quiet as no TB testing and lots of vets. Did more lambings and caught up on business side of organisation. Doing rota and organising work.\nReflected on partners meeting and tried to work out whether I am out of sync with the rest of the world and right or out of sync and wrong. Time will tell.\nIraq war started as predicted but seems to have been an opportunistic target i e Saddam himself rather than all out assault. Weird but that is politics. I must ask the history teachers about what caused the failure of the League of Nations, and whether this is going to be similar for UN.\nFri 21st\nDespite being on back up went out for a meal. It was the coffee morning’s xmas bash that is traditionally now held in new year as there is too much else on during Xmas period. Spent quite a while talking to MS about League of Nations and the UN. He is fairly sceptical about the power and influence of UN. Which in his view is more often than not used as a fig leaf for US or USSR ambitions, and is not really the “International Community”. He was interesting to talk to about the history of Iraq.\nPlayed pictionary boys vs. girls which was fun.\n\n\n\n\nSaturday 22nd March 2003\n Worked am which was very busy. As it was my 10th day I was feeling a bit drained. Either that or cos of out for meal last night. I will let you decide!! \nThe beautiful weather is continuing, and we went for a lovely walk up above Fellside. The kids loved playing in the streams and the sunshine, which for March is amazing.\nCame back to find that there was a house full of folk to celebrate my 40th birthday which was really nice. Though it was a good thing that the weather was good so the kids could play out side as there were lots of them. Chatted to P, who is always full of energy and enthusiasm. He is a whirlwind of ideas and concepts and philosophy. One of the few people who I can sit and listen to, for hours and hours. He is intelligent and articulate (In 7 languages), and yet always ready to listen to anyone and hear what they have to say, even if it is poorly thought out. And very practical in his approach, and very un materialistic. He is quite happy to give books and ideas to anyone who will read and learn from them.\nSunday 23rd\nThis weather is amazing I still cannot get over it with the Sun blazing down we went to watch [son] play football against Silloth. They won 2-0 . But it was a tight match but very good to watch. Much better than Carlisle, as one spectators put it. Went on to Beckfoot for a picnic, in March??!! The beach was deserted and yet it was warm enough for T shirts and shorts for the boys. |I lay in the sun and slept and counted my many blessings. Came home and planted seeds, lettuce, courgette and sweet pea. Must plant leeks and pumpkins if I get a a chance this week and buy onion sets.\n[wife] spent a while after church talking to B about Low Moor. Difficult.\nMon 24th\nSent my letter to Richard Drummond, who was the RVO at Harrogate and is now head of service delivery. It is always a bit of a conscious effort to take up the cudgels.. against bureaucracy. Especially one like the SVS that has in its culture a tendency to attack those who criticise it. I hope that tomorrow will be quiet as I wish to write another letter to the contingency planning dept. I also want to look at the updated contingency plans and make comments on it. But doing all this does not pay the bills and at the moment when work is so busy I feel it is actually more important to spend time with the kids. So I will sign off and go and watch the “Great Escape” which they bought me for my birthday.\nCopy Of letter to Richard Drummond who wrote the Drummond Report before FMD saying that if there was an outbreak they would not be able to cope!!\n\n21st March, 2003\n\nMr R D Drummond\n[address removed]\n\nDear Richard,\n\nI am writing to express my concern with the current situation with TB.\n\nWe last met at the LVI meeting in Cumbria where we had an excellent talk on Foot and Mouth Disease and about how there was an increased risk becoming apparent. This was in Feb 2000.\n\nAt the meeting this year as well as talks on Contingency planning there was a lot of discussion on the emergence of TB on Cumbrian farms.\n\nThere were also complaints that forward tracings were not being done on some cattle. To which the Vet Officer giving the talk said it was quite difficult and time consuming to work out where cattle had gone. This was met with some incredulity by the local vets as the paperwork and computerised passport scheme involved in moving cattle is a huge burden on farmers. "Trace-ability" was one of the BIG issues to do with BSE, and if it cannot be done it means the whole paper exercise is a useless sham.\n\nThe answer was given that you can trace a specific animal through markets and holdings but not animals on and off a holding.\nSo tracings are taking too much time.\nSo tracings are not getting done in some divisions. \nSo TB is spreading.\n\nWhether this comes under your remit as Head of Service Delivery I do not know. \nBut I would be grateful if you could forward it to the relevant department or to the minister so that a single enquiry to the cattle movements service at Workington will ensure a comprehensive list of movements on and off a holding since the previous test. \n\nIf we cannot trace from herds with tuberculosis reactors, the ability to track FMD is obviously a non starter.\n\nThank-you in advance for your help with this.\n\nI hope in 3 years time we will not be contemplating what we should have learnt from an LVI meeting in Hadrian House.\n\nYours Sincerely\nB.V.M.&S. M.R.C.V.S.\n\nTues 25th\n[wife]’s cousin from Vancouver arrived and it was really nice to see her again. The Canadians are always so up beat and down to earth. They have a refreshingly positive can do mentality. She and her daughter have been with a school choir singing in parts of Europe and doing the European tour. They are whistle stopping the lakes tomorrow. It was good to catch up with them. [young vet who lost brother?] was with them. My favourite mother in law. She brought me a set of kitchen knives for my birthday present . They are incredibly sharp so I don’t think that letting the kids loose with them will be a good idea. But at least we can pitch some of the old ones, which needed sharpening every time you used them.\n[vet] arrived back from skiing very sun burnt from the sunshine and wind. She has had a really good time though.\nWeds 26th\n A and left as I arrived in to go to YP’s. It was funny to see them very much the young ladies going out. They live at opposite ends of the world and yet the fashion is the same. Little hand bags and scarves as belts!! Globalisation is not just effecting agriculture. They had spent time in Keswick and around the lakes today making use of the gorgeous summer weather. In March?? It really is warm. Hope we are in for a scorcher of a summer holidays.\nThursday 27th\nSpent the quietist night On Call for a long, long time. Nothing !!!\nWhy is it as soon as you employ a locum as an extra pair of hands the work disappears. Still it will given everyone a chance to have a breather. Said good bye to the Canadians and Mother in law. We are heading over to Ireland to see the Irish side of the family at Easter so we will see [vet friend?] again soon. But it was funny saying goodbye all the same. Don’t know why!\nWas doing a herd health plan today for a farm that has 50 dairy cows. He said he did not really know why he is doing it as he is going to give up and go and milk for some one else as it is not viable to make it pay on that sort of small scale.\nFriday 28th\nHaven’t got the workload right at all. I think the sunshine has sent the farmers into the fields to work and the lambs and calves are all arriving un aided in to the sunshine. It is amazing how the good weather makes you feel so much better. So I have booked in extra testing for next week. \nThe only slightly sad thing was talking to one of the farmers who had just started lambing. I was taking out rotten lambs that were aborting 2 weeks earlier. It is his first season actually lambing as he only bought in fat sheep last year. He said that it was at this stage 2 years ago that they came and took all his sheep. He should not have let them do it. It was wrong and he had not put up a fight. He had just gone along with it. He was fairly melancholic about it. I tried to point out that every one had done it, and it had seemed to be best thing to do at the time. I did not think that pointing out I had not been convinced and argued against it, and that only 2 out of 10,000 blood samples of live sheep slaughtered had been exposed to the virus would have helped. They were my granddads flock, he said. Now we have all these problems he says. Looking at the dead lambs I have just pulled out: lying in a heap in the corner of the trailer. You never forget something like that lad he says never.\nThere are a lot of anniversaries to go through and all the farmers are saying the fun has gone out of it. \n\n\nSaturday 29th March\n The beautiful weather is carrying on and [wife] and I had a child free, vet student free afternoon. The sun was out and we went down for a walk along this side of Bassenthwaite Lake. There were lots of daffodils out and a light breeze off the lake. It was beautiful, cool sunny day for walking and very pleasant. We really enjoyed it.\n [son] and A are on the Young Peoples church w/e at Edinburgh and will arrive back exhausted from lack of sleep. The Js had the boys for the afternoon so it was good. Met up with [friends] in the evening and spent the evening putting agriculture to rights. He sells/ manages sales of fertiliser for Norsk Hydro.\nSunday\nMothering Sunday was a bit of a disaster with out A to organise the boys and I hadn’t had time to get them organised. Church was R & J on the beatitudes.\nThen met up with Cs and went up Bow Scale Fell. [son’s friend] and [son] complained the whole way. They were in really bad form and I was fed up with them. \nMonday\nThe work has dried up completely which for this time of year is unheard of. We have employed a locum to try and get the testing done and no work for every one to do. Embarrassingly got it wrong. Usually at this time of year there is no testing and the vets are running around like idiots. Not very good news for us . So wrote letters to [the] head of contingency planning at Page St. To amuse you I have copied it here:\n<<\n\n\n\n\n[name]\nDEFRA\nRm 803A\n1A Page St\nLondon\nSW1P 4PQ\n\nDear [name]\n\nI am writing to thank-you for travelling north to Carlisle to come to speak to the recent LVI meeting at Hadrian House, Carlisle.\n\nI have also been reading the DEFRA contingency plan and a lot of lessons do seem to have been learnt. I appreciate this years deadline has been passed to place it before parliament, but it is a “living” document! \nMy apologies but better late than never!!!\n\n I would like to make a few comments as one of the early TVI volunteers at Carlisle, and as a partner of one of the practices at the eye of the storm.\n\n1. The whole issue of valuation of animals taken as a compulsory purchase by the state for the benefit of the farming community to eradicate disease, has not been addressed. One of the initial problems slowing the slaughter of infected animals was the valuation. My own view then and now is that a simple standard valuation must be applied. It must be high enough to be an incentive to reporting of disease, but too low to make the possibility of disease seem financially attractive. The price for compulsory purchase may be set higher for dangerous contacts or less for affected animals. If there is a simple standard value, then the diagnosing vet counts the number of bovines and shoots them. The farmer knows in advance what compensation is going to be paid, and individual animals of high merit could be insured for whatever sum the farmer is willing to pay premiums for. This may be an unpopular nettle but it needs to be grasped, even though I am sure my clients would disapprove of it.\n\tThe current tuberculosis problems are again high lighting the problems in this area. There should be a standard procedure and valuation for all notifiable diseases, and the values based on the last mid market rate. There are apocryphal stories that the valuers are still running the system for their clients the farmers, not DEFRA.\n\n2. The second issue that has not been addressed is the tracings system.\nWith the advent of the British Cattle Movement Services, I was under the impression that “traceability” was a central part of government policy. It was with some incredulity that in response to questioning at the LVI meeting we were told that BCMS cannot give a list of movements on or off a holding. So tracings for TB are still being done by a DEFRA vet trawling through a farmers movement book. Why? If the political will was there, at the touch of a bottom the data base should be able to generate a list of animals moved in the past 6 months, which markets they have been through, and which holdings they have been through. If this cannot be done for TB, you can forget trying to do it for FMD or other fast contagious disease.\nThere is still a confusion over the database which should be based on holding numbers. Several farmers have multiple holding numbers, several have a single holding number and multiple sites. High genetic merit animals may have several owners, a single holding may have stock from several different farms. The rules for CPH numbers need to be re-evaluated centrally. If a data base is to be of use it must be actively managed and updated. That can only be done at a local level.\n\n3. Disposal\nI know that this has been looked at, but farm sizes are continuing to grow at an ever more rapid rate. The average size of dairy farms in this area has grown by 20 cows since FMD. This means there will be a bigger disposal problem as individual farms will have more and more stock.\n\n4.” The local office should have stores to equip 20 TVIs at 24hours notice.”\nWe touched on this point at the meeting was the need for sudden recruitment of TVI or other veterinary staff. While the SVS can second small numbers of vets for short term availability, there was a reluctance by some DVMs to second staff who may yet be required in their own areas. Local LVIs can provide veterinary cover but the whole structure of large animal practice is in flux, and it may or may not be possible to provide veterinary inspections on an allocated, on a temporary or part time basis. The pay and conditions for such assistance need addressed and agreed. The other part of this is orientation/ training at the local levels. This by the end of the outbreak at Carlisle, was quite impressive. However has that information been put together centrally? Should there be a central trainer who trains designated trainers for each SVS office/DECC?\nSimilarly with lay blood samplers/ vaccinators. Again local practices could provide nominated nurses/ lay staff for training. During the out break here AI personnel were used very effectively for blood sampling and other procedures. Is this again something for the local plan? But if the cost for training AI staff in blood sampling was met centrally it would encourage a register of trained personnel to be maintained locally.\n The Cumbria County Council Inquiry recommends the use of its emergency centre as a hub for multi agency response to any disease out break. Should there be some joined up government so that each county council as part of its contingency plan provides for an admin back up for any emergency, civil disaster, terrorist incident?? And do the local plans make use of this??\n\nMy main concern, however, is that when I asked at that meeting had the two way communications between Page St and Carlisle been sorted out…..it was met by nervous laughter.\n\nI would like to emphasise that Page St did not know what was going on in the field during FMD outbreak. There was a communication barrier between the vets in the field and Carlisle management, and a huge gulf between Carlisle and Page Street. \n\nI would plead that this is addressed as the culture identified by Iain Anderson still seems to prevail. I quote “a culture predisposed to decision making by committee with an associated fear of personal risk taking. Such a climate does not encourage creative initiative. It inhibits adaptive behaviour, and organisational learning which over time lowers the quality of the decisions taken. It seems to me that a reappraisal of prevailing attitudes and behaviours within the Department would be beneficial.” *\n\nIt may be outside your remit but the Northumberland report with its flow charts and recommendations, actually lists lessons to be learned in Dec 1969. The one about the SVS who fared so poorly in FMD 2001 states… “We have considered the recruitment problem of the State Veterinary Service…the reasons maybe the low initial salary or in part the to the nature of the duties within the Service…..We consider it important for future development that the Ministry of Agriculture should attract a greater number of good young graduates willing to make a career in the service.”#\n\nAt the end of any plan are the people who are going to implement it. They need well managed, well led and given the resources to carry out the task. They need to have confidence in both the political and civil service leadership. There will need to be a risk management of tasks for financial reasons, resource reasons and for the wider rural economy. This requires flexible decision makers who are prepared to take risks and stick their head above the collective parapet.\n\n\nI hope that this provides a few more thoughts for you to work on.\n\nYours Sincerely\n\n\nRefs:\n*FMD 2001 Lessons Learned Enquiry. Forward By Chairman Iain Anderson P7.\n#Northumberland Report presented to Parliament Dec 69. Part 2 Section 47.\n>>>\nShe spoke at the last LVI meeting and as usual the plans sound good but where reality hits is in the delivery/.\n\nTuesday \nDid some small animal work and more testing. Tues evening always seems a rush.\nWent to gym and then on to N’s for the New Frontiers church meeting which was excellent. \nWeds\nManaged some fertility work in the morning and spent the rest of the day bringing the practice database up to date. It has been let go since foot and mouth as it tell us how much stock each farm has. The numbers have been all over the place as people have been restocking and changing the direction their businesses are going. Some moving out, some moving up in numbers and some going from dairy to Beef or sheep.\nThe most interesting thing was the fact that a lot of farms that had restocked with adult animals have dropped by 5-10 cows since they restocked as older cows are lost, or ill cows go, but there are not the young stock replacements coming through to replace them.\nThe actual figures for dairy farms restocking are: Not yet entered in the computer. I was hoping to have them but will get them.\nThursday\nDid some small animals and some OTM22 but it still incredibly quiet. Consequently I have booked in a lot more work for the next few weeks. So I hope I don’t get it wrong the other way. Set up Anne a vet student for her project, on comparing fertility pre and post FMD. \nFinished off updating the database figures so they will hopefully get entered over next few days and we can do some comparisons.\nMarch figures look Ok but the long term out look is not so good. The govt is doing a committee looking at Farm animal vet practice. The Lakeland BVA have asked for comments.\n\nEFRACOM Inquiry into vets and veterinary services\n(EFRACOM is a DEFRA committee)\nTerms of reference are to "...look at the provision of farm veterinary\nservices in England and Wales. In particular it will look at\n1.\twhat impact current levels of farm income are having on the usage of\nveterinary services, and in turn what effect any reduction in the usage of\nsuch services is having on the number of practices dealing with large\nanimals;\n2.\twhat effect any reduction in the usage of veterinary services and a\nshortage of large animal vets is having on health and welfare standards and\non the effectiveness of surveillance for animal diseases;\n3.\twhether the requirements placed on farmers by Government including those\nin the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy are realisable in such\ncircumstances; and\n4.\twhat is the impact on the work of the State Veterinary Service."\ncomments by 12 April please\n\nThe day ended with the reading of a TB test on a farm that was hoping to become clear after going down when it first restocked 18months ago. 1 reactor and 1 I/R on normal interpretation. They will probably take both on severe interpretation.\nThe government always looks as though problems are dealt with in isolation. \nThe DEFRA vet who looks after our practice is not dealing with this case as his daughter is married to her brother. The farming community is very incestuous.\nFriday\nWork desperately quiet so I organised more testing to do. I hope I haven’t over booked the work. DEFRA vets at Carlisle are still learning the ropes when it come s to TB as it has been so rare in this part of the world. So a few of the allocations have been wrong. So I am having to go back and do extra animals so that set can be signed off.\nThe school held a curry evening tonight which for a Cumbrian village school is very cosmopolitan. There is an extended family of three Pakistani families and they cooked. <Though for the children there was also a bangers and chips option> It was quite a nice time, though [wife] was on her next level counselling course so I ended up just with kids but it was good to spend time with them. I have enjoyed not working many w/e’s recently; it kind of gives you your life back; that and not doing much at work.\n\n\nSaturday 5th April 2003\n[wife] was at her level 2 course counselling so I had the kids for the w/e. Took [son] to squash. Went into town for some bits and pieces. And then I chatted to I while we waited for T and [son] to finish.\nThen took all the kids into town. We are having a Mothers Day tomorrow to make up for the fact L & A were away for the w/e last week. The kids have bought presents and made cards which was nice. \nThe Cs and [friend] came for lunch and then spent a very muddy afternoon by the pond playing and building dens and generally making a mess and having fun. [son] even decided showers were in order when he came back. That shows you how dirty they were as he is Mr Allergic to water.\nI made a fondue for tea with apple juice as the kids don’t like the kick of the wine. It was a great success and did taste rather good even if I do say so myself!!\nSunday\n I went to church on my own as [wife] was heading out again after an early lunch. The talk was on God’s leading which is always relevant. The kids were great fun on the way back and full of craic. They had a return trip to the Cs as they were too late to find a sky TV for THE match. Carlisle lost as usual, but it is not every week they lose at the millennium stadium!!\nI picked the kids up from the Cs and put all their bikes on the back of the car. Went to say good bye to Cs. In the meantime three of their boys were hiding in the boot of the car so they let me drive out with them before the giggles and laughter gave the game away. So it caused much merriment all round. \nMet up with the lads Sunday night, felt really sorry for one guy who is having real problems getting access to his 7 year old as his ex wife is putting a lot of –ve input into the wee one. He can go down the legal route but will be expensive and probably counter productive. As she is not wanting to negotiate or look at what is best for the wee girl it seems a real mess.\nMonday\nIn spite of 4 tests the work is not there….\nI spent the day testing though. \nIt is really quite amusing as I know the guy’s sister quite well and I always make sure I tell her how much the good lunch is appreciated. So there builds up a rivalry between them as to who can provide the vet with the best food. I am afraid I consciously flame the rivalry, in spite of it not doing my waistline any good. Trying to concentrate after a three course lunch on a boring job is not easy. You just have to think about coffee time!! And more cakes and tray bakes. All of them distinctly unhealthy with the aim of feeding out door manual labour.\nTuesday\nHad a bad night as my hand was caught in the crush yesterday by a stirk throwing its head and it bent the finger back. It seemed OK but is now throbbing like mad. Plenty of aspirin and corticosteroids.\nDid some ferty and then saw another LDA. The cows seem to be having a real problem with the feed this spring as we have seen 3-4 times the normal number. Went running with A as my finger meant I could not go to gym to work machines.\nWeds\nThe speed cameras have arrived on the top road, and unfortunately I was going too fast by the time I saw it. So I will probably have another 3 points on my licence. They have been building pads on the side of the road all along the A595 as it has a really bad record for car accidents. The numbers killed continues to go up. The speed cameras are in a van, which can move around and hence trap the speeders. It is called Casualty Reduction Unit… a bit of a pointed message even if you did slow down for them!!\nWork is slow again today with no TB testing on mid week days.\nIt is my brother’s birthday in NZ and he sent a letter to say he is going to be a Dad again so the trip to come across at Xmas is off. He is wanting us to all go there. Hm maybe.\nThursday\nI has had 2 reactors and 4 I/rs today so the future is not looking good for him as it looks like there will be TB there. He has had real problems since the herd restocked with lung worm< energy problems in the silage and atrocious fertility.\nHe is going to have to go and buy another 30 odd replacements at £800 to replace those that he has lost through ill health and fertility. Makes the compensation payments seem pretty small. That’s £24K he has lost out on already and his own heifers are only coming up to be served. \nWork is busy and I wonder if the spring rush is coming. \nI was supposed to be at the school parents evening but got called out. Which was pretty irritating. I hate the fact that you are just so unreliable when you are on call.\nFriday\nAnother TB testing day so busy.\nAll together not a good day. The competition report is out and is fairly damning as expected so the pressure on drug margins is going to continue and the old fashioned way of providing a complete service will be going out the window. We will have to charge for the out of hours and On Call, the telephone advice and try to make it pay. But the whole economics of going out to see a single ill animal will be gone, the clinical skills of veterinarians will be gone. All academic as the cost for diagnosing a single animal in the new era will be too much. So the diagnosis will all be done by post mortem of herd problems. But if you have large herds the man power will not be there to look after the individual ill animal.\nSad depressing day but I am off for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 12th April 2003\nWoke up early and got up even though it is my day for a lie in. I think I am particularly wound up. It all ways takes me at least one day to wind down from work. So I am tired and yet not feeling able to rest. Took [son] to football and [other son?] to buy anew bike. He was so excited. It is his birthday coming up and he has out grown his old one so it will be good for him. The kids spend ages flying around the yard on bikes and up and down the field when the grass is short. They have a real ball here it is a great place to grow up, as they have so much freedom to play and play and play.\nMy finger that was caught TB testing started throbbing again this afternoon, so as it had improved and then got worse I decided I had to get it X rayed so I spent the afternoon in casualty, waiting to get x rayed and then waiting for another hour before being told it was not broken. A five minute consultation that took me almost 2 hours.\n[friends] were up for the w/e. [more friends] are at Capernwray Bible college for an Easter Youth thing so they came on up . So it was good to catch up. \nSunday\nCooked lunch for everyone and then went to communion. It was dire and reminded me why I don’t usually bother.\nSpent the afternoon putting onions in and tidying in the garden. It is incredibly dry and warm. Amazing really. The 6 kids spent the whole afternoon messing around at the pond and were disgusting with mud everywhere and trailed all up the yard, and wellies abandoned everywhere.\nChurch was DM speaking and then the YPs came back to ours afterwards. Mind you I think I had had enough kids for the time being but I was ok. \nMonday\nBad haircut day. As there is only one day we can test this week I booked in fair amount, which would have been tight but AW was off ill so we were too tight, so a few ops have been put off until tomorrow. D has a S African vet friend visiting, so with him and the vet student the house is still full. I however am knackered and not feeling sociable. Had a horrendous calving. It is not often I cannot calve a cow but I am afraid after an hour, I gave up and caesared it. The calf was dead, and rotten so whether she will do I don’t know. I did not want to caesarean but that is life. It was either that or the farmer pay £60 to get some one to take it away after I euthed it. \nTuesday\nWe are in the period of anniversaries. It is 2 years since the Ls went down. I was at a farm which did not get FMD, and his uncles did. He was saying what a sad day it was. So his uncles must be feeling it more. The beautiful spring weather with the grass growing in spite of the frosts definitely puts a bounce in to your step. On days like this I think that it is an excellent life. Wandering around the countryside and enjoying the scenery, the farms, the animals and the farmers. Beats working in a factory any way.\nWent to the gym and felt a lot better for it. Exercise is a great way of getting a buzz. But you have to be not too tired to a) get there and b) enjoy it.\nI have gone often because I feel I should and just felt like a steam roller had run over me, and its taken a day or two to recover. Balance in all things!!!\nWeds\nThe Commission report came out today.\nDifficult to believe that they will be able to implement it. \nBut having lived through the FMD. ….There were quite a few things I thought that they would not be able to implement but they did.\nWe will have to :<if the Minister decides. And since it is DTI not DEFRA I think that the implementation may be effective.>\nProvide prescriptions free of charge\nProvide our clients with a list of pharmacies, agricultural suppliers and other vets, and web sites that will meet those prescriptions.\nThe cost of the most commonly prescribed medicines in the previous quarter.\nThe cross subsidy of professional fees by pharmaceuticals will not be allowed. And how will the pharmacist make his money??\n\nThe other comment which did irk me some what was that the provision of 24 hour cover does not seem that onerous……I do not often swear but really.\nVery depressed.\nBut [daughter] came on a caesaer with me as I was On call tonight. It is really nice working from home and being able to take them with me. It is a very healthy thing to do. She is growing up and is very much the young lady. The farmers wife is the dental receptionist and of course said hello A. She was thrown as of course being out of context she could not figure how the farmers wife knew who she was!!\nThursday\nGood Friday\nIt is [son’s] B’day today and the day started out great for him. I was on duty and he arrived in our bedroom at 7am with the other 2 boys to start on the birthday celebrations. Our family tradition is that they have breakfast in bed in our bed. Don’t know why but that is what happens. The others all brought cards and presents in. The phone went and it was a lambing, so Tim decided he would come and see the lambs being born. So he was thrilled!!\nWe opened the presents later on. Which included a new boiler suit which really thrilled him. It is amazing what kids think of as their best present!!\nI never really like working Good Friday. I always think one year I will be off and go to one of the contemplative services. Hebron being low church never really does anything like that which is a real shame. Easter is when I think the cathedrals, old country churches, and the church architecture can really be helpful in stopping and praying and helping to consider what Jesus did on the cross.\nFinished work and went up to the [friends]. They were both home and it was really good to see them. Played rounders and had a barbeque which was really nice.\nJames was in really good form as he was enjoying being back away from London where he has just started work as a high flying lawyer. He is not enjoying London very much. He is a hills and countryside lad. His girlfriend was also there so was quite a good craic. I didn’t really want to come home but was so knackered that it was probably just as well the kids were with us and it was not a too late a night.\n\n\nSaturday 19th April 2004 \nSpent most of the day either catching up on sleep or on the day to day things that seem to have been put to one side for a while. There was also the preparations for the service tomorrow we are taking the Easter Sunday morning service which is one of those night mare services where everyone comes. The age range is from 0 to 100 and everyone has different expectations. I should explain that the normal Sunday services are very different. There is the “Family focus “ which is lively and very informal aimed at those with young children, who go to Sunday school. There is then teaching for parents/adults. There is always a lot of noise, children running around, babies crying and shakers and children’s songs. The Communion service that follows is very traditional. Silence and solemnity rules. All the older generation go, and it is a very different service! So we are going to be combining the two. Oil and water? A lot of prayer has gone in to this one!\nSunday\n[wife] got up at 6 am to go to the sunrise service at the crematorium. \nShe said she needed some input before the Easter service we are leading. It is a service organised by St James, parish church but all the Carlisle churches are asked to take part. Christiana had asked to go, so [wife] went with her and it was really good.\nChrist is risen, he is risen indeed.\nThe sermon was by the Archdeacon from the cathedral who said that being a good Anglican he wanted some liturgy through his sermon. So every time he said are you dead the congregation had to reply, No alive in Christ.!! At which point he would sound a hooter!!\nThe service at Hebron went very well…\nOh ye of little faith. I should pray more and worry less.\n\nI have included our outline below and I have put in additional comments\nIn blue.\nEaster Sunday Service\n\nWelcome to Hebron Evangelical church this Easter Sunday morning when we are celebrating Jesus is alive. Our opening hymn is our declaration that Jesus is alive he has risen from the dead.\n\nOpening Hymn: We believe in God the Father\nWelcome; Intro me and welcome team. \nThis morning the service is in a different order from usual. We are going to remember what Jesus has done for us on the cross and Bruce Beattie, one of our elders is going to help explain what the bread and wine mean to us as some of the children may not have been here for a communion service before .\n\nThen after taking communion we are going to celebrate Jesus’ resurrection … with reading, singing and sharing. The resurrection is the central part to our faith. Who knows what that long word “resurrection” means?? \n\nThe answers from the kids were quite amusing but we got there in the end!!\nAt the end of the service there will be the offering, an opportunity to give our money as well as ourselves to the living God.\n\nIf during the service the young children get fed up there is a place at the back where they can do some making things…It isn’t easy to sit still when you are little or be quiet! So please don’t worry about the little ones being a distraction. I often wonder what it was like when Jesus fed the 5000plus crowd. Do you think the children all sat neat and quiet in rows. I don’t think so!! \nWe are pleased to see them and hear them. This is a time of family worship from the youngest to the oldest. \n\nReading: Psalm 67 \nI had this up on a power point and we read it together.\nMay God be gracious to us and bless us and make His face shine upon us, that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nMay the nations be glad and sing for joy, for You rule the people justly and guide the nations of the earth.\nMay the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise You.\nThen the land will yield its harvest, and God, our God, will bless us. \nGod will bless us, and all the ends of the earth will fear Him.\nPsalm 67\n\n\nPrayer M\nAs we sing this next hymn it would be good if the children came to sit at the front so that B can see you all when he talks to you.\n\n\nHymn: When I survey the wondrous cross.\n\nCommunion: B \n\nB gave an excellent talk about remembering. He included a diary and a kitchen timer which he set to go of at the carefully timed point in his little bit. He then used Smarties to go through the Easter story and the different colours. I wish I had it written down.\nWe then had communion and he had smarties for the kids so that they could remember about the Easter story while the adults took communion and remembered Christ’s death and resurrection. Forgiveness is a wonderful thing.\nWe have just been remembering what Jesus did for us on the cross. He died for us…what incredible love. But thankfully the gospel doesn’t end there . [son], A and Cerise are going to read on.\n\nReading: [?] and Luke 24 vs. 1-12\n\nThey did a brilliant dramatic reading.\n\nAn empty tomb. Lets sing ”God’s not dead .He is alive”.(sing it twice and use the instruments at the front to make a joyful noise)\n\nWe want you to have a little taste of what it was like to be around that day and so let’s listen in to Mary Magdalene chatting on the phone to …well you listen and see who she is talking to.\n[wife] did a sketch about Mary talking on the phone to Marta having met the risen Jesus!! She was very good. Really gave the facts to a contemporary feel\n\nHymn : Led like a lamb to the slaughter…\nin the second verse would children come to help. \nWe have verses to give out to the big people and I’d like you to help give them out making sure all the big people get one . For the children who may not be able to read yet we have some coloured stones to remind you of a huge stone that was rolled away when Jesus rose from the dead. You can keep it in your pocket or somewhere special to remind you that Jesus is alive and He wants to be with you where ever you go.\n\nA had made up tiny scrolls with verses about the resurrection which the kids all gave out. It kept the wee ones busy and also gave everyone a verse to think about.\n\nIsn’t it wonderful to know that we are singing “he’s alive, he has risen” and all over the world the church is singing the same message. In Revelation we get a little glimpse into what it will be like in heaven with a new song being sung to Jesus Christ. Close your eyes and listen to what it says:\n\nRev 5 vs. 9-11 \n\nWe have the privilege in Hebron of having a few representatives of different language, people and nation here this morning. Let us listen to them.\n“Christ is Risen” in different languages and prayer.\n\nWe then had one family say it in Arabic, another in German. There is a Philippino girl who said it in her language and some one else in Spanish. It was magical.\n\nIntroduce \nLord we lift your name on high\nSung at Mizpah orphanage with children some of whom had just heard the name Jesus for the first time at Christmas. See picture.\nWe need helpers to do the actions to this song…\n\n\n\nWe are thankful that Jesus is alive and so He speaks ,guides , comforts and forgives us for all the sin , the mess we make. It is not only the Mary’s and the Peters and the Thomases that have met with the risen Lord…we each have a story to tell of walking with the risen Lord. As you listen to some people here sharing a bit of their story I wonder what you would have to share…take the opportunity to day to share what God is teaching you, where he is changing you…don’t hide behind the weather or holidays…share your journey to encourage real fellowship.\n: \nEnd in prayer over top.\n\n\n\nSong and offering. This is your opportunity to offer yourself afresh to the risen Lord.\nAn old song but a powerful one. To make this song personal to you choose the verse where you will stand as a sign of your offering to the Lord. Band will play it through twice as collection taken up and then we sing it.\nIf you want to sit until last verse when we sing take my love then we will all stand for last verse.\n\nTake my life \n\nThis song has lots of parts about asking God to take and use different parts of our lives. Songs/ intellect/strength/money etc. And by asking people to stand at the point they wanted it really meant they stopped and offered part of them selves back to God in response to the resurrection.\n\nFinish with Thine be the glory.\n\n The service went really well people came and said how well it had gone.\n\n[wife] spent afternoon packing and feeling washed out!! Giving out is tiring but the satisfaction is huge.\n\nMon\nUp early to catch the boat to N Ireland. The boat was not too busy which was good. Spent the boat ride filling in my thoughts on the future of Large Animal practice for the EFRACOM enquiry\nBought Lord of rings part 2 The Two Towers as I am wanting to re read it having seen the movie. So that is my holiday reading sorted out.\nHad a chance when we got there to sit down with [wife]’s parents and talk through our future, which was good as Campbell usually disappears out but a sit is a Bank holiday he didn’t. They were fairly up beat about it which was good so I was pleased.\nSpent the evening with C and the cousins which was really good. Had a barbecue and chilled out. C was not really surprised at the news as agriculture in NI is going through a bad time as well, it is behind the UK and there are a lot of small uneconomic family farms and so a lot of consolidation is going on and farmers selling up.\nTuesday\nSpent the morning playing Squash with the boys which w as great fun. Spent the afternoon in the garden trying to tidy it up.\nWent out for dinner with our bridesmaid who has also just handed in her notice/ or rather accepted a redundancy package. It must be catching. It was great to see her and also to be out in Belfast which is such a cosmopolitan city these days with different languages, cultures and nationalities all mixing in the downtown area. A big change.\nWeds\nWent to the new exhibition centre in the docks at Belfast. It has a multiplex and a science exhibition as well as shops and restaurants and so on.\nIt was amazing the kids could have spent all day playing on the exhibits and it was very well done so that you came away having learnt quite a lot.\n[wife] now believes I cannot do colours as I am easily confused by them. There was one exhibit where words in one coloured spelt the name of another colour i.e. the word was spelt y-e-l-l-o-w but it was red in colour. You then had to read the words or say the colours and I just could not do it, my brain ended up really confused.!!\nBought flowers and stuff for the Garden, and did the boxes for Gran\n Went out to dinner at RP she is a widow who is [wife]’s parents age but is so much fun. She loves giving dinner parties and having folk of all ages around. She gave me some useful addresses. There are lots of plans for [wife]’s parents Golden Wedding.\nThursday \nThe day of the big Photo shoot. [wife]’s brother’s father in law is a photographer and while we were all together [wife] mum wanted a photo of all the family together. So we spent an hour and a half getting positioned and photographed. 7 kids and 7 adults and a very pernickety photographer. \nTravel back on the boat was OK but came back to find that everything had fused and that the phone was not working . So fixed the fuses which are all trips thank goodness and got the electrics going.\nThe phone could not fix, but did not worry.\nWhile we were away there had been a lightning strike on to the phone line up the road and it had fried all the cables.\nOne of the neighbours had been in her kitchen and the phone had exploded and jumped off the wall. It has left scorch marks down the wall. I am just glad that there was no one on the phone at the time.\nThe other unfortunate thing is that the computer was attached and is dead as a dodo.\nFriday\nBack to maelstrom\nI was really relaxed going back in to work and it lasted for may be half an hour. No one had picked up on any of my admin things while I had been away. In spite of asking people to do so.\nThis meant I had to start and get things organised for Testing, the Rota \nand Nestles. As well as to try and do some work. My in tray is a mess but never mind.\n I also had to complete the report for EFRACOM, as the closing date is today, I hope not by 5pm!! The report was actually finished by 10:15 and was e-mailed off. I would like to have polished it a bit more but the schedule today was not conducive.\nDuring the evening when I was supposed to be writing it I had a casaers and a foal trying to die at [farm]. They are not having much luck as they have had horrendous problems with restocking. They are also under TB2.\n\nI enclose a copy of the report to EFRACOM\n\n\n\n\nThe Right Hon. Michael Jack, MP\nEnvironment, Food and Rural Affairs\nChairman of the Sub Committee ”Vets and Veterinary Services”\n\nA Submission \n\nSummary\nThis is a timely review of farm veterinary services. I would submit that the current trends in veterinary practice are likely to accelerate rapidly in response both to present levels of farm income and imminent changes in veterinary practice.\n\nIn this submission I have briefly covered the following areas:\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed.\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services.\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\nThe impact on the SVS.\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\n\nThe current provision of veterinary services and how they are financed \n\nThe income for rural farm veterinary practice that provides the majority of veterinary services to the agricultural industry has traditionally come from 5 major areas. \nClinical services.(Examining and diagnosing individual animals, calvings, lambings individual surgery, routine fertility, dehorning and castrating. Traditional “On Farm” Professional Fee work)\nLVI income from DEFRA/MAFF in the eradication of Notifiable Disease: Tuberculosis, Brucellosis, Anthrax, etc. Many practices also were involved with Meat Hygiene and inspections at abattoirs.\n The dispensing of pharmaceuticals.\nThe provision of veterinary advice on farm management and welfare.\nThe majority of veterinary partnerships are mixed practices: a consideration must be given to the fact that small animal work makes up a variable proportion of the work and income to veterinary practice.\n\nIt is my opinion that clinical farm animal practice, the examining and diagnosing of individual animals is already uneconomic for both the veterinary surgeon and the farmer. It is only happening because of the cross subsidy of the professional fees by other income, and because of the good will of most farmers to give animals a chance.\nAs the harsh economics are coming home to vets and farmers this is rapidly becoming; with James Herriot, a part of rural history.\n\n\nCurrent trends and their likely impact on veterinary services\n\nWhat are the current trends within agriculture and veterinary practice and what effects will that have?\n\nBoth in agriculture and farm veterinary practice there are trends that can be identified, how fast, how far these trends will go is difficult to predict, but my own experience is that change when it comes, change is often slow at starting but then dramatic in its speed. The effect of decoupling and other EU decisions on agriculture are unknown but the current trends are likely to continue.\nIn agriculture farm size has to continue to grow. As farms make less and less per animal, they have to spread costs over larger and larger numbers. The individual value of each animal continues to drop in real terms, efficiency and mechanisation continues to increase. Chicken farms are now routinely 100,000 animals plus. Since foot and mouth disease the average dairy herd size has increased from 90 to 114 an increase of 20% which talking to many dairy farmers is only going to increase as more herds are going to be 300+ animals. These increases are usually with out an increase in labour on the farms. This means the care of individual animals is likely to be less important, but the care of the overall heath of the herd much more. \n\nIn veterinary practice the major changes are likely to be from the Competition Inquiry in to the cost of pharmaceuticals. The subsidy of professional fees by sales of pharmaceuticals has been an increasing trend since the late 60’s. Then professional fees were subsidised by the large-scale eradication schemes by MAFF who paid very good fees to get the vets on the farm and help eradicate the Notifiable Diseases. \nThe competition inquiry is recommending that pharmaceuticals be dispensed by pharmacies as well and that prescriptions be provided free of charge. Which private organisation is going to provide a service free of charge has yet to be ascertained, but the current level of income derived from pharmaceuticals is not going to be sustained. This inevitably means that the cross subsidy will disappear and farmers will have to pay the full cost of veterinary clinical service, and it will not be economic to do so.\n\nAt the same time the costs of providing veterinary services continues to rise.\nThe cost of veterinary time is continuing to rise. Students are now graduating with debts of £15-20K because of the loss of grants and payment of tuition fees. This means there will need to be a further raise of £2-3K per annum to pay veterinary assistants to match the status quo. Farm animal practice already pays assistants less than companion animal practices despite offering a less favourable “On Call” rota.\n In the short term following FMD many practice principals worked additional On Call to make the rota acceptable to attract assistant vets. Where this is viable in the short term, in the long term it is not acceptable. As partners profit becomes commensurate to the salaries they have to pay to veterinary assistants they will be aiming to increase charges for clinical work or look to other avenues for decreasing costs/increasing turnover.\n\n Providing an out of hours emergency cover is not economically practical for vets. (except in the big cities where practices join together to provide an emergency clinic.) Currently there is an RCVS obligation to provide 24hour cover, but the RCVS is not involved in the commercial pricing of services. \nAs the value of individual animals continues to drop in real terms then the cost of treating individual animals becomes less and less viable. Where there is no cross subsidy for out of hours work it will become untenable.\n\nAs many mixed practices have a dwindling farm animal side that is less financially attractive, many will decide to concentrate on the companion animal side of the business.\n\n\nIn a lot of mixed practices, it is a senior partner who will do the largest amount of the farm work. This means the younger vets will not have the case load to become experienced and confident in farm work. There is a cohort of practitioners in this situation heading towards retirement in the near future, will the practice continue to be involved with farm work?\n As fewer practices become involved with farm veterinary services, the cost of travel to the more distant farms has to rise beyond the already accelerated rate.\n\nAll this means that farm veterinary practices will lose income from clinical services and from pharmaceutical sales. They will have to move more towards the pig/ poultry model of providing veterinary advice and charging for it. \n\nVets have already moved out of nutritional advice leaving this field to nutritional experts. The reason for this is that most nutritional advice is provided “free” to the farmer by the firms who then put that cost into the feeds that are sold to the farmers. This cross subsidy of fees by sales is apparently acceptable where the subsidy of veterinary fees by pharmaceuticals is not.\nThis model is beginning to appear in other areas. Whereas vets provided most mastitis control, the dairies who buy the milk are now providing “free” or subsidised advice to farms on cell counts and high bacterial counts. (Including bacteriology with a variable back up and quality of advice)\nNMR and other recording agencies are already offering fertility information on their recording products, and it is a short step to actually providing the fertility work.\n \n\nI believe that these factors will contribute to a dramatic decrease in farm animal clinicians in the next 5 years.\n\n\nThe effect of the reduction in large animal clinicians on health and welfare standards and on surveillance.\n\nAs the number of clinical veterinarians reduces then there will be much less on farm surveillance. \nThis means that outbreaks of novel or unusual diseases is much less likely to be noticed or recorded at an early stage.\n The routine care for the animals will be done by stockmen under veterinary guidance. \nThe guidance will probably be by quarterly or 6 monthly or annual visits and by herd health plans.\n Individual animals are much more likely to be treated ad hoc by the stockmen, rather than by veterinary surgeons. The quality of this treatment in some cases may be adequate but in most will be poor. The significance of symptoms or illness may not be appreciated. Diagnosis and treatment seen as a high cost and used as a last resort. Any outbreak of disease will be well developed and losses occurring before veterinary advice is sought. \n\nAs herd sizes increase and labour decreases, then the attention to individual animals must reduce, with a drop in welfare standards. \nIll animals are likely to be culled quicker, as limited manpower becomes more important. The use of vets as additional expert man power for calvings/ lambings will be seen as too expensive.\n\nThe demands of the system must mean that high heath status is important, with routine vaccination and herd health policies being put in place. \nDEFRA seems to set high regard to laboratory diagnosis results as a form of surveillance. Most of the common problems are diagnosed/treated with out the resort to laboratory aids. Fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, PGE, are rarely referred to the lab except where treatment is not working. Most samples are taken/referred by vets in practice. Fewer vets would mean fewer samples.\nThe lack of veterinary advice to ill pigs and ill sheep on farms at Heddon-on–the-Wall shows how the lack of a clinical veterinary service can lead to in the terms of delay and spread of disease.\n The local knowledge of the current LVI system is an invaluable asset that is in danger of being thrown away. The idea that a farm is a box which can be assigned a number in Page Street and dealt with as a single entity is a problem that has still not been resolved. The complexity of many of the local farming links through trade, working together, machinery, shared grazing, fell rights, and family ties cannot be reduced to a computer screen on DCS. \n\n\nThe feasibility of the Animal Health and Welfare Strategy.\n\nIn my opinion they are not. I was hoping to cover this more fully but lack of time has prevented me.\n\nThe impact on the SVS.\n \nThe impact on the SVS is likely to be slow to be realised.\nThe SVS is not known for its ability to meet challenges or streamline its systems.\nAs the number of vets involved in farm work decreases it will have to provide more of its own resources to tackle tasks currently done by LVIs. \nThe more flexible private practice takes up the challenge of getting backlogs in testing done and can respond to new challenges for example the licensing brought in during FMD. Private practice can fit the work around other duties. Whereas if it is going to be done by the SVS it will be more expensive to take on vets to do these tasks alone. \nThe SVS was notoriously unreliable in its work allocation during FMD, the record being sending 5 vets to the same farm on the same day has yet to be beaten!\n Though I hope it would be a lot better in normal circumstances, there are still problems with the allocation system that can only be put right by local knowledge.\n\n In areas where there are few farm animals there may well not be LVIs willing to carry out the routine testing for Notifiable Disease. Who is going to provide veterinary cover for these? Both for clinical caseload and for the LVI work. \n\n There will not be vets available to second to DEFRA for the next FMD or exotic disease outbreak. The contingency plan confidently states that resources for 20 TVIs are to be kept at each centre in case of an outbreak of Notifiable Disease, with out addressing where these will come from. There will not be 20 TVI’s available at short notice. During March 2001 the majority of vets at the Carlisle DECC were LVI’s.\n\n\nThe future and possible outcomes.\n\nThe picture I have painted is what in my opinion will happen if the government allows the situation to develop. I would hope that there would be some “joined up government” when decisions are to be made in response to the Competition Inquiry Report. \n\nThere are a mixture of outcomes that are possible:\nThe numbers of vets in farm animal practice will reduce. This can be minimised by maintaining the cross subsidy of professional fees for providing clinical services, either directly by DEFRA work in surveillance or other Notifiable Disease work and/or from pharmaceutical sales. (The option of increasing fees is not possible.)\nVeterinary services will be provided by other means. E.g. Vets working for feed firms/ Dairies/ manufactures/retailers to ensure a welfare/surveillance standard.; Consultancy firms providing fertility/mastitis/specialised advice.\nDEFRA/ Local Authority will have to provide vets for notifiable disease testing/surveillance tasks.\nDeveloping the French model of farm cooperatives employing vets for their own farms.\nThe pig/poultry model of regular advisory visits, but minimal involvement in the day to day running or with individual animals.\n\nOnly the first of these provides for the continuation of the successful LVI structure. The other outcomes mean a loss of clinical veterinary services.\nThe loss of clinical services means a drop in welfare standards and the loss of on farm surveillance.\n\n\nFarm veterinary services are in a transitional time facing economic challenges, changes in agriculture, increased regulation and increased competition for the pharmaceutical and services they provide. There will be increased competition between practices as they try to meet the higher expectations of new veterinary graduates starting their careers, and providing a cost effective service to the rural community.\n\nBVM&S MRCVS\n\n\nBrief C-V\nCurrently a partner in one of the largest farm veterinary practices in Cumbria having spent 17 years in mixed rural practice. \nSpent 6 months on secondment to MAFF at the Carlisle DECC during FMD.\n\n\n Sat 26th April 2003\nHaving worked last night and done 2 caesaers and a calving on call, on top of a long week I was completely washed out. Did Sat am surgery and a call then went home to bed . Knackered and fed up and deciding I did not want to spend my life like this.\nSunday\nA busy day On call but at least the calls did not stack up just kept coming in ones and twos so the stress levels were not to bad. But boyzo am I tired.\nMon\nThis is the beginning of D’s last week. He has worked out really well and I hope that he will be able to work here at the back end to help with the testing. He is easy going and has a good S African protestant work ethic, always happy to oblige and is good to work with. He is a good laugh too always teasing and playing silly jokes and has a great sense of humour.\nSpent most of the day on Catch up after the week end. Did some calls, and sorted car and drugs out and cleaned my kit. The slippage of cleanliness since FMD is very noticeable especially at the w/e’s. (But don’t tell DEFRA!!!)\nWent swimming at Foxes. Well to be honest sat in the Jacuzzi and talked. And then swam 2 lengths. I was too tired to do much really.\n I must start getting some proper exercise again or my back will suffer.\nTues \nI am really annoyed at Defra. I rang and asked what would be needed to put our vets on to Panel L which is what is needed to do the exports for Nestle and “Panel L, can just be added on as it is a simple export thing so it would take half an hour to do it.” This was last Friday by now it is we have to go for training by SVS. It should only take half an hour to through the forms….” Why can their yes not be yes, and their no be no???”\nSo we have to spend an afternoon going to Carlisle to got through meaningless forms, so that we can fill in meaning less forms so that Nestle can get th milk through customs. I am beginning to see why people just smuggle things rather than get involved in all this stupid bureaucracy.\nWeds\nWent on the Factory visit to Nestles today to have a look around so that we know the plant and can give them certification for the milk powder for export. The whole thing is ludicrous as dried milk powder is a sterile product. It has to be or else it goes off very quickly so why we have to certify that it has been pasteurised I don not know. But hey its money.\nThe size and quantity and the huge amount of machinery and very small number of people required to maintain and operate the plant was awesome.\nWe went to the distribution warehouse where there was just row upon row of pallets, 3-7 high full of dried milk or cappuccino drinks. Weird to think mast of the instant cappuccino is made in Dalston.\n Thursday\nWent for Panel L Training. It was as pointless as I thought it would be.\nTook the opportunity to go through with DEFRA admin staff some of the queries and problems. At the moment we do a lot of stuff for DEFRA telling them who has stock and who does not have stock to ensure their database is relatively up to date. But it is a headache as they are working off computer screens. Hence Mrs F R of A Farm does not correlate at all with Mr E R of the same address. The computer is not into relationships. So that they are married and live together and own stock on the same piece of ground does not really get off the ground. \nThis evening was the final Partners meeting where I handed in my notice.\nThe reasons for handing in my notice are complex, most decisions probably are.\nThere are lots of factors some trivial to the outsider but important to me, others may be important to others and similarly not to me. \nSeveral people have asked is it a reaction to FMD. The last casualty. In some ways it is. For all the horrendous experiences, for all the long hours and difficult ethical and to whom am I responsible dilemmas. It taught me a lot about myself. To see fear in the eyes of senior management when challenged, to be able to organise a protest meeting of thirty vets with Jim Scudamore, to do the TV interviews, o see the effect of feeding information to journalists. To be able to break through by fast talking and relying on my wits. To organise completely new systems and manage projects that had never been done before, to build teams from international backgrounds in the face of opposition from the hierarchy, to be constantly caught on a tight rope between the different groupings. I learnt that I have huge abilities, and to go back to normality is difficult. \nThe future of farm animal practice is also very unpredictable. There are a lot of farms who are yet to restock, the cross subsidy of fees by drug sales is going to end, and more and more work will be on behalf or paid for by DEFRA. They are at the whims of the politicians and the treasury. They are also not the easiest client to deal with.\nThere is also the problem of being second in command and dealing with the frustrations of the partnership. We are not united in the way we work, or where we see the practice going. This means my schemes for diversification, for improving income streams, and managing the bad debt, will either not happen or will become part of my workload which is already over stretched.\nAdd in to this cock tail the fact my wife is starting to work, and I have been given a really bad scare by being tackled by a cow. \nThe question is do I want to do this job for the next 20 years the answer has to be no.\nSo the only answer is to hand in my resignation and start to look for something new.\nAs I have a 6 month notice period ending on an accounting date I have to jump before I have another job sorted out.\nEven so the decision was very hard and I was really choked up when I left them to discuss the future. I could not go home as the kids would want to know what was going on so I went to Js. He already knew. I will tell the kids on Friday the practice manager on Monday and work on Tuesday.\nI have said very little of my thoughts in the diary as I have learnt there are somethings better left unwritten until the time for the information to be public. Whatever issues are to do with confidentiality, if you don’t think something can be talked about, then do not write it down, as you never know who is going to read it.\nA though got her self in to a stew as I rang [wife] to say I was going to Js, she then said she would come out. She left a bit too hurriedly for A who then got it into her head that we had gone away on holiday with out telling them!!\nFriday\nThe whole day was “Unreal”. I knew I was going but no one else does.\nTold the Kids at tea time and I was shocked by how upset they were. It has come as a shock to them. Tim especially loves coming out and about around the farms with me. There is also no what I am going to, so it is just uncertainty.\nOn 2nd call\n\n\nSat 3rd May 2003\nWork then wash out. I was on second last night and had 2 Caesars and a calving…What??? The second Caesar was at 4am so I felt dreadful all day. [young vet] had started operating and got stuck so I went to the rescue. The cow had horrendous adhesions, so nothing could be moved around, we spent an hour and a half trying to pull the calf out and then stitching up the uterus in the cow. I felt I needed diving gear on as I had both arms in to their full length with [vet] beside me trying to stitch by feel. My arms were exhausted by the end of it. I was like death warmed up all day. But feel I have definitely made the right decision.!!!\nSunday\nAfter a good Nights sleep feeling better. My mother always use to say that the world looks very different after a good nights sleep and a cooked breakfast. I DO NOT need a cooked breakfast. My stress levels have been that high that I have been eating far too much. I am going to go on a diet. The usual promise to myself. My weight is going up fast so I will have to cut down and start to exercise a lot more.\nWent to see the practice manager to tell him that I have handed in my notice. I have decided to see him on his own so that he has a chance to process it before work on Tuesday. He is overweight and stressed and that type to have a heart attack so treat him gently. He is also a good friend, so I should give him some warning. So I spent an hour chatting it through and talking which is a good a way as any of spending a Sunday afternoon.\nMon Bank holiday\n Another bank holiday working. But at least it is fairly quiet. So spent most of the day working in the garden. The kids were away in the morning doing various things and then met up for lunch with [friends] which was really nice. They had been down to visit family in the lake district. They had hired a couple of cottages for the w/e and all met up. [they] are really amazing people. They are both doctors and I went out to visit them in Thailand which was brilliant fun. He was working with leprosy and AIDS cases. They have come home and are sharing a GP’s job between them. [she] is also doing a diploma in diabetes. They are also doing deputation work to raise money for the work of OMF in Thailand and Asia. They have 4 kids, and it was really nice to see them all again. The kids are similar ages. I really felt for them because they have gone from home schooling to schools in Edinburgh in the big city. So they have the double culture shock of coming to the UK, and being schooled in a complete different way. They are also very bright kids and having had individual attention from a very focussed mother they are miles ahead of the rest of their classes. Yet they do not have the social skills to adapt to the rough and tumble of life in a city comprehensive. Mobile phones are not a must have item in rural Thailand!!\nGood to see them all.\nTuesday\nToday I announced the fact I was leaving to those at work. I had thought about how I should do it, and what I was to say. It is quite difficult both from an emotional point of view and from the fact that I think that the business in the longer term, will have problems. This has both a direct relevance for the lay staff and their jobs. Though there will still be a similar number needed as their workload is likely to remain the same. And also for the vets. Two of whom may or may not be approached to buy into the business. There will also in the longer term be a smaller number of vets needed but this will probably be managed by natural wastage.\nI spoke first to the senior assistants and then lay staff. It was hard as I have been there for as long as many of them 15 years. Which is a long time. I think also there is an attitude that the ups and downs seem to be past for them. There was a lot of upheaval over the move from B V up to S park, FMD is over, and things are suppose to be getting back on to an even keel. And I throw a spanner in the works.\nWeds\nSpent the evening Phoning friends and relatives to let them know that I had handed in my notice and sending off for job details on two jobs and applying for another. I am not sure what I am looking for so at the moment I am just sending off for anything that seems interesting and waiting and seeing. It seems an unreal situation in so many ways. \nI also had to phone the bank manager both to arrange our annual visit, and to tell him that I was leaving. Again getting the balance between moving on and being positive, with out pointing out the dangers in the future of large animal practice was a difficult balance. After the initial shock, all power to him as a salesman/banker he then asked whether I would be needing any banking requirements!! So at least if I do start up an independent vet/small business consultancy I will have a bank account to run it from.\nThursday\nA quit day as no testing so tackled some of the Back log in admin.\nSpent a lot of time setting up the systems and know how folder for Nestle. We have taken over the work for doing the LVI work for the Nestle factory at Dalston as they have fallen out with the previous practice. When we took it on I assumed it would be the odd bit of work but in fact it is a huge amount of work.\nSo it is going to take some sorting out. I also feel a bit off, as I have handed in my notice and yet I am setting all this up and I ma not going to benefit from it at all.\nI suppose it comes back to wanting to do what is right and that we should serve God and not man. It is always a useful measuring stick to use to work out motivations and what should be done in a situation. Who am I trying to do this for?.me?..the practice?..the client? or am I doing what Jesus would do.??\nFriday\nAnother bad hair day. Had real problems trying to fit the extra work into the day and so got a bit frayed around the edges. Fortunately next week will probably be the last thank goodness. The practice that used to do the nestle work was on the phone to me and not very friendly.\nHey ho.\nWent out for a meal with [friends] which was great. They are the church youth leaders and are really switched on but I think need more support and help. Hopefully once the 1st of October hits I will be able to get more involved.\nWent to the Royal Oak at Welton which just has-been re done and is serving food on a proper basis as well as having a pub part. More like a restaurant.\n[wife] ‘s food was excellent. Mine was Ok. I had an Indian trio of samosa, and 2 bharji to start with. I am afraid I have been spoilt by real Indian food so I should not have bothered going for it in a Cumbrian pub!!\n\n\nSaturday May 10th Saturday May 10th\nA day off after too many days working and too much stress.\nIt was really nice just to be around home doing the garden and not really worrying what else is going on in the world. I needed some space and I am pleased to have got it at long last. It is amazing how much better the world looks after a good nights sleep and a some time off.\nIn the afternoon the C boys came around and we took them to see new chicks. S was there and I did not want to go down the route of explaining why I had made the decision I had to leave so chickened out of telling her.. I suppose I am happy with it and I just want to forget about for the w/e.\nSo we arrived with 7 boys which is quite brave. Fortunately we could not stay long as we had to be back to go out to Gianni’s with D. He took us out and it was really good fun. The kids were all in good form.\nCame back and watched the first part of a DVD on John Grisham’s book “The Client”.\nHe is an excellent writer and although film can never develop the characters the same as a book. So the film was good but only OK.\nSunday 11th\nChurch was good this morning and it was good to be there and spent ages chatting to folk . But came back to lunch with a couple who stayed too long!! There are some people I find really draining, and she is one. It is awful but I get really wound up and just want them to go after about 30 minutes. They came for lunch and did not leave until after tea so I was almost going spare…\nMonday 12th\nI find the silence around the fact I am going a bit unnerving. It is a bit elephant and coffee table really. A lot of the farmers I suppose don’t yet know or if they do how to respond. \nToday’s frustrations are all with things not working. BT have sent me a bill for £115 for fixing the line that was struck by lightening. I was put through three depts before I gave up. I may try just not paying and see if they can register the fact the bill is being disputed.\nThe other frustration is the car doors have gone again in [wife]’s car which is incredibly frustrating. They have been fixed and fixed and fixed. Although it is under warranty I am getting to the stage that I feel we are being fobbed off.\nTues 13th\nI went to hear MG from the LICC (London Institute of Contemporary Christianity) speak at the Living Word. This is a series that happens every spring and is organised by a group of ministers and folk from Carlisle.\nHe is a very interesting speaker. He is an ex Ad man and his whole message is to get the “church” to look out side of it self. He thinks that Christianity in the west has become a “leisure time ” activity and is not impacting the rest of peoples lives. There is a concept of the sacred secular divide. The church does not get involved in secular things, work, culture, the arts, sport, and in some ways philosophy too. Whereas there should be no divide. Christ is either Lord of all, or not at all.\nHe also is a very amusing speaker. He was talking about how technology is usually neutral, but how it is used has very far reaching effects, on family, work and society. He used the microwave as an example. With a very amusing story about how he managed to save the sleep of the whole of North London by using the new fangled microwave to heat his daughter’s midnight bottle. Thereby saving the chancellor huge sums in lost revenue…with typical Jewish hyperbole.\nHe then moved on to his kids now teenagers, not coming in for the meal he has prepared but reheating it in the microwave, and how that led to a lack of communication, and again hyperbole to his angst about not understanding the younger generation. \nAs this is a diary about FMD how do I relate this to my experience of FMD??\nOn the simple level the culture within DEFRA needs to change.\nServant hood whether by Civil servants or politicians has been forgotten.\nTruth will out. Spin will fall.\nComputers should be a tool of all and master of none.\nOrganisations need to have a human face for people to relate to. Whether it is the Brigadier or the CVO.\nPeople are individuals created by God and have feelings and are not numbers or statistics.\nThe Post modernist human secularism where truth is relative. Where Brown can announce that everything is under control, can mislead Parliament and people and it is acceptable. I actually strongly feel that the current Presidential style of where no one can make a decision with out refer to their boss is a poor model.\nPain, disaster, illness and trouble are part of the human condition. \nPart of the fall. \nOf evil in the world.\nEnough philosophy its time for bed.\n\n\nMonday 17th May\nThis was the big Golden wedding Anniversary Day.\nIt was [wife]’s parents Golden wedding and her brothers and family all came to stay for the w/e. The celebration meal was at Lyzzick Hall in Keswick. The big surprise for [wife]’s Mum was that her bridesmaid and husband were coming over from Canada. J picked them up from the airport and took them to a B&B.\nOther friends were also coming as a surprise. \nRP started the surprises by coming in dressed as a waitress. She came in and offered [wife]’s Mum a drink and she was really overcome. The other surprises of bridesmaid and Canadians was really nice to see. \nThe younger parts of the clan went off to the climbing wall while the older part went for a look at the lake in the rain.\nIt was a really nice day ended by a firework display thanks to C. As he grew up in Belfast during the troubles and fireworks were banned he has a real passion for them now as a big kid!\nSunday\nWent to church with everyone, a very mixed group but they coped!\nP spoke in the morning meeting he was very good. He is a publisher and was talking about the church in China as he has just helped to publish a book about some of the Christian house church.\nIt makes the materialistic church in the west look very weak and un spiritual.\nIn the evening MM spoke on the Christian at work which was very good and very funny. He was a bed sales man when he was a student and he was very funny about how he made shy engaged couples lie down and try the beds. This really tickled [other son] (Age 8) much to his Gran’s tut-tutting!!!\nThe point he was making in between the jokes, was that he had been told that he was to say that the bed s would all be delivered in 3-4 weeks, when in fact it could be up to 6 weeks but the shop keeper thought this would put people off. This meant that MM ended up in bother with couples arriving back from their honey moon to no bed! So he decided to listen to God’s way and tell the truth, which he said like most biblical teaching is obvious once it is explained, and tell people the truth not what they want to hear.\nMon\nWent and read the TB test for the tenant farmer. There was 1 I/R. The reaction of the farmer took me back fairly badly and I was quite shocked at the sheer vehemence of his reaction, fortunately it was mostly at DEFRA . He went out early on to the disease and he therefore got much lower compensation than a lot of the later ones. He had some cattle wintering at his farm for some one else who went out later on with FMD at his home holding. The difference in the valuations for the same type of cattle was horrendous.\nHe also has buildings that he owns on a small parcel of land. The buildings were old and knackered but usable. (A lot of string and gates.) DEFRA pulled them to pieces during FMD and then offered him peanuts o reinstate them, which meant he could not get them back into a usable state. So he is not a happy bunny.\nSpent the afternoon castrating horses which is not my favourite job. If a stirk kicks you, it hurts. If a horse kicks you, it usually means a trip in an ambulance. You are therefore very tense and ready to move in awkward positions.\nCanadians and [wife]’s parents headed off for a trip around the borders in our people carrier. They are coming back to swap over cars at the end of the week. [wife] has the tank to run around in for the week.\nTuesday\nMy back is twinging from the castrating and a calving yesterday and is really sore. So did paperwork while sitting like a ramrod until I gave up and came back to lie down. Did the back exercises hourly but it just got stiffer and sorer.\nWeds\nSpent morning reading in bed and doing back exercises but cannot get it moving.\nWent to see the accountant in the afternoon to sort out the practicalities of going freelance, and finishing at the vets.\nThursday\nBack is a lot better and starting to move much more freely. The first negative comment on me leaving today came from a farmer who has decided that the only way to make money is to go for 300 cows. He has therefore planned all this, designed new parlours, been to look at other large herds, thought it all through. Unfortunately his costings are on buying in dairy cows at £6-700 per head and just recently they have gone to over a thousand which means he is out by £60K, oops. But he said that he thought I was deserting them. In a way I suppose I am.\nBack in to being On Call with a vengeance. A calving, a caesar, a prolapsed uterus, hey ho.\nFriday\nInteresting statistic on the radio, whether it is right or wrong I do not know. In the EU the average beef cow is subsidised to the tune of $2 per week, the average African earns less than that. \nThe Canadians and [wife] s parents arrived back from their trip around the borders. The good news is they baby sat (or teenage and child minded) while we went out to the Lemon lounge, the bad news is they are to feed and look after over the W/e. My brother and family arrive tomorrow, so it will be a bit crowded.\nIt was really nice to be out on our own with relative peace around us. The noise from an office party does not impinge as it is nothing to do with us.\n\n\nSaturday 31st May 2003\nA gardening day. \nWe decided that we would have to get the place sorted out so spent most of the day in the sunshine pulling weeds and sorting out the garden. It was a beautiful day. My back was pretty sore by the end of the day but we got it nearly all sorted which was good.\nThe boys cut the lawn and A sat on it and read her book.\nAnother BBQ by the end of the day, A made the salads, while the boys cooked so it was a family meal.\n[wife] and the older two headed for Tesco’s while I cleared the debris away.\nSunday June 1st\nThe sun is still flaming but the seeds and seedlings are looking a bit sad and whithered in spite of the watering. \nI have really enjoyed the week off but there has been very little on FMD.\nMet up with [friends] at church, home visiting parents.\n In the evening caught up with the As. He is an Indian gastro enterologist who worked at Carlisle. They now work in Bombay so it was good to see them.\nThey are hoping to set up an AIDS hospice. There are currently over a million people who are HIV +ve in Bombay.\nMonday\nBack to work and quite busy so it looks as if the June quiet period is not going to materialise. With folk on holiday it makes it seem busier any way.\nIt took me until 4pm to get to my in tray which after a week was overflowing as usual.\nTuesday\nThis is more like June. Long lunch and spent the morning trying to get the accountancy package up to date.\nSent off another speculative e mail job application. A friend from church who is now studying physio therapy at Glasgow came and insisted [wife] & I went out for a walk together which was really nice. He is a really nice young guy.\nWent to beach at Beckfoot where we were the only ones walking the beach. There was one serious kiter. I have not seen such a serious kite for a long time. It was fairly windy and he had it anchored behind him so as not to be taking off with it!!\nWeds\nSpent the morning doing fertilities and then spent time sorting out issues with George. There was so little work it is boring for the assistants. The June quiet patch ahs arrived. The bills did not go due to a computer upgrade cocking the system up. The systems are now so complex they are beyond any reasonable way of keeping tabs, you have to trust the experts who you don’t!!\nThursday\nDay off spent it writing out a business proposal to try and get work via a consultancy firm. Then tried fixing the extractor fan and failed. \nThursby football club is going really well with some more lads coming along. The standard is variable but good fun.\nFriday\nTB testing again at Fs. They had just heard about me leaving and were full of questions. The night was really busy. On first call and had lots going on. [wife] was at a retreat, thinking through the future and reporting on the last year. So I was trying to juggle kids as well.\n\n\nSaturday 7th June 2003\nLast night was terrible with a dog to see in the middle of the night and put down. It was only a young dog but it had leukaemia and was not responding to treatment. It had colic probably from the mesenteric Lymph nodes and was rolling around in pain. Not nice for them or me.\nSat am was busy too. Went to one of the organic farms to see an ill cow post calving. He was saying that there are three farmers, all none FMD giving up milking. One is another organic dairy farm. He was promised a premium of 10p per litre and his costings were based on 28p per litre. He is getting a premium of less than 0.5p per litre which takes it to 16p. The figures do not add up so he is giving up. The other 2 are small farms who cannot make it work. 40-50 cows.\nSlept in the afternoon and went to a party in the evening. Bizarrely as we were walking in the people whose dog I put to sleep last night walked in as well!! \nThey live next door and had been invited as well.\nWeird.\nSpent time chatting but came to 10 and I was dead on my feet.\nSunday 8th\nThe On call changes from 2nd (Back up) to 1st at 8:30 am. The phone started at 8:35…. Urghhh. I am finding it very hard to have any enthusiasm knowing that I ma leaving in a few months.\nOne of the farms I was on has given up dairy and were hoping to retire FMD year but lost money because of all the restrictions. So they are now hoping to finish this back end, may be. They were hoping to keep the Milk quota and lease it out as a pension but because of the new rules they will have to sell it and the price is low, as there are a lot of non producers who are in the same boat. It was at its height worth £1 per litre, a lot was bought and sold in the 40-60p per litre, it is now around the 10p mark. Funny world agriculture.\nMonday 9th \nCalving at 5am followed by other calls so an early start. Busy day at work \nWent to a meeting for the new Crusaders support worker. It is supposed to be county wide but is going to be based around Kendal, as that is where the legacy that is providing a lot of the money is based so it is less relevant tot this end of Cumbria. So I have backed out of the organisation committee, as most of the meetings will be at Rydal. Too far for me. We were there tonight, so did not get back until 11:30 which after a w/e on call is too late for this bunny.\nTuesday 10th\nSpent 45 mins on the phone trying to work out what I am going to be doing in Oct with a guy from Pfizer. I then had to spend the rest of the evening sorting out the emails I needed to send to him.\nWeds 11th\nSpent the morning having nursery visits where the local infants schools come around the vets and I give my wee guided tour. It is quite fun and the little things that we do they really love; Blowing up the anaesthetic bag; The X ray quiz and listening to dog’s hearts.\nI always take some of [son]’s chickens in, as well, as most kids are not use to having Birds or handling them. [son] has spent so many hours carrying them around they are fairly tame and used to being picked up.\nI don’t know that effort pays back in commercial terms but it is fun.\nFootball training in the evening with 20 lads which was brilliant.\nThursday 12th\nOn call and exhausted after the excitement of the week. The phone went at 7pm from the answering service to say that a women had rung and asked for the pass word for the alarm. This of course meant nothing to those answering the phone. I however put 2 + 2 together to work out that the alarm at the practice and gone off and that the police would be on their way. Why does this always happen when you are in the bath. So I jumped out the bath and rushed down to find out what was going on. There was a police man there who was waiting for me to lead the way in! We found a very scared dog sitting in the prep room, having escaped from its kennel.!!!\nIt then took an hour to get the alarms reset.\nLife is a rich tapestry.\nFriday 13th\nWent to lawyers today to meet up to go through the dissolution of the partnership. Bit sad in a way, but another nail bashed in to my leaving coffin!\nFinished work and spent evening playing football and doing some coaching, which was good fun. [son] was off school today. He was full of cold and just exhausted. He just needed time out really. He goes at everything at 110%.\n\n\nSaturday 14th June 2003\nWorking am. Why is it even if you have a few quiet days in the week by the time the w/e comes it is busy again?? \nReally warm so sunshine and gardening. A had decided she was going to do a changing rooms on the double room in the cottage, so she and a friend worked away all day at it. I was very impressed by the time we had finished our barbeque in the evening it was all back to ship shape and was finished. She is some pup.\nSunday \nWent down to Whitehaven to see the tall ships in the harbour. There was only one there which was disappointing but it was good to look around. There was a fair buzz about the place and heaving with people as the weather was great. There was a display of Jet Ski’s which was fun to watch so the boys are now on at me to try and have a go.\nThe red arrows were brilliant. They have a tremendous display and the coloured streams they leave behind in the sky always amaze me. It is almost like they are writing in the sky.\nMonday\nFinally decided the Duck eggs were not going to hatch so broke them open to see if they were fertile. 1 exploded it was so rotten. Urghh!! Only one had a half formed egg in it. So I think the eggs were the problem not the incubation.\nTuesday\nTesting some more I/R’s for TB. Though the history is wrong, so I hope that they will clear. A new vet student turned up in the afternoon. She is staying with us until the w/e. Then with [colleague]. The vets is going to have to find new accommodation for students. Went to the Training evening for the soccer coaching. It was a form filling exercise and orientation so it was boring. But I am on the course which is good. At least I well have the piece of paper at the end of it.\nWeds\nFootie training at night. Only the hard core turned up, so looks like we will have a good group of 14-15 which means we will not have to choose and disappoint. Went for a run afterwards as feeling in need of exercise as not much large animal work at the moment means I am sitting around on the computer for a lot of the day which is sad. Must get fit is a constant resolution.\nSpent the evening up at Sandal watching the sun go down away from the phone and chaos at home.\nThursday. \nI was at work when I had a phone call from some one who had apparently run over [son] at school. Never an easy phone call to take, espy as she did not know what had happened. Fortunately he was OK. He had been walking backwards and had stepped into the path of a car which had caught his heel. The damage was slight but it had upset him. \nThe school exit is appalling and needs sorted as busses, cars and bikes all share the same area as the kids walking. Inevitably kids are jostling and messing around so it is an accident waiting to happen.\nFriday\nHalf day as [wife] is starting her next w/e counselling course \nCould not really get going as a calving early this am, and a call late last night.\nSo having run on adrenalin for all the week I collapse in to a heap and find it hard to get going and get motivated. Spent the afternoon getting organised for the visitors arriving as [friends] are coming and [friend] who was our bridesmaid is coming across for the w/e.\n\n\nSaturday 21st June 2003\n Pay day. I don’t really know why it always sticks in my mind but at the moment with the 1st of October looming and the fact that the 21st will not be a pay day it is becoming a bit scary!!\nSpent morning on run around and house jobs, ferrying to and from squash.\nWent to town in pm with A & [son] having left off the younger ones at Cottinghams and spent a pleasant half hour in Ottakars. Even they were running low on THE book. The latest Harry Potter which I had meant to order via internet but had not quite got around to.\nThe statistic is that she is expected to sell 6 every second over the w/e. She makes £1 per book which means £360 per minute, £21,600 per hour (not a bad hourly rate!) or just over a million quid for the w/e. As every other person on the tills was buying a copy, I can well believe it.\nSun 22nd \nChurch in the morning was joint communion and was lead by the Denton Holm house group. The church meets up in small groups mid week to pray and study bible, and the Denton Holme grp lead the service, it means you get a refreshingly different type of service with different people taking part and leading. It was good. Followed by a picnic in the park which was OK but I just wanted to fall asleep in the sunshine. I am suffering from stopping syndrome. I can keep going on the adrenalin but when I stop, thump, I fall asleep and can not get going.\nPicked up Liz from church in the evening. Having left youngest two at home as [wife] was late back from her course. Thank goodness for mobile phones, or rather at least they manage to make a complex life possible. Really I should have let her pick up [friend] and missed church and upset A by telling her she couldn’t go. But it all worked out in the end.\nMon 23rd\n[friend] arrived at some terrible hour, she finally left Bristol after 8pm after meaning to leave at lunchtime. So as [wife] and I were exhausted we did not get up to welcome her! \nWork is really quiet with very little happening.\n[son] is in a strop cos we will not let him go sailing after cricket after school as he will be exhausted. He takes after us, if there is a possibility, we try to achieve it. Our own fault really, but it is weird how you see your own faults coming through in your children.\nTues 24th\nSpent the day talking to people on the phone trying to get funding for the research project, have a few leads and ideas to get together, so should be interesting to see if it comes together.\nWeds 25th\nStarted at 4am with a caesarean which was really nice as that time in the morning is beautiful. It is just a shame that the rest of the day is a bit of a wash out because of it. Went at night to the FA training course which was class room based on a warm sunny evening and I was struggling to stay with it. I have also decided that I need to get fit as the practical day is going to be very long for my unfit legs.\nThursday\nThe electrician arrived to sort out the electrics in the bathroom, which are still not right. The lights keep fusing and the fan will not work. I had a look at the wiring which is a mess and decided I could not follow it, and after my last experience I decided I would just pay him to keep him in a job.\nI had a very enjoyable day off, played [son] at squash and lost. Now not only is he better than me at football but squash a swell. All down hill from here on in.\nWent to church in the evening as RW was speaking. It was interesting to hear him, though was more a chat than a biblical exposition.\nFriday.\nThe email from the verse of the day seems to sum up a years worth of diaries\nWhen times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider:\nGod has made the one as well as the other. \nTherefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.\n\nEcclesiastes 7:14, New International Version\n\nThe future is uncertain, I will leave my job in a few months time for a new start. The pressures of FMD seem to be distant in the warm summer weather and in the quiet workload making me feel rested and relaxed.\nThe challenges both for agriculture, the veterinary practice and for policymakers are still very large. \nThere is now a threat of bio terrorism to add to the food scares and the threat of exotic disease. \nLife carries on, we may not learn from all our mistakes, and government depts are a blunt, slow awkward machine, but the cows will still need to be milked and we will still need food on our table. If in ’68 you told some one that we had not had an outbreak of FMD for 35 years, they would have said “well done”. If you had said 2 men were milking 300 cows on a Cumbrian farm, and getting 7000 litres per cow he would never have believed you. \n\nThere is a time for everything,\nAnd a season for every activity under the heaven.\n\nA time to be born and a time to die\nA time to plant and a time to uproot\nA time to kill and a time to heal\nA time to tear down and a time to build\nA time to weep and a time to laugh\nA time to mourn and a time to dance\nA time to scatter stones and a time to gather them\nA time to embrace and a time to refrain\nA time to search and a time to give up\nA time to keep and a time to throw away\nA time to tear and a time to mend\n A time to be silent and a time to speak\nA time to love and a time to hate\nA time for war and a time for peace.\n
## 5 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1981\nGender: F\nOccupation: Group 5\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\nPaper diary has lots of newspaper cuttings and other related material.\n\nWeek beginning 25th February 2002\nAfter the snow, which fell at the weekend, melted combined with the additional rainfall, many of the fields surrounding the village, as well as the roads, were flooded. Usually this wouldn't concern you much, however, with the burial site being so close and the number of underground streams in the area, it does become worrying. There isn't any guarantee that groundwater in the surrounding area won't become effected and to what extent. There seem to be a number of aspects to me concerning this issue which remain unclear. For example, what exactly can be carried in water and how might this effect people in the area? ; What is being tested for in the surrounding streams? what exactly is classed as a danger?; and if problems did arise, how would they be monitored and resolved. All these issues do tend to make you anxious.\nIn particular on Monday, when I was out walking my dog I noticed a couple of drains which I passed looked as if they were blocked and there was a lot of water around. It just makes you wonder how much has come possibly from the burial site and if it is actually safe.\nMy worries on Monday about the groundwater were even more emphasised by the statement I heard on the Border News on Tuesday, by the Environment Agency. This statement was concerning the future safety of the groundwater in the area around the burial site. The Agency could give no guarantee that the groundwater would not become affected in the future. Since then I have heard no further news about the issue. There may be more information on news reports I missed. In my opinion not enough information is given to the public about these issues. Results of testing by the Environment Agency are meant to be available to the public, however, I have never heard much about the details. I think more effort should be made to inform, in particular, resident near burial sites as these issues are bound to be important to them.\nAfter hearing the news, I did become more worried but at the end of the day there is little we can really do ourselves. You find yourself having to trust people or agencies you know little about and just hoping everything will be alright.\nOn Tuesday, also noticed a horrible smell outside, so did my fiancé, but again you can't be sure exactly where this is coming from or what is causing it?\n\nOn Thursday, with news of possible Foot and Mouth case further south near Leeds, I became very worried that this whole thing was going to start all over again! My worries were about the farmers and people involved and how they would be affected; if other cases could be identified and in particular, affecting my own life, if animals would have to be slaughtered again in the future, where would they be disposed of? Would existing burial sites be reopened as opposed to finding suitable sites for new burial sites. It would seem easier to reopen burial sites but what would this mean for the future and to what extent would the health risks be increased?\nI was very relieved to hear the testing of the foot and mouth cases came back negative. I was relieved for the people involved, and also residents near burial sites. However, this did raise questions in my mind of how this sort of situation would be handled in the future and what consequences it might have? \n\nWeek 2 – 4th March\nOn Monday passed driving test and now fiancé and myself are insured on a small car. This opens up so many opportunities and we have a huge sense of freedom. Last summer we had planned to go on a camping holiday with our dog [dog]. We had al our equipment prepared but were unable to go due to the foot and mouth outbreak. Neither of us imagined how long and widespread the outbreak would be And Thought at first it would be over in a few weeks. Now a year later we are able to replan our holiday. This is exciting as we have waited so long. It is unbelievable to think how long it has taken for restrictions on the countryside to return to as normal as can be possible, due to the circumstances. For the actual people directly involved in the foot and mouth crisis this must have seemed like far longer!\nOn Tuesday I had a lovely surprise when I noticed the lambs in a field near my house when out walking my dog. It was lovely to see and for a few minutes things almost seemed normal again. Even though the burial site is only about a mile away, it is hidden from view from the village, you never forget though as soon as you spot the windmills and remember the repeated pictures featured in the news.\nSeeing the lambs really did lift my spirits and the future after foot and mouth didn’t seem as bad as thought the week before.\nI can’t recall the exact days but they were towards the beginning of the week. On two particular occasions my fiance and I noticed a terrible smell outside. We aren’t sure exactly what the smell was, just that it was very unpleasant!\nThe only other incident which I can recall which stands out in my mind this past week is a conversation I had with my fiancé’s Granddad. We were talking about how bad last year’s Foot and Mouth outbreak had been and he recalled the outbreak of 1967. He commented on how he thought that outbreak had been far better controlled. It was better as the animals were killed and buried on the actual farms in lime. There was no transporting dead or live animals like last year. He also commented on the fact that there were no pyres then and that he hadn’t thought it a good idea last year. Overall he thought that last year’s outbreak could have been dealt with better and that action was taken far too late to prevent the disease spreading.\n\nWeek 3 – 11th March\nOne new thing I have noticed this week is the amount of birds there are flying around, especially black crows. I think it is because I have been driving and every time I drive past the fields at the south end of the village, there are large amounts of crows hustled together. Can never remember it being quite like that last summer. It makes you wonder why so many are drawn to just those fields. As I drive past in the next few weeks I will see if it is still the same.\nOn about occasions this week fiancé and I have noticed a slight smell outside again. Not as foul smelling but still noticeable.\nOn Tuesday, saw new series featured on ITV called Rural Lives. I think this is a good idea as the issue of foot and mouth is still very painful to a lot of people and is not over yet. The effects are still happening however, on the news and in other media, it isn’t often mentioned and doesn’t get the attention it deserves.\nHopefully through programmes like this people will get a better understanding of the issues involved and what different people went through.\nIf an outbreak ever happened again, all the people involved would hopefully have a better idea of how to handle the actual crisis and a better idea of people’s needs for example, the farmers. These are long term effects which can’t be ignored.\nMy Mum came out for a couple of nights. She loves coming out to see us as she lives in Carlisle it is a total change of scenery. She thought it was great and enjoyed taking my dog on long walks which she was unable to do for a long time.. We went to see the lambs in the lovely weather – shows we are able to start enjoying the countryside again, especially coming up to Spring and Summer.\nWe were even able to go to Dalston with my dog and wander about. We have been so used to having to stick t the roads just in the local area. It was lovely, a nice change!\nIt does tend to make you more confident about the coming year and we are looking forward to the Summer!\n\nWeek 4 – 18th March \nThis past week started of with a day out at Bowness. I went with my fiancé and took our dog, [dog]. It was lovely to let her off the lead to run, she really enjoys it and got absolutely filthy. Travelling in the car is becoming easier for [dog] and she goes crazy when you arrive. We have only had [dog] just over 2 years and for the past year we couldn’t let her off the lead to run anywhere. We are tiring t train her again, she listens to a certain extent, but we have to keep an eye on her cheeky side. I remember wondering when the foot and mouth started how we were going to exercise [dog], as walking her on the roads used to be more difficult due to the large vehicles travelling up and down and also the fact [dog] isn’t the best on the lead. She used to be really energetic and a bit of a handful, however now she has got used to a more relaxed life and at times I think she quite likes it. It did us all good to have some exercise and fresh air and it was lovely to have a change of scenery. \nApart from on Monday, I haven’t really been anywhere else (apart from shopping) and have been busy doing my A-level work. Therefore I haven’t really noticed anything different this week and haven’t thought about foot and mouth as much.\nMy overall view this week has been quite confident and there has been no real significant happenings to change my view. Quite a good week overall!\n\n\n\nWeek 5 – 25th March\nFirstly I received the Newsletter sent out to the Standing panel. It was a relief to finally get some information regarding the burial site. It was good to have an explanation on how things work on the site in terms that we can understand. It is a relief to know that everything so far is still safe, however, it is evident that there is much more work and monitoring to be carried out in the future. Even though it is still not possible to do anything ourselves, our minds are at least put at rest by knowing something. It surprises me how long it has taken for information like this to be made accessible to the public. I think this newsletter is a very good step forward as information is reaching the public and participants are also given the opportunity to ask questions and put other ideas forward.\nOn Wednesday, My Mum came out again to see us. Once again, we took a walk to go see the lambs in the field near us. It was enjoyable and we had lovely weather! It makes you realise how much you take for granted around you without thinking twice! My Mum has made me realise this even more by seeing how much she enjoys such a simple thing and how special she thinks it is! Sometimes I think when you are surrounded by the country and nature all the time you forget how lucky you are! My Mum and Gran would both love to live somewhere like here!\nThe biggest surprise this week was when I received the parish magazine for the month and found in it the “Watchtree News”. This is the first time I have ever seen anything like this from the parish council. I think it is a very good idea as the information will be accessible to everyone in the appropriate parishes. Even though it is long overdue it is very worthwhile and I think, will be very informative. It covers a wide range of issues, the majority of which I knew very little about and wouldn’t have known for the future for example, the maintenance going to be carried out between the A595 Orton Grange junction and the site entrance. At least we now have knowledge of this before it is going to be carried out as it will affect other members of our family who live on the Orton Grange junction, who would otherwise have had no idea. Some of the information was surprising, for example the number of tankers that leave the site everyday which I didn’t expect to be so high and which could rise.\nImportant issues are also now being tackled such as the bad state of the local roads. The affected people are also being encouraged to report these things themselves to the appropriate people.\nI think this has been a significant development and will be very useful in the aftermath of foot and mouth. Communication between the appropriate authorities and the public is essential! \n\n\nWeek 6 1st April\nUnfortunately it has been all go this week! One bit of work after another! I haven't had time to focus on very much else this past week. Despite this fact, I have still had quite a positive week. It is better studying out here as there are few distractions and everything is lovely and peaceful - a drastic difference from last year. At that time it was difficult to concentrate on anything for too long! Far too many distractions!\nMy fiancé however has been up to the burial site and nearby on Sunday. He went for a drive with a friend and wondered what it looked like up there. We have only ever seen it on television reports, but never been up there ourselves.\nIn a future diary when he has time, he will write a few words on what he thought! \n\n\n\nWeek 7 8th April\nOnce again this week has been full of work! I haven't had much time to do anything apart from work. ON Thursday I had a break and my Mom came out for a BBQ. For the first time this year, we have put out our patio tables and chairs as the weather was staying pleasant. We sat out for a while in the evening and had our BBQ. It was a lovely break for my Mom as there is peace and quiet out here as opposed to in town. We all really enjoyed it!\nMy Mom and [fiance] both commented how lovely it was to sit outside in the nice weather, without a nasty smell about. Over the past couple of weeks I haven't noticed things smelling so bad as on a few occasions recently. There has also been a decrease in the amount of birds, in particular crows which have been in the fields to the south of where we are near the crossroads. On the couple of occasions during the week when I have been past the fields there have only been a couple of birds flying around as opposed to a whole field full of crows at one time.\nIt was also lovely to hear the sheep, especially as the evening became darker. In the background, you could hear the sheep, just in the field next to us and also the lambs a few fields away. It was something which we still aren't quite used to, but which we appreciate so much more now!!\n\n\nWeek 8 15th April\nI was feeling quite confident this week until Friday when watch the news. I saw the report on new Bovine TB cases which are worrying. Even though it is said it wouldn’t be as serious as foot and mouth it is still worrying as it has the potential to destroy many more lives and bankrupt more farmers who have probably just got over foot and mouth! The worry must be especially bad for the farmers, as it is bad enough for the general public especially after seeing the damage caused by foot and mouth in such a short space of time. It would be absolutely terrible if this summer was anything like last summer. How long would it take for everything to get back to normal then?\nEven though foot and mouth is evidently far different to Bovine TB hopefully things will have been learned from last year which will prevent this from becoming a disaster too!\nApart from that other aspects of the foot and mouth, smell etc, haven’t been as bad this past week. I haven’t noticed any particular occasions when the smell has been particularly bad or noticeable. In addition, on the occasions when I have driven past the fields near the crossroads there have been hardly any crows near there, which is a huge improvement! There were a number of seagulls in one field but nowhere near the amount of crows there were before.\nThere has also been a decrease in the amount of tankers going by recently, that I have noticed. At first I didn’t take much notice of it but then [fiancé]’s Grandad mentioned that he had hardly seen any. He seems to notice them move more than we do as he lives on the Orton Grange junction with Wigton road and they all have to go past there!\nWith all these things happening the presence of the burial site nearby seems less obvious!\n\n\nWeek 9 – 22nd April\nThe last week has been quite a pleasant week, probably because I have eventually finished my coursework and have been able to have a bit of peace and quiet! I think this combined with periods of lovely weather have made me feel quite good.\nOn Tuesday, when I travelled to town and back I went past the fields near the crossroads to the south of the village which in the past have been full of crows or seagulls. As I have noticed on other odd occasions over the past week, they appear to be empty now. I’ll keep an eye on how this changes over the summer if it does.\nOn Friday, I noticed that there were a number of cattle and calves in the field just opposite our house. I can stand and watch them from my back patio doors which is lovely. With the reintroduction of the sheep and cattle in the area, it is like everything is coming together finally after the foot and mouth, and life is returning to normal in some sense. The cattle seem to be the last part needed for everything to seem to be running properly and the animals finally moving about at last. \nI think this fact combine with their being no significant incidents of nasty smells or the rumbling of the tankers going by, has made things seem better.\nWhen talking to [fiance]’s Grandad, he mentioned again that there still haven’t been as many tankers going past his house at Orton Grange as there have been. This past week there have been hardly any reminders of the burial site and the past foot and mouth problems. Living in the country has seemed quite normal after what seems a long time!\n\nWeek 10 29th April\nAll in all this week has been a good week overall! With regard to the foot and mouth everything seems to have quietened down and there are hardly any visible reminders of the burial site and foot and mouth around the village. As I mentioned last week, there still haven’t been any noticeable occasions of smells, possibly from the burial site; the tankers have hardly been noticeable around the village and the fields near the crossroads have still been fairly empty of birds, in particular crows.\nThis was explained and backed up in the Watchtree Newsletter in the parish magazines which I received this week. It was good to read and very informative – worth reading. I still think it is a good idea and is being done well as it discusses issues happening now and also keeps you informed about action in the future. The newsletter mentioned the reduction in the amount of tankers which I have noticed. It also mentions that there might be a slight smell from the burial sited during work but so far I haven’t noticed anything. Once again it has been lovely seeing both the sheep and the cows in the surrounding fields especially at the moment when they are with their young.\nOn Saturday on the way down to [fiance]’s Grandad there were road works near the Baldwinholme bend in the road. This part was in a bad condition and is now much better! I think the damage was caused by the trucks etc used during foot and mouth. However I’m not sure!\n\nWeek 11 6th May\nThis week has been my 21st Birthday! I’m growing up! I had a lovely day on Thursday and as a surprise I was taken t the Lake District for the day. It was lovely and I really enjoyed it! Firstly we stopped off at Bassenthwaite lake for a bit, fed the ducks and had a picnic. Then off to Dodd Wood for a coffee and to see the Ospreys. It was great to see them and I think we were quite lucky. Then we had a pleasant walk around Myre House.\nI was reminded of how lucky we are in Cumbria to have such lovely places and I am glad that we are now able to go to these places again. Now we’ve got a car we are going to take better advantage of Cumbria and what it has to offer. Once again I realised how much we take what we have for granted.\nOverall this has been a good week and reminders of foot and mouth and the burial site have been minimal. There have been no smells I have noticed, and hardly any signs of wagons. It is still lovely to see the sheep and cattle around the village!\n\nWeek 12 – 13th May\nOn Wednesday I met my Mum in town and got the Cumberland News off her. I was reading about the County Council Inquiry at Kendal. I think it is good how the different people involved in the inquiry are all being honest about what happened. That is the only way anything will be improved in the future if anything of a similar nature should happen again. I really hope it doesn’t. From reading the articles written and what people have said, it is clear what a wide range of people the foot and mouth crisis affected and also how badly. When you read of other people who have had family who have been so low it has driven them to suicide you do seem to feel a bit guilty as when we complain, it hasn’t affected us is such a drastic way. It brings the seriousness and the extent of the crisis to people’s attention. Despite the terrible things which took place during the crisis hopefully some good will come out of it for the present and the future.\nOn Thursday [fiance] went to the doctor’s and was talking to a farmer in the waiting room. As soon as [fiance] mentioned he lived in Great Orton, the farmer asked straight away what it was like to live here so near to the burial site and how he couldn’t imagine what it would have been like. It too has been such a long time since anyone has said anything like that to either one of us. At the time of the foot and mouth crisis people used to ask questions and what it was like to live so near. It is strange when farmers in particular, feel sympathy towards you for living near the burial site, when on the other hand it is the farmers I feel sympathy for.\nBefore the foot and mouth crisis a fair number of people even from Carlisle didn’t know where Great Orton was’ but now many do and realise how close to Carlisle it actually is! \n\n\n\nWeek 13 - 20th May\nI haven't really done anything very exciting this past week, unfortunately, I've been revising again and preparing for a presentation for my A-level which I have to do next week. My presentation was on 'turrets and watchtowers' which I found a bit confusing at first from the books I've been using so dragged [fiance] (to drive) and [dog] out past Brampton to Hadrian's Wall. There I found a watchtower and a turret - everything became much clearer! On the way back we spotted a sign for a camping barn on Hadrian's Wall (Banks East). We were both very interested so sent away for the brochure. At this point we decided to reconsider our holiday plans, and realised we didn't need to go far afield, like Amsterdam (our 1st choice); then Scotland (2nd choice). We hadn't realised actually how many places there were so nearby which were ideal. We came to the conclusion a holiday in Cumbria would be the best choice as 1. We could take [dog] with us; 2 we could go by car and 3 it would be a bit cheaper. As [fiance] mentioned, it would also be good after everything to put the money we were spending back into Cumbria.\nWe were hoping to go next week as it is half term the week after and my exams after that! Hopefully we will get something organised!\nOn Thursday we got the Orton newsletter. [fiance] and I were both quite disappointed when we read that land around this area are being sold for the building of houses. It is good in a way as people are moving forward after F&M but we wish it wasn't in a residential sense. It is just a pity so much of the farming will be lost (6 houses at Baldwinholme, 4 in Great Orton). Even though I haven't been brought up with a farming background from what I have seen it would be a pity for us to lose this part of our countryside.\n\n\nWeek 14 - 27th May\nOn Monday saw CB and was pleased to hear the F&M standing panel project was going well as I think it’s worthwhile and as much as possible should be learned for the future.\nOn Tuesday I attended the meeting for the foot and mouth disease inquiry at Great Orton village hall at 7pm. I was glad I attended the meeting as people could voice their opinions and try to get information about issues, both about the present and the future. My general view of the meeting and how it went was that the general feeling of the villagers etc. was that they were losing interest and nothing was still being done. There were many empty seats, I estimated a total number of 50-60 people. There was a whole new panel of faces, even though this was a new inquiry so there were new people on the panel but between the meetings there is no feel of continuity as no-one is sure of what has been said before and there are never the answers promised from one meeting to another. It seems as if this is a way of avoiding answers and getting out of situations.\nThere were new aspects which were brought up which had not yet been disclosed (never at any meeting I have attended) such as the fact the burial was planned and used for the burial of uninfected animals, which is not what we were led to believe with al the engineering on site – again this is lack of communication and no-one is sure of the facts. DEFRA also are only guaranteeing funding for this site for the next 5 years and it is worrying who’s burden this will become after then.?\nA variety of other issues were discussed – health, roads, handling of outbreak, vaccination etc.\nAfter the meeting I was glad I had been, however I felt rather angry by the way in which the questions are handled. The answers are often vague, have no supporting evidence or are dismissed with “I’ll have to get back to you on that” or, “I can’t comment”.\nIn my opinion many of the farmers, villagers etc just want this whole thing brought to an end. Ideally the remaining trenches filled in, a nature reserve created and maintained. There were no guarantees of the site not being used again or funding after the next five years. Will this ever be achieved?\nOn Saturday morning [fiance] and I decided to go away for a short break to somewhere near and where we could take [dog]. It was a spontaneous decision for the Jubilee and because it was half term, I was not at college. We ended up going to a caravan site with [dog] for 4 nights! I will update about my holiday in the next diary!\n\nClipping from News and Star here – story about Great Orton public meeting and villagers’ request not to have site used again in the event of future emergencies. \n\n\nHOLIDAY - Week beginning Monday 3rd June\n\n\nWeek 15 10th June\nI am writing this a couple of days early just to tell you about our holiday! It was lovely! In the end we hadn't yet received the brochure on the camping barns so on Saturday we decided we would like to go away as son as possible and would like something for the Jubilee weekend. After finding a caravan at Caldbeck, not far away, relatively quiet, we went. By 5 pm on Saturday, [fiance] [dog] and I were there! It was a lovely caravan site; lovely caravan and even a TV for the World Cup!\nThe caravan site was surrounded by common land sheep - lovely and quiet and a lot of places to keep [dog] occupied. We were so surprised at how quiet the campsite was over the Jubilee weekend but thought most of the people actually lived there. It would be lovely in the future to have a small caravan there to go away to!\nThe surrounding places we went to were really busy for example Keswick, Bassenthwaite etc.\nI was quite surprised but thought it was great to see Cumbria lively again! What a contrast to what I would have imagined these places to be like a year ago! Especially for the Jubilee, everyone seemed to make such an effort - it was lovely to see!\nWe all had a lovely time, so relaxing! OI don't think [dog] has ever walked so far!\nWe were surprised that somewhere so close was exactly what we wanted! We were also happy we could put our money back into Cumbria. We would definitely go back!\nI feel so much more confident about the future especially in Cumbria after this week. If you didn't know about last year F&M outbreak in some cases it would be hard to tell! I really think Cumbria seems as if it could recover from this, hopefully.\n\nOn Saturday and Sunday - ill in bed.\n\n\nWeek 16 17th June\nWith the combination of not feeling very well at the beginning of the week; the car not running overt the week-end; and [dog] being in season, I haven't really been able to go anywhere this week. It has been quite frustrating but I have had work to do anyway. I still feel quite confident about the future this week after being on holiday. This is better than a couple of weeks ago after the FMD Inquiry meeting when I felt quite unsure at time of what was going to happen at Gt Orton.\nI had the F&M Panel newsletter and 'Watchtree Newsletter' (with Parish Magazine). I think both of these are good as you are able to gain information consistently about F&M in Cumbria, and in particular the burial site. This information would be difficult to come by otherwise. In particular I enjoyed reading about children at Milburn School with their memories of the F&M outbreak and the effort they have made.\n\n\nResearcher had spoken with respondent about possibility of monthly diary and she decided to start straight away - so although middle of month, here follows monthly write up. She continued to record her diary in this way. At times she offers short daily entries, drawing 4 weeks together within an overall reflective piece. These daily entries are also recorded . \n\n\nWeek 20 15th July \n(Writing up after 4 weeks)\nI am looking forward to attending the social evening in Dalston. I am a bit nervous as am not used to doing these sorts of things but think it will be a good experience. I was also pleased when I got the F&M panel newsletter and saw the article I made notes for. I have never done anything like this before and was quite pleased about the whole thing! \nOn the Saturday of week one, [fiance] and I went down to [fiance]'s Grandad's and noticed there were more signs up for land being for sale. Again we both think this is quite sad as the area will inevitable be changing in the near future. We wonder how much of the land will be reused for farming or sold for new houses. Taking into consideration the signs we have seen up in the past, quite a bit of land is going to change.\nOver the past weeks I have also received the 'Watchtree' newsletter with our parish magazine. I still think this is a good idea and worthwhile as you are updated every so often. This will also reach everyone in the village, so easily accessible.\nOver a period of a few days in week 2 of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed a strange smell outside. We could smell it here but not at [fiance]'s Grandad's which is only 2 miles away. It smelt just like a burning smell, so I am not sure whether it had anything to do with the burial site or anything being done up there. I just thought I would mention it anyway!\nLast Wednesday I rang up the Archaeological Support group in Carlisle of which I have been a member for the past year and a half. I had never been sent anything to do with it for along time and wondered why. It turns out that last year as soon as F&M hit Cumbria, everything was cancelled and stopped. This I knew at the time and there was nothing else that could have happened. The thing I didn't realise was that things have been so badly affected that nothing has been arranged as yet, even so many months after F&M broke out. Once again this is another example of how things have been affected still so many months after. There is also uncertainty about the future of this archaeology group as nothing has been decided yet and it will depend on how things go. This is a pity and I hope things pick up in the future!\nOn the first week of these 4 weeks, [fiance] and I both noticed that we were coughing a bit more, especially at night and early in the morning. Since then [fiance] has got better and is not coughing as much but now I have got a sore throat and a cold. I don't think this is anything to do with the burial site or anything, but we were not sure about the coughing and I thought I would mention it.\n\n\n12th August - Writing up after 4 weeks\nI do not feel quite as nervous now as I did about the evening at Dalston Village hall. It was a bit intimidating at first as I was going on the same night as frontline workers and health professionals. I felt a bit out of my depth when I wondered what sort of stories they would be telling, compared to what I had seen. These people would have had to deal with the situation first hand and must have seen some terrible things. After a couple of weeks I grew used to the idea and didn't feel as bad, it would turn out to be a good experience. As it turns out the evening is now on the 21st August and everyone is going together, things will be a bit more relaxed for me, I think. I hope I will be able to make it!\nThe one major event that has made me think over the past couple of week is [fiance]'s Auntie Jean who has moved house from Orton Grange (2 miles away from us) into the middle of town. It made me think that i definitely wouldn't like to move back into the middle of Carlisle after living here. Even though it hasn't been the most pleasant at times here with F&M last year and the building of the burial site, I would still miss everything about it. Once again I am reminded how lucky I am to be surrounded by fields, cows, sheep and a horse in the overlooking field. It is also usually quiet and peaceful - I can imagine quite different to the middle of Carlisle. I think Jean will miss it quite a lot!\nJust over a week ago, [fiance] and I were busy getting our garden ready for the Village in Bloom. It was good to see everyone making an effort to everything looking nice. Everything felt a bit more normal this year, whereas last year I think the Village in Bloom was the last thing on most people's minds! It made me feel more confident about the future! Perhaps everything or most things may return to normal eventually!\n\nWeek 24 12th August \nNothing extremely significant concerning F&M has happened this week.\nI have noticed, though, now when working at village pub – Wellington – even though I only do 1 day, it has really become quite busy. I think business has improved after they tried more advertising. I can remember back to during the Foot and Mouth outbreak – it was very quiet, most people stayed away and the atmosphere in the pub was very depressing. Now, over a year later things do seem to be picking up again and perhaps returning more to normal. It is god to see!\n\n\nMonday 19th August\nAll in all it has been a quiet week, I haven’t really been out very much and not feeling well really. I was a bit disappointed not being able to attend the social evening o Wednesday as my Mom was unable to get time off work or change her shift.\n\n26th August \nFirst of all we were noticing problems with our goldfish – when we first got them about two and a half years ago we had very few problems with them. Over the past few months they have been getting ill. We have tried all sorts (different chemicals) and still they have all died except one. Omar, [fiance]’s cousin, who breeds fish came and had a look and was baffled! The only explanation is that the chemicals have been changed or increased, for example the chlorine which there appears to be a lot more of. We obviously aren’t totally sure what the problem is but thought we should mention it anyway.\nThis week I also noticed the banner opposite the village shop in the village. I have enclosed an article about this banner which appeared in the Cumberland News this week. I think this sums up the mood I have noticed at the village meetings. Nothing has yet been done to help the villagers etc, so what difference have the promises made?\nThis is the main reason why I feel less confident about the future this week regarding foot and mouth as these things are still dragging on.\n\n\nMonday 2nd September\nDuring the first week of these diaries nothing really significant happened regarding foot and mouth. I did comment, however, that when working at the pub on Sundays, how busy the pub was and how business had seemed to improve a lot from what I had seen during the foot and mouth crisis. The atmosphere then had been depressing. This made me feel more confident about the future regarding foot and mouth as another aspect of the foot and mouth had seemed to return back to normal.\nThis mood however did change during the third week of these diaries when I felt less confident about the future. It all began when our goldfish started dying apart from oner. We still are not sure exactly what caused it and are not sure whether or not it was because of the water here or something we did. There just seems to be that little bit of doubt in my mind as you don’t feel totally sure about what is happening in this area still, and therefore, I don’t think, really trust the organisations dealing with these issues. The other thing that seemed to sum up some of my feelings was the banner which appeared opposite the village shop last week . I think this shows the desperation and lengths some of the people in the village have to go through in order to get noticed and heard. It seems ridiculous that the same basic issues brought up in the earlier meetings have still not been dealt with. It does make you lose the trust you had in the organisations involved (article enclosed).\nThis past week has been a little better, however, not that good. I did receive the Watchtree Newsletter, in the Parish magazine, which is still good to receive as it updates you on a number of different aspects of the burial site.\nI also heard about the article in the newspaper regarding this inquiry from Cathy as well as my Mom who has saved it for me but as yet I have not read it. I will comment on this in my next diary. \n\n\n9-15 September\nMonday\nGot free News & Star last week and found article on F&M diaries – not too bothered that it has been printed myself.\nTuesday\nSaw Cathy – said about articles – not too bothered myself but can see why otherwise involved would be as things are not represented in the right way and are misleading. Good point though is that it may catch people’s attention – and get the point across that people are still suffering. Got article from Cumberland news – Mum.\nSaturday\nFound article in Cumberland News regarding Village in Bloom – won a trophy for our special efforts in village in aftermath of F&M crisis (Mark Andrews trophy).\n\n\n16-22 September\nMonday\n[fiance] and I noticed a burning smell when we came back home in the evening. Not sure what it is from – reminds us of F&M crisis.\nWednesday\nRoad works in village – didn’t affect us too much.\nThursday\nRoad works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s – annoying at times – has taken such a long time to do – reminds us of F&M crisis. [fiance] and I noticed a burning smell again – not sure where from.\nFriday\nGood that Watchtree Newsletter told us of these road works as wouldn’t have known.\nSaturday\nThese aspects aren’t too bad on their own but the atmosphere reminds you of the F&M crisis last year.\n\n\n23-29 September\nMonday\nRead the Diarist and also had a look at the Inquiry Report I was sent after attending the village meeting.\nTuesday\nHave not had time to read very much of it but I will get round to it and then comment on it.\nFriday\nParish magazine and Watchtree Newsletter – still good to be updated on what is going on – 1. Roads and 2. Visiting the site.\n\n\n30-6th October\nMonday\nRang up to book table at the Autumn Fayre being done in village hall – people pleased that people in village getting involved!\nTuesday\nWater has been quite bad especially on Tuesday – full of chlorine – had to leave for a while for everything to evaporate. Makes you quite concerned about whether or not it is safe to drink!\n\n\n6th October - Writing after 4 weeks \nDuring week I read the articles regarding those F&M diaries which appeared in the Cumberland News and the News and Star (they are enclosed). After reading these and speaking to C, I myself wasn’t too bothered or offended by what was written but could easily have seen why other people would have been specially if they are finding things really difficult. I think there is a good side to these articles as well though as they will have grabbed people’s attention and highlighted the fact that there are still problems regarding F&M this long after the crisis. Even though the articles were misleading they have also done some good! When reading the Cumberland News I also found a mention of Great Orton regarding the Village in Bloom. It turns out we were awarded the Mark Andrews trophy for special efforts during the aftermath of F&M. It would have been nice to win a better award but at least we were recognised for something! I was quite please!\n\nWeek 2 was probably the worst week I have had during the past month regarding F&M as the whole week just seemed to remind me of what it was like during the crisis!\nFirstly there were road works between here and [fiance]’s Grandad’s (only 2 miles away). I understand these had to be carried out but it made it difficult and inconvenient to get to [fiance]’s Grandad’s as you didn’t know which roads were gong to be closed when! Now that the work has been done everyone that I have spoken to about it think they will cause more trouble than before as when you pull out of the lay bys it is dangerous as the grass and verge have not been smoothed out. I think they are alright if you already know the roads but I wouldn’t be as confident if I hadn’t driven on them before!\nThe other aspect which made the road works seem worse were two instances when [fiance] and I both noticed a burning smell (Monday and Thursday). We were not sure where this came from but it still reminded us of the crisis.\n\nOn week 3 I received a copy of the F&M Inquiry and glad I went to a meting in the village – sometimes it feels good to be involved even though in such a small way!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ newsletter and ‘Watchtree’ newsletter which I am still glad I receive. Without the Watchtree Newsletter I don’t think I would have been informed of the road works being carried out! I am also glad the site is progressing and that people are now being given the opportunity to visit the site if they wish.\n\nOn week 4 there was only one major problem with our water. On Tuesday the water was that full of chlorine that we had to leave it for all the chlorine in it to evaporate, or boil it, even to give [dog] a drink! This is the second time this has happened and it does concern you as firstly why is this being done and secondly is the water safe to drink? We are not sure who to contact about this as last time we contacted United Utilities who said it was just routine and nothing to worry about! \n\n\nWeek beginning 7th October\nNot much this week regarding FMD – think I have been too busy thinking about other things.\n\n\nWeek beginning 14th October\nMonday\nRelaxing a bit today as going to be a busy day tomorrow and away on Wednesday.\nTuesday\n[fiance]’s exam – turned out to be quiet here today which was good for [fiance]’s exam as he did it at home – would have been difficult last year with pressure of F&M.\nWeds\nAway on holiday! It was a bit of a drive to what we are used to but we made it! Lovely views on way down and Hawkshead a lovely place!\nThursday\nThis holiday very well suited for [dog] as plenty of places to walk, a quiet campsite and shops and pubs which are suited for dogs – things she is not quite used to!\nFriday\nLovely to be away for a break away from Great Orton on the one hand but then you remember how nice it is where we are and how luck we are on the other hand.\nSunday\nHad a very good week and confident about the future.\n\n\nWeek beginning 21st October\nMonday\nHaving quiet week as just got back. Quite tired but coping ok – nice to be back in a way!\nWeds\nGot Watchtree Newsletters in Parish magazine. Also article out of News and Star (I think) – about renaming of site and farm that used to be there!\nThursday\nWatchtree Newsletter – interested in the Open Day – think it’s a good idea and will be very interesting (especially geology and fossil remains found on site). I think would be beneficial as even though we live in the village and have been to the meetings – still have little idea of how the site looks now and will in the future!\n\n\nWeek beginning 28th October\nWeds\nWent to meet Mom in town. The roads into town were terrible. Mud on road everywhere and really busy with trucks etc. Must be where they are doing new building – hope it doesn’t get like this all the time as so much land round here seems to have been sold for new construction!\n Sat\nMom has got her own stall this week-end at the Craft Fair in the Village hall. 1st time she has done this – saw it in Parish newsletter.\n\n\n2nd November – Writing after 4 weeks\nThis past month has been one of the busiest I have had for a long time! Firstly there was [fiance]’s final exam – which was quite stressful for him at times, revising and everything! It reminded me of how difficult it had been when we were doing our first exams a year and a half before, during F&M crisis. Studying had been very difficult then due to constant interruptions and distractions – constant sound of trucks; smells; noise; tension! I’m so glad it wasn’t this bad this year as these things can be stressful enough!\nShortly after [fiance]’s exam, [fiance], my Mom and I went for a short break to Hawkshead. It was great! We all enjoyed it and [dog] especially! Everything was suited for [dog] – we took her shopping (there are benches and water bowls outside every shop!); we went for a bar meal and sat outside with her! And on our last night even too her with us and went for a pint. Apart from these things we also took her on plenty of walks! Being there made you realise how lovely Cumbria is and how people who don’t live here are attracted to it! It is a pity how Cumbria suffered during F&M crisis as it is such a lovely place! I do hope that due to the large amount of attractions in Cumbria that things will hopefully be back to normal as can be expected! I was quite surprised at how busy things were for that time of year – it seems things must be improving which makes you confident! I enjoyed my break but you realise maybe Great Orton isn’t such a bad place to come back to!\nDuring the past month I have also received the Watchtree Newsletter. I’m quite interested in the Open Day later on this month – I think it will be very interesting. I’m really interested in the geology, history of the site and also fossils found there during this work. I don’t know much about how the site looks or how it will be in the future. It is amazing that you can live so near but still have no idea of what it is like! All I can seem to remember are the pictures that were shown on the news months ago – it seems difficult to imagine it any different!\nThis past week has been very busy as my Mom is having a stall for the first time at the Craft fair in the village hall! I have been helping her a little bit and helped her on the stall (I just sat with her really!). She decided to have a go as she likes crafts and is always making things! It was nice to be involved in the village and the money from the hiring of the stalls went to the church which is good! It was very quiet on Saturday though and apparently that was the worst it’s been for a few years! I wonder if this is an effect of the F&M, however the weather and other factors may have contributed!\n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 11th November\nTuesday\n[fiance] – Doctors\nWednesday\nMe Dentist and in town with Mam. Missed the Exhibition at the Village Hall, disappointed but got an article from the Cumberland News (this is included). I haven’t spoke with anyone that went – no-one has mentioned anything to me. Disappointed I missed it and also because this is probably one of the only opportunities we will get to know anything.\n[fiance] and I both agree it is still like a big secret – no-one really allowed in and out. It doesn’t feel like local people are benefiting at all! Is it anything to do with us really?\nFriday\nChildren in Need at the pub yesterday – nice to see people taking part again – big difference to during Foot and Mouth. We just made a donation, it was a bit busy for us. £1045 raised!\nSunday\nWork at pub – still very busy the pub – at least it seems to have recovered after F&M, but from what I have heard they did suffer badly, along with the other businesses here!\n\n\nWeek beginning 18th November \t\nTuesday\nShould have been playing darts at Port Carlisle. Had a break for a week – the thing that is worrying about playing darts away is the travelling – some of the country roads round here are terrible! Is this because of the wagons? – especially near Wiggonby!\nThe road at [fiance]’s Granddad just gets worse! It’s just mud and less grass! Terrible! Is it because of damage done by wagons and a combination of all the flooding in the area now?\nSaturday\n[fiance] and I talking about how the area has changed! We remembered back to 4 years ago when we used to go to the airfield/burial site for some peace. Even though only rubble then, really enjoyed it there. We could take the dog, had first driving lesson off [fiance] - not again! Had some fun and really miss it at times. Nowhere round here anymore to get peace! Can’t even enjoy the nature reserve – very frustrating! \n\n\nWeek beginning Monday 25th November\nMonday\nKeep realising when doing diaries that haven’t had a chance to look at Cumbria Foot and Mouth disease inquiry report – will have to make time for it soon!\nSaturday\nWhen I was at pub – talking about new fence on park for children. General mood is, not very pleased as it doesn’t fit into a country village setting and nothing else done!\nSunday\nCan’t believe it is the beginning of December! Everything is passing too quick. Inevitable! \n\n31st November – Writing up after 4 weeks\nThe past 4 weeks have been very busy compared to what I am used to and at the same time have been quite frustrating in a few ways! The issues which have bothered [fiance] and I most are mainly to do with the onset of winter, which of course is inevitable but this year they seem to be worse than we can previously remember since living here in winter!\n\nThe biggest issue is the state of the roads in the village and round about, it is terrible! With the amount of rain we have had there are puddles everywhere and everything is turning to mud! The worst thing is that it is very difficult to walk or take [dog] anywhere which is frustrating. You either get absolutely filthy or when walking down the roads you have to get soaked on the sides of the roads to avoid cars and going down the lonning isn’t really an option as it is really muddy and there has been dumping. We understand most of this will be due to the weather but we are sure some of it on the roads is due to all the traffic there has been, especially at [fiance]’s Granddad's. Outside the front of his gate and garden, the grass has gradually been stripped away and has now turned to mud. In all the ears he has lived there (50 years) he has never seen it as bad!\nThe roads aren’t like this just nearby, I have noticed other roads round about are also in a bad state when I have travelled away to other nearby village pubs when playing darts.\nI was disappointed when I missed the exhibition, at the Village hall, about the Watchtree Reserve as I had to go up town, etc. I have not spoken to anyone I know that attended the exhibition, but wish there were more opportunities to learn more about it. I did find a newspaper article (enclosed) about the Watchtree. It is quite annoying that this won’t be open to the public. It is understandable why this isn't possible but then on the other hand it is not benefiting anyone really who lives nearby.\n[fiance] and I still remember back to when the airfield was still there and it was a lovely place to go walking and to relax by getting away from everything. It used to be lovely and quiet and was also so nearby. We do actually quite miss it sometimes as there is nowhere else like that round here now.\nEven though there have been quite a few negative issues this past month, it has also been encouraging when I have been working at the pub. It has been very busy when I have been there showing that it must be recovering from the effect of the Foot and Mouth crisis. It was also encouraging when there was a night held for Children in Need when they raised approx. £1045. It is good to see people involved and happy again! One thing which I did notice was that the general mood about the improvements made to the park was not very good. People were not impressed that the new fence does not look like it belongs to the country at all and that that is all that has changed. I have not had time but will go and have a look for myself!\n\n\n December 2002 – Writing up after 4 weeks\nAverage – I haven’t felt too bad over Christmas – a little tired but since I have got a bit of a cold and sore throat – not surprising at this time of year!\nAverage – I think it has been all right, haven’t been able to walk very far near village due to weather and roads – but this isn’t surprising at this time of year!\nThese past 4 weeks have been rather hectic with Christmas and everything but I have still had quite a bit to write in my diaries concerning foot and mouth.\nI received the Parish magazine for December in which there was a thank you to all involved in the Craft Fayre and there was £1 008 raised for St Giles church. It was good to be able to contribute to something in the village (well it was my Mum really, but I helped!). It is good to see these sorts of things happening here – it’s good for the village after everything!\nI also received the Watchtree Newsletter in the Parish magazine . It is still good to receive this as it updates you on everything and also had information regarding the exhibition at the village hall, which I missed.. I am glad it was a success and people attended, especially the school children who were taken!\nI also received the ‘Diarist’ which is good to read. It is interesting to see what other panel members are up to – and is surprising what things can lead to! For example the diarist and the Samson tractor!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also collected a couple of articles from the Cumberland News. The first one, ‘Lie returns to Watchtree’ actually made me feel better that we were going to get something positive out of this whole experience – but the only problem is that at some moments in time this won’t be enough for some people involved as it does not change what happened and won’t make up for what has been lost! I think it just depends on how you are feeling at the time when reading the articles. The other article , ‘Village in running for top country award’, was also quite pleasing as at least we, as a village, are being remembered and recognised for what we went through. It is surprising that now so long after the actual Foot and Mouth crisis that we are finally being recognised and so many things are now being written in the paper!\nOver the Christmas period I have only really had one thing to complain about and that is the state of the roads! After the rain, the roads have been terrible to drive on with the flooding and the road sides turning into mud! Everything is filthy! I know this is expected in winter, out in the country but since I have been here it has never been so bad, especially at [fiance]’s Grandad’s!\nOne improvement is the signs which have been put up at the passing places between here and [fiance]’s Grandad. [fiance] and I both think these are much, much better and a lot safer! We have also spotted a couple of signs from ‘Watchtree’, which have been up now for a while, but are still surprising to see!\nNow it is time to start everything again the New Year and hopefully this will be a better year for Great Orton than the past couple has been! I am glad it is going to be quiet here now for when I start my studying, as opposed to the foot and mouth when studying was very, very difficult!\n\n\nMonday 27th January – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThis week I found an article in the Daily mail which I thought was relevant. It is called ‘Boom and Doom’ and is about house prices all over England. For 2002, prices in North Yorkshire rose by 66% but in Allerdale they only rose by 8%. It did not mention why this was but some of it must be the result of the Foot and Mouth crisis and the effect on the area since then. This made me think about the effect on Great Orton and how difficult it would probably be to sell houses here, and if people would really want to move here. There are two sides however, as if more property was built in Great Orton and the surrounding area, things would probably change and Great Orton might lose some of its farming background. I definitely wouldn't want it to change too much, despite the burial site, I like it just the way it is! \nThe great thing about this week is the weather, for once! We have been able to go down the lonning with [dog] without getting filthy as it is frosty! It has been great!\n\nI can’t believe how quickly 2003 is passing! It is February already! This past month has been totally hectic with appointments; arrangement; birthdays and the Open University! It makes you realise that whatever happens, time goes on! I think this must have been very difficult for people directly involved in the Foot and Mouth crisis, as life would have had to carry on despite whatever was going on in their own lives. I think as time has gone on I have got more used to the idea of ‘Watchtree’ and accept it more now!\nI received the ‘Watchtree News’ during the previous week. It is good to hear that the restoration and creation of the site is finally complete. Overall, I don’t think it has taken as long as I thought it would for the nature reserve to be established, especially when you compare it to how long it has taken for the children’s playground to be improved! Nearly two years after the Foot and Mouth crisis! However it is better late than never!\nI am pleased at how the nature reserve sounds, with al the different species of animal which had been included or seen, especially the ‘merlin’, the smallest bird of prey, which was sited. [fiance] and I both find these things very interesting! It is good that this is happening so close to us! Last year we travelled to see the Osprey viewpoint, it was great!\nOver the past couple of weeks I have also found a few more articles. Two of these are regarding the ’20 day standstill’. With not been directly involved in the farming side of the foot and mouth crisis, I am not totally sure about all these sorts of rules, etc, but think it is good that at least things are trying to be improved for the future in case this may happen again and also as a result of learning from past events. There was also an article showing ‘Watchtree’ as a finalist for the ‘Environmental Project Award’.\nI definitely think that ‘Watchtree’ deserves to be considered for this award as so much has happened here and at least some good is going to come out of it! It would be nice to get this sort of award in recognition of the hard work of the people involved!\nI think this year will hopefully be a better one for Cumbria, and people may have confidence. Even though the Foot and Mouth crisis was a tragedy, I think Cumbria and the people in it are able to recover from it as people from the newspaper articles, seem more optimistic and this rubs off on you! I think this year will be a better one and feel more confident about the future at this point! \n\n\nMonday 24th February – Writing up after 4 weeks \nSo far these past four weeks I have not receive a ‘Watchtree newsletter’ but there was a small mention in the parish magazine about he playground. Work is underway and it is hoped to be finished by the summer. It seems to be taking a long time to get the playground sorted but at least it will be good for the kids in the summer holidays. It is better late than never!\nThere is only one thing that has bothered us over these past weeks, our fish. Whenever we change the water, the fish seem to be ill and now we have had to add more and more chemicals to reduce the amount of chlorine that seems to be in the water. We did originally start off with 13 fish and now only have 2 left. It does make you worry about the state of our water and why more chemicals are possibly being added. The fact that the burial site is so near, does make you worry if that is anything to do with it.\n\nOver the past four weeks I have been very confident about the future regarding foot and mouth. With the sun shining again and the animals about – it seems as if nothing bad has happened here. But you know that for some people involved in the crisis, the future will never be that easy or simple and I do feel sympathy for them. For me, it seems possible to be able to move on now after the crisis and it has been good to see the sheep and cows about, and [fiance] has even seen a couple of birds of prey! We are not sure what they were, but think one might have been a Merlin, which was mentioned in a previous ‘Watchtree Newsletter’ as being seen on site. The article called ‘Record tourism figures for county’ was encouraging and shows that Cumbria may be starting to recover after the Foot and Mouth crisis.\nI also found another article called ‘Fears over bovine TB time bomb’. I think this is worrying and should definitely be taken seriously, as it would be devastating to farmers and everyone in the county!\nIn the past fortnight it has also been my Mam’s birthday. She was really looking forward to spending some time out here and we went to Bowness for the afternoon with [dog]. Once again, you realise how lovely it is out here and how much it should be appreciated.\nOverall in my opinion the situation in Cumbria over the past year has definitely improved and will hopefully continue to do so!\n\n\n24th March – Writing up after 4 weeks \nThese past four weeks have been rather strange and worrying! First of all, there was the death of Simon Harris, a man from the village, who you would regularly see walking dogs and looking at the horses. Despite what most of the papers have said about him, to me he was always polite and possibly just a bit shy. I have enclosed an article about him that was in the paper shortly after his death. The headline is not very nice but the article does include some of the best comments about Simon. I was quite shocked by the whole thing and think it could definitely have been handled better by the papers. The people in the village could also have been a bit more respectful, I do not think it was their place to comment in the way that they did.\nSecondly the whole issue of war with Iraq is a worrying subject. Neither [fiance] or I agree with what is being done and how it is being carried out! It is a particularly worrying time for [fiance]’s Aunty, as her husband lives in Kuwait, with the rest of his family. She came to England, where she is originally from with her two children during the last Gulf war. She knows all too well what the danger are and what is involved!\nIt is a very worrying subject where you feel totally helpless and at the same time cannot get away from it! However, life still carries on, as harsh as it may be! I thought of this when looking at the past diaries I have written and how many have accumulated! It is strange how quickly time goes by and how people are just expected to cope and carry on. I thought, in particular, of the people worst affected by the foot and mouth crisis; how helpless they must have felt, and how they coped! Life can be a funny thing!\nLooking back, I think this project has been very worth while and think it is great that they will be archived for the future. Writing these diaries seems to have become part of my routine now, and I think it will definitely be strange when I no longer have to write them!\n\nI have found quite a few newspaper articles over the past four weeks. “Donella rebuilds the Cumberland Show” was encouraging about the future of Cumbria after the foot and mouth crisis, however there are still worrying issues arising, such as in the articles of ‘MP calls for vaccination to keep F&M under control”; and, “From Uruguay with a threat”, which highlight issues of important to the farming industry.\nI have also been very busy over the past few weeks, as my second assignment was due for my university work, which was quite hectic! I have had a break for the past couple of days as I have not been very well, a bad cough, sore throat and stomach and a stuffy nose! I haven’t done too badly over the winter months with illnesses, so I can’t really complain! Lastly our water hasn’t been of the best quality lately! On occasions it is white and fizzes, not the most appetizing!! \n\n\n21st April Writing up after 4 weeks\nThese past 4 weeks have just seem to fly by! Quite a few good things have happened and even though I am feeling quite tired, I have had a good month!\nFirstly [fiance], [dog] and I have finally go t a small space of our own! We have got an allotment about 8 miles away and it is surrounded by horses and fields. It belongs to a man who lives there and owns all the land roundabout, but unfortunately he is no longer well enough to work the land, so has let us have it! It will need a lot of work but will be good for us! So far we have got potatoes, raspberries and rhubarb growing! [dog] even helps to dig! Even though we live in the country, on our own block it is not always that easy to get any peace!\nWe have also had the opportunity to join the ‘Cumbria Wildlife Trust’. A leaflet came through our door and we thought it would be brilliant as we would be kept up-to-date with all the latest goings on in Cumbria; learn a lot more about the wildlife and also possibly get the chance to do some voluntary work! [fiance] and I are really interested and think it is great. We get sent though a certain number of magazines every year and every month we send a small donation so we feel like we are helping a little bit as well! The article which I found in one of the magazines id enclosed on the next page!\nThe other thing which has made my month is knowing that we are going to Hawkshead again! My Mam, [fiance], [dog] and I are going for a short break, just 3 nights for my birthday! We have got it all booked and are really looking forward to it! It was great last time especially for [dog]! I just hope she doesn’t get stuck under the bed in the caravan this time, as she is a bit bigger now than she was then!\nThis past week I have also been in touch with my Dad in South Africa as it was his birthday. It turns out that he may be passing through Carlisle for a couple of days at the end of next week. It would be lovely to see him again and I think he will love Great Orton and our allotment. I think he has always liked the thought of living in the country and would love to retire to somewhere nice and quiet! Things will also have improved and we have grown up a bit since he was last here, about 3 years ago! It should be good! It is funny that after living in South Africa for so long, he is still drawn to the lifestyle in Cumbria!\nLastly, I have made a note of the final meeting for the foot and mouth diaries and hope to be there! I bet it passes really quickly now and will be over before I know it! How strange! \n\n28th April – 4th May \nMonday\nGot 3 articles from Cumberland news, April 25th 2003 “Breeders hit out discrimination”, “FMD burial site celebrates new life” and my favourite “its a dog’s life for Rosie the lamb”\nTuesday\nSaw C\nFriday\nNoticed the park is coming on a bit better for the children. It was mentioned in the Orton Parish – awarded £25, 000 to reference, drain, level and re-seed. New play equipment will follow.\nSaturday\nSome of the children were allowed to attend meetings to discuss it. Good to involve children & about time too! At least children will be able to play football.\n\n\n5th – 11th May\nTuesday\nWorking really hard, have to get assignment posted off tomorrow night before we go away on Thursday. Hectic!\nWednesday\nService held at Watchtree – unable to go but think it was a very good idea. Newspaper article enclosed was written before the service.\nThursday\nAway to Hawskhead! Exciting!\nFriday\nMy birthday! Had a lovely day – went shopping in the morning, to forest in the afternoon and for a meal at night. Lovely!\nSunday\nBack from holiday already! It was lovely! Everyone was so friendly or perhaps we just noticed it more there.\n\n\n12th – 18th May\nTuesday\n[fiance] at doctors – not very well, he has got a viral infection as well as fluid behind his ears. Told to just take it easy!\nWednesday\nI have been sent info to chose courses for Open University that I would like to do next year and in the future. Am going to take the “Environmental Studies” route, hopefully leading to “Diploma in Environment and Development” and possibly further to BA/BSc in Environmental Studies. I did like archaeology but think what I am doing is a lot more relevant to the future, Foot and Mouth and Watchtree made me realise that.\nFriday\nGot Watchtree newsletter this week, I will enclose it this time as it covers quite a few areas and has a bit of information. There is information about the service held, awards that have been won and also new wildlife which are now present on the site – Lapwings, Oystercatchers and Ringed Plovers. \n\n\n19th – 25th May 2003\nTuesday\nDad has come to visit for a couple of days from South Africa. Nice surprise, enjoyed seeing him. Dad asking about FMD crisis (he saw it on TV over there) and how close it was. I think he was quite shocked!\nThursday\nI was surprised that even though South Africa is so different he would still like to live somewhere in this country. Makes you think again how lucky you are and what you take for granted!\nSaturday\nArticle from Cumberland News – May 23 – “Reward for post – foot and mouth achievements”.\n\n\n25th May – Writing up after 4 weeks\nEvery time I come to write these diaries I look back over the past four weeks and notice they are becoming more and more busy, the past couple of weeks have been no exception! It is already nearly half way through the year, I can’t believe it!\n\tOver the past 4 weeks, I have been on holiday, turned 22 and my dad had popped over from South Africa for a few days! Hectic but good! Firstly, Hawkshead was lovely again! I wouldn’t say anything different – it was great! We all had a lovely time and I had a really good birthday! When you are at home in Great Orton you forget how much is really out there in Cumbria to do and see! We definitely think we should take advantage of it more often.\n\tShortly after we arrived back from Hawkshead, my dad popped up to Carlisle for a couple of days. It was a lovely surprise and it was good to see him! He absolutely loves it where we are and thinks we are very lucky – even though South Africa is so different, he still thinks it is lovely out here, looking out onto fields. This did make me realise how lucky we are, despite what happened due to foot and mouth. Inevitably, sometimes we do take it for granted! My dad remembered watching about the foot and mouth crisis in South Africa but did not realise exactly how close it was! I think he was quite shocked!\n\tFoot and mouth has definitely made me more aware of my surroundings and how everything works. I have definitely noticed this when I have been doing my studying for Open University. I am now at the point where I can chose my courses next year and therefore which path I am going to take. I have decided to take courses leading to a Diploma in Environment and Development and if everything goes to plan for an Environmental Studies degree. I am really enjoying what I am doing at the minute, and think it is definitely useful and relevant for the future. I did enjoy studying Archaeology but think the environment and related issues are more important at the present and in the future.\n\tOn the 7th May there was a memorial service at Watchtree to mark a two year anniversary from when the last animal was buried at the site. I think this was a good idea and it is appropriate to remember the animals that were killed. I was unable to attend the service but have managed to get a newspaper article about it and it was also mentioned in the Watchtree Newsletter. I have included this newsletter in with these diaries at it contains quite a bit of information on a few different aspects, I think it is good about the wildlife which is emerging on the site.\n\tThe park or play area for children is also coming on fairly well, at last! It has finally been reseeded as well as levelled, it looks better! I have also included 4 newspaper articles from the Cumberland news, with my favourite being “Rosie the lamb”. I have put this article in as I thought it was lovely.\n\n\n22nd June 2004 – Writing up after 4 weeks \nHow strange it seems that all this is coming to an end, and really how quickly time has passed. In my situation, I would say that time has healed a few aspects of the foot and mouth crisis and things don’t seem so bad 18 months on!\nI enjoyed the foot and mouth evening and learnt a lot from it about other people’s views and experiences. I enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would and thought that the main themes found during the research were ones which I would have agreed with! One thing which was said which has made me think was the comment that these diaries would be our type of memorial. I had never once thought of this research in that sort of way, but the more I think about it, the more I agree and like the idea! It definitely has been worthwhile being able to contribute to something especially if it may be able to help in some way in the future!\nWhen compared to the article that I found in the Cumberland News about a man’s memorial to the animals that he lost during foot and mouth I definitely think ours is more fitting and will probably do some good! I understand everyone has the right to express their views in their own way but to me this was too loud and too inappropriate! However each to their own and at the end of the day at least people are trying to remember in a good way as opposed to ‘sweeping it under the carpet’!\nThe week of the foot and mouth evening we were without a car and noticed how much we relied on it and took it for granted, especially out here as there is a very limited bus service! Everything is sorted out now and we are back to normal with a newer little car! Thank you very much C for the lift there and back!\nIn general the past few months just seem to have flown by and in particular the past couple of weeks! I don’t seem to have time to fit everything in, and am trying to get my assignments done on time! It turns out to be quite a bit more difficult than I thought! It is hard work but will definitely be worth it in th end – over the past 6 months even I have learnt so much!\nThe next special occasion which is coming up is [fiance]’s birthday 21st July! We are thinking of going back to Hawkshead again for a few days! We really like it there and I’m sure will return again and again! It just shows you that you don’t need to leave Cumbria to have a good holiday!\nWell, here we are at the end! It just makes me wonder what life will be like in 18 months from now! Will things be any different? They probably will be in some ways and hopefully will be for the best!\n\n\n20th July – Writing up after 4 weeks\nIt does seem very strange to be sitting down to write my last lot of diaries. It feels good to have completed something as worthwhile as this! As well as it hopefully doing some good in the future concerning foot and mouth crisis or any other similar situation, I also find it has helped me to become a bit more confident and aware of things around me. I remember back to when I attended my first meeting and how nervous I was! I think I can handle things like that a bit better now!\nWe have just got back from holiday! We had a lovely time and did so much! We went walking with [dog] to many places and they are all free! It just shows you what a good holiday you can have in Cumbria on a cheap budget! You don’t need much else! The only disappointing thing is that some of the places [fiance] and I had been to in the past are now closed as they have been sold. This has not yet happened to Talkin Tarn and I definitely think it should be given to the Cumbria Wildlife Trust as people would still have access to it.\n[fiance] and I both agree that the countryside is recovering and it is great to be able to wander about again.\nI have collected a few more articles from the Cumberland News related to Foot and Mouth. It is good to see breeders doing well again and people getting back into the swing of things!\nI would just like to thank everyone involved for involving me in this project and I wish them all the best in the future!\n
## 6 Information about diarist\nDate of birth: 1937\nGender: M\nOccupation: Group 5\nGeographic region: North Cumbria\n\nWeek 1\nMonday 11th March 2002\nWhilst watching the local TV news at 6 p.m. there was a news item that caused us to reflect back on the events a year ago. A young lady had just left a court where she had been found guilty of assaulting a Police Officer and also being in change of an offensive weapon -–a knife. The judge had acquitted her of the offences, he showed leniency towards her. Last year during the FMD crisis she had returned to her home to find that her pet goat had been killed by slaughterers because the animal was within the 3 km radius. She had gone berserk over this and threatened the Police Officer and others with the knife. She had to be forcibly restrained, she was very distraught over this killing.\nEven after she had appeared in court and had been acquitted of all charges she showed great emotion not only being freed but also quite upset over the loss of the goat. Perhaps her actions didn’t happen to a lot of other people who had similar things happen to them. However, the loss of a lot of pet animals and in some cases, needless slaughter of many farm animals still creates unhappy memories of 2001.\n\n\nWeek 2\nTuesday\nWhilst walking the dog I met a farmer from the edge of the village who has friends and stock in close proximity to the 2 land fill sites.\nHe is still very concerned about materials on these sites. The nearest site contained hundreds of carcasses. This has been completed and capped. He is concerned about leachate from this site and feels that it doesn’t matter how much clay and soil were used to contain this site, the effects of heavy rain is bound to find a way down and also to drain it. He doesn’t want to plough these fields, nor can he sell stock that have grazed the same fields.\nThere is pyre ash being tipped on the other site. Again, what happens to the rainwater that runs off this site? Also there are concerns about the large flocks of seagulls that visit both sites daily.\nAnother concern is what is happening to the open-cast coal site that is situated almost due south of Gilgarran Village. The farmer I talked to today is concerned about this huge site. No coal has been moved from this site for months. There are concerns that this site is going to be filled with waste. Will it be from FMD sites? We, as a village, are very concerned about rumours of land fill on a huge scale. \nFriday\nNoticed that there was work being carried out on the top of the burial site. No villagers have commented on this, despite large yellow diggers operating.\nSunday\nWork continuing on the burial site. Cannot make out what kind of work is being done there\n\n\nWeek 3\nMonday\nWork is still going on at the burial site. I still don’t know what is going on, but the diggers involved are the same as when animals were being buried there. When animals were being buried there last year, the smell coming from that site was terrible to say the least! It was not coming from the dead animals as most observers thought, but from decomposing waste material that had already been buried on the site prior to FMD.\nWhen excavators dug into the soil to make trenches for the dead animals, they dug into this decomposing matter, hence the terrible smell. Despite the work that is going on there today, no comments from villagers are forthcoming. It seems to me that now that FMD has gone, the general public are not interested any more, unless they read something in the local papers written by some enterprising reporter!\n\n\nWeek 4\nTuesday\nWork is still going on in the former burial site. Villagers don’t seem to be bothered. FMD is gone, so nobody is interested any more.\nWednesday\nWhilst trying to gain comments from villagers over the effects of FMD, one or two comments from some individuals show concern about the outbreak last year, but don’t seem too concerned over any after effects, if any!\nTwo interesting comments suggest that (1) the outbreak was started deliberately by ‘this country’ in collusion with the agriculturists of the E.E.C so as to concentrate meat production in Europe and leave the UK to concentrate on arable farming; (2) The outbreak was started by a terrorist attack. The Government would not declare this because it would cause widespread panic.\nThursday 23:25 hours\nHuge fire at the site where pyre ash is being tipped. 250,000 used tyres caught fire. Arson is suspected. Fire fighters tried to contain the blaze, but couldn’t use large amounts of water in case water courses became contaminated.\nFriday 05:00\nFire still blazing at the pyre ash site. Later in the morning the fire was showing signs of dying down, apparently it was left to burn itself out. Much heavy smoke pollution was evident, drifting south west for about nine miles.\nReading the local evening paper about the blaze, there was also a report that villagers from Disington (1¾ miles from Gilgarran) were complaining of the foul smell from both waste sites. Parish councillors are very concerned about this. Does it coincide with work currently being carried out on the burial site?\nThe smell from these sites plus the fact that animals were buried on one site and pyre ash plus the huge fire from the other site all happening this week is causing concern in this area. But once this ‘hue and cry’ dies down, people will soon forget about it all.\n\n\nWeek 5\nMonday through to Friday, observed work on top of the burial site. Don’t know if any work is still going on on the northern and western sides. \nFriday\nLocal weekly paper carried the report on the recent large fire that occurred on the Alco site last week when 250,000 tyres caught fire somehow. It was intersting to read that the fire brigade did not use any water to extinguish the blaze in case pollution occurred in water courses. The fire was left to burn itself out.\nSaturday\nBurial site – it looks like there is new soil being tipped on top for some reason. No reported comments froim the Parish Council over this, despite very vociferous objections by them over the use of this and the Alco site in the past. \nSunday\nTalked to our local County Councillor (who lives in this village). He feels very strongly that these two sites are dangerous. He thinks that both sites are a health hazard risk due to obnoxious odours and in particular, the large fire that occurred last week which produced a lot of polluted smoke for a distance of six miles. Some people reckoned that the smell of burning tyres could be smelt here in Gilgarran. There have been numerous fires on these sites over the last few years. These fires give rise to compaliant by people like us, but more so from the nearer village of Distington (1¾ miles west of here). The councillor suggests that there could be more incidents of cancer cases in this area in coming years along with respiratory troubles as well as some cases of bronchitis related problems. He himself has recently suddenly started sinusitis, which he hasn’t had before. All in all, he wasn’t happy about the situation on both sites. We don’t know what is being tipped there, all we can do as a community is accept what we are being told by the site owners. As previously stated, animal carcasses were being tipped and buried for about three days before we were told officially that this was so.\nIncidentally, the site where animals are buried is owned by Cumbria County Council. This seems to be totally against the advice of County Council officials who look after the environment and the health of the population. As I’ve written before, there are going to be bigger concerns if the opencast coal site to the south of the village becomes a landfill site for refuse from parts of the county fifty miles away. At the moment there are no suggestions that anything from the FMD outbreak will be dumped there. Having said that, however, we as villagers didn’t know of carcasses being buried or pyre ash being tipped until after it had happened. We await the outcome of this coal site with some trepidation, after all, no coal has come from this site for some months. It has all the indication of becoming a land fill site.\n\n\nWeek 6\nMonday to Wednesday, if work is still ongoing at the burial site it is not visible from our side of the site. I still don’t know what is going on there. It may all be innocent and an improvement to the environment, after all, this is what the site owners have to do.\nThursday\nA delegation of MEPs visit the north of the county. They have come to assess the situation for themselves and to report back to the European Parliament. No doubt they will also report back to their own constituents in their own countries. The delegation visit the auction mart at Longtown where the disease was first noticed in this country and also visited the big burial site at Great Orton where it was estimated that half a million carcasses were buried. Good coverage by the local press, radio and T.V. gave anyone interested the views of the delegation.\nThursday – Saturday\nThe MEP delegation agreed that the FMD situation had been disastrous (we all know that!). Comments from some tourist and agriculture observers ranged from a ‘waste of time’ to ‘at least some politicians have bothered to visit us, our own couldn’t do that’ Personally, I think that some good came out of this, particularly when it was reported that the Dutch had used vaccination techniques when they had a small outbreak.\nMany people think that the British Government should have had a public inquiry into the outbreak. What have they to hide? Cumbria is holding its own inquiry – quite rightly so, other organisations such as Lancaster University are holding research into the outbreak. Why not the Government? Eventually we will know why, perhaps not in my lifetime though. The minister and MAFF have a lot to answer for.\n\n\nWeek 7\nThought it would be of interest to include copies of the newsletter that the local authorities issued to every household in the area regarding the disposal of carcasses and effluent. It will be of note that there was a fire last year on the Alco site, also involving tyres. Very similar to last years only not as big. A report on local T.V. today stated that the recent visit of MEPs to the area considered that vaccination should have been used at the outset and be should seriously considered should a future outbreak occur. Heard of reports of an outbreak of T.B. in cattle in other parts of the country. This was reported to be more serious than FMD should a major outbreak occur. This would lead to the question of disposal should the need arise. As I’ve already reported in previous entries, the use of the opencast coal site to the south-east of here is causing concern in some quarters. Although the site didn’t feature in the FMD crisis, there is a feeling that it is being earmarked for use in the future should the need arise or even the rumour of an incinerator is planned for there. The general feeling here and in the surrounding area is that we have had enough dumping of carcasses, effluent, toxic chemicals etc. It could be that the authorities have seen that the sites concerned have handled those substances before, that an extension of disposal sites in this area would be effective.\n\n\nWeek 8\nNothing of any significance to report this week.\n\n\nWeek 9\nNow that Cumbria’s FMD inquiry has started, a lot of people I have met this week recall the happenings of a year ago. Even more interesting is the coverage in the local press and T.V. Plenty of publicity by the media shows how little the Government an MAFF in particular let the farming and tourism industries of the county down. There has been plenty of distressing stories by farmers not only of infected animals being slaughtered but also the slaughtering of healthy animals in the 3 km circle of an outbreak. One particularly distressing point of evidence was when a farmer described to the panel the birth of a calf five days after it’s mother had been shot! We at the time of the outbreak were hearing these stories on a daily basis and still MAFF and Mr. Brown kept telling us that the outbreak was ‘under control’. All I can say at this point is may heaven help us when it all happens again.\n\n\nWeek 10\nWork is still going on at the burial site. It looks like new soil is being dumped on top of the actual site and ‘dozed’ to level it of and to smooth it out on the side. All we can do is accept that the management of the site are making it better for all concerned and that they are as concerned as we are. The much publicised Cumbrian FMD inquiry team visited the land fill site. They met local councillors who expressed their concern over this site and the Alco site. No other report was forthcoming from the team. The inquiry team finish their evidence gathering this week. One very important statement was made that the Minister of the Environment should make a statement over this outbreak and should even make a visit to these sites county-wide. There has been total silence from Mrs Beckett’s department over this request. The same silence is observed from any government source for that matter. Everyone asks the same questions, what have they got to hide? Why aren’t they interested? What plans are being made? And what lessons have been learned from last years outbreak? A lot of farms are restocking and in this neighbourhood, farm work is going on as before, or so it looks. As time goes on though, there seems to be a smouldering anger that no-one in authority is as concerned as well are.\n\n\nWeek 11\nWork is still on going at the burial site. No comments heard from any of the villagers or neighbours this week.\n\n\nDiary 12\nMonday, from my own observation work is still ongoing at the burial site. More heavy plant has been moved on to the top of the giant amount and it looks as though more topsoil is being laid over the Mount. Perhaps to improve the site, but water may still permeate into and through the site. We can only believe the operators that this is a right thing to do.\nFriday, talked to 2 it villagers about the after-effects of FMD. One said oh it's all over now and forgotten about it doesn't bother me one bit. The other said it all in the past we just have to forget about it. It seems that life is returning to normal in all aspects of village life, people don't think about last year unless the diarist mentions that. \n\nSunday, a bad day or weather wise. This prolonged rain may halt work on the burial site. Most people are reluctant to talk about F M D now, even if it was one of the worst economic and social disasters to hit this country and this County in particular. Now that it is over, people's memories begin to fade. However, some of us are not happy at having these two disposal sites within a 1000 metres of this village. FMD may be over but these burial sites are here for a long time yet.\n\n\nDiary 13\nObserved in work on burial site. More heavy machinery and plant moved in and large quantities of soil are being laid down and smoothed out.\n\n\nDiary 14\nTalked to some religious today about the after-effects of FMD. Without exception, they are not interested! It's all over with an idle one to be reminded about it are the general comments. Nobody seems bothered that there are hundreds of animals buried a 1000 yards from his village or the fact that there is leachate and pyre ash buried in another site. Looking at the burial site and the work that is going on there, it does look as though the management there are doing everything to make the site safe.\n\n\nDiary 15\nI met a smallholder today to whom I have talked to in the past about the effects and after-effects of FMD. He still not happy about the burial site despite the landscaping and smoothing off of the large quantities of topsoil, only time will tell he says. He does not have any stock near to the site but he has sheep on the farmer's land. Since FMD finished though his stock movements are still restricted by new legislation that has come in since the area was declared free. For instance, or if he takes a sheep to auction, he asked to have nine pieces of paper for this transaction. If the price is not right and he has to take the she back to his land he was put them back in the same field that they came from and it cannot move them to three weeks. He then has to obtain a licence to do this. He does think that the authorities are not going to be as strict shortly. This is just one of the precautions that have come in to try and combat any recurrence of FMD.\n\n\nDiary 16\nI met the smallholder who rents land a from the farmer in the village. His income from the sheep that he a breeds has been nil, like many more people in similar circumstances. Fortunately for him had he has an income from another source. The subject of compensation came up during our conversation. I personally do not have any comment to make about this item as it maybe just a rumour, apparently he got it bee in his bonnet about compensation paid out to people who were not in the agricultural business. What seemed to upset him was that he had heard that some of fish and chip shop owner in the Lake District had been paid £170 per month compensation for the loss of trade. He didn't mind too much that hoteliers and guest house owners had claimed compensation, but wondered where else would this kind of money go when he himself had been paid nothing. This is the first time I've heard this one!\n\n\nDiary 17\nAttended the Cumberland Show at every to be park Carlisle. We, as a family used to attend this annual show regularly, both as spectators and competitors. We have never seen the show like the one put on this year, when will things really get back to normal? Many of us think that agriculture is back to pre-FMD. Cattle and sheep on grazing in the fields, lambing has reached new heights in produce on some farms. Calves are being born, silage and haymaking is progressing when the weather permits. But there are still restrictions on animal movements. Hence, no sheep cattle or pigs at this year's show only horses, poultry, dogs and rabbits. Not many pieces of agricultural machinery onshore either. Plenty of Chartered Accountants tents, craft tents, Horse feeds and tack, displays in the main arena and bands. Not an agricultural show as we knew it. It seems to be the same at other shows, Ennerdale show is one of our local shows. This year there isn't going to be any horses or sheep. Generally there are no cattle shown at the show, but without sheep (hill farmers dominate the show) the there isn't going to be much on show at all. It was always a good show for equestrian events at many levels. This show was always a must for our family. I don't think that we will be going this year.\n\n\nDiary 18\nFrom the golf course and golf driving range I can look out on to the western side of the burial site. I have written in previous weeks about the work there has been going on at this site. Viewing the site are from our village side, would hardly know what that there ever was a burial site. Hundreds of tons of topsoil had been laid and smoothed out to make more-or-less like a landscaped feature. It looks really good. From the western side though, things are little different. Work is still going on there, large amounts of soil have been tipped and levelled off. There are still Portakabins there and heavy plant can still be seen moving about. No doubt the western side well look as good as the eastern side before long.\n\n\nDiary 19\nIt is announced that the Prime Minister and his wife and son of his family at a visit to Cumbria. The PM arrives in West Cumbria, all kinds of reports are written in the local and national press about what he is going to do or not do or what he should be doing. After all, he is on holiday. The PM did meet some farmers' leaders, the press as usual stirred things up or as to where he should be meeting. Tourism officials say that the trip was fantastic for tourism in the county. Or person they I can't see what difference it made. If people want to come Cumbria, they will come irrespective of whether the PM comes or not.\n\n\nDiary 20\nAfter a lot of protests it looks as though it the 20 day restriction on cattle Movement will be lifted. Perhaps this will now mean that they could be cattle and sheep entries at local agricultural shows. Some shows are going ahead with very limited entries of livestock and some with no animal entries at all. These shows have always been very popular with my family for over 20 years. Also, living with in a farming community makes us feel part of the annual agricultural scene.\n\n\nDiary 21\nI’ve written before regarding agricultural shows and the pride in which local people take in these shows. Although a lot of shows have gone ahead this season, they have had a reduced animal showing or in some cases no animals at all. Today I’ve heard that one show has been cancelled altogether. This particular show is one of the most popular in the area. Maybe because of lack of entries or the organisers just wanted to cancel because of the 3 week restriction on animal movement. I don’t know. Perhaps it would be better to cancel them than have a depleted show.\n\n\nDiary 22\nSpent a few hours in the fells today. It was good to be able to wander the familiar paths and let our dog run free. It was a good boost to our moral and perhaps the dog’s too! We all missed being able to do this last year.\n\n\nDiary 23\nLast Bank Holiday before Xmas and the last before the schools go back. At the golf course where I help out part-time during the summer we had lots of customers. A lot of them commented on how enjoyable it was to be on holiday in this area this year, compared to the restrictions that were in place last year. Maybe the holiday establishments are getting back to normal. There are no restrictions put on them like there is in place now with farmers and agriculture.\n\n\nDiary 26\nSorting through the mail left whilst away on holiday and I came across a notice sent by the village committee notifying a Harvest Thanksgiving festival to be held next month in the village hall. As we have no church in the village, it is being held in some farm buildings in the centre of the village. This will be a splendid event. The farm did not have FMD but couldn’t take animals from one field to another and couldn’t market them. When we consider the gloom that settled on this farm and community, it is very welcome to have this unique event here in the heart of the village and the farmer and his wife will be at the centre of events. A lovely gesture and I hope it will be well supported. There will be a distribution of harvest gifts afterwards, what a change from a year ago!\n\n\nDiary 27\nWith the aid of binoculars I have been able to have a closer look at the burial site from a westerly direction. There are vents in the shape of small towers to extract gas from the site. There are pipes connecting these vents. A lot of work is still going on there. However, all this takes place in the Western side which is the opposite side to where my village is situated. From our side there is nothing to suggest the amount of work going on. Because of this, FMD is pushed further into the backs of villager’s minds. It is something in the past. It has happened, so what? People like myself who talk to farmers and agriculturalists do not easily forget these events. Personally I am still concerned about the burial site. When inquiries are made about it, all we can do is accept what we are told. It does not look as though every precaution is being taken to alleviate an odours or contamination. \n\n\nDiary 28\nI had to see the village farmer on another matter and was asked inside for coffee and a chat. He was able to tell me of the full implications of the ’20 day rule’. He accepts that this is a precaution to prevent another outbreak of FMD, but there is a lot of work involved. He told me of an isolation area that he has created and also the fencing arrangements where his land adjoins the neighbours land. I would say that 95% of the public don’t know about this even if they have heard of the 20 day rule. For him (he owns the largest farm in the area) it is bad enough having to do all the physical work as regards fencing, etc. But for anyone such as a small holder, it must be a nightmare if he has to bring animals back from market that haven’t been sold. \nFriday, my wife and I played a round of golf at Aspatria. This course was badly restricted when FMD hit this area. We were reminded that there are restrictions on adjoining land. There were notices asking people who hit balls onto farm land not to cross the fence to retrieve them because of FMD precautions. This was news to us. It does make sense though. The farmer wouldn’t know where players had been walking prior to playing golf. \n\n\nDiary 29\nAttended the Harvest Festival held in the village farm, a large cattle shed had been cleaned and decorated for this event, chairs had been brought in, fruit and vegetables were on display for auctioning at the end. The place was packed! A lot of money was raised and it was a very happy event, well supported and a big boost for the farm and the village.\nI don’t think that the general public care much about FMD now that is has been a year since the last case was confirmed in Cumbria. The public may be reminded if they read the local newspapers intently, for instance, there was a letter to the editor published recently which referred to the results of the Cumbria Inquiry into FMD. It may have been a farmer who wrote it, I don’t know, but the writer certainly went to town in the scathing comments on the handling of FMD. Even caustic remarks regarding the efforts since FMD of DEFRA and Mrs Beckett. I certainly wouldn’t like to cross the writer, I also think the farming community must be holding it’s breath in case the present restrictions such as they are, prove to be worthless. Then we will all suffer, again!\n\n\nWeek 30\nWhat a difference a year makes! Despite some restrictions on public access to agricultural fields in some areas of the county, it doesn’t apply here. Although most locals confine themselves to footpaths and bridleways, other people seem to think that all fields are recreation areas. They walk and run across some of the fields in close proximity to the village. Regardless of the presence of stock they exercise dogs and treat it as a some kind of park. One farmer is well know for being aggressive, he used last year’s FMD outbreak to run people off his land.\nI met a local councillor who expressed concerns regarding the proposed building of an incinerator to the south of the village on the current open cast mining site. The two waste disposal sites to the west and north-west of the village have become big issues in the last 18 months due to the burial of animals and the disposal of pyre ash and leachates. It seems as though we are going to get over this ghastly FMD outbreak only to have this scenario thrust upon us.\n\n\nWeek 31\nMet a small-holder who keeps sheep near to this village. He was very scathing over the report that the Government and DEFRA don’t want to talk up an offer from the Local Authorities here to implement findings and recommendations from their local inquiry over FMD. Why? What has this Government, who didn’t perform very well during the outbreak, got to hide and why shirk away from the findings instead of facing up to the failings that we all know about. It also seems that they don’t want to make any safeguards and recommendations to avoid a further outbreak. As a non-agriculturalist, it doesn’t surprise me in the least. After all, Government has failed other industries in the country for as long as I can remember.\n\n\nWeek 32\nI am convinced that authorities in the area must think that the way animals were buried here and pyre ash and leachate were disposed of at another site nearby was all done as very successfully and that the two sites handled everything professionally. Therefore the sites would be more than capable of handling ash from an incinerator. To me, this is the legacy of FMD. I am most annoyed over this, together with a lot more of the villagers. This village no longer has a representative on the parish council, both have resigned for whatever reason and no-one will step forward to take it one. I have said that I would take a set on the parish council to represent the village and fight for our rights and future quality of life. Due to this, I have uncovered a pile of claims and counter-claims. It seems that both parish and district counsellors know what is going on (regarding the incinerator) and that developers have made ‘concessions’ to some councillors. Also there are claims that the developers have offered money to local landowners and farmers so that roads can be put in. All these accusations have been strongly denied. At the same time it is rumoured that some farmers have been offered local fields nearby. Because of what I have discovered in my own investigations, it would seem that a lot of friendships gained over 20 years could come to an end, I am fearful of what I have uncovered. There are also claims that ‘councillors are only in it for what there can get out and are not to be trusted.’ I don’t want that said of me. Also by the time all this is sorted out, I will be 70-75, I certainly don’t want to be fighting peoples battles at that age. However, I will support any effort to stop the proposed development. \n\n\nWeek 33\nOnce again the large farm in the centre of the village was the venue for the annual Guy Fawkes bonfire and fireworks. Organisers had been round the village asking for donations to provide fireworks. A tractor and trailer toured the areas picking up things for the bonfire. Drinks and food were served in a barn after the fireworks. This is another occasion when villagers and the farming community come together. It is perhaps the only time that the general public of the village think about FMD and last years events, if only briefly. The farmer remarked that is the third time this year that there has been a public function on his farm. The first was the jubilee party in June, then on October 6th the Harvest Festival service. These events keep farming in the public eye.\n\n\nWeek 34\nI haven’t written before about the proposed building of an incinerator nearby to burn the counties waste. If , as we all suspect, the incinerator is built, then the odours plus the disposal of ash (to the FMD waste site) is a legacy of FMD, particularly regarding the nearby burial and disposal site.\n\n\nWeek 35\nThis is week 35 of this project and for most of the 35 weeks I have written that I am not confident of the future. There are numerous reasons for this. Mainly the situation in the Middle East. Today I travelled to Keswick to do some Xmas shopping. I was given a lift there by a neighbour who is in his 30s. He was very upset about the terrorist situation, not only was he concerned about the terror threat to the London Underground, but the threat closer to home as regards a plane crashing into the nearby Sellafield complex. We don’t know the effect that this constant bad news has on people. People who have already got serious worries, e.g., families, housing, finance, etc must feel really depressed about it all.\n\n\nWeek 36\nNear to the next village is a long established farm of many acres. Recently the farm’s stock of animals and machinery was sold off. The owner, who had farmed for sixty years was leaving to live with one of his brothers. He said that he wouldn’t know how he would feel when he left the farm for the last time this weekend. The farmhouse hasn’t been sold yet and now stands empty. It’s a strange place now, where everything was hustle and bustle (they even had a B & B business there) is now derelict and bare. It’s a sad reflection on the agricultural business in the wake of FMD. This farm isn’t the only one in the area that has sold up. Some farm houses remain as dwellings, but this particular one which we saw nearly every day is just an other sad reminder of the way farming has declined in this rural area.\n\n\nWeek 39\nTuesday. Boarded the train at Penrith to journey to Crewe to see our daughter. During the journey I got into conversation with a fellow passenger. He noticed I had got on the train at Penrith and perhaps thought I was connected with the agricultural industry. The conversation drifted into the previous years FMD outbreak. It is rather strange, that I live in a very rural area, and , FMD is rarely mentioned now. However, this fellow passenger (although not from an agricultural background) gave his views on the handling of the situation. It was no different from the views expressed by locals at the time of the crisis. It just goes to show that FMD is very much in peoples minds even if they were not connected to agriculture in any way.\n\n\nWeek 40\nFriday. Now that the MEP have published their critical report on the FMD crisis, it is interesting to read an article published in our local weekly paper, from a reader … (Article entitled ‘Foot and Mouth Report’ included). \nI don’t have the knowledge or the data to support this readers comments. However, I have heard plenty of stories from mainly unreliable sources, to confirm what he says. It makes interesting reading I think.\n\n\nWeek 41\nTuesday. No wonder my confidence in the future has taken a big plunge over the last few months. The situation in Iraq doesn’t get any better. Mr Tony Blair’s message to the Armed Forces of the UK bear this out. Being an ex-serviceman, I know what the situation holds for our troops. But, are we right to follow the USA in a war against Iraq? No doubt Saddam Hussein does pose a threat but so does India and Pakistan to each other. Each of these two relatively poor countries has threatened each other as regards their nuclear arsenals. Now, the loose cannon in the form of North Korea is positioning itself as regards its position in the nuclear arms league. Personally, I think that North Korea poses a more dangerous threat than Iraq. It is not a very happy New Year for a lot of people. Perhaps it will all be settled diplomatically. I wonder.\n\n\nWeek 42\nNothing of any importance to write about due to refurbishment at home.\n\n\nWeek 43\nMonday. One of the items on the agenda for this months meeting of Distington Parish Council is a report on the wood-felling and the implications of this. As I have written in the diary before, there are strong rumours of the proposed plan to fell woods, build a new road through the felled site and bring coal from the nearby opencast site to link up with an existing road, then, to transport the coal to a storage area on Workington Dock. Then, when the coal is worked out, to build an incinerator on the coal site. Ash from this development would then be transported on the ‘new’ road to be disposed of on the waste disposal site that was used for FMD pyre ash and leachate.\nThursday. Read a report of the aforesaid meeting. The owners have declared that our worries are groundless. In fact, they say that they plan to eventually open the woodland to the public (the owners of the woodland are the same operators of the opencast coal site). Footpaths will be created if a grant can be obtained. A wooden wheeled ancient water mill will be restored. After the closed meeting the operations director of the site said that ‘There has been a misunderstanding. What we are doing will benefit local people’. He said that a management project for the wood is being followed involving felling dead trees and fresh planting. He added: “The felling and replanting will be done this year after which it will take time to become established. We’re talking of a ten year programme but it should have long-term benefits. I think our PR at the start of this wasn’t very good and in the future we will let the council know of our plans”. The council agreed to keep a watch on the work here in G.\nThis statement differs greatly from what some of us have been told by our village-based County Councillor. There has never been any suggestion that the felled woods would become a land fill site, but would be felled to provide the new road. There was nothing mentioned at the meeting regarding the proposed incinerator being built. The County Council … that this has ever been planned. However, our representative is adamant that this is not so.\n\n\nWeek 44\nTuesday. For the first time, my property has finally overcome a situation that was affected by FMD. \nIn July 2000, the electricity supplier notified me to say that the trees in my garden had grown so tall that the topmost branches were in close contact with an eleven thousand volt overhead power line and that they should be felled or severely pruned. After some further negotiations it was decided to prune to some height that I wasn’t happy with. Although the treetops were not actually touching the wires, it was considered a risk in the forthcoming months. However, as time passed I couldn’t wait for the foresters to arrive, so I pruned the trees myself.\nIn January 2001, the electric supplier suggested that the trees should be pruned further. A date was agreed but the foresters didn’t arrive. Time dragged on and the trees grew back to their original height. Again, the electric supplier suggested they be pruned or felled. A new date was agreed upon. However, the foresters couldn’t do the job because the isolator switch was on farmland and they couldn’t get access to it because of FMD restrictions. And so it dragged on! Despite visits by foresters and electric supplier reps. the trees got bigger and I was forbidden to touch them. Neighbours could hear crackling noises coming from the wires and it became very worrying. People suggested that I should ‘do something about it’. I took the matter up directly with the supplier and the foresters. I was promised dates only for them to be cancelled. In December 2002, a date of 21st January 2003 was given. This time, they came and we agreed that two trees be felled and another pruned. After 30 months it finally happened. \nThursday. Met a small holder who has his land on the edge of this village, who told me that the 20 day rule of animal restriction of animal movement was being lifted and replaced by a 6 day restriction. This was good news for him and any other farmer. Later that day I met another farmer who didn’t know that the restriction was being lifted. You would have thought that I had told him he’d won the lottery! Good news all round for the people.\nFriday. Listening to the local radio today and was surprised to hear a report that the Citizens Advice Bureau in a small Lakeland town had been receiving clients who were still experiencing hardship due to FMD. It is now 18 months since the last outbreak and the effects (according to the person being interviewed) were still being felt. Not just by farmers and agriculturists, but by guest houses, hotels, tradesmen and in particular, some self employed. Debt seems to be the biggest problem. It seems as though some people had weathered the hardships of FMD initially only to find that their plans had come adrift somehow afterwards. Quite disturbing to hear that the situation is still with us in this county to some degree. \n\n\nWeek 45\nThese diaries were instituted to deal with the after effects of FMD. Although there were no cases of FMD in this village, everyone knew about it, particularly as nearly everyone who went to work from here would pass the main farm in the village centre, or, some of the farms on the outskirts of the village.\nNow that FMD is over, most people who live here don’t seem to think about it anymore. The only people affected are the farmers, naturally.\nThis is a strange village in lots of ways. Only the farmer and his immediate family are connected with agriculture. The rest are professional people or people who work at nearby Sellafield, industries in Workington and Whitehaven, or are retired. There is no church, no village pub, no village shop, no village community centre or meeting place. Only tradesmen that call are the milkman and the solid fuel merchant. We are left to ‘get on with life’ in our own way. The parish of Distington to which we belong have all the facilities associated with a larger community, such as a church, pub and community centre. All of which are two miles away. Consequently, the Parish Council meets there once a month and discusses all the problems of the area including ours. However, our representative on the council has resigned and no-one has come forward to represent us. Anything that has been discussed at the Parish Council is reported in he local newspaper. \nVillage pubs are a good venue to discuss local issues and to exchange views and, mainly, to gossip. Village ‘tittle tattle’ as I call it! As we have no pub, the gossip is rife from one source or another with bits added on or left out as is the choice of the person concerned. Quite a lot of people one meets are ‘experts’ in their own particular choice of subject whether it is politics, finance or Mrs Jones current boy friend. It is a fault to take on board all that is gossiped about when one meets a fellow villager in the country lanes whilst out walking the dog.\n\n \nWeek 46\nIllness to a family member.\n\n\nWeek 47\nContinued illness.\n\n\nWeek 48\nOver the past few weeks there has been a lot of tree felling in the nearby woods. This has led to a lot of disturbance to the villagers because of the use of large vehicles needed to remove the felled timber and also the foresters vehicles churning up the grass verges and the ditches.\nA lot of concern was raised about the necessity of all the tree felling. These concerns were raised in the press and also in the parish council. (I have written about these in diaries in the last few weeks).\nIt was reported in mid-January that all the felled woods would be replanted this year, with footpaths created for the enjoyment of the local population. Now, all timber operations have ceased. Large areas of woodland have been left partly felled and a lot of felled timber is left lying about. Foresters vehicles have gone and nothing is happening. Despite assurances from the developers, it looks as though something drastic has happened. Village ‘tittle tattle’ says that the foresters have not been paid for their work so far and that the developers have run out of money. If this is so, what is going to happen now?\nWhen felling started late last year, I contacted two environmental agencies regarding the threat to the red squirrels, badgers and buzzards that occupy these woods. I was told that it was only a partial felling and they (the environmental agencies) were satisfied that any disturbances would be slight. I think that they were told this by the developers, and accepted what they were told without a site visit. The developers have been known to mislead groups in the past, including landowners, farmers, councils and individuals.\nI, personally am not happy about this situation. I have always took a keen interest in wildlife and feel that we have been let down by the lies of developers and the lack of serious interest from wildlife agencies, some of which are an offshoot of central Government. I for one will keep a close look on the situation with or without other villagers and in particular, local councillors.\n\n\nWeek 49\nBy chance I met three small holders all at the same time. They were discussing farming by the roadside. All of them were pleased that the 20-day ruling was coming to an end and that their lives were more or less coming back to normal. They also expressed the opinion that the 20-day rule and the 6-day rule were only in force to protect their interests. However, they were unanimous in their condemnation over the importing of foreign meat and meat products into this country. They feel that foreign meat is not subjected to enough checks before entry into the United Kingdom.\n\n\nWeek 51\nMet a farmer today who told me that he’d seen a report based on findings by the EU and DEFRA. It stated all the things that everyone who is an agriculturalist and those who take an interest in the countryside had been saying about what was wrong with the handlers of the FMD outbreak. It just proves that it doesn’t take an academic genius to know what should have been done at the time. Everyone can be wiser after the event, but statements by the NFU and individuals at the onset were not heeded. For example, the movement of animals should have been halted sooner and the Army should have been brought in much sooner. Now, the question of vaccination rumbles on. Should we or shouldn’t we vaccinate? There is a fear of the outbreak again, particularly when the findings of the 1960 outbreak were not implemented. \nSince the sadness of FMD, there has been quite a few instances of socialising at the farm, such as harvest festival, jubilee party and almost any excuse for a ‘shindig’, good to see farmers enjoying themselves.\n\nWeek 52\nMet out local farmer who told me that there is to be new legislation to dispose of fallen stock. No longer can a farmer bury fallen stock on his land, but must now provide an incinerator to dispose of dead animals. This must be a costly business, could dead animals not be taken to a central point and burned?\n\n\nWeek 54\nOne thing about FMD was the effect that it had on the poaching fraternity. Living in a rural area, we expect this to happen. Nobody seems to mind that a few rabbits and pheasants go missing. What is really alarming is the use of dogs and high-powered rifles to poach deer. FMD put a stop to all this. Now a neighbour has told me of poachers near to the village using rifles and shooting deer. The only people benefiting from this are the poachers and hoteliers who receive these dead beasts and no questions asked. Also the danger of villagers being hit by stray rifle shots causes alarm to others.\n\n\nWeek 55\nI think that there is a lot of jumping on the band wagon now that FMD has cleared up. For instance, I listened to an interview on the local radio station given by a hotelier. Things weren’t going well in his establishment. Having got over FMD and its implications, visitors were slowly returning to the area, but not in sufficient numbers to cause great joy. \n
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## 1 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1975, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, thursday, meeting, n, lakes, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, usual, chat, and, defra, comments, the, meeting, research, panel, gp, 6, at, the, north, lakes, was, interesting, it, surprises, me, sometimes, how, people, myself, included, never, seem, to, tire, of, the, same, stories, and, complaints, over, how, the, crisis, was, handled, some, of, the, episodes, recounted, must, have, been, told, dozens, of, times, over, the, last, year, but, whoever, says, it, always, seems, just, as, keen, to, say, it, again, perhaps, a, reflection, of, how, deeply, people, feel, about, the, events, of, the, last, year, having, said, that, most, of, the, resentments, and, rants, that, i, hear, on, daily, farm, visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
## 2 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
## 3 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, to, gather, them, a, time, to, embrace, and, a, time, to, refrain, a, time, to, search, and, a, time, to, give, up, a, time, to, keep, and, a, time, to, throw, away, a, time, to, tear, and, a, time, to, mend, a, time, to, be, silent, and, a, time, to, speak, a, time, to, love, and, a, time, to, hate, a, time, for, war, and, a, time, for, peace]
## 5 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1981, gender, f, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
## 6 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1937, gender, m, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, 1, monday, 11th, march, 2002, whilst, watching, the, local, tv, news, at, 6, p.m, there, was, a, news, item, that, caused, us, to, reflect, back, on, the, events, a, year, ago, a, young, lady, had, just, left, a, court, where, she, had, been, found, guilty, of, assaulting, a, police, officer, and, also, being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can't, see, what, difference, it, made, if, people, want, to, come, cumbria, they, will, come, irrespective, of, whether, the, pm, comes, or, not, diary, 20, after, a, lot, of, protests, it, looks, as, though, it, the, 20, day, restriction, on, cattle, movement, will, be, lifted, perhaps, this, will, now, mean, that, they, could, be, cattle, and, sheep, entries, at, local, agricultural, shows, some, shows, are, going, ahead, with, very, limited, entries, of, livestock, and, some, with, no, animal, entries, at, all, these, shows, have, always, been, very, popular, with, my, family, for, over, 20, years, also, living, with, in, a, farming, community, makes, us, feel, part, of, the, annual, agricultural, scene, diary, 21, i’ve, written, before, regarding, agricultural, shows, and, the, pride, in, which, local, people, take, in, these, shows, although, a, lot, of, shows, have, gone, ahead, this, season, they, have, had, a, reduced, animal, showing, or, in, some, cases, no, animals, at, all, today, i’ve, heard, that, one, show, has, been, cancelled, altogether, this, particular, show, is, one, of, the, most, popular, in, the, area, maybe, because, of, lack, of, entries, or, the, organisers, just, wanted, to, cancel, because, of, the, 3, week, restriction, on, animal, movement, i, don’t, know, perhaps, it, would, be, better, to, cancel, them, than, have, a, depleted, show, diary, 22, spent, a, few, hours, in, the, fells, today, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, wander, the, familiar, paths, and, let, our, dog, run, free, it, was, a, good, boost, to, our, moral, and, perhaps, the, dog’s, too, we, all, missed, being, able, to, do, this, last, year, diary, 23, last, bank, holiday, before, xmas, and, the, last, before, the, schools, go, back, at, the, golf, course, where, i, help, out, part, time, during, the, summer, we, had, lots, of, customers, a, lot, of, them, commented, on, how, enjoyable, it, was, to, be, on, holiday, in, this, area, this, year, compared, to, the, restrictions, that, were, in, place, last, year, maybe, the, holiday, establishments, are, getting, back, to, normal, there, are, no, restrictions, put, on, them, like, there, is, in, place, now, with, farmers, and, agriculture, diary, 26, sorting, through, the, mail, left, whilst, away, on, holiday, and, i, came, across, a, notice, sent, by, the, village, committee, notifying, a, harvest, thanksgiving, festival, to, be, held, next, month, in, the, village, hall, as, we, have, no, church, in, the, village, it, is, being, held, in, some, farm, buildings, in, the, centre, of, the, village, this, will, be, a, splendid, event, the, farm, did, not, have, fmd, but, couldn’t, take, animals, from, one, field, to, another, and, couldn’t, market, them, when, we, consider, the, gloom, that, settled, on, this, farm, and, community, it, is, very, welcome, to, have, this, unique, event, here, in, the, heart, of, the, village, and, the, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, at, the, centre, of, events, a, lovely, gesture, and, i, hope, it, will, be, well, supported, there, will, be, a, distribution, of, harvest, gifts, afterwards, what, a, change, from, a, year, ago, diary, 27, with, the, aid, of, binoculars, i, have, been, able, to, have, a, closer, look, at, the, burial, site, from, a, westerly, direction, there, are, vents, in, the, shape, of, small, towers, to, extract, gas, from, the, site, there, are, pipes, connecting, these, vents, a, lot, of, work, is, still, going, on, there, however, all, this, takes, place, in, the, western, side, which, is, the, opposite, side, to, where, my, village, is, situated, from, our, side, there, is, nothing, to, suggest, the, amount, of, work, going, on, because, of, this, fmd, is, pushed, further, into, the, backs, of, villager’s, minds, it, is, something, in, the, past, it, has, happened, so, what, people, like, myself, who, talk, to, farmers, and, agriculturalists, do, not, easily, forget, these, events, personally, i, am, still, concerned, about, the, burial, site, when, inquiries, are, made, about, it, all, we, can, do, is, accept, what, we, are, told, it, does, not, look, as, though, every, precaution, is, being, taken, to, alleviate, an, odours, or, contamination, diary, 28, i, had, to, see, the, village, farmer, on, another, matter, and, was, asked, inside, for, coffee, and, a, chat, he, was, able, to, tell, me, of, the, full, implications, of, the, 20, day, rule, he, accepts, that, this, is, a, precaution, to, prevent, another, outbreak, of, fmd, but, there, is, a, lot, of, work, involved, he, told, me, of, an, isolation, area, that, he, has, created, and, also, the, fencing, arrangements, where, his, land, adjoins, the, neighbours, land, i, would, say, that, 95, of, the, public, don’t, know, about, this, even, if, they, have, heard, of, the, 20, day, rule, for, him, he, owns, the, largest, farm, in, the, area, it, is, bad, enough, having, to, do, all, the, physical, work, as, regards, fencing, etc, but, for, anyone, such, as, a, small, holder, it, must, be, a, nightmare, if, he, has, to, bring, animals, back, from, market, that, haven’t, been, sold, friday, my, wife, and, i, played, a, round, of, golf, at, aspatria, this, course, was, badly, restricted, when, fmd, hit, this, area, we, were, reminded, that, there, are, restrictions, on, adjoining, land, there, were, notices, asking, people, who, hit, balls, onto, farm, land, not, to, cross, the, fence, to, retrieve, them, because, of, fmd, precautions, this, was, news, to, us, it, does, make, sense, though, the, farmer, wouldn’t, know, where, players, had, been, walking, prior, to, playing, golf, diary, 29, attended, the, harvest, festival, held, in, the, village, farm, a, large, cattle, shed, had, been, cleaned, and, decorated, for, this, event, chairs, had, been, brought, in, fruit, and, vegetables, were, on, display, for, auctioning, at, the, end, the, place, was, packed, a, lot, of, money, was, raised, and, it, was, a, very, happy, event, well, supported, and, a, big, boost, for, the, farm, and, the, village, i, don’t, think, that, the, general, public, care, much, about, fmd, now, that, is, has, been, a, year, since, the, last, case, was, confirmed, in, cumbria, the, public, may, be, reminded, if, they, read, the, local, newspapers, intently, for, instance, there, was, a, letter, to, the, editor, published, recently, which, referred, to, the, results, of, the, cumbria, inquiry, into, fmd, it, may, have, been, a, farmer, who, wrote, it, i, don’t, know, but, the, writer, certainly, went, to, town, in, the, scathing, comments, on, the, handling, of, fmd, even, caustic, remarks, regarding, the, efforts, since, fmd, of, defra, and, mrs, beckett, i, certainly, wouldn’t, like, to, cross, the, writer, i, also, think, the, farming, community, must, be, holding, it’s, breath, in, case, the, present, restrictions, such, as, they, are, prove, to, be, worthless, then, we, will, all, suffer, again, week, 30, what, a, difference, a, year, makes, despite, some, restrictions, on, public, access, to, agricultural, fields, in, some, areas, of, the, county, it, doesn’t, apply, here, although, most, locals, confine, themselves, to, footpaths, and, bridleways, other, people, seem, to, think, that, all, fields, are, recreation, areas, they, walk, and, run, across, some, of, the, fields, in, close, proximity, to, the, village, regardless, of, the, presence, of, stock, they, exercise, dogs, and, treat, it, as, a, some, kind, of, park, one, farmer, is, well, know, for, being, aggressive, he, used, last, year’s, fmd, outbreak, to, run, people, off, his, land, i, met, a, local, councillor, who, expressed, concerns, regarding, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, to, the, south, of, the, village, on, the, current, open, cast, mining, site, the, two, waste, disposal, sites, to, the, west, and, north, west, of, the, village, have, become, big, issues, in, the, last, 18, months, due, to, the, burial, of, animals, and, the, disposal, of, pyre, ash, and, leachates, it, seems, as, though, we, are, going, to, get, over, this, ghastly, fmd, outbreak, only, to, have, this, scenario, thrust, upon, us, week, 31, met, a, small, holder, who, keeps, sheep, near, to, this, village, he, was, very, scathing, over, the, report, that, the, government, and, defra, don’t, want, to, talk, up, an, offer, from, the, local, authorities, here, to, implement, findings, and, recommendations, from, their, local, inquiry, over, fmd, why, what, has, this, government, who, didn’t, perform, very, well, during, the, outbreak, got, to, hide, and, why, shirk, away, from, the, findings, instead, of, facing, up, to, the, failings, that, we, all, know, about, it, also, seems, that, they, don’t, want, to, make, any, safeguards, and, recommendations, to, avoid, a, further, outbreak, as, a, non, agriculturalist, it, doesn’t, surprise, me, in, the, least, after, all, government, has, failed, other, industries, in, the, country, for, as, long, as, i, can, remember, week, 32, i, am, convinced, that, authorities, in, the, area, must, think, that, the, way, animals, were, buried, here, and, pyre, ash, and, leachate, were, disposed, of, at, another, site, nearby, was, all, done, as, very, successfully, and, that, the, two, sites, handled, everything, professionally, therefore, the, sites, would, be, more, than, capable, of, handling, ash, from, an, incinerator, to, me, this, is, the, legacy, of, fmd, i, am, most, annoyed, over, this, together, with, a, lot, more, of, the, villagers, this, village, no, longer, has, a, representative, on, the, parish, council, both, have, resigned, for, whatever, reason, and, no, one, will, step, forward, to, take, it, one, i, have, said, that, i, would, take, a, set, on, the, parish, council, to, represent, the, village, and, fight, for, our, rights, and, future, quality, of, life, due, to, this, i, have, uncovered, a, pile, of, claims, and, counter, claims, it, seems, that, both, parish, and, district, counsellors, know, what, is, going, on, regarding, the, incinerator, and, that, developers, have, made, concessions, to, some, councillors, also, there, are, claims, that, the, developers, have, offered, money, to, local, landowners, and, farmers, so, that, roads, can, be, put, in, all, these, accusations, have, been, strongly, denied, at, the, same, time, it, is, rumoured, that, some, farmers, have, been, offered, local, fields, nearby, because, of, what, i, have, discovered, in, my, own, investigations, it, would, seem, that, a, lot, of, friendships, gained, over, 20, years, could, come, to, an, end, i, am, fearful, of, what, i, have, uncovered, there, are, also, claims, that, councillors, are, only, in, it, for, what, there, can, get, out, and, are, not, to, be, trusted, i, don’t, want, that, said, of, me, also, by, the, time, all, this, is, sorted, out, i, will, be, 70, 75, i, certainly, don’t, want, to, be, fighting, peoples, battles, at, that, age, however, i, will, support, any, effort, to, stop, the, proposed, development, week, 33, once, again, the, large, farm, in, the, centre, of, the, village, was, the, venue, for, the, annual, guy, fawkes, bonfire, and, fireworks, organisers, had, been, round, the, village, asking, for, donations, to, provide, fireworks, a, tractor, and, trailer, toured, the, areas, picking, up, things, for, the, bonfire, drinks, and, food, were, served, in, a, barn, after, the, fireworks, this, is, another, occasion, when, villagers, and, the, farming, community, come, together, it, is, perhaps, the, only, time, that, the, general, public, of, the, village, think, about, fmd, and, last, years, events, if, only, briefly, the, farmer, remarked, that, is, the, third, time, this, year, that, there, has, been, a, public, function, on, his, farm, the, first, was, the, jubilee, party, in, june, then, on, october, 6th, the, harvest, festival, service, these, events, keep, farming, in, the, public, eye, week, 34, i, haven’t, written, before, about, the, proposed, building, of, an, incinerator, nearby, to, burn, the, counties, waste, if, as, we, all, suspect, the, incinerator, is, built, then, the, odours, plus, the, disposal, of, ash, to, the, fmd, waste, site, is, a, legacy, of, fmd, particularly, regarding, the, nearby, burial, and, disposal, site, week, 35, this, is, week, 35, of, this, project, and, for, most, of, the, 35, weeks, i, have, written, that, i, am, not, confident, of, the, future, there, are, numerous, reasons, for, this, mainly, the, situation, in, the, middle, east, today, i, travelled, to, keswick, to, do, some, xmas, shopping, i, was, given, a, lift, there, by, a, neighbour, who, is, in, his, 30s, he, was, very, upset, about, the, terrorist, situation, not, only, was, he, concerned, about, the, terror, threat, to, the, london, underground, but, the, threat, closer, to, home, as, regards, a, plane, crashing, into, the, nearby, sellafield, complex, we, don’t, know, the, effect, that, this, constant, bad, news, has, on, people, people, who, have, already, got, serious, worries, e.g, families, housing, finance, etc, must, feel, really, depressed, about, it, all, week, 36, near, to, the, next, village, is, a, long, established, farm, of, many, acres, recently, the, farm’s, stock, of, animals, and, machinery, was, sold, off, the, owner, who, had, farmed, for, sixty, years, was, leaving, to, live, with, one, of, his, brothers, he, said, that, he, wouldn’t, know, how, he, would, feel, when, he, left, the, farm, for, the, last, time, this, weekend, the, farmhouse, hasn’t, been, sold, yet, and, now, stands, empty, it’s, a, strange, place, now, where, everything, was, hustle, and, bustle, they, even, had, a, b, b, business, there, is, now, derelict, and, bare, it’s, a, sad, reflection, on, the, agricultural, business, in, the, wake, of, fmd, this, farm, isn’t, the, only, one, in, the, area, that, has, sold, up, some, farm, houses, remain, as, dwellings, but, this, particular, one, which, we, saw, nearly, every, day, is, just, an, other, sad, reminder, of, the, way, farming, has, declined, in, this, rural, area, week, 39, tuesday, boarded, the, train, at, penrith, to, journey, to, crewe, to, see, our, daughter, during, the, journey, i, got, into, conversation, with, a, fellow, passenger, he, noticed, i, had, got, on, the, train, at, penrith, and, perhaps, thought, i, was, connected, with, the, agricultural, industry, the, conversation, drifted, into, the, previous, years, fmd, outbreak, it, is, rather, strange, that, i, live, in, a, very, rural, area, and, fmd, is, rarely, mentioned, now, however, this, fellow, passenger, although, not, from, an, agricultural, background, gave, his, views, on, the, handling, of, the, situation, it, was, no, different, from, the, views, expressed, by, locals, at, the, time, of, the, crisis, it, just, goes, to, show, that, fmd, is, very, much, in, peoples, minds, even, if, they, were, not, connected, to, agriculture, in, any, way, week, 40, friday, now, that, the, mep, have, published, their, critical, report, on, the, fmd, crisis, it, is, interesting, to, read, an, article, published, in, our, local, weekly, paper, from, a, reader, article, entitled, foot, and, mouth, report, included, i, don’t, have, the, knowledge, or, the, data, to, support, this, readers, comments, however, i, have, heard, plenty, of, stories, from, mainly, unreliable, sources, to, confirm, what, he, says, it, makes, interesting, reading, i, think, week, 41, tuesday, no, wonder, my, confidence, in, the, future, has, taken, a, big, plunge, over, the, last, few, months, the, situation, in, iraq, doesn’t, get, any, better, mr, tony, blair’s, message, to, the, armed, forces, of, the, uk, bear, this, out, being, an, ex, serviceman, i, know, what, the, situation, holds, for, our, troops, but, are, we, right, to, follow, the, usa, in, a, war, against, iraq, no, doubt, saddam, hussein, does, pose, a, threat, but, so, does, india, and, pakistan, to, each, other, each, of, these, two, relatively, poor, countries, has, threatened, each, other, as, regards, their, nuclear, arsenals, now, the, loose, cannon, in, the, form, of, north, korea, is, positioning, itself, as, regards, its, position, in, the, nuclear, arms, league, personally, i, think, that, north, korea, poses, a, more, dangerous, threat, than, iraq, it, is, not, a, very, happy, new, year, for, a, lot, of, people, perhaps, it, will, all, be, settled, diplomatically, i, wonder, week, 42, nothing, of, any, importance, to, write, about, due, to, refurbishment, at, home, week, 43, monday, one, of, the, items, on, the, agenda, for, this, months, meeting, of, distington, parish, council, is, a, report, on, the, wood, felling, and, the, implications, of, this, as, i, have, written, in, the, diary, before, there, are, strong, rumours, of, the, proposed, plan, to, fell, woods, build, a, new, road, through, the, felled, site, and, bring, coal, from, the, nearby, opencast, site, to, link, up, with, an, existing, road, then, to, transport, the, coal, to, a, storage, area, on, workington, dock, then, when, the, coal, is, worked, out, to, build, an, incinerator, on, the, coal, site, ash, from, this, development, would, then, be, transported, on, the, new, road, to, be, disposed, of, on, the, waste, disposal, site, that, was, used, for, fmd, pyre, ash, and, leachate, thursday, read, a, report, of, the, aforesaid, meeting, the, owners, have, declared, that, our, worries, are, groundless, in, fact, they, say, that, they, plan, to, eventually, open, the, woodland, to, the, public, the, owners, of, the, woodland, are, the, same, operators, of, the, opencast, coal, site, footpaths, will, be, created, if, a, grant, can, be, obtained, a, wooden, wheeled, ancient, water, mill, will, be, restored, after, the, closed, meeting, the, operations, director, of, the, site, said, that, there, has, been, a, misunderstanding, what, we, are, doing, will, benefit, local, people, he, said, that, a, management, project, for, the, wood, is, being, followed, involving, felling, dead, trees, and, fresh, planting, he, added, the, felling, and, replanting, will, be, done, this, year, after, which, it, will, take, time, to, become, established, we’re, talking, of, a, ten, year, programme, but, it, should, have, long, term, benefits, i, think, our, pr, at, the, start, of, this, wasn’t, very, good, and, in, the, future, we, will, let, the, council, know, of, our, plans, the, council, agreed, to, keep, a, watch, on, the, work, here, in, g, this, statement, differs, greatly, from, what, some, of, us, have, been, told, by, our, village, based, county, councillor, there, has, never, been, any, suggestion, that, the, felled, woods, would, become, a, land, fill, site, but, would, be, felled, to, provide, the, new, road, there, was, nothing, mentioned, at, the, meeting, regarding, the, proposed, incinerator, being, built, the, county, council, that, this, has, ever, been, planned, however, our, representative, is, adamant, that, this, is, not, so, week, 44, tuesday, for, the, first, time, my, property, has, finally, overcome, a, situation, that, was, affected, by, fmd, in, july, 2000, the, electricity, supplier, notified, me, to, say, that, the, trees, in, my, garden, had, grown, so, tall, that, the, topmost, branches, were, in, close, contact, with, an, eleven, thousand, volt, overhead, power, line, and, that, they, should, be, felled, or, severely, pruned, after, some, further, negotiations, it, was, decided, to, prune, to, some, height, that, i, wasn’t, happy, with, although, the, treetops, were, not, actually, touching, the, wires, it, was, considered, a, risk, in, the, forthcoming, months, however, as, time, passed, i, couldn’t, wait, for, the, foresters, to, arrive, so, i, pruned, the, trees, myself, in, january, 2001, the, electric, supplier, suggested, that, the, trees, should, be, pruned, further, a, date, was, agreed, but, the, foresters, didn’t, arrive, time, dragged, on, and, the, trees, grew, back, to, their, original, height, again, the, electric, supplier, suggested, they, be, pruned, or, felled, a, new, date, was, agreed, upon, however, the, foresters, couldn’t, do, the, job, because, the, isolator, switch, was, on, farmland, and, they, couldn’t, get, access, to, it, because, of, fmd, restrictions, and, so, it, dragged, on, despite, visits, by, foresters, and, electric, supplier, reps, the, trees, got, bigger, and, i, was, forbidden, to, touch, them, neighbours, could, hear, crackling, noises, coming, from, the, wires, and, it, became, very, worrying, people, suggested, that, i, should, do, something, about, it, i, took, the, matter, up, directly, with, the, supplier, and, the, foresters, i, was, promised, dates, only, for, them, to, be, cancelled, in, december, 2002, a, date, of, 21st, january, 2003, was, given, this, time, they, came, and, we, agreed, that, two, trees, be, felled, and, another, pruned, after, 30, months, it, finally, happened, thursday, met, a, small, holder, who, has, his, land, on, the, edge, of, this, village, who, told, me, that, the, 20, day, rule, of, animal, restriction, of, animal, movement, was, being, lifted, and, replaced, by, a, 6, day, restriction, this, was, good, news, for, him, and, any, other, farmer, later, that, day, i, met, another, farmer, who, didn’t, know, that, the, restriction, was, being, lifted, you, would, have, thought, that, i, had, told, him, he’d, won, the, lottery, good, news, all, round, for, the, people, friday, listening, to, the, local, radio, today, and, was, surprised, to, hear, a, report, that, the, citizens, advice, bureau, in, a, small, lakeland, town, had, been, receiving, clients, who, were, still, experiencing, hardship, due, to, fmd, it, is, now, 18, months, since, the, last, outbreak, and, the, effects, according, to, the, person, being, interviewed, were, still, being, felt, not, just, by, farmers, and, agriculturists, but, by, guest, houses, hotels, tradesmen, and, in, particular, some, self, employed, debt, seems, to, be, the, biggest, problem, it, seems, as, though, some, people, had, weathered, the, hardships, of, fmd, initially, only, to, find, that, their, plans, had, come, adrift, somehow, afterwards, quite, disturbing, to, hear, that, the, situation, is, still, with, us, in, this, county, to, some, degree, week, 45, these, diaries, were, instituted, to, deal, with, the, after, effects, of, fmd, although, there, were, no, cases, of, fmd, in, this, village, everyone, knew, about, it, particularly, as, nearly, everyone, who, went, to, work, from, here, would, pass, the, main, farm, in, the, village, centre, or, some, of, the, farms, on, the, outskirts, of, the, village, now, that, fmd, is, over, most, people, who, live, here, don’t, seem, to, think, about, it, anymore, the, only, people, affected, are, the, farmers, naturally, this, is, a, strange, village, in, lots, of, ways, only, the, farmer, and, his, immediate, family, are, connected, with, agriculture, the, rest, are, professional, people, or, people, who, work, at, nearby, sellafield, industries, in, workington, and, whitehaven, or, are, retired, there, is, no, church, no, village, pub, no, village, shop, no, village, community, centre, or, meeting, place, only, tradesmen, that, call, are, the, milkman, and, the, solid, fuel, merchant, we, are, left, to, get, on, with, life, in, our, own, way, the, parish, of, distington, to, which, we, belong, have, all, the, facilities, associated, with, a, larger, community, such, as, a, church, pub, and, community, centre, all, of, which, are, two, miles, away, consequently, the, parish, council, meets, there, once, a, month, and, discusses, all, the, problems, of, the, area, including, ours, however, our, representative, on, the, council, has, resigned, and, no, one, has, come, forward, to, represent, us, anything, that, has, been, discussed, at, the, parish, council, is, reported, in, he, local, newspaper, village, pubs, are, a, good, venue, to, discuss, local, issues, and, to, exchange, views, and, mainly, to, gossip, village, tittle, tattle, as, i, call, it, as, we, have, no, pub, the, gossip, is, rife, from, one, source, or, another, with, bits, added, on, or, left, out, as, is, the, choice, of, the, person, concerned, quite, a, lot, of, people, one, meets, are, experts, in, their, own, particular, choice, of, subject, whether, it, is, politics, finance, or, mrs, jones, current, boy, friend, it, is, a, fault, to, take, on, board, all, that, is, gossiped, about, when, one, meets, a, fellow, villager, in, the, country, lanes, whilst, out, walking, the, dog, week, 46, illness, to, a, family, member, week, 47, continued, illness, week, 48, over, the, past, few, weeks, there, has, been, a, lot, of, tree, felling, in, the, nearby, woods, this, has, led, to, a, lot, of, disturbance, to, the, villagers, because, of, the, use, of, large, vehicles, needed, to, remove, the, felled, timber, and, also, the, foresters, vehicles, churning, up, the, grass, verges, and, the, ditches, a, lot, of, concern, was, raised, about, the, necessity, of, all, the, tree, felling, these, concerns, were, raised, in, the, press, and, also, in, the, parish, council, i, have, written, about, these, in, diaries, in, the, last, few, weeks, it, was, reported, in, mid, january, that, all, the, felled, woods, would, be, replanted, this, year, with, footpaths, created, for, the, enjoyment, of, the, local, population, now, all, timber, operations, have, ceased, large, areas, of, woodland, have, been, left, partly, felled, and, a, lot, of, felled, timber, is, left, lying, about, foresters, vehicles, have, gone, and, nothing, is, happening, despite, assurances, from, the, developers, it, looks, as, though, something, drastic, has, happened, village, tittle, tattle, says, that, the, foresters, have, not, been, paid, for, their, work, so, far, and, that, the, developers, have, run, out, of, money, if, this, is, so, what, is, going, to, happen, now, when, felling, started, late, last, year, i, contacted, two, environmental, agencies, regarding, the, threat, to, the, red, squirrels, badgers, and, buzzards, that, occupy, these, woods, i, was, told, that, it, was, only, a, partial, felling, and, they, the, environmental, agencies, were, satisfied, that, any, disturbances, would, be, slight, i, think, that, they, were, told, this, by, the, developers, and, accepted, what, they, were, told, without, a, site, visit, the, developers, have, been, known, to, mislead, groups, in, the, past, including, landowners, farmers, councils, and, individuals, i, personally, am, not, happy, about, this, situation, i, have, always, took, a, keen, interest, in, wildlife, and, feel, that, we, have, been, let, down, by, the, lies, of, developers, and, the, lack, of, serious, interest, from, wildlife, agencies, some, of, which, are, an, offshoot, of, central, government, i, for, one, will, keep, a, close, look, on, the, situation, with, or, without, other, villagers, and, in, particular, local, councillors, week, 49, by, chance, i, met, three, small, holders, all, at, the, same, time, they, were, discussing, farming, by, the, roadside, all, of, them, were, pleased, that, the, 20, day, ruling, was, coming, to, an, end, and, that, their, lives, were, more, or, less, coming, back, to, normal, they, also, expressed, the, opinion, that, the, 20, day, rule, and, the, 6, day, rule, were, only, in, force, to, protect, their, interests, however, they, were, unanimous, in, their, condemnation, over, the, importing, of, foreign, meat, and, meat, products, into, this, country, they, feel, that, foreign, meat, is, not, subjected, to, enough, checks, before, entry, into, the, united, kingdom, week, 51, met, a, farmer, today, who, told, me, that, he’d, seen, a, report, based, on, findings, by, the, eu, and, defra, it, stated, all, the, things, that, everyone, who, is, an, agriculturalist, and, those, who, take, an, interest, in, the, countryside, had, been, saying, about, what, was, wrong, with, the, handlers, of, the, fmd, outbreak, it, just, proves, that, it, doesn’t, take, an, academic, genius, to, know, what, should, have, been, done, at, the, time, everyone, can, be, wiser, after, the, event, but, statements, by, the, nfu, and, individuals, at, the, onset, were, not, heeded, for, example, the, movement, of, animals, should, have, been, halted, sooner, and, the, army, should, have, been, brought, in, much, sooner, now, the, question, of, vaccination, rumbles, on, should, we, or, shouldn’t, we, vaccinate, there, is, a, fear, of, the, outbreak, again, particularly, when, the, findings, of, the, 1960, outbreak, were, not, implemented, since, the, sadness, of, fmd, there, has, been, quite, a, few, instances, of, socialising, at, the, farm, such, as, harvest, festival, jubilee, party, and, almost, any, excuse, for, a, shindig, good, to, see, farmers, enjoying, themselves, week, 52, met, out, local, farmer, who, told, me, that, there, is, to, be, new, legislation, to, dispose, of, fallen, stock, no, longer, can, a, farmer, bury, fallen, stock, on, his, land, but, must, now, provide, an, incinerator, to, dispose, of, dead, animals, this, must, be, a, costly, business, could, dead, animals, not, be, taken, to, a, central, point, and, burned, week, 54, one, thing, about, fmd, was, the, effect, that, it, had, on, the, poaching, fraternity, living, in, a, rural, area, we, expect, this, to, happen, nobody, seems, to, mind, that, a, few, rabbits, and, pheasants, go, missing, what, is, really, alarming, is, the, use, of, dogs, and, high, powered, rifles, to, poach, deer, fmd, put, a, stop, to, all, this, now, a, neighbour, has, told, me, of, poachers, near, to, the, village, using, rifles, and, shooting, deer, the, only, people, benefiting, from, this, are, the, poachers, and, hoteliers, who, receive, these, dead, beasts, and, no, questions, asked, also, the, danger, of, villagers, being, hit, by, stray, rifle, shots, causes, alarm, to, others, week, 55, i, think, that, there, is, a, lot, of, jumping, on, the, band, wagon, now, that, fmd, has, cleared, up, for, instance, i, listened, to, an, interview, on, the, local, radio, station, given, by, a, hotelier, things, weren’t, going, well, in, his, establishment, having, got, over, fmd, and, its, implications, visitors, were, slowly, returning, to, the, area, but, not, in, sufficient, numbers, to, cause, great, joy]
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## 1 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1975, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, thursday, meeting, n, lakes, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, usual, chat, and, defra, comments, the, meeting, research, panel, gp, 6, at, the, north, lakes, was, interesting, it, surprises, me, sometimes, how, people, myself, included, never, seem, to, tire, of, the, same, stories, and, complaints, over, how, the, crisis, was, handled, some, of, the, episodes, recounted, must, have, been, told, dozens, of, times, over, the, last, year, but, whoever, says, it, always, seems, just, as, keen, to, say, it, again, perhaps, a, reflection, of, how, deeply, people, feel, about, the, events, of, the, last, year, having, said, that, most, of, the, resentments, and, rants, that, i, hear, on, daily, farm, visits, are, focused, fairly, and, squarely, at, defra, and, not, fmd, virus, farmers, seem, far, more, upset, at, the, constriction, put, on, them, by, defra, than, they, do, by, the, loss, of, stock, now, although, i, know, and, saw, how, utterly, devastated, most, were, when, they, were, actually, diagnosed, with, the, virus, and, in, the, week, or, two, following, my, work, in, the, practice, is, becoming, less, and, less, fmd, orientated, as, time, goes, on, licensing, and, restocking, visits, are, drawing, to, a, close, and, we, are, starting, to, return, to, normal, vet, work, my, life, has, been, more, settled, since, the, end, of, fmd, although, there, was, never, a, real, threat, of, redundancy, there, was, a, great, deal, of, uncertainty, as, to, what, form, work, would, take, during, the, outbreak, it, was, never, clear, whether, i, would, be, based, at, the, practice, or, working, as, a, defra, vet, from, month, to, month, now, that, it, is, finished, i, hope, the, practice, and, my, work, can, get, back, to, a, routine, and, at, least, knowing, where, i’ll, be, based, each, day, even, if, not, which, calls, are, going, to, come, in, with, regard, to, fmd, the, biggest, influence, it, has, at, the, moment, and, over, the, last, week, is, acting, as, a, listener, to, farmers, who, still, talk, about, it, and, defra, a, great, deal, diary, 2, mon, shap, restocking, having, to, justify, visit, wed, melmerby, i, went, to, see, a, farmer, this, week, to, do, the, first, inspection, of, his, sentinel, animals, that, he, is, restocking, his, farm, in, common, with, many, farmers, he, was, unwavering, in, his, conviction, that, his, animals, had, been, deliberately, infected, and, that, tony, blair, or, defra, were, the, ultimate, culprits, the, belief, is, that, they, want, to, put, farmers, out, of, business, this, particular, farmer, made, the, very, valid, point, that, defra, co, had, underestimated, the, resilience, of, the, farming, community, i, think, that, this, has, been, very, striking, considering, the, strain, that, they, have, been, under, in, some, cases, worse, for, those, who, didn’t, get, fmd, than, for, those, who, did, it, has, been, remarkable, how, little, the, majority, of, our, clients, have, changed, admittedly, we, see, most, of, them, on, a, professional, basis, regarding, their, animals, health, and, not, their, own, but, on, the, whole, they, seem, to, have, been, very, forward, thinking, about, the, outbreak, many, have, taken, it, as, a, chance, to, increase, the, size, of, herds, and, to, eliminate, many, other, diseases, as, well, as, fmd, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, as, week, the, number, of, fmd, calls, is, decreasing, one, of, the, problems, with, doing, restocking, licensing, and, tb, calls, is, that, we, are, on, the, farm, at, defra’s, instruction, normally, it, is, the, farmer, who, calls, us, out, and, this, can, cause, friction, anything, related, to, defra, will, put, hackles, up, 9, times, out, of, 10, it, definitely, causes, stress, at, times, but, puts, my, diplomacy, skills, into, good, practice, it, sometimes, feels, as, though, some, farmers, just, need, an, outlet, and, i, fit, the, bill, after, agreeing, with, everything, they, say, and, sympathising, it, usually, smoothes, out, and, ends, with, a, cup, of, tea, but, it, does, feel, as, though, we, have, to, justify, what, we, are, doing, much, more, than, prior, to, february, 2001, diary, 3, this, week, was, the, anniversary, of, the, week, i, went, to, my, first, ip, and, associated, slaughter, pyre, building, etc, at, several, times, during, the, week, i, found, myself, thinking, this, time, last, year, i, was, although, obviously, not, pleasant, memories, the, thoughts, did, not, particularly, affect, me, in, a, bad, way, or, distract, me, from, work, it, just, took, me, back, to, that, time, when, i, had, time, to, think, i, went, to, see, a, sick, horse, near, carlisle, which, is, where, the, ip, was, and, it, was, interesting, to, drive, past, the, farm, and, see, animals, in, the, buildings, again, hopefully, the, farmer, concerned, is, getting, back, on, track, again, with, respect, to, daily, routine, work, is, getting, very, busy, lambing, time, is, starting, to, really, get, going, with, the, inevitable, increase, in, calls, although, it, can, be, hectic, at, times, it’s, better, to, be, kept, busy, rather, than, having, it, too, quiet, it’s, also, good, to, actually, be, doing, lambings, and, other, sheep, work, as, it’s, two, years, since, we, did, any, apart, from, euthanasing, sheep, last, year, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, re, stocking, check, on, a, farm, the, farmer, is, convinced, he, was, given, fmd, deliberately, and, on, arrival, i, was, given, his, weekly, tirade, regarding, defra, tony, blair, how, i, must, have, made, thousands, of, pounds, out, of, it, etc, etc, after, sometime, of, not, rising, to, the, bait, he, calmed, down, and, half, an, hour, later, was, sweetness, and, light, perhaps, he, just, needs, someone, to, let, pressure, out, to, only, one, session, like, that, a, week, isn’t, too, bad, considering, how, many, farm, visits, we, do, diary, 4, monday, brought, another, dressing, down, from, the, farmer, i, mentioned, last, week, it, was, shorter, and, less, passionate, this, time, perhaps, he’s, mellowing, a, bit, i, drove, up, to, junction, 40, one, day, with, the, sun, out, it, reminded, me, of, a, similar, day, a, year, ago, when, i, could, count, 15, smoke, plumes, from, pyres, on, the, same, bit, of, road, as, i, said, last, week, anniversary, memories, like, this, aren’t, especially, difficult, for, me, they’re, just, there, in, a, lot, of, ways, it’s, quite, satisfying, thinking, about, what, was, happening, a, year, ago, and, how, well, things, have, progressed, since, then, most, of, our, farmers, have, re, stocked, work, is, returning, to, normal, even, things, like, being, able, to, drive, onto, farms, again, rather, than, having, to, leave, the, car, at, the, farm, entrance, makes, a, big, difference, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, with, the, typical, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, we, have, a, couple, of, vet, students, doing, work, experience, with, us, which, had, to, stop, last, march, as, we, couldn’t, take, extras, onto, farms, with, us, another, sign, of, the, continuing, return, to, normality, some, days, it, seems, as, if, we, have, returned, to, how, we, were, a, year, ago, the, most, obvious, legacy, is, perhaps, the, thorough, and, extensive, clothing, disinfection, between, each, farm, a, good, habit, which, is, very, hard, to, break, diary, 5, i, had, to, work, on, easter, monday, morning, which, was, fairly, uneventful, as, for, the, last, few, weeks, there, were, the, usual, seasonal, calls, to, sheep, and, cattle, but, nothing, too, stressful, on, tuesday, i, did, the, final, blood, sampling, on, the, last, farm, that, we, have, that, is, still, at, the, sentinel, stage, of, re, stocking, the, farmers, seemed, fairly, mellow, today, and, spared, me, the, usual, lecture, attempt, at, argument, perhaps, it’s, because, the, end, of, his, restriction, is, in, sight, the, test, went, very, smoothly, and, i, didn’t, hear, from, him, until, the, end, of, the, week, when, i, he, was, upset, probably, justifiably, that, his, results, still, weren’t, back, as, processing, the, bloods, is, not, our, responsibility, all, i, could, do, was, sympathise, and, plead, ignorance, the, rest, of, the, week, was, fairly, routine, work, wise, friday, was, taken, up, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, on, a, re, stocked, farm, they, all, have, to, be, done, within, 3, mths, of, re, stocking, although, it, was, a, big, job, it, was, a, well, run, farm, with, plenty, of, help, so, we, got, finished, within, the, day, and, with, as, few, delays, as, could, be, expected, now, that, the, evenings, are, lighter, it’s, meant, that, on, nights, off, duty, i’ve, been, able, to, get, out, more, it’s, made, a, very, welcome, change, to, be, able, to, bike, walk, on, the, fells, again, this, year, after, all, the, restrictions, of, 2001, long, may, it, and, the, weather, continue, diary, 6, finally, finished, the, last, a, restocking, jobs, on, monday, the, farmer, was, getting, very, frustrated, probably, justifiably, so, at, the, length, of, time, it, was, taking, the, bank, holidays, etc, last, week, meant, to, that, the, labs, were, closed, so, that, blood, samples, took, longer, to, process, i, got, the, results, at, 4, 45, monday, evening, and, in, an, attempt, to, create, some, goodwill, agreed, to, go, to, the, farm, to, do, a, final, check, that, evening, on, arrival, of, the, usual, tirade, about, defra, and, vet's, came, my, way, which, was, slightly, hard, to, take, he, then, said, that, he, didn't, blame, me, personally, which, was, nice, of, him, i, think, hope, he, realises, that, we, can, only, try, to, get, things, going, faster, and, ultimately, it’s, out, off, our, hands, at, least, it's, good, to, have, all, the, restocking, work, finished, it, feels, as, though, the, first, stage, is, over, in, getting, back, to, where, we, were, another, sign, of, returning, to, usual, is, the, continuing, pace, of, work, nights, on, call, are, again, a, time, for, working, rather, than, the, call, free, nights, of, summer, 2001, this, week, has, brought, early, morning, lambing, most, days, the, rest, of, the, time, we’re, is, as, busy, as, it's, been, for, a, year, the, day, book, is, full, each, day, and, we, all, seem, to, be, driving, around, the, county, more, or, less, keeping, up, with, the, jobs, which, is, a, good, thing, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, was, going, to, go, to, edinburgh, to, see, some, friends, but, in, the, end, stayed, in, penrith, for, some, r, r, diary, 7, i, had, a, half, day, on, monday, and, went, to, riggindale, at, the, head, of, haweswater, with, a, friend, who, had, come, to, stay, for, a, night, or, two, the, plan, was, to, see, the, golden, eagles, nesting, that, up, to, unfortunately, they, were, off, on, a, day, trip, to, another, part, of, the, lake, district, but, the, weather, was, good, and, it, made, a, very, pleasant, change, from, work, the, practice, is, still, going, flat, out, with, seasonal, work, the, daily, flow, of, lambing, and, lambing, related, sheep, problems, shows, no, sign, of, ebbing, there, are, also, increasing, numbers, of, cattle, problems, probably, related, to, coming, towards, the, spring, turn, out, of, cattle, that, have, been, inside, for, 6, 7, months, the, fact, that, most, of, them, are, in, new, surroundings, is, almost, certainly, adding, to, the, problems, on, the, whole, of, farmers, are, fairly, pragmatic, about, the, difficulties, they, are, having, most, accept, that, they, were, bound, to, have, problems, with, the, restocking, and, on, the, whole, are, pleased, just, to, have, stock, on, again, some, are, very, keen, to, be, as, efficient, as, possible, whereas, others, will, more, readily, go, along, with, the, old, farming, mantra, that, where, there's, a, livestock, there's, a, dead, stock, not, quite, what, the, veterinary, profession, wants, to, encourage, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, had, one, of, the, busier, few, days, i, can, remember, again, it, was, mostly, seasonal, farm, work, which, although, it, was, time, consuming, is, often, quite, rewarding, i'm, still, surprised, by, the, number, of, sheep, we, are, getting, called, to, perhaps, it's, because, farmers, have, spent, a, lot, of, money, on, them, to, restock, with, and, now, feel, they’re, financially, worth, calling, us, for, diary, 8, made, a, couple, of, visits, to, one, of, our, farmers, who, restocked, over, the, winter, this, week, he's, having, a, few, problems, with, cows, getting, ill, and, generally, not, settling, in, very, well, he's, one, of, the, most, amenable, farmers, on, our, books, and, never, seems, to, try, to, blame, anyone, for, his, troubles, at, times, it's, very, frustrating, not, to, be, able, to, do, more, for, people, like, him, i'd, like, to, be, able, to, give, every, one, of, his, cows, a, magic, injection, and, say, that, it'll, get, better, but, unfortunately, that's, not, how, it, works, we've, had, a, lot, of, colt, castrations, to, do, this, week, which, is, normal, for, this, time, of, year, it, puts, more, pressure, on, us, in, terms, of, work, as, we, usually, take, two, vets, to, each, castration, considering, how, busy, it, is, relations, in, the, practice, are, generally, very, good, it, has, been, stressful, at, times, but, on, the, whole, this, has, been, stress, related, to, volume, of, jobs, to, do, rather, than, people, it, has, also, been, a, very, different, and, preferable, type, of, stress, than, this, time, of, the, last, year, at, least, a, lot, of, work, makes, us, all, feel, fairly, stable, rather, than, the, terrible, uncertainty, of, last, year, we’ve, also, taken, on, an, extra, vet, this, spring, which, would, have, been, unthinkable, last, year, in, the, middle, of, the, week, i, did, a, farm, visit, with, one, of, the, vets, from, the, local, veterinary, lab, to, discuss, disease, control, on, a, re, stocked, farm, most, of, the, work, into, disease, surveillance, on, a, farm, was, defra, funded, which, went, down, well, with, the, farmer, she, at, least, felt, as, though, she, was, getting, something, back, after, fighting, with, defra, for, the, last, few, months, it, was, also, encouraging, to, see, someone, taking, a, very, positive, approach, to, disease, control, in, the, future, my, cousin, and, some, of, his, friends, came, down, from, glasgow, for, the, weekend, to, go, into, the, lake, district, the, weather, was, good, on, the, whole, and, several, people, noted, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, paths, open, again, diary, 9, started, the, week, doing, a, big, tuberculin, and, brucellosis, test, at, a, restocked, farm, there, has, been, a, big, backlog, to, clear, after, testing, was, stopped, during, fmd, last, year, so, we, have, to, catch, up, with, those, farms, that, didn’t, get, the, disease, but, are, due, a, test, as, well, as, testing, the, restocking, farms, we’re, all, very, keen, to, keep, cumbria, as, a, tb, free, zone, but, with, all, the, different, stock, coming, in, it’s, going, to, be, tricky, monday’s, test, was, long, but, okay, on, the, whole, the, set, up, was, good, and, the, farming, family, were, very, pleasant, which, makes, a, huge, difference, to, how, the, day, goes, all, was, clear, when, i, went, to, read, the, test, on, thursday, a, relief, for, all, concerned, overall, work, seems, to, be, quietening, down, a, bit, this, week, compared, to, the, last, few, we, are, now, just, busy, rather, than, always, feeling, as, if, were, one, job, behind, all, the, time, on, wednesday, and, thursday, one, of, our, clients, brought, in, half, a, dozen, shetland, ponies, to, castrate, it, makes, a, change, to, have, a, large, animal, that, is, small, enough, to, be, easily, physically, restrained, by, one, person, the, continuing, good, weather, made, doing, an, afternoon's, work, with, the, ponies, in, the, practice’s, field, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, few, hours, i, can't, help, feeling, that, no, rain, in, april, means, we'll, get, loads, later, in, the, summer, i, was, on, a, second, call, at, the, weekend, saturday, was, very, busy, with, small, animal, jobs, which, i, mainly, left, to, a, colleague, while, i, tried, to, clear, up, the, farm, and, equine, jobs, calm, was, pretty, much, restored, by, late, afternoon, after, which, i, wasn't, called, until, early, sunday, morning, another, of, our, re, stocked, clients, is, having, considerable, trouble, with, some, of, his, new, animals, and, is, becoming, increasingly, frustrated, about, it, we, all, try, to, help, with, the, medical, side, of, it, animals, but, inevitably, also, get, to, hear, a, lot, of, his, other, worries, too, hopefully, things, will, look, up, soon, and, he'll, be, able, to, ride, it, out, ok, diary, 10, had, a, day, off, on, bank, holiday, monday, always, the, good, way, to, start, the, week, i, went, up, to, peebles, in, scotland, with, some, friends, to, go, mountain, biking, it, was, surprisingly, empty, for, a, weekend, and, the, weather, was, good, and, i, didn't, fall, off, all, in, all, a, good, day, out, tuesday, was, work, as, usual, i, had, to, do, a, small, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it, shouldn't, have, been, a, long, job, but, the, facilities, weren't, great, so, it, didn’t, go, as, slickly, as, it, might, have, done, we, all, managed, to, get, through, in, one, piece, so, it, could, have, been, worse, one, of, my, colleagues, went, on, maternity, this, week, she, is, part, time, but, does, all, small, animal, work, now, that, she's, off, for, the, next, few, months, it, means, that, an, extra, vet, is, needed, each, morning, to, stay, in, and, do, small, animal, operations, while, it's, probably, not, my, favourite, sort, of, work, it, does, make, a, change, from, being, out, on, farms, every, morning, it's, also, good, to, get, a, bit, more, experience, at, small, procedures, as, well, as, doing, smaller, animals, this, week, has, brought, several, interesting, equine, cases, i, had, to, hospitalise, a, horse, for, a, few, days, for, fairly, intensive, treatment, which, fortunately, appears, to, have, made, a, good, recovery, there, have, also, been, a, couple, of, horse, operations, at, the, practice, this, week, they’re, generally, quite, interesting, apart, from, the, stress, involved, with, having, half, a, ton, of, horse, asleep, on, the, operating, table, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, small, reunion, with, friends, i, was, at, college, with, although, we, do, talk, about, other, things, conversation, inevitably, came, round, to, work, the, effect, of, fmd, and, its, consequences, are, still, very, much, in, people's, minds, friends, all, asked, how, it, was, last, year, and, whether, farms, have, restocked, yet, etc, etc, it, s, stuff, which, i, seem, to, have, said, hundreds, of, times, over, the, last, few, months, but, people, never, seem, to, tire, of, asking, it, and, to, an, extent, i, don't, seem, to, get, bored, of, answering, it, diary, 11, the, week, started, with, a, big, tb, test, at, a, restocking, dairy, farm, there, were, very, good, facilities, and, it, subsequently, went, very, smoothly, and, quickly, despite, the, number, of, cows, involved, the, farmer, seems, to, be, quite, positive, about, the, new, start, and, has, been, spared, a, lot, of, the, problems, that, other, people, have, experienced, while, restocking, in, terms, of, disease, in, the, animals, everything, was, clear, when, i, read, the, test, later, in, the, week, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, a, bit, of, a, change, as, i, went, castrate, two, ponies, belonging, to, my, mother, she, had, bought, two, totally, wild, fell, ponies, last, autumn, they, now, a, bit, tamer, but, not, completely, used, to, being, handled, yet, i, went, with, one, of, our, nurses, and, the, senior, partner, and, it, all, went, pretty, much, to, plan, work, is, still, busy, there's, one, client, in, particular, who, is, giving, us, a, lot, to, do, he, restocked, a, few, months, ago, and, is, obviously, having, trouble, lambing, his, sheep, it, got, a, bit, trying, when, i, had, to, get, up, to, his, third, lambing, of, one, night, but, that's, what, we, are, there, for, i, suppose, he's, a, nice, man, and, always, seems, pleased, to, see, us, which, helps, i, had, the, weekend, off, again, and, went, to, glasgow, to, be, best, man, at, my, cousin's, wedding, apart, from, the, weather, it, went, very, well, i, think, with, no, unsolvable, problems, diary, 12, started, the, week, with, a, long, visit, for, dairy, fertility, work, to, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, it's, one, of, the, farmers, who, has, been, having, problems, after, restocking, and, a, visit, that, another, vet, usually, does, so, i, felt, a, bit, under, pressure, it's, the, type, of, work, which, is, very, routine, but, has, the, potential, to, go, quite, badly, wrong, on, the, whole, it, went, fairly, well, with, no, major, problems, i, get, on, pretty, well, with, the, farmer, which, always, helps, as, it, makes, the, time, go, by, quicker, small, animal, work, is, still, quite, busy, i, had, two, days, inside, this, week, doing, small, animals, operations, there, wasn't, anything, particularly, different, or, unusual, but, it, still, helps, to, do, more, of, it, one, of, our, farmers, who, managed, to, miss, fmd, is, very, busy, with, his, calving, schedule, at, the, moment, he’s, tending, to, have, very, big, calves, and, subsequently, we’re, doing, a, lot, of, caesareans, there, this, week, has, brought, at, least, half, a, dozen, of, which, two, were, in, the, middle, of, the, night, there, have, been, a, few, vets, are, looking, sleep, deprived, recently, i, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, so, see, a, couple, of, friends, in, edinburgh, we, spent, one, day, cycling, in, peebles, and, then, proceeded, to, nothing, strenuous, for, the, next, diary, 13, the, week, started, with, a, big, session, dehorning, cattle, it’s, not, exactly, technical, work, and, is, fairly, hard, work, at, least, it, gets, me, fit, we, would, normally, do, them, at, a, younger, age, but, quite, a, few, have, been, missed, as, we, didn’t, get, out, onto, farms, for, such, routine, work, last, year, on, the, whole, most, people, are, fairly, well, caught, up, now, that, they’ve, re, stocked, been, having, routine, work, done, for, the, last, 8, months, or, so, but, there, are, still, a, few, lagging, behind, i, had, a, call, from, a, farmer, who, was, one, of, our, most, consistently, and, vehemently, anti, defra, people, last, year, i, ended, up, doing, a, caesarean, and, had, quite, a, long, chat, with, him, conversation, ended, up, coming, round, to, the, events, of, last, year, and, he, aired, his, resentments, again, it, was, the, first, time, in, several, weeks, that, i, had, heard, this, kind, of, talk, whereas, a, few, months, ago, it, would, have, been, a, daily, occurrence, it, wasn’t, particularly, aimed, at, me, or, the, practice, in, particular, but, just, frustration, with, the, system, as, a, whole, i, went, for, a, walk, up, blencathra, one, evening, during, the, week, but, the, highlight, of, the, week, has, to, be, the, start, of, the, world, cup, i’ve, been, on, duty, this, w, e, but, managed, to, see, all, but, the, last, two, minutes, of, this, morning’s, rather, disappointing, draw, with, sweden, most, farmers, are, keen, to, watch, the, matches, too, so, lets, hope, not, too, many, calls, come, in, at, the, wrong, time, diary, 14, i, had, the, bank, holiday, on, monday, off, which, was, welcome, after, a, weekend, on, call, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, a, colleague, considering, it, was, a, bank, holiday, it, wasn't, too, crowded, had, to, work, on, bank, holiday, tuesday, though, it, wasn't, especially, busy, until, the, evening, when, i, had, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, and, then, go, and, see, a, badly, cut, horse, both, seem, to, be, doing, ok, the, rest, of, the, week, was, worked, as, usual, nothing, particularly, out, of, the, ordinary, happened, with, fairly, routine, calls, perhaps, it, was, because, everyone, was, preoccupied, with, events, in, japan, and, korea, or, maybe, that, is, just, me, i, was, booked, in, for, an, 11, am, call, on, friday, but, managed, to, persuade, the, farmer, concerned, that, 9.30, would, be, more, appropriate, said, that, i, or, should, that, be, we, could, watch, the, second, england, game, we, managed, to, get, finished, in, time, and, it, was, well, worth, it, the, 1, 0, win, over, argentina, put, everyone, in, a, good, mood, for, the, rest, of, the, day, and, the, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, over, the, weekend, saturday, morning, was, very, busy, and, we, didn’t, get, all, the, calls, done, until, early, afternoon, after, that, it, was, one, of, the, quietest, weekends, i’ve, had, they, were, a, couple, of, things, to, do, on, saturday, afternoon, evening, but, sunday, had, no, calls, until, after, lunch, almost, unheard, of, i, had, to, check, my, phone, was, switched, on, long, may, it, last, diary, 15, i’ve, done, two, days, in, the, practice, doing, small, animals, this, week, more, than, usual, the, weather, has, not, been, the, best, so, it's, no, bad, thing, i, managed, to, go, out, on, rounds, on, wednesday, though, so, i, managed, to, catch, the, third, england, match, second, round, here, we, come, i, spent, most, of, friday, morning, operating, on, two, cows, at, one, of, our, farms, they, both, had, a, condition, where, part, of, the, gut, displaces, in, the, abdomen, and, is, best, repositioned, surgically, the, farmer, observed, that, it, was, probably, linked, to, fmd, last, year, because, of, fmd, he, had, to, use, more, silage, to, keep, his, cows, inside, last, summer, this, meant, he, had, less, stored, over, the, winter, and, so, had, none, available, to, feed, this, spring, summer, the, lack, of, silage, now, is, almost, certainly, implicated, in, the, problems, his, cows, had, it's, very, unusual, to, have, two, occurring, on, one, farm, at, same, time, seeing, as, he, missed, getting, fmd, last, year, though, he, thought, it, was, a, price, worth, paying, it, was, actually, quite, a, pleasant, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, from, kirkby, stephen, where, i, went, to, school, and, i, didn't, have, any, other, jobs, waiting, so, it, was, quite, a, relaxed, few, hours, the, surgery, went, ok, too, i, had, a, half, day, on, friday, and, drove, to, valley, just, beyond, alston, to, meet, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, from, edinburgh, for, his, stag, weekend, we, stayed, in, an, old, barn, in, middle, of, nowhere, so, it, wasn't, exactly, a, conventional, stag, party, but, very, enjoyable, all, the, same, we, walked, to, the, nearest, pub, on, saturday, to, see, england's, exciting, next, instalment, 3, 0, thank, you, very, much, after, that, it's, been, a, leisurely, day, and, drive, back, to, penrith, and, i’ve, got, another, night, to, get, my, head, back, to, normal, for, work, tomorrow, diary, 16, this, week, has, been, quite, small, animal, orientated, again, i've, done, two, mornings, in, the, surgery, and, more, consulting, than, usual, i'm, not, meant, to, be, on, duty, for, nights, this, week, but, i've, had, a, couple, to, cover, for, people, who've, been, on, holiday, fortunately, both, nights, were, fairly, quiet, i'm, sure, the, favour, will, be, returned, sometime, during, the, day, work, has, been, fairly, steady, we’re, not, quite, as, busy, as, last, week, but, there's, enough, to, keep, us, going, the, practice, like, most, of, the, country, tried, to, stop, briefly, while, england, were, losing, to, brazil, it's, a, bit, disappointing, hopefully, farmers, and, the, rest, of, our, clients, won’t, be, too, depressed, about, it, all, it, was, good, while, it, lasted, at, the, weekend, i, went, down, to, a, place, near, worcester, for, the, wedding, of, the, friend, whose, stag, weekend, it, was, the, last, week, there, were, a, lot, of, people, from, edinburgh, there, why, haven't, seen, for, several, years, and, it, was, great, to, catch, up, the, weather, was, very, kind, and, stayed, dry, diary, 18, on, monday, i, went, to, do, a, big, tuberculosis, and, brucellosis, test, at, of, one, our, big, dairy, farms, that, had, restocked, few, months, ago, they’ve, got, several, hundred, cows, and, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, i, had, to, go, back, on, tuesday, to, finish, the, job, off, they’re, a, friendly, family, so, it, wasn't, really, too, much, of, a, chore, there, has, been, a, more, obvious, change, in, them, since, fmd, than, for, most, of, our, clients, who, had, the, disease, they, seem, much, quieter, and, less, concerned, about, farming, and, life's, problems, in, general, now, perhaps, they, think, if, they, can, get, through, 2001, then, there’s, nothing, worth, getting, stressed, about, in, comparison, wednesday, was, spent, doing, small, animal, work, made, a, change, as, on, thursday, i, went, back, to, read, the, cows, results, for, the, tb, test, all, negative, on, thursday, night, i, drove, down, to, stay, with, a, college, friend, near, birmingham, for, the, start, of, a, long, weekend, on, friday, i, carried, on, south, to, another, friend, in, north, devon, she's, working, another, vet, in, an, area, that, was, also, severely, affected, by, fmd, cumbria, was, so, badly, hit, that, is, sometimes, easy, to, forget, that, other, places, had, a, bad, time, too, thankfully, work, in, devon, is, more, or, less, back, to, normal, again, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, weekend, in, south, devon, where, my, dad, had, his, 60th, birthday, we, were, lucky, with, the, weather, and, had, fine, ish, conditions, to, have, a, barbecue, on, the, beach, i, was, off, today, monday, as, well, and, spent, the, day, driving, north, too, far, to, go, for, a, weekend, diary, 19, it's, been, a, short, working, week, seeing, as, i, had, monday, off, i’ve, also, started, a, month, back, on, the, out, of, the, hours, of, rota, this, week, it, works, a, month, on, a, month, off, system, so, nights, and, weekends, have, been, and, will, be, a, bit, busier, work, has, generally, been, a, bit, quieter, recently, this, is, fairly, typical, for, the, time, of, year, mainly, because, animals, are, outside, and, farmers, are, busy, making, hay, and, silage, rain, permitting, we've, had, two, vets, off, this, week, so, although, there, have, been, fewer, jobs, in, we, are, not, left, twiddling, our, thumbs, there, has, been, the, usual, flow, of, a, routine, farm, work, along, with, horses, and, small, animals, but, nothing, too, taxing, on, the, whole, i, had, a, night, on, thursday, and, went, up, st, sunday, crag, in, the, lake, district, with, a, couple, of, friends, from, brampton, it, was, further, than, i, remembered, it, being, we, didn't, get, down, until, it, was, almost, dark, but, apart, from, being, unseasonably, cold, surprise, surprise, it, was, a, fine, night, it, was, duty, this, weekend, i, was, on, first, call, on, friday, night, and, had, it, very, easy, no, calls, until, 12, 45pm, when, another, vet, and, i, had, to, operate, on, a, dog, until, three, am, i, checked, it, again, at, 5.30, and, then, had, to, go, to, calving, at, 6.45, just, as, that, was, finished, i, was, called, to, a, badly, cut, horse, then, some, lame, cows, and, then, to, the, bacon, roll, shop, for, breakfast, i, was, only, on, second, call, for, the, rest, of, the, weekend, and, was, fairly, quiet, this, meant, i, could, get, on, with, various, mundane, things, like, painting, my, house, tidying, the, garden, etc, etc, ideal, tasks, for, when, i, can't, do, anything, else, because, i'm, on, call, and, the, dog, did, well, so, it, makes, the, night, with, no, sleep, worthwhile, diary, 20, have, had, another, short, week, had, monday, off, as, i, was, coming, back, from, a, long, weekend, away, work, this, week, has, been, fairly, steady, farmers, are, often, busy, trying, to, get, silage, hay, in, at, the, moment, so, routine, of, vet, work, takes, a, back, seat, having, said, that, we, have, been, kept, at, least, as, busy, as, we, would, expect, with, routine, fertility, visits, and, the, occasional, sick, cow, etc, there, been, a, few, of, the, restocking, farms, that, have, had, some, fairly, unusual, diseases, that, didn't, obviously, fall, into, the, ones, we, usually, recognise, or, deal, with, as, a, lot, of, them, have, bought, stock, in, from, abroad, we, have, to, at, least, keep, in, mind, the, possibility, of, new, problems, been, brought, in, we've, worked, quite, closely, with, the, local, defra, run, veterinary, investigation, centre, on, a, few, of, these, cases, but, thankfully, none, have, turned, out, to, be, anything, to, be, unduly, worried, about, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, but, have, fortunately, been, reasonably, quiet, the, only, thing, out, the, ordinary, was, a, horse, that, had, torn, its, leg, up, quite, badly, on, some, wire, but, with, a, bit, of, time, and, bandaging, it, should, do, okay, diary, 21, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, so, it's, been, a, bit, busier, for, the, rest, of, us, again, as, with, last, week, it's, been, a, mixture, of, routine, and, the, standard, a, e, type, work, there, have, been, a, few, tuberculin, tests, going, on, still, trying, to, clear, the, backlog, from, last, year, it's, getting, there, slowly, but, a, lot, of, it, will, have, to, wait, until, the, autumn, winter, when, the, cows, are, in, and, the, farmers, have, more, time, available, our, new, vet, who, started, in, april, has, seemed, to, settle, in, very, well, he, had, a, bit, of, a, bad, day, earlier, in, the, week, when, a, calving, did, go, quite, as, planned, it's, very, easy, to, do, especially, when, you, feel, under, pressure, as, is, bound, to, happen, when, you, start, a, new, job, it, reminded, me, of, some, of, the, problems, i, had, a, few, years, ago, the, farm, where, it, happened, is, quite, an, understanding, type, so, it, won't, create, any, real, problems, hockey, training, is, starting, again, which, seems, a, bit, premature, as, the, season, is, still, months, away, at, least, it'll, encourage, me, to, do, a, bit, more, exercise, to, get, fit, for, matches, the, weather, has, meant, i, haven't, been, out, into, the, hills, as, often, as, i, would, have, liked, but, hopefully, there's, still, time, for, it, to, brighten, up, a, bit, had, the, weekend, off, so, a, couple, of, friends, from, college, he, now, living, york, came, to, stay, we, went, up, to, the, borders, for, the, day, on, saturday, near, to, where, i, used, to, work, it, doesn't, seem, to, have, changed, much, i, still, think, i'm, better, off, down, here, despite, last, year, diary, 22, we, had, a, bit, of, a, rush, on, this, week, as, sometimes, seems, to, happen, it, can, be, quiet, for, couple, of, weeks, and, then, it, suddenly, it's, crazy, it, may, be, that, a, lot, of, farms, have, now, largely, got, their, crops, in, and, are, trying, to, catch, up, or, perhaps, it's, just, the, way, things, go, several, farms, have, had, ongoing, problems, this, week, with, visits, being, required, several, days, running, there, have, also, been, a, large, number, of, horse, calls, this, is, probably, fairly, common, for, this, time, of, year, as, they, tend, to, get, ridden, in, the, supposedly, better, weather, we, tend, to, go, further, afield, for, horses, on, tuesday, i, went, to, kirkby, lonsdale, area, in, morning, and, had, to, go, north, of, carlisle, in, the, afternoon, the, miles, get, racked, up, or, fairly, quickly, and, i, get, to, learn, where, the, various, blind, spots, for, phone, and, radio, reception, are, i, was, on, duty, again, on, the, weekend, which, meant, that, i, was, also, on, for, monday, wednesday, and, friday, nights, they, weren't, too, bad, apart, from, friday, when, i, have, to, go, and, see, a, couple, of, horses, being, on, duty, for, three, week, nights, tends, to, limit, what, i, can, do, apart, from, work, but, i, managed, to, meet, up, with, some, friends, working, in, brampton, one, night, and, go, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, on, thursday, the, weekend, was, fairly, quiet, but, i, was, only, on, second, call, so, i, found, time, to, do, some, decorating, in, the, room, in, my, house, which, is, the, current, project, i, lead, such, a, thrilling, life, diary, 23, the, calm, after, the, storm, after, the, frantic, levels, of, work, we, saw, last, week, it, has, again, been, a, bit, more, civilised, this, week, we've, had, time, to, have, coffee, and, lunch, breaks, and, actually, talk, to, colleagues, from, time, to, time, i, wouldn't, want, have, every, week, is, quiet, as, this, but, occasionally, it's, very, welcome, it's, quite, relaxing, to, be, able, to, go, on, a, call, knowing, that, there, is, not, another, one, waiting, it, also, means, that, if, the, afternoons, are, quiet, one, of, us, can, usually, have, a, half, day, i, got, the, nod, on, wednesday, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, they’ve, got, a, smallholding, down, there, with, various, creatures, which, usually, have, some, ailment, or, other, it's, a, bit, of, a, busman's, holiday, going, there, but, it, is, nice, having, them, close, i, tend, see, them, every, week, or, two, on, wednesday, i, vaccinated, a, couple, of, horses, and, trimmed, a, few, sheep’s, feet, they, went, through, the, joys, of, 48, hourly, surveillance, inspections, last, year, but, somehow, managed, to, come, through, unscathed, their, parish, was, one, of, the, only, ones, in, the, kirkby, stephen, area, to, do, so, other, weekend, i, went, up, to, glasgow, to, see, a, cousin, who, was, having, a, leaving, party, i, didn't, know, many, people, there, but, it, was, good, to, go, and, do, something, completely, removed, from, the, usual, one, of, the, people, i, did, know, came, and, stayed, in, penrith, on, sunday, night, it, was, a, stunning, day, we, went, the, lakes, which, were, at, their, best, diary, 24, this, week, was, the, first, of, four, for, me, being, off, the, rota, which, should, mean, no, nights, and, no, weekends, on, call, can't, be, bad, on, monday, had, a, small, tb, test, to, do, it, was, with, a, very, pleasant, farmer, and, the, cows, behaved, themselves, so, it, wasn't, a, bad, way, to, spend, a, morning, he's, imported, a, small, herd, from, holland, and, seems, very, pleased, with, them, so, far, it, takes, a, bit, time, for, the, f, m, farmers, to, get, used, to, their, new, stock, as, most, of, them, knew, their, old, ones, so, well, but, on, the, whole, people, seemed, fairly, content, with, their, new, ones, i, did, small, animal, ops, on, tuesday, and, wednesday, as, one, of, the, vets, who, usually, do, it, was, on, holiday, we've, got, a, new, nurse, starting, this, week, so, it, was, a, case, of, showing, her, the, ropes, but, she, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, one, my, best, school, friends, got, married, on, friday, very, typically, after, a, fairly, quiet, week, it, suddenly, got, busy, on, friday, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, the, wedding, but, had, to, miss, the, afternoon, reception, in, order, to, go, and, see, a, horse, in, appleby, that's, life, i, was, one, of, the, duty, vets, at, lowther, show, on, saturday, i, hadn't, done, it, before, and, had, a, very, good, time, it, was, generally, fine, weather, and, there, were, some, truly, stunning, teams, of, horses, in, the, driving, event, lots, of, competitors, commented, on, how, good, it, was, to, have, the, show, up, and, running, again, after, last, year's, cancellations, the, event, passed, without, any, major, incident, for, vet, wise, so, it, was, a, pretty, calm, day, for, me, really, diary, 25, the, week's, been, fairly, steady, i, seem, to, have, been, doing, more, horses, than, anything, else, i, didn't, go, and, see, a, cow, until, friday, several, of, them, were, ongoing, cases, such, as, leg, wounds, that, have, needed, daily, dressing, changes, and, the, rest, a, selection, of, vaccinations, lameness, and, those, that, aren't, quite, right, i, quite, enjoy, the, horse, side, of, the, job, so, doing, a, bit, more, than, usual, has, been, a, welcome, change, i, had, planned, to, get, to, work, on, my, house, this, month, in, my, free, evenings, but, it, doesn't, really, seem, to, have, worked, like, that, when, i, know, i've, got, a, lot, of, free, time, nights, tend, to, get, booked, up, seeing, people, from, home, or, near, by, who, i’ve, temporarily, lost, touch, with, also, seeing, as, summer, seems, to, have, found, us, i've, been, trying, to, get, into, the, lakes, as, much, as, possible, the, house, can, wait, till, winter, this, weekend, i’ve, been, down, to, wales, to, see, a, group, of, college, friends, we, stayed, in, a, cottage, owned, by, one, of, the, group's, parents, and, played, a, few, rounds, of, golf, i, played, very, badly, lost, a, lot, of, balls, and, became, very, frustrated, with, it, all, i, think, it, comes, down, to, lack, of, talent, still, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, some, people, i, haven't, seen, since, graduation, and, i'm, sure, the, golf, will, be, better, next, year, diary, 26, i've, done, more, small, animal, work, than, anything, else, this, week, there, had, been, no, disasters, all, fairly, routine, stuff, one, of, the, small, animal, vets, has, been, away, so, i, had, to, cover, a, bit, i, didn't, actually, get, out, onto, a, farm, until, friday, morning, it, gets, a, bit, claustrophobic, inside, after, a, while, so, it, was, good, to, get, out, i, was, on, call, at, the, weekend, and, also, had, a, college, friend, to, stay, it, was, very, quiet, most, of, the, time, until, sunday, evening, i, had, swapped, duty, to, be, off, on, the, night, from, 6, 00pm, at, 5.45, four, calls, all, came, in, at, once, at, all, four, corners, of, the, practice, so, i, didn't, actually, get, finished, until, nearly, 8pm, that’s, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, i, suppose, i, had, another, half, day, earlier, in, the, week, as, it, was, fairly, quiet, i, took, my, bike, out, into, the, northern, lakes, for, a, few, hours, to, blow, away, the, cobwebs, from, being, inside, at, work, diary, 27, i, had, a, barbecue, party, this, weekend, for, people, from, work, and, a, lot, of, friends, from, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, i, thought, i'd, always, keep, in, touch, with, the, but, as, time, went, on, i, never, did, so, i, arranged, a, weekend, a, long, way, in, advance, for, us, all, to, meet, up, again, about, 28, people, came, most, of, whom, i, haven't, seen, for, least, a, year, or, two, nobody, seems, to, have, changed, much, and, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, again, the, garden, and, house, have, both, taken, a, bit, of, a, pounding, but, i, think, most, of, the, mess, is, fairly, superficial, i, went, for, a, walk, near, howtown, today, to, clear, my, head, after, the, barbecue, last, night, it, was, a, very, good, day, weather, wise, which, meant, that, a, lot, of, people, had, had, the, same, idea, as, us, it's, been, a, variable, week, at, work, some, days, been, very, quiet, others, flat, out, i've, had, an, ongoing, case, of, a, young, horse, that, had, been, caught, up, in, wire, on, monday, evening, it, was, well, beyond, the, stage, where, it, could, have, been, stitched, when, i, saw, it, so, it'll, have, to, heal, slowly, by, filling, the, wound, in, i'm, sure, it'll, be, fine, but, it's, going, to, take, a, long, time, we’re, starting, to, get, a, lot, of, inquiries, about, the, new, rules, defra, are, bringing, in, to, allow, farmers, to, bring, animals, on, to, their, farms, in, isolation, facilities, it, should, make, things, less, restrictive, for, the, farmer, we, are, going, to, have, to, do, a, lot, of, inspections, it's, not, since, restocking, checks, last, winter, that, we’ve, really, had, to, do, this, sort, of, thing, but, the, checks, probably, won't, be, as, exhaustive, as, those, we, had, to, do, last, year, diary, 28, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, really, this, been, a, fairly, standard, mix, of, sick, cows, a, couple, of, lame, horses, and, the, continuation, of, the, young, horse, that, wrecked, its, leg, last, week, which, is, going, okay, so, it's, been, fairly, laid, back, on, the, whole, with, time, for, a, coffee, break, after, most, calls, we, have, done, the, first, of, the, inspections, for, the, new, on, farm, isolation, facilities, for, sheep, on, the, whole, farmer, compliance, has, been, very, good, there, have, been, a, few, whinges, about, why, they, have, to, do, it, and, i, can, see, why, as, it, must, be, frustrating, to, suddenly, be, told, how, to, run, stock, movements, that, they've, always, done, a, different, way, most, can, see, why, defra, are, insisting, on, it, though, as, it's, all, aimed, at, reducing, the, risk, of, having, another, situation, like, we, did, last, year, i, was, off, again, this, weekend, one, of, my, old, flat, mates, and, his, wife, came, to, stay, they, live, in, london, so, came, north, for, a, weekend, of, clean, living, and, fresh, air, we, went, for, walks, around, cat, bells, and, high, street, on, saturday, and, sunday, ate, drank, and, were, generally, fairly, unstressed, hope, it, was, what, they, were, looking, for, diary, 29, i've, had, a, short, week, in, terms, of, work, at, the, practice, this, week, as, i've, been, to, glasgow, for, an, equine, conference, from, thursday, to, saturday, further, education, is, not, compulsory, and, there, is, no, formal, structure, for, it, which, is, quite, controversial, in, some, people's, eyes, but, the, royal, college, of, vets, do, encourage, us, to, keep, up, to, date, there, is, a, quota, we’re, asked, to, fulfil, each, year, and, these, three, days, will, help, me, keep, on, track, there, were, several, different, courses, on, each, day, with, one, lecture, theatre, for, practitioner, based, subjects, that, we, could, expect, to, see, on, a, day, to, day, basis, and, another, called, advanced, clinical, sessions, on, subjects, and, cases, so, obscure, that, you'd, be, lucky, to, hear, of, one, let, alone, see, one, more, than, once, or, twice, i, didn't, go, to, many, of, those, lectures, as, well, as, being, useful, in, terms, of, picking, up, new, information, it, was, also, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, old, friends, from, college, lots, of, people, i, hadn't, seen, for, a, year, or, two, were, there, and, it, was, good, to, see, them, the, first, three, days, of, the, week, were, okay, i, went, out, on, tuesday, morning, to, trim, some, lame, cows, feet, and, ended, up, accidentally, trimming, some, skin, from, the, farmers, thumb, with, my, hoof, knife, all, a, bit, embarrassing, and, felt, very, bad, but, he, didn't, seem, that, fazed, by, it, and, he's, not, the, type, to, bear, a, grudge, perhaps, i, shouldn’t, try, to, keep, my, knife, so, sharp, another, of, the, week's, more, interesting, events, was, an, irish, wolfhound, that, needed, surgery, to, correct, a, twisted, and, distended, stomach, it's, fairly, common, in, this, type, of, dog, and, is, a, real, emergency, another, vet, and, i, operated, on, him, on, tuesday, afternoon, it, took, a, couple, of, hours, but, so, far, is, seems, to, have, been, worth, it, as, he's, done, very, well, and, apparently, went, home, on, friday, diary, 30, i, spent, most, of, monday, afternoon, evening, irradiating, myself, by, taking, dozens, of, x, rays, of, a, horse’s, legs, it, was, being, sold, for, a, lot, of, money, and, the, insurance, company, wanted, to, check, all, its, joints, were, ok, before, insuring, it, it, took, a, lot, longer, than, anticipated, as, it, was, difficult, to, get, it, positioned, absolutely, right, for, each, view, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, we, have, to, be, quite, careful, about, exposure, to, x, rays, but, my, x, ray, badge, hasn't, shown, a, high, reading, yet, 2, vets, have, been, off, this, week, one, on, his, honeymoon, and, one, has, been, away, doing, ai, on, sheep, its, often, a, bit, quieter, now, but, we, seem, to, have, been, kept, going, i, did, a, big, routine, fertility, visit, to, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, wednesday, one, of, the, main, things, we, do, on, these, visits, is, manual, pregnancy, diagnosis, it's, not, too, bad, with, dairy, calves, cows, as, if, they're, not, in, calf, they, would, normally, get, another, chance, to, do, so, but, with, some, beef, farms, or, a, dairy, cow, that, is, persistently, not, conceiving, it, sometimes, more, economic, to, get, rid, of, the, cow, of, rather, than, persisting, so, there's, a, big, incentive, for, us, to, get, it, right, or, at, least, not, to, say, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, when, she, is, luckily, they, were, all, quite, straightforward, this, week, this, was, my, last, before, going, away, to, the, usa, for, a, fortnight, i, fly, to, new, york, tomorrow, to, meet, up, with, an, old, flatmate, of, mine, who's, a, journalist, out, there, i'm, crossing, the, atlantic, to, see, him, and, he's, given, me, directions, to, his, flat, rather, than, meeting, me, at, the, airport, because, i'm, arriving, when, premiership, football, is, on, tv, charming, diary, 31, two, weeks, in, the, states, can't, be, bad, i, flew, into, new, york, where, i, stayed, with, a, friend, who's, working, in, manhattan, i, did, a, lot, of, the, usual, tourist, things, empire, state, building, boat, trip, around, the, island, central, park, etc, for, its, size, it's, a, very, relaxed, place, in, a, lot, of, ways, it, feels, very, safe, and, although, there, is, loads, going, on, you, never, seem, to, get, hassled, we, flew, to, new, orleans, for, a, week, supposedly, for, some, sun, in, the, deep, south, but, landed, just, as, a, tropical, storm, hit, the, mainland, everything, was, closed, for, two, days, as, bad, as, uk, when, it, snows, once, the, weather, cleared, it, was, fine, and, we, again, went, about, being, tourists, paddle, boat, up, the, mississippi, river, out, on, a, boat, in, the, louisiana, swamps, to, look, at, alligators, and, a, bit, of, new, orleans, nightlife, i, had, a, few, more, days, in, new, york, before, flying, home, diary, 32, first, week, back, after, america, had, a, good, trip, but, the, week, has, been, rather, marred, by, the, death, of, one, of, the, hockey, team, and, a, year, mate, of, mine, at, school, in, a, tractor, accident, when, he, was, hit, by, a, wagon, on, the, a, 66, on, thursday, i, saw, him, on, wednesday, night, at, hockey, training, he, was, very, stiff, having, done, the, great, north, run, with, his, wife, the, weekend, before, i, didn't, know, him, very, well, at, school, but, have, got, to, over, the, last, few, years, via, hockey, and, he, really, was, a, tremendously, good, person, and, will, be, much, missed, by, lots, of, people, in, and, around, kirkby, stephen, the, weekend's, match, was, postponed, as, no, one, could, have, thought, about, playing, it, all, seems, very, trivial, when, this, sort, of, thing, happens, i, couldn't, have, played, anyway, as, i'm, on, duty, this, weekend, but, fortunately, it's, been, fairly, quiet, so, far, a, calving, and, 2, caesareans, but, it's, getting, into, calving, season, so, it's, about, par, for, the, course, the, first, half, of, the, week, was, ok, i, was, even, given, a, half, day, on, tuesday, a, day, and, a, half, after, returning, from, holiday, i, went, for, a, walk, at, the, bottom, end, of, derwent, water, and, then, tried, to, sleep, off, some, jet, lag, diary, 33, i, went, to, matthew's, funeral, on, tuesday, how, popular, he, was, was, reflected, in, the, number, of, people, there, we, arrived, 25, minutes, before, it, was, due, to, start, and, still, had, to, stand, and, had, to, move, up, as, more, people, tried, to, fit, into, the, chapel, it, almost, seemed, as, if, all, of, kirkby, had, come, to, a, standstill, it, went, on, quite, a, long, time, so, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, went, to, see, my, parents, who, live, near, kirkby, afterwards, we, cancelled, hockey, training, on, wednesday, as, it, seemed, too, soon, to, go, on, as, usual, but, decided, play, our, scheduled, match, on, saturday, both, our, team, and, the, opposition, had, two, minute, silence, before, the, match, we, ended, up, drawing, 0, 0, but, it, was, a, very, good, close, game, we, normally, lose, to, this, team, and, played, in, a, competitive, but, fair, spirit, just, what, was, needed, for, our, first, match, back, i'm, actually, on, duty, again, this, weekend, but, one, my, colleagues, covered, for, me, for, a, few, hours, so, i, could, go, to, play, the, cases, at, work, have, been, fairly, steady, this, week, i'm, going, to, enrol, for, a, further, qualification, in, equine, practice, in, the, next, week, or, two, i'm, doing, a, reasonable, amount, of, horse, work, at, the, moment, but, will, try, to, do, a, bit, more, over, the, next, few, months, years, it, should, motivate, me, to, read, up, on, cases, more, and, find, slightly, more, constructive, ways, to, spend, evenings, on, call, diary, 34, tb, testing, our, biggest, beef, herd, had, its, post, restocking, test, this, week, about, 600, cattle, were, to, be, done, there’s, no, way, it, could, be, done, in, one, go, so, we, did, it, over, 3, instead, originally, planned, for, two, but, ran, out, of, daylight, it, all, went, smoothly, on, the, whole, or, at, least, as, well, as, could, be, expected, and, everything, has, been, cleared, as, negative, i, found, out, from, defra, a, few, weeks, ago, that, there, have, actually, been, quite, a, few, tb, cases, in, the, county, since, restocking, as, we'd, been, clear, for, years, previously, to, fmd, this, is, obviously, a, bit, of, a, worry, we, haven't, had, any, cases, in, our, practice, but, if, we, can't, stamp, out, these, new, cases, as, they, are, found, it’s, only, a, matter, of, time, before, it, spreads, further, afield, the, more, we, get, in, the, county, also, means, there, will, have, to, be, more, testing, at, the, moment, it's, begrudgingly, accepted, by, the, farmers, but, if, we, have, to, do, more, i, can, see, them, having, a, sense, of, humour, failure, over, it, ultimately, it's, in, their, interest, for, us, to, check, that, their, herd, is, free, but, it, is, a, big, time, commitment, and, they, don't, get, paid, for, it, while, i, spent, two, days, testing, the, rest, of, the, week, had, a, bit, more, variety, i, saw, few, horses, mainly, lameness, but, also, one, or, two, with, other, ailments, i, have, to, write, a, casebook, for, the, equine, certificate, i'm, doing, i’m, on, the, lookout, for, suitable, cases, during, my, rounds, i, had, the, weekend, off, played, hockey, in, manchester, and, then, went, to, worcester, to, see, some, college, friends, i, had, to, drive, back, via, ely, as, the, trains, are, cancelled, due, to, the, winds, which, meant, a, friend, was, stranded, not, a, very, direct, route, to, cumbria, diary, 35, the, week, started, on, monday, morning, with, another, tb, test, on, a, restocking, farm, it's, not, a, big, farm, and, was, one, of, the, late, ones, to, get, fmd, it's, run, by, a, very, nice, but, quite, intense, family, the, son, has, taken, re, stocking, very, seriously, and, has, obviously, thought, of, it, very, much, as, an, opportunity, to, start, from, scratch, and, try, to, eliminate, some, of, their, previous, herd, problems, i, have, consequently, spent, quite, a, bit, of, time, advising, him, over, the, various, vaccines, available, and, their, relative, pros, and, cons, thankfully, things, seem, to, be, paying, off, so, far, with, few, problems, in, herd, one, of, the, things, that, i, noticed, during, the, test, was, that, they, made, one, or, two, jokes, about, last, year, sorry, forgotten, exactly, what, they, said, i, thought, the, fact, that, they, were, able, to, now, talk, about, fmd, like, that, had, to, be, a, good, sign, as, i, think, it, would, have, been, highly, unlikely, a, year, ago, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, went, up, to, wigton, to, vet, a, horse, for, a, potential, buyer, there, were, several, minor, things, wrong, with, it, but, overall, it, seemed, ok, it's, always, a, responsibility, vetting, horses, as, someone, is, either, trying, to, buy, it, or, not, on, the, basis, of, what, i, find, in, this, case, it, took, quite, a, lot, of, convincing, the, buyer, that, the, imperfections, were, not, that, serious, hopefully, they, won’t, subsequently, turn, out, to, be, a, problem, i've, started, doing, more, horse, cases, recently, and, on, tuesday, sent, off, my, application, form, to, be, accepted, to, do, further, exams, in, horse, practice, i, have, to, wait, until, next, year, to, find, out, whether, i've, been, accepted, and, won't, sit, them, until, 2005, i, was, off, this, weekend, and, played, hockey, in, manchester, unfortunately, we, didn't, win, maybe, next, week, saturday, evening, i, went, down, to, kendal, to, see, an, old, flatmate, who, lives, there, diary, 36, on, tuesday, i, went, to, see, a, horse, near, carlisle, it, had, developed, a, swelling, on, its, lower, jaw, that, was, fairly, painful, to, touch, they, were, a, few, possibilities, but, the, most, likely, was, that, it, had, at, tooth, root, abscess, i, put, it, on, to, antibiotics, but, seeing, as, it, had, obviously, been, going, on, for, a, while, thought, it, was, worth, taking, some, x, rays, there, was, obvious, destruction, of, the, tooth, visible, on, the, x, ray, which, probably, means, it, needs, removing, this, is, a, fairly, major, undertaking, on, a, horse, and, as, it, was, a, valuable, creature, still, in, training, i, thought, it, best, to, send, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, have, it, done, hopefully, i'll, be, able, to, go, and, see, it, done, in, a, day, or, two's, time, one, of, the, aspects, drawbacks, not, really, of, being, a, vet, his, that, one, is, often, asked, about, animal, ailments, out, of, work, i’m, sure, it, happens, a, lot, in, other, jobs, too, my, mother, is, very, adept, at, this, not, that, i, really, mind, her, elderly, terrier, that, we, grew, up, with, has, started, having, one, or, two, problems, recently, i, suggested, a, few, possibilities, but, thought, it, best, if, she, went, to, the, local, vets, to, have, her, looked, at, the, problem, was, she, was, so, bad, tempered, the, terrier, that, they, couldn’t, safely, blood, sample, her, so, she, had, a, day, out, to, penrith, so, that, i, could, try, to, take, blood, from, her, i, managed, to, more, or, less, intact, and, fortunately, her, results, seemed, more, or, less, in, order, or, at, least, better, than, her, temper, the, general, work, in, the, practice, has, been, fairly, steady, this, week, a, few, farmers, seem, to, be, having, quite, a, few, cows, calving, at, the, moment, which, is, a, bit, unseasonal, but, i, suppose, a, reasonable, number, tend, to, calve, all, year, round, we, haven't, really, got, into, calf, pneumonia, season, yet, but, it, can't, be, long, before, they, start, to, keep, us, busy, it, will, soon, take, over, from, lungworm, as, the, main, bovine, respiratory, problem, the, weekend, was, off, again, brought, a, victory, in, a, hockey, match, the, start, of, a, winning, streak, perhaps, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, after, the, match, to, see, a, few, friends, and, for, the, start, of, a, week, off, wahey, diary, 37, it's, a, week, off, can't, be, bad, i, didn't, do, what, i, had, planned, due, to, an, unforeseen, change, in, circumstances, but, still, good, as, i, was, in, edinburgh, last, weekend, i, decided, to, stay, up, for, few, days, this, was, partly, to, see, friends, and, also, because, i, had, referred, the, horse, with, a, bad, tooth, that, i, mentioned, last, week, voluntary, work, experience, during, time, off, dedication, or, very, rash, i, spent, tuesday, at, the, vet, school, in, edinburgh, with, one, of, my, old, tutors, the, case, i, had, sent, up, was, successfully, treated, so, far, by, removing, the, offending, tooth, it, was, very, interesting, to, see, how, he, did, it, as, he, used, a, different, technique, to, the, one, we’ve, used, in, the, practice, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, there, with, him, seeing, other, cases, it, felt, a, bit, odd, being, there, not, as, a, student, i, came, home, on, tuesday, evening, and, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, my, folks, on, wednesday, morning, i, spent, most, of, the, rest, of, the, week, either, at, their, house, or, mine, doing, things, like, stocking, up, on, firewood, for, the, winter, sorting, my, house, out, and, making, a, start, on, stripping, the, wallpaper, in, my, hallway, i, normally, go, away, when, i, take, time, off, but, it, was, actually, very, nice, to, do, things, at, home, for, change, it, made, for, quite, a, relaxing, week, on, the, whole, diary, 38, back, to, work, it, was, good, to, have, a, week, off, last, week, but, one, of, the, best, things, about, where, i, work, and, what, i, do, is, that, i, never, seem, to, feel, reluctant, to, go, back, to, work, i, think, that, must, mean, i, enjoy, it, on, the, whole, on, tuesday, i, went, back, to, see, the, horse, that, had, had, its, tooth, removed, last, week, it's, doing, very, well, and, is, back, in, training, it, was, eating, very, well, as, soon, as, the, tooth, came, out, it's, amazing, how, animals, often, seem, to, deal, with, pain, so, stoically, i'll, check, it, again, next, week, and, all, things, being, well, that, should, be, it, on, tuesday, afternoon, i, happened, to, see, another, slightly, unusual, case, in, a, horse, it, had, developed, a, lump, on, the, outside, of, its, cheek, which, on, closer, inspection, turned, out, to, be, a, large, mass, man, inside, its, mouth, it's, probably, going, to, have, to, be, removed, and, should, come, in, next, week, for, it, to, be, done, the, rest, of, the, week, was, the, usual, mix, of, more, routine, cases, have, been, on, to, more, farms, this, week, than, i, have, done, for, a, while, we, recently, took, on, a, new, dairy, farm, near, appleby, and, i, went, to, see, a, cow, there, for, the, first, time, on, a, first, visit, you, always, hope, for, something, straightforward, so, that, it's, easy, to, make, a, good, first, impression, on, this, occasion, the, cow, was, very, sick, and, wasn't, really, giving, me, many, clues, as, to, why, all, i, could, do, was, treat, it, for, the, symptoms, it, was, showing, i, saw, it, twice, on, friday, and, again, on, saturday, and, by, evening, it, was, on, the, mend, i, never, did, reach, a, conclusive, diagnosis, but, i, think, the, farmer, was, satisfied, by, the, fact, that, it, had, got, better, in, spite, of, not, knowing, quite, what, was, wrong, i, was, on, duty, friday, night, very, quiet, and, on, saturday, apart, from, the, cow, i, mentioned, it, was, fairly, easy, going, today, i, went, down, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, some, old, friends, staying, with, my, parents, two, weeks, with, no, tb, testing, it'll, change, next, week, diary, 39, it's, been, a, fairly, uneventful, week, at, work, there, don't, seem, to, have, been, any, particularly, on, going, or, notable, cases, in, some, ways, it's, not, a, bad, thing, as, it, makes, for, a, fairly, stress, free, time, it's, not, that, you, can, really, switch, off, but, it, does, mean, that, when, there, are, a, few, fairly, straightforward, cases, to, see, it's, possible, to, spend, more, time, chatting, to, the, farmer, owner, without, having, to, work, too, hard, finding, what's, wrong, with, the, patient, this, week's, most, interesting, case, was, a, horse, with, amazingly, extensive, arthritis, in, its, hind, legs, considering, its, age, it's, not, a, terminal, condition, but, it, does, have, implications, as, to, what, it, will, be, possible, to, use, it, for, in, future, in, situations, like, that, it, can, be, quite, difficult, to, give, the, client, the, right, outlook, they, often, expect, a, quick, cure, especially, in, a, young, horse, and, to, tell, them, that, a, problem, has, been, present, for, months, if, not, years, and, will, never, completely, go, away, can, come, as, a, bit, of, shock, the, owner, in, this, case, was, very, sensible, and, seemed, to, taking, what, was, said, very, well, the, other, good, thing, about, this, week, is, that, i'm, having, a, very, good, run, with, my, duties, i've, been, on, for, two, nights, on, first, call, and, the, phone, hasn't, gone, once, very, unusual, and, very, welcome, this, must, be, tempting, fate, i've, had, the, weekend, off, there, was, a, hockey, match, on, saturday, when, we, lost, to, the, league, leaders, but, avoided, humiliation, the, rest, of, the, two, days, was, spent, trying, to, progress, with, decorating, the, hallway, before, friends, come, to, stay, over, christmas, and, new, year, am, i, not, too, young, to, be, spending, weekends, off, decorating, diary, 40, i, had, a, good, test, of, my, diplomacy, skills, this, week, with, an, irate, farmer, i, had, spent, four, hours, doing, a, tb, test, on, a, very, cold, day, when, it, should, have, taken, about, one, and, a, half, hours, in, my, rush, to, get, defrosted, in, my, car, afterwards, i, forgot, to, shut, the, gate, in, the, field, where, i, had, parked, on, my, return, to, the, surgery, i, was, greeted, by, the, news, that, he, had, rung, wanting, my, head, on, a, stick, and, forbidding, me, from, ever, setting, foot, on, his, farm, again, as, all, his, tups, had, gone, walkabout, through, the, gate, i'd, left, open, on, advice, from, the, partners, at, the, practice, who, knew, him, better, i, gave, him, a, day, to, calm, down, and, then, wrote, a, very, grovelling, letter, i, was, allowed, to, go, back, at, the, end, of, the, week, to, read, the, test, results, which, fortunately, was, all, clear, i, think, he's, forgiven, me, one, of, the, more, common, cow, operations, we, do, is, to, correct, a, displaced, stomach, in, the, two, and, a, half, years, i've, been, at, the, practice, we’ve, always, done, it, using, one, particular, technique, there, are, circumstances, where, another, method, is, indicated, and, having, not, seen, them, for, 2, years, there, were, 2, this, week, they, both, went, well, so, far, another, two, years, before, the, next, i, took, my, last, day, off, for, 2002, on, thursday, and, again, spent, it, decorating, on, thursday, night, we, had, our, practice, christmas, meal, the, two, vets, on, duty, managed, not, to, get, called, out, and, on, the, whole, i, think, people, weren't, too, hung, over, on, friday, last, year, there, was, a, bit, of, a, debate, as, to, whether, we, should, have, a, christmas, night, out, as, most, farmers, were, either, just, starting, to, restock, or, still, cleaning, out, this, year, it, was, much, more, straightforward, on, friday, night, it, was, the, annual, night, at, hesket, newmarket, organised, by, the, local, defra, lab, for, any, local, vets, that, want, a, meal, and, beers, it's, a, good, chance, to, catch, up, with, other, vets, from, neighbouring, practices, in, very, informal, atmosphere, diary, 41, i've, had, a, couple, of, vet, students, staying, with, me, this, week, who, i, knew, when, i, was, in, my, final, year, at, edinburgh, they're, doing, work, experience, with, us, for, a, week, or, so, it's, made, a, pleasant, change, to, have, some, company, for, a, while, i, have, also, acquired, two, stray, kittens, in, the, last, week, the, usual, vet, procedure, of, eventually, finding, an, unwanted, patient, that, you, can't, resist, taking, yourself, they, are, settling, in, ok, and, we’ve, only, had, to, have, one, or, two, little, discussions, about, the, benefits, of, using, a, litter, tray, rather, than, the, carpet, the, week, at, work, has, been, reasonably, busy, a, good, thing, this, week, as, there, have, been, three, students, and, it's, a, bit, dull, for, them, if, there, is, nothing, going, on, we, had, a, horse, in, for, most, of, the, week, with, a, severe, respiratory, infection, it’s, needed, fairly, intensive, care, but, seems, to, be, on, the, mend, now, i, may, use, it, as, a, case, to, write, up, as, part, of, the, exam, i'm, hoping, to, do, in, a, few, years, it'll, have, to, be, a, new, year's, resolution, to, get, on, with, the, writing, up, part, of, it, apart, from, a, horse, it's, been, the, usual, sort, of, mix, a, few, routine, fertility, visits, to, dairy, farms, a, few, sick, cows, and, horses, etc, there, been, some, tb, tests, this, week, but, i've, managed, to, miss, them, all, must, be, saving, some, for, me, next, year, i, had, a, lot, of, people, from, work, here, on, friday, night, for, pre, christmas, mulled, wine, and, mince, pies, i'm, not, quite, sure, the, kittens, knew, what, was, happening, but, i, think, the, rest, of, us, enjoyed, it, i've, had, the, weekend, off, and, went, down, to, see, a, friend, in, birmingham, who, qualified, last, summer, this, was, her, second, weekend, on, call, so, i, went, to, give, moral, support, being, on, call, isn't, stressful, anymore, but, i, remember, for, the, first, few, times, it's, difficult, not, to, be, aware, of, the, phone, all, the, time, and, hoping, it, doesn't, ring, there, weren't, many, calls, and, those, that, did, come, in, she, didn't, need, me, for, suited, me, well, diary, 42, the, week, of, christmas, and, my, first, job, of, the, week, was, to, replace, a, particularly, contaminated, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, it, finally, went, back, in, after, an, hour, or, so, of, fairly, fruitless, efforts, very, festive, this, week, and, next, we, had, fewer, vets, than, usual, working, each, day, as, we, all, have, a, few, days, off, for, christmas, new, year, so, it‘s, sometimes, a, bit, busy, during, the, day, it's, generally, worth, it, for, the, extra, time, off, i, was, off, on, monday, night, and, went, to, kirkby, stephen, to, see, school, friends, back, for, the, holiday, although, we, don't, see, each, other, very, often, any, more, people, don't, really, seem, to, change, very, much, a, good, friend, whose, parents, farm, had, f, and, m, have, sold, up, and, are, going, into, b, b, instead, i, think, it, was, a, hard, decision, but, now, they, seen, to, be, quite, relieved, to, be, out, of, it, i, was, on, duty, on, christmas, eve, and, fortunately, didn't, have, to, go, out, i, just, had, three, phone, calls, between, 7, and, 9, p, m, from, people, saying, their, dog, or, cat, had, been, off, food, for, periods, varying, from, three, weeks, to, 10, days, christmas, eve, seemed, an, odd, time, to, notice, this, i, went, home, to, kirkby, stephen, for, christmas, and, boxing, day, and, didn't, really, do, very, much, i, had, a, look, at, a, couple, of, mum’s, sheep, but, other, than, that, it, was, just, a, case, of, being, lazy, and, enjoying, seasonal, food, and, drink, i, was, on, duty, this, weekend, which, turned, out, be, fairly, busy, one, of, the, students, who, came, to, stay, last, week, came, back, to, do, some, on, call, work, which, turned, out, to, be, very, useful, a, couple, of, cows, to, operate, on, as, caesar, and, a, displaced, stomach, where, two, pairs, of, hands, are, better, than, one, and, quite, a, few, small, animals, to, see, to, diary, 43, i've, had, most, of, this, week, off, for, new, year, tuesday, to, friday, which, is, pretty, good, going, seen, as, i, was, off, for, christmas, as, well, monday, was, fairly, quiet, with, just, a, few, farm, calls, to, do, and, some, small, animals, rather, worryingly, we've, heard, that, a, local, deer, farm, not, one, of, our, customers, has, gone, down, with, tb, apparently, with, quite, a, few, deer, in, the, herd, having, it, this, means, that, we'll, have, to, do, tb, check, tests, on, any, of, our, farms, that, neighbour, the, affected, premises, over, new, year, my, cousin, her, husband, and, their, five, children, young, came, to, stay, it, wasn't, too, hectic, on, the, whole, with, just, the, occasional, loss, of, humour, a, couple, of, friends, from, work, came, round, to, join, us, for, new, year, itself, i've, had, to, work, this, weekend, part, of, the, deal, for, getting, four, days, off, midweek, but, it's, not, really, been, that, busy, i've, only, been, on, second, call, and, have, only, had, to, do, 2, calls, so, far, an, easy, return, to, work, after, new, year, excesses, diary, 44, back, to, normal, quota, of, vets, at, work, again, this, week, which, is, good, as, it, seems, to, have, been, very, busy, most, of, it, has, been, the, usual, sort, of, things, for, the, time, of, year, cows, starting, to, get, lame, after, having, been, inside, for, a, few, months, and, metabolic, problems, probably, related, to, the, poor, silage, last, year's, summer, rain, created, quite, a, few, farmers, have, a, large, amount, of, 2001, silage, left, as, it, wasn't, used, over, winter, 2001, 2002, as, they, hadn't, restocked, on, the, whole, it's, kept, very, well, and, in, many, cases, is, better, than, the, crop, they, made, last, summer, the, fall, out, from, the, deer, herd, tb, has, arrived, two, neighbouring, farms, to, test, this, week, the, first, one, has, come, back, negative, to, the, relief, of, all, concerned, i, did, the, second, one, on, friday, and, will, read, it, tomorrow, monday, the, farmers, there, are, all, very, concerned, about, it, which, is, understandable, but, hopefully, groundless, there, are, lots, of, questions, being, asked, along, the, lines, of, what, if, some, of, which, i, can, answer, and, some, not, it, does, remind, me, a, bit, of, february, 2001, when, fmd, broke, out, and, there, were, all, sorts, of, queries, about, the, disease, its, progression, etc, that, none, of, us, really, knew, about, it, didn't, take, long, for, us, to, know, the, answers, to, most, of, them, i've, had, this, weekend, off, a, hockey, fixture, list, has, started, again, after, the, christmas, break, a, return, to, winning, ways, hopefully, to, continue, diary, 45, the, week, had, a, bad, start, the, tb, test, i, did, last, friday, produced, two, reactors, and, two, inconclusive, borderline, reactors, this, means, that, the, farm, isn't, allowed, to, move, at, any, bovines, on, or, off, the, farm, except, directly, to, slaughter, under, licence, the, reactors, are, taken, away, for, post, mortem, examination, and, the, inconclusive, reactors, are, isolated, for, 60, days, until, the, rest, of, the, herd, is, re, tested, the, farmer, was, very, keen, to, get, the, inconclusive, animals, removed, as, well, quite, understandably, in, my, opinion, so, that, they, couldn't, pose, a, threat, to, the, rest, of, his, herd, apparently, defra, aren't, allowed, to, do, this, i, think, largely, due, to, financial, reasons, while, fully, appreciating, the, need, to, protect, taxpayers, money, considering, how, much, was, spent, in, 2001, i, think, this, a, potentially, flawed, argument, perhaps, the, rules, need, to, be, changed, but, then, again, i'm, not, an, epidemiologist, and, perhaps, they, don't, actually, pose, a, threat, the, farmer, seemed, very, depressed, by, it, all, i, think, a, lot, of, it, is, the, feeling, of, having, the, stigma, of, being, a, farm, under, defra, restrictions, again, he, was, also, very, aware, of, the, threat, he, was, to, his, neighbours, and, was, desperately, keen, to, minimise, it, it's, actually, quite, small, while, the, cows, are, still, indoors, but, i, think, people, are, still, very, much, thinking, of, how, serious, it, was, for, neighbours, if, someone, got, fmd, tb, is, a, very, different, type, of, organism, and, it’s, a, question, of, getting, people, to, understand, this, which, isn't, to, say, it's, not, a, very, serious, problem, on, the, same, day, another, farm, in, the, area, not, ours, was, confirmed, with, tb, so, it's, definitely, progressing, in, cumbria, depressing, all, we, can, do, is, follow, defra, instructions, on, testing, and, try, to, keep, on, top, of, it, one, of, my, colleagues, tore, a, knee, ligament, last, week, while, skiing, he, normally, does, mostly, large, animal, calls, seeing, as, he's, now, confined, to, the, practice, doing, small, animals, i've, taken, over, couple, of, the, farms, he, does, routine, fertility, visits, for, it, makes, a, change, to, spend, time, on, farms, i, don't, visit, often, although, i, hear, the, small, animal, nurses, are, quite, keen, for, matt, to, get, back, to, doing, them, diary, 46, one, of, our, dairy, farmers, has, had, a, big, outbreak, of, pneumonia, in, his, calves, this, week, i've, been, to, the, farm, at, least, once, every, day, this, week, the, tests, we've, done, are, usually, pretty, sensitive, but, have, failed, to, reveal, any, of, the, usual, causes, treatment, seems, to, have, been, working, in, some, cases, but, not, in, others, he, hasn't, lost, any, i, e, none, dead, but, the, loss, in, body, weight, is, very, obvious, it's, all, been, a, bit, frustrating, really, he's, a, very, pleasant, guy, and, hasn't, said, anything, but, when, treatments, repeatedly, fail, to, get, expected, and, predicted, results, i, can't, help, feeling, that, he, must, be, getting, a, bit, sceptical, about, it, or, perhaps, i'm, just, being, paranoid, by, the, end, of, the, week, the, majority, seem, to, be, on, the, mend, but, seeing, as, we, haven't, tracked, down, the, causative, agent, it's, hard, to, know, what, vaccination, to, recommend, next, year, there, are, some, more, tests, that, will, come, back, in, two, weeks, which, may, be, more, revealing, in, midweek, i, did, one, of, the, fairly, common, operations, to, correct, a, twisted, stomach, in, a, cow, surprisingly, it, was, the, first, time, this, dairy, farmer, had, had, one, done, and, he, took, some, convincing, that, it, was, a, good, idea, having, persuaded, someone, to, pay, for, a, procedure, i, always, feel, under, a, bit, more, pressure, than, usual, fortunately, it, went, pretty, well, and, the, cow, is, so, far, doing, well, i, was, on, second, call, this, weekend, which, turned, out, to, be, pretty, quiet, i, think, we, must, be, in, a, lull, before, lambing, really, kicks, in, let's, enjoy, it, while, it, lasts, diary, 47, after, not, doing, any, testing, last, week, it, was, my, turn, again, this, week, it, wasn't, a, big, one, only, about, 30, cows, but, it, was, a, bit, more, risky, than, usual, as, it, was, a, herd, of, beef, longhorns, and, they, do, have, long, horns, whilst, trying, to, manoeuvre, them, into, a, crush, to, inject, their, necks, with, tuberculin, we, always, had, to, be, ready, to, take, evasive, action, if, they, made, a, sudden, turn, i, don't, think, they, ever, tried, to, use, their, horns, aggressively, but, they, were, so, big, that, they, become, dangerous, weapons, when, they, were, just, moving, normally, as, it, turned, out, no, one, received, any, injuries, and, very, importantly, the, test, was, negative, this, week, also, brought, my, first, lambing, of, the, year, other, people, have, done, a, few, but, this, was, my, first, we, have, a, couple, of, farms, who, lamb, early, for, the, early, lamb, sales, it, seems, very, hard, work, at, this, time, of, year, but, the, early, prices, do, seem, to, make, it, worthwhile, give, it, another, week, or, two, and, a, sure, they’ll, start, to, become, more, frequent, i, took, friday, off, as, i, had, to, get, to, london, for, 4, pm, to, get, on, the, eurostar, to, go, skiing, typically, the, one, day, of, the, year, that, the, country, ground, to, halt, was, thursday, night, friday, we, managed, to, make, it, to, waterloo, station, only, to, find, the, station, in, chaos, as, all, eurostars, had, been, cancelled, due, to, snow, in, france, at, least, it's, not, just, britain, that, can’t, cope, with, it, after, being, assured, that, none, would, run, for, 24, hours, they, suddenly, told, us, to, board, only, 1, hours, late, very, pleasant, surprise, we, ended, up, arriving, in, val, d'isere, on, time, with, loads, of, snow, and, blue, skies, i, tried, to, spare, a, thought, for, whoever, was, on, call, at, weekend, i, managed, it, just, diary, 48, after, the, weather, almost, prevented, us, from, reaching, val, d’isere, it, was, very, clear, for, the, first, few, days, but, then, the, snow, returned, for, three, days, we, couldn't, do, much, during, that, time, but, it, did, mean, that, there, were, fantastic, conditions, for, the, last, few, days, we, had, a, group, of, 29, and, completely, filled, one, large, chalet, there, were, for, once, no, major, skiing, injuries, within, the, group, and, i, think, a, good, time, was, had, by, all, diary, 49, back, to, work, this, week, i’m, never, reluctant, to, go, back, after, a, week, off, and, sometimes, dare, i, say, it, even, look, forward, to, it, must, be, a, good, sign, apparently, last, week, was, ok, at, work, with, no, major, dramas, we, still, haven't, found, any, more, tb, cases, but, the, screening, continues, all, the, time, one, of, the, rules, for, re, stocking, herds, compared, to, herds, that, missed, fmd, is, that, all, bovines, over, 42, days, old, have, to, be, tested, rather, than, just, the, adults, last, year, when, there, weren't, many, calves, around, this, didn't, make, much, difference, but, now, most, farms, have, at, least, a, year's, worth, of, calves, in, place, it, doubles, the, size, of, most, tests, often, calves, won't, fit, in, crushes, and, are, very, wild, so, it, can, get, quite, exciting, it, seems, a, necessary, policy, though, one, of, the, reactors, i, found, a, few, weeks, ago, was, a, six, month, old, stirk, i've, had, a, fairly, quiet, week, i've, had, a, couple, of, nights, on, duty, which, were, both, quiet, there's, a, horse, near, carlisle, that, i, think, i've, mentioned, before, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, we, thought, we'd, finally, sorted, that, but, this, week, she, developed, a, problem, with, one, of, the, tendons, on, her, foreleg, it's, a, bit, disappointing, for, her, owner, as, she, only, bought, the, horse, recently, in, order, to, compete, to, a, very, high, standard, and, she, seems, to, permanently, off, training, with, one, ailment, or, another, i, don't, think, it's, too, serious, so, hopefully, in, another, week, or, two, she'll, be, back, to, work, i've, been, off, this, weekend, came, second, in, the, weekend’s, hockey, match, a, real, case, of, defeat, been, snatched, from, the, jaws, of, victory, i, went, for, a, walk, around, the, great, gable, scafell, area, on, sunday, afternoon, it, was, amazing, how, much, snow, and, ice, was, still, left, over, from, winter, weather, a, week, or, so, ago, maybe, i, needn't, have, bothered, going, abroad, diary, 50, i, found, another, positive, tb, case, on, friday, i, did, the, test, on, tuesday, on, a, very, large, beef, herd, on, a, restocking, farm, including, calves, they, must, have, been, just, over, 400, cattle, to, do, there, was, one, reactor, on, friday, and, two, inconclusives, there, is, a, possibility, that, it, is, a, false, positive, the, farm, has, been, having, big, problems, with, something, called, at, johne’s, disease, which, is, caused, by, a, similar, type, of, bacterium, to, the, one, that, causes, tb, there, is, a, small, possibility, of, a, cow, carrying, johne’s, disease, cross, reacting, with, the, tb, test, injection, i, actually, blood, sampled, all, the, adult, cows, on, tuesday, to, screen, the, herd, for, johne’s, in, order, to, try, to, start, eradicating, it, from, herd, it'll, be, interesting, to, see, whether, the, positive, test, cow, will, be, positive, for, johne’s, ultimately, it, doesn't, really, make, much, difference, in, the, short, term, the, farm’s, been, placed, under, restrictions, and, the, affected, cow, has, been, taken, off, for, post, mortem, one, of, my, colleagues, found, another, positive, reactor, on, a, different, farm, on, friday, as, well, that's, three, farms, in, the, practice, now, and, around, 50, 60, within, cumbria, the, big, worry, now, this, is, that, the, longer, it, stays, around, the, more, likely, inevitable, it, is, disease, will, get, into, wildlife, reservoirs, deer, and, perhaps, badgers, depending, on, whether, you, believe, that, badgers, are, an, influence, or, not, time, will, tell, but, i'm, sure, it's, going, to, keep, us, busy, for, several, years, if, not, a, lot, more, i, did, a, test, on, monday, as, well, on, a, small, farm, that, i've, never, been, to, before, at, least, testing, is, one, way, of, getting, on, to, small, farms, who, don't, often, need, us, this, one, was, all, clear, the, remainder, of, the, week, was, spent, doing, more, usual, work, lambing’s, still, not, quite, got, into, full, swing, although, we, are, seeing, a, slow, increase, in, the, number, of, sheep, been, brought, to, the, surgery, diary, 51, no, tb, testing, for, me, this, week, and, no, more, positive, cases, in, the, practice, the, first, case, that, i, found, back, in, january, was, confirmed, as, carrying, tb, this, week, though, although, it's, bad, news, for, the, farmer, it, is, quite, reassuring, to, know, that, the, tests, and, methods, we, use, do, detect, carrier, animals, reasonably, accurately, this, week, has, been, fairly, busy, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, operated, on, a, cow, on, tuesday, which, for, a, number, of, reasons, didn't, go, quite, as, smoothly, as, it, might, have, done, it, subsequently, didn't, do, as, well, post, operatively, as, we, would, normally, expect, the, coming, week, should, see, an, improvement, i, hope, we, can, never, give, cast, iron, guarantees, about, the, outcome, of, surgery, but, it, is, quite, rare, for, this, op, to, fail, so, fingers, crossed, for, monday, i, had, to, see, a, horse, with, colic, earlier, in, the, week, which, on, my, first, visit, to, i, was, very, suspicious, that, it, was, going, to, require, surgery, to, correct, the, owner, wasn't, prepared, for, that, happen, though, so, it, was, a, question, of, trying, to, manage, it, medically, or, euthanizing, it, it, wasn't, in, undue, pain, so, we, gave, it, a, go, medically, and, much, to, my, pleasant, surprise, over, the, next, few, hours, and, visits, he, did, very, well, just, goes, to, show, we, are, not, all, knowing, it, would, have, been, interesting, to, know, whether, it, was, a, surgical, condition, which, somehow, righted, itself, or, whether, it, was, a, medical, case, all, along, which, simply, appeared, as, something, more, serious, i, had, to, work, for, an, hour, or, so, on, saturday, morning, doing, small, animal, consultations, and, then, had, the, rest, of, the, weekend, off, we, came, second, in, a, hockey, match, again, and, then, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, to, catch, up, with, some, college, friends, who, haven't, seen, for, a, while, diary, 52, this, week, has, really, seen, the, start, of, the, lambing, season, the, sheep, every, day, or, every, other, day, that, we've, been, seeing, for, the, last, month, or, so, has, turned, into, one, every, few, hours, during, the, day, and, during, the, night, in, some, cases, it’s, encouraging, that, farmers, are, still, bringing, them, in, calling, us, out, as, many, feel, that, sheep, aren't, worth, paying, vet, fees, for, this, obviously, creates, a, welfare, problem, in, many, situations, as, inappropriate, and, inadequate, treatment, is, sometimes, provided, by, the, farmer, having, said, that, i, can, see, why, some, take, the, attitude, of, not, spending, money, on, them, as, prices, are, often, so, low, the, other, aspect, of, lambing, time, is, that, nights, get, very, busy, on, monday, i, had, a, ewe, caesarean, at, 2am, then, a, horse, that, had, just, foaled, at, 3.15, i, had, an, hour, or, so, in, bed, and, then, a, sick, cow, at, 6.20, although, it, can, be, a, bit, tiring, on, the, whole, cases, we, see, out, of, hours, are, not, the, run, of, the, mill, routine, things, so, it, does, at, least, make, it, interesting, which, isn't, always, the, first, thing, on, my, mind, when, the, phone, rings, at, 3am, unfortunately, the, cow, i, operated, on, last, week, failed, to, improve, and, i, had, to, re, operate, on, monday, this, is, far, from, ideal, as, it, carries, a, much, higher, risk, of, infection, than, first, time, operation, somewhat, to, my, surprise, it, seems, to, be, doing, very, well, now, cows, seem, to, be, amazingly, resilient, if, i'd, had, abdominal, surgery, twice, in, a, mucky, cow, byre, i'm, sure, i, wouldn't, cope, as, well, i, did, the, same, op, on, a, different, farm, later, in, the, week, which, went, much, better, i’d, be, getting, worried, about, my, technique, if, two, in, a, row, went, wrong, i've, worked, saturday, morning, again, supposedly, just, for, an, hour, but, it, turned, into, about, two, and, a, half, as, things, kept, coming, in, i, went, up, to, edinburgh, again, after, hockey, came, second, again, to, see, someone, who's, left, his, job, to, go, around, the, world, for, six, months, diary, 54, the, beginning, of, the, week, saw, a, visit, to, a, horse, which, had, a, chronic, episode, of, laminitis, a, hoof, condition, in, this, horse's, case, it, had, become, very, severe, and, really, beyond, the, point, where, treatment, is, feasible, euthanasia, was, the, best, option, for, the, horse, as, it, was, in, a, lot, of, pain, unfortunately, the, owner, was, very, reluctant, for, this, and, wanted, to, carry, on, with, treatment, this, sort, of, situation, does, crop, up, from, time, to, time, and, is, difficult, for, all, concerned, in, the, end, i, told, the, owners, what, i, thought, the, chances, of, recovery, were, and, let, them, make, their, decision, which, was, to, continue, treatment, hopefully, i'll, be, proved, wrong, and, the, horse, will, recover, but, i, can't, really, see, it, happening, i, saw, another, case, later, in, the, week, which, ended, up, going, to, liverpool, university, for, surgery, it, was, a, small, pony, that, had, managed, to, cut, itself, very, severely, on, barbed, wire, horses, always, find, something, to, injure, themselves, on, there, was, a, risk, that, it, had, penetrated, a, joint, so, i, sent, it, to, liverpool, to, be, flushed, as, far, as, i, know, it's, doing, very, well, so, far, the, rest, of, the, workload, this, week, has, been, the, usual, stuff, for, the, time, of, year, loads, of, lambing, a, few, tb, tests, negative, generally, kept, busy, on, friday, i, went, to, edinburgh, for, a, few, days, course, on, equine, neurology, i, knew, most, of, the, speakers, and, some, delegates, from, when, i, was, a, student, there, it, was, good, to, see, people, again, and, i, learnt, a, few, things, about, horses, brains, and, nerves, saturday, was, our, last, hockey, match, of, the, season, a, draw, we, didn't, win, the, league, by, any, stretch, of, the, imagination, but, we, weren't, last, either, diary, 55, another, manic, spring, week, goes, by, i've, been, on, duty, this, weekend, and, the, two, of, us, on, call, have, done, as, many, calls, in, the, last, two, days, has, eight, vets, would, expect, to, do, in, two, week, days, in, the, summer, we, haven't, been, bored, i, didn't, leave, the, practice, building, until, lunchtime, on, saturday, as, there, was, a, constant, flow, of, small, animals, to, see, to, and, a, few, sheep, brought, in, with, lambing, problems, i, eventually, left, at, 1.30, p, m, to, go, to, operate, on, a, cow, with, a, twisted, stomach, that, was, meant, to, be, done, at, 11, am, the, op, went, a, ok, but, it, was, then, straight, back, to, the, surgery, to, do, a, caesarean, on, a, whelping, bitch, with, the, help, of, a, student, who, is, seeing, practice, with, us, between, then, and, 9, pm, it, was, a, variety, of, sick, cows, sheep, to, lamb, and, a, calf, with, lead, poisoning, at, the, far, end, of, ullswater, would, have, been, a, very, nice, drive, out, if, it, hadn't, been, for, the, rush, to, top, things, off, i, had, a, cow, caesarean, at, 9, pm, it, was, very, useful, having, a, student, to, help, all, day, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, an, eye, opener, for, her, sunday, morning, gave, me, to, more, caesareans, sheep, this, time, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, a, cat, who, had, very, mysteriously, lost, a, leg, overnight, perhaps, caught, in, a, trap, but, was, in, incredibly, good, health, otherwise, it's, amazing, what, animals, can, withstand, and, a, good, supply, of, other, calls, to, keep, me, out, of, mischief, it, has, actually, been, quite, enjoyable, despite, being, so, hectic, and, i, think, most, of, the, cases, have, been, quite, successful, which, always, helps, the, rest, of, the, week, seems, a, distant, memory, but, on, the, whole, it, was, more, of, the, same, but, at, a, slower, pace, i, did, another, small, tb, test, which, was, negative, anyway, a, night, off, tonight, i, need, a, pint, diary, 56, monday, morning, was, the, 60, day, re, test, for, the, first, herd, that, i, found, tb, in, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, on, the, whole, the, test, went, very, smoothly, the, farmer's, buildings, are, getting, very, overcrowded, though, as, he, is, under, a, movement, restriction, due, to, the, tb, first, day, started, well, as, all, the, animals, were, giving, negative, readings, but, then, came, the, dreaded, reaction, to, the, injections, we, gave, on, the, first, day, there, were, four, reactors, in, total, three, of, which, were, borderline, and, the, other, was, very, very, obvious, the, frustrating, thing, is, that, the, obvious, one, was, a, borderline, reactor, last, time, but, defra, refused, to, take, it, as, it, isn't, in, their, policy, to, take, inconclusive, reactors, found, on, a, routine, test, this, means, that, an, animal, that, is, actually, infected, his, left, on, premises, to, potentially, infect, other, animals, the, farmer, had, tried, to, point, this, out, two, months, ago, to, no, avail, he, is, now, vindicated, in, his, view, not, that, that, is, much, consolation, for, the, fact, that, his, restrictions, are, to, be, continued, and, he, may, well, probably, will, in, fact, now, have, more, carriers, which, won't, be, found, until, the, next, test, in, 60, days, time, the, reason, for, not, initially, taking, inconclusive, reactors, is, to, save, money, by, not, paying, for, the, animals, to, be, slaughtered, that, aren't, actually, infected, in, cases, like, this, it, seems, to, be, a, real, false, economy, and, doesn't, win, defra, friends, in, the, farming, community, tuesday, and, wednesday, this, week, were, mainly, horse, jobs, a, horse, with, a, recurrent, tooth, problem, that, i've, mentioned, before, came, in, for, more, x, rays, and, finally, seems, to, be, doing, ok, its, competing, in, germany, in, a, week, or, two, so, i, do, hope, it, stays, ok, this, weekend, i, went, for, a, walk, in, the, lakes, with, one, of, my, old, flatmates, from, edinburgh, the, weather, held, and, was, amazingly, hot, for, the, time, of, year, almost, got, sunburnt, diary, 57, i've, had, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, staying, with, me, this, week, while, she's, seeing, practice, with, us, final, exams, are, looming, and, i, think, the, stress, levels, are, rising, it's, very, easy, to, think, of, all, the, things, you, don't, know, but, i, think, we've, more, or, less, managed, to, convince, her, that, she, does, know, enough, not, to, be, a, liability, when, she, qualifies, she, saw, an, interesting, incident, on, a, call, we, did, early, in, the, week, i'd, gone, to, replace, a, uterine, prolapse, in, a, cow, which, went, okay, but, the, farmer, then, asked, me, to, falsely, certify, a, cow, we, can, give, certificates, to, cows, over, 30, months, of, age, under, the, bse, scheme, for, which, farmers, are, compensated, this, cow, had, to, be, put, down, but, wasn't, 30, months, for, another, four, days, he, was, understandably, quite, upset, about, this, and, let, me, know, it’s, this, sort, of, thing, that, is, a, nightmare, for, anyone, but, especially, someone, just, starting, you, want, to, please, the, farmer, and, make, a, good, impression, but, you, also, have, responsibility, to, not, abuse, your, ability, to, use, your, signature, in, the, end, i, explained, why, he, couldn't, have, a, certificate, and, he, did, calm, down, i'm, sure, vicky, will, have, similar, situations, before, too, long, diplomatic, as, well, as, clinical, skills, develop, very, quickly, once, in, practice, another, interesting, case, came, in, on, thursday, a, year, old, foal, needed, emergency, surgery, on, a, hernia, as, luck, would, have, it, it, was, our, first, relatively, quiet, morning, for, a, few, weeks, so, we, had, enough, vets, on, hand, to, do, the, surgery, and, anaesthetic, the, op, went, well, and, the, horse, has, gone, home, this, weekend, i've, been, on, second, call, this, weekend, and, things, have, been, busy, but, not, unmanageable, i, did, 2, belgian, blue, caesareans, in, the, space, of, six, hours, on, one, farm, yesterday, but, since, then, it's, just, been, a, reasonable, stream, of, calls, rather, than, the, madness, of, two, weekends, ago, diary, 58, following, my, going, up, on, a, course, on, neurology, a, few, weeks, ago, a, case, came, up, this, week, it's, not, often, that, we, see, neurological, cases, so, it's, quite, a, coincidence, i, think, it, must, have, some, kind, of, tumour, in, its, brain, causing, it, to, show, the, various, signs, it, has, unfortunately, the, only, way, to, firmly, diagnose, this, is, by, post, mortem, which, is, how, most, neurological, cases, end, up, and, alas, i, fear, this, one, will, too, i, went, to, do, a, fertility, check, at, one, of, our, dairy, farms, on, tuesday, the, vet, he, normally, has, was, away, and, he, looked, a, bit, put, out, when, i, turned, up, i, think, hope, i, managed, not, to, abort, any, of, his, cows, and, he, seemed, very, cheery, by, the, time, i, left, i, suppose, it's, understandable, that, farmers, tend, to, want, continuity, with, which, vet, comes, work, continues, to, be, very, busy, an, indication, in, the, increase, in, daily, workload, is, that, we've, had, to, introduce, a, specific, messages, book, at, work, as, there's, no, longer, room, to, write, people, messages, in, the, day, book, as, it, so, full, with, appointments, they, used, to, be, a, few, days, in, the, year, when, both, pages, of, the, day, book, were, full, the, first, day, of, fmd, in, penrith, had, one, call, but, this, week, 4, days, have, been, full, it's, got, to, be, a, good, sign, really, and, as, i, think, i've, said, before, it, does, stop, us, all, from, getting, bored, i've, had, three, days, off, over, easter, friday, sunday, and, two, friends, and, their, two, mad, dogs, have, been, to, stay, my, cats, were, not, impressed, on, good, friday, we, went, up, plaice, fell, i, accidentally, brought, us, down, a, much, more, direct, route, than, i, intended, so, we, had, to, while, away, some, time, in, the, garden, of, the, patterdale, hotel, life's, hard, yesterday, we, left, the, bank, holiday, crowds, in, the, lakes, and, went, for, a, walk, in, the, eden, valley, didn't, see, a, soul, it's, amazing, the, difference, a, few, miles, can, make, i, suppose, it, hasn't, got, the, hills, and, isn't, as, famous, but, the, scenery, is, still, pretty, impressive, but, let's, not, tell, anyone, and, then, it, might, stay, quiet, on, bank, holidays, diary, 59, i, was, on, duty, on, easter, monday, but, it, wasn't, too, hectic, in, fact, it, was, almost, unbelievably, quiet, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, bracing, ourselves, for, the, usual, spring, onslaught, and, we, only, had, about, two, calls, each, to, do, all, morning, weird, how, it, sometimes, turns, out, like, that, lambing, is, definitely, quietening, down, now, the, 5, 10, lambings, coming, in, each, day, is, turning, into, 2, 3, it's, mostly, fell, sheep, lambing, now, which, tend, to, be, easier, to, lamb, so, few, are, in, need, our, farmer’s, assistance, it's, starting, to, get, into, the, horse, castration, season, we've, had, the, odd, one, or, two, over, the, last, few, weeks, but, have, had, about, five, this, week, one, of, my, colleagues, who, is, next, up, from, me, in, terms, of, experience, and, i, have, started, doing, them, together, whereas, a, few, years, ago, after, it, would, always, have, been, at, least, one, of, the, partners, and, one, of, us, we, must, be, improving, tb, testing, seems, to, have, calmed, down, a, bit, too, as, a, practice, we’re, pretty, much, up, to, date, with, it, and, as, farmers, start, to, turn, their, cows, out, they'll, become, more, reluctant, to, do, it, with, the, way, it’s, spreading, in, the, county, though, we, have, to, try, to, keep, up, to, date, with, it, or, it, really, is, going, to, get, out, of, hand, i've, had, this, weekend, off, it, was, my, sister's, birthday, yesterday, so, i, went, to, meet, her, and, my, folks, for, lunch, we, sat, outside, and, enjoyed, the, april, sun, very, nice, it, was, too, farmers, are, all, wanting, rain, you, don't, hear, that, often, in, april, but, the, sun, suits, me, fine, what, are, the, odds, on, it, bucketing, down, in, june, during, silage, time, diary, 60, one, of, our, big, dairy, farms, had, had, a, big, outbreak, of, ibr, this, week, one, of, the, main, respiratory, viruses, on, the, whole, it, doesn’t, cause, death, and, is, normally, containable, on, this, occasion, however, it, seems, to, have, been, a, virulent, strain, and, has, caused, a, number, of, deaths, and, a, great, deal, of, lost, production, in, terms, of, lost, milk, and, calves, not, thriving, towards, the, end, of, the, week, i, went, and, shot, three, cows, which, were, terminally, affected, seeing, three, dead, and, bleeding, cows, in, the, yard, obviously, reminded, the, farmer, and, me, of, when, he, had, the, whole, herd, shot, in, the, same, place, for, fmd, and, he, had, then, moved, out, of, sight, very, quickly, i, think, the, worst, of, the, outbreak, is, over, now, and, all, the, cows, have, been, vaccinated, there's, only, one, vet, more, junior, qualified, for, less, time, than, me, in, the, practice, who, started, a, year, or, so, ago, this, week, we, went, to, do, a, colt, castrate, together, one, surgeon, one, as, anaesthetist, for, the, first, time, we've, both, done, a, lot, with, other, vets, but, this, was, the, first, time, we've, been, let, loose, as, a, pair, everything, went, very, smoothly, so, it, looks, as, though, our, boss's, confidence, trust, wasn't, totally, misplaced, on, friday, morning, i, had, a, big, dehorning, session, for, one, of, our, beef, farmers, it's, fairly, non, cerebral, type, work, but, is, ok, for, a, change, every, now, and, then, and, the, farmer, is, a, pretty, amenable, sort, of, guy, more, than, could, be, said, for, the, weather, so, it, was, a, fairly, laid, back, morning's, work, i, had, the, afternoon, off, and, drove, up, to, edinburgh, where, there, was, a, bit, of, a, reunion, for, recent, graduates, from, the, vet, college, there, were, a, lot, of, people, haven't, seen, for, a, long, time, and, it, was, interesting, to, compare, notes, on, what, we, were, all, up, to, diary, 61, after, last, weekend, in, edinburgh, i, had, to, come, back, to, work, on, bank, holiday, monday, it, was, fairly, manageable, on, the, whole, there, were, three, of, us, on, duty, in, the, morning, when, the, work, was, steady, without, ever, getting, too, hectic, i, was, on, first, call, after, 1pm, when, the, surgery, closed, and, it, remained, fairly, quiet, until, the, evening, when, there, was, a, sudden, run, of, calls, but, they, came, in, one, after, the, other, rather, than, building, up, too, much, on, tuesday, i, did, the, 60, day, re, test, of, the, second, herd, of, cattle, that, i, had, previously, found, a, reactor, in, it’s, a, big, herd, and, it, took, all, day, to, get, it, done, they’ve, been, a, bit, unfortunate, and, brought, in, several, other, diseases, apart, from, the, suspected, tb, when, they, re, stocked, one, of, these, an, enteric, condition, called, johnes, disease, is, a, chronic, wasting, problem, and, is, notoriously, difficult, to, eradicate, it’ll, take, years, of, blood, testing, and, careful, record, keeping, to, get, rid, of, it, it’s, frustrating, for, them, as, all, the, planning, for, the, post, fmd, period, has, been, disrupted, the, tb, test, showed, up, no, reactors, this, time, but, 3, cows, were, inconclusive, results, and, will, have, to, be, re, tested, this, is, almost, certainly, as, a, result, of, the, cows, carrying, antibodies, to, avian, tb, which, causes, no, signs, of, disease, in, cows, but, disrupts, the, bovine, tb, test, it’s, a, good, example, of, why, we, badly, need, a, more, specific, method, for, testing, for, tb, it’s, being, worked, on, at, the, moment, and, hopefully, we’ll, get, one, one, day, the, senior, partner, at, work, is, supervising, another, vet, who, is, doing, the, same, equine, qualification, that, i’m, enrolled, for, on, wednesday, he, came, to, spend, a, day, with, neil, to, do, some, equine, anaesthetics, they, were, mainly, castrates, so, i, operated, while, neil, went, through, the, anaesthetics, with, his, student, it, was, very, useful, to, hear, it, all, in, detail, again, it’s, all, too, easy, to, get, into, the, habit, of, knowing, which, drugs, work, at, what, dosages, and, not, actually, really, thinking, about, why, they, work, or, why, they’re, better, than, other, drugs, we, could, use, a, useful, day, but, it, has, made, me, realise, i’ve, got, a, lot, to, do, over, the, next, few, years, diary, 62, things, are, still, remaining, very, busy, at, work, lambing, has, pretty, much, finished, now, but, the, work, doesn't, seem, to, be, easing, the, partners, have, decided, we, need, another, vet, to, help, things, along, a, final, year, student, from, edinburgh, came, for, an, interview, this, week, and, it, looks, as, though, he'll, get, the, job, it, will, mean, that, the, rota, will, improve, and, hopefully, will, not, be, quite, as, hectic, when, he, starts, following, the, fantastically, dry, spring, it's, now, too, wet, for, the, farmers, and, they, are, tearing, their, hair, out, about, how, the, first, cut, of, silage, is, going, to, be, gathered, in, dry, hopefully, we'll, get, a, dry, spell, again, soon, to, ease, their, worries, i, found, a, potential, case, to, write, up, for, my, equine, casebook, this, week, it's, a, mare, that, managed, to, get, caught, up, in, wire, and, tear, a, big, hole, in, the, shin, of, her, lower, leg, it's, too, big, a, defect, to, stitch, so, it'll, have, to, heal, with, a, lot, of, bandaging, and, perhaps, some, skin, grafts, it, always, amazes, me, how, horses, managed, to, give, themselves, the, most, horrendous, injuries, been, fields, where, there, really, doesn't, seem, to, be, any, opportunity, for, it, clumsiness, perhaps, maybe, they, just, enjoy, pain, i, doubt, it, we're, doing, quite, a, bit, of, scanning, of, mares, for, pregnancy, at, the, moment, it's, another, thing, that, i've, been, doing, more, of, this, year, than, in, the, past, it's, a, bit, daunting, at, times, but, as, with, a, lot, of, things, it's, really, a, case, of, practising, it, as, much, as, possible, by, the, end, of, the, stud, season, it’ll, hopefully, be, fairly, straightforward, i, drove, down, to, oxford, on, friday, evening, after, work, to, see, my, sister, cousins, friends, who, live, down, there, it, seemed, a, longish, drive, but, it, was, well, worth, it, to, catch, up, with, them, all, one, of, the, things, about, working, weekends, is, that, it, makes, weekends, off, that, much, more, appreciated, diary, 63, after, a, very, pleasant, weekend, off, i, had, a, truly, delightful, first, job, on, monday, morning, a, cow, had, been, losing, weight, for, the, last, month, also, the, reason, i, found, was, that, it, had, a, very, dead, calf, inside, which, i, then, spent, the, first, hour, of, the, week, pulling, out, bone, by, bone, it, was, a, fairly, revolting, job, but, wasn't, actually, something, that, i, especially, resented, doing, must, mean, i'm, happy, in, my, work, or, perhaps, just, a, bit, weird, i, had, another, fairly, grim, job, later, in, the, week, when, i, was, called, out, at, 4, a, m, to, a, foaling, the, foal, was, stuck, half, out, and, was, dead, by, the, time, i, got, there, i, eventually, managed, to, get, the, foal, out, and, initially, the, mare, seemed, ok, but, deteriorated, over, the, next, 48, hours, and, eventually, had, to, be, euthanased, that’s, just, the, way, it, goes, sometimes, a, more, successful, case, came, later, in, the, week, when, i, saw, a, foal, that, was, acutely, lame, it, looked, at, first, as, though, it, might, have, an, infected, elbow, but, after, taking, samples, of, the, joint, fluid, and, some, x, rays, it, looked, as, though, it, was, actually, a, traumatic, injury, it, stayed, it, in, the, hospital, for, four, days, during, which, time, it, seemed, to, improve, quite, a, bit, it's, a, thoroughbred, from, a, good, racing, line, hopefully, with, a, rest, it’ll, make, a, full, recovery, and, win, the, grand, national, in, 2008, i, had, the, whole, of, the, bank, holiday, weekend, off, six, college, friends, came, to, stay, for, a, weekend, of, cumbrian, fresh, air, after, a, pretty, gloomy, forecast, the, weather, turned, out, very, well, and, we, all, went, for, a, lake, district, walk, each, day, and, had, a, pretty, relaxed, time, except, for, my, cats, four, dogs, also, came, to, stay, which, didn't, impress, the, cats, who, spent, the, whole, time, hiding, in, my, room, diary, 64, this, week, started, with, a, tb, test, for, a, small, re, stocking, herd, he, had, bought, some, cattle, from, a, farm, that, subsequently, tested, positive, for, tb, one, of, the, cattle, from, that, farm, had, then, tested, positive, on, his, farm, so, this, week's, test, was, a, 60, day, re, test, it, was, an, all, clear, this, time, which, was, obviously, a, relief, for, them, seeing, as, there, was, a, positive, on, the, farm, last, time, they, probably, have, to, have, another, test, in, 60, days, from, now, before, restrictions, are, lifted, this, farm, isn't, very, big, so, being, under, tb, restrictions, is, awkward, but, not, as, crippling, as, it, is, the, larger, farms, there, is, no, room, for, relaxing, the, rules, at, the, moment, though, the, recent, news, from, ireland, that, says, they, think, they've, proved, a, link, with, badgers, makes, it, even, more, important, to, get, it, out, of, cumbria, before, it, gets, into, wildlife, although, it, may, well, already, be, too, late, in, between, the, two, testing, days, this, week, i, seemed, to, do, a, lot, of, horse, cases, on, wednesday, i, spent, most, of, the, day, touring, around, cumbria, seeing, horses, in, wigton, cockermouth, and, bassenthwaite, it, was, a, sunny, day, and, was, a, very, pleasant, way, to, spend, the, day, great, scenery, to, look, at, outside, when, not, driving, and, cases, going, the, way, i, was, hoping, not, a, bad, way, to, work, i've, been, on, call, this, weekend, and, it's, been, very, quiet, so, far, yesterday, was, steady, with, a, reasonable, number, of, calls, but, none, stacking, up, i've, done, 2, cattle, caesareans, on, the, same, farm, this, weekend, one, yesterday, morning, which, seemed, like, a, huge, calf, until, the, one, i, did, this, morning, which, was, truly, a, freak, it, was, the, biggest, calf, i, or, the, farmer, had, seen, and, is, the, result, of, selecting, for, extreme, confirmation, in, beef, breeds, it, does, pose, serious, welfare, issues, for, the, cows, as, they, cannot, give, birth, naturally, and, have, to, have, fairly, major, abdominal, surgery, instead, we’ll, never, persuade, farmers, of, this, though, as, the, consumer, wants, cheaper, food, and, cheaper, beef, is, made, through, bigger, beef, calves, it, does, seem, tough, on, the, cows, though, or, am, i, being, too, cynical, diary, 65, i, thought, it, was, interesting, to, see, how, much, people, still, are, willing, to, talk, about, some, of, 2001, at, the, meeting, on, wednesday, night, while, a, lot, of, the, conversation, was, routed, around, the, subjects, you, had, come, up, with, over, the, last, 18, months, it, often, came, back, to, talk, of, events, and, individual, experiences, during, the, outbreak, itself, these, stories, must, have, been, told, on, dozens, of, occasions, but, people, still, want, to, tell, them, if, the, right, time, opportunity, comes, up, myself, included, there, were, so, many, themes, that, you, have, all, come, up, with, on, the, electronic, tags, sheet, that, it, seems, impossible, to, comment, on, them, all, some, of, them, seem, very, relevant, to, me, others, not, so, much, trust, is, a, category, that, comes, up, under, a, couple, of, headings, one, of, the, headings, it, is, under, is, knowledge, i, think, this, has, been, one, of, the, most, significant, changes, since, fmd, as, far, as, the, farmer, vet, relationship, is, concerned, defra, has, gone, from, being, eyed, with, some, suspicion, to, overt, distrust, and, resentment, on, a, whole, we, don't, get, too, much, flack, as, veterinary, gps, but, when, we, have, to, do, defra, allocated, jobs, such, as, tb, testing, there, is, sometimes, a, general, feeling, of, it, being, another, task, to, try, to, wear, them, down, being, sent, by, the, authorities, another, regulation, that, has, caused, huge, resentment, is, the, whole, animal, movement, licensing, system, it, is, much, easier, now, and, causes, fewer, problems, but, a, year, or, so, ago, it, was, the, source, of, much, stress, we, had, to, try, to, act, as, intermediary, between, farmers, and, defra, and, keep, both, sides, happy, the, damage, done, to, the, farmer, defra, trust, will, take, a, long, time, if, ever, to, start, to, repair, hopefully, by, trying, to, be, more, on, their, side, than, defra, seem, to, be, the, trust, they, have, in, us, has, been, preserved, it's, been, a, quietish, week, at, work, maybe, because, there's, been, a, bit, of, silaging, going, on, so, the, farmers, haven't, got, time, for, routine, work, it's, about, time, we, were, a, bit, quieter, the, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, at, all, yet, this, year, in, fact, we’re, taking, on, another, vet, to, ease, the, workload, did, i, mention, this, last, week, in, the, meantime, it's, nice, to, have, time, to, draw, breath, and, enjoy, the, sun, for, a, day, or, two, diary, 66, this, week, seems, to, have, gone, by, a, pretty, quickly, maybe, it's, because, i'm, on, holiday, next, week, and, the, thought, of, it, is, spurring, me, on, i, fly, to, split, tomorrow, for, a, week, of, sailing, on, the, croatian, coast, with, a, college, friend, and, some, relatives, it'll, be, a, change, from, cumbria, one, of, our, big, dairy, farmers, was, away, in, thailand, this, week, the, farm, was, left, to, be, run, by, his, usual, workers, and, his, brother, and, mother, despite, this, he, felt, he, had, to, take, his, mobile, phone, with, him, and, he, was, rung, twice, during, the, week, to, be, asked, what, should, be, done, with, a, couple, of, sick, cows, i, suppose, this, either, demonstrates, extreme, dedication, or, an, inability, to, forget, about, work, or, both, but, then, again, it, also, shows, how, committed, a, lot, of, farmers, are, and, that, it's, not, just, a, job, to, them, as, farms, get, bigger, the, concept, of, all, the, cows, being, individually, known, to, the, farmer, or, being, his, friends, becomes, increasingly, unrealistic, but, in, the, majority, of, cases, they’re, not, just, milk, making, machines, and, are, cared, for, pretty, well, it's, not, hard, to, see, why, it, was, so, hard, for, people, to, lose, their, herds, after, being, a, bit, quieter, at, work, last, week, it, suddenly, seems, to, have, become, very, hectic, at, work, again, this, week, there, haven't, been, any, particularly, time, consuming, jobs, just, lots, of, sick, cows, horse, calls, and, the, usual, mix, of, animal, ailments, it's, better, to, be, busy, than, quiet, though, i, think, i, need, a, holiday, and, i'll, keep, my, phone, switched, off, diary, 67, a, week, off, work, to, go, sailing, in, croatia, easy, life, after, meeting, up, with, the, boat, and, the, rest, of, the, group, in, starigrad, we, sailed, to, vis, into, a, fairly, direct, head, wind, so, it, took, quite, a, bit, of, tacking, and, was, a, bit, of, a, rough, ride, i, also, very, stupidly, underdid, the, sunscreen, and, managed, to, burn, my, back, very, careless, but, it, got, less, uncomfortable, as, the, week, went, on, we, spent, two, nights, in, vis, harbour, as, the, others, who, had, already, been, sailing, for, a, week, wanted, a, rest, it, used, to, be, a, military, island, and, there, were, definite, signs, of, this, around, although, it, is, obviously, developing, a, now, rapidly, growing, tourist, trade, after, vis, it, was, off, to, hvar, where, we, anchored, in, a, small, inlet, a, few, miles, from, the, town, after, a, night, there, we, went, to, hvar, town, for, a, look, around, the, castle, on, the, hill, was, very, impressive, and, the, town, still, feels, as, though, it, is, relatively, unspoilt, at, the, moment, the, last, couple, of, days, were, spent, making, our, way, slowly, back, to, split, we, actually, spent, the, last, two, days, in, split, as, there, was, a, strong, northerly, wind, brewing, up, which, would, have, been, a, bit, rough, to, be, out, in, my, uncle, who, was, the, skipper, on, board, has, been, to, croatia, for, the, last, three, years, he, said, it, was, very, noticeably, more, busy, this, year, it, seems, a, shame, to, spoil, it, with, more, tourist, facilities, but, we, all, contributed, to, them, being, built, by, going, there, hopefully, it, won't, be, too, dramatically, changed, diary, 68, this, week, started, at, 9am, monday, with, a, tb, test, at, one, of, the, most, basic, run, down, farms, we, go, to, it, was, the, first, time, i'd, been, there, in, three, and, a, half, years, of, working, here, so, they, don't, make, huge, use, of, our, veterinary, services, one, of, their, bullocks, was, 7, years, old, when, i, casually, asked, about, what, plans, they, had, for, it, seeing, as, he, had, missed, the, 30, months, cut, off, time, for, human, consumption, i, was, told, it, was, just, kept, as, a, friend, for, the, bull, the, test, was, very, slow, as, the, cattle, handling, facilities, were, not, the, best, on, the, planet, they, were, very, pleasant, people, to, talk, to, and, it, soon, became, apparent, that, they, had, very, little, time, for, defra, nothing, unusual, there, the, son, was, one, of, the, people, who, had, had, his, firearms, confiscated, after, making, threats, at, the, start, of, fm, d, they, still, felt, resentful, about, the, way, the, police, became, involved, and, the, way, they, were, ultimately, given, no, choice, as, to, who, came, on, to, their, farm, to, check, their, stock, fortunately, all, the, cattle, were, negative, for, tb, so, there, was, no, need, to, further, add, to, their, distrust, of, defra, by, putting, them, under, more, restriction, the, rest, of, the, week, has, been, fairly, steady, there's, been, enough, going, on, to, keep, us, busy, without, ever, being, frantic, the, horse, i, saw, last, week, with, a, neurological, problem, has, become, a, bit, worse, so, has, gone, to, edinburgh, vet, school, to, see, one, of, the, neurologists, up, there, he, seemed, fairly, confused, by, it, as, well, which, i, have, to, say, i, found, quite, reassuring, the, weekend, was, a, bit, on, the, strenuous, side, a, cousin, who, is, a, keen, cyclist, persuaded, me, it, was, a, good, idea, to, do, a, big, cumbrian, yorkshire, bike, ride, we, went, from, penrith, to, alston, to, barnard, castle, to, tan, hill, refreshments, to, kirkby, stephen, to, penrith, on, saturday, and, then, recovered, on, sunday, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, the, time, but, i, am, really, feeling, it, now, diary, 69, looking, back, at, some, of, the, quotes, in, the, recovery, section, of, the, notes, from, a, meeting, it's, noticeable, how, easy, it, is, to, forget, or, at, least, not, have, in, one's, mind, how, much, it, affected, a, lot, people, it's, almost, hard, to, remember, how, much, i, was, affected, by, it, i, know, that, there, were, some, very, unpleasant, tasks, such, as, supervising, slaughters, and, day, to, day, work, was, often, very, frustrating, when, we, felt, people, overseeing, our, work, from, offices, didn't, really, know, what, it, was, like, in, the, field, but, i, feel, now, that, on, the, whole, once, work, was, finished, life, pretty, much, went, on, maybe, this, isn't, actually, a, true, reflection, of, how, it, was, and, it's, just, that, some, of, the, detailed, memories, are, fading, often, things, don't, seem, as, bad, as, they, actually, were, when, you, look, back, on, them, i, know, plenty, of, clients, colleagues, and, friends, whose, lives, were, completely, overtaken, by, fmd, so, perhaps, mine, was, more, than, i, remember, but, i, also, feel, that, most, of, the, people, who, i, remember, as, being, heavily, affected, are, now, more, or, less, completely, over, it, one, of, the, farms, i, went, to, this, week, lost, a, son, in, a, road, accident, about, two, months, after, getting, fmd, i, think, the, farmer, was, ready, to, give, up, everything, after, that, apparently, he, left, the, cleaning, up, of, his, farm, and, took, no, interest, in, anything, time, obviously, helped, him, he's, been, back, milking, again, for, that, sic, last, year, and, a, half, there, are, still, changes, though, he, seems, very, much, quieter, and, more, laid, back, now, if, a, cow, isn't, in, calf, or, things, don't, go, quite, right, he, doesn't, seem, to, get, stressed, now, as, he, once, would, have, done, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, which, we, would, expect, at, this, time, of, year, one, of, our, farms, has, put, some, pedigree, belgian, blue, embryos, into, some, limousin, cross, heifers, and, they're, starting, to, calve, now, they, all, need, caesar's, as, the, calves, are, almost, as, big, as, the, heifers, that, produce, them, the, only, thing, to, be, said, for, it, is, that, we, can, do, them, at, a, sensible, time, of, day, rather, than, at, two, in, the, morning, as, we, know, when, they’re, due, diary, 70, one, of, the, five, categories, you, raised, at, the, meetings, last, month, was, trauma, and, one, of, the, subsections, on, the, chart, was, sounds, smells, visions, sights, are, probably, the, most, frequent, reminder, of, fmd, now, there, are, certain, bits, of, road, that, have, memories, for, example, driving, north, on, the, m6, just, south, of, penrith, it, was, possible, to, count, smoke, plumes, from, about, 20, pyres, at, one, stage, on, fine, days, it, always, reminds, me, of, it, when, i, drive, that, stretch, one, farm, has, the, remains, of, a, pyre, that, was, started, to, be, built, but, never, finished, even, things, like, driving, across, two, lines, of, tar, across, a, road, which, once, held, down, a, disinfectant, mat, people, who, didn't, live, here, at, the, time, wouldn't, even, notice, them, but, it, seems, quite, significant, to, the, rest, of, us, it, doesn't, really, bother, me, but, just, is, a, reminder, of, what, went, on, at, other, times, it, seems, odd, how, quickly, things, have, gone, back, to, normal, even, something, as, simple, as, a, road, with, mud, or, animal, muck, on, it, in, 2001, that, would, have, stuck, out, like, a, sore, thumb, and, would, have, warranted, urgent, action, now, i'm, used, to, driving, a, dirty, car, i, do, clean, it, sometimes, and, having, some, roads, caked, in, dirt, it's, difficult, to, imagine, how, the, farmers, kept, them, clean, two, years, ago, but, they, did, obviously, there, are, other, reminders, people, never, tire, of, talking, about, it, but, it's, the, day, to, day, visions, and, places, that, are, most, regular, work, has, been, a, bit, quieter, this, week, i, did, it, a, caesar, on, a, cow, which, had, a, truly, ridiculously, enormous, calf, we, need, to, move, away, from, breeding, continental, beef, breeds, and, go, back, to, nice, compact, jersey's, or, aberdeen, anguses, i, also, saw, an, unusual, neurological, case, in, a, horse, it's, very, uncoordinated, and, has, poor, balance, it's, the, kind, of, case, where, brain, spinal, scan, would, be, useful, but, those, facilities, aren't, really, available, for, horses, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, goes, over, the, next, few, days, diary, 71, the, last, diary, the, 18, months, seem, to, have, gone, by, quickly, things, seem, so, much, back, to, how, they, were, that, it's, odd, to, think, back, to, what, was, going, on, when, we, first, started, writing, them, i, think, we, were, pretty, much, in, the, swing, of, doing, restocking, checks, and, doing, endless, blood, sampling, of, sheep, the, last, restocking, checks, i, did, were, only, 16, months, ago, it, seems, far, longer, although, i, say, things, are, back, to, how, they, were, i'm, sure, there, are, actually, a, lot, of, differences, it's, just, that, i, don't, notice, them, because, i'm, used, to, how, things, are, now, the, practice, has, become, a, lot, busier, by, october, we’ll, be, up, to, nine, full, time, and, two, part, time, vets, pre, fmd, we, were, seven, full, time, and, two, part, time, some, of, the, increase, is, equine, and, small, animal, but, most, of, it, is, in, farm, practice, part, of, this, is, directly, linked, to, fmd, eg, more, tb, testing, due, to, re, stocking, tests, and, re, stocking, having, brought, tb, into, the, county, other, factors, aren't, so, obvious, but, are, unquestionably, fmd, related, most, restocked, farmers, went, back, with, more, stock, than, they, originally, had, so, overall, there, is, greater, density, of, stock, around, more, animals, means, more, sick, animals, which, means, more, calls, for, the, vet, it's, a, shame, in, some, ways, to, see, the, small, traditional, farms, being, forced, out, but, it's, hard, to, see, how, they, can, manage, as, margins, get, smaller, and, larger, neighbours, get, more, stock, and, more, land, fmd, was, a, way, out, for, several, of, the, smaller, farms, all, have, been, bought, up, by, neighbours, with, none, being, sold, as, single, units, as, i've, said, in, recent, weeks, this, time, of, year, is, usually, quiet, it, has, become, a, bit, less, frantic, recently, but, the, traditional, summer, lull, hasn't, materialised, i've, been, a, vet, for, four, years, the, last, three, have, been, just, about, as, interesting, and, challenging, as, they, could, have, been, both, professionally, and, socially, from, the, point, of, view, of, living, in, penrith, obviously, fmd, had, devastating, effects, on, thousands, of, people, many, of, whom, are, my, friends, on, the, whole, i, see, very, few, residual, scars, it, is, still, talked, about, but, less, and, less, as, time, goes, on, more, than, one, farmer, has, actually, said, that, they, think, in, hindsight, it, was, a, very, good, thing, for, them, i'm, not, sure, i, could, ever, say, that, as, it, brought, too, much, stress, and, sadness, for, too, many, people, but, if, it, had, happened, i, think, very, much, with, the, benefit, of, hindsight, i’m, glad, that, i, had, the, chance, to, be, involved, with, it, from, the, start, and, through, the, recovery]
## 2 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1966, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, diary, 1, monday, was, the, usual, long, hard, grind, i, accept, that, i, have, to, put, in, 10, 12, hours, and, i, don’t, mind, doing, the, work, because, it’s, not, physically, or, mentally, taxing, but, i, do, hate, not, having, a, lunch, break, just, that, little, bit, of, selfish, time, to, site, have, a, cigarette, take, the, dogs, down, the, river, see, the, horses, whatever, i, do, resent, that, fact, that, w, one, of, the, bosses, almost, always, gets, a, lunch, hour, b, the, other, boss, has, gone, up, tremendously, in, my, opinion, for, the, way, that, he, gets, on, with, the, work, he, starts, early, finishes, late, hates, derfa, paperwork, and, rarely, complains, it, is, definitely, grinding, them, down, because, they, work, like, that, at, least, 4, days, a, week, it, has, been, a, huge, advantage, this, last, year, being, part, time, at, work, my, days, off, obviously, aren’t, my, own, as, they, used, to, be, but, i, do, get, away, from, the, phone, and, the, demands, of, clients, some, of, our, clients, are, very, selfish, and, i, hadn’t, noticed, before, they, seem, to, think, they, are, the, only, ones, that, have, hassles, with, defra, i, remember, saying, to, one, complaining, about, problems, with, licensing, that, he, was, lucky, to, have, problems, with, only, one, licence, the, first, day, that, movement, licenses, came, out, we, applied, for, 26, and, received, the, explanatory, notes, from, defra, on, how, to, complete, the, paperwork, 4, days, later, anyway, managed, to, do, three, final, visits, and, complete, most, of, the, paperwork, before, 9pm, kirkby, stephen, was, buzzing, today, the, auction, reopened, for, a, cattle, sale, the, main, street, was, full, of, shiny, farmers, with, fish, and, chips, and, the, back, lane, was, full, of, shiny, some, new, land, rovers, and, trailers, trailers, mostly, new, in, fact, mc, told, me, that, as, soon, as, he, heard, his, bloods, had, come, back, clear, restocking, he, washed, and, changed, and, went, to, the, mart, he, said, it, was, the, first, time, he, had, felt, clean, since, the, day, they, were, infected, he, felt, ok, to, go, among, other, farmers, he, surprised, me, because, he, is, so, easy, going, he, takes, all, in, his, stride, but, he, still, says, fmd, is, not, as, terrible, as, testicular, cancer, and, he’s, right, ad, was, one, of, the, other, final, visits, he, doesn’t, give, a, bugger, about, anything, happy, to, become, a, flower, power, farmer, he, doesn’t, care, much, about, his, sheep, as, individuals, they, are, just, numbers, just, as, well, because, in, the, batch, he, bought, from, wales, the, sheep, have, more, legs, than, teeth, i, can’t, see, them, lasting, long, pissed, off, because, i, missed, bryan, adams, concert, in, newcastle, couldn’t, finish, in, time, to, join, the, bus, the, rest, of, the, lassies, had, a, brilliant, time, and, at, least, tracey, benefited, from, my, ticket, had, to, go, back, in, to, work, the, next, day, to, finish, my, defra, reports, and, fax, them, off, went, to, playgroup, to, talk, about, pets, took, my, dog, lurcher, and, child’s, rabbit, dodgy, combination, very, few, of, the, kids, seemed, to, have, pets, of, their, own, a, lot, of, them, referred, to, granddad’s, dogs, or, uncles, cat, when, i, left, college, the, pet, population, was, increasing, what’s, going, to, happen, in, the, next, 15, years, sister, phoned, worried, about, her, horse, he, has, haematuria, i’m, worried, that, he, has, a, tumour, i, feel, very, far, away, and, helpless, when, things, like, this, happen, even, though, she, only, lives, in, yorkshire, i’m, sure, i, could, help, her, whatever, the, outcome, if, we, lived, closer, in, fact, i, think, i, miss, my, family, more, now, than, i, ever, have, i, don’t, know, if, it’s, my, age, or, the, thought, that, m, is, over, 60, or, that, i, didn’t, see, them, much, at, all, last, year, or, just, because, i, have, son, now, and, can, understand, how, mothers, families, feel, i, miss, sisters, but, i, still, don’t, phone, them, much, i, always, think, they’ll, be, busy, i, can, talk, to, mam, three, or, four, times, a, week, for, half, an, hour, at, a, time, without, thinking, twice, she, must, get, fed, up, hearing, me, go, on, and, on, about, work, etc, but, she, loves, hearing, all, about, every, tiny, detail, of, son’s, antics, and, achievements, will, broached, the, subject, of, a, partnership, again, i, don’t, know, what, to, think, it’s, the, obvious, thing, to, do, and, a, few, years, ago, i, would, have, taken, his, hand, off, for, even, 10, or, 20, i’m, just, not, as, excited, about, it, as, i, should, be, and, what, would, change, will, i, be, better, off, will, i, be, a, better, vet, or, will, i, spend, too, much, time, of, figures, and, paperwork, will, i, become, more, commercially, aware, do, i, want, to, change, can, i, be, bothered, with, the, extra, hassle, they, are, ok, they, have, a, career, and, a, wife, i’m, trying, to, do, both, sometimes, badly, diary, 2, monday’s, are, shite, it, starts, off, busy, and, gets, worse, why, can’t, we, do, time, management, a, bit, better, it, did, look, as, if, we, might, finish, around, 6.30, at, one, stage, in, the, afternoon, then, i, was, called, out, to, a, calf, i, didn’t, really, need, a, visit, at, 6pm, at, night, w, said, never, mind, you’ll, be, picking, son, up, anyway, the, childminder, lives, on, the, next, door, farm, he, hasn’t, got, a, clue, if, i, picked, son, up, he, would, be, at, ange’s, for, about, 8, hours, i, feel, guilty, enough, that, he’s, away, for, about, 8, hours, partner, always, picks, him, up, about, 5.30, and, has, to, cope, which, he, does, well, until, i, get, home, but, it’s, hard, work, for, both, of, us, after, a, full, day, at, work, and, partner, is, usually, knackered, and, ready, for, peace, and, quiet, when, he, gets, home, not, a, tired, hungry, wee, lad, anyway, i, ended, up, having, a, farm, tour, that, night, farmer, was, so, proud, of, his, new, pedigree, belgian, blues, and, his, new, shed, he’s, been, lucky, to, get, most, of, his, commercial, stock, from, his, father, so, he, has, an, idea, of, their, past, history, he’s, a, nice, lad, and, he, was, producing, some, stunning, beef, calves, before, he, was, taken, out, at, least, he’s, young, enough, to, get, going, again, he, hasn’t, said, much, about, loosing, his, stock, so, i, haven’t, asked, i, had, a, chat, to, his, aunt, one, day, and, she, was, very, upset, and, that, upsets, me, i, hate, when, people, get, emotional, like, that, i, start, filling, up, myself, i, got, back, to, find, a, sheep, caesarean, still, to, do, waste, of, time, premature, lambs, all, born, alive, 3, and, all, dead, before, i, finished, stitching, the, uterus, and, to, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, day, my, assistant, was, the, mother, who, prattled, about, nothing, much, all, the, way, through, the, op, she, does, my, head, in, she, is, a, century, away, from, me, in, her, outlook, but, i, still, come, away, feeling, that, i, am, the, one, who, has, got, it, all, wrong, maybe, i, should, have, dinner, on, the, table, and, shirts, ironed, etc, i, don’t, want, to, be, like, her, though, and, i, can’t, even, sympathise, with, her, even, though, they, lost, all, their, sheep, i’m, sure, she, must, have, taken, it, badly, but, i, don’t, think, she, would, ever, let, her, feelings, show, in, public, something, about, the, way, she, spoke, suggested, that, she, was, forcing, herself, to, put, a, brave, face, and, look, forward, probably, for, her, own, son’s, sake, watched, rural, lives, again, on, tuesday, cr, came, over, well, i, though, i, couldn’t, help, but, snigger, when, the, slaughter, team, were, discussing, one, of, our, clients, she, made, the, kids, carry, away, the, dead, piglets, after, they’d, been, slaughtered, them, team, thought, that, was, terrible, but, i, knew, the, kids, they, all, help, on, the, farm, they, know, that, their, pigs, go, to, kill, the, family, even, started, their, own, little, slaughter, house, and, cutting, plant, before, fmd, i, don’t, think, those, kids, would, be, horrified, sad, maybe, we, all, felt, sad, over, the, last, year, sad, for, the, healthy, animals, culled, more, sad, for, the, people, caught, up, in, the, mess, one, disease, where, the, cure, is, worse, mostly, though, i, get, angry, when, i, hear, or, talk, about, fmd, i, get, angry, because, defra, let, us, all, down, the, politicians, got, too, closely, involved, nothing, happened, fast, enough, we, didn’t, seem, to, be, able, to, do, anything, we, knew, very, little, and, struggled, to, get, reliable, information, i, still, get, wound, up, thinking, about, it, all, we, were, marginalised, by, defra, i, felt, as, if, it, was, us, and, the, farmers, versus, derfa, not, all, three, groups, versus, fmd, the, rumours, that, abounded, just, magnified, the, feelings, we, talked, at, length, about, fmd, defra, etc, within, the, practice, and, with, our, clients, but, i, could, still, talk, about, it, all, day, even, now, so, many, things, are, unresolved, i, have, lost, faith, in, defra, especially, since, they, changed, their, name, no, a, for, agriculture, now, and, i’m, glad, i, have, been, ignorant, of, politics, for, so, long, there, have, been, few, shining, lights, in, the, government, i’m, heartily, sick, of, authority, interfering, and, regulating, stuff, that’s, going, along, quite, nicely, let, them, interfere, with, stuff, that’s, doing, harm, bad, farmers, need, a, shake, up, sheep, dealers, need, to, think, more, about, animal, welfare, but, the, way, things, are, going, the, good, guys, that, toe, the, line, will, end, up, following, all, the, rules, and, regulations, set, up, to, sort, out, the, bad, guys, and, will, they, bother, diary, 3, possibly, the, best, bit, of, the, week, was, sunday, when, i, eventually, after, 13, months, got, back, on, my, horse, only, 15, minutes, but, it, was, nerve, wracking, i, thought, she, might, just, throw, me, off, and, i, was, so, tense, actually, we, both, were, i, felt, as, if, i, had, forgotten, how, to, ride, i, stayed, in, the, field, thinking, it, would, be, safer, but, the, other, two, horses, were, flying, about, to, annoy, us, i’m, so, frustrated, that, i, haven’t, been, able, to, get, her, fit, for, the, start, of, the, endurance, season, there’s, no, way, we’d, be, able, to, go, to, the, first, ride, at, ullswater, and, there’s, only, one, other, in, cumbria, this, year, due, to, fmd, who, would, have, thought, that, we, would, still, be, curtailed, by, fmd, more, than, a, year, on, the, young, horse, was, very, interested, in, saddle, and, bridle, so, i, put, them, on, him, and, he, was, ok, at, first, he, was, frightened, to, move, at, all, but, then, he, realised, it, was, ok, on, monday, i, had, a, strange, request, to, go, and, hold, an, old, pony, for, the, knacker, to, shoot, the, owner’s, just, didn’t, want, to, be, around, it, was, a, lovely, morning, so, i, led, her, out, for, a, bite, of, grass, before, he, arrived, she, could, barely, manage, to, breathe, and, swallow, at, the, same, time, i, can’t, believe, how, the, tumours, have, taken, hold, of, her, since, the, turn, of, the, year, mr, a, couldn’t, tell, his, wife, the, diagnosis, initially, because, she, hadn’t, got, over, losing, the, few, pedigree, sheep, they, had, it’s, taking, some, people, a, long, time, to, get, over, the, loss, i, think, it’s, easier, to, get, over, losing, an, animal, if, you, have, more, than, one, it, helps, to, keep, you, focussed, on, the, living, rather, than, the, dead, and, farmers, haven’t, been, able, to, get, restarted, when, they, were, ready, to, because, of, all, the, c, d, requirements, anyway, the, knacker, man, told, some, good, tales, there’s, been, some, nutters, about, shooting, animals, some, even, had, their, guns, taken, off, them, poor, lad, was, given, a, day’s, notice, at, the, knackey, and, was, part, of, a, slaughter, team, after, that, so, he, was, only, paid, his, normal, wage, which, the, boss, collected, at, the, defra, rate, for, them, all, it, was, good, talking, to, him, probably, because, i, don’t, really, know, him, i, didn’t, feel, that, i, would, upset, him, because, he, wasn’t, like, a, client, who, had, lost, animals, sometimes, it’s, hard, to, know, what, to, say, if, people, get, upset, sometimes, it’s, enough, to, listen, one, of, the, most, awkward, situations, i, found, myself, in, was, talking, to, a, farmer, who, lost, no, stock, but, he, was, so, depressed, he, started, crying, the, cows, i, had, gone, to, see, should, have, gone, last, year, then, we, wouldn’t, have, had, these, problems, he, also, has, been, unable, to, sell, sheep, so, the, farm, was, completely, overstocked, overgrazed, and, had, little, silage, left, i, couldn’t, understand, why, he, was, still, overstocking, when, he, could, have, sold, sheep, and, cattle, for, restocking, or, for, slaughter, quite, easily, in, the, last, few, months, maybe, he, just, couldn’t, face, the, hassle, of, getting, licences, or, maybe, he’s, just, too, far, down, to, think, straight, i, usually, mention, that, sort, of, thing, to, b, and, w, because, i, think, it’s, important, that, everyone, in, the, practice, knows, what’s, happening, not, just, with, out, patients, but, also, with, our, clients, diary, 4, i, had, the, honour, of, completing, the, final, final, visit, today, and, it, was, one, of, my, neighbours, in, soulby, no, more, surveillance, visits, poor, lol, couldn’t, find, his, defra, paperwork, and, while, he, was, looking, through, his, files, he, found, copies, of, his, valuation, report, with, all, his, old, cows, on, i, think, it, brought, it, all, back, he’s, trying, hard, to, move, on, i, could, understand, him, being, bitter, since, his, whole, very, good, milking, herd, was, taken, as, a, dc, i, think, he, may, have, survived, because, the, infection, was, half, a, mile, away, from, his, cows, but, the, ip, land, joined, i, watched, them, load, all, his, cows, into, coal, wagons, on, s, saturday, afternoon, in, fact, it, was, midnight, when, the, last, de, tox, wagon, left, how, can, they, be, clean, if, i, can’t, even, get, my, wellies, clean, in, the, dark, how, he’s, worrying, about, his, new, cows, coming, from, holland, he, thinks, it’s, a, long, way, for, them, to, travel, but, he, can’t, wait, for, them, to, arrive, unlike, his, wife, who, thinks, that, all, this, restocking, is, going, too, fast, i, felt, apprehensive, too, about, a, fortnight, ago, but, the, feeling, is, subsiding, the, day, to, day, normality, of, work, is, returning, sheep, are, permitted, to, visit, the, surgery, for, treatment, so, we, have, had, a, much, more, normal, march, than, we’d, had, last, year, even, though, there, are, still, thousands, of, sheep, missing, from, the, practice, farmers, are, still, bringing, in, lambs, the, value, of, stock, is, obviously, not, their, prime, concern, where, there’s, life, there’s, hope, we, wouldn’t, see, ewes, or, lambs, at, all, if, the, cost, of, treatment, versus, the, animal’s, value, was, weighed, i, was, worried, that, we, would, have, a, flare, up, around, lambing, time, there’s, a, chance, that, some, of, the, fell, sheep, were, exposed, to, fmd, and, there’s, a, risk, of, virus, recrudescence, at, times, of, stress, so, i, was, thinking, that, if, we, made, it, through, lambing, then, we’d, definitely, be, ok, the, weather, has, cheered, me, up, this, week, everybody, smiles, more, when, it’s, sunny, its, tempting, to, think, my, days, at, home, are, holidays, when, the, weathers, so, nice, diary, 5, i, forgot, about, april, fools, day, for, the, first, time, ever, we, were, so, busy, at, work, and, it, was, more, of, a, bank, holiday, than, anything, else, i, do, resent, working, bank, holidays, but, monday, is, my, day, to, be, on, call, b, did, offer, to, do, some, of, the, day, but, he, had, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, a, lambing, at, 1.30, am, and, another, call, at, 6, am, so, he’d, be, knackered, enough, and, they, pay, me, for, a, day’s, work, so, its, only, fair, that, i, give, a, days, work, when, the, phone, rang, early, tuesday, and, i, felt, as, if, i’d, only, been, in, bed, 2, hours, i, was, regretting, not, passing, on, the, night, duty, a, belgian, blue, calving, caesarian, mentally, checked, my, kit, in, the, car, while, driving, to, ks, definitely, caesarean, they, shouldn’t, breed, from, these, cows, until, they’re, more, mature, we’re, getting, loads, of, bother, with, the, new, stock, never, mind, its, proper, veterinary, work, anyway, the, heifer, was, a, right, bag, started, off, lying, down, so, i, doped, her, but, she, got, up, after, we, got, the, calf, out, and, then, tried, to, lye, down, on, the, wound, peritonitis, to, follow, no, doubt, i, warned, the, farmer, and, we, were, all, very, calm, about, it, maybe, none, of, us, were, really, awake, so, that, made, partner, late, for, work, as, he, was, left, holding, the, baby, and, i, was, well, late, setting, off, to, see, my, sister, sister, sister, didn’t, mind, and, partner, s, bosses, said, it, was, ok, but, i, still, felt, guilty, had, a, great, time, at, sister’s, did, a, bit, of, touristy, stuff, and, found, a, really, nice, book, for, mam’s, birthday, by, mrs, herdie, who, used, to, holiday, near, home, mam, has, a, watercolour, by, her, but, this, book, is, all, wildflowers, other, sister, phoned, to, say, horse, is, worse, i, think, sister, and, i, both, wanted, to, go, to, yorkshire, when, we, heard, how, upset, she, was, sisters, are, so, close, being, twins, but, i, can, understand, what, sister, s, going, through, with, a, horse, on, death’s, door, she, didn’t, want, us, to, go, she, said, so, we, drank, too, much, red, wine, instead, and, watched, the, start, of, papillon, good, film, i, was, too, knackered, though, my, stamina, gives, out, a, lot, sooner, under, the, influence, of, alcohol, mam’s, birthday, was, a, queer, day, it’s, rare, that, i, get, the, chance, to, spend, time, with, any, of, my, siblings, at, home, and, we, had, a, lovely, day, apart, from, the, fact, that, we, were, all, waiting, to, hear, what, was, going, to, happen, with, sister, she, phoned, to, say, he’d, been, put, down, bladder, tumour, i, think, it, must, be, pretty, rare, she, still, said, we, shouldn’t, go, down, sister, could, have, easily, gone, and, mam, because, lynxes, on, school, hols, jammy, teacher, i, stayed, on, till, quite, late, because, both, my, brother, and, stepfather, wanted, to, see, son, he, was, so, excited, to, see, them, sometimes, he, just, makes, us, all, laugh, i, had, a, depressing, start, to, the, day, back, at, work, just, over, a, month, ago, i, amputated, a, dog’s, leg, the, leg, was, fractured, over, 6, months, ago, appeared, to, heal, and, then, suddenly, worsen, we, suspected, a, bone, infection, but, she, didn’t, respond, to, treatment, so, i, x, rayed, her, again, and, it, looked, like, a, bone, tumour, she, did, well, after, the, operation, until, last, week, when, she, developed, a, hard, knobbly, swelling, near, her, shoulder, and, her, lungs, were, infiltrated, i, felt, so, sad, for, her, and, the, family, she, was, a, lovely, placid, and, very, brave, dog, and, it, is, just, so, unfair, i, don’t, want, to, give, up, on, these, cases, and, i, feel, that, euthanasia, is, a, poor, treatment, in, this, case, i, so, wanted, her, to, have, a, couple, more, years, i, never, would, have, put, her, or, the, family, through, a, ghastly, op, like, amputation, if, i, had, known, that, she, would, get, so, little, benefit, the, farmer’s, son, who, worked, the, dog, until, she, retired, was, conspicuous, by, his, absence, he’s, rebuilding, the, milking, parlour, ready, to, restock, so, his, sister, did, the, honours, and, came, to, help, me, had, to, switch, to, party, mode, son’s, 2nd, birthday, the, sandpit, was, a, roaring, success, as, was, the, trike, and, cake, from, grandma, and, granddad, we, had, a, super, relaxing, day, mostly, outdoors, this, weather, makes, life, a, lot, easier, i, couldn’t, have, coped, with, all, those, little, boys, inside, escaped, to, the, horses, at, asby, to, take, water, it’s, so, peaceful, up, there, i’ve, really, missed, being, able, to, go, up, there, this, last, year, there’s, still, yellow, tape, on, my, gate, and, i, don’t, even, have, livestock, i, wonder, who, they, defra, thought, the, field, belongs, to, should, get, out, riding, this, next, week, with, a, bit, of, luck, and, a, bit, of, spare, time, i, think, i’ll, have, to, shelve, the, plans, to, show, the, arabs, i, haven’t, got, started, soon, enough, diary, 6, our, new, vet, started, this, week, bright, young, enthusiastic, and, full, of, new, ideas, i, feel, very, out, of, touch, i, didn’t, go, on, any, cpd, courses, last, year, for, most, of, the, year, i, felt, as, if, we, were, unclean, and, i, was, so, tired, with, working, such, long, days, it, seemed, too, much, hard, work, to, organise, extra, childcare, etc, to, allow, me, to, go, away, for, more, than, a, day, i, feel, out, of, touch, generally, though, and, a, lot, of, it, has, to, do, with, working, part, time, big, day, on, wednesday, son’s, 1st, morning, at, biggins, nursery, i, think, my, new, hobby, is, worrying, am, i, doing, the, right, thing, setting, off, on, new, extra, and, expensive, childcare, arrangements, i, think, i, feel, guilty, because, it’s, for, my, benefit, not, for, extra, work, it’s, now, going, to, cost, me, an, extra, 7.50, to, ride, my, horse, on, a, wednesday, but, i, am, starting, to, break, horse, in, as, well, and, i, can’t, handle, a, 4, year, old, horse, with, a, 2, year, old, boy, around, anyway, the, nursery, seemed, a, big, hit, and, i, had, my, first, ride, out, on, ashby, fell, i, actually, went, over, the, track, to, the, dowly, tree, instead, of, on, the, road, she, the, horse, was, quite, anxious, leading, the, other, two, and, a, bit, excited, to, be, out, in, the, open, space, of, the, fell, so, was, i, there, seems, to, be, just, one, lot, of, fell, sheep, on, there, they, must, be, h’s, i, think, nobody, else, has, started, to, heft, sheep, up, there, yet, the, dowly, tree, will, be, looking, sad, and, lonely, for, a, bit, longer, i, have, missed, being, up, on, that, fell, so, much, margaret, little, asking, if, we’re, going, to, the, village, hall, quiz, on, friday, probably, not, because, we’re, going, out, for, a, meal, for, partner, s, birthday, felt, guilty, about, not, supporting, village, activities, and, started, justifying, myself, to, her, i, hate, it, though, when, people, use, fmd, to, make, you, feel, bad, she, kept, saying, how, few, does, there, were, last, year, how, nice, it, is, for, all, the, village, to, get, together, etc, all, true, but, i, can’t, get, babysitters, and, nights, off, to, do, everything, and, partner, is, way, more, important, than, the, village, quiz, he, put, up, with, such, a, lot, of, shite, last, year, and, never, complained, far, too, tolerant, we, had, a, lovely, meal, on, the, friday, night, son, slept, out, at, t’s, for, the, first, time, in, ages, but, i, couldn’t, have, a, lie, in, because, of, the, judge’s, course, for, the, arab, horse, society, i, really, enjoyed, it, it, was, arranged, for, last, year, but, had, to, be, postponed, due, to, fmd, it, was, worth, waiting, for, and, i, couldn’t, have, gone, last, year, even, if, it, had, been, on, went, to, see, sister, and, sister’s, boyfriend, on, sunday, seemed, to, spend, all, day, being, fed, she’s, like, mam, son, took, a, real, shine, to, sister’s, boyfriend, which, entertained, us, all, she, seems, to, be, coping, ok, with, horse, s, demise, martin, has, cleaned, up, one, of, his, shoes, and, mounted, it, with, a, plaque, he’s, very, thoughtful, diary, 7, i, have, decided, that, i, am, happy, on, dry, days, when, i, can, ride, or, work, my, horses, son, and, i, can, get, outside, to, play, and, then, he’s, happier, and, people, who, come, into, work, are, more, smiley, on, good, days, too, son, and, i, went, to, a, birthday, party, this, week, he, had, a, brilliant, time, but, i, felt, very, out, of, place, everybody, else, was, immaculately, dressed, and, made, up, while, son, and, i, had, to, rush, back, from, having, a, bonfire, to, burn, all, the, old, hay, in, musgrave, field, to, quickly, wash, and, change, i’d, rather, have, carried, on, tidying, up, the, field, it’s, still, a, real, mess, and, at, least, i, have, the, grass, seed, now, it, had, better, grow, the, price, it, was, i, was, really, pleased, with, horse, on, wednesday, he’s, coming, on, quite, nicely, with, his, lunging, now, he, seems, to, be, quite, amenable, dental, appointment, on, friday, i, hope, my, dentist, never, retires, i, don’t, think, they, make, dentists, that, are, more, interested, in, people, and, their, teeth, than, money, any, more, i, always, have, a, good, chat, to, him, so, we, carried, on, our, discussion, about, my, working, conditions, comparing, them, to, his, sons, etc, he’s, a, vet, too, he, was, quite, surprised, when, i, told, him, about, the, partnership, talks, last, time, i, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, it, was, after, the, threatened, redundancy, it’s, no, wonder, i, feel, confused, about, the, future, at, times, nearly, 2, years, ago, when, i, was, on, maternity, leave, they, thought, they, might, have, to, make, me, redundant, now, they, want, to, release, a, bit, of, capital, and, take, things, easier, they, want, me, to, buy, in, this, time, last, year, i, didn’t, know, if, partner, or, i, would, have, a, job, now, i, have, to, decide, to, commit, myself, to, at, least, 20, more, years, as, a, vet, went, out, with, girls, from, work, to, a, 40th, didn’t, really, want, to, go, but, of, course, we, had, a, great, time, once, we, got, there, i, think, i, have, got, out, of, the, habit, of, evenings, out, still, can’t, get, used, to, the, freedom, the, mobile, phone, gives, us, and, spend, all, the, time, checking, that, there’s, enough, signal, battery, etc, had, a, hell, of, a, hangover, too, much, draught, coke, hell, it’s, worse, than, cider, diary, 8, the, shit, is, hitting, the, fan, we’re, having, problems, with, some, imported, dutch, heifers, we, were, waiting, for, this, especially, on, this, particular, farm, the, management’s, not, the, best, and, the, father, takes, more, advice, from, his, feed, merchant, than, us, vets, there, is, obviously, a, viral, infection, going, through, the, heifers, and, farmer, b, presumed, they, were, already, vaccinated, no, documentation, they, are, also, showing, signs, of, gastro, intestinal, upset, which, could, be, management, oh, hell, why, did, he, buy, 80, first, calvers, nobody, would, willingly, put, themselves, under, that, stress, new, vet, is, interested, but, b, and, w, are, obviously, trying, to, keep, their, distance, they’ve, been, embroiled, in, herd, problems, on, this, farm, before, i, am, now, obviously, the, senior, vet, in, charge, of, this, problem, and, i’m, not, even, at, work, every, day, it’s, too, much, for, new, vet, to, cope, with, and, the, farmer, will, get, pissed, off, soon, and, i, bet, it’s, us, that, catch, the, flak, cheered, myself, up, with, 1, hours, of, r, r, with, the, horses, on, wednesday, lovely, day, rode, down, onto, the, common, but, it, was, hard, work, as, the, other, two, horses, were, shouting, for, daisy, all, the, time, i, was, out, on, her, horse, decided, that, he, would, be, bobbly, when, i, worked, him, but, i’m, getting, confident, that, i, know, how, his, mind, works, we, had, a, bit, of, a, stand, off, but, i, made, sure, it, didn’t, turn, into, a, battle, and, he, did, as, he, was, asked, in, the, end, so, we, finished, on, a, good, note, i, think, it, will, be, quite, satisfying, bringing, him, on, myself, even, though, its, going, to, take, months, at, this, rate, some, people, work, on, young, horses, twice, a, day, he’s, lucky, if, he, gets, trained, twice, a, week, work, is, really, settling, down, now, the, lambing, time, rush, has, passed, and, we’re, catching, up, on, our, tb, testing, for, defra, it’s, a, bit, more, taxing, having, to, do, such, young, animals, in, the, restocked, herds, but, most, people, are, fairly, well, organised, we’re, not, going, to, get, some, of, the, herds, done, before, turn, out, i, wonder, if, defra, have, any, recommendations, for, catching, wild, limousin, heifers, in, the, middle, of, a, field, probably, not, they, don’t, think, that, far, ahead, diary, 9, i, hate, mondays, again, had, supper, at, 11.45, pm, there, was, a, problem, with, my, mobile, when, i, was, on, call, i, hate, mobiles, as, well, and, i, went, to, calve, a, cow, one, and, a, half, hours, after, the, first, call, came, in, i, was, so, mad, firstly, because, we, don’t, make, our, clients, wait, that, long, for, an, emergency, to, become, a, disaster, and, second, because, ws, wife, has, no, idea, about, passing, jobs, on, she, should, have, got, another, vet, to, go, since, i, was, obviously, busy, but, she, just, passed, the, message, on, to, new, vet, to, let, her, sort, it, out, and, w’s, wife, gets, paid, for, doing, the, phones, anyway, all’s, well, live, cow, and, a, tremendous, bull, calf, and, one, of, the, easiest, caesareans, i, have, done, in, ages, b, and, w, seem, to, forget, that, it, is, their, business, and, reputation, at, stake, ultimately, the, buck, stops, with, them, both, of, them, seem, to, have, had, enough, of, business, management, and, hassle, to, last, a, lifetime, last, year, has, done, a, lot, of, damage, to, a, lot, of, people, i, know, i, am, a, lot, less, tolerant, than, i, used, to, be, this, week, started, badly, and, improved, farrier, came, and, trimmed, all, 3, horses, bollocked, me, because, they, hadn’t, been, seen, for, over, a, year, i, did, tidy, them, a, bit, myself, though, had, a, lovely, afternoon, at, rheged, with, mam, we, started, going, when, fmd, was, on, because, it, was, sort, of, neutral, non, agricultural, ground, we, sat, and, chatted, while, son, played, in, the, soft, play, centre, everybody, happy, unfortunately, i, went, down, with, the, worst, dose, of, food, poisoning, i, had, ever, had, i, was, up, all, night, went, into, work, late, i, wouldn’t, have, gone, at, all, except, i, had, a, 2nd, tb, to, test, to, do, on, a, restocked, farm, and, couldn’t, bear, to, start, the, whole, thing, again, i, recovered, as, the, afternoon, went, on, and, even, managed, to, dehorn, 10, cows, the, thought, of, b, sending, fragile, young, new, vet, to, help, spurred, me, on, a, bit, i, was, knackered, when, i, finished, took, me, another, 2, days, to, recover, horse, doing, well, bridle, and, saddle, on, now, looking, grown, up, i’m, quite, proud, of, him, he, was, so, chilled, out, today, i, tried, long, reining, him, that, confused, him, but, he, was, very, sensible, norleen, and, i, didn’t, go, to, the, 1st, date, at, the, rochdale, show, i, still, didn’t, feel, right, and, partner, was, going, to, fit, the, new, fuel, pump, to, my, car, but, then, he, started, to, feel, ill, too, what, a, waste, of, a, saturday, off, made, it, to, the, show, on, sunday, pretty, good, ridden, classes, and, all, the, senior, in, hand, classes, we, were, laughing, because, we’re, so, out, of, practice, there, are, two, years, worth, of, young, stock, that, we’ve, never, seen, due, to, babies, in, 2000, and, fmd, in, 2001, we, felt, really, out, of, touch, there, are, a, few, imported, stallions, and, mares, that, we, haven’t, seen, before, too, we, had, a, brilliant, day, diary, 10, what’s, worse, than, working, on, call, on, mondays, yes, working, bank, holidays, we, hoped, to, shut, at, 12, ha, ha, i, got, home, for, lunch, at, 2pm, b, kindly, took, the, phones, for, a, couple, of, hours, in, the, afternoon, not, long, enough, to, go, anywhere, and, i, was, back, out, working, by, tea, time, my, car, failed, its, mot, because, the, back, brake, callipers, were, all, gunged, up, the, mechanic, says, it’s, disinfectant, that, does, it, bloody, defra, i, bet, there’s, no, chance, of, compensation, for, that, it, wouldn’t, be, so, bad, if, it, was, a, practice, car, but, now, that, i’m, part, time, i, have, to, paddle, my, own, canoe, all, the, local, garage, owners, warned, us, last, year, that, these, things, would, happen, what, could, we, do, we, felt, obliged, to, drive, into, all, the, voluntary, disinfectant, sites, it, doesn’t, look, good, if, the, local, vets, aren’t, disinfecting, my, beautiful, old, audi, god, knows, what, other, horrors, are, lurking, where, the, fam, has, spilled, in, my, boot, etc, hell, it, makes, me, mad, all, the, destruction, physical, and, mental, and, we, had, so, little, to, say, in, any, of, it, well, my, car, spent, the, rest, of, the, week, in, the, garage, so, i, used, borrowed, wheels, went, to, do, a, wee, talk, at, stainsmore, pre, school, in, partner, s, transit, van, very, professional, the, children, didn’t, care, they, just, wanted, to, meet, my, dog, son, missed, a, birthday, party, on, the, saturday, because, i, was, still, at, work, more, guilt, not, that, he, knows, he, missed, it, lovely, day, on, sunday, with, my, horse, went, for, a, three, hour, ride, over, in, county, durham, we, trailed, round, arable, fields, and, nice, lanes, all, very, different, from, here, other, horse, was, an, absolute, saint, and, did, very, well, to, have, no, shoes, on, she, really, did, us, proud, diary, 11, got, my, car, back, that, cheered, me, up, bad, news, about, the, imported, heifers, two, more, have, died, at, least, the, pm, exams, and, sampling, are, free, because, it’s, a, restocked, herd, farmer, getting, angry, now, at, dutch, farmers, but, taking, it, out, on, new, vet, very, unfair, she’s, spent, hours, checking, over, his, cattle, and, taking, samples, didn’t, get, my, usual, r, r, on, wed, absolutely, piddling, down, started, sorting, out, a, few, jobs, that, i, have, been, avoiding, the, sort, i, used, to, do, on, wet, sundays, now, will, become, wet, wednesday, jobs, called, in, at, work, for, coffee, and, ended, up, with, a, call, for, the, afternoon, very, interesting, job, too, went, to, sedate, two, horses, for, the, dentist, it, was, absolutely, fascinating, son, has, another, 2nd, cousin, this, week, the, family, is, really, sprouting, had, a, tough, calving, thursday, night, torsion, of, the, uterus, i, can, do, these, now, i, used, to, absolutely, dread, them, unfortunately, she’d, been, on, too, long, and, the, calf, was, born, dead, heifer, fine, though, i, hate, going, to, that, farm, the, farmer, is, a, right, old, perverted, slime, ball, and, i’ll, dance, on, his, grave, started, with, a, real, head, cold, h, crap, went, to, see, mam, and, stewart, son, on, top, form, it’s, brilliant, seeing, him, interact, with, my, family, he, has, really, strengthened, the, bonds, in, our, family, son, fevered, at, night, starting, with, the, same, cold, i, presume, no, sleep, for, me, partner, never, seems, to, hear, all, the, commotion, still, felt, ill, on, saturday, sister, and, sister, s, birthday, at, least, i, remembered, to, post, their, cards, in, plenty, of, time, this, year, went, shopping, for, wallpaper, on, sunday, to, cheer, me, up, partner, went, off, pest, controlling, with, his, dogs, they, went, up, through, tubby’s, wood, they, found, nothing, but, at, least, the, dogs, had, a, good, ratch, he, says, he, only, now, feels, ok, about, walking, across, fields, i, didn’t, even, realise, that, he, still, felt, that, he, couldn’t, go, round, all, his, old, haunts, we, must, talk, more, diary, 19, tb, test, cancelled, on, monday, and, thursday, this, week, because, the, farmer, can’t, cope, with, the, extra, hassle, he’s, a, bit, of, a, woman, at, the, best, of, times, but, he’s, been, even, worse, since, fmd, w, was, very, understanding, he, seems, to, have, the, farmers, measure, b, didn’t, seem, that, understanding, very, upset, on, wednesday, afternoon, i, had, to, put, down, my, own, terrier, after, he, took, off, and, chased, the, neighbour’s, sheep, for, the, second, time, i, can’t, understand, why, he, went, so, strange, he, used, to, be, fine, with, stock, i, had, a, miserable, afternoon, waiting, for, partner, to, come, home, to, bury, him, i’d, had, such, a, good, morning, with, the, horses, too, dizzy, and, horse, were, both, going, well, i, felt, better, once, partner, came, home, he, said, i’d, done, the, right, thing, but, i, felt, as, though, i’d, failed, somehow, because, it, should, never, have, happened, in, the, first, place, maybe, it’s, because, he, had, nothing, to, do, last, year, no, interesting, walks, no, rabbiting, etc, i, don’t, know, diary, 20, brilliant, time, tues, wed, went, to, my, sisters, with, mam, and, son, it’s, much, easier, to, keep, in, touch, with, my, family, post, fmd, i, hardly, went, anywhere, last, year, we, went, shopping, to, edinburgh, mam’s, looking, for, an, outfit, for, my, brother’s, wedding, unsuccessfully, so, far, i’ve, just, realised, that, i, haven’t, seen, brother, and, wife, on, their, farm, since, fmd, broke, out, we, must, go, soon, it’s, a, brilliant, place, for, recharging, batteries, and, they, are, the, best, bit, of, my, step, family, we, didn’t, go, to, the, cumberland, show, with, the, horses, i, haven’t, got, back, into, the, swing, of, things, yet, i, think, it, was, a, bit, of, a, washout, without, the, farming, side, and, it, rained, i, offered, to, be, the, biosecurity, officer, for, our, local, show, so, that, they, could, get, things, up, and, running, properly, they, had, money, and, trophies, donated, last, year, for, new, cattle, classes, and, there, would, be, real, interest, in, fat, cattle, classes, and, young, handler, classes, now, defra, the, bastards, managed, to, put, the, committee, off, diary, 21, sprayed, weeds, in, field, only, depressing, day, this, week, it’s, never, going, to, recover, properly, the, landlord, arrived, when, we’d, just, finished, the, first, half, and, said, he’d, decided, to, reseed, it, in, august, after, much, discussion, i, persuaded, him, it, would, be, a, waste, of, time, and, money, to, put, horses, back, on, a, newly, seeded, field, over, winter, now, i’m, worried, about, what, happens, in, spring, will, we, be, terminated, or, just, moved, to, another, field, i, wish, i’d, moved, the, horses, at, the, usual, time, 1st, april, then, we, wouldn’t, have, been, caught, up, among, ips, and, dcs, something, will, sort, out, it, always, does, dairy, 22, excellent, week, off, to, malvern, with, friends, for, the, national, arabian, horse, show, son, went, off, to, grannies, for, the, holiday, i, had, a, marvellous, time, for, three, days, watching, the, most, beautiful, horses, and, came, back, absolutely, shattered, diary, 23, few, probs, at, work, with, new, assistant, she’s, a, bit, whiney, she’s, always, bending, the, ear, of, the, nearest, receptionist, and, they, are, sick, b, has, offered, her, a, 12, month, contract, but, whether, or, not, she’ll, accept, it, is, another, matter, from, what, i, can, gather, she’s, going, to, end, up, with, better, working, conditions, than, me, w’s, not, too, happy, about, it, all, but, neither, of, them, are, willing, to, grasp, the, nettle, they’ve, both, backed, off, since, last, year, they, can’t, wait, to, get, off, home, and, i, can’t, step, in, since, they’ve, changed, their, minds, about, my, partnership, and, i’m, only, part, time, good, weekend, lowther, on, saturday, didn’t, see, many, of, the, usual, faces, the, only, thing, that, spoiled, it, was, the, mud, we, brought, more, than, our, fair, share, home, with, son, and, the, pushchair, no, biosecurity, pressure, washer, anywhere, diary, 24, the, assistant, on, holiday, for, 2, weeks, things, seem, more, like, old, times, the, cages, aren’t, full, of, animals, on, drips, i’m, working, extra, days, and, enjoying, it, it’s, tiring, but, good, highlight, of, the, week, on, thursday, brough, show, there, weren’t, many, farmers, there, but, loads, of, horses, and, ponies, instead, of, sheep, much, talk, of, defra, regulations, none, complimentary, it, just, wasn’t, the, same, without, the, sheep, it, felt, flat, i, wonder, what, the, gimmer, lamb, sales, will, be, like, diary, 25, knackered, don’t, think, i, could, cope, with, full, time, work, any, more, new, vet, still, on, holiday, felt, guilty, about, son, being, farmed, out, all, week, i, managed, to, work, myself, up, about, our, charity, horse, show, on, saturday, i, tried, to, hand, over, the, organisation, to, three, other, folk, and, still, ended, up, sorting, out, all, the, insurance, and, rosettes, and, they, changed, the, date, so, i, had, less, time, to, organise, and, it, wasn’t, advertised, it, was, the, worst, show, we’ve, ever, had, it, takes, as, much, time, to, organise, it, for, the, few, as, it, does, for, the, many, i, felt, so, disappointed, i, thought, we, would, have, a, real, good, turnout, this, time, after, having, to, cancel, last, year, oh, well, there’s, always, next, year, i’ll, need, to, make, sure, they, don’t, change, the, date, again, and, at, least, i, might, be, able, to, take, the, horses, next, time, decided, to, cheer, myself, up, by, taking, other, horse, over, to, school, her, round, the, jumps, on, the, sunday, but, i, couldn’t, catch, her, she, must, have, known, so, that, just, put, the, tin, hat, on, the, weekend, diary, 26, two, trotting, meetings, this, week, i, landed, both, of, them, and, both, nights, on, call, another, bank, holiday, with, no, time, off, and, i, had, to, take, son, to, both, because, partner, was, grouse, beating, both, meetings, were, quite, relaxed, but, there, was, one, nasty, crash, at, appleby, had, a, really, nice, day, out, at, chatsworth, game, fair, with, helen, and, neil, it’s, the, first, time, we’ve, managed, to, visit, them, and, it, took, hours, to, get, there, we, were, invited, last, year, but, the, advert, said, they, didn’t, want, any, cumbrians, social, outcasts, as, if, we, didn’t, feel, like, the, armpit, of, british, agriculture, as, it, was, i, really, enjoyed, our, day, out, i, felt, as, if, we’d, had, a, weekend, away, not, just, a, day, we’ll, have, to, think, of, some, more, trips, it’s, too, easy, just, to, stay, at, home, we, always, have, plenty, to, do, dairy, 27, it’s, started, again, defra, have, found, a, new, way, to, cock, up, our, lives, they, have, now, complicated, life, with, exemptions, from, the, 20, day, standstill, including, new, stuff, about, isolation, units, the, farmers, have, all, been, notified, by, post, some, haven’t, read, it, some, have, read, it, and, don’t, understand, it, farmers, have, to, isolate, new, stock, bought, via, auctions, etc, from, any, contact, with, other, stock, by, 50, m, outside, or, they, can, go, on, standstill, but, their, neighbours, can, move, stock, from, the, next, door, field, without, a, problem, it’s, mad, i, don’t, understand, where, they, are, coming, from, well, i, do, sort, of, but, as, usual, it’s, badly, thought, out, and, we, have, to, sell, this, idea, to, the, farmers, how, will, it, be, policed, will, it, matter, would, it, stop, another, massive, outbreak, it, doesn’t, take, much, to, wind, everyone, up, again, it’s, not, helped, at, work, by, b, defending, the, defra, line, and, w, dissing, it, what, will, the, clients, think, diary, 28, crap, week, puncture, on, thursday, during, lunch, hour, struggled, to, get, locking, nuts, off, felt, feckless, god, i, have, so, little, patience, these, days, and, i, missed, beva, congress, couldn’t, sort, out, childminding, etc, and, the, best, days, were, friday, and, saturday, there, was, no, way, i, could, go, i, was, really, disappointed, nothing, to, do, with, fmd, though, i, don’t, feel, as, if, i, get, much, encouragement, from, work, they, are, ok, about, paying, for, cpd, courses, but, they, don’t, seem, to, make, it, easy, to, swap, weekends, etc, they’re, not, bothered, themselves, so, i, suppose, they, don’t, understand, all, the, different, things, you, get, from, cpd, diary, 29, worked, extra, so, new, vet, could, go, to, sheep, meeting, at, malvern, pissed, off, it, is, not, easy, to, do, this, job, with, a, husband, and, a, family, to, consider, and, i, suppose, the, timing, stinks, since, i, missed, my, equine, course, last, week, the, week, improved, considerably, by, thursday, we, went, to, guilford, for, an, arab, horse, convention, nothing, to, do, with, work, but, very, enjoyable, i’ve, been, waiting, more, than, 10, years, for, this, i, hope, i, live, long, enough, to, go, to, the, next, one, we, talked, to, some, men, on, the, train, unheard, of, in, surrey, apparently, about, cumbria, farming, fmd, and, foxhunting, once, we, reassured, them, that, newcastle, was, not, in, cumbria, we, had, an, interesting, crack, i, hardly, ever, meet, anyone, that, is, not, connected, with, farming, and, the, countryside, they, really, have, no, idea, what, it’s, like, i, don’t, know, anything, about, it, either, which, is, what, their, job, is, i, end, up, feeling, so, frustrated, that, agriculture, and, therefore, large, animal, practice, is, in, such, a, precarious, position, it, seems, to, me, to, be, such, a, basic, fundamental, part, of, life, compared, to, computers, and, yet, the, emphasis, is, not, on, basic, stuff, anymore, surely, we, need, things, like, agriculture, and, basic, manufacturing, to, underpin, everything, else, no, wonder, nobody, was, bothered, about, us, suffering, anxiety, fear, confusion, last, year, when, we, were, in, the, throes, of, fmd, and, the, penrith, spur, was, certainly, under, reported, they, wouldn’t, have, had, so, many, marches, in, london, pre, fmd, diary, 30, quite, week, still, tired, from, last, week, loads, of, photos, to, develop, again, it, was, great, saw, horses, i’d, never, seen, before, and, got, 2, great, videos, of, long, dead, horses, that, appear, in, my, horses, pedigrees, son, was, a, bit, off, with, me, when, i, picked, him, up, monday, a, bit, unsettled, with, being, away, i, suppose, oh, this, job, just, interferes, with, a, social, life, missed, another, wedding, this, week, on, call, again, diary, 31, took, a, horse, to, penrith, vets, for, an, x, ray, they, have, a, super, new, hospital, just, out, of, town, seems, really, well, set, up, they, have, a, really, good, attitude, to, work, and, clients, i, think, we, need, a, shake, up, at, work, maybe, new, vet, s, way, of, working, isn’t, too, bad, neil, said, they, were, million, in, the, red, at, the, height, of, fmd, they, must, have, been, so, worried, none, of, us, knew, what, we’d, be, left, with, we’ve, definitely, got, a, lot, of, routine, work, because, we’ve, lost, such, a, lot, of, dairy, farms, it’s, never, going, to, be, the, same, again, and, i’m, not, good, at, accepting, change, diary, 32, sad, week, one, of, our, farmer’s, sons, was, killed, in, an, rta, on, the, a66, he, had, only, been, married, two, years, and, was, a, real, canny, lad, it, shocked, everyone, and, has, certainly, made, me, take, stock, they, have, restocked, with, fancy, cattle, from, down, south, and, these, cattle, may, have, contacted, cattle, with, a, variant, virus, from, the, usa, so, they, were, doing, a, whole, herd, test, you, could, blame, this, on, fmd, if, they, hadn’t, lost, their, cattle, they, wouldn’t, have, restocked, and, they, wouldn’t, be, testing, the, cattle, or, it, wouldn’t, have, happened, if, they’d, stopped, for, an, extra, cup, of, tea, a, client, brought, me, a, copy, of, the, cumbria, enquiry, that, didn’t, half, stir, up, some, old, feelings, all, the, things, i, was, so, angry, about, last, year, were, summed, up, in, one, phrase, i, read, slack, organisation, the, poor, woman, who, brought, the, report, has, spent, over, 1000, treating, her, dog, after, it, suffered, chemical, burns, from, fmd, disinfectant, on, a, road, map, it, now, reacts, to, phenolic, compounds, including, sheep, dip, and, fresh, tar, they’re, moving, to, scotland, i, hope, the, dog, has, a, better, life, there, diary, 33, funny, old, week, everyone, still, shell, shocked, about, farmer’s, son, s, death, no, explanation, as, to, how, the, lorry, crashed, into, his, tractor, yet, you, begin, to, wonder, how, any, family, can, cope, with, that, sort, of, trauma, b, and, w, went, to, the, huge, funeral, they, said, his, parents, were, amazing, they, do, have, a, strong, faith, but, i, can’t, see, that, being, enough, i, went, to, the, graveyard, the, next, day, to, see, the, flowers, and, ended, up, in, tears, it, was, the, messages, on, the, cards, especially, the, ones, from, his, parents, and, brother, and, sister, i, felt, so, sad, for, them, all, went, for, a, wee, walk, with, tracey, she, knows, him, quite, well, and, we, talked, a, lot, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, all, then, blow, me, on, the, thursday, his, father, and, brother, were, part, of, a, syndicate, at, the, tup, sales, that, paid, over, 100,000, for, a, swaledale, tup, i, couldn’t, believe, they’d, even, gone, to, the, auction, never, mind, doing, something, like, that, it, doesn’t, seem, right, to, me, the, others, could, have, bought, the, tup, for, them, i, think, that’s, awfully, strange, i, had, another, upset, farmer’s, wife, this, week, i, went, to, see, a, downer, cow, she’d, got, stuck, in, the, cubicles, we, had, to, carry, her, to, a, straw, box, using, the, loader, tractor, and, the, wife, got, really, upset, seeing, the, cow, swinging, on, the, front, of, the, tractor, i, felt, a, bit, guilty, really, because, i, didn’t, think, i, just, didn’t, connect, the, fmd, slaughter, with, an, injured, cow, but, then, i, didn’t, see, all, that, they, saw, when, their, herd, went, down, diary, 34, great, week, my, brother’s, wedding, son, was, a, page, boy, in, a, kilt, and, he, was, quite, well, behaved, apart, from, the, second, lot, of, photos, he, was, well, tired, and, hungry, by, then, i, love, being, home, with, my, brother, and, sisters, and, their, partners, and, it’s, great, the, way, they, all, have, so, much, time, for, son, we, always, laugh, so, much, at, the, clan, gatherings, i’m, sure, it’s, very, therapeutic, the, amount, of, alcohol, consumed, by, all, at, the, wedding, is, definitely, not, therapeutic, we, set, off, on, our, holiday, maybe, our, first, family, holiday, the, day, after, in, the, rain, but, it, turned, out, ok, later, such, a, lot, of, good, stuff, in, one, week, diary, 35, had, a, lovely, day, it, all, worked, out, well, we, may, try, four, or, five, days, away, next, year, now, that, we’ve, got, started, again, it’s, years, since, we, had, a, proper, holiday, i, usually, miss, all, the, animals, when, i’m, away, but, not, this, time, i, think, son, has, more, than, filled, that, gap, had, bad, news, on, wednesday, partner, s, van, failed, its, mot, no, transport, no, money, for, a, new, motor, mild, panic, slight, depression, then, the, gradual, return, to, my, it, will, all, work, out, somehow, attitude, and, it, did, partner, s, mum, and, dad, helped, us, out, and, i, had, to, relinquish, my, little, buy, a, new, trailer, fund, had, a, disaster, on, sunday, morning, caesarean, on, an, uncooperative, cow, she, got, up, halfway, through, the, op, and, pushed, her, rumen, out, onto, the, very, dirty, floor, and, she, started, to, haemorrhage, she, died, four, hours, later, they, ended, up, with, an, exceptional, bull, calf, but, a, dead, pedigree, belgian, blue, cow, i, hate, when, things, die, on, restocked, farms, i, think, they, were, quite, philosophical, about, it, but, i, went, over, and, over, the, whole, thing, in, my, head, b, just, said, if, they’re, going, to, die, it’s, best, they, die, soon, less, time, to, worry, and, everyone, gets, over, it, quicker, too, i, think, he, may, be, right, he’s, definitely, easier, to, talk, to, these, days, he’s, like, a, different, person, now, that, jan’s, left, diary, 36, busy, week, testing, a, restocked, herd, monday, thursday, which, had, travelled, all, of, 5, miles, to, their, new, home, a, bit, of, a, waste, of, time, but, it, was, a, nice, day, to, be, out, really, good, turnout, at, the, village, bonfire, it’s, a, new, tradition, started, in, 2001, and, it, was, the, first, village, get, together, after, fmd, at, the, end, of, the, week, i, headed, south, to, cheshire, and, the, salisbury, plain, with, my, friend, ann, and, her, horse, to, compete, in, the, marathon, what, an, awful, journey, we, had, the, rain, poured, the, traffic, crawled, i’m, glad, i, don’t, have, to, use, the, m6, on, a, daily, basis, i, really, enjoyed, my, weekend, away, but, we, had, to, pull, the, horse, out, at, the, half, way, point, she, was, so, hyped, that, we, couldn’t, get, her, heart, rate, down, so, she, wasn’t, allowed, to, continue, i, felt, really, disappointed, i, was, sure, that, she, had, a, good, chance, well, she, would, have, if, they, had, a, vet, check, halfway, through, diary, 37, a, bit, of, an, anticlimax, this, week, after, all, the, build, up, to, the, marathon, it, would, have, been, so, different, if, she’d, completed, the, course, we, had, a, better, journey, north, except, for, a, puncture, not, handy, when, you, have, a, horse, trailer, on, i, drove, most, of, the, way, back, to, ann’s, saw, all, her, horses, and, then, drove, home, another, 2, hours, oh, i, was, so, pleased, to, get, home, it, was, a, good, experience, though, i, don’t, think, either, of, us, would, trail, a, horse, all, the, way, to, salisbury, plain, for, a, two, hour, race, again, there, were, fmd, cases, near, ann, in, cheshire, that, didn’t, seem, to, catch, hold, like, they, did, in, cumbria, maybe, its, because, there, are, bigger, farms, and, more, arable, land, i, went, to, see, her, in, july, 2001, and, she, pointed, out, various, fields, that, had, been, cleared, of, stock, half, of, them, didn’t, even, have, gates, on, there, was, no, disinfectant, or, precautions, visible, and, it, was, really, starting, to, wipe, out, our, practice, at, home, it, was, unbelievable, we, were, sitting, in, cumbria, thinking, that, agriculture, was, doomed, and, everything, in, cheshire, was, carrying, on, as, normal, it, was, a, rude, awakening, for, me, diary, 38, more, tb, testing, all, day, job, testing, stock, that, wouldn’t, normally, be, tested, but, they’re, restocked, they, have, come, from, cheshire, though, so, that, does, increase, the, risk, had, a, shocking, migraine, all, day, wednesday, went, to, bed, as, soon, as, i’d, dropped, son, off, at, biggins, and, didn’t, wake, up, until, 5pm, 2, hours, after, i, should, have, collected, him, and, i, still, felt, awful, it, was, terrible, driving, in, the, dark, and, i, had, to, stop, three, times, on, the, way, home, i, went, back, to, bed, until, 9pm, and, then, was, fine, i, haven’t, had, a, migraine, for, ages, i, was, back, on, top, form, the, next, day, though, we, did, the, tb, readings, on, 172, cattle, before, lunch, cooking, with, gas, diary, 39, fed, up, with, all, this, testing, and, we, may, be, doing, this, for, the, next, 4, 5, months, sick, of, new, vet, moaning, at, work, i, don’t, know, what, it, would, take, to, make, her, happy, i, think, this, week, has, nearly, all, been, a, waste, of, time, i, haven’t, made, best, use, of, my, free, time, and, i, haven’t, been, on, top, of, my, job, at, work, diary, 40, i, was, dreading, this, week, because, there, were, so, many, things, to, do, i, think, i, avoid, adding, extra, to, my, schedule, but, this, week, i, had, 3, days, away, and, a, night, out, to, cope, with, i, really, don’t, like, the, thought, of, shopping, but, managed, to, do, some, christmas, present, locating, on, friday, spent, wednesday, with, b, which, was, better, than, i, expected, on, a, national, scrapie, plan, training, day, which, was, worse, than, i, expected, bloody, defra, they, don’t, have, to, do, or, say, much, to, raise, my, hackles, here, we, are, selecting, for, a, resistant, genotype, and, they, are, spending, all, their, time, injecting, bse, into, sheep’s, brains, to, challenge, them, how, would, that, ever, happen, naturally, nearly, missed, my, night, out, because, of, work, it, was, 10, pm, before, i, got, there, but, at, least, i, didn’t, miss, the, dancing, it, turned, into, a, really, good, night, nearly, everyone, from, work, was, there, and, j, the, ex, receptionist, we, always, have, a, good, laugh, ended, up, working, most, of, the, morning, don’t, know, if, w, was, hung, over, or, just, idle, but, he’ll, have, to, pay, me, for, the, hours, i, don’t, work, extra, out, of, the, goodness, of, my, heart, now, i, have, all, my, own, overheads, to, fund, new, vet, s, the, star, for, avoiding, extra, or, dirty, work, then, it, usually, falls, to, me, she, says, she, wants, more, large, animal, work, and, then, does, her, best, to, avoid, it, diary, 41, tired, this, week, son, came, back, from, mavis’s, full, of, cold, improved, a, bit, and, then, woke, up, screaming, on, tuesday, night, it, was, a, very, long, night, and, partner, wasn’t, even, here, t, enjoy, share, it, as, he’d, left, to, fly, to, tampa, at, 5am, that, morning, god, i, don’t, fancy, being, a, single, mum, he, soon, started, to, improve, after, 24hrs, on, antibiotics, ear, and, chest, infection, i’ve, never, seen, him, in, such, pain, of, course, he, was, nearly, better, by, the, time, partner, got, back, i, really, struggled, on, my, own, and, had, to, take, a, day, off, on, thursday, but, still, had, to, go, and, do, a, second, tb, test, otherwise, i, would, have, had, to, start, all, over, again, we, didn’t, have, time, to, test, them, twice, and, it’s, a, restocked, herd, so, we, had, to, do, them, all, it’s, really, hard, trying, to, do, the, best, for, everyone, diary, 42, pretty, good, week, until, the, weekend, had, a, good, night, out, for, tracey’s, birthday, and, i, was, really, chuffed, she, invited, son, too, he, was, well, behaved, too, nut, unfortunately, now, thinks, he, can, go, to, the, pub, so, we, have, to, go, out, to, meetings, to, avoid, a, tantrum, i, don’t, really, think, i, have, suffered, many, after, effects, from, fmd, except, a, lower, anger, threshold, and, a, loss, of, faith, in, the, powers, that, be, i’m, much, more, worried, about, some, of, our, client’s, mental, health, i, know, there, are, several, who, have, suffered, severe, depression, and, they, are, not, all, farmers, that, were, culled, out, the, sleepless, nights, were, back, with, a, vengeance, son, started, with, chickenpox, at, the, weekend, and, nobody, had, any, sleep, diary, 43, absolutely, shattered, somebody, else’s, chickenpox, is, nearly, as, bad, as, your, own, i, don’t, think, i, have, had, a, full, nights, sleep, for, over, a, fortnight, i, still, had, a, lovely, time, at, christmas, though, i, was, sure, that, partner, and, son, would, be, pleased, with, their, presents, son, suddenly, brightened, dup, on, christmas, eve, on, the, way, to, mam’s, and, never, broke, stride, after, that, he, was, son, top, form, i, was, so, tired, that, i, fell, asleep, on, saturday, evening, and, missed, the, village, hall, christmas, party, the, highlight, of, the, village, social, calendar, diary, 44, the, threat, of, tb, rears, its, ugly, head, maybe, tb, is, the, new, fmd, went, to, do, a, private, tb, test, for, a, farmer, who, has, restocked, and, passed, his, restocking, checks, unfortunately, he, bought, 3, heifers, in, november, and, the, original, farm, has, since, gone, down, with, tb, he, isolated, the, heifers, as, soon, as, he, heard, and, waited, for, defra, they, didn’t, come, so, we, did, i, hoped, for, the, best, and, expected, the, worst, one, of, the, heifers, reacted, i, didn’t, know, what, to, do, or, say, the, farmer’s, wife, was, really, upset, she, wished, they, hadn’t, gone, back, into, farming, b, the, boss, has, phoned, defra, that, morning, regarding, these, heifers, only, to, be, told, that, youngstock, don’t, pose, much, of, a, risk, they, don’t, seem, to, have, much, idea, at, all, and, don’t, have, a, clue, about, getting, on, with, the, job, they’ve, had, three, weeks, to, track, down, the, calves, out, of, the, cows, that, were, reactors, they, seem, to, let, us, down, just, when, we, need, them, most, oh, they, make, me, boil, and, we, are, going, to, have, to, cope, with, the, aftermath, again, diary, 45, felt, a, bit, flat, and, tired, this, week, the, test, i, had, this, week, was, hard, work, trying, to, catch, cows, in, cubicles, is, not, fun, we, were, all, covered, in, muck, at, the, end, of, it, and, the, second, day, was, worse, because, he, had, about, 14, to, rectal, after, the, test, wednesday, my, day, of, respite, was, taken, up, looking, after, tracey, in, bed, with, cold, she’s, really, down, still, and, i, can’t, seem, to, do, anything, to, make, her, feel, better, i, know, she’ll, come, out, of, it, eventually, but, it’s, hard, not, being, able, to, help, i, just, didn’t, feel, as, if, i, had, any, time, to, myself, this, week, and, i, really, missed, out, if, i, start, working, wednesdays, i’m, going, to, miss, it, every, week, i’ll, have, to, have, another, plan, it’s, a, bit, better, at, the, weekend, but, i, think, we, all, need, some, better, weather, and, i, miss, doing, stuff, with, the, horses, diary, 46, oh, i’m, mad, again, with, defra, i, had, to, go, back, to, the, herd, with, the, reactor, and, test, every, single, bovine, on, the, place, except, the, two, remaining, heifers, from, the, infected, herd, i, don’t, understand, why, they, can’t, just, take, out, those, heifers, too, the, poor, farmer, and, his, wife, will, be, on, tender, hooks, until, the, end, of, march, at, the, earliest, if, they, hadn’t, asked, for, a, private, test, goodness, knows, when, defra, would, have, got, there, while, i, was, testing, defra, phoned, the, farmers, wife, to, confirm, that, the, slaughtered, heifer, had, visible, lesions, so, that, puts, paid, to, the, theory, that, youngstock, weren’t, a, danger, hope, this, news, makes, them, get, a, finger, out, had, a, lovely, day, with, mam, and, son, on, tuesday, we, sat, and, talked, for, over, an, hour, in, the, car, park, everything, tested, clear, at, the, check, test, so, far, so, good, bad, day, on, thursday, the, behaviour, course, i, was, enrolled, on, has, been, cancelled, no, explanation, just, a, cheque, returned, to, the, practice, with, a, wee, note, i, was, so, disappointed, even, though, it, was, going, to, be, a, lot, of, extra, work, over, the, next, 10, months, and, extra, hassle, and, extra, childminding, i, think, i, could, have, coped, then, at, lunchtime, i, bent, my, car, door, after, stopping, to, help, somebody, stuck, on, an, icy, patch, i, haven’t, got, all, the, bits, sorted, that, were, knackered, by, fmd, disinfecting, yet, and, there’s, more, repairs, and, i, have, to, pay, for, it, myself, now, that, i, don’t, have, a, practice, car, i, was, well, fed, up, dairy, 47, busy, week, tb, testing, again, started, working, odd, wednesdays, this, week, so, spent, all, day, wednesday, up, the, back, end, of, suckler, cows, very, dangerous, taking, bloods, for, brucellosis, and, then, blood, sampling, swaledales, for, scrapie, testing, we, have, so, many, tests, still, to, do, but, not, many, dreadfully, out, of, date, and, i, think, we’ve, done, quite, a, lot, of, the, restocking, tests, but, its, all, quite, mind, numbing, stuff, not, much, clinical, acumen, required, for, getting, blood, out, of, cows, just, quick, reactions, to, dodge, shit, and, flying, feet, very, late, finished, monday, by, the, time, i, had, all, my, paperwork, done, a, a, college, friend, landed, tuesday, en, route, to, leeds, for, a, herd, health, meeting, 6, hours, driving, for, a, meeting, we, talked, a, bit, about, fmd, she, worked, as, a, tvi, towards, the, end, of, the, outbreak, they, have, a, lot, more, trouble, with, tb, up, in, aberdeenshire, once, it, gets, into, a, herd, they, struggle, to, get, rid, of, it, again, i, hope, it, doesn’t, get, to, be, a, huge, problem, round, here, collected, a, fair, few, bruises, on, thursday, pregnant, heifers, to, dehorn, they, should, have, been, done, in, 2001, but, of, course, the, routine, work, was, put, off, i, don’t, know, what, the, excuse, was, leaving, them, al, through, 2002, but, they, were, massive, anyway, it, saved, me, going, to, the, gym, on, wednesday, night, diary, 48, i, have, just, handed, in, the, latest, batch, of, diaries, and, started, a, new, session, i, have, been, thinking, that, f, m, doesn’t, really, affect, me, much, anymore, our, work, has, changed, because, of, the, restocking, that, has, taken, place, since, with, all, the, new, disease, problems, that, have, been, bought, in, as, additional, extras, and, the, extra, tb, testing, etc, but, mentally, i, am, not, aware, of, even, thinking, about, the, events, of, 2001, that, often, i, still, feel, upset, if, someone, tells, me, about, their, own, particular, experiences, which, are, often, heart, rending, but, probably, no, more, than, if, they, were, discussing, another, devastating, disease, problem, i, still, have, little, tolerance, for, the, workings, of, defra, even, though, they, are, providing, us, with, lots, of, bread, and, butter, work, diary, 51, i’m, sick, of, doing, caesareans, on, cows, who, encouraged, all, the, bloody, beef, farmers, to, restock, with, belgian, blues, i’m, not, sure, that, we, should, be, continuing, to, allow, animals, to, breed, that, can’t, reproduce, naturally, it, doesn’t, seem, right, that, we, should, almost, expect, a, caesarean, the, day, that, a, new, cow, is, put, in, calf, we, used, to, have, occasional, troubles, before, and, not, all, caesareans, are, on, belgian, blues, but, now, we, do, at, least, one, caesarean, every, week, b, did, two, in, one, day, and, they, are, bloody, hard, work, diary, 52, i, always, think, of, the, 23rd, feb, as, being, the, day, that, i, realised, we, might, be, in, the, shit, in, 2001, it, wouldn’t, have, passed, unnoticed, round, here, several, people, mentioned, the, date, in, the, following, week, yet, it, wasn’t, until, the, 4th, april, that, f, m, came, into, our, practice, loads, of, our, farmers, lost, a, lot, of, seep, early, on, though, because, they, were, wintering, away, on, dairy, farms, further, down, the, eden, valley, this, used, to, just, involve, the, hoggs, but, now, they, are, encouraged, to, leave, the, fells, almost, empty, and, are, paid, to, remove, even, pregnant, ewes, to, lower, ground, it, seems, ludicrous, that, on, certain, farms, the, fell, sheep, only, spend, summertime, on, the, fells, the, rest, of, the, time, they, are, in, bye, land, for, tupping, or, lambing, and, then, are, wintered, in, sheep, sheds, or, on, dairy, farms, sometimes, quite, far, away, from, home, i, did, get, quite, upset, when, i, read, the, stories, in, the, book, this, time, i, think, i, had, more, empathy, for, the, tourism, businesses, affected, they, must, have, been, so, frustrated, and, probably, ended, up, much, worse, off, that, the, affected, farmers, in, our, area, the, farmers, who, survived, are, the, ones, in, general, who, are, struggling, for, survival, now, and, their, farms, have, had, no, capital, investment, at, all, in, fact, some, of, the, survivors, are, still, very, bitter, about, the, whole, episode, its, so, sad, what, this, has, done, to, some, people, diary, 55, check, tb, test, at, campbells, went, well, finished, in, good, time, running, into, trouble, because, the, other, cows, taken, in, for, winter, are, calving, and, they, have, no, room, however, they, have, found, someone, to, take, and, slaughter, all, the, big, bullocks, they, are, going, to, be, moved, under, licence, direct, to, a, slaughter, house, so, at, least, they, will, have, some, income, the, first, this, year, everything, tested, clear, including, the, 2, heifers, brought, in, from, the, farm, that, had, the, reactor, so, they, are, feeling, a, little, bit, more, confident, diary, 56, bloody, defra, cocked, up, again, with, c’s, test, had, to, go, back, to, test, 11, baby, calves, how, cruel, had, to, go, back, to, h’s, as, well, to, test, one, inconclusive, reactor, all, of, them, were, ok, diary, 60, i, think, the, lambing, time, rush, is, settling, down, again, of, course, there, aren’t, quite, as, many, fell, sheep, about, as, usual, and, probably, won’t, be, again, if, the, payments, are, de, coupled, numbers, won’t, be, as, profitable, as, acres]
## 3 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1964, gender, f, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, beginning, 4th, march, 02, monday, 4th, march, we, decided, we, now, need, more, staff, a, new, vet, and, a, part, time, receptionist, this, could, take, us, back, up, to, our, previous, staffing, level, pre, fm, bar, a, vet, but, this, was, probably, going, to, be, all, the, recruitments, we, would, make, this, year, it’s, a, good, sign, as, things, begin, to, get, back, to, normal, work, is, increasing, quite, a, lot, now, most, of, our, farmers, have, restocked, although, a, lot, of, them, and, us, are, still, concerned, about, the, future, tuesday, 5th, march, a, difficult, day, today, with, licences, two, of, our, farmers, needed, sole, occupancy, authentitys, soa, and, there, were, queries, with, their, land, unless, some, of, their, fields, could, be, redefined, they, were, worried, their, stock, would, suffer, during, the, fm, these, worries, have, shown, how, much, they, care, about, their, stock, and, find, it, very, frustrating, when, they, don’t, understand, why, we, can’t, move, them, even, to, the, point, of, anger, and, tears, by, the, end, of, the, day, thankfully, they, were, resolved, with, compromise, on, both, sides, and, a, lot, of, phone, calls, wednesday, 6th, march, i, decided, to, sort, out, all, the, paperwork, and, guidelines, we, had, received, from, defra, over, the, past, twelve, months, it, was, quite, a, pile, it, was, interesting, looking, back, and, very, sad, it, makes, you, realise, just, how, deep, the, feelings, went, and, although, it, sounds, silly, it’s, surprising, how, quickly, those, feelings, can, return, over, the, smallest, things, anyway, having, done, that, it, did, feel, good, to, box, them, up, and, put, them, away, we, got, taken, out, for, lunch, with, our, ptizer, rep, and, it, was, nice, just, to, talk, about, usual, things, drug, competition, how, much, we, were, going, to, sell, thursday, 7th, march, very, busy, day, everyone, has, been, flat, out, all, day, started, at, 7am, this, morning, got, finished, sort, of, by, 7.30pm, very, tired, hope, we, get, a, new, vet, soon, we, also, had, a, suspect, bse, case, today, informed, defra, more, problems, with, soa, but, we, got, them, started, one, bit, of, good, news, i, managed, to, get, a, new, receptionist, for, 2, days, a, week, so, i, just, need, one, for, the, other, 3, friday, 8th, march, quite, a, good, day, no, major, hassles, today, and, still, getting, busier, had, a, staff, meeting, to, arrange, an, open, day, for, national, pet, week, in, may, and, sorted, out, a, few, other, bits, and, bobs, had, a, good, chat, with, the, staff, who, have, all, been, very, busy, this, week, and, decided, that, it, is, much, better, to, this, time, last, year, when, we, were, all, very, depressed, emotionally, drained, laying, off, staff, uncertain, of, the, future, at, least, now, we, are, doing, what, we, are, meant, to, do, saturday, 9th, march, went, shopping, first, thing, with, k, had, a, good, time, even, though, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, we, went, to, the, farmers, market, i, saw, heather, who, works, at, the, auction, and, she, said, it, had, been, quite, emotional, having, sales, again, and, the, hustle, and, bustle, but, they, were, all, happy, to, see, people, they, hadn’t, seen, for, sometime, met, my, mum, in, the, afternoon, in, the, snow, at, killington, lake, it, was, good, and, the, driving, was, interesting, sunday, 10th, march, mothers, day, husband, and, daughter, were, out, for, the, day, so, i, had, a, lovely, peaceful, day, doing, not, a, lot, daughter, got, me, a, funny, card, and, a, little, hedgehog, model, for, my, collection, in, the, evening, i, collected, a, vet, student, from, london, who, is, staying, with, us, for, 3, weeks, so, we, will, have, to, behave, she, seems, nice, and, settled, into, our, mad, house, easily, mr, w, called, in, to, let, us, know, his, cows, had, arrived, safely, week, beginning, 11th, march, 02, monday, 11th, march, what, a, busy, day, but, a, total, change, to, this, time, last, year, it, was, the, day, our, first, client, was, confirmed, with, f, m, i, helped, another, vet, do, a, caesarean, on, a, cow, that, was, fun, they, are, farmers, that, have, moved, farm, and, restocked, very, positive, one, of, our, new, receptionists, started, but, i, didn’t, get, much, chance, to, see, her, due, to, the, caesar, barbara, looked, after, her, well, and, she, seemed, to, enjoy, it, there, were, lots, of, calls, in, just, like, the, old, days, but, we, really, need, another, vet, the, adverts, in, on, thursday, so, fingers, crossed, tuesday, another, busy, day, and, another, caesar, the, calf, was, dead, unfortunately, the, cow, with, query, bse, was, taken, away, for, tests, which, was, sad, my, highlight, of, my, day, was, the, farm, across, from, us, turned, some, of, his, cows, out, again, i, call, it, my, kitchen, window, view, normally, i, can, see, sheep, in, the, fields, at, the, back, and, the, cows, across, the, road, the, sheep, came, back, a, couple, of, months, ago, and, the, cows, but, i, haven’t, actually, been, able, to, see, them, so, it, was, very, special, never, really, stopped, today, and, we, did, dog, training, classes, at, night, so, i, collected, daughter, from, her, yfc, meeting, and, got, fish, and, chips, and, we, all, went, to, bed, our, poor, vet, student, who, is, staying, with, us, is, exhausted, she’s, been, able, to, see, and, do, so, much, wednesday, today, was, a, little, more, controlled, and, went, more, according, to, plan, but, was, still, a, long, day, as, we, had, a, dog, in, about, 6.30pm, that, had, eaten, a, ball, and, hadn’t, passed, it, so, we, had, to, operate, to, remove, it, anyway, finished, at, 9.00pm, had, tea, and, went, to, bed, daughter, heard, she, had, got, 2, weeks, work, experience, at, norbrook, pharmaceutical, so, very, pleased, about, that, thursday, had, the, morning, off, the, last, few, days, had, been, rather, hectic, a, girl, who, had, done, work, experience, with, us, a, couple, of, years, ago, called, round, out, of, the, blue, she, was, still, keen, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, and, wanted, to, write, to, the, practices, in, the, area, and, needed, advice, anyway, i, told, her, about, our, vacancy, here, and, well, the, long, and, the, short, is, she, starts, on, the, 2nd, april, receptionist, staff, now, sorted, just, need, a, vet, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, friday, husband, was, reading, a, tt, test, at, a, farm, and, found, a, reactor, pre, f, m, cumbria, was, tb, free, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, area, it, is, inevitable, that, this, will, not, be, the, case, there, have, already, been, two, other, cases, in, the, county, i, dropped, off, the, isolation, notice, to, the, farmer, and, as, they, are, he, seemed, okay, and, still, very, positive, i, have, always, admired, them, for, their, courage, and, stamina, as, he, said, they, love, farming, and, you, have, to, expect, things, like, this, managed, to, spend, the, afternoon, with, one, of, our, new, receptionists, she, is, doing, really, well, and, settling, in, time, she, will, grasp, it, all, in, no, time, saturday, ran, daughter, and, her, friend, into, town, and, sorted, out, the, garage, that, was, an, achievement, the, dog, that, swallowed, the, ball, wasn’t, eating, so, i, went, to, get, it, something, tasty, it’s, going, home, later, so, it, should, be, a, lot, happier, daughter, s, still, in, town, so, i, took, vet, student, to, see, hadrian’s, wall, she’s, from, america, so, was, very, keen, to, see, it, she, really, enjoyed, it, and, so, did, i, i, hadn’t, been, for, a, couple, of, years, just, had, a, nice, quiet, evening, in, sunday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, for, the, day, my, niece, is, two, and, a, half, years, so, need, i, say, more, we, were, busy, playing, all, day, week, beginning, monday, 18th, march, 02, monday, 18th, march, it's, looking, fairly, quiet, at, work, this, week, but, you, never, know, mr, w, farmer, came, in, he, was, letting, us, know, his, restocking, plans, and, was, one, of, the, farmers, querying, his, compensation, i, never, liked, that, as, they, were, compulsory, purchased, and, have, not, received, any, compensation, as, such, although, some, got, better, money, than, others, so, maybe, it, was, all, taken, into, account, anyway, he, missed, the, query, deadline, by, two, hours, so, defra, are, refusing, to, look, at, his, case, as, he, does, appear, to, have, lost, out, as, his, brother, with, the, same, breeding, of, cows, and, related, went, down, on, the, same, down, got, an, average, 300, more, per, cow, anyway, we, tried, to, look, to, the, future, and, he, was, looking, forward, to, getting, stock, back, we, had, another, tb, reactor, today, in, some, french, cattle, me, and, our, receptionist, were, chatting, and, decided, things, were, really, getting, back, to, normal, although, with, the, added, paperwork, daughter, was, very, upset, when, she, came, home, from, school, as, she, had, been, getting, bullied, by, a, girl, in, her, year, so, we, chatted, about, that, and, i, wrote, to, her, teacher, to, see, if, she, could, find, out, more, tuesday, daughter, went, to, school, fairly, happy, i, just, told, her, to, hand, her, letter, in, and, try, and, avoid, the, girl, i, was, going, milk, recording, tonight, which, i, really, enjoy, it's, great, to, be, among, the, animals, and, talk, to, the, farmers, we, only, have, one, farmer, milk, recording, fully, at, present, there, were, 12, the, farm, i, went, to, is, a, big, dairy, herd, and, is, now, looking, to, expanding, so, that, was, good, news, bad, news, is, that, means, i'll, have, to, get, up, earlier, in, the, mornings, for, the, recording, never, mind, daughter, had, got, on, okay, at, school, and, the, teacher, was, really, good, with, her, so, she's, feeling, happier, she, is, a, good, kid, and, although, hormonal, at, times, she, does, put, up, with, a, lot, during, the, fmd, we, were, unable, to, really, go, anywhere, or, do, anything, although, we, did, try, to, keep, her, routine, we, worked, longer, hours, and, were, more, stressed, but, she, never, complained, and, helped, a, lot, went, dog, training, after, milk, recording, so, it, was, a, long, day, wednesday, early, morning, start, today, 5am, to, go, milk, recording, but, i, always, get, a, lovely, breakfast, we, also, got, invited, to, a, party, at, the, farm, in, may, so, that's, something, to, look, forward, to, and, its, fancy, dress, so, that, will, be, fun, we, have, to, dress, up, as, children's, characters, we, then, attended, a, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, until, 7, pm, so, another, very, long, day, very, tired, we, saw, a, lot, of, children, who, were, interested, in, pursuing, veterinary, work, which, is, always, encouraging, i, enjoy, doing, the, careers, days, it's, interesting, to, see, the, next, workforce, they, seem, to, grow, up, so, fast, thursday, my, claim, to, fame, today, was, seeing, the, princess, royal, i, passed, her, at, a, junction, and, thought, i, was, seeing, things, i, bored, everyone, with, that, story, we, had, a, lovely, staff, lunch, meeting, we, all, helped, cook, and, sat, and, chatted, about, the, future, we, had, no, replies, from, the, advert, for, a, vet, so, we, decided, to, try, another, veterinary, magazine, so, fingers, crossed, in, the, afternoon, i, managed, to, get, very, well, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, which, is, a, rarity, as, i, normally, end, up, going, somewhere, or, sorting, something, out, so, i, was, very, pleased, especially, as, the, year, end, is, approaching, friday, discussed, a, few, ideas, with, our, nurse, regarding, the, small, animal, side, and, the, possibility, of, getting, some, new, equipment, i, shall, have, to, do, some, adding, up, husband, was, at, a, vet, meeting, locally, for, all, the, vets, in, the, area, on, thursday, night, and, there, were, 3, other, practices, looking, for, vets, and, had, been, doing, for, some, time, without, any, luck, at, all, this, is, worrying, as, our, case, loads, increase, again, it, puts, a, strain, on, the, vets, so, fingers, crossed, our, advert, is, in, tomorrow, in, the, afternoon, i, called, to, see, one, of, our, evening, receptionist, who, is, on, maternity, leave, at, present, it, was, good, to, see, her, and, her, new, addition, so, i, was, filling, her, in, on, the, news, and, gossip, hopefully, she, will, be, back, to, work, the, second, week, in, april, although, the, birth, was, a, caesarean, so, i, have, told, her, to, see, how, she, is, feeling, so, we, will, discuss, it, again, soon, as, this, is, her, fourth, child, but, she, copes, really, well, and, is, looking, really, healthy, saturday, it, snowed, i, went, to, meet, my, mum, at, killington, as, we, were, having, her, dog, while, she, went, on, holiday, and, nearly, got, stuck, in, the, snow, during, foot, and, mouth, daughter, had, counted, the, stock, in, the, field, between, carlisle, and, penrith, on, the, m6, anyway, i, did, it, again, today, last, year, we, counted, 2, this, year, we, counted, 12, big, difference, sunday, went, for, a, walk, around, a, local, wood, for, the, first, time, in, over, a, year, it, was, amazing, how, overgrown, it, had, become, the, paths, were, still, visible, but, in, places, only, just, met, up, with, a, friend's, daughter, to, finalise, arrangements, for, her, father's, surprise, meal, out, next, friday, for, his, 50th, birthday, week, beginning, monday, 25th, march, 02, monday, 25th, march, another, very, busy, day, today, still, no, answer, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, husband, spoke, to, another, vet, in, the, area, and, they, had, had, the, same, response, nothing, it, is, good, to, be, busy, again, our, new, receptionist, is, doing, well, and, learning, fast, so, that's, taking, the, pressure, off, me, and, other, receptioinist, completed, the, claim, form, for, business, link, grant, which, helped, a, lot, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, and, advertise, when, we, wouldn't, have, been, able, to, tuesday, starting, to, prepare, for, the, end, of, our, financial, year, i, always, dread, this, but, it, has, to, be, done, it, will, be, nice, to, end, another, chapter, the, practice, suffered, badly, last, year, and, it, was, very, worrying, we, lost, 3, vets, and, two, lay, staff, but, everyone, is, feeling, the, same, i, have, spoken, to, a, few, farmers, today, and, the, opinion, is, well, it, is, a, lot, better, than, this, time, last, year, it, has, been, interesting, to, see, how, the, effect, of, having, new, stock, does, throw, them, we, are, getting, called, out, a, lot, more, which, is, good, for, us, we, are, doing, a, lot, more, lambings, and, lambing, is, set, to, go, on, until, may, june, time, this, year, we, are, very, busy, testing, at, the, moment, but, it, gives, us, the, opportunity, to, see, the, new, animals, and, discuss, plans, with, the, farmers, the, relationship, which, was, built, during, the, f, m, is, now, definitely, benefiting, a, lot, have, said, how, helpful, it, was, and, feel, a, lot, closer, the, family, not, business, relationship, is, good, wednesday, i, had, a, day, off, today, which, was, good, i, managed, to, catch, up, on, a, few, things, which, i, just, hadn't, had, time, to, do, with, being, so, busy, i, got, a, lot, organised, for, the, holiday, at, the, week, end, which, we, are, all, looking, forward, to, but, we, can't, all, get, away, together, mainly, due, to, no, new, vet, and, our, financial, year, but, at, least, we, will, all, get, a, bit, of, a, break, daughter, got, her, report, today, and, has, done, very, well, we, are, so, proud, of, her, so, fingers, crossed, for, her, gcses, thursday, i, spoke, to, mrs, w, today, who, has, been, very, much, in, action, since, they, got, f, m, and, even, got, in, touch, with, politician, etc, to, help, give, farmers, that, voice, she, mentioned, the, public, inquiry, and, like, a, lot, of, people, feels, that, maybe, rather, than, having, a, finger, pointing, blaming, session, and, we, all, have, our, ideas, on, that, she, felt, that, maybe, trying, to, prevent, it, happening, again, would, be, a, better, idea, i, personally, have, begun, to, realize, recently, just, how, much, and, how, deep, the, feelings, run, i, think, i, am, more, emotional, now, than, when, we, were, in, the, thick, of, it, friday, spent, all, day, knuckling, down, to, the, end, of, year, but, got, a, lot, done, husband, daughter, and, vet, student, went, out, for, the, day, it, is, husband, s, first, real, day, off, since, october, and, it, did, him, good, we, all, went, out, in, the, evening, to, celebrate, a, friend's, birthday, it, was, really, good, saturday, holiday, again, today, husband, daughter, my, sister, and, her, daughter, have, gone, away, today, to, the, cottage, near, newton, stewart, we, have, rented, for, a, week, the, weather, is, great, so, they, should, have, a, lovely, time, this, could, be, our, only, holiday, this, year, husband, s, back, on, monday, then, i, go, on, wednesday, confusing, isn't, it, never, mind, at, least, we, will, all, get, away, for, a, few, days, sunday, end, of, year, day, stocktaking, counting, sunny, outside, boring, but, never, mind, it's, done, our, vet, student, went, home, today, she, had, really, enjoyed, herself, and, we, had, enjoyed, having, her, she, bought, us, all, some, lovely, gifts, it, will, be, nice, to, be, on, our, own, again, but, i, will, still, miss, her, week, beginning, monday, 1st, april, 02, monday, 1st, april, i, had, a, lovely, day, my, day, husband, and, daughter, still, away, played, in, the, garden, went, for, a, walk, read, some, of, my, book, lovely, husband, came, back, at, tea, time, so, we, went, out, for, a, meal, perfect, tuesday, went, to, help, another, vet, vet, tt, test, at, one, of, our, farms, he, had, restocked, and, was, very, positive, about, the, future, it, was, a, lovely, day, and, great, to, be, amongst, cows, again, wednesday, sunday, hols, great, i, didn't, realise, just, how, much, i, needed, it, the, weather, was, great, warm, sunny, very, relaxing, all, charged, up, again, week, beginning, monday, 8th, april, 02, monday, 8th, april, back, to, work, today, i, had, quite, a, lot, of, catching, up, to, do, and, couldn't, really, get, into, it, never, mind, it, will, all, still, be, there, tomorrow, hope, we, can, get, away, again, this, year, even, for, a, few, days, tuesday, queen, mum's, funeral, today, it, was, very, quiet, we, gave, the, girls, time, off, to, watch, the, funeral, it, was, a, nice, funeral, if, you, can, have, one, and, they, commented, on, the, poem, which, was, read, about, being, thankful, for, the, life, and, not, being, sorry, i, must, get, it, our, nurse, suggested, about, giving, it, to, clients, when, they, have, their, pets, put, to, sleep, nice, idea, wednesday, back, into, it, now, i, had, 2, very, difficult, soa, to, complete, farmers, are, slowly, getting, the, idea, but, find, all, the, paperwork, hard, but, it's, a, good, chance, for, them, to, call, in, for, a, chat, and, coffee, i, so, seem, to, spend, an, awful, lot, of, time, doing, that, now, but, it's, always, good, to, see, how, they, are, coping, thursday, the, large, animal, work, has, been, rapidly, increasing, and, it, has, been, putting, extra, pressure, on, all, the, staff, we, do, really, need, another, vet, but, another, advert, and, still, no, response, at, all, but, they, all, work, very, hard, and, we, do, manage, to, get, through, the, work, we, chatted, to, the, staff, and, tried, to, reassure, them, about, the, future, but, how, can, you, when, if, we, can't, get, another, vet, we, simply, can't, provide, the, service, our, clients, need, it, is, very, worrying, and, we, are, not, sure, of, the, solution, or, the, future, i, think, after, that, paragraph, i, need, a, we, can, do, it, kick, friday, our, new, receptionists, are, settling, in, well, and, i, did, some, work, with, them, today, which, was, good, they, are, both, very, enthusiastic, a, few, years, ago, a, i, taught, nvq, in, animal, care, so, one, of, our, receptionists, is, keen, to, do, this, so, i, organised, some, work, for, her, to, do, enjoyed, that, castrated, a, colt, in, the, afternoon, sad, i, know, but, i, enjoyed, that, saturday, went, shopping, with, daughter, in, the, morning, to, buy, her, some, new, clothes, we, had, a, good, time, then, started, the, sewing, for, the, yfc, field, day, we, had, to, make, shorts, and, t, shirt, for, a, sport, event, well, i, haven't, really, done, sewing, from, a, pattern, for, years, so, let's, just, say, it, was, fun, sunday, went, to, newcastle, for, the, day, via, some, fields, we, had, to, check, for, a, client's, soa, had, a, lovely, time, and, saw, the, blinking, or, winking, i'm, not, sure, which, one, it, is, it, was, nice, to, have, a, day, all, together, week, beginning, monday, 15th, april, 02, monday, 15th, april, very, busy, again, i, did, 175, miles, today, just, dropping, things, off, for, farmers, and, vets, and, trips, to, the, lab, i, also, found, a, new, supplier, of, paper, towels, which, will, save, us, a, lot, of, money, see, so, easy, pleased, it, was, very, tiring, but, i, do, like, being, out, and, about, and, i, even, managed, two, cups, of, coffee, on, farms, before, fmd, i, felt, that, the, relationship, between, vets, and, farmers, was, changing, but, our, relationship, during, fmd, did, change, for, the, better, i, feel, good, about, that, but, not, the, way, it, happened, me, and, daughter, had, a, girls, night, in, as, husband, was, away, that, was, fun, tuesday, 16th, april, husband, away, at, bcva, he, is, new, on, the, committee, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, there, is, only, him, and, another, vet, in, scotland, from, the, north, invited, onto, the, committee, so, they, are, putting, together, some, suggestions, to, put, to, the, government, re, fmd, poor, another, vet, was, very, busy, again, we, need, a, vet, wednesday, 17th, april, i, went, to, see, an, elderly, client, of, ours, this, morning, who, has, an, old, dog, she, is, going, into, hospital, and, won't, go, as, she, is, worried, about, the, dog, i, offered, to, have, kelly, the, dog, while, she, was, in, hospital, and, told, her, if, i, found, out, she, cancelled, it, i, would, be, cross, i, enjoy, talking, to, her, for, her, 87, years, she, is, very, fit, and, funny, at, lunchtime, we, all, attacked, the, bayer, rep, for, free, goodies, for, our, open, day, he, was, very, co, operative, and, got, away, without, a, scratch, we, didn't, have, an, open, day, last, year, so, it, should, be, fun, back, into, a, routine, thursday, 18th, april, i, bottomed, my, paperwork, this, morning, no, interference, no, phone, calls, no, soa, very, productive, me, and, husband, went, to, see, the, finical, advisor, at, the, bank, in, the, afternoon, it, was, good, but, we, can't, retire, this, year, never, mind, he, gave, us, some, good, ideas, so, fingers, crossed, we, might, just, be, able, to, retire, one, day, friday, 19th, april, very, busy, we, need, a, vet, repetitive, isn't, it, we, were, looking, back, in, the, visit, book, to, this, time, last, year, this, year, we, had, 21, calls, which, is, a, practise, record, last, year, we, had, 1, there, is, a, lot, of, general, well, this, time, last, year, in, some, ways, it, all, seems, very, unbelievable, but, in, other, ways, it, still, very, sad, and, emotional, i, think, more, emotional, now, than, when, it, was, actually, happening, when, you, see, farmer’s, eyes, filling, up, talking, about, it, i, used, to, worry, about, upsetting, them, but, i, feel, it, is, good, to, talk, and, it, also, helps, me, i, don't, know, if, that’s, right, but, it, seems, to, work, saturday, 20th, and, sunday, 21st, april, huge, sewing, for, yfc, field, day, i, also, found, out, today, that, there, is, also, baking, and, flower, arranging, oh, joy, week, beginning, monday, 22nd, april, 02, monday, 22nd, april, good, day, today, i've, been, to, see, my, new, girls, the, cows, over, the, road, from, us, it, was, the, one, we, could, see, from, the, practice, it, was, an, awful, day, they, had, lasted, until, june, anyway, it, was, good, to, see, the, new, girls, and, i, think, i, amused, the, farmer, we, had, a, great, time, i've, never, enjoyed, helping, tt, test, more, on, a, high, tuesday, 23rd, april, driving, around, today, i've, been, trying, to, listen, to, what, the, euro, inquiry, people, have, been, up, to, not, a, lot, from, what, i, hear, i, was, talking, to, an, old, farmer, in, the, afternoon, and, he, wasn't, impressed, either, and, we, agreed, that, it, was, all, very, well, having, these, inquires, but, were, they, going, to, help, i, suppose, only, time, will, tell, but, i, still, feel, that, unless, something, is, done, about, the, cause, then, the, chances, are, it, will, happen, again, and, to, what, extent, and, what, has, been, learnt, and, what, will, be, different, next, time, because, the, one, thing, that, must, be, prevented, is, the, effects, on, people, nobody, really, got, that, i, always, remember, the, samaritans, advert, nobody, seemed, to, care, probably, no, paperwork, can, you, tell, i've, had, a, particularly, bad, day, with, the, soa, and, the, good, news, is, they, want, to, keep, them, permanently, great, wednesday, 24th, april, i, went, to, see, mrs, b, again, today, and, she, had, heard, from, the, hospital, again, she, was, going, in, next, tuesday, so, i, arranged, at, collect, k, on, monday, afternoon, i'm, pleased, she's, having, her, op, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, one, of, her, daughters, in, devon, so, hopefully, everything, should, go, well, now, good, news, we, have, heard, of, a, vet, at, defra, who, is, looking, for, a, job, husband, phoned, her, and, she, is, coming, on, saturday, afternoon, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, 25th, april, my, cows, got, the, tt, reading, this, morning, and, they, are, all, okay, we, have, heard, of, a, farm, in, welton, who, had, to, have, some, killed, as, they, had, 7, reactors, and, they, will, need, tested, there, has, been, quite, a, few, reactors, in, the, country, after, restocking, but, with, all, the, new, stock, coming, into, the, county, from, all, over, the, country, it, was, bound, to, happen, friday, 26th, april, sorted, out, the, open, day, next, saturday, got, everything, sorted, what, we, need, who's, getting, it, etc, me, and, receptionist, went, to, smuts, fancy, dress, and, decided, budget, wouldn't, go, to, costumes, so, we, got, some, face, paint, and, masks, me, and, daughter, and, her, friend, and, mum, went, to, see, westlife, ant, newcastle, it, was, great, fun, saturday, 27th, april, shopping, washing, and, sewing, i, know, how, to, show, myself, a, good, time, we, all, went, to, another, vet, s, at, night, for, a, bbq, it, was, great, fun, cold, but, fun, we, have, been, so, lucky, with, another, vet, she, is, so, nice, and, enthusiastic, we, interviewed, a, vet, today, from, defra, but, she, is, a, little, uncertain, what, she, wants, to, do, but, she, seems, nice, and, we, told, her, what, we, needed, so, fingers, crossed, sunday, 28th, april, finished, my, sewing, week, beginning, monday, 29th, april, monday, the, inquiry, begins, for, what, good, it, will, do, i, find, i, have, very, mixed, feelings, part, of, me, thinks, what's, the, point, and, another, is, expecting, something, but, quite, what, i, don't, yet, someone, to, blame, a, solution, an, ability, to, turn, back, the, clock, a, lesson, to, learn, or, an, end, the, last, i, know, won't, happen, for, a, while, and, the, repercussion, will, probably, be, felt, for, a, few, years, yet, tuesday, 30th, april, sorry, ill, in, bed, today, with, the, cold, from, hell, wednesday, 1st, may, much, better, today, and, we, heard, from, the, vet, we, interviewed, on, saturday, and, she, has, accepted, our, offer, and, can, start, on, the, 27th, may, yippee, holidays, and, easing, of, the, pressure, on, husband, and, another, vet, i, am, still, finding, the, saying, well, this, time, last, year, mrs, r, phoned, and, mentioned, the, saying, as, it, was, a, year, ago, today, that, their, cattle, were, killed, but, she, was, phoning, with, good, news, they, had, their, first, calf, born, healthy, and, well, and, she, wanted, to, tell, us, lovely, thursday, 2nd, may, its, official, soa, are, here, to, stay, oh, joy, so, we, contacted, all, our, farmers, who, had, not, yet, got, one, who, we, thought, might, need, one, so, lots, of, chatting, and, catching, up, so, quite, nice, open, day, is, on, saturday, and, there, still, seems, to, be, an, awful, lot, to, organise, but, we, have, been, busy, all, day, and, things, are, looking, better, and, slightly, more, organised, i, haven't, seen, or, heard, much, of, this, enquiry, but, when, you, do, hear, some, i, think, we, really, went, through, that, weird, friday, 3rd, may, open, day, panic, that’s, all, i've, done, today, but, it, is, all, coming, together, and, it, will, be, fine, hopefully, we, have, had, quite, a, good, response, about, people, coming, and, people, checking, when, it, is, and, what's, happening, so, fingers, crossed, must, go, and, bake, my, buns, saturday, 4th, may, open, day, it, went, really, well, we, started, at, 2, p.m, and, there, was, a, steady, stream, of, people, all, enjoying, themselves, hopefully, it, stayed, fine, the, whole, time, thankfully, i, even, got, my, face, painted, by, another, vet, our, vet, we, managed, to, raise, 96.71, for, the, pat, dogs, and, 27.35, for, national, pet, week, not, too, bad, for, 2, hours, the, staff, came, round, for, tea, later, which, was, nice, and, we, had, a, jolly, time, sunday, 5th, may, gardened, all, day, till, i, dropped, loved, it, i, grew, quite, fond, of, the, garden, last, year, as, it, was, another, little, escape, week, beginning, monday, 6th, may, monday, 6th, may, bank, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, family, day, out, which, have, been, very, rare, so, it, was, surprising, that, we, all, got, on, nearly, it, still, feels, strange, being, able, to, go, to, places, not, only, as, a, family, but, also, the, fact, that, for, so, long, we, didn't, really, go, anywhere, tuesday, 7th, may, very, busy, i, have, been, doing, my, hollering, as, receptionist, calls, it, what, i, have, actually, been, doing, is, dropping, off, drugs, and, chatting, i, call, it, customer, relations, i, still, feel, funny, going, onto, farms, i, have, been, to, the, gate, for, months, just, momentarily, i, feel, can, i, its, hard, to, explain, it, still, feels, normal, to, drop, things, in, the, bucket, or, bin, rather, than, driving, onto, the, farm, but, its, good, and, the, coffee, with, proper, milk, is, brill, wednesday, 8th, may, mr, g, has, got, some, cows, he, was, one, we, thought, wouldn't, restock, as, although, both, his, sons, are, on, the, farm, neither, are, interested, in, cows, one, has, horses, and, the, other, has, everything, else, from, turkeys, dogs, wallabies, monkeys, pheasants, etc, a, real, menagerie, daddy, g, is, 66, and, couldn't, decide, weather, to, get, more, cows, or, not, it, was, a, bit, of, dad, says, yes, sons, say, no, anyway, dad, won, to, begin, with, i, was, on, the, sons, side, but, when, he, came, in, beaming, and, laughing, and, full, of, joy, how, could, you, disagree, with, him, before, they, got, fmd, he, had, called, into, the, practise, and, was, having, a, coffee, and, was, very, upset, his, friend, had, phoned, him, that, morning, to, say, he, had, fmd, mr, g, just, broke, down, and, sobbed, it, was, one, of, my, worst, experiences, i, found, it, so, hard, not, to, join, him, but, to, be, strong, and, console, him, for, him, of, the, old, gentlemen, showed, the, depth, of, feeling, and, despair, that, was, around, i, have, a, lump, now, remembering, it, anyway, in, comparison, if, getting, a, few, cows, to, milk, can, make, such, a, big, difference, and, be, so, happy, so, what, thursday, 9th, may, went, to, a, meeting, in, preston, with, cl, a, vet, from, brampton, on, the, marsh, report, which, is, regarding, vets, the, privilege, to, dispense, drugs, anyway, firstly, we, got, lost, very, lost, and, then, on, arriving, at, the, meeting, eventually, it, was, all, doom, gloom, and, depressing, just, when, you, thought, things, were, getting, on, tract, bam, more, changes, more, paperwork, we, will, have, to, wait, and, see, just, how, it, effects, us, but, effect, us, it, will, friday, 10th, may, i, had, a, half, day, off, today, and, did, fun, things, like, washing, shopping, and, sorting, bits, and, pieces, but, i, couldn't, be, a, housewife, all, the, time, i, ended, up, leaving, the, cooking, and, washing, and, took, the, dog, out, instead, much, more, fun, saturday, 11th, may, took, daughter, out, to, the, young, farmers, field, day, it, was, brill, i, was, only, going, to, stay, an, hour, anyway, i, stayed, all, day, everyone, was, there, some, i, hadn't, seen, for, ages, i, had, only, spoke, to, them, and, some, new, faces, it, was, great, to, see, them, all, together, i, do, feel, farmers, and, their, families, are, very, special, people, they, have, a, wonderful, sense, of, fun, they, are, very, solid, they, are, very, close, mind, when, you, talk, to, them, you, find, they, are, all, related, they, are, also, very, proud, of, what, they, do, its, sad, the, public, do, not, see, them, this, way, gone, are, the, days, when, the, farmer, was, the, hero, who, worked, all, hours, to, feed, the, nation, well, it, was, a, wonderful, day, week, beginning, monday, 13th, may, monday, very, busy, milk, recorded, this, afternoon, it, was, good, fun, they, are, preparing, for, their, party, on, saturday, night, it, is, a, fancy, dress, party, me, and, husband, are, going, but, i, can't, say, what, as, yet, j, mentioned, that, a, friend, of, theirs, was, still, not, speaking, to, them, because, j, never, lost, his, cows, and, yet, j, said, he, had, tries, to, explain, how, hard, it, was, for, them, waiting, his, friend, had, accepted, the, invite, to, the, party, so, here’s, hopefully, to, friendship, it, show's, how, feelings, can, so, easily, run, away, and, be, blown, into, something, very, silly, we, are, all, on, the, same, side, after, all, i, see, a, lot, of, changes, in, a, lot, of, people, either, bitterness, resentment, jealousy, and, emotionally, drained, in, the, whole, situation, tuesday, 14th, may, early, morning, milk, recording, got, my, outfit, sorted, for, the, fancy, dress, party, on, saturday, me, and, friend, went, to, try, it, on, it, was, good, fun, wednesday, 15th, may, i, have, done, tons, of, backwards, and, forwarding, today, so, i've, been, hearing, about, the, inquiry, a, bit, today, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, the, one, in, carlisle, out, of, interest, and, curiosity, i, still, feel, what, is, it, all, for, so, i, may, find, out, at, the, meeting, i, am, still, waiting, for, the, day, fmd, is, not, mentioned, or, i, have, some, dealing, regarding, it, thursday, 16th, may, i, spoke, to, a, young, couple, who, farm, and, they, were, enquiring, about, the, changes, in, buying, drugs, it, caught, me, off, guard, as, we, knew, it, would, happen, but, not, when, i, arranged, to, meet, with, them, and, chat, to, see, what, they, wanted, and, i, think, i, will, go, from, there, people, are, farming, in, different, ways, than, they, used, to, pre, fmd, weather, it, is, a, result, of, fmd, or, not, i, don't, know, but, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, heading, our, way, friday, 17th, may, accountant, day, today, what, a, joy, no, he, is, brilliant, he, has, helped, so, much, over, the, years, and, last, year, he, was, brilliant, he, did, have, one, consolation, we, wouldn't, have, to, pay, too, much, tax, this, year, anyway, spoke, to, a, rep, in, the, afternoon, we, have, had, all, the, usual, offers, that, we, get, every, year, but, this, year, they, look, good, as, if, we, buy, more, this, year, than, last, year, we, can, get, more, off, that, should, be, easy, saturday, 18th, may, party, night, i, am, cruella, deville, and, husband, is, bob, the, builder, it, was, great, seeing, people, we, hadn't, seen, for, ages, if, and, when, you, could, recognise, them, it, was, a, really, good, do, we, met, a, client, of, ours, and, she, is, very, anti, everything, re, fmd, i, feel, she, is, really, suffering, and, very, bitter, she, was, little, bo, peep, who, had, lost, her, sheep, and, didn't, know, where, to, find, them, but, mr, blair, can, she, preached, all, night, to, anyone, she, could, i, feel, sorry, for, her, as, people, were, avoiding, her, sad, sunday, 19th, may, recovered, week, beginning, monday, 20th, may, 02, monday, a, new, cattle, fertility, programme, has, now, become, available, to, vets, and, farmers, two, of, the, people, who, work, came, along, to, see, us, and, discuss, the, advantages, we, already, had, a, few, farmers, keen, in, having, the, program, installed, we, discussed, the, program, later, with, a, few, farmers, and, they, were, very, keen, recognising, that, they, are, going, to, need, a, program, like, this, that, can, help, them, keep, a, tighter, control, on, their, herds, fertility, and, health, which, would, enable, them, to, remain, in, business, as, most, of, them, are, realising, they, are, now, running, a, company, not, a, family, concern, so, it’s, quite, exciting, another, step, forward, hopefully, tuesday, 21st, may, very, busy, today, everyone, stretched, it, will, make, life, so, much, easier, when, our, new, vet, anne, starts, next, week, i, got, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, also, managed, to, catch, up, on, some, others, bits, that, needed, done, even, got, all, the, soa, defra, paperwork, sorted, miracle, wednesday, 22nd, may, went, to, see, two, of, our, farmers, today, to, discuss, the, interherd, cattle, health, and, fertility, computer, program, it, was, good, to, chat, a, listen, to, their, plans, hopes, and, dreams, and, their, concerns, a, lot, of, farmers, are, still, very, unsure, of, the, future, and, quite, honestly, are, keeping, their, options, open, definitely, gave, me, some, pause, for, thought, and, a, few, concerns, thursday, 23rd, may, quiet, day, today, mr, w, one, of, our, farmers, came, today, and, we, had, a, chat, he, was, also, worried, about, the, future, i, hope, some, good, positive, news, comes, soon, friday, 24th, may, friend, is, having, a, few, weeks, off, as, our, new, vet, is, starting, on, monday, she, came, to, us, 6, months, 10, years, ago, and, she, has, helped, us, out, ever, since, and, so, during, fmd, she, offered, to, help, it, was, great, to, have, her, and, she, worked, all, hours, as, there, was, only, her, and, husband, for, 5, months, so, she, is, having, some, well, deserved, time, off, and, will, come, back, part, time, when, we, need, her, i'll, miss, her, but, she, says, she's, a, lot, of, housework, to, catch, up, on, saturday, 25th, and, sunday, 26th, may, my, sister, and, niece, came, to, stay, for, the, weekend, we, had, a, nice, time, just, pottering, here, and, there, week, beginning, monday, 27h, may, monday, new, vet, started, she, was, very, nervous, but, very, keen, she, had, spent, 10, months, working, for, defra, and, was, relieved, to, be, finished, with, it, she, had, mainly, been, involved, with, re, stocking, anyway, she, managed, very, well, and, hopefully, will, settle, well, tuesday, 28th, may, we, booked, a, holiday, today, our, 1st, holiday, for, about, 2.5, years, so, we, are, all, very, excited, we, are, going, on, a, barge, near, chester, so, hopefully, the, weather, will, be, good, it, will, be, nice, to, go, away, together, especially, after, last, year, i, think, we, all, need, it, you, do, get, used, to, staying, at, home, but, with, all, the, trouble, and, upset, last, year, it, will, be, nice, can't, wait, wednesday, 29th, may, had, a, lovely, day, ended, up, doing, lots, of, visiting, around, the, farms, dropping, drugs, off, and, seeing, another, farm, regarding, the, interherd, program, i, went, to, a, large, dairy, farm, and, they, are, a, young, couple, who, are, keen, and, enthusiastic, about, their, future, so, it, was, very, positive, and, encouraging, it, does, give, you, a, lift, and, helps, put, things, back, on, track, thursday, 30th, may, we, had, a, farmers, coffee, morning, not, planned, they, appeared, at, once, so, it, was, quite, nice, its, quite, interesting, when, you, hear, them, together, there, were, two, elderly, and, one, younger, one, and, their, opinions, hopes, thoughts, and, experiences, were, very, different, friday, 31st, may, another, mega, paperwork, day, exciting, played, in, the, garden, this, afternoon, and, walked, the, dog, saturday, 1st, and, sunday, 2nd, june, had, a, weekend, off, together, we, went, visiting, and, walking, very, nice, week, beginning, 3rd, june, monday, my, sister, and, her, daughter, came, to, visit, we, went, into, carlisle, but, nothing, very, exciting, the, weather, was, very, disappointing, for, all, the, organised, events, we, went, to, a, couple, and, got, wet, daughter, and, niece, got, some, jubilee, mugs, at, one, of, them, wednesday, i, ended, up, helping, our, new, vet, and, new, nurse, to, operate, so, that, was, good, i, don’t, get, much, chance, to, help, in, the, op, room, these, days, so, i, enjoyed, it, thoroughly, new, vet, is, doing, very, well, she’s, only, been, qualified, 3, years, and, up, to, now, has, not, done, much, small, animal, so, i, was, worried, she, would, not, like, it, but, she, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, thoroughly, and, has, settled, in, really, well, it, seems, like, she, has, been, here, for, ages, thursday, we, had, our, first, work, experience, from, a, school, for, 2, years, she, was, very, interested, in, the, fmd, and, said, they, had, done, a, bit, on, it, at, school, so, i, went, through, a, few, of, the, details, and, we, discussed, the, human, side, which, she, hadn’t, really, been, discussed, at, school, to, finish, i, had, 4, soa, to, do, as, well, such, joy, friday, i, foolishly, decided, to, decorate, the, surgery, and, op, room, you, know, when, you, think, you, have, a, good, idea, then, realise, you, have, bitten, off, more, than, you, can, chew, well, by, sunday, night, i, was, dead, i, got, it, all, done, and, it, did, look, better, as, nothing, had, been, done, last, year, but, boy, was, i, tired, week, beginning, 10th, june, monday, our, new, interherd, disc, arrived, so, i, went, and, installed, it, on, two, farms, they, were, very, keen, to, get, started, so, it's, quite, exciting, they, both, have, young, sons, who, are, keen, to, farm, also, so, that, helps, sometimes, i, fee, if, we, can, just, get, through, this, and, then, other, times, i, feel, what's, the, point, but, down, the, middle, of, the, road, we, have, to, try, and, make, it, work, and, fight, to, make, it, work, tuesday, 11th, june, quite, busy, today, but, daughter, had, her, brace, taken, off, today, so, we, had, two, visits, to, the, hospital, she, looks, different, without, her, brace, now, wednesday, 12th, june, had, a, day, off, today, peaceful, thursday, 13th, june, nmr, came, to, see, us, to, discuss, how, they, can, work, with, us, the, interherd, and, the, farmer, it, was, interesting, and, competitively, priced, so, that, is, now, another, service, we, can, offer, to, our, farmers, which, can, only, help, long, term, i, went, to, see, another, farmer, to, enter, the, interherd, there, is, a, lot, of, interest, we, are, trying, to, maintain, a, close, contact, with, our, farmers, to, enable, us, to, meet, their, needs, as, things, progress, in, the, near, future, there, are, going, to, be, a, lot, of, changes, regarding, the, dispensing, of, drugs, which, could, alter, the, way, we, work, this, should, be, finalised, by, january, 2003, but, until, then, we, are, not, sure, just, how, they, will, affect, us, friday, 14th, saturday, 15th, and, sunday, 16th, june, husband, birthday, so, i, have, organised, a, surprise, weekend, away, for, him, we, had, a, wonderful, time, and, thankfully, the, weather, was, good, week, beginning, 17th, june, monday, very, quiet, almost, like, last, year, but, thankfully, not, for, the, same, reason, they, are, all, busy, silaging, normality, is, returning, but, they, are, still, finding, it, difficult, with, new, herds, not, really, knowing, their, new, cows, yet, or, how, they, react, one, farmer, said, it, was, like, a, new, car, you, have, to, drive, it, a, good, few, miles, before, you, are, at, ease, and, the, seat, is, comfy, well, that’s, one, way, of, putting, it, tuesday, i, went, to, see, mr, j, to, discuss, our, new, interherd, program, a, computer, program, that, they, can, keep, records, of, all, their, herds, records, and, we, can, do, analysis, on, them, it’s, quite, exciting, and, interesting, and, shows, farming, is, heading, to, the, computer, age, and, the, farmers, are, learning, another, new, skill, not, sure, they, are, all, comfy, with, after, i, had, shown, mr, j, the, program, and, how, to, use, it, he, was, keen, but, said, that, for, now, he, would, maybe, go, and, cut, down, a, few, thistles, weds, thursday, very, quiet, did, some, catching, up, on, paperwork, then, went, for, a, walk, and, played, outside, in, the, garden, friday, query, fmd, in, pigs, the, effect, it, had, was, very, strange, part, was, horror, worry, and, another, strange, one, was, of, expecting, it, although, you, did, get, on, with, everything, and, it’s, all, sorting, out, and, normality, is, returning, it’s, as, if, you, are, waiting, for, it, to, appear, again, i, went, back, to, watching, the, news, listening, to, the, radio, waiting, fingers, crossed, sad, day, sat, sun, quiet, weekend, husband, was, working, no, results, on, the, pigs, yet, the, bush, telegraph, is, working, again, we, have, had, quite, a, number, of, worried, farmers, on, the, phone, but, no, results, as, yet, week, beginning, 24th, june, monday, breakthrough, no, fmd, talk, at, all, today, i, suddenly, realised, in, the, evening, all, is, getting, back, to, normal, and, everyone, is, coming, to, terms, with, the, paperwork, farming, does, what, it, always, has, recently, fallen, from, one, disaster, to, another, but, they, are, very, proud, of, their, trade, but, do, now, feel, let, down, by, both, the, government, and, the, public, who, for, whatever, reason, don’t, seem, to, have, the, same, respect, for, farmers, as, they, used, to, but, this, just, may, be, due, to, how, we, all, are, and, work, these, days, tuesday, pigs, given, the, all, clear, everyone, breathes, a, sigh, of, relief, it, has, a, very, chilling, effect, but, again, shows, we, are, still, clear, of, the, disease, for, now, weds, over, the, last, few, days, we, have, had, 6, dairy, herds, with, very, strange, mastitis, husband, has, been, out, to, visit, them, with, a, vet, from, vla, penrith, but, they, as, yet, have, not, established, a, cause, samples, show, nothing, and, usual, treatments, don’t, work, so, it, is, a, case, of, new, herds, new, problems, thursday, day, off, and, friday, sat, sun, had, my, niece, we, had, a, lovely, time, but, very, exhausting, week, beginning, 1st, july, monday, we, have, invested, the, new, interherd, computer, programme, mon, thurs, this, week, i, have, been, out, and, about, visiting, farmers, loading, and, explaining, the, new, programme, some, of, which, i, haven't, been, too, far, over, a, year, it's, good, to, see, them, and, chat, fmd, of, course, is, always, still, at, the, top, of, the, list, followed, by, the, milk, price, and, all, the, regulations, it's, so, amazing, and, sorrowful, to, see, how, deep, the, emotions, run, the, stories, and, feelings, they, have, are, still, very, strong, but, all, are, very, emotional, they, are, very, resilient, but, do, still, have, these, deep, feelings, you, wonder, how, the, effects, will, come, out, but, it, will, take, time, friday, i, did, a, soa, for, the, first, time, in, ages, i, had, to, look, back, as, to, how, to, fill, it, in, they, are, going, to, review, these, shortly, so, watch, this, space, all, the, regulations, are, up, for, review, in, about, november, so, we, will, see, what, they, come, up, with, sunday, we, have, a, vet, student, alison, for, two, weeks, staying, with, us, she, came, to, northumberland, during, fmd, so, was, interested, to, know, what, had, happened, and, where, everything, was, at, the, more, you, go, through, it, the, easier, it, becomes, she, had, been, involved, in, the, culling, and, had, found, it, very, hard, she, did, it, for, 1, month, and, was, glad, to, leave, week, beginning, 8th, july, monday, tuesday, i, went, milk, recording, the, farm, i, go, to, did, not, get, fmd, and, they, were, saying, how, hard, it, had, been, for, them, and, to, some, extent, they, did, have, as, hard, a, time, as, people, with, fmd, just, in, different, ways, they, had, to, do, the, checking, for, longer, the, farmer, said, he, used, to, dread, going, into, the, sheds, in, a, morning, as, he, dreaded, what, he, might, find, also, washing, the, milk, takers, not, being, able, to, visit, friends, and, family, all, the, regulations, re, moving, stock, just, the, not, knowing, they, said, it, put, quite, a, strain, on, them, all, one, of, the, ways, they, coped, was, they, built, a, tennis, court, and, played, a, lot, of, other, games, and, as, a, family, this, brought, them, closer, weds, interherd, day, we, held, a, meeting, today, to, invite, all, the, farmers, interested, in, using, the, programme, the, people, who, wrote, the, programme, came, along, to, talk, to, the, farmers, it, was, very, good, and, the, farmers, seemed, to, enjoy, themselves, they, have, all, found, they, are, needing, this, sort, of, programme, as, with, the, new, herds, they, are, unsure, of, how, their, fertilities, are, thurs, fri, visited, mr, w, and, mr, j, re, interherd, got, a, proper, cup, of, coffee, and, proper, milk, that's, what, i, missed, about, last, year, and, one, of, the, reasons, i, go, to, visit, them, sat, sun, very, busy, small, animal, operated, and, nursed, all, week, end, i, was, shattered, poor, me, week, beginning, 15th, july, monday, visited, farmer, re, interherd, programme, they, are, very, positive, about, the, future, and, have, a, son, who, is, very, keen, i, can, see, a, difference, in, their, attitude, over, the, past, few, months, when, i, first, started, going, they, were, unsure, they, had, done, the, right, thing, and, had, seriously, debated, getting, any, stock, back, if, they, could, cope, with, the, changes, and, the, regulations, and, paperwork, but, as, he, said, he, just, loves, farming, not, that, he, doesn't, know, anything, else, he, just, loves, farming, and, now, they, have, progressed, and, working, together, within, the, family, they, have, a, good, system, and, appear, to, be, enjoying, themselves, the, farm, has, been, in, the, family, for, generations, so, financially, they, can, manage, i, hope, they, make, it, they, are, lovely, people, and, a, real, inspiration, the, report, on, fmd, and, the, recommendations, is, to, be, published, soon, but, from, what, we, have, heard, so, far, it, doesn't, say, anything, we, didn't, already, know, and, the, recommendations, are, a, little, sketchy, to, say, the, least, they, need, a, good, sensible, positive, protocol, for, any, future, outbreak, and, at, present, if, it, all, flared, up, again, tomorrow, it, would, be, the, same, mess, what, have, we, learnt, hopefully, time, will, tell, tuesday, sad, news, today, one, of, our, clients, who, didn't, get, fmd, has, decided, to, give, up, he, is, on, a, tenanted, farm, the, owners, are, not, keen, on, any, expansion, or, even, repairing, old, buildings, to, remain, competitive, he, sees, he, needs, more, cows, but, can't, build, any, more, sheds, so, in, his, words, he, has, decided, that, there, is, maybe, more, to, life, he, is, in, his, mid, forties, so, he, is, going, to, sell, up, and, try, something, new, very, brave, but, sad, i, think, this, will, not, be, the, first, of, our, clients, to, do, this, everyone, asks, about, the, future, and, at, the, moment, nothing, and, nobody, is, certain, can, the, smaller, farmers, keep, up, will, the, bigger, ones, get, bigger, what, new, regulations, and, paperwork, will, be, brought, in, only, time, will, tell, weds, husband, has, been, away, at, the, br, cattle, vet, ass, bcva, committee, meeting, he, has, been, on, the, committee, for, about, 18, months, now, he, enjoys, it, and, it, is, another, feather, in, his, cap, anyway, he, gave, a, talk, on, the, problems, post, fmd, and, on, the, problems, farmers, were, and, had, experienced, he, also, gave, a, talk, on, some, of, the, mastitis, cases, that, had, appeared, in, new, herds, we, have, had, some, very, strange, mastitis, cases, this, year, anyway, there, was, a, competition, for, the, best, talk, and, husband, won, i, was, very, proud, of, him, none, of, the, other, vets, there, had, ever, seen, anything, like, it, but, some, had, found, more, bad, mastitis, in, cows, this, year, so, whether, it’s, the, change, of, area, weather, or, housing, we, shall, see, thursday, i, had, a, visiting, day, today, good, fun, i, went, t, see, the, farmers, who, have, the, interherd, so, i, had, lots, of, coffee, with, proper, milk, yummy, it's, also, interesting, to, hear, all, the, different, stories, and, feelings, hopes, and, worries, there, are, so, many, most, are, ready, for, the, challenge, ahead, but, unfortunately, some, aren't, nobody, knows, how, or, when, things, will, change, but, over, the, next, couple, of, years, they, will, some, good, some, not, so, good, byee, i'm, off, on, my, hols, now, yippee, holiday, week, beginning, 22nd, july, week, beginning, monday, 29th, july, tuesday, back, to, work, the, staff, have, coped, really, well, no, falling, out, no, problems, it's, the, first, time, in, nearly, two, years, we, have, left, them, so, it, was, a, bit, worrying, but, they, are, a, great, bunch, we, are, very, lucky, i, feel, so, relaxed, and, it, was, great, fun, seeing, through, all, my, paperwork, not, i, had, a, bit, of, a, lazy, day, but, good, weds, poor, mr, g, is, having, a, terrible, time, with, defra, when, we, did, his, restocking, tt, test, he, had, a, reactor, so, the, cow, was, slaughtered, but, no, lesions, were, found, the, herd, had, to, be, tested, again, 60, days, later, and, another, reactor, was, found, and, slaughtered, anyway, he, was, due, another, test, in, 60, days, and, this, was, arranged, for, 9.00am, 9.00am, came, and, went, and, at, 10.00am, he, phoned, to, see, what, was, happening, they, had, forgotten, they, could, come, out, at, 1pm, no, good, the, last, two, times, they, had, tested, it, had, taken, 6, hours, to, test, the, cows, and, they, still, needed, milked, which, would, mean, a, very, late, finish, mr, graves, explained, this, and, was, told, not, to, complain, he, had, bought, the, cows, into, the, country, with, tb, and, he, would, have, to, do, it, when, they, said, they, know, how, to, get, people, on, their, side, don't, they, anyway, a, heated, discussion, had, pursued, and, eventually, sense, was, seen, the, test, was, rearranged, for, another, day, at, 9.00am, so, fingers, crossed, thursday, we, got, money, through, today, from, the, fmd, recovery, fund, it, has, been, very, useful, and, enabled, us, to, do, things, we, wouldn't, normally, be, able, to, do, we, had, our, vans, sign, written, we, got, a, laptop, computer, which, had, been, great, for, the, interherd, programme, we, got, pens, and, pads, to, give, out, husband, was, able, to, hold, meetings, with, our, farmers, pre, stocking, to, advise, them, what, to, look, for, etc, so, it, has, been, extremely, useful, it, was, nice, to, be, given, the, money, some, people, say, it, would, have, been, spent, elsewhere, but, it, helped, us, immensely, and, we, feel, we, have, spent, it, wisely, fri, had, a, paperwork, catch, up, day, today, it, has, been, quiet, recently, due, to, holidays, and, harvesting, but, thankfully, not, like, last, year, we, looked, back, again, and, today, last, year, we, had, no, calls, and, today, we, had, four, so, although, quiet, not, that, bad, week, beginning, monday, 5th, august, monday, very, quiet, tuesday, very, quiet, weds, very, quiet, thursday, daughter, got, her, first, job, fri, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, for, the, week, end, sat, quiet, week, end, sun, gardening, going, on, holiday, again, next, week, yippee, sorry, it’s, been, very, quiet, this, week, as, mentioned, before, this, is, usual, as, everyone, is, on, holiday, and, the, farmers, are, harvesting, i, have, caught, up, and, have, been, enjoying, a, few, days, just, poddling, going, out, with, daughter, shopping, food, it’s, nice, to, have, some, catch, up, time, on, thursday, daughter, got, a, job, her, first, proper, job, well, nearly, at, the, travel, inn, at, the, bottom, of, our, road, she, is, so, excited, and, already, planning, what, she, is, going, to, spend, her, hard, earned, cash, on, on, friday, i, took, daughter, to, my, sisters, in, lancashire, for, the, week, end, i, came, back, on, friday, night, and, we, decided, to, meet, up, at, husband, s, mum, and, dad’s, caravan, near, whitby, on, monday, for, a, week, so, another, holiday, i, don’t, know, you, have, one, and, then, another, anyway, it, should, be, good, fun, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 12thth, august, week, beginning, monday, 19thth, august, monday, visited, mr, a, today, to, load, interherd, onto, his, computer, he, has, definitely, decided, to, sell, up, he, is, hoping, by, early, next, year, this, has, all, been, very, sudden, but, his, son, is, no, longer, interested, and, as, mr, a, said, who, can, blame, him, with, all, the, new, regulations, and, paperwork, a, lot, are, finding, it, hard, tuesday, we, had, an, environment, agency, visit, this, morning, to, check, how, and, where, we, dispose, of, our, waste, in, practice, thankfully, we, are, doing, everything, properly, but, this, visit, took, two, and, a, half, hours, and, lots, of, form, filling, in, it, is, they, that, check, these, things, but, the, extent, in, questionable, mr, g, called, in, the, afternoon, he, is, having, problems, with, his, cows, they, keep, going, off, colour, we, have, so, many, new, herds, that, started, of, doing, well, happy, and, settling, in, fine, then, about, 3, 4, months, after, they, arrived, they, start, being, ill, have, mastitis, off, colour, not, eating, not, milking, properly, a, wide, variety, it’s, very, strange, the, vets, don’t, really, know, what’s, happening, we, have, a, few, on, regular, blood, sampling, trying, to, find, any, changes, weds, me, and, husband, went, to, the, accountant, to, see, just, how, bad, financially, we, really, had, done, last, year, and, oh, what, a, surprise, it, was, bad, in, fact, we, nearly, qualified, for, children’s, tax, relief, the, main, thing, is, we, survived, in, a, fashion, hopefully, it, will, be, better, next, year, thursday, i, visited, two, farmers, today, on, the, interherd, they, are, finding, it, brilliant, they, have, both, recently, had, farm, assurance, visits, and, interherd, had, helped, them, enormously, and, helped, them, reach, the, standards, they, both, appreciate, how, much, easier, it, is, for, them, and, less, paperwork, heaven, it’s, so, good, to, find, something, to, help, them, fri, i, have, been, phoning, our, main, drug, company’s, reps, inviting, them, to, our, open, evening, all, very, keen, i, think, they, just, enjoy, the, crack, week, beginning, monday, 26th, august, very, quiet, this, week, on, both, large, and, small, animal, it, must, be, the, last, holiday, rush, before, going, back, to, school, we, managed, to, do, some, catching, up, and, decided, a, four, day, week, would, be, nice, i, did, quite, a, bit, of, playing, on, interherd, so, that, when, i, visited, farmers, about, it, i, knew, what, they, want, to, see, and, where, to, find, it, most, of, them, are, interested, in, the, medicines, book, as, this, keeps, excellent, stock, records, from, when, the, drug, product, is, born, where, it, has, gone, and, batch, numbers, and, expiry, dates, these, are, all, the, information, they, need, to, produce, when, they, get, inspected, and, doing, it, manually, can, be, very, time, consuming, week, beginning, 2nd, september, monday, 2nd, september, irs, 9.30, garst, milk, rec, tuesday, garst, milk, rec, dog, course, weds, daughter, back, to, school, exporting, is, back, thursday, exporting, fri, change, date, of, open, evening, gb, way, now, 15, 10, 02, exporting, sat, off, sister, and, niece, sun, off, monday, every, 2, years, we, are, checked, by, our, radiographer, advisor, to, ensure, everything, is, well, and, we, are, doing, everything, right, they, check, the, x, ray, machine, our, records, and, our, monitoring, records, we, passed, in, the, afternoon, i, went, milk, recording, it, was, very, warm, and, very, flyie, but, good, fun, they, are, thinking, of, getting, a, new, parlour, twice, as, big, as, mr, g, feels, in, the, future, milk, will, have, to, be, produced, by, quantity, not, quality, but, it, is, difficult, and, expensive, decision, to, make, for, him, we, shall, see, tue, early, morning, milk, recording, this, morning, but, i, got, a, lovely, breakfast, with, proper, milk, i, got, to, check, the, large, animal, when, i, got, back, we, also, started, our, new, puppy, training, course, in, the, evening, that, went, very, well, it, is, a, more, 1, to, 1, basis, our, nurse, runs, it, i, go, along, and, help, with, moral, support, it, was, good, fun, but, i, had, a, very, long, day, and, went, to, bed, when, i, got, back, weds, daughter, went, back, to, school, today, i’ll, miss, her, following, me, round, helping, out, and, her, mum, can, you, take, me, we, may, have, some, exporting, of, sheep, on, friday, there, is, a, pedigree, texel, sheep, sale, at, h, h, borderway, it, is, the, first, exporting, we, have, done, in, about, 20, months, as, you, can, guess, the, paper, work, has, tripled, there, has, been, numerous, phone, calls, to, ad, from, defra, trying, to, make, sense, of, it, but, i, must, say, people, up, here, are, not, good, at, clarifying, what, they, have, written, now, there’s, a, surprise, thursday, i, have, spent, the, whole, day, either, reading, new, expert, regulations, or, running, backwards, and, forwards, for, new, paperwork, what, we, have, to, complete, and, what, they, should, bring, well, it, could, be, fun, friday, well, full, really, isn’t, the, word, i, would, use, we, needed, more, paperwork, they, needed, more, paperwork, it, took, most, of, the, day, and, we, only, had, 3, sheep, to, send, draining, the, one, good, thing, was, seeing, everyone, at, the, auction, some, new, faces, and, some, have, gone, week, beginning, 9th, september, monday, t's, 7th, birthday, we, have, another, vet, student, studying, at, the, moment, for, 2, weeks, we, have, had, five, this, year, so, far, and, another, before, christmas, but, she, won't, stay, in, the, house, as, she, is, from, carlisle, it, is, nice, to, have, them, and, it, makes, us, behave, but, i, won't, have, as, many, next, year, they, have, all, been, interested, in, the, fmd, and, some, had, a, chance, to, help, out, which, was, an, eye, opener, for, them, i, spoke, to, student, about, it, all, how, it, affected, everyone, what, happened, and, what, didn't, now, talking, about, almost, a, year, from, the, last, case, i, don't, find, it, as, hard, and, i, think, i, can, hide, how, emotional, it, was, but, at, the, time, i, wasn't, i, was, more, angry, i, feel, now, fmd, or, the, aftermath, has, sadly, become, everyday, life, i, don't, rush, for, news, on, it, or, yearn, information, i, think, because, directly, or, indirectly, we, live, with, it, everyday, it, all, has, really, become, part, of, our, lives, it, is, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, or, explain, i, also, went, to, visit, one, of, my, interherd, farmers, in, lancaster, they, are, very, pleased, with, it, and, are, coping, well, mrs, m, was, crushed, by, the, pet, cow, a, month, ago, and, was, very, lucky, she, had, two, broken, legs, cuts, and, bruises, needless, to, say, the, cow, has, gone, to, greener, pastures, they, are, very, resilient, and, are, planning, for, the, future, and, it, is, nice, to, be, a, part, of, their, planning, i, also, get, proper, milky, coffee, see, so, easy, pleased, milk, recorded, tonight, at, mr, g's, so, early, morning, tomorrow, i'm, still, trying, to, persuade, them, into, interherd, so, finger, crossed, tuesday, early, morning, milk, recording, failed, on, the, interherd, due, to, a, cow, breaking, a, leg, i, have, never, actually, experienced, it, happening, before, i, generally, hear, farmers, needing, a, slaughter, cert, or, a, cow, put, down, to, see, it, and, the, family's, reaction, i, was, humbled, i, think, is, the, word, it, was, an, accident, that, can, happen, but, the, look, on, their, faces, was, such, deep, sorrow, the, father, even, places, his, head, in, his, hands, at, breakfast, we, all, talked, about, it, she, was, only, a, heifer, getting, ready, to, be, served, for, the, let, time, she, was, a, difficult, birth, they, had, all, helped, well, bred, and, she, was, jet, black, with, a, huge, white, spot, on, her, side, so, no, prizes, for, guessing, the, name, but, as, the, farmer, said, you, can't, look, after, them, feed, them, care, for, them, day, in, day, out, without, caring, about, them, or, why, would, you, do, it, in, the, afternoon, i, attended, a, course, on, management, employment, law, customer, service, at, barnard, castle, it, went, on, till, 9, pm, with, dinner, after, so, i, decided, to, stay, over, very, spoilt, good, course, excellent, food, lovely, hotel, wednesday, came, back, from, my, course, leisurely, and, stopped, at, penrith, for, a, bit, of, shopping, very, pleasant, i'm, not, a, good, shopper, but, it, was, nice, i, had, to, get, back, for, 11, am, as, we, were, having, a, new, credit, card, machine, fitted, he, duly, arrived, well, what, an, obnoxious, man, he, was, moaning, because, we, had, a, switchboard, he, had, to, dial, 9, this, was, wrong, that, was, wrong, and, then, was, he, not, going, to, get, offered, a, coffee, to, which, he, was, told, not, without, the, special, word, he, was, a, bit, aghast, and, said, please, i, swear, if, i, had, not, just, come, from, a, course, explaining, customer, service, i, would, have, murdered, him, god, bless, courses, and, of, course, credit, card, machine, men, in, the, afternoon, i, was, visited, by, the, rspca, advertising, company, did, we, want, an, advert, in, their, leaflet, anyway, it, was, 640, for, quarter, of, a, page, for, 2, years, so, i, said, we, couldn't, afford, it, it, suddenly, dropped, to, 410, i, was, a, little, suspect, so, i, got, receptionist, to, quietly, check, if, the, company, were, connected, to, the, rspca, anyway, while, i, was, waiting, i, said, it, was, still, a, little, bit, more, than, we, could, afford, what, with, fmd, see, it, is, useful, and, true, he, then, said, he, could, do, it, for, 210, by, which, time, she, had, confirmed, they, were, with, the, rspca, so, i, said, yes, thank, you, bargain, or, rip, off, thursday, i, tried, to, get, my, head, round, isolation, units, and, tried, to, explain, to, a, farmer, about, them, i, think, we, got, there, eventually, when, husband, got, back, i, got, him, to, explain, in, simple, english, and, it, all, made, a, lot, more, sense, they, will, be, handy, for, people, selling, and, buying, stock, but, have, as, always, the, guidelines, must, have, been, written, by, someone, who, has, never, seen, a, farm, or, fields, friday, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, trolleyed, about, busy, doing, not, a, lot, i, think, the, term, is, anyway, it, was, good, week, beginning, 16th, september, this, week, has, been, appraisal, week, for, the, staff, we, didn't, do, any, last, year, so, i, thought, we, had, better, get, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, quite, enjoy, the, appraisals, it's, a, great, opportunity, to, have, a, real, good, sort, out, get, new, ideas, and, try, and, recognise, any, potential, problems, we, started, doing, appraisals, at, bout, 4, years, ago, and, to, start, off, with, everyone, was, petrified, and, worried, but, it, was, nice, to, see, them, actually, excited, and, enjoyed, it, it, is, quite, time, consuming, but, very, worthwhile, so, not, much, out, and, about, this, week, week, beginning, 23rd, september, monday, another, suspect, case, the, main, difference, about, this, was, as, with, other, ones, i, felt, cold, sick, scared, this, one, was, better, i, felt, it, was, not, going, to, be, positive, whether, it's, a, case, of, there, have, been, a, few, now, not, positive, and, this, is, just, another, one, or, confident, that, it, no, way, could, be, positive, i, definitely, wasn't, as, worried, i, don't, know, if, that, is, being, blasé, can't, spell, sorry, but, definitely, different, tuesday, just, nicely, busy, today, just, enough, to, keep, everyone, busy, husband, and, other, vet, are, away, this, week, so, that, just, leaves, new, vet, and, other, vet, so, it, was, a, little, worrying, if, it, got, busy, it, was, the, last, of, our, dog, training, courses, tonight, they, all, passed, their, tests, well, and, were, very, pleased, with, the, progress, they, had, made, it, was, the, first, 4, week, course, we, had, run, and, feedback, was, very, positive, our, head, nurse, had, put, in, an, awful, lot, of, work, fir, it, so, i, was, very, pleased, for, her, as, well, the, next, one, is, planned, for, november, weds, experts, are, going, to, start, again, at, h, h, tomorrow, and, friday, it, will, be, the, first, ones, we, have, done, for, about, 18, months, surprisingly, the, paperwork, for, our, side, has, not, changed, much, but, the, irish, paperwork, is, horrendous, anyway, after, several, phone, calls, to, derfa, and, dard, and, various, farmers, who, are, wishing, to, sell, at, the, sale, i, think, we, have, it, sorted, we, will, see, tomorrow, thursday, and, friday, i've, put, these, into, one, as, that, is, how, it, felt, after, being, so, confident, that, we, had, everything, in, place, to, be, able, to, export, the, sheep, first, thing, thursday, morning, dard, like, irish, defra, changed, the, regulations, and, paperwork, such, joy, as, you, can, imagine, this, sent, everyone, in, a, state, of, frenzy, and, another, buzby, full, of, phone, calls, we, didn't, have, the, paperwork, sorted, when, people, had, bought, sheep, and, were, wanting, to, leave, now, some, tempers, are, reaching, fever, pitch, well, we, did, manage, to, export, them, away, on, thursday, night, 3, hours, late, so, they, had, to, book, different, ferries, all, done, and, dusted, by, friday, we, were, busy, congratulating, ourselves, on, achieving, the, impossible, and, how, we, all, had, worked, hard, to, accomplish, it, and, now, had, several, more, names, on, our, christmas, card, list, yes, you, guessed, we, had, a, phone, call, from, well, let, me, say, one, not, happy, chappy, after, having, no, sleep, catching, a, late, ferry, waiting, for, the, paperwork, to, arrive, at, larne, port, all, the, sheep, were, impounded, dard, had, added, one, more, form, to, their, list, of, requirements, and, had, forgotten, to, send, them, through, or, mention, them, hours, of, phone, calls, and, faxing, later, i, am, very, pleased, to, say, that, the, sheep, were, released, and, free, to, go, week, beginning, 7th, october, monday, 7th, october, i, made, some, trial, arrangements, for, our, open, evening, next, tuesday, all’s, ready, now, they, are, a, good, night, out, and, we, all, enjoy, it, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, few, years, so, it, should, be, good, tuesday, for, a, while, now, we’ve, been, wondering, if, the, practice, should, invest, in, a, house, for, an, assistant, we, have, had, a, response, to, the, advert, for, our, new, vet, so, we, thought, we, would, go, house, hunting, anyway, it, wasn’t, as, much, fun, as, i, first, thought, to, start, with, obviously, they, are, quite, a, price, and, it, really, isn’t, that, easy, so, we, looked, at, one, cardboard, box, for, 70,000, and, apparently, it, went, for, 82k, frightening, well, we, can, keep, on, looking, we, have, a, vet, coming, for, an, interview, on, saturday, so, fingers, crossed, i’m, off, tomorrow, and, away, at, bvna, congress, over, the, weekend, so, i’m, looking, forward, to, that, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, 14th, october, we, had, a, really, good, time, at, the, bvna, british, veterinary, nurse, assistant, congress, we, did, loads, of, lectures, a, learned, a, few, new, things, got, loads, of, freebies, from, the, trade, stands, and, ordered, a, new, vaporiser, for, the, anaesthetic, machine, which, uses, less, isoflo, oxygen, we, also, had, a, good, halloween, ball, stayed, up, too, late, we, got, back, on, sunday, evening, after, 3, days, of, congress, and, i, was, just, settling, down, and, filling, in, husband, and, daughter, on, what, we, had, done, when, another, vet, came, in, wanting, a, hand, with, a, caesarean, on, a, dog, ah, well, nothing, like, getting, back, into, it, today, anyway, feeling, very, tired, we, had, to, start, getting, ready, for, open, evening, tomorrow, night, for, the, farmers, so, there, was, a, lot, of, sorting, out, and, tidying, up, to, do, as, we, open, the, house, up, as, well, we, haven’t, had, one, for, a, couple, of, years, so, it, was, quite, exciting, i, really, enjoy, them, it’s, great, to, have, the, farmers, round, it’s, mainly, a, nosh, and, natter, night, but, this, year, some, of, the, drug, companies, paid, for, it, they, have, their, stands, in, various, parts, of, the, house, and, surgery, and, normally, everyone, has, a, good, time, tuesday, open, evening, day, very, busy, tidying, up, and, moving, things, around, everyone, helped, it’s, good, the, staff, are, so, excited, about, it, as, well, they, have, all, mucked, in, and, as, usual, did, us, proud, the, evening, itself, was, brilliant, it, was, so, nice, to, see, them, all, enjoying, themselves, and, there, is, nothing, farmers, like, better, than, a, good, natter, food, and, beer, quite, a, few, said, they, had, missed, the, open, evening, last, year, due, to, fmd, as, far, as, pr, goes, definitely, worth, it, wednesday, just, clearing, up, and, sorting, out, all, the, staff, said, they, had, had, good, feedback, so, well, done, to, everyone, thursday, back, to, it, now, got, new, interherd, update, so, i, spent, quite, a, lot, of, the, day, seeing, what, new, buttons, it, had, it’s, very, clever, interherd, is, sold, by, nmr, now, and, they, are, helping, us, sell, it, to, the, farmers, whose, life, and, paperwork, hope, to, make, easier, the, man, in, charge, at, nmr, is, coming, to, see, us, next, week, to, explain, how, the, milk, recording, side, all, ties, in, between, nmr, and, interherd, friday, today, was, one, of, those, when, you, rush, round, all, day, but, you, feel, unsure, of, what, you, have, actually, done, very, busy, on, both, large, and, small, side, it’s, very, tiring, but, i, do, prefer, it, when, we’re, busy, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, 21st, october, monday, to, wednesday, off, thursday, had, a, meeting, with, id, from, nmr, re, interherd, they, are, going, to, give, us, cheap, milk, recording, prices, to, help, promote, nmr, and, interherd, they, have, also, released, a, version, of, interherd, for, farmers, and, we, were, given, the, first, one, in, the, country, to, trial, and, see, what, they, thought, it, was, very, encouraging, as, nmr, in, the, past, years, have, gained, themselves, a, slightly, unpopular, feel, especially, in, cumbria, but, they, now, seem, to, see, this, and, are, trying, very, hard, and, are, committed, to, improving, it, they, did, a, survey, and, now, with, area, herd, size, etc, the, majority, of, dairy, herds, are, in, cumbria, even, post, fmd, so, fingers, crossed, friday, a, good, day, today, husband, was, away, at, a, bcva, council, meeting, br, cattle, vets, ass, and, normally, it, goes, mad, don’t, know, why, anyway, it, didn’t, today, everyone, was, busy, but, not, madly, the, large, animal, side, is, very, up, and, down, at, present, but, it, is, now, tt, and, blood, testing, season, there, are, quite, a, lot, of, restocked, herds, to, do, as, they, are, having, to, be, done, every, year, as, opposed, to, 4, yearly, we, also, have, to, test, everything, it, is, very, time, consuming, and, if, they, have, a, tt, test, then, it, is, a, two, day, job, so, for, both, the, farmer, and, us, it, is, two, days, of, the, week, when, you, can’t, do, anything, else, week, beginning, 28th, october, monday, 28th, october, we, have, been, asked, by, newton, rigg, college, if, we, would, be, interested, in, teaching, the, animal, care, courses, at, the, college, so, me, and, vicky, went, along, it, was, quite, interesting, and, we, thought, if, we, could, do, it, together, it, would, work, so, we, said, we, would, think, about, it, and, let, them, know, went, milk, recording, in, the, afternoon, i, do, enjoy, playing, and, the, crack, tuesday, milk, recorded, again, and, discussed, interherd, with, them, so, we, are, going, to, use, them, as, the, pilot, for, the, nmr, interherd, job, so, that, will, be, interesting, regarding, the, newton, rigg, offer, we, won’t, be, able, to, do, it, as, our, part, time, nurse, is, leaving, us, she, has, been, offered, a, place, at, dalston, vets, she, will, be, able, to, train, as, a, vet, nurse, there, as, we, don’t, do, that, in, our, practice, so, that, will, leave, us, short, staffed, it, is, sad, but, everything, happens, for, a, reason, so, we, are, now, vet, and, nurse, hunting, so, more, advertising, and, interviewing, weds, we, are, sponsoring, a, class, at, the, northern, expo, holstein, friesian, shows, we, have, a, stand, and, a, good, natter, i, took, some, photos, of, a, few, cows, and, some, freebies, it, was, a, good, night, barbara, came, with, me, and, she, presented, the, prize, for, our, class, the, standard, of, cattle, was, amazing, and, it, was, a, really, good, show, thursday, out, of, the, photos, i, took, for, the, northern, expo, i, decided, to, make, a, photo, album, so, i, went, round, a, few, other, farms, photographing, it, was, good, fun, and, nice, to, see, that, we, do, have, some, very, good, stock, friday, got, a, phone, call, today, from, my, sister, she, has, sold, her, house, in, lancaster, and, is, moving, up, near, us, so, that’s, very, exciting, otherwise, a, quiet, day, today, week, beginning, 4th, november, monday, 4th, november, i, went, to, show, mr, j, the, new, interherd, farmers, version, he, was, very, interested, and, thought, it, would, save, a, lot, of, paperwork, and, time, they, all, say, that, the, paperwork, since, fmd, has, increased, immensely, along, with, the, regulations, tuesday, we, have, decided, to, have, a, tv, in, the, waiting, room, to, advertise, products, services, staff, etc, the, man, from, channel, 6, came, and, took, information, so, it, should, arrive, next, week, so, it, will, be, interesting, to, see, how, it, works, weds, we, went, to, the, bank, today, to, see, the, financial, advisor, as, this, is, a, free, service, and, very, useful, we, have, decided, to, buy, a, house, for, my, sister, to, live, in, when, she, moves, up, and, it, will, be, an, investment, as, well, a, bit, of, security, just, in, case, as, last, year, we, discovered, just, how, quick, things, can, change, we, went, for, just, over, 3, months, with, not, a, lot, of, money, coming, in, and, still, wages, to, pay, so, we, are, now, house, hunting, week, beginning, 11th, november, monday, 11th, november, one, of, our, vets, has, recently, started, her, dbr, dip, in, bovine, reproduction, course, at, liverpool, as, part, of, her, studies, she, is, looking, at, the, cows, milk, quality, pre, and, post, calving, to, see, if, any, effects, are, relevant, to, their, overall, performance, and, milk, production, and, health, so, we, collect, milk, samples, from, certain, cows, twice, a, week, over, the, period, of, lactation, and, she, is, going, to, test, them, so, watch, this, space, we, have, been, very, lucky, with, another, vet, her, enthusiasm, is, boundless, and, she, has, become, a, very, important, member, of, our, team, i, have, persuaded, mr, j, of, b, farm, to, milk, record, with, us, so, that's, more, early, morning, jaunts, the, interherd, and, nmr, trial, is, nearly, ready, so, hopefully, by, middle, of, december, everything, should, be, set, up, and, running, hopefully, tuesday, two, farmers, are, milk, reading, today, so, i, had, a, nice, little, trolly, about, i, treated, myself, to, some, of, mr, r's, ice, cream, very, nice, well, you, have, to, support, them, their, new, shop, on, the, farm, is, doing, very, well, i, loaded, my, first, farmer, version, interherd, onto, mr, w's, computer, he, is, very, impressed, and, very, keen, and, thankfully, it, all, worked, well, wednesday, we, have, computer, bugs, not, good, so, i, have, spent, most, of, the, day, on, the, phone, talking, to, the, debugging, man, thursday, still, got, bugs, we've, had, to, run, a, bug, fixer, disc, through, all, seven, computers, it, takes, ages, pee'd, off, fed, up, going, back, to, pen, and, paper, friday, i, must, have, sounded, fed, up, as, the, lovely, little, man, came, to, fix, all, the, computers, he, had, to, use, 3, different, discs, due, to, all, the, different, bugs, had, a, meeting, to, discuss, the, nmr, milk, recording, and, we, have, quite, a, lot, of, farmers, interested, mainly, because, we, have, got, a, good, price, for, nmr, so, fingers, crossed, the, bugs, are, fixed, yipeee, week, beginning, 18th, november, monday, 18th, november, due, to, our, junior, nurse, leaving, i, have, been, interviewing, all, week, we, have, had, a, lot, of, enquiries, i, decided, to, invite, any, possibles, to, come, and, play, for, the, morning, to, see, what, they, thought, and, how, they, got, on, with, the, staff, there, is, one, that, has, potential, and, sounds, very, nice, but, she, can't, make, it, until, next, monday, there, was, one, that, wrote, a, really, good, letter, but, when, she, came, in, well, she, was, sweet, but, not, really, suitable, on, friday, nurse, left, we, had, a, little, party, i, hope, she, copes, okay, she, bought, me, a, lovely, cow, ornament, to, say, thank, you, it, was, lovely, week, beginning, 25th, november, monday, 25th, november, ellen, came, for, her, interview, very, good, she, is, keen, had, experience, happy, with, the, hours, so, she, is, coming, back, tomorrow, afternoon, for, a, play, we, all, went, out, for, our, vet, who, is, leaving, on, friday, to, be, a, chalet, maid, in, a, french, ski, resort, till, april, it, will, be, very, sad, to, see, her, leave, unfortunately, still, no, joy, on, the, new, vet, front, but, we, are, going, to, leave, it, till, the, new, year, and, try, then, other, vet, is, going, to, cover, but, unfortunately, it, means, husband, s, on, duty, more, it's, a, bit, reminiscent, of, fmd, but, we'll, manage, tuesday, wednesday, feeling, very, sorry, for, myself, got, a, bad, cold, i, got, sent, to, my, room, because, everyone, was, fed, up, of, me, sneezing, all, over, them, honestly, i, was, only, shanning, thursday, much, better, today, i, sorted, a, whole, load, of, interherd, data, out, and, had, a, good, play, with, it, heard, about, nestle's, cancelling, contracts, next, year, from, one, of, our, farmers, he, felt, a, little, unsure, quite, how, it, would, affect, them, and, that, they, were, being, dealt, another, kick, in, the, teeth, it's, quite, amazing, how, many, i, have, heard, questioning, why, they, went, back, into, farming, we, are, feeling, the, effects, we, didn't, seem, to, be, called, out, as, often, or, they, don't, want, the, cows, treated, as, its, extra, expense, at, the, end, of, fmd, they, said, over, the, next, couple, of, years, there, would, be, changes, in, the, way, farmers, and, how, many, farmers, worked, it's, frightening, to, see, it, actually, starting, to, happen, and, seeing, the, effects, on, our, business, everyone, agrees, the, whole, industry, has, changed, for, the, worst, and, is, not, the, same, and, there, is, no, pleasure, now, after, all, that, a, total, contrast, me, and, daughter, went, christmas, shopping, and, had, a, lovely, time, we, met, husband, after, surgery, and, went, for, a, pizza, lovely, night, friday, everyone's, talking, about, nestle's, now, and, quite, a, few, are, angry, some, aren't, surprised, and, others, just, seem, to, resign, themselves, to, it, we, had, a, lunch, party, for, leaving, vet, today, it, was, good, we, gave, her, pressies, although, she, has, only, been, here, a, few, months, she, will, be, greatly, missed, by, everyone, you, never, know, she, may, come, back, one, day, good, news, i, offered, ellen, the, nurse's, job, and, she's, accepted, i, think, she, will, do, very, well, week, beginning, 2nd, december, monday, 2nd, december, spent, all, morning, trolling, around, the, countryside, collecting, another, vet, s, milk, samples, for, her, dbr, it, was, a, lovely, morning, chatted, to, a, few, farmers, a, lot, were, still, talking, about, nestles, tuesday, had, a, meeting, to, clarify, the, start, of, the, nmr, milk, recording, gave, her, all, the, information, she, needed, to, set, up, the, herds, it's, great, to, be, able, to, offer, the, farmers, a, good, cheaper, deal, staff, xmas, party, it, was, good, everyone, seemed, to, have, a, good, time, wednesday, day, off, shopping, what, joy, thursday, had, an, interherd, disaster, today, i, couldn't, get, it, load, what, normally, takes, 15, minutes, instead, took, 2, and, a, half, hours, anyway, we, succeeded, eventually, they, have, just, bought, some, in, calf, heifers, so, he, was, keen, to, keep, up, to, date, records, and, information, we, only, have, one, more, farmer, to, restock, now, and, then, that's, everyone, it, will, probably, work, out, at, about, 15, drop, in, work, etc, while, waiting, for, interherd, to, load, they, were, telling, me, that, they, had, been, approached, asking, them, if, they, wanted, to, appeal, against, the, amount, of, money, they, had, received, for, the, cattle, they, said, they, wouldn't, as, they, felt, they, had, already, been, overpaid, not, all, farmers, are, money, grabbers, apparently, friday, daughter, starts, her, mock, exams, now, for, the, next, fortnight, i, have, been, waiting, for, the, moods, to, start, but, as, yet, all, is, quiet, long, may, it, last, she, is, very, calm, about, it, and, has, actually, been, revising, quite, hard, she, has, the, ability, all, she, has, to, do, is, concentrate, work, wise, i've, done, not, a, lot, it's, one, of, the, perks, i've, wandered, around, just, playing, doing, nice, jobs, quite, a, change, week, beginning, 9th, december, monday, 9th, december, daughter, s, 16th, birthday, scary, even, worse, she, can, learn, to, drive, next, year, never, mind, enjoy, the, safety, we, went, out, for, lunch, and, did, some, shopping, it, was, good, i, don’t, normally, like, shopping, but, we, both, enjoyed, it, came, back, to, mayhem, a, client, small, animal, had, been, in, complaining, about, his, bill, and, had, caused, a, stink, anyway, i, phoned, him, and, once, we, had, gone, through, everything, he, seemed, happy, hopefully, he, had, either, misunderstood, or, hadn’t, had, things, explained, to, him, although, difficult, it, is, better, people, say, something, rather, than, stewing, over, it, and, making, it, into, something, it’s, not, the, small, animal, does, seem, to, have, more, problems, that, way, than, the, large, animal, i, suppose, the, large, animal, is, also, a, business, but, it, doesn’t, stop, them, caring, i, don’t, think, they, could, do, what, they, do, and, work, the, hours, they, work, if, they, didn’t, care, sometimes, they, get, a, hard, press, but, i, think, it’s, the, few, that, get, the, publicity, unfortunately, i, like, it, when, farmers, phone, to, say, they, have, a, sick, cow, and, we, ask, what, it’s, doing, and, quite, often, the, reply, is, she’s, just, not, herself, need, you, say, anymore, tuesday, i’m, going, out, to, play, milk, recording, with, a, new, person, via, interherd, he, is, one, of, our, clients, he, is, quite, a, character, old, fashioned, and, yet, in, his, thirties, it, was, good, he, is, very, passionate, about, farming, and, its, survival, he, has, a, lot, of, ideas, he, wants, to, try, with, different, cows, he, has, just, bought, some, jerseys, hence, he, wants, to, record, to, see, if, there, are, benefits, we, milked, 60, cows, in, 2, hours, at, my, other, farm, we, milk, 190, in, that, time, it’s, good, to, see, both, ways, weds, early, morning, milk, recording, good, fun, a, lot, more, relaxed, than, my, other, farm, went, to, hairdressers, straight, after, smelling, of, cows, with, pooh, in, my, hair, it’s, a, good, job, i, know, her, well, and, she, didn’t, complain, too, much, the, rest, of, the, day, was, quite, pleasant, a, bit, of, paperwork, and, a, skive, sorry, can’t, spell, to, the, lab, thursday, friday, wow, i, think, we, had, our, christmas, rush, they, should, all, be, shopping, it, has, been, very, busy, i, do, prefer, it, although, a, sit, down, now, and, then, would, be, good, me, and, nurse, had, a, good, time, on, friday, afternoon, i, helped, her, bath, and, groom, a, dog, it, was, so, naughty, nicely, we, were, both, sweating, buckets, and, soaked, to, the, skin, by, the, end, but, we, had, a, good, laugh, week, beginning, 16th, december, monday, 16th, december, with, daughter, s, mock, exams, she, has, needed, runs, to, and, from, school, at, various, times, so, mum’s, taxi, has, been, on, overtime, she, has, been, very, calm, about, it, so, we, shall, see, thursday, was, eventful, as, i, now, have, an, expectant, nurse, and, vet, watch, where, you, sit, unfortunately, there, is, a, worry, for, both, of, them, our, nurse, evening, receptionist, is, worried, she, may, be, losing, hers, and, has, had, several, tests, and, is, obviously, worried, she, is, going, in, for, a, scan, on, tuesday, so, fingers, crossed, vet, is, also, pregnant, they, have, been, trying, for, a, while, but, has, something, with, a, long, name, wrong, with, her, which, causes, her, to, miscarriage, so, she, is, pleased, worried, excited, scared, and, only, 4, weeks, so, no, lambing, for, her, she, is, quite, happy, continuing, with, all, other, work, for, now, i, hope, everything, is, ok, with, them, both, it, can, be, difficult, working, with, animals, and, being, pregnant, but, as, long, as, they, are, careful, they, should, be, ok, week, beginning, 23rd, december, monday, 23rd, december, so, much, for, getting, quiet, for, christmas, we, have, had, our, busiest, time, for, a, few, years, which, is, good, we, are, going, to, try, advertising, in, the, new, year, for, a, new, vet, especially, now, another, vet, is, expecting, it, will, all, depend, how, she, does, we, may, even, need, two, as, even, when, another, vet, is, on, duty, now, husband, has, to, be, on, standby, in, case, of, any, lambings, we, have, a, couple, of, farmers, starting, anytime, milk, recording, tonight, as, well, but, we, now, do, it, with, nmr, well, not, literally, so, i, only, need, record, once, so, not, too, bad, and, worked, in, will, with, xmas, round, the, corner, and, no, mince, pies, made, yet, tuesday, nurse, phoned, they, are, being, positive, at, the, moment, her, hormone, levels, have, increased, and, she, has, not, bled, anymore, it, doesn’t, stop, them, worrying, though, surgery, was, busy, but, we, did, finish, by, 1.30pm, my, sister, and, niece, arrived, all, set, off, we, go, christmas, was, ace, very, relaxing, good, fun, loads, of, pressies, didn’t, have, time, to, eat, too, busy, playing, and, it, was, so, warm, friday, back, to, work, a, very, busy, day, lots, of, calls, and, surgery, appointments, even, some, operations, receptionist, was, off, so, i, was, in, charge, i, enjoyed, it, finding, out, what, everyone, got, for, christmas, week, beginning, 30th, december, monday, 30th, december, busy, day, only, me, and, receptionist, in, thought, it, would, be, quiet, wrong, never, mind, we, coped, tuesday, nurse, has, lost, her, baby, or, is, losing, it, they, can’t, see, anything, on, the, scan, just, an, empty, sac, so, she, is, going, for, a, don’t, know, what, they, call, it, but, you, can, take, some, tablets, that, clear, everything, away, she, is, obviously, so, upset, what, do, you, say, she’s, going, to, drop, her, other, two, off, while, she, goes, in, it, is, so, sad, thursday, 2nd, january, everybody’s, back, again, full, crew, no, one, knowing, what, day, it, is, i, could, get, used, to, the, split, weeks, but, at, the, moment, i, need, it, stuck, to, my, head, quite, busy, as, well, which, is, good, trying, to, arrange, tt, test, but, farmers, are, never, keen, on, them, you, have, to, threaten, them, with, defra, coming, to, do, it, that, works, friday, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, scrapie, with, husband, all, day, it, was, a, beautiful, day, very, cold, but, we, had, fun, only, we, were, stood, next, to, a, stream, women, torture, cold, air, and, running, water, i, had, to, nip, back, to, the, van, for, various, things, by, the, time, we, finished, i, was, frozen, the, test, was, part, of, the, national, scrapie, plan, which, is, to, sample, sheep, for, scrapie, so, if, or, when, they, find, bse, in, sheep, these, ones, will, or, should, be, okay, as, there, is, a, plan, to, slaughter, the, national, herd, if, bse, is, found, but, as, the, farmer, said, they, have, already, had, human, g, pigs, for, years, as, the, indians, eat, sheep, brains, and, before, the, removal, of, bone, meal, and, very, dubious, scabby, sheep, and, they, have, not, had, a, problem, so, we, will, wait, and, see, week, beginning, 6th, january, 2003, mon, 6th, january, 2003, our, new, nurse, started, today, she, managed, very, well, and, didn’t, seem, too, confused, when, she, went, home, she, has, worked, in, kennels, before, she, is, very, keen, fingers, crossed, another, vet, is, doing, her, dbr, and, for, part, of, this, she, has, to, do, a, study, she, has, decided, to, look, at, progesterone, and, other, levels, in, cows, post, calving, for, 6, weeks, to, see, what, happens, so, we, collect, a, sample, from, each, new, calved, cow, and, split, it, into, 3, smaller, pots, and, freeze, awaiting, testing, in, holland, very, exciting, but, quite, boring, the, results, should, be, interesting, though, hopefully, tuesday, you, forget, all, the, explaining, you, have, to, do, when, somebody, new, starts, so, me, and, nurse, have, written, a, step, by, step, guide, to, c, well, sort, of, it’s, all, the, little, things, we, haven’t, had, a, new, nurse, for, a, while, so, hopefully, the, book, can, be, used, for, other, new, people, it, took, a, bit, of, doing, but, we, were, pleased, with, it, in, the, end, i, spoke, to, mr, g, re, having, interherd, at, the, farm, all, i, have, to, do, now, is, get, round, to, see, him, he, is, very, hard, to, pin, down, but, we’ll, try, weds, new, nurse, liked, her, new, book, she, is, doing, very, well, and, it’s, nice, for, us, too, i, always, find, it, quite, refreshing, when, someone, is, genuinely, enthusiastic, with, us, all, being, close, and, having, their, own, areas, it’s, good, to, show, someone, else, but, can, be, scary, when, you, see, just, how, much, they, all, do, thursday, milk, pot, day, again, today, the, good, thing, is, going, to, pick, up, the, samples, as, you, get, a, natter, so, monday, and, thursday, the, samples, are, collected, split, and, frozen, it’s, quite, time, consuming, and, i’ve, just, realised, i, didn’t, ask, another, vet, how, long, she, was, doing, it, for, friday, we, have, decided, to, try, and, get, the, accounts, up, to, date, to, see, how, things, are, going, bar, not, being, able, to, find, a, vet, so, it’s, one, of, those, jobs, you, always, mean, to, keep, on, top, of, but, never, quite, manage, because, it’s, not, much, fun, interruptions, queries, and, assistance, were, very, welcome, but, i, got, a, good, start, week, beginning, 13th, january, monday, 13th, jan, a, has, started, working, with, us, again, just, two, days, a, week, this, will, help, a, lot, and, help, take, the, pressure, off, for, surgery, times, etc, i, got, to, spend, the, day, helping, with, tt, testing, it, was, good, fun, and, it, stayed, fine, it, was, a, good, day, tuesday, i, had, a, milk, recording, day, today, 3, in, total, we, have, started, using, nmr, now, so, it, was, all, new, paperwork, etc, this, is, going, to, be, cheaper, for, the, farmers, and, works, with, the, interherd, programme, anyway, it, all, went, well, and, everybody’s, samples, got, away, weds, milk, recorded, again, at, one, of, the, three, farms, first, thing, everytime, i, go, he, has, a, new, plan, as, to, how, to, make, some, money, this, month, it, is, he, is, going, to, produce, a, new, breed, of, cow, a, jersey, x, mri, so, we, will, see, how, that, goes, thursday, and, friday, just, catching, up, on, paperwork, me, and, nurse, did, some, training, with, the, new, nurse, she, is, settling, in, really, well, and, very, keen, week, beginning, 20th, january, monday, 20th, january, weds, decorated, our, bedroom, it, looks, brill, it, was, in, desperate, need, of, it, i, like, decorating, it’s, good, and, messy, thursday, i, went, on, my, brucellosis, testing, training, course, at, the, vlc, it, was, good, fun, this, means, that, after, i, have, now, tested, 150, cattle, i, get, a, licence, which, will, enable, me, to, blood, test, this, in, turn, will, hopefully, free, up, a, vet, it, will, also, give, defra, a, bank, of, blood, tester, for, any, future, outbreak, crafty, they, used, to, charge, about, 800, for, this, course, miraculously, it’s, now, free, clever, friday, we, have, had, a, reply, to, our, advert, hoorah, well, actually, two, they, are, both, foreign, one, is, in, germany, and, the, other, s, africa, so, we, are, waiting, for, their, cvs, fingers, crossed, defra, have, now, changed, the, 20, day, standstill, to, 6, days, the, general, opinion, seemed, to, be, so, it, would, be, interesting, to, actually, find, out, if, and, how, well, all, the, regulations, are, actually, working, not, well, i, feel, would, be, the, answer, week, beginning, 27th, january, mon, weds, very, busy, i, seem, to, have, spent, a, lot, of, it, in, my, car, dropping, off, tooing, and, froing, which, was, nice, but, i, do, lose, touch, with, the, happenings, at, the, surgery, and, on, tuesday, things, had, obviously, got, fraught, so, i, sorted, those, out, and, smoothed, the, creases, we, are, very, lucky, to, have, such, dedicated, staff, due, to, vet, shortage, and, another, vet, s, pregnancy, it, does, add, extra, pressure, to, everyone, none, of, the, incidents, were, very, serious, and, easily, sorted, thursday, i, went, with, my, sister, to, take, niece, to, the, hospital, as, since, she, was, born, she, has, had, a, lump, on, the, side, of, her, head, above, her, eye, so, they, xrayed, it, that, was, fun, persuading, her, to, lie, still, i, stayed, overnight, and, came, back, friday, week, beginning, 3rd, february, monday, 3rd, feb, i, did, my, first, blood, sample, on, a, live, cow, today, as, it, was, an, abortion, enquiry, and, due, to, another, vet, s, pregnancy, she, is, not, doing, them, ad, i, need, the, practice, it, was, good, fun, and, i, hit, the, 2nd, time, so, i, was, very, pleased, only, another, 145, to, go, before, i, get, my, licence, tuesday, i, completed, the, accounts, today, to, go, to, the, accountants, it, was, great, fun, i, hope, they, come, up, with, good, news, but, the, future, is, worrying, a, backlash, from, the, farmers, not, being, confident, weds, i, can’t, remember, if, i, told, you, vet, was, expecting, anyway, she, went, for, her, first, scan, today, and, so, far, so, good, it, is, very, worrying, as, she, has, a, problem, where, she, produces, duff, eggs, and, miscarriages, she, wants, to, carry, on, as, normal, as, possible, for, now, but, no, sheep, or, abortions, etc, i, hop, it, works, this, time, as, this, is, her, 4th, attempt, thursday, and, friday, very, nice, everything, worked, well, no, mad, rushes, time, to, catch, up, we, discussed, reducing, some, of, the, farm, drugs, as, they, are, able, to, buy, the, over, the, internet, with, a, prescription, all, the, laws, and, rules, will, more, than, likely, be, changing, at, the, beginning, of, march, due, to, a, report, done, for, the, govt, regarding, drugs, and, animal, use, it, will, make, a, difference, to, how, we, operate, as, if, they, remove, the, vet, surgeon’s, right, to, prescribe, drugs, i.e, vets, can, only, write, prescriptions, and, not, dispense, drugs, it, could, alter, things, completely, one, way, or, another, if, farmers, require, the, service, they, are, going, to, have, to, pay, for, it, up, to, now, it, has, always, been, that, a, reasonable, mark, up, is, put, on, the, drugs, this, is, normally, 50, and, this, will, keep, professional, fees, down, if, vets, are, not, getting, the, money, made, on, drugs, and, therefore, has, to, put, his, fees, up, although, the, farmer, may, be, buying, his, drugs, cheaper, via, the, internet, will, he, actually, save, that, much, i, wonder, so, anyway, we, have, been, getting, more, and, more, pressure, from, a, number, of, our, farmers, to, compete, with, the, internet, prices, so, we, have, selected, a, few, products, and, it, they, pay, at, the, time, they, can, get, about, 20, off, the, price, so, watch, this, space, and, we, will, see, what, happens, week, beginning, 10th, february, monday, 10th, feb, the, week, to, sum, up, a, blur, with, both, sad, and, very, funny, memories, to, start, receptionist, was, on, holiday, and, it, always, seems, to, happen, as, soon, as, someone, is, off, we, get, very, very, busy, when, everyone, is, in, it, ticks, along, nicely, mostly, i, do, enjoy, it, when, it’s, busy, but, we, worked, 3, 13, hour, days, not, food, but, everyone, worked, really, hard, they, are, excellent, staff, on, a, sad, note, vet, went, for, her, 11, week, scan, on, tuesday, and, the, baby, had, died, she, was, distraught, she, has, a, condition, that, causes, this, and, this, was, her, 4th, miscarriage, it’s, so, sad, i, called, to, see, her, and, she, just, hugged, me, and, cried, what, do, you, say, she, had, to, have, some, tablets, to, clear, away, the, placenta, etc, she, was, gutted, as, this, is, the, longest, she, had, ever, been, pregnant, and, she, thought, she’s, cracked, it, it’s, just, so, sad, my, funny, tale, for, the, week, on, a, completely, different, note, but, helped, immensely, was, other, vet, on, thursday, we, were, all, very, very, busy, and, a, farmer, called, in, i, was, very, behind, they, still, had, ops, to, do, and, this, farmer, settled, herself, down, for, a, big, chat, normally, if, i, say, i, have, a, lot, on, she, departs, but, no, not, today, it, was, obviously, my, turn, vet, came, over, from, the, op, room, and, i, know, it, was, naughty, but, i, wrote, on, a, card, can, i, have, some, help, i.e, to, free, myself, well, instead, of, reading, the, note, quietly, oh, no, she, read, it, out, at, the, top, of, her, voice, and, added, what, do, you, need, help, for, after, i, had, crawled, out, of, the, hole, that, had, opened, up, in, the, earth, to, swallow, me, i, pointed, to, the, message, book, to, try, and, hide, my, predicament, while, she, said, again, loudly, so, what, do, you, want, help, for, well, i, gave, up, and, decided, to, just, fall, into, the, hole, got, rid, of, vet, back, to, the, op, room, and, continued, alone, with, my, predicament, after, the, farmer, had, gone, who, thankfully, seemed, oblivious, to, what, had, happened, i, went, in, search, of, vet, to, kill, her, anyway, it, cheered, us, all, up, they, do, say, laughter, is, the, best, medicine, but, i, can, think, of, better, ways, week, beginning, 17th, february, monday, 17th, feb, vet, who, lost, baby, came, back, to, work, she, is, very, upset, and, weepy, everyone, has, been, lovely, with, her, hopefully, it, is, just, time, and, tlc, we, are, very, busy, again, and, have, had, an, enquiry, from, a, farmer, who, is, thinking, of, changing, vets, which, is, really, good, news, that, is, three, new, farmers, in, total, now, if, only, we, had, enough, vets, four, practices, around, carlisle, have, advertised, recently, and, none, of, the, positions, have, been, filled, it’s, quite, worrying, tuesday, i, took, vet, who, lost, baby, home, again, today, she, is, not, well, and, in, a, lot, of, pain, so, she’s, gone, back, to, bed, i, hope, she’s, feeling, better, soon, usual, day, otherwise, weds, vet, is, a, lot, better, today, apparently, they, think, it, may, be, the, cocodamol, she, was, taking, she, was, a, lot, happier, a, little, drained, but, ok, mr, w, came, in, today, his, cows, are, arriving, on, friday, hopefully, this, will, be, our, last, farm, to, restock, he, has, had, a, lot, of, alterations, done, to, the, farm, and, a, new, parlour, so, it’s, quite, exciting, thursday, we, did, some, sheep, exports, for, slaughter, from, longtown, today, the, first, of, that, sort, of, thing, since, fmd, it, was, of, course, a, bit, of, a, faf, as, they, now, have, to, be, retagged, and, checked, so, it, takes, a, little, longer, in, the, afternoon, i, had, a, meeting, with, sr, from, university, of, reading, she, is, planning, to, do, research, regarding, the, interherd, programme, and, she, had, picked, 3, vet, practices, to, see, how, the, programme, helps, the, vets, and, the, farmers, work, better, together, and, the, improvements, it, makes, to, the, farmers, record, keeping, so, she, is, going, to, meet, 3, of, our, farmers, who, use, interherd, and, interview, them, and, give, them, free, training, so, that, should, please, them, fri, day, off, me, and, daughter, went, to, newcastle, shopping, i’m, not, a, good, shopper, but, i, did, behave, and, we, had, a, good, day, mr, w’s, cows, arrived, all, fit, and, healthy, so, that, is, us, complete, now, ass, we, were, if, not, better, sad, news, though, we, heard, one, of, our, farmers, dropped, down, dead, suddenly, it, was, very, sad, as, we, had, seen, him, in, the, morning, and, he, was, his, normal, self, so, it, was, quite, a, shock, his, family, must, be, devastated, mind, if, there’s, a, good, way, to, go, that’s, it, week, beginning, 24th, february, monday, 24th, feb, another, vet, a, lot, better, today, almost, back, to, her, normal, cheery, self, she, is, a, lot, more, positive, we, took, the, bull, by, the, horns, so, to, speak, and, reduced, the, prices, of, some, drugs, we, will, have, to, wait, until, the, 10th, march, before, we, find, out, what, the, government, is, going, to, do, regarding, the, selling, of, drugs, but, the, farmers, are, very, pleased, tuesday, i, got, another, phone, call, from, mr, c, and, he, said, he, would, like, to, change, vets, to, us, so, good, news, husband, spoke, to, his, old, vet, and, explained, why, etc, it, is, very, difficult, and, i, think, that, in, the, future, there, may, be, more, changing, of, vets, where, as, in, the, past, it, never, happened, but, even, farmers, appreciate, competition, now, it, again, is, worrying, milk, recorded, at, mr, g, tonight, it’s, always, good, crack, as, they, say, weds, milk, recorded, early, morning, and, then, showed, them, the, interherd, programme, they, are, going, to, try, it, i, think, in, the, afternoon, i, went, with, other, vet, to, vet, a, horse, for, purchase, it, can, be, tricky, sometimes, and, two, pairs, of, eyes, are, better, than, one, as, it, turned, out, the, horse, was, lame, so, we, couldn’t, vet, it, so, we, will, have, to, go, back, another, day, thursday, normal, day, did, some, more, sheep, exports, in, the, afternoon, they, have, a, very, efficient, system, at, longtown, so, it, makes, it, a, lot, easier, fri, i, went, to, farmer, s, funeral, this, morning, it, was, very, sad, i, don’t, like, funerals, well, i, don’t, suppose, anyone, does, but, it, stayed, fine, and, he, had, a, good, send, off, in, the, afternoon, i, got, an, opportunity, to, do, some, more, blood, sampling, just, 15, so, it, was, good, it’s, getting, used, to, handling, everything, and, forgetting, you’re, at, the, end, that, shits, and, kicks, no, broken, limbs, and, i, got, blood, week, beginning, 3rd, march, mon, 3rd, march, i, went, to, help, a, tt, test, in, the, morning, just, taking, numbers, we, now, have, 4, farms, on, restrictions, due, to, tb, reactors, but, up, to, now, on, the, cows, taken, for, further, tests, no, lesions, have, been, fund, we, now, get, to, do, the, repeat, 60, day, test, on, the, farms, now, as, defra, can’t, keep, up, sounds, familiar, we, saw, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, we, had, sent, 9, months, of, accounts, to, him, as, we, need, to, see, how, the, practice, was, now, doing, anyway, it, was, not, as, bad, as, we, thought, but, the, income, is, down, but, is, slowly, growing, the, main, problem, is, farmers, won’t, call, out, for, sick, cows, now, they, will, leave, it, longer, or, try, to, treat, them, themselves, mainly, due, to, them, watching, their, spending, mr, w, had, a, problem, with, his, interherd, he, needed, to, run, his, extensification, figures, and, they, didn’t, add, up, so, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, trying, to, figure, out, why, i, think, i, know, why, it, was, how, he, set, it, up, initially, so, it, may, need, his, entry, dates, changed, tues, went, tt, testing, again, this, morning, it, was, a, lovely, morning, i, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, sorting, mr, w’s, problem, out, and, it, worked, he, was, chuffed, the, good, is, i, think, i, now, understand, extensifications, weds, caught, up, on, some, paperwork, in, the, morning, i, helped, new, nurse, with, a, dog, grooming, in, the, afternoon, which, was, fun, she, is, doing, really, well, and, seems, to, be, enjoying, it, we, both, ended, up, soaked, thanks, to, the, dog, but, it, looked, loads, better, when, it, went, home, good, news, we, get, a, new, vet, from, south, africa, starting, 1.4.03, he, worked, over, here, during, fmd, and, met, someone, and, their, relationship, has, lasted, hence, he, wants, a, job, in, carlisle, so, bingo, here, comes, a, holiday, thursday, friday, very, busy, in, the, practice, everyone, kept, going, we, have, a, great, team, and, they, really, come, into, their, own, when, it’s, busy, i, love, the, way, everyone, pulls, together, they, are, very, dedicated, week, beginning, 10th, march, monday, quiet, day, for, a, monday, but, the, weather, has, been, nice, so, they, are, all, out, playing, but, we, had, quite, a, few, lambings, to, do, that’s, one, thing, that, has, changed, since, fmd, prior, to, fmd, we, hardly, used, to, do, any, lambings, for, farmers, but, since, we, now, do, far, more, last, year, we, put, it, down, to, them, having, new, stock, but, it, seems, to, be, the, same, this, year, tuesday, today, is, milk, recording, day, i, have, 3, recordings, today, they, all, need, boxes, and, paperwork, i, don’t, have, to, help, at, any, of, the, milkings, though, which, is, good, as, they, are, quite, a, way, from, each, other, but, a, nice, day, for, a, drive, weds, thurs, fri, the, end, of, our, weeks, seem, to, be, busier, than, the, beginnings, at, the, moment, it, has, been, non, stop, one, disadvantage, when, it, is, so, busy, is, you, don’t, have, the, time, to, chat, as, often, i, took, some, drugs, to, a, farm, our, last, one, to, restock, as, he, was, having, alterations, done, it, was, amazing, to, see, the, transformations, he, had, made, to, the, farm, all, geared, to, one, person, being, able, to, do, more, alone, with, more, cows, interesting, week, beginning, 17th, march, mon, tuesday, i, went, with, another, vet, to, mr, c’s, for, his, tt, and, blood, test, another, vet, did, the, tt, and, i, did, the, blood, as, part, of, my, lay, blood, tester’s, licence, i, needed, to, do, 150, which, i, managed, it, was, good, fun, and, the, weather, was, great, we, had, to, spread, it, over, 2, days, due, to, the, amount, of, cattle, it, was, really, good, practice, for, me, and, i, think, i’ve, cracked, it, now, there, are, talks, about, giving, tt, testing, to, lay, people, but, quite, how, and, when, is, anyone’s, guess, weds, more, blood, testing, today, i’ve, really, cracked, it, now, only, i’ve, discovered, muscles, in, my, arms, i, didn’t, know, i, had, i, enjoy, the, blood, testing, sad, isn’t, it, thursday, i, had, a, morning, with, alco, waste, management, sorting, out, all, the, clinical, waste, regulations, and, they, need, more, detail, of, what, actually, goes, in, our, waste, we, always, provided, a, free, service, to, farmers, for, disposing, of, sharps, and, old, drug, and, empty, drugs, etc, but, we, are, going, to, have, to, start, charging, now, it, is, now, 100, dearer, a, month, than, it, was, fri, me, and, husband, spent, the, morning, looking, at, fees, income, etc, and, seeing, where, we, can, increase, fees, to, help, cover, if, we, lose, the, right, to, dispense, drugs, to, farmers, which, we, still, haven’t, heard, about, to, continue, as, we, are, we, will, have, to, make, the, difference, up, it’s, just, how, week, beginning, 24th, march, monday, doing, the, paperwork, for, a, tt, test, it, was, a, beautiful, day, i, do, enjoy, doing, this, especially, when, the, weather’s, good, and, they, are, very, nice, farmers, i, also, get, to, spend, the, day, with, husband, which, makes, a, change, although, we, work, together, we, don’t, often, get, to, see, much, of, each, other, tuesday, busy, day, spent, most, of, it, making, sure, everything, got, done, and, helping, out, weds, i, went, to, the, careers, convention, at, the, sands, centre, it, was, very, busy, and, we, had, a, lot, of, interest, but, a, long, day, before, going, someone, phoned, to, say, there, was, a, collie, dog, running, around, on, the, roundabout, so, me, and, new, nurse, went, to, see, if, we, could, catch, it, well, it, didn’t, want, caught, but, i, was, really, worried, it, got, onto, the, motorway, so, we, phoned, the, police, and, the, dog, warden, who, incidentally, couldn’t, come, until, 9am, as, he, didn’t, start, til, then, so, i, had, to, politely, explain, that, he, would, have, to, be, the, police, dog, handler, wasn’t, much, help, but, at, least, he, stopped, the, traffic, bless, him, the, dog, warden, did, appear, 5, minutes, later, and, it, was, only, 8.30, am, so, we, managed, to, get, the, dog, off, the, roundabout, and, catch, it, everyone, safe, thankfully, thurs, fri, busy, days, new, vet, from, south, africa, phoned, so, he’s, coming, to, see, us, on, monday, to, pick, up, his, vehicle, and, meet, everyone, he, sounds, pleasant, so, we, will, see, my, joke, at, the, moment, when, people, ask, where, we, found, him, is, that, we, got, him, off, the, internet, it, is, a, little, worrying, not, having, met, him, first, but, it, should, work, watch, this, space, week, beginning, 31st, march, monday, we, have, had, l, staying, for, two, weeks, she’s, a, vet, student, from, london, and, stayed, with, us, about, this, tine, last, year, it, was, interesting, to, go, over, the, changes, from, a, year, ago, last, time, she, was, here, people, were, restocking, and, there, was, an, element, of, wariness, so, it, was, interesting, to, fill, her, in, on, how, things, are, now, one, thing, she, mentioned, was, noticing, the, stock, in, the, fields, was, nice, as, there, were, only, a, few, still, last, year, talking, over, things, is, still, hard, sometimes, although, it, seems, a, long, time, ago, the, feelings, and, emotions, are, still, deep, certain, parts, can, still, hit, a, raw, nerve, there, seems, to, be, a, mere, anger, at, the, moment, generally, people, and, farmers, are, wanting, to, know, why, they, still, have, restrictions, what, is, going, to, happen, about, shows, and, sales, etc, and, will, normality, ever, return, unfortunately, i, think, not, not, in, the, way, they, want, it, to, tuesday, our, new, vet, started, today, we, got, on, very, well, it, has, taken, us, so, long, to, find, a, vet, and, if, the, work, and, testing, carries, on, increasing, we, are, going, to, need, another, one, wednesday, very, busy, day, husband, s, gone, to, talk, at, a, bcva, conference, and, agm, so, poor, new, vet, has, been, thrown, in, at, the, deep, end, it, has, been, very, busy, but, he, seems, to, be, coping, well, the, clients, were, very, impressed, so, far, so, long, may, it, last, it, is, good, to, have, new, staff, with, new, ideas, i, quite, enjoy, it, and, he, is, definitely, a, big, hit, with, the, female, clients, it, really, does, make, you, embarrassed, to, be, female, when, they, go, into, the, consulting, room, you, count, to, 4, and, then, comes, the, girlie, giggle, quite, funny, thursday, sad, day, today, my, sister, had, been, confirmed, as, having, cervical, cancer, no, more, on, that, for, now, friday, had, another, interherd, sale, today, one, thing, fmd, has, forced, on, farmers, is, the, need, for, efficient, records, and, interherd, is, brilliant, at, that, it’s, so, clever, one, of, our, farmers, who, has, had, it, for, a, while, and, has, 120, milking, cows, now, does, all, his, daily, records, in, 5, 10, minutes, can’t, be, bad, week, beginning, 7th, april, monday, busy, day, new, vet, is, settling, in, really, well, and, coping, fine, if, we, carry, on, at, this, rate, we, will, need, another, vet, a, lot, of, it, depends, on, how, much, more, testing, we, are, going, to, get, and, what, happens, with, commission, report, into, dispensing, drugs, tuesday, sr, came, today, from, uni, of, reading, who, own, the, interherd, program, we, went, round, some, of, the, farmers, that, used, it, and, helped, sort, out, any, queries, it, was, a, good, day, i, learnt, a, lot, and, the, farmers, found, it, useful, too, she, said, she, would, come, again, later, in, the, year, so, i, think, we, might, try, and, organise, for, them, all, to, come, to, the, practise, for, a, chat, wednesday, did, some, interherd, training, with, one, of, the, farmers, wives, we, said, just, an, hour, as, she, wasn’t, fully, computer, literate, anyway, 4, hours, later, she, had, well, and, truly, got, the, hang, of, it, she, was, very, keen, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, thursday, friday, they, blur, into, one, as, it, has, been, so, busy, everyone, has, been, flat, out, we, are, going, to, start, the, vet, advertising, again, and, another, nurse, receptionist, week, beginning, 14th, april, monday, got, caught, up, today, sorted, out, all, the, queries, quite, pleased, with, my, self, tuesday, went, to, a, local, nursery, to, talk, about, vets, to, 3, year, olds, i, was, quite, dreading, it, but, thankfully, it, was, great, they, were, really, good, i, took, some, dressing, up, clothes, and, x, ray, instruments, and, teddy, bears, and, they, operated, and, had, a, really, good, time, one, of, them, asked, me, if, all, the, cows, and, sheep, were, better, and, did, they, still, have, funny, feet, and, mouths, week, beginning, 21st, april, tuesday, wednesday, quite, busy, days, and, a, lot, to, catch, up, on, we, all, went, away, with, sister, and, niece, this, weekend, to, husband, s, mum, and, dads, caravan, we, had, a, great, time, sister, s, biopsy, off, rest, of, week, week, beginning, 28th, april, monday, three, farmers, milk, recording, today, and, tomorrow, so, busy, dropping, pets, and, paperwork, off, advertised, for, a, vet, today, fingers, crossed, off, for, two, weeks, helping, sister, to, move, interviewed, a, nurse, receptionist, she, is, perfect, and, experienced, she, wrote, a, letter, in, as, her, husbands, job, had, brought, them, to, the, area, so, she, starts, 12th, may, i, wish, it, was, as, easy, finding, a, vet, week, beginning, 12th, may, monday, our, new, girlie, started, today, she, is, very, keen, and, capable, she, has, done, really, well, even, with, the, computer, system, that, she, was, dreading, tuesday, busy, day, also, 2x, milk, recordings, so, a, bit, of, hollering, about, i, was, thinking, it, is, about, a, year, we, have, had, now, of, normal, work, everyone, new, appears, to, be, getting, on, with, it, as, the, saying, goes, everyone, bears, a, scar, and, has, a, story, to, tell, and, realise, it, is, not, the, same, but, how, could, it, be, weds, fri, quite, busy, but, capable, at, work, daughter, got, the, job, for, the, training, in, her, m, apprentice, course, so, she, is, over, the, moon, it’s, all, a, new, learning, curve, you, suddenly, realise, she, is, growing, up, getting, a, job, and, leaving, school, unfortunately, this, morning, daughter, has, decided, she, doesn’t, want, to, leave, full, time, education, yet, and, is, worried, about, the, job, she, is, wanting, to, do, a, business, course, at, a, college, so, all, change, again, we, have, had, bid, discussions, and, are, going, to, go, down, to, connexions, next, week, sat, yf, young, farmers, field, day, today, i, love, these, days, it, is, amazing, the, effort, and, enjoyment, that, makes, it, such, a, good, day, there, is, also, such, a, high, standard, in, all, the, classes, i, admire, the, enthusiasm, of, the, young, farmers, and, just, hope, they, can, survive, somehow, week, beginning, 19th, may, monday, we, have, found, the, course, daughter, wants, to, do, at, college, thanks, to, connexions, the, bad, news, is, it, is, not, done, locally, she, could, do, a, local, course, but, it, would, be, wasted, time, to, some, extent, big, discussions, most, of, the, week, we, have, found, they, do, the, course, in, blackburn, and, preston, my, sister, and, mum, live, down, there, and, are, more, than, happy, for, her, to, move, in, i, just, don’t, know, if, i, am, ready, to, let, her, go, but, i’ll, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, we, have, sent, application, forms, off, so, will, have, to, wait, and, see, now, and, try, and, get, used, to, it, weds, really, good, evening, at, penrith, re, the, discussion, it, was, so, good, to, talk, to, the, other, diarists, and, realise, and, be, able, to, relate, so, closely, to, what, they, said, it, was, poignant, to, see, what, other, people, had, written, and, interesting, to, see, what, you, had, done, so, far, with, the, data, collected, it, would, be, brilliant, to, hand, to, any, future, study, or, enquiry, as, it, is, proof, surely, not, all, these, people, could, be, wrong, and, to, have, so, many, diarists, start, and, finish, is, amazing, i’m, sure, it, can, be, used, for, so, many, different, topics, amazing, i, am, personally, very, proud, to, have, been, a, part, of, it, and, although, sometimes, i, have, wondered, if, what, i, was, writing, was, any, use, i, can, see, now, how, it, comes, together, than, you, all, for, the, opportunity, shame, not, in, better, circumstances, it, has, helped, me, more, than, i, originally, realised, but, thinking, back, it, was, all, unbelievable, and, not, something, i, would, like, to, repeat, i, am, ever, the, optimist, or, so, i’m, told, and, do, believe, or, hope, things, and, farming, can, recover, not, fully, but, enough, to, be, able, to, show, other, people, what, a, wonderful, life, it, is, hard, but, special, week, beginning, 26th, may, never, stopped, on, tuesday, after, bank, holiday, so, busy, new, vet, is, settling, in, now, but, his, girlfriend, can’t, find, a, job, so, that’s, a, bit, worrying, he, may, leave, sooner, than, expected, oh, no, not, advertising, again, the, rest, of, the, week, was, uneventful, really, ticked, along, nicely, we, met, up, with, some, friends, on, wednesday, evening, who, holiday, in, the, lakes, each, year, so, it, was, nice, to, see, them, again, we, had, a, good, evening, we, were, also, out, on, thursday, night, with, a, drug, rep, very, nice, meal, and, they, have, offered, to, pay, for, husband, bri, catt, vet, ass, meeting, in, amsterdam, in, october, so, that, was, very, nice, business, link, have, also, offered, to, help, us, get, a, consultant, in, to, see, if, they, have, any, ideas, for, improving, maybe, they, can, find, vets, too, all, in, all, quite, an, exciting, week, week, beginning, 2nd, june, the, exams, have, started, everyone, warns, to, beware, but, daughter, is, very, laid, back, about, it, all, too, much, i, feel, but, as, long, as, she, does, her, best, i, went, to, the, accountants, to, look, at, the, books, for, the, end, of, year, so, far, not, quite, finished, yet, and, thankfully, we, won’t, be, needing, income, support, this, year, it, is, so, much, better, more, regulation, but, nothing, we, can’t, cope, with, honest, week, beginning, 9th, june, daughter, had, an, interview, at, blackburn, college, it, wasn’t, a, very, nice, place, but, then, i’m, not, going, preston, is, on, the, 25th, so, she, will, decide, after, that, niece, had, her, c.t, scan, for, her, head, that, was, eventful, and, lisa, and, her, naughty, jelly, babies, zapped, all, went, well, but, she, was, a, bit, sore, after, week, beginning, 23rd, june, monday, went, tt, testing, with, another, vet, today, it, was, a, retest, due, to, them, having, a, reactor, it, was, a, good, day, they, are, nice, people, there, is, a, father, and, 2, sons, during, fmd, i, had, a, phone, call, one, night, and, this, was, just, someone, crying, on, the, end, of, it, i, didn’t, know, what, to, say, and, i, wasn’t, sure, who, it, was, but, i, just, spoke, about, mainly, silly, things, i, can’t, really, remember, what, but, didn’t, get, much, of, a, response, just, yes, and, no’s, and, i, thought, i, recognised, the, voice, as, being, the, father, we, were, with, today, anyway, during, lunch, which, we, had, at, the, farm, we, were, chatting, and, of, course, got, into, fmd, and, he, thanked, me, it, took, aback, but, he, said, he, had, appreciated, me, waffling, on, it, was, the, night, of, the, day, his, cows, had, been, shot, and, he, had, phoned, to, let, us, know, but, he, said, he, just, broke, down, and, couldn’t, say, anything, anyway, he, laughed, because, he, said, he, was, going, to, hang, up, but, he, couldn’t, get, word, in, edgeways, because, i, was, wittering, but, he, said, he, did, feel, a, bit, better, after, so, we, had, a, good, heart, to, heart, tuesday, caught, up, on, my, paperwork, and, sorted, some, bits, and, pieces, out, weds, took, daughter, to, preston, college, for, an, interview, it, was, good, and, seems, a, nice, place, i, can’t, believe, she, will, be, leaving, home, at, the, end, of, august, very, scary, i’m, really, going, to, have, to, be, a, big, girl, about, it, thursday, we, went, to, visit, business, link, to, discuss, some, more, things, and, they, are, hopefully, going, to, help, us, pay, a, firm, of, consultants, to, help, us, out, to, see, how, we, can, improve, and, move, the, practice, on, so, that’s, exciting, fri, went, milk, recording, first, thing, so, that, was, good, fun, after, recording, i, had, to, collect, one, of, our, elderly, clients, and, her, dog, that, was, coming, for, an, operation, the, lady, is, 92, and, her, and, the, dog, are, very, close, so, she, wanted, to, stay, with, her, until, she, was, sedated, so, she, was, pleased, she, could, come, with, her, the, girls, all, laugh, at, me, because, i, have, quite, a, few, little, old, ladies, who, we, visit, and, keep, a, check, on, their, pets, week, beginning, 30th, june, not, a, lot, of, excitement, at, all, this, week, we, have, been, kept, going, and, i, caught, up, on, paperwork, we, are, going, to, my, sister’s, this, week, end, to, start, sorting, her, spare, bedroom, for, daughter, week, beginning, 7th, july, mon, spent, the, morning, explaining, to, our, newest, girlie, about, interherd, and, how, to, work, it, this, will, enable, her, to, help, me, on, the, data, entry, side, we, also, had, a, little, trip, out, around, some, of, the, farms, that, record, with, us, to, give, her, an, idea, of, where, they, are, tuesday, went, exporting, sheep, today, they, all, had, to, be, retagged, it, was, quite, warm, not, much, fun, i’ll, maybe, get, new, girl, to, do, exporting, weds, 2, milk, recordings, today, so, quite, busy, with, bottles, and, sheets, and, things, and, they, are, both, in, the, opposite, direction, to, each, other, never, mind, it, was, a, nice, day, for, driving, about, thursday, we, have, got, a, new, vet, to, replace, vet, from, sa, she, seems, very, lovely, she, is, going, to, start, on, 4.08.03, we, used, an, agency, and, it, has, proved, worthwhile, we, worked, out, that, rather, than, paying, for, endless, adverts, we, would, give, it, a, go, and, it, seems, to, have, worked, so, that’s, exciting, fri, we, went, car, hunting, today, as, if, we, all, go, out, at, the, week, end, it, becomes, a, bit, crushed, and, sometimes, we, end, up, taking, two, vehicles, so, we, have, really, splashed, out, rightly, or, wrongly, and, bought, a, new, crv, truck, it’s, very, posh, so, we, get, that, on, 21.07.03, week, beginning, 14th, july, monday, person, from, the, interherd, office, came, up, to, see, us, and, we, visited, a, few, of, our, farmers, that, are, on, interherd, between, them, and, nmr, they, have, really, tried, with, providing, quality, and, cost, effective, equipment, that, is, helpful, to, the, farmers, you, can, now, use, interherd, in, some, milking, parlours, which, is, really, useful, tues, we, went, to, see, a, horse, with, a, cough, and, after, treating, the, pony, we, were, chatting, and, they, have, converted, a, small, barn, into, a, camping, hostel, their, farm, is, along, hadrian’s, wall, and, since, having, foot, and, mouth, and, doing, the, barn, up, they, have, nearly, covered, their, costs, they, still, have, a, few, stock, but, not, as, many, mr, i, was, saying, how, his, father, used, to, milk, about, 25, cows, and, be, able, to, make, a, good, living, from, that, it’s, amazing, the, difference, weds, we, got, a, new, payroll, package, today, so, i, spent, most, of, my, day, trying, to, understand, it, i, was, very, bog, eyed, by, the, end, but, i, think, i, understand, it, and, it, seems, to, work, well, and, should, be, a, lot, easier, and, quicker, thursday, busy, day, there, were, lots, of, ops, and, farm, calls, a, couple, of, farmers, have, been, asking, about, prescriptions, as, soon, they, will, be, able, to, get, their, drugs, from, anywhere, a, lot, have, said, they, appreciate, they, have, to, pay, for, the, service, one, way, or, another, and, are, happy, to, carry, on, as, they, have, been, doing, we, will, lose, money, to, some, extent, but, how, much, remains, to, be, seen, and, we, will, have, to, cope, friday, off, went, to, see, westlife, with, daughter]
## 4 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1963, gender, m, occupation, group, 6, geographic, region, north, cumbria, saturday, 9th, march, 2002, an, old, african, proverb, states, the, best, time, to, plant, a, tree, was, 20, years, ago, the, next, best, time, is, now, i, should, have, started, this, diary, over, a, year, ago, to, keep, track, of, changes, in, the, unrolling, of, the, fmd, epidemic, and, my, feelings, towards, it, today, is, probably, a, good, day, to, start, the, diary, as, i, was, about, to, sit, down, after, a, really, bad, week, to, write, some, comments, for, the, lessons, learned, inquiry, and, thought, i, should, check, the, web, site, for, an, update, i, found, out, to, my, considerable, annoyance, that, the, inquiry, was, coming, to, cumbria, to, meet, with, defra, and, hold, the, open, meeting, on, tuesday, night, and, if, you, wanted, a, ticket, to, attend, then, you, had, to, apply, by, a, week, ago, the, overall, impression, is, that, the, govt, do, not, want, to, learn, lessons, i, was, looking, after, kids, as, wife, was, on, counselling, course, and, i, was, on, call, sat, morn, the, vets, were, busy, so, i, ended, up, taking, children, into, vets, with, me, they, watched, videos, in, the, waiting, room, while, i, sorted, out, and, consulted, coming, down, with, cold, after, spending, friday, tb, testing, on, restocking, farm, but, at, least, i, managed, to, avoid, getting, kicked, and, crushed, the, farm, hand, who, is, one, of, the, hard, lads, of, wigton, refused, to, get, in, with, the, fat, bulls, to, test, them, after, getting, floored, by, a, kick, if, the, f, ministry, want, them, f, tested, they, can, f, coming, and, etc, etc, i, am, putting, in, a, letter, to, say, why, they, were, not, tested, to, see, response, didn’t, get, finished, on, farm, till, 5.45, pm, having, started, with, a, caesarean, at, 5, 30am.must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, the, farming, economy, is, bizarre, at, the, moment, he, has, silage, in, heaps, all, over, the, farm, so, instead, of, feeding, straw, which, is, incredibly, expensive, 70, ton, he, is, feeding, the, better, quality, silage, and, the, calves, are, all, too, big, there, are, 30, to, calve, so, a, few, nights, work, there, where, ever, i, go, on, farms, the, stories, that, farmers, are, wanting, to, get, off, their, chest, about, the, maff, incompetence, and, inconsistency, is, bewildering, there, is, a, lot, of, anger, out, there, i, went, to, do, the, restocking, sentinel, visit, for, mg, l, fm, he, is, usually, the, most, laid, back, of, guys, but, he, told, them, he, was, bringing, his, cattle, on, and, he, would, see, them, in, court, why, are, we, doing, sentinel, visits, to, a, farm, that, had, fmd, 11, months, ago, the, virus, only, lives, a, month, sunday, mothering, sunday, kids, had, all, got, presents, and, cards, for, mum, they, brought, them, all, in, with, a, breakfast, tray, very, cute, but, pear, juice, all, over, the, carpet, tim, and, i, spent, sat, night, baking, a, chocolate, cake, for, her, which, meant, i, hadn’t, got, lunch, never, mind, church, was, ps, speaking, on, characters, walking, with, god, and, talking, about, abraham, setting, off, with, out, knowing, where, he, is, going, maybe, i, should, follow, suit, with, large, animal, vetting, being, reduced, to, tb, testing, and, caesareans, the, evening, service, was, really, lively, with, hp, from, austria, about, turning, every, hour, over, to, god, now, that, is, what, i, should, do, g, r, called, around, sun, afternoon, he, is, pessimistic, about, fertiliser, sales, there, is, that, much, land, and, grass, around, and, the, govt, grants, for, extensification, new, regulations, on, nitrates, is, giving, him, a, headache, though, as, he, points, out, it, is, not, fertiliser, that, cause, the, problems, as, they, are, used, by, grass, but, by, phosphates, and, slurry, organics, lough, neigh, has, real, problems, with, algal, blooms, and, they, are, blaming, fertiliser, but, so, has, bassenthwaite, but, there, is, not, any, fertiliser, spread, on, the, fells, so, is, it, really, agriculture, monday, read, test, and, was, very, glad, it, was, clear, as, the, farm, of, origin, of, one, of, batches, has, gone, down, with, tb, more, testing, after, lunch, organic, farm, they, have, just, had, their, first, pay, check, 23p, per, litre, they, were, promised, 36p, when, they, started, to, convert, 2, years, ago, who, would, be, in, agriculture, desperately, behind, in, admin, with, vets, and, home, but, at, least, the, clinical, work, pays, tuesday, caught, up, on, a, lot, of, admin, as, back, to, 6, vets, for, day, 2, cows, aborting, on, restocking, farm, more, disease, rota, still, for, 5vets, yuk, the, evening, open, meeting, poorly, attendee, due, to, poor, publicity, i, am, only, local, practitioner, i, phoned, around, no, one, had, been, invited, or, had, seen, advance, publicity, and, we, all, feel, that, they, are, not, interested, and, that, they, will, not, listen, some, moving, testimony, and, the, bullying, culture, came, through, and, the, frustration, and, anger, that, comes, from, dealing, with, a, faceless, bureaucracy, distant, in, london, 11, million, animals, 2000, farms, in, cumbria, businesses, wrecked, lives, wrecked, a, crisis, turned, into, a, disaster, by, bureaucratic, incompetence, and, political, considerations, i, am, pleased, i, went, i, feel, that, it, is, like, a, sense, of, closure, the, funeral, so, to, speak, the, end, and, i, spoke, with, wife, when, i, got, back, i, feel, i, can, lay, the, past, down, and, look, to, the, future, weds, day, off, k, a, for, lunch, and, sort, out, finances, etc, and, write, diary, everyone, is, saying, about, this, time, last, year, and, glad, that, fmd, is, finished, went, to, see, grease, the, school, production, it, was, very, well, done, brought, back, memories, of, 6th, form, thurs, 300, pages, of, a4, waiting, for, me, in, my, in, tray, courtesy, of, defra, are, they, mindless, or, what, rang, to, speak, to, ah, but, only, got, hold, of, n, and, told, her, it, was, out, of, order, i, should, get, my, blood, pressure, measured, as, some, one, says, defra, stupid, idiots, so, much, for, closure, i, feel, very, frustrated, if, this, is, the, future, of, farm, practice, anal, glands, here, we, come, who, said, a, vets, life, ain’t, glamorous, managed, to, calm, down, and, get, the, next, 2, weeks, of, testing, organised, it, is, a, good, job, that, we, are, organising, it, as, trying, to, get, folk, on, the, phone, is, n’t, easy, workload, picking, up, and, managed, to, persuade, gg, to, advertise, even, if, only, at, tvi, hq, all, of, the, local, practices, who, have, advertised, have, had, very, few, if, any, responses, we, are, busy, but, with, defra, work, spent, time, singing, grease, songs, much, to, nurses, amusement, did, restocking, visit, at, lynedraw, they, gave, me, a, look, around, it, is, amazingly, clean, because, even, after, pressure, washing, the, spiders, usually, make, a, come, back, but, the, buildings, are, sterile, and, no, cobwebs, or, insect, life, which, usually, abounds, even, in, empty, buildings, weird, there, will, be, a, lot, of, flies, next, year, news, that, pi, has, headship, of, nelson, thom, and, so, we, can, expect, the, discipline, to, improve, again, friday, curry, and, quiz, at, the, boys, school, very, cosmopolitan, for, cumbria, it, was, good, fun, and, the, kids, enjoyed, it, but, we, were, useless, on, the, photos, for, which, you, definitely, need, a, tv, spent, time, chatting, to, local, gp, who, which, was, interesting, they, have, a, place, for, their, son, at, nelson, thom, but, he, isn’t, keen, saturday, 16th, march, working, this, w, e, and, on, call, friday, night, so, had, an, early, start, with, a, caser, on, ewe, a, lambing, hurray, things, are, getting, back, to, normal, even, if, it, is, a, dutch, beltex, the, farmer, is, really, fed, up, and, wants, ah, to, be, sacked, as, he, threatened, to, kill, all, his, recently, imported, dutch, sheep, as, the, paper, work, was, not, right, they, had, come, and, blood, sampled, them, and, then, sent, the, results, to, his, brother, who, is, still, under, form, a, and, then, refused, him, permission, to, move, any, of, the, sheep, off, because, he, shouldn’t, have, any, because, he, was, on, form, a, and, what, were, the, blood, results, for, defra, would, be, a, joke, if, it, wasn’t, so, serious, oh, and, after, my, complaint, about, them, deluging, us, with, paper, yes, you, guessed, it, they, sent, another, 7, x, 20, sheets, of, a4, idiots, aw, is, in, a, tiz, and, so, had, to, get, help, in, sat, morning, which, was, a, shame, but, hey, ho, she, is, not, coping, with, the, post, fmd, constant, changing, of, the, goal, posts, went, to, susan, ian’s, for, another, curry, and, had, a, really, good, time, and, have, decided, to, phase, out, house, group, which, was, coming, hopefully, low, moor, will, set, up, a, 3rd, house, group, for, wigton, hebron, is, going, to, change, to, new, outlook, groups, sun, never, managed, to, get, to, church, as, calls, all, day, beautiful, day, though, the, weather, has, really, picked, up, must, get, garden, sorted, and, seeds, planted, a, came, out, on, call, this, evening, it, is, one, good, point, that, this, job, does, allow, the, kids, to, join, with, me, she, is, really, growing, up, she, wanted, to, go, to, cinema, but, as, wife, was, late, and, weather, good, she, came, back, here, and, they, walked, the, dog, and, wound, up, the, boys, mon, early, morning, call, to, see, a, farmer, who, is, a, scrap, metal, dealer, who, hates, authority, he, therefore, didn’t, want, anyone, on, his, land, during, fmd, and, refused, access, to, maff, and, me, while, i, was, working, there, he, caused, real, problems, and, had, his, gun, removed, by, police, he, was, handled, badly, and, is, a, rogue, the, more, colourful, rumour, was, that, the, real, reason, for, not, allowing, anyone, on, was, the, amount, of, smuggled, cigarettes, was, too, great, to, hide, he, also, runs, a, fishery, shellfish, enterprise, that, is, on, the, beach, at, odd, times, he, was, found, guilty, and, fined, 350, for, his, trouble, but, never, paid, because, he, went, bust, as, everything, is, in, his, wife, and, kids, names, this, is, all, unsubstantiated, rumour, but, quite, amusing, when, push, comes, to, shove, the, ministry, could, do, nothing, with, out, the, cooperation, of, the, farmers, the, vet, students, have, arrived, and, i, feel, a, bit, guilty, about, not, having, them, to, stay, but, i, feel, i, still, need, space, at, the, moment, so, they, are, making, do, with, the, royal, oak, prayer, quad, with, the, lads, which, was, good, i, still, has, not, got, stuff, for, magazine, and, spent, time, praying, tues, the, dates, important, cos, its, my, birthday, 39, today, the, kids, all, brought, presents, in, and, had, breakfast, in, bed, it, was, really, nice, the, number, of, ordinary, calls, to, ill, animals, is, increasing, rapidly, went, to, 2, new, restocking, farms, today, i, think, one, a, day, is, probably, enough, they, were, both, full, of, stories, about, the, ministry, and, wanted, to, unload, to, some, one, who, understood, the, first, was, particularly, upsetting, in, that, i, was, admiring, his, new, parlour, and, set, up, that, he, has, put, in, while, waiting, the, 4, months, he, was, then, talking, about, all, the, animals, getting, slaughtered, and, his, wife, was, fighting, back, tears, she, is, also, very, unsure, about, whether, they, are, doing, the, right, thing, by, investing, in, the, new, parlour, she, is, very, unsure, about, the, future, and, as, they, are, both, reaching, 50, is, it, the, right, thing, to, be, doing, unfortunately, i, think, she, is, right, but, i, couldn’t, say, that, and, made, reassuring, noises, as, they, have, spent, the, money, and, it, is, too, late, now, the, future, for, dairy, is, not, good, the, price, is, going, to, continue, to, be, at, world, prices, which, with, the, current, exchange, rate, is, uneconomic, in, the, uk, the, second, farm, was, sheep, with, drop, and, they, were, grazing, over, the, burial, site, as, they, had, planted, carrots, and, turnips, on, the, surrounding, field, i, couldn’t, listen, to, another, set, of, woes, as, i, was, still, upset, from, the, first, lot, so, kept, conversation, light, and, on, sheep, weds, i, never, realised, that, fmd, is, like, any, other, grief, there, are, anniversaries, to, get, through, and, fears, and, barriers, to, be, put, to, rest, i, was, on, a, farm, to, give, certificates, to, 2, heifers, sold, in, calf, they, were, all, saying, it, was, a, year, to, the, day, that, fmd, hit, the, village, the, ai, fellow, was, there, as, well, and, he, was, talking, about, what, he, had, been, doing, he, was, saying, that, he, thinks, it, will, be, years, before, everybody, returns, to, normal, he, is, revisiting, farms, where, he, was, helping, with, the, slaughter, for, the, ai, and, was, saying, he, had, to, take, a, deep, breath, every, time, he, returns, to, one, of, these, farms, there, was, a, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, as, usual, aw, turned, up, late, but, finally, decided, to, advertise, to, see, whether, there, are, vets, out, there, who, will, come, to, work, in, fmd, country, it, is, a, bit, frustrating, as, i, foresaw, that, we, would, be, busy, and, we, could, have, nabbed, d, before, longtown, but, gg, ever, cautious, we, went, completely, around, in, circles, trying, different, options, but, as, with, everything, else, the, only, prediction, we, can, make, is, that, we, know, that, we, don’t, know, so, much, depends, on, govt, decisions, on, supply, of, pharmaceuticals, to, farms, and, on, the, future, of, the, svs, state, vet, service, for, who, we, usually, do, 15, of, our, farm, work, for, and, currently, do, 50, for, thursday, tomorrow, i, will, get, a, lunch, break, this, is, my, resolution, have, not, managed, to, stop, for, lunch, this, week, yet, as, farm, calls, keep, coming, in, and, partners, meeting, today, was, geckos, bums, and, goose, bums, rectal, prolapses, variety, is, the, spice, of, life, also, had, much, laughter, over, watching, norman, in, the, bath, jg’s, tortoise, which, has, come, out, of, hibernation, early, and, is, anorexic, much, clunking, and, bumping, 2, lambings, and, cow, caesaer, after, hours, so, busy, on, call, it, was, also, the, last, house, group, so, it, was, end, of, an, era, we, have, been, having, them, in, our, house, for, the, past, 6, years, with, different, folk, and, have, had, god, speak, to, us, and, to, others, through, it, but, it, is, time, to, move, on, friday, started, with, another, caeaser, and, early, morning, start, and, didn’t, get, my, lunch, break, time, to, reconsider, things, again, had, folk, for, dinner, which, had, been, arranged, a, long, time, ago, it, seemed, like, a, good, idea, at, time, and, was, enjoyable, but, after, a, 14, hour, day, yesterday, and, a, 10, hour, one, today, i, was, not, feeling, life, and, soul, of, the, party, one, couple, are, still, trying, to, decide, the, future, of, their, farm, they, are, thought, out, progressive, family, farm, and, yet, they, are, not, convinced, about, what, to, do, he, finds, it, difficult, to, because, there, are, three, generations, to, consider, his, father, would, go, out, and, buy, stock, tomorrow, and, his, son, wants, to, come, home, to, work, but, they, feel, he, should, broaden, his, options, very, difficult, he, was, also, saying, that, he, ha, d, helped, a, neighbour, who, flagged, him, down, as, he, was, going, past, he, wanted, help, to, move, a, cow, that, was, down, the, last, time, he, touched, a, cow, it, was, when, his, own, were, slaughtered, it, knocked, him, off, his, stride, for, the, rest, of, the, day, had, a, good, time, as, when, i, looked, at, time, was, 1, o, clock, sat, 23rd, march, wife, went, on, her, counselling, course, for, day, which, left, me, a, bit, on, edge, this, morning, as, i, was, on, call, sat, am, and, looking, after, 4, kids, but, they, managed, with, out, me, back, sore, and, stiff, as, i’ve, missed, the, gym, but, will, go, back, on, tues, still, managed, to, get, a, bit, done, in, garden, it, was, a, great, spring, day, and, made, me, feel, like, summer, was, coming, went, to, beckfoot, to, beach, in, the, afternoon, with, kids, evening, went, to, bed, early, as, shattered, sun, 24th, back, stiffer, after, gardening, and, went, to, church, davidsons, have, moved, into, thursby, so, will, be, good, to, have, them, around, and, at, school, watched, northbank, beat, stanwix, u12, s, 6, 0, the, boys, played, well, and, passed, the, ball, around, a, lot, son, played, well, too, must, work, less, w, e’s, and, watch, the, boys, play, more, mon, 25th, looking, forward, to, finishing, on, friday, as, another, large, test, today, started, at, 8, 30am, and, finished, at, 6pm, but, at, least, it, meant, i, was, out, the, office, and, did, not, have, to, face, any, of, the, usual, hassle, factors, it, was, good, to, see, as, the, place, is, always, well, run, and, organised, a, real, family, farm, with, three, generations, working, together, but, granddad, at, 75, still, very, much, calling, the, shots, the, craic, was, good, at, lunch, as, their, sister, is, friendly, with, my, wife, so, i, got, custard, with, my, rhubarb, tart, my, wife, doesn’t, like, custard, so, i, never, get, as, i, cannot, be, bothered, to, make, it, for, one, as, the, kids, never, have, it, and, so, are, very, conservative, they, were, asking, my, view, of, the, future, too, as, they, have, sold, bullocks, privately, ie, not, through, the, auction, as, they, are, on, 21, day, stand, still, and, the, price, is, poorer, than, selling, via, the, auction, defra, will, not, allow, any, trade, through, an, auction, if, the, farms, are, on, standstill, why, if, they, are, dead, in24hrs, there, is, minimal, risk, and, they, are, putting, everyone’s, backs, up, tues, 26th, went, for, my, first, visit, to, another, restocked, farm, and, during, the, 4, month, waiting, as, well, as, visit, new, zealand, he, has, made, a, sandstone, plaque, 3ft, by, 4, ft, and, carved, on, the, date, they, went, down, with, fmd, and, the, number, of, cattle, it, is, almost, a, head, stone, type, memorial, the, cow, had, digestive, problems, a, right, displaced, abomasums, rda, probably, due, to, the, transit, and, change, in, diet, weds, 27th, small, animal, day, and, trying, to, get, everything, organised, for, going, away, finalised, advert, in, vet, record, for, new, assistant, lots, of, adverts, but, no, applicants, all, the, local, practices, are, advertising, and, there, are, no, takers, i, hope, it, is, because, there, is, a, shortage, and, not, from, lack, of, confidence, in, the, area, defra, haven’t, paid, us, for, a, lot, of, visits, and, that, needs, sorted, they, have, no, record, of, the, visits, i, e, they, have, lost, the, claim, forms, in, the, mountain, of, paper, work, they, will, only, pay, on, the, originals, as, if, there, are, duplicates, they, will, probably, pay, on, those, as, well, being, that, well, organised, they, are, really, slipping, back, into, their, old, ways, of, paper, chasing, the, frustration, without, and, within, is, palpable, i, should, just, quit, as, i, will, be, a, civil, servant, once, removed, unless, things, change, the, secretary’s, are, both, on, fmd, funded, computer, courses, so, digging, out, the, paper, work, will, have, to, wait, thurs, 28th, demob, happy, just, the, test, to, read, and, i, am, off, for, 10, days, the, test, was, clear, but, very, busy, as, a, locum, came, for, a, look, around, to, see, if, he, would, do, sa, for, several, days, a, week, any, help, i, think, will, be, a, help, good, friday, missed, out, on, church, as, one, of, the, boys, through, a, complete, wobbler, he, is, not, very, well, just, tired, at, end, of, term, i, hope, then, went, walking, with, family, and, friends, i, must, learn, to, shoot, him, down, when, he, says, it, is, a, little, scramble, what, he, means, is, its, too, dangerous, for, kids, but, it, was, fun, and, we, enjoyed, it, the, weather, was, glorious, and, the, fells, were, crowded, tourism, is, back, went, up, over, sharp, edge, to, blencathra, kids, as, well, holiday, sat, 6th, april, came, back, on, the, late, boat, from, belfast, and, arrived, in, to, wigton, late, the, grandparents, were, sad, to, see, us, go, but, i, think, they, had, also, found, us, all, quite, tiring, the, kids, have, enjoyed, playing, squash, so, that, is, something, i, would, like, to, continue, sun, 7th, april, beautiful, frosty, morning, and, went, to, church, where, the, speaker, arrived, much, to, s’s, relief, just, as, he, was, announcing, the, last, song, before, the, sermon, i, think, he, was, wondering, what, he, would, say, instead, of, the, prepared, sermon, went, to, son, s, foot, ball, cup, match, this, is, 10, year, olds, we, are, talking, about, and, the, referee, was, making, several, bad, decisions, including, a, dubious, penalty, against, his, team, northbank, the, crowd, well, about, 30, of, us, which, for, his, team, is, a, big, crowd, was, getting, a, bit, restless, robbie, was, sprinting, down, the, wing, in, front, of, his, dad, and, me, when, he, was, sent, flying, by, one, of, their, team, his, dad, then, shouted, ref, if, you, gave, a, penalty, for, them, for, nothing, you, could, at, least, give, us, a, foul, for, that, at, which, point, the, ref, blew, his, whistle, and, came, across, and, thumped, him, the, whole, thing, was, about, to, descend, in, to, a, brawl, as, i, and, another, parent, were, trying, to, restore, calm, by, telling, everyone, to, walk, away, which, they, did, followed, by, the, northbank, kids, game, abandoned, so, we, await, the, fa’s, report, so, with, that, and, the, carlisle, manager, being, sacked, and, the, knighton’s, trading, insults, with, the, prospective, buyer, for, carlisle, the, future, of, football, in, carlisle, is, not, looking, good, mon, 8th, last, day, off, for, sorting, out, vcf, magazine, and, getting, up, to, date, with, paper, work, etc, did, carrock, fell, where, we, did, not, see, another, walker, it, was, sunny, and, cold, but, beautiful, at, night, went, to, crusaders, area, meeting, where, they, are, trying, to, get, some, one, to, arrange, area, events, for, kids, and, to, support, the, group, structure, there, is, no, one, who, has, the, time, and, no, funding, to, appoint, a, post, to, do, it, so, went, around, in, circles, too, a, large, degree, but, meeting, decided, to, try, and, raise, the, funding, tues, 9th, feel, like, i, should, have, handed, in, notice, after, today, it, was, awful, going, back, the, response, to, the, advert, for, a, new, vet, now, stands, at, 2, students, who, have, yet, to, qualify, i, had, harry, giving, me, grief, over, the, fact, that, defra, promised, him, that, we, would, test, his, cattle, prior, to, turn, out, i, e, end, of, march, but, haven’t, told, us, very, helpful, his, allocation, has, not, even, come, through, they, are, useless, i, was, at, one, farm, that, has, half, restocked, because, the, parlour, is, not, yet, restored, the, heifers, are, calving, and, he, is, milking, into, a, dump, bucket, and, throwing, the, milk, away, he, can’t, get, more, stock, in, because, he, is, waiting, testing, for, brucellosis, as, his, heifers, were, on, the, same, farm, as, the, french, heifer, that, went, down, he, wanted, to, bring, them, direct, to, his, own, farm, they, would, not, let, him, bring, the, heifers, to, his, own, farm, because, the, paper, work, was, not, through, and, they, not, would, allow, multiple, drop, offs, idiots, so, with, high, levels, of, frustration, and, complete, overload, it, has, not, been, a, good, start, back, tomorrow, i, must, see, what, is, hiding, in, my, in, tray, as, i, never, had, a, chance, to, look, today, weds, 10th, quieter, day, and, managed, to, catch, up, with, paper, work, and, have, had, a, lot, of, next, week, mapped, out, so, feel, more, in, control, night, work, seems, to, be, easing, with, fewer, lambings, students, seem, to, be, enjoying, their, time, with, us, even, though, there, is, too, little, time, to, actually, teach, them, but, it, is, a, luxury, to, have, time, to, go, through, cases, with, them, as, we, take, them, on, a, voluntary, basis, and, at, the, moment, lunch, is, a, higher, priority, than, their, education, i’m, a, selfish, brat, thurs, 11th, spoke, too, soon, chaotic, again, managing, workload, with, so, much, fire, brigade, work, is, not, so, easy, fire, brigade, work, is, the, emergency, work, that, needs, seen, urgently, ie, today, if, not, now, son, isn’t, so, well, again, he, tired, easily, again, today, so, must, make, an, appointment, for, him, but, very, vague, signs, fri, 12th, half, day, finish, yo, i, could, really, get, into, a, 3, and, a, half, day, week, the, down, side, is, it, is, because, my, wife, is, going, away, for, the, w, e, so, i, have, to, be, finished, by, 3, 15, for, kids, as, i, want, to, have, the, people, carrier, i, also, have, to, muck, out, my, car, it, is, not, as, bad, since, fmd, another, positive, contribution, that, fmd, has, made, to, my, life, i, actually, feel, morally, obliged, to, keep, my, car, from, being, a, biohazard, ok, i, still, needed, a, wheelie, bin, to, through, all, the, post, it, notes, and, bits, of, cardboard, and, the, excessive, packaging, that, surrounds, any, medical, product, that, seems, to, find, its, way, on, to, the, back, seat, of, my, car, i, always, remember, reading, a, sunday, paper, article, about, what, cars, different, people, drove, and, what, they, had, lying, around, in, the, back, seat, and, what, this, showed, about, their, personality, i’m, sure, that, they, would, have, had, a, field, day, with, my, car, you, use, to, be, able, to, tell, farm, vets, cars, from, a, mile, off, but, they, have, all, gone, clean, and, shiny, sat, 13th, april, a, week, end, off, and, the, thought, of, a, saturday, morning, lie, in, unfortunately, there, is, a, football, tournament, in, carlisle, today, 9am, start, so, up, as, usual, and, get, into, town, but, managed, to, get, to, staples, which, i, have, been, trying, to, do, since, my, birthday, to, spend, my, birthday, money, the, difference, between, men, and, boys, is, the, size, of, their, toys, as, my, wife, frequently, reminds, me, so, i, am, the, proud, owner, of, a, digital, camera, the, question, is, when, will, i, find, time, to, set, it, up, took, back, all, the, library, books, and, made, the, mistake, of, checking, with, the, librarian, who, says, we, also, have, a, talking, book, and, another, junior, fiction, well, i, thought, it, would, have, been, lucky, to, get, them, all, if, they, ever, bring, in, fines, for, kids, we, are, sunk, how, does, my, wife, keep, track, of, them, all, came, home, and, enjoyed, the, good, weather, and, fortunately, the, team, bottomed, out, so, didn’t, get, into, the, next, round, v, asked, as, she, dropped, other, son, off, from, the, football, where, has, wife, gone, as, other, son, has, said, she, was, away, at, gruerly, where, is, that, she, is, away, for, a, girlie, w, e, so, we, had, time, for, a, family, cycle, ride, out, from, kirkbride, to, the, coast, it, was, beautiful, and, we, had, a, really, good, time, came, back, via, wigton, for, supplies, as, we, are, in, desperate, need, of, a, tesco, shop, sunday, 14th, had, an, easy, day, and, cooked, with, a, for, tomorrow, as, my, wife, is, doing, supply, next, week, its, ages, since, i, have, cooked, even, made, scones, church, was, a, video, sermon, which, was, ok, but, different, saw, p, he, s, back, from, nz, so, will, have, to, arrange, to, catch, up, he, was, incredibly, jet, lagged, it, must, be, sunday, cos, everyones, in, church, 36, hrs, travelling, wife, arrived, back, from, her, week, end, away, at, capernwray, having, had, a, week, end, that, sounded, as, if, they, had, all, gone, back, to, their, teenage, years, with, midnight, feasts, and, playing, tricks, on, each, other, she, was, quite, tired, and, pleased, to, have, an, early, night, mon, 15th, the, diary, has, unfortunately, died, at, this, point, and, it, is, 3, weeks, later, and, i, am, going, back, and, filling, in, the, details, as, i, remember, them, it, is, probably, the, bits, that, are, really, important, but, as, there, is, too, much, going, on, the, diary, has, remained, on, my, to, do, list, together, with, my, tax, return, and, a, small, mountain, of, paperwork, the, reasons, are, varied, but, one, of, them, is, that, my, youngest, lost, his, temper, with, the, computer, and, slammed, down, the, mouse, this, broke, the, left, right, bar, so, the, pointer, would, only, go, up, and, down, now, the, practice, manager, who, learnt, his, computing, in, the, dark, ages, of, doss, assures, me, you, do, not, need, a, mouse, to, operate, a, computer, but, as, i, have, enough, problems, trying, to, get, the, stupid, machine, to, do, what, i, want, it, to, with, a, mouse, forget, trying, shortcut, keys, and, arrows, so, a, new, mouse, was, bought, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, blank, screens, consult, hand, book, try, inserting, disk, try, exploring, disk, try, windows, disk, consult, practice, manager, who, as, you, may, have, gathered, is, my, it, guru, he, says, you, may, need, to, install, a, driver, if, it, doesn’t, work, it, will, be, on, the, disk, i, don’t, have, a, mouse, to, use, to, try, to, find, and, install, a, driver, he, assures, me, again, you, don’t, need, a, mouse, i, understand, why, my, youngest, son, lost, his, temper, with, the, stupid, machine, being, the, mature, adult, that, i, can, some, times, be, i, walk, away, to, cool, off, but, don’t, feel, like, trying, again, for, 24, hours, with, a, new, mouse, which, the, man, assured, my, wife, you, just, had, to, plug, in, and, hey, presto, it, would, find, a, driver, and, work, plugged, it, in, it, said, looking, for, driver, installing, driver, and, it, worked, why, why, not, first, time, tuesday, thursday, riding, lights, went, to, see, riding, lights, who, are, a, christian, theatre, group, who, were, performing, at, the, senior, school, at, night, they, were, extremely, funny, and, hard, hitting, and, very, pointed, all, at, the, same, time, it, was, a, magazine, of, sketches, on, all, sorts, of, different, things, modern, interpretations, of, parables, and, bible, stories, sketches, asking, questions, about, society, and, how, we, view, things, very, difficult, to, put, into, words, but, thought, provoking, on, lots, of, levels, sat, 20th, april, to, weds, 24th, april, lost, in, the, mists, of, time, thursday, 25th, starting, the, diary, again, after, having, missed, 10, days, with, too, much, going, on, the, spring, work, is, chaotic, with, a, lot, of, problems, we, are, trying, to, run, the, practice, on, 5, vets, plus, a, part, time, locum, instead, of, 7, full, time, at, this, time, of, year, i, had, said, we, should, have, advertised, and, tried, to, get, some, one, at, xmas, but, the, view, was, that, falling, milk, price, would, mean, less, work, but, the, defra, tasting, is, more, than, making, up, for, those, who, haven’t, restocked, and, those, who, have, gone, out, of, dairy, which, brings, us, the, most, work, but, saying, i, told, you, so, does, not, help, so, i’ll, just, keep, my, big, mouth, shut, as, the, practice, manager, says, the, good, old, days, when, we, new, what, the, rota, was, going, to, be, and, we, were, not, just, making, up, it, up, as, we, went, along, we, have, had, over, a, year, of, crisis, management, now, the, end, must, be, nigh, as, this, is, a, health, survey, apart, from, feeling, pressure, of, work, i, am, have, also, managed, to, catch, ringworm, on, my, leg, a, fungal, infection, from, cows, and, it, is, itchy, and, sore, and, not, responding, to, my, treatment, i, will, have, to, get, gp’s, opinion, friday, 26th, april, remind, me, next, time, not, to, try, to, interview, during, busy, periods, it, is, very, embarrassing, to, turn, up, late, to, the, interview, we, had, a, chaotic, day, but, managed, to, interview, her, she, is, frighteningly, well, prepared, and, had, lists, of, questions, i, hope, we, didn’t, put, her, off, by, being, so, disorganised, i, think, the, sandale, view, will, be, more, influential, as, part, of, the, interview, we, always, take, them, up, to, sandale, viewpoint, to, show, them, the, practice, spread, out, panoramically, beneath, them, well, it, sold, me, the, job, after, finally, getting, finished, i, was, exhausted, but, had, people, to, dinner, so, had, to, stay, awake, and, be, sociable, sat, 27th, april, had, folk, to, dinner, last, night, which, after, working, flat, out, was, probably, not, such, a, clever, idea, didn’t, fall, asleep, but, this, morning, i, feel, like, death, warmed, up, and, we, have, another, interview, this, morning, i, don’t, think, i, can, make, a, good, impression, so, it, is, a, good, job, that, i, am, looking, to, employ, rather, than, be, employed, the, candidate, is, from, a, kirby, stephen, farmers, daughter, and, so, is, at, an, immediate, advantage, she, seems, fine, so, we, will, offer, her, the, job, the, question, is, should, we, offer, them, both, a, job, went, to, bed, feeling, ill, and, with, a, migraine, and, slept, all, afternoon, and, then, in, bed, for, 9pm, sad, or, what, sun, 28th, feel, a, lot, better, for, the, sleep, and, church, was, af, speaking, he, is, always, entertaining, his, opening, slide, was, knighton, in, for, those, of, you, who, do, not, keep, up, with, the, footie, in, carlisle, michael, knighton, is, the, hated, owner, of, carlisle, united, who, is, trying, to, get, the, club, relegated, so, he, can, build, houses, on, the, land, he, is, destroying, the, club, and, it, is, not, popular, anyway, the, second, slide, was, here, for, grace, and, forgiveness, he, went, on, to, say, that, church, should, be, where, the, failures, should, feel, loved, and, welcome, as, we, all, need, god’s, love, and, forgiveness, he, was, really, good, both, entertaining, and, making, real, points, spent, time, in, the, garden, and, playing, footie, with, the, boys, mon, 29th, monday, morning, and, that, sinking, feeling, not, helped, by, my, wife’s, teaching, 3, days, this, week, and, a, trustees, meeting, for, borderline, which, means, additional, pressure, after, running, around, all, morning, and, working, out, the, amount, of, holiday, we, are, all, owed, the, conclusion, is, that, we, will, employ, them, both, i, am, owed, 46, days, holiday, so, if, i, can, take, 2, months, off, that, plus, the, sabbatical, i, am, owed, means, i, could, take, 5, months, off, i, wish, it, were, happening, the, 5, vets, are, owed, over, 200, days, between, us, which, will, be, almost, a, vet, for, a, year, as, this, is, a, health, diary, i, should, mention, my, visit, to, the, doctor, after, a, half, an, hour, wait, past, my, appointment, time, fizzing, knowing, that, i, would, have, to, make, the, time, up, later, in, my, evening, i, finally, saw, the, doc, who, agreed, with, my, diagnosis, and, agreed, with, my, treatment, only, an, occupational, hazard, of, farm, work, ring, worm, he, did, take, scrapings, but, that, is, all, tuesday, testing, next, door, why, do, we, always, end, up, working, in, a, pen, under, the, railway, in, a, middle, of, a, stream, why, they, cannot, build, a, pen, on, dry, land, away, from, the, trains, i, don’t, know, i, suppose, they, have, always, done, it, that, way, but, the, first, you, know, of, a, train, is, the, thunder, as, it, goes, over, your, head, which, startles, the, cows, who, jump, sending, a, muddy, slurry, flying, everywhere, william, is, still, not, wearing, a, helmet, for, the, quad, bike, as, he, drives, around, despite, his, fathers, protests, their, neighbour, the, other, way, is, brain, damaged, after, coming, off, his, weds, 1st, of, may, mayday, the, radio, is, predicting, riots, in, paris, against, or, for, le, pen, anti, globalists, in, london, but, i, feel, a, real, peace, with, the, turning, of, the, month, it, is, funny, how, a, different, month, can, make, you, feel, so, different, april, is, always, the, worst, month, at, work, with, a, lot, of, routine, work, dehorning, and, testing, and, a, lot, of, lambings, and, calvings, and, emergencies, even, though, the, beginning, of, may, is, just, the, same, i, always, feel, we, have, passed, the, peak, and, we, can, cruise, into, summer, the, fact, that, both, have, accepted, the, jobs, and, that, we, will, have, more, cover, helps, though, they, will, not, start, until, summer, thursday, 2nd, may, in, spite, of, all, yesterdays, predictions, there, wasn’t, any, trouble, in, paris, or, london, only, cyclists, causing, traffic, jams, what, is, about, the, media, that, they, have, to, report, the, bad, news, not, the, good, news, i, haven’t, seen, anything, beyond, the, cumberland, news, on, the, farms, restocking, stopped, at, beckfoot, on, my, rounds, and, sat, in, the, sunshine, on, the, beach, for, 10, mins, and, thought, this, is, the, life, though, in, talking, to, one, of, the, neighbours, one, of, the, farmers, is, having, real, problems, getting, motivated, he, had, milking, ayrshires, really, quiet, cows, who, you, could, do, anything, with, their, idea, of, getting, excited, was, turn, out, time, and, moving, into, a, fast, amble, to, the, spring, pastures, he, has, bought, in, really, wild, suckler, limousin, x’s, if, you, look, at, them, the, wrong, way, they, put, their, tails, in, the, air, and, take, off, i, was, there, dehorning, and, we, lost, one, which, jumped, over, a, gate, another, put, its, tail, in, the, air, and, took, off, only, stopping, when, it, came, to, the, block, wall, at, the, end, of, the, yard, unfortunately, it, didn’t, stop, fast, enough, and, crashed, headlong, into, it, it, now, has, a, definite, tilt, to, it, the, wall, isn’t, too, hot, either, i, think, if, i, had, to, look, after, the, likes, of, them, i, wouldn’t, be, too, keen, to, get, out, of, bed, either, friday, 3rd, may, spoke, too, early, about, things, easing, off, 2, bad, calvings, a, caesarean, and, testing, plus, the, usual, ill, animals, but, got, finished, for, 5, 45, and, took, my, wife, out, for, dinner, at, the, cockatoo, in, cockermouth, very, pleasant, but, while, she, wanted, to, go, on, to, socialise, at, 10pm, i, wanted, home, to, bed, sat, 4th, may, off, yippee, took, the, kids, to, nichol, end, and, went, canoeing, on, the, lake, got, absolutely, frozen, but, was, really, good, fun, it, rained, in, spite, of, all, the, good, weather, forecasts, but, with, our, style, of, canoeing, we, are, always, soaked, anyway, had, a, picnic, on, one, of, the, islands, and, had, fun, came, back, and, slept, for, the, afternoon, should, have, taken, the, boys, to, see, the, fa, cup, but, they, were, happy, playing, around, watched, ghandi, on, dvd, at, night, it, is, a, very, moving, film, and, the, ambiguities, and, politics, came, through, to, a, muted, extent, which, was, interesting, it, often, makes, me, wonder, about, how, much, of, govt, policy, is, personality, driven, again, the, inability, of, individuals, to, fight, the, system, came, through, the, front, page, of, the, times, this, morning, was, on, a, toddler, who, had, died, from, post, op, haemorrhage, following, the, use, of, disposable, instruments, in, a, tonsillectomy, large, amounts, of, money, have, been, spent, on, disposable, instruments, that, are, always, inferior, to, good, quality, surgical, kit, several, people, have, died, because, of, their, use, because, no, one, wanted, to, take, the, very, small, theoretical, risk, that, they, may, transfer, nvcjd, the, approach, to, risk, management, and, prioritisation, within, government, and, the, civil, service, is, very, poor, but, to, be, fait, to, them, the, press, is, not, helpful, i, would, like, to, see, prescott, stand, up, and, say, that, he, wants, more, deaths, on, the, railways, but, he, never, will, if, less, money, was, spent, on, safety, on, the, railways, more, trains, at, more, convenient, times, were, run, at, lower, costs, then, there, would, be, fewer, deaths, on, the, roads, but, as, no, one, holds, politicians, responsible, for, deaths, on, the, roads, it, ain’t, gonna, happen, sun, 5th, may, church, was, dn, who, is, brilliant, at, getting, the, kids, involved, son, s, face, lit, up, when, we, were, walking, in, to, church, to, see, him, walking, down, botchergate, with, guitar, in, hand, he, had, a, skin, that, had, been, cast, from, a, snake, and, based, his, songs, with, the, kids, and, his, talks, with, them, on, being, a, new, creation, cor, 5, vs, 17, getting, rid, of, the, old, self, and, hence, the, snake, skin, he, is, brilliant, on, the, guitar, and, a, real, performer, wasted, as, a, tax, inspector, mon, 6th, may, maybe, getting, the, kids, soaked, and, frozen, on, sat, was, not, a, good, idea, as, they, are, all, coming, down, with, colds, now, tim, is, very, chesty, and, was, up, in, the, night, hot, and, wheezy, any, infection, always, goes, for, his, chest, so, helvellyn, will, have, to, wait, for, another, day, so, concreted, posts, and, pressure, washed, the, yard, the, boys, loved, helping, then, demanded, i, play, football, as, payment, ag, was, here, as, his, dad, was, dropping, off, the, caravan, after, being, away, for, the, w, e, p, called, up, from, manchester, en, route, for, thailand, she, is, handing, in, her, notice, and, going, booked, summer, holiday, in, france, and, now, have, to, work, out, what, we, are, doing, on, the, way, there, and, back, tues, 7th, may, went, testing, but, i, really, do, have, the, kids, bug, and, feel, hot, and, feverish, went, to, bed, for, rest, of, day, weds, 8th, didn’t, feel, like, getting, out, of, bed, but, went, to, work, first, was, a, deer, rta, i, was, supposed, to, meet, a, police, car, there, but, no, police, either, car, or, policeman, i, am, glad, it, wasn’t, too, controversial, or, important, so, i, have, taken, all, details, and, hope, that, that, is, the, end, of, it, this, afternoon, was, spent, chasing, stirks, around, a, field, and, abbeytown, we, dehorned, them, they, should, have, been, done, this, time, last, year, but, were, n’t, because, of, fmd, they’re, now, 2, yr, old, which, means, they, were, really, too, big, to, go, around, upsetting, two, went, through, the, dyke, one, way, the, other, went, through, the, other, side, into, some, one’s, garden, and, on, to, the, abbeytown, road, so, it, was, a, bit, of, a, rodeo, it, ended, up, charging, m, who, hurt, his, shoulder, trying, to, escape, he, was, not, happy, as, this, morning, he, got, his, letter, asking, him, to, cut, back, is, milk, production, he, had, jokingly, asked, what, was, i, doing, this, winter, as, all, the, farmers, will, have, given, up, by, christmas, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, good, but, at, least, we, will, have, 2, new, graduates, in, training, to, cope, with, the, upturn, when, if, it, comes, thurs, 9th, day, off, unfortunately, spent, the, morning, shopping, in, carlisle, which, meant, wandering, around, shops, and, trying, to, find, clothes, i, needed, a, my, daughter, as, my, dress, sense, leaves, a, lot, to, be, desired, and, she, keeps, me, right, met, gb, another, carlisle, vet, which, was, good, i, haven’t, seen, him, for, a, bit, had, lunch, out, which, was, nice, though, also, got, all, the, bits, for, the, tennis, net, so, will, be, able, to, get, it, up, the, annoying, bit, was, i, got, a, parking, ticket, which, sent, my, blood, pressure, up, now, i, know, i, often, park, with, out, paying, and, in, the, wrong, places, that, is, just, living, dangerously, but, as, we, were, in, carlisle, and, had, decided, to, go, out, for, lunch, and, for, some, reason, i, was, in, wife, s, car, as, usual, there, was, no, change, in, the, car, well, as, usual, there, was, no, money, at, all, i, only, had, myself, to, blame, i, know, she, never, has, change, in, the, car, i, only, had, enough, for, 2, hours, in, my, pocket, which, to, be, honest, is, in, my, opinion, quite, long, enough, in, carlisle, shops, so, on, the, way, to, lunch, out, i, made, a, special, trip, back, to, the, car, park, armed, with, coins, ready, to, pay, the, city, council, the, extortionate, fee, so, i, could, spend, more, money, in, carlisle, city, shops, the, first, machine, refused, my, coins, i, even, tried, a, 2nd, machine, that, also, refused, to, accept, my, hard, earned, cash, so, i, left, a, note, saying, the, machine, was, not, working, in, the, windscreen, and, yes, you, guessed, it, i, came, back, to, find, a, traffic, warden, giving, me, a, ticket, who, justified, his, action, by, saying, there, w, ere, 4, machines, from, which, i, could, have, bought, a, ticket, grrrrhhh, fri, 10th, finish, of, another, week, with, more, tb, testing, a, lot, of, cows, from, netherlands, mris, meuse, rhine, issel, very, good, beefy, looking, dairy, cows, dual, purpose, why, we, have, to, test, them, i, don’t, know, but, we, have, to, keep, page, st, happy, they, were, all, tested, prior, to, export, from, holland, and, they, want, them, tested, again, the, farmer, is, very, bio, security, conscious, and, has, his, land, all, in, a, single, block, now, bounded, by, roads, or, arable, cultivation, all, the, other, cattle, he, insisted, were, tested, and, he, had, the, results, prior, to, purchase, in, spite, of, all, his, good, sense, he, is, still, going, on, about, the, missing, vials, from, porton, down, and, other, paranoid, conspiracy, theories, on, the, spread, of, fmd, but, a, part, from, cold, flu, feel, as, though, things, are, getting, back, on, track, we, can, look, to, the, next, 12, months, with, confidence, thereafter, depends, on, whether, the, wto, wins, over, the, eu, to, get, rid, of, subsidies, or, whether, maintaining, the, food, supply, within, the, eu, is, seen, as, important, the, one, thing, the, fmd, has, taught, me, is, that, you, never, know, what, will, be, coming, next, i, do, feel, guilty, about, saying, there, should, be, more, train, crashes, after, seeing, the, crash, in, the, news, today, at, potters, bar, sat, 11th, may, working, the, w, e, again, saw, another, calf, with, ccn, caused, by, a, deficiency, of, b1, usually, rare, but, seems, to, be, much, more, prevalent, this, year, due, to, old, grass, on, pastures, don’t, know, had, a, greyhound, client, in, bringing, in, a, greyhound, on, behalf, of, some, one, else, who, has, been, chased, from, the, practice, for, non, payment, so, had, a, stressful, half, hour, negotiating, with, an, irate, idiot, but, he, paid, his, old, bill, and, stumped, up, front, for, the, new, one, and, seemed, placated, treating, the, animals, is, easy, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, and, fixing, up, the, tennis, nat, we, were, given, an, old, second, hand, net, so, i, have, fixed, up, on, the, concrete, and, it, was, good, fun, playing, with, the, kids, the, concrete, is, not, level, and, has, lots, of, loose, stones, so, the, bounce, is, a, bit, erratic, went, to, a, 50th, birthday, party, for, which, i, was, teased, at, work, but, i, maintain, we, are, friends, with, the, children, in, their, 20, s, it, was, a, good, craic, and, the, food, was, brilliant, there, was, one, of, the, partners, from, a, lawyers, from, carlisle, there, complaining, that, he, could, only, have, an, hourly, rate, of, charging, out, at, 185, consequently, he, couldn’t, attract, good, lawyers, to, his, firm, because, the, city, firms, were, offering, far, greater, salaries, and, were, charging, out, their, juniors, at, 200, i, couldn’t, admit, that, our, hourly, rate, is, only, 45, and, that, i, think, that, 45, hour, is, a, lot, of, money, should, have, been, a, 9, to, 5, lawyer, sunday, went, to, church, nl, but, was, still, half, asleep, from, my, late, night, spent, all, afternoon, and, evening, out, on, calls, was, ok, till, the, midnight, call, when, i, decided, that, being, a, lawyer, was, probably, a, much, better, idea, monday, 13th, half, asleep, after, the, w, e, so, took, a, little, while, to, get, going, having, kept, this, week, a, bit, quieter, as, there, should, have, been, a, lot, of, last, minute, dehorning, and, castrating, it, hasn’t, come, in, so, we, really, are, quieter, so, did, some, office, work, but, trying, to, work, out, why, the, two, computer, systems, we, have, do, not, have, the, same, balances, on, their, accounts, with, a, tired, sore, head, is, not, worthwhile, but, it, was, preferable, to, sorting, rotas, so, i, when, came, home, i, sat, and, read, tintin, much, to, my, wife’s, disgust, i, also, looked, at, my, cash, flow, predictions, which, were, totally, out, of, line, i, usually, take, a, pessimistic, view, so, as, err, on, the, side, of, caution, but, they, are, totally, out, fortunately, the, right, way, the, partners, think, it, is, a, waste, of, time, and, effort, to, try, to, predict, how, much, of, the, bills, the, farmers, are, going, to, pay, in, any, month, some, pay, every, month, but, most, pay, every, now, and, again, either, when, they, have, time, or, money, or, when, the, accountant, or, vat, man, needs, the, books, i, suppose, they, are, right, who, cares, so, long, as, they, do, pay, also, finally, caught, up, with, gp, as, ringworm, still, not, getting, better, so, finally, on, antifungals, if, the, farmers, couldn’t, get, hold, of, a, vet, pretty, quickly, to, discuss, what’s, going, on, they, would, give, us, earache, tuesday, 14th, halfway, through, may, and, time, to, get, the, rest, of, the, planting, done, in, the, garden, beautiful, weather, and, feels, like, summer, is, here, gg, had, a, visit, from, trading, standards, over, the, bulls, for, which, he, had, given, a, certificate, of, fitness, to, travel, there, is, now, no, slaughterhouse, within, an, hour’s, drive, of, here, for, cattle, ulverston, is, the, nearest, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, be, transported, alive, for, some, reason, e.g, because, it, is, lame, or, blind, etc, then, it, has, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcase, transported, to, the, slaughterhouse, however, under, the, new, meat, hygiene, regulations, of, 2, 3, years, ago, the, carcase, has, to, arrive, within, an, hour, of, being, shot, which, was, fine, while, black, brow, was, operating, the, slaughterhouse, but, since, it, has, closed, there, are, no, options, for, any, animals, to, be, shot, on, the, farm, unless, you, put, it, in, your, own, freezer, for, your, own, consumption, thus, whereas, if, there, were, borderline, cases, before, they, were, shot, on, the, farm, and, the, carcases, transported, now, the, pressure, is, to, get, them, transported, alive, or, the, farmer, loses, the, value, of, the, animal, 500, 600, and, has, to, pay, 75, to, get, them, shot, and, disposed, of, the, sooner, either, carlisle, slaughterhouse, or, black, brow, slaughterhouse, get, working, again, the, better, weds, 15th, day, off, spent, the, morning, catching, up, on, paper, work, feel, better, for, it, but, never, my, favourite, job, but, all, the, bits, and, pieces, are, in, place, for, my, tax, return, just, waiting, for, the, final, few, pieces, of, paper, wrote, a, caustic, letter, to, council, about, the, parking, ticket, but, sent, them, a, cheque, as, not, worth, the, fight, went, to, up, front, art, gallery, for, lunch, some, one, had, made, a, set, of, peat, rings, with, a, golden, bowl, at, the, centre, and, wanted, hundreds, of, pounds, for, their, art, creation, if, you, don’t, ask, you, don’t, get, spent, afternoon, running, the, kids, as, wife, was, taking, a, in, town, for, hair, cut, and, girl, time, last, football, match, for, northbank, and, son, lost, thursday, 16th, the, long, lunch, is, back, there, wasn’t, much, happening, vet, wise, but, still, a, lambing, today, as, the, season, has, dragged, on, one, restocking, farmer, was, in, today, with, a, ewe, to, be, lambed, of, the, 200, sheep, he, is, supposed, to, be, fattening, for, market, 20, have, lambed, the, guy, he, bought, them, from, is, adamant, they, were, never, near, a, tup, someone, needs, to, tell, him, about, the, birds, and, the, bees, there, was, also, a, good, if, slightly, apocryphal, story, from, defra, licensing, when, they, needed, a, licence, to, move, a, bull, the, licensing, department, asked, is, this, bull, going, to, be, used, for, breeding, purposes, yes, is, the, farmers, reply, will, this, animal, be, coming, in, to, contact, with, any, other, animals, friday, 17th, another, tb, test, another, restocking, farm, more, stories, the, best, one, was, the, fact, that, their, cattle, had, lain, for, a, week, in, the, pasture, field, after, being, shot, they, decided, to, plough, it, out, for, barley, in, the, back, end, having, spent, the, summer, pressure, washing, the, farm, buildings, to, a, gleaming, state, of, sterility, where, the, animals, had, lain, there, was, still, obvious, contamination, with, blood, etc, when, they, ploughed, it, but, having, failed, the, buildings, on, specks, of, dirt, defra, were, just, not, interested, in, contaminated, blood, stained, earth, they, had, also, phoned, the, day, before, i, arrived, to, send, some, one, out, to, arrange, tb, testing, the, chaos, in, there, continues, sat, 18th, may, i, am, to, be, best, man, a, friend, was, around, last, night, with, news, about, getting, married, we, have, a, wedding, every, month, for, the, next, 4, months, must, be, something, in, the, water, at, the, moment, unfortunately, it, meant, it, was, a, really, late, night, celebrating, and, i, am, working, the, w, e, again, so, getting, up, for, saturday, morning, surgery, was, a, bit, grim, i, survived, and, so, did, most, of, the, animals, the, worrying, thing, is, i, am, sure, that, drs, are, just, the, same, spent, the, afternoon, playing, football, and, tennis, with, the, kids, in, the, yard, and, mowing, the, grass, the, farmers, are, all, now, silaging, and, the, roads, are, full, of, tractors, flying, around, at, all, times, of, night, and, day, sat, evening, went, with, wife, to, hear, sa, speak, at, kd’s, it, was, good, to, see, him, and, clare, again, we, visited, them, in, bombay, at, the, height, of, fmd, and, it, always, puts, things, back, into, perspective, he, runs, a, mission, hospital, in, thane, an, outskirt, of, bombay, they, have, it, self, funding, by, charging, the, rich, for, luxury, service, a, long, way, behind, the, nhs, and, providing, a, basic, service, foc, for, the, average, indian, he, is, now, talking, about, trying, to, raise, funding, for, building, an, aids, hospice, to, provide, pain, relief, and, dignity, to, those, who, are, dieing, of, aids, because, of, the, stigma, and, cost, and, risk, of, cross, infection, of, both, hiv, and, tb, a, lot, of, aids, patients, are, just, thrown, out, of, their, homes, and, hiv, ve, babies, are, abandoned, as, he, says, there, is, an, epidemic, sweeping, bombay, that, will, leave, a, lot, of, orphans, and, cause, secondary, epidemics, because, of, immuno, suppression, and, it, is, not, really, being, addressed, very, thought, provoking, and, makes, the, millions, wasted, on, fmd, look, very, sick, in, a, global, perspective, sun, missed, church, in, the, morning, as, was, seeing, to, cats, and, dogs, in, the, surgery, and, dripping, calf, in, the, large, animal, bay, spent, most, of, afternoon, on, visits, all, work, and, no, play, is, making, me, a, grumpy, boy, 2, w, es, in, a, row, is, not, good, mon, aw, is, in, worse, mood, than, me, and, at, least, i, have, worked, w, e, she, is, winding, every, one, up, with, her, attitude, it, is, sthg, that, will, have, to, be, addressed, but, will, have, to, be, a, partnership, decision, wife, was, interviewing, fc, tonight, at, christian, viewpoint, in, carlisle, and, came, back, full, of, it, she, is, good, with, people, and, interviewing, she, was, also, challenged, by, what, f, was, saying, about, the, importance, of, treating, people, as, loved, and, valued, by, god, in, some, ways, very, similar, to, s, about, valuing, aids, patients, we, are, all, valued, by, god, tuesday, missed, gym, for, 3rd, week, i, am, going, to, be, getting, really, unfit, i, was, on, duty, and, had, spent, time, talking, with, folk, at, work, valuing, them, but, it, was, nice, as, a, came, out, with, me, and, she, always, likes, being, on, call, with, me, but, i, never, seem, to, know, what’s, going, on, in, her, mind, still, waters, run, deep, weds, dad, phoned, and, has, decided, not, to, come, on, the, w, e, away, this, w, e, it, is, a, family, reunion, but, it, looks, like, it, will, be, just, our, family, and, p’s, but, the, kids, love, meeting, up, with, the, cousins, even, a, who, will, no, doubt, complain, that, there, should, be, some, girl, cousins, she, is, the, only, girl, on, both, wife, s, side, of, the, family, and, mine, it, is, a, bit, worrying, in, that, he, is, losing, confidence, in, doing, anything, outside, his, normal, routine, it, is, at, times, like, this, you, realise, london, is, not, really, very, close, the, other, problem, is, working, so, many, w, es, doesn’t, give, much, time, for, the, travelling, up, and, down, to, see, him, thursday, g, was, away, on, a, course, yesterday, and, came, back, full, of, doom, and, gloom, for, along, time, we, have, relied, on, the, drug, sales, as, a, substantial, part, of, the, business, there, have, been, various, government, reports, that, have, queried, our, monopoly, and, there, is, a, move, to, insist, that, we, provide, prescriptions, for, all, the, drugs, and, then, allow, the, farmers, or, pet, owners, to, buy, the, drugs, from, whatever, source, they, want, internet, pharmacy, or, us, it, means, however, that, the, professional, fees, will, inevitably, have, to, rise, to, compensate, which, means, it, will, be, uneconomic, for, the, farmers, to, use, us, so, they, will, not, in, the, present, economic, climate, which, means, no, job, carlisle, brampton, and, dalston, vets, are, all, starting, to, write, prescriptions, which, means, that, we, are, going, to, have, to, follow, suit, the, farmer, who, rents, my, field, was, silaging, tonight, i, got, back, from, house, group, to, find, a, tractor, follow, me, in, to, start, rowing, up, as, they, had, been, at, it, all, day, i, decided, to, take, the, gates, off, their, hinges, as, it, is, a, narrow, gap, and, at, that, time, of, night, a, clunk, against, the, pillar, is, ok, but, i, don’t, want, to, have, to, replace, my, wooden, gates, they, had, just, started, to, pick, it, up, when, i, went, to, bed, at, 11pm, so, no, idea, what, time, they, finished, friday, g, is, off, ill, help, it, looked, as, though, i, might, miss, out, on, the, w, e, away, as, he, is, working, the, w, e, but, the, fact, it, would, have, meant, 3, w, e’s, in, a, row, and, 6, nights, in, a, row, managed, to, help, persuade, one, of, the, assistants, to, step, in, thankfully, so, i, finished, at, lunch, time, and, slept, to, catch, up, from, the, on, call, until, the, kids, came, home, from, school, and, set, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 25th, may, dovedale, in, the, derbyshire, peak, district, definitely, should, have, more, w, es, away, and, not, working, we, had, a, great, time, with, the, cousins, stayed, at, a, farmhouse, b, b, it, use, to, be, a, working, farm, but, is, too, high, up, and, to, small, to, sustain, the, dairy, so, they, went, out, of, that, 3, yrs, ago, beef, and, sheep, was, not, making, any, money, so, they, have, concentrated, on, tourism, and, grass, let, the, fields, his, neighbours, are, now, renting, the, land, and, farming, it, beautiful, walk, along, the, valley, and, had, tea, out, relaxed, and, slept, like, a, log, sunday, great, british, summer, makes, you, wonder, why, any, one, would, want, to, go, abroad, wet, and, cold, so, went, to, water, world, and, watched, the, kids, big, and, little, go, flying, around, the, flumes, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, my, brother, and, family, the, boys, would, play, footie, all, day, long, and, be, happy, monday, off, to, catch, my, breath, and, tidy, up, flat, for, tenants, arriving, thursday, spent, day, trying, to, reduce, the, weeds, in, garden, and, went, swimming, at, night, the, boys, still, wanted, to, play, footie, where, do, they, get, their, energy, if, i, could, bottle, it, i, would, make, a, fortune, tuesday, it, felt, like, hard, work, going, back, to, work, after, time, off, i, always, seem, to, be, tired, and, head, achy, it, seems, to, be, hard, work, to, get, going, again, ai, just, don’t, feel, like, doing, anything, including, writing, this, diary, but, the, good, news, is, that, we, have, a, new, booted, bantie, bertie, the, cockerel, and, he, is, now, ensconced, in, his, run, we, are, hoping, to, get, him, some, young, ladies, in, the, not, too, distant, future, he, is, cute, and, a, is, over, the, moon, about, him, weds, getting, going, again, spent, time, talking, with, my, wife, who, as, always, puts, things, back, in, to, line, communication, went, to, do, some, pregnancy, diagnosis, early, this, morning, and, the, farmer, was, complaining, about, the, cost, of, his, vet, bill, and, is, wanting, to, learn, how, to, check, cows, to, see, if, they, are, in, calf, prior, to, drying, off, the, whole, economics, of, dairy, practice, with, milk, at, 13p, per, litre, is, beginning, to, hit, home, to, them, cannot, be, nice, starting, up, again, to, realise, that, you, cannot, make, money, at, doing, it, one, of, the, other, vets, is, in, really, bad, form, this, week, and, is, causing, a, lot, of, friction, and, we, will, have, to, deal, with, it, as, the, staff, are, up, in, arms, at, least, i, am, off, tomorrow, prior, to, working, jubilee, w, e, my, mother, in, law, arrived, which, the, kids, love, complete, with, her, special, treats, for, them, snowballs, went, out, for, dinner, with, mother, in, law, but, too, tired, to, enjoy, it, due, to, early, morning, caesarean, thursday, off, spent, morning, getting, flat, ready, as, we, have, new, tenants, moving, in, and, clearing, up, while, the, girls, went, shopping, dry, weather, but, intermittent, heavy, showers, tackled, the, long, grass, at, front, but, the, grass, got, too, wet, and, clogged, mower, picked, up, kids, and, did, the, fatherly, bit, went, to, bed, early, as, head, achy, and, washed, out, and, caught, up, on, zzzz’s, friday, start, of, the, jubilee, w, e, and, on, duty, for, the, next, 5, days, until, 5pm, weds, evening, work, busy, with, bits, and, pieces, and, farmers, complaining, that, it, is, too, wet, to, silage, one, of, the, vets, had, issued, a, pets, export, certificate, for, a, cat, to, come, back, into, uk, but, had, put, it, down, for, 2, years, not, one, it, is, only, valid, for, 2, years, in, dogs, but, 1, year, in, cats, typical, friday, afternoon, problem, to, sort, out, the, help, line, is, closed, for, training, and, maff, offices, are, closed, for, the, bh, w, e, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, way, around, it, either, but, will, not, be, able, to, sort, it, out, till, weds, day, and, they, are, due, on, ferry, on, tuesday, oops, also, a, bitch’s, owner, came, in, to, ask, if, we, were, open, tues, as, she, is, due, on, that, date, and, will, probably, need, a, caesaer, johnboy, called, in, the, evening, wanting, me, to, go, to, the, loyal, supporters, meeting, at, carlisle, united, as, a, spy, i’m, on, call, so, couldn’t, oblige, thank, goodness, sat, 1st, june, office, staff, were, asking, why, is, there, only, 2, vets, on, the, whole, w, e, and, i, am, beginning, to, feel, the, same, should, have, split, it, up, and, had, more, staff, on, but, at, least, the, others, will, get, a, break, and, come, back, refreshed, but, i, feel, like, i, am, looking, down, the, barrel, of, a, gun, horrendous, calving, on, a, heifer, that, was, in, calf, by, mistake, to, its, father, it, was, supposed, to, have, gone, back, to, its, breeder, but, the, buyer, was, still, tied, up, under, the, twenty, day, rule, the, calf, had, died, and, was, gassed, up, ended, up, by, caesaering, in, spite, of, rotten, calf, 2, hours, hard, work, and, the, heifer, will, at, best, be, very, ill, for, several, days, sun, 2nd, june, a, day, of, football, went, to, church, and, made, a, quick, exit, to, watch, the, football, as, with, everyone, else, was, quite, disappointed, at, hebron, at, night, dm, had, the, goals, and, the, reactions, to, them, on, the, big, screen, which, he, linked, to, romans, 12, therefore, i, urge, you, to, offer, your, bodies, as, living, sacrifices, this, is, your, act, of, spiritual, worship, talking, about, worship, to, god, being, everything, we, do, including, how, we, react, to, how, the, english, football, team, perform, very, clever, and, memorable, way, of, expounding, the, bible, went, straight, on, to, son, s, football, presentations, which, was, quite, fun, there, is, a, real, football, sub, culture, with, the, amateur, football, clubs, in, carlisle, all, vying, for, the, top, spot, the, old, pals, network, and, animosities, seem, to, be, very, prevalent, mon, 3rd, june, busy, night, and, early, start, 2, x, prolapses, why, always, at, a, bh, the, second, one, was, a, wild, limousin, heifer, it, charged, me, and, sent, me, flying, the, only, injury, was, a, sore, fist, where, i, thumped, it, in, the, eye, to, try, and, deflect, it, as, i, was, trying, to, get, it, away, gave, me, a, fright, it, was, a, heifer, that, was, bred, because, he, couldn’t, sell, it, store, last, year, because, of, restrictions, chatted, to, farmer, who, started, getting, up, at, 4, 30, am, during, fmd, because, he, couldn’t, sleep, he, is, still, doing, it, now, he, still, has, not, got, any, sheep, in, because, he, can’t, face, it, he, lost, his, sheep, to, the, cull, but, kept, his, cattle, i, had, started, by, admiring, the, view, he, said, yeah, it, would, be, great, apart, from, the, damn, windmills, he, has, a, brilliant, viewing, looking, out, over, the, solway, and, the, great, orton, site, and, the, windmills, remind, him, and, everyone, else, that, their, flocks, are, in, a, big, pit, he, says, he, can, still, see, them, going, and, feels, guilty, i, didn’t, have, the, heart, to, tell, him, that, of, the, 10,000, blood, samples, taken, at, gt, orton, only, 2, were, positive, a, very, big, mistake, that, has, caused, big, hurt, in, this, area, and, no, one, has, admitted, responsibility, and, no, one, ever, will, tues, 4th, june, watched, some, of, the, jubilee, stuff, on, tv, in, between, calls, amazing, sight, to, see, the, mall, full, of, people, more, than, ever, before, yet, rupert, murdoch, and, his, press, would, have, us, believe, that, the, monarchy, is, finished, we, managed, to, cope, with, just, the, two, of, us, on, call, so, may, be, i, was, right, also, made, a, start, on, byre, remind, me, next, time, we, have, a, dinner, party, on, a, bh, not, to, be, working, it, as, my, poor, wife, had, 4, kids, and, a, dinner, to, prepare, i, was, called, out, to, a, cow, caesar, at, 3, 30, and, then, had, another, call, after, that, fortunately, i, had, taken, tim, so, there, was, one, less, to, fight, but, got, back, to, be, told, that, i, had, to, have, a, bath, before, i, could, help, because, i, smelt, evening, was, really, good, fun, and, hilariously, funny, so, even, i, kept, going, to, the, wrong, side, of, midnight, which, after, an, early, start, was, pretty, good, going, i, will, have, to, get, phil, to, do, his, senator, homes, skit, at, the, wedding, weds, 5th, june, did, not, feel, like, getting, up, this, am, at, all, and, felt, even, less, like, going, into, work, managed, to, extricate, us, from, any, problems, with, the, cat, with, out, its, passport, there, is, no, give, in, the, defra, system, which, is, to, be, expected, richard, had, a, suspect, fmd, calf, on, tuesday, no, wonder, he, was, a, bit, jittery, when, i, spoke, to, him, later, on, even, though, you, know, that, it, probably, isn’t, going, to, be, a, case, and, that, the, farmer, is, panicking, it, still, sets, the, butterflies, flying, it, was, bvd, spent, over, an, hour, and, a, half, this, morning, on, the, phone, sorting, out, what, the, aw, calls, the, rubbish, queries, and, being, helpful, and, friendly, and, sorting, out, licensing, and, drugs, and, repeat, prescriptions, one, was, a, woman, complaining, about, the, neighbouring, practice, which, required, a, bit, of, tact, i, think, the, drs, must, have, been, as, busy, as, us, the, tally, for, the, celebrations, are, 1, off, ill, with, flu, and, bad, back, one, wrist, sprained, from, scooter, racing, at, a, street, party, after, all, the, kids, had, gone, to, bed, and, one, who, spent, the, w, e, visiting, her, boyfriend, in, hospital, she, had, said, that, he, needed, to, go, in, on, friday, but, the, doctors, had, put, him, off, as, it, was, the, w, e, he, was, worse, on, sunday, but, had, waited, till, after, the, football, before, ringing, priorities, priorities, thursday, went, to, house, group, which, was, really, good, and, spent, time, praying, for, the, group, church, area, and, for, world, situation, friends, are, trying, to, work, out, what, to, do, in, india, they, are, teaching, at, a, boarding, school, in, the, south, of, india, and, have, both, their, own, family, and, also, the, school, kids, to, think, about, the, consensus, is, that, the, foreign, office, advice, is, aimed, more, at, the, indian, and, pakistani, govts, than, the, uk, nationals, ian, is, supposed, to, be, visiting, and, has, a, flight, booked, so, is, still, going, at, the, moment, i, really, cant, believe, that, they, would, escalate, the, situation, but, it, will, be, tit, for, tat, and, then, going, to, the, brink, as, neither, will, want, to, break, face, the, ramifications, of, sept, 11th, still, keep, reverberating, around, the, world, as, the, balance, of, power, alters, makes, fmd, look, like, a, picnic, at, least, we, have, stable, govt, that, says, it, abides, by, the, laws, friday, the, secretary, asked, this, morning, what, did, i, want, meaning, tea, or, coffee, and, i, replied, as, i, had, prayed, wisdom, but, with, 2, sugars, we, had, a, difficult, partners, meeting, that, lunch, time, poor, timing, and, priorities, again, as, england, was, playing, i, had, assumed, they, would, lose, but, the, meeting, went, well, and, the, issues, were, discussed, amicably, enough, and, frankly, enough, so, we, all, know, where, we, are, at, and, issues, were, addressed, but, as, james, says, not, only, about, asking, for, wisdom, but, also, putting, it, into, action, at, night, leant, on, the, fence, and, talked, to, the, neighbour, as, the, thistles, i, was, supposed, to, be, cutting, down, carried, on, growing, but, it, was, a, nice, evening, he, works, for, stl, the, christian, book, distributors, he, was, saying, how, the, fire, that, they, had, just, after, he, arrived, at, the, time, seemed, a, disaster, and, caused, chaos, but, it, made, them, make, decisions, that, had, to, be, made, rather, than, continuing, with, the, status, quo, and, in, hind, sight, was, a, very, good, thing, i, wonder, when, we, look, back, whether, the, changes, and, opportunities, of, fmd, will, make, us, appreciate, the, decisions, we, have, all, had, to, make, it, made, me, think, of, the, woman, who, came, in, today, saying, she, was, one, of, the, lucky, ones, who, didn’t, get, fmd, very, much, tongue, in, cheek, as, they, are, much, worse, off, than, those, who, did, she, gave, up, her, job, as, they, couldn’t, sell, the, calves, as, they, were, born, and, so, some, one, had, to, look, after, them, so, she, went, back, home, to, work, on, the, farm, her, job, of, course, has, been, filled, in, the, mean, time, and, she, would, have, made, a, lot, more, money, for, less, hassle, if, she, had, stayed, sat, 8th, june, finished, the, long, period, of, work, and, on, call, on, sat, morning, and, it, came, down, with, heavy, showers, as, we, had, hoped, to, climb, helvellyn, today, it, eased, some, what, at, night, which, was, just, as, well, as, we, were, going, to, a, bbq, it, was, put, on, by, a, s, african, vet, from, defra, who, is, now, working, in, longtown, the, last, time, i, drove, through, to, charlie, and, ruth’s, who, were, hosting, the, bbq, was, when, the, pyres, were, all, burning, it, gave, me, a, funny, feeling, driving, back, up, there, the, food, was, good, and, the, craic, was, good, so, we, had, a, good, time, the, kids, would, have, kept, going, but, they, were, beginning, to, get, high, the, midges, once, you, get, north, of, the, border, are, definitely, worse, we, all, had, lumps, all, over, in, the, morning, sun, 9th, sb, spoke, at, church, on, jesus, healing, the, blind, man, at, pool, of, siloam, he, was, very, easy, to, follow, friends, called, in, and, stayed, for, tea, he, as, usual, blunt, and, controversial, as, ever, he, always, has, a, good, insight, and, dresses, it, up, in, taking, things, to, extremes, he, is, also, very, funny, with, it, so, had, a, good, meal, son, is, as, high, as, a, kite, as, he, is, going, camping, with, the, school, this, week, so, he, has, all, his, kit, ready, to, go, and, would, not, settle, to, go, to, sleep, and, kept, the, other, boys, awake, mon, 10th, pouring, down, in, time, for, the, school, camp, at, borrowdale, never, mind, they’ll, enjoy, it, any, way, 3, farms, have, had, silage, pits, burst, because, the, grass, has, been, put, in, too, wet, if, silage, is, made, when, the, grass, is, too, wet, it, flows, very, slowly, and, cannot, support, its, own, weight, so, it, bursts, the, side, walls, and, will, flow, out, of, the, heap, that, it, has, been, put, in, if, there, is, plenty, of, effluent, coming, off, it, will, usually, escape, from, the, normal, collecting, systems, and, if, it, gets, into, the, becks, it, is, worse, than, slurry, hunters, stream, was, black, with, effluent, and, the, environment, agency, were, out, testing, the, water, quality, so, they, will, be, for, the, high, jump, the, contractors, are, so, far, behind, and, the, grass, is, getting, so, long, and, bulky, that, it, doesn’t, dry, out, as, quickly, so, there, may, well, be, a, few, more, but, at, least, the, farmers, will, have, had, warning, so, it, will, be, their, own, fault, the, school, kids, are, back, for, their, work, experience, week, it, must, be, hard, for, them, to, follow, what, is, going, on, but, they, seem, to, enjoy, them, selves, the, worksheets, definitely, help, to, give, some, structure, and, a, feel, for, what, is, going, on, crusaders, meeting, at, night, pretty, disappointing, response, so, not, a, lot, we, can, do, tues, 11th, june, workload, has, set, in, and, i’m, just, cruising, and, managed, to, get, to, the, gym, while, on, first, so, feel, full, of, energy, why, do, you, feel, full, of, energy, after, expending, some, spent, half, an, hour, on, net, trying, to, get, holiday, organised, but, finding, places, for, 6, is, not, as, easy, the, weather, is, better, for, son, camping, and, should, be, better, until, the, w, e, means, we, will, hopefully, be, quiet, at, work, as, they, all, go, out, into, the, fields, weds, 12th, no, calls, over, night, first, time, since, finishing, with, defra, not, had, a, call, at, night, summer, is, truly, here, there, was, a, call, just, on, half, time, at, 8.15, which, i, did, during, the, break, so, got, to, see, the, second, half, and, england, drew, 0, 0, but, are, through, t, o, the, next, round, caught, up, on, paper, work, and, have, sorted, a, lot, of, things, so, they, are, in, place, for, the, 2, new, vets, thurs, 13th, meeting, with, bank, manager, for, executive, lunch, sandwiches, from, bells, he, asked, how, was, the, new, normality, which, seems, an, excellent, phrase, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, he, seemed, happy, enough, but, it, is, always, interesting, to, see, how, an, outsider, views, the, information, given, the, problem, is, usually, knowing, the, questions, to, ask, i, think, that, is, probably, true, of, the, inquiries, into, fmd, unless, you, know, the, questions, you, will, not, get, the, right, answers, went, abseiling, up, at, sandale, with, the, house, group, from, church, and, had, a, bbq, it, would, have, been, nicer, if, the, wind, hadn’t, howled, i, had, gone, prepared, for, british, summer, weather, but, it, was, still, pretty, nippy, it, was, great, fun, fri, read, another, test, that, had, ir, s, for, tb, inconclusive, that, will, have, to, be, retested, in, 60, days, while, i, was, writing, up, the, paper, work, the, farmer’s, wife, was, saying, that, the, kids, were, all, off, school, and, nursery, with, hand, foot, and, mouth, she, had, taken, the, youngest, who, was, ill, with, the, middle, kid, to, the, doctor, the, doctor, had, said, what, it, was, and, the, middle, kid, burst, into, tears, as, he, thought, they, were, going, to, take, her, baby, brother, outside, and, shoot, him, it, is, funny, but, also, very, sad, the, same, farmer, was, really, fed, up, as, the, cows, were, all, supposed, to, be, tb, tested, prior, to, arriving, on, the, farm, he, had, also, let, them, out, into, a, long, 5, acre, field, with, the, water, troughs, at, the, far, end, of, the, field, half, the, cows, had, not, found, the, trough, and, so, were, very, thirsty, by, the, time, they, came, back, at, milking, time, the, idea, that, you, just, go, and, replace, the, cows, just, like, that, is, not, quite, the, case, sat, 15th, june, saturday, morning, spent, it, gardening, the, strawberries, are, coming, and, even, though, the, gooseberries, aren’t, quite, ripe, picked, some, to, start, the, harvest, and, the, one, strawberry, that, was, reddish, then, went, to, visit, friend, and, the, wide, screen, tv, for, the, football, match, no, one, expected, any, more, english, progress, but, the, lads, surprised, me, and, played, a, stormer, so, the, game, against, brazil, will, become, the, match, the, practice, bbq, in, watery, june, sunshine, was, good, fun, but, the, ground, was, too, wet, to, play, silly, games, or, even, footie, the, food, was, excellent, aw, was, notable, by, her, absence, hey, ho, bbq, is, in, need, of, a, revamp, maybe, abseiling, though, i, don’t, think, i, can, see, either, r, or, aw, going, for, it, showed, s, around, flat, and, met, her, parents, remind, me, to, be, wise, with, my, kids, sun, felt, tired, and, ill, and, washed, out, after, slowing, down, and, switching, off, after, a, busy, day, yesterday, and, all, week, watched, the, ireland, match, which, was, very, close, spent, rest, of, day, sleeping, or, just, chilling, out, mon, went, testing, at, k, and, t’d, they, are, really, nice, lads, but, not, too, hot, on, the, academic, front, but, good, fun, they, were, in, good, form, and, hoping, to, get, the, low, down, on, the, new, vets, yes, they, are, young, free, and, single, as, far, as, i, know, i, pity, their, chances, spent, a, lazy, day, in, the, sun, at, a, gentle, pace, so, quite, enjoyed, myself, caught, up, with, the, paperwork, at, night, and, feel, mellow, tuesday, too, many, o’s, one, call, was, cancelled, but, the, other, one, still, wanted, the, call, so, some, one, went, to, the, wrong, o, and, i, had, to, make, a, mad, dash, and, pour, oil, on, the, waters, to, explain, why, we, are, so, late, oops, so, more, testing, and, a, quiet, day, wife, also, had, her, quiet, day, there, was, supposed, to, be, a, group, of, them, going, for, a, retreat, day, but, the, speaker, had, cancelled, so, she, did, it, herself, with, r, and, it, went, very, well, she, was, exhausted, after, giving, out, all, day, met, up, with, lads, at, night, didn’t, get, to, gym, again, as, i, had, to, go, and, calve, a, schistasoma, yuk, weds, tried, again, to, work, out, what, we, are, going, to, do, with, summer, holidays, no, doubt, we, will, get, organised, eventually, came, home, early, for, lunch, and, had, forgotten, that, it, was, coffee, morning, here, so, felt, out, of, place, amongst, so, many, women, skipped, off, early, and, went, for, a, cycle, to, make, up, for, missing, gym, did, first, part, with, a, and, annie, and, then, zipped, around, for, a, bit, which, was, good, thursday, k, and, t, had, an, i, r, again, i, need, a, new, supply, of, little, green, forms, to, put, this, in, context, prior, to, this, year, in, 16, years, in, practice, i, have, had, 4, i, r’s, i, am, doing, that, this, week, so, another, farm, under, restrictions, friday, bad, hair, day, england, lost, och, well, never, mind, such, is, life, richard, drummond’s, report, that, the, svs, was, unprepared, yeah, we, had, all, been, saying, it, but, i, did, not, realise, that, the, svs, had, been, saying, it, 2, years, ago, has, been, picked, up, by, the, audit, office, there, is, a, report, case, of, fmd, in, a, pig, from, leicester, mkt, and, i, had, another, i, r, and, met, with, jm, a, temporary, vet, with, carlisle, svs, on, why, we, had, not, done, the, tests, allocated, mostly, cos, they, aren’t, to, do, he, also, was, very, cynical, about, the, changes, in, defra, and, the, management, ethos, has, not, changed, he, brought, a, message, back, from, them, that, the, test, we, had, sent, back, because, the, guy, is, an, old, recluse, that, is, impossible, to, deal, with, we, had, to, do, as, they, did, not, have, the, resources, what, they, are, responsible, for, ensuring, that, they, are, done, and, sorting, out, the, recalcitrant, had, the, afternoon, off, and, ran, round, after, the, kids, while, wife, did, reports, next, week, must, be, better, sat, 22nd, june, wedding, day, for, d, and, s, yippee, d, and, his, best, man, and, usher, plus, 3, others, arrived, last, night, and, it, was, really, nice, to, have, young, people, around, again, i, have, forgotten, how, much, i, enjoy, young, people, i, must, be, getting, too, old, and, cynical, c, looked, after, our, boys, and, a, went, into, town, it, was, really, nice, s, could, not, stop, smiling, and, it, is, wigton, carnival, day, so, there, were, two, pipe, bands, as, well, which, could, be, heard, drifting, over, the, vows, was, in, his, kilt, i, should, have, got, mine, on, for, the, occasion, the, reception, was, at, tullie, house, which, is, a, really, nice, relaxed, venue, we, were, seated, opposite, friends, so, it, was, really, nice, catching, up, with, them, b, d, are, just, back, from, another, wedding, in, vancouver, and, really, impressed, with, bc, they, are, out, doors, fanatics, so, the, skiing, mountains, and, whistler, really, is, their, thing, barnes, who, was, looking, after, the, kids, at, night, is, going, out, there, for, his, gap, year, to, work, in, a, book, shop, should, be, really, great, for, him, there, was, a, celeidh, in, the, evening, but, i, only, lasted, for, 3, dances, i, was, absolutely, exhausted, i, didn’t, realise, how, tired, i, was, sunday, fortunately, it, was, a, family, service, ie, doesn’t, start, until, 11;00, it, was, lead, by, the, young, adults, group, so, was, really, fresh, and, good, they, also, don’t, take, themselves, too, seriously, but, do, take, jesus, seriously, and, it, was, good, monday, missed, swimming, again, cos, work, was, really, busy, crusaders, meeting, at, night, at, rydal, very, good, met, up, with, some, of, the, leaders, i, haven’t, met, before, folk, who, work, with, young, people, are, always, good, fun, and, have, a, wicked, sense, of, humour, do, you, need, one, to, do, youth, work, or, does, youth, work, give, you, one, tuesday, diary, did, not, get, filled, in, from, here, on, as, on, weds, morning, i, reached, into, back, of, the, car, and, my, back, went, i, tore, muscles, in, it, a, long, time, ago, and, it, often, niggles, but, as, long, as, i, keep, doing, the, exercises, for, stretching, and, building, up, the, muscles, it, is, ok, but, i, have, missed, doing, the, swimming, relevant, any, way, saw, stars, and, in, agony, so, flat, on, my, back, and, stretching, every, 2, hrs, and, sore, saturday, 29th, june, my, back, is, slowly, improving, i, can, move, around, and, type, i, can, do, the, stretching, ok, but, stiff, and, achy, rather, than, spasm, work, must, have, been, bad, for, the, two, left, as, it, was, going, to, be, short, staffed, with, out, me, dropping, out, nothing, i, can, do, about, it, the, new, vet, called, around, to, look, at, the, flat, before, moving, in, a, month’s, time, she, came, with, her, mother, their, farm, was, culled, out, with, fmd, late, on, and, they, had, just, got, the, herd, to, where, they, wanted, the, breeding, her, mum, was, talking, about, it, was, going, through, a, grieving, period, and, how, some, days, it, was, yes, carry, on, and, get, going, again, and, other, days, it, was, why, bother, it, is, just, all, too, much, hassle, it, will, take, a, long, time, for, the, memories, in, the, farming, community, to, fader, and, with, the, acknowledgement, that, it, was, much, better, to, get, the, disease, and, get, it, over, with, the, cooperation, of, farmers, will, be, even, less, they, are, the, 17th, generation, on, the, farm, the, whole, concept, of, bio, security, needs, to, be, looked, at, and, farmer, education, on, how, the, disease, is, spread, the, self, imposed, isolation, of, not, sending, kids, to, school, etc, is, just, stupid, but, to, go, against, the, flow, is, very, difficult, that, as, well, as, the, defra, imposed, ridiculous, rules, they, were, not, allowed, to, leave, the, house, for, 3, months, they, just, view, this, as, a, punishment, imposed, because, they, refused, to, let, the, hefted, flock, be, culled, they, were, right, not, to, the, old, tenants, have, moved, out, of, the, cottage, eddie, and, ruth, seemed, to, really, enjoy, it, as, a, summer, holiday, while, at, work, a, change, is, as, good, as, a, rest, so, they, say, i, have, looked, at, jobs, again, but, nothing, appeals, there, is, a, job, which, i, wouldn’t, mind, doing, as, a, consultancy, but, doubt, anything, will, come, will, have, to, wait, and, continue, to, see, what, happens, went, out, for, a, meal, to, giannis, at, night, as, my, dad, is, up, for, the, w, e, sunday, p, spoke, at, family, focus, at, church, and, was, very, encouraging, he, is, always, a, revelation, as, he, takes, things, as, they, are, not, as, they, should, be, watched, brazil, beat, germany, to, win, the, world, cup, wet, weather, and, kids, out, of, sorts, and, back, still, sore, yuk, monday, drove, for, the, first, time, and, dropped, my, dad, off, in, carlisle, but, it, was, pretty, sore, by, the, time, i, got, back, dad, was, in, good, form, and, he, has, enjoyed, his, time, up, here, but, he, is, getting, older, and, with, being, in, london, we, are, going, to, have, to, visit, on, a, more, regular, basis, went, into, work, and, did, some, paper, work, and, answered, phone, and, felt, better, for, doing, sthg, as, pretty, bored, but, couldn’t, sit, still, or, really, get, going, either, came, home, and, lay, down, again, d, came, around, at, night, called, in, absolutely, hyper, he, and, a, going, to, split, up, which, is, not, so, good, even, if, it, is, not, that, un, expected, the, thing, that, has, brought, to, a, head, is, the, fact, a, is, seeing, some, one, else, who, is, also, married, not, a, good, situation, lads, came, around, at, night, which, was, good, fun, and, we, had, a, good, time, tuesday, i, am, now, the, father, of, a, teenager, a’s, b’day, so, it, was, good, to, see, her, opening, her, presents, this, morning, back, is, easing, a, lot, so, did, small, animal, today, and, i, am, moving, freely, but, still, doing, the, exercises, a’s, birthday, is, also, always, a, time, for, reflection, as, she, was, born, a, year, to, the, day, after, we, arrived, in, cumbria, so, we, have, been, here, 14, years, a, long, time, the, future, is, also, looking, a, bit, uncertain, work, wise, with, more, farmers, complaining, about, the, prices, of, their, milk, and, animals, hence, they, don’t, want, to, pay, their, bills, weds, to, saturday, as, usual, the, diary, gets, missed, when, the, crisis, hits, so, i, am, writing, this, on, the, following, tuesday, and, bringing, the, diary, entries, up, to, date, weds, morning, i, was, driving, through, wigton, having, done, my, first, farm, call, since, doing, my, back, when, there, were, lots, of, flashing, lights, and, an, ambulance, and, an, unmarked, police, car, with, all, its, lights, on, going, through, wigton, they, stopped, at, the, lay, by, in, wigton, high, st, the, traffic, was, slow, but, i, did, not, see, anything, later, on, i, was, coming, back, in, to, wigton, from, another, call, and, the, by, pass, was, closed, the, office, was, full, of, news, that, the, by, pass, had, been, closed, because, of, a, stabbing, and, that, a, welshman, and, a, wigton, woman, had, been, taken, to, hospital, and, a, wigton, man, had, been, arrested, for, attempted, murder, i, got, a, sinking, feeling, as, d, had, been, around, on, monday, saying, about, ali, having, a, boy, friend, i, said, to, wife, but, she, said, surely, not, i, got, back, after, work, and, a, friend, arrived, and, unfortunately, it, was, d, the, story, emerged, over, the, next, few, days, how, he, had, forced, his, wife, at, knife, point, to, take, him, to, where, she, was, meeting, the, boyfriend, and, there, he, attacked, him, the, sort, of, story, you, only, here, about, in, the, papers, and, crime, programmes, so, we, have, had, the, police, taking, statements, and, trying, to, come, to, terms, with, it, he, is, usually, a, mild, almost, submissive, personality, and, he, had, flipped, but, really, weird, they, have, 3, girls, who, are, now, going, to, be, really, mixed, up, having, a, father, who, attempts, to, kill, their, mother, is, not, nice, so, i, missed, the, leaving, party, for, the, locum, who, has, been, working, for, us, for, the, past, few, months, which, by, all, accounts, was, very, good, saturday, 6th, july, still, in, shell, shock, over, d, and, a, i, still, cannot, believe, what, has, happened, went, in, saturday, morning, and, sorted, my, car, and, got, testing, list, up, to, date, there, is, a, lot, in, the, veterinary, press, about, the, future, of, the, lvi, system, and, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, the, future, is, not, looking, good, the, short, term, is, fine, if, anything, we, will, have, a, huge, amount, of, work, and, we, can, live, off, the, fmd, capital, that, the, farmers, have, but, once, that, begins, to, run, out, they, and, we, will, be, in, serious, difficulties, the, economics, are, against, the, farm, animal, practice, went, out, for, a, brilliant, meal, and, had, a, really, good, evening, at, c’s, her, husband, is, a, detective, sgt, and, had, been, called, out, because, there, was, yet, another, serious, incident, this, time, at, a, night, club, in, cockermouth, there, is, a, 22, year, old, in, newcastle, hospital, with, head, injuries, so, felt, sorry, for, c, as, she, cooked, and, hostessed, with, out, her, better, half, sunday, church, was, good, with, sg, on, the, character, of, god, he, was, quite, funny, with, his, illustrations, of, fatherly, things, from, his, life, espy, as, his, son, is, quite, a, character, met, up, with, dc, who, was, a, defra, vet, from, sa, he, was, in, good, form, and, has, another, locum, set, up, for, when, he, finishes, at, longtown, monday, back, into, full, swing, again, but, not, much, happening, read, the, test, and, felt, a, lot, happier, as, i, didn’t, have, to, leave, the, dreaded, piece, of, green, paper, as, everything, passed, of, the, farms, i, went, on, though, it, was, interesting, to, note, that, the, farmers, are, all, having, problems, with, their, backs, again, while, they, were, pressure, washing, and, not, amongst, stock, they, were, fine, but, going, back, to, pushing, animals, around, the, bad, backs, are, back, the, topic, is, probably, raised, because, of, the, fact, i, have, been, off, with, a, bad, back, du, called, in, as, he, is, replacing, d, on, the, railway, until, they, can, get, something, sorted, on, a, more, permanent, basis, he, stayed, for, 2, years, next, door, while, doing, his, railtrack, training, the, people, at, work, cannot, believe, that, dave, has, done, sthg, like, this, as, he, usually, if, anything, a, submissive, guy, du, had, just, got, the, keys, to, his, new, house, in, manchester, where, he, is, based, now, and, was, not, very, happy, to, be, posted, back, up, to, cumbria, he, hasn’t, even, managed, to, move, in, tuesday, work, very, quiet, and, long, lunches, good, for, getting, other, things, done, but, pretty, boring, looked, at, rota, and, checked, websites, reports, to, be, published, on, 18th, july, spent, time, sorting, out, rotas, and, booking, up, and, reorganising, my, kit, weds, day, off, went, into, carlisle, and, was, bounced, by, my, wife, in, to, getting, my, hair, cut, in, what, i, assume, is, an, expensive, hairdressers, she, was, getting, hers, done, and, dragged, me, in, and, it, was, a, fait, accompli, at, least, i, assume, it, is, expensive, as, she, won’t, tell, me, how, much, it, is, and, she, let, me, go, off, to, tesco’s, and, said, she, would, pay, for, both, wandered, around, book, shop, in, carlisle, and, met, wife, s, mum, off, the, bus, the, vet, student, from, usa, arrived, for, a, couple, of, days, jamie, who, is, not, as, i, assumed, male, but, female, it, is, amazing, how, you, make, assumptions, when, you, read, e, mails, and, take, messages, she, is, in, uk, for, 12, wks, and, friend, has, given, her, our, address, as, his, wife, is, about, to, have, twins, so, he, thought, it, better, not, to, have, more, people, than, really, necessary, in, his, house, there, are, a, few, babies, at, the, moment, got, a, photo, of, e, this, morning, and, friend, called, around, to, say, other, friends, had, had, a, baby, but, he, couldn’t, remember, whether, it, was, a, boy, or, a, girl, learnt, later, it, is, a, boy, thursday, not, a, lot, for, j, to, see, called, in, to, see, friend’s, new, kittens, posh, becks, both, have, cat, flu, he, is, busy, painting, house, and, tidying, up, for, the, wedding, never, seen, his, yard, as, tidy, must, tell, abbi, to, get, a, move, on, and, maybe, he, will, finish, off, some, of, the, building, work, as, well, did, 2, calvings, in, the, afternoon, and, finally, read, through, the, audit, office, report, which, i, downloaded, ages, ago, they, were, pretty, accurate, apart, from, nick, brown, insisting, it, was, all, going, splendidly, well, there, really, must, be, a, better, working, relationship, between, the, ministry, svs, vets, and, the, vets, in, general, practice, and, so, much, better, communication, the, other, point, that, is, never, made, is, that, all, farms, should, have, a, mass, disposal, plan, as, part, of, their, iacs, return, in, order, to, keep, fmd, on, peoples, minds, as, it, is, already, disappearing, as, a, part, of, history, and, history, will, repeat, itself, because, nobody, listens, and, most, of, the, anguish, and, delays, were, in, the, disposal, systems, friday, dropped, j, off, in, wigton, to, catch, the, train, it, is, always, strange, with, having, students, because, they, stay, in, our, house, they, are, very, much, part, of, our, lives, and, then, they, drop, out, of, our, lives, another, former, student, who, is, just, back, from, sa, called, in, and, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, her, she, was, on, her, way, back, to, edinburgh, for, her, 5, year, reunion, he, has, been, qualified, 5, years, and, i, thought, it, was, 2, or, three, one, of, the, vets, was, off, ill, so, it, meant, a, bit, of, a, run, around, today, as, 2, others, were, on, holiday, but, it, was, good, to, be, busy, and, get, some, adrenalin, pumping, saturday, 13th, july, working, saturday, morning, on, days, like, this, i, think, it, is, great, to, be, a, small, animal, vet, the, consults, were, all, straight, forward, and, i, could, chat, to, the, owners, with, out, having, to, stop, and, think, what, to, do, about, the, animals, that, and, 2, owners, were, really, appreciative, of, what, i, was, doing, so, felt, good, i, think, that, is, one, of, the, things, about, working, for, defra, no, one, appreciated, what, you, were, doing, ok, some, appreciated, the, concern, and, effort, and, the, way, you, did, it, but, no, one, really, thought, what, you, were, doing, was, good, like, putting, pets, down, it, is, for, the, best, but, no, one, likes, it, beautiful, day, today, too, the, sun, shining, and, picking, strawberries, and, having, a, bar, b, q, was, really, very, pleasant, my, brother, always, says, the, best, thing, about, nz, where, he, lives, is, that, he, can, plan, to, have, a, barb, in, 2, wks, time, whereas, here, you, have, to, go, with, the, flow, sun, 14th, first, call, so, wandered, around, seeing, ill, cows, several, lots, of, drugs, to, put, out, as, a, lot, for, the, restocking, farms, have, yet, to, get, their, medicine, cabinets, back, up, to, strength, had, a, collie, hit, by, a, tractor, and, its, eye, had, been, knocked, out, of, its, socket, urgh, eyes, give, me, the, creeps, mon, 15th, operating, day, as, we, are, doing, the, anaesthetic, monitoring, so, plenty, of, ops, booked, in, health, and, safety, requires, us, to, check, for, operator, exposure, to, anaesthetic, gases, as, our, new, system, has, a, scavenging, system, and, is, light, years, ahead, of, the, one, we, use, to, have, it, is, a, waste, of, time, but, we, have, to, have, the, checks, done, but, i, wonder, how, many, other, practices, actually, do, we, have, never, been, checked, up, upon, a, police, man, arrived, at, the, front, desk, while, i, was, on, the, phone, the, head, nurse, disappeared, as, soon, as, she, saw, the, marked, police, car, which, struck, me, as, very, suspicious, after, he, had, booked, an, appointment, for, his, dog, and, he, had, left, i, was, curious, to, know, where, she, had, disappeared, to, she, had, gone, to, check, that, the, medicines, cabinet, where, we, keep, the, gun, and, dangerous, drugs, was, in, fact, locked, as, while, we, are, operating, we, keep, it, open, so, as, to, have, easy, access, to, the, emergency, drugs, the, gun, licences, insist, that, it, is, kept, locked, at, all, times, and, immediate, access, to, a, police, officer, coming, to, check, it, must, be, allowed, and, we, never, been, checked, up, upon, yet, farmers, are, all, busy, with, field, work, and, are, not, wanting, to, even, think, about, any, routine, work, so, it, could, be, a, quiet, week, tuesday, 16th, beautiful, weather, and, raspberries, coming, along, nicely, wife, s, mum, is, busy, making, jam, and, mile, high, pies, yum, yum, partners, meeting, at, lunchtime, why, do, they, always, make, me, so, depressed, the, subjects, were, more, of, the, same, how, do, we, cope, with, the, changes, in, the, drug, sales, prices, and, how, do, we, compete, with, irish, drugs, being, brought, in, illegally, we, got, a, little, further, forward, and, will, hopefully, be, able, to, make, a, decision, on, it, by, the, deadline, in, september, we, need, to, look, at, new, ways, of, bringing, in, revenue, streams, but, i, don’t, think, there, is, a, willing, ness, to, look, at, the, radical, so, i, will, have, to, keep, working, away, at, it, weds, 17th, met, up, with, the, lads, last, night, to, pray, but, the, craic, was, good, and, did, more, chat, and, joking, than, praying, t’was, good, i, is, apparently, having, a, good, time, at, the, cs, lewis, convention, but, has, yet, to, open, the, book, stall, he, sells, books, and, specialises, in, antiquarian, and, first, editions, of, c.s, lewis, the, one, thing, about, the, internet, is, that, it, frees, up, communication, and, searching, for, the, really, obscure, sorry, i, the, weather, broke, today, and, the, rain, came, and, with, it, all, the, calls, as, the, farmers, got, all, the, routine, stuff, done, which, was, good, for, the, last, of, the, school, kids, which, have, plagued, us, for, the, past, few, weeks, vet, students, next, but, at, least, they, can, chat, away, with, out, me, having, to, make, all, the, effort, thurs, 18th, went, o, a, farm, today, which, restocked, in, feb, after, doing, its, 4, months, waiting, and, has, yet, to, have, a, tb, test, asked, him, whether, i, should, chase, it, up, but, he, like, everyone, else, should, be, leaving, it, to, october, and, housing, maff, efficiency, rules, we, also, tested, 44, imported, heifers, that, were, supposed, to, be, blood, sampled, within, 7, days, of, calving, but, they, have, been, missed, i, have, no, confidence, in, either, of, the, reports, to, actually, achieve, anything, part, of, me, feels, i, should, try, to, contact, the, media, and, try, to, get, them, to, push, the, agenda, along, but, i, don’t, feel, it, would, achieve, much, apart, from, sticking, my, head, above, the, parapet, which, would, not, do, much, i, have, asked, for, copies, but, none, have, arrived, yet, fri, 19th, demob, happy, i’m, on, holiday, from, 5, 30pm, so, it, will, be, good, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, i, should, have, done, but, not, done, the, garden, is, a, mess, but, we, are, getting, on, top, of, it, slowly, in, some, ways, i, am, glad, to, be, off, when, the, lli, is, reporting, as, at, least, i, will, not, get, wound, up, so, this, is, me, signing, off, for, the, week, next, diary, will, be, on, sat, week, holiday, week, beginning, saturday, 20th, july, saturday, 27th, july, having, had, a, week, off, i, am, feeling, a, lot, happier, about, life, in, general, we, have, been, to, a, few, of, the, nights, at, the, keswick, convention, it, is, an, amazing, set, up, with, over, 12,000, people, coming, together, over, 3, weeks, in, keswick, and, meeting, up, for, bible, teaching, and, to, worship, god, there, is, a, big, tent, that, is, set, up, on, the, back, of, the, convention, centre, by, the, time, we, arrive, it, is, always, full, and, we, were, not, late, on, the, friday, evening, there, were, people, standing, outside, the, kids, went, to, a, youth, event, on, of, all, things, ezekiel, not, exactly, an, easy, choice, of, bible, book, to, convey, to, 19, 14, yr, olds, but, they, really, enjoyed, the, wacky, games, and, the, way, they, mixed, teaching, and, songs, and, games, activities, they, seemed, to, be, mostly, uni, students, who, seemed, to, get, as, much, fun, out, of, it, as, the, kids, my, brother, and, family, were, up, and, the, cousins, love, getting, together, and, even, a, joined, in, the, football, and, tennis, even, though, her, hand, to, eye, co, ordination, is, not, the, best, she, has, taken, up, running, every, day, so, i, have, been, out, with, her, but, my, back, is, still, not, right, and, i, can, feel, it, at, the, slightest, provocation, must, go, swimming, again, my, brother, also, asked, wife, what, diy, needed, doing, as, he, is, a, real, enthusiast, give, me, gardening, any, time, so, we, made, a, door, for, one, of, the, sheds, which, i, have, been, putting, off, for, the, past, 6, years, as, once, i, start, there, are, another, 5, to, do, he, is, also, a, sailing, fan, so, hired, a, sail, boat, and, went, sailing, which, was, great, fun, the, kids, had, a, canoe, and, we, raced, up, and, down, the, lake, and, the, kids, swapped, around, and, went, to, explore, islands, it, was, really, good, the, weather, helped, it, was, scorching, we, also, went, to, a, wedding, of, one, of, our, close, friends, son, i, decided, i, am, going, to, start, teaching, my, kids, the, etiquette, of, weddings, as, the, groom, could, have, done, a, better, job, it, isn’t, really, his, fault, as, he, is, young, and, has, not, thought, things, out, sun, went, to, the, all, age, service, at, the, tent, at, keswick, there, were, too, many, kids, even, for, me, but, the, mix, of, action, songs, and, asking, kids, things, and, an, action, talk, meant, that, those, leading, it, kept, the, kids, involved, it, was, good, to, see, spent, the, afternoon, on, the, lake, it, was, really, nice, day, mon, yep, it, was, a, real, monday, morning, with, my, in, tray, over, flowing, 2, rota’s, to, sort, and, 2, weeks, of, testing, to, try, to, arrange, the, only, goodish, news, was, that, the, ministry, have, finally, decided, to, put, the, restocking, farms, on, annual, testing, which, means, at, least, we, know, where, we, stand, and, can, plan, it, will, mean, a, lot, of, work, for, us, the, bad, news, was, that, the, oft, investigation, have, sent, us, a, horrific, questionnaire, which, needs, filled, in, and, one, of, my, partners, has, had, a, go, and, not, got, very, far, unfortunately, and, it, needs, to, be, in, by, tomorrow, forget, it, the, 2, new, vets, have, started, and, so, we, are, settling, them, in, and, they, are, picking, up, the, ropes, quite, quickly, which, is, ace, on, call, at, night, out, twice, for, bad, calvings, that’s, the, end, of, my, holiday, f, feeling, good, tuesday, sore, back, from, calvings, and, early, mornings, had, forgotten, i, had, arranged, for, some, one, to, be, with, me, all, day, today, in, a, moment, of, weakness, i, had, acquiesced, to, being, put, up, for, sale, in, a, promise, auction, to, raise, money, for, african, children’s, choir, so, this, was, the, promise, being, redeemed, a, morning, with, the, vet, so, i, put, on, my, best, charming, manner, all, mr, pr, man, and, took, her, on, a, tour, of, the, practice, and, on, call, and, explained, everything, i, was, doing, so, it, was, a, good, thing, we, were, not, busy, spent, the, afternoon, consulting, and, supervising, new, vets, and, showing, them, the, ropes, weds, we, were, suppose, to, be, going, walking, up, helvellyn, but, the, torrential, rain, put, us, off, so, went, into, carlisle, and, did, bits, and, pieces, and, i, took, kids, to, see, stuart, little, 2, which, is, definitely, one, for, the, kids, and, jobbed, around, at, home, but, the, kids, like, it, when, we, just, potter, around, thursday, felt, really, stiff, and, sore, and, decided, again, i, must, go, swimming, more, often, i, just, cannot, seem, to, get, there, that’s, all, must, make, time, i’m, working, this, w, e, and, i, am, then, off, for, 10, days, finishing, with, f’s, wedding, friends, are, up, with, their, kids, and, it, is, really, good, to, see, them, we, don’t, see, them, that, often, but, they, are, the, sort, of, friends, who, you, pick, up, on, as, soon, as, you, meet, them, even, if, you, haven’t, seen, them, for, ages, m, has, left, full, time, teaching, as, he, couldn’t, cope, with, the, pressure, of, all, the, paper, work, and, hassle, he, is, teaching, supply, and, doing, other, things, as, well, he, is, so, creative, and, he, has, made, a, model, of, our, house, just, while, he, was, sitting, chatting, with, us, friday, came, home, at, lunchtime, to, see, the, kitchen, table, covered, in, drawings, and, paintings, m, had, decided, to, have, a, painting, day, so, all, the, kids, were, doing, drawings, and, paintings, he, has, done, a, watercolour, of, our, house, it, is, brilliant, holiday, for, two, weeks, this, is, more, a, reflection, of, what, i, have, been, doing, and, thinking, over, the, summer, as, i, have, not, been, writing, up, the, diary, but, i, want, to, put, down, some, of, the, things, that, i, think, are, important, edited, disclosive, sat, 24th, aug, another, bank, holiday, w, e, to, be, worked, but, at, least, i, am, backing, up, our, new, young, assistant, we, work, a, system, where, the, new, vets, have, a, senior, vet, on, call, at, the, same, time, for, the, first, few, months, so, as, to, give, them, a, hands, on, support, and, mentoring, while, this, sounds, very, good, and, practical, it, is, surprisingly, uncommon, when, i, started, i, was, on, my, own, from, almost, day, one, i, started, in, august, after, getting, married, and, in, the, second, week, of, september, my, boss, headed, off, to, oman, to, do, horse, work, out, there, the, other, large, animal, vet, was, off, on, long, term, sick, and, he, could, only, get, a, small, animal, locum, when, i, look, back, now, that, he, left, me, in, charge, of, the, farm, practice, for, 2, weeks, after, only, being, a, month, qualified, i, shudder, but, at, the, time, i, just, got, on, with, it, sun, 25th, calvings, coming, thick, and, fast, the, good, warm, weather, has, made, the, grass, spring, and, the, cows, are, putting, on, too, much, weight, and, having, problems, j, was, at, a, football, tournament, at, pirelli’s, which, i, missed, but, he, came, back, really, tired, having, played, his, socks, off, did, another, pts, put, to, sleep, dog, visit, with, assistant, vet, it, is, never, the, easiest, of, consults, and, she, did, really, well, she, is, finding, her, feet, i, find, it, hard, helping, people, make, euthanasia, decisions, over, dogs, so, i, feel, quite, strongly, anti, euthanasia, when, it, comes, to, people, mon, 28th, beautiful, day, too, nice, to, work, the, morning, was, busy, but, the, afternoon, was, quiet, so, i, spent, it, lying, in, the, sun, dozing, had, bbq, at, night, at, j’s, and, chatted, to, a, few, folk, who, i, know, but, not, to, speak, to, so, was, interesting, spoke, to, one, of, our, farmers, daughters, who, told, me, her, dad, had, just, had, his, first, calf, since, fmd, and, so, he, was, really, happy, he, had, 2, holdings, which, were, run, as, one, he, managed, to, keep, his, heifers, which, were, on, the, second, holding, probably, because, they, were, the, last, ones, in, the, area, and, these, were, the, ones, that, were, now, calving, he, still, blames, the, pyre, from, a, neighbour, for, spreading, the, virus, to, his, farm, tuesday, 27th, the, problem, with, having, a, day, off, is, that, you, have, problems, stored, up, for, when, you, come, back, today, was, really, hectic, finished, at, 6, 30, after, having, come, back, from, the, belgian, blue, inspections, to, help, out, at, surgery, the, inspections, were, fun, but, it, gave, me, the, creeps, being, in, the, mart, and, inspecting, mouths, as, it, brought, back, bad, memories, the, mart, is, ridiculously, clean, and, the, last, time, i, inspected, mouths, was, for, fmd, after, shooting, a, herd, that, was, a, dangerous, contact, i, was, trying, to, persuade, london, not, to, take, out, the, other, neighbour, as, well, we, got, finished, at, 2am, and, went, in, for, a, cup, of, tea, and, to, recover, and, the, mother, greeted, me, with, the, news, that, d, had, been, next, door, and, was, starting, to, shoot, them, the, other, really, annoying, thing, is, that, the, basic, hygiene, is, not, being, enforced, and, yet, other, rules, are, the, rules, are, made, in, london, by, desk, bound, defra, officials, who, don’t, have, to, implement, them, the, mart, uses, mini, dumper, trucks, to, clean, out, the, pens, after, they, have, been, sold, the, same, trucks, are, then, used, to, put, out, straw, and, sawdust, in, the, freshly, cleansed, and, disinfected, yards, they, are, covered, in, muck, and, are, a, bio, hazard, m, the, owner, of, the, animals, we, were, inspecting, put, on, her, usual, tantrum, display, to, try, and, intimidate, the, secretary, and, inspectors, which, as, i, was, expecting, it, i, found, quite, amusing, but, i, don’t, think, she, or, they, did, had, another, bbq, tonight, with, kids, son, cooked, and, loved, it, so, i, have, found, a, new, bbqer, kids, in, brilliant, form, as, they, are, enjoying, being, around, and, a, has, been, baking, weds, 28th, another, tb, reactor, and, the, corresponding, paper, work, and, licensing, had, a, weird, oddball, case, in, surgery, and, spent, ages, trying, to, take, a, history, of, what, was, going, on, the, dog, is, not, that, unwell, in, itself, but, has, an, intermittent, history, of, different, things, i, look, forward, to, seeing, what, it, turns, out, to, be, or, whether, it, resolves, itself, with, time, vetting, is, always, varied, j, was, at, friend’s, party, after, having, a, football, school, with, blackburn, rovers, this, morning, so, he, was, passed, himself, arranged, to, visit, prisoner, in, prison, on, my, next, day, off, and, went, through, a, multitude, of, meaningless, options, to, end, up, with, a, guy, who, sounded, like, he, came, straight, off, porridge, it, is, amazing, how, intimidating, trying, to, find, your, way, around, a, bureaucracy, can, be, i, am, not, sure, i, want, to, go, but, thurs, 29th, from, feast, to, famine, not, much, work, during, the, day, at, least, al, had, 3, caesareans, last, night, and, was, running, out, of, steam, by, 5, o’clock, this, afternoon, meanwhile, i, did, small, animals, and, tried, to, organise, my, trip, to, london, to, visit, my, dad, found, web, sites, for, chitty, chitty, bang, bang, london, eye, and, madam, tussards, so, should, be, able, to, book, in, advance, if, tickets, are, left, for, the, half, term, week, other, children, are, staying, so, the, house, is, full, of, excited, kids, friday, 30th, busy, day, sorting, out, the, invitations, to, our, open, day, 1st, oct, it, is, just, a, chance, to, get, the, farmers, together, we, promised, one, to, celebrate, the, end, of, fmd, it, is, amazing, going, through, the, list, off, the, computer, how, many, farms, are, not, restocked, the, list, hasn’t, been, updated, since, pre, fmd, as, we, don’t, really, know, how, many, will, restock, so, we, have, been, waiting, for, the, end, of, fmd, to, redo, it, so, there, were, a, few, deaths, sales, and, moved, away, to, take, off, the, list, time, moves, on, sat, 31st, august, last, w, e, of, the, summer, holidays, we, had, a, bbq, at, lunch, time, for, borderline, and, then, i, promised, to, take, the, boys, camping, at, bowscale, tarn, it, was, beautiful, but, really, cold, the, weather, was, ok, sat, but, sunday, was, glorious, the, boys, wakened, at, first, light, so, we, climbed, up, on, to, the, tops, while, the, sun, was, still, rising, and, it, was, one, of, those, magical, moments, wonderful, the, boys, were, so, excited, and, full, of, energy, and, so, happy, to, be, with, their, dad, and, enjoying, life, a, time, to, treasure, sun, after, coming, down, off, the, tops, from, bowscale, tarn, went, to, visit, friends, he, is, a, vet, in, longtown, and, has, just, set, up, his, own, small, animal, practice, in, the, north, of, carlisle, the, twins, who, are, now, 4, weeks, old, were, wonderful, there, is, always, sthg, very, special, about, wee, babies, a, was, in, her, element, with, two, to, mother, mon, good, weather, continuing, and, so, we, are, still, quiet, the, vet, student, has, arrived, went, blood, sampling, sheep, for, maedi, visna, to, a, farmer, who, imports, and, sells, sheep, as, a, bit, of, a, dealer, between, him, and, his, dad, and, his, granddad, they, have, 4, holding, numbers, which, is, making, a, mockery, of, the, licensing, system, he, knows, a, lot, of, the, breeders, and, dealers, and, the, yorkshire, defra, is, even, worse, than, this, one, and, so, the, whole, licensing, system, is, allegedly, being, ignored, there, everyone, in, the, office, was, trying, to, work, out, where, we, are, going, to, go, for, the, xmas, party, as, it, is, now, september, tuesday, it, is, friend’s, last, day, at, work, tomorrow, before, the, wedding, so, the, girls, spent, most, of, the, afternoon, printing, out, posters, and, things, to, decorate, his, car, before, he, goes, tomorrow, evening, the, farmers, are, phoning, in, to, book, tb, tests, for, nov, and, dec, as, they, know, that, we, will, be, busy, which, makes, life, a, lot, easier, for, me, we, have, sent, out, notes, with, the, invitations, to, the, open, day, and, that, has, had, a, good, response, so, we, will, start, to, get, busy, testing, next, week, weds, day, off, spent, the, morning, fixing, the, shower, drainage, which, had, suffered, from, one, too, many, footballs, being, kicked, against, it, the, problem, was, the, broken, part, was, also, a, metric, to, imperial, converter, one, end, was, 40mm, and, the, other, was, 43mm, which, once, i, discovered, that, was, what, i, needed, meant, a, trip, to, carlisle, as, nowhere, in, wigton, had, it, so, it, got, codged, up, with, plenty, of, silicone, the, afternoon, was, spent, going, to, visit, prisoner, he, is, the, friend, who, stabbed, his, wife’s, boyfriend, in, wigton, and, so, he, is, currently, residing, at, her, majesty’s, pleasure, in, durham, prison, it, was, a, very, disheartening, experience, as, with, any, organisation, it, takes, time, to, work, out, where, to, go, and, what, you, need, to, get, through, the, hoops, i, went, from, one, part, of, the, prison, to, another, and, backwards, and, forwards, the, staff, where, very, friendly, and, helpful, but, they, are, all, at, fixed, stations, and, so, you, are, sent, from, one, area, to, another, the, security, although, expected, and, natural, still, comes, as, a, bit, of, a, shock, photographed, in, and, issued, with, a, barcode, to, get, you, in, and, out, and, you, put, all, your, belongings, in, a, locker, before, you, are, allowed, in, of, course, i, did, not, realise, that, you, only, need, the, id, passport, to, get, your, bar, code, so, i, kept, it, to, show, at, the, entrance, where, all, i, needed, was, the, bar, code, so, they, sent, me, back, to, put, it, in, the, locker, prisoner, was, ok, but, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, think, about, a, future, that, does, not, include, his, wife, even, though, the, divorce, papers, are, filed, and, he, has, done, some, pretty, nasty, things, to, her, and, the, boyfriend, he, is, pleading, guilty, and, is, expecting, to, go, down, for, a, good, few, years, the, whole, visitors, area, was, charged, with, emotion, with, people, coming, to, see, brothers, husbands, lovers, there, were, lots, of, girls, with, young, children, coming, to, see, their, dads, i, felt, very, sad, for, them, and, for, the, kids, who, are, growing, up, with, out, a, dad, or, the, stigma, of, a, dad, in, jail, his, kids, have, written, but, he, is, realistic, his, wife, is, very, anti, him, and, they, are, unlikely, to, keep, up, with, him, in, the, long, term, as, she, at, best, is, not, going, to, be, supportive, at, worst, is, going, to, try, to, dissuade, them, he, was, quite, upset, about, that, he, is, also, not, able, to, sort, out, his, things, or, see, his, house, before, it, is, sold, he, did, a, lot, of, building, work, etc, on, it, and, has, an, emotional, attachment, to, it, but, there, is, no, real, closure, he, had, emotional, problems, before, all, this, he, is, likely, to, have, even, more, on, his, release, his, car, on, which, there, is, still, a, car, loan, has, been, removed, from, the, pound, but, he, doesn’t, know, where, it, is, drove, back, over, a66, very, thoughtful, and, thankful, for, my, family, and, freedom, until, the, phone, went, to, remind, me, i, was, on, call, and, had, i, forgotten, fortunately, there, were, no, calls, as, it, takes, quite, a, while, to, get, from, barnard, castle, to, wigton, oops, thursday, did, my, first, isolation, pens, inspection, which, is, a, complete, non, sense, the, field, has, to, be, 50, m, from, any, other, livestock, which, in, london, probably, sounds, fine, or, in, scotland, where, there, are, plenty, of, woods, and, other, crops, but, here, in, cumbria, where, the, main, crop, is, grass, and, all, the, fields, are, grazed, at, this, time, of, year, then, it, is, not, so, easy, the, forms, are, horrendous, and, the, boxes, to, be, filled, in, are, greyed, out, to, make, it, easy, for, you, to, know, which, boxes, are, to, be, filled, in, this, obviously, looks, really, good, on, a, computer, screen, in, london, but, on, a, photocopy, writing, in, black, ink, makes, the, whole, thing, illegible, but, that’s, their, problem, when, does, common, sense, come, in, friday, 6th, september, colleague’s, wedding, one, of, the, vets, at, the, practice, was, married, today, at, the, parish, church, in, wigton, the, wedding, was, some, do, he, and, his, family, in, kilts, there, were, over, 200, at, the, wedding, and, reception, at, the, grennhill, hotel, where, bride’s, uncle, is, a, director, the, theme, was, an, english, rode, and, scottish, thistle, the, flowers, were, all, red, roses, in, arrangements, with, thistles, they, were, beautiful, as, was, the, bride, he, quickly, adds, there, was, a, ceilidh, afterwards, and, a, fireworks, display, several, of, the, neighbouring, farmers, complained, to, me, the, next, day, danced, and, talked, the, night, away, till, after, 2, am, getting, up, the, next, day, was, a, bit, of, a, pain, for, morning, surgery, urgh, sat, 7th, september, why, is, it, whenever, you, could, do, with, a, quiet, day, because, of, one, reason, or, another, it, is, always, busiest, managed, to, keep, going, most, of, the, day, with, calvings, and, ill, animals, still, recovering, from, the, late, night, at, wedding, day, was, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, really, sunday, milk, fever, at, 7, am, to, finish, me, off, so, missed, church, but, went, to, hear, sc, at, wigton, in, evening, he, is, head, of, oasis, trust, and, is, very, much, a, radical, but, believes, in, putting, faith, into, action, and, was, very, challenging, isiah, 58, true, fasting, that, god, wants, to, spend, your, self, on, behalf, of, the, poor, in, spirit, wife, went, to, hear, the, new, bishop, of, carlisle, who, was, speaking, at, hebron, he, is, reaching, out, to, all, the, local, churches, and, seems, to, see, outside, the, traditional, denominational, boundaries, which, is, really, encouraging, monday, had, a, crusaders, meeting, in, rydal, crusaders, is, a, youth, group, organisation, and, i, am, on, the, area, planning, group, we, have, had, money, given, in, a, legacy, to, support, some, one, full, time, to, train, leaders, to, organise, area, events, and, w, e, away, and, other, joint, activities, which, should, be, good, it, meant, a, rush, and, a, long, day, so, i, am, still, feeling, knackered, from, the, w, e, tuesday, i, was, almost, speechless, today, the, great, era, of, decentralisation, has, hit, defra, i, wish, i, rang, them, up, because, we, still, have, not, had, confirmation, for, the, appointments, of, our, 2, new, vets, to, enable, them, to, do, defra, work, what, used, to, happen, was, that, they, went, to, a, training, session, and, chat, with, the, dvm, in, carlisle, and, the, appointments, arrived, 2, days, later, guess, what, all, the, paper, work, has, to, be, sent, to, page, st, in, london, now, and, they, have, not, got, it, back, yet, weds, 11, 09, 02, it, is, funny, how, some, anniversaries, effect, you, and, others, do, not, i, had, just, started, back, in, to, the, practice, when, the, hijackers, crashed, into, the, pentagon, and, the, twin, towers, i, was, feeling, at, my, most, bruised, and, battered, having, had, a, major, confrontation, at, defra, and, had, to, work, through, the, psychological, problems, of, being, threatened, and, sidelined, and, yet, wanting, to, keep, my, integrity, by, not, reacting, and, blowing, people, out, of, the, water, the, 9, 11, bombers, made, me, realise, how, fragile, peace, is, and, how, fragile, people, are, and, the, importance, of, not, losing, sight, of, the, important, things, in, life, and, trying, to, keep, things, in, perspective, people, are, more, important, friends, and, family, and, if, i, can’t, fight, the, civil, service, mentality, that, is, their, problem, not, mine, i, remember, seeing, one, of, the, teacher’s, husbands, walking, in, to, the, kids, school, when, i, went, to, pick, them, up, looking, slumped, and, dejected, and, learning, that, their, only, son, was, in, new, york, and, they, could, not, reach, him, 2, days, later, they, heard, he, had, visited, the, twin, towers, the, day, before, and, had, taken, photos, from, the, top, he, was, supposed, be, going, back, into, the, towers, that, morning, but, he, had, got, up, late, and, by, the, time, he, and, his, friends, set, off, the, towers, had, been, hit, the, impact, of, the, number, of, people, who, have, either, been, in, or, visited, the, towers, from, all, over, the, world, does, make, it, a, potent, symbol, with, worldwide, resonance, my, sister, worked, in, them, for, a, while, several, years, ago, the, anniversary, brought, a, lot, back, up, to, the, surface, that, i, thought, was, past, but, was, merely, hidden, thursday, first, on, last, night, and, 2nd, on, tonight, so, started, early, and, finished, late, and, running, out, of, steam, friday, one, of, the, farmer’s, wives, came, in, today, for, some, wormers, for, her, chickens, that, have, gape, worm, she, paid, last, months, bill, in, cash, as, well, as, for, the, wormers, 8.76, inc, vat, she, is, working, away, from, the, farm, 2, days, a, week, her, husband, is, full, time, at, a, job, he, got, after, they, went, down, with, fmd.i, asked, how, her, father, in, law, who, is, 65, was, doing, he, is, lost, and, the, farm, is, too, quit, its, not, right, its, too, quiet, they, still, have, no, animals, back, and, are, grass, letting, its, funny, she, said, whoosh, and, your, life, takes, a, complete, change, you, never, know, what’s, going, to, happen, next, sat, 14th, september, worked, am, and, then, had, rest, of, w, e, off, hooray, sunday, monday, son, s, footie, tuesday, partnership, meeting, at, lunchtime, so, had, a, sore, head, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, a, lot, of, good, decisions, made, so, feel, as, though, we, a, re, moving, forward, weds, off, as, working, the, w, e, so, caught, up, on, paperwork, and, stuff, at, home, and, then, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, for, lots, of, bits, and, pieces, and, a, new, bathroom, thursday, dvm, called, in, to, update, us, waste, of, time, and, i, had, forgotten, what, an, annoying, man, he, is, a, real, career, civil, servant, bureaucrat, who, has, forgotten, what, real, life, is, about, if, he, ever, knew, had, one, of, the, vets, around, for, tea, as, i, was, backing, her, up, spent, the, evening, playing, take, two, and, had, fun, friday, a, very, bad, day, at, the, office, dear, oh, dear, oh, dear, the, day, was, great, to, start, with, headed, down, to, iselgate, to, see, a, lame, bull, to, give, it, a, certificate, they, are, still, suffering, from, both, the, financial, and, emotional, scars, of, fmd, mind, you, they, were, always, odd, she, was, talking, about, the, isolation, that, was, hard, to, break, out, of, and, get, back, in, to, doing, things, again, they, were, also, hoping, to, retire, when, they, were, 50, but, bse, hit, so, they, decided, to, keep, on, and, had, no, income, from, jan, to, october, last, year, mind, you, they, would, only, usually, be, selling, stores, any, way, the, day, was, taking, a, turn, for, the, worse, when, after, sorting, out, umpteen, decisions, for, the, practice, manager, on, organisational, issues, he, said, wasn’t, it, easy, when, you, were, just, being, a, vet, fatal, mistake, as, the, next, dog, to, be, seen, was, an, odd, ball, it, had, woken, up, that, morning, after, being, perfectly, ok, up, til, then, it, had, growled, at, tis, owner, and, he, had, decided, to, leave, it, for, a, while, after, an, hour, or, so, he, went, to, get, it, up, out, of, its, bed, and, it, flew, at, him, and, as, he, put, it, meant, it, so, he, rang, up, and, brought, it, to, the, vets, this, change, of, behaviour, meant, he, had, put, it, in, a, kennel, and, left, it, so, when, i, went, in, to, examine, it, growled, and, flapped, its, ears, at, me, and, bit, at, the, bars, some, dogs, in, pain, or, fear, will, growl, or, let, you, know, that, it, is, not, happy, but, this, one, meant, it, we, had, a, go, at, trying, to, get, it, examined, by, using, the, dog, catcher, and, muzzles, but, it, mean, it, left, it, to, settle, down, over, lunch, but, it, was, worse, finally, got, it, sedated, it, had, a, temp, of, 104, injected, mm, and, so, was, a, case, of, encephalitis, with, rage, so, after, 3, vets, all, looking, at, it, and, umming, and, erring, we, decided, to, get, a, maff, vet, to, have, a, look, just, to, check, that, it, wasn’t, rabies, i, had, forgotten, that, none, of, them, are, clinical, or, able, to, handle, animals, but, it, was, a, bit, of, a, joke, but, as, there, was, no, history, with, it, of, contact, with, abroad, it, has, been, left, alive, for, the, time, being, but, the, stress, of, both, handling, the, dam, thing, and, the, worry, of, is, it, rabid, and, the, consequences, was, some, what, tiring, so, i, am, washed, out, tonight, tomorrow, is, another, day, week, 27, sat, 28th, september, saturday, do, tell, me, there, is, light, at, the, end, of, the, tunnel, because, at, the, moment, i, definitely, feel, there, isn’t, so, i, have, taken, time, off, next, week, to, catch, up, on, all, the, things, that, need, sorted, at, home, we, are, supposed, to, be, putting, in, a, new, bathroom, and, we, need, to, get, the, stuff, ordered, so, the, guy, can, fit, it, you, never, know, it, may, include, doing, a, few, diaries, sunday, my, wife, is, on, a, counselling, course, this, w, e, so, i, ma, on, the, run, around, with, the, kids, yesterday, was, spent, watching, the, boys, plat, football, and, run, here, and, there, with, friends, son, had, 2, friends, to, come, and, camp, last, night, so, he, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, the, weather, is, warm, and, sunny, a, real, indian, summer, the, autumn, raspberries, that, are, usually, delicious, but, quite, sparse, are, huge, and, plentiful, well, i, definitely, have, a, teen, age, daughter, as, for, the, first, time, i, had, a, phone, call, late, in, the, evening, from, carlisle, asking, her, to, be, picked, up, as, her, lift, home, had, not, worked, out, fortunately, it, was, from, the, church, youth, group, but, it, is, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, youth, group, took, the, church, service, tonight, so, it, was, really, good, looking, at, our, world, the, pressures, on, young, people, and, how, they, respond, as, christians, and, applying, their, faith, to, their, own, situations, very, challenging, monday, we, have, an, open, night, tomorrow, night, and, it, doesn’t, seem, very, organised, yet, not, my, pigeon, i, have, made, a, resolution, not, to, get, worked, u, about, things, that, are, not, my, responsibility, and, just, leave, them, be, the, 2, new, vets, are, beginning, to, really, pull, their, weight, which, is, great, and, colleague, is, back, from, his, honeymoon, brown, and, jet, lagged, they, spent, time, at, the, beach, and, on, safari, so, had, a, great, time, nurse, has, headed, off, to, the, far, blue, yonder, she, is, one, of, our, nurses, and, has, gone, to, nz, for, a, month, so, it, will, be, strange, with, out, her, other, nurse, is, just, back, from, states, and, another, vet, is, about, to, go, to, the, caribbean, for, 2, weeks, so, i, am, getting, itchy, feet, time, to, travel, at, least, i, should, be, of, to, india, in, the, new, year, tuesday, year, end, oct, 1st, so, stock, taking, which, for, me, includes, mucking, out, my, car, i, thought, it, was, quite, normal, to, take, the, wheelie, bin, to, the, car, and, just, hoy, the, contents, in, until, my, neighbour, saw, one, of, the, rare, occasions, when, it, happens, and, burst, out, laughing, he, found, it, quite, amusing, i, was, a, bit, taken, a, back, at, the, time, but, we, always, assume, what, we, do, is, normal, the, open, day, was, ok, but, wife, was, out, so, had, to, juggle, things, a, bit, i, was, on, call, so, late, finished, and, had, to, fetch, son, from, football, as, his, practice, had, been, shifted, to, tuesdays, with, the, dark, nights, so, i, owe, friend, a, bottle, of, wine, for, turning, up, half, an, hour, late, to, pick, him, up, the, boiler, man, arrived, at, 7pm, to, fix, the, boiler, which, was, blowing, fuses, he, needs, a, lesson, on, time, management, had, several, interesting, conversations, on, fmd, the, most, amusing, one, was, about, tony, blair, arranging, his, bust, up, with, unions, on, the, anniversary, of, the, fmd, out, break, finishing, so, as, to, keep, it, out, the, news, the, same, farmer, said, about, the, govts, response, the, countryside, alliance, march, the, fact, that, they, have, reduced, the, sparsity, factor, in, the, allocation, of, central, funds, to, local, authorities, this, means, that, those, with, a, lower, population, density, and, therefore, a, higher, perceived, cost, of, providing, services, are, going, to, have, this, downgraded, or, in, this, farmer’s, opinion, take, money, from, the, countryside, to, the, town, don’t, march, or, this, govt, will, kick, you, where, it, hurts, in, a, very, subtle, way, the, other, one, was, probably, more, relevant, in, that, in, a, group, discussion, admittedly, fuelled, by, an, intake, of, free, alcohol, several, were, saying, that, this, year, was, harder, to, cope, with, than, last, as, there, was, no, crisis, or, adrenalin, to, keep, them, going, and, that, the, toll, from, last, year, was, beginning, to, tell, on, them, and, their, nerves, two, were, still, under, court, threats, from, trading, standards, defra, for, not, complying, with, regulations, both, will, in, my, opinions, not, result, in, anything, but, they, are, pretty, pissed, off, to, put, it, mildly, there, is, also, a, real, antagonism, to, doing, the, testing, for, ministry, and, we, are, in, the, cross, fire, as, defra, vets, decide, what, is, to, be, done, and, yet, we, are, the, ones, trying, to, arrange, and, get, the, testing, done, while, they, do, not, have, to, pay, us, they, do, have, to, spend, a, fair, chunk, of, time, organising, and, actually, getting, the, job, done, we, are, having, a, real, problem, with, organising, the, testing, on, one, of, the, common, grazings, there, are, 14, farmers, with, animals, on, it, biosecurity, is, a, joke, when, your, animals, are, on, common, grazing, with, 14, others, and, trying, to, get, 2, farmers, to, agree, on, a, date, and, a, method, of, doing, it, they, all, have, different, ideas, and, most, do, not, want, so, and, so, there, co, he, ll, just, wind, the, cattle, up, and, we’ll, never, catch, them, weds, day, off, so, caught, up, on, garden, and, sleep, thursday, i, really, enjoyed, the, crack, today, there, was, just, that, right, amount, of, work, and, banter, to, have, a, good, day, laughter, and, fun, is, infectious, friday, out, for, a, meal, at, night, which, was, great, but, 8, 30, start, tomorrow, sat, am, is, not, going, to, be, good, october, a, young, colleague’s, brother, was, killed, in, an, accident, and, as, m, writes, retrospectively, see, below, there, followed, a, very, difficult, month, in, which, he, was, unable, to, keep, a, diary, saturday, 5th, october, it, is, in, the, smallest, of, things, that, suddenly, life, changes, very, suddenly, and, we, then, look, back, and, see, how, we, were, and, are, not, now, i, had, a, phone, call, at, ten, to, five, from, one, of, the, young, vet’s, father, father, was, asking, to, speak, to, george, or, i, that, in, itself, was, strange, the, receptionist, came, and, found, me, with, a, quizzical, look, saying, he, did, not, want, to, speak, to, young, vet, when, i, answered, the, phone, he, said, that, they, had, bad, news, in, that, her, brother, had, been, killed, in, a, traffic, accident, so, i, had, to, tell, her, the, bad, news, and, then, sort, out, the, consequences, once, she, had, got, over, the, initial, shock, wife, drove, her, to, her, parents, home, in, her, car, the, other, partners, are, away, so, we, are, short, staffed, and, young, vet, will, obviously, not, be, back, for, a, while, it, is, at, times, like, this, that, i, am, always, grateful, that, i, can, go, back, to, god, and, trust, in, him, even, though, i, do, not, understand, anything, i, know, that, i, can, trust, god, jan, 2003, writing, retrospectively, about, october, 2002, there, is, a, month, of, diaries, missing, from, the, death, of, vet’s, brother, onwards, i, always, meant, to, go, back, and, fill, in, the, days, that, i, missed, but, never, made, the, time, or, the, effort, i, found, the, time, very, difficult, so, how, her, parents, and, sister, in, law, coped, i, do, not, know, the, funeral, was, at, kirby, and, i, am, pleased, that, i, went, it, was, very, sad, to, see, some, one, in, the, prime, of, their, life, with, so, much, to, offer, cut, down, in, such, a, random, way, it, was, a, very, cumbrian, farming, gathering, the, red, faced, craggy, farmers, and, yet, there, was, a, friend, of, the, family, who, sang, at, the, wedding, who, was, a, black, american, gospel, singer, the, global, village, or, world, wide, family, of, the, church, take, your, pick, the, death, of, some, one, young, always, makes, you, consider, your, own, mortality, and, makes, you, think, about, what, you, are, doing, will, you, on, your, death, bed, wish, that, you, had, made, different, choices, the, next, month, was, busy, and, stressful, and, probably, a, time, which, would, have, been, useful, for, the, study, to, have, thoughts, and, reactions, to, my, life, when, under, stress, but, i, suppose, to, a, certain, extent, when, we, are, close, to, something, we, go, on, automatic, pilot, and, do, the, urgent, leaving, the, things, on, the, periphery, he, was, killed, while, driving, a, tractor, back, from, where, they, had, been, testing, cattle, for, american, bvd, they, had, bought, in, pedigree, world, class, dairy, cattle, this, included, a, sibling, to, an, embryo, which, had, had, the, american, bvd, so, the, ministry, were, keen, to, make, sure, that, it, was, not, established, within, the, uk, hence, the, reason, for, the, blood, sampling, i, know, you, cannot, look, at, history, and, say, what, if, but, if, the, cattle, had, not, been, culled, there, would, have, been, no, blood, sampling, to, do, and, no, reason, to, be, on, the, road, that, day, at, that, time, linkage, is, not, the, way, to, go, he, may, have, had, to, go, to, feed, stock, or, he, could, have, been, in, an, accident, in, another, way, but, the, ripples, of, actions, continue, to, reverberate, around, at, least, in, my, head, saturday, 12th, october, again, m, is, writing, retrospectively, here, of, his, first, thoughts, after, diagnosing, his, first, fmd, case, these, weeks, were, not, completed, because, of, my, stress, levels, i, have, wanted, to, transcribe, my, first, thoughts, on, fmd, that, were, written, in, a, hotel, in, newcastle, at, 2am, after, diagnosing, my, first, case, to, my, wife, dear, wife, i, don’t, know, why, i, am, writing, this, as, i, hope, to, see, you, tomorrow, but, i, suppose, i, need, to, record, what, i, feel, for, you, and, for, me, besides, sleep, eludes, me, today, was, a, beautiful, day, of, winter, sunshine, warm, sunshine, that, speaks, of, the, spring, that, is, to, come, on, frosted, snow, that, is, clear, and, white, and, pure, a, great, day, to, be, walking, up, in, the, hills, on, a, sunday, afternoon, enjoying, god’s, wonderful, creation, but, this, is, a, fallen, world, the, only, walkers, are, me, the, ministry, man, in, disposable, boiler, suit, and, waterproof, jacket, and, trousers, and, a, farmer, with, a, heavy, heart, we, go, into, each, field, checking, and, inspecting, all, the, pregnant, ewes, herding, them, into, a, corner, to, catch, and, examine, them, feet, ok, mouth, ok, a, smile, the, only, clue, to, the, sadness, on, this, man’s, heart, is, the, slight, acrid, smell, which, wafts, now, and, then, on, the, wind, the, smell, of, his, neighbours, future, burning, on, another, ministry, man’s, pyre, it’s, 2, o’clock, in, the, morning, and, why, am, i, writing, this, because, i, cannot, sleep, the, ministry, man, who, then, examined, the, cows, blisters, in, its, mouth, blisters, on, its, tongue, temp, 105f, i, am, sorry, i, say, it, is, they’ll, all, go, he, manages, to, say, fighting, back, tears, if, the, lab, confirms, it, yes, i, reply, as, a, farm, vet, of, 15, years, experience, i, am, not, allowed, to, say, it, is, foot, and, mouth, disease, only, that, i, suspect, it, an, anonymous, telephone, answerer, in, london, makes, stupid, comments, and, stupid, questions, i, take, my, samples, from, the, cow, i, grab, its, tongue, to, pull, it, out, to, take, a, sample, of, the, skin, from, the, tongue, the, cow’s, tongue, comes, off, in, my, hand, i, try, not, to, be, sick, and, place, the, sample, in, the, bottle, we, go, into, the, farmhouse, he, is, in, tears, she, is, in, tears, i, feel, like, crying, i, wouldn’t, do, your, job, for, all, the, b, tea, in, china, she, says, i, am, a, volunteer, a, tvi, all, big, depts, have, their, jargon, and, i, don’t, speak, it, yet, a, temporary, veterinary, inspector, i, only, started, 3, days, ago, a, clean, vet, who, had, not, been, in, contact, with, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, a, volunteer, from, general, practice, seconded, to, be, used, as, a, pawn, in, the, battle, against, fmd, a, man, from, the, ministry, as, i, leave, a, dirty, vet, having, double, disinfected, with, my, samples, and, a, heavy, heart, i, take, off, the, disposable, boiler, suit, and, put, on, my, shoes, i, am, me, again, not, the, man, from, the, ministry, hey, lad, nobody, would, know, you, from, anyone, else, like, that, says, the, farmer, he, has, seen, me, as, i, am, i, see, him, as, he, is, living, with, his, mother, since, his, father, died, so, as, to, be, on, hand, to, run, the, farm, his, wife, and, her, mother, in, law, trying, to, share, a, house, and, a, kitchen, while, they, convert, a, barn, into, a, house, the, builder, was, told, to, stay, away, a, week, ago, in, case, he, brought, disease, onto, the, farm, tomorrow, he, will, be, told, to, stay, away, as, there, will, be, no, income, for, at, least, 6, months, while, i, filled, in, forms, i, had, never, seen, before, with, initials, and, jargon, i’ve, never, heard, she, phoned, her, sister, to, pick, up, the, prescription, for, anti, depressants, the, doctor, said, she, should, go, on, them, while, the, stress, and, worry, of, foot, and, mouth, was, about, well, it’s, here, he, hasn’t, eaten, and, will, not, sleep, tonight, she, is, anxious, and, will, not, get, any, rest, and, the, man, from, the, ministry, well, its, 2am, and, i, am, writing, this, far, from, home, a, volunteer, a, tvi, a, pawn, in, a, bigger, game, but, after, 5, days, of, being, dirty, and, i, can, rejoin, life, back, to, normal, back, to, my, home, to, my, job, and, my, future, my, farming, couple, 5, days, of, shooting, and, burning, of, disinfectants, and, diggers, six, months, of, quarantine, and, a, future, in, farming, maybe, or, maybe, not, the, stories, abound, of, three, generations, waiting, for, the, men, from, the, ministry, but, grandfather, will, not, see, the, farm, restocked, the, stress, was, too, much, for, his, already, dodgy, heart, the, countryside, is, under, siege, and, pawns, are, being, lost, to, win, a, greater, gain, and, why, are, we, having, to, work, these, long, hours, and, sacrifice, these, pawns, because, some, one, was, so, arrogant, so, stupid, and, so, lazy, that, he, couldn’t, be, bothered, to, heat, the, swill, he, fed, to, his, pigs, he, couldn’t, keep, to, the, rules, that, were, made, so, this, would, not, happen, it, is, not, intensive, vs, extensive, organic, vs, agribusiness, it, is, sheep, vs, goats, and, they, will, be, sorted, saturday, 2nd, november, the, start, of, writing, diaries, again, after, a, break, of, a, few, weeks, i, am, hoping, to, go, back, and, fill, in, as, time, permits, so, this, is, today, and, forward, looking, working, the, w, e, with, young, vet, and, aw, sat, am, she, had, a, calving, this, morning, at, 4am, and, so, is, a, little, on, the, tired, side, so, hope, it, is, quiet, for, rest, of, the, w, e, did, surgery, and, then, spent, the, afternoon, trying, to, fix, the, out, sidelights, the, front, went, 18monhts, ago, which, shows, how, well, i, am, keeping, up, with, the, maintaince, on, this, house, but, the, back, one, went, recently, and, that, is, a, real, pain, as, you, cant, see, your, way, to, the, car, at, night, so, i, am, more, concerned, about, getting, it, fixed, the, old, lights, are, just, rusted, up, and, you, can, no, longer, replace, the, bulbs, so, up, the, ladder, to, re, wire, new, lights, i, went, unfortunately, i, was, on, call, and, yes, i, suppose, i, was, trying, to, do, too, much, but, if, you, don’t, try, you, don’t, succeed, so, i, downed, tools, went, off, to, calve, a, cow, and, then, came, back, to, find, a, neighbour, plus, her, 4, children, in, our, kitchen, so, i, stopped, had, a, cup, of, tea, and, then, headed, back, up, the, ladder, now, wife, maintains, i, should, have, noticed, that, there, were, lights, on, at, this, point, i, would, like, to, point, out, that, i, should, also, notice, when, she, has, moved, furniture, had, her, hair, cut, or, even, spring, cleaned, the, house, as, i, am, often, berated, for, my, lack, of, noticing, these, sorts, of, things, yes, i, should, have, noticed, but, i, didn’t, i, was, focussed, on, what, i, was, trying, to, do, as, usual, so, up, the, ladder, i, went, to, connect, up, the, light, not, knowing, that, wife, had, switched, the, electrics, back, on, and, yes, when, i, was, at, the, top, of, the, ladder, i, grabbed, the, wires, and, then, spent, what, seemed, an, awfully, long, time, trying, to, let, them, go, and, stay, on, the, ladder, as, the, electric, current, was, shocking, me, so, the, light, did, not, get, fixed, as, i, was, not, going, back, up, the, ladder, as, i, was, now, in, shock, ho, hum, sun, finished, the, light, while, every, one, was, out, and, then, picked, up, a, from, a, sleep, over, and, went, to, church, in, wigton, pm, was, speaking, on, the, parable, of, the, 10, bridesmaids, which, was, good, as, i, had, never, understood, it, as, it, is, obviously, related, to, a, cultural, thing, that, happened, at, weddings, in, jesus, day, the, point, being, that, the, wise, ones, who, were, waiting, for, the, return, of, the, bridegroom, had, the, oil, in, their, lamps, and, the, concept, that, this, was, the, holy, spirit, that, meant, they, could, meet, with, the, bridegroom, i, e, christ, i, am, not, sure, that, the, idea, is, entirely, right, since, there, is, that, big, leap, oil, holy, spirit, but, it, was, interesting, i, still, think, it, was, a, cultural, thing, that, was, obvious, to, his, original, listeners, and, we, just, don’t, have, a, clue, ali, and, andy, called, around, in, the, evening, it, was, really, good, to, see, him, again, he, used, to, be, a, vet, here, who, left, several, years, ago, and, it, looks, that, at, long, last, he, is, going, to, look, to, settle, down, he, was, quite, depressing, about, la, vet, practice, though, he, is, now, 100, small, animal, so, he, is, biased, they, are, actively, looking, at, taking, tb, testing, from, the, vets, in, his, area, and, the, vets, are, dropping, the, farm, practice, as, being, uneconomic, so, much, for, the, govt, wanting, more, farm, vets, around, at, least, this, is, a, low, cost, area, so, at, least, we, are, not, competing, with, small, animal, practices, able, to, offer, large, wages, to, assistant, vets, he, is, looking, to, set, up, his, own, or, buy, a, practice, to, settle, into, they, are, obviously, looking, to, get, married, so, that, will, be, another, wedding, to, go, to, we, have, been, invited, to, lb’s, who, is, finally, marrying, p, they, have, been, following, each, other, around, the, world, for, the, last, 2, years, from, disaster, to, disaster, as, they, are, both, in, humanitarian, relief, work, she, was, a, vet, student, here, too, mon, monday, monday, tell, me, why, i, don’t, like, mondays, young, vet, is, exhausted, and, everything, is, catching, up, with, her, so, she, is, going, to, take, the, end, of, the, week, off, the, joiner, finally, arrived, to, put, in, the, windows, and, had, real, problems, writhing, the, old, ones, out, and, so, has, taken, half, the, sand, stone, with, them, so, they, will, have, to, be, reconcreted, which, is, a, builders, job, ie, he, is, not, going, to, do, it, the, bathroom, is, still, in, pieces, 8, days, it, was, supposed, to, take, and, we, are, now, in, the, third, week, work, was, bedlam, so, i, was, queuing, the, ops, up, this, morning, i, hate, operating, all, morning, as, it, is, very, draining, as, i, have, to, concentrate, on, what, i, am, doing, while, the, office, staff, keep, coming, with, more, and, more, queries, urgh, got, another, stupid, letter, from, the, planners, quibbling, about, listed, building, consent, that, i, am, trying, to, get, for, the, windows, that, are, being, fitted, as, i, speak, i, started, the, ball, rolling, in, august, no, wonder, the, country, is, going, to, the, dogs, tuesday, calmed, down, a, bit, having, filled, in, the, visa, forms, for, our, holiday, to, india, the, great, legacy, of, the, british, the, bureaucracy, is, alive, and, well, why, do, they, want, to, know, my, mothers, place, of, birth, and, maiden, name, for, a, 2, week, holiday, civil, servants, missed, the, gym, cos, surgery, went, on, and, on, i, went, to, a, farm, and, was, asked, a, lot, of, questions, about, tb, as, they, had, had, a, reactor, the, ministry, had, been, out, testing, but, hadn’t, bothered, to, tell, us, mushroom, farmers, son, is, in, the, process, of, planning, next, years, football, team, weds, went, to, a, farm, today, and, he, is, complaining, that, he, cannot, get, his, cows, in, his, restocked, herd, back, in, calf, it, seems, to, be, an, ongoing, problem, a, lot, of, those, who, have, restocked, with, whole, herds, are, having, reduced, fertility, in, their, herds, it, would, be, an, interesting, study, to, see, the, figures, compared, to, non, restocked, herds, thursday, counting, the, days, until, i, am, off, work, continues, to, be, too, hectic, vet, who, lost, her, brother, is, off, and, it, makes, the, whole, pack, of, cards, of, having, enough, vets, to, cover, fall, down, i, think, too, i, am, just, very, tired, from, being, too, busy, for, too, long, when, planning, staffing, levels, it, is, usual, to, be, cautious, rather, than, to, have, too, many, vets, around, not, making, any, money, we, thought, we, were, stretching, it, by, employing, the, 2, new, grads, instead, of, the, one, it, is, also, just, being, under, pressure, all, the, time, with, out, a, few, days, to, cruise, it, went, out, to, chris, swifts, for, the, vcf, veterinary, christian, fellowship, which, was, really, good, as, usual, f, was, telling, us, about, the, thanksgiving, service, that, they, had, just, held, at, barnard, castle, she, has, also, just, got, engaged, so, it, may, curb, her, wanderings, she, is, an, explorer, and, mountaineer, she, is, just, back, from, antarctica, and, is, currently, doing, some, research, and, a, phd, at, durham, barnard, castle, practice, seems, well, organised, and, also, flexible, in, that, she, is, only, working, 3, days, a, week, to, spend, 2, days, at, durham, on, the, phd, it, was, really, good, speaking, to, friends, about, vet’s, brother, as, paul, was, with, them, at, the, accident, as, he, was, taking, the, bloods, so, spent, quite, a, while, praying, for, them, and, for, other, things, friday, bad, day, had, a, phone, call, from, the, planners, saying, they, were, not, going, to, allow, double, glazing, and, that, they, want, the, glazing, bars, to, be, 10mm, not, 20mm, why, there, are, no, 10mm, glazing, bars, on, the, spot, the, ministry, london, have, decided, that, they, are, not, going, to, train, lay, tb, testers, and, that, all, the, work, is, going, to, go, out, to, lvi’s, us, so, we, are, now, looking, at, a, lot, of, work, again, carlisle, defra, in, conjunction, with, london, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, want, all, the, restocked, herds, tested, annually, with, every, animal, tested, not, just, the, adult, breeding, stock, so, from, looking, at, dropping, 1, 2, vets, 10, days, ago, we, are, now, going, to, be, looking, at, employing, extra, staff, if, we, can, get, hold, of, them, how, are, we, supposed, to, be, planning, for, the, future, if, it, is, so, dependent, on, the, whim, of, defra, officials, saturday, 9th, november, went, to, the, school, pta, pub, quiz, last, night, at, the, rugby, club, it, was, good, fun, but, i, was, struggling, both, to, stay, awake, and, to, dredge, up, the, infotainment, trivia, of, the, previous, year, it, is, funny, how, the, questions, chosen, reflected, the, people, who, were, asking, them, what, had, stuck, in, their, memory, or, that, they, had, chosen, nick, and, jane, were, across, from, newcastle, i, stayed, with, them, for, a, few, nights, when, working, for, defra, across, there, when, i, could, not, face, the, faceless, loneliness, of, the, hotel, consequently, was, completely, zonked, sat, morning, just, went, around, the, house, being, grumpy, went, to, watch, son, play, football, they, thrashed, yewdale, in, the, county, cup, it, was, good, to, be, out, in, the, fresh, air, and, came, back, to, sleep, for, a, while, before, heading, out, to, roy, and, christiana’s, en, famille, we, had, to, pick, up, fraser, from, wigton, this, is, their, son, who, has, just, started, seeing, a, girl, in, wigton, he, is, 14, and, so, was, amusingly, embarrassed, we, were, talking, about, leaving, the, kids, at, what, age, do, you, leave, them, on, their, own, and, to, look, after, the, younger, ones, christiana, told, us, about, when, she, left, all, three, boys, for, an, hour, and, a, half, and, the, older, two, had, got, so, fed, up, with, youngest, being, annoying, they, hung, him, by, his, joggers, from, the, post, at, the, bottom, of, the, stairs, the, middle, one, said, in, all, seriousness, that, it, was, his, fault, that, he, had, torn, his, trousers, if, he, hadn’t, tried, to, escape, the, trousers, would, have, been, fine, even, now, he, considers, that, the, wrongdoing, was, the, ripping, of, the, trousers, not, the, fact, that, they, had, hung, him, up, sun, went, to, church, in, morning, and, fittingly, for, remembrance, sunday, it, was, on, repentance, and, gods, love, daniels, prayer, in, daniel, 9, was, very, fitting, some, how, lunch, and, more, football, and, crashed, in, to, bed, exhausted, mon, tim, is, away, for, the, first, time, on, his, own, with, the, school, on, an, outward, bound, week, south, of, keswick, he, was, so, excited, about, going, i, think, wife, was, a, little, put, off, that, he, was, not, thinking, about, missing, home, hey, ho, but, that, is, a, sign, of, secure, roots, i, suppose, met, up, with, a’s, maths, teacher, to, discuss, her, maths, there, has, been, a, lot, of, to, and, froing, between, the, teachers, but, not, much, communication, with, home, so, we, went, to, see, what, they, were, saying, and, have, left, it, as, the, status, quo, which, is, what, it, should, be, first, call, today, was, a, farmer, who, is, just, out, of, hospital, having, had, his, appendix, removed, for, appendicitis, he, had, seen, this, cow, and, said, why, haven’t, you, had, the, vet, to, it, he, is, a, good, stocksman, and, with, him, being, out, of, action, they, had, a, relief, milker, in, who, hadn’t, noticed, it, had, a, twisted, uterus, and, was, trying, to, calve, if, i, had, seen, it, on, friday, i, could, have, sorted, it, out, but, because, it, was, now, to, late, i, had, to, send, it, off, it, is, sad, but, the, agricultural, industry, is, losing, a, lot, of, experience, and, a, lot, of, stocksmanship, and, handling, and, general, expertise, it, is, not, sthg, that, can, be, replaced, we, are, seeing, more, twisted, wombs, because, of, the, transport, and, fighting, amongst, restocked, herds, the, sad, thing, is, that, he, said, to, me, we, should, never, have, restocked, we, should, have, taken, the, money, and, let, it, all, go, it, is, just, too, much, hassle, with, the, paper, work, and, training, cows, they, have, just, housed, the, cattle, and, so, they, are, all, fighting, to, come, in, to, the, parlour, to, get, milked, and, just, making, life, difficult, there, is, a, real, disillusionment, around, at, the, moment, but, there, are, also, those, who, are, gearing, up, to, milk, more, and, more, cows, to, stay, still, 300, tuesday, the, great, european, market, combined, with, defra’s, inflexibility, is, causing, a, few, problems, the, dutch, heifers, that, have, been, imported, to, replace, some, of, the, fmd, losses, have, a, unique, identifier, number, which, is, on, their, ear, tag, so, everyone, knows, who, they, are, so, far, so, good, they, also, have, nl, on, them, rather, than, uk, which, means, we, know, they, are, from, holland, the, problem, is, they, have, a, small, check, digit, on, them, at, the, end, this, means, dutch, computers, can, recognise, if, the, ear, tag, is, a, valid, one, or, has, been, misread, the, uk, tags, have, a, check, digit, at, the, front, of, the, number, very, useful, to, help, rule, out, misreadings, or, transcribing, of, the, ear, tags, however, the, defra, computer, doesn’t, recognise, the, numbers, so, we, are, being, asked, to, retest, heifers, because, they, still, have, an, outstanding, record, of, the, ear, tag, numbers, as, untested, because, the, extra, digit, has, or, had, not, been, entered, on, the, uk, system, the, number, of, out, standing, tests, is, dropping, but, we, will, not, be, able, to, keep, up, with, this, level, of, testing, more, allocations, have, arrived, today, managed, to, get, all, the, bits, sorted, so, i, could, leave, at, 5, 30, for, my, few, days, off, the, only, out, standing, thing, is, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, end, of, year, it, was, supposed, to, be, in, by, 18th, of, oct, but, hey, ho, weds, i, have, taken, a, few, days, off, to, try, and, paint, the, windows, and, new, bathroom, we, are, having, put, in, the, planners, phoned, to, query, again, about, the, windows, and, i, told, them, they, were, already, in, so, it, went, down, like, a, lead, balloon, and, they, are, coming, to, tell, me, off, they, also, started, querying, the, other, windows, from, 95, the, problem, with, having, a, few, days, off, is, that, i, get, very, head, achey, and, feel, washed, out, and, ill, once, the, adrenalin, stops, i, seem, to, crash, thursday, met, up, with, charlie, from, longtown, vets, for, lunch, which, was, great, his, practice, in, carlisle, that, he, has, started, is, going, well, it, is, on, the, main, road, out, to, scotland, and, looks, really, good, and, he, is, getting, lots, of, custom, just, by, being, there, he, is, looking, for, a, part, time, vet, to, start, mornings, friday, repainted, the, bathroom, walls, after, discovering, i, had, used, 2, different, shades, of, green, one, was, ming, grey, the, other, ming, blue, i, just, opened, them, one, after, the, other, and, thought, the, difference, was, because, the, one, had, dried, and, the, other, was, still, wet, ooops, the, plumber, is, having, problems, with, the, electrics, and, getting, the, lights, to, work, so, it, was, all, fused, out, i, am, just, glad, we, have, a, shower, as, well, or, we, would, all, be, getting, rather, smelly, by, now, went, to, watch, changing, lanes, at, cinema, a, rather, thoughtful, if, slow, and, unbelievable, set, up, but, nice, escapism, for, an, hour, or, two, saturday, november, 16th, working, again, but, feel, better, for, having, had, a, few, days, off, even, if, the, bathroom, isn’t, finished, getting, to, be, a, bit, of, a, saga, oh, well, never, mind, sat, morning, surgery, was, busy, and, then, several, farm, calls, afterwards, for, the, amount, of, stock, around, and, the, cost, effectiveness, of, veterinary, time, we, are, doing, an, incredible, amount, of, clinical, work, dan, the, sheep, ai, vet, who, locums, for, us, on, occasions, phoned, up, wanting, alison’s, phone, number, she, was, of, course, out, it, being, sat, night, his, technician, is, ill, and, he, has, 250, swales, to, ai, tomorrow, hope, he, finds, some, one, all, the, sheep, ai, and, embryo, technicians, are, very, busy, as, people, try, to, build, up, their, pedigree, herds, and, flocks, by, breeding, for, top, quality, sun, am, busy, with, calls, and, then, painted, doors, in, bathroom, while, son, painted, the, window, very, messy, but, he, enjoyed, it, it, will, give, him, confidence, to, try, again, it, is, patience, and, practice, went, to, church, in, the, evening, rob, whitaker, the, principal, of, capernwray, bible, college, was, preaching, he, is, so, animated, and, relevant, he, was, talking, on, feeding, the, 5000, and, jesus, compassion, and, just, the, circumstances, jesus, was, in, at, the, time, how, he, used, the, disciples, and, then, applying, it, to, us, and, to, the, church, in, general, espy, compassion, very, challenging, went, on, to, meet, up, with, lads, and, spent, time, praying, phil, is, pretty, down, about, not, having, a, job, it, effects, his, self, worth, didn’t, help, that, fraser, had, a, brand, new, merc, sitting, out, side, his, house, mon, hit, the, maelstrom, running, with, an, in, tray, flowing, out, and, still, nothing, together, for, year, end, to, accountant, so, pushed, practice, manager, and, then, started, operating, and, haunting, him, every, 20, mins, in, between, ops, and, keeping, him, on, task, the, problem, is, that, there, are, so, many, other, things, going, on, at, the, moment, that, the, non, urgent, keep, disappearing, in, to, tomorrow, the, new, drugs, discount, system, is, working, and, generating, a, lot, of, interest, and, then, hopefully, will, cut, down, on, the, black, market, with, any, luck, the, increased, turn, over, will, make, up, for, margin, usual, problem, solving, and, smoothing, over, and, 2nd, opinions, to, sort, out, the, 20, day, rule, is, not, stopping, one, of, our, local, cattle, dealers, from, buying, and, selling, he, says, the, paperwork, to, run, 5, holding, numbers, is, horrendous, ken, and, anne, called, around, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, they, have, a, lime, spreading, business, and, have, been, really, busy, over, fmd, both, with, lime, for, land, that, is, going, to, be, used, for, barley, and, crops, rather, than, grass, and, with, a, lot, of, stone, for, building, work, and, new, pathways, and, for, lonnings, whereas, farmers, were, happy, to, move, cattle, via, roads, they, are, trying, to, reduce, the, movements, along, roads, and, are, putting, in, tracks, for, the, cows, tuesday, more, tracings, to, check, for, tb, these, are, cattle, bought, from, a, farm, where, tb, has, since, been, confirmed, and, the, paperwork, to, go, with, them, ear, tags, don’t, correlate, so, going, to, be, a, problem, rota, nightmare, at, the, moment, as, everyone, is, organising, their, skiing, trips, so, we, are, going, to, have, 1, 2, vets, off, all, of, jan, and, most, of, feb, took, first, box, load, of, paperwork, to, the, accountant, he, is, an, old, fashioned, up, the, back, stairs, not, a, computer, in, sight, type, of, fella, he, is, a, wily, old, fox, much, more, than, he, looks, as, he, manages, to, keep, the, taxman, happy, and, off, our, backs, which, is, probably, the, most, important, the, financial, year, doesn’t, look, too, bad, but, doesn’t, allow, for, the, number, of, days, of, holiday, carried, over, if, we, had, to, give, the, holiday, pay, or, pay, a, vet, to, cover, for, those, days, it, would, make, them, look, a, lot, less, rosy, got, back, in, time, for, gym, and, then, tuesday, kid, chauffer, work, then, fell, into, bed, and, slept, weds, the, phone, stopped, at, 4, 00pm, and, didn’t, ring, again, until, 9, 30, this, morning, weird, the, work, has, just, stopped, like, a, tap, being, turned, off, so, got, the, rest, of, testing, sorted, sorted, out, the, rest, of, the, stuff, for, the, accountant, tidied, the, office, wrote, up, my, book, and, even, thought, about, mucking, my, car, out, only, got, as, far, as, thinking, about, it, as, coffee, break, arrived, didn’t, earn, much, but, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, skipped, off, early, and, gave, the, bathroom, doors, second, coat, thursday, 21st, november, pay, day, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, friday, had, a, horrendous, night, with, ill, calves, with, pneumonia, in, the, evening, a, calving, at, 1, am, in, silloth, then, a, dog, trying, to, die, at, 5am, so, was, i, ever, pleased, that, it, was, my, half, day, slept, and, played, squash, with, l, j, in, the, afternoon, the, dog, belonged, to, an, old, lady, who, had, no, children, and, it, was, her, husbands, dog, who, had, died, 4, years, previously, she, was, going, to, be, on, her, own, if, it, dies, so, she, was, very, tearful, and, upset, the, dog, is, not, looking, good, as, it, is, 16yr, poodle, type, thing, she, is, isolated, booth, because, she, doesn’t, drive, and, lives, out, at, the, coast, and, because, she, and, her, husband, retired, to, here, and, neither, have, any, family, around, i, felt, for, her, made, me, appreciate, my, family, so, much, more, saturday, 23rd, november, wife, is, away, on, a, course, today, so, for, my, w, e, off, i, am, running, the, kids, and, doing, the, cooking, i, dropped, of, other, son, to, squash, did, some, errands, in, wigton, and, then, watched, the, squash, coaching, they, are, very, patient, and, encouraging, the, total, contrast, was, shown, at, son, s, football, they, are, a, very, good, team, but, i, really, do, not, like, the, attitude, of, most, of, the, coaches, and, teams, in, the, carlisle, teams, i, was, late, to, arrive, and, they, were, already, 4, 0, up, and, this, was, the, second, half, it, was, only, when, i, walked, around, to, where, the, coach, was, did, he, think, about, giving, son, and, the, other, 2, subs, a, game, we, have, had, it, out, with, him, before, that, he, should, give, all, the, kids, a, chance, to, play, or, else, they, find, it, crushing, son, was, really, fed, up, with, the, situation, but, he, does, love, playing, and, is, quite, loyal, the, coach, always, justifies, that, he, has, to, play, his, best, team, which, he, doesn’t, he, plays, his, favourites, friends, sons, but, the, point, is, irrelevant, if, you, are, winning, by, that, margin, then, you, can, afford, to, have, weaker, players, on, the, field, they, went, on, to, win, 10, 0, we, will, have, to, get, a, thursby, team, organised, for, next, year, went, on, to, longtown, poultry, sale, very, interesting, lots, of, rare, birds, and, waterfowl, will, have, to, go, and, buy, next, year, and, get, some, different, types, for, a, to, breed, up, sun, dan, spoke, on, walking, on, water, in, his, own, inimitable, style, he, is, so, refreshing, and, practical, and, honest, made, it, a, call, to, prayer, as, well, didn’t, do, much, in, morning, as, wife, was, on, course, but, finally, managed, to, finish, bathroom, hoorah, mon, decided, that, if, defra, was, a, business, it, would, be, bust, by, now, we, are, on, a, rollercoaster, trying, to, look, at, the, future, with, them, they, only, make, up, in, a, normal, year, about, 20, of, our, farm, fee, income, but, that, has, been, much, higher, over, the, past, few, years, the, chief, defra, vet, has, been, flying, kites, as, they, say, in, politics, to, see, what, the, reaction, is, or, has, been, doing, as, he, has, been, told, by, whitehall, i, don’t, know, what, the, ins, and, outs, of, it, are, but, the, gist, has, been, they, are, going, to, employ, their, own, vets, to, do, the, testing, as, this, would, be, much, more, efficient, and, cost, effective, when, it, was, pointed, out, this, wasn’t, going, to, be, the, case, we, went, to, they, would, employ, non, vets, to, do, it, as, this, would, be, much, cheaper, there, would, then, not, be, any, farm, animal, vets, in, large, areas, of, the, country, as, it, would, reduce, the, fee, income, even, further, where, the, farm, side, of, vet, businesses, is, marginal, it, would, just, be, given, up, it, would, mean, our, business, in, a, high, stock, area, would, probably, drop, 2, vets, so, london, finally, decided, that, the, status, quo, would, probably, be, best, at, the, same, time, carlisle, in, consultation, with, page, st, decided, that, as, there, is, so, much, tb, being, found, in, the, restocked, farms, that, all, the, restocked, farms, should, be, tested, on, an, annual, basis, and, that, all, animals, not, just, breeding, stock, should, be, tested, this, means, about, a, 25, increase, in, work, load, for, the, next, 2, winters, so, instead, of, dropping, a, vet, we, should, look, to, be, taking, one, on, but, we, cannot, believe, what, is, going, to, happen, next, as, how, can, we, plan, when, such, drastic, changes, are, proposed, in, the, space, of, a, month, tuesday, went, to, do, routine, fertility, at, a, farm, today, and, it, was, quite, depressing, in, that, a, neighbour, of, theirs, who, has, started, up, again, has, had, a, really, bad, time, the, problems, of, restocking, on, top, of, bad, hips, he, was, all, gung, ho, to, get, restocked, and, although, he, had, a, sore, leg, he, didn’t, go, to, the, doctors, while, he, had, the, chance, when, he, had, no, stock, as, it, was, only, a, little, sore, but, as, soon, as, he, got, stock, back, and, started, to, do, a, lot, of, physical, work, they, were, very, sore, so, he, went, to, the, dr’s, and, has, 2, hips, which, need, replaced, but, as, he, is, only, 40, they, don’t, want, to, do, it, yet, and, it, would, mean, no, physical, work, for, a, long, period, on, top, of, that, he, has, mastitis, problems, caused, by, taking, his, plant, to, pieces, by, defra, he, has, lost, 8, cows, and, heifers, through, calving, illness, or, injury, so, after, less, than, a, year, he, looks, set, to, give, up, disillusioned, and, a, lot, poorer, the, workload, for, us, is, easing, as, most, cattle, are, now, housed, and, a, lot, of, the, housing, work, is, sorted, i, always, feel, it, is, a, run, down, to, christmas, now, with, all, the, preparations, and, celebrations, and, kids, and, adult, parties, i, was, at, another, farm, today, who, had, meningitis, a, year, ago, and, has, still, not, really, recovered, properly, he, is, still, finding, it, hard, to, get, going, he, lost, all, his, animals, and, all, his, work, during, fmd, and, the, additional, strain, has, meant, he, has, lost, a, lot, of, interest, in, the, farming, side, he, can’t, be, bothered, with, all, the, hassle, and, paper, work, of, farming, sheep, and, cattle, and, so, is, growing, a, lot, of, veg, which, he, and, his, wife, have, always, enjoyed, growing, they, just, retail, at, the, farm, gate, it, doesn’t, make, much, money, but, as, he, says, it, just, keeps, things, turning, over, and, he, and, his, wife, have, time, for, each, other, and, no, hassle, life, is, more, important, than, making, a, living, very, profound, i, am, going, to, go, part, time, i, wish, wednesday, there, seem, to, be, a, lot, of, problems, still, on, restocking, farms, they, are, all, having, problems, with, getting, the, cows, back, in, calf, two, farms, today, complained, that, even, though, they, were, more, than, pleased, with, the, compensation, at, the, time, the, costs, of, restocking, are, much, much, more, it, would, be, interesting, to, do, a, survey, on, the, number, of, breeding, animals, bought, in, and, those, who, have, been, lost, either, through, illness, or, by, failure, to, get, in, calf, the, old, diseases, are, still, causing, the, most, problems, lung, worm, a, disease, i, thought, was, well, under, control, and, well, understood, has, caused, huge, problems, ibr, or, cow, flu, has, caused, so, many, problems, that, we, can, no, longer, get, the, vaccine, as, all, the, stocks, have, been, used, it, was, interesting, today, that, one, of, the, farms, that, is, about, to, start, milking, having, finally, restocked, ordered, vaccine, for, lepto, ibr, and, bvd, almost, as, a, matter, of, course, but, fertility, is, causing, the, most, worries, thursday, feel, a, lot, better, after, an, early, night, apart, from, running, to, and, from, carlisle, after, my, daughter, youth, group, last, night, and, evening, shopping, tonight, son, is, still, trying, to, organise, an, u14, thursby, team, for, next, year, all, he, needs, is, a, coach, the, problem, is, that, it, is, a, big, commitment, i, wish, i, could, do, it, but, i, work, too, many, w, e’s, spent, time, day, dreaming, about, what, to, do, with, the, byre, in, our, yard, it, is, an, old, knackered, building, that, needs, bulldozing, but, wife, s, dad, thinks, we, should, just, look, after, it, and, convert, it, into, sthg, but, what, i, still, think, that, there, is, an, opening, for, herriot, holidays, taking, people, for, a, day, at, the, vets, and, then, a, day, at, the, mart, and, so, on, diversification, is, the, name, of, the, game, friday, had, an, interesting, day, what, with, one, thing, and, another, no, lunch, but, hey, who’s, complaining, one, of, the, nurses, at, work, has, a, chicken, shed, with, her, husband, and, another, farmer, partner, the, fans, and, alarms, all, failed, and, so, the, air, was, not, circulating, the, farmer, was, devastated, it, was, a, horrendous, sight, a, carpet, of, dead, chickens, there, were, 23,000, in, the, shed, and, we, worked, out, there, were, roughly, 2, 3000, left, alive, 20.000, dead, it, brought, back, memories, of, fmd, also, the, logistics, of, disposing, of, 20, tonnes, of, dead, chicken, i, hope, the, insurance, covers, it, out, for, dinner, at, christiana’s, had, a, vet, friend, call, around, at, teatime, he, is, a, meat, hygiene, practice, covering, several, different, meat, plants, they, have, several, vets, covering, all, the, different, plants, he, has, been, asked, to, got, to, harrogate, to, discuss, how, the, different, proposed, regulations, can, be, implemented, a, marked, improvement, on, the, usual, dumping, of, unworkable, ideas, from, defra, hq, saturday, 30th, nov, took, a, while, to, get, going, after, being, out, for, dinner, last, night, though, it, was, very, pleasant, spent, day, doing, odds, and, ends, went, to, watch, son, play, footie, and, bought, an, orchid, from, the, orchid, farm, the, kids, were, making, cards, for, mum, and, wrapping, presents, so, it, was, fun, james, came, down, with, his, kids, so, there, were, 7, running, riot, which, is, really, a, bit, too, many, after, a, late, night, sun, 1st, church, in, the, morning, and, johnboy, called, around, to, see, what, time, the, prayer, meeting, finished, as, he, had, arranged, a, surprise, party, for, wife, s, 40th, so, had, loads, of, folks, in, sunday, night, which, was, great, they, had, all, crept, in, to, the, big, kitchen, and, decorated, it, while, we, were, in, the, front, room, a, and, son, had, been, going, back, and, forth, so, wife, never, noticed, so, it, was, special, the, kids, were, as, high, as, kites, mon, 2nd, wife, is, forty, and, there’s, a, photo, in, the, news, and, star, to, prove, it, the, kids, brought, breakfast, in, bed, and, opened, presents, poor, other, son, after, 3, late, nights, did, not, want, to, go, to, school, i, hope, they, are, all, right, for, gran, wife, s, mum, and, sister, arrived, nannies, from, ireland, to, the, rescue, they, are, going, to, look, after, the, kids, while, we, are, away, for, a, few, days, we, have, had, a, bit, o, banter, about, them, looking, after, the, kids, sister, found, an, advert, for, nannies, from, ireland, which, is, an, au, pair, service, and, sent, of, for, the, info, which, she, forwarded, to, us, she, is, a, character, so, they, have, been, asking, about, working, conditions, and, pay, i, have, been, requesting, police, checks, and, giving, as, good, as, i, get, the, winds, are, pretty, strong, so, they, have, had, a, bad, journey, the, super, ferry, was, cancelled, so, they, have, had, to, come, by, boat, which, takes, much, longer, a, baked, a, cake, and, managed, to, get, 40, candles, on, it, both, wife, and, i, are, looking, forward, to, getting, away, as, usual, work, was, really, busy, and, lots, of, loose, ends, to, tie, up, prior, to, leaving, but, finished, for, 3, days, hoorraaahhh, tues, 3rd, spent, the, day, travelling, up, to, loch, lomond, stopped, off, at, braeside, and, at, gretna, and, bought, some, clothes, and, mooched, around, cameron, house, is, beautiful, with, wonderful, views, and, you, can, just, walk, down, to, the, lake, there, is, a, pool, so, went, for, a, swim, before, dinner, very, civilised, we, had, just, finished, dinner, when, the, waitress, arrived, with, a, cake, with, 4, candles, and, sang, a, rather, wobbly, happy, birthday, sister, had, been, very, keen, that, we, left, the, phone, number, of, cameron, house, even, though, she, had, our, mobile, numbers, now, we, know, why, very, pleasant, surprise, but, we, will, never, eat, any, cake, let, alone, a, whole, one, while, we, were, strolling, around, after, dinner, came, across, the, picture, that, one, of, our, friends, had, used, to, decorate, the, kitchen, with, on, sunday, he, had, come, across, it, somewhere, in, a, book, and, it, looks, vaguely, like, wife, so, he, had, put, it, up, with, lady, wife, underneath, and, here, was, the, original, or, at, least, a, print, of, the, same, picture, weird, weds, after, a, very, lazy, start, a, swim, before, breakfast, full, scottish, we, walked, up, eastern, edge, of, loch, in, sunshine, and, showers, we, were, only, caught, out, in, one, shower, there, was, a, rainbow, down, to, the, loch, edge, a, beautiful, winter, walk, i, have, decided, i, am, going, to, walk, the, west, highland, way, with, the, boys, had, some, fruit, for, lunch, as, cooked, breakfast, on, top, of, dinner, last, night, means, i, don’t, really, need, to, eat, for, a, week, another, swim, thought, about, the, gym, but, i, am, on, holiday, and, felt, wonderfully, relaxed, and, then, dinner, thursday, another, lazy, start, and, swim, before, breakfast, a, walk, along, the, loch, and, the, back, to, glasgow, to, the, burrell, collection, we, just, wandered, around, the, paintings, i, can, sit, and, look, at, the, impressionists, and, keep, seeing, something, new, they, are, very, beautiful, came, back, home, in, time, for, tea, though, did, not, eat, anything, as, too, much, food, made, up, a, ditty, for, the, nannies, nannies, from, ireland, came, to, stay, so, respondent, and, wife, could, go, away, off, the, children, went, to, school, while, respondent, and, wife, swam, in, the, pool, the, nannies, were, left, with, all, the, dust, cleaning, dirt, for, their, daily, crust, their, experienced, gleaned, over, all, the, years, could, not, stop, all, other, son, s, tears, off, to, school, you, must, go, said, a, stern, faced, nanny, lo, the, nannies, go, to, tk, max, forgetting, all, about, the, cats, something, is, sick, on, the, mat, the, nannies, really, don’t, like, that, a, m, l, begs, go, and, fetch, all, the, eggs, on, animals, they’re, not, too, what, did, the, contract, really, mean, keen, they, will, not, give, another, day, until, something, is, done, about, their, pay, so, back, to, ireland, with, this, tale, they, do, go, via, cummersdale, as, their, pay, all, disappears, they, decide, on, new, careers, lois, thinks, of, a, racing, car, ruth, just, of, going, far, so, our, thanks, to, them, are, due, the, nannies, from, ireland, crew, its, now, their, turn, to, go, and, play, till, they’re, called, another, day, edited, to, remove, names, in, verse, friday, bad, hair, day, having, come, back, all, relaxed, and, cheerful, i, was, relaxed, until, i, missed, my, lunch, after, working, all, day, plenty, of, hassle, from, one, thing, and, another, i, was, then, on, call, at, night, and, it, was, very, busy, loch, lomond, and, cameron, house, seem, a, long, long, time, ago, i, am, extremely, fed, up, i, do, not, want, to, calve, another, cow, out, side, office, hours, ever, again, saturday, 7th, december, worked, this, morning, after, a, bad, night, on, call, and, felt, like, death, warmed, up, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, stuff, out, and, did, some, calls, got, finished, at, 1pm, and, went, back, to, bed, went, to, xmas, party, at, white, heather, which, was, good, fun, but, i, was, just, too, knackered, to, enjoy, it, sunday, working, a, few, calls, and, plenty, of, pneumonia, drugs, for, calves, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, with, the, east, wind, blowing, it, is, a, wee, bitty, cruel, wind, but, at, least, it, is, dry, not, weather, to, be, working, out, side, it, also, seems, to, be, getting, dark, really, early, i, need, some, sun, on, my, back, 4, weeks, to, go, till, india, had, a, migraine, or, flu, at, night, and, went, to, bed, and, started, throwing, up, i, cannot, burn, the, candle, at, one, end, even, at, the, moment, mon, off, work, ill, but, a, new, vet, student, starting, and, r, is, off, as, well, xmas, shopping, so, thrown, in, at, deep, end, tuesday, went, back, in, and, did, my, bit, working, at, night, but, night, work, easing, off, thank, goodness, plenty, of, high, cell, count, investigations, to, try, and, sort, out, weds, took, kids, swimming, after, work, with, the, vet, student, it, was, good, to, do, some, exercise, and, chill, out, went, to, staples, prior, to, going, to, the, pool, where, as, usual, there, was, no, one, on, the, desk, for, print, cartridges, so, i, went, and, found, one, of, the, girls, chatting, on, the, till, to, get, me, what, i, was, looking, for, as, i, couldn’t, find, an, hp58, what, i, hadn’t, noticed, was, some, one, else, just, standing, at, the, other, end, of, the, long, counter, who, was, then, very, upset, and, aggressive, that, i, had, jumped, the, queue, he, is, obviously, having, a, worse, week, than, me, as, he, could, have, gone, and, got, some, one, from, the, tills, as, easily, as, i, did, but, didn’t, so, why, he, got, so, upset, i, don’t, know, now’t, as, queer, as, folk, other, son, was, very, upset, tonight, when, we, got, back, from, swimming, because, he, had, shaved, one, side, of, his, head, wife, had, cut, the, others, hair, but, his, was, still, short, and, didn’t, need, it, he, wanted, it, done, so, in, the, shower, took, things, into, his, own, hands, and, shaved, off, his, side, burn, but, only, on, one, side, he, did, not, like, getting, laughed, at, either, thursday, christiana, came, to, the, rescue, over, the, hair, other, son, s, and, has, managed, to, make, it, look, not, too, bad, but, it, was, funny, on, call, at, night, but, as, most, nights, seem, double, booked, at, the, moment, went, to, kids, performance, they, are, doing, alice, in, wonderland, very, good, they, can, really, sing, and, perform, the, teachers, do, get, a, lot, out, of, them, tim, was, the, knave, of, hearts, character, actor, and, other, son, was, a, frog, footman, grebbit, grebbit, it, was, good, fun, only, had, a, phone, call, to, put, a, client, at, ease, about, her, cat, so, managed, to, wing, it, friday, out, at, friends, tonight, kids, younger, 2, at, performance, older, 2, are, at, xmas, meal, so, a, bit, of, a, juggling, act, to, get, everyone, at, right, place, at, right, time, missed, out, on, the, cumberland, vet, club, social, which, was, a, shame, but, can, only, be, in, one, place, at, a, time, saturday, 14th, december, had, a, good, meal, out, except, only, started, talking, about, the, publicity, for, as, i, was, wanting, to, go, and, fall, asleep, some, where, i, cannot, take, late, nights, it, is, just, i, am, feeling, too, tired, all, the, time, i, think, that, the, adrenalin, has, run, out, and, i, just, feel, stale, hope, xmas, sorts, it, out, spent, morning, working, did, surgery, and, then, sorted, out, queries, with, gg, for, the, accountant, spent, the, afternoon, writing, cards, and, trying, to, put, together, lists, of, folk, we, should, send, too, a, disaster, got, as, far, as, m, before, running, out, of, cards, and, initiative, went, around, to, s’s, for, nibbles, as, a, house, warming, she, is, some, caterer, her, mother, does, it, as, a, job, so, she, has, helped, so, great, food, could, have, done, with, some, non, vets, to, dilute, down, the, vetiness, sunday, got, up, and, took, kids, to, church, wife, is, doing, a, thing, on, borderline, at, night, so, she, has, to, prepare, that, played, football, and, caught, up, with, a, few, bits, and, pieces, and, did, some, gardening, chatted, to, a, vet, from, chippenham, who, was, complaining, about, the, tb, situation, there, they, have, one, beef, farm, where, when, they, first, discovered, tb, the, farm, took, a, week, to, test, as, there, were, 600, head, there, are, only, 200, left, so, it, only, takes, a, day, the, farmer, has, been, unable, to, but, in, store, cattle, to, feed, and, has, lost, over, 100, to, defra, it, has, been, 2, monthly, testing, for, almost, 2, years, now, and, he, still, has, not, had, a, clear, test, she, was, down, too, just, from, too, much, on, call, monday, got, up, feeling, exhausted, but, even, though, not, very, busy, couldn’t, get, going, the, dairy, farms, are, all, feeling, very, nervous, over, the, nestle, pull, out, farmers, said, to, me, that, they, were, pleased, that, their, sons, are, not, going, to, be, going, into, farming, both, teenagers, one, a’s, year, and, one, a, year, older, both, looking, to, work, in, it, it, used, to, be, a, point, of, sadness, that, the, next, generation, is, not, following, on, but, there, seems, to, be, a, general, air, of, resignation, that, farming, is, not, going, to, be, a, good, career, sad, really, tuesday, 17th, december, spent, the, day, sorting, out, the, remaining, bits, and, pieces, for, the, accountant, we, met, with, him, at, night, which, as, usual, was, the, sorting, out, of, this, and, that, the, finding, of, the, relevant, pieces, of, paper, and, then, what, the, unaccounted, cheques, were, for, we, are, still, making, money, but, only, thanks, to, defra, so, three, cheers, for, mrs, beckett, cynic, it, made, it, a, very, long, day, and, lois, is, off, for, the, week, so, we, are, short, staffed, again, but, last, tests, are, today, as, we, will, not, be, able, to, get, bloods, to, the, labs, because, of, the, christmas, post, i, do, like, this, time, of, year, where, you, hear, from, friends, who, you, have, not, seen, for, ages, and, think, the, same, as, you, did, last, year, i, will, have, to, catch, up, with, them, soon, hey, ho, weds, 18th, there, is, a, lot, of, pneumonia, about, and, the, farmers, are, all, buying, vast, quantities, of, drugs, to, treat, whole, batches, of, calves, and, stirks, the, is, the, usual, mix, but, far, more, than, normal, i, don’t, know, whether, to, be, pleased, that, the, practice, is, doing, well, and, invoicing, a, lot, or, sad, that, there, is, so, much, disease, around, and, we, will, have, a, horrendous, drugs, bill, a, dilemma, i, don’t, think, i, should, explore, thurs, 19th, fri, 20th, kids, went, to, ice, rink, in, carlisle, with, wife, they, have, set, up, an, out, door, rink, which, the, city, council, are, sponsoring, to, attract, people, in, to, the, centre, i, don’t, think, that, they, really, need, to, as, the, place, seems, crowded, enough, as, it, is, son, bashed, his, head, quite, badly, and, other, son, fell, over, and, hurt, his, knee, tim, fell, loads, of, times, and, just, ended, up, wet, and, happy, their, different, characters, are, coming, out, saturday, 21st, december, the, beginning, of, the, christmas, rota, i, feel, as, though, we, are, in, the, run, up, to, christmas, now, i, have, also, made, the, mistake, of, not, buying, all, my, presents, before, now, and, went, into, carlisle, to, go, shopping, it, was, quite, nice, in, some, ways, to, see, the, ice, rink, and, mingle, in, the, crowds, but, an, hour, and, a, half, was, plenty, the, kids, have, decided, that, they, are, going, to, ask, for, money, to, take, to, india, this, year, from, the, aunts, and, uncles, and, so, there, will, be, fewer, presents, to, open, as, christmas, seems, to, be, getting, more, and, more, manic, and, commercialised, i, think, that, it, is, a, very, good, idea, well, done, a, and, son, sunday, 22nd, carols, by, candlelight, it, was, magical, the, church, was, packed, out, and, so, i, ended, up, standing, at, the, back, which, in, some, ways, was, quite, nice, as, you, look, down, the, aisles, to, the, stage, and, there, are, rows, of, candles, and, fairy, lights, down, the, sides, pm, lead, it, and, there, were, different, age, groups, taking, part, he, spoke, on, being, a, christmas, tree, and, how, we, end, up, all, convoluted, by, our, own, wrong, choices, and, how, we, can, have, lots, of, fairy, lights, and, a, star, on, top, and, have, an, image, on, the, outside, that, looks, wonderful, but, what, are, we, like, inside, all, those, things, we, surround, ourselves, with, god, knows, and, he, cares, and, he, loves, us, enough, to, send, a, gift, to, help, us, his, son, immanuel, god, with, us, who, will, take, away, the, sin, of, the, world, i, was, really, quite, moved, by, it, all, this, is, the, real, christmas, mon, 23rd, bump, reality, bites, back, it, is, difficult, to, focus, on, the, important, things, of, life, and, keep, a, perspective, on, life, if, it, keeps, getting, interrupted, by, monday, mornings, but, that, is, where, jesus, should, be, in, the, smelly, cattle, shed, and, in, the, market, place, and, making, a, difference, i, will, have, to, think, that, one, out, while, i, have, time, in, india, the, urgent, as, usual, is, pushing, out, the, important, managed, to, go, swimming, at, foxes, the, first, exercise, i, have, had, for, ages, must, get, back, into, it, maybe, wait, for, the, new, year, resolutions, as, exercise, wet, weather, and, working, over, christmas, don’t, really, go, together, tues, 24th, christmas, eve, working, but, quiet, apart, from, last, minute, panics, as, people, think, that, their, ill, dogs, and, cats, will, not, make, it, over, christmas, with, out, seeing, the, vet, called, in, to, pow, heads, for, the, turkey, they, really, do, have, a, good, butchery, and, poultry, business, going, now, good, to, see, direct, selling, by, farmers, or, cooperatives, is, the, only, way, forward, to, break, the, stranglehold, of, the, supermarkets, wife, is, panicking, about, not, having, enough, food, so, i, am, dispatched, to, buy, more, bread, and, milk, i, think, about, protesting, that, if, there, were, 5000, we, still, would, not, need, a, miracle, but, decide, this, is, one, of, those, occasions, when, it, is, better, to, just, spend, another, 2, quid, for, the, peace, wife, s, parents, arrive, an, hour, later, from, belfast, bringing, 2, loaves, of, bread, and, 5, different, types, of, irish, bread, and, 6, pints, of, milk, and, another, 3, boxes, of, food, i, wonder, about, making, a, joke, about, feeding, the, 5000, plus, inflation, but, decide, that, discretion, is, the, better, part, of, valour, and, just, put, them, in, the, freezer, weds, 25th, kids, started, at, 5, 45, am, and, were, unceremoniously, sent, back, to, bed, but, they, were, allowed, to, bring, their, stockings, in, at, half, past, seven, i, was, on, 2nd, call, so, while, they, all, went, off, to, church, i, spent, an, hour, in, the, surgery, seeing, dogs, one, had, meningitis, and, was, very, near, death’s, door, and, the, owner, was, not, that, worried, the, other, is, just, unwell, and, could, have, waited, but, the, problem, is, you, never, know, got, back, and, made, christmas, dinner, so, wasn’t, all, work, though, i, do, feel, amongst, all, the, commercialism, and, turkey, dinners, the, true, significance, of, immanuel, god, who, is, with, us, is, lost, thursday, 26th, on, first, call, and, lots, of, pneumonia, drugs, to, put, out, and, kept, busy, afternoon, evening, we, had, folk, around, lots, of, different, ages, and, backgrounds, so, was, a, real, mix, and, good, fun, friday, 27th, surgery, reopened, and, was, really, busy, i, am, pleased, that, we, had, put, plenty, of, staff, on, the, rota, it, is, always, a, difficult, balance, to, make, trying, to, work, out, if, there, will, be, enough, staff, to, cover, the, work, no, one, wants, to, work, over, xmas, new, year, but, if, there, are, not, enough, then, it, makes, it, really, awful, for, those, that, are, working, but, if, you, have, people, sitting, around, they, resent, that, too, but, it’s, nice, to, know, i, get, it, right, sometimes, doing, a, rota, always, strikes, me, as, a, no, win, situation, as, it, is, always, a, compromise, between, the, two, extremes, saturday, 28th, december, on, call, friday, night, and, then, i, finished, at, lunchtime, wife, wanted, me, to, go, on, church, walk, but, i, was, knackered, and, we, are, all, going, out, tonight, for, dinner, so, i, went, to, bed, for, a, few, hours, sleep, much, to, my, wife’s, displeasure, having, been, on, call, for, the, whole, period, as, soon, as, i, stop, i, crash, out, as, the, adrenalin, fades, and, i, realise, how, tired, i, am, but, only, mon, am, to, work, then, prepare, for, india, and, hitting, the, beach, it, does, take, its, toll, on, family, life, being, on, call, especially, over, the, christmas, period, the, folk, we, are, going, to, dinner, with, he, is, a, policeman, and, they, have, similar, frictions, sun, 29th, the, service, at, church, tonight, was, memorable, the, last, evening, of, the, year, they, have, people, talking, about, what, god, has, been, doing, in, their, lives, so, it, is, usually, people, who, are, not, eloquent, not, used, to, speaking, up, front, but, who, speak, in, a, very, real, way, about, what, jesus, has, been, working, in, their, lives, over, the, past, year, dp, who, is, 14, who, has, had, bone, cancer, gave, a, very, moving, account, about, how, he, had, nearly, died, how, so, often, we, compare, our, selves, with, those, who, have, more, than, us, whether, in, health, or, other, things, we, should, compare, ourselves, with, those, who, have, less, we, should, appreciate, our, lives, and, thank, god, for, who, and, what, we, are, he, has, had, his, ups, and, downs, but, we, are, to, follow, god’s, guiding, and, his, path, for, us, our, lives, are, in, god’s, hands, we, are, to, pray, and, to, trust, in, him, for, our, future, this, is, a, young, lad, who, has, seen, 4, of, the, friends, he, has, made, in, hospital, die, it, makes, the, trivia, we, fill, our, lives, with, back, in, perspective, mon, 30th, last, half, day, and, lots, of, last, minute, things, to, sort, out, before, i, finish, for, new, year, and, the, 2, weeks, in, india, the, cash, flow, has, gone, to, pot, because, of, the, large, amount, of, pneumonia, drugs, we, have, sold, and, tax, vat, going, out, in, end, of, jan, so, needed, to, make, sure, someone, keeps, an, eye, on, it, while, i, am, away, and, makes, sure, that, it, all, falls, into, place, the, problem, with, going, away, is, that, no, one, keeps, up, with, all, the, admin, type, work, that, i, do, so, my, in, tray, will, be, overflowing, by, the, time, i, get, back, tues, 31st, the, young, people, are, partying, at, our, house, so, we, left, them, to, it, rather, than, cramp, their, style, so, we, had, a, very, pleasant, evening, at, some, farming, friends, we, rang, up, and, called, in, on, spec, they, have, 5, boys, so, we, knew, they, wouldn’t, want, to, get, baby, sitters, for, new, year’s, eve, whereas, we, had, about, 40, they, have, stopped, dairying, but, are, now, worried, about, how, the, new, ruling, will, affect, them, at, the, moment, they, lease, their, quota, which, provides, a, fair, amount, of, income, the, new, german, ruling, will, be, applicable, across, the, whole, eec, that, non, producers, cannot, hold, and, therefore, lease, quota, this, means, they, will, have, to, either, sell, it, in, a, flooded, market, or, go, back, to, dairy, farming, unless, mr, p, can, work, a, way, around, the, new, system, they, are, also, taking, advice, and, looking, at, all, sorts, of, diversification, schemes, some, seem, quite, a, good, idea, others, i, think, are, non, starters, they, already, have, invested, some, of, the, fmd, money, into, setting, up, a, student, house, in, carlisle, the, way, house, prices, are, going, around, here, it, is, probably, a, very, good, investment, not, really, the, way, forward, for, farming, though, the, only, depressing, feature, of, the, evening, was, i, asked, what, they, thought, the, future, of, cattle, vets, was, the, answer, was, none, well, that’s, a, good, start, to, 2003, we, got, home, to, find, the, party, in, full, swing, and, we, left, them, to, it, and, went, to, bed, 1st, jan, 2003, got, up, some, what, late, after, staying, up, for, the, new, years, eve, the, young, people, had, cleared, up, after, the, party, and, we, were, amazed, at, how, well, they, had, done, they, had, set, off, the, dish, washer, and, all, we, had, to, do, was, empty, it, i, was, impressed, the, only, reminder, they, had, been, there, was, when, we, drew, the, curtains, there, were, several, glasses, which, had, been, missed, as, they, were, on, the, window, sill, and, bizarrely, an, odd, sock, the, sock, game, my, daughter, assures, me, was, very, funny, but, what, i, want, to, know, is, who, went, home, with, only, one, sock, on, started, thinking, about, india, a, good, job, my, wife, is, organised, as, we, set, off, tomorrow, 2nd, jan, thursday, travelled, down, to, see, my, brother, and, family, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, again, played, risk, which, was, a, bit, of, a, christmas, tradition, when, we, were, kids, it, was, funny, to, be, playing, with, him, and, both, sets, of, kids, as, i, felt, like, a, kid, again, it, was, really, nice, though, b, won, he, managed, to, wipe, people, out, and, amass, their, risk, cards, he, risked, everything, and, it, went, to, the, last, throw, of, the, dice, so, it, was, quite, exciting, friday, 3rd, jan, travelled, down, to, my, dads, to, have, tea, and, drop, off, some, stuff, before, heading, for, the, airport, i, am, pleased, we, have, had, a, few, days, off, before, flying, as, it, is, a, night, flight, and, i, hate, travelling, when, i, am, already, exhausted, the, weather, was, the, usual, british, winter, of, rain, and, wind, a, friend, of, mine, is, convinced, that, this, is, due, to, global, warming, more, energy, in, the, system, means, more, rain, and, wind, in, which, case, cumbria, is, not, going, to, be, the, place, to, live, as, it, is, already, wet, and, windy, enough, the, next, 2, weeks, recall, x’s, family, holiday, to, india, sat, 4th, january, 2003, i, am, sitting, in, the, nilgiri, hills, in, southern, india, in, shorts, and, t, shirt, enjoying, the, coolness, of, the, high, altitude, it, is, almost, twice, the, height, of, ben, nevis, on, bbc, world, last, night, it, showed, a, reporter, in, london, with, an, umbrella, trying, to, keep, off, the, large, wet, snowflakes, we, are, visiting, friends, who, teach, at, a, christian, school, here, the, contrasts, of, india, always, seem, so, great, the, poverty, and, the, opulence, side, by, side, the, beggars, and, the, road, repairers, at, the, side, of, the, road, in, make, shift, tents, of, plastic, sheeting, and, huts, of, bamboo, leaves, then, the, huge, opulent, houses, wooden, floored, and, air, conditioned, with, their, own, generators, and, the, 4, hotels, with, marbled, floors, and, artificial, streams, and, waterfalls, we, came, on, a, cheap, charter, flight, as, it, was, cheaper, to, come, to, trivandrum, on, a, flight, and, a, package, with, hotel, b, b, than, to, just, buy, the, flights, the, emphasis, though, should, be, on, cheap, it, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, had, to, pay, for, drinks, on, the, plane, the, air, stewardesses, seemed, to, be, there, for, a, good, time, rather, than, to, look, after, the, passengers, can't, complain, though, as, it, was, cheap, the, only, worry, was, the, re, routing, we, were, originally, supposed, to, be, going, via, united, arab, emirates, but, the, refuelling, was, transferred, to, bahrein, as, we, flew, in, we, were, warned, it, was, a, military, as, well, as, civilian, airport, so, no, photography, was, allowed, the, build, up, of, us, forces, in, the, gulf, must, be, pretty, major, as, even, here, there, were, large, numbers, of, us, air, force, planes, and, massive, sinister, looking, helicopters, it, is, difficult, to, believe, that, they, are, aiming, to, keep, the, peace, by, preparing, for, war, the, papers, here, are, also, full, of, sabre, rattling, between, pakistan, and, india, with, daily, reports, of, skirmishes, in, kashmir, there, is, also, exchanges, of, political, rhetoric, between, the, two, states, how, much, is, actually, for, real, and, how, much, is, sabre, rattling, no, one, knows, the, weekly, telegraph, is, also, reporting, that, iraq, has, shot, down, a, reconnaissance, drone, the, same, sort, that, blew, up, one, of, the, el, quaedi, leaders, in, yemen, the, us, is, obviously, trying, regime, change, by, several, methods, the, us, response, was, to, blow, up, several, command, and, control, facilities, the, war, hasn't, officially, started, yet, but, the, skirmishes, are, going, on, the, cost, the, previous, year, for, the, raf, to, patrol, the, no, fly, zone, was, 22, uk, million, the, last, quarter, was, 10, times, that, so, there, is, money, being, spent, the, priorities, of, govts, is, often, difficult, to, work, out, the, indian, govt, doesn't, have, enough, money, at, the, local, level, to, organise, a, proper, refuse, collection, system, yet, has, money, to, develop, hi, tech, weaponry, the, attitudes, to, rubbish, here, is, very, different, when, we, were, at, the, beach, the, actual, beach, is, combed, by, litter, pickers, but, the, areas, in, between, are, terrible, there, are, 2, smart, 4, hotels, and, the, govt, buildings, where, the, tourism, training, takes, place, the, grounds, are, immaculate, and, the, flowers, and, area, beautiful, but, once, out, side, the, grounds, it, is, a, cross, between, a, rubbish, dump, and, a, building, site, with, piles, of, rubbish, and, sand, and, rubble, we, went, for, a, snorkelling, trip, around, the, coast, to, a, fishing, harbour, where, the, sea, was, calm, and, there, were, plenty, of, rocks, for, the, fish, to, hide, in, and, swim, in, and, out, of, the, boats, were, a, few, bits, of, wood, tied, together, with, string, seriously, there, were, two, central, planks, and, two, edge, planks, and, then, an, aft, piece, of, wood, to, hold, the, aft, part, together, which, was, reinforced, by, cord, the, wood, is, so, light, that, it, floats, with, our, weight, fairly, easily, the, oars, were, split, bamboo, with, no, grips, so, it, made, for, interesting, rowing, or, is, it, paddling, they, are, more, like, large, canadian, canoes, than, boats, very, hawaii, five, o, the, planks, were, roughly, shaped, but, as, we, rode, the, waves, the, water, fountained, up, through, the, holes, in, the, bottom, h, asked, what, wood, they, were, made, of, but, didn't, understand, the, answer, must, be, a, type, of, balsa, we, set, off, from, under, the, light, house, there, was, another, group, going, at, the, same, time, i, think, they, must, have, agreed, to, pay, top, whack, whereas, you, soon, learn, to, try, to, bargain, about, the, price, of, everything, here, they, had, two, helpers, in, the, boat, to, paddle, whereas, we, were, the, economy, class, with, two, paddles, but, only, one, guide, in, our, two, boats, we, took, turns, in, helping, to, paddle, whether, we, made, much, difference, to, the, progression, of, the, boat, i, don, t, know, but, it, was, fun, it, was, a, bit, worrying, that, we, were, heading, for, the, least, scenic, part, of, the, coast, the, other, way, is, beautiful, sandy, beaches, for, miles, there, is, a, wave, powered, generator, at, the, edge, of, the, harbour, a, few, rusty, wrecks, and, bits, of, broken, concrete, but, when, we, arrived, the, snorkelling, was, brilliant, it, was, like, swimming, in, a, tropical, fish, tank, my, favourite, were, small, electric, blue, fish, which, darted, away, as, soon, as, you, came, near, there, were, big, black, and, yellow, striped, tiger, fish, there, were, 2, sorts, one, with, vertical, stripes, and, one, with, horizontal, not, at, all, timid, the, angel, fish, with, their, long, dangling, barbs, were, shy, and, would, only, appear, when, you, kept, still, there, were, some, very, large, spiky, sea, anemones, as, big, as, a, football, loads, of, crabs, and, shoals, of, fish, which, swim, hither, and, thither, some, were, quite, bizarre, there, were, some, that, looked, like, sea, horses, that, had, been, straightened, out, you, almost, could, see, a, jockey, getting, a, saddle, ready, to, put, on, them, for, the, saltwater, derby, the, huge, variety, and, colours, were, just, outstanding, we, spent, a, few, hours, and, then, got, thoroughly, sun, burnt, on, the, way, back, the, boys, had, been, full, of, beans, on, the, way, there, but, were, exhausted, in, the, heat, on, the, way, back, we, spent, today, making, and, flying, kites, on, top, of, a, hill, at, pykara, the, kids, or, was, it, the, dad's, made, kites, and, then, we, tried, to, fly, them, h's, won, his, design, was, copied, from, an, original, no, stick, design, and, managed, to, fly, almost, successfully, my, traditional, kite, shaped, one, flew, once, but, its, aerodynamics, weren't, quite, right, son, s, yellow, square, was, successful, none, however, matched, the, ikea, bought, one, we, played, cricket, and, frisbee, as, the, water, buffalos, wandered, passed, in, the, typical, indian, way, of, having, no, real, boundaries, between, one, thing, and, another, called, in, at, the, vedera's, which, was, very, pleasant, the, garden, was, stunning, as, usual, i, love, driving, through, the, tea, plantations, with, acres, of, terraced, tea, plants, and, through, the, forest, to, get, there, the, hotel, is, an, up, market, indian, rather, than, a, western, which, is, great, for, us, the, décor, lacks, a, little, in, taste, and, design, concrete, floors, and, that, rather, quaint, unfinished, look, spotlessly, clean, and, the, thing, about, india, is, they, love, having, kids, around, and, spend, ages, talking, with, them, and, love, having, them, around, going, out, for, meals, in, uk, with, children, is, always, a, bit, stressful, as, low, blood, sugars, combined, with, the, general, attitude, of, people, to, children, does, not, make, it, a, pleasant, experience, whereas, even, the, hours, wait, for, the, food, here, is, not, stressful, as, the, kids, wander, off, play, games, read, books, etc, son, and, other, son, have, befriended, a, man, at, the, blue, moon, gift, shop, he, has, spent, hours, playing, chess, and, talking, to, them, son, won, a, little, elephant, off, him, by, beating, him, at, chess, son, decided, he, would, buy, josh, the, chess, set, and, kept, bargaining, the, price, down, he, eventually, paid, 350, rupees, for, it, 4.60, the, beach, is, idyllic, with, palm, trees, and, warm, rolling, sea, the, only, problem, is, having, to, get, the, kids, out, of, the, sun, during, the, red, hot, period, between, 12, and, 2, we, do, keep, slapping, on, the, sun, tan, lotion, i, missed, the, widows, peaks, where, my, hair, is, receding, and, have, sun, burnt, red, patches, either, side, of, my, head, the, boys, have, variable, tanning, depending, on, where, the, sun, block, was, washed, off, first, dear, friends, just, a, quick, note, to, say, that, we, are, enjoying, ourselves, so, much, that, we, don't, want, to, come, home, but, we, would, miss, all, our, friends, we, had, a, great, time, at, the, beach, you, know, the, palm, trees, the, warm, rolling, sea, the, sandy, beaches, and, unlike, silloth, 30, degrees, warmth, in, fact, some, days, it, was, to, hot, and, we, had, to, drag, the, boys, out, of, the, sea, or, else, they, would, have, been, really, sun, burnt, we, are, just, back, from, 3, days, at, avalanche, which, is, a, bit, of, an, unfortunate, name, for, a, mountain, out, door, centre, but, as, there, isn't, any, snow, i, don't, think, the, indians, appreciate, the, irony, it, is, up, in, the, mountains, a, jungle, area, where, there, is, very, little, apart, from, a, few, tea, plantations, reservoirs, and, hydroelectric, plants, and, jungle, and, the, wood, men, who, harvest, the, wood, every, 10, years, we, left, a, bus, and, walked, in, to, the, centre, while, a, truck, took, the, bags, food, and, the, lazy, ones, it, is, incredibly, beautiful, with, high, hills, and, lakes, but, there, is, a, drought, at, the, moment, so, the, reservoirs, are, all, very, low, and, everywhere, is, incredibly, dry, and, dusty, thick, red, dust, which, gets, in, to, everything, the, facilities, were, basic, the, water, ran, from, a, stream, to, a, tank, to, the, taps, no, electric, showers, but, fortunately, as, always, in, india, there, was, a, little, man, or, in, fact, 3, who, cooked, for, us, all, a, is, taking, after, wife, their, main, concern, was, not, meeting, any, rats, we, abseiled, down, a, waterfall, walked, and, swam, in, another, well, son, and, other, son, swam, i, am, afraid, it, was, too, cold, for, me, i, will, wait, until, we, go, back, down, to, the, beach, we, all, went, kayaking, and, sat, around, the, campfire, at, night, saturday, 18th, january, 2003, the, end, of, our, indian, holiday, and, escape, from, cumbrian, weather, wife, saw, the, rep, yesterday, and, the, bus, was, arranged, for, 12, 30, for, a, flight, at, 5, 30, this, tour, company, is, something, else, so, we, are, going, to, catch, a, taxi, at, about, 3pm, so, we, are, not, hanging, around, the, airport, for, ages, having, 4, children, and, going, through, the, bureaucracy, of, an, indian, airport, is, bad, enough, with, out, the, additional, hassle, of, waiting, around, for, 3, hours, with, out, reason, the, annoying, part, is, that, so, much, of, it, is, pointless, in, that, they, put, your, bags, through, the, security, x, ray, in, the, main, hall, and, then, give, you, your, bags, back, so, that, if, you, wanted, to, add, stuff, to, your, bag, you, could, you, have, to, go, to, 1, desk, to, check, in, another, to, get, your, seat, another, to, exit, indian, immigration, and, customs, and, then, identify, your, bags, to, get, them, put, on, the, plane, worse, than, defra, so, we, spent, a, last, morning, swimming, on, the, beach, and, then, said, good, bye, to, the, cs, and, gs, wife, had, to, buy, her, material, fro, the, study, we, were, all, quite, sad, coming, away, i, think, we, could, have, all, stayed, and, enjoyed, living, in, india, but, back, to, porridge, sun, 19th, arrived, at, dads, at, 3am, uk, time, after, clearing, customs, flight, was, not, too, crowded, thank, goodness, as, the, space, allocated, for, my, legs, is, not, enough, they, had, as, before, messed, up, their, allocation, of, vegetarian, meals, with, the, height, of, european, ignorance, and, stupidity, they, offered, a, hindu, family, by, us, a, beef, meal, the, stewardesses, should, have, known, better, but, i, just, cringed, with, inward, embarrassment, at, their, thoughtlessness, left, in, t, shirts, and, shorts, arrived, cold, in, jeans, and, fleeces, the, air, conditioning, i, don’t, think, was, working, properly, and, every, one, was, coughing, and, dry, mouthed, as, we, arrived, in, gatwick, drove, back, up, to, cumbria, and, back, to, the, house, it, was, a, strange, sensation, to, be, back, we, had, done, so, much, and, seemed, changed, and, yet, everything, here, was, still, the, same, and, yet, not, really, in, some, ways, it, is, like, after, the, fmd, epidemic, before, and, after, everything, is, the, same, but, nothing, is, the, same, part, of, you, is, trying, to, find, where, you, fit, in, the, new, reality, part, of, you, wants, the, safety, of, the, old, ways, slightly, dislocated, from, your, surroundings, but, the, physical, surroundings, are, the, same, but, i, suppose, you, have, changed, and, the, old, certainties, that, were, not, certain, but, seemed, it, have, made, way, for, new, changeable, ways, that, are, not, certain, and, you, know, that, they, are, not, certain, mon, 20th, i, have, taken, the, day, off, to, recover, the, kids, were, all, up, really, early, because, of, the, jet, lag, and, so, had, no, qualms, about, sending, them, to, school, i, spent, the, day, unpacking, and, sorting, out, with, wife, the, pile, of, post, was, huge, but, seemed, a, lot, more, manageable, by, the, time, i, had, thrown, out, al, the, junk, mail, why, do, i, need, another, 2, credit, cards, any, way, transferred, money, for, tax, bills, and, downloaded, the, emails, there, were, only, 50, so, ploughed, my, way, through, them, when, you, are, away, for, any, length, of, time, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, work, is, required, to, keep, a, household, going, with, all, the, bills, and, stuff, tues, 21st, back, to, work, and, to, face, my, in, tray, still, feeling, a, little, jet, lagged, and, seeing, an, overflowing, in, tray, as, you, arrive, is, a, daunting, feeling, did, some, of, it, and, then, went, out, on, call, it, was, good, to, be, back, on, farm, and, seeing, folk, again, it, always, amazes, me, how, everyone, around, here, knows, everything, so, they, were, all, asking, about, india, and, had, we, had, a, good, time, so, it, was, nice, to, feel, part, of, the, community, as, a, friend, of, mine, once, commented, there, is, only, one, thing, worse, than, being, talked, about, that, is, not, being, talked, about, there, is, still, that, funny, feeling, of, having, been, away, and, having, changed, but, nothing, here, is, any, different, and, yet, thinking, that, it, should, be, though, why, it, should, be, i, don’t, know, weds, 22nd, george, wanted, a, partners, meeting, at, lunch, time, so, we, met, up, and, had, the, usual, decision, making, process, to, be, honest, the, jet, lag, was, still, really, kicking, in, so, i, was, asleep, on, my, feet, it, doesn’t, usually, effect, me, for, this, long, but, both, wife, and, i, are, shattered, by, 8pm, the, kids, are, ok, and, going, to, bed, after, us, the, sign, of, things, to, come, the, whole, pets, travel, scheme, is, causing, problems, it, has, been, presented, as, a, passport, for, pets, but, all, it, really, does, is, allow, re, entry, to, the, uk, from, certain, countries, as, long, as, you, meet, the, conditions, we, have, had, a, few, problems, and, we, do, very, few, so, what, it, must, be, like, for, those, on, the, south, coast, i, dread, to, think, the, problems, are, 2, main, ones, 1, that, there, is, a, 6, month, period, before, you, can, come, back, into, the, uk, after, the, paper, work, is, completed, you, can, go, before, the, 6, months, so, people, who, spend, the, summer, on, a, caravan, site, will, take, their, dog, abroad, but, cannot, come, back, before, the, 6, month, date, there, is, also, a, problem, where, the, forms, have, to, be, renewed, it, has, to, be, done, according, to, the, manufactures, directions, which, vary, from, country, to, country, as, in, france, it, is, a, govt, regulation, that, dogs, are, vaccinated, annually, so, the, vaccine, manufactures, stick, to, that, in, the, uk, dogs, have, to, be, done, every, 2, years, cats, annually, so, you, cannot, have, your, documentation, renewed, in, france, unless, you, vaccinate, annually, whereas, in, the, uk, you, can, renew, it, with, vaccinating, every, 2, years, the, other, problem, is, that, the, paperwork, is, so, complex, that, according, to, defra’s, figures, there, is, a, 18, failure, rate, i.e, 1, in, 6, don’t, make, it, back, in, there, is, also, a, problem, in, that, there, has, been, at, least, one, dog, imported, into, cumbria, with, out, any, paperwork, as, the, owners, thought, all, they, needed, was, a, rabies, vaccination, we, are, dealing, with, it, on, a, weekly, basis, and, are, confused, so, the, poor, punters, don’t, stand, a, chance, thursday, 23rd, there, is, a, real, problem, with, cow, fertility, in, the, restocking, farms, at, the, moment, i, went, to, 1, farm, where, of, the, 10, cows, i, checked, only, one, was, in, calf, which, is, a, little, sad, no, baby, calves, no, milk, production, and, more, losses, for, the, fmd, farmers, the, compensation, is, looking, very, small, the, only, ones, who, benefited, are, those, who, took, the, money, and, got, out, it, is, difficult, trying, to, work, out, why, these, cows, are, having, so, much, of, a, problem, as, usual, i, suspect, there, is, no, simple, answer, the, blood, tests, and, analyses, do, not, help, much, the, cows, have, been, under, a, lot, of, stress, the, movement, into, new, regimes, and, cattle, systems, where, they, have, to, learn, where, to, go, where, the, water, troughs, are, where, the, milking, parlour, is, they, have, had, to, sort, out, the, pecking, order, of, the, cows, which, espy, in, the, larger, units, is, probably, quite, stressful, where, you, add, animals, to, a, herd, there, are, lead, cows, who, know, the, set, up, and, cows, are, very, much, follow, my, leader, in, their, behaviour, patterns, where, there, is, a, complete, cull, and, restocking, there, are, no, lead, cows, so, no, leader, for, the, cows, to, follow, there, has, also, been, a, lot, of, illness, in, the, herds, which, again, will, reduce, fertility, the, other, problem, is, the, poor, quality, silage, because, of, the, bad, weather, the, other, factor, that, keeps, coming, up, in, conversation, is, what, effect, the, topping, of, grass, has, on, silage, grazing, quality, which, would, have, been, an, interesting, study, that, will, never, be, done, now, stress, is, a, generality, of, a, word, but, i, can’t, think, of, a, better, more, specific, way, of, expressing, the, problems, the, stress, of, all, the, changes, has, caused, fertility, problems, the, difficulty, is, in, finding, where, do, you, go, from, here, i, think, a, lot, will, end, up, culling, fairly, large, numbers, 15, 20, because, of, fertility, friday, 24th, one, of, the, defra, tv’s, called, in, on, her, way, back, from, a, test, tb, to, let, us, know, that, there, was, still, an, ir, causing, problems, she, also, said, that, it, looked, like, there, was, going, to, be, a, complete, herd, cull, for, tb, in, the, east, of, the, county, the, farmer, had, restocked, from, three, sources, all, were, down, to, do, as, tracings, as, well, as, to, be, done, under, the, restocking, tb, testing, they, found, 32, reactors, with, lesions, so, they, will, probably, cull, the, whole, herd, it, is, so, depressing, to, think, what, the, farmer, must, be, thinking, and, whether, he, can, face, getting, back, into, farming, again, after, this, further, disaster, does, not, bear, thinking, about, saturday, 25th, january, 2003, linda, b’s, wedding, travelled, down, to, derby, for, wedding, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, finally, tie, the, knot, as, they, have, been, talking, about, it, for, so, long, they, have, followed, each, other, around, several, continents, so, at, least, that, will, have, seen, each, other, in, different, situations, she, first, came, as, a, student, and, has, worked, for, us, as, a, locum, she, spent, 2, years, at, all, nations, bible, college, in, london, where, she, met, him, so, a, lot, of, their, friends, from, all, nations, were, there, they, have, been, doing, agricultural, relief, work, in, the, worlds, hot, spots, from, kosovo, to, indonesia, from, haiti, to, bolivia, they, are, currently, in, bolivia, working, with, church, groups, she, has, been, setting, up, tb, testing, programme, as, there, is, a, problem, of, human, tb, which, has, been, blamed, on, the, cattle, but, they, have, completed, the, testing, and, it, is, not, the, cattle, it, seems, to, be, nearly, all, human, to, human, spread, so, that, at, least, they, can, make, a, start, on, eradicating, tb, in, humans, by, treating, the, in, contacts, they, went, away, from, the, church, in, a, horse, drawn, carriage, which, was, nice, to, see, spent, quite, a, lot, of, time, catching, up, with, vets, and, their, friends, who, we, have, not, seen, for, ages, sun, 26th, we, were, staying, with, friends, from, carlisle, who, moved, down, to, derbyshire, when, he, started, to, teach, we, went, to, their, church, which, is, a, house, church, and, is, a, little, different, to, put, it, mildly, they, meet, in, a, school, and, it, is, very, informal, with, a, drumming, band, and, a, desire, not, to, be, restricted, by, convention, or, liturgy, so, it, was, a, mixture, of, readings, and, worship, songs, they, do, seem, to, be, reaching, out, to, their, local, community, as, there, were, people, from, all, walks, of, life, there, mon, 27th, back, to, work, and, not, feeling, very, good, had, 2, weeks, in, india, and, no, stomach, bugs, but, a, w, e, in, derby, and, i, have, a, very, runny, tummy, came, home, from, work, early, and, went, to, bed, tues, 28th, off, work, ill, in, bed, being, male, this, involves, dying, noisily, in, a, corner, some, sympathy, i, get, from, my, wife, weds, 29th, not, feeling, good, but, dragged, myself, back, in, as, i, have, had, that, much, time, off, recently, and, i, feel, that, i, have, to, turn, in, but, i, am, off, tomorrow, so, i, can, recover, then, the, only, drawback, is, that, i, will, be, working, the, w, e, the, sheep, seem, to, have, decided, to, start, lambing, or, maybe, decided, not, as, we, seem, to, be, seeing, a, few, if, you, get, what, i, mean, thursday, had, a, good, day, off, and, spent, time, sleeping, and, doing, household, things, even, though, i, hate, diy, it, was, good, to, get, some, jobs, sorted, called, in, at, vets, to, pick, up, stuff, for, court, tomorrow, friday, the, more, i, experience, the, legal, proceedings, the, more, i, feel, that, they, are, a, waste, of, time, what, is, important, is, how, good, your, lawyer, is, the, case, was, all, about, whether, or, not, this, guy, had, starved, his, greyhounds, or, not, he, had, but, as, he, was, on, legal, aid, he, thought, it, might, be, better, to, try, to, keep, his, other, dogs, and, have, fewer, judgements, against, him, he, obviously, knew, his, way, around, the, legal, system, saturday, 1st, feb, 2003, reflections, on, court, case, it, is, one, of, those, really, annoying, things, that, you, can, never, replay, what, has, happened, the, case, yesterday, really, churned, me, up, with, having, to, make, huge, moral, decisions, more, or, less, on, the, spur, of, the, moment, the, complicating, factors, were, that, c, who, was, acting, on, the, defence, was, acting, outside, the, rcvs, guidelines, now, i, could, have, pointed, out, this, to, the, rspca, lawyer, but, as, c, has, already, been, struck, off, once, the, matter, could, well, have, turned, very, badly, for, him, even, though, it, is, his, decision, to, get, involved, and, a, poor, one, then, i, think, that, it, is, not, for, me, to, land, him, in, the, muck, i, could, have, done, so, both, on, the, fact, he, should, not, have, been, speaking, and, also, that, i, could, have, pointed, out, that, his, record, is, tainted, why, he, was, being, an, expert, witness, in, the, first, place, for, some, one, who, is, not, even, their, client, beadsmen, beats, me, i, had, reservations, about, doing, the, legal, work, for, the, rspca, and, at, least, we, do, quite, a, lot, of, work, for, the, local, inspector, so, i, decided, not, to, trash, c, as, a, witness, as, i, thought, that, it, was, not, my, place, to, do, so, and, secondly, the, repercussions, for, local, vet, good, will, would, not, stand, me, in, good, stead, but, i, have, my, doubts, as, to, whether, i, did, the, correct, thing, there, is, no, right, and, wrong, the, dilemmas, are, there, because, you, to, choose, which, horn, you, want, to, get, impaled, on, sun, lambing, seems, to, have, started, with, a, vengeance, spent, most, of, the, morning, at, the, surgery, with, land, rovers, and, trailers, turning, up, one, after, another, with, sheep, lambing, or, having, peri, natal, problems, i, do, like, working, out, of, the, surgery, at, the, w, e, as, there, is, far, less, driving, and, working, is, so, much, easier, and, you, don’t, have, to, keep, getting, changed, in, and, out, of, protective, clothes, so, got, two, vets, work, done, by, just, keeping, on, asking, for, them, to, come, to, the, surgery, the, farmers, don’t, mind, either, as, they, generally, have, to, put, them, in, a, pick, up, to, bring, them, back, to, the, farm, from, the, field, so, it, is, as, easy, to, drive, on, to, the, vets, rather, than, hang, around, waiting, for, them, mon, went, tt, testing, at, p’s, farm, i, used, his, son, a, fair, bit, during, fmd, as, they, went, out, early, on, and, he, always, has, done, a, fair, amount, of, contracting, on, the, various, farms, he, also, has, a, very, happy, go, lucky, style, in, contrast, to, his, dad, who, is, a, bit, of, a, worrier, i, quite, enjoyed, the, banter, and, we, could, just, work, away, as, there, is, no, pressure, too, get, finished, as, the, numbers, are, not, great, tues, went, to, o’s, where, they, are, again, having, problems, getting, the, cows, in, calf, the, levels, of, infertility, in, the, restocking, herds, are, horrendous, the, sad, thing, is, we, seem, to, be, achieving, very, little, in, actually, improving, it, in, spite, of, a, lot, of, investigations, and, spending, money, on, vaccine, and, on, supplements, the, average, loss, must, be, 5, at, least, it, would, be, interesting, to, compare, the, culling, rates, of, the, restocking, farms, and, find, out, what, the, restocking, losses, actually, are, weds, took, the, new, vet, student, with, me, today, and, let, her, do, the, first, lambing, at, r’s, they, like, everyone, else, says, they, are, getting, a, lot, of, lambs, these, were, dead, and, all, tangled, up, and, aborting, so, they, could, not, get, them, out, they, had, quads, last, night, thursday, went, to, s, and, stitched, a, teat, this, is, now, a, fairly, easy, operation, with, the, advent, of, using, open, crushes, and, decent, epidural, anaesthesia, local, is, always, fairly, iffy, as, many, a, dentists, patient, will, testify, to, it, is, very, satisfying, to, fix, something, like, that, friday, spent, the, morning, doing, certs, these, are, otm22, certificates, which, were, brought, in, by, maff, to, compensate, the, farmer, for, cows, that, would, have, been, sold, for, human, consumption, before, the, otm, scheme, banned, them, from, human, consumption, if, an, animal, is, not, fit, to, travel, then, it, can, be, shot, on, the, farm, but, to, get, the, compensation, they, need, a, vet’s, cert, to, say, that, it, is, fit, for, human, consumption, so, it, can, be, burnt, on, the, scheme, if, it, is, not, fit, then, they, have, to, pay, to, have, it, taken, away, so, there, is, a, lot, of, pressure, to, sign, them, the, scheme, is, supposed, to, be, coming, to, an, end, this, summer, but, as, yet, no, markets, exist, for, the, casualty, animals, that, are, fir, for, human, consumption, the, whole, knackery, injured, animals, burying, of, animals, scheme, is, up, for, grabs, and, the, govt, needs, to, get, some, sort, of, scheme, up, and, running, but, the, govt, thinks, maybe, rightly, that, it, is, an, industry, problem, to, get, rid, of, its, own, waste, and, it, is, not, up, to, the, taxpayer, to, get, farmers, waste, problems, sorted, leave, it, up, to, the, industry, market, to, sort, it, there, is, also, a, suggestion, that, as, tb, is, not, an, important, zoonosis, in, the, uk, anymore, then, it, is, a, production, problem, and, it, should, go, the, same, way, as, sheep, scab, and, be, taken, off, the, notifiable, disease, list, and, individual, farms, have, to, ensure, they, meet, whatever, standard, that, the, buyers, want, to, specify, which, is, what, is, happening, to, a, small, extent, in, the, dairy, industry, with, buyers, specifying, farms, must, meet, certain, criteria, saturday, 8th, feb, 2003, wife, is, on, her, course, for, the, w, e, so, i, was, doing, the, run, around, to, squash, and, football, for, sons, mon, 10th, b, is, now, renting, all, the, land, bush, ghyll, head, he, has, taken, it, over, as, a, grass, letting, another, of, the, small, farms, is, disappearing, the, reality, is, it, has, only, ever, been, a, small, holding, but, they, use, to, milk, 20, odd, cows, which, meant, it, got, the, status, of, a, farm, on, our, computer, system, the, uncle, who, use, to, run, it, when, first, arrived, was, a, real, character, he, was, always, telling, you, about, when, farmers, made, money, after, the, war, a, dozen, eggs, was, 10, shilling, none, of, your, 50ps, 10, whole, shillings, you, could, take, a, girl, to, the, cinema, and, the, lyons, café, and, still, have, change, from, a, pound, even, his, free, range, hens, eggs, would, not, buy, a, cinema, ticket, for, one, these, days, he, should, of, taken, her, as, he, ended, up, as, a, bachelor, with, his, nephew, taking, over, the, farm, tuesday, 11th, the, partners, meeting, today, was, trying, to, address, the, fact, that, the, mark, up, on, fees, is, going, to, be, eroded, one, of, the, things, that, barnard, castle, are, doing, is, putting, on, their, bills, but, as, yet, not, charging, for, things, like, telephone, advice, and, out, of, hours, so, we, are, going, to, be, doing, the, same, to, try, to, get, across, the, point, that, we, are, providing, an, all, round, service, that, needs, to, be, paid, for, but, i, still, think, at, the, end, of, the, day, the, economics, will, win, if, you, cannot, provide, a, service, at, a, profit, you, cannot, provide, a, service, so, where, does, that, leave, us, weds, harrison’s, are, having, problems, with, fertility, who, isn’t, the, blood, results, are, showing, low, levels, of, copper, but, i, am, not, convinced, that, is, what, it, is, they, will, have, to, supplement, the, feed, by, adding, more, copper, to, the, feed, the, problem, with, all, these, investigations, is, that, we, are, looking, for, a, simple, answer, when, the, actual, problem, is, multi, factorial, the, cows, may, be, short, in, copper, but, they, are, not, that, low, that, it, is, really, effecting, them, i, often, wonder, with, humans, if, you, blood, sampled, them, for, lots, of, different, minerals, would, we, find, that, a, percentage, of, the, population, is, actually, below, normal, for, some, or, several, minerals, maybe, our, omnivorous, diet, and, the, fact, we, are, not, producing, huge, amounts, of, milk, probably, does, come, in, to, it, we, do, have, a, much, more, varied, diet, most, cows, are, now, on, complete, rations, here, in, the, uk, so, that, if, the, nutritionist, gets, it, slightly, wrong, then, you, will, find, that, the, cows, will, be, short, i, suppose, the, other, thing, that, we, do, always, forget, is, that, they, are, usually, working, off, either, a, single, or, 3, 4, samples, of, silage, so, that, there, will, be, a, spread, of, what, is, actually, in, the, silage, and, the, samples, may, or, may, not, reflect, it, thursday, on, call, tonight, and, busy, which, was, ok, r, was, up, helping, at, wh, house, one, of, his, suckler, calves, had, managed, to, prolapse, its, rectum, but, it, is, as, wild, as, thunder, so, we, were, all, very, careful, about, handling, it, i, had, to, dope, it, any, way, to, operate, but, when, we, put, it, back, it, was, jumping, up, the, walls, which, is, always, a, wee, bit, disconcerting, limousin, stirks, could, be, used, for, the, grand, national, d’s, brother, is, not, very, well, at, all, now, he, has, cancer, and, went, in, for, emergency, surgery, the, day, i, shot, all, the, cows, i, had, a, big, row, with, senior, staff, at, page, st, he, had, been, admitted, to, the, hospital, at, 2am, and, was, to, undergo, emergency, surgery, that, afternoon, i, did, not, want, it, put, on, the, web, site, as, they, were, announcing, them, on, radio, cumbria, i, did, not, want, him, to, be, going, down, for, the, surgery, or, just, coming, out, of, it, and, to, find, out, from, the, radio, that, i, was, shooting, all, his, cows, i, asked, them, to, put, an, embargo, on, it, of, course, the, vets, tried, not, to, let, it, go, out, but, it, did, and, i, was, really, angry, i, wrote, some, strongly, worded, letters, and, never, even, got, a, reply, i, should, have, followed, it, up, and, held, some, one, to, account, but, i, am, afraid, it, all, got, lost, in, the, passing, of, time, at, least, r, is, a, lot, better, he, had, meningitis, around, the, time, of, fmd, he, has, had, bad, heads, and, depression, ever, since, so, it, was, good, that, he, is, back, on, farms, and, has, started, fencing, again, fri, 14th, valentines, it, is, friend, s, birthday, so, we, all, went, around, to, her, house, for, dinner, which, was, really, nice, and, ended, playing, darts, with, the, kids, i, was, pleased, to, get, some, darts, in, the, board, as, it, is, a, long, long, time, since, i, have, played, saturday, 15th, february, 2003, son’s, birthday, my, little, baby, son, is, now, 8, years, old, it, is, hard, to, believe, where, the, time, has, gone, and, all, the, water, that, has, passed, under, the, bridge, went, around, to, friend’s, at, night, and, sat, and, eat, and, put, the, world, to, rights, it, is, good, every, now, and, again, to, wind, down, and, just, enjoy, talking, with, out, having, to, think, as, we, know, them, so, well, you, can, just, come, out, with, stuff, sunday, mon, 17th, spent, the, day, tb, testing, at, dl, where, they, have, had, a, nvl, no, visible, lesions, reactor, taken, colleague, did, the, first, test, and, we, are, not, doing, the, fat, stock, on, farms, that, have, restocked, as, they, will, be, going, for, slaughter, fairly, soon, so, it, is, deemed, pointless, and, really, it, is, so, spent, the, day, putting, big, bullocks, through, the, crush, and, it, is, a, dangerous, work, for, the, men, who, go, in, amongst, them, because, they, are, very, rarely, handled, and, so, don’t, take, to, it, very, well, tuesday, had, an, interesting, lambing, today, and, a, consequence, of, fmd, that, you, forget, about, there, is, an, inherited, genetic, condition, of, suffolk’s, called, dandy, walker, syndrome, causing, hydrocephalus, in, the, lambs, so, both, the, ewe, and, tup, must, carry, the, gene, to, produce, the, deformed, lambs, with, heads, too, large, to, get, through, the, mothers, pelvis, so, it, means, doing, a, caesarean, on, a, ewe, that, can, only, be, used, to, breed, fat, lambs, from, it, has, to, be, put, to, another, breed, next, year, this, years, lambs, are, dead, going, to, die, so, the, economics, are, useless, some, breeders, just, shoot, them, at, this, point, but, he, had, called, us, to, try, to, lamb, it, or, caesaer, it, as, she, was, a, big, ewe, i, eventually, managed, to, lamb, it, he, was, saying, though, that, it, takes, time, to, work, out, whether, the, stock, you, have, bought, will, produce, the, breeding, stock, that, you, want, you, have, to, try, the, different, combinations, that, you, have, to, work, out, which, lines, work, well, together, he, reckons, on, about, 4, 8, years, before, he, will, be, back, to, breeding, decent, suffolk, sheep, in, spite, of, buying, in, good, stock, there, is, more, to, breeding, than, meets, the, eye, wednesday, rb, had, a, stirk, with, mcf, malignant, catarhal, fever, it, is, a, viral, disease, which, is, quite, often, fatal, that, they, catch, from, sheep, but, they, have, really, blue, grey, eyes, from, the, change, in, the, fluid, in, the, eye, and, the, severe, iritis, it, must, be, incredibly, painful, for, them, thursday, dixons, tt2, is, now, clear, so, they, have, to, have, them, all, tested, again, in, 42, days, to, clear, the, farm, of, restrictions, un, fortunately, the, vet, from, the, ministry, said, it, would, be, from, the, day, the, cow, is, taken, not, today, so, the, whole, thing, is, getting, a, bit, complicated, and, jd, is, getting, wound, up, understandably, so, friday, tried, to, sort, out, some, of, the, tracings, that, we, are, supposed, to, be, doing, there, are, a, lot, coming, through, but, the, quality, of, the, info, is, very, poor, tracings, are, where, the, farm, has, sold, animals, and, then, subsequently, gone, down, with, tb, or, other, notifiable, disease, the, defra, paper, chase, is, so, bad, that, ear, tag, nos, are, wrong, or, a, farmer, has, bought, several, from, the, same, source, and, only, 1, 2, are, on, the, paper, work, from, defra, the, thing, seems, to, be, falling, apart, a, bit, went, and, did, a, single, animal, up, at, the, mill, he, usually, buys, in, stores, and, fattens, them, but, as, the, store, trade, has, gone, through, the, roof, he, has, sold, a, lot, of, them, on, to, let, some, one, else, fatten, or, if, heifers, breed, from, them, the, defra, files, have, him, as, a, fattening, unit, finisher, so, that, they, hadn’t, bothered, to, do, tracings, to, him, as, they, would, be, going, for, slaughter, but, of, course, he, had, sold, one, on, that, had, gone, down, with, tb, so, they, wanted, to, know, what, was, happening, with, these, now, saturday, 22nd, february, 2003, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday, had, a, funny, sensation, to, day, i, suppose, it, was, almost, a, flash, back, in, some, ways, i, went, to, a, farm, who, has, fancy, pedigree, sheep, he, has, rented, land, and, wanted, them, added, to, his, holding, for, the, mv, scheme, so, he, needs, a, vet, inspection, to, say, that, the, fields, are, double, fenced, so, that, the, sheep, do, not, come, in, contact, to, any, others, this, inspection, of, fields, is, pretty, meaningless, as, they, know, what, needs, to, be, done, and, so, they, are, always, up, to, scratch, the, last, time, i, was, doing, it, was, for, fmd, wednesday, thursday, friday, packed, and, got, the, last, few, things, sorted, for, the, vcf, w, e, got, the, posters, printed, and, the, display, boards, together, and, set, off, down, the, motorway, to, pick, up, friend, and, spent, most, of, the, day, travelling, it, was, good, talking, to, him, he, retired, from, practice, just, before, fmd, and, then, spent, the, first, part, of, his, retirement, working, for, defra, on, the, fmd, first, at, preston, and, then, at, settle, it, seems, they, were, better, organised, at, preston, and, he, was, quite, positive, about, the, local, teams, i, sometimes, wonder, if, i, am, sill, too, close, to, it, all, and, to, emotional, to, take, a, clear, headed, look, at, what, it, was, really, like, it, was, good, to, see, friends, at, night, and, get, set, up, for, the, w, e, sat, 1st, march, sun, 2003, vcf, w, e, it, is, difficult, for, me, to, sum, up, the, w, e, as, i, was, so, much, in, it, and, part, of, it, so, i, have, copied, the, report, from, one, of, the, students, who, wrote, a, bit, for, the, vcf, magazine, vcf, triennial, conference, 28th, feb, 2nd, march, 2003, on, a, sunny, weekend, at, the, beginning, of, march, over, 70, vets, vet, students, and, families, bravely, took, time, out, of, their, busy, schedules, and, gathered, expectantly, at, the, hayes, conference, centre, in, derbyshire, for, the, 2003, vcf, conference, we, were, a, mixed, bunch, ranging, in, age, from, 2, months, to, 70, well, nearly, from, many, different, places, denominations, and, walks, of, veterinary, life, but, we, all, had, a, common, goal, in, mind, to, unite, in, our, desire, to, love, and, serve, the, lord, jesus, christ, in, the, vocation, to, which, he, has, called, us, and, to, encourage, one, another, to, be, salt, and, light, in, the, veterinary, world, our, distinguished, speaker, for, the, weekend, was, dr, l, a, consultant, psychiatrist, and, christian, who, drew, from, his, own, experience, to, bring, us, some, thoughtful, insights, on, the, subject, of, god, at, work, he, emphasised, the, fact, that, although, work, is, a, godly, activity, and, that, we, should, view, whatever, we, do, as, if, working, for, the, lord, colossians, 3, 18, it, must, not, be, forgotten, that, a, balance, must, be, achieved, between, work, church, family, life, etc, there, was, also, an, opportunity, to, discuss, how, we, would, respond, as, christians, to, a, variety, of, ethical, decisions, that, commonly, present, themselves, in, veterinary, practice, as, well, as, the, main, talks, there, was, the, opportunity, to, join, a, variety, of, seminars, on, relevant, practical, subjects, bt, a, vet, and, long, serving, missionary, in, thailand, with, omf, led, a, most, interesting, seminar, on, the, joys, and, challenges, of, both, veterinary, and, evangelistic, work, in, a, different, culture, students, and, new, graduates, were, well, provided, for, in, seminars, on, practicing, reality, living, out, one's, faith, in, the, university, or, veterinary, practice, environment, m, c, bravely, stepped, in, at, short, notice, to, lead, a, seminar, on, business, ethics, and, vcf, secretary, generated, some, thought, provoking, discussion, on, a, very, relevant, subject, for, many, singleness, it, was, not, all, work, and, no, play, however, and, we, were, much, obliged, to, the, scottish, students, for, organising, the, saturday, night, ceilidh, much, fun, was, had, by, all, so, we, all, parted, company, on, sunday, feeling, refreshed, and, well, fed, both, physically, and, spiritually, how, encouraging, to, be, reminded, that, you, are, not, the, only, christian, vet, out, there, and, that, there, are, many, others, who, grapple, with, the, same, issues, you, face, the, weekend, was, a, time, of, friendships, rekindled, and, hopefully, new, ones, made, a, time, of, strengthening, and, a, reminder, of, what, is, ultimately, the, most, important, thing, in, our, busy, lives, leading, the, seminar, on, business, ethics, or, rather, winging, it, was, very, stressful, but, very, good, which, was, very, interesting, and, very, challenging, the, questions, about, is, it, right, to, make, a, profit, were, espy, good, to, work, through, but, it, was, incredibly, draining, by, sun, night, i, was, exhausted, drove, back, to, friend’s, for, the, night, he, live, about, 20, mins, off, motorway, and, it, was, coming, through, one, of, the, wee, villages, i, was, flashed, by, a, camera, and, so, will, have, a, fine, and, a, speeding, ticket, to, sort, out, mon, had, a, really, nice, lie, in, and, then, went, for, a, walk, with, friend, around, from, his, house, across, the, fields, it, was, beautiful, then, set, off, for, preston, to, visit, the, friend, who, is, in, prison, the, road, was, closed, on, the, way, to, the, m6, so, took, me, ages, to, find, my, way, to, the, m6, and, then, after, coming, off, at, preston, to, find, the, way, to, the, prisons, the, whole, afternoon, was, very, depressing, there, is, something, very, intimidating, about, having, to, be, processed, for, the, visit, under, security, cameras, and, by, very, polite, but, uncaring, prison, officers, the, being, searched, and, going, past, sniffer, dogs, and, having, to, give, my, finger, prints, which, are, now, on, the, police, computers, prisoner, was, ok, but, fairly, depressed, about, the, outlook, even, now, he, is, worried, about, how, he, is, going, to, cope, when, he, comes, out, the, prison, regime, is, very, oppressive, and, after, being, there, for, an, hour, and, a, half, i, was, glad, to, be, going, it, is, also, a, bizarre, situation, where, you, have, to, sit, there, and, talk, for, that, length, of, time, there, is, also, a, lot, of, stuff, that, he, wants, to, know, about, the, kids, and, you, just, can’t, help, him, most, of, what, we, know, is, hearsay, and, not, first, and, so, difficult, to, sum, up, espy, as, some, of, it, is, not, good, they, are, not, coping, with, the, whole, situation, and, it, is, basically, his, fault, or, his, and, their, mothers, so, he, is, already, feeling, guilty, enough, with, out, giving, him, more, angst, to, cope, with, but, i, was, very, glad, to, be, coming, out, again, into, the, fresh, air, spent, the, evening, at, a’s, parents, evening, challenging, senior, management, and, giving, them, a, hard, time, so, quite, a, day, tuesday, as, usual, the, disasters, after, a, w, e, away, continue, the, new, bathroom, was, totally, flooded, from, a, leaking, pipe, i, felt, like, wringing, his, neck, he, is, the, plumber, the, water, was, flowing, back, through, the, old, kitchen, and, made, a, real, mess, managed, to, get, hold, of, him, after, leaving, more, and, more, urgent, phone, messages, at, all, his, answer, phones, he, has, a, mobile, a, telephone, at, his, flat, where, he, hardly, ever, is, and, at, his, girlfriends, so, the, water, was, off, most, of, the, day, until, he, found, the, leak, and, managed, to, fix, it, again, he, had, to, smash, tiles, and, cut, holes, in, the, wall, to, fix, it, and, the, place, looked, a, mess, but, boy, o, boy, am, i, fed, up, with, that, stupid, bathroom, went, into, work, to, find, no, one, had, done, the, stuff, i, had, left, to, be, done, and, work, was, really, busy, the, speeding, ticket, had, landed, already, why, are, other, govt, depts, not, as, efficient, so, spent, the, whole, day, until, 6pm, running, around, like, a, headless, chicken, and, then, decided, that, stuff, it, i, was, going, to, the, gym, for, the, circuits, class, weds, the, disasters, continued, with, the, washing, machine, giving, up, the, ghost, which, in, a, house, with, 3, boys, and, a, vet, is, a, pretty, serious, problem, i, also, had, an, argument, with, one, of, the, other, partners, saying, that, if, we, did, not, get, another, vet, we, would, have, a, rebellion, or, people, going, off, sick, through, stress, me, being, one, of, them, and, i, have, only, been, back, 2, days, still, haven’t, managed, to, read, all, of, the, stuff, in, my, in, tray, yet, let, alone, deal, with, it, thursday, finally, convinced, senior, colleague, we, needed, some, help, as, the, ministry, got, hold, of, him, and, asked, if, we, could, do, a, tracings, herd, test, urgently, on, one, of, farms, that, has, not, restocked, the, cattle, belong, to, some, one, else, he, then, looked, at, the, book, and, decided, we, could, not, idiot, i, told, him, weeks, ago, last, september, i, think, that, this, would, happen, so, spent, the, day, sorting, out, dc, to, come, in, between, vetting, he, is, not, an, lvi, so, have, had, to, pull, some, wool, and, sweet, talk, them, into, training, him, in, the, baffling, ways, of, defra, but, that, meant, i, still, have, yet, to, reach, the, bottom, of, my, in, tray, may, be, there, is, gold, buried, at, the, bottom, i, think, this, is, one, of, those, days, when, you, look, back, were, probably, quite, decisive, but, accidental, days, this, was, the, first, time, i, really, thought, that, i, was, about, to, be, killed, i, could, see, it, happening, and, there, was, nothing, i, could, have, done, differently, to, prevent, it, i, went, on, a, calving, after, work, about, 8pm, met, up, with, the, farmers, and, one, went, to, get, water, while, the, other, and, i, walked, into, the, box, to, where, the, cow, was, the, cow, gave, me, a, funny, look, and, i, backed, off, to, behind, a, pillar, in, the, pen, oh, its, ok, it’s, a, quiet, cow, she’s, had, 8, calves, he, said, next, time, i, will, listen, to, my, instincts, so, we, went, forward, to, where, she, was, without, warning, or, snorting, or, given, it, a, second, thought, she, charged, caught, me, under, the, ribs, with, her, head, and, threw, me, to, the, ground, before, i, could, react, she, butted, me, again, in, the, head, snorted, kicked, me, and, then, backed, off, as, the, farmer, started, kicking, and, hitting, her, she, then, came, again, bashed, me, into, the, corner, on, my, back, and, kept, coming, as, her, head, flew, at, me, i, grabbed, her, nose, and, swung, myself, around, on, her, nose, kicked, her, with, both, feet, taking, all, my, weight, on, the, one, hand, while, shouting, for, help, from, the, other, guys, one, came, back, with, a, pitchfork, as, i, was, on, the, ground, i, kicked, her, again, as, they, came, with, the, fork, and, let, go, and, scrambled, away, around, the, box, she, still, came, after, me, but, i, got, to, the, gate, past, the, two, brothers, who, thumped, her, again, and, then, backed, off, and, slammed, the, gate, shut, i, lay, in, a, heap, on, a, bale, for, 10, minutes, breathing, heavily, while, they, asked, did, i, need, an, ambulance, or, doctor, i, finally, came, to, enough, to, splash, water, on, my, face, and, think, that, there, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, it, took, all, 4, brothers, armed, with, sticks, to, get, her, into, a, crush, where, i, then, managed, to, calve, 1, dead, twin, breach, and, 1, live, twin, just, in, her, defence, the, cow, had, been, calving, for, a, while, was, in, pain, and, had, probably, just, got, herself, really, wound, up, but, she, almost, killed, me, i, then, sat, having, strong, tea, for, quarter, of, an, hour, before, summoning, up, the, courage, to, drive, home, with, hind, sight, i, should, have, taken, up, there, offer, of, a, getting, some, one, else, out, to, calve, the, cow, but, the, girl, on, 2nd, was, 5ft, nothing, and, petite, and, didn’t, think, dumping, it, on, her, was, very, fair, the, adrenaline, was, still, flowing, so, i, just, kept, on, b, i, should, however, have, let, one, of, them, drive, me, home, or, probably, to, casualty, but, i, felt, they, would, not, do, anything, at, the, hospital, except, keep, an, eye, on, me, so, i, just, went, home, to, my, own, bed, and, asked, my, wife, to, wake, me, up, every, two, hours, friday, ill, with, head, spinning, every, time, i, sit, down, to, try, and, do, something, my, head, just, goes, around, and, i, feel, really, tired, and, jet, lagged, i, think, i, prefer, india, to, being, beaten, up, by, cows, time, for, a, new, job, slept, all, afternoon, but, had, friends, for, dinner, it, had, been, arrange, months, ago, so, wife, didn’t, cancel, and, i, kept, going, but, drifted, in, and, out, a, wee, bit, saturday, 8th, march, had, a, lie, in, to, 9, o, clock, yo, still, feeling, pretty, sore, but, at, least, my, head, is, one, piece, i, think, showed, flat, to, prospective, tenants, it, is, very, rare, that, we, don’t, have, to, get, up, for, sthg, when, we, are, at, home, either, for, work, or, for, football, squash, or, something, similar, there, is, another, squash, competition, but, they, are, both, later, starts, for, our, boys, which, is, great, took, son, to, football, and, wife, phoned, up, to, say, that, the, cs, were, going, to, watch, the, lord, of, the, rings, did, i, want, to, go, so, went, to, watch, it, and, swapped, younger, kids, with, wife, taking, son, and, their, youngsters, and, i, went, with, the, cs, there, are, times, when, mobile, phones, are, really, useful, to, get, things, arranged, the, film, was, really, good, but, boy, was, i, stiff, after, sitting, down, for, that, length, of, time, my, knee, was, giving, me, real, gyp, spent, evening, at, daubes, but, i, faded, so, wife, drove, home, and, went, to, bed, sunday, 9th, went, to, church, in, morning, and, picked, up, car, friends, came, to, lunch, which, was, really, good, to, see, them, but, as, a, points, out, pointedly, they, do, have, 5, boys, so, there, were, 8, kids, flying, around, but, i, did, enjoy, seeing, them, they, are, still, trying, to, sort, out, their, diversification, plans, and, hope, to, have, several, strings, to, their, bows, as, well, as, farming, there, is, a, teachers, position, at, nelson, thom, so, that, is, probably, the, most, reliable, form, of, income, for, friend, mon, 10th, went, to, work, but, every, time, i, bend, over, or, move, to, fast, my, head, spins, so, just, did, small, animals, i, think, cats, and, dogs, are, a, much, better, idea, but, a, lot, of, sympathy, from, folk, at, work, mr, h, had, been, in, and, obviously, given, a, fairly, graphic, description, of, what, had, happened, that, and, my, face, is, not, the, most, becoming, at, the, moment, tues, 11th, back, to, work, on, the, farms, i, was, at, rs, for, a, fertility, visit, even, though, i, know, his, cows, and, i, am, happy, with, them, i, did, feel, very, nervous, about, going, any, where, near, them, i, have, lost, a, lot, of, confidence, which, although, i, expected, it, i, am, still, a, bit, wound, up, about, it, the, rest, of, day, was, ok, apart, from, several, people, whingeing, about, the, current, paper, work, requirements, for, selling, cattle, mind, you, when, you, see, what, they, need, to, sell, a, few, bullocks, or, a, geld, cow, it, is, probably, easier, to, be, an, asylum, seeker, spent, evening, at, surgery, showing, d, the, ropes, he, is, the, locum, who, is, going, to, be, working, with, us, for, the, next, few, weeks, he, is, going, to, the, ministry, at, newcastle, tomorrow, to, do, his, lvi, training, at, least, that, means, he, can, do, some, of, the, tb, testing, and, at, least, give, us, a, break, from, that, it, is, these, sort, of, things, managing, staff, showing, people, the, ropes, giving, them, back, up, and, debriefing, them, that, latkes, huge, amounts, of, time, and, energy, and, yet, is, never, seen, as, work, or, relevant, by, a, lot, of, people, the, rest, of, the, partnership, and, yet, in, any, small, business, it, is, the, people, that, make, all, the, difference, and, if, they, feel, appreciated, and, supported, and, can, debrief, and, be, reassured, then, it, makes, such, a, difference, to, them, and, happy, staff, can, deal, with, situations, and, people, a, lot, better, and, easier, than, stressed, ones, weds, 12th, next, year, i, am, not, going, it, is, definitely, some, one, else’s, turn, i, speak, of, the, annual, training, day, for, senior, lvis, it, just, drives, me, up, the, wall, the, morning, was, spent, fairly, usefully, talking, about, contingency, planning, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, epidemic, the, page, st, planners, seemed, fairly, well, clued, in, and, taking, on, board, a, lot, of, the, ideas, and, problems, that, had, been, seen, in, 2001, the, afternoon, was, then, totally, depressing, tb, is, now, endemic, in, the, south, of, the, county, there, was, a, deer, herd, that, had, animals, dying, and, so, took, them, to, the, vic, lab, at, penrith, to, find, out, why, they, had, these, animals, losing, weight, and, dying, they, had, tb, the, ministry, had, known, that, there, had, been, reactors, all, around, that, area, but, had, never, picked, up, on, the, fact, these, deer, were, here, and, should, have, been, tested, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vety, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, surely, means, that, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, thing, is, a, useless, sham, well, the, answer, is, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, it, is, not, getting, done, so, tb, is, spreading, idiots, the, best, systems, the, best, tools, the, best, ideas, the, best, businesses, have, to, work, through, people, so, next, year, some, one, else, can, go, and, listen, to, the, plans, in, the, sky, this, was, the, meeting, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, fmd, in, feb, 2000, just, a, pity, they, did, not, listen, to, their, own, experts, there, was, also, a, talk, on, the, new, scrapie, scheme, where, the, guy, speaking, knew, less, than, his, audience, why, i, have, to, go, back, to, the, speaker, at, the, vcf, w, e, who, said, that, when, he, came, out, of, medical, school, he, had, spent, 6, years, being, taught, to, be, rational, and, scientific, where, disease, was, discussed, logically, and, a, rational, conclusion, was, sought, he, came, with, the, same, idea, to, the, national, health, service, and, struggled, he, said, we, live, in, a, fallen, world, with, fallen, institutions, and, we, have, to, accept, that, at, times, they, do, not, make, sense, and, that, it, is, not, in, our, power, or, capabilities, to, change, them, where, we, can, we, change, them, where, we, cannot, we, work, within, them, thursday, 13th, day, off, prior, to, working, w, e, went, up, high, pike, with, friend, snowed, lightly, on, tops, but, beautiful, but, a, wee, bit, chilly, spent, the, afternoon, getting, the, stuff, sorted, for, vcf, magazine, and, answering, e, mails, and, putting, the, details, from, the, w, e, in, to, some, sort, of, order, i, was, trying, also, to, put, some, responses, down, for, yesterday, but, feeling, to, angry, to, risk, putting, it, down, on, paper, i, just, hope, the, govt, is, more, in, touch, with, the, armed, forces, on, the, frontline, in, kuwait, than, the, distant, arm, of, govt, in, state, vet, service, in, cumbria, friday, 14th, another, day, another, test, another, dollar, spent, morning, supervising, the, locum, and, trying, to, get, on, top, of, my, in, tray, the, stuff, for, partners, meeting, next, week, to, try, and, get, some, decisions, and, a, w, e, on, call, looms, when, i, feel, even, though, i, have, not, been, in, work, or, worked, too, many, w, e’s, tired, and, jaded, being, beaten, up, by, the, cow, probably, doesn’t, help, saturday, 15th, march, working, the, w, e, on, first, for, the, first, time, in, a, long, time, as, i, have, been, keeping, the, amount, i, am, working, back, i, am, was, way, ahead, in, the, amount, worked, so, it, brings, the, numbers, in, line, i, also, need, a, break, as, feeling, v, tired, and, fed, up, and, with, not, much, prospect, of, rejuvenation, the, morning, was, fairly, busy, but, we, all, finished, by, 12, so, not, that, bad, it, was, funny, as, julie, who, ahs, been, a, receptionist, since, pre, fmd, said, that, she, thought, it, was, really, busy, but, compared, to, the, good, old, days, of, 8, years, ago, you, thought, it, was, a, good, sat, am, if, you, finished, by, 2, so, it, is, surprising, how, things, change, and, you, get, use, to, them, the, weather, is, beautiful, with, clear, skies, and, frosty, spring, mornings, and, dry, the, good, weather, always, makes, you, feel, better, any, way, spent, afternoon, doing, bits, and, pieces, in, garden, and, jobbing, around, sunday, 16th, busy, in, morning, but, it, shows, how, useful, the, new, building, is, ok, i, know, its, 4, years, old, but, things, have, never, been, normal, and, i, still, see, it, as, new, there, were, 2, lambings, and, a, sheep, to, see, and, drugs, to, put, out, and, because, i, was, at, the, surgery, they, just, kept, on, coming, down, to, the, surgery, to, the, large, animal, bay, so, i, did, a, lot, of, work, with, no, driving, and, it, makes, such, a, difference, what, would, have, taken, 3, 4, hours, was, finished, in, an, hour, and, a, half, missed, church, and, did, the, same, at, night, with, more, lambings, the, sheep, are, back, the, afternoon, was, spent, sorting, out, after, boys, they, went, down, to, the, pond, and, because, it, is, all, churned, up, they, got, their, wellies, stuck, in, the, mud, so, they, were, cold, and, wet, and, covered, i, had, to, use, planks, to, walk, out, to, them, so, i, did, not, sink, in, i, made, the, mistake, of, fetching, the, planks, and, the, spades, back, before, sorting, the, boys, so, they, had, trailed, mud, all, around, the, house, grrrrr, but, i, should, have, taken, photos, in, the, midst, of, this, the, new, vet, student, rachael, turned, up, so, i, could, not, give, full, vent, to, my, annoyance, mon, 17th, chaos, at, work, with, loads, of, emergencies, and, testing, so, we, were, all, glad, of, students, and, d, working, more, i, r’s, found, tb, testing, so, it, looks, like, it, will, continue, still, haven’t, found, time, to, put, pen, to, paper, or, type, writer, to, send, a, letter, to, contingency, planning, group, at, defra, but, hopefully, will, get, on, top, of, it, soon, tues, 18th, some, days, i, should, have, stayed, in, bed, a, bad, hair, day, started, off, badly, with, arriving, at, fertility, visit, as, farmer, was, emerging, from, breakfast, having, been, late, as, his, wife, was, milk, recording, and, he, had, to, calve, a, cow, so, had, to, sort, cows, before, checking, to, see, in, calf, a, very, rotten, lambing, rotten, as, in, lambs, were, disintegrating, so, stank, and, then, more, calls, left, for, lunch, at, 12, 45, to, get, half, way, and, the, called, me, back, for, another, lambing, there, were, 1, 30, calls, to, do, and, then, surgery, worked, at, night, and, i, was, fed, up, of, being, on, call, stopping, me, doing, stuff, so, went, to, gym, and, was, bleeped, out, to, speak, to, folk, 4, times, by, now, really, wound, up, so, went, to, house, group, and, sat, down, chatted, and, phone, went, sorted, that, and, then, a, cow, caesarean, this, was, followed, by, 2, more, and, 3, hours, sleep, must, be, an, easier, way, to, make, a, living, weds, 19th, feeling, my, age, no, sleep, on, the, night, before, you, 40th, birthday, does, not, do, you, any, good, missed, seeing, kids, in, morning, as, i, was, out, at, caesar, 3, during, night, on, call, the, girls, at, work, had, got, hold, of, loads, of, photos, from, my, wife, so, they, were, all, around, the, practice, well, i, was, a, cute, teenager, worked, through, to, lunch, as, morning, was, busy, and, partners, meeting, then, did, a, 1, 30, and, went, home, for, sleep, opened, presents, with, kids, at, 4, o’clock, and, went, out, to, d’s, for, meal, at, night, was, good, thurs, 20th, really, quiet, as, no, tb, testing, and, lots, of, vets, did, more, lambings, and, caught, up, on, business, side, of, organisation, doing, rota, and, organising, work, reflected, on, partners, meeting, and, tried, to, work, out, whether, i, am, out, of, sync, with, the, rest, of, the, world, and, right, or, out, of, sync, and, wrong, time, will, tell, iraq, war, started, as, predicted, but, seems, to, have, been, an, opportunistic, target, i, e, saddam, himself, rather, than, all, out, assault, weird, but, that, is, politics, i, must, ask, the, history, teachers, about, what, caused, the, failure, of, the, league, of, nations, and, whether, this, is, going, to, be, similar, for, un, fri, 21st, despite, being, on, back, up, went, out, for, a, meal, it, was, the, coffee, morning’s, xmas, bash, that, is, traditionally, now, held, in, new, year, as, there, is, too, much, else, on, during, xmas, period, spent, quite, a, while, talking, to, ms, about, league, of, nations, and, the, un, he, is, fairly, sceptical, about, the, power, and, influence, of, un, which, in, his, view, is, more, often, than, not, used, as, a, fig, leaf, for, us, or, ussr, ambitions, and, is, not, really, the, international, community, he, was, interesting, to, talk, to, about, the, history, of, iraq, played, pictionary, boys, vs, girls, which, was, fun, saturday, 22nd, march, 2003, worked, am, which, was, very, busy, as, it, was, my, 10th, day, i, was, feeling, a, bit, drained, either, that, or, cos, of, out, for, meal, last, night, i, will, let, you, decide, the, beautiful, weather, is, continuing, and, we, went, for, a, lovely, walk, up, above, fellside, the, kids, loved, playing, in, the, streams, and, the, sunshine, which, for, march, is, amazing, came, back, to, find, that, there, was, a, house, full, of, folk, to, celebrate, my, 40th, birthday, which, was, really, nice, though, it, was, a, good, thing, that, the, weather, was, good, so, the, kids, could, play, out, side, as, there, were, lots, of, them, chatted, to, p, who, is, always, full, of, energy, and, enthusiasm, he, is, a, whirlwind, of, ideas, and, concepts, and, philosophy, one, of, the, few, people, who, i, can, sit, and, listen, to, for, hours, and, hours, he, is, intelligent, and, articulate, in, 7, languages, and, yet, always, ready, to, listen, to, anyone, and, hear, what, they, have, to, say, even, if, it, is, poorly, thought, out, and, very, practical, in, his, approach, and, very, un, materialistic, he, is, quite, happy, to, give, books, and, ideas, to, anyone, who, will, read, and, learn, from, them, sunday, 23rd, this, weather, is, amazing, i, still, cannot, get, over, it, with, the, sun, blazing, down, we, went, to, watch, son, play, football, against, silloth, they, won, 2, 0, but, it, was, a, tight, match, but, very, good, to, watch, much, better, than, carlisle, as, one, spectators, put, it, went, on, to, beckfoot, for, a, picnic, in, march, the, beach, was, deserted, and, yet, it, was, warm, enough, for, t, shirts, and, shorts, for, the, boys, i, lay, in, the, sun, and, slept, and, counted, my, many, blessings, came, home, and, planted, seeds, lettuce, courgette, and, sweet, pea, must, plant, leeks, and, pumpkins, if, i, get, a, a, chance, this, week, and, buy, onion, sets, wife, spent, a, while, after, church, talking, to, b, about, low, moor, difficult, mon, 24th, sent, my, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, was, the, rvo, at, harrogate, and, is, now, head, of, service, delivery, it, is, always, a, bit, of, a, conscious, effort, to, take, up, the, cudgels, against, bureaucracy, especially, one, like, the, svs, that, has, in, its, culture, a, tendency, to, attack, those, who, criticise, it, i, hope, that, tomorrow, will, be, quiet, as, i, wish, to, write, another, letter, to, the, contingency, planning, dept, i, also, want, to, look, at, the, updated, contingency, plans, and, make, comments, on, it, but, doing, all, this, does, not, pay, the, bills, and, at, the, moment, when, work, is, so, busy, i, feel, it, is, actually, more, important, to, spend, time, with, the, kids, so, i, will, sign, off, and, go, and, watch, the, great, escape, which, they, bought, me, for, my, birthday, copy, of, letter, to, richard, drummond, who, wrote, the, drummond, report, before, fmd, saying, that, if, there, was, an, outbreak, they, would, not, be, able, to, cope, 21st, march, 2003, mr, r, d, drummond, address, removed, dear, richard, i, am, writing, to, express, my, concern, with, the, current, situation, with, tb, we, last, met, at, the, lvi, meeting, in, cumbria, where, we, had, an, excellent, talk, on, foot, and, mouth, disease, and, about, how, there, was, an, increased, risk, becoming, apparent, this, was, in, feb, 2000, at, the, meeting, this, year, as, well, as, talks, on, contingency, planning, there, was, a, lot, of, discussion, on, the, emergence, of, tb, on, cumbrian, farms, there, were, also, complaints, that, forward, tracings, were, not, being, done, on, some, cattle, to, which, the, vet, officer, giving, the, talk, said, it, was, quite, difficult, and, time, consuming, to, work, out, where, cattle, had, gone, this, was, met, with, some, incredulity, by, the, local, vets, as, the, paperwork, and, computerised, passport, scheme, involved, in, moving, cattle, is, a, huge, burden, on, farmers, trace, ability, was, one, of, the, big, issues, to, do, with, bse, and, if, it, cannot, be, done, it, means, the, whole, paper, exercise, is, a, useless, sham, the, answer, was, given, that, you, can, trace, a, specific, animal, through, markets, and, holdings, but, not, animals, on, and, off, a, holding, so, tracings, are, taking, too, much, time, so, tracings, are, not, getting, done, in, some, divisions, so, tb, is, spreading, whether, this, comes, under, your, remit, as, head, of, service, delivery, i, do, not, know, but, i, would, be, grateful, if, you, could, forward, it, to, the, relevant, department, or, to, the, minister, so, that, a, single, enquiry, to, the, cattle, movements, service, at, workington, will, ensure, a, comprehensive, list, of, movements, on, and, off, a, holding, since, the, previous, test, if, we, cannot, trace, from, herds, with, tuberculosis, reactors, the, ability, to, track, fmd, is, obviously, a, non, starter, thank, you, in, advance, for, your, help, with, this, i, hope, in, 3, years, time, we, will, not, be, contemplating, what, we, should, have, learnt, from, an, lvi, meeting, in, hadrian, house, yours, sincerely, b.v.m, s, m.r.c.v.s, tues, 25th, wife, s, cousin, from, vancouver, arrived, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, her, again, the, canadians, are, always, so, up, beat, and, down, to, earth, they, have, a, refreshingly, positive, can, do, mentality, she, and, her, daughter, have, been, with, a, school, choir, singing, in, parts, of, europe, and, doing, the, european, tour, they, are, whistle, stopping, the, lakes, tomorrow, it, was, good, to, catch, up, with, them, young, vet, who, lost, brother, was, with, them, my, favourite, mother, in, law, she, brought, me, a, set, of, kitchen, knives, for, my, birthday, present, they, are, incredibly, sharp, so, i, don’t, think, that, letting, the, kids, loose, with, them, will, be, a, good, idea, but, at, least, we, can, pitch, some, of, the, old, ones, which, needed, sharpening, every, time, you, used, them, vet, arrived, back, from, skiing, very, sun, burnt, from, the, sunshine, and, wind, she, has, had, a, really, good, time, though, weds, 26th, a, and, left, as, i, arrived, in, to, go, to, yp’s, it, was, funny, to, see, them, very, much, the, young, ladies, going, out, they, live, at, opposite, ends, of, the, world, and, yet, the, fashion, is, the, same, little, hand, bags, and, scarves, as, belts, globalisation, is, not, just, effecting, agriculture, they, had, spent, time, in, keswick, and, around, the, lakes, today, making, use, of, the, gorgeous, summer, weather, in, march, it, really, is, warm, hope, we, are, in, for, a, scorcher, of, a, summer, holidays, thursday, 27th, spent, the, quietist, night, on, call, for, a, long, long, time, nothing, why, is, it, as, soon, as, you, employ, a, locum, as, an, extra, pair, of, hands, the, work, disappears, still, it, will, given, everyone, a, chance, to, have, a, breather, said, good, bye, to, the, canadians, and, mother, in, law, we, are, heading, over, to, ireland, to, see, the, irish, side, of, the, family, at, easter, so, we, will, see, vet, friend, again, soon, but, it, was, funny, saying, goodbye, all, the, same, don’t, know, why, was, doing, a, herd, health, plan, today, for, a, farm, that, has, 50, dairy, cows, he, said, he, did, not, really, know, why, he, is, doing, it, as, he, is, going, to, give, up, and, go, and, milk, for, some, one, else, as, it, is, not, viable, to, make, it, pay, on, that, sort, of, small, scale, friday, 28th, haven’t, got, the, workload, right, at, all, i, think, the, sunshine, has, sent, the, farmers, into, the, fields, to, work, and, the, lambs, and, calves, are, all, arriving, un, aided, in, to, the, sunshine, it, is, amazing, how, the, good, weather, makes, you, feel, so, much, better, so, i, have, booked, in, extra, testing, for, next, week, the, only, slightly, sad, thing, was, talking, to, one, of, the, farmers, who, had, just, started, lambing, i, was, taking, out, rotten, lambs, that, were, aborting, 2, weeks, earlier, it, is, his, first, season, actually, lambing, as, he, only, bought, in, fat, sheep, last, year, he, said, that, it, was, at, this, stage, 2, years, ago, that, they, came, and, took, all, his, sheep, he, should, not, have, let, them, do, it, it, was, wrong, and, he, had, not, put, up, a, fight, he, had, just, gone, along, with, it, he, was, fairly, melancholic, about, it, i, tried, to, point, out, that, every, one, had, done, it, and, it, had, seemed, to, be, best, thing, to, do, at, the, time, i, did, not, think, that, pointing, out, i, had, not, been, convinced, and, argued, against, it, and, that, only, 2, out, of, 10,000, blood, samples, of, live, sheep, slaughtered, had, been, exposed, to, the, virus, would, have, helped, they, were, my, granddads, flock, he, said, now, we, have, all, these, problems, he, says, looking, at, the, dead, lambs, i, have, just, pulled, out, lying, in, a, heap, in, the, corner, of, the, trailer, you, never, forget, something, like, that, lad, he, says, never, there, are, a, lot, of, anniversaries, to, go, through, and, all, the, farmers, are, saying, the, fun, has, gone, out, of, it, saturday, 29th, march, the, beautiful, weather, is, carrying, on, and, wife, and, i, had, a, child, free, vet, student, free, afternoon, the, sun, was, out, and, we, went, down, for, a, walk, along, this, side, of, bassenthwaite, lake, there, were, lots, of, daffodils, out, and, a, light, breeze, off, the, lake, it, was, beautiful, cool, sunny, day, for, walking, and, very, pleasant, we, really, enjoyed, it, son, and, a, are, on, the, young, peoples, church, w, e, at, edinburgh, and, will, arrive, back, exhausted, from, lack, of, sleep, the, js, had, the, boys, for, the, afternoon, so, it, was, good, met, up, with, friends, in, the, evening, and, spent, the, evening, putting, agriculture, to, rights, he, sells, manages, sales, of, fertiliser, for, norsk, hydro, sunday, mothering, sunday, was, a, bit, of, a, disaster, with, out, a, to, organise, the, boys, and, i, hadn’t, had, time, to, get, them, organised, church, was, r, j, on, the, beatitudes, then, met, up, with, cs, and, went, up, bow, scale, fell, son’s, friend, and, son, complained, the, whole, way, they, were, in, really, bad, form, and, i, was, fed, up, with, them, monday, the, work, has, dried, up, completely, which, for, this, time, of, year, is, unheard, of, we, have, employed, a, locum, to, try, and, get, the, testing, done, and, no, work, for, every, one, to, do, embarrassingly, got, it, wrong, usually, at, this, time, of, year, there, is, no, testing, and, the, vets, are, running, around, like, idiots, not, very, good, news, for, us, so, wrote, letters, to, the, head, of, contingency, planning, at, page, st, to, amuse, you, i, have, copied, it, here, name, defra, rm, 803a, 1a, page, st, london, sw1p, 4pq, dear, name, i, am, writing, to, thank, you, for, travelling, north, to, carlisle, to, come, to, speak, to, the, recent, lvi, meeting, at, hadrian, house, carlisle, i, have, also, been, reading, the, defra, contingency, plan, and, a, lot, of, lessons, do, seem, to, have, been, learnt, i, appreciate, this, years, deadline, has, been, passed, to, place, it, before, parliament, but, it, is, a, living, document, my, apologies, but, better, late, than, never, i, would, like, to, make, a, few, comments, as, one, of, the, early, tvi, volunteers, at, carlisle, and, as, a, partner, of, one, of, the, practices, at, the, eye, of, the, storm, 1, the, whole, issue, of, valuation, of, animals, taken, as, a, compulsory, purchase, by, the, state, for, the, benefit, of, the, farming, community, to, eradicate, disease, has, not, been, addressed, one, of, the, initial, problems, slowing, the, slaughter, of, infected, animals, was, the, valuation, my, own, view, then, and, now, is, that, a, simple, standard, valuation, must, be, applied, it, must, be, high, enough, to, be, an, incentive, to, reporting, of, disease, but, too, low, to, make, the, possibility, of, disease, seem, financially, attractive, the, price, for, compulsory, purchase, may, be, set, higher, for, dangerous, contacts, or, less, for, affected, animals, if, there, is, a, simple, standard, value, then, the, diagnosing, vet, counts, the, number, of, bovines, and, shoots, them, the, farmer, knows, in, advance, what, compensation, is, going, to, be, paid, and, individual, animals, of, high, merit, could, be, insured, for, whatever, sum, the, farmer, is, willing, to, pay, premiums, for, this, may, be, an, unpopular, nettle, but, it, needs, to, be, grasped, even, though, i, am, sure, my, clients, would, disapprove, of, it, the, current, tuberculosis, problems, are, again, high, lighting, the, problems, in, this, area, there, should, be, a, standard, procedure, and, valuation, for, all, notifiable, diseases, and, the, values, based, on, the, last, mid, market, rate, there, are, apocryphal, stories, that, the, valuers, are, still, running, the, system, for, their, clients, the, farmers, not, defra, 2, the, second, issue, that, has, not, been, addressed, is, the, tracings, system, with, the, advent, of, the, british, cattle, movement, services, i, was, under, the, impression, that, traceability, was, a, central, part, of, government, policy, it, was, with, some, incredulity, that, in, response, to, questioning, at, the, lvi, meeting, we, were, told, that, bcms, cannot, give, a, list, of, movements, on, or, off, a, holding, so, tracings, for, tb, are, still, being, done, by, a, defra, vet, trawling, through, a, farmers, movement, book, why, if, the, political, will, was, there, at, the, touch, of, a, bottom, the, data, base, should, be, able, to, generate, a, list, of, animals, moved, in, the, past, 6, months, which, markets, they, have, been, through, and, which, holdings, they, have, been, through, if, this, cannot, be, done, for, tb, you, can, forget, trying, to, do, it, for, fmd, or, other, fast, contagious, disease, there, is, still, a, confusion, over, the, database, which, should, be, based, on, holding, numbers, several, farmers, have, multiple, holding, numbers, several, have, a, single, holding, number, and, multiple, sites, high, genetic, merit, animals, may, have, several, owners, a, single, holding, may, have, stock, from, several, different, farms, the, rules, for, cph, numbers, need, to, be, re, evaluated, centrally, if, a, data, base, is, to, be, of, use, it, must, be, actively, managed, and, updated, that, can, only, be, done, at, a, local, level, 3, disposal, i, know, that, this, has, been, looked, at, but, farm, sizes, are, continuing, to, grow, at, an, ever, more, rapid, rate, the, average, size, of, dairy, farms, in, this, area, has, grown, by, 20, cows, since, fmd, this, means, there, will, be, a, bigger, disposal, problem, as, individual, farms, will, have, more, and, more, stock, 4, the, local, office, should, have, stores, to, equip, 20, tvis, at, 24hours, notice, we, touched, on, this, point, at, the, meeting, was, the, need, for, sudden, recruitment, of, tvi, or, other, veterinary, staff, while, the, svs, can, second, small, numbers, of, vets, for, short, term, availability, there, was, a, reluctance, by, some, dvms, to, second, staff, who, may, yet, be, required, in, their, own, areas, local, lvis, can, provide, veterinary, cover, but, the, whole, structure, of, large, animal, practice, is, in, flux, and, it, may, or, may, not, be, possible, to, provide, veterinary, inspections, on, an, allocated, on, a, temporary, or, part, time, basis, the, pay, and, conditions, for, such, assistance, need, addressed, and, agreed, the, other, part, of, this, is, orientation, training, at, the, local, levels, this, by, the, end, of, the, outbreak, at, carlisle, was, quite, impressive, however, has, that, information, been, put, together, centrally, should, there, be, a, central, trainer, who, trains, designated, trainers, for, each, svs, office, decc, similarly, with, lay, blood, samplers, vaccinators, again, local, practices, could, provide, nominated, nurses, lay, staff, for, training, during, the, out, break, here, ai, personnel, were, used, very, effectively, for, blood, sampling, and, other, procedures, is, this, again, something, for, the, local, plan, but, if, the, cost, for, training, ai, staff, in, blood, sampling, was, met, centrally, it, would, encourage, a, register, of, trained, personnel, to, be, maintained, locally, the, cumbria, county, council, inquiry, recommends, the, use, of, its, emergency, centre, as, a, hub, for, multi, agency, response, to, any, disease, out, break, should, there, be, some, joined, up, government, so, that, each, county, council, as, part, of, its, contingency, plan, provides, for, an, admin, back, up, for, any, emergency, civil, disaster, terrorist, incident, and, do, the, local, plans, make, use, of, this, my, main, concern, however, is, that, when, i, asked, at, that, meeting, had, the, two, way, communications, between, page, st, and, carlisle, been, sorted, out, it, was, met, by, nervous, laughter, i, would, like, to, emphasise, that, page, st, did, not, know, what, was, going, on, in, the, field, during, fmd, outbreak, there, was, a, communication, barrier, between, the, vets, in, the, field, and, carlisle, management, and, a, huge, gulf, between, carlisle, and, page, street, i, would, plead, that, this, is, addressed, as, the, culture, identified, by, iain, anderson, still, seems, to, prevail, i, quote, a, culture, predisposed, to, decision, making, by, committee, with, an, associated, fear, of, personal, risk, taking, such, a, climate, does, not, encourage, creative, initiative, it, inhibits, adaptive, behaviour, and, organisational, learning, which, over, time, lowers, the, quality, of, the, decisions, taken, it, seems, to, me, that, a, reappraisal, of, prevailing, attitudes, and, behaviours, within, the, department, would, be, beneficial, it, may, be, outside, your, remit, but, the, northumberland, report, with, its, flow, charts, and, recommendations, actually, lists, lessons, to, be, learned, in, dec, 1969, the, one, about, the, svs, who, fared, so, poorly, in, fmd, 2001, states, we, have, considered, the, recruitment, problem, of, the, state, veterinary, service, the, reasons, maybe, the, low, initial, salary, or, in, part, the, to, the, nature, of, the, duties, within, the, service, we, consider, it, important, for, future, development, that, the, ministry, of, agriculture, should, attract, a, greater, number, of, good, young, graduates, willing, to, make, a, career, in, the, service, at, the, end, of, any, plan, are, the, people, who, are, going, to, implement, it, they, need, well, managed, well, led, and, given, the, resources, to, carry, out, the, task, they, need, to, have, confidence, in, both, the, political, and, civil, service, leadership, there, will, need, to, be, a, risk, management, of, tasks, for, financial, reasons, resource, reasons, and, for, the, wider, rural, economy, this, requires, flexible, decision, makers, who, are, prepared, to, take, risks, and, stick, their, head, above, the, collective, parapet, i, hope, that, this, provides, a, few, more, thoughts, for, you, to, work, on, yours, sincerely, refs, fmd, 2001, lessons, learned, enquiry, forward, by, chairman, iain, anderson, p7, northumberland, report, presented, to, parliament, dec, 69, part, 2, section, 47, she, spoke, at, the, last, lvi, meeting, and, as, usual, the, plans, sound, good, but, where, reality, hits, is, in, the, delivery, tuesday, did, some, small, animal, work, and, more, testing, tues, evening, always, seems, a, rush, went, to, gym, and, then, on, to, n’s, for, the, new, frontiers, church, meeting, which, was, excellent, weds, managed, some, fertility, work, in, the, morning, and, spent, the, rest, of, the, day, bringing, the, practice, database, up, to, date, it, has, been, let, go, since, foot, and, mouth, as, it, tell, us, how, much, stock, each, farm, has, the, numbers, have, been, all, over, the, place, as, people, have, been, restocking, and, changing, the, direction, their, businesses, are, going, some, moving, out, some, moving, up, in, numbers, and, some, going, from, dairy, to, beef, or, sheep, the, most, interesting, thing, was, the, fact, that, a, lot, of, farms, that, had, restocked, with, adult, animals, have, dropped, by, 5, 10, cows, since, they, restocked, as, older, cows, are, lost, or, ill, cows, go, but, there, are, not, the, young, stock, replacements, coming, through, to, replace, them, the, actual, figures, for, dairy, farms, restocking, are, not, yet, entered, in, the, computer, i, was, hoping, to, have, them, but, will, get, them, thursday, did, some, small, animals, and, some, otm22, but, it, still, incredibly, quiet, consequently, i, have, booked, in, a, lot, more, work, for, the, next, few, weeks, so, i, hope, i, don’t, get, it, wrong, the, other, way, set, up, anne, a, vet, student, for, her, project, on, comparing, fertility, pre, and, post, fmd, finished, off, updating, the, database, figures, so, they, will, hopefully, get, entered, over, next, few, days, and, we, can, do, some, comparisons, march, figures, look, ok, but, the, long, term, out, look, is, not, so, good, the, govt, is, doing, a, committee, looking, at, farm, animal, vet, practice, the, lakeland, bva, have, asked, for, comments, efracom, inquiry, into, vets, and, veterinary, services, efracom, is, a, defra, committee, terms, of, reference, are, to, look, at, the, provision, of, farm, veterinary, services, in, england, and, wales, in, particular, it, will, look, at, 1, what, impact, current, levels, of, farm, income, are, having, on, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, in, turn, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, such, services, is, having, on, the, number, of, practices, dealing, with, large, animals, 2, what, effect, any, reduction, in, the, usage, of, veterinary, services, and, a, shortage, of, large, animal, vets, is, having, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, the, effectiveness, of, surveillance, for, animal, diseases, 3, whether, the, requirements, placed, on, farmers, by, government, including, those, in, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, are, realisable, in, such, circumstances, and, 4, what, is, the, impact, on, the, work, of, the, state, veterinary, service, comments, by, 12, april, please, the, day, ended, with, the, reading, of, a, tb, test, on, a, farm, that, was, hoping, to, become, clear, after, going, down, when, it, first, restocked, 18months, ago, 1, reactor, and, 1, i, r, on, normal, interpretation, they, will, probably, take, both, on, severe, interpretation, the, government, always, looks, as, though, problems, are, dealt, with, in, isolation, the, defra, vet, who, looks, after, our, practice, is, not, dealing, with, this, case, as, his, daughter, is, married, to, her, brother, the, farming, community, is, very, incestuous, friday, work, desperately, quiet, so, i, organised, more, testing, to, do, i, hope, i, haven’t, over, booked, the, work, defra, vets, at, carlisle, are, still, learning, the, ropes, when, it, come, s, to, tb, as, it, has, been, so, rare, in, this, part, of, the, world, so, a, few, of, the, allocations, have, been, wrong, so, i, am, having, to, go, back, and, do, extra, animals, so, that, set, can, be, signed, off, the, school, held, a, curry, evening, tonight, which, for, a, cumbrian, village, school, is, very, cosmopolitan, there, is, an, extended, family, of, three, pakistani, families, and, they, cooked, though, for, the, children, there, was, also, a, bangers, and, chips, option, it, was, quite, a, nice, time, though, wife, was, on, her, next, level, counselling, course, so, i, ended, up, just, with, kids, but, it, was, good, to, spend, time, with, them, i, have, enjoyed, not, working, many, w, e’s, recently, it, kind, of, gives, you, your, life, back, that, and, not, doing, much, at, work, saturday, 5th, april, 2003, wife, was, at, her, level, 2, course, counselling, so, i, had, the, kids, for, the, w, e, took, son, to, squash, went, into, town, for, some, bits, and, pieces, and, then, i, chatted, to, i, while, we, waited, for, t, and, son, to, finish, then, took, all, the, kids, into, town, we, are, having, a, mothers, day, tomorrow, to, make, up, for, the, fact, l, a, were, away, for, the, w, e, last, week, the, kids, have, bought, presents, and, made, cards, which, was, nice, the, cs, and, friend, came, for, lunch, and, then, spent, a, very, muddy, afternoon, by, the, pond, playing, and, building, dens, and, generally, making, a, mess, and, having, fun, son, even, decided, showers, were, in, order, when, he, came, back, that, shows, you, how, dirty, they, were, as, he, is, mr, allergic, to, water, i, made, a, fondue, for, tea, with, apple, juice, as, the, kids, don’t, like, the, kick, of, the, wine, it, was, a, great, success, and, did, taste, rather, good, even, if, i, do, say, so, myself, sunday, i, went, to, church, on, my, own, as, wife, was, heading, out, again, after, an, early, lunch, the, talk, was, on, god’s, leading, which, is, always, relevant, the, kids, were, great, fun, on, the, way, back, and, full, of, craic, they, had, a, return, trip, to, the, cs, as, they, were, too, late, to, find, a, sky, tv, for, the, match, carlisle, lost, as, usual, but, it, is, not, every, week, they, lose, at, the, millennium, stadium, i, picked, the, kids, up, from, the, cs, and, put, all, their, bikes, on, the, back, of, the, car, went, to, say, good, bye, to, cs, in, the, meantime, three, of, their, boys, were, hiding, in, the, boot, of, the, car, so, they, let, me, drive, out, with, them, before, the, giggles, and, laughter, gave, the, game, away, so, it, caused, much, merriment, all, round, met, up, with, the, lads, sunday, night, felt, really, sorry, for, one, guy, who, is, having, real, problems, getting, access, to, his, 7, year, old, as, his, ex, wife, is, putting, a, lot, of, ve, input, into, the, wee, one, he, can, go, down, the, legal, route, but, will, be, expensive, and, probably, counter, productive, as, she, is, not, wanting, to, negotiate, or, look, at, what, is, best, for, the, wee, girl, it, seems, a, real, mess, monday, in, spite, of, 4, tests, the, work, is, not, there, i, spent, the, day, testing, though, it, is, really, quite, amusing, as, i, know, the, guy’s, sister, quite, well, and, i, always, make, sure, i, tell, her, how, much, the, good, lunch, is, appreciated, so, there, builds, up, a, rivalry, between, them, as, to, who, can, provide, the, vet, with, the, best, food, i, am, afraid, i, consciously, flame, the, rivalry, in, spite, of, it, not, doing, my, waistline, any, good, trying, to, concentrate, after, a, three, course, lunch, on, a, boring, job, is, not, easy, you, just, have, to, think, about, coffee, time, and, more, cakes, and, tray, bakes, all, of, them, distinctly, unhealthy, with, the, aim, of, feeding, out, door, manual, labour, tuesday, had, a, bad, night, as, my, hand, was, caught, in, the, crush, yesterday, by, a, stirk, throwing, its, head, and, it, bent, the, finger, back, it, seemed, ok, but, is, now, throbbing, like, mad, plenty, of, aspirin, and, corticosteroids, did, some, ferty, and, then, saw, another, lda, the, cows, seem, to, be, having, a, real, problem, with, the, feed, this, spring, as, we, have, seen, 3, 4, times, the, normal, number, went, running, with, a, as, my, finger, meant, i, could, not, go, to, gym, to, work, machines, weds, the, speed, cameras, have, arrived, on, the, top, road, and, unfortunately, i, was, going, too, fast, by, the, time, i, saw, it, so, i, will, probably, have, another, 3, points, on, my, licence, they, have, been, building, pads, on, the, side, of, the, road, all, along, the, a595, as, it, has, a, really, bad, record, for, car, accidents, the, numbers, killed, continues, to, go, up, the, speed, cameras, are, in, a, van, which, can, move, around, and, hence, trap, the, speeders, it, is, called, casualty, reduction, unit, a, bit, of, a, pointed, message, even, if, you, did, slow, down, for, them, work, is, slow, again, today, with, no, tb, testing, on, mid, week, days, it, is, my, brother’s, birthday, in, nz, and, he, sent, a, letter, to, say, he, is, going, to, be, a, dad, again, so, the, trip, to, come, across, at, xmas, is, off, he, is, wanting, us, to, all, go, there, hm, maybe, thursday, i, has, had, 2, reactors, and, 4, i, rs, today, so, the, future, is, not, looking, good, for, him, as, it, looks, like, there, will, be, tb, there, he, has, had, real, problems, since, the, herd, restocked, with, lung, worm, energy, problems, in, the, silage, and, atrocious, fertility, he, is, going, to, have, to, go, and, buy, another, 30, odd, replacements, at, 800, to, replace, those, that, he, has, lost, through, ill, health, and, fertility, makes, the, compensation, payments, seem, pretty, small, that’s, 24k, he, has, lost, out, on, already, and, his, own, heifers, are, only, coming, up, to, be, served, work, is, busy, and, i, wonder, if, the, spring, rush, is, coming, i, was, supposed, to, be, at, the, school, parents, evening, but, got, called, out, which, was, pretty, irritating, i, hate, the, fact, that, you, are, just, so, unreliable, when, you, are, on, call, friday, another, tb, testing, day, so, busy, all, together, not, a, good, day, the, competition, report, is, out, and, is, fairly, damning, as, expected, so, the, pressure, on, drug, margins, is, going, to, continue, and, the, old, fashioned, way, of, providing, a, complete, service, will, be, going, out, the, window, we, will, have, to, charge, for, the, out, of, hours, and, on, call, the, telephone, advice, and, try, to, make, it, pay, but, the, whole, economics, of, going, out, to, see, a, single, ill, animal, will, be, gone, the, clinical, skills, of, veterinarians, will, be, gone, all, academic, as, the, cost, for, diagnosing, a, single, animal, in, the, new, era, will, be, too, much, so, the, diagnosis, will, all, be, done, by, post, mortem, of, herd, problems, but, if, you, have, large, herds, the, man, power, will, not, be, there, to, look, after, the, individual, ill, animal, sad, depressing, day, but, i, am, off, for, the, w, e, saturday, 12th, april, 2003, woke, up, early, and, got, up, even, though, it, is, my, day, for, a, lie, in, i, think, i, am, particularly, wound, up, it, all, ways, takes, me, at, least, one, day, to, wind, down, from, work, so, i, am, tired, and, yet, not, feeling, able, to, rest, took, son, to, football, and, other, son, to, buy, anew, bike, he, was, so, excited, it, is, his, birthday, coming, up, and, he, has, out, grown, his, old, one, so, it, will, be, good, for, him, the, kids, spend, ages, flying, around, the, yard, on, bikes, and, up, and, down, the, field, when, the, grass, is, short, they, have, a, real, ball, here, it, is, a, great, place, to, grow, up, as, they, have, so, much, freedom, to, play, and, play, and, play, my, finger, that, was, caught, tb, testing, started, throbbing, again, this, afternoon, so, as, it, had, improved, and, then, got, worse, i, decided, i, had, to, get, it, x, rayed, so, i, spent, the, afternoon, in, casualty, waiting, to, get, x, rayed, and, then, waiting, for, another, hour, before, being, told, it, was, not, broken, a, five, minute, consultation, that, took, me, almost, 2, hours, friends, were, up, for, the, w, e, more, friends, are, at, capernwray, bible, college, for, an, easter, youth, thing, so, they, came, on, up, so, it, was, good, to, catch, up, sunday, cooked, lunch, for, everyone, and, then, went, to, communion, it, was, dire, and, reminded, me, why, i, don’t, usually, bother, spent, the, afternoon, putting, onions, in, and, tidying, in, the, garden, it, is, incredibly, dry, and, warm, amazing, really, the, 6, kids, spent, the, whole, afternoon, messing, around, at, the, pond, and, were, disgusting, with, mud, everywhere, and, trailed, all, up, the, yard, and, wellies, abandoned, everywhere, church, was, dm, speaking, and, then, the, yps, came, back, to, ours, afterwards, mind, you, i, think, i, had, had, enough, kids, for, the, time, being, but, i, was, ok, monday, bad, haircut, day, as, there, is, only, one, day, we, can, test, this, week, i, booked, in, fair, amount, which, would, have, been, tight, but, aw, was, off, ill, so, we, were, too, tight, so, a, few, ops, have, been, put, off, until, tomorrow, d, has, a, s, african, vet, friend, visiting, so, with, him, and, the, vet, student, the, house, is, still, full, i, however, am, knackered, and, not, feeling, sociable, had, a, horrendous, calving, it, is, not, often, i, cannot, calve, a, cow, but, i, am, afraid, after, an, hour, i, gave, up, and, caesared, it, the, calf, was, dead, and, rotten, so, whether, she, will, do, i, don’t, know, i, did, not, want, to, caesarean, but, that, is, life, it, was, either, that, or, the, farmer, pay, 60, to, get, some, one, to, take, it, away, after, i, euthed, it, tuesday, we, are, in, the, period, of, anniversaries, it, is, 2, years, since, the, ls, went, down, i, was, at, a, farm, which, did, not, get, fmd, and, his, uncles, did, he, was, saying, what, a, sad, day, it, was, so, his, uncles, must, be, feeling, it, more, the, beautiful, spring, weather, with, the, grass, growing, in, spite, of, the, frosts, definitely, puts, a, bounce, in, to, your, step, on, days, like, this, i, think, that, it, is, an, excellent, life, wandering, around, the, countryside, and, enjoying, the, scenery, the, farms, the, animals, and, the, farmers, beats, working, in, a, factory, any, way, went, to, the, gym, and, felt, a, lot, better, for, it, exercise, is, a, great, way, of, getting, a, buzz, but, you, have, to, be, not, too, tired, to, a, get, there, and, b, enjoy, it, i, have, gone, often, because, i, feel, i, should, and, just, felt, like, a, steam, roller, had, run, over, me, and, its, taken, a, day, or, two, to, recover, balance, in, all, things, weds, the, commission, report, came, out, today, difficult, to, believe, that, they, will, be, able, to, implement, it, but, having, lived, through, the, fmd, there, were, quite, a, few, things, i, thought, that, they, would, not, be, able, to, implement, but, they, did, we, will, have, to, if, the, minister, decides, and, since, it, is, dti, not, defra, i, think, that, the, implementation, may, be, effective, provide, prescriptions, free, of, charge, provide, our, clients, with, a, list, of, pharmacies, agricultural, suppliers, and, other, vets, and, web, sites, that, will, meet, those, prescriptions, the, cost, of, the, most, commonly, prescribed, medicines, in, the, previous, quarter, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, will, not, be, allowed, and, how, will, the, pharmacist, make, his, money, the, other, comment, which, did, irk, me, some, what, was, that, the, provision, of, 24, hour, cover, does, not, seem, that, onerous, i, do, not, often, swear, but, really, very, depressed, but, daughter, came, on, a, caesaer, with, me, as, i, was, on, call, tonight, it, is, really, nice, working, from, home, and, being, able, to, take, them, with, me, it, is, a, very, healthy, thing, to, do, she, is, growing, up, and, is, very, much, the, young, lady, the, farmers, wife, is, the, dental, receptionist, and, of, course, said, hello, a, she, was, thrown, as, of, course, being, out, of, context, she, could, not, figure, how, the, farmers, wife, knew, who, she, was, thursday, good, friday, it, is, son’s, b’day, today, and, the, day, started, out, great, for, him, i, was, on, duty, and, he, arrived, in, our, bedroom, at, 7am, with, the, other, 2, boys, to, start, on, the, birthday, celebrations, our, family, tradition, is, that, they, have, breakfast, in, bed, in, our, bed, don’t, know, why, but, that, is, what, happens, the, others, all, brought, cards, and, presents, in, the, phone, went, and, it, was, a, lambing, so, tim, decided, he, would, come, and, see, the, lambs, being, born, so, he, was, thrilled, we, opened, the, presents, later, on, which, included, a, new, boiler, suit, which, really, thrilled, him, it, is, amazing, what, kids, think, of, as, their, best, present, i, never, really, like, working, good, friday, i, always, think, one, year, i, will, be, off, and, go, to, one, of, the, contemplative, services, hebron, being, low, church, never, really, does, anything, like, that, which, is, a, real, shame, easter, is, when, i, think, the, cathedrals, old, country, churches, and, the, church, architecture, can, really, be, helpful, in, stopping, and, praying, and, helping, to, consider, what, jesus, did, on, the, cross, finished, work, and, went, up, to, the, friends, they, were, both, home, and, it, was, really, good, to, see, them, played, rounders, and, had, a, barbeque, which, was, really, nice, james, was, in, really, good, form, as, he, was, enjoying, being, back, away, from, london, where, he, has, just, started, work, as, a, high, flying, lawyer, he, is, not, enjoying, london, very, much, he, is, a, hills, and, countryside, lad, his, girlfriend, was, also, there, so, was, quite, a, good, craic, i, didn’t, really, want, to, come, home, but, was, so, knackered, that, it, was, probably, just, as, well, the, kids, were, with, us, and, it, was, not, a, too, late, a, night, saturday, 19th, april, 2004, spent, most, of, the, day, either, catching, up, on, sleep, or, on, the, day, to, day, things, that, seem, to, have, been, put, to, one, side, for, a, while, there, was, also, the, preparations, for, the, service, tomorrow, we, are, taking, the, easter, sunday, morning, service, which, is, one, of, those, night, mare, services, where, everyone, comes, the, age, range, is, from, 0, to, 100, and, everyone, has, different, expectations, i, should, explain, that, the, normal, sunday, services, are, very, different, there, is, the, family, focus, which, is, lively, and, very, informal, aimed, at, those, with, young, children, who, go, to, sunday, school, there, is, then, teaching, for, parents, adults, there, is, always, a, lot, of, noise, children, running, around, babies, crying, and, shakers, and, children’s, songs, the, communion, service, that, follows, is, very, traditional, silence, and, solemnity, rules, all, the, older, generation, go, and, it, is, a, very, different, service, so, we, are, going, to, be, combining, the, two, oil, and, water, a, lot, of, prayer, has, gone, in, to, this, one, sunday, wife, got, up, at, 6, am, to, go, to, the, sunrise, service, at, the, crematorium, she, said, she, needed, some, input, before, the, easter, service, we, are, leading, it, is, a, service, organised, by, st, james, parish, church, but, all, the, carlisle, churches, are, asked, to, take, part, christiana, had, asked, to, go, so, wife, went, with, her, and, it, was, really, good, christ, is, risen, he, is, risen, indeed, the, sermon, was, by, the, archdeacon, from, the, cathedral, who, said, that, being, a, good, anglican, he, wanted, some, liturgy, through, his, sermon, so, every, time, he, said, are, you, dead, the, congregation, had, to, reply, no, alive, in, christ, at, which, point, he, would, sound, a, hooter, the, service, at, hebron, went, very, well, oh, ye, of, little, faith, i, should, pray, more, and, worry, less, i, have, included, our, outline, below, and, i, have, put, in, additional, comments, in, blue, easter, sunday, service, welcome, to, hebron, evangelical, church, this, easter, sunday, morning, when, we, are, celebrating, jesus, is, alive, our, opening, hymn, is, our, declaration, that, jesus, is, alive, he, has, risen, from, the, dead, opening, hymn, we, believe, in, god, the, father, welcome, intro, me, and, welcome, team, this, morning, the, service, is, in, a, different, order, from, usual, we, are, going, to, remember, what, jesus, has, done, for, us, on, the, cross, and, bruce, beattie, one, of, our, elders, is, going, to, help, explain, what, the, bread, and, wine, mean, to, us, as, some, of, the, children, may, not, have, been, here, for, a, communion, service, before, then, after, taking, communion, we, are, going, to, celebrate, jesus, resurrection, with, reading, singing, and, sharing, the, resurrection, is, the, central, part, to, our, faith, who, knows, what, that, long, word, resurrection, means, the, answers, from, the, kids, were, quite, amusing, but, we, got, there, in, the, end, at, the, end, of, the, service, there, will, be, the, offering, an, opportunity, to, give, our, money, as, well, as, ourselves, to, the, living, god, if, during, the, service, the, young, children, get, fed, up, there, is, a, place, at, the, back, where, they, can, do, some, making, things, it, isn’t, easy, to, sit, still, when, you, are, little, or, be, quiet, so, please, don’t, worry, about, the, little, ones, being, a, distraction, i, often, wonder, what, it, was, like, when, jesus, fed, the, 5000plus, crowd, do, you, think, the, children, all, sat, neat, and, quiet, in, rows, i, don’t, think, so, we, are, pleased, to, see, them, and, hear, them, this, is, a, time, of, family, worship, from, the, youngest, to, the, oldest, reading, psalm, 67, i, had, this, up, on, a, power, point, and, we, read, it, together, may, god, be, gracious, to, us, and, bless, us, and, make, his, face, shine, upon, us, that, your, ways, may, be, known, on, earth, your, salvation, among, all, nations, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, may, the, nations, be, glad, and, sing, for, joy, for, you, rule, the, people, justly, and, guide, the, nations, of, the, earth, may, the, peoples, praise, you, o, god, may, all, the, peoples, praise, you, then, the, land, will, yield, its, harvest, and, god, our, god, will, bless, us, god, will, bless, us, and, all, the, ends, of, the, earth, will, fear, him, psalm, 67, prayer, m, as, we, sing, this, next, hymn, it, would, be, good, if, the, children, came, to, sit, at, the, front, so, that, b, can, see, you, all, when, he, talks, to, you, hymn, when, i, survey, the, wondrous, cross, communion, b, b, gave, an, excellent, talk, about, remembering, he, included, a, diary, and, a, kitchen, timer, which, he, set, to, go, of, at, the, carefully, timed, point, in, his, little, bit, he, then, used, smarties, to, go, through, the, easter, story, and, the, different, colours, i, wish, i, had, it, written, down, we, then, had, communion, and, he, had, smarties, for, the, kids, so, that, they, could, remember, about, the, easter, story, while, the, adults, took, communion, and, remembered, christ’s, death, and, resurrection, forgiveness, is, a, wonderful, thing, we, have, just, been, remembering, what, jesus, did, for, us, on, the, cross, he, died, for, us, what, incredible, love, but, thankfully, the, gospel, doesn’t, end, there, son, a, and, cerise, are, going, to, read, on, reading, and, luke, 24, vs, 1, 12, they, did, a, brilliant, dramatic, reading, an, empty, tomb, lets, sing, god’s, not, dead, he, is, alive, sing, it, twice, and, use, the, instruments, at, the, front, to, make, a, joyful, noise, we, want, you, to, have, a, little, taste, of, what, it, was, like, to, be, around, that, day, and, so, let’s, listen, in, to, mary, magdalene, chatting, on, the, phone, to, well, you, listen, and, see, who, she, is, talking, to, wife, did, a, sketch, about, mary, talking, on, the, phone, to, marta, having, met, the, risen, jesus, she, was, very, good, really, gave, the, facts, to, a, contemporary, feel, hymn, led, like, a, lamb, to, the, slaughter, in, the, second, verse, would, children, come, to, help, we, have, verses, to, give, out, to, the, big, people, and, i’d, like, you, to, help, give, them, out, making, sure, all, the, big, people, get, one, for, the, children, who, may, not, be, able, to, read, yet, we, have, some, coloured, stones, to, remind, you, of, a, huge, stone, that, was, rolled, away, when, jesus, rose, from, the, dead, you, can, keep, it, in, your, pocket, or, somewhere, special, to, remind, you, that, jesus, is, alive, and, he, wants, to, be, with, you, where, ever, you, go, a, had, made, up, tiny, scrolls, with, verses, about, the, resurrection, which, the, kids, all, gave, out, it, kept, the, wee, ones, busy, and, also, gave, everyone, a, verse, to, think, about, isn’t, it, wonderful, to, know, that, we, are, singing, he’s, alive, he, has, risen, and, all, over, the, world, the, church, is, singing, the, same, message, in, revelation, we, get, a, little, glimpse, into, what, it, will, be, like, in, heaven, with, a, new, song, being, sung, to, jesus, christ, close, your, eyes, and, listen, to, what, it, says, rev, 5, vs, 9, 11, we, have, the, privilege, in, hebron, of, having, a, few, representatives, of, different, language, people, and, nation, here, this, morning, let, us, listen, to, them, christ, is, risen, in, different, languages, and, prayer, we, then, had, one, family, say, it, in, arabic, another, in, german, there, is, a, philippino, girl, who, said, it, in, her, language, and, some, one, else, in, spanish, it, was, magical, introduce, lord, we, lift, your, name, on, high, sung, at, mizpah, orphanage, with, children, some, of, whom, had, just, heard, the, name, jesus, for, the, first, time, at, christmas, see, picture, we, need, helpers, to, do, the, actions, to, this, song, we, are, thankful, that, jesus, is, alive, and, so, he, speaks, guides, comforts, and, forgives, us, for, all, the, sin, the, mess, we, make, it, is, not, only, the, mary’s, and, the, peters, and, the, thomases, that, have, met, with, the, risen, lord, we, each, have, a, story, to, tell, of, walking, with, the, risen, lord, as, you, listen, to, some, people, here, sharing, a, bit, of, their, story, i, wonder, what, you, would, have, to, share, take, the, opportunity, to, day, to, share, what, god, is, teaching, you, where, he, is, changing, you, don’t, hide, behind, the, weather, or, holidays, share, your, journey, to, encourage, real, fellowship, end, in, prayer, over, top, song, and, offering, this, is, your, opportunity, to, offer, yourself, afresh, to, the, risen, lord, an, old, song, but, a, powerful, one, to, make, this, song, personal, to, you, choose, the, verse, where, you, will, stand, as, a, sign, of, your, offering, to, the, lord, band, will, play, it, through, twice, as, collection, taken, up, and, then, we, sing, it, if, you, want, to, sit, until, last, verse, when, we, sing, take, my, love, then, we, will, all, stand, for, last, verse, take, my, life, this, song, has, lots, of, parts, about, asking, god, to, take, and, use, different, parts, of, our, lives, songs, intellect, strength, money, etc, and, by, asking, people, to, stand, at, the, point, they, wanted, it, really, meant, they, stopped, and, offered, part, of, them, selves, back, to, god, in, response, to, the, resurrection, finish, with, thine, be, the, glory, the, service, went, really, well, people, came, and, said, how, well, it, had, gone, wife, spent, afternoon, packing, and, feeling, washed, out, giving, out, is, tiring, but, the, satisfaction, is, huge, mon, up, early, to, catch, the, boat, to, n, ireland, the, boat, was, not, too, busy, which, was, good, spent, the, boat, ride, filling, in, my, thoughts, on, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, for, the, efracom, enquiry, bought, lord, of, rings, part, 2, the, two, towers, as, i, am, wanting, to, re, read, it, having, seen, the, movie, so, that, is, my, holiday, reading, sorted, out, had, a, chance, when, we, got, there, to, sit, down, with, wife, s, parents, and, talk, through, our, future, which, was, good, as, campbell, usually, disappears, out, but, a, sit, is, a, bank, holiday, he, didn’t, they, were, fairly, up, beat, about, it, which, was, good, so, i, was, pleased, spent, the, evening, with, c, and, the, cousins, which, was, really, good, had, a, barbecue, and, chilled, out, c, was, not, really, surprised, at, the, news, as, agriculture, in, ni, is, going, through, a, bad, time, as, well, it, is, behind, the, uk, and, there, are, a, lot, of, small, uneconomic, family, farms, and, so, a, lot, of, consolidation, is, going, on, and, farmers, selling, up, tuesday, spent, the, morning, playing, squash, with, the, boys, which, w, as, great, fun, spent, the, afternoon, in, the, garden, trying, to, tidy, it, up, went, out, for, dinner, with, our, bridesmaid, who, has, also, just, handed, in, her, notice, or, rather, accepted, a, redundancy, package, it, must, be, catching, it, was, great, to, see, her, and, also, to, be, out, in, belfast, which, is, such, a, cosmopolitan, city, these, days, with, different, languages, cultures, and, nationalities, all, mixing, in, the, downtown, area, a, big, change, weds, went, to, the, new, exhibition, centre, in, the, docks, at, belfast, it, has, a, multiplex, and, a, science, exhibition, as, well, as, shops, and, restaurants, and, so, on, it, was, amazing, the, kids, could, have, spent, all, day, playing, on, the, exhibits, and, it, was, very, well, done, so, that, you, came, away, having, learnt, quite, a, lot, wife, now, believes, i, cannot, do, colours, as, i, am, easily, confused, by, them, there, was, one, exhibit, where, words, in, one, coloured, spelt, the, name, of, another, colour, i.e, the, word, was, spelt, y, e, l, l, o, w, but, it, was, red, in, colour, you, then, had, to, read, the, words, or, say, the, colours, and, i, just, could, not, do, it, my, brain, ended, up, really, confused, bought, flowers, and, stuff, for, the, garden, and, did, the, boxes, for, gran, went, out, to, dinner, at, rp, she, is, a, widow, who, is, wife, s, parents, age, but, is, so, much, fun, she, loves, giving, dinner, parties, and, having, folk, of, all, ages, around, she, gave, me, some, useful, addresses, there, are, lots, of, plans, for, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, thursday, the, day, of, the, big, photo, shoot, wife, s, brother’s, father, in, law, is, a, photographer, and, while, we, were, all, together, wife, mum, wanted, a, photo, of, all, the, family, together, so, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, getting, positioned, and, photographed, 7, kids, and, 7, adults, and, a, very, pernickety, photographer, travel, back, on, the, boat, was, ok, but, came, back, to, find, that, everything, had, fused, and, that, the, phone, was, not, working, so, fixed, the, fuses, which, are, all, trips, thank, goodness, and, got, the, electrics, going, the, phone, could, not, fix, but, did, not, worry, while, we, were, away, there, had, been, a, lightning, strike, on, to, the, phone, line, up, the, road, and, it, had, fried, all, the, cables, one, of, the, neighbours, had, been, in, her, kitchen, and, the, phone, had, exploded, and, jumped, off, the, wall, it, has, left, scorch, marks, down, the, wall, i, am, just, glad, that, there, was, no, one, on, the, phone, at, the, time, the, other, unfortunate, thing, is, that, the, computer, was, attached, and, is, dead, as, a, dodo, friday, back, to, maelstrom, i, was, really, relaxed, going, back, in, to, work, and, it, lasted, for, may, be, half, an, hour, no, one, had, picked, up, on, any, of, my, admin, things, while, i, had, been, away, in, spite, of, asking, people, to, do, so, this, meant, i, had, to, start, and, get, things, organised, for, testing, the, rota, and, nestles, as, well, as, to, try, and, do, some, work, my, in, tray, is, a, mess, but, never, mind, i, also, had, to, complete, the, report, for, efracom, as, the, closing, date, is, today, i, hope, not, by, 5pm, the, report, was, actually, finished, by, 10, 15, and, was, e, mailed, off, i, would, like, to, have, polished, it, a, bit, more, but, the, schedule, today, was, not, conducive, during, the, evening, when, i, was, supposed, to, be, writing, it, i, had, a, casaers, and, a, foal, trying, to, die, at, farm, they, are, not, having, much, luck, as, they, have, had, horrendous, problems, with, restocking, they, are, also, under, tb2, i, enclose, a, copy, of, the, report, to, efracom, the, right, hon, michael, jack, mp, environment, food, and, rural, affairs, chairman, of, the, sub, committee, vets, and, veterinary, services, a, submission, summary, this, is, a, timely, review, of, farm, veterinary, services, i, would, submit, that, the, current, trends, in, veterinary, practice, are, likely, to, accelerate, rapidly, in, response, both, to, present, levels, of, farm, income, and, imminent, changes, in, veterinary, practice, in, this, submission, i, have, briefly, covered, the, following, areas, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, current, provision, of, veterinary, services, and, how, they, are, financed, the, income, for, rural, farm, veterinary, practice, that, provides, the, majority, of, veterinary, services, to, the, agricultural, industry, has, traditionally, come, from, 5, major, areas, clinical, services, examining, and, diagnosing, individual, animals, calvings, lambings, individual, surgery, routine, fertility, dehorning, and, castrating, traditional, on, farm, professional, fee, work, lvi, income, from, defra, maff, in, the, eradication, of, notifiable, disease, tuberculosis, brucellosis, anthrax, etc, many, practices, also, were, involved, with, meat, hygiene, and, inspections, at, abattoirs, the, dispensing, of, pharmaceuticals, the, provision, of, veterinary, advice, on, farm, management, and, welfare, the, majority, of, veterinary, partnerships, are, mixed, practices, a, consideration, must, be, given, to, the, fact, that, small, animal, work, makes, up, a, variable, proportion, of, the, work, and, income, to, veterinary, practice, it, is, my, opinion, that, clinical, farm, animal, practice, the, examining, and, diagnosing, of, individual, animals, is, already, uneconomic, for, both, the, veterinary, surgeon, and, the, farmer, it, is, only, happening, because, of, the, cross, subsidy, of, the, professional, fees, by, other, income, and, because, of, the, good, will, of, most, farmers, to, give, animals, a, chance, as, the, harsh, economics, are, coming, home, to, vets, and, farmers, this, is, rapidly, becoming, with, james, herriot, a, part, of, rural, history, current, trends, and, their, likely, impact, on, veterinary, services, what, are, the, current, trends, within, agriculture, and, veterinary, practice, and, what, effects, will, that, have, both, in, agriculture, and, farm, veterinary, practice, there, are, trends, that, can, be, identified, how, fast, how, far, these, trends, will, go, is, difficult, to, predict, but, my, own, experience, is, that, change, when, it, comes, change, is, often, slow, at, starting, but, then, dramatic, in, its, speed, the, effect, of, decoupling, and, other, eu, decisions, on, agriculture, are, unknown, but, the, current, trends, are, likely, to, continue, in, agriculture, farm, size, has, to, continue, to, grow, as, farms, make, less, and, less, per, animal, they, have, to, spread, costs, over, larger, and, larger, numbers, the, individual, value, of, each, animal, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, efficiency, and, mechanisation, continues, to, increase, chicken, farms, are, now, routinely, 100,000, animals, plus, since, foot, and, mouth, disease, the, average, dairy, herd, size, has, increased, from, 90, to, 114, an, increase, of, 20, which, talking, to, many, dairy, farmers, is, only, going, to, increase, as, more, herds, are, going, to, be, 300, animals, these, increases, are, usually, with, out, an, increase, in, labour, on, the, farms, this, means, the, care, of, individual, animals, is, likely, to, be, less, important, but, the, care, of, the, overall, heath, of, the, herd, much, more, in, veterinary, practice, the, major, changes, are, likely, to, be, from, the, competition, inquiry, in, to, the, cost, of, pharmaceuticals, the, subsidy, of, professional, fees, by, sales, of, pharmaceuticals, has, been, an, increasing, trend, since, the, late, 60, s, then, professional, fees, were, subsidised, by, the, large, scale, eradication, schemes, by, maff, who, paid, very, good, fees, to, get, the, vets, on, the, farm, and, help, eradicate, the, notifiable, diseases, the, competition, inquiry, is, recommending, that, pharmaceuticals, be, dispensed, by, pharmacies, as, well, and, that, prescriptions, be, provided, free, of, charge, which, private, organisation, is, going, to, provide, a, service, free, of, charge, has, yet, to, be, ascertained, but, the, current, level, of, income, derived, from, pharmaceuticals, is, not, going, to, be, sustained, this, inevitably, means, that, the, cross, subsidy, will, disappear, and, farmers, will, have, to, pay, the, full, cost, of, veterinary, clinical, service, and, it, will, not, be, economic, to, do, so, at, the, same, time, the, costs, of, providing, veterinary, services, continues, to, rise, the, cost, of, veterinary, time, is, continuing, to, rise, students, are, now, graduating, with, debts, of, 15, 20k, because, of, the, loss, of, grants, and, payment, of, tuition, fees, this, means, there, will, need, to, be, a, further, raise, of, 2, 3k, per, annum, to, pay, veterinary, assistants, to, match, the, status, quo, farm, animal, practice, already, pays, assistants, less, than, companion, animal, practices, despite, offering, a, less, favourable, on, call, rota, in, the, short, term, following, fmd, many, practice, principals, worked, additional, on, call, to, make, the, rota, acceptable, to, attract, assistant, vets, where, this, is, viable, in, the, short, term, in, the, long, term, it, is, not, acceptable, as, partners, profit, becomes, commensurate, to, the, salaries, they, have, to, pay, to, veterinary, assistants, they, will, be, aiming, to, increase, charges, for, clinical, work, or, look, to, other, avenues, for, decreasing, costs, increasing, turnover, providing, an, out, of, hours, emergency, cover, is, not, economically, practical, for, vets, except, in, the, big, cities, where, practices, join, together, to, provide, an, emergency, clinic, currently, there, is, an, rcvs, obligation, to, provide, 24hour, cover, but, the, rcvs, is, not, involved, in, the, commercial, pricing, of, services, as, the, value, of, individual, animals, continues, to, drop, in, real, terms, then, the, cost, of, treating, individual, animals, becomes, less, and, less, viable, where, there, is, no, cross, subsidy, for, out, of, hours, work, it, will, become, untenable, as, many, mixed, practices, have, a, dwindling, farm, animal, side, that, is, less, financially, attractive, many, will, decide, to, concentrate, on, the, companion, animal, side, of, the, business, in, a, lot, of, mixed, practices, it, is, a, senior, partner, who, will, do, the, largest, amount, of, the, farm, work, this, means, the, younger, vets, will, not, have, the, case, load, to, become, experienced, and, confident, in, farm, work, there, is, a, cohort, of, practitioners, in, this, situation, heading, towards, retirement, in, the, near, future, will, the, practice, continue, to, be, involved, with, farm, work, as, fewer, practices, become, involved, with, farm, veterinary, services, the, cost, of, travel, to, the, more, distant, farms, has, to, rise, beyond, the, already, accelerated, rate, all, this, means, that, farm, veterinary, practices, will, lose, income, from, clinical, services, and, from, pharmaceutical, sales, they, will, have, to, move, more, towards, the, pig, poultry, model, of, providing, veterinary, advice, and, charging, for, it, vets, have, already, moved, out, of, nutritional, advice, leaving, this, field, to, nutritional, experts, the, reason, for, this, is, that, most, nutritional, advice, is, provided, free, to, the, farmer, by, the, firms, who, then, put, that, cost, into, the, feeds, that, are, sold, to, the, farmers, this, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, sales, is, apparently, acceptable, where, the, subsidy, of, veterinary, fees, by, pharmaceuticals, is, not, this, model, is, beginning, to, appear, in, other, areas, whereas, vets, provided, most, mastitis, control, the, dairies, who, buy, the, milk, are, now, providing, free, or, subsidised, advice, to, farms, on, cell, counts, and, high, bacterial, counts, including, bacteriology, with, a, variable, back, up, and, quality, of, advice, nmr, and, other, recording, agencies, are, already, offering, fertility, information, on, their, recording, products, and, it, is, a, short, step, to, actually, providing, the, fertility, work, i, believe, that, these, factors, will, contribute, to, a, dramatic, decrease, in, farm, animal, clinicians, in, the, next, 5, years, the, effect, of, the, reduction, in, large, animal, clinicians, on, health, and, welfare, standards, and, on, surveillance, as, the, number, of, clinical, veterinarians, reduces, then, there, will, be, much, less, on, farm, surveillance, this, means, that, outbreaks, of, novel, or, unusual, diseases, is, much, less, likely, to, be, noticed, or, recorded, at, an, early, stage, the, routine, care, for, the, animals, will, be, done, by, stockmen, under, veterinary, guidance, the, guidance, will, probably, be, by, quarterly, or, 6, monthly, or, annual, visits, and, by, herd, health, plans, individual, animals, are, much, more, likely, to, be, treated, ad, hoc, by, the, stockmen, rather, than, by, veterinary, surgeons, the, quality, of, this, treatment, in, some, cases, may, be, adequate, but, in, most, will, be, poor, the, significance, of, symptoms, or, illness, may, not, be, appreciated, diagnosis, and, treatment, seen, as, a, high, cost, and, used, as, a, last, resort, any, outbreak, of, disease, will, be, well, developed, and, losses, occurring, before, veterinary, advice, is, sought, as, herd, sizes, increase, and, labour, decreases, then, the, attention, to, individual, animals, must, reduce, with, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, ill, animals, are, likely, to, be, culled, quicker, as, limited, manpower, becomes, more, important, the, use, of, vets, as, additional, expert, man, power, for, calvings, lambings, will, be, seen, as, too, expensive, the, demands, of, the, system, must, mean, that, high, heath, status, is, important, with, routine, vaccination, and, herd, health, policies, being, put, in, place, defra, seems, to, set, high, regard, to, laboratory, diagnosis, results, as, a, form, of, surveillance, most, of, the, common, problems, are, diagnosed, treated, with, out, the, resort, to, laboratory, aids, fertility, lameness, mastitis, pneumonia, pge, are, rarely, referred, to, the, lab, except, where, treatment, is, not, working, most, samples, are, taken, referred, by, vets, in, practice, fewer, vets, would, mean, fewer, samples, the, lack, of, veterinary, advice, to, ill, pigs, and, ill, sheep, on, farms, at, heddon, on, the, wall, shows, how, the, lack, of, a, clinical, veterinary, service, can, lead, to, in, the, terms, of, delay, and, spread, of, disease, the, local, knowledge, of, the, current, lvi, system, is, an, invaluable, asset, that, is, in, danger, of, being, thrown, away, the, idea, that, a, farm, is, a, box, which, can, be, assigned, a, number, in, page, street, and, dealt, with, as, a, single, entity, is, a, problem, that, has, still, not, been, resolved, the, complexity, of, many, of, the, local, farming, links, through, trade, working, together, machinery, shared, grazing, fell, rights, and, family, ties, cannot, be, reduced, to, a, computer, screen, on, dcs, the, feasibility, of, the, animal, health, and, welfare, strategy, in, my, opinion, they, are, not, i, was, hoping, to, cover, this, more, fully, but, lack, of, time, has, prevented, me, the, impact, on, the, svs, the, impact, on, the, svs, is, likely, to, be, slow, to, be, realised, the, svs, is, not, known, for, its, ability, to, meet, challenges, or, streamline, its, systems, as, the, number, of, vets, involved, in, farm, work, decreases, it, will, have, to, provide, more, of, its, own, resources, to, tackle, tasks, currently, done, by, lvis, the, more, flexible, private, practice, takes, up, the, challenge, of, getting, backlogs, in, testing, done, and, can, respond, to, new, challenges, for, example, the, licensing, brought, in, during, fmd, private, practice, can, fit, the, work, around, other, duties, whereas, if, it, is, going, to, be, done, by, the, svs, it, will, be, more, expensive, to, take, on, vets, to, do, these, tasks, alone, the, svs, was, notoriously, unreliable, in, its, work, allocation, during, fmd, the, record, being, sending, 5, vets, to, the, same, farm, on, the, same, day, has, yet, to, be, beaten, though, i, hope, it, would, be, a, lot, better, in, normal, circumstances, there, are, still, problems, with, the, allocation, system, that, can, only, be, put, right, by, local, knowledge, in, areas, where, there, are, few, farm, animals, there, may, well, not, be, lvis, willing, to, carry, out, the, routine, testing, for, notifiable, disease, who, is, going, to, provide, veterinary, cover, for, these, both, for, clinical, caseload, and, for, the, lvi, work, there, will, not, be, vets, available, to, second, to, defra, for, the, next, fmd, or, exotic, disease, outbreak, the, contingency, plan, confidently, states, that, resources, for, 20, tvis, are, to, be, kept, at, each, centre, in, case, of, an, outbreak, of, notifiable, disease, with, out, addressing, where, these, will, come, from, there, will, not, be, 20, tvi’s, available, at, short, notice, during, march, 2001, the, majority, of, vets, at, the, carlisle, decc, were, lvi’s, the, future, and, possible, outcomes, the, picture, i, have, painted, is, what, in, my, opinion, will, happen, if, the, government, allows, the, situation, to, develop, i, would, hope, that, there, would, be, some, joined, up, government, when, decisions, are, to, be, made, in, response, to, the, competition, inquiry, report, there, are, a, mixture, of, outcomes, that, are, possible, the, numbers, of, vets, in, farm, animal, practice, will, reduce, this, can, be, minimised, by, maintaining, the, cross, subsidy, of, professional, fees, for, providing, clinical, services, either, directly, by, defra, work, in, surveillance, or, other, notifiable, disease, work, and, or, from, pharmaceutical, sales, the, option, of, increasing, fees, is, not, possible, veterinary, services, will, be, provided, by, other, means, e.g, vets, working, for, feed, firms, dairies, manufactures, retailers, to, ensure, a, welfare, surveillance, standard, consultancy, firms, providing, fertility, mastitis, specialised, advice, defra, local, authority, will, have, to, provide, vets, for, notifiable, disease, testing, surveillance, tasks, developing, the, french, model, of, farm, cooperatives, employing, vets, for, their, own, farms, the, pig, poultry, model, of, regular, advisory, visits, but, minimal, involvement, in, the, day, to, day, running, or, with, individual, animals, only, the, first, of, these, provides, for, the, continuation, of, the, successful, lvi, structure, the, other, outcomes, mean, a, loss, of, clinical, veterinary, services, the, loss, of, clinical, services, means, a, drop, in, welfare, standards, and, the, loss, of, on, farm, surveillance, farm, veterinary, services, are, in, a, transitional, time, facing, economic, challenges, changes, in, agriculture, increased, regulation, and, increased, competition, for, the, pharmaceutical, and, services, they, provide, there, will, be, increased, competition, between, practices, as, they, try, to, meet, the, higher, expectations, of, new, veterinary, graduates, starting, their, careers, and, providing, a, cost, effective, service, to, the, rural, community, bvm, s, mrcvs, brief, c, v, currently, a, partner, in, one, of, the, largest, farm, veterinary, practices, in, cumbria, having, spent, 17, years, in, mixed, rural, practice, spent, 6, months, on, secondment, to, maff, at, the, carlisle, decc, during, fmd, sat, 26th, april, 2003, having, worked, last, night, and, done, 2, caesaers, and, a, calving, on, call, on, top, of, a, long, week, i, was, completely, washed, out, did, sat, am, surgery, and, a, call, then, went, home, to, bed, knackered, and, fed, up, and, deciding, i, did, not, want, to, spend, my, life, like, this, sunday, a, busy, day, on, call, but, at, least, the, calls, did, not, stack, up, just, kept, coming, in, ones, and, twos, so, the, stress, levels, were, not, to, bad, but, boyzo, am, i, tired, mon, this, is, the, beginning, of, d’s, last, week, he, has, worked, out, really, well, and, i, hope, that, he, will, be, able, to, work, here, at, the, back, end, to, help, with, the, testing, he, is, easy, going, and, has, a, good, s, african, protestant, work, ethic, always, happy, to, oblige, and, is, good, to, work, with, he, is, a, good, laugh, too, always, teasing, and, playing, silly, jokes, and, has, a, great, sense, of, humour, spent, most, of, the, day, on, catch, up, after, the, week, end, did, some, calls, and, sorted, car, and, drugs, out, and, cleaned, my, kit, the, slippage, of, cleanliness, since, fmd, is, very, noticeable, especially, at, the, w, e’s, but, don’t, tell, defra, went, swimming, at, foxes, well, to, be, honest, sat, in, the, jacuzzi, and, talked, and, then, swam, 2, lengths, i, was, too, tired, to, do, much, really, i, must, start, getting, some, proper, exercise, again, or, my, back, will, suffer, tues, i, am, really, annoyed, at, defra, i, rang, and, asked, what, would, be, needed, to, put, our, vets, on, to, panel, l, which, is, what, is, needed, to, do, the, exports, for, nestle, and, panel, l, can, just, be, added, on, as, it, is, a, simple, export, thing, so, it, would, take, half, an, hour, to, do, it, this, was, last, friday, by, now, it, is, we, have, to, go, for, training, by, svs, it, should, only, take, half, an, hour, to, through, the, forms, why, can, their, yes, not, be, yes, and, their, no, be, no, so, we, have, to, spend, an, afternoon, going, to, carlisle, to, got, through, meaningless, forms, so, that, we, can, fill, in, meaning, less, forms, so, that, nestle, can, get, th, milk, through, customs, i, am, beginning, to, see, why, people, just, smuggle, things, rather, than, get, involved, in, all, this, stupid, bureaucracy, weds, went, on, the, factory, visit, to, nestles, today, to, have, a, look, around, so, that, we, know, the, plant, and, can, give, them, certification, for, the, milk, powder, for, export, the, whole, thing, is, ludicrous, as, dried, milk, powder, is, a, sterile, product, it, has, to, be, or, else, it, goes, off, very, quickly, so, why, we, have, to, certify, that, it, has, been, pasteurised, i, don, not, know, but, hey, its, money, the, size, and, quantity, and, the, huge, amount, of, machinery, and, very, small, number, of, people, required, to, maintain, and, operate, the, plant, was, awesome, we, went, to, the, distribution, warehouse, where, there, was, just, row, upon, row, of, pallets, 3, 7, high, full, of, dried, milk, or, cappuccino, drinks, weird, to, think, mast, of, the, instant, cappuccino, is, made, in, dalston, thursday, went, for, panel, l, training, it, was, as, pointless, as, i, thought, it, would, be, took, the, opportunity, to, go, through, with, defra, admin, staff, some, of, the, queries, and, problems, at, the, moment, we, do, a, lot, of, stuff, for, defra, telling, them, who, has, stock, and, who, does, not, have, stock, to, ensure, their, database, is, relatively, up, to, date, but, it, is, a, headache, as, they, are, working, off, computer, screens, hence, mrs, f, r, of, a, farm, does, not, correlate, at, all, with, mr, e, r, of, the, same, address, the, computer, is, not, into, relationships, so, that, they, are, married, and, live, together, and, own, stock, on, the, same, piece, of, ground, does, not, really, get, off, the, ground, this, evening, was, the, final, partners, meeting, where, i, handed, in, my, notice, the, reasons, for, handing, in, my, notice, are, complex, most, decisions, probably, are, there, are, lots, of, factors, some, trivial, to, the, outsider, but, important, to, me, others, may, be, important, to, others, and, similarly, not, to, me, several, people, have, asked, is, it, a, reaction, to, fmd, the, last, casualty, in, some, ways, it, is, for, all, the, horrendous, experiences, for, all, the, long, hours, and, difficult, ethical, and, to, whom, am, i, responsible, dilemmas, it, taught, me, a, lot, about, myself, to, see, fear, in, the, eyes, of, senior, management, when, challenged, to, be, able, to, organise, a, protest, meeting, of, thirty, vets, with, jim, scudamore, to, do, the, tv, interviews, o, see, the, effect, of, feeding, information, to, journalists, to, be, able, to, break, through, by, fast, talking, and, relying, on, my, wits, to, organise, completely, new, systems, and, manage, projects, that, had, never, been, done, before, to, build, teams, from, international, backgrounds, in, the, face, of, opposition, from, the, hierarchy, to, be, constantly, caught, on, a, tight, rope, between, the, different, groupings, i, learnt, that, i, have, huge, abilities, and, to, go, back, to, normality, is, difficult, the, future, of, farm, animal, practice, is, also, very, unpredictable, there, are, a, lot, of, farms, who, are, yet, to, restock, the, cross, subsidy, of, fees, by, drug, sales, is, going, to, end, and, more, and, more, work, will, be, on, behalf, or, paid, for, by, defra, they, are, at, the, whims, of, the, politicians, and, the, treasury, they, are, also, not, the, easiest, client, to, deal, with, there, is, also, the, problem, of, being, second, in, command, and, dealing, with, the, frustrations, of, the, partnership, we, are, not, united, in, the, way, we, work, or, where, we, see, the, practice, going, this, means, my, schemes, for, diversification, for, improving, income, streams, and, managing, the, bad, debt, will, either, not, happen, or, will, become, part, of, my, workload, which, is, already, over, stretched, add, in, to, this, cock, tail, the, fact, my, wife, is, starting, to, work, and, i, have, been, given, a, really, bad, scare, by, being, tackled, by, a, cow, the, question, is, do, i, want, to, do, this, job, for, the, next, 20, years, the, answer, has, to, be, no, so, the, only, answer, is, to, hand, in, my, resignation, and, start, to, look, for, something, new, as, i, have, a, 6, month, notice, period, ending, on, an, accounting, date, i, have, to, jump, before, i, have, another, job, sorted, out, even, so, the, decision, was, very, hard, and, i, was, really, choked, up, when, i, left, them, to, discuss, the, future, i, could, not, go, home, as, the, kids, would, want, to, know, what, was, going, on, so, i, went, to, js, he, already, knew, i, will, tell, the, kids, on, friday, the, practice, manager, on, monday, and, work, on, tuesday, i, have, said, very, little, of, my, thoughts, in, the, diary, as, i, have, learnt, there, are, somethings, better, left, unwritten, until, the, time, for, the, information, to, be, public, whatever, issues, are, to, do, with, confidentiality, if, you, don’t, think, something, can, be, talked, about, then, do, not, write, it, down, as, you, never, know, who, is, going, to, read, it, a, though, got, her, self, in, to, a, stew, as, i, rang, wife, to, say, i, was, going, to, js, she, then, said, she, would, come, out, she, left, a, bit, too, hurriedly, for, a, who, then, got, it, into, her, head, that, we, had, gone, away, on, holiday, with, out, telling, them, friday, the, whole, day, was, unreal, i, knew, i, was, going, but, no, one, else, does, told, the, kids, at, tea, time, and, i, was, shocked, by, how, upset, they, were, it, has, come, as, a, shock, to, them, tim, especially, loves, coming, out, and, about, around, the, farms, with, me, there, is, also, no, what, i, am, going, to, so, it, is, just, uncertainty, on, 2nd, call, sat, 3rd, may, 2003, work, then, wash, out, i, was, on, second, last, night, and, had, 2, caesars, and, a, calving, what, the, second, caesar, was, at, 4am, so, i, felt, dreadful, all, day, young, vet, had, started, operating, and, got, stuck, so, i, went, to, the, rescue, the, cow, had, horrendous, adhesions, so, nothing, could, be, moved, around, we, spent, an, hour, and, a, half, trying, to, pull, the, calf, out, and, then, stitching, up, the, uterus, in, the, cow, i, felt, i, needed, diving, gear, on, as, i, had, both, arms, in, to, their, full, length, with, vet, beside, me, trying, to, stitch, by, feel, my, arms, were, exhausted, by, the, end, of, it, i, was, like, death, warmed, up, all, day, but, feel, i, have, definitely, made, the, right, decision, sunday, after, a, good, nights, sleep, feeling, better, my, mother, always, use, to, say, that, the, world, looks, very, different, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, cooked, breakfast, i, do, not, need, a, cooked, breakfast, my, stress, levels, have, been, that, high, that, i, have, been, eating, far, too, much, i, am, going, to, go, on, a, diet, the, usual, promise, to, myself, my, weight, is, going, up, fast, so, i, will, have, to, cut, down, and, start, to, exercise, a, lot, more, went, to, see, the, practice, manager, to, tell, him, that, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, i, have, decided, to, see, him, on, his, own, so, that, he, has, a, chance, to, process, it, before, work, on, tuesday, he, is, overweight, and, stressed, and, that, type, to, have, a, heart, attack, so, treat, him, gently, he, is, also, a, good, friend, so, i, should, give, him, some, warning, so, i, spent, an, hour, chatting, it, through, and, talking, which, is, a, good, a, way, as, any, of, spending, a, sunday, afternoon, mon, bank, holiday, another, bank, holiday, working, but, at, least, it, is, fairly, quiet, so, spent, most, of, the, day, working, in, the, garden, the, kids, were, away, in, the, morning, doing, various, things, and, then, met, up, for, lunch, with, friends, which, was, really, nice, they, had, been, down, to, visit, family, in, the, lake, district, they, had, hired, a, couple, of, cottages, for, the, w, e, and, all, met, up, they, are, really, amazing, people, they, are, both, doctors, and, i, went, out, to, visit, them, in, thailand, which, was, brilliant, fun, he, was, working, with, leprosy, and, aids, cases, they, have, come, home, and, are, sharing, a, gp’s, job, between, them, she, is, also, doing, a, diploma, in, diabetes, they, are, also, doing, deputation, work, to, raise, money, for, the, work, of, omf, in, thailand, and, asia, they, have, 4, kids, and, it, was, really, nice, to, see, them, all, again, the, kids, are, similar, ages, i, really, felt, for, them, because, they, have, gone, from, home, schooling, to, schools, in, edinburgh, in, the, big, city, so, they, have, the, double, culture, shock, of, coming, to, the, uk, and, being, schooled, in, a, complete, different, way, they, are, also, very, bright, kids, and, having, had, individual, attention, from, a, very, focussed, mother, they, are, miles, ahead, of, the, rest, of, their, classes, yet, they, do, not, have, the, social, skills, to, adapt, to, the, rough, and, tumble, of, life, in, a, city, comprehensive, mobile, phones, are, not, a, must, have, item, in, rural, thailand, good, to, see, them, all, tuesday, today, i, announced, the, fact, i, was, leaving, to, those, at, work, i, had, thought, about, how, i, should, do, it, and, what, i, was, to, say, it, is, quite, difficult, both, from, an, emotional, point, of, view, and, from, the, fact, that, i, think, that, the, business, in, the, longer, term, will, have, problems, this, has, both, a, direct, relevance, for, the, lay, staff, and, their, jobs, though, there, will, still, be, a, similar, number, needed, as, their, workload, is, likely, to, remain, the, same, and, also, for, the, vets, two, of, whom, may, or, may, not, be, approached, to, buy, into, the, business, there, will, also, in, the, longer, term, be, a, smaller, number, of, vets, needed, but, this, will, probably, be, managed, by, natural, wastage, i, spoke, first, to, the, senior, assistants, and, then, lay, staff, it, was, hard, as, i, have, been, there, for, as, long, as, many, of, them, 15, years, which, is, a, long, time, i, think, also, there, is, an, attitude, that, the, ups, and, downs, seem, to, be, past, for, them, there, was, a, lot, of, upheaval, over, the, move, from, b, v, up, to, s, park, fmd, is, over, and, things, are, suppose, to, be, getting, back, on, to, an, even, keel, and, i, throw, a, spanner, in, the, works, weds, spent, the, evening, phoning, friends, and, relatives, to, let, them, know, that, i, had, handed, in, my, notice, and, sending, off, for, job, details, on, two, jobs, and, applying, for, another, i, am, not, sure, what, i, am, looking, for, so, at, the, moment, i, am, just, sending, off, for, anything, that, seems, interesting, and, waiting, and, seeing, it, seems, an, unreal, situation, in, so, many, ways, i, also, had, to, phone, the, bank, manager, both, to, arrange, our, annual, visit, and, to, tell, him, that, i, was, leaving, again, getting, the, balance, between, moving, on, and, being, positive, with, out, pointing, out, the, dangers, in, the, future, of, large, animal, practice, was, a, difficult, balance, after, the, initial, shock, all, power, to, him, as, a, salesman, banker, he, then, asked, whether, i, would, be, needing, any, banking, requirements, so, at, least, if, i, do, start, up, an, independent, vet, small, business, consultancy, i, will, have, a, bank, account, to, run, it, from, thursday, a, quit, day, as, no, testing, so, tackled, some, of, the, back, log, in, admin, spent, a, lot, of, time, setting, up, the, systems, and, know, how, folder, for, nestle, we, have, taken, over, the, work, for, doing, the, lvi, work, for, the, nestle, factory, at, dalston, as, they, have, fallen, out, with, the, previous, practice, when, we, took, it, on, i, assumed, it, would, be, the, odd, bit, of, work, but, in, fact, it, is, a, huge, amount, of, work, so, it, is, going, to, take, some, sorting, out, i, also, feel, a, bit, off, as, i, have, handed, in, my, notice, and, yet, i, am, setting, all, this, up, and, i, ma, not, going, to, benefit, from, it, at, all, i, suppose, it, comes, back, to, wanting, to, do, what, is, right, and, that, we, should, serve, god, and, not, man, it, is, always, a, useful, measuring, stick, to, use, to, work, out, motivations, and, what, should, be, done, in, a, situation, who, am, i, trying, to, do, this, for, me, the, practice, the, client, or, am, i, doing, what, jesus, would, do, friday, another, bad, hair, day, had, real, problems, trying, to, fit, the, extra, work, into, the, day, and, so, got, a, bit, frayed, around, the, edges, fortunately, next, week, will, probably, be, the, last, thank, goodness, the, practice, that, used, to, do, the, nestle, work, was, on, the, phone, to, me, and, not, very, friendly, hey, ho, went, out, for, a, meal, with, friends, which, was, great, they, are, the, church, youth, leaders, and, are, really, switched, on, but, i, think, need, more, support, and, help, hopefully, once, the, 1st, of, october, hits, i, will, be, able, to, get, more, involved, went, to, the, royal, oak, at, welton, which, just, has, been, re, done, and, is, serving, food, on, a, proper, basis, as, well, as, having, a, pub, part, more, like, a, restaurant, wife, s, food, was, excellent, mine, was, ok, i, had, an, indian, trio, of, samosa, and, 2, bharji, to, start, with, i, am, afraid, i, have, been, spoilt, by, real, indian, food, so, i, should, not, have, bothered, going, for, it, in, a, cumbrian, pub, saturday, may, 10th, saturday, may, 10th, a, day, off, after, too, many, days, working, and, too, much, stress, it, was, really, nice, just, to, be, around, home, doing, the, garden, and, not, really, worrying, what, else, is, going, on, in, the, world, i, needed, some, space, and, i, am, pleased, to, have, got, it, at, long, last, it, is, amazing, how, much, better, the, world, looks, after, a, good, nights, sleep, and, a, some, time, off, in, the, afternoon, the, c, boys, came, around, and, we, took, them, to, see, new, chicks, s, was, there, and, i, did, not, want, to, go, down, the, route, of, explaining, why, i, had, made, the, decision, i, had, to, leave, so, chickened, out, of, telling, her, i, suppose, i, am, happy, with, it, and, i, just, want, to, forget, about, for, the, w, e, so, we, arrived, with, 7, boys, which, is, quite, brave, fortunately, we, could, not, stay, long, as, we, had, to, be, back, to, go, out, to, gianni’s, with, d, he, took, us, out, and, it, was, really, good, fun, the, kids, were, all, in, good, form, came, back, and, watched, the, first, part, of, a, dvd, on, john, grisham’s, book, the, client, he, is, an, excellent, writer, and, although, film, can, never, develop, the, characters, the, same, as, a, book, so, the, film, was, good, but, only, ok, sunday, 11th, church, was, good, this, morning, and, it, was, good, to, be, there, and, spent, ages, chatting, to, folk, but, came, back, to, lunch, with, a, couple, who, stayed, too, long, there, are, some, people, i, find, really, draining, and, she, is, one, it, is, awful, but, i, get, really, wound, up, and, just, want, them, to, go, after, about, 30, minutes, they, came, for, lunch, and, did, not, leave, until, after, tea, so, i, was, almost, going, spare, monday, 12th, i, find, the, silence, around, the, fact, i, am, going, a, bit, unnerving, it, is, a, bit, elephant, and, coffee, table, really, a, lot, of, the, farmers, i, suppose, don’t, yet, know, or, if, they, do, how, to, respond, today’s, frustrations, are, all, with, things, not, working, bt, have, sent, me, a, bill, for, 115, for, fixing, the, line, that, was, struck, by, lightening, i, was, put, through, three, depts, before, i, gave, up, i, may, try, just, not, paying, and, see, if, they, can, register, the, fact, the, bill, is, being, disputed, the, other, frustration, is, the, car, doors, have, gone, again, in, wife, s, car, which, is, incredibly, frustrating, they, have, been, fixed, and, fixed, and, fixed, although, it, is, under, warranty, i, am, getting, to, the, stage, that, i, feel, we, are, being, fobbed, off, tues, 13th, i, went, to, hear, mg, from, the, licc, london, institute, of, contemporary, christianity, speak, at, the, living, word, this, is, a, series, that, happens, every, spring, and, is, organised, by, a, group, of, ministers, and, folk, from, carlisle, he, is, a, very, interesting, speaker, he, is, an, ex, ad, man, and, his, whole, message, is, to, get, the, church, to, look, out, side, of, it, self, he, thinks, that, christianity, in, the, west, has, become, a, leisure, time, activity, and, is, not, impacting, the, rest, of, peoples, lives, there, is, a, concept, of, the, sacred, secular, divide, the, church, does, not, get, involved, in, secular, things, work, culture, the, arts, sport, and, in, some, ways, philosophy, too, whereas, there, should, be, no, divide, christ, is, either, lord, of, all, or, not, at, all, he, also, is, a, very, amusing, speaker, he, was, talking, about, how, technology, is, usually, neutral, but, how, it, is, used, has, very, far, reaching, effects, on, family, work, and, society, he, used, the, microwave, as, an, example, with, a, very, amusing, story, about, how, he, managed, to, save, the, sleep, of, the, whole, of, north, london, by, using, the, new, fangled, microwave, to, heat, his, daughter’s, midnight, bottle, thereby, saving, the, chancellor, huge, sums, in, lost, revenue, with, typical, jewish, hyperbole, he, then, moved, on, to, his, kids, now, teenagers, not, coming, in, for, the, meal, he, has, prepared, but, reheating, it, in, the, microwave, and, how, that, led, to, a, lack, of, communication, and, again, hyperbole, to, his, angst, about, not, understanding, the, younger, generation, as, this, is, a, diary, about, fmd, how, do, i, relate, this, to, my, experience, of, fmd, on, the, simple, level, the, culture, within, defra, needs, to, change, servant, hood, whether, by, civil, servants, or, politicians, has, been, forgotten, truth, will, out, spin, will, fall, computers, should, be, a, tool, of, all, and, master, of, none, organisations, need, to, have, a, human, face, for, people, to, relate, to, whether, it, is, the, brigadier, or, the, cvo, people, are, individuals, created, by, god, and, have, feelings, and, are, not, numbers, or, statistics, the, post, modernist, human, secularism, where, truth, is, relative, where, brown, can, announce, that, everything, is, under, control, can, mislead, parliament, and, people, and, it, is, acceptable, i, actually, strongly, feel, that, the, current, presidential, style, of, where, no, one, can, make, a, decision, with, out, refer, to, their, boss, is, a, poor, model, pain, disaster, illness, and, trouble, are, part, of, the, human, condition, part, of, the, fall, of, evil, in, the, world, enough, philosophy, its, time, for, bed, monday, 17th, may, this, was, the, big, golden, wedding, anniversary, day, it, was, wife, s, parents, golden, wedding, and, her, brothers, and, family, all, came, to, stay, for, the, w, e, the, celebration, meal, was, at, lyzzick, hall, in, keswick, the, big, surprise, for, wife, s, mum, was, that, her, bridesmaid, and, husband, were, coming, over, from, canada, j, picked, them, up, from, the, airport, and, took, them, to, a, b, b, other, friends, were, also, coming, as, a, surprise, rp, started, the, surprises, by, coming, in, dressed, as, a, waitress, she, came, in, and, offered, wife, s, mum, a, drink, and, she, was, really, overcome, the, other, surprises, of, bridesmaid, and, canadians, was, really, nice, to, see, the, younger, parts, of, the, clan, went, off, to, the, climbing, wall, while, the, older, part, went, for, a, look, at, the, lake, in, the, rain, it, was, a, really, nice, day, ended, by, a, firework, display, thanks, to, c, as, he, grew, up, in, belfast, during, the, troubles, and, fireworks, were, banned, he, has, a, real, passion, for, them, now, as, a, big, kid, sunday, went, to, church, with, everyone, a, very, mixed, group, but, they, coped, p, spoke, in, the, morning, meeting, he, was, very, good, he, is, a, publisher, and, was, talking, about, the, church, in, china, as, he, has, just, helped, to, publish, a, book, about, some, of, the, christian, house, church, it, makes, the, materialistic, church, in, the, west, look, very, weak, and, un, spiritual, in, the, evening, mm, spoke, on, the, christian, at, work, which, was, very, good, and, very, funny, he, was, a, bed, sales, man, when, he, was, a, student, and, he, was, very, funny, about, how, he, made, shy, engaged, couples, lie, down, and, try, the, beds, this, really, tickled, other, son, age, 8, much, to, his, gran’s, tut, tutting, the, point, he, was, making, in, between, the, jokes, was, that, he, had, been, told, that, he, was, to, say, that, the, bed, s, would, all, be, delivered, in, 3, 4, weeks, when, in, fact, it, could, be, up, to, 6, weeks, but, the, shop, keeper, thought, this, would, put, people, off, this, meant, that, mm, ended, up, in, bother, with, couples, arriving, back, from, their, honey, moon, to, no, bed, so, he, decided, to, listen, to, god’s, way, and, tell, the, truth, which, he, said, like, most, biblical, teaching, is, obvious, once, it, is, explained, and, tell, people, the, truth, not, what, they, want, to, hear, mon, went, and, read, the, tb, test, for, the, tenant, farmer, there, was, 1, i, r, the, reaction, of, the, farmer, took, me, back, fairly, badly, and, i, was, quite, shocked, at, the, sheer, vehemence, of, his, reaction, fortunately, it, was, mostly, at, defra, he, went, out, early, on, to, the, disease, and, he, therefore, got, much, lower, compensation, than, a, lot, of, the, later, ones, he, had, some, cattle, wintering, at, his, farm, for, some, one, else, who, went, out, later, on, with, fmd, at, his, home, holding, the, difference, in, the, valuations, for, the, same, type, of, cattle, was, horrendous, he, also, has, buildings, that, he, owns, on, a, small, parcel, of, land, the, buildings, were, old, and, knackered, but, usable, a, lot, of, string, and, gates, defra, pulled, them, to, pieces, during, fmd, and, then, offered, him, peanuts, o, reinstate, them, which, meant, he, could, not, get, them, back, into, a, usable, state, so, he, is, not, a, happy, bunny, spent, the, afternoon, castrating, horses, which, is, not, my, favourite, job, if, a, stirk, kicks, you, it, hurts, if, a, horse, kicks, you, it, usually, means, a, trip, in, an, ambulance, you, are, therefore, very, tense, and, ready, to, move, in, awkward, positions, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, headed, off, for, a, trip, around, the, borders, in, our, people, carrier, they, are, coming, back, to, swap, over, cars, at, the, end, of, the, week, wife, has, the, tank, to, run, around, in, for, the, week, tuesday, my, back, is, twinging, from, the, castrating, and, a, calving, yesterday, and, is, really, sore, so, did, paperwork, while, sitting, like, a, ramrod, until, i, gave, up, and, came, back, to, lie, down, did, the, back, exercises, hourly, but, it, just, got, stiffer, and, sorer, weds, spent, morning, reading, in, bed, and, doing, back, exercises, but, cannot, get, it, moving, went, to, see, the, accountant, in, the, afternoon, to, sort, out, the, practicalities, of, going, freelance, and, finishing, at, the, vets, thursday, back, is, a, lot, better, and, starting, to, move, much, more, freely, the, first, negative, comment, on, me, leaving, today, came, from, a, farmer, who, has, decided, that, the, only, way, to, make, money, is, to, go, for, 300, cows, he, has, therefore, planned, all, this, designed, new, parlours, been, to, look, at, other, large, herds, thought, it, all, through, unfortunately, his, costings, are, on, buying, in, dairy, cows, at, 6, 700, per, head, and, just, recently, they, have, gone, to, over, a, thousand, which, means, he, is, out, by, 60k, oops, but, he, said, that, he, thought, i, was, deserting, them, in, a, way, i, suppose, i, am, back, in, to, being, on, call, with, a, vengeance, a, calving, a, caesar, a, prolapsed, uterus, hey, ho, friday, interesting, statistic, on, the, radio, whether, it, is, right, or, wrong, i, do, not, know, in, the, eu, the, average, beef, cow, is, subsidised, to, the, tune, of, 2, per, week, the, average, african, earns, less, than, that, the, canadians, and, wife, s, parents, arrived, back, from, their, trip, around, the, borders, the, good, news, is, they, baby, sat, or, teenage, and, child, minded, while, we, went, out, to, the, lemon, lounge, the, bad, news, is, they, are, to, feed, and, look, after, over, the, w, e, my, brother, and, family, arrive, tomorrow, so, it, will, be, a, bit, crowded, it, was, really, nice, to, be, out, on, our, own, with, relative, peace, around, us, the, noise, from, an, office, party, does, not, impinge, as, it, is, nothing, to, do, with, us, saturday, 31st, may, 2003, a, gardening, day, we, decided, that, we, would, have, to, get, the, place, sorted, out, so, spent, most, of, the, day, in, the, sunshine, pulling, weeds, and, sorting, out, the, garden, it, was, a, beautiful, day, my, back, was, pretty, sore, by, the, end, of, the, day, but, we, got, it, nearly, all, sorted, which, was, good, the, boys, cut, the, lawn, and, a, sat, on, it, and, read, her, book, another, bbq, by, the, end, of, the, day, a, made, the, salads, while, the, boys, cooked, so, it, was, a, family, meal, wife, and, the, older, two, headed, for, tesco’s, while, i, cleared, the, debris, away, sunday, june, 1st, the, sun, is, still, flaming, but, the, seeds, and, seedlings, are, looking, a, bit, sad, and, whithered, in, spite, of, the, watering, i, have, really, enjoyed, the, week, off, but, there, has, been, very, little, on, fmd, met, up, with, friends, at, church, home, visiting, parents, in, the, evening, caught, up, with, the, as, he, is, an, indian, gastro, enterologist, who, worked, at, carlisle, they, now, work, in, bombay, so, it, was, good, to, see, them, they, are, hoping, to, set, up, an, aids, hospice, there, are, currently, over, a, million, people, who, are, hiv, ve, in, bombay, monday, back, to, work, and, quite, busy, so, it, looks, as, if, the, june, quiet, period, is, not, going, to, materialise, with, folk, on, holiday, it, makes, it, seem, busier, any, way, it, took, me, until, 4pm, to, get, to, my, in, tray, which, after, a, week, was, overflowing, as, usual, tuesday, this, is, more, like, june, long, lunch, and, spent, the, morning, trying, to, get, the, accountancy, package, up, to, date, sent, off, another, speculative, e, mail, job, application, a, friend, from, church, who, is, now, studying, physio, therapy, at, glasgow, came, and, insisted, wife, i, went, out, for, a, walk, together, which, was, really, nice, he, is, a, really, nice, young, guy, went, to, beach, at, beckfoot, where, we, were, the, only, ones, walking, the, beach, there, was, one, serious, kiter, i, have, not, seen, such, a, serious, kite, for, a, long, time, it, was, fairly, windy, and, he, had, it, anchored, behind, him, so, as, not, to, be, taking, off, with, it, weds, spent, the, morning, doing, fertilities, and, then, spent, time, sorting, out, issues, with, george, there, was, so, little, work, it, is, boring, for, the, assistants, the, june, quiet, patch, ahs, arrived, the, bills, did, not, go, due, to, a, computer, upgrade, cocking, the, system, up, the, systems, are, now, so, complex, they, are, beyond, any, reasonable, way, of, keeping, tabs, you, have, to, trust, the, experts, who, you, don’t, thursday, day, off, spent, it, writing, out, a, business, proposal, to, try, and, get, work, via, a, consultancy, firm, then, tried, fixing, the, extractor, fan, and, failed, thursby, football, club, is, going, really, well, with, some, more, lads, coming, along, the, standard, is, variable, but, good, fun, friday, tb, testing, again, at, fs, they, had, just, heard, about, me, leaving, and, were, full, of, questions, the, night, was, really, busy, on, first, call, and, had, lots, going, on, wife, was, at, a, retreat, thinking, through, the, future, and, reporting, on, the, last, year, so, i, was, trying, to, juggle, kids, as, well, saturday, 7th, june, 2003, last, night, was, terrible, with, a, dog, to, see, in, the, middle, of, the, night, and, put, down, it, was, only, a, young, dog, but, it, had, leukaemia, and, was, not, responding, to, treatment, it, had, colic, probably, from, the, mesenteric, lymph, nodes, and, was, rolling, around, in, pain, not, nice, for, them, or, me, sat, am, was, busy, too, went, to, one, of, the, organic, farms, to, see, an, ill, cow, post, calving, he, was, saying, that, there, are, three, farmers, all, none, fmd, giving, up, milking, one, is, another, organic, dairy, farm, he, was, promised, a, premium, of, 10p, per, litre, and, his, costings, were, based, on, 28p, per, litre, he, is, getting, a, premium, of, less, than, 0.5p, per, litre, which, takes, it, to, 16p, the, figures, do, not, add, up, so, he, is, giving, up, the, other, 2, are, small, farms, who, cannot, make, it, work, 40, 50, cows, slept, in, the, afternoon, and, went, to, a, party, in, the, evening, bizarrely, as, we, were, walking, in, the, people, whose, dog, i, put, to, sleep, last, night, walked, in, as, well, they, live, next, door, and, had, been, invited, as, well, weird, spent, time, chatting, but, came, to, 10, and, i, was, dead, on, my, feet, sunday, 8th, the, on, call, changes, from, 2nd, back, up, to, 1st, at, 8, 30, am, the, phone, started, at, 8, 35, urghhh, i, am, finding, it, very, hard, to, have, any, enthusiasm, knowing, that, i, ma, leaving, in, a, few, months, one, of, the, farms, i, was, on, has, given, up, dairy, and, were, hoping, to, retire, fmd, year, but, lost, money, because, of, all, the, restrictions, so, they, are, now, hoping, to, finish, this, back, end, may, be, they, were, hoping, to, keep, the, milk, quota, and, lease, it, out, as, a, pension, but, because, of, the, new, rules, they, will, have, to, sell, it, and, the, price, is, low, as, there, are, a, lot, of, non, producers, who, are, in, the, same, boat, it, was, at, its, height, worth, 1, per, litre, a, lot, was, bought, and, sold, in, the, 40, 60p, per, litre, it, is, now, around, the, 10p, mark, funny, world, agriculture, monday, 9th, calving, at, 5am, followed, by, other, calls, so, an, early, start, busy, day, at, work, went, to, a, meeting, for, the, new, crusaders, support, worker, it, is, supposed, to, be, county, wide, but, is, going, to, be, based, around, kendal, as, that, is, where, the, legacy, that, is, providing, a, lot, of, the, money, is, based, so, it, is, less, relevant, tot, this, end, of, cumbria, so, i, have, backed, out, of, the, organisation, committee, as, most, of, the, meetings, will, be, at, rydal, too, far, for, me, we, were, there, tonight, so, did, not, get, back, until, 11, 30, which, after, a, w, e, on, call, is, too, late, for, this, bunny, tuesday, 10th, spent, 45, mins, on, the, phone, trying, to, work, out, what, i, am, going, to, be, doing, in, oct, with, a, guy, from, pfizer, i, then, had, to, spend, the, rest, of, the, evening, sorting, out, the, emails, i, needed, to, send, to, him, weds, 11th, spent, the, morning, having, nursery, visits, where, the, local, infants, schools, come, around, the, vets, and, i, give, my, wee, guided, tour, it, is, quite, fun, and, the, little, things, that, we, do, they, really, love, blowing, up, the, anaesthetic, bag, the, x, ray, quiz, and, listening, to, dog’s, hearts, i, always, take, some, of, son, s, chickens, in, as, well, as, most, kids, are, not, use, to, having, birds, or, handling, them, son, has, spent, so, many, hours, carrying, them, around, they, are, fairly, tame, and, used, to, being, picked, up, i, don’t, know, that, effort, pays, back, in, commercial, terms, but, it, is, fun, football, training, in, the, evening, with, 20, lads, which, was, brilliant, thursday, 12th, on, call, and, exhausted, after, the, excitement, of, the, week, the, phone, went, at, 7pm, from, the, answering, service, to, say, that, a, women, had, rung, and, asked, for, the, pass, word, for, the, alarm, this, of, course, meant, nothing, to, those, answering, the, phone, i, however, put, 2, 2, together, to, work, out, that, the, alarm, at, the, practice, and, gone, off, and, that, the, police, would, be, on, their, way, why, does, this, always, happen, when, you, are, in, the, bath, so, i, jumped, out, the, bath, and, rushed, down, to, find, out, what, was, going, on, there, was, a, police, man, there, who, was, waiting, for, me, to, lead, the, way, in, we, found, a, very, scared, dog, sitting, in, the, prep, room, having, escaped, from, its, kennel, it, then, took, an, hour, to, get, the, alarms, reset, life, is, a, rich, tapestry, friday, 13th, went, to, lawyers, today, to, meet, up, to, go, through, the, dissolution, of, the, partnership, bit, sad, in, a, way, but, another, nail, bashed, in, to, my, leaving, coffin, finished, work, and, spent, evening, playing, football, and, doing, some, coaching, which, was, good, fun, son, was, off, school, today, he, was, full, of, cold, and, just, exhausted, he, just, needed, time, out, really, he, goes, at, everything, at, 110, saturday, 14th, june, 2003, working, am, why, is, it, even, if, you, have, a, few, quiet, days, in, the, week, by, the, time, the, w, e, comes, it, is, busy, again, really, warm, so, sunshine, and, gardening, a, had, decided, she, was, going, to, do, a, changing, rooms, on, the, double, room, in, the, cottage, so, she, and, a, friend, worked, away, all, day, at, it, i, was, very, impressed, by, the, time, we, had, finished, our, barbeque, in, the, evening, it, was, all, back, to, ship, shape, and, was, finished, she, is, some, pup, sunday, went, down, to, whitehaven, to, see, the, tall, ships, in, the, harbour, there, was, only, one, there, which, was, disappointing, but, it, was, good, to, look, around, there, was, a, fair, buzz, about, the, place, and, heaving, with, people, as, the, weather, was, great, there, was, a, display, of, jet, ski’s, which, was, fun, to, watch, so, the, boys, are, now, on, at, me, to, try, and, have, a, go, the, red, arrows, were, brilliant, they, have, a, tremendous, display, and, the, coloured, streams, they, leave, behind, in, the, sky, always, amaze, me, it, is, almost, like, they, are, writing, in, the, sky, monday, finally, decided, the, duck, eggs, were, not, going, to, hatch, so, broke, them, open, to, see, if, they, were, fertile, 1, exploded, it, was, so, rotten, urghh, only, one, had, a, half, formed, egg, in, it, so, i, think, the, eggs, were, the, problem, not, the, incubation, tuesday, testing, some, more, i, r’s, for, tb, though, the, history, is, wrong, so, i, hope, that, they, will, clear, a, new, vet, student, turned, up, in, the, afternoon, she, is, staying, with, us, until, the, w, e, then, with, colleague, the, vets, is, going, to, have, to, find, new, accommodation, for, students, went, to, the, training, evening, for, the, soccer, coaching, it, was, a, form, filling, exercise, and, orientation, so, it, was, boring, but, i, am, on, the, course, which, is, good, at, least, i, well, have, the, piece, of, paper, at, the, end, of, it, weds, footie, training, at, night, only, the, hard, core, turned, up, so, looks, like, we, will, have, a, good, group, of, 14, 15, which, means, we, will, not, have, to, choose, and, disappoint, went, for, a, run, afterwards, as, feeling, in, need, of, exercise, as, not, much, large, animal, work, at, the, moment, means, i, am, sitting, around, on, the, computer, for, a, lot, of, the, day, which, is, sad, must, get, fit, is, a, constant, resolution, spent, the, evening, up, at, sandal, watching, the, sun, go, down, away, from, the, phone, and, chaos, at, home, thursday, i, was, at, work, when, i, had, a, phone, call, from, some, one, who, had, apparently, run, over, son, at, school, never, an, easy, phone, call, to, take, espy, as, she, did, not, know, what, had, happened, fortunately, he, was, ok, he, had, been, walking, backwards, and, had, stepped, into, the, path, of, a, car, which, had, caught, his, heel, the, damage, was, slight, but, it, had, upset, him, the, school, exit, is, appalling, and, needs, sorted, as, busses, cars, and, bikes, all, share, the, same, area, as, the, kids, walking, inevitably, kids, are, jostling, and, messing, around, so, it, is, an, accident, waiting, to, happen, friday, half, day, as, wife, is, starting, her, next, w, e, counselling, course, could, not, really, get, going, as, a, calving, early, this, am, and, a, call, late, last, night, so, having, run, on, adrenalin, for, all, the, week, i, collapse, in, to, a, heap, and, find, it, hard, to, get, going, and, get, motivated, spent, the, afternoon, getting, organised, for, the, visitors, arriving, as, friends, are, coming, and, friend, who, was, our, bridesmaid, is, coming, across, for, the, w, e, saturday, 21st, june, 2003, pay, day, i, don’t, really, know, why, it, always, sticks, in, my, mind, but, at, the, moment, with, the, 1st, of, october, looming, and, the, fact, that, the, 21st, will, not, be, a, pay, day, it, is, becoming, a, bit, scary, spent, morning, on, run, around, and, house, jobs, ferrying, to, and, from, squash, went, to, town, in, pm, with, a, son, having, left, off, the, younger, ones, at, cottinghams, and, spent, a, pleasant, half, hour, in, ottakars, even, they, were, running, low, on, the, book, the, latest, harry, potter, which, i, had, meant, to, order, via, internet, but, had, not, quite, got, around, to, the, statistic, is, that, she, is, expected, to, sell, 6, every, second, over, the, w, e, she, makes, 1, per, book, which, means, 360, per, minute, 21,600, per, hour, not, a, bad, hourly, rate, or, just, over, a, million, quid, for, the, w, e, as, every, other, person, on, the, tills, was, buying, a, copy, i, can, well, believe, it, sun, 22nd, church, in, the, morning, was, joint, communion, and, was, lead, by, the, denton, holm, house, group, the, church, meets, up, in, small, groups, mid, week, to, pray, and, study, bible, and, the, denton, holme, grp, lead, the, service, it, means, you, get, a, refreshingly, different, type, of, service, with, different, people, taking, part, and, leading, it, was, good, followed, by, a, picnic, in, the, park, which, was, ok, but, i, just, wanted, to, fall, asleep, in, the, sunshine, i, am, suffering, from, stopping, syndrome, i, can, keep, going, on, the, adrenalin, but, when, i, stop, thump, i, fall, asleep, and, can, not, get, going, picked, up, liz, from, church, in, the, evening, having, left, youngest, two, at, home, as, wife, was, late, back, from, her, course, thank, goodness, for, mobile, phones, or, rather, at, least, they, manage, to, make, a, complex, life, possible, really, i, should, have, let, her, pick, up, friend, and, missed, church, and, upset, a, by, telling, her, she, couldn’t, go, but, it, all, worked, out, in, the, end, mon, 23rd, friend, arrived, at, some, terrible, hour, she, finally, left, bristol, after, 8pm, after, meaning, to, leave, at, lunchtime, so, as, wife, and, i, were, exhausted, we, did, not, get, up, to, welcome, her, work, is, really, quiet, with, very, little, happening, son, is, in, a, strop, cos, we, will, not, let, him, go, sailing, after, cricket, after, school, as, he, will, be, exhausted, he, takes, after, us, if, there, is, a, possibility, we, try, to, achieve, it, our, own, fault, really, but, it, is, weird, how, you, see, your, own, faults, coming, through, in, your, children, tues, 24th, spent, the, day, talking, to, people, on, the, phone, trying, to, get, funding, for, the, research, project, have, a, few, leads, and, ideas, to, get, together, so, should, be, interesting, to, see, if, it, comes, together, weds, 25th, started, at, 4am, with, a, caesarean, which, was, really, nice, as, that, time, in, the, morning, is, beautiful, it, is, just, a, shame, that, the, rest, of, the, day, is, a, bit, of, a, wash, out, because, of, it, went, at, night, to, the, fa, training, course, which, was, class, room, based, on, a, warm, sunny, evening, and, i, was, struggling, to, stay, with, it, i, have, also, decided, that, i, need, to, get, fit, as, the, practical, day, is, going, to, be, very, long, for, my, unfit, legs, thursday, the, electrician, arrived, to, sort, out, the, electrics, in, the, bathroom, which, are, still, not, right, the, lights, keep, fusing, and, the, fan, will, not, work, i, had, a, look, at, the, wiring, which, is, a, mess, and, decided, i, could, not, follow, it, and, after, my, last, experience, i, decided, i, would, just, pay, him, to, keep, him, in, a, job, i, had, a, very, enjoyable, day, off, played, son, at, squash, and, lost, now, not, only, is, he, better, than, me, at, football, but, squash, a, swell, all, down, hill, from, here, on, in, went, to, church, in, the, evening, as, rw, was, speaking, it, was, interesting, to, hear, him, though, was, more, a, chat, than, a, biblical, exposition, friday, the, email, from, the, verse, of, the, day, seems, to, sum, up, a, years, worth, of, diaries, when, times, are, good, be, happy, but, when, times, are, bad, consider, god, has, made, the, one, as, well, as, the, other, therefore, a, man, cannot, discover, anything, about, his, future, ecclesiastes, 7, 14, new, international, version, the, future, is, uncertain, i, will, leave, my, job, in, a, few, months, time, for, a, new, start, the, pressures, of, fmd, seem, to, be, distant, in, the, warm, summer, weather, and, in, the, quiet, workload, making, me, feel, rested, and, relaxed, the, challenges, both, for, agriculture, the, veterinary, practice, and, for, policymakers, are, still, very, large, there, is, now, a, threat, of, bio, terrorism, to, add, to, the, food, scares, and, the, threat, of, exotic, disease, life, carries, on, we, may, not, learn, from, all, our, mistakes, and, government, depts, are, a, blunt, slow, awkward, machine, but, the, cows, will, still, need, to, be, milked, and, we, will, still, need, food, on, our, table, if, in, 68, you, told, some, one, that, we, had, not, had, an, outbreak, of, fmd, for, 35, years, they, would, have, said, well, done, if, you, had, said, 2, men, were, milking, 300, cows, on, a, cumbrian, farm, and, getting, 7000, litres, per, cow, he, would, never, have, believed, you, there, is, a, time, for, everything, and, a, season, for, every, activity, under, the, heaven, a, time, to, be, born, and, a, time, to, die, a, time, to, plant, and, a, time, to, uproot, a, time, to, kill, and, a, time, to, heal, a, time, to, tear, down, and, a, time, to, build, a, time, to, weep, and, a, time, to, laugh, a, time, to, mourn, and, a, time, to, dance, a, time, to, scatter, stones, and, a, time, to, gather, them, a, time, to, embrace, and, a, time, to, refrain, a, time, to, search, and, a, time, to, give, up, a, time, to, keep, and, a, time, to, throw, away, a, time, to, tear, and, a, time, to, mend, a, time, to, be, silent, and, a, time, to, speak, a, time, to, love, and, a, time, to, hate, a, time, for, war, and, a, time, for, peace]
## 5 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1981, gender, f, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, paper, diary, has, lots, of, newspaper, cuttings, and, other, related, material, week, beginning, 25th, february, 2002, after, the, snow, which, fell, at, the, weekend, melted, combined, with, the, additional, rainfall, many, of, the, fields, surrounding, the, village, as, well, as, the, roads, were, flooded, usually, this, wouldn't, concern, you, much, however, with, the, burial, site, being, so, close, and, the, number, of, underground, streams, in, the, area, it, does, become, worrying, there, isn't, any, guarantee, that, groundwater, in, the, surrounding, area, won't, become, effected, and, to, what, extent, there, seem, to, be, a, number, of, aspects, to, me, concerning, this, issue, which, remain, unclear, for, example, what, exactly, can, be, carried, in, water, and, how, might, this, effect, people, in, the, area, what, is, being, tested, for, in, the, surrounding, streams, what, exactly, is, classed, as, a, danger, and, if, problems, did, arise, how, would, they, be, monitored, and, resolved, all, these, issues, do, tend, to, make, you, anxious, in, particular, on, monday, when, i, was, out, walking, my, dog, i, noticed, a, couple, of, drains, which, i, passed, looked, as, if, they, were, blocked, and, there, was, a, lot, of, water, around, it, just, makes, you, wonder, how, much, has, come, possibly, from, the, burial, site, and, if, it, is, actually, safe, my, worries, on, monday, about, the, groundwater, were, even, more, emphasised, by, the, statement, i, heard, on, the, border, news, on, tuesday, by, the, environment, agency, this, statement, was, concerning, the, future, safety, of, the, groundwater, in, the, area, around, the, burial, site, the, agency, could, give, no, guarantee, that, the, groundwater, would, not, become, affected, in, the, future, since, then, i, have, heard, no, further, news, about, the, issue, there, may, be, more, information, on, news, reports, i, missed, in, my, opinion, not, enough, information, is, given, to, the, public, about, these, issues, results, of, testing, by, the, environment, agency, are, meant, to, be, available, to, the, public, however, i, have, never, heard, much, about, the, details, i, think, more, effort, should, be, made, to, inform, in, particular, resident, near, burial, sites, as, these, issues, are, bound, to, be, important, to, them, after, hearing, the, news, i, did, become, more, worried, but, at, the, end, of, the, day, there, is, little, we, can, really, do, ourselves, you, find, yourself, having, to, trust, people, or, agencies, you, know, little, about, and, just, hoping, everything, will, be, alright, on, tuesday, also, noticed, a, horrible, smell, outside, so, did, my, fiancé, but, again, you, can't, be, sure, exactly, where, this, is, coming, from, or, what, is, causing, it, on, thursday, with, news, of, possible, foot, and, mouth, case, further, south, near, leeds, i, became, very, worried, that, this, whole, thing, was, going, to, start, all, over, again, my, worries, were, about, the, farmers, and, people, involved, and, how, they, would, be, affected, if, other, cases, could, be, identified, and, in, particular, affecting, my, own, life, if, animals, would, have, to, be, slaughtered, again, in, the, future, where, would, they, be, disposed, of, would, existing, burial, sites, be, reopened, as, opposed, to, finding, suitable, sites, for, new, burial, sites, it, would, seem, easier, to, reopen, burial, sites, but, what, would, this, mean, for, the, future, and, to, what, extent, would, the, health, risks, be, increased, i, was, very, relieved, to, hear, the, testing, of, the, foot, and, mouth, cases, came, back, negative, i, was, relieved, for, the, people, involved, and, also, residents, near, burial, sites, however, this, did, raise, questions, in, my, mind, of, how, this, sort, of, situation, would, be, handled, in, the, future, and, what, consequences, it, might, have, week, 2, 4th, march, on, monday, passed, driving, test, and, now, fiancé, and, myself, are, insured, on, a, small, car, this, opens, up, so, many, opportunities, and, we, have, a, huge, sense, of, freedom, last, summer, we, had, planned, to, go, on, a, camping, holiday, with, our, dog, dog, we, had, al, our, equipment, prepared, but, were, unable, to, go, due, to, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, neither, of, us, imagined, how, long, and, widespread, the, outbreak, would, be, and, thought, at, first, it, would, be, over, in, a, few, weeks, now, a, year, later, we, are, able, to, replan, our, holiday, this, is, exciting, as, we, have, waited, so, long, it, is, unbelievable, to, think, how, long, it, has, taken, for, restrictions, on, the, countryside, to, return, to, as, normal, as, can, be, possible, due, to, the, circumstances, for, the, actual, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, this, must, have, seemed, like, far, longer, on, tuesday, i, had, a, lovely, surprise, when, i, noticed, the, lambs, in, a, field, near, my, house, when, out, walking, my, dog, it, was, lovely, to, see, and, for, a, few, minutes, things, almost, seemed, normal, again, even, though, the, burial, site, is, only, about, a, mile, away, it, is, hidden, from, view, from, the, village, you, never, forget, though, as, soon, as, you, spot, the, windmills, and, remember, the, repeated, pictures, featured, in, the, news, seeing, the, lambs, really, did, lift, my, spirits, and, the, future, after, foot, and, mouth, didn’t, seem, as, bad, as, thought, the, week, before, i, can’t, recall, the, exact, days, but, they, were, towards, the, beginning, of, the, week, on, two, particular, occasions, my, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, terrible, smell, outside, we, aren’t, sure, exactly, what, the, smell, was, just, that, it, was, very, unpleasant, the, only, other, incident, which, i, can, recall, which, stands, out, in, my, mind, this, past, week, is, a, conversation, i, had, with, my, fiancé’s, granddad, we, were, talking, about, how, bad, last, year’s, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, had, been, and, he, recalled, the, outbreak, of, 1967, he, commented, on, how, he, thought, that, outbreak, had, been, far, better, controlled, it, was, better, as, the, animals, were, killed, and, buried, on, the, actual, farms, in, lime, there, was, no, transporting, dead, or, live, animals, like, last, year, he, also, commented, on, the, fact, that, there, were, no, pyres, then, and, that, he, hadn’t, thought, it, a, good, idea, last, year, overall, he, thought, that, last, year’s, outbreak, could, have, been, dealt, with, better, and, that, action, was, taken, far, too, late, to, prevent, the, disease, spreading, week, 3, 11th, march, one, new, thing, i, have, noticed, this, week, is, the, amount, of, birds, there, are, flying, around, especially, black, crows, i, think, it, is, because, i, have, been, driving, and, every, time, i, drive, past, the, fields, at, the, south, end, of, the, village, there, are, large, amounts, of, crows, hustled, together, can, never, remember, it, being, quite, like, that, last, summer, it, makes, you, wonder, why, so, many, are, drawn, to, just, those, fields, as, i, drive, past, in, the, next, few, weeks, i, will, see, if, it, is, still, the, same, on, about, occasions, this, week, fiancé, and, i, have, noticed, a, slight, smell, outside, again, not, as, foul, smelling, but, still, noticeable, on, tuesday, saw, new, series, featured, on, itv, called, rural, lives, i, think, this, is, a, good, idea, as, the, issue, of, foot, and, mouth, is, still, very, painful, to, a, lot, of, people, and, is, not, over, yet, the, effects, are, still, happening, however, on, the, news, and, in, other, media, it, isn’t, often, mentioned, and, doesn’t, get, the, attention, it, deserves, hopefully, through, programmes, like, this, people, will, get, a, better, understanding, of, the, issues, involved, and, what, different, people, went, through, if, an, outbreak, ever, happened, again, all, the, people, involved, would, hopefully, have, a, better, idea, of, how, to, handle, the, actual, crisis, and, a, better, idea, of, people’s, needs, for, example, the, farmers, these, are, long, term, effects, which, can’t, be, ignored, my, mum, came, out, for, a, couple, of, nights, she, loves, coming, out, to, see, us, as, she, lives, in, carlisle, it, is, a, total, change, of, scenery, she, thought, it, was, great, and, enjoyed, taking, my, dog, on, long, walks, which, she, was, unable, to, do, for, a, long, time, we, went, to, see, the, lambs, in, the, lovely, weather, shows, we, are, able, to, start, enjoying, the, countryside, again, especially, coming, up, to, spring, and, summer, we, were, even, able, to, go, to, dalston, with, my, dog, and, wander, about, we, have, been, so, used, to, having, to, stick, t, the, roads, just, in, the, local, area, it, was, lovely, a, nice, change, it, does, tend, to, make, you, more, confident, about, the, coming, year, and, we, are, looking, forward, to, the, summer, week, 4, 18th, march, this, past, week, started, of, with, a, day, out, at, bowness, i, went, with, my, fiancé, and, took, our, dog, dog, it, was, lovely, to, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, she, really, enjoys, it, and, got, absolutely, filthy, travelling, in, the, car, is, becoming, easier, for, dog, and, she, goes, crazy, when, you, arrive, we, have, only, had, dog, just, over, 2, years, and, for, the, past, year, we, couldn’t, let, her, off, the, lead, to, run, anywhere, we, are, tiring, t, train, her, again, she, listens, to, a, certain, extent, but, we, have, to, keep, an, eye, on, her, cheeky, side, i, remember, wondering, when, the, foot, and, mouth, started, how, we, were, going, to, exercise, dog, as, walking, her, on, the, roads, used, to, be, more, difficult, due, to, the, large, vehicles, travelling, up, and, down, and, also, the, fact, dog, isn’t, the, best, on, the, lead, she, used, to, be, really, energetic, and, a, bit, of, a, handful, however, now, she, has, got, used, to, a, more, relaxed, life, and, at, times, i, think, she, quite, likes, it, it, did, us, all, good, to, have, some, exercise, and, fresh, air, and, it, was, lovely, to, have, a, change, of, scenery, apart, from, on, monday, i, haven’t, really, been, anywhere, else, apart, from, shopping, and, have, been, busy, doing, my, a, level, work, therefore, i, haven’t, really, noticed, anything, different, this, week, and, haven’t, thought, about, foot, and, mouth, as, much, my, overall, view, this, week, has, been, quite, confident, and, there, has, been, no, real, significant, happenings, to, change, my, view, quite, a, good, week, overall, week, 5, 25th, march, firstly, i, received, the, newsletter, sent, out, to, the, standing, panel, it, was, a, relief, to, finally, get, some, information, regarding, the, burial, site, it, was, good, to, have, an, explanation, on, how, things, work, on, the, site, in, terms, that, we, can, understand, it, is, a, relief, to, know, that, everything, so, far, is, still, safe, however, it, is, evident, that, there, is, much, more, work, and, monitoring, to, be, carried, out, in, the, future, even, though, it, is, still, not, possible, to, do, anything, ourselves, our, minds, are, at, least, put, at, rest, by, knowing, something, it, surprises, me, how, long, it, has, taken, for, information, like, this, to, be, made, accessible, to, the, public, i, think, this, newsletter, is, a, very, good, step, forward, as, information, is, reaching, the, public, and, participants, are, also, given, the, opportunity, to, ask, questions, and, put, other, ideas, forward, on, wednesday, my, mum, came, out, again, to, see, us, once, again, we, took, a, walk, to, go, see, the, lambs, in, the, field, near, us, it, was, enjoyable, and, we, had, lovely, weather, it, makes, you, realise, how, much, you, take, for, granted, around, you, without, thinking, twice, my, mum, has, made, me, realise, this, even, more, by, seeing, how, much, she, enjoys, such, a, simple, thing, and, how, special, she, thinks, it, is, sometimes, i, think, when, you, are, surrounded, by, the, country, and, nature, all, the, time, you, forget, how, lucky, you, are, my, mum, and, gran, would, both, love, to, live, somewhere, like, here, the, biggest, surprise, this, week, was, when, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, the, month, and, found, in, it, the, watchtree, news, this, is, the, first, time, i, have, ever, seen, anything, like, this, from, the, parish, council, i, think, it, is, a, very, good, idea, as, the, information, will, be, accessible, to, everyone, in, the, appropriate, parishes, even, though, it, is, long, overdue, it, is, very, worthwhile, and, i, think, will, be, very, informative, it, covers, a, wide, range, of, issues, the, majority, of, which, i, knew, very, little, about, and, wouldn’t, have, known, for, the, future, for, example, the, maintenance, going, to, be, carried, out, between, the, a595, orton, grange, junction, and, the, site, entrance, at, least, we, now, have, knowledge, of, this, before, it, is, going, to, be, carried, out, as, it, will, affect, other, members, of, our, family, who, live, on, the, orton, grange, junction, who, would, otherwise, have, had, no, idea, some, of, the, information, was, surprising, for, example, the, number, of, tankers, that, leave, the, site, everyday, which, i, didn’t, expect, to, be, so, high, and, which, could, rise, important, issues, are, also, now, being, tackled, such, as, the, bad, state, of, the, local, roads, the, affected, people, are, also, being, encouraged, to, report, these, things, themselves, to, the, appropriate, people, i, think, this, has, been, a, significant, development, and, will, be, very, useful, in, the, aftermath, of, foot, and, mouth, communication, between, the, appropriate, authorities, and, the, public, is, essential, week, 6, 1st, april, unfortunately, it, has, been, all, go, this, week, one, bit, of, work, after, another, i, haven't, had, time, to, focus, on, very, much, else, this, past, week, despite, this, fact, i, have, still, had, quite, a, positive, week, it, is, better, studying, out, here, as, there, are, few, distractions, and, everything, is, lovely, and, peaceful, a, drastic, difference, from, last, year, at, that, time, it, was, difficult, to, concentrate, on, anything, for, too, long, far, too, many, distractions, my, fiancé, however, has, been, up, to, the, burial, site, and, nearby, on, sunday, he, went, for, a, drive, with, a, friend, and, wondered, what, it, looked, like, up, there, we, have, only, ever, seen, it, on, television, reports, but, never, been, up, there, ourselves, in, a, future, diary, when, he, has, time, he, will, write, a, few, words, on, what, he, thought, week, 7, 8th, april, once, again, this, week, has, been, full, of, work, i, haven't, had, much, time, to, do, anything, apart, from, work, on, thursday, i, had, a, break, and, my, mom, came, out, for, a, bbq, for, the, first, time, this, year, we, have, put, out, our, patio, tables, and, chairs, as, the, weather, was, staying, pleasant, we, sat, out, for, a, while, in, the, evening, and, had, our, bbq, it, was, a, lovely, break, for, my, mom, as, there, is, peace, and, quiet, out, here, as, opposed, to, in, town, we, all, really, enjoyed, it, my, mom, and, fiance, both, commented, how, lovely, it, was, to, sit, outside, in, the, nice, weather, without, a, nasty, smell, about, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, haven't, noticed, things, smelling, so, bad, as, on, a, few, occasions, recently, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, birds, in, particular, crows, which, have, been, in, the, fields, to, the, south, of, where, we, are, near, the, crossroads, on, the, couple, of, occasions, during, the, week, when, i, have, been, past, the, fields, there, have, only, been, a, couple, of, birds, flying, around, as, opposed, to, a, whole, field, full, of, crows, at, one, time, it, was, also, lovely, to, hear, the, sheep, especially, as, the, evening, became, darker, in, the, background, you, could, hear, the, sheep, just, in, the, field, next, to, us, and, also, the, lambs, a, few, fields, away, it, was, something, which, we, still, aren't, quite, used, to, but, which, we, appreciate, so, much, more, now, week, 8, 15th, april, i, was, feeling, quite, confident, this, week, until, friday, when, watch, the, news, i, saw, the, report, on, new, bovine, tb, cases, which, are, worrying, even, though, it, is, said, it, wouldn’t, be, as, serious, as, foot, and, mouth, it, is, still, worrying, as, it, has, the, potential, to, destroy, many, more, lives, and, bankrupt, more, farmers, who, have, probably, just, got, over, foot, and, mouth, the, worry, must, be, especially, bad, for, the, farmers, as, it, is, bad, enough, for, the, general, public, especially, after, seeing, the, damage, caused, by, foot, and, mouth, in, such, a, short, space, of, time, it, would, be, absolutely, terrible, if, this, summer, was, anything, like, last, summer, how, long, would, it, take, for, everything, to, get, back, to, normal, then, even, though, foot, and, mouth, is, evidently, far, different, to, bovine, tb, hopefully, things, will, have, been, learned, from, last, year, which, will, prevent, this, from, becoming, a, disaster, too, apart, from, that, other, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, smell, etc, haven’t, been, as, bad, this, past, week, i, haven’t, noticed, any, particular, occasions, when, the, smell, has, been, particularly, bad, or, noticeable, in, addition, on, the, occasions, when, i, have, driven, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, there, have, been, hardly, any, crows, near, there, which, is, a, huge, improvement, there, were, a, number, of, seagulls, in, one, field, but, nowhere, near, the, amount, of, crows, there, were, before, there, has, also, been, a, decrease, in, the, amount, of, tankers, going, by, recently, that, i, have, noticed, at, first, i, didn’t, take, much, notice, of, it, but, then, fiancé, s, grandad, mentioned, that, he, had, hardly, seen, any, he, seems, to, notice, them, move, more, than, we, do, as, he, lives, on, the, orton, grange, junction, with, wigton, road, and, they, all, have, to, go, past, there, with, all, these, things, happening, the, presence, of, the, burial, site, nearby, seems, less, obvious, week, 9, 22nd, april, the, last, week, has, been, quite, a, pleasant, week, probably, because, i, have, eventually, finished, my, coursework, and, have, been, able, to, have, a, bit, of, peace, and, quiet, i, think, this, combined, with, periods, of, lovely, weather, have, made, me, feel, quite, good, on, tuesday, when, i, travelled, to, town, and, back, i, went, past, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, to, the, south, of, the, village, which, in, the, past, have, been, full, of, crows, or, seagulls, as, i, have, noticed, on, other, odd, occasions, over, the, past, week, they, appear, to, be, empty, now, i’ll, keep, an, eye, on, how, this, changes, over, the, summer, if, it, does, on, friday, i, noticed, that, there, were, a, number, of, cattle, and, calves, in, the, field, just, opposite, our, house, i, can, stand, and, watch, them, from, my, back, patio, doors, which, is, lovely, with, the, reintroduction, of, the, sheep, and, cattle, in, the, area, it, is, like, everything, is, coming, together, finally, after, the, foot, and, mouth, and, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, some, sense, the, cattle, seem, to, be, the, last, part, needed, for, everything, to, seem, to, be, running, properly, and, the, animals, finally, moving, about, at, last, i, think, this, fact, combine, with, their, being, no, significant, incidents, of, nasty, smells, or, the, rumbling, of, the, tankers, going, by, has, made, things, seem, better, when, talking, to, fiance, s, grandad, he, mentioned, again, that, there, still, haven’t, been, as, many, tankers, going, past, his, house, at, orton, grange, as, there, have, been, this, past, week, there, have, been, hardly, any, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, the, past, foot, and, mouth, problems, living, in, the, country, has, seemed, quite, normal, after, what, seems, a, long, time, week, 10, 29th, april, all, in, all, this, week, has, been, a, good, week, overall, with, regard, to, the, foot, and, mouth, everything, seems, to, have, quietened, down, and, there, are, hardly, any, visible, reminders, of, the, burial, site, and, foot, and, mouth, around, the, village, as, i, mentioned, last, week, there, still, haven’t, been, any, noticeable, occasions, of, smells, possibly, from, the, burial, site, the, tankers, have, hardly, been, noticeable, around, the, village, and, the, fields, near, the, crossroads, have, still, been, fairly, empty, of, birds, in, particular, crows, this, was, explained, and, backed, up, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazines, which, i, received, this, week, it, was, good, to, read, and, very, informative, worth, reading, i, still, think, it, is, a, good, idea, and, is, being, done, well, as, it, discusses, issues, happening, now, and, also, keeps, you, informed, about, action, in, the, future, the, newsletter, mentioned, the, reduction, in, the, amount, of, tankers, which, i, have, noticed, it, also, mentions, that, there, might, be, a, slight, smell, from, the, burial, sited, during, work, but, so, far, i, haven’t, noticed, anything, once, again, it, has, been, lovely, seeing, both, the, sheep, and, the, cows, in, the, surrounding, fields, especially, at, the, moment, when, they, are, with, their, young, on, saturday, on, the, way, down, to, fiance, s, grandad, there, were, road, works, near, the, baldwinholme, bend, in, the, road, this, part, was, in, a, bad, condition, and, is, now, much, better, i, think, the, damage, was, caused, by, the, trucks, etc, used, during, foot, and, mouth, however, i’m, not, sure, week, 11, 6th, may, this, week, has, been, my, 21st, birthday, i’m, growing, up, i, had, a, lovely, day, on, thursday, and, as, a, surprise, i, was, taken, t, the, lake, district, for, the, day, it, was, lovely, and, i, really, enjoyed, it, firstly, we, stopped, off, at, bassenthwaite, lake, for, a, bit, fed, the, ducks, and, had, a, picnic, then, off, to, dodd, wood, for, a, coffee, and, to, see, the, ospreys, it, was, great, to, see, them, and, i, think, we, were, quite, lucky, then, we, had, a, pleasant, walk, around, myre, house, i, was, reminded, of, how, lucky, we, are, in, cumbria, to, have, such, lovely, places, and, i, am, glad, that, we, are, now, able, to, go, to, these, places, again, now, we’ve, got, a, car, we, are, going, to, take, better, advantage, of, cumbria, and, what, it, has, to, offer, once, again, i, realised, how, much, we, take, what, we, have, for, granted, overall, this, has, been, a, good, week, and, reminders, of, foot, and, mouth, and, the, burial, site, have, been, minimal, there, have, been, no, smells, i, have, noticed, and, hardly, any, signs, of, wagons, it, is, still, lovely, to, see, the, sheep, and, cattle, around, the, village, week, 12, 13th, may, on, wednesday, i, met, my, mum, in, town, and, got, the, cumberland, news, off, her, i, was, reading, about, the, county, council, inquiry, at, kendal, i, think, it, is, good, how, the, different, people, involved, in, the, inquiry, are, all, being, honest, about, what, happened, that, is, the, only, way, anything, will, be, improved, in, the, future, if, anything, of, a, similar, nature, should, happen, again, i, really, hope, it, doesn’t, from, reading, the, articles, written, and, what, people, have, said, it, is, clear, what, a, wide, range, of, people, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, affected, and, also, how, badly, when, you, read, of, other, people, who, have, had, family, who, have, been, so, low, it, has, driven, them, to, suicide, you, do, seem, to, feel, a, bit, guilty, as, when, we, complain, it, hasn’t, affected, us, is, such, a, drastic, way, it, brings, the, seriousness, and, the, extent, of, the, crisis, to, people’s, attention, despite, the, terrible, things, which, took, place, during, the, crisis, hopefully, some, good, will, come, out, of, it, for, the, present, and, the, future, on, thursday, fiance, went, to, the, doctor’s, and, was, talking, to, a, farmer, in, the, waiting, room, as, soon, as, fiance, mentioned, he, lived, in, great, orton, the, farmer, asked, straight, away, what, it, was, like, to, live, here, so, near, to, the, burial, site, and, how, he, couldn’t, imagine, what, it, would, have, been, like, it, too, has, been, such, a, long, time, since, anyone, has, said, anything, like, that, to, either, one, of, us, at, the, time, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, people, used, to, ask, questions, and, what, it, was, like, to, live, so, near, it, is, strange, when, farmers, in, particular, feel, sympathy, towards, you, for, living, near, the, burial, site, when, on, the, other, hand, it, is, the, farmers, i, feel, sympathy, for, before, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, a, fair, number, of, people, even, from, carlisle, didn’t, know, where, great, orton, was, but, now, many, do, and, realise, how, close, to, carlisle, it, actually, is, week, 13, 20th, may, i, haven't, really, done, anything, very, exciting, this, past, week, unfortunately, i've, been, revising, again, and, preparing, for, a, presentation, for, my, a, level, which, i, have, to, do, next, week, my, presentation, was, on, turrets, and, watchtowers, which, i, found, a, bit, confusing, at, first, from, the, books, i've, been, using, so, dragged, fiance, to, drive, and, dog, out, past, brampton, to, hadrian's, wall, there, i, found, a, watchtower, and, a, turret, everything, became, much, clearer, on, the, way, back, we, spotted, a, sign, for, a, camping, barn, on, hadrian's, wall, banks, east, we, were, both, very, interested, so, sent, away, for, the, brochure, at, this, point, we, decided, to, reconsider, our, holiday, plans, and, realised, we, didn't, need, to, go, far, afield, like, amsterdam, our, 1st, choice, then, scotland, 2nd, choice, we, hadn't, realised, actually, how, many, places, there, were, so, nearby, which, were, ideal, we, came, to, the, conclusion, a, holiday, in, cumbria, would, be, the, best, choice, as, 1, we, could, take, dog, with, us, 2, we, could, go, by, car, and, 3, it, would, be, a, bit, cheaper, as, fiance, mentioned, it, would, also, be, good, after, everything, to, put, the, money, we, were, spending, back, into, cumbria, we, were, hoping, to, go, next, week, as, it, is, half, term, the, week, after, and, my, exams, after, that, hopefully, we, will, get, something, organised, on, thursday, we, got, the, orton, newsletter, fiance, and, i, were, both, quite, disappointed, when, we, read, that, land, around, this, area, are, being, sold, for, the, building, of, houses, it, is, good, in, a, way, as, people, are, moving, forward, after, f, m, but, we, wish, it, wasn't, in, a, residential, sense, it, is, just, a, pity, so, much, of, the, farming, will, be, lost, 6, houses, at, baldwinholme, 4, in, great, orton, even, though, i, haven't, been, brought, up, with, a, farming, background, from, what, i, have, seen, it, would, be, a, pity, for, us, to, lose, this, part, of, our, countryside, week, 14, 27th, may, on, monday, saw, cb, and, was, pleased, to, hear, the, f, m, standing, panel, project, was, going, well, as, i, think, it’s, worthwhile, and, as, much, as, possible, should, be, learned, for, the, future, on, tuesday, i, attended, the, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, at, great, orton, village, hall, at, 7pm, i, was, glad, i, attended, the, meeting, as, people, could, voice, their, opinions, and, try, to, get, information, about, issues, both, about, the, present, and, the, future, my, general, view, of, the, meeting, and, how, it, went, was, that, the, general, feeling, of, the, villagers, etc, was, that, they, were, losing, interest, and, nothing, was, still, being, done, there, were, many, empty, seats, i, estimated, a, total, number, of, 50, 60, people, there, was, a, whole, new, panel, of, faces, even, though, this, was, a, new, inquiry, so, there, were, new, people, on, the, panel, but, between, the, meetings, there, is, no, feel, of, continuity, as, no, one, is, sure, of, what, has, been, said, before, and, there, are, never, the, answers, promised, from, one, meeting, to, another, it, seems, as, if, this, is, a, way, of, avoiding, answers, and, getting, out, of, situations, there, were, new, aspects, which, were, brought, up, which, had, not, yet, been, disclosed, never, at, any, meeting, i, have, attended, such, as, the, fact, the, burial, was, planned, and, used, for, the, burial, of, uninfected, animals, which, is, not, what, we, were, led, to, believe, with, al, the, engineering, on, site, again, this, is, lack, of, communication, and, no, one, is, sure, of, the, facts, defra, also, are, only, guaranteeing, funding, for, this, site, for, the, next, 5, years, and, it, is, worrying, who’s, burden, this, will, become, after, then, a, variety, of, other, issues, were, discussed, health, roads, handling, of, outbreak, vaccination, etc, after, the, meeting, i, was, glad, i, had, been, however, i, felt, rather, angry, by, the, way, in, which, the, questions, are, handled, the, answers, are, often, vague, have, no, supporting, evidence, or, are, dismissed, with, i’ll, have, to, get, back, to, you, on, that, or, i, can’t, comment, in, my, opinion, many, of, the, farmers, villagers, etc, just, want, this, whole, thing, brought, to, an, end, ideally, the, remaining, trenches, filled, in, a, nature, reserve, created, and, maintained, there, were, no, guarantees, of, the, site, not, being, used, again, or, funding, after, the, next, five, years, will, this, ever, be, achieved, on, saturday, morning, fiance, and, i, decided, to, go, away, for, a, short, break, to, somewhere, near, and, where, we, could, take, dog, it, was, a, spontaneous, decision, for, the, jubilee, and, because, it, was, half, term, i, was, not, at, college, we, ended, up, going, to, a, caravan, site, with, dog, for, 4, nights, i, will, update, about, my, holiday, in, the, next, diary, clipping, from, news, and, star, here, story, about, great, orton, public, meeting, and, villagers, request, not, to, have, site, used, again, in, the, event, of, future, emergencies, holiday, week, beginning, monday, 3rd, june, week, 15, 10th, june, i, am, writing, this, a, couple, of, days, early, just, to, tell, you, about, our, holiday, it, was, lovely, in, the, end, we, hadn't, yet, received, the, brochure, on, the, camping, barns, so, on, saturday, we, decided, we, would, like, to, go, away, as, son, as, possible, and, would, like, something, for, the, jubilee, weekend, after, finding, a, caravan, at, caldbeck, not, far, away, relatively, quiet, we, went, by, 5, pm, on, saturday, fiance, dog, and, i, were, there, it, was, a, lovely, caravan, site, lovely, caravan, and, even, a, tv, for, the, world, cup, the, caravan, site, was, surrounded, by, common, land, sheep, lovely, and, quiet, and, a, lot, of, places, to, keep, dog, occupied, we, were, so, surprised, at, how, quiet, the, campsite, was, over, the, jubilee, weekend, but, thought, most, of, the, people, actually, lived, there, it, would, be, lovely, in, the, future, to, have, a, small, caravan, there, to, go, away, to, the, surrounding, places, we, went, to, were, really, busy, for, example, keswick, bassenthwaite, etc, i, was, quite, surprised, but, thought, it, was, great, to, see, cumbria, lively, again, what, a, contrast, to, what, i, would, have, imagined, these, places, to, be, like, a, year, ago, especially, for, the, jubilee, everyone, seemed, to, make, such, an, effort, it, was, lovely, to, see, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, so, relaxing, oi, don't, think, dog, has, ever, walked, so, far, we, were, surprised, that, somewhere, so, close, was, exactly, what, we, wanted, we, were, also, happy, we, could, put, our, money, back, into, cumbria, we, would, definitely, go, back, i, feel, so, much, more, confident, about, the, future, especially, in, cumbria, after, this, week, if, you, didn't, know, about, last, year, f, m, outbreak, in, some, cases, it, would, be, hard, to, tell, i, really, think, cumbria, seems, as, if, it, could, recover, from, this, hopefully, on, saturday, and, sunday, ill, in, bed, week, 16, 17th, june, with, the, combination, of, not, feeling, very, well, at, the, beginning, of, the, week, the, car, not, running, overt, the, week, end, and, dog, being, in, season, i, haven't, really, been, able, to, go, anywhere, this, week, it, has, been, quite, frustrating, but, i, have, had, work, to, do, anyway, i, still, feel, quite, confident, about, the, future, this, week, after, being, on, holiday, this, is, better, than, a, couple, of, weeks, ago, after, the, fmd, inquiry, meeting, when, i, felt, quite, unsure, at, time, of, what, was, going, to, happen, at, gt, orton, i, had, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, with, parish, magazine, i, think, both, of, these, are, good, as, you, are, able, to, gain, information, consistently, about, f, m, in, cumbria, and, in, particular, the, burial, site, this, information, would, be, difficult, to, come, by, otherwise, in, particular, i, enjoyed, reading, about, children, at, milburn, school, with, their, memories, of, the, f, m, outbreak, and, the, effort, they, have, made, researcher, had, spoken, with, respondent, about, possibility, of, monthly, diary, and, she, decided, to, start, straight, away, so, although, middle, of, month, here, follows, monthly, write, up, she, continued, to, record, her, diary, in, this, way, at, times, she, offers, short, daily, entries, drawing, 4, weeks, together, within, an, overall, reflective, piece, these, daily, entries, are, also, recorded, week, 20, 15th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, am, looking, forward, to, attending, the, social, evening, in, dalston, i, am, a, bit, nervous, as, am, not, used, to, doing, these, sorts, of, things, but, think, it, will, be, a, good, experience, i, was, also, pleased, when, i, got, the, f, m, panel, newsletter, and, saw, the, article, i, made, notes, for, i, have, never, done, anything, like, this, before, and, was, quite, pleased, about, the, whole, thing, on, the, saturday, of, week, one, fiance, and, i, went, down, to, fiance, s, grandad's, and, noticed, there, were, more, signs, up, for, land, being, for, sale, again, we, both, think, this, is, quite, sad, as, the, area, will, inevitable, be, changing, in, the, near, future, we, wonder, how, much, of, the, land, will, be, reused, for, farming, or, sold, for, new, houses, taking, into, consideration, the, signs, we, have, seen, up, in, the, past, quite, a, bit, of, land, is, going, to, change, over, the, past, weeks, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, with, our, parish, magazine, i, still, think, this, is, a, good, idea, and, worthwhile, as, you, are, updated, every, so, often, this, will, also, reach, everyone, in, the, village, so, easily, accessible, over, a, period, of, a, few, days, in, week, 2, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, strange, smell, outside, we, could, smell, it, here, but, not, at, fiance, s, grandad's, which, is, only, 2, miles, away, it, smelt, just, like, a, burning, smell, so, i, am, not, sure, whether, it, had, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, being, done, up, there, i, just, thought, i, would, mention, it, anyway, last, wednesday, i, rang, up, the, archaeological, support, group, in, carlisle, of, which, i, have, been, a, member, for, the, past, year, and, a, half, i, had, never, been, sent, anything, to, do, with, it, for, along, time, and, wondered, why, it, turns, out, that, last, year, as, soon, as, f, m, hit, cumbria, everything, was, cancelled, and, stopped, this, i, knew, at, the, time, and, there, was, nothing, else, that, could, have, happened, the, thing, i, didn't, realise, was, that, things, have, been, so, badly, affected, that, nothing, has, been, arranged, as, yet, even, so, many, months, after, f, m, broke, out, once, again, this, is, another, example, of, how, things, have, been, affected, still, so, many, months, after, there, is, also, uncertainty, about, the, future, of, this, archaeology, group, as, nothing, has, been, decided, yet, and, it, will, depend, on, how, things, go, this, is, a, pity, and, i, hope, things, pick, up, in, the, future, on, the, first, week, of, these, 4, weeks, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, that, we, were, coughing, a, bit, more, especially, at, night, and, early, in, the, morning, since, then, fiance, has, got, better, and, is, not, coughing, as, much, but, now, i, have, got, a, sore, throat, and, a, cold, i, don't, think, this, is, anything, to, do, with, the, burial, site, or, anything, but, we, were, not, sure, about, the, coughing, and, i, thought, i, would, mention, it, 12th, august, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, i, do, not, feel, quite, as, nervous, now, as, i, did, about, the, evening, at, dalston, village, hall, it, was, a, bit, intimidating, at, first, as, i, was, going, on, the, same, night, as, frontline, workers, and, health, professionals, i, felt, a, bit, out, of, my, depth, when, i, wondered, what, sort, of, stories, they, would, be, telling, compared, to, what, i, had, seen, these, people, would, have, had, to, deal, with, the, situation, first, hand, and, must, have, seen, some, terrible, things, after, a, couple, of, weeks, i, grew, used, to, the, idea, and, didn't, feel, as, bad, it, would, turn, out, to, be, a, good, experience, as, it, turns, out, the, evening, is, now, on, the, 21st, august, and, everyone, is, going, together, things, will, be, a, bit, more, relaxed, for, me, i, think, i, hope, i, will, be, able, to, make, it, the, one, major, event, that, has, made, me, think, over, the, past, couple, of, week, is, fiance, s, auntie, jean, who, has, moved, house, from, orton, grange, 2, miles, away, from, us, into, the, middle, of, town, it, made, me, think, that, i, definitely, wouldn't, like, to, move, back, into, the, middle, of, carlisle, after, living, here, even, though, it, hasn't, been, the, most, pleasant, at, times, here, with, f, m, last, year, and, the, building, of, the, burial, site, i, would, still, miss, everything, about, it, once, again, i, am, reminded, how, lucky, i, am, to, be, surrounded, by, fields, cows, sheep, and, a, horse, in, the, overlooking, field, it, is, also, usually, quiet, and, peaceful, i, can, imagine, quite, different, to, the, middle, of, carlisle, i, think, jean, will, miss, it, quite, a, lot, just, over, a, week, ago, fiance, and, i, were, busy, getting, our, garden, ready, for, the, village, in, bloom, it, was, good, to, see, everyone, making, an, effort, to, everything, looking, nice, everything, felt, a, bit, more, normal, this, year, whereas, last, year, i, think, the, village, in, bloom, was, the, last, thing, on, most, people's, minds, it, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, perhaps, everything, or, most, things, may, return, to, normal, eventually, week, 24, 12th, august, nothing, extremely, significant, concerning, f, m, has, happened, this, week, i, have, noticed, though, now, when, working, at, village, pub, wellington, even, though, i, only, do, 1, day, it, has, really, become, quite, busy, i, think, business, has, improved, after, they, tried, more, advertising, i, can, remember, back, to, during, the, foot, and, mouth, outbreak, it, was, very, quiet, most, people, stayed, away, and, the, atmosphere, in, the, pub, was, very, depressing, now, over, a, year, later, things, do, seem, to, be, picking, up, again, and, perhaps, returning, more, to, normal, it, is, god, to, see, monday, 19th, august, all, in, all, it, has, been, a, quiet, week, i, haven’t, really, been, out, very, much, and, not, feeling, well, really, i, was, a, bit, disappointed, not, being, able, to, attend, the, social, evening, o, wednesday, as, my, mom, was, unable, to, get, time, off, work, or, change, her, shift, 26th, august, first, of, all, we, were, noticing, problems, with, our, goldfish, when, we, first, got, them, about, two, and, a, half, years, ago, we, had, very, few, problems, with, them, over, the, past, few, months, they, have, been, getting, ill, we, have, tried, all, sorts, different, chemicals, and, still, they, have, all, died, except, one, omar, fiance, s, cousin, who, breeds, fish, came, and, had, a, look, and, was, baffled, the, only, explanation, is, that, the, chemicals, have, been, changed, or, increased, for, example, the, chlorine, which, there, appears, to, be, a, lot, more, of, we, obviously, aren’t, totally, sure, what, the, problem, is, but, thought, we, should, mention, it, anyway, this, week, i, also, noticed, the, banner, opposite, the, village, shop, in, the, village, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, this, banner, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, this, week, i, think, this, sums, up, the, mood, i, have, noticed, at, the, village, meetings, nothing, has, yet, been, done, to, help, the, villagers, etc, so, what, difference, have, the, promises, made, this, is, the, main, reason, why, i, feel, less, confident, about, the, future, this, week, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, these, things, are, still, dragging, on, monday, 2nd, september, during, the, first, week, of, these, diaries, nothing, really, significant, happened, regarding, foot, and, mouth, i, did, comment, however, that, when, working, at, the, pub, on, sundays, how, busy, the, pub, was, and, how, business, had, seemed, to, improve, a, lot, from, what, i, had, seen, during, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, the, atmosphere, then, had, been, depressing, this, made, me, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, as, another, aspect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, had, seemed, to, return, back, to, normal, this, mood, however, did, change, during, the, third, week, of, these, diaries, when, i, felt, less, confident, about, the, future, it, all, began, when, our, goldfish, started, dying, apart, from, oner, we, still, are, not, sure, exactly, what, caused, it, and, are, not, sure, whether, or, not, it, was, because, of, the, water, here, or, something, we, did, there, just, seems, to, be, that, little, bit, of, doubt, in, my, mind, as, you, don’t, feel, totally, sure, about, what, is, happening, in, this, area, still, and, therefore, i, don’t, think, really, trust, the, organisations, dealing, with, these, issues, the, other, thing, that, seemed, to, sum, up, some, of, my, feelings, was, the, banner, which, appeared, opposite, the, village, shop, last, week, i, think, this, shows, the, desperation, and, lengths, some, of, the, people, in, the, village, have, to, go, through, in, order, to, get, noticed, and, heard, it, seems, ridiculous, that, the, same, basic, issues, brought, up, in, the, earlier, meetings, have, still, not, been, dealt, with, it, does, make, you, lose, the, trust, you, had, in, the, organisations, involved, article, enclosed, this, past, week, has, been, a, little, better, however, not, that, good, i, did, receive, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, which, is, still, good, to, receive, as, it, updates, you, on, a, number, of, different, aspects, of, the, burial, site, i, also, heard, about, the, article, in, the, newspaper, regarding, this, inquiry, from, cathy, as, well, as, my, mom, who, has, saved, it, for, me, but, as, yet, i, have, not, read, it, i, will, comment, on, this, in, my, next, diary, 9, 15, september, monday, got, free, news, star, last, week, and, found, article, on, f, m, diaries, not, too, bothered, that, it, has, been, printed, myself, tuesday, saw, cathy, said, about, articles, not, too, bothered, myself, but, can, see, why, otherwise, involved, would, be, as, things, are, not, represented, in, the, right, way, and, are, misleading, good, point, though, is, that, it, may, catch, people’s, attention, and, get, the, point, across, that, people, are, still, suffering, got, article, from, cumberland, news, mum, saturday, found, article, in, cumberland, news, regarding, village, in, bloom, won, a, trophy, for, our, special, efforts, in, village, in, aftermath, of, f, m, crisis, mark, andrews, trophy, 16, 22, september, monday, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, when, we, came, back, home, in, the, evening, not, sure, what, it, is, from, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, wednesday, road, works, in, village, didn’t, affect, us, too, much, thursday, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, annoying, at, times, has, taken, such, a, long, time, to, do, reminds, us, of, f, m, crisis, fiance, and, i, noticed, a, burning, smell, again, not, sure, where, from, friday, good, that, watchtree, newsletter, told, us, of, these, road, works, as, wouldn’t, have, known, saturday, these, aspects, aren’t, too, bad, on, their, own, but, the, atmosphere, reminds, you, of, the, f, m, crisis, last, year, 23, 29, september, monday, read, the, diarist, and, also, had, a, look, at, the, inquiry, report, i, was, sent, after, attending, the, village, meeting, tuesday, have, not, had, time, to, read, very, much, of, it, but, i, will, get, round, to, it, and, then, comment, on, it, friday, parish, magazine, and, watchtree, newsletter, still, good, to, be, updated, on, what, is, going, on, 1, roads, and, 2, visiting, the, site, 30, 6th, october, monday, rang, up, to, book, table, at, the, autumn, fayre, being, done, in, village, hall, people, pleased, that, people, in, village, getting, involved, tuesday, water, has, been, quite, bad, especially, on, tuesday, full, of, chlorine, had, to, leave, for, a, while, for, everything, to, evaporate, makes, you, quite, concerned, about, whether, or, not, it, is, safe, to, drink, 6th, october, writing, after, 4, weeks, during, week, i, read, the, articles, regarding, those, f, m, diaries, which, appeared, in, the, cumberland, news, and, the, news, and, star, they, are, enclosed, after, reading, these, and, speaking, to, c, i, myself, wasn’t, too, bothered, or, offended, by, what, was, written, but, could, easily, have, seen, why, other, people, would, have, been, specially, if, they, are, finding, things, really, difficult, i, think, there, is, a, good, side, to, these, articles, as, well, though, as, they, will, have, grabbed, people’s, attention, and, highlighted, the, fact, that, there, are, still, problems, regarding, f, m, this, long, after, the, crisis, even, though, the, articles, were, misleading, they, have, also, done, some, good, when, reading, the, cumberland, news, i, also, found, a, mention, of, great, orton, regarding, the, village, in, bloom, it, turns, out, we, were, awarded, the, mark, andrews, trophy, for, special, efforts, during, the, aftermath, of, f, m, it, would, have, been, nice, to, win, a, better, award, but, at, least, we, were, recognised, for, something, i, was, quite, please, week, 2, was, probably, the, worst, week, i, have, had, during, the, past, month, regarding, f, m, as, the, whole, week, just, seemed, to, remind, me, of, what, it, was, like, during, the, crisis, firstly, there, were, road, works, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad’s, only, 2, miles, away, i, understand, these, had, to, be, carried, out, but, it, made, it, difficult, and, inconvenient, to, get, to, fiance, s, grandad’s, as, you, didn’t, know, which, roads, were, gong, to, be, closed, when, now, that, the, work, has, been, done, everyone, that, i, have, spoken, to, about, it, think, they, will, cause, more, trouble, than, before, as, when, you, pull, out, of, the, lay, bys, it, is, dangerous, as, the, grass, and, verge, have, not, been, smoothed, out, i, think, they, are, alright, if, you, already, know, the, roads, but, i, wouldn’t, be, as, confident, if, i, hadn’t, driven, on, them, before, the, other, aspect, which, made, the, road, works, seem, worse, were, two, instances, when, fiance, and, i, both, noticed, a, burning, smell, monday, and, thursday, we, were, not, sure, where, this, came, from, but, it, still, reminded, us, of, the, crisis, on, week, 3, i, received, a, copy, of, the, f, m, inquiry, and, glad, i, went, to, a, meting, in, the, village, sometimes, it, feels, good, to, be, involved, even, though, in, such, a, small, way, i, also, received, the, diarist, newsletter, and, watchtree, newsletter, which, i, am, still, glad, i, receive, without, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, don’t, think, i, would, have, been, informed, of, the, road, works, being, carried, out, i, am, also, glad, the, site, is, progressing, and, that, people, are, now, being, given, the, opportunity, to, visit, the, site, if, they, wish, on, week, 4, there, was, only, one, major, problem, with, our, water, on, tuesday, the, water, was, that, full, of, chlorine, that, we, had, to, leave, it, for, all, the, chlorine, in, it, to, evaporate, or, boil, it, even, to, give, dog, a, drink, this, is, the, second, time, this, has, happened, and, it, does, concern, you, as, firstly, why, is, this, being, done, and, secondly, is, the, water, safe, to, drink, we, are, not, sure, who, to, contact, about, this, as, last, time, we, contacted, united, utilities, who, said, it, was, just, routine, and, nothing, to, worry, about, week, beginning, 7th, october, not, much, this, week, regarding, fmd, think, i, have, been, too, busy, thinking, about, other, things, week, beginning, 14th, october, monday, relaxing, a, bit, today, as, going, to, be, a, busy, day, tomorrow, and, away, on, wednesday, tuesday, fiance, s, exam, turned, out, to, be, quiet, here, today, which, was, good, for, fiance, s, exam, as, he, did, it, at, home, would, have, been, difficult, last, year, with, pressure, of, f, m, weds, away, on, holiday, it, was, a, bit, of, a, drive, to, what, we, are, used, to, but, we, made, it, lovely, views, on, way, down, and, hawkshead, a, lovely, place, thursday, this, holiday, very, well, suited, for, dog, as, plenty, of, places, to, walk, a, quiet, campsite, and, shops, and, pubs, which, are, suited, for, dogs, things, she, is, not, quite, used, to, friday, lovely, to, be, away, for, a, break, away, from, great, orton, on, the, one, hand, but, then, you, remember, how, nice, it, is, where, we, are, and, how, luck, we, are, on, the, other, hand, sunday, had, a, very, good, week, and, confident, about, the, future, week, beginning, 21st, october, monday, having, quiet, week, as, just, got, back, quite, tired, but, coping, ok, nice, to, be, back, in, a, way, weds, got, watchtree, newsletters, in, parish, magazine, also, article, out, of, news, and, star, i, think, about, renaming, of, site, and, farm, that, used, to, be, there, thursday, watchtree, newsletter, interested, in, the, open, day, think, it’s, a, good, idea, and, will, be, very, interesting, especially, geology, and, fossil, remains, found, on, site, i, think, would, be, beneficial, as, even, though, we, live, in, the, village, and, have, been, to, the, meetings, still, have, little, idea, of, how, the, site, looks, now, and, will, in, the, future, week, beginning, 28th, october, weds, went, to, meet, mom, in, town, the, roads, into, town, were, terrible, mud, on, road, everywhere, and, really, busy, with, trucks, etc, must, be, where, they, are, doing, new, building, hope, it, doesn’t, get, like, this, all, the, time, as, so, much, land, round, here, seems, to, have, been, sold, for, new, construction, sat, mom, has, got, her, own, stall, this, week, end, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, 1st, time, she, has, done, this, saw, it, in, parish, newsletter, 2nd, november, writing, after, 4, weeks, this, past, month, has, been, one, of, the, busiest, i, have, had, for, a, long, time, firstly, there, was, fiance, s, final, exam, which, was, quite, stressful, for, him, at, times, revising, and, everything, it, reminded, me, of, how, difficult, it, had, been, when, we, were, doing, our, first, exams, a, year, and, a, half, before, during, f, m, crisis, studying, had, been, very, difficult, then, due, to, constant, interruptions, and, distractions, constant, sound, of, trucks, smells, noise, tension, i’m, so, glad, it, wasn’t, this, bad, this, year, as, these, things, can, be, stressful, enough, shortly, after, fiance, s, exam, fiance, my, mom, and, i, went, for, a, short, break, to, hawkshead, it, was, great, we, all, enjoyed, it, and, dog, especially, everything, was, suited, for, dog, we, took, her, shopping, there, are, benches, and, water, bowls, outside, every, shop, we, went, for, a, bar, meal, and, sat, outside, with, her, and, on, our, last, night, even, too, her, with, us, and, went, for, a, pint, apart, from, these, things, we, also, took, her, on, plenty, of, walks, being, there, made, you, realise, how, lovely, cumbria, is, and, how, people, who, don’t, live, here, are, attracted, to, it, it, is, a, pity, how, cumbria, suffered, during, f, m, crisis, as, it, is, such, a, lovely, place, i, do, hope, that, due, to, the, large, amount, of, attractions, in, cumbria, that, things, will, hopefully, be, back, to, normal, as, can, be, expected, i, was, quite, surprised, at, how, busy, things, were, for, that, time, of, year, it, seems, things, must, be, improving, which, makes, you, confident, i, enjoyed, my, break, but, you, realise, maybe, great, orton, isn’t, such, a, bad, place, to, come, back, to, during, the, past, month, i, have, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, i’m, quite, interested, in, the, open, day, later, on, this, month, i, think, it, will, be, very, interesting, i’m, really, interested, in, the, geology, history, of, the, site, and, also, fossils, found, there, during, this, work, i, don’t, know, much, about, how, the, site, looks, or, how, it, will, be, in, the, future, it, is, amazing, that, you, can, live, so, near, but, still, have, no, idea, of, what, it, is, like, all, i, can, seem, to, remember, are, the, pictures, that, were, shown, on, the, news, months, ago, it, seems, difficult, to, imagine, it, any, different, this, past, week, has, been, very, busy, as, my, mom, is, having, a, stall, for, the, first, time, at, the, craft, fair, in, the, village, hall, i, have, been, helping, her, a, little, bit, and, helped, her, on, the, stall, i, just, sat, with, her, really, she, decided, to, have, a, go, as, she, likes, crafts, and, is, always, making, things, it, was, nice, to, be, involved, in, the, village, and, the, money, from, the, hiring, of, the, stalls, went, to, the, church, which, is, good, it, was, very, quiet, on, saturday, though, and, apparently, that, was, the, worst, it’s, been, for, a, few, years, i, wonder, if, this, is, an, effect, of, the, f, m, however, the, weather, and, other, factors, may, have, contributed, week, beginning, monday, 11th, november, tuesday, fiance, doctors, wednesday, me, dentist, and, in, town, with, mam, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, disappointed, but, got, an, article, from, the, cumberland, news, this, is, included, i, haven’t, spoke, with, anyone, that, went, no, one, has, mentioned, anything, to, me, disappointed, i, missed, it, and, also, because, this, is, probably, one, of, the, only, opportunities, we, will, get, to, know, anything, fiance, and, i, both, agree, it, is, still, like, a, big, secret, no, one, really, allowed, in, and, out, it, doesn’t, feel, like, local, people, are, benefiting, at, all, is, it, anything, to, do, with, us, really, friday, children, in, need, at, the, pub, yesterday, nice, to, see, people, taking, part, again, big, difference, to, during, foot, and, mouth, we, just, made, a, donation, it, was, a, bit, busy, for, us, 1045, raised, sunday, work, at, pub, still, very, busy, the, pub, at, least, it, seems, to, have, recovered, after, f, m, but, from, what, i, have, heard, they, did, suffer, badly, along, with, the, other, businesses, here, week, beginning, 18th, november, tuesday, should, have, been, playing, darts, at, port, carlisle, had, a, break, for, a, week, the, thing, that, is, worrying, about, playing, darts, away, is, the, travelling, some, of, the, country, roads, round, here, are, terrible, is, this, because, of, the, wagons, especially, near, wiggonby, the, road, at, fiance, s, granddad, just, gets, worse, it’s, just, mud, and, less, grass, terrible, is, it, because, of, damage, done, by, wagons, and, a, combination, of, all, the, flooding, in, the, area, now, saturday, fiance, and, i, talking, about, how, the, area, has, changed, we, remembered, back, to, 4, years, ago, when, we, used, to, go, to, the, airfield, burial, site, for, some, peace, even, though, only, rubble, then, really, enjoyed, it, there, we, could, take, the, dog, had, first, driving, lesson, off, fiance, not, again, had, some, fun, and, really, miss, it, at, times, nowhere, round, here, anymore, to, get, peace, can’t, even, enjoy, the, nature, reserve, very, frustrating, week, beginning, monday, 25th, november, monday, keep, realising, when, doing, diaries, that, haven’t, had, a, chance, to, look, at, cumbria, foot, and, mouth, disease, inquiry, report, will, have, to, make, time, for, it, soon, saturday, when, i, was, at, pub, talking, about, new, fence, on, park, for, children, general, mood, is, not, very, pleased, as, it, doesn’t, fit, into, a, country, village, setting, and, nothing, else, done, sunday, can’t, believe, it, is, the, beginning, of, december, everything, is, passing, too, quick, inevitable, 31st, november, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, the, past, 4, weeks, have, been, very, busy, compared, to, what, i, am, used, to, and, at, the, same, time, have, been, quite, frustrating, in, a, few, ways, the, issues, which, have, bothered, fiance, and, i, most, are, mainly, to, do, with, the, onset, of, winter, which, of, course, is, inevitable, but, this, year, they, seem, to, be, worse, than, we, can, previously, remember, since, living, here, in, winter, the, biggest, issue, is, the, state, of, the, roads, in, the, village, and, round, about, it, is, terrible, with, the, amount, of, rain, we, have, had, there, are, puddles, everywhere, and, everything, is, turning, to, mud, the, worst, thing, is, that, it, is, very, difficult, to, walk, or, take, dog, anywhere, which, is, frustrating, you, either, get, absolutely, filthy, or, when, walking, down, the, roads, you, have, to, get, soaked, on, the, sides, of, the, roads, to, avoid, cars, and, going, down, the, lonning, isn’t, really, an, option, as, it, is, really, muddy, and, there, has, been, dumping, we, understand, most, of, this, will, be, due, to, the, weather, but, we, are, sure, some, of, it, on, the, roads, is, due, to, all, the, traffic, there, has, been, especially, at, fiance, s, granddad's, outside, the, front, of, his, gate, and, garden, the, grass, has, gradually, been, stripped, away, and, has, now, turned, to, mud, in, all, the, ears, he, has, lived, there, 50, years, he, has, never, seen, it, as, bad, the, roads, aren’t, like, this, just, nearby, i, have, noticed, other, roads, round, about, are, also, in, a, bad, state, when, i, have, travelled, away, to, other, nearby, village, pubs, when, playing, darts, i, was, disappointed, when, i, missed, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, about, the, watchtree, reserve, as, i, had, to, go, up, town, etc, i, have, not, spoken, to, anyone, i, know, that, attended, the, exhibition, but, wish, there, were, more, opportunities, to, learn, more, about, it, i, did, find, a, newspaper, article, enclosed, about, the, watchtree, it, is, quite, annoying, that, this, won’t, be, open, to, the, public, it, is, understandable, why, this, isn't, possible, but, then, on, the, other, hand, it, is, not, benefiting, anyone, really, who, lives, nearby, fiance, and, i, still, remember, back, to, when, the, airfield, was, still, there, and, it, was, a, lovely, place, to, go, walking, and, to, relax, by, getting, away, from, everything, it, used, to, be, lovely, and, quiet, and, was, also, so, nearby, we, do, actually, quite, miss, it, sometimes, as, there, is, nowhere, else, like, that, round, here, now, even, though, there, have, been, quite, a, few, negative, issues, this, past, month, it, has, also, been, encouraging, when, i, have, been, working, at, the, pub, it, has, been, very, busy, when, i, have, been, there, showing, that, it, must, be, recovering, from, the, effect, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, it, was, also, encouraging, when, there, was, a, night, held, for, children, in, need, when, they, raised, approx, 1045, it, is, good, to, see, people, involved, and, happy, again, one, thing, which, i, did, notice, was, that, the, general, mood, about, the, improvements, made, to, the, park, was, not, very, good, people, were, not, impressed, that, the, new, fence, does, not, look, like, it, belongs, to, the, country, at, all, and, that, that, is, all, that, has, changed, i, have, not, had, time, but, will, go, and, have, a, look, for, myself, december, 2002, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, average, i, haven’t, felt, too, bad, over, christmas, a, little, tired, but, since, i, have, got, a, bit, of, a, cold, and, sore, throat, not, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, average, i, think, it, has, been, all, right, haven’t, been, able, to, walk, very, far, near, village, due, to, weather, and, roads, but, this, isn’t, surprising, at, this, time, of, year, these, past, 4, weeks, have, been, rather, hectic, with, christmas, and, everything, but, i, have, still, had, quite, a, bit, to, write, in, my, diaries, concerning, foot, and, mouth, i, received, the, parish, magazine, for, december, in, which, there, was, a, thank, you, to, all, involved, in, the, craft, fayre, and, there, was, 1, 008, raised, for, st, giles, church, it, was, good, to, be, able, to, contribute, to, something, in, the, village, well, it, was, my, mum, really, but, i, helped, it, is, good, to, see, these, sorts, of, things, happening, here, it’s, good, for, the, village, after, everything, i, also, received, the, watchtree, newsletter, in, the, parish, magazine, it, is, still, good, to, receive, this, as, it, updates, you, on, everything, and, also, had, information, regarding, the, exhibition, at, the, village, hall, which, i, missed, i, am, glad, it, was, a, success, and, people, attended, especially, the, school, children, who, were, taken, i, also, received, the, diarist, which, is, good, to, read, it, is, interesting, to, see, what, other, panel, members, are, up, to, and, is, surprising, what, things, can, lead, to, for, example, the, diarist, and, the, samson, tractor, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, collected, a, couple, of, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, the, first, one, lie, returns, to, watchtree, actually, made, me, feel, better, that, we, were, going, to, get, something, positive, out, of, this, whole, experience, but, the, only, problem, is, that, at, some, moments, in, time, this, won’t, be, enough, for, some, people, involved, as, it, does, not, change, what, happened, and, won’t, make, up, for, what, has, been, lost, i, think, it, just, depends, on, how, you, are, feeling, at, the, time, when, reading, the, articles, the, other, article, village, in, running, for, top, country, award, was, also, quite, pleasing, as, at, least, we, as, a, village, are, being, remembered, and, recognised, for, what, we, went, through, it, is, surprising, that, now, so, long, after, the, actual, foot, and, mouth, crisis, that, we, are, finally, being, recognised, and, so, many, things, are, now, being, written, in, the, paper, over, the, christmas, period, i, have, only, really, had, one, thing, to, complain, about, and, that, is, the, state, of, the, roads, after, the, rain, the, roads, have, been, terrible, to, drive, on, with, the, flooding, and, the, road, sides, turning, into, mud, everything, is, filthy, i, know, this, is, expected, in, winter, out, in, the, country, but, since, i, have, been, here, it, has, never, been, so, bad, especially, at, fiance, s, grandad’s, one, improvement, is, the, signs, which, have, been, put, up, at, the, passing, places, between, here, and, fiance, s, grandad, fiance, and, i, both, think, these, are, much, much, better, and, a, lot, safer, we, have, also, spotted, a, couple, of, signs, from, watchtree, which, have, been, up, now, for, a, while, but, are, still, surprising, to, see, now, it, is, time, to, start, everything, again, the, new, year, and, hopefully, this, will, be, a, better, year, for, great, orton, than, the, past, couple, has, been, i, am, glad, it, is, going, to, be, quiet, here, now, for, when, i, start, my, studying, as, opposed, to, the, foot, and, mouth, when, studying, was, very, very, difficult, monday, 27th, january, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, this, week, i, found, an, article, in, the, daily, mail, which, i, thought, was, relevant, it, is, called, boom, and, doom, and, is, about, house, prices, all, over, england, for, 2002, prices, in, north, yorkshire, rose, by, 66, but, in, allerdale, they, only, rose, by, 8, it, did, not, mention, why, this, was, but, some, of, it, must, be, the, result, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, the, effect, on, the, area, since, then, this, made, me, think, about, the, effect, on, great, orton, and, how, difficult, it, would, probably, be, to, sell, houses, here, and, if, people, would, really, want, to, move, here, there, are, two, sides, however, as, if, more, property, was, built, in, great, orton, and, the, surrounding, area, things, would, probably, change, and, great, orton, might, lose, some, of, its, farming, background, i, definitely, wouldn't, want, it, to, change, too, much, despite, the, burial, site, i, like, it, just, the, way, it, is, the, great, thing, about, this, week, is, the, weather, for, once, we, have, been, able, to, go, down, the, lonning, with, dog, without, getting, filthy, as, it, is, frosty, it, has, been, great, i, can’t, believe, how, quickly, 2003, is, passing, it, is, february, already, this, past, month, has, been, totally, hectic, with, appointments, arrangement, birthdays, and, the, open, university, it, makes, you, realise, that, whatever, happens, time, goes, on, i, think, this, must, have, been, very, difficult, for, people, directly, involved, in, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, as, life, would, have, had, to, carry, on, despite, whatever, was, going, on, in, their, own, lives, i, think, as, time, has, gone, on, i, have, got, more, used, to, the, idea, of, watchtree, and, accept, it, more, now, i, received, the, watchtree, news, during, the, previous, week, it, is, good, to, hear, that, the, restoration, and, creation, of, the, site, is, finally, complete, overall, i, don’t, think, it, has, taken, as, long, as, i, thought, it, would, for, the, nature, reserve, to, be, established, especially, when, you, compare, it, to, how, long, it, has, taken, for, the, children’s, playground, to, be, improved, nearly, two, years, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, it, is, better, late, than, never, i, am, pleased, at, how, the, nature, reserve, sounds, with, al, the, different, species, of, animal, which, had, been, included, or, seen, especially, the, merlin, the, smallest, bird, of, prey, which, was, sited, fiance, and, i, both, find, these, things, very, interesting, it, is, good, that, this, is, happening, so, close, to, us, last, year, we, travelled, to, see, the, osprey, viewpoint, it, was, great, over, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, have, also, found, a, few, more, articles, two, of, these, are, regarding, the, 20, day, standstill, with, not, been, directly, involved, in, the, farming, side, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, am, not, totally, sure, about, all, these, sorts, of, rules, etc, but, think, it, is, good, that, at, least, things, are, trying, to, be, improved, for, the, future, in, case, this, may, happen, again, and, also, as, a, result, of, learning, from, past, events, there, was, also, an, article, showing, watchtree, as, a, finalist, for, the, environmental, project, award, i, definitely, think, that, watchtree, deserves, to, be, considered, for, this, award, as, so, much, has, happened, here, and, at, least, some, good, is, going, to, come, out, of, it, it, would, be, nice, to, get, this, sort, of, award, in, recognition, of, the, hard, work, of, the, people, involved, i, think, this, year, will, hopefully, be, a, better, one, for, cumbria, and, people, may, have, confidence, even, though, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, was, a, tragedy, i, think, cumbria, and, the, people, in, it, are, able, to, recover, from, it, as, people, from, the, newspaper, articles, seem, more, optimistic, and, this, rubs, off, on, you, i, think, this, year, will, be, a, better, one, and, feel, more, confident, about, the, future, at, this, point, monday, 24th, february, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, so, far, these, past, four, weeks, i, have, not, receive, a, watchtree, newsletter, but, there, was, a, small, mention, in, the, parish, magazine, about, he, playground, work, is, underway, and, it, is, hoped, to, be, finished, by, the, summer, it, seems, to, be, taking, a, long, time, to, get, the, playground, sorted, but, at, least, it, will, be, good, for, the, kids, in, the, summer, holidays, it, is, better, late, than, never, there, is, only, one, thing, that, has, bothered, us, over, these, past, weeks, our, fish, whenever, we, change, the, water, the, fish, seem, to, be, ill, and, now, we, have, had, to, add, more, and, more, chemicals, to, reduce, the, amount, of, chlorine, that, seems, to, be, in, the, water, we, did, originally, start, off, with, 13, fish, and, now, only, have, 2, left, it, does, make, you, worry, about, the, state, of, our, water, and, why, more, chemicals, are, possibly, being, added, the, fact, that, the, burial, site, is, so, near, does, make, you, worry, if, that, is, anything, to, do, with, it, over, the, past, four, weeks, i, have, been, very, confident, about, the, future, regarding, foot, and, mouth, with, the, sun, shining, again, and, the, animals, about, it, seems, as, if, nothing, bad, has, happened, here, but, you, know, that, for, some, people, involved, in, the, crisis, the, future, will, never, be, that, easy, or, simple, and, i, do, feel, sympathy, for, them, for, me, it, seems, possible, to, be, able, to, move, on, now, after, the, crisis, and, it, has, been, good, to, see, the, sheep, and, cows, about, and, fiance, has, even, seen, a, couple, of, birds, of, prey, we, are, not, sure, what, they, were, but, think, one, might, have, been, a, merlin, which, was, mentioned, in, a, previous, watchtree, newsletter, as, being, seen, on, site, the, article, called, record, tourism, figures, for, county, was, encouraging, and, shows, that, cumbria, may, be, starting, to, recover, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, i, also, found, another, article, called, fears, over, bovine, tb, time, bomb, i, think, this, is, worrying, and, should, definitely, be, taken, seriously, as, it, would, be, devastating, to, farmers, and, everyone, in, the, county, in, the, past, fortnight, it, has, also, been, my, mam’s, birthday, she, was, really, looking, forward, to, spending, some, time, out, here, and, we, went, to, bowness, for, the, afternoon, with, dog, once, again, you, realise, how, lovely, it, is, out, here, and, how, much, it, should, be, appreciated, overall, in, my, opinion, the, situation, in, cumbria, over, the, past, year, has, definitely, improved, and, will, hopefully, continue, to, do, so, 24th, march, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, four, weeks, have, been, rather, strange, and, worrying, first, of, all, there, was, the, death, of, simon, harris, a, man, from, the, village, who, you, would, regularly, see, walking, dogs, and, looking, at, the, horses, despite, what, most, of, the, papers, have, said, about, him, to, me, he, was, always, polite, and, possibly, just, a, bit, shy, i, have, enclosed, an, article, about, him, that, was, in, the, paper, shortly, after, his, death, the, headline, is, not, very, nice, but, the, article, does, include, some, of, the, best, comments, about, simon, i, was, quite, shocked, by, the, whole, thing, and, think, it, could, definitely, have, been, handled, better, by, the, papers, the, people, in, the, village, could, also, have, been, a, bit, more, respectful, i, do, not, think, it, was, their, place, to, comment, in, the, way, that, they, did, secondly, the, whole, issue, of, war, with, iraq, is, a, worrying, subject, neither, fiance, or, i, agree, with, what, is, being, done, and, how, it, is, being, carried, out, it, is, a, particularly, worrying, time, for, fiance, s, aunty, as, her, husband, lives, in, kuwait, with, the, rest, of, his, family, she, came, to, england, where, she, is, originally, from, with, her, two, children, during, the, last, gulf, war, she, knows, all, too, well, what, the, danger, are, and, what, is, involved, it, is, a, very, worrying, subject, where, you, feel, totally, helpless, and, at, the, same, time, cannot, get, away, from, it, however, life, still, carries, on, as, harsh, as, it, may, be, i, thought, of, this, when, looking, at, the, past, diaries, i, have, written, and, how, many, have, accumulated, it, is, strange, how, quickly, time, goes, by, and, how, people, are, just, expected, to, cope, and, carry, on, i, thought, in, particular, of, the, people, worst, affected, by, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, how, helpless, they, must, have, felt, and, how, they, coped, life, can, be, a, funny, thing, looking, back, i, think, this, project, has, been, very, worth, while, and, think, it, is, great, that, they, will, be, archived, for, the, future, writing, these, diaries, seems, to, have, become, part, of, my, routine, now, and, i, think, it, will, definitely, be, strange, when, i, no, longer, have, to, write, them, i, have, found, quite, a, few, newspaper, articles, over, the, past, four, weeks, donella, rebuilds, the, cumberland, show, was, encouraging, about, the, future, of, cumbria, after, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, however, there, are, still, worrying, issues, arising, such, as, in, the, articles, of, mp, calls, for, vaccination, to, keep, f, m, under, control, and, from, uruguay, with, a, threat, which, highlight, issues, of, important, to, the, farming, industry, i, have, also, been, very, busy, over, the, past, few, weeks, as, my, second, assignment, was, due, for, my, university, work, which, was, quite, hectic, i, have, had, a, break, for, the, past, couple, of, days, as, i, have, not, been, very, well, a, bad, cough, sore, throat, and, stomach, and, a, stuffy, nose, i, haven’t, done, too, badly, over, the, winter, months, with, illnesses, so, i, can’t, really, complain, lastly, our, water, hasn’t, been, of, the, best, quality, lately, on, occasions, it, is, white, and, fizzes, not, the, most, appetizing, 21st, april, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, these, past, 4, weeks, have, just, seem, to, fly, by, quite, a, few, good, things, have, happened, and, even, though, i, am, feeling, quite, tired, i, have, had, a, good, month, firstly, fiance, dog, and, i, have, finally, go, t, a, small, space, of, our, own, we, have, got, an, allotment, about, 8, miles, away, and, it, is, surrounded, by, horses, and, fields, it, belongs, to, a, man, who, lives, there, and, owns, all, the, land, roundabout, but, unfortunately, he, is, no, longer, well, enough, to, work, the, land, so, has, let, us, have, it, it, will, need, a, lot, of, work, but, will, be, good, for, us, so, far, we, have, got, potatoes, raspberries, and, rhubarb, growing, dog, even, helps, to, dig, even, though, we, live, in, the, country, on, our, own, block, it, is, not, always, that, easy, to, get, any, peace, we, have, also, had, the, opportunity, to, join, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, a, leaflet, came, through, our, door, and, we, thought, it, would, be, brilliant, as, we, would, be, kept, up, to, date, with, all, the, latest, goings, on, in, cumbria, learn, a, lot, more, about, the, wildlife, and, also, possibly, get, the, chance, to, do, some, voluntary, work, fiance, and, i, are, really, interested, and, think, it, is, great, we, get, sent, though, a, certain, number, of, magazines, every, year, and, every, month, we, send, a, small, donation, so, we, feel, like, we, are, helping, a, little, bit, as, well, the, article, which, i, found, in, one, of, the, magazines, id, enclosed, on, the, next, page, the, other, thing, which, has, made, my, month, is, knowing, that, we, are, going, to, hawkshead, again, my, mam, fiance, dog, and, i, are, going, for, a, short, break, just, 3, nights, for, my, birthday, we, have, got, it, all, booked, and, are, really, looking, forward, to, it, it, was, great, last, time, especially, for, dog, i, just, hope, she, doesn’t, get, stuck, under, the, bed, in, the, caravan, this, time, as, she, is, a, bit, bigger, now, than, she, was, then, this, past, week, i, have, also, been, in, touch, with, my, dad, in, south, africa, as, it, was, his, birthday, it, turns, out, that, he, may, be, passing, through, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, at, the, end, of, next, week, it, would, be, lovely, to, see, him, again, and, i, think, he, will, love, great, orton, and, our, allotment, i, think, he, has, always, liked, the, thought, of, living, in, the, country, and, would, love, to, retire, to, somewhere, nice, and, quiet, things, will, also, have, improved, and, we, have, grown, up, a, bit, since, he, was, last, here, about, 3, years, ago, it, should, be, good, it, is, funny, that, after, living, in, south, africa, for, so, long, he, is, still, drawn, to, the, lifestyle, in, cumbria, lastly, i, have, made, a, note, of, the, final, meeting, for, the, foot, and, mouth, diaries, and, hope, to, be, there, i, bet, it, passes, really, quickly, now, and, will, be, over, before, i, know, it, how, strange, 28th, april, 4th, may, monday, got, 3, articles, from, cumberland, news, april, 25th, 2003, breeders, hit, out, discrimination, fmd, burial, site, celebrates, new, life, and, my, favourite, its, a, dog’s, life, for, rosie, the, lamb, tuesday, saw, c, friday, noticed, the, park, is, coming, on, a, bit, better, for, the, children, it, was, mentioned, in, the, orton, parish, awarded, 25, 000, to, reference, drain, level, and, re, seed, new, play, equipment, will, follow, saturday, some, of, the, children, were, allowed, to, attend, meetings, to, discuss, it, good, to, involve, children, about, time, too, at, least, children, will, be, able, to, play, football, 5th, 11th, may, tuesday, working, really, hard, have, to, get, assignment, posted, off, tomorrow, night, before, we, go, away, on, thursday, hectic, wednesday, service, held, at, watchtree, unable, to, go, but, think, it, was, a, very, good, idea, newspaper, article, enclosed, was, written, before, the, service, thursday, away, to, hawskhead, exciting, friday, my, birthday, had, a, lovely, day, went, shopping, in, the, morning, to, forest, in, the, afternoon, and, for, a, meal, at, night, lovely, sunday, back, from, holiday, already, it, was, lovely, everyone, was, so, friendly, or, perhaps, we, just, noticed, it, more, there, 12th, 18th, may, tuesday, fiance, at, doctors, not, very, well, he, has, got, a, viral, infection, as, well, as, fluid, behind, his, ears, told, to, just, take, it, easy, wednesday, i, have, been, sent, info, to, chose, courses, for, open, university, that, i, would, like, to, do, next, year, and, in, the, future, am, going, to, take, the, environmental, studies, route, hopefully, leading, to, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, possibly, further, to, ba, bsc, in, environmental, studies, i, did, like, archaeology, but, think, what, i, am, doing, is, a, lot, more, relevant, to, the, future, foot, and, mouth, and, watchtree, made, me, realise, that, friday, got, watchtree, newsletter, this, week, i, will, enclose, it, this, time, as, it, covers, quite, a, few, areas, and, has, a, bit, of, information, there, is, information, about, the, service, held, awards, that, have, been, won, and, also, new, wildlife, which, are, now, present, on, the, site, lapwings, oystercatchers, and, ringed, plovers, 19th, 25th, may, 2003, tuesday, dad, has, come, to, visit, for, a, couple, of, days, from, south, africa, nice, surprise, enjoyed, seeing, him, dad, asking, about, fmd, crisis, he, saw, it, on, tv, over, there, and, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, thursday, i, was, surprised, that, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, would, still, like, to, live, somewhere, in, this, country, makes, you, think, again, how, lucky, you, are, and, what, you, take, for, granted, saturday, article, from, cumberland, news, may, 23, reward, for, post, foot, and, mouth, achievements, 25th, may, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, every, time, i, come, to, write, these, diaries, i, look, back, over, the, past, four, weeks, and, notice, they, are, becoming, more, and, more, busy, the, past, couple, of, weeks, have, been, no, exception, it, is, already, nearly, half, way, through, the, year, i, can’t, believe, it, over, the, past, 4, weeks, i, have, been, on, holiday, turned, 22, and, my, dad, had, popped, over, from, south, africa, for, a, few, days, hectic, but, good, firstly, hawkshead, was, lovely, again, i, wouldn’t, say, anything, different, it, was, great, we, all, had, a, lovely, time, and, i, had, a, really, good, birthday, when, you, are, at, home, in, great, orton, you, forget, how, much, is, really, out, there, in, cumbria, to, do, and, see, we, definitely, think, we, should, take, advantage, of, it, more, often, shortly, after, we, arrived, back, from, hawkshead, my, dad, popped, up, to, carlisle, for, a, couple, of, days, it, was, a, lovely, surprise, and, it, was, good, to, see, him, he, absolutely, loves, it, where, we, are, and, thinks, we, are, very, lucky, even, though, south, africa, is, so, different, he, still, thinks, it, is, lovely, out, here, looking, out, onto, fields, this, did, make, me, realise, how, lucky, we, are, despite, what, happened, due, to, foot, and, mouth, inevitably, sometimes, we, do, take, it, for, granted, my, dad, remembered, watching, about, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, in, south, africa, but, did, not, realise, exactly, how, close, it, was, i, think, he, was, quite, shocked, foot, and, mouth, has, definitely, made, me, more, aware, of, my, surroundings, and, how, everything, works, i, have, definitely, noticed, this, when, i, have, been, doing, my, studying, for, open, university, i, am, now, at, the, point, where, i, can, chose, my, courses, next, year, and, therefore, which, path, i, am, going, to, take, i, have, decided, to, take, courses, leading, to, a, diploma, in, environment, and, development, and, if, everything, goes, to, plan, for, an, environmental, studies, degree, i, am, really, enjoying, what, i, am, doing, at, the, minute, and, think, it, is, definitely, useful, and, relevant, for, the, future, i, did, enjoy, studying, archaeology, but, think, the, environment, and, related, issues, are, more, important, at, the, present, and, in, the, future, on, the, 7th, may, there, was, a, memorial, service, at, watchtree, to, mark, a, two, year, anniversary, from, when, the, last, animal, was, buried, at, the, site, i, think, this, was, a, good, idea, and, it, is, appropriate, to, remember, the, animals, that, were, killed, i, was, unable, to, attend, the, service, but, have, managed, to, get, a, newspaper, article, about, it, and, it, was, also, mentioned, in, the, watchtree, newsletter, i, have, included, this, newsletter, in, with, these, diaries, at, it, contains, quite, a, bit, of, information, on, a, few, different, aspects, i, think, it, is, good, about, the, wildlife, which, is, emerging, on, the, site, the, park, or, play, area, for, children, is, also, coming, on, fairly, well, at, last, it, has, finally, been, reseeded, as, well, as, levelled, it, looks, better, i, have, also, included, 4, newspaper, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, with, my, favourite, being, rosie, the, lamb, i, have, put, this, article, in, as, i, thought, it, was, lovely, 22nd, june, 2004, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, how, strange, it, seems, that, all, this, is, coming, to, an, end, and, really, how, quickly, time, has, passed, in, my, situation, i, would, say, that, time, has, healed, a, few, aspects, of, the, foot, and, mouth, crisis, and, things, don’t, seem, so, bad, 18, months, on, i, enjoyed, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, and, learnt, a, lot, from, it, about, other, people’s, views, and, experiences, i, enjoyed, it, a, lot, more, than, i, thought, i, would, and, thought, that, the, main, themes, found, during, the, research, were, ones, which, i, would, have, agreed, with, one, thing, which, was, said, which, has, made, me, think, was, the, comment, that, these, diaries, would, be, our, type, of, memorial, i, had, never, once, thought, of, this, research, in, that, sort, of, way, but, the, more, i, think, about, it, the, more, i, agree, and, like, the, idea, it, definitely, has, been, worthwhile, being, able, to, contribute, to, something, especially, if, it, may, be, able, to, help, in, some, way, in, the, future, when, compared, to, the, article, that, i, found, in, the, cumberland, news, about, a, man’s, memorial, to, the, animals, that, he, lost, during, foot, and, mouth, i, definitely, think, ours, is, more, fitting, and, will, probably, do, some, good, i, understand, everyone, has, the, right, to, express, their, views, in, their, own, way, but, to, me, this, was, too, loud, and, too, inappropriate, however, each, to, their, own, and, at, the, end, of, the, day, at, least, people, are, trying, to, remember, in, a, good, way, as, opposed, to, sweeping, it, under, the, carpet, the, week, of, the, foot, and, mouth, evening, we, were, without, a, car, and, noticed, how, much, we, relied, on, it, and, took, it, for, granted, especially, out, here, as, there, is, a, very, limited, bus, service, everything, is, sorted, out, now, and, we, are, back, to, normal, with, a, newer, little, car, thank, you, very, much, c, for, the, lift, there, and, back, in, general, the, past, few, months, just, seem, to, have, flown, by, and, in, particular, the, past, couple, of, weeks, i, don’t, seem, to, have, time, to, fit, everything, in, and, am, trying, to, get, my, assignments, done, on, time, it, turns, out, to, be, quite, a, bit, more, difficult, than, i, thought, it, is, hard, work, but, will, definitely, be, worth, it, in, th, end, over, the, past, 6, months, even, i, have, learnt, so, much, the, next, special, occasion, which, is, coming, up, is, fiance, s, birthday, 21st, july, we, are, thinking, of, going, back, to, hawkshead, again, for, a, few, days, we, really, like, it, there, and, i’m, sure, will, return, again, and, again, it, just, shows, you, that, you, don’t, need, to, leave, cumbria, to, have, a, good, holiday, well, here, we, are, at, the, end, it, just, makes, me, wonder, what, life, will, be, like, in, 18, months, from, now, will, things, be, any, different, they, probably, will, be, in, some, ways, and, hopefully, will, be, for, the, best, 20th, july, writing, up, after, 4, weeks, it, does, seem, very, strange, to, be, sitting, down, to, write, my, last, lot, of, diaries, it, feels, good, to, have, completed, something, as, worthwhile, as, this, as, well, as, it, hopefully, doing, some, good, in, the, future, concerning, foot, and, mouth, crisis, or, any, other, similar, situation, i, also, find, it, has, helped, me, to, become, a, bit, more, confident, and, aware, of, things, around, me, i, remember, back, to, when, i, attended, my, first, meeting, and, how, nervous, i, was, i, think, i, can, handle, things, like, that, a, bit, better, now, we, have, just, got, back, from, holiday, we, had, a, lovely, time, and, did, so, much, we, went, walking, with, dog, to, many, places, and, they, are, all, free, it, just, shows, you, what, a, good, holiday, you, can, have, in, cumbria, on, a, cheap, budget, you, don’t, need, much, else, the, only, disappointing, thing, is, that, some, of, the, places, fiance, and, i, had, been, to, in, the, past, are, now, closed, as, they, have, been, sold, this, has, not, yet, happened, to, talkin, tarn, and, i, definitely, think, it, should, be, given, to, the, cumbria, wildlife, trust, as, people, would, still, have, access, to, it, fiance, and, i, both, agree, that, the, countryside, is, recovering, and, it, is, great, to, be, able, to, wander, about, again, i, have, collected, a, few, more, articles, from, the, cumberland, news, related, to, foot, and, mouth, it, is, good, to, see, breeders, doing, well, again, and, people, getting, back, into, the, swing, of, things, i, would, just, like, to, thank, everyone, involved, for, involving, me, in, this, project, and, i, wish, them, all, the, best, in, the, future]
## 6 [information, about, diarist, date, of, birth, 1937, gender, m, occupation, group, 5, geographic, region, north, cumbria, week, 1, monday, 11th, march, 2002, whilst, watching, the, local, tv, news, at, 6, p.m, there, was, a, news, item, that, caused, us, to, reflect, back, on, the, events, a, year, ago, a, young, lady, had, just, left, a, court, where, she, had, been, found, guilty, of, assaulting, a, police, officer, and, also, being, in, change, of, an, offensive, weapon, a, knife, the, judge, had, acquitted, her, of, the, offences, he, showed, leniency, towards, her, last, year, during, the, fmd, crisis, she, had, returned, to, her, home, to, find, that, her, pet, goat, had, been, killed, by, slaughterers, because, the, animal, was, within, the, 3, km, radius, she, had, gone, berserk, over, this, and, threatened, the, police, officer, and, others, with, the, knife, she, had, to, be, forcibly, restrained, she, was, very, distraught, over, this, killing, even, after, she, had, appeared, in, court, and, had, been, acquitted, of, all, charges, she, showed, great, emotion, not, only, being, freed, but, also, quite, upset, over, the, loss, of, the, goat, perhaps, her, actions, didn’t, happen, to, a, lot, of, other, people, who, had, similar, things, happen, to, them, however, the, loss, of, a, lot, of, pet, animals, and, in, some, cases, needless, slaughter, of, many, farm, animals, still, creates, unhappy, memories, of, 2001, week, 2, tuesday, whilst, walking, the, dog, i, met, a, farmer, from, the, edge, of, the, village, who, has, friends, and, stock, in, close, proximity, to, the, 2, land, fill, sites, he, is, still, very, concerned, about, materials, on, these, sites, the, nearest, site, contained, hundreds, of, carcasses, this, has, been, completed, and, capped, he, is, concerned, about, leachate, from, this, site, and, feels, that, it, doesn’t, matter, how, much, clay, and, soil, were, used, to, contain, this, site, the, effects, of, heavy, rain, is, bound, to, find, a, way, down, and, also, to, drain, it, he, doesn’t, want, to, plough, these, fields, nor, can, he, sell, stock, that, have, grazed, the, same, fields, there, is, pyre, ash, being, tipped, on, the, other, site, again, what, happens, to, the, rainwater, that, runs, off, this, site, also, there, are, concerns, about, the, large, flocks, of, seagulls, that, visit, both, sites, daily, another, concern, is, what, is, happening, to, the, open, cast, coal, site, that, is, situated, almost, due, south, of, gilgarran, village, the, farmer, i, talked, to, today, is, concerned, about, this, huge, site, no, coal, has, been, moved, from, this, site, for, months, there, are, concerns, that, this, site, is, going, to, be, filled, with, waste, will, it, be, from, fmd, sites, we, as, a, village, are, very, concerned, about, rumours, of, land, fill, on, a, huge, scale, friday, noticed, that, there, was, work, being, carried, out, on, the, top, of, the, burial, site, no, villagers, have, commented, on, this, despite, large, yellow, diggers, operating, sunday, work, continuing, on, the, burial, site, cannot, make, out, what, kind, of, work, is, being, done, there, week, 3, monday, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, but, the, diggers, involved, are, the, same, as, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, when, animals, were, being, buried, there, last, year, the, smell, coming, from, that, site, was, terrible, to, say, the, least, it, was, not, coming, from, the, dead, animals, as, most, observers, thought, but, from, decomposing, waste, material, that, had, already, been, buried, on, the, site, prior, to, fmd, when, excavators, dug, into, the, soil, to, make, trenches, for, the, dead, animals, they, dug, into, this, decomposing, matter, hence, the, terrible, smell, despite, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, today, no, comments, from, villagers, are, forthcoming, it, seems, to, me, that, now, that, fmd, has, gone, the, general, public, are, not, interested, any, more, unless, they, read, something, in, the, local, papers, written, by, some, enterprising, reporter, week, 4, tuesday, work, is, still, going, on, in, the, former, burial, site, villagers, don’t, seem, to, be, bothered, fmd, is, gone, so, nobody, is, interested, any, more, wednesday, whilst, trying, to, gain, comments, from, villagers, over, the, effects, of, fmd, one, or, two, comments, from, some, individuals, show, concern, about, the, outbreak, last, year, but, don’t, seem, too, concerned, over, any, after, effects, if, any, two, interesting, comments, suggest, that, 1, the, outbreak, was, started, deliberately, by, this, country, in, collusion, with, the, agriculturists, of, the, e.e.c, so, as, to, concentrate, meat, production, in, europe, and, leave, the, uk, to, concentrate, on, arable, farming, 2, the, outbreak, was, started, by, a, terrorist, attack, the, government, would, not, declare, this, because, it, would, cause, widespread, panic, thursday, 23, 25, hours, huge, fire, at, the, site, where, pyre, ash, is, being, tipped, 250,000, used, tyres, caught, fire, arson, is, suspected, fire, fighters, tried, to, contain, the, blaze, but, couldn’t, use, large, amounts, of, water, in, case, water, courses, became, contaminated, friday, 05, 00, fire, still, blazing, at, the, pyre, ash, site, later, in, the, morning, the, fire, was, showing, signs, of, dying, down, apparently, it, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, much, heavy, smoke, pollution, was, evident, drifting, south, west, for, about, nine, miles, reading, the, local, evening, paper, about, the, blaze, there, was, also, a, report, that, villagers, from, disington, 1, miles, from, gilgarran, were, complaining, of, the, foul, smell, from, both, waste, sites, parish, councillors, are, very, concerned, about, this, does, it, coincide, with, work, currently, being, carried, out, on, the, burial, site, the, smell, from, these, sites, plus, the, fact, that, animals, were, buried, on, one, site, and, pyre, ash, plus, the, huge, fire, from, the, other, site, all, happening, this, week, is, causing, concern, in, this, area, but, once, this, hue, and, cry, dies, down, people, will, soon, forget, about, it, all, week, 5, monday, through, to, friday, observed, work, on, top, of, the, burial, site, don’t, know, if, any, work, is, still, going, on, on, the, northern, and, western, sides, friday, local, weekly, paper, carried, the, report, on, the, recent, large, fire, that, occurred, on, the, alco, site, last, week, when, 250,000, tyres, caught, fire, somehow, it, was, intersting, to, read, that, the, fire, brigade, did, not, use, any, water, to, extinguish, the, blaze, in, case, pollution, occurred, in, water, courses, the, fire, was, left, to, burn, itself, out, saturday, burial, site, it, looks, like, there, is, new, soil, being, tipped, on, top, for, some, reason, no, reported, comments, froim, the, parish, council, over, this, despite, very, vociferous, objections, by, them, over, the, use, of, this, and, the, alco, site, in, the, past, sunday, talked, to, our, local, county, councillor, who, lives, in, this, village, he, feels, very, strongly, that, these, two, sites, are, dangerous, he, thinks, that, both, sites, are, a, health, hazard, risk, due, to, obnoxious, odours, and, in, particular, the, large, fire, that, occurred, last, week, which, produced, a, lot, of, polluted, smoke, for, a, distance, of, six, miles, some, people, reckoned, that, the, smell, of, burning, tyres, could, be, smelt, here, in, gilgarran, there, have, been, numerous, fires, on, these, sites, over, the, last, few, years, these, fires, give, rise, to, compaliant, by, people, like, us, but, more, so, from, the, nearer, village, of, distington, 1, miles, west, of, here, the, councillor, suggests, that, there, could, be, more, incidents, of, cancer, cases, in, this, area, in, coming, years, along, with, respiratory, troubles, as, well, as, some, cases, of, bronchitis, related, problems, he, himself, has, recently, suddenly, started, sinusitis, which, he, hasn’t, had, before, all, in, all, he, wasn’t, happy, about, the, situation, on, both, sites, we, don’t, know, what, is, being, tipped, there, all, we, can, do, as, a, community, is, accept, what, we, are, being, told, by, the, site, owners, as, previously, stated, animal, carcasses, were, being, tipped, and, buried, for, about, three, days, before, we, were, told, officially, that, this, was, so, incidentally, the, site, where, animals, are, buried, is, owned, by, cumbria, county, council, this, seems, to, be, totally, against, the, advice, of, county, council, officials, who, look, after, the, environment, and, the, health, of, the, population, as, i’ve, written, before, there, are, going, to, be, bigger, concerns, if, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, of, the, village, becomes, a, landfill, site, for, refuse, from, parts, of, the, county, fifty, miles, away, at, the, moment, there, are, no, suggestions, that, anything, from, the, fmd, outbreak, will, be, dumped, there, having, said, that, however, we, as, villagers, didn’t, know, of, carcasses, being, buried, or, pyre, ash, being, tipped, until, after, it, had, happened, we, await, the, outcome, of, this, coal, site, with, some, trepidation, after, all, no, coal, has, come, from, this, site, for, some, months, it, has, all, the, indication, of, becoming, a, land, fill, site, week, 6, monday, to, wednesday, if, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, it, is, not, visible, from, our, side, of, the, site, i, still, don’t, know, what, is, going, on, there, it, may, all, be, innocent, and, an, improvement, to, the, environment, after, all, this, is, what, the, site, owners, have, to, do, thursday, a, delegation, of, meps, visit, the, north, of, the, county, they, have, come, to, assess, the, situation, for, themselves, and, to, report, back, to, the, european, parliament, no, doubt, they, will, also, report, back, to, their, own, constituents, in, their, own, countries, the, delegation, visit, the, auction, mart, at, longtown, where, the, disease, was, first, noticed, in, this, country, and, also, visited, the, big, burial, site, at, great, orton, where, it, was, estimated, that, half, a, million, carcasses, were, buried, good, coverage, by, the, local, press, radio, and, t.v, gave, anyone, interested, the, views, of, the, delegation, thursday, saturday, the, mep, delegation, agreed, that, the, fmd, situation, had, been, disastrous, we, all, know, that, comments, from, some, tourist, and, agriculture, observers, ranged, from, a, waste, of, time, to, at, least, some, politicians, have, bothered, to, visit, us, our, own, couldn’t, do, that, personally, i, think, that, some, good, came, out, of, this, particularly, when, it, was, reported, that, the, dutch, had, used, vaccination, techniques, when, they, had, a, small, outbreak, many, people, think, that, the, british, government, should, have, had, a, public, inquiry, into, the, outbreak, what, have, they, to, hide, cumbria, is, holding, its, own, inquiry, quite, rightly, so, other, organisations, such, as, lancaster, university, are, holding, research, into, the, outbreak, why, not, the, government, eventually, we, will, know, why, perhaps, not, in, my, lifetime, though, the, minister, and, maff, have, a, lot, to, answer, for, week, 7, thought, it, would, be, of, interest, to, include, copies, of, the, newsletter, that, the, local, authorities, issued, to, every, household, in, the, area, regarding, the, disposal, of, carcasses, and, effluent, it, will, be, of, note, that, there, was, a, fire, last, year, on, the, alco, site, also, involving, tyres, very, similar, to, last, years, only, not, as, big, a, report, on, local, t.v, today, stated, that, the, recent, visit, of, meps, to, the, area, considered, that, vaccination, should, have, been, used, at, the, outset, and, be, should, seriously, considered, should, a, future, outbreak, occur, heard, of, reports, of, an, outbreak, of, t.b, in, cattle, in, other, parts, of, the, country, this, was, reported, to, be, more, serious, than, fmd, should, a, major, outbreak, occur, this, would, lead, to, the, question, of, disposal, should, the, need, arise, as, i’ve, already, reported, in, previous, entries, the, use, of, the, opencast, coal, site, to, the, south, east, of, here, is, causing, concern, in, some, quarters, although, the, site, didn’t, feature, in, the, fmd, crisis, there, is, a, feeling, that, it, is, being, earmarked, for, use, in, the, future, should, the, need, arise, or, even, the, rumour, of, an, incinerator, is, planned, for, there, the, general, feeling, here, and, in, the, surrounding, area, is, that, we, have, had, enough, dumping, of, carcasses, effluent, toxic, chemicals, etc, it, could, be, that, the, authorities, have, seen, that, the, sites, concerned, have, handled, those, substances, before, that, an, extension, of, disposal, sites, in, this, area, would, be, effective, week, 8, nothing, of, any, significance, to, report, this, week, week, 9, now, that, cumbria’s, fmd, inquiry, has, started, a, lot, of, people, i, have, met, this, week, recall, the, happenings, of, a, year, ago, even, more, interesting, is, the, coverage, in, the, local, press, and, t.v, plenty, of, publicity, by, the, media, shows, how, little, the, government, an, maff, in, particular, let, the, farming, and, tourism, industries, of, the, county, down, there, has, been, plenty, of, distressing, stories, by, farmers, not, only, of, infected, animals, being, slaughtered, but, also, the, slaughtering, of, healthy, animals, in, the, 3, km, circle, of, an, outbreak, one, particularly, distressing, point, of, evidence, was, when, a, farmer, described, to, the, panel, the, birth, of, a, calf, five, days, after, it’s, mother, had, been, shot, we, at, the, time, of, the, outbreak, were, hearing, these, stories, on, a, daily, basis, and, still, maff, and, mr, brown, kept, telling, us, that, the, outbreak, was, under, control, all, i, can, say, at, this, point, is, may, heaven, help, us, when, it, all, happens, again, week, 10, work, is, still, going, on, at, the, burial, site, it, looks, like, new, soil, is, being, dumped, on, top, of, the, actual, site, and, dozed, to, level, it, of, and, to, smooth, it, out, on, the, side, all, we, can, do, is, accept, that, the, management, of, the, site, are, making, it, better, for, all, concerned, and, that, they, are, as, concerned, as, we, are, the, much, publicised, cumbrian, fmd, inquiry, team, visited, the, land, fill, site, they, met, local, councillors, who, expressed, their, concern, over, this, site, and, the, alco, site, no, other, report, was, forthcoming, from, the, team, the, inquiry, team, finish, their, evidence, gathering, this, week, one, very, important, statement, was, made, that, the, minister, of, the, environment, should, make, a, statement, over, this, outbreak, and, should, even, make, a, visit, to, these, sites, county, wide, there, has, been, total, silence, from, mrs, beckett’s, department, over, this, request, the, same, silence, is, observed, from, any, government, source, for, that, matter, everyone, asks, the, same, questions, what, have, they, got, to, hide, why, aren’t, they, interested, what, plans, are, being, made, and, what, lessons, have, been, learned, from, last, years, outbreak, a, lot, of, farms, are, restocking, and, in, this, neighbourhood, farm, work, is, going, on, as, before, or, so, it, looks, as, time, goes, on, though, there, seems, to, be, a, smouldering, anger, that, no, one, in, authority, is, as, concerned, as, well, are, week, 11, work, is, still, on, going, at, the, burial, site, no, comments, heard, from, any, of, the, villagers, or, neighbours, this, week, diary, 12, monday, from, my, own, observation, work, is, still, ongoing, at, the, burial, site, more, heavy, plant, has, been, moved, on, to, the, top, of, the, giant, amount, and, it, looks, as, though, more, topsoil, is, being, laid, over, the, mount, perhaps, to, improve, the, site, but, water, may, still, permeate, into, and, through, the, site, we, can, only, believe, the, operators, that, this, is, a, right, thing, to, do, friday, talked, to, 2, it, villagers, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, one, said, oh, it's, all, over, now, and, forgotten, about, it, doesn't, bother, me, one, bit, the, other, said, it, all, in, the, past, we, just, have, to, forget, about, it, it, seems, that, life, is, returning, to, normal, in, all, aspects, of, village, life, people, don't, think, about, last, year, unless, the, diarist, mentions, that, sunday, a, bad, day, or, weather, wise, this, prolonged, rain, may, halt, work, on, the, burial, site, most, people, are, reluctant, to, talk, about, f, m, d, now, even, if, it, was, one, of, the, worst, economic, and, social, disasters, to, hit, this, country, and, this, county, in, particular, now, that, it, is, over, people's, memories, begin, to, fade, however, some, of, us, are, not, happy, at, having, these, two, disposal, sites, within, a, 1000, metres, of, this, village, fmd, may, be, over, but, these, burial, sites, are, here, for, a, long, time, yet, diary, 13, observed, in, work, on, burial, site, more, heavy, machinery, and, plant, moved, in, and, large, quantities, of, soil, are, being, laid, down, and, smoothed, out, diary, 14, talked, to, some, religious, today, about, the, after, effects, of, fmd, without, exception, they, are, not, interested, it's, all, over, with, an, idle, one, to, be, reminded, about, it, are, the, general, comments, nobody, seems, bothered, that, there, are, hundreds, of, animals, buried, a, 1000, yards, from, his, village, or, the, fact, that, there, is, leachate, and, pyre, ash, buried, in, another, site, looking, at, the, burial, site, and, the, work, that, is, going, on, there, it, does, look, as, though, the, management, there, are, doing, everything, to, make, the, site, safe, diary, 15, i, met, a, smallholder, today, to, whom, i, have, talked, to, in, the, past, about, the, effects, and, after, effects, of, fmd, he, still, not, happy, about, the, burial, site, despite, the, landscaping, and, smoothing, off, of, the, large, quantities, of, topsoil, only, time, will, tell, he, says, he, does, not, have, any, stock, near, to, the, site, but, he, has, sheep, on, the, farmer's, land, since, fmd, finished, though, his, stock, movements, are, still, restricted, by, new, legislation, that, has, come, in, since, the, area, was, declared, free, for, instance, or, if, he, takes, a, sheep, to, auction, he, asked, to, have, nine, pieces, of, paper, for, this, transaction, if, the, price, is, not, right, and, he, has, to, take, the, she, back, to, his, land, he, was, put, them, back, in, the, same, field, that, they, came, from, and, it, cannot, move, them, to, three, weeks, he, then, has, to, obtain, a, licence, to, do, this, he, does, think, that, the, authorities, are, not, going, to, be, as, strict, shortly, this, is, just, one, of, the, precautions, that, have, come, in, to, try, and, combat, any, recurrence, of, fmd, diary, 16, i, met, the, smallholder, who, rents, land, a, from, the, farmer, in, the, village, his, income, from, the, sheep, that, he, a, breeds, has, been, nil, like, many, more, people, in, similar, circumstances, fortunately, for, him, had, he, has, an, income, from, another, source, the, subject, of, compensation, came, up, during, our, conversation, i, personally, do, not, have, any, comment, to, make, about, this, item, as, it, maybe, just, a, rumour, apparently, he, got, it, bee, in, his, bonnet, about, compensation, paid, out, to, people, who, were, not, in, the, agricultural, business, what, seemed, to, upset, him, was, that, he, had, heard, that, some, of, fish, and, chip, shop, owner, in, the, lake, district, had, been, paid, 170, per, month, compensation, for, the, loss, of, trade, he, didn't, mind, too, much, that, hoteliers, and, guest, house, owners, had, claimed, compensation, but, wondered, where, else, would, this, kind, of, money, go, when, he, himself, had, been, paid, nothing, this, is, the, first, time, i've, heard, this, one, diary, 17, attended, the, cumberland, show, at, every, to, be, park, carlisle, we, as, a, family, used, to, attend, this, annual, show, regularly, both, as, spectators, and, competitors, we, have, never, seen, the, show, like, the, one, put, on, this, year, when, will, things, really, get, back, to, normal, many, of, us, think, that, agriculture, is, back, to, pre, fmd, cattle, and, sheep, on, grazing, in, the, fields, lambing, has, reached, new, heights, in, produce, on, some, farms, calves, are, being, born, silage, and, haymaking, is, progressing, when, the, weather, permits, but, there, are, still, restrictions, on, animal, movements, hence, no, sheep, cattle, or, pigs, at, this, year's, show, only, horses, poultry, dogs, and, rabbits, not, many, pieces, of, agricultural, machinery, onshore, either, plenty, of, chartered, accountants, tents, craft, tents, horse, feeds, and, tack, displays, in, the, main, arena, and, bands, not, an, agricultural, show, as, we, knew, it, it, seems, to, be, the, same, at, other, shows, ennerdale, show, is, one, of, our, local, shows, this, year, there, isn't, going, to, be, any, horses, or, sheep, generally, there, are, no, cattle, shown, at, the, show, but, without, sheep, hill, farmers, dominate, the, show, the, there, isn't, going, to, be, much, on, show, at, all, it, was, always, a, good, show, for, equestrian, events, at, many, levels, this, show, was, always, a, must, for, our, family, i, don't, think, that, we, will, be, going, this, year, diary, 18, from, the, golf, course, and, golf, driving, range, i, can, look, out, on, to, the, western, side, of, the, burial, site, i, have, written, in, previous, weeks, about, the, work, there, has, been, going, on, at, this, site, viewing, the, site, are, from, our, village, side, would, hardly, know, what, that, there, ever, was, a, burial, site, hundreds, of, tons, of, topsoil, had, been, laid, and, smoothed, out, to, make, more, or, less, like, a, landscaped, feature, it, looks, really, good, from, the, western, side, though, things, are, little, different, work, is, still, going, on, there, large, amounts, of, soil, have, been, tipped, and, levelled, off, there, are, still, portakabins, there, and, heavy, plant, can, still, be, seen, moving, about, no, doubt, the, western, side, well, look, as, good, as, the, eastern, side, before, long, diary, 19, it, is, announced, that, the, prime, minister, and, his, wife, and, son, of, his, family, at, a, visit, to, cumbria, the, pm, arrives, in, west, cumbria, all, kinds, of, reports, are, written, in, the, local, and, national, press, about, what, he, is, going, to, do, or, not, do, or, what, he, should, be, doing, after, all, he, is, on, holiday, the, pm, did, meet, some, farmers, leaders, the, press, as, usual, stirred, things, up, or, as, to, where, he, should, be, meeting, tourism, officials, say, that, the, trip, was, fantastic, for, tourism, in, the, county, or, person, they, i, can'